if we’ve gotta live underground and everybody’s got cancer/ will poetry be enuf? // Eisa Davis to Ntozake Shange
dear ntozake,
I got sacks of mercury under the skin beneath my eyes
either cried too much or i’m abt to
the cool war’s burnin up my retina again
does poetry start where life ends?
i know i’m supposed to be cool:
i wear corrective lenses that feature
high definition tragedy.
baby in the dumpster ethnic cleansing
assassinations multinational mergers
i’m supposed to shake my head
write a poem
believe in ripples.
but i ain’t cool.
i emit inhuman noises
i imagine terrorist acts as i flick my imaginary ash
onto the imaginary tray
i imagine going insane with a purpose
and writing it down feels sorta unnecessary
does poetry end where life begins?
berkeley girl black girl red diaper baby
born of the blood of the struggle
but with reaganomics and prince pickin up steam in ‘81
nothing came between me and my calvins
10 yrs old unpressed hair playin beethoven
readin madeleine l’engle got scared in my pants when i heard
this girl testifying ‘TOUSSAINT’
in the black repertory group youth ensemble
i was just sittin in a rockin chair pretendin to be 82
and talkin like I knew all bout langston’s ‘rivers’
i wasn’t as good as her
and i definitely wadn’t cool
so i gave up drama
and decided to bake soufflés
zake
you wda beat me up in the playground
if we’da grown up together
and you did
eighth grade ‘he dropped em’
at the regional oratorical competition
i saw another fly honey rip it
this time it’s ‘a nite with beau willie brown’
i was bleedin on the ground
i became yours
no more soufflés
i jacked for colored girls right off my mama’s shelf
my mama fania who was sweatin with you
and raymond sawyer and ed mock
and halifu osumare
dancin on the grass back in the day
in you i found a groove
never knew i had one like that
did that monologue over and over
alone in my room
my bunk bed the proscenium arch
13 yrs old screamin and cryin abt my kids
gettin dropped out a window
didn't know a damn thing about rivers
but i knew abt my heart fallin five stories
you were never abbreviated or lower case to me
you just pimped that irony
that global badass mackadocious funkology
you not only had hígado
you had ben-wa balls in yr pussy
betsey brown on my godmother's couch
nappy edges in mendocino at the mouth of big river
spell #7 after the earthquake in silverlake
the love space demands had to be in brooklyn
yr poems are invitations to live in yr body
love letters yr admirers dream they coulda written themselves
no one cd find a category that was yr size
blackety black but never blacker than thou
you teased me into sassiness when i had none to speak of
made profane into sacred but never formed a church
sanctified women's lives
whether we were reading nietzsche or a box of kotex
we were magical and regular
you many-tongued st louis woman of barnard and barcelona
you left us the residue of yr lust
left us to wander life as freely as sassafrass cypress and indigo
and even the unedumacated could get yr virtuosity
cuz you always fried it up in grease
you built an aqueduct from lorraine hansberry's groundwater
and it bubbled straight to george c wolfe
you never read what the critics said
and you scrunched up the flesh between yr eyebrows
like everybody else in my family
but zake
is poetry enuf?
i beg the question cuz you grew me up
you and adrienne kennedy and anna deavere smith
and all my mothers
you blew out the candles on my 26th
so when there's mercury under the skin beneath my eyes
and the world ain't so cool
do you write a poem
or a will?
like leroi jones said if bessie smith had killed some white people
she wouldn't have needed that music
so do we all write like amiri baraka does
or do we all get our nat turner on?
i beg the question cuz i wanna get my life right
do some real work
and i really don't want to kill any white folk
i mean can we talk abt this
maybe it's just my red diaper that's itchin
but i still got that will to uplift the race
sans bootstraps or talented tenths or paper bag tests
this time we uplift the human race
and i know the rainbow might be
but is poetry enuf?
it's a naive question but i'm old enuf to ask them once in a while
if we do finally unload the canon
clean it out
stock up on some more colorful balls
ain't we only gettin the ones that are available at a store near you?
doesn't the market end up setting the new standards anyway?
