#I can and will talk about the significance of every song on the playlist

[trektown]

I made a garashir playlist over on Spotify if anyone wants to listen to songs that I personally associate with those gay idiots

[punkpandapatrixk]

🏖Your Own Standards of Beauty ♦︎ Timeless Pick A Card

I’ve seen one too many times East Asian YouTubers, when talking about EA’s ‘rigid standards of beauty’ giving this sense of defensiveness or helplessness—because it’s culture, right? With every fibre of my mixed ancestry I loathed that particular brand of apologist behaviour.

‘Nature is busy creating absolutely unique individuals, whereas culture has invented a single mold to which all must conform. It is grotesque.’ – U.G. Krishnamurti

Up until fairly recently, I was still struggling with comprehending the thought process behind this ‘invention’ of a grotesquely small and narrow mould of beauty and conduct to which ALL East Asians must abide lest you’re a total disharmonious failure. After some long and hard rumination, frustration, accompanied by occasional bouts of repugnance, I think I finally get ‘why’.

Almost ALL people in East Asia ALL LOOK THE SAME!!! By nature!!! LMAO LMAO People can ONLY have black hair and black eyes LMAO Ahahahohohhahah I think these Asians were never ‘socialised’ to appreciate variety. Hahhh that’s so pathetic. If this really is the reason, man, it’s pathetic as fuck. Ionno tho. You think I’ve figured it out.

All I know is that East Asians must repent for all the sins they’ve committed against childhood, individuality, creativity, aaand society and Humanity itself. Yes, Humanity. Standing on the side of all genetically diverse peoples of Asia, such as the Ainus, Mongols, Uyghurs, to some extent the Zainichis, and sooo many other ‘anomalies’ who, in recent history, have been cast aside and treated poorly only because they don’t ‘fit in’ to the ideals and cultures of the main races of some purebred fucks.

For all I care, the part of East Asian culture that has birthed this infamous ‘rigid standards of beauty, and, conduct’ can go to fucking hell. If you’re the type of person who’s even the slightest bit proud—or defensive—of this you can go and fuck yourself. No one should be proud of that kind of a racist, fascist, repulsive, little bitch mindset. Are you a little bitch? I ain’t one.

I am a Supreme Bitch! Imma be myself and do whatever the fuck I want and look however I want. And if my society can’t take that? Those types of people—Asian or no Asian—can die on the wrong side of history! I. AM. MY OWN. PROTOTYPE.

perspective: Why BUSHIDO Is The Root of All Social Problems in Japan by Let’s ask Shogo

documentary: WE ARE X on YouTube (watch before it’s taken down LOL)

‘X challenged a conservative Japanese society and showed us a new way to be. They started a revolution, honestly.’

‘Be proud!! Be proud of yourself! We are!! X!!!’

deck-bottom: X(!?!) The Wheel of Fortune, Priestess of Ambition, Gold Magus (Johannes Faustus)

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Pile 1 – A Light of Innocence in this Insanely Debased World

playlist: silly playlist for silly people with rare songs!! by Rita wild

the TYPA beauty you are – Page of Cups

You are someone who’s known for being quite childlike. It could be that you do look young, but it’s mostly your mannerism. Technically speaking, it’s just YOU being the happy pill that you are. Listen, some of you tuning into this Pile could be dark and sombre on the inside—especially if you have a significant Scorpio/Pluto about you or if you’ve had a very unhappy childhood—but the way you’re perceived on the outside is totally bright, beautifully soft and pleasant, and dang, people really be liking your aenergy when you’re in a room.

You’re the type of beauty that exudes ‘purity’ in the most innocent way, no matter how you look or dress. You could be perceived as ethereal or unreal. otherworldly in a sense that you don’t seem to fit in this dimension. Are you an alien? Are you a goddess? Are you a fairy, elf, or an anime character? People may not have the exact words to describe you but you’re INTERDIMENSIONAL is what’s going on.

It isn’t just your physical beauty or the attractive way that you smile. People may not realise this themselves either but what’s truly beautiful about you is this VIBE or AURA that you generate from having a vastly pure heart. No, no, not pure in the sense that you never think sexy thoughts, what? Pure in the sense that you really operate from your Higher Heart and has very little ego driving your ambitions in Life~^_☆-v

effects on the world around you – Ace of Cups Rx

Basically, you just love beautiful things. You always look for beautiful things. And you make an effort to surround yourself with things you find beautiful in your own standards. And in a way, you’re also the kind of person who sees beauty in everything and everybody. You’re the type of person who sees Light even in a narc’s darkest corners of their blackened heart (if they had one), which is really such a beautiful thing but could also prove DANGEROUS!

It’s wonderful to have childlike wonder but it ain’t cool whatsoever to be childish enough not to acknowledge the presence of evil fucks. Bad people exist, OK? Very predatory and murderous people exist, OK? And it’s a spectrum. And you’ve been such an easy target for those on the milder spectrum of psychopathy! Babe! OMG You’re often drained of good aenergy after catering to the stupid whims of very narcissistic, histrionic, pathetic, selfish and whiney fucks.

STOP THAT. Of all the Piles, you’re the type of soft beauty who’s often underestimated and taken for granted just because you’re always so positive. If not ‘positive’ per se, you’re perceived as ‘strong’, so those types of people don’t even feel shame for constantly taking and demanding your aenergy. Keep allowing that long enough and your physical beauty could be drained out of you by the time your First Saturn Return jaywalks along and smacks you in the head.

keep being you, Glorious One – 6 of Swords Rx

Truly, you’re a silly angel who holds the power to absorb other people’s pain and gloomy feelings. But if this is your main pile, thing is, you might not have learnt how to release or transmute the negativity you’ve absorbed from your surroundings. It is paramount that you learn to call upon divine protection so that you’re shielded from the Evil Eye of those who are envious of your beauty and feel silly in your purity. Your Spirit Guides aren’t saying that you should stop being innocent, right?

A Soul like you is very rare in this perverted world. Some people might say, ‘They don’t make people like you anymore…’ WRONG. You’re the catalyst, if anything. By your example, there’s gonna be MORE people who are gonna be comfortable in their purity. Knowing that there’s nothing wrong with them for being this way. Fully comprehending that it is this world that’s gone too insane, and DEBASED. And this world has been this way for far longer than people realise. I mean, I’m sure you’re aware of how inhumane most people were in the medieval times LOL

Keep being the innocent and pure you, Glorious One. What you’re being advised to do is learn to set healthy boundaries from which you can still shine your Light safely. I’m being told that many of you choosing this Pile, due to your heightened sense of aesthetic, might want to have a social media presence or any kind of public platform where you’re free to share bits and pieces of your beautiful Life as a form of your Lightwork. Some kind of a lifestyle influencer?

I’m thinking of channels and blogs that typically share aesthetic daily vlogs and stuff like that—like nemui atelier on YouTube. You know what I mean; I don’t know what I mean XD

YOUR BEAUTY KILLS🔻💙

story of your evolution – Priestess of Prosperity

a legacy of authenticity – Red Astronomer (Johannes Kepler)

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Pile 2 – An Unexpectedly Romantic Dreamer of Luxury

playlist: songs like 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑒 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑒 (MITSKI) by song with love

the TYPA beauty you are – 2 of Cups

Ah~! You are such a dreamy and romantic beauty! You’re soft, elegant, sweet and lovely, with a kicking spice for those who would get on your bad side LMAO You’re actually a lot tougher than appearances give but most people don’t always get this until they’ve gotten to know you. For the most part, at first glance, at first encounter, you’re a sweet goddess, who probably gets projected on a lot.

