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#HE IS VERY UNHAPPY ABOUT ALL OF THIS
nonhumen · 1 year
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@chaosbled : The luxury car pulled to a stop outside of their shared apartment building, & he tipped their driver & hopped out, offering his hand to help the brunet. “I mean, at least no one got hurt, doesn’t that count for something?” Chuuya winced as he realized he’d asked Dazai a question, giving him an apologetic look. He’d known something was wrong as the ADA apprehended the woman & she’d made direct eye contact with Dazai & breathed out a single word. Vertias. An eerie green glow had enveloped Dazai & knocked him to the ground. He immediately understood thanks to those endless foreign language classes Ane-san had forced on him. It was Latin for ‘truth’.
He remembered the farm boy asking Dazai if he was okay, & when the detective answered bluntly that he felt like shit, everyone had turned to stare at him in surprise. Even Dazai had seemed shocked by his own reply; had tried to reassure him again that he was okay & again, but only the truth would come out. As they soon learned, the spell made him physically incapable of lying. Not only that, he couldn’t choose to stay silent either, covering his mouth & trying to hold it back delayed the response but eventually his mouth forced him to answer. Someone taking back the question didn’t work either, once it was out there, Dazai had to answer.
The look of horror on his partner’s face when he’d realized this was unmistakable.
“This is why I fuckin’ hate witches, they can’t just punch you, it’s always gotta be some twisted psychological shit; & you can’t do anything to nullify it because ‘magic’ is different than Abilities. I’m going to call Kisara in the morning, she might be a doctor but she’s also studied just about every form of spell casting & ritual healing out there, I’m sure she’ll have some kind of potion she can brew to fix your brain so you can shut up again.”
He couldn’t imagine having to spill the 100% honest, unfiltered truth to every question someone asked, he’d probably just open up the ground & let it swallow him. For someone as deeply private as Dazai was, he could see what a nightmare this situation was. Hence why he’d immediately offered to get him out of there before his coworkers could torment him too much with this newfound vulnerability. The Mafia Boss unlocked the door once they reached their floor & stepped inside as it locked itself behind them again.
At least here, Dazai didn’t have to worry about saying anything that could potentially torpedo the new life he was trying to build for himself. He took off his shoes, jacket, gloves & scarf before heading to the kitchen. He grabbed a bottle of rich, aged whiskey off of the rack & poured two generous glasses, hesitated, then also brought the bottle over, handing one of the glasses to Dazai as he took a seat beside him. He looked like he needed it. “Are you going to be okay? Is there anything I can do to help?” he asked his lover, more out of instinct then anything. Then immediately brought a hand up to his mouth when he realized his mistake. “Sorry.”
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no longer human is meant to be his shield. it protects him from harm, from the pain of knowing others. he relies on it heavily. in this world of gifted, dazai is the immovable shield. so of the few instances where something happens to not be an ability, dazai is always the first to get hurt. this time is no different. he feels something shift in his very core when that single word is spoken right through him. what happens next is the worst possible outcome.
truth. it spills from dazai's lips over and over again. his ribcage has been violently torn open to expose his insides for all to see. nothing stops it, not covering his mouth or holding his breath. they do simple tests -- basic questions to see the extent of this power over their most secretive detective. he cannot tell a lie. once a question is asked of him he must respond. no one can take back their questions. he must answer loud enough for the asker to hear.
dazai feels sick. he wants to die. he wants to sew his mouth shut. he wants to cut his vocal chords and never speak again. and that is when chuuya stepped in to take him home. dazai knows his fellow detectives wouldn't exploit this curse, but the fear of something slipping is enough to make him look ill. he stares out the window for the entire ride home, shoulders tense and half his body turned away from chuuya. anything to tell the boss not to speak to him.
but getting chuuya to shut up is like waiting for the sun to rise in the west. he flinches at the lilt in his voice that poses a question. " no, no one was physically hurt, and i guess that does count for something. " it's sharp like spitfire as the truth unhappily continues to fall from his mouth. " in the morning... " great, that's at least twelve hours stuck like this unless this spell happened to just run out on its own. maybe he will just tape his mouth shut.
