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notfknapplicable · 4 months
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I signed my lease at my new place today! Now I need to go to the water office at some point and turn on the water/trash service, and I'll be all set to move in on the 15th. And lemme tell ya I am so ready. I catch myself fantasizing about the most boring stuff ever - taking naps on my couch, reading on the porch, cooking whenever I'd like, cleaning with bleach and other chemicals, pooping with the bathroom door open, deep cleaning behind things and in the corners, showering with the bathroom door open, playing video games for hours, baking cakes, keeping the temperature where I'd like it to be, not having a dirty-wheeled bike hanging over my couch, doing aerobics in the liminal space where the kitchen and living room meet in my lil open-plan duplex. I really like this new duplex's layout way more than my old one too because the bedrooms are on the outside walls instead of on the inside ones, so the only thing on the other side of the wall from me is the outdoors. Our living room and kitchens are butted up to each other and I'll take that any day over having to hear my casually racist Spanish neighbors fucking in the middle of the day while I'm trying to pot nap.
My roommate seems to be calming down (she's started speaking to me again), but she's also doing passively aggressive things like turning the heat down lower and lower. When I came back from SF she was in there with the heat on 66 while it was below freezing outside, if you need an indication of how she keeps it. Always burning hot in the summer, always freezing cold in the winter. Honestly she just needs to live alone again. She's very particular about certain things and isn't great at compromising. I'm the exact same way, and I am willing to cough up a few extra bucks in service of being at peace in my home. She makes way more money than me and I'm fairly certain that she can afford the rent and bills on her own. Hahahahaha I bet that I'm gonna do all of this scrambling to find her a new roommate just for her to tell me "actually I'm gonna live alone / my dude is gonna move in" or something. She's been seeing this guy for a good lil' minute anyway - take the plunge!
All of that is one note. I'm gonna have my own place again soon, and just in time for summer. I was really dreading having to do another summer in that house (for real she wants the air on like 77 in Georgia in the summer) so I'm incredibly happy to have found this place. The yard is pretty much a dust bowl but that's okay, I'll probably plant vegetables and herbs once spring gets here proper. I just have no words. It'll be more expensive, sure, but it'll also be worth every penny.
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astriiformes · 1 year
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As of today I am now legally a Nate
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skinnyscottishbloke · 6 months
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How are we feeling about the season 3 announcement???? ✨
To quote Pride and Prejudice “completely and perfectly and incandescently happy”!!! Also massively relieved. Like, yes, Neil had said he would finish the story one way or another but come on. We NEEDED to see David and Michael act it out, especially after The Final Fifteen traumatized us all. Ending the tv show there on such a dramatic cliffhanger would have been awful. So the fact that Neil gets to tell the complete story the way he (and Terry) planned, with two of the best actors in the game doing what they do, just sends me over the moon!
I was listening to the playlist Prime put out (Spotify here and Apple Music here) yesterday and it made me cry so I know I’m gonna be a blubbery fucking mess when the season ends with them sharing soft kisses in the summer rain under the canopy of their wings in their South Downs cottage garden. Go listen to The Book of Love (one of the three Neil put on the list, along with Cry Me a River and The Show Must Go On) and tell me that’s not how it’s gonna go down. Ughhh now I’m crying again lol.
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lovelaceisntdead · 28 days
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i think i just need to rewatch lost.
#that will fix me i think.#because i am doing. bad. i know i have not been keeping this a secret but i feel very stuck and i don't really know what to do.#my general anxiety levels are much higher than they usually are and um. i don't really know why. which then just makes it worse.#and i feel so down and hopeless. i can't make myself feel excited about things. i have hardly any motivation#and no energy to do anything even if i did#like yellowjackets s3 starting production and i just don't feel excited about it and it's making me really sad#and I'm getting upset about things that i feel silly for getting upset about and i can't say anything because I'm embarrassed#for being upset in the first place#i feel so incredibly disconnected from everyone around me it's so hard to talk to anyone#I'm running on autopilot most of the time at the moment#and I'm finding it so hard not to push people away. but at the same time i feel so out of place and I'm dissociating a lot so.#idk whay I'm saying with this#i just feel like i need to get stuff out because i feel so anxious i might explode#and with the weather getting warmer a lot of my physical symptoms are flaring up. anf being in this house is so suffocating#i feel like i can inly exist in this perpetual state of fine. can't be any worse can't be any better#I'm just constantly pretending that I'm just Okay because it's easier than having to deal wirh anything else. but i know I'm really just#causing myself more harm.#I'm done now. just trying to relieve some of the pressure i am feeling in my whole entire body.
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excelsior9173 · 2 months
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I GOT MY GRADES BACK AND I DID IT!!! I PASSED ALL MY CLASSES AND I DID IT!! MY DEGREE IS FINISHED!