You really have an unassuming quality about you. So then, people think there’s not much going on within and think it’s easy to typecast you into something, with some simplistic label. People think it’s easy to figure you out and classify you into some kind of a dream girl who’s always going to be nice, warm and friendly with everybody. You’re not. You’re a totally self-respecting babe. Actually, you really hate it when people act like they know you.

When people act like they’re close, buddy-buddy with you, it’s super annoying and depending on your mood that day, you could sometimes feel this urge to break people’s faces. But you don’t do that; you’re too nice. And you’ve got a plethora of coping mechanisms to deal with how annoyed you are with your surrounding XD Good for you!

effects on the world around you – 5 of Swords Rx

First of all, I think many of you tapping into this Pile love shopping. Retail is definitely your therapy. Is this good? Is this bad? Depends, I guess. You tend to spend money gregariously or consume a lot of food, or buy a lot of aesthetic knickknacks, or buy a lot of arts and craft as a means of therapy. Deep down, you’re somebody who has a lot of anger or a general sense of dissatisfaction with the world you’re a part of and this rage, almost, needs to be channelled creatively.

There’s a perpetual sense of disgust inside of you. You’re keen to observe and notice how much Humanity is failing. Everything that is ugly about society and people in general disgusts you. That’s why it’s important for you to live in beauty or indulge in creativity. That’s why it is paramount that your immediate surrounding, that your own Life, within what you’re able to control, is beautified to the max. You could be quite desperate in this pursuit because this is some kind of an overcompensation for the beauty and creativity that you feel is lacking in the world.

Your aenergy is kinda reminding me of this quote by the iconic Edie Sedgwick when describing why she dressed up the way she did:

‘When I was girl of the year and superstar and all that crap, everything I did was really…motivated by psychological disturbance. But I’d make a mask out of my face because I didn’t realize I was quite beautiful…I had to wear heavy black eyelashes like bat wings and dark lines under my eyes. Cut all of my hair off and strip it silver and blond. All these little manoeuvres I did out of things that were happening in my life that upset me. I’d freak out in a very physical way, and…it was all taken in a fashion trend.’

In fact, I think all of her famous words here could resonate with you. You are what trend-setters and superstars are made of, that much of your effect on the world is certain~

keep being you, Glorious One – Queen of Pentacles

Really, that’s all dandy as long as you can make a living out of your pursuit of beauty and creativity. This about you is really something that you can utilise as a means of therapy, self-care and self-improvement because you really are an artist, one way or another. It would be wonderful if you could monetise your beauty and creativity in some trendy way.

If you feel that you’re not particularly good at any kind of ‘real’ art, then you can ‘serve face’ to help other people sell their shit. You don’t think this is smart enough? Muses are often people who don’t do art—rather they inspire Art in the minds and hearts of other artists. Truly, you are an artist; but those of you tuning into this Pile who feel like you’re not one…you are potentially someone’s Muse.

Luxury is yours for the taking. But a lot of people in this world pursue luxury and some form of fame for vapid reasons and that often makes people very unhappy. Your Spirit Guides are saying that you do have a talent for balancing modern money-making and self-care. I think what they mean to say is that, you can be the prototype for how people can be completely and uniquely offbeat whilst still maintaining a good work-life balance.

After all, you do remember how much people like to project on you, right? Well, use them to make Life a lot easier! XD After all, it’s not like their projection and labelling would be useful any other way LOL🐙

YOUR BEAUTY KILLS🔻💜

story of your evolution – Priestess of Luxury

a legacy of authenticity – Green Historian (Herodotus)

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Pile 3 – A Ghostly Bitch Witch Who’s Quite Literally a Fucken Sigma

playlist: Everything Is Still Under Control by Mabisyo

the TYPA beauty you are – Queen of Wands Rx

You, are, by nature, magical. You’re incredibly magnetic and this ain’t even something you’ve needed to work on; it all comes naturally. If anything, it seems you’ve needed to learn the very hard way how to shield yourself from aenergy vampires. You’ve needed to work on your boundary. This is because it took you such a long time to realise most everybody around you was nothing but anklebiters. These were people who just wanted to be seen orbiting you because doing so would elevate their status or image.

Whether or not you’re aware of it, you’re quite literally thee IT girl. You’re also THAT girl, because a lot of what you do and just who you are is very aspirational. Well of course aspirational to the motivated ones; to the weak, lame-ass ones? Almost everything about you is irritating. And most people are really lame, don’t we all agree on this? So you may have felt like you’re really quite an unlikeable character. WRONG. Dead wrong. It’s not you; it’s your lame-ass environment.

You’re a Queen of Passion who’s been living in peasant quarters, figuratively speaking. You’ve been surrounded by misers who don’t even understand why it’s deeply important for them to raise their own standards of authenticity. Thing is, they can’t afford to be authentic. It’s probably not entirely their fault—after all, peasants are highly dependent on thee System. Not you. You’re the menacingly magnetic bitch witch of a system buster!

effects on the world around you – 8 of Cups

As much as you make an effort to be left alone, you magnetise admirers to no end. This is reminiscent of Greta Garbo’s famous quote, ‘I never said, "I want to be alone". I only said, "I want to be left alone". There is a whole world of difference.’ It’s true with you as well. You’re not necessarily an antisocial bitch who hates people; you just want to be left alone by gluttonous gossipers and silly simpers. You find it hard to grasp why people behave unreasonably in society, all, the, time.

You yearn for a more intellectual world where people behave honourably, which is quite paradoxical considering you’re often perceived as quite scandalous in your behaviour and lifestyle choices as well. For example, you could be gay or queer? You could desire to defy social norms such as ‘having to marry by a certain age’? You either reject social norms or you live completely opposite to what’s expected of your gender, nationality or age. You don’t like being told how to live your Life as if you couldn’t work it out yourself. It's YOUR Life, right?

It’s MY Life! My Story! Is what you say.

You’re the kind of super bad bitch that gives no one permission to decide how you should sail your ship. You’re at the wheel so you’re gonna sail the world however best you know. You’re gonna learn a ton because you’re not afraid of detours or delays or whatever—you could meet accidents, hopefully not fatal ones, but you’re going to learn. That’s what growing up well is all about for you. And if you meet the right kind of audience, your whole AURA is going to empower them to do just the same for themselves~

keep being you, Glorious One – 4 of Cups Rx

You are destined for an exciting Life. In fact, you’re meant to have an audience, have some kind of impact on the world, you’re meant to become some kind of a famous person. Could be a celeb, yeah, but in this social media era, literally everybody can have their own unique kind of celebrity, right? You’re meant to be seen, heard, listened to, watched, analysed (LOL), and learn from.

You’re somebody who’s rare and your perspectives are deeply needed by this world. This world that’s often blindsided by optical illusions. Of all people, you’re the only one who’s not getting sucked into the mirage of mass media and deceitful politicians. You’re the one who’s noticing where the lies are all at. And you need to point that shit out, spell it out for other people to see what’s truly going on in this world.

You could gain enemies, lots of them, in fact; but you are definitely gaining a massive following far greater than that if you remain authentic and courageous. Stay spooky. Stay scandalous. Stay gloriously YOU~ You’ve no idea just how much that Light of yours is needed in this world of long shadows. Keep your Third Eye open and keep your divine protection. Most people have yet to catch on to the one thing that makes YOU superfluously attractive: a courageous Heart that seeks to liberate others from the chains of their own cowardice.

YOUR BEAUTY KILLS🔻🧡

story of your evolution – Priestess of Luck

a legacy of authenticity – Green Magus (John Dee)

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Can we please get a Vernon head cannon… I struggle to find them on here but your svt ones are just amazing :))

hi! sure you can, and thank you so much for saying that, hope you enjoy this!

