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norman-fucking-reedus · 5 months

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Guys I know I haven’t written anything as of late I’m sorry I’m just so far off planet earth everytime I open drafts I just scroll and then close out tumblr 💀

My mother is buying me my own laptop soon so hopefully burning UV light into my eyes on a bigger screen will somehow magically make a difference 🌞🌞

I’ve been considering closing my inbox but then I’d feel bad about it cause whenever I do get a request its like the most vile unhinged thing I’ve ever read and I think about it for the rest of the day

#me when im just not a real person #being alive is so hard #im just a girl #hell is a teenage girl #norman fucking reedus #the walking dead #daryl dixon #the walking dead daryl #twd #twd daryl

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manicpanicpixienightmare · 10 months

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I would like to be an animal. Or perhaps for someone to pilot my life for a bit.

#being alive is so hard #the pumpkin speaks

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sugucidal · 1 year

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theres so much to do and so little time aaahhhahhaha

#୨♡୧ — 𝐃𝑬𝐀𝐑 𝐃𝒊𝐀𝐑𝐘. . .#i need to apply to more jobs #do interviews #process documents #finish my series #get this bag #this that and the third #BEING ALIVE IS SO HARD #I JUST NEED ONE DAY THAT LASTS FOR LIKE 5 DAYS

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flamegobrrrr · 1 year

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decided to rewatch inside out and the fact that the first emotion riley ever experiences is joy is. wow. the idea that if we could remember that far back our first memory would be of joy is so. wow

#inside out #being alive is so hard #yet so beautiful at the same time

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istillhaveyourlighter · 11 months

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I stand in the shower, the water makes my skin crawl, it aches, it makes me itch. My blood feels like it’s boiling. I lay in bed and the blankets feel like they’re suffocating me, wrapped around my legs and arms. My hair on my neck, it brushes against my skin, like razor blades against paper. The hair on my legs touching my clothes feels like wire, rough. Everything feels like silver, and I am a wolf.

why does being alive hurt?

#writing #my writing #i wanna die #being alive is so hard

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why-fucking-bother-anymore · 1 year

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I think I've been feeling okay? But I'm also numb numb numb

#whenever i do sit and think all i can think about is how badly i want to kill myself #its honestly all i can think about #being alive is so hard #so complicated #so much work just to exist #id rather not #my thoughts

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mr-stingkey · 1 year

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Most of the time I love my weird little brain but like. It would be soooo much easier not to be neurodivergent

#being alive is SO HARD #personal

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lyriumsings · 1 year

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i’m actually reaaally tired but i don’t want to clean before i go to bed but i have to lol

#lyriumsings txt #i’ve been tired since 9 #and i’ve procrastinated for 3 hours #i wanna sleeeeep #god i gotta floss and brush too #being alive is so hard #i just want to see spiderverse #two more sleeps #soon to be one if i just get up lol

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s4llycinnamon13 · 1 year

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So I kind of got that promotion? I have a few tasks ( a development plan) that I need to do over the next few months before I actually get it. Which is good but also there is a few people that got it right away that don’t do the same amount of work as me n I’m happy for them but I’m also ready to spiral about it all. Why bother putting effort in if I’m just getting made to jump through extra hoops, what does it prove? Am I not good enough?

#personal #it’s taking everything I have to not tear my skin open over this #which I get is irrational #being alive is so hard #n I guess not getting the promotion right away has made me feel like I’m not needed #why can’t I ever just feel like I belong somewhere #it’s like I’m a fucking alien or something

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anbaisai · 2 months

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Ace Trappola x Heat Abnormal (熱異常)-iyowa

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luck-of-the-drawings · 5 months

