#Astrology x Alchemy

[lilithienne]

L I L I T H

The Osculating Lunar Apogee, also known as True Lilith or Black Moon, is a significant point in astrology that represents a deep and transformative aspect of the self. Unlike the Mean Lunar Apogee, which is the average distance between the Earth and the Moon's apogee, the Osculating Lunar Apogee is the actual point of the Moon's farthest orbital distance from Earth at any given time.

This is an in-depth post covering True Lilith. It contains the following sections:

Brief explanation of what True Lilith is.

Meaning of True Lilith.

Significance in a Natal Chart.

Alchemical Significance.

How to find True Lilith.

Figure I.

It is important to remember that this is not a physical body like some say. This is a point. For instance, those who have their Moon conjunct True Lilith means that their Moon was the furthest away from the Earth at the time of their birth, thus conjunct this point.

It is also essential to note that True Lilith is distinct from the asteroid Lilith (1181 Lilith), which is also used in astrological analysis but represents different themes related to feminine power, independence, and assertiveness.

However, True Lilith, as the name says - is the "True" point of Lilith.

In Astrological terms, True Lilith (Osculating Lunar Apogee) is associated with themes of hidden desires, primal instincts, and subconscious drives. It represents the shadow self, the aspects of our personality that we may repress or deny but which hold immense power and potential for transformation once acknowledged and integrated.

Depending on what sign your True Lilith falls into will determine how it manifests in your chart, as well as if True Lilith is direct or retrograde.

True Lilith's natural ruler is the sign of Cancer. Cancer is ruled by the Moon, which governs emotions, instincts, and the subconscious mind—all areas strongly linked to Lilith's themes. Cancer is a sign that represents nurturing, sensitivity, and the home, reflecting Lilith's association with deep-seated emotions, maternal instincts, and the darker, hidden aspects of the psyche.

Additionally, Cancer is known for its protective nature, especially regarding family and loved ones, resonating with Lilith's themes of protection and defense of one's authentic self. The nurturing and intuitive qualities of Cancer align with Lilith's role in guiding individuals toward emotional healing, self-discovery, and empowerment.

When someone has their True Lilith in the same sign as their Sun or Moon, it intensifies the influence of that sign on their personality.

The reason why the luminaries, Sun and Moon, conjunct or in the same sign as True Lilith is considered the most powerful is because the Sun represents the core essence of the individual's identity, vitality, and life purpose, while the Moon symbolizes emotions, instincts, and subconscious patterns.

When either of these luminaries is closely conjunct or in the same sign as True Lilith, it amplifies the impact of True Lilith's energies on the individual's psyche and life experiences. The combination of conscious identity (Sun) or emotional expression (Moon) with the raw, primal energies of True Lilith creates a potent and transformative influence that can profoundly shape the person's life journey, challenges, and evolution.

When it comes to luminaries, because of how sensitive and personal these two planets are in addition to the nature of Lilith's movement, Lilith does not need to be conjunct. Being in the same sign is more than enough. However, for the Ascendant and other personal planets, True Lilith does need to be exactly conjunct especially since birth times are not always accurate.

Natal Sun Conjunct True Lilith:

This aspect indicates a strong connection between the core identity (Sun) and the primal, instinctual energies of True Lilith. Individuals with this placement may have a deep awareness of their authentic self and a strong drive to express their unique identity without conforming to societal norms.

Natal Sun conjunct True Lilith can also suggest a person who is fiercely independent, rebellious, and unafraid to challenge authority or traditional values. They may feel a constant tension between their need for personal freedom and the expectations of society or family.

Creativity and self-expression are often heightened with this aspect, as the individual may tap into their raw, uninhibited creativity and channel it into art, writing, or other forms of expression that defy convention.

On a psychological level, this aspect can indicate a journey of self-discovery and empowerment, where the individual confronts and integrates their shadow self (represented by True Lilith) to fully embrace their authentic nature.

Natal Moon Conjunct True Lilith:

This aspect highlights the emotional and nurturing aspects of the Moon in conjunction with the primal, instinctual energies of True Lilith. Individuals with this placement may have intense emotional experiences and a deep connection to their subconscious mind.

Natal Moon conjunct True Lilith can suggest a person who experiences emotional extremes and may struggle with integrating their darker emotions or desires into their conscious awareness. There can be a sense of inner conflict between the need for emotional security and the desire for freedom and independence.

Family dynamics and childhood experiences may play a significant role in shaping the individual's emotional landscape with this aspect. They may have experienced early disruptions or challenges that contribute to their complex relationship with emotions and intimacy.

Despite the challenges, this aspect can also bring profound emotional depth, intuition, and psychic sensitivity. The individual may possess a strong intuitive understanding of hidden truths and a deep empathy for others' emotional struggles.

In Alchemy, the process of transformation is central, where base elements are metaphorically transmuted into higher states of consciousness and being.

When it comes to True Lilith, there are various ways it can relate to Alchemy and the alchemical process at large. Such as:

Alchemical Shadow Work: True Lilith represents the shadow self in Astrology, reflecting the aspects of our psyche that we often repress or deny. In Alchemy, the shadow is seen as the unacknowledged and darker aspects of our personality, including fears, traumas, and repressed desires. Working with True Lilith involves engaging in alchemical shadow work, which is the process of consciously exploring and integrating these hidden aspects to achieve psychological wholeness.

Nigredo and the Black Moon: In Alchemy, the Nigredo stage symbolizes the initial phase of the alchemical process, where the alchemist confronts the darkness within themselves. This stage is often associated with the Black Moon or True Lilith energy, representing the dissolution of old patterns, illusions, and limitations. Just as the alchemist undergoes a process of breaking down the prima materia (raw material) in Nigredo, individuals working with True Lilith delve into their deepest fears and shadows for transformation.

Integration and Transmutation: As the alchemical process progresses, the Nigredo stage leads to the Albedo (whitening) and Rubedo (reddening) stages, symbolizing purification and spiritual enlightenment. Similarly, integrating True Lilith's energy involves transmuting the darkness into wisdom, healing, and empowerment. This alchemical transformation aligns with the journey of confronting and embracing the shadow self to achieve greater self-awareness and inner balance.

Integration of Opposites: Alchemy often deals with the integration of opposing forces or dualities within the self. True Lilith embodies the tension between the conscious and unconscious, the known and unknown, the light and dark aspects of human nature. By embracing and integrating the energy represented by the Black Moon, individuals engage in a process of psychological and spiritual integration, harmonizing the polarities within themselves.

By viewing True Lilith through the lens of Alchemy, we can gain insights into its role as a catalyst for inner alchemical processes, urging individuals to confront their inner darkness, transmute it, and ultimately attain a higher level of self-understanding and spiritual integration.

I prefer to use astro.com as I find their software to be the most accurate.

However, other astrology software can show True Lilith as the Lilith glyph with a "T". Figure 1 on the top of this post shows the example in the bottom right corner.

I will be posting more content in the future regarding Lilith that will include data and real world examples to give more thorough details and information about the nature of this point in both the natal chart, synastry, composites, as well as transits.

This is simply an introductory post to help as a stepping stone into Lilith.

[venussaidso]

Naksu and Jang Uk are giving me major Pisces x Virgo vibes this season lmaoo. Before they gave Scorpio x Aries vibes though.

[reixtsu]

After I’m done with the little one shots I’m planning on writing a short series of a Kaveh x Reader x Alhaitham university au. Unless it changes, the story would be called ‘The Geniuses’ Silly’. This is because I intend for it to be a comedy of some sort.

These will be the characters in it so far:

Y/n L/n (you), Kaveh, Alhaitham, Tighnari, Cyno, Nahida, Wanderer, Nilou, Layla, and Dori.

[twstgarden]

✿ ❝ 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗮 𝗳𝗿𝗶𝗲𝗻𝗱 ❞

━ cater diamond x gn! reader ━ cater was your best friend in night raven college and you love him dearly - platonically, but he holds deeper feelings for you past the label of a friend.

f/n stands for first name.

do not steal or translate without my permission.

it was another day in twisted wonderland when you walked down the halls of night raven college with a certain heartslabyul third year. he was chatting about the latest trend on magicam and he asked if he could do it with you. the trend? it was a short q&a video wherein the audio consists of questions, and people - usually a pair - would answer them.

"alright, i can do the trend with you. during lunch break?"

cater beamed and nodded at you, humming in response as he waved his phone. "yup! we have two classes before lunch, so... see ya later then!"

you nodded at him with a smile, waving at him as he waved back at you while walking to the other side of the hall to where his class was. you had history and astrology as your two remaining classes before lunch while cater had mathematics and alchemy, so you two had to separate ways for now.

after your classes, you were in the cafeteria with a bunch of heartslabyul students as you had your lunches together. cater was seated beside you as you both talked about random things, that is until he pulled out his phone and said, "let's do the trend!"

he then propped his phone up on the table with the camera on, ensuring the two of you were in view. after that, he pressed play and while recording, the audio of the trend was also playing, which gave you two a live reaction to the questions being asked.

while you two were doing the trend, trey was minding his own business, having his own lunch while listening to the conversation that ace and deuce had every now and then - since they sat with them for today.

