#I JUST HAVE TERRIBLE ADHD

[indigopoptart]

Omg you display all the characters so well throughout every chapter! Your writing is the most, as Wally would say, but wow fr every chapter is so good can’t wait for the next one!

HI IM SORRY IVE BEEN YELLING AT MYSELF TO FINALLY ANSWER THIS BUT IM FINALLY NOW GETTING MYSELF TO SIT DOWN AND RESPOND. THANK U SO MUCH FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT ILY

[deoidesign]

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[miodiodavinci]

head in hands like "maybe i should have realized this about myself sooner" as i am surrounded by neon flashing signs that Very Clearly Indicate the thing i should have realized about myself sooner

[pinkcasket]

watching house is a trip but hearing the writers early opinions is so funny "he's not autistic he's just an eccentric jerk" "house isn't in love with wilson they're both straight" not only did you write an autistic bisexual you also gave him adhd and complex ptsd.

[ladyseidr]

So, as you may know from his muse page, Rory has ( obviously undiagnosed ) ADHD. I wanted to delve more into this ( and project some of my ADHD onto him lmaooo ).

so, we'll start heavier and then move on to the mostly lighter stuff: yes, his ADHD is disabling. no, he does not know that. yes, he's thinks he's just lazy and stupid ( he's not </3 ).

no, his would-be-shitty-no-matter-what parents do not help the above, although his mom's emotional abuse / judgment actually gives him the bigger complex abt it

he does struggle academically despite the fact that, talking to him about his interests / stuff he's knowledgeable about, he clearly comes across intelligent. he struggles with focus, some memory issues, plus general test anxiety despite claiming to not care about school. he hears a lot of "try harder" despite, like, actually putting effort in for many years of his schooling.

he graduates high school, barely ( as in, highly considered dropping out for 101 reason, including the ADHD ). no, he doesn't even consider college.

the combination of untreated ADHD, C-PTSD, and definitely an ( un ) healthy dose of depression make it hard for him to work "traditional jobs," so he does mostly odd jobs. at some point after getting his own place, i def think he starts diving into his art a little more. can aspen write a muse who isn't a creative? tune in next time to find out.

unrelated, but i am serious about the band idea. about him joining some local, semi-decent band as a singer.

ANYWAY some lighter stuff now: guy who always has one major ( months and months long ) and one minor ( 1-2 weeks ) hyperfixation going on at all times.

his common types of hyperfixations tend to be: specific comic book series or characters, specific bands, D&D, video games, and so forth.

he does get pulled back to previous hyperfixations sometimes, especially favorite characters ( like batg.irl, green ar.row, nightc.rawler, spid.er-man, etc )

please let him infodump at you. please let your muse find it endearing when he talks for 30 minutes straight about the latest Batm.an series. or about his new spray paint. or about anything.

btw i'm adding this just to be petty because i brought up comics but i promise you he called in and voted for jason not to die. i think older rory read "Under the H.ood" and felt the most validation he'd ever felt in his life. this isn't even fn.af-related anymore, let me get mad about D.C for a second—

( actually let's be real rory relating to jason big time is Real and Canon to me. anyway hayla, if you're reading this—)

sometimes his brain moves faster than his mouth and he literally can't say what he wants to say fast enough to get it out coherently ( real real real ).

he does miss social cues sometimes, but how much of that is ADHD vs him just not being properly socialized prior to school is debatable. pre-bite, he's able to laugh it off when someone calls him on it.

projecting big time but i think he should be a rocker ( as a stim ). if he's sitting down, he's probably rocking or bouncing his leg or something. if he's standing, he's shifting foot-to-foot constantly. that's not to say he can never be still, but he stims quite a lot. it's not always ( or even often ) a sign of nerves, he just gets restless.

in fact, honestly a lot of his idle behavior can scream "nervous" if you don't realize he's simply restless.

his recklessness is honestly not something i'd attribute to his ADHD. he has little care for his own safety, but i think that's a lot broader then ( or even wholly unrelated to ) his ADHD

does he ever get diagnosed? it's probably well into his 30s before he can even be convinced to try therapy, but yeah, i think eventually he gets diagnosed and tbh i think he probably cried the first time he read the, like, symptoms of it and realized it fit him. also when he gets on medication. this is supposed to be a happy bullet point but AGH </3

anyway rory infodumping at your muse starter call when?

