#Cishet aa

[hikasetas]

[image description: an uncolored drawing of nagito komaeda and sans undertale. the image is a redraw of the “hey best friend lets see those molars” image, showing komaeda grabbing sans’ face seductively with a thumb between his teeth. end i.d.]

i’m not tagging this shit. this drawing was for a friend’s birthday everybody say thank you margot

[rottingangelcorpse]

shoutout to people who didn't always know actually. shoutout to those that didn't have dysphoria since childhood or know something was different about them or act different or be noticeably queer. i can't be the only one and i love you

i love you <3

[dumbofass-homo]

Will prolly get some backlash for this buuut I had A Thought and now all of you need to hear it.

If Astarion was ugly, he would have very few fans, if any at all. Yes, reread that.

If he looked gnarly, had some odd looking scars (and not the aesthetically pleasing ones on his back), if his face was disfigured or god forbid, if he was older and had wrinkles and not a young little twink - almost none of you Astarion stans would be having him, let alone the Ascended Astarion. You wouldn't tolerate his behavior, wouldn't pursue his side quest, wouldn't think he's half as charming as you currently do.

From the fanfics, fanart and many posts I've seen - people tend to fetishize him. A lot. Also make excuses for his shitty/snarky/not redeemable traits, and I'll bet my coin purse it's because he fits the sexy vampire trope.

None of his ascended behavior would fly with you if he wasn't attractive. I imagine the people saying he "tickled the right kink" would go awfully quiet. There would be mods to make him hot. There wouldn't be half as much fanart of him. People would shit on him and his personality and probably not many would want to put up with his insecurities and grey morals.

And it makes me sad that he reiterates this point during the game. That his body is the only likeable trait he has and that's why people stick around.

I think it's time we embrace the fact that he is, in fact, a little morally grey gremlin who likes to do things that benefit him. He isn't selfless, kind for no reason or overtly affectionate. Canonically, he used to be a politician.

I do want to make it clear that this is still fiction, and by all means have your fill of the Sexy Vampire Man, but I would invite everyone who does to think a little about why they like him. For myself, I know that in reality and not in fiction, I would probably hit him in the balls over some of the things he does and approves of. His dramatics would go on my nerves and I wouldn't want him around me.

In fiction though? I love his attitude and it goes well with most of my (coincidentally also morally grey) Tavs. I love being his 'dagger-happy friend'. I love it when he hates being anyone's hero and would rather drink shitty wine and pretend he's busy than talk to anyone. I love it when you tell him you wanna be friends and he's over the moon to just have someone there. I love it when he admits him and durge would have been friends in another life.

That was a huge tangent but alas what I was trying to say is - he is an interesting character and there is so, so much more to him than his looks, which is what he was trying to say through all three acts. But somehow, that message got lost along the way to the real world.

[rosecorcoranwrites]

Just saw someone posting a pic from Shadow House were Patrick gives Emilico a bouquet of roses and tagged it "lesbian Patrick". This is the same comic where Ricky is embarrassed about his crush on on a girl (living dolls aren't supposed to have any feelings), and a fan took this as evidence of him being a trans girl. The same comic where multiple people head canon Patrick--who is the first character to internally admit his love for a girl, and then gets embroiled with another girl (it's complicated ;-;), and whose soot power literally manifests as hearts shooting out of him --and multiple people headcanon this guy as aromantic.

You know, maybe we DO need a straight awareness day?

[monadolaguz]

solidarity between butches who are mistaken for men, and trans men who are mistaken for bufches

[queermania]

Youve said in the past you don't think Dean would do well with AA. Could you expand on what you mean by that?

well. the first problem with AA is that it has an all or nothing approach. either you're fully sober or you've gone off the deep end. and that's not realistic or helpful for everybody. i don't think dean needs full sobriety to be okay. what he needs is to not fall back on alcohol as a coping mechanism when he's deep in the pits of despair. the AA program doesn't allow for that kind of nuance.