"who cries the most during a movie?"

that was the first question those at your table had heard. both you and cater started answering the question by pointing to one another on who would most likely cry while watching a movie.

"who is most likely to get magicam famous?"

you pointed at cater while smiling at the camera.

"who is most likely to friend zone someone?"

cater pointed at you, to which you reacted with a playfully offended gasp.

"who checks their social media first thing in the morning?"

you pointed at cater.

"and finally, a lighthearted question. who loves the other more?"

a soft chuckle left your lips as you heard that, pointing to yourself as you claimed to love cater the most, and he was pointing at himself, too.

of course, you love cater, he was your best friend on the entire campus and he certainly loves you as well, except his love extends past the platonic light that you seem to have for him.

but you obviously do not know that.

trey heard the question, which made him look up at the two of you. the vice leader noticed the way cater avoided his gaze while laughing softly as he placed an arm around your shoulder, which made trey glance at you as if he was aware of a little secret that cater hides from you.

cater took his phone and started editing the video before posting it to magicam, stating the hashtags that he typed down out loud so you could hear, and then tagging you in the video as well.

as soon as it was posted, a slight vibration was felt in your pocket as you took out your phone which showed a notification of cater's post that you were tagged in. the two of you then chatted for a while until it was time to head back to your afternoon class, so the two of you parted ways once again.

cater and trey walked to their next class together as they both had astrology as their first class for the afternoon. while walking, cater was reading the comments on the video that he posted recently and trey did not fail to notice this. the last question in the audio replayed in his mind as he asked, "have you thought about confessing?"

cater was caught off guard by his question, looking at him with a surprised expression before laughing it off, "pfft... what are you talking about? why would i confess to f/n?"

"...i never said it was f/n."

trey had an amused smile, wanting to chuckle at cater's reaction as he immediately shut his mouth for a bit before letting out a sigh, "ah... i've been caught..."

"it was fairly obvious. have you thought about confessing your feelings to them?" asked trey as he continued walking down the halls with cater.

the third year let out a hum as he said, "nah, i don't want to confess. i prefer things as they are right now." trey gave him a quick, knowing glance as he replied, "uh-huh... if you say so..."

"and besides, they only see me as a friend," muttered cater under his breath, trying to keep up his smile. maybe what he told trey was a lie, maybe he did have thoughts of you two being an item. would you go out with him to cafés and share a drink together? would you proudly show him off on social media? would you two take plenty of pictures together?

would you actually accept his feelings?

unfortunately for cater, he will never know. he will never find the chance to confess, much less get the courage to do so. he will never know the answer to whether or not you actually hold romantic feelings for him.

it will just be another secret that he gets to keep until his last breath.

© twstgarden 2023 || please do not steal, translate without my permission, or use this to train a.i.

[bowandcurtsey]

hellooooo aine ive been binge reading your blog smh and recently ive been into black clover and full metal alchemist and i fell in love with fuegoleon, nozel and william theyre just so gorgeus😩🌷 can i pls request them with an s/o who is an alchemist and can use any type of magic and they can copy their magic and theyre the niece of the wizard king and is close to mereoleona. Thank you stay safe and healthy🌷😊🌟👑

Hello lovely bby!! I'm very sure I have a handful of mutuals who think the same as you hehe, (¬‿¬ ) Fuego, Noz and Wil are definitely favourites from the number of request I always receive hehe!

Also I'm sorry Anony but I didn't watch FMA, but I know it's a lit anime, but I should add it to the long list of anime I want to watch, lmao. So please forgive me if the reader is nothing like the characters of FMA haha.

In case anyone is wondering, alchemist is someone like a chemist x astrology, more like in the olden days, aha! I hope my explanation is okay haha!

Fuegoleon | Nozel | William x f! reader

Fuegoleon Vermillion

He initially didn't have feelings for you and thought of you like a sister, since you and his sister were so close, and you were always over at his place.

Moreover, you were his boss' niece, so he didn't even have any romantic thoughts about you. Until you and him went on a mission together.

He saw how you were actually different from his sister, how you were gentle and caring, how worried you were for him when he was injured, how you took care of him, he wondered why didn't he realise all these from before.

So he kept finding excuses to get Mereo to ask you to come over, from holding parties to dinners, not to mention the countless of times he needed some potion or elixir or some random kind of potion, just so he could see you.

Mereo catches on it one day and she teases her brother relentlessly for it, but when it was just you and Mereo, she would help her poor brother out a little.

She would drop hints and ask you how you felt about Fuego. When she realises the potential you both have, she would try to matchmake the both of you, because what's more better than being bestie sisters was to make you her real sister.

He finally confessed one day, after much pushing from Mereo. You were overjoyed of course. Fuego confessed that he was a little nervous that your uncle was actually the wizard king himself, but you assured him that he would be happy for the both of you too.

Julius was surprised but he thought that the both of you were just so cute together.

Fue would learn a little about alchemy with you and he picked it up quickly too, since he was such a smart man. He was able to do simple alchemy like turning some chemicals into basic potions. Using his magic to cook and boil the chemicals for you? Yes yes yes.

Nozel Silva

Found you intimidating and hard to get close to at first, because well, you were the niece of the wizard king PLUS your bestie was loud and crazy af.

But he has a major crush on you, he couldn't help it. To Nozel Silva you were just this cute, sexy and beautiful angel ever to walk on the face of Earth.

His face always dawned a hint of pink when he saw you, and he couldn't really find the right words to start the conversation with you.

Lady luck and cupid probably pitied this man at this point so one day you bumped into Nozel when you were out buying some of your alchemist stuff.

Also to make sure that this royal would definitely have the chance to speak to you, you had no money on you and you had to embarrassingly ask him if he had any money you could borrow.

This man proceeds to throw out all his money on the counter, it was WAY more than enough, he was not trying to flex, he was just so nervous and he prayed that he had enough on him to be able to pay for you.

Of course he wouldn't want you to pay him back, and he offers to carry your stuff and send you to where ever you were going to. (he totally forgot about why he was at the store in the first place)

And that was the start of you always talking to him whenever you guys met. He was somehow always "coincidentally" bumping into you more often.

You were also surprised that he knew a little about Alchemy too, well he was dead smart so you have no idea what doesn't he know. He could even help you write formulas and create simple elixirs.

He eventually man-ed up and confessed his feelings for you. And you know Nozel Silva, he does not care about who your bestie or uncle was when he was crazily in love with you.

William Vangeance

He was acquainted with you because you were Julius' niece in the first place. You don't know about him, but it was love at first sight for you. He was such a well mannered and gentle man. You've never saw such a pair of gorgeous eyes in your life.

"We have the same colour eyes, y/n!" your uncle would fake some tears to you.

"Have you seen his eyes, uncle Ju? They say the eyes are the window to the soul of a person, he has a beautiful soul."

Anyway, William was often at the wizard king's office so you both spent quite a good amount of time together.

Well, unless your bestie Mereo came along. This bestie of yours does not see why you like this man. Well, they were kind of the exact opposite in character so you could kinda understand why too.

She always tried to pull you away from William and tried to match make you with her brother, Fuego, instead.

Until one day, Mereo half joked to William, "eh Captain Gold, are you purposely sticking around y/n so much? Are you trying to hit on her?"

"Yes, if I didn't make it obvious enough," William smiled warmly at Mereo, showing none of the frustration that he hid inside him. "I do believe that I like y/n."

That was enough to keep Mereo speechless and you a stuttering mess. The rest was history.

Your favourite dates are you and him creating some special elixir or potion for plants. Also, you both on the battlefield are a deadly combi.

-end-

[amtalchemy]

An example of how I was writing spells using Vedic astrological alchemy which manifested synchronicities (#555 and movie set)

This happened in May 2021 where my 5H became active (May = 5th month) and I was manifesting things related to my 5L Rahu in Chitra of Libra which is connected to cinematic romantic scenarios

Magnets are connected to Rahu and the 🧲 symbol is a symbol of the north node Rahu ☊

50 = 5H x (7H) Ketu | 0 = Ketu

Rahu’s connection to the 5H of romance and cinema in a cinematic and romantic nakshatra Chitra of Libra and the magnet symbol = “magnetic romance”

Quick, in the moment decisions related to finances = 2L Ketu in Ashwini of Aries

The year 2021 activated my 3L Jupiter in 21° Scorpio (spellcasting) that year, along with the 1H, 2H, 7H Aries, and 8H Taurus

[the-sith-in-the-sky-with-diamond]

Tech chart

Okay so I was motivated to made various exemple of my character sheet, but then, the motivation vanished...

