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cheapcheapfaker · 11 months

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already hungry enough to make lunch after making myself a second breakfast an hour and a half ago knowing im also gonna need to have a before dinner snack so i can have energy to make dinner where ill most likely not even have leftovers to save for lunch like i used to anymore and then also maybe an after dinner bowl of cereal and havin to make all this food not to mention seeing the amount of silverware n dishes im goin through and and and

#is this how ppl w big appetites live??? you live like this???#ive got a hobbit ass appetite rn #it’s EXHAUSTING i love food i love eating but #HAVING to eat so much or i get nauseous is just such a damn drag omfg #i used to have a very milky coffee and maybe a parfait and a small lunch and be #ok for dinner this is insanity. i am runnin out of forks and spoons #i had 2/3 of a very milky coffee. robust apple pie smoothie w oats and Greek yogurt and apples #then some Mac n cheese w spicy furikake (try that combo btw if you can its dank)#and im already #considering making my lunch burrito early. IM TIRED #AND IM NOT REALLY GAINING ANY WEIGHT??#where is it going #the beans gonna bust outta me the size of that scary baby from the rugrats

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035kg · 5 months

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2024 bodychecks

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wizardnuke · 9 months

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i understand this is like. objectively a wild thing to bitch about when yr average woman wants to lose weight but it is really so fucking bizarre and disheartening to be asked "how are you so skinny how do you do it" by women who are really honestly beautiful and healthy and i am genuinely so jealous of their bodies' ability to maintain some semblance of body fat. i have to say "i wish i weighed more" and they look at me like i'm crazy and then i have to say "every time i manage to gain 5-10lbs i inexplicably get really sick and lose all the weight i gained and it's a vicious cycle of never really feeling healthy" and that's not the answer they want to hear and they still don't understand why i want to gain weight and like. hhhh. makes me sad. i love you you're so pretty and i am chronically ill

#eating disorder tw #just in casies #i was briefly at about 105 at some point in hs when i was really athletic and it was predominately muscle #i'm at around 87 rn? this is not a good thing? do u understand that ur body needs food and fat to survive?#do u know hooow exhausted i am on the daily because my body doesn't have any extra energy to burn #i'm just sick and this is how it presents dude. and ABSOLUTELY not to speak over how horrifically that fat people r treated by doctors but #for three years i told my doc i wasn't able to gain weight and am never hungry and she never stopped thinking im anorexic #took an ER visit a new doctor several more visits to find a med that helps with The Tummyaches and i'm still struggling #i was 97lbs and then i got just horrifically sick out of nowhere and im at 87 now. i dropped to 83 for a bit

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g0reoz · 2 years

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sorry im not gonna comment on the post but. like. u guys know you can like uplift certain features without making sweeping moral judgements on people with different ones. right. especially ones that might be because of medical conditions.

#post waslike. 'having any visible abs is such a turnoff and thus objectively bad you are making contact less comfortable 4 every1 & u Suck.#put some fat on yourbones etc etc' like. ok. i get it im not trying to act like im somehow a huge victim. but come on #you can say having fat is hot. you can say being fat is hot. u know what. i Agree with those statements.#but you can also. idk. realize that some ppl do have like digestive issues thatmake it really fuckin hard to gain weight.#and to not be in immense pain on a daily basis. u think i don't Want to put on some extra weight. dude. bffr #im not trying to sound like an asshole here. like yes i know i don't have the Worst Problems Ever but. it's not that hard to idk not turn-#-someone's body into a moral judgement or personal choice. i thought we Weren't doing that. cmon now.#i regularly do gardening and yardwork outside.and i have IBS & trouble putting on weight to my own dismay. it's not that deep.#im not upset. just critical of the way that stance was presented. kinda rubbed me the wrong way.#.woof.

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the-yearning-astronaut · 1 year

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How do you go about picking a new name for yourself? I've never really felt one way or another about my given name.... I just don't feel connected to it much is all. I don't hate it though, either. Like the rest of me it's just kinda There.

I'm thinking short, still. And definitely more gender neutral? Just don't know what.

I don't plan on changing my name -- not officially. I'm just getting ready to apply for graduate school in Sept and was contemplating adding a 'preferred' name to my applications. All the schools are out of state so I'd be getting a completely fresh start. What better way to test out a new name?

#names #new name #preferred name #chosen name #gender #gender identity #realized ive been having a bit of a gender crisis for the last while #and idk how to fix it #so i wanna try a new name #and im chopping my hair off on Wednesday #i have a real hard time when it comes to picking what to wear each day #i realized i don't have any short sleeved button ups or whatever... may have to hit up ross or tj maxx next week after payday #ive been trying to identify a clothing style i like other than oversized sweater/sweatshirt and joggers/leggings #and i find it's all over the place #i don't think its my clothes themselves im struggling with its my body #i keep rapidly gaining and losing weight due to my changes in meds and its really messing with my perception of myself #because one minute my clothes fit & the next they really really dont & they're either too snug or sliding off & just. nothing fills right #my name my pronouns my clothes my SKIN #people joke about feeling misplaced and alien or whatever but gdi everything feels so wrong 😭#fox thoughts