is poetry enuf if it ain't sellin?
if ain't nobody readin it?
can poetry keep a man who can't read
from droppin his kids out a window?
and how can i call a ceasefire to this cool war
in stanzas of eights
when we've declared poetry a no fly zone?
we have learned to protect it and its potential politics
like a mother
shoot down anyone who might overdetermine a poem's meaning
(while we poets divebomb everyone else's politics with impunity
like we're the United States or something)
if poetry is just poetry
we save it from the conservatives
but doesn't that mean it's of no use to the progressives?
is poetry enuf?
cuz that's all i'm doin.
makin up stories on stage on the page
keepin the beat
and that's all my friends are doin
and that's what a lot of folks my age are doin
but if we've gone and burnt up everything in the sky
if there's nothin else to eat but landfill stroganoff
if we've gotta live underground and everybody's got cancer
will poetry be enuf?
my aunt angela says i can do my thang
and keep swinging left hooks to oppression
if i stay up stay into it stay involved
just one form of praxis will do.
it's just my guilt that thinks i need twenty-two
what's enuf?
shouldn't i (or somebody) be our secular bodhisattva
become a real power player but skip the talk show
can't we stabilize, rekindle collectives
and cooperatives and collaborations
therapeutic communities that double
as creative juggernauts
a publishing house a theatre where the plays
cost less than the movies
get the neighborhood coven back together
take dance breaks in the cubicles
sing until the flourescent lights burst into snow
i ask you because you changed me zake
you changed thousands of women
and i know poetry can't be enuf if you drunk
i ain't tryin ta walk off wid alla yr stuff
and i got nuttin but love for ya
so that's why i gotta know
i'm sittin on my bed encircled by every book
you've ever published
they're open like fans
marking pages with the flint of genius
all i want is for this circle to grow
so tell me:
is this where poetry and life are twins?
i felt so crumpled up when i started writing you
poetry seemed so useless and dingy
next to all the bright red bad news
but now that the poem is over i feel wide open
like an infant of the spring just tell me how
to feed this light
to my responsibilities
and poetry just might be enuf
love
eisa
Lucille Clifton, here rests [Bibl.: Lucille Clifton, Mercy, BOA Edition, Rochester, NY, 2004], in Lucille Clifton and Sonia Sanchez: A Conversation [Moderated by Eisa Davis, The New School, New York, NY, October 24, 2001], «Callaloo», Vol. 25, No. 4 (Autumn, 2002), Johns Hopkins University Press, Baltimora, MD, [pp. 1038-1074], p. 1040-1041 (youtu here)
Got the opportunity to attend the Opening Night Premiere of PEOPLE’S LIGHT MUSHROOM by Eisa Davis, directed by David Mendizábal. Eisa is one of their New Play Frontiers Residents. Mushroom is the fourth locally inspired world premiere to emerge from NPF – launched with the support of The Pew Charitable Trusts, the Andrew W. Mellon Foundation and the Barra Foundation. This Residency is a long-term initiative to commission, develop and produce new plays that explore our American identities through the stories and concerns of our region.
Eisa began developing Mushroom in 2013 when she visited Kennett Square, PA returning many times to get to know the community and form inspirations for the characters.
“The play centers on the lives, loves, families and working conditions of Mexican mushroom pickers in Kennett Square, examining the recent strains placed on this cultural community by an oppressive governmental regime. It uses a series of experiments in form and non-linear storytelling to explore the characters’ dreams and fears.”
The play is seamlessly bilingual, 3 walls of the thrust stage are projected with subtitles in English when actors are speaking Spanish and vice versa.
Many community partners were also developed through this 10 year journey – LCH Health and Community Services, Chester County Food Bank, Coatesville VA, The Garage Community and Youth Center with many events and outreach programs still happening around “Mushroom”.