You may have here two exemple of how to use it, but again, it's just a BASIC you can do whatever you want with this!

Dividers made by the awesome @djarrex , thanks you very much!

« Tech » CT-002

First exemple

INTRODUCTION

Tech – male – human (clone)- 13yo (26) - pan sexual & demi - kamino

 GLOBAL x – Ord Mantell – a lot – the Marauder – single – clone special force ed

BACKGROUND + ERA The clone wars & early Empire days – clone force 99, breed to have an exceptional mind: technician, pilot, medic, soldier…

BODY DETAIL lean and tall – 6’4 – brown, short – brown – tan – multiple old blaster scar at various locations on is body – tattoo: 99 and a skull on his right shoulders – thick cheekbones –

DISABILITIES Very bad eyesight, need to wear glasses - overflooded with ideas(?)

RELATIONSHIP clone force 99’, Echo, Omega– the GAR, then Cid, Rex – Separatists, sometimes rude regs, then the Empire – Cut and his family , some Cid’s patrons

ALIGNEMENT lawful good – republic then outsider/bad batch then probably rebels

ACTIVITY member of the special force of the grand army of the republic, then mercenary

GOAL keeping his family safe and alive, upgrading and taking care of the Marauder, sharing his knowledge and educating Omega

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PROFICIENCIES

STRENGHT in good shape, more stamina than normal people, a trained soldier shape

DEXTERITY good agility (4/5), exceptional pilots (5/5)

INTEL investigation (5/5), perception (2/5), history: all(5/5), quick learner, multiple language speaking fluent, tactical (4/5), adaptation (5/5), cartology (5/5)

WISDOM nature knowledge: fauna/floral specialist – biology mastering: medicine(3/5), chirurgical(2/5), cyber-prosthesis technician(2/5), biochemical (1/5).– teaching – force knowledge: jedi order –astrology (5/5) - geology (4/5) – protocol (4/5)

Second exemple

INTRODUCTION

CT-002 « Tech » - male – clone, human affiliate/ experimental clone – 13 since creation – demisexual, bisexual – Tipoca City, Kamino

GLOBAL Tech – Tipoca City, The Marauder, Cid’s location appartements – Galactic Basic Standard, Mando’a fluent- owner and technician of the modified Marauder, Omicron-class attack shuttle – single – dad of Gonky – graduated from the training of the clone commando Special force, multiple additional training, such as engineering, language translation, medical, decryption, piloting, etc.

[…]

BACKGROUND + ERA Galactic Republic, The Clone Wars, Galactic Empire - enhanced clone with mental capacity and intelligence, previously member of the Grand Army of the Republic squad « clone force 99 », soldier,  eventually mercenary - science and technology nerd, knowledge thirsty.

[…]

…. Mentors: Cuy’Val Dar, 99’, […]

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PROFICIENCIES

impossible/unable - not at all - not really - a little - basic - above average - very good - master - god

STRENGHT stamina - athletic

DEXTERITY acrobatics - stealth/sneaky - sleight of hand/thievery - insight - piloting

INTEL investigation – perception - history: native/faction/other culture – quick learner – language – tactical (strategy making) – adaptation – cartology

WISDOM nature knowledge: animal handling/taming, fauna/floral specialist, herbalism, surviving, gardening, farming – biology mastering: medicine, chirurgical, cyber-prosthesis technician, alchemy, biochemical etc.– teaching – force knowledge: jedi order, sith order, ancient red sith science and magic, planet mystics (Gungan on Naboo, Voss, Nightsister, etc.), minor cult etc. – astrology – geology – protocol - demolition

CHARISMA deception – intimidation - persuasion – debating – diplomacy – leadership – acting

TECH hacking/coding, engineering, tech maintenance – droid/machine technician –

[…]

[cmrosens]

SF-X 001: Cursed Hearts and Coronets (Part 1)

The Context

Secondary Fantasy world X-Files: the X-FILES X ONCE UPON A TIME crossover that nobody asked for. It has no title yet so it's going to be called SF-X (see what I did there) for the purposes of the tumblr posts. NOTE: I'm Welsh/Turkish and going to be using a lot of Welsh stuff in this. The names are Welsh and Breton, which for this world represent two different regional variations of the same language. We can get into that later! I'm going to blog about it here instead of actually writing it, because that's how I roll.

Influences

The X-Files

Twin Peaks

The Hobbit

Once Upon A Time

Snow White and the Huntsman

Snow White: A Tale of Terror

Solomon Kane

Gretel and Hansel

Brothers Grimm

The Setting & Set Up

- Enchanted Forest X Mirkwood

- Alchemy is the mainstream science, so there is both rudimentary forensics and chemistry understanding, but alchemy is also a philosophy, and this works with the astrology and zodiac of the world.

- "Magic" exists as a natural force that can be channelled by practitioners, and used to manifest glamours and manipulate the elements (defying the usual laws of physics in the process). This is all it can do. Necromancy is a myth.

- The king is dead: the Queen Regent ENORA ruled on behalf of his daughter, who can't rule until she came of age (21). The daughter then went missing and is presumed dead.

- The Queen Regent's niece, EIRLYS, a disabled alchemist, works closely with the royal armoury and royal physicians, but wants to turn her hand to using her skills to solve crimes.

- A cursed noble, BRIAC, trapped in his crumbling castle in the middle of the Greenwood for a hundred years, is discovered by a sheriff GWENDAL to whom he confesses the crimes for which he was cursed. His confession frees him from the castle but does not transform him back into a man from the Beast he is cursed to be; he has confessed too late for that. Enora decides he has served his time and sets him to work after he proves his ability to handle strange, dark mysteries brought before the Court of the Queen's Bench. Eirlys ends up helping him with these cases.

MORE IN SF-X 002

[wizard-irl]

If I really want to get angry at something, I'm going to get mad at this post I kept seeing that was like "x calls it y, z calls it a, science calls its quantum mechanics. Everyone knows what it is but not what to call it."

I am pretty sure that science does not call anything remotely magical quantum mechanics and I'm tired of people using scientific terms to make their spiritual claims more legitimate. It pisses me off to no end because it is contributing to the wider misunderstanding of science as a thing. Science and magic/spirituality/religion are very connected (i.e.: astrology's influence on astronomy, alchemy's influence on chemistry) but this is not that.

I am far from qualified on the subject, so for now I'm going to link a Professor Dave video about the subject, since he understands it better than I do.

[tresmanciasconsultancy]

Astrology

Steve Jobs' anniversary

His birth chart shows he especially liked tech communications, and he expressed that preference in the vocational area: his karma had already cleared out the pathway for something new to emerge.

✨ Steve Jobs and social affairs ✨

Analytical and focused on details, he was involved in developing and finishing social structures. As years passed by, he emphasised the public exposure of ambitions and emotional experiences. And, slowly, he started thinking on the idea of founding, initiating and nurturing for upcoming generations.

His individuality and initial emotional independence allowed a greater permeability and sensitivity, and he learnt to live with himself in such dichotomy. Free from private bonds, his birth chart shows different zones being combined: the public sphere with the private one, the economics with sentimental affairs, founding activities and building stages that were useful for both social and personal usages.

In the outside, the economic relationships promoted closing ancient family processes, which made it easier to build bases in the area for developments in the future. Within, Jobs might have sought the seeds that would trace the future karma in the evolutional axis, being his latest reincarnation the starting point in a whole particular cycle that was just starting, that is, a whole new cycle of reincarnations under the stamp of the foundation in Cancer.

Some technical elements:

south node of the Moon in Cancer (Water), in X house

the Moon in Aries was his south karmic ruler, in the alchemy from Fire to Water

Jupiter (ruling the IV house) in Cancer in conjunction to Uranus (ruling the VI), in the cusp of the XI

Steve Jobs' birth chart - Tres Mancias

Find here more info about Karmic Astrology. And open online courses to start at any time of the year.

[michaelgarfield]

In my latest episode of @futurefossilspodcast #FutureFossils I ask the provocative question of why politics gets in the way of pioneering research, and why academic monkey business gets in the way of asking some of the boldest and most penetrating questions we can ask. Tune in and strap in! Available anywhere you go for #podcasts...full EXTENSIVE show notes available #nowonpatreon. or, "Why is there no #science of X?” or, “#Alchemy is to Chemistry as #Astrology is to…?” “If people don’t believe us after all the results we’ve produced, then they never will.” “It’s time for a new era, for someone to figure out what the implications of our results are for human culture, for future study, and — if the findings are correct — what they say about our basic scientific attitude.” – Robert G. Jahn “We have been very open with our data. But how do you get peer review when you don’t have peers?” – Brenda Dunne “The culture of science, at its purest, is one of freedom in which any idea can be tested regardless of how far-fetched it might seem.” – Benedict Carey, writing on the #PEARLab for The New York Times #RichardDawkins #chronobiology #biogeomagnetics #weirdscience #scicomm #sciencepodcast #philosophyofscience #socioeconomics #ourladyoffatima (at Santa Fe, New Mexico) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cdquz_xOlbB/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[lilithienne]

Astrology x Alchemy: Lilith Synastry

Alchemy is not just about transmuting base metals into gold; it is also a spiritual and psychological journey of self-discovery and transformation. Lilith's presence in alchemical symbolism signifies the necessity of confronting and integrating the darker aspects of the self in order to achieve wholeness and enlightenment.