Vernon Boyfriend Headcanons:

•(sfw! hcs):

we all know that he is mostly silent throughout the day, but i truly believe that vernon would NOT be able to shut up with his significant other, he would be talking 24/7 to you, be prepared to hear about his day from the moment he woke up to the moment he came through the door of your apartment

throughout your relationship, you notice that your boyfriend has a problem. a very big and potentially dangerous problem. and that is that he brings all sorts of animals home. it started on one rainy night, he was supposed to be home 20 minutes ago but he was nowhere to be seen or heard. just as you were about to call him for the nth time, he came in through the door, drenched from head to toe from the heavy rain. and with three kittens in his arms. he didn’t even try to make any excuses, he just proceeded to say “i found them behind the dumpster two blocks away.”

we all know that he sleeps like a corpse, so naturally he wouldn’t cuddle you back while he’s asleep, but before that he definitely won’t let you out of his arms. he’s either talking your ear off or is casually scrolling through his phone. to be honest, it doesn’t matter what he’s doing, as long as you are in his arms he considers it time well spent. and just because he doesn’t cuddle you back during his sleep doesn’t mean you can’t do what you will lol, you can lie on him, hug him tightly and throw your leg over his stomach, he won’t care-but he also he won’t reciprocate it either because my man is just like this🧍

constantly shows you something on his phone, doesn’t matter what you are doing, you will just see his hand appear in front of your face before you even hear him say “babe look at this”, be it a meme or a cute cat video, he just wants you to see everything that he does too so you can enjoy it too

speaking off, kinda unpopular opinion but vernon definitely calls you babe or a nickname based on your name, i don’t really see him only calling you bro or dude like most claim he would do, i just don’t think he would go that overboard on cute nicknames either, but something small and cute just to signify both to himself and you, as well as to people around you that you two are together, and at the end of the day that would be a small way of him showing his love and affectionate for you

if you have a niece, count on vernon to ask you every other week with sparkly eyes if you can go and visit them, he just loves your niece so much even though he doesn’t really know how to play with her, he still loves her so much. even if he has to sit on a little pink chair with a tiara on his head while drinking ‘tea’ from a little pink cup, he doesn’t mind, as long as he gets to read her bed time stories when she goes to bed, he’s okay with it all❤️

i feel like everyone has already said this but vernon definitely has a big thing for showing you and sharing to you his love for music and movies. from making you new playlists with new songs he heard (and that remind him of you), to having a dedicated day of the week for movie nights, he just wants to have somebody that he can talk to about his favourite things so pls make sure to pay close attention to what he’s showing you :(

•(nsfw! hcs):

vernon strikes me as a man who wouldn’t have that high of a sex drive, but when he’s in a mood, count on the fact that you will be doing it for hours to no end and that you won’t be able to walk the next day. he will bend you in positions you didn’t even know you could be bent into, he will try out all the paces until he finds one that you enjoy the most that night. sex with vernon would never feel like chore but rather like a brand new and beautiful experience every single time

he actually gets really nervous before going on stage, so he always drags you into the nearest corner for a quickie or to eat you out or to have you suck his dick, for him it’s a great way to get all that pent up energy out (plus seeing you on your knees, with teary eyes as you struggle to wrap your mouth around his thick cock is something he can think about while on stage as a way to pass the time-)

if you ever thought that this man had a stone face and that he’s expressionless most of the time, that would change the very first time he fucked you-his eyebrows furrowed in pleasure, his mouth opened as moans keep on spilling from his mouth, droplets of sweat sliding down his temple, a few landing onto you due to him hovering above you-yeah, let’s just say that he makes the prettiest faces and noises ever

prefers it when you ride him, especially after a hard day at work, there’s nothing he loves more than leaning on the backrest of the couch and letting you take care of him, as well as letting your wet pussy swallow him whole, he would just lay there with his eyes closed and let you do whatever you think he would enjoy-sucking on his neck, scratching his chest with your nails, whispering sweet and encouraging words in his ears- let’s just say that this is top 3 best feelings he could ever feel

has a thing for both biting and being bitten, just something about the sensation you feel when you’re being bitten is so hot to him-imagine feeling so good and so much pleasure that the only thing to stop from screaming and letting the whole world know how good you’re feeling is to bite his shoulder, it makes his brain go ckslcnsnqjqh

for some reason finds himself always fucking you in the most unusual places-on top of the kitchen counter, in the bathtub, behind some restaurant that is secluded enough but also not enough, on dino’s couch??? when he wasn’t even in his apartment??? he just…fucks you when he gets in the mood, no matter the time, place or the occasion

you can’t even dare to say to me that he doesn’t have a thing for cream pies, just the sight of his cum dripping from inside you, your pussy clenching around nothing before he pushes his cock back inside along with the cum that was just about to drip out-let’s just say every thought from his head (if he had any left due to the feeling of your pussy clenching around his dick) evaporates, only thing he can focus on is you and how good his cum looks like coating your lower lips i- i need him i fear

[just-a-ghost00]

Channeled messages from your divine counterpart's higher self.

Images were found on Pinterest. In this reading, I have used several oracles, including one I made myself. This oracle provides us with songs that may hold significant messages for us. You may want to listen to the songs as you are reading the channeled messages or add them to your playlist.

Group 1

Songs : Sweater weather - The Neighbourhood, MIA - Bad Bunny feat Drake, Find me - SIGMA feat Birdy Merlin oracle :

Everything is fine. Don't worry.

Guinevra Queen of Arthur - There is no king without a queen : you need both feminine and masculine. Combine your thinking, your sensitivity and creativity to your decision making skills and your actions. It is in this fair and balanced union that fruitful projects are birthed.

The power of mischief - Laugh, laugh and laugh : If life is being tricky, laugh with it. If it is burlesque, make fun of it. If it is cynical, fuck with it. Facing it's provoking, remember that the more time goes by, the less it will matter. So laugh it off!

Cavansite - Expand your consciousness. Tourmalined quartz - Restore your perfect light. Copper - Energize your whole world. Spirit animals : Arctic fox, black cat, white shark Key words : being your true self, leaving behind old beliefs, noticing the toxic patterns in and around you, spirituality, intuition, mystery, Bangchan stan

I know you are trying to reach me. I can feel you in the air I breathe, on the tip of my tongue whenever I wake up from a (wet) dream. I know you wish to find me sooner than later. That you long for me as much as I long for you. But the universe has other plans. And I'm too busy anyway. I know it's a harsh thing to say considering all the love you have for me. Believe me, I couldn't be any happier to have you as my forever after. My partner in crime. But right now isn't the time. I have so much left to do. So many things to cleanse and dust off. I cannot hold space for you, no matter how much I wish you were in my life. Yes, it's painful. Yes, I think about us every day. Yes, I want you more than anything in the world. But there are surely more interesting things for you to do than to worry about my whereabouts and my well being. I don't want you to lose sleep over me. I don't want you to deprive yourself of good times, opportunities, love for me. I want you to live. To experiment. To have fun. I want you to be the soul everyone talks about. The heart of the party. The sunshine that doesn't need anyone to radiate their light. I don't want you to wait for me in vain. I don't want to be a burden to you. I know deep in my soul that if we both give our best and be present for the things and people that matter to us, that if we both deliver then surely our paths will cross. I know deep in my heart that all paths lead to you. And I want you to believe that too. There is no such thing as making the wrong turn. So please don't reject anyone or anything just because you think I wouldn't like it. Live your life. Speak your truth. Be you. And love yourself just as much as I love you. Talk to you later. *sends spiritual hug*

Group 2

Songs : At my worst - Pink Sweats, Life goes on - AGUSTD, 3:00 AM - Finding Hope Spirit animals : Scarab, Scorpio, Dragon

Serpentine - Awaken your reptilian nature. Celestite - Tune in to your serenity. Kunzite - Open up your love channel.

