#Bunny: actually i am feeling much better these days i started a new hobby and reconnected with an old friend and-

[abluescarfonwaston]

Someone: suggests Barnaby gets therapy

Barnaby: How Dare they!!!

Kotetsu: You know therapy can be really helpful and beneficial.

Barnaby: I don't want to hear that from an old man who's never been to it once!

Kotetsu: Hey! I have totally been to therapy! I did it for 5 months once.

Antonio: as court ordered.

Kotetsu: not important. And it was super helpful!

Antonio: for your therapist. You saved her marriage and she cleared you for duty. Did she even know you had a kid? Or recently lost your wife?

Kotetsu: i don't see why that matters. Anyway you should definitely give it a try!

Antonio: you should, but you should probably make sure you know what it's about unlike this guy.

Kotetsu: HEY!

[xtinyaurora]

Heyyyyy I’m new here :3 could I request ATEEZ reaction to you being a brat? :3

Ateez reaction: Bratty Y/N

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➼ requested?: yes

➼ genre: smut

➼ pairing: Ateez x neutral!reader

➼ Word-count: 2k+

➼ Warnings: nsfw content, strong language, cursing, threads, annoyance, bratty behavior, pet names...

➼ Note: This is not based on their real behavior or meant to represent real life. This is simply a fan fiction and is only for the purposes of fun, it’s a hobby. Read at your own risk!

➼ A/N note: Sorry for updating after a longer time, I had a few mental health issues... Thanks to everyone who waited tho and thank you so much for 200+ followers... Please let me know if you have ideas in mind for a ‘special'! Hope you all like this one tho. Feel free to leave some feedback! Also, let me know if any of you wants to be added to my taglist!

➼ Taglist: @teeztheflag @darkstarlights

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Park Seonghwa

You were sulking because Seonghwa didn’t bought you that dress you saw in one of those expensive shops today. Actually, you could call him your „sugar daddy”. He bought you anything you wanted whenever you wanted, but not today. Today was different, because you already started to provoke him in the early morning, disobeying and yelling at him. He didn’t know what happened to you, even after asking a hundredth of times, you just kept on being bratty towards the male. Soon, he had enough. While the two of you were sitting in the car, at the parking lot of the shopping mall, you kept on complaining about that dress. Seonghwa leaned into your side and grabbed your throat, immediately shutting you up. „You better stop talking, before I lose my shit and hit you right in the face and fuck you right on top of this car, baby. Would you like that? For all people to see how I put you in your place. Huh?” You silently shook your head, a hint of fear written on your face. „I thought so. Now stop being a bratty little bitch and start behaving, understood?” Again, you remained silent, nodding your head this time. Seonghwa then sat back and started the power of the car, driving off, back home.

Kim Hongjoong

Hongjoong finally took a day off, immediately calling you to go on a date but you were mad at him. Why? He knew that you had other plans today but still choose this day to take a break. „Y/N, baby, come on. You know I have no say in this. This is not my fault, so please come to the restaurant we always go to, okay?” You let out a ironic laugh. „Tz. First, you pick the worst day and now you want me to come there myself? Oh no, if you really want to get out with me then you are going to pick me the fuck up.” Hongjoong was kinda shocked, not excepting this kind of behavior. After massaging his temples, since this boy was stressed and annoyed by your way of behaving, he just hung up the call, not in the mood to keep up with you right now. You went absolutely insane. Like, how dare he? When midnight came around, Hongjoong entered the front door, food in his hands. You were sitting in the living room, still pissed about earlier today. A knock on the doorframe made you look up. When spotting your boyfriend, you rolled your eyes and kept watching tv. „Haven’t cool down yet?” You got back to 180. „Excuse me?! Get your ass out of this room Mr. 'I think I can allow myself whatever I want' because yes, I am still mad at you.” He stared at you, not believing what was happing. Since when did you get so bratty? Shaking his head while approaching you and placing the food on the table, he grabbed both of your forearms and looked you deep in the eyes. „Okay now listen here you bratty bitch. You’re gonna listen to me and start behaving or I will punish you so hard that you wish you could turn the time back and thank me for making time for you, okay? I want my good little kitten back because I don’t like nasty strays that don’t obey me. No one would like one, so be happy and appreciate me you ungrateful pice of shit and shut the fuck up.”

Jeong Yunho

He was just staring at you blankly, while you were throwing a tantrum. This already happened a couple of times but it was never this bad. He kept on watching you, until you eventually calmed down yourself. It really provoked you that he didn’t stop you or has done anything for that matter. At some point, you gave up because you knew how well Yunho could control his anger. Honestly, you didn’t even know why you freaked out like that. Both of you were searching for a movie to watch and when Yunho picked one that you already saw and absolutely hated, both of you started auguring. It’s his turn to pick the movie because you picked last time, yet that didn’t sit with you. Maybe you were just having a bad day? At least that’s what Yunho told himself. „Are you done now?” You sat there, at the ground while Yunho sat in front of you, on the couch. „Yea... sorry.” Yunho nodded, pulling you up on his lap. You thought he will cuddle with you but sike, he flipped you over so you were laying on your stomach, over his knees, ass in perfect view for him. „How many hits do you think you deserve? Hm? Maybe 20 or 30? Or... 40 or 50?”

Kang Yeosang

He had this furious and annoyed look on his face. You got kinda terrified now, knowing what a beast this boy could be when he was mad. He watched you until you went silent, sitting next to each other and waiting for what’s going to happen next. You started to get nervous because Yeosang kept looking at you without saying or doing anything. His silence never meant anything good... „Stop looking.” He raised one of his eyebrows. „Stop talking.” You did keep quiet, not knowing what else to do now. „Dumb pet, do you think you’re worth my time? Oh how embarrassing... It’s such a shame that there are so many people who want me yet I chose you over everyone else, an ungrateful little bitch.” His words kinda hurt and you stated to doubt your worth. Maybe he’s right? You maybe should have followed the rules. You shouldn’t have told him no and most important, you shouldn’t have done all of that in front of his friends. You kinda started to regret it but it was way too late now. Even if you did apologize now, Yeosang wouldn’t forgive you, he will punish you no matter what. The more silence there is, the harder the punishment will be. „Go into the bedroom. Take your clothes off and wait for me.”

Choi San

To be direct, you were unnecessarily overreacting. When you visited the boys and watch them while they practiced, San didn’t greet you as usual and you didn’t like that. At all. He was too focused to even notice you tbh. When he finally turned around and spotted you, he rolled his eyes, taking in your grumpy state. He made his way towards you, so he could give you a kiss but you pushed him away. He gave you a questioning look but you just turned your face away. „Hey, give me a kiss.” You still didn’t move, hoping to upset somehow. „Y/N.” His first warning. „Look at me.” Still, you didn’t move. The other members started to notice but kept on practicing because they didn’t wanted to get involved in anything. San exhaled loudly, pulling you up and dragging you out with him. „Don’t touch me!” You yelled at your boyfriend. He didn’t even bother to listen to you. „It hurts!” You hoped that he would loosen his grip a bit, but instead his grip on you got stronger. When he reached his room, he threw you on the bed and undressed himself. „You hurt me!” Still having that attitude on, you again yelled at him. He gave you a murderous look, finally shutting you up. He the hovered over you, staring you dead in the eyes. „If you ever dare to pull something like that in front of the other members again, I will make you regret visiting us, okay? Now better behave, before I completely lose the last bit of my self control, you stupid kid.”

Song Mingi

„Mingi, Mingi! Wake up!” You shook him until he groaned out in annoyance. „Y/N? What’s wrong?” You huffed. „I am bored. You have to do something with me, come on.” You tried to pull him up but he was stronger than you, resulting that you were the one being pulled and laying on top of him now. „Did you loose your mind? It’s three in the morning, let me sleep!” He half yelled, half whispered. As he was about to drift off to sleep again, you pulled on his hair, making him tear his eyes open and cry out loudly. „Ouch! What the heck, Y/N? That hurts!” A smile creeped on your face, finally achieving your goal of waking him up. He just stared at you, giving you a ‘are you serious?’ type of look. „Now that you’re awake, we can do something! Should we watch a movie or should we play some ga-“ „No! We are not going to do any of these! It’s bed time, so lay down! I am not in the mood for all of this.” You smacked his thigh. „No Mingi, get up! What do you not get from 'I am bored, let’s do something’, huh?” He really has enough. „Okay Bunny, you wanna do something? Let’s play a game. It’s called ‘try not to scream while getting your ass beaten and brain fucked out’. Sounds fun, right?” You gulped, then getting pulled and flipped around, so that your backside faced up. At least he’s full of energy now...

Jung Wooyoung

Both of you were sitting in a restaurant. He was already fed up with your behavior but he let go because he didn’t had enough strength to deal with you right now. This cutie was so hungry and tiered after practice, that he didn’t wanted things to go wrong but you really left him no choice. Just because you didn’t wanted to eat in this restaurant and wanted to go to your favorite one instead, you stated to act up, gaining lots of attention from all the nagging and yelling. Wooyoung grabbed your upper arm and pulled you near him, whispering in your ear so others wouldn’t hear. „Shut your mouth now Y/N, I’ve had enough of your bullshit. You’re so fucking embarrassing you stupid brat.” He then let go, harshly shoving your arm away and leaning back. When the waiter approached you two, to note your order, you remained silent. After rolling his eyes, Wooyoung ordered food only for himself. When he finished eating, he stood up and threw some money in the table. He was about to walk away when he turned around to face you. „If you don’t get up within the next two seconds, I will break your legs.” He gave you a last condescending look before walking out. You obeyed and followed him out, joining him in his car. He didn’t even spare you a glance, driving straight to your apartment a grin forming on his face, several ideas for your punishment popping into his head.

Choi Jongho

Hit after hit, you put in more effort to annoy him. You soon realized that this wasn’t enough, so you started pinching and biting him. „Ouch, Y/N, are you crazy?!” Ah, finally! You smirked at him and wiggled your eyebrows, satisfied that he finally showed a reaction. „Do you think that’s funny?” You smiled. „Very. And now that I finally have your attention, you can do something with me. Oh and, get me some water please I am thirsty.” He stared at you in disbelief. „Are you okay, Y/N?” You gave him a look of disapproval. „Uhm, yea? I still am but if you don’t get me my water I won’t be and than I am going to hit you, again.” He was kinda amused now. „Oh? Where does all that attitude come from, all of a sudden?” You shrugged with your shoulders. „I don’t know and I don’t care. You gotta deal with it now.” You laid down on the couch both of you were sitting on and placed your legs on his lap. „I am still waiting for my water Jong.” He didn’t move. You wanted to raise your head up to scold him but he was faster than you, now hovering over you. „I will give you something else to drink. Get down and kneel. We have to clean that bratty mouth of yours, yea? Come on brat, suck me off. You don’t want me to get mad now, do you?”

[purplesurveys]

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survey by ohsh1t2wksl8

Layers

Layer 1: The Basics

Name: Since there’ve been several people who’ve followed me recently anyway, HI I’m Robyn.

Age: 23.

Birthday: April 21st.

Gender: Female.

Zodiac Sign: Taurus.

Layer 2: Your Family

Do you have any brothers or sisters? Yes, I have one of each.

Do you have any pets? Yup, two dogs.

Do you still live with your parents? I do. I’m not in a rush.

Do you have any stepparents? Nope.

How many cousins do you have? 11 first cousins. Throwing my second cousins into the mix would dramatically increase the number and I don’t feel like counting rn.

Layer 3: Your Friends

Who is your best friend? Angela and Andi.

Who have you been friends with the longest? Angela and I have been friends for 16 years and it’s stronger as ever these days because of our mutual love for BTS hehe.

What do you like to do with your friends? It really depends! There’s no one thing I like doing most with any of them; as long as I’m with them I’d consider it time well spent.

Do you have more friends online or in real life? Real life. It’s hard to form friendships online once nearly everyone starts becoming younger than you.

What is a good way to make friends with others? One thing I learned is that you have to be okay to initiate, and that’s not really something I like doing all the time.

Layer 4: Your Home

Do you live in a home, apartment, duplex, trailer, etc? I live in a house.

How many rooms are there in your house? There are 4 bedrooms and 5 other kinds of rooms – that’s 2 bathrooms, the living room, dining room, and kitchen.

Is your home large or small? I’d say it’s medium-sized. It’s not small that I feel cramped or inadequate, but it’s also nowhere near a mansion. It’s very comfortable for a family of 5.

What is your favorite room in your house, and why? Rooftop. My family barely goes there (and what a shame they don’t), so it’s a nice place to go to when I want to be alone but can’t get out of the house. Not to mention that it’s open-air and windy there, so whenever I feel as if I’m getting cooked inside I can always depend on the rooftop.

Do you prefer having people over to your house, or would you rather go to theirs? I’d rather go to theirs. Our house is really deep into the village and is a challenge to get to, especially if you’re unfamiliar with the general area.

Layer 5: Can You

Can you fold your tongue into the taco shape? Yes, but that’s the furthest it can go. I can’t really bend or twist it into shapes more complex than that.

Can you touch your toes without bending your knees? Nah, I lost that ability years ago. I didn’t make the most out of my flexibility back when I still had it.

Can you tie a cherry stem in a knot with your tongue? I never tried.

Can you hold up your end of a physical fight? I bet I can’t.

Can you do any yo-yo tricks? No, I was always terrible at the yo-yo.

Layer 6: Who

Who inspires you the most, and why? I don’t have any ~inspirations. I do like looking up to whoever my current obsession is – be it Rhett and Link, Paramore, BTS, etc. – to help me be happy and have something to smile at, but I try not to let any of them govern every single aspect of my life.

Who helps you maintain your sanity? My best friends. And these days, surprise surprise! – BTS.

Who do you go to most often for advice? Depends on the topic; I always run to either of my best friends. If I need a collective opinion, I go to my college friend group’s group chat.

Who knows you better than you know yourself? At one point it had been Gabie, but *shrug* Nowadays, the person who knows me best would probably be Andi.

Who is someone that you would die or put your life on the line for, no questions asked? Any of my friends.

Layer 7: Do you

Do you still eat sandwiches without the crusts? Nah - I’ve grown to be a fan of the crusts. I used to make my grandma slice them off as a kid or else I wouldn’t even think of touching the sandwich; then something changed as I got older and now I absolutely have to have the crust. At home, I even call dibs on the first and last pieces of bread (the ones that are all crust) whenever we get a new pack of sliced bread.

Do you typically finish your meal at a restaurant, or need to take a container home? I usually ask for it to be packed up for takeout.

Do you pull an Oreo apart in order to eat it? No, I just bite into it.

Do you read a lot of gossip magazines? As a kid/teenager. I’m over that now.

Do you make friends easily? I’m not the biggest social butterfly, but I’m also not super closed off. I’ll be happy to talk to anyone who approaches me.

Layer 8: How Many?

How many people live in your house with you? Four.

How many pets have you had in your lifetime? In my lifetime...I guess a good rough estimate would be somewhere around 10? I’ll never know exactly how many we’ve had since I never kept track of how many goldfish we kept.

How many tries does it take you to become successful at something? Depends. I never learned how to ride a bike even if I’ve pushed myself to practice ever since I was 5, but there are other things I’m able to pick up easily.

How many meals do you eat a day? One, dinner.

How many people can you honestly tolerate? This isn’t really an issue to me haha, I like being around people and my patience around them is usually long.

Layer 9: How

How do you typically get to school or work? I work from home at the moment and probably would for a little while longer; but if things were different, I would be driving myself.

How do you deal with a breakup? When I was going through mine, I was stupidly stubborn at first and refused any form of help. I deactivated all my social media and shut both my best friends out; it even got to a point where mutual friends were beginning to ask Andi where I’ve been as I’ve “disappeared off the face of the Earth” (an actual quote they relayed to me). I cried day in and day out, cried during my shifts, stayed holed up in my room; and I skipped hundreds of meals, sometimes not eating all day. It wasn’t a good place to be in.

But I knew I was on the right path to recovering the moment I reached out to friends again and acknowledged that I needed help. I started to help myself, too; I cut the person off slowly, and I started to look for new things to get into, new hobbies to invest in. I let my friends give me tough love and show me the reality of my situation, and I listened this time around. I don’t know what drove me to make a sudden change in my life but I’m really glad I came around to the decision, because I’m happier than ever these days.

How do you like to help others? All sorts of ways. I always want to make others’ lives a little easier.

How do you know when you’ve found “the one”? I don’t trust that instinct anymore.

How do you sleep in bed? On my side, clutching a pillow. No pillow to hug, no sleep.

Layer 10: What

What do you think happens when we die? That I just fall asleep for a very long time.

What do you do if there’s no toilet paper left on the roll and you’re already peeing? Turn around and hope there is at least a bidet in the stall.

What do you eat most often? Rice.

What toys did you enjoy most as a child? Anything with a lot of buttons or features to play around with, like detailed dollhouses.

What do you do if you witness someone being awful to someone else? Intervene, for the most part.

Layer 11: Where

Where is your favorite place to eat out? BGC has great ambience and restaurant choices, but it’s been a while since I’ve been there. I also still feel weird about the place since Gabie and I had dates there pretty often, sooooo I really ought to make new memories there with new people once I can.

Where is the place that has the best ice cream in your area? We don’t really have places known for ice cream...most people just buy pints or tubs of them at the grocery lol.

Where did you meet your current or last significant other? School.

Where can you be found at 7 PM. typically? Wrapping up work in my room.

Where can you find the best French fries? Potato Corner.

Layer 12: When

When did you find out the truth about Santa, the Easter Bunny, and the Tooth Fairy? Never believed in the first two. Tooth Fairy I lost hope in when I placed a tooth under my pillow when I was around 6 or 7 and woke up to nothing.

When do you typically fall asleep? Early hours of the morning tbh. I’d sleep anywhere between 1-4 AM these days.

When was the last time that someone paid you a compliment? Kata and I often make sure to compliment one another for our hard work by the end of particularly grueling shifts.

When do you feel most comfortable? Friday nights when I’m sure I can finally close my work group chats for the next two days.

When did you last go to the bathroom? Around an hour or so ago.

Layer 13: Why

Why do you enjoy taking surveys so much? It’s a stress reliever that has never failed me, and it lets me answers quirky random questions no one would ever have to ask me.

Why do people gossip so much? For one, probably the thrill of knowing something that's meant to be a thing.

Why can’t humans fly? It wouldn’t have been a necessity, I’m guessing.

Why aren’t you doing something else right now? Because I just spent the last 24 hours streaming Butter on Spotify and YouTube to raise views and plays for the boys, and taking this survey is actually the first thing I’ve done all day after taking a quick nap this afternoon to recover from all the streaming I did hahaha.

Why is the sky blue? I don’t know.

Layer 14: If…

If you had a million dollars, what would you spend it on? Buy chocolate chips because I’m craving them rn; get all BTS merch in one go; give a chunk to my parents; keep the rest.

If you found out someone was cheating on you, would you ever take them back? I don’t really have consistency when it comes to this situation. I know I definitely would’ve been stupid enough to stay with Gab if she hypothetically cheated on me while we were still together; I’m not sure if I’d stay when it comes to another person entirely.

If you found a wallet with cash in the street, including identification, would you turn it in? Why or why not? Yeah, I’d look for the owner. I’m not that desperate for money, personally.

If you could have any food right now, what would you like?   SUSHI.

If you found out that the world was going to end tomorrow, how would you spend your last day? Go to the mall and get some much-needed air, then probably drop off some japchae and tteokbokki at Angela’s place.

Layer 15: Firsts

When did you lose your first tooth? I was in Prep and it actually fell out while I was in school. We were having storytime and I had to interrupt the session to tell my teacher it was starting to feel loose, so she got me some tissues to help me get it out.

Who was your first teacher that you ever had? Her name was Kathy. I don’t really have any substantial memories of her because I was 4 lmao, but I know she was nice.

When did you first learn how to ride a bike? ...Still learning...

When was the first time you had sex? Like a day or two after turning 18.

Did your first birthday have a theme to it? Not necessarily but my parents threw me a party at Jollibee, so it kinda had to be Jollibee-themed lol.

Layer 16: Lasts

Last person you texted: I don’t feel like checking because it was most definitely a work-related text and I don’t want to be reminded of work on a Sunday, but it was a media person. 

Last drink you sipped: The last of my coffee.

Last time you rode a bike: Like, March last year when the pandemic had still been fresh and I thought I could use all the free time to finally learn how to ride a bike. Absolute clownery.

Last time you swam in a pool: August 2019.

Last person you hugged: Not sure. Angela, I think.

Layer 17: Favorites

Favorite Color: I think pastel pink is still taking the lead for me.

Favorite Season: We don’t have the usual four seasons, but I do have a liking for winter. It just seems very cozy for me.

Favorite Shape: I don’t have one.

Favorite Letter: Mmmmm, don’t really have one of these either.

Favorite Number: 4 or 7.

Layer 18: This or That

Pepsi or Coke? I don’t drink softdrinks.

Movies or Television? Movies, but I haven’t really been watching much of either recently.

Phone or Tablet? Phone. Haven’t used a tablet in yearrrrrsssssss.

Fruits or Vegetables? Veggies. Hate fruits.

Animals or Humans? I think I like both an equal amount.

Layer 19: Which

Which Poke’mon is your favorite? Chikorita.

Which day of the week is your favorite? Friday, because of course.