equally important is the fact that AA is geared towards a very specific type of person: a cishet, white, man who isn't living in the world of a fantasy genre show. have you ever looked at the twelve steps? i'm assuming the average person hasn't, or if they have, their eyes just sort of glaze over when reading them because they're vague and repetitive and sound like nonsense. but what they essentially boil down to is this:

accepting a higher power (aka god) and handing over control to them

admitting every awful thing you believe about yourself and accepting that those things are the truth

admitting that you are the architect of all of your problems

admitting that you are the one who has done harm to the world and those around you (and no harm done to you is an excuse for anything ever)

making yourself as vulnerable as possible

this sounds like a cheat sheet for exacerbating every problem dean winchester has. this is a person who has been fighting for control his entire life, who already hates himself and thinks he's to blame for things that he couldn't possibly be responsible for, etc.

these steps make my skin crawl and i've never been singled out by god or his army. there's just no way dean winchester sits through a single meeting and comes out better for it.

[briebysabs]

Like white women, cishet ww specifically I’m severely disappointed but not surprised. Y’all continue to be spineless and fucking dumb.

But deadass, these upcoming four years Imma need the Latino/Hispanic community to sit at the round table and really figure yourselves out. I know every race got that number of people that just hate themselves. But the self-hatred is deep within y’all, rooted inside I am speechless this many of y’all went red.

My brother in Christ Trump has been y’all biggest hater for almost a decade. Whatever he does, whatever Project 2025 bullets he got loaded next year YALL ARE THE FIRST IN LINE GETTING POPPED.

When will people understand (and this goes for the AA-African diaspora discourse as well) racists do not care where you’re from. You cannot say oh I’m Cuban not Mexican so I’m safe. They hear your accent, they see your last name, they look at your skin and automatically put you in a box.

Fuck coming legally, fuck being a “model minority” they don’t give a fuck about you. Black people have been saying this but the rest of y’all still in denial. The white status will never come. You will never get their approval so support each other, support your community. Please stop hating yourselves like this oh my god.

[identitty-dickruption]

please continue your complaining about addiction in fiction, you're very insightful and I love reading your thoughts

okay <3

maybe this is too much to ask for but I HATE that. so often. people don’t even try to get the comorbidities and intersectionalities right. I’m an addict who is a part of a lot of at risk groups! I’m traumatised + neurodivergent + physically disabled + queer. yet most of the time the fictional representation is a cishet white man. meanwhile in the real world, a lot of (e.g.) first nations people are labelled as “addicts” as a way to demonise them without real consideration of why or how that group might be more vulnerable to experiencing addiction. it’s just a terrible combination of things to have to see if you’re an addict in a vulnerable minority group

I don’t think all fiction HAS to get into the details of why someone became an addict, but it sucks that so few even attempt to reckon with or explore it. even something like the influence of generational trauma and generational addiction is not explored as much as I think it should be. I come from a long line of high functioning alcoholics, and that hasn’t had zero impact to the way I’ve turned out. and I know that’s the same for a lot of people

a lot of fiction also takes 12 step programs for granted as The Solution to addiction and like. number one way to piss me off. an addict joins AA or NA and then they’re cured! so long as they apologise to their loved ones, accept that there is a higher power, and accept responsibility for all of the problems in their life. there are better alternatives to AA. recovery does not have to be like that. look into harm reduction groups (SMART, for example). let addicts (both real and fictional) find pathways to recovery that do not necessarily involve 100% sobriety. a lot of people have no idea that they do not have to default to AA/NA models of addiction

I thinkk that’s everything for now but I may come back to this later if I have more thoughts lol. thanks for asking!

[slasheru]

Slasher U 1-Year State of the Union / Unholy Census!

Holy fucking shit we're coming along towards the 1-year anniversary of the release of the Slasher U Act 1 alpha!! We've come SO FUCKING FAR. Sawyer wasn't even a romanceable option back in the day! As of April 27th, it'll be Slasher U's first ever anniversary!

Mostly, I am SO FUCKING GRATEFUL that you all came along on the adventure to make my weird horny dating RPG a smash fucking hit!! Taking narrative seriously in dating/adult games was kind of my entire M.O (is?? mods??) and I am SO GRATEFUL Y'ALL UNDERSTAND WHAT I'M TRYING TO DO HERE lmao

THE BIG NUMBERS

As of 11:21 AM EST on 3/23/24, Slasher U: Act 1 has sold 6,100 copies across Steam & itch.io (Not including the copies sold as part of Games for Gaza that weren't redeemed/downloaded, so this only counts people who actually downloaded or bought the game!). This is obviously BEYOND MY WILDEST FUCKING DREAMS AND I CANNOT THANK YOU ENOUGH HOLY SHIT. I didn't even realize it until I added it all together. (On top of this, we sold several fucking tens of thousands of games for Games for Gaza!! Hell yeah!)

