#I HATE HIM SOOOOO UGHHH

[saintobio]

Omg ok ok hello! I had this huge rant in my head about sy and sn so pls feel free to ignore it, but I love your writing so much and it gives me some STRONG FEELINGS. First of all it surprised me that I like the way you write y/n cuz she doesn't become a "bitch" after the whole deal with Gojo and have some elaborate revenge plan, but she is also not a goody two shoes (even if she stayed with Gojo earlier but she had a lot of external pressure to stay in the marriage). Not that those tropes are necessarily bad but it's just more realistic this way. She's just a person who has been deeply hurt and is trying to do right by others. Even if she has made big mistakes, she still wants to make up for them cuz she's not completely in the right either. Also getting bashed by everyone for trying to make amends/ not following their advice regarding you own life; while very triggering for me (lol) is also just such a natural reaction. Not right, just natural. When things get out of people's hands and they want to blame someone for it, they often go for the one who is actually trying and won't retaliate if for nothing than to just keep the peace. Also wanting people to understand your side of the situation yet feeling undeserving of it at the same time because of your mistakes is UGHHH I feel like you do that so well! It's amazing but genuinely heartbreaking to see how far Satoru has come as a person too. Also when he thinks about how he wants to be a better person for Akemi IT MADE ME WANT TO PUT MY HEAD THROUGH A WALL... cuz WHY COULDN'T HE BE LIKE THAT FOR US!!! At the same time we have moved on without him, so if we are allowed that luxury then why isn't he? It's just so ANGSTY AND SO SO GOOD! Because we love Satoru we always will but he had a chance and he fricked it over terribly! So it would be idiotic to go back to him but at the same time the heart yearns for him. This is a side tangent but whenever any character says "this is not like you", "you have changed, this isn't how you'd act" makes me so MAD lol (maybe bc I am triggered?) But these guys WATCHED MY GIRL GO THROUGH SOME HORRIFIC SHIT AND STILL EXPECT HER TO NOT BE PERMANANTLY AND IRREVERSIBLY CHANGED???!! ;-;; IDK what they want from her oof >.< I do think Akemi is a shitty friend but I can't bring myself to hate her completely. Seeing them together is so ANGER INDUCING AAAAA (and her wanting a family with him is fine BUT THIS EARLY?!JUST AFTER ADMITTING YOU FEEL "SORRY" FOR BETRAYING US?! IT MAKES ME WANNA HURL HER TRHOUGH CONCRETE) but at the same time Satoru and Akemi both deserve someone who can love them. It feels hypocritical to be angry when we ourselves told him to move on and find someone who can love him the way he deserves. It's just very very shitty it had to be them. Sera is also such an interesting character. She has a lot of traits that I admire a lot. Her resourcefulness and complete and utter pride/confidence and being unashamed to ask for things/ stand up for herself (even when she is wrong) is something I wish I had sometimes. Still wanna stick her head through a toilet tho and yet when a person who slept with a married man can see the bloody violation of girls' code that is sleeping with your bff's EX HUSBAND oh BOY you should KNOW SOMETHING IS WRONG. I have no strong feelings for Toji (cuz I don't like him much anyways but that's just personal bias XD )but I do think his anger and frustration is well founded especially since he runs over whenever the reader needs him. He's so supportive and invested and honestly he deserves someone who can give that back to him. It's kinda sad but then again I don't like him much to begin with lol.

OH AND THE ENDING OF THE LAST CHAPTER IS SOOOOO PAINFUL. To always be the second choice even for YOUR SON OHHH MAN I'D RATHER YOU PUT A KNIFE THROUGH MY HEART ;-;

All in all I hate how much I love this series and love to hate these characters and take out my repressed anger on them cuz I can't do that irl. This series is my Roman Empire lol. It's so painful, yet so beautiful and it makes you FEEL so many things and yet hold out hope for things to become better. I love this, love you and your writing- ok mwah bye bye (and thank you if you read this rant put together by my post nap, barely coherent brain) I have so much more that I want to say. I can write essays about this series and how it uses so many technically "cliche" tropes but it is anything but cliche . Truly some of the best angst I have read like ever!

oh wow !! i don’t even know what to say, this feels like such a comprehensive review of the sy series sdksks but i think many readers could definitely relate with some of ur points here :D this is such a nice perspective to read, thank you so much for sharing and tysm for reading sn/sy aaaaa i’m happy u enjoy the angst as much as i do <3

[onismdaydream]

HII!!! for the past like two days I have been scouring your account for your yuuji content.. because it's SOOO GOOD. And I can NEVER find yuuji fics! ><!

I just love how you write, and it's kept me thirst for him quenched but I just- HAVE to get this out there. I guess it's a writing request..

I have this one specific thirst that just. UGHHH. Basically, I loveee yuuji fics, and it's common knowledge that he has sukuna inside of him. (Lol) sukuna, who can basically manifest as a mouth. DO YOU SEEE WHERE IM GOING WITH THIS?? there is just so much potential. And we already know the the mouth can manifest literally anywhere! His cheek, his.. HAND.

UGHHHH

Like just imagine like- being with yuuji, and barely getting into the 'intimate' parts of your relationship. And I mean barely (once or twice), and at first sukuna is annoyed after, bc like- OF COURSE HE IS! How dare yuji, a little brat, do such things when he KNOWS he can see everything! Nobody wants to see some new inexperienced couples fucking? (Me) nobody!

But.. if you can't stop them, join them.. right?

So, maybe he tries to convince yuji to let him have some fun with you. Though yuji immediately says no, that's totally weird!

...

Won't stop sukuna though. So next time you guys start to have fun.. worked up from a mission, unable to keep your hands from eachother.. which lead to yuji having two of his fingers knuckle deep inside of you, pumping in and out, hitting that spot that makes you see STARS.. when all of a sudden, you feel a tounge lap at your clit! 🥺🤭 whaatttt!!

It catches you so off guard, it takes a minute for you to register what's going on, but when you do.. you wrap your hand around yujis wrist, tugging him away.

"Whats wrong?"

!!! How do you even begin to explain? There's SO many things wrong. Starting with the fact that SUKUNA, the person who literally hates both your guts, literally tried to eat you out.. to the fact that, you liked it.. it felt good!

"I think.. I don't.. basically-"

What do you say? What CAN you say? What if when you tell him, he stops? Ughh this is just so- UGH!

"Whats wrong brat? Use your words."

Followed by a dark chuckle, like he's laughing at you. Coming right from yujis cheek. GOD he is so annoying.

"Sorry, brats, just had to have a taste.."

OKAY ANYWAY. This is getting too long BUT it would probably be followed by a small little argument between yuji and sukuna, but thankfully sukuna convinces yuji.. probably by saying that he could either use his mouth, OR take over yujis body and have his way with you ♡🤭 and OBVI yuji chooses the first one bc he doesn't want you to get hurt..

at first he acts like he doesn't like it, but that facade doesn't last long, you hoth love all the new opportunities that come with this.. i mean like, youre both new to all this so maybe when he isnt sucking on your clit, he could talk you both through it teaching yall sime jew tricks along the way 🥰♡

you see what I'm saying, right?

Finish it, if you want, I would LOVE to see your take on this, but I just HAD to get this out there, otherwise I would go crazy..