Which birthday celebration was the most memorable for you? My 18th, even though out of all the friends I celebrated my birthday with I only have one of them left in my life. I know I was happy during that time so I wouldn’t invalidate that experience for myself.

Which holiday is your favorite? Christmas, only for the sheer amount of food I get to have.

Which shoe do you put on first? I always switch it up, I’m pretty sure. I don’t have a particular habit.

Layer 20: Love Life/Relationships

What is the name of your first love? Gabie.

How many times can you honestly say you’ve been in love? Once.

Have you ever been in a relationship before that was abusive in any way? After being able to take a step back and analyzing it deeper, yes.

Have you ever been engaged or married before? Nope.

Do you have any children? I don’t.

Layer 21: Jobs, Dreams, & Goals

What did you want to be when you grew up (as a little kid)? I couldn’t decide among being an astronaut, firefighter, or veterinarian.

What do you aspire to be now? What interests you? I realized I wanted to be in the field of media and public relations, and that’s where I am now. I like being able to use my writing skills for something I find fun and fulfilling, instead of rotting away in a newsroom writing news I’m usually too sensitive for.

What is the most recent goal you’ve achieved? I got regularized! :)

What is a goal you are still striving to reach? A salary increase would be nice, and then a promotion down the road would also be awesome.

Have you ever won any sort of awards before? If so, for what? Sure. I was consistently on the honor roll in college and graduated with Latin honors, if those count as awards.

Layer 22: Opinions & Beliefs

Pro-life or pro-choice? Pro-choice.

Were you raised with any sort of religious background? If so, then what? Yesss, I was and am raised in a Catholic household. Weirdly enough my parents have grown more laidback in the last few years and my mom no longer berates us for not doing the sign of the cross when we pray before eating (my siblings have taken after me and refuse to do it as well). No idea what sparked that change but I’m just glad I never have to do gestures like that one anymore.

Democrat, Republican, or Independent? We don’t have the same parties here.

For or against the death penalty? This is a very complicated web and for reasons largely relevant to my country and the issues we have, I am mostly against it.

Thoughts on assisted suicide? I am ok with it as long as there is consent involved. 

Layer 23: Currently/Today/Present

What day is it? It’s Sunday again, blegh.

What’s the weather like outside? Sunny.

What have you eaten? Just a Fudgee Bar so far but I’m having breakfast with my family in an hour or so.

Did you run any errands? Well it’s only 8:37 AM so not yet, but one or two might come up throughout the day.

What time is it? 8:38 now.

Layer 24: Yesterday

Did you have a work shift? No, I don’t work Saturdays.

Did you eat out anywhere? No :( I’ve wanted to for a while, though. Maybe I might today, actually – they’ve loosened up quarantine protocols so restaurants have opened up again. Let’s see if I’ll feel like driving today.

Was it snowing? It doesn’t snow here.

Who did you last say goodnight to? Cooper.

Did anything unusual happen? It rained and there was cold breeze during the evening.

Layer 25: Tomorrow

Do you have to go to school/class? No, but I do have to go to work.

Does this day have any sort of significance to you? May 24...I don’t think so. Nothing comes to mind.

What is a chore that needs to get done? My veeeeeeery long list of to-do tasks that I’m trying not to think about rn.

Will you hang out with friends? No chance of that happening.

What time will you be expected to be awake by? 9 AM.

Layer 26: Have You Ever

Performed a magic trick successfully? I don’t think so.

Sat or laid on a rooftop and looked at the stars? I’m at the rooftop all the time but I only occasionally lie down to look at the stars.

Walked around with your underwear on inside out or backwards all day without realizing it? Nope.

Touched a snake? Yep. I’ve had one wrapped around me before, too.

Been bitten by an animal? If so, what animal? Just by ants and mosquitoes.

Layer 27: School Life

Are preschool and kindergarten mandatory where you live? Not sure about mandatory but I’m pretty sure I’ve heard of people who went straight to first grade as kids, either because of advanced intelligence or financial limitations.

Were you or anyone you knew homeschooled? I have one set of cousins who are all homeschooled; and I also used to have classmates who eventually transferred out of my school to be homeschooled instead.

Did you attend public or private school? Private.

Were you bullied in school, popular, or somewhere in-between? I was a loner for the most part, but after befriending the popular groups in high school I kind of got dragged into that scene as well.

What is the highest level of education that you completed? Undergraduate degree.

Layer 28: Your Appearance

Eye Color: Dark brown/black.

Hair Color: Black.

Height: 5′1″.

Weight: A little under 100 lbs.

Do you have freckles, moles, beauty marks, or birthmarks - and where? I have moles on my right arm, under my jaw, near my left knee, and under my left boob. I have a birthmark behind my left shoulder.

Layer 29: Electronics, Internet, & Social Media

How much time do you spend on the internet per day? Hahahah yeesh, way to put me on the spot. I wanna say anywhere between 16-18 hours? I’m online the second I wake up until the moment I turn in for bed.

Which social media platforms do you belong to? Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, YouTube, Tumblr.

When’s the last time you replaced the batteries in your television remote? 4975493875495743 years ago.

Are you more likely to stream movies and shows on your laptop, or cast them to your television? Laptop.

Do you have an e-reader, or do you prefer actual books? I don’t read regularly anymore, but I’ve never liked reading from a screen. I prefer a physical book as much as possible.

Layer 30: Are You

Are you still in school? No. I’m not opposed to grad school either, but it has to be a REALLY REALLY REALLY fucking great opportunity for me to sink my teeth into it. We’re talking getting accepted to grad school in like Spain or NYU; otherwise I wouldn’t take it.

Are you a member of the LGBTQ+ community? Yes.

Are you looking forward to anything coming soon? Festa month!

Are you dreading anything coming soon? Work tomorrow.

Are you gullible or naive? I can be both.

Layer 31: Does

Does your workplace make you feel like you can never take a day off without feeling guilty about it? Not at all. I’m really grateful they take vacation leaves seriously; we even have a Mental Health Break Day scheduled two Fridays from now. Purely a company thing.

Does someone currently hold the key to your heart? Kim Taehyung... :/

Does anyone out there hate you? Idk and I couldn’t give less of a shit if anyone does.

Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? No.

Does crying make you feel less strong? Nope. It took me a while to realize it, but acknowledging feelings and processing them is actually one of the strongest things you can do for yourself. 

Layer 32: Would You

Do the Polar Bear Plunge? Idk what that is.

Ever try to walk across a room blindfolded? I’ve done it before, so sure.

Swim with sharks? As long as I’m surrounded with experts, yes.

Go into outer space, given the chance? In a heartbeat.

Go out in public, looking how you do right now? Nope.

Layer 33: Pets/Animals

Do you have any pets? If so, what type, and their names… Yesss. There’s Kimi who’s an aspin, and Cooper the beagle.

If not, what type of pet have you always wanted?

What is your favorite animal? Dogs and elephants :)

Do you think it is cruel to have circus animals? Yes, or having animals do tricks for show, in general. I always discourage my parents from booking tickets to animal theme parks when we plan vacations.

How often do you walk your dog, if you have one? How often do you scoop the litterbox, if you have a cat? Every week.

Layer 34: Food

What is your favorite breakfast item? Fried rice.

What is your favorite kind of dessert? Macarons and cheescake.

Do you eat all three meals everyday? Nah. I have one meal on weekdays, and two meals on some weekends.

What’s the longest you’ve gone without food? Around 24 hours.

What do you like to eat when you are feeling sick? Greasy things haha. If I’m feeling like death, might as well be having good food.

Layer 35: Past

Does your past ever come back to haunt you at times? Not really.

What is one of your favorite memories of the past? Spending my college years with the right people.

What is something that you used to do in the past, but no longer do? Harm myself.

If you could have a meal with someone from the past, who would it be, and what would you ask them? Audrey Hepburn, but I don’t really have a question for her. It would just be nice to get to spend a few minutes with her.

Which historical time period would you like to go back to and check out? Precolonial Philippines.

Layer 36: Future

Do you think you will ever get married one day? It’s definitely a lovely scenario to have but I’m really unsure about it at the moment just because there’s no one I have in mind and I have no plans to start dating around again soon.

Do you plan on ever getting a different job in the future, or are you happy with the one you’ve got? I’m happy with the one I have and I don’t see it changing any time soon.

What age do you plan to retire at? Or do you plan on working til you’re dead? Probably the latter haha.

What is something on your bucket list worth mentioning? Going to Wrestlemania.

If given the opportunity to see how your future plays out, would you take it, or no? Yes.

Layer 37: Hygiene

How often do you shower? Once daily. Twice if it’s stupidly hot during the day.

How often do you brush your teeth? Once or twice a day.

Do you actually iron any of your clothes? Mm, not really. But if I was planning on wear something that gets easily crumpled, I iron that in advance.

How often do you do laundry? I’m not in charge of laundry.

How long do you use a bath towel before switching it out? Around 1–2 weeks.

Layer 38: Clothing, Makeup, & Style

Do you wear nail polish? If so, how often do you paint your nails? Nah.

How would your describe your sense of style? I like sticking with trends as long as I feel comfortable in them.

Are there any popular trends that you do not find appealing? Just makeup in general.

Where do you typically buy your clothing from? Local small businesses or H&M. 

What sorts of accessories do you wear/use? I don’t really invest in them, but I wanna start buying more headbands, bucket hats, and earrings.

Layer 39: Hobbies

Do you still color, even as an adult? Occasionally.

Do you/would you like to crochet, knit, cross-stitch, etc? Yeaaah I do embroidery but I’ve stopped for a while since finding other interests and hobbies to dabble in. I have no plans to ditch it completely though; I’ll come back to it when the time is right.

What’s the last thing you crafted all by yourself? Not sure.

Do you use Pinterest at all? Nope.

What’s the last thing that you cooked or baked? Lol.

Layer 40: Dislikes

List some of your pet peeves here. Driving slowly on lanes intended for overtaking; taking too much of my food; being subtle about asking for favors.

What are some things that annoy you about yourself? Easily punishing myself for mistakes, no matter how small; I also find that putting others first before myself 100% of the time can sometimes end up being an inconvenience for myself.

Is there anyone out there who you actually hate? Who? Nope.

What is a feeling that you dislike? “I should have done/said this.” Not sure what feeling this falls under (maybe helplessness?), but having these thoughts irritate me to no end especially if I can’t do anything about the situation.

Do you get some ugly road rage while driving? Yep.

Layer 41: Random

Have you ever successfully pogo’ed on a pogo stick? Nah, I’ve never even seen one in real life. Ever since I was a kid, I’ve always been dying to try getting on one lol. 

Have you ever mastered the jump rope? I wouldn’t say I’m a master, but I can do the basic jumps and last a long time doing them.

Do you know what it feels like to be truly happy? I don’t know if I’ve determined this already; I have a lot of years ahead of me and lots of experiences I’ve yet to go through.

Is it winter in your part of the world right now? No.

What’s your favorite type of survey, and why? Random ones or ones with categories, like this one.

Layer 42: Music

What are some of your favorite genres of music? Alternative, folk indie, punk rock, R&B...and BTS.

What are some music genres that you can’t stand? Country, screamo, techno.

If you had a blank pair of concert tickets, who would you hope to be going to see? Any one of my holy trinity: Paramore, Beyoncé, or BTS.

Do you still listen to music on the radio from time to time? Not anymore, come to think of it. I’m completely unaware of the Top 40 space right now, and have been for a while.

iTunes, Spotify, Pandora, Amazon Music, or YouTube? Spotify.

Layer 43: Books

What were some of your favorite books as a child? The Septimus Heap series and the Percy Jackson series.

What genre of books do you typically read most often? Memoirs.

What are some of your favorite books as an adult? I don’t read anymore.

What is a book that you were required to read for school that you actually enjoyed? Hands down, Without Seeing the Dawn. I remember fairly enjoying Charlotte’s Web and Number the Stars as well.

Do you read any newspapers or magazines anymore? No.

Layer 43: Around the World

Where’s the best place you’ve taken a vacation and/or day trip to? Jeju, South Korea; Bali, Indonesia; Palawan; Batanes; and Boracay.

Where is somewhere that you’d like to go someday, assuming you have the funds to do so? Seoul, South Korea.

Where do your family members originate from? Just Philippines.

What is your favorite type of ethnic cuisine? All Asian cuisines. Each of them is so unique and always has something new to discover.

What is something that is typically representative of your own culture? Jollibee? Hahaha.

Layer 44: Would you Rather…

Drink apple juice or grape juice? Apple.

Wear pants or shorts? Shorts, as much as possible.

Be taller or shorter? Taller.

Go to a zoo or an aquarium? Neither if possible.

Visit an art gallery or a museum? Museum.

Layer 45: Movies

Do you remember what the first movie was that you saw in theaters? Stuart Little 2 when I was 4.

What are some of your favorite movies you’ve seen? Two for the Road, Gone with the Wind, Roman Holiday, Revolutionary Road, Toy Story, Ferris Bueller’s Day Off, and Room.

What genre of movie do you typically enjoy? Drama.

What is a movie you’ve seen that you weren’t expecting to like, but were pleasantly surprised? Requiem For A Dream, but maybe remove ‘pleasantly.’ Anomalisa is also a good answer for this.

How many movies do you own? Are they all DVD’s, or do you still have some VHS ones left? I just watch them on Netflix, haha.

Layer 46: Personality

Are you more of an introvert or an extrovert? I’m really more of an ambivert than anything else. I can deal with alone time and more social days equally well.

Are you more easygoing and laid back, or anal? Again, I can be both depending on the situation.

Are you kind to everyone who shows that they deserve kindness? Yes.

Describe your sense of humor. I can laugh over anything from dad jokes to crackhead memes.

Do you tend to over-share? Not really. I tend to have a good sense of how much I should share depending on the person/group I’m with.

Layer 47: Celebrities

Which celebrity has given their child the most unique name, in your opinion? I mean, Elon Musk and Grimes have to be up there, right? The Kardashians have also given their kids unique names, but I actually am a fan of them all.

Are there any celebrities that you keep tabs on/read articles about often? Nah, I’m past that part of my life lol. As obsessed as I am with BTS and as unavoidable rumors about their personal life are, I literally don’t care and just want them to have happy private lives. That’s one of the reasons why I know I’m truly in my 20s now hahaha.

Who is/are your celebrity crush(es)? Kim Taehyung, Hayley Williams, Kristen Stewart.

Have you ever personally met someone famous before? If so, then who? A lot of local celebrities and personalities since it came with the nature of my course.

Who is a celebrity that you’re getting tired of hearing about all the time? Ariana Grande and Taylor Swift.

Layer 48: Emotions

When was the last time you cried? Earlier, but they were happy tears.

What are some things that you’re afraid of? Big change, injections, drowning, sharp objects.

What is something small that makes you happy? Cold weather.

Who is the last person that you were angry with, and about what? My mom wrongfully blaming me for something I had very little to do with. Both my siblings are very sensitive and are never scolded, so I usually take the heat even for things I’m barely involved in. Such is the life of the eldest daughter in an Asian household, lmao.

Are you typically a shy or outgoing person? I’m always shy at first, but end up being perky and outgoing once warmed up.

Layer 49: Digging Deeper

What is your favorite alcoholic beverage? Mixed drinks.

How old were you when you got drunk for the first time? 18.

Do you smoke? Very rarely. I don’t want to make it a habit.

Have you ever taken and sent naked pictures of yourself? I have.

Have you ever done any drugs other than marijuana? If so, which ones? No.

Layer 50: Games

What are some of your favorite video games? Mario Kart, Resident Evil, and Legend of Zelda are some of my favorite series.

Do you have any computer games that you play regularly? I don’t play computer games.

What was your favorite board game, growing up? Scrabble.

How about your favorite card game? I also don’t play card games.

How good are you at solving puzzles? (such as a Rubik’s cube, word puzzles, or putting together a jigsaw puzzle) I don’t like puzzles.

[some-cookie-crumbz]

KamiShin with either Baby prompt 27 or 33?

You straight came for me with this one, Anon! I am a big, weak softie for writing ships being domestic and happy, so I decided to combine the two prompts into one!!! Also, there’s brief mentions to TodoDeku in this fic but they aren’t the focus!

“Little one snuggling with a stuffed animal.” and “Waking up to little one crying out in their sleep.”

Parenthood was, as far as Denki was concerned, a weird sort of balancing act. His mother hadn’t exactly been around much. She was there, sure, but she wasn’t really as involved with him or his sisters like she could have been. She never attended their club events or sports games. She didn’t really know much about their interests; their hobbies, their career goals, their hopes for their future social and romantic lives. When Denki had decided to attend UA, his father had been encouraging and supportive while his mother had seemed a bit surprised. “Most heroes are intelligent as well as powerful, though, aren’t they?” she has asked, the look of genuine confusion on her face seeming like a second slap in the face.

Denki knew he wasn’t the best when it came to book smarts. He’d always known that. But he still wanted to help people. Wasn’t that enough? Even with his meager grades he got accepted to his dream school. He made it through his schooling, made it into the big leagues with the other big dogs, and was able to help people like he always wanted. All the while his mother still seemed so damn stunned by all he could accomplish, but he had his father and his sisters. And then he had his husband, Hitoshi, who was supportive in his own weird little ways, and Tosh’s family.

But then came the decision to have a child of their own. He'd been thrilled about it in the earlier stages, but as the due date grew closer, uneasiness started to keep up. He found himself filled with anxiety over being a parent. What if he ended up being like his mother? What if the child felt unloved and underappreciated? As if sensing his insecurities one day, Hitoshi had leaned his head against Denki's shoulder and peeked up at him. "Hey," he drawled, "Papa Zashi told me something funny today."

"Oh yeah?"

"He said 'You'll know you're a good parent because your kids will turn out a little less messed up than you," he parrotted, putting just the slightest bit of enthusiasm into his voice for a better imitation. He was pretty sure that wasn't how his father-in-law had actually said it, but he appreciated the sentiment and it helped to reassure him. It reminded him that even if his own mother couldn't be relied on, he had a support system he could put his trust in. Plus, he had a wonderful husband to help, too.

And then, a few weeks later, Himeka was there in his arms and they settled into a comfortable routine over the year to follow. Within a few weeks she was already showing off her lite personality, constantly wanting to be held and cuddled and cooed at. She was a needy little thing but Denki kind of liked how affectionate she was. It was nice to come home and have her chubby little hands grabbing at him, eager for his attention and snuggles. He could take or leave her tendency to wake at all hours of the night, but he had anticipated that. She was also Shinsou Hitoshi's daughter, after all, so she had to inherit something other than her eyes from her Papa.

Which was why, on his day off, getting her to nap became a travesty.

He'd hoped that by going out for the afternoon, that'd help to wear her out a little bit. He took her to the mall for a bit with Todoroki and his two kids with Izuku. Satoshi, their son, was just a year older than Himeka while Momiji, their daughter, was just a few months off from her. It had been fun watching the two babies babble at each other excitedly while Shi tried to talk with he and Sho. It was pretty cute trying to parse out actual words in the toddlerese the little guy was dishing out. Todoroki would help fill in the blanks of the words Denki couldn’t make out which he chalked up to either being able to understand his own child or being used to deciphering cryptic tongues. He was, after all, married to Midoriya Izuku.

A part of him hoped it was just a parent-child connection, simply to make life easier for himself and Hitoshi once she started putting words together.

By the time they got back from the mall, she was passed out in her car seat. After sneaking her inside and into her crib, he took a second to bring in the few purchases they’d gotten at the mall, grabbed the baby monitor from the bedroom, and then settled on the couch to watch some tv. He dozed off not too long into some drama series that just happened to be one, desperate for the nap.

Less than thirty minutes later, he was jostled awake by an ear-piercing wail on the baby monitor.

In his surprise, he accidentally let off a small spark of electric discharge before fumbling for the baby monitor. Himeka was sitting up in her crib, blonde hair an absolute mess, and little eyes overflowing with tears. He took off towards her room and scooped her up once there. “Hey, hey. It’s okay, lil Hime,” he crooned softly, keeping her bundled up in her blanket and trying to gently rock her in his arms.

She slumped into him but kept crying, though it was muffled a bit by his shoulder and shirt. He rubbed her back and swayed with her a bit, trying to soothe her further. He got her down to quiet whimpers and whines, but the minute he’d try putting her back down, she’d start screaming again. He tried sitting in the rocking chair with her next, seeing if maybe he could get her to fall asleep and then easily transition her. That plan worked… Until he tripped on her toy piano and the clatter woke her back up.

It was another ten minutes after that rude awakening before he got her to stop crying. He tried offering her one of her little plush toys, but she shoved it away. “You don’t want Mister Sloth? But you love Mister Sloth!” he gasped quietly. Her response, sass master that she was already shaping up to, was to grab the stuffed animal’s arm and huck it to the floor. “Well, I guess that’s as kind a break up as any, huh?” he chuckled with a shake of his head. And then a thought occurred to him, making him gasp and carry her back out to the front room. He might have something that would help coerce her to fall asleep.

He headed down and over to the shopping bags, particularly tearing into a large cardboard box. Himeka perked up to watch as he pulled the prize out and squealing excitedly as it was handed over to her.