A Tinsel & Tine #MiniReview: Edit (Kenia Munguia) is a DREAMER (Development, Relief, and Education for Alien Minors Act) in school to become a nurse. Her mother Lety (Laura Crotte) is undocumented and one of the few female mushroom pickers at this particular farm. Tyler (Todd Lawson) is a white male who has recently inherited the mushroom farm from his brother, but knows almost nothing about the business. Ignacio (Michael G. Martinez) used to manage the farm and wanted to purchase it, but Tyler’s brother turned him down years ago, so he moved on to start his own Stone Masonry company; but generously comes back to the farm to explain the basics to Tyler. Epifanio (Angel Sigala) is Ignacio’s troublesome cousin. He’s a Mushroom worker who was recently hurt on the farm, but no one is sure of the circumstances. Rain (Maribel Matinez – really loved her vibe) is a black Mexican who grew up in the area, moved away to follow her spirit, is back temporarily, with family issues she’d rather not face. She also acts as a community arbitrator between the workers and management. Tyler also finds her attractive. Natrajan (Ahsan Ali) is a wealthy Pakistan immigrant here on a work Visa, he and Edit become romantically entangled. There’s a narrator (Ahsan Ali) who plays several parts.
Through these characters much is discussed about many aspects of immigration in the US. Reasons for leaving your home country. Forming bonds with the community around you. The mushroom industry and more. It’s not always simple to follow and its run time is 3 hrs with intermission, but it is very eloquently written and wonderfully thoughtful. It’s meant to remind you marginalized individuals are just that – individuals, unique and of consequence.
SEE Video of Opening Night Party with REMARKS by Zak Berkman, Producing Artistic Director and Playwright Eisa Davis –
Baby Ruby: Directed by Bess Wohl. With Noémie Merlant, Kit Harington, Camila Canó-Flaviá, Eisa Davis. The tightly scripted world of a vlogger and influencer unravels after she becomes a mother, in noted playwright Bess Wohl's feature debut.
you almost got it-you really did
‘born of the blood of struggle’ we all were/ even if we don’t
know it/ what if poetry isn’t enuf?
whatchu gonna do then?
paint ?
dance ?
put your back field in motion & wait for james brown to fall on his knees
like it’s too much for him/ what?
too much for james?
yeah/ didn’t you ever see the sweat from his brow/ a libation of passion
make a semi-circle fronta his body/ a half-moon of exertion
washin’ away any hope he had of/ standin’ it/ can’t stand it
& he falls to his knees and three jamesian niggahs in a stroll
so sharp it hurts bring him a cape that shines likes the northern
star/shinin' i say like you imagined the grease in the parts of yr hair
or yr legs/or yr mother's face after rehearsal after she had you/
james falls to his knees cuz he “cain't take it"/he's pleadin’
please please please don't go
we look to see who brought james brown to the floor /
so weak/ we think/ so overwrought with the power of love
that’s why poetry is enuf/ eisa/ it brings us to our knees
& when we look up from our puddles of sweat/
the world's still right there & the children still have bruises
tiny white satin caskets & their mothers weep like mary shda
there is nothing more sacred than a glimpse of power of the universe
it brought james brown to his knees lil anthony too/ even jackie wilson
arrogant pretty muthafuckah he was/ dropped no knee pads in the face
of the might we have to contend with/ & sometimes yng blk boys bleed
to death face down on asphalt cuz fallin' to they knees was not cool/
the way to go/it ain't fallin' to our knees is a public admission
a great big ol' scarlet letter that we cain't/ don't wanna escape any
feelin'/ any sensation of bein' alive can come right down on us/ & yes
my tears & sweat may decorate the ground like a veve in haiti or a sand
drawing in melbourne/ but in the swooning/ in the delirium/ of a felt life
lies a poem to be proud of/ does it matter?
can ya stand up, chile?