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when they finally arrive, dazai has practically stepped out of the car before it completely stops. he had hoped that finally getting inside their apartment would give him an ounce of safety, but he only feels the same unease growing in the pit of his stomach. it's been a lot time since he's felt like this, felt this vulnerable.
dazai drinks merely for pleasure instead of to forget or dull the pain like chuuya does, but the idea of alcohol seems very appealing right now. he takes the glass, already in the process of pressing it to his lips when chuuya asks him another question. " i don't know. " eyes narrow when his voice betrays him once again. he looks away. " you can leave me alone. it's obvious you can't shut up to save your life. or mine. " dazai downs the liquid all at once.
there was a time when he would have said such scalding things to chuuya without a second thought, would even take pleasure in it. now, it just seems wrong, especially with how chuuya pulls him close and holds him so dearly. dazai sighs heavily, moving to fall onto the couch in defeat. " this is the worst. "
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ineed-to-sleep · 9 months
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I'm watching Berserk and I may or may not have hyped myself up to turn my vampire ocs into dark fantasy characters. mmaybe
#sketch tag#so uh. pepper is kind of a guts basically jdjgkckkc#they're both in an army and they butt heads a lot bc pepper is big and stronk but very impulsive and reckless#but there's no griffith situation or anything like that it's just that vince worries abt her#and he's way more restrained as a fighter and a strategist. maybe a commander or second in command#and just like in vtm he's very paranoid and afraid of change. so he worries abt her and is also unhappy in the army but too scared to leave#so he broods a lot and mopes around and gets on her ass abt her recklessness#and just like in vtm pepper is impulsive and has a lot of pent up frustration and she uses the battlefield to release all of it#sometimes overexerting herself and nearly getting herself killed#she also wants to leave bc she's not sure she believes in what they're fighting for anymore. but then she loses her coping mechanism#things change when they have an argument where he reveals he cares abt her sjfjjfkf YES very cliche I am thriving#and she's dismissive at first but after being alone for a bit his words start sinking in#and when they're on a battlefield again there's a moment where they have to retreat and she's about to absolutely not listen to that#but then she has a change of heart bc she remembers what he said + she cares abt him too so she doesn't want him to be hurt by her actions#neither by him getting worried nor trying to come to her aid and putting his life at risk#so she retreats#and he's very happy abt that he thanks her later for what she did#and then she's like yeah sure I guess I didn't die but also guess what. I'm bored#everything she wanted to release back there she just didn't. so she's still frustrated and especially bc she had to admit defeat#and she's an extremely proud person. she's irritated#and he's like aight. I'm gonna fight you then#and she's like what. and he's like yeah#so he picks up a sword and throws another one to her and there's a *sexual tension play-fight* hell yeah babey#I'm having sm fun w this au can you tell jejfjckckkc#eventually they do desert the army they're in bc things get worse and pepper decides she no longer wants to be a part of it#and in a fight or flight moment she pushes vincent to make a decision and he leaves with her#and like the story is only getting started there bc then there'll be some big misteries in the story they're gonna uncover#which. I haven't figured out what they are yet#but either way akhhdskfha I'm having a lot of fun w this#sleep.txt
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autisticsonic · 1 year
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feral little dude!!!!