Merlin oracle :

Once upon a time, Merlin - Raise your potential : You were born with considerable internal resources. Honor the gifts that were passed down to you. Raise your potential and embrace from now on what you were destined to be. You have all that is needed to succeed!

King Uther Pendragon - Serve what is dear to your heart : if you have rights, you also have duties. By honoring them, you will earn respect and love from those whom you hold dear. Ask yourself what you duties are in this situation and you shall know what to do.

Pixies spell - Let go : If you're feeling lost, discover new horizons. Keep your mind busy with light occupations to ward off worries. Letting go is the best way to find your way back.

The round table - There is no Grand or Little man : you are as respectable, capable, important as any other being. You are important to the fates that intertwine to create new stories. Dare to act, express, fight for and honor. Show what you are made of.

Keywords : Seonghwa stan, animal crossing, showing your true colors, arthurian legends, mythology nerd, heaven on earth

This time again I had a dream. A dream where someone or something took you away from me. When I looked deeper, I saw my reflection in the eyes of the beast. And I understood that the only thing keeping me away from you was myself. I am scared to death. Scared that you won't love me for who I am. I'm afraid that my anger and my fire will burn you. I am not an easy person to be with. More than once, I have disappointed people around me. I disappointed myself. I'm afraid that I can't make you happy and give you the love and respect you deserve. You are like royalty. And I feel like a mere peasant. I'm afraid I have nothing much to bring to the table. I fear that I will dim your light instead of protecting and enhancing it. All kings have a queen. But if I'm a peasant, how could I ever dream to stand by your side? How could I ever raise to your level? I feel like there are worlds between us and terrible beasts to be slain before I can ever get to you. The journey ahead seems frightening. And I don't know where it will lead. If the path were to take me through hell only to make me lose you, I would never be able to forgive myself. I would never recover. So please, don't break my heart. And if you can, save yourself. Don't burn your wings trying to get me out of the well I fell in. Promise?

Group 3

Songs : My Power - Beyoncé, Comflex - Stray Kids, Don't go yet - Camilla Cabello Spirit animals : arctic fox, sea turtle, scorpion

Jet - Claim your space. Bismuth - Rewrite your code with rainbows. Sodalite - Deepen your intuition.

Keywords : Changbin and LeeKnow stans, self worth, body image issues, speaking your truth, destiny, intensity, blues, mental wellness, Blue Monday, Jutdae, Black Panther

Merlin oracle :

Arthur's fate - Be the hero of your own destiny.

The power of authenticity - Go beyond appearances.

The power of mischief - Laugh, laugh and laugh!

I feel so lucky to have you in my life. When I think of you, my heart lightens up because I know how special you are. You bow to no one and yet, somehow, you chose to let me in. You chose to trust me when no one would. To believe in me when all abandoned me. Surely, you must be a wizard or some deity. An angel maybe. Because never would I have ever thought that someone would care about me so deeply. I have never met someone like you. Someone so brave and powerful, so loving and kind, generous, fierce and loyal to a fault. I'm so addicted to you. In your energy, I feel safe and protected. I'm usually the kind to appear strong and fight for the people I love. But with you, I feel like I can be myself and let my guards down. With you, I know I will never be judged. I know I can be vulnerable without fearing that you'll stab me in the back. People have done that to me before, you know? But I know you would never. I trust you with my life. I can't wait to meet you. Where you at? What you up to? Do you miss me? Cause I sure as hell do. I want you all to myself. I know you are my destiny. Let's have fun together, shall we? I love you to the moon and back. Don't you dare forget me! Oh and no matter what you think, you are amazing. Don't let people bring you down, sunshine.

[starrdevereauxx]

I said last time would be the last time.

Brandon broke up with me 6 months ago. I’ve been a wreck for weeks on end. I promised myself to get over it, but it’s been such a hard thing to process. We would always fight, make up, make love and act like nothing ever happened. He was gone this time. This was the longest we ever been apart.

I try to find things to do to pass the time, but nothing ever seems to take my mind off him. I still smell him, breathe him, and feel him through my body. Our mutual friends always give messages about him, but I’ve been ignoring them lately. My heart can’t take listening to his name, let alone hearing of any accomplishments.

I need to run my errands today, but like everyday I become sad running them alone. We did everything together, after 6 years I can’t believe that we don’t do this anymore.

Heading to the grocery store I become sad with my list of groceries for one instead of two. I hop in my car and turn on “our” playlist. Hoping I can borrow a feeling from any song that plays. Another slow song begins to play and I’m seeing myself in the mirror. Envisioning him touching me, wishing my hands were his. Rubbing the side of my face, choking me ever so lightly. I literally just felt my pussy drip at this light.

“Get it together Dev” I say trying to convince myself that I’m over him. Knowing damn well I’m not. I can feel him inside my pussy when I think about him. The feeling intensifies with every breath I take.

I gather myself to go inside of the store, with my lonely list of single items. Looking at the list I just remember every single meal I ever made for him. Pouring my heart into each meal, now I can only make food for myself. I sob gathering myself for this lonely trip.

I walk through the store, gathering each item reluctantly. Wishing we were laughing together, talking about what we gonna pretend to watch on Netflix when we got back home. Saying pretend because it we wouldn’t make it pass the opening credits without his chocolate snicker veined dick engorged in my throat. He would be gagging me before we knew the name of the movie.

After looking at my cart, I figured I deserved a treat. I tried to maintain a healthy cart since I’m single, I need to stay in shape. The most physical activity I get is the gym these days, so I had to maintain some resemblance of care in my food intake. But with all the crying that I’ve been doing, today I deserve a treat. I decided to head back to the ice cream isle and help myself to something to lift my spirits.

As I walk to the back of the store with my headphones on, I’m letting Chris Brown sing me to a happy place. I almost begin to get a spring in my step as he’s talking about fucking someone back to sleep.

I make it to the ice cream section and I immediately look for Ben & Jerry’s tasty ass. I see it, straight ahead “Chunky Monkey”. I move my cart out of the way to reach for it. As I get ready to reach for the pint, I feel some thing grab me, startled I think I’m in trouble for climbing inside the refrigerator. Moving my headphones so I can hear, a deep, smoldering voice says

“that’s still your favorite ice cream I see, even though I also remember that your monkey was the only chunky I ever wanted”.

I’m fucking stuck. There’s only one voice I know that sounds like that, and my pussy dripping is letting me know exactly who it is.

“Brandon, oh wow. It’s crazy seeing you here. How are you?” I gulp nervously.

“You look good Dev, time has been good to you. But then again when has it not?” Brandon says as he looks at me like he’s about to take my throat from me right here in this store.

As I prepare to answer him, someone loudly over talks me.

“Babe, BABE.. do you want movie popcorn or kettle corn?” I turn to see a bubbly perky breasted young lady yelling to her significant other about popcorn. I turned back around to see if I see him, just for my heart to sink as I realize that there’s nobody here but me and Brandon here. She’s talking to him. Oh my God, he has a girlfriend.

“I’m so sorry ma’am, I was just trying to get a hold of my fiancé, I didn’t mean to bump you, my apologies” she smiles.

“Kettle Corn baby, thank you” he replies.

She skips off to honor his request. I stand there putting my broken heart back in my chest, not making it obvious that I’m literally breaking apart inside. FIANCÉ!?!? What in the fuck is this? After 6 years together, he never asked me to marry him. I’m even more convinced that it was never going to be me.