While at the mall, they’d stop by the Build-a-Bear store to see what they had. They were running a special promotion including some new, limited edition animal plushies based off of retired Pros. They had selected specifical animals, and even had tiny replicas made of each available Pros most recognizable outfit. A few of the stand outs in the collection were ones based off of All Might, Fat Gum, Midnight, Mirko, Eraserhead, Present Mic and Endeavor. They had all been transformed from the Pros they were known as to being a the furry forms of; a bunny, a bear, a mongoose, another bunny, a cat, an elephant and a hedgehog respectively. Denki had been unnerved by how Todoroki had outright laughed at the stuffed hedgehog replica of his own father.

But once they got in and started browsing, Himeka’s eyes had been drawn to one of the collection options immediately. And Denki could hear Toshi’s voice chiding him in the back of his mind how she already had enough stuffed animals and didn’t need another but how was he supposed to say no? Not when she hugged the little display model to herself, nearly dwarfed by the mere size of the toy compared to her, and looked so damn happy to be cuddling it? Besides, he could see Todoroki flagging down an employee to start stuffing at least three of the Bun Might skins for his kids and Izuku! It was only fair that he get something for Himeka, too, so she didn’t feel left out compared to her friends!

And, of course, he had to make sure to get both Emeowserhead and Elepresent Mic, because he was a good son-in-law like that.

He smiled as he settled back down on the couch, Himeka happily nuzzling away at her stuffed toy. “You really love that Papa Yama doll, don’t you?” he asked.

She peeked up at him, all shining lavender eyes, and squeezed the doll tighter to herself. A slightly muffled “Yeah~!” came from the little voice box in it being hit, which made her giggle. He smiled as she happily nuzzled down into both he and her toy, looking happy as a clam. Within just a few minutes her little eyelids were drooping and she was out like a light less than two after that. Denki quietly slid his phone out and took a selfie of them, dropping it into the little family group chat Hitoshi had been adamant about needing the closer they got to Himeka’s arrival.

He added the caption of “Bab has a new favorite nap time cuddle buddy! Yeah~!” with it before setting his phone aside and managing to get a full two hour nap. When he work up, it to was a myriad of notifications from the group chat, Twitter, Facebook and various news outlets after Mic made the image his profile pic on everything.

[reallyreallyreallytrying]

The Ferret

I was reading about ferrets, and I read about how they go scurrying through the rabbit tunnels in the dark and they get the rabbits. And I thought, Hey, that's great! You could make a superhero about ferrets. The Ferret. Brave, fierce, slinky, kinda sexy. Right? Kinda sexy! "Ferreting out crime". Sounds like a thing. So I got out the ol' credit card and I had three interest free months, which felt like a sign. Right? What are the odds? Are you kidding me? So I went down to the fabric store and got a bunch of fabric and went to the hardware store for some wire and tools and whatnot and then went to a tailor with a pic of a ferret I printed out at the library and pointed at it and said "Make ME... into THIS." And I gave the guy three hundred bucks. The guy was like, whoa. I could see he was into it. Making a superhero costume, are you kidding me right now. Bucket list. Um, yes. And I handed him the bag of box cutters and LED lights for the outfit and he nodded and slid it under the table. I knew right then and there we had a collaboration going on. Like this guy was gonna be my Alfred, if Alfred made outfits for Batman. So the next day I came back and honestly the guy, the tailor, his name was Rod, nailed it. I basically gave Rod the job on the spot, although it's not a job so I didn't. There was a cute little furry cap with sharp teeth that hung over my forehead and red LED light eyes that glared fiercely. It was connected to a cape that went down my back but also had sleeves which had razor sharp claws at the end. Literally razor sharp because they were blades from the box cutters I bought. It was so cool. I put it on and twirled and snarled. I pounced on Rod and pretended to nibble on his neck a little. He was cheering. He loved it. I went out looking for crime that night but I couldn't find anything. Not to worry. It just meant that the streets were safe. I kept going out but I still couldn't find any crime. That's a good thing, right? You don't WANT to see crime. There must have been no crime, I figured. But then I checked the news and there'd been loads of crime. I just hadn't been in the right place at the right time. Rod suggested it was because I was too visible with my light brown fur. Crooks were seeing me and leaving the area. So we rebuilt the costume from the ground up with black fur. Now I was gonna blend in at night and the black fur would hide stains better too. I went out again but I still couldn't find any crime. I was starting to get bummed out. I was ready to stop crime but none of it was happening in the right place. I had to get back to basics. I thought about what a ferret would do. Well, for one, it wouldn't be a fucking HOBBY. Get the rabbit or die. That's the ferret's code. I needed to think like a ferret or it was just a costume. I stopped eating and vowed not to start again until I'd stopped a crime. The first night I felt pretty good but didn't find any crime. The second night I was light-headed and I found a guy breaking into a car. He said it was his car but I didn't believe that shit. I punched him and he came back at me so I slashed him with my ferret claws. Fair's fair I probably slashed a bit too hard because he started bleeding real bad and just died. Anyway I ran home and I got to eat dinner because I'd done Ferret justice. I ate two whole boxes of Easy Mac and went to sleep. The next day I felt so good. I went out again and found a guy stealing mail and a guy who looked suspicious. I gave them Ferret justice and ate some fried chicken and Mountain Dew. The next night there were cops everywhere so I stayed in. The night after that too. I was getting hungry. After four nights I put on my Ferret costume anyway and went out anyway. I'd barely started looking for crime when the cops stopped me. Hey, what's the deal? I asked. Nothing here but a ferret fan who loves justice. As if there's any other kind. But they had other questions for me. Of course, I wasn't interested in working within the confines of the law. What, does Batman turn up for his shift? Does Spiderman take anyone’s shit? More importantly do ferrets? You ever seen a ferret with a boss? No fuckin' way. A ferret is long and wriggly. A ferret is beholden to no one but the tunnels. Anyway, I wriggled on out of there but it kinda meant things were hotter than ever. And I still hadn't eaten. I couldn't go home on account of the situation with the police so I went down to the canal and found a nice dry stormwater pipe. It was cosy and had great acoustics. I hissed and snarled a bunch until I was happy with how my hissing and snarling was sounding. It was embarrassing that I'd even tried to fight crime before I'd really nailed down my hissing and snarling. A superhero needs an audible calling card, like Batman's gravelly voice or the "shink" sound Wolverine's claws make when they come out. The other great thing about the pipe was that it was like a tunnel. Like a tunnel but made of concrete, which is essentially exactly what The Ferret's secret base would be like. Right? Aesthetic references to the source animal but reinforced with cutting edge human tech? Are you kidding? Am I wrong here? So it was basically perfect. I couldn't run the risk of being stopped by the lumbering institutions of the law before I'd had the chance to tangle with a bona fide supervillain so I laid low in the pipe for a few more days, maybe a week. I was getting real hungry so I practised by catching and eating some seagulls since I figured it was basically allowed under a more relaxed definition of my character. I had no idea what supervillains were out there or how to find them. I needed to do some serious research. I was open to relocating, if necessary, if another city had a supervillain who needed dealing with. Switching cities was generally frowned upon in superhero lore but who'd be the asshole if I had no supervillain to fight and another city had a supervillain with no hero to stop them and I did nothing? Me. Yeah. And I wasn't OK with that. I rolled my costume up and stuffed it into a backpack and headed downtown for observation/research but disappointingly the first cop I saw yelled and started chasing me. I ducked down a back alley and hid behind a bin and he ran right past. Just then I noticed that he hadn't radioed for backup. And he didn't have a partner. I was pretty sure all cops had to have a partner, which made this guy pretty suspicious. At best he was impersonating a police officer but at worst he was a supervillain's goon. I felt proud that the supervillain, whoever they were, had already caught wind of me and considered me enough of a threat to send their goons after me. I sprinted up behind the fake cop and tackled him. He hit the ground hard and I wrapped my thighs around his neck and snarled. "Tell me who you work for!" I squeaked. He couldn't talk super well on account of my thighs but I could've sworn that he gurgled "The Bunny", although it could have been "get off me". Either way it was exactly what one of The Bunny's henchmen would have said. I realised I'd never actually had the time to deliver a catchphrase to a criminal before, since all my previous punishments had been delivered in an active combat scenario. I flicked on my LED light eyes and hissed "Nighty night," which I didn't feel great about, to be truthful, since it didn't really have a strong thematic link to the character, but it wasn't like the goon was in any position to critique it. I slashed his face. In fairness it was only supposed to be a Zorro-style superficial wound that would scar in the shape of a permanent reminder that he'd tangled with The Ferret, but at the last second I lost my balance and leaned in a bit too much. I didn't want another one to die so I was actually leaning forward trying to stem the bleeding when the other cops ran around the corner, not gnawing on the guy as they claimed. Turned out he had called for backup. Doesn't mean he wasn't crooked. In any case, if the rumour got around that The Ferret was found gnawing on a crooked cop it'd pretty much increase my reputation on the streets. Once I busted out of prison. Which I will.

[nad-zeta]

Compatibility Matchup  (>^_^)><(^o^<)

Hi dear! I hope you’re doing well 💕 The compatibility matchup really piqued my interest and I’d like to request for Nobunaga-sama and Masamune? I get those two a lot 😅 Sending in my details again; I hope it’s not too much~

Zodiac sign: Aquarius, INFP-T, Ravenclaw/Horned Serpent house, Lawful Neutral // quiet in many occasions & is more expressive non-verbally (I am a bit louder online than in person), I adore animals (we have 5 dogs in the house, 3 adopted~), loves adventures (hiking & roadtrips) and the sky (esp. night skies), has ladylike movements (that pinky finger thing?), hobbies are mainly dancing, singing, reading and drawing, the listener type of friend, mediator in fights, always trying to see good in everyone, ideal vacation would be going someplace new for a few days, a curious one, sometimes called a cat or ninja because my footsteps are light and lastly (finally) is someone who likes affectionate gestures (I can actually be clingy)~ *p.s. work-wise I think I’m quite like Mitsun; focused to the point I forget to eat properly and socialize sometimes

I always love your insights on things like these! 🥺💕

Hi hi, love! ❤❤Hehe, thank you so much for the request! I hope you enjoy it🌻! And I hope you are keeping safe and well and not overworking yourself! 😏🔥🌻

Nobunaga

Pros of dating Nobunaga

Definitely have an introvert vs extrovert relationship going on

Because he is so extroverted, he is easily able to pull you out of your shell

He is hella patient, so he will let you open up to him at your own pace, although he soon notices you express yourself more through non-verbal gestures

Will play games of Go with you, as an excuse to spend some quality time with you, after you rejected his *ahem* advances that first night

He is also an adventurous soul and will sneak out the castle with you, just so the two of you can spend some more quality time together and go on some fun adventures and explore new places

Nobunaga is always travelling to check up on his various territories, so he always opts to take you with for some good company on the long journey, not that you mind cause you love going to new places and seeing new things

He will 100% spontaneously taking you with him on a hiking trips 

He will insist that you sit in front of him, just so he can wrap his arms around you and rest his chin on your shoulder

He is a sneaking boy, so he will definitely nibble on your ear and do things to make you feel hot and bothered while the two of you ride to your destination

He legit loves how playful, and cheeky you are, especially when he is kissing your neck playfully, and you turn to look him in the eyes. 

You have a playful mischief swirling around which causes him to withdraw immediately cause that look can only mean one thing

You are going to tickle him to get payback

The two of you are more often than not, definitely sitting out on the balcony, snuggled up together in the evenings, and looking up at the night sky

Loves your strong opinions and open-mindedness, he will most likely support all your ladylike movements. 

At first, he may not really understand the concept of it, considering the 500 year time difference between the two of you, but once you explain the concepts of equality and empowering woman, he is right there by your side supporting you with any and every project

He also loves dancing, so when this man discovers you dancing in your shared room one day, he is over the moon. 

He will teach you some of his favourite traditional dances and you would teach him some of your more modern dance moves

It’s not uncommon for the two of you cuties to take over the dance floor during banquets and slow dance together for hours and hours 

He honestly loves those peaceful moments with you in his arms while the two of you sway along to the light music in the background

Also, love love love the sound of your beautiful voice, the way it has the ability to melt away all his stress and fatigue of the day.

The first time he hears you sing he simply stand in the doorway and relishes in the melodic sounds echoing off the walls, will 100% pull you up into his arms and dance with you while you sing

Loves nothing more than to rest his head on your lap as you pull your fingers through his raven hair and sing him a peaceful song

He loves your affectionate gestures and loves to be near you. 

He absolutely adores the little notes and doodles you leave around the castle for him, especially if you haven't seen each other the entire day and he starts to miss you. When he finds the little note from you, reminding him how much you miss and love him, his little devil king heart melts into a puddle.

This devil king is a secret cuddling fan so he will never refuse your cuddles, snuggles, hugs or kisses. 

In fact, if you are not sitting in his lap, so he cuddles you during banquets, he will become a very pouty boy

Cons of dating Nobunaga

He is an, incredibly stubborn and commanding man, so there would be a few fights when it comes to differing opinions of things. 

Even though he likes to be challenged, he is not really used to losing at challenges so sometimes it will be a hard pill for him to swallow.

Often you might have to be the one to admit you were wrong just to keep the peace- mainly cause you are a mediator and you want to avoid conflict and fighting 

Although lord help this poor boy if you give him the silent treatment, when you stick to your beliefs and values and he has to be the one crawling back to you, which he definitely would do cause you are his one and only fireball- although it might take a few days and war councils dedicated to getting you to talk to him again

But in saying that when the two of you do make up it is bliss and you guys spend the whole night in each others arms just loving each other and making up for lost time 

He doesn’t really share your love for animals that much, and the first time he takes you hawking with him, is a little traumatising, especially after you had just mentioned how cute and fluff the bunny was one minute, and then the next minute a hawk is swooping down to kill the poor little thing.

Although, don’t worry Nobunaga hates to see his precious fireball upset so after that incident he takes you on non-animal killing adventures

Nobunaga has a really strange sense of humour, it’s kind of dark and its not always clear when something that he has said is a joke or not… so that may take some time getting used to. 

But once you figure out his sense of humour you are there right beside him bursting out in laughter at some stupid thing he said, while everyone around you is still wondering if they should take what he said seriously or not

He is extremely possessive, although this is not all that bad. He gets jealous really quickly so you will need to reassure him that he is your one and only love. 

Will mostly get in these grumpy moods during banquets if there is a visiting daimyo who had their eye on you

“Fireball, come sit with me I don’t like to be parted from you for too long.”

Will smirk triumphantly at the daimyo after giving you a full-blown passionate kiss and trapping you in his arms for the rest of the banquet

Relationship point

I score this relationship   3/5

I think the two of you could work well together, you would balance each other out pretty well. Because of your mediating personality, you would show him new ways to resolve problems and not just jump headfirst into a fight. He would be a very doting and loving boyfriend, that would support all your dreams and ambitions no matter how crazy they would seem to the outside world. Your soft-spoken peaceful nature balances out his loud commanding/demanding nature perfectly. You are the only person who he would ever show his true soft boyish self to, and since becoming your lover, he actually lets those around him see his softy boi heart more often. There might be a few hiccups in your relationship here and there, but overall I think the two of you are pretty damn compatible. He will be loyally devoted to his queen and soulmate and would spend every day of his life reminding you and showering you in love and affection

Masamune

Pros of dating Masamune

Wild crazy adventure most of the time

This boy will legit sweep you off your feet and take you on some crazy adventure, so you better be prepared to hike up mountain sides, explore caves or even just have fast-paced horse rides through the open fields for no reason at all other than to feel the wind in your hair and so that Masamune can spend some time with his kitten

Your quiet soft-spokenness is no problem for this loud dumbass. 

He will most likely do most of the talking until you are comfortable to open up on your own. Beware dad jokes, and puns are definitely going to be fired your way

This boy will pester you 24/7, by poking your cheek or teasing you for hours, anything to get you to open up to him

Masamune like you, is a curious cat, so when he sees you always scribbling in your journal you best be sure he is ganna steal that straight out of your hands, to see what you’re up to. 

His eyes would light up in delight when he sees it filled with all your thoughts and cool ideas

Will 100% tease you, i.e. hold the journal over your head, as you try and jump to get it back, “Masa gimme back my journal!” he will legit give you the biggest smile, “Oooh and what will you do, feisty little kitten, if I don’t.” 

He loves the sight of playful mischief swirling around in your eyes, “last warning” you would say with the biggest grin

He is sister shook when you steal his eye patch and blot. It takes this wild cat 0.2 seconds to regain composure and start to chase you

The two of you cuties are always engaging in playful games like that, and usually, your game of chase would end with him catching you and tickling you mercilessly

Is hella surprised when he hears the sound of beautiful singing coming from who knows where one day. 

He is absolutely mesmerised by the beautifully soothing voice and follows the sound to the kitchen where he sees you full-blown singing and dancing

He is absolutely enchanted by you, and the way you move around the kitchen dancing and cooking

Can’t help but sneakily come up behind you and wrap his arms around your waist, “Well well well, you sure are full of surprises aren’t you kitten.” Cue the meal you were making being burnt by Masamune distracting you with a kiss, or should i rather say several kisses

It’s not uncommon for the two of you to be singing and dancing together in the kitchen, as Masamune cooks the two of you something absolutely delicious

You can’t help but laugh at the one-eyed dragon as he tries to dance all sexy like you but it comes out looking more goofy and clumsy

He will steal your sketches and display them all over his manor, and if someone comes to visit and takes notice of the sketch you best be sure this boy is going to brag like crazy at how wonderful and talented his kitten is

Fall in love with you again, whenever he sees you and his little tiger cub play together. He doesn’t hesitate to join in the fun. The two cute tigers usually land up play fighting for your affection.

He knows you love animals so when the two of you come across an injured kitten in the forest he doesn’t hesitate to adopt the second cat and then give the kitten to you. 

Soon the two of you manage to rescue yet another poor defenceless animal this time it was a wolf pup that’s mother had been killed by some hunters. 

Not that Masamune minds having a full house of rescued animals, he knows you adore animals, and he would adopt even a pet elephant if that meant getting to see that beautiful smile grace your face

He also loves the night sky so he would plan moon-viewings just for the two of you. 

Keeping to his spontaneous sense of adventure, he would often sneak into your room and guide you up to the top of the castles roof, where you would find a picnic set out for the two of you

He definitely calls you kitten very early on in your relationship, not only cause you’re as cute as a sweet kitten but because you are curious and stealthy like one too.

Masamune is the king of affectionate gestures well right next to Hidemama but still. He is a firm believer that action speaks louder than words so don’t be surprised if he is pulling you into an empty room when he spots you in the hallway between meetings, for a quick make-out sesh. 

He loves it when you are being clingy, and to be honest, he is quite clingy himself. He wants to spend every possible moment with you, whether it is just chilling together in his room or going on some crazy adventure, if your not there he feels a bit lonely 

Speaking of affectionate gestures whenever the two of you are apart, both of you would continuously write to each other, this ranges from cute doodles and funny puns about how your days have been, to beautiful romantic poems pouring out your every feeling and affection into it for each other

This is especially something the two of you do during times of war when you are apart 

Either way, Masamune knows that when he returns his kitten will be at the gate waiting for his ready to run and jump into his arms, as he twirls you around.

He will care for his little kitten when you go into Mitsunari mode, and trust me when I saw he is not afraid to spoon feed you like Hideyoshi does with Mitsunari. 

If he sees you are working too hard, he will be sure to bring your plenty of food, snacks and water during the day to make sure his kitten stays healthy. 

If you are looking tired or overworking yourself, Masamune will legit pick you up and throw you over his shoulder like a sack of potatoes and carry you to his futon where he will trap you in your arms and coax you to sleep. 

He won’t listen to any complaints, and if you try to complain about wanting to finish your task, he will kiss you until you forget all about your duties.

Cons of dating Masamune

In the beginning, the two of you struggle to see eye to eye much like with you and Nobunaga, mainly cause this boy is super loyal to his clan, and at one point he low key tried to kill you because you stood up for your friends Yuki and Sasuke

But after the two of you got into a relationship he puts his love for you above his duty and would never hurt you and would definitely kill anyone who would make his kitten sad! Although his clan and role as leader does cause the occasional conflict 

Also, he was a bit of a playboy when the two of you first met, and your first kiss was on a bit of a whim, because, “You just looked so cute and kissable at that moment.” This means you have to have the uncomfortable boundary talk with this wild tiger, i.e. “you can’t just go around kissing people, Masamune, the mood has to be right, both people need to be aware etc.”

Although in saying that the second he got to know you and fell in love with you, he swore off his playboy ways and dedicated his life and heart to you and only you

Because of past trauma, you need to be patient with this boy and give him as much support as possible, like when he goes into a panic about whether you are alive or not. 

Luckily your soft kind-hearted nature helps you in this aspect of the relationship cause you know he just needs to feel your warmth and beating puls/heart.

You are also the one to teach him that it is okay to cry and that it is not a sign of weakness although many a time it is you who holds him tight and cries the tears for him, that stings his eyes and unable to fall

Relationship point

I score this relationship   5/5

I think the two of you are very compatible and that’s not just because of my bias for matching you two cuties up originally. The two of you just have so much chemistry and things in common. I cant help but believe that no matter what, the two of you would 9/10 time always end up together. Masamune’s wild spontaneous side balances out your quiet soft spoken side perfectly. Masamune will always be there to bring a smile to your face with his goofy jokes and crazy shenanigans and you are always there by Masamune’s side offering him support and helping him to grow into the best version of himself. Together you two cuties make an unstoppable match, making all those around you jealous of your pure love for each other. 