also a style practise! if u look at my past art you shall notice the abysmal lack of forehead space! also tried smth more angular
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autumnhobbit · 2 months
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nobody asked but my opinion on the john mulaney thing is. look you can make arguments about an artists personal life and public life being different things that shouldn’t be conflated, but the guy on purpose brought his private life into his public life by characterizing his entire special around how he loves his wife and dog and how happy and wholesome their household was. so yeah, when he made himself famous talking about how much he loves and respects his wife and how much he doesn’t want kids and can’t stand people implying they should have kids, and then goes off and likely cheats on his wife, divorces her for the other woman whom he immediately has a kid with, it does make one go. hmmm. doesn’t seem like he’s really as good of a person as he liked to tell everyone directly he was
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aq2003 · 9 months
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there comes a beautiful time in life where i have to ask myselg th question, "did i accidentally project too hard onto the character that i only relate to a little bit and in doing so hugely missed this one entire aspect/interpretation of the characters . am i stupid"
#ARE THEY STUPID!#dr who#this is about ten specifically his relationship w martha lmao#m being so serious i genuinely did not. see the 'ten was on purpose leading martha on to make her think her feelings were requited' angle#until going out into the wild and reading the tumblr posts. like i genuinely did not. at ALLLLLL. its like a brick hitting my head#bc the ENTIRE time s3 ten came off to me as 'doing stuff w no romantic intent behind it but would consistently get misinterpreted as such'#cuz IIIIIIIII have done this. IIIIIIII have run into this problem before. and it sucks so incredibly bad.#i actually do want to think my og interpretation still holds water cuz like. well i could gather all the evidence but#first one that comes 2 mind would be him going 'it's like when you fancy someone + they dont know you exist' to martha. in episode TWELVE#two routes; either ten is needlessly cruel and callous even after a season's worth of building up trust and friendship w her#or he is on super 'i dont think she has feelings for me and this is a very unhappy coincidence of a line' cocaine#Or the 'she fancied me' line in s4 to donna. either he is disregarding all the good and positive impact she did him. or the fact that this#went over his head the whole time made him look back on that time w discomfort <- I DID THIS. I MIGHT HAVE BEEN PROJECTING#THIS ONTO HIM. AM I STUPID.?.?????#you know how mikage rgu can either be read as an incel or a gay man lost so completely in the sauce#ten is like in this same ballpark. i think. of 'emotionally manipulative and disrespects women' or 'aroacespec and missed the cues'#funniest possible options to pick from. ten my brother how did you set yourself up like this#absolutely not denying that he was toxic and unhealthy during s3 in like 500 ways btw. but well. ths is the one concwpt that#flew over my head. so completely. and i can kind of see it now but i also still find it hard to incorporate into my belief system#bc its like. brother I'M aroace and missed the cues too lol#tangential note we can trace many problems down to a writer's room filled w white people not giving#martha's character the respect/agency she deserves for the existing narrative she has. bc they pulled this w mickey too both in series 1+2#if they wanted to portray ten as manipulative then him and martha should've been given more screentime#together where martha (or anyone else) calls him the FUCK out on this. and ten would need to suffer narrative consequences of doing smth#as fucked up as that rather than his happy stable dynamic he has w donna. if they wanted to portray him as oblivious then marthas character#shouldn't have constantly been boiled down to an unrequited crush (particularly her dialogue in the s3 finale - there's a LOT more reasons#why she would choose to leave/why their dynamic was unhealthy besides ten not returning her feelings)#if you read all these tags you may be entitled 2 financial compensation#ten and martha#aspec doc tag
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dykeza · 1 year
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Ichigo being a stay at home dad who works online is so in character for him actually…… he’s the type of dad to enforce 1 hour of no screen time outside playing in the yard and/or playground. He texts Orihime goofy pictures of Kazui jumping around in some water fixture in the local park and carries him home soaked to the bone and shivering with the biggest smile on his face and then they eat ice cream and wait for Orihime to get home so they can have family game night.