For my fellow solo devs out there, this comes to Slasher U making a total of about $6,000 + $2,000 net USD through sales (the former) and crowdfunding (the latter, for Slasher U: Act 2) over the last 11ish months!! The game started off being free for the first 6ish months, then went to $6.69 for the Beta (with dong! whoa!!), and now at its full size, stands at a good ol' $14.99 for 15 hours of primo datin' sim!

This is objectively the most money I've ever made off of anything I've developed in my entire life, and paid my whole ass rent for the entire year, so THANK YOU HOLY SHIT. According to Steam, most indie games barely break $1k in total, so I am AGOG. FUCKING AGOG. THANK YOU FOR LIKING MY GAME AND LETTING ME MAKE MORE VIA NOT DYING FROM CAPITALISM

The average review score, across 89 reviews on itch.io, remains 4.9 out of 5 stars, and we're rocking a 93% Positive on Steam!!

THE UNHOLY CENSUS

The best part of Slasher U is, as I always say, THE STUDENT DISEMBODY!! Slasher U will always be a place where everything is gay and trans as fuck (although I'm also proud of writing my cishet storylines too :V /lh)! I knew y'all were gay (hello fellow gays) but I did not realize the QUEER FUCKING FORCE THE STUDENT DISEMBODY IS

Here's the demographics of Slasher U players as taken from Tumblr polls (that's a skewed sample size of about 280, so grain of salt here for the homo website for queers):

92.6% of you ID as queer (see below for the breakdown!) | 7.4% of you ID as straight

This fictional horror movie campus is: 48.5% bi/pan, 16.2% gay/mlm, 10.3% lesbian/wlw, 10.3% ace (oo tie!), 7.4% queer but not defined as above, and 7.4% straight!

61.9% of you ID as trans/not cis | 23.8% of you ID as cis | 14.3% of you ID as neither trans nor cis

46.8% of you are between 22-26 | 32.3% of you are between 18-21 | 16.1% of you are between 27-32 | 4.8% of you are between 32-45 | 0% of you are older than 45 (sample size I am guessing lol)

For 14.6% of you, Slasher U was the very first dating sim you've ever played (!). For 3.8% of you, Slasher U was the first indie game you've ever played (holy fucking shit!!! this is an actual absolute honor)

76.7% of you instinctively Road Runner away from Melyssa at the fountain in Act 1 | 23.3% let the Melyssa tsunami arrive at you

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A FINAL WORD (FOR NOW) ON MAKIN' VIDJEE GAEMS

You should totally do it.

No, okay, but for real, I started working in games professionally in 2009 (yeah yeah i'm old. i am 32 and i am dying and they're coming for me in the corpse wagon etc) and I burned out in 2016 and came back two years ago with THIS THING and I can tell you RIGHT FUCKIN' NOW that, if you have ever wanted to make a game and the big guys aren't gonna do it, grab yourself and/or some friends and fuckin' make a video game. I have worked for a bunch of AA and mobile companies and I can tell you right the fuck now that this is the most fulfilling experience I have ever had writing a video game. I taught myself programming logic to make this thing! And sound design! I fucking learned to animate sprite sheets!! YOU CAN ALSO DO IT given the time and energy (pace yourself don't die)! And there won't be any execs around to tell you your weird niche game won't sell!! BECAUSE IT FUCKING WILL

Anyway, my entire career as a game designer, nobody let me write shit for them. You don't need permission to make stuff or write stuff. If you write it, they will fuckin' come, Field of Dreams style (also don't forget to tell everyone you made stuff and share it around. super key here. lmao). Turns out writing is all about sharing yourself with people, and who knows, you might just find that a fuckton of people ACTUALLY relate to you. (And that you're a pretty good writer. Which you knew. Yes, you. I am mixing metaphors and pointing to myself AND you now.)

xoxoxoxooxoxox,

Professor Plutonium

[ophthalmotropy]

I really don't get why someone would chalk up someone having 'cishet men DNI' on their blog to bioessentialism. It's not singling out trans men aa 'not actual men'; it's including them with cis gay and bi men. Of course trans and/or gay men have the ability to be the sort of person a woman wouldn't want to interact with (case in point: any queer man who complains about what women put in their DNIs lmao), but nobody would bat an eye at someone just writing 'cishets DNI', and I don't need to explain why a straight man is more likely to be misogynistic than a straight woman.