But anyway, how was ur day? 🥰🎀

-your horniest yuji lover!♡🎀

AAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omg??? first of all, thank you!! you're so sweet and this literally made me so happy when i saw it this morning !! i'm sorry i didn't respond earlier, i've had a kinda shitty work schedule + being a little sick so i haven't had much time here <3

UGHH I LOVE THIS IDEA!!!! i've seen similar concepts (sukuna joining/forcing) and it's always so HOT!! i especially love the idea of sukuna licking at your clit and yuji not even realizing... like he's so distracted by the pretty faces and beautiful sounds you're making that he doesn't feel the way his palm morphs or just how much wetter it gets from sukuna's spit..... it's just sooooo good!!

sukuna makes a deal that if he's allowed to fuck you the way he wants, then he'll tell yuji what to do ("the proper way to fuck a woman") and yuji feels a little guilty for considering it but he really really wants to treat you the way you deserve and he has his own selfish reasons of wanting to feel you come around his cock. and maybe it doesn't take much convincing because sukuna's mouth is back on you and making you see stars that you both agree lol

and i don't mind at all if you ever wanna dump your ideas here <3 i think we all need a space to put our thoughts before they make us go crazy! that was what i did before i started this blog :)

[jeeyuns]

Hello! I’m really excited about your parallel universes WIP and need to watch everything everywhere. It’s been on my list for over a year. I was just wondering if you have fic recs for a related topic: time travel and time loops? For Buddie. Thank you. x

omg thank youuuu parallel universes are my JAM. i hate that i even put up that poll. now everyone chose laundry and taxes and i have to commit to writing this epic alongside bethlehem arghughg hghg ghhh. yes pleaseeee watch eeaao. i'm gonna try to make it make sense without having watched it but it's SUCH a good movie. watch it when you can and in the mood for a mind fuck

i LOVEEEE time loops and time travel! for buddie? ohhhh i GOT you:

burn the straw house down by @hoediaz

(buck gets stuck in time, has a break down and then, relatedly, a break through)

this might have been the second one i read ever with a time loop theme in the 911 fandom and oh boyyyy the emotions! you feel like you're going THROUGH it with buck, you're right there with him. and the breathless payoff at the end. YUMMM. love love LOVEEEE the reason given on how to break the time loop

Evan Buckley & The Coma-Verse of Madness by @cal-daisies-and-briars

(After being struck by lightning on a call, Buck experiences a plethora of alternate realities showing him different directions his life could have taken.)

soooo i also have to sneak in another parallel universes rec because this one is GOLD. it's more along the lines of Marvel's Dr. Strange and the book 'The Midnight Library by Matt Haig.' and it was just STUNNING. buck pov with moments ranging from confusion to bittersweet happiness to utter despair. the ending was mwah, mwah, chef's KISS. ughhh i love cal. wish they had a tumblr. i'll just scream in their ao3 comments it's ok. i'm ok i'm ok (THEY NOW HAVE A TUMBLR LET'S GOOOOOOO)

tomorrow will always and forever now be today (tomorrow is our always and forever) by @anxieteandbiscuits

(eddie gets trapped in a time loop on the day buck marries natalia)

sami is a MASTER at making you scream into your pillow at these two lovable idiots. and boyyyy did i want to just smash their faces together and make them work it out (sorry natalia babe) loosely inspired by the 'Palm Springs' time loop movie. it was just sooooo you HAVE TO have a box of tissues with you. she will eviscerate your heart with her words and MAKE you feel what eddie is going through UGHHHHHH

Benign Fatality by @ardenetoile

(Buck repeats days until he doesn't die in them, has an underdeveloped sense of self worth, and Eddie is the one who wants to step in with him.)

what a fantastic take on time loops! buck only repeats days when he's died. so there could be strings of days/weeks/months where he lives life like normal. and eddie gets brought into it at some point, or more like he shoulders his way in because it's EDDIE and he cares. ending was amazing too, author made it truly make sense! i am so intrigued about the background on buck's ability!

Being Eddie by @cal-daisies-and-briars

(When Eddie starts seeing a new therapist, he’s presented with the opportunity to revisit several days from his past and right regrets that still bother him.)

so this is my one time travel rec in this fandom. eddie goes through the time travel therapy process of the show 'Being Erica' and BOYYYYY does he. it's currently a WIP and i'm about to read ch16 of 20. Cal is fabulous with making you feel for every aspect of a character. they moved from the prior story of buck pov to this eddie pov with flawless precision and godddd i don't know what it is about their words. they are IMPACTFUL. i read a chapter and have to lean back and think through my feelings, like I'M getting therapized. what the fuck??????????????

the persistence of memory by @anxieteandbiscuits

(Buck gets shot, Eddie has to keep reliving the day until he can figure out what the universe is trying to tell him)

last but DEFINITELY not least is this one, my love. if i can imprint this on my heart, blood and papercuts and ripped out ribs and all, i WOULD. i will never have enough time or breath to speak on this fic. it was one of the first 3 fics i read in this fandom. and FUCKKKK did sami pull me in. i think i wasn't even caught up with the show but it DOESN'T matter. she set it after s4 and eddie goes throughhhh it on time loops. the beautiful prose, the sweeping emotions from eddie to buck. the 118 firefam ensemble comedy. the LOVE CONFESSIONS???? multiple????? each one made me teary and one made me outright cry. they were all different and they were all perfect on every iteration of the worst day of eddie's life. i sometimes turn over my pillow at 3 am and get a visceral flash of buck's shocked and bloody face when REDACTED REDACTED REDACTED and have to take a deep breath and rub my chest because sami did it AGAIN and my brain just likes me to remember these moments i've read and scanned into my brain apparently to play on loop

ANYWAY i got really excited. happy reading anon! thank you for letting me rant about the top 6 fics with these themes off the top of my head. <333

[noveratus]

Me, 9 years ago when I started watching One Piece: Ughhh, I hate Usopp soooo much. He is sooooo annoying 😤 worst character

Me, now: Omg Usopp!! My baby!!! That's my boy!! look at my boy dancing!! His stories are so good!! He is my captain!! He is my son!! Him and Kaya are sooo cute!!!!!! 😍😍😍

[jamesunderwater]

DEAN WINCHESTER FOR THE ASK GAME

favorite thing about them: ahhh a lot of things but i think it's that he seems like he's the tough brother/mr. toxic masculinity (which dont get me wrong the show is full of) when in reality at his core he's the kind of guy who would get really into the county fair, every fucking year trying SO hard to win best apple pie. He'd go to PTA meetings and decorate the house for different seasons and pretend he hates the kids shows his children watch but then ends up getting invested in them. He's just sooooo soft it hurts me the life he was given instead.

least favorite thing about them: he literally does not know how to value himself. At all. Like...baby boy. You do not always have to be first in line for who should die to save someone.

favorite line: i had to go searching a bit because it's been so long and the first one i thought of was the one you said 😆 which that line crosses my mind alllll the time, even now. But i saw this one and heard it crystal clear in his voice and it made me grin, so: "I think I'm adorable."

brotp: castiel. I totally get why people ship destiel but i mostly just loved that dean actually had a real friend outside of sam...

otp: i ship dean + a peaceful existence.

notp: dude, totally agree, wtf is up with wincest?? It's a big no for me.

random headcanon: idkkk it's been so long since I've thought about spn. You really got me on that dean's a wino train though.

unpopular opinion: lol that the canon show ended with s5 and dean got the ending he deserved

song i associate with them: ohhh so many but there was this one fanvid back in the day of that used this cover of running up that hill by placebo and ughhh it fucking GETS ME the lyrics are perfect for him ):

favorite picture of them: I could have picked so many but dude him in this white shirt in s2e1 DOES SOMETHING TO ME to this day 😅

[ralofofriverwoods]

3, 4, 16, 22, and 42 from the wholesome ask game, for virthik? (if he has friends????)

plus full permission to add on with any other oc you wanna talk about :3

He has friends! He’s just bad at being close friends with ppl. Very nervous and very inexperienced in that

3 what is something they really like about themselves, and what’s something you really like about them?

Hmmmm. Virthik likes his hair a lot. It’s arguably the nicest thing about him, in terms of the amount of care put in. He also quite likes that he’s finally at a point in life where he can actually do things that he wants to do, and have a say in what may happen to him. The thing I like most about him physically is his dragon horns :3 overall I like that he does his dead level best to help people when he can, even if he doesn’t know he’s doing it :)

4 What is the thing they like the most about their friends, and what is the thing their friends like the most about them?

For friends that are my ocs, he likes that they’re kinda used to his whole thing(pretty much just automatically) so they don’t end up getting terribly worried when he says out of pocket shit on accident(at least not visibly). Should they prolly be worried? Absolutely. He has a 50% chance of a therapist resigning after the first 2 visits, it’s like a status effect.