#I cannot see how someone can dislike ichihime and their beloved baby boy#they’re so silly!!#honestly I think a lot of it comes from forgetting Ichigo isn’t Just his badassery and trauma and stubbornness#Ichigo is goofy and funny and likes playing games and has shown how genuinely warm and welcomed/welcoming he is around Hime#and a lot of the times when I see posts referencing how Orihime is bad for him or is like… a creep or whatever#I can’t help but notice that it just. doesn’t sound like Ichigo at all#Ichigo Kurosaki is full of love and compassion and he adores everything around him#he loves and honors even the most evil of people and recognizes others struggles even if he can’t relate#there isn’t a single thing about him that conveys this supposed dislike for Orihime or this discontent with his life#Ichigo is like. a happy person#he suffers and he endures so much and he keeps finding new ways to love and understand others#he fights so hard to be happy… so why can’t people except that maybe he is?#at some point you just have to accept that a character can be content#Ichigo is married to Orihime. he works from home. he adores his son and his wife and his family#and like. that’s okay? there doesn’t need to be some deep reason. you don’t need to try and drag even more character out of him#he has enough!!!!!! he has more than enough character to go around!!#please let Ichigo Kurosaki love his wife and his son… and also let Rukia do the same#I know I just now mention her but this tangent is directed towards the Weird ichirukis I see poking around on twt and tumblr#Rukia is happy with her husband!!! she likes Renji!!!! she likes him so much in fact that she married him and had a kid with him#Rukia and Ichigo both are very hardheaded characters and if they’re unhappy with their circumstances THEYLL DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT#they’re not scared to be honest with themselves and others anymore!! they’re very vocal about their opinions if you haven’t noticed yet#some of the first things we learn about both of them is that they aren’t scared to speak their mind#I am fucking certain that if they happened to Not Want to end up with their respective spouses they would’ve just. not married them#idk what copium ichirukis that don’t like Renji and/or Orihime are smoking I really don’t#you love these characters so much and yet you discredit one of their most recognizable traits!!! their readiness to DO WHAT THEY WANT!!!!!!#they’ve proven time and time again thag they do whatever they want within reason#there is not a possible universe where either of these characters would sit quietly and let themselves be unhappy for the sake of the others#because they’ve learned. and they’ve grown. and they trust Renji/Orihime enough to understand their decisions becuase it’s in the fucking—#—text how much they respect and trust them to understand their feelings#this ramble is too long I’ve reached 30 tags URASHIN CANON GOODNIHHT AMERICAAAAAAAAAAAA
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wovenstarlight · 7 months
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I love thinking abt yoohyun & yerim. in ageswap they're each other's staunchest allies but also always 3 seconds from killing each other violently because yerim keeps telling him that if yoohyun fucks up with yoojin any more she's stealing him and not letting yoohyun near him ever again and hearing this always fills yoohyun with blackout homicidal rage because that's HIS brother but also he VERY GRUDGINGLY appreciates knowing there's someone else looking out for yoojin
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I am sometimes really bitter about the fact that I teach sophomores which is an age at which SO many adolescents are toad-like and then often they leave my class and are better for their subsequent teachers. like. 
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dashiellqvverty · 9 days
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my opinion on season 11 is that ian and mickey were all over the place from episode to episode and i ultimately wasn’t very happy with where it ended for them
#just felt kind of incomplete and boring in terms of their getting an apartment arc#like mickey was still genuinely very unhappy about it and they just left it like that?#and obviously i didn’t love how they did the terry stuff.#i think. there’s something to it because you can never truly predict how you’re gonna feel about something like that#even if it’s a piece of shit who you truly hate like. feelings happen.#and that could have been interesting to explore but it wasn’t done in a way that felt interesting#it just felt like a waste of time when we could’ve been doing other stuff with their screentime#and the beginning was so good i was having sooo much fun when ian was like yeah let’s steal an ambulance and yes we can have guns again.#let’s fuck in the ambulance. etc.#that was so hot and then they ruined it both in that scene that i wanted to SEE and with where they took the story after#like how quickly ian jumps back to ‘well we won’t do crimes then :)’ i thought he was having FUN doing crimes#like are they still doing their security shit? are they still working with stolen equipment?? i want them to do crimes :(#(when i lay it all out like that i’m like perhaps ‘ian being exited about doing crimes’ is not a Good Sign for him. but#it really wasn’t presented that way in context. like i don’t think that’s what they were going for there#and he can be doing better and still have fun doing stupid shit#a la their little outing before he got arrested by the military#yes that was like. 5 years earlier but i’m still like what happened to THAT ian he got boring#and i’m not saying like. him being healthy is boring. i’m saying let him be healthy and also have fun.#anyway.)#also like. signing a lease on the spot against mickeys wishes. kind of fucking impulsive and reckless. but no it’s bc he wants#to have a better life or whatever so it’s fine.#idk i just want to see them steal shit and fuck in an ambulance#and i mean like OVERALL ian has not been as much of a Crime Guy as others. certainly not compared to mickey#like he’s DONE crimes obviously but not in a. it’s his lifestyle way. i guess?#so idk why i’m like i want him to go BACK to that if that wasn’t exactly what he was doing in the first place#but he LIKES doing shady shit with mickey and having fun and idk why they bothered showing us that#if they were gonna drop it by the end of the season that i can only assume they knew would be the final season#it just felt like they didn’t know what to do with the two of them all season and they ended the season in a less satisfying place#than they started#r.txt
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dirtyjvconfessions · 2 months
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He is EXACTLY like Megamind because: he too gets no bitches.