I hope you enjoyed this dear! 🔥🌻❤

[madzilla84]

update

Did anyone ask for one? No. Does anyone want it? Probably not … I guess there’s still some small part of me that misses having a Livejournal.

In general, things have been - better. I started going outside a bit more from late-ish July, but honestly I don’t know if I started feeling better because I started going out, or if I started going out because I was feeling better…? A mystery. But mood tracking app - surely a reliable source of mental health info lmao - seems to agree:

(woohoo, only ‘significant burden’! i think that’s about the best you could hope for in 2020. and this was a few weeks ago, and I feel better now than I did then, so.)

I’ve been off work for the last 3 weeks - nothing wrong, just 2 weeks of scheduled annual leave, which I needed very much (I think part of why I was feeling bad was because I hadn’t had a break since February), and last week I had a week of jury duty. The break was much needed and I can feel the difference.

I started exercising again in July, and ugggggggh ok fine I admit I do feel better because of it. I’m never gonna be a gym bunny, I’ll probably never *love* it but I can’t deny the benefits. I go 3 times a week which is enough for me. (Though I only went twice last week and this week - last week I was pretty wrecked after court each day and this week I am focussing on being lazy.) Going outside again was strange at first, like the previous 4 months hadn’t happened, but it didn’t take long to feel (mostly) normal again.

I’ve also had a couple of social things, which has been nice - one lunch out at an outdoor restaurant, and one bbq at a friend’s house. (She moved in recently at the end of my street; while I was sitting in her living room I could look out of the window at my own flat. Weird!) I’ve been thinking a lot about Dan’s tweet about who he realised he wants in his life after lockdown, and it’s just. Interesting.

I’m DELIGHTED it’s September and the start of the best months, the -embers and -obers; it’s still pretty warm and mostly sunny here but it’s really nice, the bite’s gone out of the warmth. Not long now until it Gs the FO entirely. \o/ I’m still playing Animal Crossing every day, (unlike some people, smh poor abandoned Pickle). 

Jury duty last week was fascinating. I didn’t even know if I’d get picked - they call more than twice as many people as they need in case anyone can’t do it for whatever reason (if one of the lawyers is a family friend or something), but I did end up being chosen. (No. 12!!) We were the first post-covid jury, and the first socially distanced one. 

I *can* talk about the case now it’s over, but I don’t think I will, because the subject matter could be pretty triggering, but it was often a tough week given the nature of it. Having said that, something about it was very satisfying. It was fascinating to see how the courts and lawyers worked, and the whole process, and it was good to work with the other jurors. (Days on end of talking to actual humans was actually pretty good, for the most part.) We were all just thrown together, and we had differences of opinion of course, but it was still a good experience to work with them. It felt good to be part of something like that, something that mattered, and to feel like a part of the community in such a real way. I can be quite good at putting aside emotion to look at the letter of the law, which in a case like this can be very challenging; some of the other jurors struggled with it a great deal. (This isn’t to blow my own trumpet or anything; many would argue it was *me* who had the problem, in much the same way they often say lawyers are heartless, which isn’t true most of the time)

The case ended up being dismissed as the jury couldn’t reach a consensus - we got slated on social media (which of course I didn’t look at during the case, I caught up after), but we all stuck to our convictions and I know it was right; there’s a lot the public didn’t know or understand. As tough a case as it was, I’m glad I got to do it, it was a privilege in many ways. (But, I wouldn’t mind if it was a long time until I had to do it again, you know? lol.)

We had our phones taken from 9-5 while we were working - it’s the law - and I thought it was gonna be the worst after being glued to it constantly, but it was actually quite nice lmao. Not that I didn’t end up glued to it again once the case was over.

Fandom-wise, I have - finally - ended up taking a step back from the phandom a little bit in the last month or two. I want to talk about that a bit because it’s a complicated topic, and I see a lot of concerning posts - mainly on Twitter - that if you don’t maintain a certain level of dedication, if you join another fandom or get into something else or aren’t sufficiently devoted and supportive you - aren’t a true fan? Or something? Lots of posts along the lines of, ‘all these people getting into kpop/tv show/whatever, smh, don’t think we won’t remember when dan’s project drops and you all come running back’. It’s just a bit - weird? Like, it’s *perfectly normal* if people get into other stuff while dnp are cooking whatever they’re cooking (or not cooking, or whatever)? Or just move on, but still enjoy D&P? 

I’m not, like, dramatically leaving the fandom or anything. Hell, I haven’t *left* the fandom at all, I’m still here every day, it’s - more of a mental shift. Because prior to July/August-ish this year I really wasn’t in a good place with it. I wrote a thing earlier this year about struggling with writing, and belonging while not being a content creator, and other things … the issue is that, as I tend to do with my fandoms, I get too overinvested. And sometimes, that’s okay - whatever gets you through the night and all that - but in this case, I wasn’t enjoying it any more. Some parts I was - I’ve made the best friends I’ve ever had in a fandom here, and I really like seeing everyone on here - but in general, I was spending a lot of my time feeling anxious, resentful, worried, angry and frustrated. I spent a lot of last year and almost all of this one waiting for Godot; hating the “new normal” and desperately waiting for - something that’s never going to come. I just couldn’t deal with it; probably for reasons bigger than just D&P but that’s how it manifested. I got more and more frustrated by the content we were getting because it wasn’t what I’d hoped, and I hated feeling like that. It took up way too much of my thoughts and every day was just waiting, and wondering, and worrying. And I got so, so sick of it.

So, where am I now? Well, it was inevitable really, but I just started to - let go, a bit. I didn’t throw my hands up and go, ’bah, screw these guys!’, my mental focus just shifted (for my own good), and I started focussing on other things. Other fandoms. Games and hobbies I can distract myself with. I’ll admit it wouldn’t necessarily have been my *choice*, you know? But reality is what it is and I’m - relieved, really, that I’m not unnecessarily tormenting myself about it any more. It took me a long time to reach this place - too long, really - and, for now at least, it’s kind of nice. I can just enjoy things if/when they pop up without the accompanying sadness and anger about how everything is changed, about what has ended and what I’ve “lost”. (And it’s not 100%, by the way; it’s still there, just - quiet, now.) I can look at, I dunno, someone’s gifs of Dan or whatever, and just smile about it rather than feeling that grief. (Or, feel it, but not to the exclusion of everything else.) It’s - nicer.

And it isn’t at *all* that I don’t care any more, I still love them, of course I do, and will continue to follow them and watch everything they do. I’m not going anywhere. I still have notifs on, though they don’t quite send my heart into my throat like they did. ;) In a way it’s helping me love them more, because now when I watch them I enjoy it more, appreciating the fun and the bants without laser-focussing on my own anger and sadness. I’m still attending our little daily phannie watch-alongs, where we watch a couple of eps of DAPG and an anime. I’m still on phandom tumblr/twitter on the daily. It just - has a slightly smaller portion of my brain and mental energy now.

It was a step I needed to take, but also one I’m not sure I could have *chosen* to take, not without deliberately leaving and cutting it all off completely? And I didn’t want to do that. I’d hoped I’d get to this place earlier than this - some 20 months after the fact - but better late than never, I suppose.

(Also, disclaimer - fandom and the human heart are funny things, and I fully accept I can and probably will be sucked completely back in at any time.)

Anyway! SEE YOU AT THE QUIZ :D

[becomewings]

Archived Network Event

2020 Secret Bunny Exchange

hai lovely! Im sparkle and I’m going to be your secret bunny. I hope you’re having a good day or night. 🥰 -sparkle ✨💫

Hello Sparkle dear! Thank you for being my secret bunny. I hope you are having a good day/night too and enjoying this wonderful comeback.

I’m enjoying it too! It’s such a good comeback, and I honestly love it. This is like my second comeback with them. -sparkle 💫✨

This is my first comeback, eek! I was not at all prepared for how much I would be waiting on the edge of my seat, but it's been really exciting!

Yes! It's such a good comeback honestly. When did you first get into BTS? What drew you to them? I'm sorry I'm asking for many questions. Lol. -sparkle 💫✨

It's okay, ask away! ^^ I stumbled across BTS by accident...which may indicate just how much I live under a cultural rock. I actually don't usually listen to much pop music. I'm a classically trained composer and video game soundtracks and moody indie/rock are more my jam, but last year I heard the YouTube ad that uses part of DNA and it intrigued me. I didn't know which song it was so I ended up listening through quite a bit before finding it...and fell absolutely in love along the way! So I have a soft spot in my heart for DNA. How about you, Sparkle? What got you into BTS?

So first, I hope you're having a too day/night! It's been a very long and busy one for me. I'm so glad to be off. Alsooo, I've been into Kpop for around 10 years now, so I've always enjoyed and I have a soft spot for 2nd gen kpop groups. When BTS started to get popular I didn't like them at first. But I saw Dope after the FBE channel reacted to them and I'm like okay they seem interesting around 2018. Lol. And I went down the hole, and have been stuck since. Lol. They're amazing. -sparkle 💫✨

Thank you Sparkle, hope you enjoy your evening off! Mine was busy too (we’re prepping for a move, eep) but at least it was productive. Wow, you’ve been into Kpop for a long time! Dope is really catchy (and I love that honky sax haha), I’m not surprised it got you interested and then hooked. :) Do you have a favorite era? Mine is probablyyy Wings, but I love most of Love Yourself too, and HYYH is so wonderfully nostalgic even if I wasn’t a fan then... and I’m a big fan of this new era too

Moving sucks! I'm going to be moving in the next year or so, and I"m not read for it. And yes! I've been into it for so long. But HYYH is one of my favorites as well. I think mine may be LY because that was the era that I started stanning them. I forget which one, but it's the one with idol as their title song. Wings is super amazing, and one of those that I'll always listen to. MOTS is just GOD TIER. Lol. I love it. -sparkle 💫✨

Haha MoTS being god tier is accurate xD Sounds like your move is a little ways off, but I wish you the best of luck when it happens! Ours is on a fairly tight deadline so I really have to hustle this weekend with house preparations (we still need to sell ours). I hope you have a lovely weekend, dear Sparkle! 💫

It is a little ways off, but moving just sucks in general. The packing and unpacking and then trying to get everything ready. Especially in your case. But I hope everything works out for you. And I hope you have a beautiful weekend too. -sparkle 💫✨

Thank you, Sparkle! We made a lot of progress today so I feel a bit better (and extremely tired). When the time comes, I hope you have the opportunity to prepare ahead for your move so it doesn't stress you too much. :) Have a nice start to your week! ✨

Heyyy! It's me sparkle! It's been alright so far, let's how it stays that way. And I'm glad you've made more progress on your move! Hopefully your Monday was good. -sparkle 💫✨

Thank you, Sparkle! There's so much going on in the world right now, close to home and far away... I am trying to stay calm and positive, with varying degrees of success. Please take care of yourself! (And that goes to everyone... I know it is difficult because we all have our own obligations to school, work, family, etc., but please try to prioritize your health and stay safe 💜)

Yes! I hope you’re staying safe. I don’t know what area of the world you live in and I know the virus is hitting others harder than most. We have 8 reported cases here. And it’s a scary to me. I hope you are staying safe. I just said that twice. Lol. Happy Thursday! -sparkle ✨💫

Thank you, you too! I live in the US (California, to be somewhat specific) and so far there have been two confirmed cases in my county. I'm grateful the university I work at is (finally) taking precautionary measures by banning large gatherings and moving classes temporarily online, and that I can continue working unless there is a full campus closure... Trying not to be too anxious about things that are simply out of my control and hoping that things gradually work out and improve. I'm also grateful for the community here, even if I don't know anyone personally, it is nice to come online and see people being reassuring and encouraging to each other from all across the globe.

Music and BTS are a good distraction when needed... Now that their promotional period is done, do you have a favorite moment?

I'll repeat you too, please stay safe dear, you and everyone who happens to read this 💜

I truly wish that my job would take some measures, and they have yet. I work with the general public a lot as a secretary. So it's like seriously having me on edge. I know the schools year have temporally closed down and moving things to online since it was spring break here. As well as the public schools closing for a month. Honestly, I'm not sure if I have a favorite moment honestly. Lol. They were all good moments, but I did quite enjoy watching all the ON performances. What about you?

I truly hope your employer catches on soon and makes accommodations so that you can practice some social distancing and have a safe work environment. We were just informed today that we have to work from home two days next week, on rotation, to keep our department staffed but also reduce the number of people on the floor -- for next week only so far, but I won’t be surprised if it continues past that. I can’t fulfill all of my responsibilities from home, so I’m grateful that they are allowing us to complete online trainings and such in the meantime. I am also so glad it’s Friday. What a week it’s been.

Ahh, I love ON! As a former member of drumline and marching band, I have such a fondness for the drum corps elements they incorporated into the music and background choreography. I was excited for the Official MV version too, so beautiful and thought-provoking! I also looove Black Swan (JIMIN’S DANCING EEK). I haven’t been as excited about something in a long time as when I stayed up late to catch their first performance on James Corden. So while I’ve enjoyed all of the comeback (especially as it’s my first!), that was particularly memorable for me. The surprise MV drop was also lovely 🦢🖤

Sorry, I am really rambly tonight. Please take care and have a good weekend! Hope you can get lots of rest! 💗

It’s been a long couple days! Sorry I haven’t gotten back with you! I’ve been stressed about everything going on, and I do hope that they catch on soon too. I was very excited for this comeback and the art in their videos has been beautiful. Black Swan and Jimin dance break? Quality content honestly. Yes! The surprise MV was great. I prefer this version of Black Swan over the other, but both are good. I hope you had a good weekend! -sparkle 💫✨

Hi again Sparkle, thank you for checking in on me! Please don't apologize for messaging delays, there's no need! We all signed up for this event long before any of this started, so I'm grateful you can spare a little time to chat with me. 💜 I'm working from home for at least the next 3 weeks because my uni is now fully closed... But I'm very grateful I have that opportunity. (As much as sometimes I would just like to go to sleep and wake up when this is all over, hah!)

Please continue to take care of yourself! Hope you find some comfort in music or other personal hobbies!

How are you doing? Last week was so stressful for me. So I am quite happy to be working from home this week. I hope you are staying healthy and happy through all of this! How was your week last week? I hope your weekend was alright? I had a pretty decent one me and a couple close friends had game night, and that was the highlight of my weekend. -sparkle 💫✨

I missed hearing from you, Sparkle! (But totally understand, the world is upside down right now.) I’m sorry you had a stressful week and I hope this one is better for you as you transition to working from home. My days have just fluctuated between quiet/boring and a little stressful (mostly re: house stuff, but that’s out of my control at this point), but I suppose I’m glad it hasn’t been worse than that.

Ooh what are your favorite games?? I’ve been trying to keep up creative side work between writing and blog content, but… I might purchase Animal Crossing soon hehe. Do you have any other hobbies to help distract you from stress/everything that’s going on? Take care dear! 💗

I know! I let time get away from me honestly! I hadn't been meaning too. I miss talking to you! I love all kind of games. I'm not particularly picky, but i do like that Game of LIfe. I've had just about ever version they've made. We played this one called Blockbuster in reference to movies and it was fun because if you know a lot of movies it's somewhat easy but you have to act out some of hte titles. Lol. Animal crossing seems like fun, everyone talks about it. Lol. -sparkle 💫✨ 1/2

I’ve never played it before. I’ve been thinking of getting an Nintendo Switch, but I don’t know how often I would play it. I know that game comes on there. But I heard it’s also an app? I’m not entirely sure. Lol. Also, I’m planning on making you a gif set for the secret bunny exchange! I know you said you love Jimin (my bias wrecker and sweet baby), Kookie, and Tae. And you were right, it’s hard to pick just ONE. Is there any particular one you want to see in a gif set? -sparkle 💫✨ 2/2

Receiving messages from you makes me happy! ^^ I know life is strange right now though so completely understand if you don’t have time. I’ll be patiently waiting!

So you like tabletop games? Sounds fun! I gravitate toward video games more personally, but haven’t had too much time lately to play. There are definitely fun ones to try if you ever get a Switch! There’s Breath of the Wild of course, which I admit I am still holding off on finishing because I don’t want it to be over LOL, some Mario & friends party games if that’s your jam, as well as some really beautiful indie games (Gris for example!). ANYWAY I won’t ramble about that anymore haha. I’m not sure what the app is, if you were referring to Animal Crossing–might be a companion to the game? I saw a tweet referring to using an app for quicker messaging in AC lol, but I haven’t played the game myself yet. 

Aw thank you so much for asking about the gift (and for making it in the future)!! Oh dear you want ME to pick one? If I’m honest, I think Jimin and Tae light up my heart the absolute most (any vmin content gives me life but totally understand if that’s not your thing) but… please don’t ask me to… choose between them HAHA. How about you go with whoever would give you the most joy to gif right now?? I will truly be happy to receive any gift from you, regardless of who is featured. :’)) thank you dear!! 

(Edit: btw who is your bias??)

I love tabletop games, and I play a lot of video games too. So don't get me wrong, I am huge into video games, but I don't play them as often. my boyfriend uses his PS4 all the time. I'm still trying to get through SpiderMan, but that's also because I don't wanna end it. I'm almost finished though. And yes! It's so hard to choose just one honestly, so I get your dilemma. And I can do vmin content! I don't gif them much and I want too. I can't wait to work on something for you! -sparkle 💫✨

Yay!! Sounds like we might have that in common. I have a huge appreciation for video games (and video game soundtracks is one of my favorite ‘genres’ of music, recognizing that they’re incredibly diverse of course), but I spend more time watching videos of other people playing them than playing them myself haha. We have a PS4 too. SpiderMan looked fun but I never tried it! I loved watching my partner play FFXV and Death Stranding. Trying to remember what I’ve actually finished on PS4, it’s been awhile lol... Everybody’s Gone to the Rapture and Rime were beautiful. I started Last Guardian but didn’t get very far before life got too busy. :( Hope I can pick it up again some day! Do you have a favorite PS4 game?

Aww you’re too kind. I’m so excited to see what you create!! And to chat with you off-anon. :) Who is your favorite member to gif?

Yes, I also like watching other people play video games, but it's rare when I do. I always end up getting distract sometimes. I've played SpiderMan, Horizon Zero Dawn, which are my favorites as well as Tomb Raider. I do really like FFXV, but i haven't played it in so long though. I can't wait to talk to you off anon either. I be having to really make sure I press the anon button. adlfkjsl I"m bad at forgetting. And Yoongi is my favorite to gif. -sparkle 💫✨

Oo I forgot I watched some of Horizon Zero Dawn too! Very impressive game. It looks like a lot of fun and I might try to play it myself in the future.. but like you said, it’s easy to get distracted. Life just likes to get in the way huh. Have you seen/heard of Hellblade: Senua’s Sacrifice? Intennnnse. I’m an absolute coward when it comes to horror games (or movies) and somehow my partner tricked me into playing one of the scariest parts because he got too scared HAH. That being said, as much as I love really emotionally intense games, I love soft gentle ones too… especially chill co-ops! (I’m thinking of the one we played most recently, Pode… that was on Switch though.)

Yayy Yoongi! I really do love all of BTS, and while the maknae line ran off with my heart, I have a big soft spot for Yoongi. I was never really drawn to rap/hip-hop except maybe Linkin Park like in middle school am I dating myself until I met Yoongi and just… wow.  ._. He’s so expressive in his delivery, his lyrics are heart-breakingly raw and honest, and he has extraordinary range between his gentlest material and the lines that come at you with a knife. Also I’m so proud of him for continuing to work as a producer and refine those skills on top of his life as an idol. What are your favorite things about Yoongi? If you can even choose haha 💗

Lol I know what you mean, I was really paranoid the first 2 weeks about sending anon messages to my other partners on mobile because the interface was different and I was really suspicious of the term ‘public’ vs ‘private.’ And every time I send the ask for about 5 seconds I question whether or not I clicked anon.

P.S. I should keep my mouth shut but … I have an itty bitty guess of who you may be. I won’t say any more than that and I guess I’ll find out in 2 weeks whether I’m right or wrong haha. xD take care sparkle dear!!

That game was really fun honestly. I still haven't finished. And sameeee! I am not into the horror games. The movies I can do, but the games I'm just too scared to really play them. I tried Resident Evil, and I was like this is a BIG FAT NO. Lol. And I haven't heard of that game though, but it sounds intense by the name of it. I also like soft gentle ones, or the ones were it's not a lot of challenging aspects to it. I really like Spyro. The original and the remake. -sparkle 💫✨ 1/2

Linkin Park is one of my favorite groups. I love them, and miss Chester so much. Also it sounds like we're maybe around the same age because that's when I got into them maybe? And I am so proud of him for everything that he's done. Yoongi originally wasn't my bias at first. I think maybe it was going to be Taehyung, but watching their variety shows made me fall in love with him. Outside of his hard exterior, he's so sweet and loving of the boys. It's so hard to just pick one! -sparkle 💫✨2/2

Okay, so one more. Lol. Because the ask limit is so short! I get paranoid all the time, and i have to like double check to make sure I Press it. alkdjfls NOW i'm curious as to who you think I am! But I do how you have a wonderful weekend. -sparkle 💫✨

Dying over your Resident Evil reaction because... SAME lol. However. I have enjoyed watching some playthroughs of 7 and the remake of 2, which is the closest I will ever come to watching a horror movie again. xD I have really fond memories of playing Spyro at my cousin’s house as a kid, but haven’t tried the remake yet! It looks like fun too. There are too many good games to choose from, not nearly enough time to play lol.