For npc friends(like Serena) he likes that she also kinda doesn’t mind hating on one’s own parents. Like ‘ayyy! Mine are shit too, what a coincidence!’ And of course that serana is kind of ok with just. Not chatting, but being around each other as a way to hang out. Burnt out chosen ones 🤝 not talking constantly bc honestly wtf. How

I’d list more canon characters but the only others I can think of rn are either government officials or gelebor. Sooooo

For something that they like about him, I think all of them have a general appreciation for his skill in combat. Learning how to fight early on has its perks! Especially the ones that have low health, it’s very nice to have a bit of a tank as a teammate

Otherwise I think they like that he’s always up for pretty much anything. Wanna go to that old abandoned crypt that’s definitely full of cultists? Why not! Wanna rebuild an entire town from the ground up? How hard could it be! Wanna talk about our feelings? Ok maybe not that one very much but he’ll get back to ya!

16 What was the happiest moment of their life?

I think it would have to be a few days after the dawnguard questline tbh. Hasn’t killed alduin yet but honestly? It’s good to know that he CAN kill him, or at least that he’ll have a chance. He’s still got a long way to go, sure, but knowing that you’re doing something right is always nice.

22 If they had to pick up an instrument, what would they choose? 

Ooh that’s a tough one. In Skyrim he’d prolly do a lute, for lack of any other really interesting instruments(other than a flute but like. Meh). If he could choose a modern instrument it would either be the drums or an electric guitar. Why? Cause he’d look cool.

42 Let them vent for a second, without the fear of being judged. What would they like to say?

“Ughhh well. I’ll admit I’m not feeling great. I mean like just in general I’m not but I really am not feeling great right now. Feel like I’m missing a bunch of stuff I should have known a long time ago, I don’t like it. Just a lot of things are happening and I don’t really want to mess it up if I can help it, I guess? I guess it’s a little like spinning a bunch of plates and making sure none of em drop and shatter? I think that’s the saying… umm I think it would help to just curl up under a rock for a little while haha. Maybe after I clear my to do list…”

[bustafe]

you aren’t being annoying at all don’t worry!! i’m glad you’re having fun ^_^ you’re one of the mutuals that makes me consider making my own selfship blog tbh!

i thought the route was good! it’s a bit sad to hear that crow isn’t taken seriously in other routes since his character goes way deeper than what’s touched on in the first few chapters. but i thought the piano scene was sooooo cutes <3

it’s funny that you mention thinking he’s the best with teuta as a character, because i didn’t realize that the personality quiz thingy was tied to the routes at first and just answered how i thought she would answer based on canon personality traits haha

AHHH im planning on making my own selfship blog too !!!!

this is a bit long uh oh

although he contributes a lot to the story in other routes hes mostly there to be funny + be a punchline, which is like. you kinda learn that hes doing that on purpose after u played his route anyway (like he talks about how he wants to be seen as goofy funny and have people love him that way bc he doesnt think they would love him if he wasnt funny, didnt have a lot of money, wasnt contributing to the team with his smarts etc. he basically thinks he wont be loved if hes not the butt monkey or is useful somehow) AMD THE PIANO SCENE IS SO SO SO CUTE I HAD IT AS MY WALLPAPER FOR A STRAIGHT YEAR my favorite type of romance in fiction is one that just happens naturally and i think that scene captured it perfectly AND he was so cute there AND he got to be vulnerable with teuta about his dad playing that for him (and later on him getting even more vulnerable with her too UGHHH PUNCHES THE SCREEN)

also yea the personality test + the swimsuit scene + the cat naming scene are the ones where they lock you on an LI's route but when i said that i meant that. ive played all of the routes and i personally believe teucrow to be the healthiest relationship in the game bc of their capability to be vulnerable and understanding with each other, and even tho crow is really emotionally immature hes trying so hard with her so i feel like if there were smth that would go wrong with their relationship then they would put actual effort to fix it

i like teumozu too but obviously its second place + i like teuhelv friendship a lot but not as a couple + i feel like the power imbalance in limbo and shu's routes really made teuta ooc bc its established in the common route that shes this hot headed argumentative woman but with them its like her role has become smaller. and to nurture these two basically . like that one post that was going on thats like making fun of "big guy x nurturing woman" i see it as like that basically. teutas argumentative personality while would make teulimbo friendship very fun i find it really hard to actually see them romantically, and i HATE HATE HATE teuta with shu romantically and i barely see them as friends bc shu makes it so hard to actually like him (which is like. his nature but anyway). shu on his own is fine and when hes interacting with the team as a whole hes really fun, he has some really good #brothers moments with crow that i love and i love his relationship with [SPOILERS!!!!] but i dont really enjoy him as a character. i feel like hes only popular bc hes a bad boy headhunter and he has the dorito body

UM. YEAH ❤️

[buckyhoney]

Your tags on that gifset of Jon smoking in Sweet Virginia 😵‍💫 so true bestie ughhh he really looks like he knows how to fuck you stupid 😵‍💫 I hate him!!!

exactly!! he looked sooooo good in sweet virginia 😩

[alasmydearatlas]

Grarrr havent written down my feelings or anything in a while

but why is it whenever i spend a period of time away from bf i get so annoyed with him

like do i miss him and i’m lashing out bc idk how to feel my feelings ? and anger gives me a sense of power ?

maybe?

we just moved in together and i want him to unbox all his damn boxes so we can just be freaking done but he spent all of yesterday doing nothing

Which like irs break and i’m not there i get it

But i want the house done!

I hate this unpacked limbo state

and i feel like not respected when its not done

And he didn’t help any of the things i set up like the clothes and stuff

And i did most of the kitchen

He also has so mych junk food!!! I want him to stop eatting it! Its not good for him! Ik its expensive to eat “better” but also he goes out to est more than i do which is more expensive than cooking sooooo

But that’s the judgmental petty part of me

i get so angry when i’m not face to face with him

Like i forget its not him and not just someone in my way

And we havent had our check in and i don’t want to be the only one putting in living space effort

But he’s done a lot of work to get the furniture stuff?

I just wanna go back and talk

And fix everything

And set it all up

i am not settled i’m so uncomfortable and upset and it grates on me everytime smth is messy and bad and not where it should be and it drives me nuts and it makes my heart race and me angry

so then i direct all that at him when he does nothing to help alleviate the issue

grrrrrr

Also i’m mad i spent so much of break moving

And stupid doctors appointment

Shots in the head hurt! Ouch!!! Skin so delicate !!! Ouchhyyyy

But my hair has been regrowing so ughhh ig worth it

Also i’m stressed ab all my grad school stuff

And actually applying

Its real now

What if i don’t get all the rec’s

What if i don’t get in

What am i gonna do !!!!

Scared !!!

I don’t even have an internship

No one has written me back !

I am not on my A game !

I want to rest over winter break !

And now new tutoring jobbbbbb i’m stresssed outtt ugh i don’t wanna do this

So i put it off until i have to and then i don’t have to spend a long time agonizing over it

Booooo

Very restless rn

[thisdogpaystaxes]

The Definition by Jon Bellion: Album Review

i love this man and this album so particularly much. even the thought of this album makes my soul relapse into the same euphoric orgasm of reminiscing on mr.bellion's sweet sweet melodies.

the soft intro of munny right.. like eases u right into the album. his voice comes in so fucking crispy. the fucking high note so early, its like just wait- he finna rap! just salivating at his fucking beats and his lyrics and his voice. im literally about to throw up. THE BEAT SWITCHHHHH UGHHH LIKE THATS SO GOOD U KNW HE WAS HEAD BOPPING! this sooooo me, im gona get my munny right like u mr.bellion sir! i love how this is such a represention of his success, not just lyrically but its like, he worked for it and never gave up and hes so fucking obviously talented. mfs like this are the reason why i am so enamored with music.

carry your throne. first song i ever heard by jon! i heard it in a vine and was like :00 and thats how i found him actually. i really love this song. and frozen reese's cups. i think this is also a really cool metaphoric song, comparing an undying, raw love for someone to having a kingdom. its powerful too, the instrumental and its upbeat tempo. really cool and passionate.

pre fucking OCCUPIED. i loooove this fucking weird flow in this. if you isolated the lyrics and instrumental i'd be like ..... :/ but together its fucking GORGEOUS. so fucking complementary. its a really cool way to show that they are meant for each other. like you can usually tell when one was made to complement the other. but not this song. GOD MADE ME A FULL BLOWN GEEEEENIUS ',:^[ luvvvvv this song. blaque keys is also such a rad feature on every track w jon, his flow is consistent and smoooooth. his voice also has this really good cohesion w jon's instrumental. he's a ride or die feature. beautiful mindddd

human. wow. love u so much. this is a song he obviously wrote the lyrics first, to add to the proof for my point about pre-occupied. he's a good little vulnerable guy, and i appreciate that his music is specially crafted. his instrumental and adlibs will never downplay the emotions in his voice, just beautifully complement. "lauren call me when you hear this on," makes me like cryyyyyyy. like that was fucking raw. the bridge is the best fucking part of this song, especially the acoustic version. tell me why i still feel looooost, like yes dude fucking SING IT! i genuinely believe finding music like this and kid cudi when i was young are genuinely why i am emotionally heightened.