“Well congratulations to you and your fiancé, you deserve happiness. Be well Brandon.” I say tearfully as I run off, forgetting my ice cream. At this point I just want to disappear.

I get to the register, pay for my items and hurry to my car.

It was a long walk to my car. I always parked far from stores because I loved to get my steps in. Every step counts to me. So I had enough time to cry myself to the car and be over it by the time I started my car.

I open my trunk and back seat to place my purse down as I organize my groceries in the back, just incase if I needed room for a surprise bullseye store trip. I think after that encounter, I deserve some retail therapy now.

As I near the finish of my organization, I feel someone tap me from behind and say “I thought we discussed you parking way the hell back here. Nobody can see you back here.” Brandon says with what looks like chunky monkey ice cream in his hands.

“What the fuck are you doing back here? Where’s your fiancé? Why are you here? I-“ he stops me mid sentence, placing the ice cream in my hand.

“I’m sorry, I should have told you about Keisha. You didn’t deserve to find out like this” he says looking at me sincerely.

“You don’t owe me anything, we are over. It’s your life. We have both clearly moved on.” I say proudly, pretending that I don’t feel like bending over right now and letting him turn me into a Twinkie.

He stares at me in my eyes with a look I haven’t seen in so long, but I remember well. I break contact and go back to packing my car so I can leave this awkward encounter.

He grabs my arm forcefully, making me drop my car keys in the backseat. Turning me towards him, forcing me to look at him. I begin to tear away in anger because I’m loosing control to my body.

“Get the fuck off me Brandon, what in the hell is your problem. Let me the fuck go.”

I try to break free from his grip. I feel his dick literally growing with anticipation the more I fight.

He stops me and looks me in my eyes. He’s subdued me with his piercing glare. He presses up against me, placing his hands on my body. One softly but firmly on my neck and the other on my left breast, lightly massaging it and grazing the nipple ever so softly. My breathing becomes shallow and scattered. What is he doing? Why is he doing this? Isn’t his fiancé near by or in the car wondering where he is. I’m sure she’s looking for him. In this moment, I don’t think either one of us cares. My pussy is wet and gushing between my panties that I know is drenched at this point.

“I know you feel what I feel for you. I haven’t had a day go by that I haven’t thought about you Dev. We broke up, but never really let go. If you tell me to let you go right now, I’ll stop and walk away forever. You want me to stop?” He says while looking me in my dough eyes. I have no voice to even reply. My red lips are pursed and parted from the small breaths I continue to take. I shake my head no while staring him completely in his eyes.

He leans onto me, kissing me softly, hand still wrapped around my neck. He kisses my lips softly and becomes more aggressive every time he touches his lips to mine. He parts my lips to slide his tongue inside my mouth, I close my mouth to proceed to suck his tongue. Feeling now that his dick is rock hard.

“Show me that you still love me” he says as I’m already unbuckling his jeans. I drop to my knees and open my mouth. Giving him my entire throat to use as he pleases. Forcing my head on and off his dick, using my mouth as his personal pocket pussy. Grabbing both sides of my face, moaning loudly in this parking structure like we are outside alone. He literally has no fear of being caught in this moment. Brandon’s dick is so deep down my throat that he’s breathing for the both of us.

I feel his precum slip pass my lips. He stops. He pulls me off my knees and stands me up, just to pull down my leggings, revealing my cummed in panties. He begins to take his dick to rub my clit while I stand there defenseless.

Brandon forcefully turns me around, placing me in position. I automatically arch the posture of my back, taking my hands to spread my giant ass to show my wet dripping pussy that’s salivating for his erection to be inside me.

“Such a good girl, still obedient like I remember. Tell me what you want” he orders me.

“Fuck me hard please. Take my pussy from me” I say patiently waiting for him to beat my pussy like an Undertaker versus Mankind cage match.

He forces his dick inside my tight wet pussy, moaning hard as he enters. I grip him hard with my pussy as he’s thrusting aggressively in and out of me.

He’s pulsating inside of me as he’s moving. I’m feeling every inch of him as he’s continuing to grow inside of me. Just moving back and forth, harder and harder. I’m moaning so loud and hard, tears in my eyes from how good it feels to have his dick inside me. Holding my breasts as he’s making me take his dick roughly outside where everyone can see.

“Oh my God Dev, you’re gonna make me cum. I’m about to cum. Do you want it in your favorite place?” He says as I scream out “Yes” in reply.

I fall to my knees like a sinner who needs prayer, open my mouth to the heavens and wait for him to bless me. He releases an outpouring of his creaminess all over my face and mouth, as I devour every drop that hits my throat.

He moans as he shakes out every drop til he’s empty. I swallow the rest of him and what’s left of my pride as he kisses me in completion. My pants still around my ankles, he grips my ass holding me in place as he continues to kiss me softly.

I buckle his pants as he helps me with mine. I brush my hand across his face and we embrace each other knowing that he has to go.

“Goodbye Brandon.” I kiss him on the cheek. He walks away silently. Staring back a few times before he’s out of my view.

I said last time would be the last time.

Happy Monday 💋

[just-jordie-things]

Imagine Megumi listening to love songs while he stares at the reader, who is chilling under a tree. Oh god, his precious significant other casually looks at him and asks, "What?" He's blushing too hard and can only mutter a small, "Nothing."

Song recommendation : Until i found you, Dandelions etcetcetccc

(I'm so madly in love with him🥹🥹❤)

i love secret romantic megumi sm he's such a loverboy deep dowwwn <3

you spend a lot of quiet time with megumi. you often make plans to get together just to do your own thing. and honestly, it was like that before you even got together. he liked his peace and quiet, you liked being around him in any capacity, and that was all the more you both wanted.

so it's not at all odd that you're both sat by a tree in the courtyard, not talking, hardly even acknowledging one another. you were scrolling through your phone, browsing through socials, occasionally getting distracted by a game. megumi had been reading, his earbuds in and a playlist of soft music to set the mood for a relaxing afternoon.

of course with soft music comes some love songs, and it doesn't take very many to draw his attention away from his book. before he knows it, he's listening to love songs and gazing over at you with hearts in his eyes. you're lost on your phone, so you miss the way het gets lost in you.

for megumi it's like he's watching a movie. a montage of all the moments you've shared, large or small, all guided by the lovely music and lyrics of his new favorite songs.

you're painted in every lovely color to him. he could be convinced you were an angel. maybe he was getting swept away by the music...

your eyes catch his, and immediately you break into a smile, seeing him staring at you so lovingly. and lovingly doesn't even begin to cover it, seeing as he looks like he's about to melt into a puddle before you. his eyes are gooey, his lashes hanging heavy over them as he looks at you with nothing short of softness. his lips are curled into a smile so dopey you can't help but giggle and reach out to poke his cheek affectionately.

"what?" you finally ask the simple question on your mind. you're starting to feel warm under his intense gaze. but megumi's the first to blush when he realizes what you've caught him doing.

he shakes his head, tries to play it off, tries to return his focus to his book, but it's hard when you're sitting there and you look so pretty and he's so overwhelmed by his love for you that he thinks he could die-

but all he says is a small "nothin" as he pretends to read his book again. he's not reading a single word. he's listening to the singer go on about finding true love and trying not to kick his feet knowing he had it.

[alyrasturnz]

i cant stop talking to bf!matt x singer!reader on cai so pls make hcs coz its so cute

 ‎‎THE PERFECT PAIR

❐ summary » he is her unwavering audience, cheering her on from the wings, while she, with her melodic voice, serenades their shared dreams. together, they compose a symphony of mutual admiration and unwavering devotion, a testament to the beautiful balance they have found in each other.