[yiddishfisting]

you know here i thought the worst part of this last month would be all the aa groups but instead it's the common killer, white cishet male roommates

[icantstudyillstudy]

So...

I guess I might be reviving this blog after a few years of inactivity.

I started it as a 16 year old supposedly cishet asexual who had plans to get their GED and start college early.

So let me reintroduce myself.

Hi, my name is Atlas, they/them, and I'm 24 years old.

I think I'm considered a nontraditional student. I attend the University of Michigan as a transfer student and commuter. I'm a senior who will need another year or two to finish, and I'm majoring in English and general music studies (which I might drop soon).

My biggest area of interest is disability studies, but I'm also chasing creative writing pretty hard right now.

I'm neurodivergent, and the two I'm quick to claim are Autism and ADHD. I'm the vice president of the Autism Spectrum Club on campus.

I'm still struggling with studying, though, so as I figure shit out, I'll be sharing it here on this blog, I guess.

Want the full story?

I started community college at 18 at School A, transferred a year later to School B, and then graduated with an AA and an AGS in 2022, at age 22. Then, a year later, I went back to School C for one semester taking two graphic design classes and a social work class.

During that semester, I waited, holding my breath, for admissions decisions to 4-year schools. I got accepted into every school I applied to, and took the option with the best financial aid package, not knowing much about the school aside from that.

I accepted admission to the University of Michigan with essentially a full-ride scholarship, later finding out it's considered a top university. Oops!

During my time at School B, I also found out I had ADHD and was Autistic, which explained pretty much everything about me to that point? So imagine my surprise when I learn that UMich has an autism spectrum club.

Long story short, I made friends, I love my classes, and I love my course of study, BUT I also have a lot of academic issues and problems with trauma that have been getting in my way. I figure that if I can maintain a 3.7 while struggling this hard, imagine what I could do if I figure shit out! I could be an academic weapon for sure!

So That's Why I'm Back!

[musashi]

are cishets allowed to join the aa discord

yeah man! you can be our token haha

everyone's welcome as long as you're cool!

[tenmyoujump]

cishet aa was an experience i think could only have happened to rabid teenagers who all fed into each other’s energy to create an abomination of a server

[freakcliff]

would love to hear your thoughts on these characters:

hobie brown

miles (both aa and spiderverse i adore them both)

phoenix

maya

apollo

klavier

also do you have a list of the fandoms you're into? would love to send more for others we have in common

cracks my knuckles ok let's go.

tbh I don't have big thoughts on AA characters because they're too removed from the real world for me to impose real world context on them like I couldn't tell you if homophobia exists in japanifornia. some sort of Schrodinger's societal expectations exist there. you can be discriminated against for being a lawyer

anyways miles Edgeworth is gay it's the least interesting thing about him. you'd think he'd have a lot of issues about it but I think he's chill and normal. he's got a little pride flag in a cup on his desk

miles morales is like... as bi as any guy living in the world is? like he's got the potential but he's also not there yet. if he spends enough time in the spider verse with hobie and friends he'll definetly figure it out but atm he's like well all guys have seen a guy and thought they were hot right

hobie brown is too cool to have labels but he's got the gender the sexuality the whole acronym

uhh phoenix was told he was gay long before he figured it out because he's an art kid who cries a lot

I have no thoughts on Maya. she's not cishet

Apollo is gay and trans and very comfortable in it he does to gay bars he's very well adjusted

klavier... I don't have thoughts about klavier. he's a rock star

oh also fandoms. off the top of my head I'm into x men right now then there's doctor who the grishaverse all aa games cept investigations and soj persona five persona 2 innocent sin bat family uhhh there's surely other things that are on here if you look thru my most tagged I can't think