RUN FUCKING WILDDDDD.. I LOVE THESE LYRICS OH MY FUCKING GOD. i fucking will scream this shit forever. he's so fucking real!!! MY SOUL IS IN LIMBO LIKEEE YEAH U KNO HUH! these lyrics are really dope for providing imagery, like its really cool and along w the relatable lyrics, because while personal still ambiguous, its a fantastic story of why this person has a broken heart.

a haunted house. fucking hate the yeah at the beginning :D this song had to grow on me my first time hearing this album, i did not appreciate the contrast it brings to the album until i took the time to read the lyrics. its nice and tucked in. and its again that dope lyricism of like "this is a metaphor, you've felt this but also this way you can see it" like yeeaaahhhhhhh thats fucking dope. and normally i hate little parts of "na na na's" but this song uses it to bring to life the euphoria of healing from your past and being in love again. beauuutiful song.

JUNGLE IS MY SHIT. I LOVE HOW HE SAYS "YOU'RE TOO PRETTY" LIKE I TAKE IT PERSONAL WHEN I HEAR THAT SHIT. THIS IS A SONG I WILL NEVER SKIP. u sound so effing cuuuuuute.. like jon i need u! or someone i like that likes me to listen to this song and think ofme idk! the COUNT UHHHHHHH LOVE THE BEAT AFTER SO MUCH. very passionate about this track can u tell!?!!?

bro i adore simple & sweet. its really cute and i enjoy him saying "no yeah" bc i always do. representation! BUT IF THINGS GET COMPLICATEEEEEEED-- like he absolutely smahsed it on that contrast. its made to be this way. the beginning is soooo slow and hes like- nuh uh, lets add a whole different beat and tempo. and it WORKS. and it shows the tenderness of being so in love, but also the euphoria of it too.

an immigrant is so good. the switch up is fantastic. i love this SONG. coffee on my j dilla vinyl!!!! like u can tell he missed this chick. i really really love this ditty. been head bopping this whole time. i love the "i miss you" and "i still love you" tucked in. its always been my favorite part of the album.

ooh is one i didn't like at first. but the chorus is what tied me in, and i stayed bc jon is meticulous with his features and this is proof, like blaque keys. like he absolutely has the vision for the songs immediately. and her voice is not one i'd care for alone, but its a slight compliment to his and it rly adds to the passion.

luxury is also a fantastic song, its a really beautiful outro the the album. a grand finale. such an awesome feature too. meticulous god damnit! like that shit just adds to the magnitude. feelings practically religious.

i needed to listen to this album again, i haven't for a long time but when the songs come on separately when i shuffle, im like :0! i love you jon, pls make new music i am begging you pLEASE

[sleeplessinpnw]

Picture of the day!! Current mood.

I'm scrolling through jobs and UGHHH I have never been so nervous about applying. I have a few tabs pulled up but I'm too nervous to send in my application.

I haven't worked since THE PANDEMIC! I, also during the pandemic, had a really unfortunate mental break down and had to be hospitalized and prescribed medication. I haven't worked since and I am soooo nervous about putting myself out there. I don't really qualify for a lot of what I am seeing is out there and the other half is like... maid jobs and stuff and I just dont see myself doing very well in those positions. I would hate it and not be a good employee lol

I NEED HELP!!! UgHhHhH

I'm so.... dissappointed? In myself.... Not disappointed.... Just like.... GET MORE ENERGY!!! GET UP ND OUT THERE!!!! YOU GOT THIS!!!! I need more motivation maybe? Or more of a push. I wish there was a job that stood out that I can see myself being apart of.

My Dasher app wont let me log in and im considering instacart.....

Maybe my older brother has some ideas.... but then I would be doing pilfering jobs and stuff. I will talk to him.... I'm going to reach out to family friends and stuff in the meanwhile.

An old coworker reached out about a job at the MODA Center but I havent heard back in 2 days sooooo..... idk if thats something that I actually want to do but it sounded the most promising at the time being. Theres like zero parking over there though and I really dont want to have to take public transportation.....

HELP!!!

[imaginewarehouse]

Marcus White x AFAB!Reader || Drabbles

Oh, we are back! For a limited time XD Haha. I just got an explosion of inspo for Marcus and wrote this late last night+this next morning. It is all the smut I was too chicken to write when I was first into him haha XD I hope someone, likes this! But if not, it was also cathartic.

Plot: Fucking Marcus through the seasons. // Enemies with Benefits to Lovers

Warnings: Sooooo much Smut. Filth. Sin!! Hate sex, shameless sex, orgasm denial/edging, Warehouse/Public space fucking, you both being switches, 1 (one) blow job, choking (With the discussion of a safe word), some thigh riding, overstimulation, roleplay, cockwarming, oral (AFAB receiving).

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Season 1: Hate sex + Orgasm Denial/Edging

"Yo," A body leans into the wall next to me suddenly, the sound of their voice muffled by my earplugs. I figure that whoever it is must be addressing me, though, seeing as they've obnoxiously decided to close in on my personal space despite the hunched look I patented in order to keep people from approaching me- and take out the earbuds; Looking up.

There stands Marcus, and I immediately let out a groan- pushing off the wall he's sharing with me in order to just walk away-

But he grabs my wrist and stops me, following me into wall-free space and dragging my traitorous, resistance-less body back to him. Damn- Fuck- Why-

"Y/N, come on. The dumpsters are free- whadaya say?"

What I should say, is no way in hell. Never again, douchebag. Get lost. Die in a fire.

But instead the words that come out of my mouth, are: "Warehouse. 10 minutes."

"You're on." Then he winks, walking away backwards like he thinks he's cool, before turning away and I'm just left wondering why I do this. He's awful! Disgusting, dick-ish, dumb-

~

-And so-oo good at fucking me. Or, maybe he's just so-oo, available. I don't know what either of these reasonings mean about me, but it could go both ways.

Either way, no matter how much I dislike him personally- I cant help the way my body keens into his hands; Long fingers clenched around my hips and dirty gaze stuck on the way his long cock stretches my hole as it dips inside. He's mesmerised by it. Made stupid by it.

Kinda makes me feel like I have some power in this less-than-glamorous situation I'm in with him.

But god its torture. Hiding my head in my arms as they're folded on a shelf, I give a pained whine and push my ass up some more. Please, Marcus... Please, mercy...

"Aghhhh, baby.... Sorry- it just looks so good. Its- its fucking obscene, I'll admit. But god,... " He gives a sudden, hard thrust and I gasp into my arms, desperately moaning afterwards as the movement abruptly gives me what I want. Please please please!- "So hot. Ya know, you never get this good an angle... with porn... I just have got to savour it while I can, ya know?"

"Ughhh... you fucking know as soon as we share another break you'll get to do this all over again... " He's such an asshole! "Just- " Please-

Suddenly he leans over my back, pushed in balls-deep now in his attempt to communicate with me- and- jesus, I can hear the smirk in his tone! "Oh- is that a promise??"

"Yes!" I snap, knowing its true even though I hate it. And him. "Just- come on! Please. Marcus- before someone catches us, just- " This time it only takes pushing my ass back onto him again to have him chuckling as he leans back.