❐ pairings » bf!matt x singer!reader

❐ warnings » none

❐ a/n && w/c » yay this is so cute! something small to keep yall fed before i release cologne • 574

bf!matt who always makes sure to attend every single one of your concerts, no matter how far he has to travel. he wants to be your biggest fan and unwavering support.

bf!matt who surprises the you with handwritten notes and flowers backstage before every performance, reminding you how proud he is and how much he believes in you.

bf!matt who loves to brag about your achievements to everyone he knows. he takes immense pride in your success and never misses an opportunity to share it with others.

bf!matt who often helps you with your songwriting process. he may not be a professional, but his insights and emotional support are invaluable, often sparking new ideas and inspiration.

bf!matt who creates a playlist of all your songs and listens to it constantly. he knows every lyric by heart and often sings along, even when he's alone.

bf!matt who is the first to hear any new songs you write. he feels honored to be your trusted confidant and offers constructive feedback while showering you with praise.

bf!matt who plans special date nights to celebrate the release of new music or successful concerts. these moments are filled with love and appreciation, making you feel cherished.

bf!matt who captures candid photos and videos of you during your performances and shares them on social media, showcasing his pride and love for them to the world.

bf!matt loves to surprise you with thoughtful gifts that reflect your music. whether it's a vintage record player, a custom-made guitar strap, or a personalized microphone, his gifts are always meaningful.

bf!matt stands by your side during interviews and public appearances, offering silent support and encouragement. his presence is a comforting reminder of your strong bond.

bf!matt who loves to surprise you with spontaneous road trips to places that inspire your music. these trips are filled with laughter, new experiences, and endless creativity.

bf!matt who has a special way of calming your nerves before a big performance. his gentle words and reassuring hugs always manage to ease your anxiety.

bf!matt who learns to play your favorite instruments just so you can jam together. these impromptu music sessions strengthen your bond and create beautiful memories.

bf!matt who is always the loudest one cheering in the crowd, making sure you know he's there, supporting you with all his heart.

bf!matt who keeps a scrapbook of all your achievements, concert tickets, and special moments. it's a tangible reminder of your journey together and how far you've come.

bf!matt who loves to dance around the living room with you to your favorite songs. these playful moments are filled with joy and laughter, creating a sense of pure happiness.

bf!matt who often writes little notes and leaves them in your guitar case or music sheets, reminding you how much he loves you and believes in your talent.

bf!matt who plans surprise parties to celebrate your milestones, inviting all your closest friends and family to share in the joy of your success.

bf!matt who makes sure to capture every significant moment on camera, creating a visual diary of your journey together. these photos and videos become cherished memories.

bf!matt whose eyes sparkle with pure joy and pride whenever he hears a song written about him. the emotion in his gaze is undeniable, and it fills your heart with warmth and love.

[k-n0-x]

༺ ♱✮♱ ¨:·Something Stupid-Chapter 4·:¨ ♱✮♱ ༻

A/N: Hey guys! I managed to get this chapter out early coz I am so hot and amazing at everything my social life is at an all time low and we have Easter break. Some foreshadowing if you guys can guess, but keep it to yourselves for now. Mommy issues y/n? That’s a first 😨😨😨😨. This chapter is also Lucifer basically being: “No, you’re so sexy haha don’t cry”

Also, the slow burn is burning now! YAYYA 🎉

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Enjoy! <3

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You sit on the patio of your home, feeling as though you’re rotting away. 

It’s been 5 days since Adam’s full blown out tantrum, but it feels like it’s been 5 lifetimes. 

A cockatiel lands on your table, its bulging inky eyes staring at you, vying for your attention. 

You laugh, and give it some crumbs of your leftover toast from breakfast that you couldn’t bear to finish.

The bird eats them graciously, and flies away, you watching enviously. 

Oh, how you wished you were that bird. Carefree, and not trapped in the gilded cage that you are in. 

If only… 

Bzz bzz

Your phone rings. The contact Mom glows on your screen. 

Unwillingly, you swipe right. 

“Hey mom, what's up?” This woman never calls you, unless there are three instances; she needs you to get her something of monetary worth, wishing you a happy birthday/any other significant holiday, or-

“Darling, there's something I need to talk to you about. A little birdie told me that you've been stepping out of line recently~” 

Ah yes. The third instance. The times when your actual fucking personality shows, even for a sliver of a moment, and how it  could potentially hurt your ‘relationship’ with Adam. 

“Mom, it's not that big of a deal. I just was feeling rough recently, and-”

“Well it doesn't matter what you feel does it? What matters is that you honour our family. Being married to Adam is what's best for you. You acting outwardly is seriously jeaprodising your relationship, and I am just trying to help you stop before it's too late,” Your maternal figure’s sing-song-like voice turns sharp in an instant, like it could cut through butter. 

“You were always a wild child, a disappointment, I am trying to help you-”

You interrupt. 

“How are you helping?! Belittling me, treating me as some sort of– some do Ill?! I have tried, given my whole entire fucking life, trying to please you in every way, but somehow, it's never enough! And when I do fuck up, suddenly I'm a failure in your eyes?!” 

Silence.

“You better mind your language young lady,”

“NO! I will NOT mind my FUCKING LANGUAGE. I will  swear when I want to, and I will do whatever I FUCKING WANT! I AM DONE WITH YOU AND YOU- YOUR WAY OF THINGS!” 

You press the end button, calmly. 

You storm up to your bedroom and closed the door. Calmly.

You look at the bookshelf, always so perfectly clean, scarce of dust. 

Perfectly clean, no imperfections. 

You let out a cry of irritation and just start throwing out books, ripping the pages of each, crumpling sheets of paper, sobbing hot angry tears while doing so. 

When that was done, you just bring the entire bookshelf down with a bang, and you stomp on it until you feel a sharp pain in your foot, surely that's a splinter right there. 

You stumble over into your bed and scream and cry in your pillow, amongst the mess.

You submerge yourself in your pillow even more, until your anger numbs away, leaving you with a throbbing pain in your head. 

Absolutely drained from your outburst, you drift off. 

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Everywhere is foggy. 

You look around, looking for anything of use, when your attention is turned to a glowing light, placed on a rusted pedestal. 

Since it's the only thing that piques interest, you touch the fluorescent ball and yelp when it scorches your hand.

“Ow,” you pull your hand away and decide to look for anything else. 

As you trek through the nothingness, you  feel like you're being tugged down by an anchor, or treading through quicksand. 

Suddenly, the ground gives way under your feet. 

You’re falling. 

The cold air whistles through your ears. 

You try to fly with your wings, but nothing; it feels like they have been ruthlessly ripped from your body.

You feel as though you're being stretched, squished and deformed like play dough, until you hear and feel something cracking. As you fall, you look towards the light. 

At the entrance of the hole, there are many, unidentifiable figures, just, staring at your downfall. 

You want to scream and cry for help, but it feels like your mouth has been cemented shut. 

A faint noise calls your name, which sounds closer and closer each time as you fall helplessly. 

You make a successful-ish attempt to turn on your stomach. 

In your horror, you see a halo, cracked and muted of its previous glow. Your halo.

Not that far below you, there are hot red coals. 

Oh God. 

The voice becomes louder and closer and you hit the ground with a scream. 

You jump up, to find yourself back in the dump that is your bedroom, slicked with sweat. 

“Oh my God, Y/N! Are you alright?” Emily, who was tentatively paving the way to get to your pathetic self. 