In Alchemy, the concept of Lilith* can be interpreted through the lens of transformation and the reconciliation of opposites. Alchemy, at its core, is a philosophical and spiritual tradition seeking to transmute base elements into higher forms, often symbolized by the pursuit of turning lead into gold. Lilith, with her rebellious and untamed nature, can symbolize the chaotic and raw material that undergoes transformation in the alchemical process.

* h13/True Lilith.

Lilith Synastry in relation to the alchemical process lies in the archetypal symbolism and alchemical parallels associated with both Lilith and Alchemy.

Archetypal Symbolism: Lilith, in astrology, is often associated with themes of rebellion, independence, sexuality, and the darker, unconscious aspects of the psyche. It represents the raw, primal energy within us that seeks expression and liberation. These themes resonate deeply with the transformative stages of alchemy, where the journey involves confronting and integrating the shadow aspects of the self.

Alchemical Parallels: The four stages of alchemy—nigredo, albedo, citrinitas, and rubedo—mirror the stages of psychological transformation and individuation. Similarly, relationships undergo a process of evolution and growth, often involving conflict, reflection, integration, and transcendence. Lilith Synastry aligns with this process by revealing the different stages of relationship dynamics and the potential for personal and spiritual development.

Due to how intense and transformative Lilith is in Synastry, it can be associated with the Magnum Opus in Alchemy and the original four-stage process.

Nigredo (Blackening): In Alchemy, Nigredo represents the initial stage of transformation, symbolizing dissolution, decay, and putrefaction. In the context of Lilith in Synastry, this stage may manifest as a period of intense confrontation and shadow-work within relationships. Lilith, often associated with the darker aspects of femininity and the subconscious, may bring to light hidden tensions, power struggles, and unresolved issues between partners. This phase encourages individuals to confront their inner darkness and acknowledge the aspects of themselves and their relationships that need purification and transformation.

Albedo (Whitening): Albedo follows nigredo and represents purification and enlightenment. This stage symbolizes the emergence of clarity, purification, and spiritual illumination. In Lilith Synastry, the albedo stage may signify a period of reflection, healing, and integration within relationships. Partners may undergo a process of cleansing and renewal, letting go of past grievances and embracing a newfound sense of harmony and understanding. Lilith's influence during this phase can facilitate deep insights into the dynamics of power and sexuality within relationships, leading to greater empathy and connection between partners.

Citrinitas (Yellowing): Citrinitas represents the stage of enlightenment and intellectual illumination in the alchemical process. It symbolizes the dawn of awareness and understanding, as well as the integration of opposing forces. In Lilith Synastry, the citrinitas stage may manifest as a period of intellectual exploration and expansion within relationships. Partners may engage in meaningful conversations, exchange ideas, and cultivate a deeper sense of intellectual compatibility. Lilith's influence during this phase can stimulate profound insights into the mysteries of human nature and the complexities of desire, fostering a sense of intellectual synergy and mutual respect between partners.

Rubedo (Reddening): Rubedo is the final stage of the alchemical process, representing the culmination of transformation and the attainment of spiritual perfection. It symbolizes the union of opposites and the realization of the philosopher's stone. In Lilith Synastry, the rubedo stage may signify a period of profound spiritual union and transcendence within relationships. Partners may experience a deep sense of emotional alchemy, transcending ego boundaries and merging their souls in a sacred union. Lilith's influence during this phase can catalyze profound spiritual awakening and transformation, leading to a state of divine union and blissful harmony between partners.

Overall, exploring Lilith Synastry through the lens of alchemical stages can provide a rich framework for understanding the complexities of relationships and the potential for profound personal and spiritual growth. It invites us to embrace the darkness within ourselves and our relationships, knowing that it is through this integration that true transformation and wholeness can be achieved.

Let's take an example of a man's Lilith conjunct a woman's Sun and how it can manifest in relation to the alchemical process.

Nigredo: At the beginning of the relationship, the man's Lilith conjuncting the woman's Sun may trigger intense emotions and power struggles. The woman's Sun represents her core identity and vitality, while the man's Lilith brings forth his shadow desires and subconscious tendencies. Initially, the man may feel drawn to the woman's radiance but also challenged by her strong sense of self. This stage may involve confrontations and clashes as both partners navigate the darker aspects of their psyches.

Albedo: As the relationship progresses, the woman's impact on the man becomes clearer. Through her influence, he begins to see his own shadow more clearly and confronts his hidden desires and fears. The woman's Sun illuminates the man's Lilith, bringing awareness to his deepest desires and insecurities. This stage involves honest communication and self-reflection, as both partners strive for greater understanding and acceptance of each other's complexities.

Citrinitas: In this stage, the woman's impact on the man becomes transformative. Through their interactions, they find a balance between their contrasting energies. The woman's Sun energizes and revitalizes the man's Lilith, inspiring him to embrace his passions and express himself authentically. Together, they explore new possibilities and avenues for growth, blending their energies in creative and harmonious ways. This stage is marked by a sense of mutual empowerment and collaboration.

Rubedo: Finally, as the relationship matures, the woman's impact on the man leads to profound spiritual and emotional growth. Their union transcends individual egos, and they experience a deep sense of connection and intimacy. The woman's Sun merges with the man's Lilith, igniting a fire of passion and purpose within both partners. Together, they embark on a journey of mutual transformation, supporting each other's evolution and embracing the full spectrum of their desires and vulnerabilities.

Lilith in synastry can be one of the most difficult aspects to understand and deal with over the long term because of the nature of what Lilith brings. You will not be the same after having a relationship that has a lot of Lilith.

[argentvive]

The Green Lion: Jaime Lannister and Harry Potter

I’m working on a long meta on the many different ways authors mark their characters in alchemy plays and stories.  But as I pulled my thoughts together I realized for the first time that there is probably an alchemical reason for why Harry Potter has green eyes.  It marks him as a green lion.  

(Rosarium Philosophorum, 1550).

What does the green lion symbolize in alchemy?  To quote Lyndy Abraham:

raw antimony ore, the unclean matter of the Stone, philosophical mercury, the prima materia in the earliest stage of the opus alchymicum...Mercurius. (p. 92)

In other words, the green lion symbolizes the raw material that the alchemist starts with in his or her attempt to create the Philosopher’s Stone.  Colors are almost always significant in alchemy; one reason the raw material is described as “green” is that “green is still in a state of immaturity and unripeness, just as unripe fruit is green” (Abraham).

In earlier posts I explained how GRRM marks Jaime Lannister as a green lion.  For example:

https://argentvive.tumblr.com/post/171922152520/jaimes-guilt-and-rescuing-brienne-from-the-bear

The lion part is obvious.  The Lannister sigell features a lion--GRRM often uses house sigells to mark his characters--and the Lannisters refer to themselves as lions from time to time.  The green part is only for Jaime.  After his maiming, after his dissolution (solve) in the Harrenhall bath with Brienne, after he questions all the decisions of his life and begins, tentatively, to follow a new, more honorable course, he dons a green garment at the dinner where Brienne wears her pink dress to symbolize their Chemical Wedding.  

JK Rowling has a different way of marking her characters.  She relies a lot on birthdays.  Alchemy incorporates astrology.  As soon as we know that Harry’s birthday is July 31, we know he is a Leo, which is Latin for “lion.”  (Leo’s ruling planet is the Sun, so that marks him as Sulphur, Red, fire and air, as well.)  And how to make him a GREEN lion?  Simple.  Give him green eyes.  Which is a major point throughout the books.  

[didanawisgi]

Portrait of Alfonso X from the codex Tumbo 'A' de Santiago (Dated between 1229 and 1255)

Alfonso X (also occasionally Alphonso, Alphonse, or Alfons, 23 November 1221 – 4 April 1284), called the Wise (Spanish: el Sabio), was the King of Castile, León and Galicia from 30 May 1252 until his death in 1284.

Alfonso X fostered the development of a cosmopolitan court that encouraged learning. Jews, Muslims, and Christians had prominent roles in his court. As a result of his encouraging the translation of works from Arabic and Latin into the vernacular of Castile, many intellectual changes took place, perhaps the most notable being encouragement of the use of Castilian as a primary language of higher learning, science, and law. Alfonso was a prolific author of Galician poetry, such as the Cantigas de Santa Maria, which are equally notable for their musical notation as for their literary merit. Alfonso's scientific interests—he is sometimes nicknamed the Astrologer (el Astrólogo)—led him to sponsor the creation of the Alfonsine tables, and the Alphonsus crater on the moon is named after him.