"Fine, fine!... " He laughs. Laughs! "Lets see how this puppy runs, huh?"

Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh he's so gross.

Season 2: Blowie

I have recently had an epiphany.

And that is- If you cant beat 'em, join 'em.

Which, in more words, means- If my body is going to insist on wanting Marcus, as it seems to be, then I am no longer going to feel bad about it. I refuse- Its just not worth the stress weight.

So I'm going to be all in.

I am going to make him my bitch.

And part of that is torturing him, now.

Part of it is getting down on my knees for him, its letting myself smirk when I see the familiar bulge pressing against his pants, its taking my time to lick and press and open-mouthed kisses up and down his shaft, until he's painfully hard and red and dripping a pathetic amount of pre-cum.

And I enjoy it. Not just watching Marcus white knuckle the shelves behind him, sleeves rolled up his forearms, eyes closed as my lips devour him slowly, and dark hair a mess against his forehead- But also the actually dirty act- yes, I find myself liking that. Sucking Marcus White's cock.

I make sure its well lubed-up and more then sensitive before I even think about wrapping my lips around the tip. He has to wince when I press a gentle kiss to it, which I'll test out multiple times as I go. When he finally flinches, so unbelievably worked up that he sighs and growls, then I go down on him.

I take him as far as I can, bobbing my head and sucking along his shaft like a total whore- but honestly love every moment of it. He tastes good, and he's lost control of his hands, as they end up in my hair every time. His hips, too, as they buck towards me.

Its hot of him.

Yep- I'm admitting it now. Marcus is hot.

Season 3: Riding + Budding Feelings??

"Y/N... Y/N, Y/N, Y/N... " Marcus moans, my hips rolling into his at my own pace- though, certainly faster then the speed he would set. Pleasure's building up into tight ball in my lower belly, making me want to go harder- chase my release selfishly- but I stay slow, and steady. I crack my eyes open, to see him below me.

And cant help the grin that slides across my lips. He looks totally blissed out, sitting there on the ground with me propped on top of his lap.

I cant help leaning down and pressing my lips to his- an oddly intimate experience between us. Before the tornado, we almost never kissed. And when we did, it was mostly teeth and tongue gnashing together; Part anger and part lust balled into one big ol' mess.

But, since the tornado... I don't know. I don't know why, and I don't want to think too hard on it, but... it started. We started to kiss. Like now, with his hands dragging me closer by the waist not just so I'll fuck him harder- just so I'll be closer to him??

I part my lips slowly, and the sweet, gentle kiss becomes a hungry one, but its still not the way it was. Our tongues don't fight- we tilt our heads opposite ways into it and his warm muscle pets mine. Sliding over it and circling it, making me moan into his mouth; My hips stutter as the kiss makes my head fuzzy, and I lose concentration.

"Marcus... " I groan against his lips when we finally have to breath, but quickly go back to making out with him.

Its almost as good as the fucking.

Season 4: Choking, Thigh Riding, Fingering and Overstimulation

*This one is set in Ep 11, Steps Challenge. when Marcus gets mad about it (Not as mad as Sandra, but... pretty mad.).

"Remember the safe word?" He asks, breathing heavily. He came to me a few minutes ago, a hand on my thigh possessively under the breakroom table which surprised me. I looked away from my phone to assess him, and oh boy.

That steps challenge has pissed him off, somehow.

Stoll, I roll my eyes- but gently; Smoothing the wrinkles absentmindedly, almost affectionately, out of his coveralls. What do I care what kind of things the other sin the room might think? Marcus and I are a secret but not a well kept one. "That's not gonna be our safe word, Marcus."

He groans, rolling his shoulders back in irritation. "Come onnn."

"No." Over my dead body, is it going to be Boob Cheese! Theirs no way Marcus will fuck me so bad that it traumatises me any more then his business concept, did.

"Fine. How about- Strawberries?"

Amused, I look up; Biting my bottom lip to keep from giggling. "Strawberries?"

"Yeah- now- come on. I need this." He rolls his own eyes, the frustration clear even in his body language- so I shrug.

"Alright- Strawberries. Now what are you plannin- Ey!"

Marcus is already dragging me to the Warehouse.

~

"Ah!~" I cant help the desperate whines that come out of me with Marcus' hand around my throat. I never imagined this would be so hot- making me cum already twice. But it just makes me more desperate. For air, for his touch, for an orgasm.

The first time, I came on his thigh- Rubbing myself against the material of his work uniform until he got too frustrated with me and took my hip movements into his own hands; Dragging my more-than-stimulated pussy over his thigh and bumping his leg up every once and awhile- until I let go inside my underwear.

Then, a second time, on his fingers. He rubbed inside me, at my meaty inside walls and the delicate bell inside me rough, until I pressed my forehead into his shoulder and rolled into his ministrations. Needing more.

More more more.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck!- " Its becoming too much, especially with my poor, abused cunt now stretching and milking his dick now; Much more then his fingers, or the not-nearly-enough-ness of his knee. I'm overstimulated to hell, but Marcus is intent on fucking me until his frustrations are cleaned out.

"Are you good?" He asks, rubbing a thumb up and down the skin of my throat now instead and squeezing it for a moment, but still drilling me into the wall; My thighs spread wide open and wrapped around him, drawing him closer by my heels.

"Yeah," I reply, almost breathlessly. Please don't make me talk, right now... Useless cursing and pornographic moaning is about all I can manage right now. "Ah!- "

His grip tightened around my throat, and so my pussy follows suit on his cock.

"Hm. Good."

Season 5: Roleplay + Cockwarming

*Set sometime during Ep 13, Favouritism. When he got his desk.

He was so excited about his desk, and somehow amongst him showing it to me after hours and pretending he's on some 'Important business call'- I ended up sat on it, with him being my boss, and me his darling, slightly slutty receptionist.

Or a lot slutty, considering he's balls deep in me- still taking that 'Important Business Call'.

"Yeah, just send them on through to my receptionist, L/N- Yeah, yeah, man- no you're the best." Its really a testament to Marcus that he's able to bullshit a whole conversation so seamlessly, even with my walls squeezing him for all he's worth like this. He flashes a perfect smile, as if the guy on the other end told him something good. "Thanks, man. She is, yeah- I'll ask 'em."

Excited to get included in the game, I straighten up a bit and tilt my head the side; A perky grin on my lips. "Yes, sir?"

His mouth opens slightly at the use of that address paired with my best, most professional, ready-to-work smile. "... Um... Uh- uh oh yeah, um, do you... Hal wants to know if you've got a boyfriend- he's got a son about your age... Might wanna set ya up."

"Oh," Well, that's unexpected. "Well... " My cheeks go pink. That's I dont know what to make of that question. Is Marcus asking me something about... us? If I wanted anyone else? Um- "T-tell him I'm busy right now... Gotta lotta work to do... with Mr White."

Slowly a mischievous smirk spreads across Marcus' face again. "Yeah you do." He whispers, leaning over and claiming my mouth his; Leaving a dizzying, hot kiss there and forcing me to moan- Hips rolling. The action makes him lose character for a second, releasing a string of obscenities under his breath as his head falls on my shoulder, and thrusting his hips and his cock up deeper into me. Oh god!-

Then he lifts the phone, that had been pressed to his chest as if anyone was there on the other end to hear your exchange, and presses it to his ear again. "Sorry, man, L/N's just reminded me we- I- have a meeting, now. Yeah, see ya, bye!"

Then he puts the phone away and turns mock-sternly, to me.

"You're gonna have to me... "

"Oh?" I ask, grin spreading across my lips.

"You just fucked up that phone call with your hot ass- that's grounds for firing. But I think we can work something else out."

"Oh?" I repeat, fighting not to laugh as I wrap my arms over his shoulders, playing with his hair. "Well, sir, I'll do just about anything, to keep my job... "

Marcus smirks, lifting me by my hips onto the desk. "That's what I wanted to hear."

I actually do laugh, as I lay back on the wood; Legs spreading open wider for him to 'take', me.