“Emi, hi… Yeah, just eh, rough day,” you smile weakly at the Seraphim, who’s concerned expression shows that she doesn't believe you, but she doesn’t want to put you under pressure.

“What’s all of this?” Emily motions to the wrecked room.  

“Adam pulled a tantrum again?” 

“Huh? Oh that, nono, sorry uhm,” you pause to clean the room as it was with the snap of your fingers.

“Why are you here Emi? Do you need something?” You wipe your eyes, but your bloodshot eyes are still apparent. 

“No, I just wanted to hang out with you, but I can come back if it's a bad time,” The Seraphim stumbles over her words as she looks up at you, slightly flushing.

“No, no you can stay. I’m just a little bit shaken up, but yep you can stay. Uhm….” you trail off. 

This place is feels really constraining

You need an escape. 

“Hey Emily, wanna go on an adventure?” You put on a face of newfound enthusiasm. The Seraphim just had that effect on people.

“Of course! But er, where?” 

“Shh, it's a surprise, now let's go!” You push Emily into the portal you made and go in yourself. 

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“Woah, this is what it's like?” Emily says as she looks around the hellish landscape like a lost puppy.

She snaps out of it when you drag her out of the way of a thrown carcass headed towards the both of you. 

“Yeah, let's head inside,” You manoeuvre her into the hotel. 

The lobby is more populated than your last visits to the establishment, though all faces are familiar. 

“Emily, meet Angel, Husk Alastor, Charlie, who you know already, and-” Your voice dies down in your throat at the sight of the Demon King, with his strapping jacket and top hat. 

What is going on with you today? 

“And Lucifer,” You motion to the King, who gives you both an acknowledging nod. 

Your heart misses a beat. 

“Well uh, there's one more but I don't know where she is… WOAH NIFFTY!”

The little scamp runs towards the Seraphim with a knife about to stab her with malicious intent. 

“Niffty, no. No stabbing any more angels we talked about this,” Angel grabs the knife from the housemaid and throws it in the trash can. 

“Ugh, not a bad boy,” Nifty grumbles and begrudgingly rushes off to god knows where. 

“Well everyone, this is Emily, not sure if Charlie has told you about her but-”

“Is she your kid?” Angel asks. 

“I’m sorry, what? Oh no, no she is not my kid pff,” you say. 

“Huh,”

“Well as I was trying to say, Emily here is another person on our side,” You give Emi an encouraging squeeze of the shoulders. 

“Well this is quite the improvement. Salutations! Pleasure to meet you,” The radio demon greets himself, extending his hand to shake Emily's. 

She takes it, though cautious. 

She turns to Charlie and warms up to the amicable face. 

“Hi, Emily, er obviously you know who I am,” The princess of Hell welcomes her, as some of the other Hotel residents go off doing their own thing. 

“Oh yes. Y/N told me about you, obviously we've met before, but under less casual circumstances,” Emily scrambles for conversation. 

Obviously, they need a little push to loosen up with each other. 

“Charlie, maybe show Emily the garden? Or maybe the entire hotel for that matter. Emi here has been dying to have a look around,” 

“Oh yes! Let me show you some of the suites, I decorated them myself,” Filled with giddiness, Charlie beckons the Seraphim upstairs.  

Emily turns to you, unsure. 

“Go on, don't worry, I'll be waiting here!” You give her a persuasive smile and shoo the pair upstairs. 

Now you had some time to kill…

“Hey!” 

“Agh!” You jump at the voice of Lucifer. 

“Geez, am I that scary?” He laughs and puts a hand on your shoulder. 

“Pff as if-” You snicker and give him a playful shove back.

“Anyway, how've you been? How's the old rusted machine been?”

“Are you always going to make digs and remarks at my husband in an attempt to get all three of his wives in your pants?” You raise an eyebrow sarcastically.

He sighs, feigning sorrow. “You know me too well. I thought it was the perfect plan, but clearly I'll have to tune it a bit,” The demon rattles on, but your brain fixates on the one word he said. 

Perfect. 

Something you try so, so hard to be, but apparently isn't enough for your mom. 

If your mom doesn't love you as you are. 

Well, what's to say anyone can? 

“Well, what do you say, Butter-Duck? You have to find a nickname for me, but I'll call you that regardless, hmm?”

His question brings you back to the conversation. 

Which, leads you to ugly, fat tears. 

Lucifer’s face contorts into panic. 

“Wait, I'm sorry, it's was a rubbish nickname, sorry I thought it was funny-” He puts a comforting hand on your shoulder. 

“No, no it's not that,” You rub your eyes, your voice croaky. 

“The reason is quite silly, really, it's fine, I'm just being stupid hahha,”

Lucifer is not convinced. 

“Listen, you helped me out the other day, and even though I'm not good at this comforting stuff, please, at least let me listen,” He gives you a weak, gorgeous smile, one that is enough to make you stop crying about. 

Okay, it's really becoming an issue of you being distracted by…

Him.

“Well, just an argument with my mom; basically just her saying how much of a disappointment I am and-” your voice creaks.

“And?”

“And I suddenly just don’t feel like her daughter,just a burden she has to put up with, and then what’s the point of all of this if you're not perfect,” 

And breathe. 

You put your face in your hands. 

“I’ll never find love,” 

“Hang on, but isn't Adam your husband? Don't you love him?” 

“No, I don't. It was a marriage purely organised by my parents. Completely transactional,” you mutter dejectedly. 

“Shit, that really sucks. Listen, I know it's hard to hear, but you need to hear it. Nobody is perfect. No one. That's what makes people interesting. And your mom wanting you to be that is far from perfect of her. Not sure if you're aware, but we're in Hell, right now, amongst many people who are basically morality rejects. But you, you're a Winner. Not in the physical sense, but also metaphorically. And for what it's worth…” Lucifer takes a moment to mull over his next words. 

“Many people love you, like Charlie and, that Seraphim, Emilia?”

“Emily” You amend. 

“Anyway, that's besides the point. The point is that you have many people that adore you, and that's what matters most,” Lucifer comes closer and stiffly puts his arms around you, which you return. 

“Thank you, Lucifer,” You sniffle into his shoulder. 

“No problem, anytime. You are my friend after all,” He gently smiles.

Your heart flutters. Friend? As in, person he considers more than an acquaintance? 

“So, what's this about a Butter-Duck?” You tease. 

“What? I thought it'd be a cool nickname for you,” He huffs. 

“Alright, alright… Let me think of a nickname for you then… Lulu!” 

He grimaces. “Ugh, that sounds like a name for a baby products brand!”

“Oddly specific, but if it annoys you more, all the better!” 

“Ugh, you're like worst than some sinners here I swear,” 

“Who said Angel’s can't be jokesters too?” You give him a wink. 

He coughs, a rosy red complexion appearing on his face.

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Emily and Charlie come back into the lobby, to you and Lucifer making small talk on the couch. 

“Ready to go?”

 Emily nods. She goes to hugs Charlie, which is reciprocated. 

“Well, I’ll see you around?” You squeeze the demon’s king hand. 

He looks at you, and nods, hesitant to return the gesture, as if you were glass. 

“Yes, I will,” 

As you and Emily leave to make your way back to Heaven, you could've sworn you heard Lucifer whisper three words. 

“I love you,” 

You turn back with a questioning expression, but all that was on his face was nonchalance.

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[writerfae]

Okay! Here's the promised ask! (Idk if I'll get to everyone's parents, so sorry for everyone who gets left out)

Now, I don't know if you meant writing for them before they had kids, so this will probably be a mix

Starting off with Ranva and Milan, of course! (Their's will probably be the longest because... yeah)

Milan seeing Ranva for the first time and he's jaw drops, because look at her!