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just found out i got two pieces published in my uni's undergrad literary journal (yay!) but one of those pieces is the worst of the three poems i submitted for the poetry category (💀)
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sualne · 10 months
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I just wanted to say that I absolutely love your crocodile dad au content not only because I think it's a really fun idea with all the dynamics between tiny luffy and everyone else, but also because of how you show the very real and ugly part of being trans and closeted. the conversations, the feelings, yo really nail it. thank you for the awesome art and writing!!
ooh thank you!!! ;_;
im so glad and relieved you like these parts, i was worried how people would react to some good old trans struggles. i had been wanting for a while to explore, and i guess lowkey vent, about being closeted and how going stealth sometimes feels a lot like walking back inside a closet but this time of your own (accidental) making.
the coming out comic was inspired by my own experience being trans around little kids, i was happy (probably not the best word for it) to read about other trans folks relating to it, sharing their own experiences in response to the comic in the comments.
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side-b-bumblebi · 6 months
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People will really let neurodivergent people go through years of feeling like absolute trash about themselves and like their very way of being is inherently wrong and then the second you get a word that helps you understand why you feel the way you do and find community they're like "I just don't get why it matters :/ you're just a human and that's okay <3"
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nicoscheer · 8 months
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17 Oct '23
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Dublin, Republic of Ireland
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Miles during the monkeys gig this pic is from 505 where Alex kept on looking over
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He was literally pointing up at the mirrorball at looking up at it for like a solid 10 seconds after come closer
Don’t forget who you are it was so magical (also that turtle plushie behind him 🫠🫠)
Alright crazy things that happened (the ones I can currently recall and in now specific order):
-Nathan dropping his pick and Miles laughing at him
- Liam’s drum kit wasn’t fixed up correctly so his hi hat (I think) like turner 90 degrees and a stage hand had to rush and try and fix it during a song and before the next one miles just jammed out a bit and improvised to give the guy more time to properly fix it
-Miles pointing and looking up at the mirrorball for like solid 10 seconds after come closer
- seeing those chairs and music stands in the back knowing we’re gonna get strings
-after singing the last line of fluorescent adolescent “remember when you used to be a rascal” and then fucking pointing and staring at Miles who was standing to the left side of the stage (which also explains why Alex was suddenly so fond of the left side (also during I wanna be yours I sometimes had to play find Alex cause he was just casually chilling at the very edge of the left stage side like mate at this point just walk down to him )instead of right as usual to jam with Jamie right where the stairs led up to the stage so he was the first one to greet the guys once they went off before the encore and after the show(to smother Alex in a big hug))and watched their set and asking “do you remember?” Before himself answering like 2 seconds latter with “I remember” but like in such a small sad voice that it nearly broke me
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Like here’s the entire performance you can hear and see it at 3:13 (I’ve only got the little I remember snippet cause I was screaming my head off)
- when Alex said “let’s hear it for Miles Kane” (some say he said wonderful after we screamed our throat raw) somewhere three quarters through the set we all exploded before realizing he was just thanking him for opening and then played fluorescent adolescent where at the end (check point above) he asked miles if he remembered when he used to be a rascal (and like the fact that Miles was in the band the rascal and Alex wrote Fluorescent with his ex Johanna Bennett around the time when him and Miles started becoming close friends)
- during body paint not Alex singing “and if you’re thinking of me I’m probably thinking of you” while adamantly pointing towards Miles
- I didn’t think it possible to get I wanna be yours x star treatment cause they did it the night before In Belfast but when that little shit said “I don’t wanna be hers I wanna be yours” I certainly lost my shit
-experiencing 505 with the mirrorball and strings
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I wanna be yours x star treatment
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There’d better be a mirrorball
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Why’d you only call me when you’re high
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Teddy picker ; Alex said teddy is back before the song 🫶🏽🫶🏽🥹
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Coup de grace
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Never taking me alive
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Blurry Miles in Dublin
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girlscience · 7 months
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this might be rude, but finding out friends are canceling plans that I did not want to make in the first place is such a nice little treat
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rise-to-it · 1 year
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teaandinanity · 1 year
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man every time one of the corvids come up to accept tribute my brain is just
corvids CORVIDS CORVIDS--
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bonetrousledbones · 2 years
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finally managed to convince my mom to get me re-evaluated for adhd
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transgender-catboy · 8 months
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I love my friends