Season 6: Pussy eating + Feelings cemented

"... wow." I suddenly say, surprised at the realisation that just hit me. Marcus and I have been sat on his bed in his room for hours, watching movies- and this has only just now occurred to me. Marcus turns to look at me, raising a brow, and I look back to him. "I just- I just realised. We've never had sex in a bed, before."

Well- there's never been one available, like now. Either, we hated each other too much to make the effort of going to each others houses, or he lived with his mother, or below the store, or I had roommates, or... a whole line of other roadblocks keeping us in the Warehouse, or the bathrooms, or his car or... whatever. I'm not proud of all the places we did it but the point is it was never, not once, a bed.

Which is crazy!

Marcus eyes open wide, too. "Wow... you're right." He makes a gesture with his hands and his head, like his mind is blown- and I nod. Yeah. Then he shrugs those broad shoulder of his, turning back to Dumb and Dumber. "Ah, well."

... Ah well???

I watch him watch the movie for a couple minutes, him not seeming to notice as he's too busy laughing at the stupid shit this movie throws at us. Its weird, I cant help but think. How far we've gotten from when we met. I... really disliked, him. And for good reason honestly, he was a jerk. I'm hesitant to say I hated him, because now... I couldn't imagine hating this person.

I sure as hell did, though. But hot and infuriating has, and I don't know exactly when, but, it become hot and amazing.

It stopped being just sex, a long time ago. It turned into Chinese food and sex, because we were hungry and if we were going to be together soon anyway we might as well eat together.... Then it was fun fairs and making out, because the kissing was almost better.

And now its movies above the covers, my shoulder leant into his.

"Marcus... " I call, quietly.

"Hold on just a second, Harry's about to- "

Okay, he's still a doofus that cant read a room to save his life. "Marcus." I repeat, sternly. He gives a deep, 'oh-woe-is-me' type sigh, like he so terribly hard-done-by, and pauses the movie before turning to me. "I... "

His eyes blow open wide in realisation at my hesitancy and suddenly he's all in. Apart of the conversation. Present. "Woah- wait- is this the moment?? Are you gonna- "

"Well, I'm gonna try!"

"Okay- Okay- take your time. I'm right here. Go."

Sighing, a smile on my lips as I shake my head; I try to release all the nerves. Because this man has seen me naked- worse then naked- I shouldn't be nervous! Huffing eventually, when I'm struggling to do it, I curl my fingers into his shirt and guide him towards me. "I... "

"Yeah??... " Why's he gotta make this so hard.

"Damn it, Marcus." I press my lips to his then, to shut him up. As we start to make-out, ending up with my head on his pillow and him hovering over me, I feel the words coming to me. This part has always been the easy one, with us.

~

Its not 2 minutes later that Marcus had disconnected his lips from mine and dragged me to the side of the bed and got his knees. My eyes had widened, surprised at the implications of his positioning.

"Marcus," Tucking some hair behind my ear, I had leant down, and tilted my head to him. "You've never eaten me out before."

"Yeah, well- I've always wanted to try, though. Just didn't know if you'd like that. C'mon," He flashed me one of those too-confident, bright grins. "Open up for me, babe."

My unsureness was quickly swept away as soon as he kissing me down there the way he kisses me on the lips; Fingers curling into the sheets in no time.

And oh god- how he looks down there. It drives me crazy. The smirk he gives my cunt when he has to breath, the sight of his tongue delving between my puffy lips. He digs deep, wrapping his lips around my entire mould- and sucking. My hands go straight to his hair, tugging and feeling the vibrations of his moan into me.

And immediately- the words fly out. "I love you," Quiet, and quick, and it makes Marcus moans again- taking it up a notch in eating me out and thrusting his tongue faster.

[kokichixreaderthings]

(Can I request again???? Your writing is really good! ;))

Can I get Kokichi x Reader where the reader is on a trip overseas and Kokichi missed her?

I also have a really, REALLY, funny dialogue prompt that follows with this concept. Consider this like a little 'treat' from me:

Y/N: *carrying suitcases with her*

Shuichi: *talking with Kaito* Hm? *sees her* Oh, hey Y/N

Kaito: Sup, Y/N-chan? What are the suitcases for?

Y/N: Good afternoon, boys. Oh, I'm going overseas to visit some family. I--

Shuichi and Kaito: *both grab her legs, crying*

Y/N: *eyes widen* B-Boys?!

Shuichi: *cries* Please don't leave!!!

Kaito: *sobs* YOU CAN'T GO!!!

Y/N: *blushes* Boys, you're gonna miss me that much?

Shuichi: That, and umm....without you, Kokichi is going to be even MORE annoying!

Kaito: Last time you were away, he pranked us everyday, a new prank set up EVERY HOUR!

Shuichi: *wails* Do you....do you hate us that much, Y/N?!

Y/N:..............................

Maki: *walks passed them*...........what's going on?

Y/N: I'm going to see some family overseas, and--

Maki: And you're leaving us with a heartbroken Kokichi? Wow, and you say all this talk about us 'being friends'

And this :)

Y/N: *at the airport* Bye guys! I'll be back in a week

Kokichi: *hugs her tightly, kissing her cheek* Have a safe flight, darling! Text me when you land

Y/N: I'll be sure to! And if you behave I may or may not be getting you a little something when I come back~?

Kokichi: *gasps, his eyes lighting up* A present for me?! I promise I'll be good! No lies!

Y/N: *chuckles* Alright, alright *kisses his head* Bye sweetie. Bye guys! *waves bye to her friends, going to her plane*

Kokichi: *smirks, turning back to everyone else*

Kaito: You heard your girlfriend, Kokichi! Behave!

Himiko: Yeah! Or else Y/N isn't gonna get you a present like she promised!

Shuichi: Besides, you even said 'no lies' to her before she left

Kokichi: *chuckles* Nee-hee-hee! Well, I am a liar. I could've easily been lying about "No lies". Besides~ *takes out a roll of tape, stretching it out* *malice is in his eyes, as he grins evilly* What my precious Y/N doesn't know won't hurt her....righttttt~

Everyone: *runs away*

kokichi x reader where his s/o is on a trip away from him ! <3

thank you so much! and i appreciate the “treat” you gave! i love the interactions :) and i loved writing this!! kokichi would definitely be a clingy type of boyfriend..i hope you like this!

kokichi is going to miss you so much!

you’re his partner in crime, his second in command, you’re everything to him!

it’s like he’s missing his other half!

literally, because he got you two those cliche matching necklaces before you left

“it’ll remind you of me! isn’t it cute?”

please wear it he really wants you to !

and if you go overseas often he’ll buy you two those bond bracelets

like the one where you touch it and the other person feels it!

and he’ll be touching it a lot, he just wants to feel like he’s with you!

with that, his texts are extremely frequent!

because you’re his favorite person to talk with!

he talks how much he misses you, how much he wishes you were here

‘i want cuddles y/n what am i supposed to dooooo :(((‘

‘beloved! call me! i want to talkkk’

‘i want a kiss >:( come back here right now!’

he’ll send you pictures of himself smiling or making overly sad faces when he really misses you

he’s just really bored without you

but he does annoy people a lot when you’re gone

because what else is he supposed to do?!

he complains about how far away you are to them all the time!

“ughhh this would all be so much better if y/n was here.”

and his pranks...

no one is safe from his pranks..

his person of choice is usually shuichi

he just doesn’t get as annoyed as the others!

but its only a matter of time before he figures out why Kokichi’s doing this..

he has his detective instincts after all

“Nishishi, you better watch out Shuichi!” Kokichi taunted, a full water gun in his hand. It was one of those cheap ones you could get at a dollar store, but that didn’t mean it wasn’t effective! Besides, if it was unsatisfactory, he still had tons more to fill...

Shuichi turned around, surprised, “K-Kokichi?!”

His face of surprise slowly changed into a face of understanding.

“Kokichi...I know you miss y/n.” he realized.

Really? Shuichi’s just going to call him out on these things?

“Huh? I don’t care at all!” Kokichi lied, not lowering his water gun for a second.

“You’ve messaged me every day about how much you miss them...” Shuichi reminded him.

It’s true. Kokichi had to express his feelings somehow! He couldn’t just annoy you all the time...