I only really listened to a couple of Linkin Park’s old albums, but I miss Chester too. \: We could be around the same age yeah! I’ll tell you when we’re messaging off-anon. :) 

If I may tell a story, my discovery of BTS went like this: heard a music clip in a YouTube ad of all places (normally skip them lol but I got it a couple times at work and thought hmm this is catchy). Then had to dive into some compilation videos to figure out which heckin song it was (turned out to be DNA). But along the way I found more songs I liked. And then I fell HARD for the Mic Drop MV (again, a little strange for me, because it’s pretty hip-hoppy). Jungkook makes this super intense expression at one moment that made me go oh. hello. So then I slowly learned who the different members were, and since this was me mostly streaming YT in the background at work haha, I had to keep switching tabs to check who was singing. I loved Jungkook’s singing but then also realized that I loved Jimin’s sweet voice too (yes I admit when I was first getting to know them, I could not always tell them apart). And THEN mister baritone Tae with his unique falsetto and delicious low range (I really wish they featured his chest voice more but OH WELL I digress) snagged my attention and ANYWAY long story short that’s how I fell in love with BTS and also the entire maknae line I guess. :’)

Hehehe I’ll tell you after the event ends if I’m right or wrong, don’t worry. It might be almost over, but I hope you had a lovely weekend too! ♥♥♥

Yes, somehow my sister convinced me to get it like she was going to play the game too, and she did not. I ended up exchanging the game because I'm like this is a waste of money. haha. I usually always skipped them too, so I totally understand. Everyone I knew liked but I had stopped listening to kpop for a while after the members of Big Bang went into enlistment (sad sad times). I first heard Dope. The FBE Youtube channel reacted to them, and I'm like OKAY GUYS. 1/3 -sparkle 💫✨

When Jungkook hits that high note I was like COME THROUGH VOCALS. So then naturally I had to go and look a few more videos. This was during around the time they had appeared on the AMAs the first time. And then I listened to I Need U and Save Me (this is one of my favorites). And I was hooked. I went and watched their Ellen interviews, and they're so sweet. I ended up binge watching their variety show and Bon Voyage and I was hooked then. -sparkle 💫✨ 2/3

Run BTS was when I realized that Yoongi was my bias. Because I'll admit that I did not like him at first, but I said that already. And then I just realized how sweet and funny he actually his. And I think he's just shy at times. At least in the beginning, but he's so handsome and his stage presence is like a 360 from him being off stage. If that makes sense. I could go on for house about Yoongi. Lol. -sparkle 💫✨3/3

The high notes in Dope are pretty ridiculous because they’re at the start of the phrase so they get little to no preparation lol. Their vocal abilities are truly impressive... and then they do it all while dancing :’) 

I agree that Yoongi’s stage presence is strikingly different from his real self! Or the self we get to see in their behind-the-scenes content lol. Possibly like a lot of people, I thought he was super intimidating and tough until I saw more of him offstage... and then went awww he’s a big softie who just doesn’t pull his punches when he’s rapping and producing.

Do you have any favorite Run BTS episodes? So far I’ve only watched a handful of the recent ones, but all the random gifs and clips of older content warms my heart or makes me laugh. I’d like to eventually watch them all from the beginning... some day lol. (see all previous mentions of being too busy to do anything fun outside of work haha)

They are ridiculous. I love when they hit high notes in songs. All the boys have such a beautiful range, and I love hearing them. Especially when they do their solo songs. Jimin's solos are normally my favorite because his voice is the type I tend to lean towards a lot His stage presence is so different! Just like Jhope's. It's always so different, but it's them all in a nutshell, if that makes sense. Lol. I was in Chorus for a while, and I liked it begin in a group. -sparkle 💫✨1/2

It's easier being in a group, but I could never do it by myself. And favorite Run episode? Hmmm, there are so many that I love. I prefer some of the older episodes to some of the new ones. I'll have to find them again, but there was one where they were doing like this haunted house type of thing and it had me dying of laughter. They're all so funny though. I'm still trying to catch up with some of the new ones they've been doing. -sparkle 💫✨2/2

The vocal line is so wonderful, but I’ve been increasingly impressed with the rap line’s singing too. I have always liked the beginning of Spring Day and I confess it took me an embarrassingly long time to wonder which one of them was singing, and I was surprised to learn that it’s Namjoon. Also his low line in Louder Than Bombs is wonderful... I don’t even care if it’s probably autotuned a little lolol. And I only recently found out about the song Sea, but Tae’s chest-range melody at the very end.. UGHGHGGH it’s too. good. (DEAR BIGHIT COMPOSERS, MORE BARI PLS.)

I had to sing in choir in grad school and ended up enjoying it way more than I thought I would. (I’m a composer/pianist and I needed ensemble credit.) I’ve always been really self conscious about my voice, and now... I would love to take vocal lessons some day. While I know that no two people will play an instrument exactly the same, it’s kind of magical that you don’t know what the true sound or full potential of your own singing voice will be until you train it. Do you play any instruments? :)

The vocal line is amazing. I love all of their voices for different reasons, and sometimes I'm in the mood for one, and then another time I'm in the mood for another. If that makes sense. I haven't listened to Sea that much, but it is such a beautiful song! And you're right. His chest tone HELLO VOCALS. Lol. I'd love to take vocal lessons one day, but not sure if I ever would. And I don't play any instruments, but I would love to learn guitar one day. Lol. It's a dream of mine. -sparkle 💫✨

Hii Sparkle. I’m sorry it took me a bit to get back to you, but it really makes me happy when I receive your messages! Yess Tae’s chest voice deserves all the shouty caps all the time hehe. I hope you have the opportunity to learn the guitar someday if that’s what your dream is! Everyone starts somewhere... I would love to learn the cello too :)) one day haha. 

Do you have a favorite “underrated” bts song? Just curious! Take care dear, looking forward to finding out who you are soon~

Yay! I'm glad you like hearing from me! I really like talking to you. I don't talk to many people on here sometimes, but then other times I do. So this is nice just to be able to talk with a fellow army. One day I will learn it, I just have to learn how to read music first. Lol. Because I definitely don't know how to. Hmm honestly there are a few that I feel are underrated, that i Iove. Spring Day, Hold Me Tight, and Autumn Leaves. These songs are queens! What about you? -sparkle 💫✨

Music is a lifelong learning process but it’s worth it. :’) I believe in you!! 

SPRING DAY!! 🌸🌸🌸 One of my all-time favorites. I honestly might not have a very good awareness of what is underrated and what isn’t, especially among older songs, but... I love Spring Day, The Truth Untold, Jamais Vu, and most recently Sea... lol hm I’m sensing a trend of bittersweet/melancholy songs. But also House of Cards (it’s just so delightfully WEIRD and dark and different??). On the other end of the spectrum (although not sure if it’s underrated?), Silver Spoon/Baepsae. What a jam. Love to tune out the world with that one at work on one of my walk breaks if I had a frustrating day. And maybe it’s too early to tell from MOTS 7, but I get the impression that I might love Louder Than Bombs way more than the average army. And that’s okay :)

I don’t talk to or know very many people on here yet too, probably because my blog is still relatively new. So I’m very glad to be getting to know you

I loved Spring Day as soon as I heard it. I still listen to it a lot when I'm in the mood for it. It's such a beautiful song. The Truth Untold IS A QUEEN. I love that one too. Jamais Vu, I think I have to be in the mood to listen to it sometimes, but it's growing on me. House of Cards, that one I heard last year sometime and I like that one too. I don't listen to it as much. And Silver Spoon is my go too song honestly on my way to work. Louder Than Bombs is really good. -sparkle 💫✨ 1/2

I listen to that one a lot myself. I think We Are Bulletproof 2.0 maybe one, but I'm not sure either. I absolutely adore that song so much. It's such a beautiful mad song honestly. And also you're right this update is kind of weird, but I don't mind the font so much. -sparkle 💫✨2/2

Yasss I’m glad you like Truth Untold too. It’s too beautiful. I practically cried when I heard for the first time a live performance video (somewhere in Japan) where he sang a higher note in the climax than in the studio recording auuughgghgh my heart. 

We Are Bulletproof pt. 2 took awhile to grow on me but I was happy when it did. I can be a little odd about the order in which I listen to songs, and usually need to listen in album order, but for some reason I really like that one after No More Dream. Also, though it’s hardly underrated, I now know what all the fuss is about Cypher pt. 3. I’ve been gradually purchasing their older albums (kinda out of order) and finally got to Dark & Wild about a month ago haha. I’m listening to all these mad songs now. Been in a weird sad mood for a lot of today tbh and... mad bts is helping a little haha. So is chatting with you!

I’m probably overreacting about the dashboard, but something about that bubbly serif font is irritating haha. And I don’t see this mythical option to revert to the old dashboard that people are talking about in their settings. Boo. I’ll get over it... eventually haha.

The Truth Untold is one of my favorites, and I normally don't like ballads a lot. It takes me a while to get into them, but this one just caught my eye. I'm learning Korean, and it's one of the ones that I can sing along too while reading the lyrics! I am super proud of that accomplishment. When I was going through their albums after I got into them, I skipped the older ones at first. I wasn't sure if I really liked them. -sparkle 💫 1/2

I listen to a select few of them on their darker albums, but a lot of it isn’t really what I like hearing. Although, I think I may revisit the albums again. It’s been a while since I actually listened to them. haha if you go to settings > dashboard you’ll see it there. Just let it load for a second, adn then it pops up. -sparkle 💫✨ 2/2

(Ugh I typed an answer and then tried to drop in a screenshot and everything disappeared. Got it, tumblr. No dropping images. REDO.)

Oo that’s awesome that you’re learning Korean! Are you self-studying? How long have you been studying? I’ve been studying Japanese for several years (very slowly lol). Then a few months ago, thanks to BTS, I was suddenly really interested in learning Korean too. I worked on memorizing hangul for a week and then had a “lol what am I doing” moment when I realized I didn’t know nearly enough Japanese yet to realistically tackle two challenging languages at the same time. So Korean is on hold for now, but I really wish I could just… magically be fluent haha. It would be amazing to understand their lyrics or interviews/conversations on the spot without relying on translations. And English is stupidly difficult, so as much as I appreciate how much effort they’ve put into learning too… as an international fan, I wish I could return that effort too and learn their language so that they don’t feel like they need to learn English. 

Love Yourself: Answer was my first album and I purchased that one specifically because it was a compilation and contained most of the individual songs I already knew I liked from YouTube haha. Then I expanded from there. To be honest, if I had found BTS when they were just getting started, or anytime before HYYH, I probably wouldn’t have connected with their music, sound-wise or thematically. But… they were exactly what I needed when I did finally find them. And now I have immense appreciation for their beginnings and how far they’ve come, even loving some older songs/styles that I never expected to. As I mentioned, I don’t usually listen to pop or rap/hip-hop… like ever haha. But something about them just reached into my heart and I’ll be forever grateful to them.

I tried what you suggested (waiting on the page) and… the text kinda jumped at one point as though something else had loaded, but nothing else displayed. Am I derping around on the wrong page? \:

edit: I see it in the source code, idk why the toggle isn’t displaying for me 🙃

Yes! I am self learning. I have been doing it on and off for like two years, but the last part of last year I've been doing it most often. However with everything that's going on, it's kind of slowed down and I've just been focusing on what's going on in the world right now. I feel the same. I think if I would have found them before, I don't think I would have liked them as much as I do now. I do have an appreciation for their older music even if I don't listen it to it much. 1/3 -sparkle 💫✨

Their first two albums I didn't like as much, but everything from then on I'm pretty sure I am obsessed with when I found them out. Lol. I do remember you say that previously that you don't listen to a lot of that style of music. What do you normally like to listen to? I listen to a lot of everything, so I'm not sure if I have a genre that i really stick too. Although, I think in the beginning i listened to a lot of hiphop/rap and alternative stuff. -sparkle 💫✨ 2/3

Then the older i got the more I got into pop music because I found kpop when I was about 17, and it's been stuck to me ever since. Lol. So I don't know I like a lot of music that makes me feel good and I can dance too or sing along with. I think maybe it depends on my mood. Lol . -sparkle 💫✨3/3

I think that’s awesome that you’re working on learning the language on your own! And I understand the challenges of keeping it up independently, especially in such strange and challenging times... I feel guilty that I stopped my daily kanji studying pretty much as soon as I started working from home. It was initially because I used my commute time to study (I’m in a vanpool) and... definitely lost some motivation once everything started changing. I know I shouldn’t be too hard on myself though for taking a break, and I hope you are not either. I’m hoping to get back into soon and reform some study time habits :)

Yeah it sounds like you’ve been listening to Kpop for a long time! ^^ Aside from my fairly recent BTS obsession, I gravitate toward moodier music in general haha. Evanescence was my instant favorite way back in middle school and... tbh I still listen to their albums sometimes! I tended to like anything indie-ish with piano or rock + orchestra. I loved this European band Within Temptation, their music is like a blend of rock and symphonic orchestra. Nowadays, I love video game music and that’s probably what I listen to the most... Nobuo Uematsu (Final Fantasyyy), who is probably one of my biggest inspirations for pursuing composition, Austin Wintory (Journey, Abzu, etc), and more recently Jessica Curry (everything the Chinese Room studio made lol). The past few days I’ve been streaming the songs from Death Stranding. I admit I don’t tend to have a lot of variety... I’m kind of picky and when I find something I love, I will listen to that obsessively over and over for months on end. Like BTS. xD No regrets haha! But I know I should broaden my horizons too...

I'm trying not to be so hard on myself, but I know I'll get back into it soon as I set a schedule for myself. Evanescence is amazing, that's all I got to say. I love them so much, so I totally get it. That's interesting though. I love learning about others music interest. It's always so different and diverse from mine. And also, I realized I didn't answer your question about the dash, and for some reason I don't know why it's not showing up. You were in the right place though. -sparkle 💫✨

Yayy glad you like Evanescence! Yes it is amazing and also wonderful that we all have unique tastes. I know I should make a better effort to try out new things, because finding something new that I connect with is amazing (see: BTS hehe).

I'm so excited to meet you next week!! Please take care and enjoy the rest of your weekend 💗

Sometimes it’s harder to really step out the box. So I totally understand, but I’ve always kind of had “weird” taste in different music so I like listening to whatever it is I like! And yes! I can’t to show you what I’m working on. I’m still searching for things for it! Lol. So I hope you like it. Also I hope you have an amazing week! And also a good day! -sparkle ✨💫

I woke up way earlier than planned thanks to this new isolation insomnia, but I was so happy to see your message. 💜 I’m so excited to meet you, but don’t feel like you have to rush on the gift! I know whatever you make will be wonderful. I hope you have a great week too. Do you have any ~weird~ music suggestions? I’ll give them a try!

I totally understand how that is. I hate waking up earlier than I want too because then you don't want to get up out of bed, but then you're too awake to go back to sleep. At least that's how i feel. Hmmm, weird music suggestions? I'm not entire sure. I like Florence and the Machine, FK Twigs (this might be an acquired taste), Panic at the Disco. There's so much I listen too, and my mind is going blank. Lol. -sparkle ✨💫

Yeah, that was my feeling exactly. :( At least I put in a couple extra hours of work, so I’ll get to take a shorter Friday. Or whichever day we try to brave a grocery run.

Thank you, I will check them out! Hehe due to your comment, I am intrigued by FK Twigs. For some reason I couldn’t really get into Panic at the Disco in high school, even though I had friends who loved them, but... I do appreciate that someone made an Emote! at the Location bot on twitter. xD

I hope you are having a good week so far! Tbh mine has been a little gloomy, but... I am really looking forward to meeting you! And finding out if my guess is right haha :’)) Take care dear!

And I loved Panic! They were so good, I still love them or Brendon Urie. Lol. FK Twigs is really good, but I know she's not for everyone. I really enjoy her music honestly. And honestly, I'm just about finished with your gif set. I have to find a few more videos and I'll post it probably tomorrow or later tonight depending on when I finish. And hmm, I don't know I don't think it is, but it shouldn't be long though. however, I'm really curious to know who you think I am. -sparkle ✨💫

EEek I’m so excited!! (Please don’t stay up late just for me though!)

As much as I am terrible at branching out, I do enjoy finding new music I like, so thank you again for the suggestions! I will try to listen with open ears and mind haha. Have you heard of Fleurie? I stumbled across her music when an artist I followed made a piece inspired by some of her lyrics. She might be quite a bit different than the artists you recommended though.

I’m going to feel a little silly if I’m wrong, but I’ll tell you after the reveal so I don’t make a fool of myself early. xD Can I ask you one question – do you know your Myer-Briggs type?

I'll probably go to bed soon. I'm actually in bed. I just got stuck on the tiktok app, and I really shouldn't. I've never heard of her, but I'll have to check her out tomorrow and see what she's about. And yes! I do know my Myers-Briggs type! -sparkle ✨💫

Oops you fell down the internet rabbit hole before bed :) Hope you didn’t stay up too late and got enough rest!

Love and War is the first song I found by Fleurie, and it’s also the title of one of her albums. It’s a little bit older but probably my favorite overall! I love the song Hurts Like Hell. It’s devastating but beautiful.

Have a great day, hope to talk to you more soon! 💜

p.s. I’m INFJ ✨

I did fall down the rabbit hole of the internet. It always happens. Also you should check out Kerli! she's really interesting, and I really like her music. Her music videos are also really nice. Intriguing at most. Lol. And I'm infj too! -sparkle ✨💫

I know the reveal has been made, but I didn’t want to leave this sitting all alone in my inbox.

Thank you, Ash, for taking the time not only to make me a beautiful gift but to talk with me this past month. Thank you for being a light and comfort in these uncertain times. I will miss your little surprise messages, but I hope we keep in touch. Now I will go back to liking your wonderful posts (because I confess I held back once I started to guess who you were, I didn’t want you to be suspicious either HAH). I’ve said it a lot but I really hope you stay safe, healthy, and happy!!  💗✨💫💗

[idolish7rabbitchats]

Osaka Sougo: Wonderful Octave Rabbit Chat Part 2

Tsumugi: Thank you for gathering, everyone! I was thinking of collecting requests for Sougo-san’s “RADIO STATION “Twelve Hits!””.

T: To manage the chat and check the contents, us managers will also participate. Please take care of it!

10000: Please take care of Sougo-kun’s requests!

5: Everyone, I regret that you all have gathered for me while you are all preoccupied. Today, thank you for your help by working with me. 

100: It’s strict, Sougo!! Is that a historical drama’s line?!

6: The art of the sword! It’s harakiri right!

Anesagi: I can imagine him bowing 90 degrees over the phone.

4: He’s saying spell-ish things again

5: S-Sorry… It’s not a spell or a historical drama or anything, it was meant to be a greeting...

8: Ousaka is nervous as usual huh (lol)

9: Maybe Gaku is being too scary isn’t he?

8: Am I…?

5: Not at all! I’m thinking I’m really happy that you talk to me in a friendly way all the time!

8: Isn’t he terrified…? What part of me is scary? I’ll be careful so tell me. 

9: Sorry, it was just a joke.

9: I thought it would make Ousaka Sougo relax. 

3: It seems to be making him more and more nervous. lol

10: It’s fine. Sougo-kun already knows that Gaku’s a nice guy.

5: Yes! Of course!

1000: Sougo-kun, you should take a deep breath to relax. Hee Hee Hoo.

100: Using a cliche; Yuki is also lovely (*´∀σ)

7: It’s called Lamaze breathing right! I know!

1: Nanase-san, you don’t have to answer it seriously.

100: Yuki’s best joke lololol

1000: I was answered seriously...

Okazaki: Yuki-kun, FIGHT!

7: Waaah! It was a joke huh! I’m sorry…!

2: Sou burst out laughing a little tho.

5: S-Sorry! The conversation was funny!

T: So then, everyone warmed up, so how about I ask for the requests soon…!

3: Eh? Has this warmed up? lol

6: It seems Sougo managed to relax. :-)

5: Feels like my fingers warmed up because I laughed...

2: He’s perfectly warmed up (Lol)

T: That’s great! Then, this time I will ask starting from the youngest again. Tamaki-san, please be the first batter!

4: K

4: “Let me hear what you would do if the Earth was gonna explode.”

7: Ah! That’s what we were talking about when everyone was watching that movie before!

4: It was suuuuuuuuuuuuper interesting!!! I cried a lot at the end.

6: Tamaki is really into it huh!

5: The Earth is gonna explode huh… What caused it?

4: I wonder? Wait, is that important?

5: It won’t explode without reason, so I’m curious.

4: Eeeeh. I dunno tho.

4: Like gas?

5: What kind of gas would it be… I’m not familiar with astronomy but, maybe there is a way to avoid explosion, so wouldn’t I look for that?

5: What kind of mechanism cause the explosion?

4: So-chan you’re a pain! That’s not it.

4: The reason doesn’t matter

4: I want to eat pudding or I want to sing together, don’t you have something like that?

3: Sougo, you’re serious huh!

1: I’m interested too so I understand Ousaka-san’s feelings.

5: Really, that’s it. I’m still curious about the cause of the explosion, but I’ll think about it.