Translations

From the beginning of his reign, Alfonso employed Jewish, Christian and Muslim scholars at his court, primarily for the purpose of translating books from Arabic and Hebrew into Latin and Castilian, although he always insisted in supervising personally the translations. This group of scholars formed his royal scriptorium, continuing the tradition of the twelfth-century Escuela de Traductores de Toledo (Toledo School of Translators). Their final output promoted Castilian as a learning language both in science and literature, and established the foundations of the new Spanish language. This evolved version of the Castilian language also acquired significant relevance in the royal chancery, where it came to replace Latin, which until then had been the language commonly used for royal diplomacy in Castile and León.[8]

The very first translation, commissioned by his brother, Fernando de la Cerda—who had extensive experience, both diplomatic and military, among the Muslims of southern Iberia and north Africa—was a Castilian version of the animal fable Kalila wa-Dimna,[9] a book that belongs to the genre of wisdom literature labeled Mirrors for Princes: stories and sayings meant to instruct the monarch in proper and effective governance.

The primary intellectual work of these scholars centered on astronomy and astrology. The early period of Alfonso's reign saw the translation of selected works of magic (Lapidario, Picatrix, Libro de las formas et las ymagenes) all translated by a Jewish scholar named Yehuda ben Moshe (Yhuda Mosca, in the Old Spanish source texts). These were all highly ornate manuscripts (only the Lapidario survives in its entirety) containing what was believed to be secret knowledge on the magical properties of stones and talismans. In addition to these books of astral magic, Alfonso ordered the translation of well-known Arabic astrological compendia, including the Libro de las cruzes and Libro conplido en los iudizios de las estrellas. The first of these was, ironically, translated from Latin (it was used among the Visigoths), into Arabic, and then back into Castilian and Latin.[10] Most of the texts first translated at this time survive in only one manuscript each.

[genshin-impacted]

lost & found // Diluc x Reader (3/3)

Word Count: ~6.5k

Notes: Seelie!Reader, GN!Reader, Diluc/Reader, Mondstadt people interaction + Mondstadt Archon Quest, mild violence/fighting description and mentions of blood, Diluc POV briefly, mainly reader!POV

Summary: Oftentimes you find yourself wondering about your life before becoming a seelie, but with Diluc by your side, you don’t let yourself dwell on the long-gone past-- not when Diluc offers you affection and a tenderness that no one else is privy to. 

But on moonless nights, you let yourself wish upon a star.

(And sometimes, in this world ruled by the Gods and their stars, wishes are granted.)

Alternatively: Diluc has never asked you or needed you to change for him to love you.

[Part 2]

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(thanks for the love for this fic! here is the final addition)

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Diluc breathes out and sees the fog it makes in the frigid air of Dragonspine. The world continues to remind him that he’s lucky to have his Pyro vision, and again he’s inclined to agree that it’s a useful tool indeed. He cannot melt the snow that falls on the peaks of these mountains, but even he must admit that his flames have served him well in this icy winterland-- until it doesn’t. 

His phoenix burns through ruin guards and hunters alike, along with the icy foothold beneath him, and he falls into this cavern with no way up. He thinks it’s ironic that he’s the one that led himself into this predicament and attests it to your influence as his trouble-finding seelie.

Diluc huffs as he dusts off the snow from his shoulders and continues further into the hole he fell into, leaving tracks wherever he can so that you can find him. He knows better than anyone what you can do, and he knows that you cannot find him if he doesn’t leave clues. 

It is neither a surprising nor disappointing revelation to him. Diluc has always known that there is nothing special that binds the two of you together-- and perhaps that is why he cherishes what the two of you have. There is no contract, no string of fate, no hand of god that has put the two of you together or convinced the other to stay. You have chosen to stay with Diluc, and Diluc has chosen to let your presence change his life bit by bit.

Ever since coming back to Mondstadt, he has slowly grown more accustomed to working with other people, though with your appearance, his change has been accelerated. For with every adventure you drag him into, he meets new people, forming different teams. He’s helped Razor handle his broadsword better, and now he visits him ever so often to let him spar to his content. He let his stars be read by Mona, despite his initial hesitance (apparently, you are very into astrology), and can now see the constellations form above him much more clearly. And while he has never seen the need to be closer to his god, Venti sees the both of you more often outside of the tavern, and he sees a glimpse of Barbatos within the wind-weaving bard. 

You are a comforting presence: straightforward, easy to read, and compassionate. And he does not resist, much like everyone else, when you twirl your way into his heart. It is no longer surprising for him to understand that he does not need to be alone on the dark side of dawn when you have chosen to accompany him.

Speaking of choice, Diluc thinks irritably, wringing out the water from his hair. How did he agree to wander around Dragonspine of all places? He must have been caught up in the logistics of the experiment itself as well as your easy agreement. Diluc is admittedly the only person that understands your every nuance (or, well, most of it; some twirls are lost in translation), but even he cannot quite decipher what you want to take from this experiment of Albedo’s. 

When you find him-- which you will, he will ask you, and he thinks you will tell him as best as you can. For someone that cannot speak, you are the most honest individual in his life, which is something he has repeatedly found endearing and refreshing.  

Diluc climbs up the side of a cliff near the camp, only to see Albedo and Sucrose discussing at the edge of it. He briefly wonders if the experiment has ended, but when he does not see your light between the two of them, his breath hitches in the momentary panic he finds all too familiar to when he lost you the first time. 

Albedo spots him before he can speak. “Master Diluc, I’m relieved to find that you’re safe," he says briefly, and Diluc can at least respect how quickly the alchemist gets to the point, because he continues quickly. “Your seelie left to go find you before we could assess the situation.” He sighs as Sucrose frantically hands Diluc a towel to dry himself and a seat. “You gave them quite the scare, disappearing on us like that.” 

“You mean they’re out there on their own right now?” Diluc presses, feeling his hackles raise.

“Yes. We’re going to go out to recount your steps-- undoubtedly, your seelie will be trying to find you--”

Diluc doesn’t need to hear anything else. He holds the towel to Sucrose who nervously puts her hands up, unsure on what to do. “I’ll go find them,” he says. “The experiment is finished now, right?” 

“Do not go." Albedo sighs, and however Diluc thought of him before, it’s evident now that he is, above all else, frustrated with how things have turned out. “It’s my experiment and a miscalculation on my part. You should stay--”

“I’ll be fine--”

“Your vision does not make you impervious to the climates,” Albedo says calmly. He thinks he sees a gleam of cunning in Albedo’s eyes when he glares at the alchemist. “Besides, would your seelie be happy if you got yourself sick going to find them?” And Diluc cannot respond to that. 

“That being said,” Albedo continues, pulling at his gloves. “I predict you will refuse to stay here permanently. As it’s my fault, I’ll provide you with at least a potent heating potion before you go. Please wait; it won’t take long.”

“...Thank you,” Diluc says, taking back his towel much to Sucrose’s relief. When he sees Albedo head off onto his alchemy table, he sighs and settles into his seat. Where could you have gone, he thinks, drying his hair. After leaving the waterfall, he had… climbed the clifftop. Perhaps you lost him there without any way to notice which way he went afterward, which was a mistake on his part. Perhaps he should--

Diluc pauses his train of thought and instinctively turns his head to the left where he sees you floating. And the relief, oh, the relief he feels when he sees you fly toward him makes smiling easy. “There you are. I was about to go look for you since you weren't with Albedo." He swallows, beginning to breathe easy again. "I was worried," he admits, "I--" He stops abruptly when he looks up at you.

You are crying, and he almost does not know what to do. 

He didn’t realize you could cry. Diluc isn’t sure if he can even call them tears-- these globby droplets that disappear when they fall off your body that, when Diluc brushes them away, does not make his gloves wet. 

But he sweeps them away when they come anyways. “Hey,” he says tenderly, as you raise your voice from distress. “It’s okay. I’m fine; I’m here.” He cups your small orb-like body and listens to you as best as he can, sweeping his hand over your head and ears soothingly until your hiccup-like speech slows down to a halt. 

“You found me,” he tells you firmly. “You found me.” He repeats himself until you are warm in his hands and his hair is dry, the towel left forgotten on the ground.

Even when you have long calmed down, he continues to look over his shoulder to watch as you converse with Sucrose. “Did you get what you were looking for?” Diluc asks the alchemist, who hands him the warming potions for any emergencies. 

“Yes. Simply put, your mini seelie does not choose what it finds.” Albedo explains, “However, based on previous observations, they can hone in on things that are… otherworldly. You may be glad to confirm that you are, in fact, not otherworldly. And though this was not my intended result, I also would like to inform you that their attachment to you is out of their own volition…” Albedo watches in barely concealed amusement as Diluc glances over at you again. “Though, I’m sure you already knew this.” He clears his throat. “I would like to offer them future experimentation if they are willing.”