the point is not to fall down & get up dustin' our bottoms/
i always hated it when folks said that to me/ the point
eisa/ is to fall on your knees & let the joy of survivin'
bring you to yr feet/ yr bottom's not dirty/ didn't even graze the earth/
no it's the stuff of livin' fully that makes the spirit of the poem
let you show yr face again & again & again
i usedta hide myself in jewelry or huge dark glasses
big hats long pillowin' skirts/ anythin' to protect me/ from the gazes
somebody'd see i'd lived a lil bit/ felt somethin' too terrible for casual
conversation
& all this was obvious from lookin' in my eyes/ that's why i usedta read
poem after
poem with my eyes shut/ quite a feat/ cept the memory'd take over &
leave
my tequila bodyguard in a corner somewhere out the way of the pain
in my eyes that simply came through my body/ they say
my hands sculpt the air with words/ my face becomes the visage of a
character's voice/ i don't know
i left my craft to chance & fear someone wd see i care too much
take me for a chump
laugh & go home
this is not what happened?
is poetry enuf to man a picket line/ to answer to phones at the
rape crisis center/ to shield women entering abortion clinics from
demons with
crosses & illiterate signs defiling the horizon at dawn/ to keep our
children
from believin' that they can buy hope with a pair of sneakers or another
nasty
filter for cheap glass pipe/ no/ no/ a million times no
but
poetry can bring those bleeding women & children outta time
up close enuf for us to see feel ourselves there/ then the separations
what makes me/ me & you/ you/// drops away & the truth that we
constantly avoid/ shut our eyes to/ hold our breath hopin' we won't be found out/
surfaces/ darlin'/ & we are all everyone of those dark & hurtin' places/
those dry bloodied memories are no less ours than the mornin/ yes
the mournin' we may be honorable enuf to endure with our eyes open
the coroner cannot simply bring her hand gently down our eyelids/
leavin'
us to the silence of not life/ the solitude of the unreachable
can ya stand up, 'chile?
hands stretched out to touch again
not so you can get up & conquer the world/
you did that when you cdnt raise yr head & yr body trembled so/
you scared yr mama that was when the poem took over & you gave you
back
what you discovered you didn't haveta give up/
all that fullness of breath/ houdini in an emotional maze/ free at last
but nobody can see how you did it/ 'how'd she get out'/
nobody'll know less you tell em/
do you really wanna write/
from twenty thousand leagues under a stranger's wailin?
can you move gracefully randomly thru the landmines that
are yr own angola/ hey, your bosnia!
are you shamed sometimes there's no feelin' you
can recognize in yr left leg? does the bleeding you'll do anyway
offend you or can you make a sacred drawing like ana mendieta that will
heal us all? do i believe in magic?
hell yeah.
shd you?
i don't know.
don't know how yr gonna find yr way out the maze/ ancient as it is
no one can tell you the secret/ not me/ not aunt angela/ not yr mama
beautiful as she is/ i usedta watch her legs cut thru space like a ninja in
ballet
shoes/ i wanted to be tall & clear-eyed like yr mama/ & you come tellin'
me
i cd beat you up in a school yard/ no
my daddy wda bought the school yard & paid kids not to hurt me/
so what you see is not what you get
i am not a poem/ i am savannah's mother/ savannah sat with her bottle
thru
the children's class at stanze's once we moved to texas/ but i was always
lookin’ for your mother's legs to come slicing the air/ ten years later/
2000 miles
away/ed mock dead/ tower of power fallen/ sly stone disappeared/
oakland
like the back of my hand/ now unknown/ "get it & feel good" i usedta
say
sometimes still do/ diffrence is i cherish stupid lil things now/ did yr
mama
tell you raymond asked our whole class after a bout with possessed
drummers and
gravity/ if we ever took our dance clothes off/ he could smell us comin'
cross the
Bay Bridge/ he shouted & pranced like somekinda stallion/ like his sweat
didn't
stink too/workin' in the other realm is dirty work/ makes us smell bad/
did yr
mama tell ya? i know she didn't let ya believe makin' art was not a messy
business/
she cdn't have/ we were trained too well
is poetry enuf, eisa?
that's gonna be up to you?
is poetry enuf for me?
why do you think i wrote 'for colored girls'
i wanted yall to come out from under yr starched pinafores & pressed
heads
with some notion of dream & sanctity of spirit/
looks like some of it worked
but remember i'm still writin' still dancin'
fell on my knees so many times now/ i wrote rev. ike for a prayer cloth
it's serious like that
peaceful like that
i sweat when i write/ do you?