T: It’s a grand request like a Sci-Fi movie huh! Tamaki-san, thank you.

T: Next is Iori-san please!

1: From me, “Please teach us a secret you haven’t told anyone.”

1: Because Ousaka-san has a mysterious charm. The listeners would probably also be interested in knowing  Ousaka-san’s secrets.

5: For secrets, what kind of level would be good?

1: A secret that you can talk about over the radio is fine.

5: That’s good.

100: Do you actually watch cat videos when you’re depressed or something?!

10: Do you actually prefer chili oil over tabasco or something?!

Okazaki: Neither of those really feel like secrets!

8: It doesn’t feel like disclosing secret at all.

5: Balancing is hard but, I’ll think of a secret that sound like something I’m disclosing, and something I can say over the radio.

T: Iori-san, thank you for the thrilling request! Next is Riku-san please!

7: Yes! From me it’s “Please let us hear your first impressions of the members of IDOLiSH7!”

6: A very interesting request!

2: For first impressions, you mean when we were playing basketball in the practice room? How nostalgic-.

5: We got excited so quickly that it didn’t feel like we just met. 

1: Maybe playing sports helped it too. We could feel better by exercising, and we could communicate.

7: Even if we didn’t play basketball, I think I would like Sougo-san immediately!

1: Is that the first impression from Nanase-san?

5: Thanks, Riku-kun. I’m happy. 

3: I like you too!

6: I love you too, Sougo.

1: Should I keep this situation too…?

2: Don’t stop the flow. It’ll become more embarrassing. (lol)

1: Nikaido-san, please go ahead.

2: No no, this is better from the young ones. Go on, Tama.

4: What’s with that Yama-san; don’t pass it to me!

3: Hey old man, adults should lead it!

6: Japanese people are shy huh :-(

100: Everyone’s cute huh!

10: Should we say we like us too?

8:  In TRIGGER?

9: We won’t say it.

5: Thanks everyone...! I love you too!

T: It became a heart-warming request huh! Next, can we hear a request from Kujou-san?

9: Yes. From me it’s “Show us a wild Ousaka Sougo.”

9: Ousaka Sougo gives a nice and soft impression. I think there are lots of fans who want to see something unexpected.

9: Your “12 SONGS GIFT” solo song was rock and cool too.

5: I-It’s an honor for me…!

9: It’s not just me. Surely everyone thinks the same. 

9: You didn’t really mess up on singing and dancing from the beginning but that’s because of the accumulation of steady practice right. But, from “12 SONGS GIFT”, I could feel your passion, not only your seriousness.

1000: “Maybe” was enthralling.

1000: It was free and like Sougo-kun, it was a good song.

4: So-chan, don’t screenshot it.

5: I thought I would set it as the wallpaper on my smartphone...

2: Set this rabbit chat conversation?

3: For Sougo to do that, it’s a really happy thing huh!

10000: That’s great, Sougo-kun!

4: You are more hyped than usual

5: Thank you. I’m glad I could sing that song!

10: Making Sougo-kun happy seems to have made Tenn happy too!

9: Ryuu, you don’t have to say that.

8: He’s embarrassed.

9: Takanashi-san, can’t we move on to the next request?

T: S-Sorry! I was happy about that too…! So then, next is Nagi-san please!

6: From me, “Please talk about the music that Sogo loves.”

6: Sougo talking about something he likes makes him so happy his eyes shine. The fans also want to see that side of Sougo!

1: We can’t see him since it will be the radio but we can tell that he enjoys it.

5: Thanks, Nagi-kun. You were thinking of me that way huh.

7: Sougo-san and Nagi talk about their hobbies a lot when they’re together huh!

2: Sou listens to Nagi’s anime talks seriously until the end huh.

3: Even when we talked too much and almost fall asleep, Sogo sometimes still listens and nods!

6: Sougo is good at listening! He listens to me endlessly, so I can’t stop talking about Kokona too x-)

5: I like someone telling their feelings of liking something with words. I can feel their inner love and it makes me happy too.

5: And, Nagi-kun’s conversations are full of knowledge and fun. I wanted to listen to it forever.

6: I also feel a calm happiness when listening to Sougo’s talks.

T: I want to try listening to more of Sougo-san’s talks!

*T: Like, Sougo-san’s talks about the music he loves!

5: I’m always talking on the radio but I still have a lot of things I want to talk about!

5: I’m worried about if I can make it a fun talk but I’m really happy you said you want to hear it.

T: Because it’s Sougo-san’s talks, I want to hear more! I want to know more about Sougo-san!

5: Thanks, Manager.

T: So then, next is the request from Sougo-san please!

5: Yes. My request for myself is “Pull one more request.”

3: Eh? Pull again? Why?

1: Meaning, to pull a different request, right?

5: Yeah. Everyone put a lot of thought into the requests so I want to answer even just one more.

2: That is a very Sou-ish request.

100: You don’t have to mind us so much!

1000: Yeah yeah, don’t hold back. It would be fine if you do what you want.

5: Ah, that’s not it! It’s not like I’m holding back.

5: Thinking about the requests that everyone took the time to make for me makes me very happy. So, I just want to answer a request.

5: I was actually looking forward to what kind of requests they would be until today!

5: Even though, there are some drastic requests that pop up, so I was nervous too...

100: Sougo~~~~~ You’re a good kid (*(´>ω<))ω`●）

10: Sogo-kun, you were looking forward to the requests that much!

10: Now I want to change my request to “Add one more request to answer”!

T: S-Sorry! Because of the on-air schedule, I don’t think we can add to the number of requests… ><

9: Like a magic lamp.

8: Like how a wish asking for more wishes is not allowed huh.

3: Sorry! Can we take a little break from the group chat?

3: Kinako popped out from my backpack…!

100: Kinako meaning Tsumugi-chan’s bunny?

1000: If it was powder kinako, that would be a disaster.

Anesagi: Ah man, that makes me want to eat Anmitsu. (T/N: A Japanese sweet that uses kinako and brown sugar syrup)

5: It’s true! Kinako-san, how long were you hiding there...

T: I’m sorry for the trouble Mitsuki-san!

3: I’ll send her to the office. The dorms doesn’t have a toilet for Kinako after all.

1: I’ll go too. Animals tend to runaway, so it would be safer if there are two people.

7: Maybe I’ll go too! Let’s go buy snacks on the way too!

9: I wanted to make a tea so it will be helpful if we can take a break.

T: Everyone, thank you! So then, we’ll take some break!

V2:

T: I want to try listening to more of Sougo-san’s talks!

T: Like about IDOLiSH7!

5: Being able to meet everyone was one of the biggest events in my life. And being able to meet Manager too.

5: I’m worried about if I can make it a fun talk but I’m really happy you said you want to hear it.

V3:

T: I want to try listening to more of Sougo-san’s talks!

T: Like your hidden hobby?

5: Like choosing different route to go back home? I can find something new, it’s fun. One day, Mitsuki-san and I found a coffee bean shop in the neighborhood. 

5: I’m worried about if I can make it a fun talk but I’m really happy you said you want to hear it.

[fehdelivers]

Ephraim--[Sospital]

Word Count: 2400

Genre: Argue

Summary: Sospital, to preserve; to keep one from harm.

When Kiran strikes a deal with Valter to turn his eyes away from his previous "prey." Ephraim is furious at the risks she’s taken and, Kiran doesn’t understand why he can’t accept that she was only trying to protect him and his sister.

Kiran fidgeted.

Each tick of the clock wound her tighter and tighter. Her attention wasn’t even on the papers in front of her anymore. She was so irritable and on edge she hadn’t even gotten anything done.

Kiran sighed and closed her eyes, setting her pen to the side. She was doing it again. Ryoma had already talked to her about this.

She could swear she had been doing so much better after that. She had dropped every weight that she had been carrying since she came to Askr, and Ryoma had patiently helped her make sense of the mess. He had gathered her up as he had gathered pieces of her burden and settled both to rest.

She frowned then, brows furrowed. She had been doing better. She ate when she needed to and stopped letting herself work all hours of day and night. That wasn’t even the problem now.

What had changed since then?

A thought of crazed eyes and wild, wavy hair filtered to her mind as if to answer. A wide, blood-thirsty grin was set on the face of this memory. Her stomach twisted unpleasantly.

Ah. That.

Kiran grimaced and ran a hand through her hair. Orbs had been tight. With Muspell and Hel--and just fucking everything--, they had desperately needed to bolster their ranks.

So, Kiran recruited Valter.

She didn’t know much about the man at the time. He was unsettling and unhinged and not unlike any number of others she’s had to manage. She kept tabs on the troublesome ones and intervened when she had to.

He held a very keen interest in Ephraim and Erika. A fact that she could already tell was going to be a problem so she made the man a deal. If he swore his allegiance, he’d live. If he left the two siblings alone, then they could work out some other trade off.

His eyes had already been fixed on her when he agreed.

She didn’t really understand what that meant for her at the time.

What she knew is that neither of the two siblings had been troubled by the man since she recruited him. Last she spoke with Ephraim he didn’t even seem aware Valter had joined their ranks. So she filed that away as a success and carried on with her usual business.

It wasn’t the first time she had taken one for the team and probably wouldn’t be the last. But, lately, she’s had the growing sense that she might have underestimated this situation.

Just a bit.

He just hung about at first. He followed her often with some attempt to antagonize her, and she’d shoo him away.

It didn’t take long for things to get to a more...alarming situation. He’d corner her in the halls more aggressively. He’d play his games with her head when he was bored. She’s found him waiting for her in her bedroom at least twice by her count--once when she woke in the night.

When he called her his new “prey,” she didn’t think she’d actually feel hunted and cornered.

She wondered if this is what rabbits felt like. This nervous tendency to stick close to the walls. This thumping in her chest. Hyperawareness that made each tick of a damn clock feel like it was beating on her ear drum.

She wondered when she started actually seeing him as the predator he thought he was.

She licked her bottom lip and glanced at the clock. She needed to think of something else. Mealtime would be soon and she was doing herself no favors thinking this way.

Kiran put away her countless plans, rubbing her eyes as she readjusted to her vision from the world of ink and paper to the study she had all but lived in at this point.

“Finished hiding, are you?”

He was waiting for her outside her little burrow and her little bunny heart went thump, thump, thump in her chest.

The nervous energy just ended up making her angry. Everything about the man pissed her off if she were going to be honest. When she recruited him she didn’t think he’d cause this sort of turmoil.

As if she fucking needed it.

He had a madman’s eyes and a wolf’s smile. Unhinged and full of teeth. All the hunger he spoke of was fixed right on her, and Kiran glowered right back. He sauntered, stepping in that way only powerful people who knew their strength did. That lazy predator’s gaut.

Kiran crossed her arms and set her jaw. Her heart kept hammering like an alarm under her skin.

“What do you want, Valter?”

He barked a laugh and closed in far too close. His smile was sharp like the edge of his axe, and her instincts screamed at her to protect her throat.

“I’ve found something peculiar, little Kiran. Do you know what it is?” Valter caged her against the wall, finger tipping her chin--baring her throat--to make her gaze meet his.

“You’ve been avoiding me much more skillfully as of late.” The words were caught in some place between a tease and a shared secret. Kiran struggled to read if this meant he was amused or annoyed with her.

“I’ve been growing bored with my prey cowering.”

At this, Kiran scowled and pulled away from his touch. “I’m not cowering. I’m busy. Have you ever thought to get a hobby? Take up sewing or something. It’s all just stabbing something over and over. I’m sure that would be right up your alley.”

Valter tilted his head. There was a shadowed look that crossed his dark eyes. She couldn’t put a name to the feeling, but her stomach rolled anxiously in response.

There were some eyes that could eat you. And, her body understood this far better than her mind did.

He licked his chops and leaned in. His breath fanned hotly over her face, and her anger fizzled out to cold fear. Her terror had her by the throat before he even had the chance for it.

His cheek brushed against hers. His mouth was right against her ear. An icy reed of that cold terror splintered down her spine.

“Is this a new tactic of yours? Are you trying to keep my attention by teasing me with your absence?”

She couldn’t answer even if she wanted to. Her words were locked under the frigid grip on her throat. Valter paid no mind, brushing her hair back in some caricature of a lover’s touch.

“Do you mean to control me this way? Or perhaps you’re trying to tempt me into finally sating myself with you.” She could feel his lips against her ear as he spoke and she was all trembles despite herself.

He pulled back then. A small mercy that let her suck in just a bit of air before her throat locked back up at the sight of his eyes. They were blazing, swallowed by that shadow she had seen earlier.

Her legs felt weak. Her jaw clenched and unclenched. The pensive frown stretched far too wide into that savage wolf’s smile.

“Nothing to say? Perhaps I should let Ephraim and Erika sate my hunger then.”

He was baiting her but it was enough to pull a glare to her face. The fear she had been strangled by felt hotter now.

“You swore to leave them alone--”

“Then entertain me!”

Kiran flinched and he gripped her by the chin again. It hurt but she paid little mind to that when he was so close still. He glared and leaned back in, nose brushing against hers.

Why did he feel the need to be so fucking close?

Her skin crawled and her whole body tensed. She pressed as close to the wall as she could get.

“What do you want from me?”

She felt him grin and shift closer as if ready to finally eat her whol--

“Let her go!”

Kiran and Valter both jerked at the roar of fury. Kiran turned her head while the man straightened grudgingly.

Ephraim stood in the hall, tense and ready to challenge the beast. Usually, Valter would relish this sort of situation. Instead, he only looked annoyed at the interference.

His gaze fell to Kiran, still pressed to the wall. She glowered shakily. “You swore,” she hissed quietly. He only snorted at this. “Another time, then.”

With that, he stalked away without another glance at Ephraim.

Kiran swallowed and watched him leave, slowly relaxing with each step he took away until he was around the corner. She breathed out slowly and squeezed her eyes shut.

Fuck. She seriously needed to do something about that.

When she opened her eyes, Ephraim was there and radianting with his anger.

“What was that?” All the tension that he had wound up in the presence of the beast-like man was redirected. Kiran was beginning to see a pattern in the way the moonstone affected people.

She took another moment to breathe. Her face was pale and her heart was still slamming. All her emotions were in knots between fear and anger.

“What do you mean?” She started, figuring she lost nothing by playing stupid first. Ephraim was clearly not impressed if his glower was anything to go by.

Maybe she was still out of it, but Kiran couldn’t help marveling the similarities between the two men despite endless differences. They were both tall men who wore their power around their shoulders. They relished their conflicts and were near beasts on the battlefield.

But Ephraim didn’t scare her like Valter did. Even when he was near spitting fire at her.

“Don’t play me for a fool, Kiran. I’ve never known that man to leave a conflict.” Kiran grimaced and raised her eyes to his face. There was no way of getting out of this without giving him some sort of answer.

“Valter and I have an understanding.”

Ephraim scoffed. “One that includes him having you pinned to a wall?”

Kiran bristled and straightened at that. He had no idea what she’s been putting up with to protect him and his sister! She met his glare with one of her own. “Of course not! Are you serious?” She stepped away from the wall and crossed her arms.

Ephraim gestured sharply down the hall as he snapped in response. “What am I supposed to think when I find you like that and yet you can order the man away with a whispered word!”

“You’re supposed to be fucking grateful I’m putting up with it so you don’t have to!”

The conversation stopped cold. Ephraim could only stare at her as his hand dropped to his side.

“You’ve been allowing this to--”

“To protect you and your sister.” She paused and grimaced. “Not this specifically, obviously.” Kiran ran her hand through her hair, clenching and unclenching her jaw. “I didn’t think it was going to be this big of a problem. It’s not like he’s the only psychopath I have to manage.”

Ephraim nearly choked on air. “What?!”

“Sometimes heroes that can cause problems get summoned. They have weird fixations or over-the-top rivalries and I just--I handle it. I keep tabs on them. I make some sort of agreement with them to trade off them not being fucking awful.”

Ephraim stared at her as if she had grown a second head. “Why the hell would you put yourself in that sort of danger?!”

“It’s my job!”

“You’re our summoner. You’re not supposed to put yourself in needless danger!”

“If you and the others are risking your lives everyday on the battlefield then why can’t I at least do something to protect you!”

“Because I don’t want you to!”

Kiran bristled, jaw snapping shut as she glared up at the man. Her fingers clenched tight at her side. “What?”

“Am I not good enough, is that it? Just because I can’t swing an axe doesn’t mean I’m weak.”

Ephraim took a stuttering breath. “I know you’re strong. Gods, I know. But, I can’t stand the thought of you putting yourself in danger for my sake.”

“You already trust me enough on the battlefield. Why not here too?”

“It’s not you I don’t trust. The moonstone, he’s dangerous. He could kill yo--”

Kiran’s jaw was set firm, body rigid. She didn’t care what he thought. She was doing nothing wrong by trying to protect the people who depended on her. “He swore an oath. He can’t hurt me.”

“Is this why you’ve been so on edge lately?” Ephraim cut right to the core and Kiran struggled not to flinch at the accusation. He breathed and ran a hand through his hair. He looked caught between frustration and a tired resignation. “I know at times I may seem foolish to you. But even I have eyes, Kiran.”

Kiran averted her eyes under the weight of his gaze. Ephraim frowned. “Does any of the others know you do this?”

Kiran still couldn’t meet his stare.“It...didn’t seem important to mention.”

His jaw clenched as he struggled to keep his temper under control. His words were through gritted teeth. “Why do you insist to save all the trouble for yourself?”

“I just…” Kiran deflated a bit, finally lifting her eyes to look at him.“I just wanted to help...even if it was just a little…”

Ephraim watched her silently as his anger fizzled out. His heart ached at the thought of Kiran putting herself in so much danger. It ached even more knowing that she did all of that to protect him, to protect her heroes.

He stepped closer without thinking and tugged her into his chest. He hugged her tightly as if maybe if he held her like this he could shield her from the world and all her troubles.

“I know that you will insist on this even if I ask you to stop. I know you’ll do things like this each time you summon someone wicked. But please, if nothing else--”

He pulled back just enough to look at her, blue eyes pleading. He couldn’t let go of her. He barely contained the need to pull her back to his chest, to hide away.

“--Let me protect you.”

Kiran choked out a laugh, smiling despite herself. She gripped his arms as if just as unwilling to be away.“You hypocrite. You’ll do that even if I say no.” Her answer was a wide grin as he pulled her back in.

This time, she relaxed and laughed warmly. “Okay! I’m trusting you to watch my back then.” Ephraim his cheek to the top of her head and sighed in relief.

“I swear to do just that.”

[crazykacey]

Com-Myu-nity Survey!

@missemperor​ tagged me on this loong survey (thank you btw <3) and I’m excited to do it! lol

1. What is your hobby?

Playing video games, Youtube (Gaming & music), baking, singing

2. What is your special skill?

Baking I guess xD

3. What are your strengths and weaknesses?

Strengths: I really don’t care what people think of me like if someone comments my clothing or the way I do certain things I’m just like “lol idgaf”. I also am quite a empathetic and sympathetic person

Weaknesses: I get angry quite easily and sometimes I might get angry over super silly and stupid things and after a while I’m just gonna be like “omg why was I mad over such a stupid thing” so I’m sorry if I get mad at anyone over silly things xD

4. What is your favorite color?

YELLOW

5. What is your favorite animal?

a dog or a bunny <3

6. Which food are you into lately?

idk there hasn’t been any new foods that I have liked so much that I would just eat it like a madman but NZ has amazing sushi😍

7. What is the thing you never lose to from anyone?

I’m not really sure if I understand this question correctly but my dignity I guess? For example there are certain things I would NEVER do but then drunk me is like let’s do this but I hold to that small part of dignity still left and don’t do that thing if it makes any sense?

8. What is your most treasured item?

I used to be really materialist but nowadays I don’t care that much about that stuff and I want to treasure the friendships and all other relationships I have rn. (wow that was deep) BUT if I had to choose one I would choose this teddy bear that I’ve had since I was like 2 or 3

9. What is your cooking specialty?

OATMEAL RAISIN COOKIES im coming for you pheebs

10. What is the thing you want the most at the moment?

To fix my fucking mental health

11. What is the thing you are most scared of?

To lose everybody who are dear to me

12. What is the thing you were happy about this year?

That I was able to get to New Zealand (and that I graduated from that hellhole aka high school)

13. What is the thing you were sad about this year?

I don’t actually know XD not that much have happened that has made me sad but if I had to choose one it’s that I had to leave my doggo to Finland ;_;

14. What is the thing you regretted this year?

focusing all my time and energy on people who I thought were my friends but in reality were just really toxic people who didn’t give a shit

15. What is the thing you were angry about this year?

my now ex-friend how just sabotaged everything and didn’t learn from any mistake that she did and just kept being shitty

16. What is the job that gave you a sense of fulfillment this year?

nothing yet lol (hope this volunteer thing does that tho lol)

17. What has changed about you since you entered com-myu-nity?

I have become more confident about speaking about the things I like (still need to work more on that tho lol) and also got more confidence on singing and doing what I like and not being afraid to be who I am (in social media mostly)

18. Which character would you play in Sera myu?

Sailor Venus D44

19. If you were to form a collab now, who would it be with?

omg I already have soo many collabs I have to do but I would like to collab with everyone from the Sera Myu Community or anyone in general (heck if you want to collab with me in any way; music, games etc. just message me I’m always up for meeting new people!)