He can get bitches he just can't keep the bitches
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rogersstevie · 3 months
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one thing about me is even if i hated the book i just read i will still be defending the main character while all the goodreads reviewers go on about how whiny and selfish she is
#hi do you not understand she was 18 and did not get to figure out her own identity before becoming the wife of a grown man#do you not understand how postpartum works lol like she did a bad thing leaving the kid for a few months#but like. definitely worse things a struggling mother can do!#like she was doing all that with zero support because neither of them were connected to their parents at that point#and she didn't get to make any friends because as soon as she came into this city she got pulled into his life#and he's certainly not helping because he's always working and he thinks she has it so easy being with a baby all day#even though he absolutely DOES see how impossible it is to calm the kid and YET#and even when she leaves and he has to do shit himself and sees firsthand he still doesn't acknowledge it much#anyway that was a dumb book but it's like i always go looking to reviews for validation on not liking it and i see that shit#and i'm just like no no she was not the issue#it's literally like.........so many books i read where a woman is Going Through It#and is somehow expected to just be graceful and perfect all the time both within the book and by readers??? like what are y'all on#being rightfully unhappy about your situation does not make you whiny even when you're in the wrong sometimes you need to complain! damn!#and also she rarely did complain that's why she had to just leave because if she had said anything to her husband#about her struggles he would have dismissed her and told her to wait it out#god. i think it was very weird that i didn't see mention of the age difference in other reviews#literally. just graduated high school. he is 28. i'm just.
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pastel-rights · 3 months
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And then I finally end it off with some doodles of them… they make me feel things.
#ringmaster doodles#sona art#( they’re very much the theme of. love in the face of the neverending march of time. )#( being immortal and knowing you will outlive the man you love because someone else deemed he unworthy of eternal life. )#( he may still have tens of thousands of years left. sure. but you know that those will go by and he’ll disappear in the blink of an eye. )#( and you’ll sit there on his death bed. wondering why did things end up like this? )#( wondering what you did wrong. and if you could have done something different. you’ll always ask yourself. )#( if he lives a life of happiness and comfort or did he live a life as gruesome and miserable as the wars on earth? but you won’t know. )#( and the more you think about it. the more you realize it. how nihilistic he was. and how he never seemed to smile even in the good times.#he always seemed to have a frown or a scowl on his face. he always seems bothered and unhappy. )#( so you wonder if it was something you did. because you know you aren’t perfect. you’re hardly good. )#( you wonder if he’s mad at you. maybe he was. but he doesn’t have the heart to stay mad. )#( and that’s love in the face of adversity. knowing that no matter how bad it gets. he loves you as you love him. )#( and you wonder why he never smiles. because he truly never does. and so you ask him. honest and true. )#( and he tells you there isn’t anything worth smiling for. nothing in this whole world. )#( but he smiles at you. it’s always small. and it’s always brief. )#( but that smile. that smile means love. )#( that hug. as flimsy as it may be. that hug means love. )#( of course. he isn’t affectionate. if anything. he detests it. he hates physical contact of any kind. you’ve noticed. )#( which is a shame. you love your hugs and your kisses and your hand holding. )#( but even if he doesn’t like it. he lets you do it. because it makes you happy. )#( and you learn that when you’re happy. he’s a little less miserable. )#( of course. not all love is equal. and not all love is fair. )#( the love from a lover and the love from the father can never equate to one another. )#( no one will love you in the same way a father or mother loves you. in the same manner. no one will ever love you the way I do. )#( because my love will remain with you. long after I disappear. )#( and as bitter as the idea of my own existence coming to an end is. knowing I did all of this for. essentially nothing. )#( that I’ve gone through all this pain and suffering and hardship just for it to all amount to nothing. for it to be fucking useless to try.#I get to die knowing that you’ll always love and be loved. and that’s enough for me… )#( … maybe there is something worth smiling for after all. )