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widevibratobitch · 10 months

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#vent post vent post lalalala #i wanted to post some pictures from my weekend trip with my friends before its too late but then i saw my fucking face and now i wanna kms #like oh my god. oh my god this is really truly the face im stuck with forever and ever and ever till the day im fuckin rotting in the groun #incredible how unfair life can be lmao (<- girl who is having such incredibly superficial stupid fucking problems but is otherwise #quite privileged but of course that will never be fucking enough for her because she's soooooo fckn stupid and selfish and annoyinggg lol)#i dont know why im so obsessed with it now #like i genuinely remember KNOWING that im kinda ugly (and fat) in high school and being like 'so what lol idc'#so WHY is it such an issue now?????#idk. i just kinda wish i was dead every time i look at my face and realise there's nothing i can do to change it #i can dress in ways that will cover my ugly ass shapeless body. maybe i can even go back to my ed properly this time #and lose some weight. for a time. before i gain back twice as much and the circle begins anew lol #but my face is not gonna change no matter what i do lmao unless i fucking scrape it off with a grater or smash my head into pieces #and like. even if i do get that rhinoplasty (its not gonna change my faceshape anyway. nothing i can do to fix THAT fuckin atrocity)#every time ill look in the mirror i will only be reminded that its fake. and that my natural face was disgusting enough it had to be cut up #to be fixed somewhat.#i just wish i had ONE. just ONE nice thing about my body. literally just one its not even funny lol #and its so fucked up when you look at my mom who was so insanely fucking beautiful when she was my age. like. i cant blame her #cause how could she have known that the genes she'll pass on will not result in anything good lol but also i feel like such a failure #like its not really my fault i got the genes i got. but yknow.#anyway im tired of always being the ugliest person in any group im hanging out with. my cousins? check. my hometown friends? check.#my uni friends? my GOD check (how ARE they all so pretty and skinny??? insane).#god i wish i were dead. like fr fr. im not actively suicidal since i cant bring myself to *do* shit anyway. but i just wish i never existed

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sk3l3t0n1n · 10 months

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i hate myself so fucking much

#i ate ice cream and i should have just eaten something healthier #i fucking hate myself #i just want to not be fat shamed ffs #and the only way to get that to stop is to lose weight #maybe if i just purge ill hate myself less?#but i need my dad to leave so i can #and i need to exercise today cuz dinner is really high calorie tonight #and i fucking ate like 200 calories worth of ice cream #my limit for today is 700...but i really need to be in the negatives more often #tomorrow i think im just going to liquid fast #ykw fuck it tomorrow is gonna be just a fast #and with minimal water #cuz i dont need water weight to make me wanna kms #im going to weigh myself thursday morning and if ive gained any weight since my last wrigh in im going to try not to eat much on thursday #thanksgiving is the worst holiday #i hate what its about and i hate all the food and the drama #but a lot of thanksgiving foods are autism safe foods #but yk ed fear foods #there are no foods that are autism sage and ed safe : /#i wanna fucking kms #ughhhh #why does everything have to be so hard...and why do i have to hate myself when everybody else already hates me #idfk #im going to try and sleep until my next class and then go on a walk

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thedisablednaturalist · 11 months

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I just have to remind myself of how much better things have been, and will be, when I get out of here.

#wrenfea.exe #literally when i had an apartment #i never yelled #i ate healthier #i took walks regularly #i was way less stressed overall #i flared up less #i actually lost weight that i gained from overeating and got back to a stable weight #im not skinny by any means but my weight doesn't fluctuate a ton anymore #i just want to be out of here with my cats and with my partner #being able to have my own place separate from my mom actually helped our relationship a lot #having that separation really helped me set hard boundaries #now im trapped

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queeniecamps · 2 years

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sorry i haven't finished that one wip yet, my cat's trying to die lol

#pet death tw #i say trying. she really IS but she's having a hard time #if she SOMEHOW makes it through the weekend we'll schedule the BIG appointment but we honestly thought she'd pass away DAYS ago #queenie talks #not cc #uhh anyways. i don't need any 'oh im so sorry' messages. we were expecting this for quite a while now but we weren't expecting it to take-#-so long. it's kinda really weird #i don't even know how old she is sdgFSDGDFSADSFDGS she was full grown when we adopted her 6 years ago but showed no signs of being old-#-before getting REAL sick months ago #so we're just trying to keep her comfortable and warm til she passes #whenever that is #she is functioning on like 2%#barely able to walk but she can somehow get down the stairs #literally LOST her a minute ago trying to look for her. she was laying in front of the island counter heater.#but yeah. quick life update.#oh also i've been taking more walk trying to lose weight. it isn't working. i've gained two pounds since starting :|

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bowyooo · 1 year

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fighing for my life with the cringe of posting canon char/oc art AND the embarrassment of posting sketches

im trying to document thoughts that i have about my au, cooldown sketched one of the mini scenes and liked it better than what i was initially going to draw