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"I think this is the most inhuman; and human, that I've ever felt.." MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN A YEAR. IN FIVE YEARS. A DECADE. imagine how much can happen in a century. just ONE (1). How will you grow? what phases do you find? even in 5 years, you will find patterns.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #jrwi suckening spoilers #jrwi the suckening #arthur bennett #HEY SO THE REALLY FUNNY THING THAT THE CHARACTER DID THAT SEEMED RLY SILLY N GOOFY IN THE MOMENT?#LIKE THE WHIPLASH BETWEEN SERIOUS N SILLY ALMOST PISSED YOU OFF? WHAT IF I FOUND A WAY TO MAKE YOU SAD ABOUT IT #this was meant to be a scribble that would be a bigger part of a bigger page.might leave it on that page.#but still. bc o that i nearly posted it onto my wacky side blog.BUT NAYY I SPENT TOO MUCH TIME N ENERGY N YOU GOTTA SEE IT #ARTHUR BENNETT DRIVES ME CRAZY. I FEEL LIKE ITS ODD FOR HIM TO BE SO TECHNOLOGICALLY OUT OF TOUCH #WHERE HAS HE BEEN. HAS HE BEEN IN WAR? IS THAT WHERE MAGNUS CAME FROM? WHERE WAS HE WHEN HE WAS WITH EDWARDS CREW?#ARTHURRR I HAVE QUESTIONS ARTTHUUURR!! HEY CAN I ALSO ASK; WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU BECOME #DO YOU THINK HE HAD ANY IDEA HE WOULD VEER CLOSER AND CLOSER TO THE MONSTER HE DESPISES. ALL BC HE DESERVES IT. OR WATEVER #HE FASCINATES ME SO MUCH. TO LOOK AT THE STONE COLD STOIC FOOL FROM THE START OF THE SHOW #AND TO FIND OUT THAT HE USED TO BE A BAD BOY.. A DELINQUENT... A LIL PRANKSTER.... MY GODDD THATS ADORABLE #I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW MORE.... BUT I DOUBT THE LAST EPISODE IS GONNA ANSWER THOSE QUESTIONS..i love arthur bennett so much....#AS FOR THE ART!! i mostly used the fire alpaca watercolor brush. tbh im not a brush guy. anti aliased default pen tends to be my main game #but LATELY IM SQQQUIRMIN OUT OF AN ARTBLOCK so expirimenting like this is helping #DONT LOOK TOO HARD AT IT!! im still proud tho. colors are fun :3 im also very proud of the backgrounds #I LOVE THE CARTOON THING where the background looks all fancy n painted but the characters are solid colors #what else can i ramble abt. OH YEAH. i looked up the bikes to make sure they were time accurate tehehehe. 1913 to 2012.#almost a century apart!! isnt that neat? ALSO FUUUCK CAN I JUST MAKE A QUICK CONFESSION. DOWN HERE IN MY TAGS.#only the strongest can read my tags anwyay. SO I REALIZED WHY I LOVE ARTHUR SO MUCH. TIME IS A FLAT CIRCLE #while arthur is a Stoic and Cool vampire w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORs #THERE HAPPENS TO BE A ROBOT FROM A BAND W A TITANIUM ALLOY SPINAL COLLUMN #WHOS A Stoic and Cool ROBOT w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORS #the fuckkkiiinnngggnn The Spine from steam powered giraffe. WHATEVER. i cant escape from my heart. i guess.#i think The Spine and Arthur could be friends. Arthur saw the band perform back when they were the Steam Man Band #EDIT: WOOPS I DIDNT REALIZE THIS WOULD END UP IN THE SPG TAG. HI GUYS DIDNT KNOW U WERE STILL ALIVE SORREE 4 THE CROSS CONTAMINATION

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sunlit-mess · 3 months

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How can you draw so much

It's that or dead

#messyr #the feeling is hamilton's nonstop but apply it to drawing:#How do you write like tomorrow won't arrive?How do you write like you need it to survive?How do you write every second you're alive?#fr I just have so many ideas- so many dreams. Ambition and hard work thing except im kind of a failure so x2 the work #i say ' that or dead ' bc being away with a pen or any form of restriction in creativity im gonna lose it LOL #obsession things-#cue in alastor's : why does anyone do anything? sheer. absolute. boredom!#zeal AMBITION. HUNGER. ALWAYS THAT HUNGER.

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crow-with-a-pencil · 1 year

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Hi @naffeclipse I'm very normal about your fic. Have some frantic midnight sketches as extra kudos along with some tag rambling :)