“Ugh, fine!” Kokichi admitted, the evidence stacked up against him. “But that doesn’t mean I’m going to show you mercy!

Shuichi sighed, “I know...”

when it comes to the day for you to finally come back he is ecstatic!

he gets to the airport extra early, pacing around and eating vending machine snacks

and he texts you the whole time

‘are you landing?”

‘are you here yet?’

‘hurry up, i miss youuuu’

it’s kind of sweet how much he cares..

And as he waits for you to arrive and sends another one of his many text messages, he finally sees you walking towards him.

His eyes light up. You’re here! You’re actually here!

Nothing can stop him as he runs to you, enveloping you in a hug when he reaches you.

He missed hugging you, so much! It felt warm and soft and just nice.

“Beloved! i missed you sooooo much!” he exclaims, still not letting go of you.

“I missed you too” you responded, and his heart sped up at hearing your voice.

He clinged onto you tighter, ignoring everyone else around you two. Sure, he was clingy, but he couldn’t help it! Hugging you was all he could think about lately.

“Don’t leave me ever again! I almost died not being in your presence!” he dramatized.

You laughed slightly, unknowingly making Kokichi’s smile even wider.

and he’s super clingy for days after this!

he gives you all the kisses and cuddles!

“im just making up for all the time i missed, duh!”

if you don’t give him the affection he’s starved from, he will be very upset

so try to hold him as much as possible!

if you brought back a gift for him, he’ll appreciate it, whatever it is

he’s just glad you’re back, you didn’t need to get him a gift...

but he is really happy! he likes gifts, especially if they’re from you

“awww you’re just the sweetest s/o ever!”

you two aren’t going to let go of each other for a very long while...

and he’s definitely going to insist going with you on your trips next time!

thank you for reading! kokichi loves you!!

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Agents of SHIELD S3E18-S3E20 reaction

Agents of SHIELD S3E18

-Well at least when Daisy destroys the base she didn't kill anyone

-what if Daisy's vision of somebody dying is that she actually killed somebody on the team under mind control. That's a dark thought I don't think she'd ever recover if this was the case

-oh I'm so done with this. Can they please just get rid of Ward

-I am so sick of seeing Daisy's pretty little adorable face in the same shot with freaking Ward's face

-ugghh I cannot express how frustrated I am with this.

-So done with this show rn. Just. Don't come at me like this.

-AND I wondered why people say season 3 will kick me in the teeth

-welp now the said teeth are very much feeling the kick

-Seeing FitzSimmons awkwardly talking about sex briefly lifted my mood lol they are still cute af

-I hate seeing Daisy with Ward so much. fucking hell. just stop. seeing Daisy put her head on Ward's shoulder physically hurt me and cringed me

-Leave my girl alone already

-Lincoln calling Daisy Coulson and May a small messed up family lol this show really is NOT subtle in implying who is Daisy's father and mother figure

-Oh Simmons is gorgeous. Her usual makeup in this show is undermining how beautiful she is

-Why is Daisy still so hot when she's in evil mode

-The way her power can make the ground split open aww man she's so powerful

-But yeah definitely need to save her before she does something too far gone

-"She's the closest thing I have to a daughter"

-really just not subtle at all. I like Coulson and Daisy's connection though so I think that's pretty moving.

-Are FitzSimmons gonna have sex soon... because it feels like it

-I won't be against it. It'd be pretty cute

-ewwwww that needle into the eye scene is sooooo gross ewww

-sooner or later this show's gonna need to pay for my therapy

-Daisy. Don't do anything stupid.

-poor FitzSimmons omg

-Fitz and Daisy's actors can both ACT in this choking scene but I swear if Daisy ended up killing Fitz she'll never recover

-Even if Daisy didn't actually choke Fitz to death she'll have a hard time dealing with this when she's free of mind control

-oh no alien warm Ward has Will's memories. This must be so traumatizing for Simmons. her dead ex-bf wearing the skin of Grant Ward having a creepy conversation with her? So glad Simmons shot him lol

-At least FitzSimmons made it out alive and Simmons looks gorgeous in this episode

-But uggh it's been a whole episode and Daisy is still with alien octopus warm ugghhhh like come on now...

-I swear to god they better not drag saving Daisy to the finale

-Just how cute is this sex scene between FitzSimmons tho. It's about time

-Kids really all grew up huh

-I want to punch Ward's face so bad

Agents of SHIELD S3E19

-four more episodes to go and this zombie Ward finally got a name

-Hive makes me think of arrowverse lol

-I used to love watching scenes with Daisy in it but now Hive-Ward is standing right by her and he sucked all of the fun out of watching Daisy uggghh

-Also why is this show grossing me out every episode now. That scene of a person melting is just ewww ewww ewww so gross

-Did Simmons just call Fitz her boyfriend. That's so cute

-Lincoln just risked his life to save Daisy awww

-ugghhh Daisy needs to snap out of this or she's gonna get herself killed

-In theory, Kree made the Inhumans so they should be a lot stronger?

-What did I just witness...Daisy just killed a Kree so easily???

-is she really this powerful?

-welp Daisy's fully looking like she's losing it...and I'm pretty sure if she's not under mind control she won't mean these things that she's saying

-Seeing Daisy beat up Mack is so painful I need help

-Welp seems like Hive can't be killed

-Did May just shoot Daisy????

-Uggh another episode and they still haven't saved Daisy and now I'm so frustrated

-This show is very good at making me feel all sorts of negative feelings ugghhh it is looking more and more likely that they'll drag this saving Daisy thing to the finale and ugghhh I hate this

-and ughhh fucking hell Daisy did not just offer herself up as a sacrifice to be drained

-Imma die of frustration and agents of shield better be paying my therapy bills

-When can Ward finally die I just can't deal with this any longer

Agents of SHIELD S3E20

-Daisy darling I know you are under mind control but still. You are gonna get yourself killed

-They really be draining Daisy of her blood when she just got shot

-she looks like she's in real bad shape

-Can't they just let shield save her already there're only three episodes left in this season ugghh I'm so frustrated

-What's sokovia accords and this avenger reference they keep on making

-feels like I need to watch a lot of movies for this show

-yeahhhh Daisy sounds pretty brainwashed rn

-yoyo and Mack make quite a cute couple

-Just when I thought watchdogs are gross they turn into these primitive-looking ugly people ugghhh

-The way Daisy just manipulated Lincoln into escaping shield base ugghh

-eww warm-Ward calling these primitive ugly people his baby with Daisy is on another level of grosss omfg

-AT LAST shield and Lincoln has some brain ugghh

-But I don't see how sending over Lash can accomplish anything?

-ohhhh so Lash can resist mind control

-Daisy is on the verge of bleeding out and she can barely walk and still she's gonna go out to fight Lash??

-welp she's gonna get herself killed

-oh waiiiitttt a minute

-Gotta admit I did not see this coming

-FINALLY they save my girl omfg took this bloody show long enough

-So Lash's purpose is to save Daisy from mind control??

-"This is agent Daisy Johnson I'm coming home"

-Somebody gives her some blood transfusion and don't let her walk on her own omfg she looks like a ghost

-istg this show be playing my emotions and it better not be Mack who dies in Daisy's vision

[shelby-ltd]

MY THOUGHTS ON 'YOUNG ROYALS'

EPISODE 1 : it started very nicely and i get what's going on quickly and the royal speech its kinda nice scene actually and ahh the denial of going to boarding school is very basic but that's what i really like

"the hating to loving trope".

I love the brothers relationship between the two prince when they hug and Wilhelm didnt want to let Erik go its really cute.

August kinda annoying i think (?)

BUT LETS TALK ABOUT SIMON HMM, he's sooooo cutee ahhh his curls and his smile and his sparky eyes aha yes i know Wilhelm you staring at him differently when Simon sing in that church, cause im instantly in love too.

Did y'all notice the "light ring" Wilhelm use when he's partying and the color is a BI flag ? or im just too exicted to watch this because i also notice when Wilhelm and Simon sit together outside of the party and the light behind Simon is a lgbtq flag, and before that we all know who Simon is from what he tell to his dad.

