#Blabbering

[squipdop]

every single fucking thing on earth exists solely to put a dent in your newly applied nail polish

[spritecranverry]

Yeah sorry I actually can't listen to Billie Eilish or Taylor Swift. Yeah no I have audio processing issues so I can't understand it when white women sing pop music. Their accents are just so hard to understand, you know? I can't handle the sound of vocal frying, either. Hurts my ears. It's actually super ableist that you expect me to listen to them :/

[worseperson]

wtf is rain world about all of your posts sound like “omg Stapled Macaroni Resting Upon A Rat is so cute :3” and show fanart of either a guy being held by one of those mechanical cranes or a girl on life support next to a rodent

[cactusprisms]

an eldritch child breaks you. It’s an accident. They didn’t mean to. The child’s parent puts you back together as best they can, but you’re never the same. There’s glue in between your body and your soul, and you don’t see colors the same way anymore. The child didn’t mean any harm. They were just curious.

can you live with that? Can you let go of your anger? They were just being a child, and they fixed you as best they could.

can you keep living as you once were?

[musical-machinery]

in class and the guy in front of me is playing ultrakill

[paranormeow7]

tired of nonbinary people being pressured to be thin hairless elf like pretty and always depicted as white afab skinny kids with blue hair, of course only using they/them. give me nonbinary people who are heavily fem/masc aligned!! give me nonbinary people who use neopronouns and xenogenders!! give me fat nonbinary people!! hairy nonbinary people!! nonbinary POC!! amab nonbinary people!! disabled nonbinary people!! nonbinary people who wear crazy clothes, or nonbinary people who don’t stand out and don’t feel the need to!! nonbinary people with names like Moss or Socks, or nonbinary people with “regular” names like Susan or James or something!! Give me every flavor of nonbinary people, and stop trying to make it into yet ANOTHER gender binary!! Nonbinary can be anything, not just a third gender to adhere to!!

[puppeteerpoet]

Sansa stark they’ll never make me hate you

[dennisplaidshirts98]

dont have much to show as of recently but the brain Craves macden highschool and college era like fawking bad. plus some other drawings vv

[moralesmilesanhour]

Y'ALL WE GOT MILES G IN ACTION!!

(This is a 2020 animation test showing how Miles would've been trained by his uncle before the events of btsv)

[just-gingerkat]

obsessed with the relationship that never existed 😮‍💨

[careyakane]

“Things out of place are ill” - Annie Dillard

One must never deny themselves from themselves by remaining out of place. One must step forward with complete belief, leaving as little unsaid and unresolved as possible. It’s not a “fresh start” or a “new beginning”… It is simply what comes next. In many years when I look back over all of it, the move, my relationships, my losses and burdens, my demands and hopes. All will be seamless like a glassy bed of water, all will balance what came before and lay stone for what waits. When things are out of rhythm, out of cycle, out of Hope, out of creation, out of place, they are ill in their nature and bound to fail.

So laugh awhile at what troubles you, take stock of what you have, pack light, look your friends and lovers in the eyes as you embrace them and then take your leave. You are doing no one favors (least of all yourself) by remaining. Come back to them when you found your grin again, when your voice fills your words with a honest and strong timbre as it once did. No more burning up, no more half hearted grasps at relief, quickly now.

[hootyhoowoo]

I am so happy to be in this fandom space :’) this is an appreciation post for everyone who has made art or written or even shared headcanons for the scum villain fandom—you’re amazing!!! Rahhh!!! Do you know how amazing and privileged I feel to be able to see and interact and appreciate other’s creative talents!! That they courageously put out online!!! There’s so many wonderful ideas and fun community interactions here 🥹Sending you all flowers 💐

And if you’ve ever interacted with my doodles i’m giving you a big warm smooch on the forehead and putting you in my pocket. Mine now. I appreciate you so much!!!! I read all the tags on my artwork and please know I love it. It literally lifts my mood so much. Even if it’s a simple tag, I’m always so honored to have known people took the time out of their day to even look at my stuff <333

I’m approaching 1k here and wondering if I should do something as a thank you—idk, i don’t like putting emphasis on metrics, but at the same time I would like to give back to the community that feels like home and allowed me to meet and make such wonderful friends. If anyone has any ideas, lmk?