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astranauticus · 5 months
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btw now that ive gotten set me free out of my system womxnly by jolin tsai has become my new cpop translation white whale like not because the song itself is that impossible to translate but because i cannot think of any way for me to make a post about that song without getting completely sidetracked into a deranged rant about chinese pop culture's unceasing efforts to try and act as if that song's message about overcoming adversity and discrimination can be applicable to everyone and that it is not, in fact, explicitly a song about homophobic/transphobic violence
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pandora15 · 1 year
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idk man i guess it's just that i'm struggling to find fic to read and barely having the time/energy to write at all
#it's also that i seem to be unhappy living my cozy comfortable life in suburbia#especially since my roommate who's also my friend is acting more like a roommate than a friend#but i'm also. not a great roommate#and he's a pretty good one! but he's not being a very good friend#which partly is my fault because i'm also not a great friend#but i guess i want to mix things up and move elsewhere and have an apartment to myself#and a part of me is waiting for my parents to tell me that i can do that#because i've always lived my life like that#and a lot of the mistakes i've made are because i've done that#it's also why. i've lived in the same state for like almost my entire life#so i feel like. this desperation to go somewhere with more people my age with high walkability and just. stuff to do?#like i work remote right#i don't go out much#so i feel like i need to BE somewhere that forces me to do that#my mom seems to understand that but she's telling me to wait until i'm almost done with grad school to move#which. valid i guess?#and my dad doesn't seem to understand it at all#and then they both want me to live at home in the fall because i'm planning to take two classes instead of my usual one along with work#which also makes sense but. i get ansty every time i spend more than two days at their house#tldr i'm tired and stressed and unhappy i guess about my lifestyle#and like logically i can wait until the end of the year because then i'll be a lot closer to finishing grad school#and my lease will be up then anyways#but also. that's so far away and i just want to change things now#pandora's ramblings#anyways sorry about the literal essay i wrote in the tags here
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thebirdandhersong · 2 years
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#ladies n gents i am asking once again for prayer..... for what feels like the hundredth time this year#i am going to have to break up with Mr knight and it isn't going to be easy#and it's gonna have to be soon#lord have mercy on an exhausted girl#it's just too many differences and a very different outlook on things in life that i think are important#like finance management mutual spiritual growth connection with community#emotional vulnerability and also ideas about the future and planning for it#but most of all. i cannot share my love for stories with him#and I've tried. but it's just not something he's interested in listening to or indeed understanding#that hurts a tad. i don't think i can marry a man who i can't share that part of me with#will not go into further details but that's where things are#sorry for vaguely sad and pessimistic posts i am very numb and resigned#suffice it to say#i would also like to write love letters to someone who will write back#instead of telling me he received them and saying thanks#i am very unhappy indeed. and cannot go on like this long term#that's all#I've wanted to either cry throw up scream or simply collapse in my bed for the past little while because of this#i wanted it to work out! i WOULD'VE loved him for a lifetime#and thought i was asking too much or being too selfish in wanting reciprocation#in many things#but i am simply exhausted. i have done a fair bit of crying so i shan't any longer#😭😭😭😭😭😭 would very much like a hug and a cup of tea#it had been a very long couple of weeks#slings and arrows of outrageous fortune in year 21
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orcelito · 9 months
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I don't like training very much
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