EPISODE 2 : UHMM YES IM LOVING WILHEM FINALLY GETTING HIS FREEDOM AND HE SPEND IT WITH SIMON 🥺 HE EVEN LIE TO AUGUST !!

THAT MOVIE NIGHT SCENEEEE, THE SECRETLY HOLDING HANDSSS, WILHElM AND SIMON SHY SMILE UGHHH.

THE KISS . . . I actually panick when Simon decided to kiss Wilhem and he just do nothing cause just before that Wilhelm is having a panick attack after they hold hands

Anddd also when he said "im . . . not . .i-"

Ahhhh poor Simon but thenn he kissed Wilhelm again and he didn't kiss Simon back so he just letting it go but Wilhelm pull Simon by the shirt AND THAT IS VERY CUTE AND VERY PERSONAL SCENE TO ME OKAY.

If my reaction is emojis :

🙂🥰😭🥺💔🤟🏻😎👀🤩🍾🥵🥰🤗😤🙄🤐😳

But my emoji reaction to Simon's character is :

🥺🥺🥺✨🤗🤍🤍🖤🖤🤎🤎🤎💜💜💜💙💙💙

TO BE CONTINUED . . .

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[trashlie]

ps THANK YOUUU for talking about mr hirahara. he makes me very angry, gosh how he treats yeonggi infuriates me. i don’t even know if he wants to help him? being so horrible to his own child for the sake of the family’s own image while yeonggi slowly withers and this man obviously knows stuff and yet never steps in ughhh. it’s sad that yeonggi looks terrified whenever the man is around. that goes for kousuke too. i’ve told someone before but i’ll say it again kousuke and mr hirahara enabled yuis behavior (if it is about manipulating shinae or yeonggi) kousuke saw his own mother groom a teenager and humiliate her, and yet he still continues working close to her despite this?shinae had complained to him about her too and he says it’s for her own good (speaking about staying in the company). also him telling yui about yeonggi going abroad for what??? trying to sabotage his chances of going? he’s so insecure that he has to mess with yeonggi? it’s horrible!!! back to rand, how he behaved after court, grabbing yeonggi like that- he’s so blind to the struggles the child is facing. i have very little faith in the man, it was really satisfying to see shinae stand up for yeonggi when rand was talking smack.

Oh my god look Rand.... drives me nuts! I am fascinated and intrigued by him as a character, but as a parent, he makes me SO ANGRY. I have sooooo many feelings about both parents in general, but Rand makes me angry in a very different way than Yui (or to be fair, even Kousuke) BECAUSE it was his own choices that ultimately lead to a lot of these events. Yui would likely have always been Yui, but she's even worse because of the existence of Rand's illegitimate child. I think Kousuke would have remained very screwed up thanks to her (in the way of her grooming/molding him in her likeness, the lack of appropriate childhood to help develop the skills he's lacking in) but he could have at least been, you know, less paranoid. Well. Maybe. I guess that's really debatable lol

(Read more because boy did I ramble)

Up until 149, I really had hope in Rand? Even after that chapter with Shinae meeting with him about his contract, because while he went back on everything he'd ever said to Shinae, I was pretty certain it was because he knew Yui was lurking around the corner (and she was!) and he was being proactive - which is, essentially, the same issue I think we see with Rand and Yeonggi. Up until that point I was just so, so hopeful that Rand could find a way to reveal to Yeonggi that he cares and it hurts that we continue to see him say to Yeonggi the things he does? I've talked before, whether on here or probably reddit, that in his diatribe, there are a few key lines that stand out to me that make me think "Ah, maybe he actually means something else, maybe this actually reveals some feelings that we and Yeonggi don't see on the surface". But, the problem is: if we as readers barely notice it, if Yeonggi doesn't understand it, what good is it? Especially when, like you pointed out, he's being physical with Yeonggi and degrading him. Anger is a passionate emotion and we say hurtful things when we're angry but Rand takes it to such an extent that you'd think he HATES Yeonggi.

I don't think he does. I think he hates his situation, I think he hates the things he did that culminated in this situation, I think he hates that he's failed both of his sons as a father, but I think he also is incapable of expressing this (whether it's because he can't due to Yui or because he refuses to face it himself) and it comes out of him projected to others. In fact, I think Rand projects a lot of his self-loathing on Yeonggi (which is beyond unfair), both in the weird things like how he pushes Yeonggi to be the "picture perfect" boyfriend to Alyssa (this is something I'd love to write more about because frankly, it is WEIRD) to emotionally. Not to keep repeating myself but I'm pretty sure Rand is full of self loathing and cannot stand the situation he's in, but if he leaves Yui he loses everything and if he loses everything then everything was for nothing: losing Yeonggi's mom, the way he's treated Yeonggi, whatever dreams he might've had lol, his entire personality?????

In addition to all these factors, image IS incredibly important to Rand and the Hirarharas in general, to such an extent that they've literally?! Ruined their own children? lmao and it just continues to cycle through Kousuke. (Kousuke has proven to also care so deeply about image that he puts it before other peoples' feelings, like coercing Shinae into a dance that made her too uncomfortable and pushing her [and even Yeonggi!] into situations where they must be around their abuser because "It's good for you" but Kousuke also is another beast to be examined lmao)

The thing I get very hung up on is... yes... Rand HAS to know the way Yui and Kousuke have treated Yenggi have ruined him, right? There's no way that, busy or not, he didn't know how Yui abuses him, right? We've even got implied physical abuse - the way Yeonggi flinches at Yui's touch isn't merely out of fear of the things she says to him. (Also what's up with tea?) The fact that both Kousuke and Rand are aware of this and still make Yeonggi interact with her?! To Rand's credit, I think he DOES try, in his own secret ways, to minimize how much Yeonggi has to do with Yui these days, but what about back then? It stresses me out! And for Kousuke to know this and still act like this is just something that Yeonggi must endure? Idk.... I think as far as it concerns Kousuke, he tries to ignore it/deny that it's real, because confronting that means having to confront the other terrible things Yui has done and it can be difficult for people to face the realities of their parents and reconcile it with what they think they know? We know that Kousuke has always been closer to his mom, even if now as an adult he tries to pull away, if only because of the way she groomed and manipulated him. Confronting the way she's treated Yeonggi and Shinae means also confronting what she's done to HIM and Kousuke is so proud that he can't bear to admit that all of his choices were made for him by Yui, that she molded him. He needs desperately to believe that he made his decisions and it was his hard work that got him here. Once he finally confronts the realities of Yui, he is in for a major break down.

Honestly, thinking about the way Yeonggi has been treated his whole life makes me both so angry and so sad because he was failed by literally everyone but Nana. Due to the choices he made, his father was unable to protect him, and the only time he tries to "show that he cares" it comes out looking like loathing. Yui is literally a monster - if Kousuke looks like a non-human demonoid in Yeonggi's memories, how does he picture her? And Kousuke himself continues to pretend to care while still!!! Enacting!!! The abuse of the past. I think to some degree Kousuke cares, whether it's just because he feels guilt or because a small part of him is mature enough to (I lean towards guilt-fueled) but he's still SO BLINDED by his paranoia and jealousy and inferiority complex that he CONTINUES to tear him down! Always talking about when are you going to start acting right, you need to work hard, blah blah - but the moment he finds out Yeonggi is excelling at his job we see him regret manipulating him to continue working; finds out that Yeonggi is shortlisted for Oxford and he literally says to his face that it must be preferential treatment because "surely you're not smart enough for OXFORD" and then goes to tattle to Yui KNOWING FULL WELL WHAT SHE'S CAPABLE OF. And he has the audacity to be so shocked that Yeonggi is desperate enough to go to jail for something he's innocent in, just to get the hell away from this family.

Idk man!!!!!! I want to believe that Rand loves Yeonggi, but he sure doesn't make a good show of it. Even under the context that his hands are tied by Yui.... you don't have to call your son an imbecile, imply that all he ever does is fucks things up, that he makes you sick. (Though, I still maintain that I think Rand thinks it's himself who is an imbecile who fucks shit up and makes himself sick. But guess what, now he's got Yeonggi believing it of himself)

God I have so many FEELINGS on this lmao thank you for letting me just.... feeldump lol ;~;