#05/09

[onthisdayinhomestuck]

On This Day In Homestuck:

May 9th, 2012

Jake meets Aranea.

[miguenhasthoughts]

05/09

The spring wind rubs along my bare legs. The scent of flowers carried on the breeze. Sun rays trickling down on the back of my neck. The blue sky invigorates the soul. The butterflies are fluttering unable to escape my mortal chest.

This week has been really affirming. Keeping my legs shaved feels so nice. My legs are so soft and I love showing them off. I’ve been keeping my nails painted. Being encouraged to try new make up and it feels good. Waiting on my mascara to show up is less so. Never realized how feminizing mascara can be alone. Now that we ran out I feel impatient to get back to experimenting. I feel more confident being myself out in public and I have been taking in more trans media to encourage me to be more honest and open with myself. My mom has been more curious and opening to learning what I’ve been feeling me and teaching me things about womanhood that I may not have known. It’s really sweet and makes me happy where I want to cry out of joy.

Sam has been feeling dysphoric about their gender and I feel so bad for them. They have a long road ahead of them. They finally have health insurance so getting the ball rolling for them is finally a possibility. I’m happy for them and I want to do everything in my power to make them feel good. Thats always been a priority for me. I love them so much and they deserve to be happy. They are such a good person.

I have two dates this week. It was my third date with May last night and my first date with J tonight. I’m kind of tired ngl. All the driving has been giving me a lot of experience so that’s been good for me at least lol May is so sweet. Our autism seems to be on the same wavelength. She is super supportive and loves to be creative and talking about every little thing that pops in her head. She talks a lot but I like that, I love listening and she is so interesting. We had sex for the first time. I was scared ngl. She was the first cis person I’ve slept with since I started my transition. She was super supportive through it all. Since my sex drive has been so low I haven’t pleasured myself in awhile and my girldick didn’t work this time around. I’m scared it may have started to atrophy. She made sure to reassure me she didn’t mind. She got to be a selfish brat because of it which was still fun. I need to talk to my doctor about this though because I still want my dick lol

We practically napped together after the session and I’m glad we were able to share an intimate moment. It was nice to be able to connect with someone socially, intimately and sexually. I can’t help to get butterflies. She is also quick to get butterflies too. We kind of teased each other about being quick to emotions lol

J has had a lot on their table. Their cat is sick. She’s overworked and she is taking on even more than she needs to. She has a good heart. I told her if she wanted to reschedule she shouldn’t feel bad about it. She invited me over instead so that’s interesting. I’ve never went to someone’s house for a first date. So I’m a little intimidated but they’ve only shown themselves as a saint so I feel like I should not worry. Honestly I think she’s looking for more hands to help with the cats and I love cats so here’s to new experiences lol

Anyways life has been good and I think recovering has been great. As far as the ED. I am eating some but it’s still pretty low. I’m trying to stuff my face but it is hard. I’m still hiding it from my loved ones. I’m afraid May also has a form of ED. I’m catching her doing similar habits and I don’t know if it will be healthy to date them if that’s the case but we will cross that bridge I guess. I lost forty pounds and yet I still feel like a fatass. I should talk to my therapist. I’m not delusional enough to delude myself that this is healthy.

[myloveonherknees]

@/hisethelcain. “family portraits” twitter, 5 sept 2020.

[findingcasualmagic]

can't stop. won't stop.

[archiveofmyownheadspace]

[f1archives]

Jack Doohan with his new Alpine ID card

[charrchan]

Ninja Charms are available on my Etsy!

get yourself a little guy as an acrylic charm!! (sorry for the international postage costs (＞︿＜;))

EDIT: We sold out super fast wow!! Thank you everyone! I don't mind doing another run of these if there's people who didn't manage to get one this time :)

[blondebrainpowered]

Jim Henson in Time Piece, 1965

[the-daily-felt]

Draw each member of The Felt but in the shape of their respective numbers

Day 154

(they look so fucking stupid)

[32lice]

i had a dream i sat with the felt at a diner booth so i had to redraw it (my pov i guess)

[onthisdayinhomestuck]

On This Day In Homestuck:

May 9th, 2009

The game is launched.

[shallowseeker]

i keep thinking about the neon cross and dean saying “i do.” like. ah yes. here is my platonic boybestie back from the dead. time to say a phrase very recognizable as what seals the deal at a wedding. which tend to be deeply romantic as it involves basically tying your life to another’s. and i just have to go “which could mean nothing” and move on with my life. destiel romance parallels you mean everything to me

Yeah, I feel like season 12 was a lot about them circling each other in a way that was more near to being on than same page than usual. Both with Cas saying, "I love you, I love all of you," and Dean testing the waters around that, trying to tease out what Cas meant (by giving him a romantic mixtape).

And despite Dean's misgivings about Cas's choice to help Kelly with Jack, Dean got onboard because Cas was onboard. Dean committed and fought hard; that's why the loss hit so much harder!

Just as Azazel killed John on the eve of John committing to Mary, I feel like Lucifer killed Cas on the eve of Cas finally (and more obviously) committing to Dean.

Then in 13, we have this... this scene echoes the commitment to share a future together.

[silverzzi]

오랜만👋

[lowqualityhomestuckedits]

The Felt pulling a heist

i swear everyone's in this photo you just can't see them

[crimsonkies]

⋆˚࿔ #𝐂𝐑𝐈𝐌𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐒𝐊𝐈𝐄𝐒 𝜗𝜚˚⋆

_ is an independent and selective portrayal of Kaia Calugarul born Moreau

Kaia was born twentysix years ago into one of the wealthiest families in New York. As the daughter of a respected judge and lawyer, fate was born in her cradle. She studied law at Harvard before opening her own law firm in New York. While her older brother decided to join the police, just like her father once did before he went to court. However, Kaia wanted more. Her intention was to put the criminals where they belong - in prison. So she closed her office two years ago and is now one of the most successful prosecutors in the New York court. A battle between her own feelings and the law.

𝐒𝐡𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐚 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐟𝐞𝐜𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐝𝐟𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐫 ▬ Prosecutor at the New York Court, knows about supernatural human beings, married to @oceansmadness , semi active, minors do not interact, open for plotting no matter what genre, wire:crimsonskies, english & german but german prefered. Pinterest

Real love doesn't need grand gestures. It shows itself in the smallest glances and touches. - @oceansmadness 🖤

[myloveonherknees]

@/hisethelcain. “i cry and cry and cry and cry and then i feel better” twitter, 5 sept 2020.