#my ârt #crush depth #crush depth spoilers #fnaf #tw blood #tw drowning #idk how many others apply #anyways this is midnight crow coming out of the shadow realm to scream at you #first of all a cs ramble is on the way I'm still recovering from that fic too #im biting you naff im biting you so dang hard #I don't even know much about iron lung besides watching a play through but damn do you make me want to know more #just. where do I even start. the atmosphere is established so well and even though there was such a small space to work with I FELT it #I felt the claustrophobia I felt the walls and the console and the single dim lightbulb as my only solace in this death trap #the THOUGHTS #poor yn had so much time to just get lost in their head and spiral pretty much constantly #the dread. the constant overhanging dread of knowing there's a 99% chance they're not getting out of there alive and at this point #they just want to accept it and let it end bc there's hardly anything to go back to if they live #naff. look at me. reading some parts made my chest actually tighten with dread. it was so well done.#this poor human just buried in existential horror and just wanting it to end in a slightly less painful way #and the unknowable beings trapped outside who absolutely REFUSE to let that happen #god those eldritch fish were trying their hardest but just couldn't get in #yn was trapped inside while they were trapped outside and I just #I am EXPLODING the more I think about it #thinking about when they thought they were drowning and tried to breathe again #wanting to die but still having that instinct to survive #asking to be ripped apart but still cherishing their last breath of air #I'm shaking you I'm shaking you I'm dying on the floor #ough.#I'll never mentally recover from this and I want you to know I genuinely get inspired by your writing #this has been midnight crow ramblings. I just hit the tag limit. have a lovely night.

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levemetal · 22 days

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Day 2: Timeloop / Xiao Qi and Jiu Ge

I am cringe and I am not even free

Feel free to reuse this idea but 24 hours are not enough for me to finish an entire comic. I could have taken the simpler prompt but nOOOOOO timeloop is too tempting. Past me why are we like this

#svsss #shen jiu #yue qingyuan #qijiu #qijiuweek2024 #the basic idea for this was that both yqy and sj remember each loop #the loop started after their individual deaths in PIDW and resets them to close to disciple era #aka the time Yue Qi was in the caves and SJ presumably got away from the Qiu household or was already with Wu Yanzi #I imagine the first few loops they qi deviated so hard from the shock that they didnt even make it like 1 hour in the loop before beingrese #and then had a few loops just fucking around and finding out #eventually they realise that the other has the memories of all loops and so begins the talks and figuring how tf they can get out of this #maybe they resolve their issues with the promise or not your choice tbh #they try different plans and methods #but they keep dying (read: SJ keeps dying first and YQY either dies or sewerslides not soon after) and getting reset with no end in sight #until the last pages where the svsss timeline begins #SJ got replaced with SY and the system isn't letting YQY join him in death or smth nor letting him do anything about SY being there instead #And due to their closeness from being immensily tired from all the loops #YQY notices it immediately but can't do anything about it #the bonus for SY is that this timeline was very kind to LBH & co - 79 figured by now that keeping him in the sect and happy was their best #bet at staying alive - or well at least for longer #I'll continue this storyline in one of the future prompts of this qijiu week #btw the one with the cliff is just the whoopsie daisy timeline where SJ accidentally falls into the Abyss trying to keep LBH from falling i #79 had a bit of a good laugh about that one #cw death #cw violence #cw blood #cw angst

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simplykorra · 1 year

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I’m overwhelmed...with gratitude

#ava silva #avatrice #warrior nun #avatriceedit #warriornunedit #avasilvaedit #alba baptista #this girl owns my whole heart #when people ask me like...how i make so much content #it's because of her #like i just want to make stuff about her #tell stories with her #do edits #enjoy alba's incredible performance as her #i'm in so deep and perfectly content #this scene is hard for me to watch #seeing how happy she is to be alive and be loved #knowing that deep down she undrestands that it's probably not going to last much longer #her writing the letter to beatrice #wanting to tell her that she's made being alive so magical #so special #that she loves her #that being loved by her was an even greater gift than the halo that brought her back to life #she came so far #and when she comes back she's going to do so much #with bea and her ocs family at her side #so thankful for ava #myedits

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chiquilines · 11 months

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Its been ages,,, i missed them

#man ive been playing supermassive black hole on LOOP #for essentially the entire drawing #ITS SO THEM #IM INSANE ABOUT THIS I GOTTA TELL SOMEONE #LIKE #YOURE THE QUEEN OF THE SUPERFICIAL/HOW LONG BEFORE YOU TELL THE TRUTH #AND TOGAS LITERALLY A SHAPESHIFTER???#and dont get me started #baby im a fool for no one/but ooh baby im a fool for you #cause ochako got over deku she worked so hard not to be a fool #and bam enter toga stage left with her gorgeous smile and bloody knife #GET FOOL'D OCHAKO #im being insane #ive been staring at this for days theres something not right about it but i cant put my finger on it #but i havent posted in ages so here #a gift anyways #also kids dont take IB itll eat you alive🫵#toga himiko #ochako uraraka #togachako #toga x uraraka #mha #bnha #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #wlw #chiquilines draws

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