the original aboriginal dancin' girl
love,
ntozake
Sonia Sanchez, [«... the letter I wrote to Chinua Achebe on his 70th birthday»], in Lucille Clifton and Sonia Sanchez: A Conversation [Moderated by Eisa Davis, The New School, New York, NY, October 24, 2001], «Callaloo», Vol. 25, No. 4 (Autumn, 2002), Johns Hopkins University Press, Baltimora, MD, [pp. 1038-1074], p. 1047-1049 (youtu here)
- These are not official lyrics, they’re transcribed by me.
- Source novel quotes for the lyrics, and notes, are under the cut.
DUSK
Track: 19
Characters: Starbuck (solo)
Range: A3-D5
As performed by Starr Busby/ Eisa Davis April 9 2018
Dusk
The Sun sinks away
Twilight’s last goodbye before the darkness
God, please light my way
Tell me how to get through this
Dusk
My soul is more than matched
She’s beaten blue and black
By a madman, he shouts and screams
He drilled deep down, blasted all my reason out of me
Terrible and cruel old man
Yet in his eyes I see a sadness
Shrivels me up, tears me in two
God, please help me help this man
I can’t leave him
Something has tied me to this man and I’ve no knife to cut the line
Something has tied me to this man and I’ve no knife to cut the line
Something has tied to this man
I hope
That the waters are wide enough
That the voids are vast enough
That he never, never finds what he is looking for
That he never, never finds what he is looking for
That he never, never finds what he is looking for
That he never, never finds what he is looking for
I hope
That God hides that whale like a goldfish
That God hides that whale like a goldfish
SOURCE QUOTES AND NOTES
The lyrics are for the mostly close to the novel (the chapter Dusk is written as a monologue for Starbuck), with some added phrases.
The first verse with the description of the literal dusk and metaphorical tie-in isn’t from the book. It’s added to replicate the structure of Ahab’s solo earlier in the show, Sunset.
The other main difference is honing in on, or adding, specific emotive language so we feel all the more pity for Starbuck’s situation.
...I also feel like these kind of changes for this song will make more sense when we’ve heard how Dave portrays The Cabin, the previous song based on a chapter in which Starbuck confronts Ahab, ending in Ahab threatening Starbuck with a gun. Dusk in the book isn’t actually connected with this interaction at all (it happens long before it) so changing the lyrics to emotionally reflect that seems pretty reasonable just in itself. Then you add trying to create a specific emotional reception to that.
Ch 38 Dusk
My soul is more than matched; she's overmanned; and by a madman! Insufferable sting, that sanity should ground arms on such a field! But he drilled deep down, and blasted all my reason out of me! I think I see his impious end; but feel that I must help him to it.
Will I, nill I, the ineffable thing has tied me to him; tows me with a cable I have no knife to cut. Horrible old man! Who's over him, he cries;—aye, he would be a democrat to all above; look, how he lords it over all below! Oh! I plainly see my miserable office,—to obey, rebelling; and worse yet, to hate with touch of pity! For in his eyes I read some lurid woe would shrivel me up, had I it. Yet is there hope. Time and tide flow wide. The hated whale has the round watery world to swim in, as the small gold-fish has its glassy globe. His heaven-insulting purpose, God may wedge aside [...]
[...] Oh, life! 'tis in an hour like this, with soul beat down and held to knowledge, - as wild, untutored things are forced to feed - Oh, life! 'tis now that I do feel the latent horror in thee! but 'tis not me! that horror's out of me! and with the soft feeling of the human in me, yet will I try to fight ye, ye grim, phantom futures! Stand by me, hold me, bind me, O ye blessed influences!
And other vaguely similar bits and pieces, potentially:
Ch 36 The Quarter-Deck
"God keep me! - keep us all!" murmured Starbuck, lowly.
Ch 51 The Spirit-Spout
Terrible old man! thought Starbuck with a shudder, sleeping in this gale, still thou steadfastly eyest thy purpose.