#i think im just going to talk in the tags for a moment. got a lot on my mind#for starters. the fnaf movie comes out soon. really looking forward to that. think its gonna be awesome and amazing and I'm super excited!!!#secondly. waiting on funds so i can buy that mask i saw the other day and some Halloween candy from Walmart#i . want to do little goodie bags for the kids in my building. but im too scared to go up to their parents and ask candy preference and#allergy concerns. so. idk. maybe I'll just save it. I think it's a cute concept but it makes me feel like my mother.#she loved to do little gift things for people. but it was always people that didn't like her. i don't want to be that way#i know my value. i know my time and energy means something. i don't want to waste it on people who don't give a shit. ya know?#not saying the kids are those kinds of people. not what i mean. but just as an overall thing. i don't like being like her.#...yeah. i dunno. you get raised by one person your whole life. you pick up some of their characteristics#i can't sob without sounding like her. safe to say i am a little emotionally constipated. so i seek other means to relieve that feeling.#like yesterday when i threw up. i played it off like that was a blunder on my body. but i know what i did.#hey. at least it's not the other method. right?. .. yeah. okay. i know. not great either#but it hurts. and I'm so fucking sick and tired of crying over her. genuinely. it's exhausting crying all the time#but that's the only way I can get those emotions out#I've tried to do the counseling thing. but other things made that impossible. then i moved.#and i tried the grief thing but instead i just got a talking buddy? he helps me get out of the house yeah.#but we dont talk about her#... i dunno. I'm just here.#guess i waited long enough. now you get a mini secret. every time i make an i love my friends post. I'm reminding myself why I'm still going#I'm usually sitting around somewhere in my apartment (desk couch bed) crying. alone. thinking about you guys.#so uh. thank you.#i love you guys so much. and i don't know where I'd be without you#probably dead.#💖#vent
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fifteensjukebox · 11 months
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i haaate writing texts to people i barely talk to who also happen to not be Online people like. what version of myself am i allowed to be here
#a childhood friend (we went to school together ages 4-10 and have seen each other twice since - once close to school and once in january)#anw she asked what i thought of the barbie movie and i said sth about it being pop feminist in my first message and felt the need to double#text to explain what i meant by it and (somehow not physically but very much in spirit) i have a headache now#oh no wait there it is physically:)#oh uh#barbie spoilers#i guess but yeah it was at the level you'd expect it to be on that but perfect camp fun in general and i loved it sm#anw i feel like i should've left it at the fun camp side of my review that's what she probably meant#regardless ive done that now#if anyone's following along since the January party this is the friend who introduced john to our group and may or may not have been t#*subtly trying to set us up so we're gonna have to have that conversation eventually which is soooooo fun but i love her n i love that we'v#been reconnected#oh god i just remembered she's trying to have us meet up w the friend who hosted the party and was absolutely in on the me and john idea so#that specific psrt of it will be hell especially if it comes up that i was more interested in andrew who went to school with us and managed#to accidentally reject him.... although if undoing that comes out of it (unrejecting him that is) i would not mind he is so babygirl#ok i am going to get ready for bed!! it has been so much of a day#omg she replied about barbie#this is the most perfect review this is kind of all i cared about and you addressed it w/o asking#though now i'm excited to see what the story line is bc i haven't seen the trailers#im so relieved and i have a newfound faith in our rekindled friendship im so excited#also i just remembered sth#i was way more of a kelly club girl and i think i first played with actual grown barbies at her house!! we had sm fun and i remembered that#but this brought so much back still#vie
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nimomo-mo · 7 months
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Vent
#im so relieved that the only way you get to percieve me is through curated pictures and videos. that youll never see me in my bad days#or in my ugly clothes#or with horrible skin waking up with a hangover#youll never see my truly bad side#and im happy for that#your empty sweet promises lets me be the prettiest version of myself to you even if im not much to write home about compared to your friends#im perfectly fine with you never learning of my bad habits#never knowing how despicable i look when i cry or how pathetic i am about horror#not knowing how my body looks without posing#not knowing how i snore or how i am messy or how i dissociate staring into space#im happy you never get to see the truly ugly parts of me#even if youve already experienced me breaking down or being extremely attached over text#youll never have to handle that irl#thank god#i love you#your fake affection lets me pretend im better than i am#your many fake promises will never come true and thus you will never be disgusted by me#you wont have the chance to see me as anything but an annoying but averagely pretty person on the internet. im scared of meeting you.#and if you for some odd reason ever end up meeting me. i think it would hurt even more because once you leave youll never come back.#id never see you again. youd be out doing something else experiencing new exciting adventures meeting new gorgeous people#and giving empty promises to other love struck idiots like me. and theyll fall for you just as much. and theyll realise how youll never stay#youre never going to change#youre never going to belong to anyone. to anywhere. youll be a free person that destroys the hearts of us bystanders that you seduce#how am i ever to love someone else when you're this great. who would ever compare. who would even begin to be on your level.#i know youre so out of my league it catches me off guard every time you give me attention.#even if the only attention you give me is sexual.#it always leads to it being sexual.#i guess thats what im being kept around for#i wonder what you feel when you think of me. if you ever tell others about me. if you ever think of me. if i matter#but i know you dont feel anything. i know. im just another friend.
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