Diluc does his best not to look confused, but his pause gets the better of him. “Why are you asking me?”

Albedo only arches his brow and asks as a matter-of-fact, “Are you not each other’s keeper?” He continues without pause to quickly go over any logistics he has remaining, the details of Dragonspine (lest he fall into a pit again), before going over to talk to you briefly. Diluc wonders what the alchemist talked to you about but he decides to let the questions be asked later.

For now, you twirl up to him, beaming at him more brightly than usual, and he does not have it in him to say anything other than, “Let’s go home.”

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.By the time the two of you arrive at the winery, it is dark. You do not hesitate to corral him into getting ready for sleep, and he indulges you by not protesting.

“What did you want to get out of the experiment today?” Diluc asks you, untying his hair and placing it onto his nightstand. Before he can finish his question, you bury yourself into his hair, and he thinks that your tweets and trills sound very much like laughter. He chuckles. “Avoiding the question, are you? How very unlike you,” he teases, and he knows you hear him when he looks into the mirror and sees you peek out from underneath the red and squeak indignantly.

“I’m kidding.” Diluc lifts his hair so you can climb out and face him. “You’re the most straightforward person I know,” he says fondly, and he briefly wonders when he has gotten so honest with himself, letting you know how he feels with the amount of emotion he puts into his words to you.  

Sated, you flip around once before settling into his cupped hands, deep in thought. Diluc doesn’t quite understand how your mannerisms make your emotions so recognizable, but he imagines that if you had hands, they would be under your chin in a thinking pose. 

He patiently waits for an answer, walking around his room and blowing out the lights. When he turns off the last one, you can only look up at him and let out a quiet coo-- an apology. His hands are already comforting you the moment after you answer him. 

“It’s alright,” Diluc says. “I suppose it’s not exactly easy to explain that.” He adds on immediately, “And don’t apologize again. It’s fine.” 

“I think I can understand why without you telling me,” he says, and if his voice is a little raw, he hopes it goes by unnoticed. “It’s hard, isn’t it-- not knowing what you’re supposed to be doing."

Quietly, you float up, and Diluc feels his heart tremble when you press a kiss to his forehead in a mix of an apology, a comforting notion, and an act of love. He lays down in silence with you, and if you make a nest out of his hair, and if he wakes up with you nestled at the crook of his neck, he does not say a word.

There is no need.

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“Isn’t it enough?” Lisa asks him as she leans over the library railing. Diluc looks over to her as he puts away the last of the books he has asked to borrow, and he knows what she is asking before she finishes. Still, she tilts her head, her hat staying steady on her head, and repeats, “Isn’t it enough that they’re here with you?”

“Yes,” Diluc says without hesitation. “It is.” 

“Can I ask why you’re still researching about seelies then?” Lisa pauses, putting her hand over her shoulder, and Diluc knows she will arrive at the right answer without him telling her. “If not for you then… for them? You’re looking for answers for your mini seelie?” 

"I try to do what I can," he says, ignoring the way Lisa's eyes gleam all too knowingly. (He always knew there was much more to her at first glance.) "Thanks for the help, I--" He pauses when he catches Lisa smiling behind her fist. "...What is it?" he asks warily. 

"Oh, nothing." Lisa croons, giggling, "I just think it's sweet how the two of you treat each other. Anyone would get jealous of that." She pauses, looking out the window as the sun sets in the west. "It almost seems like a miracle to have the two of you find each other, don't you think? Fate, perhaps? How utterly romantic!"

"You're letting Kaeya influence you too much," Diluc retorts, much to Lisa's amusement.

"Maybe so," she says, sighing, "but even if it was fate, you wouldn't have cherished them any less." She gives Diluc a pointed look even he cannot deny. "Isn't that right, Master Diluc?"

Diluc huffs, walking past her to head down the stairs. "Asking that, I'm sure you already know my answer," he tells her, and he lets his mouth twitch in a semblance of a smile when he hears her complain about his tight-lipped attitude. It blossoms into a full-blown smile when he starts heading back to the winery.

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When he comes back, you are waiting for him among the grapevines as the winery is basked in orange light.

He's home.

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Diluc sleeps early and wakes up before the crack of dawn and takes you up the clifftop overlooking the winery. He had told you that there was something he wanted to do and left it at that. Not that you minded-- you were happy to follow him, blocking out any sharp rocks so he wouldn’t grab ahold of them as he climbed and scaring off any elemental wisps that came your way. 

When the two of you reach the clifftop, the sky begins to grow brighter as the sun peeks over the horizon. The color change from blue to yellow then orange is truly beautiful, and you are almost mesmerized as Diluc takes a seat down next to you, watching the sunrise. 

“...It’s almost been a year now,” Diluc says, “since we first met.” 

Happy Anniversary? You squeak in confusion, only to whip your body to face him when you realize why you’re here with him at dawn to watch the beautiful scene unfold before you. You squeak rapidly, stumbling over your words that he cannot hear but can understand anyhow. You hadn’t realized-- You were an idiot for not planning anything either, not that you could-- What kind of ore could you go find to bring to him as a present--? 

“Thank you,” Diluc tells you, “for the past year.” In the backdrop of the rising sun, you think he is almost too bright to watch with that gentle smile of his. The thought is only exacerbated when he cups you in his hands as softly as he has always done. “Let’s see what this year has in store for us together.” 

You trill softly, floating in the air to situate yourself on top of his head to watch the ocean shine brighter with the rising sun. 

It is not the New Year for any country nor culture, but you look into the horizon and make a wish that no one can hear. One year has passed, many things have changed, but you find that the one thing that has not is your adoration for Diluc.

"Let's go back home," he tells you, not for the first time, when the sun rises substantially above the horizon. Obediently, you float down into his sights where you twirl playfully in the air in thanks for the view. He chuckles. "No problem," he says, and he leans down just enough to place a quick kiss in between your ears.

(In hindsight, perhaps you should have wished for more kisses in the following year if you thought that was actually something you could wish for.)

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Like the beginnings of a new arc, you lead Diluc onto the start of another campaign that lasts longer than normal and ties in with the previous adventures you have had with Diluc.

You find Aether on the shores east of Mondstadt. Diluc can only look at you curiously when Aether reveals his visionless powers and his desire to find his sister, for if there were ever any need for corroborating evidence on your talent or ability, Aether is living proof of it.

With the traveler, you resolve many of the things that neither you nor Diluc could comprehend. The red, crystalline tears are purified, the winds calm down with Dvalin’s defeat, and Venti-- or should you say, Barbatos-- as usual, disappears in a wisp of dandelions to leave the City of Freedom to its autonomy. In the breezes of Mondstadt, you can feel his protective gaze upon the city, and more often than not, you find him wandering in the tavern, looking for a quick drink that Diluc offers ‘reluctantly.’ (You know him better now; Diluc would rather hug Kaeya than admit that he cares for the people in his life more than he shows, and Venti is one of the people he can find a fondness for. You still find yourself abashed to know that you are the only one Diluc can say unashamedly and wholeheartedly that he adores you-- in his own way.)

Aether’s presence in Mondstadt is a breath of fresh air, considering how compassionate he is and how willing he is to help with the common troubles of those in the city. He is led along by Kaeya, tugged onto an impromptu date by Lisa, and given a mask to go undercover with Diluc and help him in ways that you cannot. The tug of jealousy is unfamiliar, but you are more glad than anything that Aether can be his partner during the most dangerous of missions. You tag along as moral support and as a guiding post-- and for that, you find yourself most similar to Paimon, who, for some reason, keeps being compared to emergency food. 

“You’re my companion,” Diluc tells you with finality when you look up at him, barely forming the thought in your head about being his emergency food. “Don’t doubt that.”

Turns out, people can not breathe when you are covering their entire face with your translucent body.   

When the dust settles, you never think of turning Aether down when he asks you if you can sense whether his sister is in Mondstadt. 

You leave with Aether and Paimon with the promise that you return to Diluc at the winery. You guide the two of them to Stormterror’s Lair, a place you have gotten far more acquainted with in the past month, and head up to the cliffside where a ruin guard’s footprints remain next to a dandelion. You can sense something here, though you are unsure of what, and you are about to apologize for finding nothing when Aether looks over to you with wet eyes.

You coo up at him comfortingly as he sighs with a mixture of relief and sadness. “Thank you,” he tells you, holding out his hand. You press against it, and you hope he knows that the best you can do to imitate a comforting hand-hold. “At least now I know for sure she’s here in this world.” He smiles at you. “This gives me a lot of hope that I’ll find her, so… thank you, really.” 

Aether leaves for Liyue in the next few days, and if you had known he would leave so soon you would have done more than held his hand. You wish you could comfort him, reassure him that his sister, too, must be looking for him just as hard as he was. (Even if this was not the truth, you think if you wish hard enough, you could maybe manifest it for him.) You have so many words within you and yet none of them are conveyed, and Aether’s sad smile stays. 