BUT YEAH BIG LOVE TO ALL THE SCUMMIES OUT THERE, YOU ALL NEVER FAIL TO MAKE MY DAY BETTER!! 💕

[spritecranverry]

Ooooh you want to create a black female character with more complex traits other than "she's beautiful and perfect" sooo bad 🌀🌀🌀 you want to write black characters who don't need to be the righteous voice of reason in order to be worth being in the story oooooh 🌀🌀🌀 you want to write us like actual human beings who aren't disproportionately punished by the narrative for being flawed 🌀🌀🌀🌀oooooooh

[worseperson]

This gif goes with almost every song

[hallucinatinghalos]

It's interesting to me that the show writers have decided to make the monastery be the moment Lestat is brought home violently, and at (I would assume) such a young age. In TVL he's still taken from the monastery against his will and denied an education (devastating enough) but it's not until he's older and runs away to join the theatre troupe that they drag him home violently. His eventual response to the assault and yet again being denied control of his life, and some other major events I'll skip over, is to move to Paris and become an actor anyway. But by making the physical abuse happen so young, and be so brutal, they're creating a flashpoint of extreme helplessness and harm without hope of escape that will parallel his turning by Magnus (who also now imprisons him for a week which is longer than the books' shorter but still horrific turning)

The repercussions of the abuse at the hands of his father and brother as it occurs in the show would be a little death, a transformation. The child that left for the monastery is lost, the Lestat that walks out of his room with his prayers silenced and saints forgotten cannot be the same person and survive. That will certainly mirror his mortal/human death and turning by Magnus. He is struck down, altered so cruelly by both his father and by his maker.

And don't even get me started on the ramifications of his relationship with the divine. That he wanted to be a priest. That his prayers repeatedly go unanswered in the face of such horrors. The ocean between himself and God.

The part of the apology/reconciliation scene that I think strikes best at the heart of his abandonment issues as it pertains to the divine is when he gently scoffs at himself for calling out to God during his turning. Despite previous experience, he again tried to survive the wrath of a larger, stronger being by praying. The situation so extreme he was made utterly powerless. And yet, again, there was no intervention. Again, he was abandoned to this awful fate and now there he sits a monster. Worst of all though he's his family's monster asking for forgiveness that he does not feel he deserves. You know he recognizes the anger in Claudia's eyes, the harm he's done. His smile a sad defense against Louis' pity. It's crushing.

"I didn't want this." he tells them as if to apologize for his very existence, his being.

He has become the thing he hates most.

He is so vulnerable here. My god.

I can't even allow my mind to delve into his psychological state in the garbage dump, post-murder. Can you imagine one of your greatest fears being abandoned and your family, knowing this, throw you out with the trash. And that he knows he pushed Claudia and Louis to such desperation. It's no wonder he breaks down during the trial when recalling Louis putting him in his coffin, that Louis saved him despite what he was, what he'd done. His one consolation being that Louis still loved him enough. I will never be convinced, until we see otherwise, that he was at the trial for retribution, and I do not trust the tower scene as we saw it at all. He would mentally be in tatters. He would've arrived in Paris already in such a state. Then the events of the trial, whatever his involvement ultimately was, of seeing Louis in that situation and watching Claudia murdered...there are no words for what he would be going through (and that's without knowing what the full context of the trial was for him) we can only assume from what remains years later...

A broken creature.

Louis leaving him was truly a push to destruction equal to Armand pushing his weakened body off the tower in the book, as near a fatal blow as Louis could strike in that moment. Lestat is alone and defeated. A fate he maybe feels he deserves, that he should've never survived to this point anyway. His existence only seeming to harm those he's loved most (can't forget Nicki here.) There is something about him choosing to sit in that ruined house and starve that calls back to his bedroom prison post-monastery. I can see why Rolin allowed the level of emotion to remain in the reunion scene. Because Lestat is as emotionally broken here as he is physically broken in the book. There is next to nothing left in him to rally against the flood of his feelings. He's that kid starving in his room, the man trapped with a monster, and a being that's hated his mind & body for lifetimes. It's unbearably sad and it should be gut-wrenching.

I'm guessing these changes (maybe more a shuffling) are just for more efficient storytelling. A way to get the viewer from point A to point B of his messy backstory more quickly with the same trauma of bookLestat still intact. What is my point? I don't know. I don't really have one. Mostly I'm just rambling, appreciating the show writers, and I really need new content.

Added a cut because below is a short S3 speculation that may contain spoilers.

Not that anyone asked but I'm leaning toward the idea that they'll have it be when he runs away with the theatre troupe (or just leaves for Paris) as a young adult he never comes home again. That the wolves will happen at some point before that but remain the life-changing catalyst and that the reunion with Nicki will be in Paris. That he will have a longer acting career before Magnus finds him. If that is the way it goes I hope Gabrielle still has a hand in his flight from Auvergne, but we'll see.