[heir-of-the-chair]

I DO NOT. HAVE TIME. FOR A NEW HYPERFIXATION. I DON’T HAVE TIME FOR THIS.

[mist-the-wannabe-linguist]

I think what's a pretty underexplored concept in fantasy settings similar to Dragonriders of Pern and Eragon is how would various mental conditions influence a person's mental link with their dragon, like imagine a situation where a dragon chooses to bond with a DID system

the system first assumes they got a new alter. shocked to meet a gigantic flying lizard instead

the dragon gets a lot more riders than it bargained for

[abandoned-as-mustard]

who even has the energy for breakdowns anymore? shut downs are where it's at. melt into the couch and feel sorry for yourself instead. get dehydrated.

[roitaminnah]

hey have u guys read the fic bandit queens of the mont satiné shopping mall. (shaking through tears) i think u should. join me in my insanity <3

[wanderingmind867]

I'm stressed again. About what?. About nearly everything. If you've seen or are willing to go through my vent tag, I've had so many problems over the years. Mom died, turned 18, soon have to leave high school, haven't had any hyperfixations besides politics in 5-6 months (and politics is starting to stress me out too). It's awful. I don't always even feel like people see these posts. And that makes me feel worse. Because if I'm making a bunch of random posts about my depression, I wish someone could see them.

[puppyeared]

footnotes arent enough I need you to talk to me like im fucking Amelia Bedelia

[disregardcanon]

going back to piano is so much for me emotionally. because i had a really difficult experience with my first teacher, who was one of my catholic school teachers with the "you are a "gifted child" and when you're not learning the way that i've always taught forever that obviously means that you're lazy and/or careless". and then i quit in eighth grade because it had become such a struggle to even get myself to get through a lesson because i'd become The Worst about it and she also just wanted me out the door.

but then i took 3 months of lessons over the summer with a different instructor when i was 19 and bOY HOWDY that's where my brain goes when i'm doing okay. "here's how to help you better put the actions your two hands are doing together. here's how you can analyze the piece and see what's going wrong. you're good at hearing the chords and how you want them to line up so go through and analyze the chord progression and put that down and it'll help you" and it just- it was a fucking lifesaver.

like i just wish that i knew when i was a kid that the reason that it didn't work for me was that i didn't know how to connect my fingers to what things were supposed to sound like and that was deeply fucking frustrating. and that was something that i could learn and it didn't just mean that actually i was awful at this thing and needed to stop wasting all of our time

[lesbipede]

fat girls you're everything to me okay. the people giving us shit for being fat don't know anything.

[quillyfied]

Tiny reminder, if you take frequent medications and find yourself needing to take specialized over the counter medicine (as for allergies, a cold, tummy bug, whatever), to always check your drug interactions BEFORE you put something in your body. Pharmacists are a good source, as is this drugs.com interaction checker. Sometimes it’s fine. Sometimes you find out after the fact you can’t take a decongestant along with your adhd meds without it making you dizzy and weak and confused before your body works overtime to get it out of your system by any means necessary. Do your research!! Do not play with your body chemicals unless you really know what you’re doing!

[sihtricfedaraaahvicius]

update under the cut :)

sorry for the lack of fics as of late! due to the holidays and my personal life (I truly have one, crazy, I know!) I have had less time to write, or simply couldn't focus when I wanted to write due to other things on my mind. I am doing well and I am so eager to write and make edits again, and now that the festive crap is finally over I hope to get back to a more regular writing schedule again ([insert Gollum voice]: I thrives on routines but we hates them) and the next planned fics to come out are still that last Lighthouse chapter (sorry it's taking me so long!) and the next Fighter chapter (I promise it's a fun one). So, that's what I got planned for the upcoming week for now, anything else I may drop in the mean time is just a bonus really :) I also feel I have to dismiss some requests again as I'm not getting any inspiration for those, and might hand them to fellow writers if they are up for it.

aaaanyway, I've really missed being on here more and all the crazy shit that happens rather daily, so I hope to be more present again here in general from time to time too. I hope my gremlinssons are doing well too and had great holidays! and please don't be afraid to just message me if you want to have a chat, on here or on insta, I do love talking with you even if you're new here!

[snazum]

me trying to stroll thru the ted nivison tag on tumblr for some sick art X READER, IMAGINE, OTHER THINGS I CAN'T REMEMBER THE NAME OF EVEN THO IT'S QUITE LITERATLY RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME XDD