It gets hard sometimes, knowing how little you can do, and how much you could have done before-- and this is one of those moments. It is rare for you to feel melancholy over the things you no longer have, but they come and go like the waves on Falcon Coast. Without a word, Diluc can tell when you are feeling down, holding you when you fall into his hands. 

His kisses come more often now, and he places one between your ears when you are with him during your lower moods. You think your day improves almost immediately when he does so, but it helps tremendously also that Diluc never forgets to reassure you.

“If you want me to help you with anything,” he says, “you only need to ask."

You coo again, twirling once, nudging at his cheek before backing away just enough to look at him. If you had a heart (and you sometimes suspect you do), it would be beating quickly as you wait for him to decipher your actions.

“...Ah,” he says, picking you up again. You think for a moment he looks as embarrassed as you feel, but then he asks, “...Another one?” and places a second kiss onto your head. 

You trill, pleased that you are spoiled by Diluc and even happier that Diluc only joins you in your mirth when he huffs in laughter.

“What an honest seelie,” he says, and you could not be more content with how fond he sounds of you and how, again and again, he continues to be patient with you even when you cannot be patient with yourself.

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Sometimes when the moon is high and Diluc is fast asleep, you find yourself at the place you first came to fruition as a seelie. The lake by the Winery and this exact scenery may as well be your birthplace. When you look into the reflection you see your orb-like features, viscous yet watery all at once, emitting light. 

But sometimes, when the only light is coming from the fireflies that glow beside you, you look into the lake and see a familiar face staring back at you. They have your face-- your eyes, your nose, your mouth, and your brows of a time when you were not a seelie. It’s the only time you get to see this image of your past self, reminding you of what you were before. Sometimes, you think you can hear your voice being carried over by the winds of another world, of another time. 

These moments are the only thing you have kept to yourself. 

After all, what’s the point of holding onto something that you no longer have? The man you’ve grown to care for-- grown to love-- is someone who has his eyes set forward toward the future, and you’re going to be there with him no matter what.

Although seelies cannot dream, you dream of carrying over the tray of tankards and washing the dishes in the tavern, of carrying Klee over your shoulders as you lead her to Albedo, of bumping elbows with Kaeya jokingly or placing a blanket over Jean’s shoulders when she falls asleep in her office again.

You dream of lacing your hands with Diluc’s, pressing your lips upon his temple, and hearing his heartbeat against his chest with a steady, grounding rhythm that reminds you you are home.

And sometimes, just dreaming is enough.

(And sometimes, it is not.)

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Life goes on. You see more of Mondstadt and begin to know the land like the back of Diluc’s hand. Knights and adventurers alike know you as the little seelie, and whether they think you follow Diluc or Diluc follows you is up to each person’s interpretation. (Regardless, none of them are wrong.)  

You accompany Diluc when he trains Razor in Wolvendom, and you invite Bennett to adventure sometimes with the two of you. (The boy may be unlucky, but you’re a magnet of trouble, so you think you have some things in common. A lot more things explode when he accompanies you but Diluc can handle it.) You make sure Jean gets some rest (“Your seelie is, um… very…” “Stubborn?” “I was going to say determined.”) and follow Lisa around on her expired library book expeditions. (“You think she’s beautiful, don’t you?” Diluc says to you, and you wonder why you babble excuses to him-- You’re more beautiful!-- while he looks at you in amusement.)

You and Diluc spend more time with other people in comparison to before, but you still have quiet moments with just the two of you when the days are slow. You’ve been learning how to move small things even better than before, among other things, but with this skill in particular, you can actually slide the pieces on the chessboard when you play against Diluc, who looks on (fondly) as you do your best to carefully push the pieces with your body. 

You always end up knocking some down, but when you finally get a handle of it, you do it with such concentration that Diluc doesn't have the heart to offer help. He does, however, end up polishing the board so the pieces slide more easily. You notice it’s shinier but he doesn’t let you pay it any mind.

“Don’t worry about it,” he says to you, and you think the words I love you come to mind more often than not recently. 

Thank you, you trill instead, and you ache with a want that pulses ever so often when you want so much more than you have when Diluc reaches out to caress your head.

“Like I said,” Diluc says softly. “Don’t pay it any mind. It’s your move still, you know.”

And you move the pieces. And you pick the grapes in his vineyard. And you find artifacts of crimson for him. And you kiss the scars from the many years he has battled (with or without you). 

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He gains another in the next, final battle with you as his seelie.

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Diluc has gotten hurt before. It’s inevitable with the number of enemies he faces, the number of times you run into enemy territory, but it has never been a problem for him to stand back up and fight. His fire burns brightly-- shine true is his motto, and Diluc lives those words as though they have been etched onto his soul. 

Much like fire, Diluc is relentless, and you can only follow him as he pushes through enemies, listens to his connections, and finds a den of thieves that have been terrorizing Springvale for months. The two of you should have known that their efficiency was because they were led on by the Fatui, but you fail to notice until they have you surrounded. 

You have every faith in Diluc to come out safe and sound, but it takes only one mistake for you to be reminded that there is a limit to everything. 

The blade slices through so quickly you aren’t sure what happened, but when Diluc pulls his hand back from the cut on his side to have it painted with blood, your heart drops.

“A little out of depth, don’t you think, Darknight Hero?” 

“I’d keep my tongue in my mouth if I were you,” Diluc growls, and you can only tremble in mid-air as your mind races with the things you can do-- only to think of all the things you cannot do. You almost miss what Diluc tells you with the way your hearing fuzzes. “Go back to Mondstadt and tell the Knights where these bandits are,” Diluc says, and you know it’s serious when Diluc thinks about reaching out to the knights. (This is partly true, you would realize later, that despite Diluc’s hesitance on being associated with the knights, he knows you would reach out to Kaeya or Jean if needed-- if not for him but so you would be taken care of.) 

You should have told Jean or Kaeya or Amber or even Lisa where the two of you had gone just in case things go awry. The thought never crossed your mind things could go wrong when you had Diliuc with you.

“You’ll find me again,” Diluc tells you softly when you hesitate, and you wonder how he can lie to you like that when his gloves are too bloodied to even hold you. “I promise.”

How could you ask me to do that? You plead, feeling tears well up again. How could you ask me to leave you?

“It’s okay,” Diluc tells you, and his bare hands are warm. “It’s fine.”

You are ripped out of Diluc’s hands when someone throws an electro grenade in the fire below Diluc’s feet. He’s still standing even after this, but a throwing knife hits him on the shoulder, another grenade to his left. You can do nothing but watch as Diluc is hurt, falling onto the ground. 

If there was ever a moment you wanted something so badly, you would have done anything to get it, it would be right here-- right now. 

You are the last thing he sees.

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“You whose strength stems from your devotion, I shall lend you my power.”

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You don’t know whose voice you heard or how somehow you have the hands to hold onto the Vision framed with Mondstadt wings in your hands, but you’ve learned not to question the good things in life-- one of them being your life at Diluc’s side.

Your voice is loud, you realize, when you shout at the bandits to leave. And your powers are strong-- strong enough to protect the person that matters most.

The bandits run at the fight sign of trouble, and the Fatui agent is unconscious. (You checked.)

You hold Diluc as he lies on your lap, breathing heavily but still breathing-- thank the archons. You quickly brush his hair away from his face and press on his wound, wincing when he lets out a grunt of pain even unconscious. I won’t let them hurt you, you think, taking one of his hands to brush your lips over his knuckles. (His hands are rough and calloused, but you love them just the same for how gently they held you when you were just a seelie.) If they come back, they’ll have to get through me. 

“Hello, mini seelie.” 

You look up from Diluc just in time to see a hand reach down to softly rustle your hair, much to your dismay. The initial reaction gives way to surprise when you recognize that the voice comes from none other than Kaeya. He grins down at you with his sword by his hip, and you frantically look around to see if the bandits had come back.

How did you--?

“Nice wings you got there,” Kaeya teases you, making you look back and find that oh, when did those get there? “Didn’t even notice them because you were too worried about Diluc, huh?” When you nod, he softens his gaze. “Why don’t you let us take care of things around here, hm?” He glances down at Diluc who has been sleeping soundly in your lap. “Let’s get him back home.” 

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When a few knights come with a cart to ambulate Diluc back to Mondstadt instead of the winery (you couldn’t argue with Jean even if you did choose to speak; she’s stubborn when the people she cares about are hurt), you feel the tension leave your body all at once, and for the first time in what feels like an eternity, you actually feel sleepy. 

“I’m glad we arrived right in the nick of time.” You turn to Kaeya who had been working behind the scenes, directing the knights. “You did good work, chasing them out of here so we could catch them easily,” he says, “I-- oof!” 

You tackle Kaeya into a grateful hug, and it takes him a few moments to respond by placing his hands onto your back and giving it a few pats. “There, there,” Kaeya drawls, but you can hear the smile in his voice anyways. “Better not hug too long; Diluc might be jealous that I’m the person you hug first, you know.”