20. What do you love about Sera Myu nowadays?

That it still exists and is getting more and more love outside of Japan too!

21. Which cast member catches your attention the most at the moment?

Mizuki Yamashita, Shiori Kubo & Rimo Hasegawa <333

22. Which cast member would you want as your significant other?

oh crap idk Hotaru, Rimo or Hironari

23. If you were to marry a cast member, who would it be?

RIMO YES QUEEN

24. If you would go to a deserted island, which cast member would you like to go with you?

For some reason I can only think of Yuu Takahashi so let’s just go with her then XD

25. If you would be born again, which cast member would you want to be?

Mizuki Yamashita or Hotaru Nomoto <33

26. Which Sera Myu production would you want to be a part of?

probs NogiMyu or UNV (so I could just cry my eyes out)

27. If you would create your own kingdom, what kind of country would you want it to be?

kingdom where everyone is equal and everyone lives in harmony (really cliche I know but idc)

28. What is an interesting book or manga you read recently?

omg lol I feel so bad I haven’t had any time for those but I like the Pokemon Special manga! can you just finish BW2 chapter plz

29. What is an interesting movie you watched recently?

Annabelle Comes Home! I don’t care what people say I LIKED IT and that is it. also it is not a movie but I watched the Zambi musicals and OMG THEY WERE SO GOOD I CRIED SO MUCH I RECOMMEND THEM PLEASE WATCH THEM (Especially Team Blue omg the feels ;_;)

30. What is your favorite Sera Myu song at the moment?

Knockin’ Down Hesitation is and will probably always be my favorite Myu song

31. What is your favorite Sera Myu song choreography at the moment?

UNV Ai no Starshine or SKSDK La Moon

32. What is your favorite Sera Myu costume at the moment?

LMF Eternal Sailor Moon or the Shining Moon Tokyo costumes (they are soo sparkly and cute I LOVE IT)

33. What is your favorite Myu at the moment?

Eien Densetsu Kaiteiban is and will probably always be my favorite Myu

34. What is your favorite Myu cast?

Kaguya Shima Densetsu Kaiteiban (Team Moon is also pretty cool tbh)

35. Is there something you say a lot recently?

irl: oh guurl, nasty

in social media: omg, lol, XD

36. What would you do if you could plan a Fan Kansha?

ALL THE MOONS SINGING LA SOLDIER and releasing the WHOLE Fan Kansa recording and throwing all the actors out of the recoring room cause that unnecessary yapping from them over the recording was SOO ANNOYING

37. What do you hope to see Sera Myu doing in the future?

SAILOR V AND SAILOR MOON R MOVIE MUSICALS!!!

also mixed cast sorry not sorry

38. What kind of person do you want to be in 5 years?

more confident about myself and have better self-esteem

39. What has been a memorable concert or event this year?

haven’t been to any this year

40. What do you want to do in your private life this year?

get my shit and mental health together

41. What kind of job would you like to do in the future?

sounds pretty cliche but maybe a Youtuber?

42. Do you have a hairstyle you would like to try in the future?

I actually have no clue AT ALL. Hair is one of the things I’m so lost with and have no idea what to do with it

43. What Sera Myu merchandise would you love to have?

something cool and useful (don’t get me started on those pins)like posters (maybe signed ones too)

44. Where would you want Sera Myu to come to?

I want Sera Myu to become an international phenomenon where the Myus would be translated and acted in a country’s native language!!!

45. If you could have a holiday with any cast member, what do you want to do?

BEACH HOLIDAY WITH RIMO omg that would be the best thing ever just sun bathing all day long

46. Please say something to your favourite cast member.

girl you are amazing and I’m so proud of you please never stop doing what you love. I would really like to meet you someday and just thank you cause you really inspire me and motivate me to continue to work on my dream. Thank you <3

[orionsangel86]

Season 14 Wishlist

Alrighty then! As per the last few season’s, each autumn before the season premier I will write a wishlist of things that hopefully will happen in the coming season, which I will then go through once the season is over.

For those of you curious:

Here is my wishlist for season 12 and here is my season 12 wishlist review

Here is my wishlist for season 13 and here is my season 13 wishlist review

Now as a slight disclaimer I need to stress that this isn’t meta, or me promising anything to happen (since I’m not a showrunner nor psychic) and is purely meant for fun - having said that most of the items on my wishlist are at least somewhat realistic wishes and within the realms (at least in my opinion) of actually happening.

So without further rambling here we go:

A decent arc for Michael!Dean. Yes, we all expect it to only last 3 episodes. which I find deeply disappointing. I would prefer if things are not as they seem and it turns out to last far longer than that.

Scenes inside Dean’s head. Like we got with both Cas and Sam when they were possessed, I really want to know where Michael has got Dean stashed away inside his head - and exactly what kind of experience that is for him. I can think of a whole bunch of different ways that could go - will Michael put Dean through hell? Or will he distract him the way of the Djinn with his idea of heaven? I am extremely excited by this idea and hope they don’t pass on the potential.

The missing scene from 13x23 when Dean said yes to Michael. There was definitely more to that and I hope so much we will see it - though I don’t think this is particularly likely.

Cas’s grief. Obviously. Last year I was all about Dean’s grief arc. This year, I need Cas’s to be just as bad. This is 10 years since the original story. Stopping Michael and changing allegiance to stand with Dean was Cas’s origin story - Remember how he reacted in season 5 when Dean was thinking about saying yes to Michael? Oh ho ho I can’t even begin to imagine how this will affect Cas. I want this to be a mirror of last year, and far worse than season 10. 

Sam’s continued leadership role. Now where I want to see Cas absolutely broken with grief over Dean’s possession, what I think would compliment it perfectly is Sam’s fearsome determination and functional leadership. It would be a great way to show how far the brothers have come to breaking the toxic codependency which has bound them to each other - that Sam is capable of functioning without Dean and without immediately trying to sell his soul or give his life for his brother. 

Sam and Cas working together. One of the things that I really hated about the start of season 10, was that without Dean around, Sam and Cas’s relationship just fell apart, and Sam was made to look pretty much like a douche by the show implying he had kicked Cas out of the bunker and blamed him for breaking his shoulder?!? (I found the whole thing very out of character for Sam but then destiel’s continued refusal to become canon tends to make Sam look occasionally douchey - but that is a meta for another day). Give me Sam and Cas as a team. Supporting each other in their grief and acting like the brothers (in-law) that they are.

Jack and Cas father/son bonding time - I mean I saw the promo and it looks like Jack is gonna be grounded for a little while... >.> but once he has written 100 lines of “I will not suggest killing my dad in front of my father” I think Cas will forgive him. I’d like to see Cas trying to teach Jack human things or mundane tasks with Dean watching them with a fond expression!

Addressing Dean’s abuse trauma - this one has been going around on tumblr recently so I’m latching on to other wonderful meta a bit here, but since last season explored Sam’s Lucifer trauma (and to an extent Cas’s Naomi trauma), it would be fitting if this Michael!Dean arc is followed up with an arc of recovery for Dean, not just from Michael, but from everything he has suffered since the apocalypse.

More seeing “behind the mask” with Dean. I think he has already massively grown into himself and out of his fathers shadow, but I’d just like more examples like with the chick flicks and the cucumber water.

Cas truly breaking free from heaven. Now I think that the ideal situation would be that Cas is the one to fix heaven, and that he leaves the angels by choice, and with them all respecting him and being thankful to him. But Cas needs to start to break free from that duty and obligation that he still feels to heaven. Even in season 13 he carried that guilt, and whilst this is more endgame stuff, I desperately want to see more progress on this. 

More hints towards Cas desiring human things and human feelings and basically desiring humanity for himself (no jokes guys, this time I DON’T mean Dean). I am a staunch human!Cas endgame girl after all. The show spent a lot of time in season 9 and 10 building on this for Cas and then it went a bit quiet. I’d like to see those threads picked up again.

In fact, when it comes to Cas, how about he starts answering some of those hundreds of unanswered questions that have been thrown at him since Carver era? How about he finds his place, where he belongs and AS WHAT in general? Cas, you have a home now and a family. Stop lingering in doorways. 

Sam showing us more of his personality. I think now that his Lucifer trauma has been somewhat addressed, Sam should be a bit lighter and more carefree. I’d like to know some more about him other than his obsession with serial killers which is frankly a worrying hobby Sam!

Mary and Cas bonding - in fact I just want to see all of the rest of Dean’s family bonding with Cas more. I want more knowing looks from Mary and even a conversation about the topic - oh wouldn’t that be a dream!

Dean coming out of the closet. Yes yes I know I know. Every year... But it is 20gayteen and next year is 20BITEEN and dammit the world is full of rainbows right now - Bert and Ernie made it official... Why can’t Dean Winchester? I’m totally cool with someone slipping THIS to Dabb. I won’t even ask for credit. ;)

Last year I wanted Sam to build on his relationships outside of Dean and we did pretty well last year with that. But of course, I want more. Maybe some Sam x Rowena? I’m game. 

On that note WITCH!SAM. I am still a huge lover of Sam practicing magick. It’s a story line with so much potential.

More badass ladies kicking ass. Aww man we were kinda blessed with this last year weren’t we? Keep it up show. Please keep it up.

Billie continuing to play a large role as Death. I find her captivating and want more.

Wayward Sisters returning. It still hurts, but we need to know what happens next.

JODY AND CAS NEED TO MEET GODDAMMIT. Also I want Cas to reunite with Claire again.

As per last year: The return of the mixtape. BRING BACK THE MIXTAPE (yup I’m gonna wish for it until I get it).

Please dress Cas up. The closest we got last year was the cowboy hat and the dreadful nazi uniform of AU Cas. Why can’t we have him in plaid? PLEASE.

Absolutely no Lucifer, Lucifer vessel or any hint of Mark Pellegrino. Plus no Kentucky fried chicken pantomime villains either. I’ll be happy if season 14 is free from this nonsense.

Saving the best for last, what do I always wish for above all else? You guessed it - DESTIEL. Do I want it to be canon? Well yes eventually of course. But in season 14 my wish is for their story to continue as it did in early season 13. More obvious destiel content, more of destiel built into the narrative and ideally, made explicit. A love confession? Even if only to a third party? That is undeniably romantic. Zero “no homo’s” would be nice. I just wish for further development on the destiel narrative. That is all. 

As always feel free to add to this with your own wishes! 

BRING ON SEASON 14!! :D

[caroline-min-max]

Two Timer

Caroline and the twins are in Arkham. An individual the three know all too well is also there and seems to have made serious progress in rehabilitation.

Supposedly it was a lovely day outside. Clear blue sky, warm weather, and some light breezes. It sounded like it would be a shame to waste it by staying indoors.

Caroline had no choice.

Good old Arkham Asylum again. Trapped inside until she could figure a way out or make an honest effort at rehabilitation (ha!). It was her home away from home that she hated to get accustomed to. She yearned to be free, away from the cramped cells and unwanted company of her fellow inmates.

Bunnies needed plenty of room and mental stimulation to stay happy and healthy. The staff should know this by now. Normally a hobby that she loved, Caroline was glumly putting together a puzzle during the time she was allowed outside of her cell. Thanks to her last escape she likely wouldn’t be allowed outdoors for a very long time.

At least they got her a new puzzle... This one should hopefully have all of the pieces. She sighed as she combed through the pieces in the box, pulling out the frame ones to put together first and setting them on the small table she was seated at. No matter the puzzle her approach was always the same.

“Hm?!” Caroline was startled by the sound of chair being placed in front of the table. She looked up, even more surprised by who was joining her. “Mr. Dent!” she exclaimed. 

“Caroline,” Two Face replied with a nod. He knew that the two empty chairs that resided close to Caroline were being saved for two particular individuals.

A delighted smile spread across Caroline’s face. Two Face had been calling her by her first name regularly these days, an event that used to be quite rare. Thanks to his therapy sessions it seemed that the “Harvey Dent” side of Two Face was winning the battle between his split personalities. 

She could feel it in his presence as well. His body language wasn’t so stiff, he hadn’t crossed his arms, and his eyes seemed softer as he looked at her. He was almost the man that she’d met all those years ago when he tried to put a case together for those responsible for turning her into a rabbit.

“I don’t suppose you want to help me put this together?” Caroline asked as she set the box on the table. She was only kidding, her relaxed ears popping up in surprise when Two Face grabbed a pile of pieces to root through, noticing what she was doing. “You’re in a good mood,” she said happily with a smile.

“Grace is coming to visit me today,” Two Face answered as he placed two frame pieces he found in the middle of the table. Once he’d decided to stay in Arkham to truly take steps to push back his ‘Big Bad Harvey’ personality her visits with Bruce Wayne had become weekly. “They think that I’ve made enough progress in therapy to have surgery.”

To get rid of the Two Face personality? Caroline wanted to ask. She knew that the Two Face side of him had sabotaged a surgery attempt before and she didn’t want any careless words to upset him. 

“For...?” Instead Caroline pointed at the side of her face that corresponded with Two Face’s “bad” side.

Two Face looked over at her, nodding when he realized what she was asking. 

“I’m really happy for you,” Caroline said genuinely. It had been years now since the accident that made him like this. It had to be hell for him... She couldn’t even imagine what it was like to have two personalities fighting for control of one body. 

Harvey Dent had done so much harm as Two Face Caroline wondered if he’d even be accepted back into normal society, if people could understand it wasn’t really him who committed all those atrocities. It was lucky that Grace and Bruce Wayne had stuck by him; otherwise Caroline wasn’t sure if he’d be able to get through all this alone.

“You should make use of your therapy sessions,” Two Face remarked. 

Caroline sighed. “I thought those were supposed to be confidential.”

“You have to actually say something in confidence first.”

Typical... Those sneaks were trying to use Two Face to make her spill her guts, huh? They sure liked to keep track and monitor the relationship the Gotham Rouges had with one another. 

“This seems a little odd coming from the man who largely made me who I am today,” Caroline replied with a small snicker. Her smirk faded when she saw the guilt that washed over Two Face’s features.

“I wasn’t the one who did that, Caroline,” Two Face replied.

“I suppose not...” Caroline acknowledged. The voice that was coming out of the man seated in front of her wasn’t the gruff, gravelly one she’d grown so used to. It was softer in tone and had a hint of warmth to it. 

...Maybe she was going to miss Two Face when all was said and done. She sadly realized he’d been a part of her life even longer than Harvey Dent was.

“So let me give you give you some better advice now.” Part of reforming for Two Face was while he understood his violent personality wasn’t who he really was he still had to take responsibility for those actions. Trying to set Caroline on the right path was his way of trying to make amends with one of his biggest mistakes. “Start opening up in therapy. Tell them what happened to you. Let them help you let go of all that anger and live a normal life while you wait for them to find a way to fix you.” 

“I haven’t gotten my revenge yet and I don’t need to be ‘fixed’!” Caroline snapped, scowling. “YOU had a good life before your accident. I was getting my ass pinched at a scummy nightclub for their pocket change and then, after this happened,” she said as she grabbed one of her ears for a moment for emphasis. “Just as I thought things were looking up I found out I couldn’t even be a veterinarian because apparently how I smell freaks out most animals now. I have no reason to start trying to be a good girl again.”

“You’re going to get yourself killed.” It was a miracle that she hadn’t been already. Despite her small size she was bold and reckless; it was bound to get her into serious trouble someday. “Is it because of those idiots?” Caroline seemed to call the shots in their relationship but he worried if Min and Max pressured her committing crime sprees. He’d come to know them as the money hungry duo too stupid to pull off any major thefts on their own.

“No, and please don’t call them that,” Caroline answered sharply. 

“If they cared about you they’d get jobs and let you stay at home.” If Caroline didn’t want to work there was no reason why the twins couldn’t support her. Maybe they even had enough cashed stashed away where it wouldn’t be an issue.

“I suppose I’ll sound just as delusional as Harley but they care about me more than you’ll ever know. We’ve been through so much together and, if I did want to go straight, they’d go along with it. We’re good as we are, Mr. Dent. Focus on your own recovery and leave me be. I appreciate what you did for me but I don’t need your guidance anymore.” 

Caroline turned her attention to over Two Face’s shoulder when she notice two more familiar faces, completely identical to each other, approaching the table. They were hesitant to do so, walking slowly and stopping when they were right behind Two Face. They looked to Caroline for guidance on what to do. They’d noticed she seemed to be having a rather serious conversation with him.

“Have a seat, boys,” Caroline welcomed. 

Min and Max continued towards the chairs Caroline saved for them. They pulled them back to sit down on, each taking a turn at giving her a quick kiss once they had. They’d missed their rabbit just as much as she’d missed them.

Two Face shifted uncomfortably in his seat at the sight. Caroline could do so much better than his former lackeys. It was yet another thing he blamed himself for since he caused Caroline to meet the twins. 

“Are we interrupting?” Max asked.

Caroline shook her head. “Dad was just lecturing me.”

“How old do you think I am?!” Two Face asked as he thumped his fist on the table, making the laid out puzzle pieces bounce slightly.

“Oh... I don’t know...” Caroline pretended to think about it. “Fifty? Fifty-five?” she teased with a grin.

“You little brat...” Two Face replied before chuckling. If Caroline ever did start down the right path again he hoped that the confidence she’d gained as the White Rabbit would stick with her. She’d never have had the guts to joke with him like this before. 

Min and Max glanced across Caroline at one another. What was going on here? Two Face was... Laughing? And smiling? They’d never seen their former boss like this. It was true that his friendship with Caroline had been completely mended for awhile now but he’d never behaved like this when they’d talked in Arkham. 

One of the guards approached their table. 

“There’s visitors for you, Harvey,” he said.

“Tell Grace I say ‘Hi’,” Caroline said as Two Face started to stand.

“Why don’t you tell her yourself?” Two Face offered. Grace hadn’t seen Caroline in all these years. Maybe having their connection rekindled would help in the younger woman seeing things his way.

Caroline’s ears fell as she smiled sadly. “I don’t think that would be fair to her.” She’d never say it to anyone but she was shocked that Grace had hung in there for all these years. Dealing with all of Two Face’s relapses couldn’t be easy and the last thing she wanted was to stress Grace out even more by showing her what she’d become. “I really do hope that you’re well on your way to stop meeting me like this.” She extended her hand, which Two Face reached forward and grasped in his.

Two Face looked deep into Caroline’s eyes and saw the fierceness of a woman who wasn’t done fighting. All the kindness, gentleness, and fear she had when she was younger was nowhere to be found.  While his Harvey Dent personality wavered in and out the Caroline White he’d initially met seemed to be completely gone.

“Goodbye, Caroline...” Two Face said rather sadly.

“See you around, Mr. Dent,” Caroline replied, a little confused as to why his words sounded so final. She let go of his hand.

The trio silently watched Two Face be escorted away by the guard.

“What’s with Two Face?” Min asked, bewildered. 

Caroline took a moment to respond, mulling over exactly what she wanted to say. “He’s finally getting his personalities sorted out,” she answered. “It’s good for him but it’s why I’ve warned the two of you not to say a word to the shrinks when they force us to meet with them. They WILL get inside our heads and start to influence how we think. We’re fine as we are.”

“Sure, Caroline!” Max replied.

“We don’t tell them nothin’!” Min assured.

Caroline was glad to hear it. She’d been worried about the sorts of doubts and ideas the therapists here would try to instill in the twins. She especially hated how they liked to use their relationship with her as a weakness. 

There hadn’t been any therapy appointments for awhile, not since Caroline decided to mess with them and use the plots to books she’d read to lie about her life. She’d been found out and the profiles the psychiatrists had painstakingly put together were all thrown out.

“Well then...” With that sorted out Caroline felt it would be ideal to change the subject. “Did you boys go outside at all? I hate that I’m grounded; I heard that it’s nice out.”

“There’s a storm that’s starting to roll in,” Min replied.

Caroline seemed happy to hear that. “No loss, then! Have you two heard anything interesting while cooped up?”

The three continued to chitchat as the twins started to help Caroline with her puzzle. It was what they usually wound up doing, enjoying the time they were able to see and touch one another before it would be back to their cells again.

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Boredom taking hold of her in her cell, Caroline was dozing. She’d been laying on her back, gazing up at the ceiling on her bed, once again wishing she could be at home. Still without a solid plan to escape her eyelids had begun to droop. Just as sleep was hitting her she was startled by the sound of her cell opening.

Caroline shot upright, shocked to see Min and Max standing in front of her cell. Max had a key card in his hand and his eyes on her while Min was watching their backs for any guards with a gun in his hand. Seeing what was going on, the other female inmates were begging to be let out as well but the twins felt they had no time to help them. 

Before her cell had completely opened Caroline ducked under the rising door.

“How did you two-” Caroline began, being cut off by the sound of an escape alarm going off. She winced from how loud it was.

“Later!” Min answered as he started running forwards, urging her to follow him and Max.

Caroline should have known better there wasn’t time to dawdle. She’d just been so surprised that the twins had managed to bust her out of her cell seemingly through their own volition rather than something she’d thought up.

As she followed them she became more and more puzzled as to how they’d pulled this off. As they ran past the hallway that led down to the men’s ward she noticed some incapacitated staff members on the floor starting to be tended to by other Arkham employees. This sort of destruction and havoc didn’t seem like something Min and Max could do by themselves.

They dashed out an emergency exit door that had already been busted open. There it started to make sense to Caroline when she saw Two Face in the process of hot wiring a car he’d broken into but led into another puzzlement. 