You let go slowly, grinning up at him as though you agree, and you dodge Kaeya before he can mess with your hair again. On the way out of the camp, Jean gives you a smile, Amber waves excitedly at you before rounding up a few more bandits, and your cheeks hurt a little from the way Lisa pinched it. You go find Diluc where he’s being taken back in a horse-drawn cart and hold his hand until you’ve fallen asleep by his side.

(In his sleep, Diluc holds onto you.) 

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Diluc wakes up twice. Once, very briefly, when your wings are expansive and when the Vision at your waist shines brightly with power. Before he wakes up the second time, you can already feel the power fade from both you and the Vision. 

You knew that your transformation was temporary; powers do not always last forever, especially since the glow of your Vision seems contingent on the cycles of the moon-- particularly the moon that you were born on. You think that you should feel more disappointed, but you don’t. You get to hold onto Diluc’s hand in yours and wipe away the sweat from his forehead as he sleeps, and you think that if you only get this one chance to do these things, then you will take what you can get. 

You will love Diluc as you are, no matter what form you take. Your transformation wasn’t necessary. Your powers were a bonus, but even if you weren’t granted a miracle, Diluc would have been safe, as a courtesy of Kaeya who had been trailing behind the two of you since you from the start. (Kaeya and Diluc's connections had the same info this time around, so they were bound to intersect at some point.) What you’ve been given was not the power to save Diluc, but the chance to love him in a way you have always dreamed of doing.

When Diluc opens his eyes the second time around, more aware and more awake, you almost don’t know what to do. It’s a momentary panic when you think he doesn’t know who you are, but he only needs to take one look at you before he raises his hand to caress your cheek as he’s always done. 

“It’s okay, I’m here. I’m fine,” he soothes, though his voice is still raspy from disuse. “Don’t cry.” 

I can’t believe you wanted me to leave you behind. How could you tell me that? 

“...Sorry,” he says, and you raise your head from his bed just enough so he can wipe away the tears on your lashes. “It’s funny but even if you don’t talk, I can still understand you.” 

You watch as he slowly takes your hand and presses his palm against yours, lowering his fingers until they’ve interlocked with yours. “My seelie,” he says with all the warmth in the world. You can only nod before you’re wiping away the tears that spring up again. "Even in this form, you'll still lead me, right? Still find me if I get lost?"

You don't know what type of face you're making, but Diluc softens his gaze before shifting slightly in the bed offered to him by the church. "Come here," he whispers, arms outstretched.

You tentatively place your weight onto the bed, arms placed on each of his sides as you gingerly climb into bed with him. When he winces, you put a hand on his chest, alarmed, to stop him from exerting himself.

“I’m fine,” he says immediately, and when he looks at you, he bursts out laughing, only for him to wince again more strongly. “Sorry, your expressions-- they’re exactly how I imagined them.” He chuckles, though you purse your lips at him as you finally settle under the covers next to him. You make a sound of surprise when he leans over just enough to press a kiss onto your forehead. You hear his soft huff of laughter again when you bury your face into his chest out of embarrassment. “Still as easy to read as ever.”

You grab a hold of his shirt with your ears pressed against his sturdy chest. He gently rubs circles on your shoulder as you listen to his heartbeat, which is as steady as you have imagined it to be. It quickens ever-so-slightly, and you look up at Diluc in time to see him gaze down at you tenderly. “You don’t have to speak,” he says, brushing his hand across your cheek. “Nothing has to change at all. But there’s something I want to know.” You raise your hand to caress his hand (and he finds the courage to keep on speaking).

“Do you think you can tell me your name?” Diluc whispers, the most unsure you have ever seen him, and you think you’re so fond of him your heart (not just metaphorical this time) might burst from it.

It takes only a moment for you to decide to scoot yourself up just enough to kiss him on the side of his mouth, and you can't help but grin at the stupefied expression on his face. 

And you say your name. 

How interesting is it that it's the one thing you cannot convey through trills and twirls, cannot show through hugs and kisses? You never thought that your name could have such significance but you watch as Diluc's eyes widen and you think this moment is the gift the gods have given you. 

Diluc takes a moment to taste your name, and he calls out to you for the very first time out of many, many, many times.

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Before the sun rises, Diluc wakes up to your bright glow and with your seelie body pressed up against his collarbone. He breathes your name into the quiet infirmary before he closes his eyes to sleep again.

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You are found more often than you are lost. For every time Diluc calls your name-- as a seelie or as a human (fairy?)-- your heart soars as high as the anemograms at Brightcrown Mountain. 

As a seelie, your life with Diluc stays the same-- for the most part. No one treats you differently and no one loves you differently from when they knew you as just a seelie. If anything, the biggest change has been in Diluc's life where the stares from his admirers are more muted and the swoons reduced, for how could anyone continue to pine over someone that is so evidently preoccupied with someone else? (Even though they've only seen the person who Diluc holds in high regard once every new moon.)

Every adventure still has the same probability to go awry and Diluc still polishes the chessboard to perfection for you. Though on moonless nights, Diluc can hold you close, and you can hold him closer, saying his name (the second word you ever say) and hoping he can never feel quite as lost as before when you are here with him.

FIN

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[ethereal-jule]

The Basics ––– –

Name: Julian ‘Jules’ Salvez

Age: 28

Birthday: 29th Sun of the 1st Astral Moon

Race: Veena Viera

Gender: Male (He/They)

Sexuality: Demiromantic Gay

Marital Status: Single

Physical Appearance ––– –

Hair: White, ever so slightly pink on the tips

Eyes: ice blue

Height: 6′1

Build: Lithe

Distinguishing Marks: beauty mark on left cheek, x shaped scar across throat

Common Accessories: several rings he’s had for years, always worn together.

Personal ––– –

Profession: Healer, Sell sword

Hobbies: Reading and writing, alchemy, exploring, jewelry crafting, astrology, playing music

Languages: Eorzean common,

Residence: Ishgard, though travels enough that it hardly matters

Birthplace: Skatay Range

Religion: The Twelve

Patron Deity: Halone, the Fury

Fears: loss of free will, blindness, not being good enough

Relationships ––– -

Spouse: None

Children: None

Parents:  Menra Salvez (step-mother) Eris Salvez (mother) Unknown (father)

Siblings: Linna Salvez (twin sister) Frel Salvez (half-brother) Elaine Salvez (half-sister)

Other Relatives:  Carla Salvez (Aunt)

Pets: None

Traits ––– -

Extroverted / In Between / Introverted

Disorganized / In Between / Organized

Close Minded / In Between / Open Minded

Calm / In Between / Anxious

Disagreeable / In Between / Agreeable

Cautious / In Between / Reckless

Patient / In Between / Impatient

Outspoken / In Between / Reserved

Leader / In Between / Follower

Empathetic / In Between / Apathetic

Optimistic / In Between / Pessimistic

Traditional / In Between / Modern

Hard-working / In Between / Lazy

Cultured / In Between / Uncultured

Loyal  / In Between / Disloyal

Faithful / In Between / Unfaithful  

Additional information ––– –

Smoking Habit: No, thinks its gross Drugs: hard pass. Alcohol: a little socially, a lot when depressed, no any other time.

RP Hooks ––– –

Astrologian: Have ties in Ishgard or to the Astrologian guild? you might have seen him around a couple times- alternatively, if you need a healer or a traveling companion-! uh, well, he might be hard to recruit- but i’m sure its worth it?

Quite the critic: Jules takes his hobbies and professions quite seriously, and is not shy about acting aggressively towards anyone who shares them and takes them in a ‘less serious’ manner. however if you ARE better then him, he’ll take it as a challenge- so theres really not a lot of winning with this guy initially.

Not totally heartless: Despite his prickly and cold nature, he’s not one to just stand by and watch someone die. are you a little reckless? maybe get in over your head, or lost out in a storm? if he’s around, odds are he’ll feel compelled to assist.

4: Avid reader: Being a collector of books, Jules spends a lot of time in libraries or bookstores in places around his travels- its quite possible to run into him there.

5: Bard at heart: Before moving to ishgard, Jules’ was a bard- he still loves playing music, and is well versed in things such as archery as a result. though he focuses more on healing then combat himself now, he’s still quite capable. He has a few acquaintances in the archers guild for such reasons.

6: Can’t resist a pretty face: While not much of a flirt, he often finds himself rather disgruntled and thrown off by pretty men. Wanna see a socially awkward asshole puff himself up like a frustrated bird in front of your flirty male muse? hmu lmao

Contact Information  ––– –

hey hey, i’m cobalt! this is my second RP blog for FFXIV, and im mainly looking for interactions here on tumblr or on discord <3 This blog is still being set up for the time being~

Tumblr: you are here. follows from @azure-seadragon!~ Steam: The_Vampires_Wife   Discord: given on request!!!