“Mr. Dent, what are you doing?!” Caroline exclaimed as she ran up to the driver’s side just as he got the engine started. “I thought that you were going to-”

“SHUT UP AND GET IN THE CAR, WHITE!” Two Face thundered, some of his spittle hitting Caroline’s face.

“B-but...” Caroline stammered as she stepped back in alarm. What had happened to the man she’d recently shared such friendly moment with?

The twins needed to gently guide Caroline into the back seat with them; she was frozen in place from how scary and furious Two Face looked. It was a wonder that he’d even sprung Min and Max when he was in such a state.

Min had barely shut the door when Two Face floored it, a sharp turn making his passengers slam into one another as they were thrown to the left side of the vehicle.

“Are you you alright, Caroline?” Max asked as he quickly scooted back.

“Yeah...” she answered as the three of them quickly buckled their seat belts to avoid that happening again, Two Face showing no signs of slowing down. It wouldn’t be the first time she’d been smooshed in-between the twins but it was never so forcefully. “Mr. Dent, why are you breaking out?!” she tried again.

“It’s like you said, White...” Two Face replied gruffly, keeping his eyes on the road as they cleared the Arkham grounds, foot still glued to the accelerator. “I have to get my revenge and I don’t need to be fixed!”

“Wh...” Caroline’s brow furrowed in confusion. Did something happen? Or was this... Was this her fault? “Is this because of Rupert Thorne?” she guessed.

“They thought they could trick me and stab me in the back! I’ll show them!” Two Face was talking more to himself than to Caroline, fixated on how he was going to get back at his former best friend. 

Although she was still in the dark Caroline wasn’t going to let Two Face throw away all the progress he made. Maybe it wasn’t too late. She unbuckled her seat belt and lunged forward, grabbing at the steering wheeling.

“WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!” Two Face shouted in alarm.

“Stop the car!” Caroline begged. She wanted to swerve the car into a ditch but couldn’t budge the wheel at all. Two Face was much stronger than her. “Please!” she said desperately. 

Two Face roughly elbowed Caroline in the face, making her yelp and recoil back into her seat. “Keep her back there or I’ll throw all three of you out!” he shouted back at the twins.

The twins said nothing, looking over Caroline’s face instead to see if there were any visible injuries. Two Face struck her cheek which would likely wind up swollen and bruised later but it could have been worse. Their former boss was back to how they remembered him.

“Min,” Caroline whispered. “Your gun...” If Two Face wasn’t going to listen maybe she could make him stop by force.

“No way!” Min whispered back. “He has one too.”

“He already hit you, Caroline,” Max replied, re-buckling Caroline’s seat belt for her to keep her somewhat restrained. 

Both Min and Max were furious that Caroline had been injured but being inside a speeding car wasn’t exactly the best of settings to fight back in. They felt it was best to comply with Two Face this time for their own well being and to avoid Caroline being hurt anymore.

Once they were back in Gotham Two Face stopped the car in an area he thought would safe for three recently escaped Arkham patients. No was around and he remembered the White Rabbit had a hideout around here. He ordered the three of them out of the car and took off again immediately.

“What happened?!” Caroline quickly asked, grabbing on to Min and Max’s sleeves.

“We don’t know!” Min answered. “He attacked the guards, grabbed his gun, and a key card. My cell was right next to his so he let me out and gave me card. All he said was ‘Get White and your brother fast; I won’t wait for you’.”

“You don’t have any idea where he’s going?”

The twins shook their heads.

Caroline turned to look in the direction that Two Face had driven off in, shoulders slumped and ears flat. “Then... I guess all we can do is be glad he decided to spring us too. Poor Mr. Dent... I wish I knew why...” It couldn’t have all been because of her, right? She’d made it clear their circumstances were different. She had encouraged him to return to his own life.

The twins placed comforting hands on Caroline’s shoulders.

“Lets go home, Caroline,” Max said gently. “We should get ice on your cheek.”

“Yeah...” Caroline reluctantly agreed. That’s all they could do for now. Maybe later they could find some of the men Two Face liked to recruit and see if they knew anything at all. 

Regardless, it was another failed attempt. Caroline felt in her heart it was likely Two Face’s final chance after all these years. If he could come that close just for his other personality to win again all hope seemed lost.

[bunny-bizarre]

Break Up - Getting over it

Good morning! Listening to Taylor Swift again, I see? Oh dear. Wrapped in your blanket, eating ice-cream, playing video games, staring at the wall, crying, wondering what went wrong, sad music in the background… Break ups are really a tough thing to go through. Regardless how long the relationship lasted, if it was passionate and intense, its demise will be as just as passionate and intense, causing a lot of emotional pain. No matter if it’s a man or a woman, both sexes suffer from a loss of a loved on. Even if men don’t display as much obvious signs, they have different ways of showing that they are emotionally hurt. Socially it is more acceptable for women to cry and to show emotions, while men have to appear strong and hide their pain. I don’t really support this, but there is nothing I can really do about such social expectations. What I CAN and WILL do is help people get over this feeling. Let’s start with the most common things I hear from people who suffered a break up:   “I will never find someone like her/him.” So what? They were not the last person on Earth. They were not the last person you will ever meet. They will not be the last person that finds you interesting, fun and worth giving love to. If they were abusive then: Good. It is GOOD you will never find someone like that ever again. You don’t need someone who brings you down, makes you feel worthless, holds things over your head that happened in the past, are unable to forgive past mistakes, brings you down. Who needs that, please? Take a good look at yourself. Be rational. Mostly likely, you are not as a terrible person as you thought you were. Look around you: your friends, family, pets… all these creatures are giving you love, support and attention. They know you very well, their judgment counts. They are sure you are worth loving. Are you going to doubt all those people (and pets)? Are you really going to say they are fools for loving you? You better not.

“What if I stay single forever?” You won’t. If you stay in your room, forget to eat, shower and defecate in your bed, then yes, maybe. But if you change your attitude towards yourself, then the attitude of your environment will change too. There are so many ways to meet new people. Through your friends and family, for example. The internet is a tricky option, but still viable. Try new hobbies. If you love PC games, you might want to join a game forum. There are so many stories about people meeting new lovers and friends like that. If you love animals, you can always volunteer in your local animal shelters, where you can also meet people who love animals. An easy way would be to make a list of things you love doing. Then browse through the possible options of where and how you could meet new people.

“I don’t want to do anything.” It’s 0k. Cry it out, let it all out. If it’s easier, talk to your friends or family. But don’t go depression-binging and adding unhealthy coping mechanisms to your life. Get some sleep and start your day with something nice. Anything. It can be something simple like a fresh squeezed orange and lemon, tea spoon of honey and some calm music. Remember that your body needs your love. If you keep it healthy, it will reward you with a good dose of dopamine (happiness). Come on. Get up. You can do it. You don’t have to hurry, take your time. But do it. Don’t give up. Remember, someone DID fall for you and there will be someone else who will be able to see how precious you are. There is someone out there who needs you. You will click like a lego block. And it will be wonderful. But if you’re a drenched in the stench of desperation/depression it will not be possible. IMPORTANT: DO NOT ISOLATE YOURSELF! Being alone and just staring at the wall will only give you time to brood over mistakes. You will hurt yourself without doing anything productive. It won’t lead to any solutions and might actually just give birth to mistakes. Don’t let that happen.   “… Maybe they will call back.” Stop. Right now. Break ups are not fun. They don’t end like parties, everyone happy and joyful, going home and wondering how much fun they had. They hurt. And don’t even thing staying friends with someone you had romantic feelings for, will be nice or fun. Especially when the break up is fresh, the best thing to do is to remove EVERY trace of the relationship. Delete those damn photos, hide away all those gifts and mementos. They will hold you back and you need to heal. Later, when you feel better, you will be able to look at those things without much pain, but first you need emotional distance to them.

“I am not good enough.” This is something I will never understand. I will just give myself as an example. My looks are not my primary “weapon”. I consider myself average-looking. I don’t think that looks ever got me anything important in my life. All my previous partners of course said I was beautiful, but that’s like my mom saying that, so it doesn’t really count. What is then the thing that pulls people towards me? I like making people feel good. Besides being a cynic, I do love making friends. I love to listen and I am interested in what people have to say, because I love to learn new things. Everyone has some knowledge to give to you so: LISTEN to them. That also goes in reverse. You are a universe of vast knowledge, full of interesting stories, anecdotes and things to tell. Share them. You will pull people towards you and gain more confidence, when you share things, you’re good at. I love drawing, cooking and writing. Those are probably my main skillsets. That’s why I love sharing those skills, teaching everyone else about them, helping, giving attention, without wanting anything in return. The pure happiness and gratitude of people is reward enough. Learn to love and enjoy this feeling. I always tell myself: “Boy, I sure made this amazing soup. Who the f***k wouldn’t want to marry me?” Take that attitude. Use your own talents and skills, because you do have them and you should be proud of them. They are not useless, they are a part of you. Your hobbies and talents are something that make you happy, that remind you how amazing you are. Don’t throw that away!

CONCLUSION: A break up might be very painful, but just like a broken bone, it will heal over time. It won’t be fast and easy. But don’t try to suffocate in your own pain. Let it out in a healthy way. Take care of yourself, because you deserve it. Greetings and hugs from your Bunny.

P.S. I would love to know what are some other things you keep telling yourself when you are going through a break up. Please share your thoughts.

[chelledoggo]

Softwald [an Epic MickeyxAU fanfiction] - Chapter 3: A Talk Over Tea

Oswald is warmly welcomed into his temporary new home. He and the Soft Couple get to know each other better over some tea and refreshments. He reluctantly begins to open up about what’s on his mind.

chapter 3 of my Softwald AU backstory fic~

no content warnings

Oswald headed down the stairs. Luckily an overnight duffle bag was enough to pack what he'd need for the next few days: some pairs of blue shorts and some toiletries.

Ortensia was waiting downstairs by the mirror. She'd just got done explaining to the kids that their daddy would be going “on vacation” for a few days.

Yeah, thought Oswald. A vacation from sanity, maybe.

“All set, honey-bunny?” Ortensia asked with a smile.

“As I'll ever be,” Oswald sighed in reply.

Ortensia hugged him and patted him on the shoulders.

“Now remember, the point of this is to relax, so don't worry about me and the kids. Just think nice, happy, relaxin' thoughts, okay?”

Oswald mumbled in agreement, and Ortensia gave him a kiss to send him off.

“See you in a few days, honey!” she chimed.

Oswald put on a convincing smile for her and the kids.

“Bye, sweetie. Bye kids. I'll be home before you know it.”

He waved back at his family, and then took a deep breath before stepping through the mirror.

He stepped back into the same cozy pastel living area from before, except now it was being lit by candles, and some soft classical music played on a home stereo.

What, am I walking into a spa or somethin'? Oswald thought to himself. I know he was gonna help me relax, but this is kinda overkill.

“Hey, Oswald,” a voice whispered nearby.

Oswald looked and saw Softwald and his wife (whom Oswald mentally decided to refer to as “Softensia” from now on) standing in the doorway to another room. They were both smiling warmly, like two greeters at a luxury retreat welcoming a VIP guest.

“Please, come right this way,” Softensia whispered. “We've got some nice, relaxin' peppermint tea on the kettle for you.”

“...Alright, then,” Oswald smiled hesitantly and walked into the next room.

A very fancy afternoon tea setup was laid out. There were tiny sandwiches, scones, and sweets lovingly arranged on the table, along with a fresh bouquet of some sparkling native flowers.

Oswald surveyed the spread skeptically.

They're not gonna poison my tea or somethin', are they? he thought. These folks are way too serene. It's kinda weirdin' me out...But Ortensia seems to think they're on the up-and-up. She's always been a pretty good judge of character...for better or worse.

Oswald took a seat at the table and waited for tea to be served.

Hmm...Those cupcakes look good, Oswald thought. Hope they didn't put anythin' 'special' in them...although it would explain a lot, I suppose.

Softwald walked in with a pot of hot tea and poured it in each cup. Oswald had to admit, it smelled pretty nice, although he'd always been more of a coffee guy.

After the three of them sat down, Oswald spoke up.

“I hope this doesn't sound rude,” he began. “But there's something I've been meanin' to ask you two. Why do you whisper all the time? Is there someone else asleep in the house?”

Softwald smiled. “It's alright. Actually, this is the only way we're able to talk. If we raise our voices too much above a whisper, it hurts our throats.”

Softensia closed her eyes and added. “It doesn't bother us, though. In fact, there's somethin' kind of relaxin' about it, y'know? We've always really liked peace and quiet, so I guess it's fittin' that we always whisper.”

“...Should I whisper, too?” Oswald asked, suddenly becoming aware that he might be breaking the quietude.

“It's alright,” Softwald assured him. “You don't have to if you don't want to.”

“Oh...Alright, then...” Oswald still kept his voice to at least a murmur, just out of consideration. He took a sip of his tea. He was pleasantly surprised at how nice it tasted. Sweet, but not overpowering.

“This is really good,” Oswald complimented. “Where did you get it?”

“Oh,” Softensia replied. “We actually make our tea ourselves. We have a garden out back where we grow our herbs and veggies.”

“That's nice,” Oswald remarked. “Gotta be a little bit nicer than getting them at the supermarket.”

“So, Oswald,” Softwald began. “I'd really like to learn more about you. Why don't you tell us a bit about yourself?”

What is this guy, a shrink? Oswald thought to himself. Nevertheless, he politely put on a smile.

He proceeded to give the soft couple a brief summary of his current life in Wasteland. How he has a position as the leader, and raises 420 children with his wife. He talked a bit about his friends, his hobbies, his old cartoons, and his brother Mickey. He specifically avoided sharing too many negative details, however, as he was still a bit afraid to open up about his feelings.

Despite this, the next words out of Softwald's mouth wrote Oswald into an emotional corner.

“Things seem to be going pretty well for you,” Softwald said with a smile. His expression quickly turned into one of calm concern. “You still seem pretty stressed, though. Is there something bothering you? Your wife seems pretty concerned, and I'd really like to help you as much as I can.”

Oswald looked down nervously and stirred his tea a bit.

“It's alright,” Softwald assured him. “You can tell me what's on your mind. I won't judge you. I promise.”

Oswald sighed in submission.

“Alright, fine,” he began...

He then told Softwald about his rough past. How he'd been a star, but was quickly forgotten. About the Thinner Disaster and the events of the Blot Wars, including what had happened to his wife. About his resentment and reconciliation with his brother. It became easier and easier to be honest about his past as he continued speaking. He felt himself on the verge of tears a few times, but quickly pulled himself back and put on a brave face.

“...And now...I mean...Everything in Wasteland is great right now. I'm still in touch with Mickey, and he's been telling me people in the real world are starting to remember me again. But somehow...I dunno...I still feel uneasy. I still think about the past a lot, even though I know it's done and over with. And sometimes...I wonder if I even have any worth anymore.”

There was a moment of silence. Softwald and Softensia looked at Oswald with empathetic attentiveness.

“...Heh...Sorry,” Oswald chuckled. “Things got...a little bit too real there, huh?”

“Oh, no no no,” Softwald replied. “I'm really glad you told us all of this. It'll make it a lot easier for me to help you out.”

Oswald looked down, still feeling ashamed.

“Oswald,” Softwald continued. “Your emotions are perfectly valid. You've been through a lot in your life. It's understandable you'd feel this way. What's important now is we find some positive ways to help you heal.”

Oswald scoffed sadly. “Hm...You mean all that new-agey meditation stuff? Just sitting around and humming all day? Is that supposed to cure me?”

“Well...no,” Softwald replied honestly. “It's not a 'cure' by any means. But, if it's something that ends up working well with you, it can be a good coping mechanism. Whenever you start to feel unsure, you can always find ways to center and calm yourself so you can re-approach those feelings with a clearer mind. It's more of an 'aid' than a cure. Finding healthy coping mechanisms is an important step on your healing journey.”

'Healing journey?' Oswald thought to himself. Now he's some sort of hippie guru life coach or something? Well...I suppose it can't hurt. Anything to make Ortensia feel better.

“Alright,” Oswald nodded. “I guess I'm game for anything.”

Softwald's face was practically glowing with joy at the sound of Oswald's words.

“That's great to hear,” he whispered. “I really look forward to helping you out.”

The trio finished their tea and food while engaging in lighter conversation. When they were finished, Softwald and Softensia escorted Oswald to the guest room he'd be staying in.

[rikkupyon]

I took a huge step at work today, and I need to write to sort all my thoughts out about it (IE: this has nothing to do with cosplay, dancing, bunnies, or cute things so just keep on scrolling if you need to)

I’ve been at my current job for 4 years. I loved it.  Key point, past tense, “loved” I was doing something that I’ve always been passionate about, I was able to use my German degree quite a bit, I learned so many new skills and new hobbies like embroidery that I now adore even in my spare time. I would have never thought I could make miniature decorations or hand sew an entire outfit or cook an entire meal over a fire.

Yes it was stressful at times, especially when we were busy at the holidays, but my coworkers and bosses were the best and that kept me there for so long.  But over time, I started to get really worn down and depressed. It effected my life at home, my energy level, my relationships with my boyfriend and my friends and family, even my general view of the world. But because I was so attached to the place, it took me a long time to come to terms with the fact that I needed to move on to another job. 

Until earlier this year, I was still barely making above minimum wage and there was no room to move up. Most of the people I worked with were older individuals who had either already retired and were just looking for something to do and some extra pocket money, or their spouse made enough to support their family so this was something they did on the side to get out of the house and give back to the public in a way. There were very few people my age. And those of us that were there didn’t stay long. At one point it seemed like the “new generation” of 20-30 somethings was coming in and the torch was going to be passed, but financially and mentally, not many of us could do it. For most of us, it wasn’t even what we went to school for, we just kind of...found ourselves there. I kept making excuses for why I was staying; ‘I shouldn’t leave without another job lined up,’ ‘why leave something so secure?’ ‘I ultimately love what I’m doing, even if the pay sucks,’ and then the best one--- “I don’t want to leave everyone high and dry, we’re about to enter a busy season and we’ll be short staffed and I can’t just leave them like that.”  “I know the boat is sinking but I want to make sure I help everyone else on board build a raft to float before I save myself” <------ This phrase was said WAY too much. My attitude towards things changed just after Christmas 2 years ago when we got a new president of the company. And all hell broke lose. Mind you it wasn’t all at once (at least at first) and things started small, mental chaos and confusion about the way he wanted things here and there. But more and more it would get bigger and bigger and the things he wanted us to do made less and less sense to me. A good chunk of people left. Partially for other reasons like moving or other jobs but still, it left us short handed. I should have gotten out then.  At the beginning of this year, he took the organization like a snow globe and shook it around. Everything was completely re-organized from management to policies to punch-in systems to special events and ultimately to my position. I was basically promoted and got a raise. Which I know probably sounds like “why are you complaining?” but hear me out: The people who had been there for YEARS, who were talented beyond anything I’d seen before, and who’d taught me everything and supported me through all my health problems and stress were demoted to my position, pay cut included. People with 20+ years of experience are now making the same as me, which is still barely living wage for this area. I was put as what I would consider in any other job an assistant micro-manager. At the same time, part-timers got scheduled less and less which put more stress on us full timers, and the workload didn’t equal the pay increase by far. The scheduling was what allowed them to give us raises in the first place (as well as laying off a ton of people in positions that, tbh I don’t know what they were for) but it wasn’t worth it to earn more money that way.

He continues to put more changes and “improvements” into place. Our numbers fell drastically but he basically lied and said we were doing better than ever. We raised prices, promoted things that we do every day and have been doing every day for years as “special events” (after the person who had coordinated all the special events which were huge money-makers left (20+years of working there)) Decisions are made without consulting any of the people who are supposed to be in charge and actually understand how this should work. He puts up a smoke screen for the public so that no one outside really knows what’s going on. He ignores us when we try to reason with him and compromise. It all got to be way way too much.  I’d been saying “I’ll leave xx month” or “I’ll be gone by xx season” for 2 years. And I never did it. Today I did. I met with my bosses (who are wonderful and understanding) and told them that as soon as I know how many paid days I have left up that I’m going to use them and then leave. And I cried. Because I love what the place used to be, what my job used to be. But the truth is, I can’t make a living from it. All it’s doing is making me stressed and tired and feel trapped. 

The people I work with day to day continue to be the best of the best and I still love them all with all my heart. I’m so scared that the woman who works directly with me everyday is going to feel like I’m wimping out or giving up or leaving her alone or that she did something to make me leave but none of that is true. I don’t have a new job lined up yet, and it may be a while before I find one. For a while that was the scariest thing to me. But I have to have faith that I’ll find something. For now I have enough saved up to be a medical cushion so I can survive and afford my medications without insurance (which was basically doing nothing anyway bc my deductible was so high I had to pay for my colonoscopy out of pocket 100%). I am very fortunate and privileged to be able to just quit like this, I know that. And at the same time, if I don’t leave, my health is just going to get worse. I’m almost 27, I need to be living. And what I’ve been doing for the past few years...I don’t know if I’d categorize it that way. Sure I’m physically existing, but at what cost? My mental health and my physical health for one, my relationships and home life for another.

I may struggle for a bit. And I know I will get frustrated with the job hunt. But I’m going to better myself. And I’m going to come back from all of this stronger than before.