I think hearing about the time when Milan helps Ranva get away from the fae realm would be really interesting (plus baby Henry 🥺)

Ranva having the exact opposite problem of Henry, as in he had to adjust to the fae realm and her to the human realm (the parallels of these two kill me every day)

I'm actually really interested in the time before Aiden was born (as in they're already in the human realm, but he's not born yet), because we never hear about it

(or rarely)

Fenna and Cyrus

Ngl I keep thinking about modern au them, because cute baker Fenna is top tear!

Also, that thing you mentioned about Fenna holding Cyrus after their son died

Also, them just bickering 🥺

Hela's parents

I don't think I know a lot about her dad (or if I do, I forgot again)

And her mom looking for her, and her being mischievous is adorable ❤️

Now... I know very, very little about Maya's mom... so... sorry❤️

And meanwhile I want to come up with something fluffly for my guys but I've got nothing...

But listen 👏 (I think I made a post like this actually, but I was listening to the song again, so:)

Bendegúz: The soldier

Ákos: The poet

Endre: The king

Adél: The one who's singing

(Yes, I love going on rants about songs and my ocs. When I go on a rant about an Odette song that will be... well, you know what she's like🤣 there'll be emotions( but her playlist is one of the best)

Also, can you imagine Endre holding up Ákos to your ocs lion king style 🤣

Thanks, that’s so nice of you ^^

My initial thought was to write fluff for them as couples (with no kids) but since I have no actual plans for this god knows when I’ll even get around to do this I’m open for everything!

Milan was completely star struck when he met Ranva. Ranva’s sister noticed it first and told her. They were both giggling like crazy stealing glances at him stealing glances at Ranva xD and at one point he gathered his courage and really formally introduced himself, with hand-kiss and all.

To be honest, Ranva’s sister, her teacher and her maid were the ones who had the most part in arranging her and Milan’s “escape”. More interesting is probably the time before that (their secret meetings, Ranva telling Milan about Henry and about wanting to leave with them) and after (Milan helping her adjust, helping her with Henry, refusing to hunt for people who talked bad about his wife).

The way Henry’s story is mirroring his mother’s (but reverse) is one of my favorite things about the two. Also how different yet similar their way of freedom looks like!

When Aiden was born, Ranva already spent six years in the human realm. In the time till his birth a lot of her adjusting and dealing with missing home happened. Her learning some customs she had to adopt. Her making friends with Holly. Her, Milan and Henry being a happy little family despite some sullen grumbles from other villagers.

I wouldn’t really know what to tell you about it though, if you don’t have specific questions…

Fenna is already adorable, but baker Fenna from the modern au is even more so! Her and young Cyrus meeting in France is so cute too. I like thinking about younger them lately, even in canon. Not that they’d play any role significant enough for me to think about them, but I do and I adore them xD

The thing is that Fenna loves Cyrus. She remembers the man he used to be and she still sees that man in him, deep down. She’s hoping to one day get him back out. He might never be the same like he was before they lost Thorin, but she holds on to him because she knows deep down he’s still a good man. Flawed, but good. And she loves and believes in him still, though she doesn’t approve of the way he handles his relationship to their kids.

Halea’s parents’ names are Arian and Sofia. They are actually least developed, so I can’t tell you much about them. Except for that Sofia is originally from the Oak court, where her mother was one of the queen’s ladies. And Arian is head of the House of Hummingbirds, who married her and took her to the Willow court with him.

It’s funny how you know little about Maya’s mother, yet she’s the first parent beside Milan and Ranva that actually got a backstory xD

Gwen is a witch. She and her family before her, like many witches, were follower of the old ways. Which is what you call people in the human world that still believe in the old religion (the goddesses, the existence of fae and magic…) and follow old customs.

She grew up living with her grandmother and mother in their little cottage by the forest. She learned the old ways and her craft from them. Now she couldn’t do real magic, since humans are incapable of it, but she knew old rituals and little “spells” and knew how to make potions and (lucky) charms and she knew lots about herbs.

She and Maya lived from what Gwen sold on the big market in their hometown. Things like wool, eggs and goat milk and woven baskets. Dried herbs, balms and medicine. But also charms, potions and other stuff for the more “superstitious” people. Ranva was one of her customers, too.

Gwen was never interested in marriage. But she did want a child. Which is why she wished for Maya!

Oh yeah I remember you mentioning that! I think it fits your characters very well (both the song and the positions you applied to them like who’s the king and who’s the poet…)

Music can be a very good way to get close to our characters! I like doing that a lot too!

[elejah-wonderland]

elejah_au

Divination

_fanfic snippet

a/n: Elena and Elijah are detectives, working in a special homicide unit that deals with paranormal occurences. It is New Orleans, of course and nothing is ordinary.

*

_elena and elijah have a moment ❣️

*

"Beer?" Elijah asked Elena as they walked into his loft.

"Yeah, thanks." Elena slung her jacket on the chair and ruffled her hair. "It's been a crazy day."

"The FBI Agents will make things rather difficult." Elijah said handing the bottle of beer to the brunette.

Elena took a swag and sat down on the sofa making herself comfortable. She looked at her partner with tired eyes. "Can we slip into another reality for a moment and not think of the case?"

"We sure can." Elijah nodded and setting the bottle on the table, took his jacket off and placed it neatly on the chair.

"Let's have some music." Elena stood up and walked to the record player stand. "What's the latest on your vintage playlist?"

"Bread" Elijah said.

"What?"

"It's a band from late 1960s- beginning of 70s. You can choose what you want."

"I'll play this. I trust your taste." Elena said.

Baby, I'm-a want you

Baby, I'm-a need you

You're the only one I care enough to hurt about

Maybe I'm-a crazy, but I just can't live with out

Your lovin' and affection, givin' me direction

Like a guiding light to help me through my darkest hour

The words of the song made Elena get serious. Everything with Elijah was significant. The way he dressed, the way he talked, the way he conducted research. He hid his emotions well. But she could reach into the deepest corners of his soul. That was one reason they worked so well.

"You're still hurting over Gia" Elena said.

Elijah quietly tilted his head and inhaled deeply. "More like guilty."

"Yeah" Elena muttered. "I wish I could turn back the clock and save Kaleb."

"Yeah" Elijah took another swag of beer. He knew how broken Elena was. The death of her boyfriend made her sink into a black hole of guilt-ridden depression, which made her want to give up on life herself.

But this song he had been listening for days was not about his ex-flame, who was killed by his brother.

Flashback

A few days back, The Rousseau's

"Does she know you're in love with her?" Camille said to Elijah as he watched Elena with dreamy eyes as she talked to her best friend Bonnie.

"Excuse me" Elijah gave the blonde a perplexed look.

"You wouldn't be the first or the last to fall for his partner. It's the curse of spending every goddamn hour together. But if you go there and blur the lines and things don't work out- you will lose her as a partner- as a best friend" the former psychologist said.

"Are you ok?" Elena moved over to the vampire that turned to the window overlooking the mighty Mississipi river glisten in the bright moonlight.

The vampire gave her a nod, his gentle warm earthy eyes slid over her. A shadow of perturbed emotion shimmered through. Her chest tightened for an unexplained reason. She wanted to wrap him up in her and soothe his pain. And that was exactly what she did. Her arms enfolded him, squeezing lightly. Her comforting warmth splayed over his body. He breathed in the sweet scent of her jasmine perfume, his own arms encircling her waist, lightly drawing her to him. His eyes fluttered shut, immersing himself fully into this enchanting moment.

[numetaljackdog]

WILT 8/3/2024

spotify//youtube

and get this. song notes under cut

Limp Bizkit - No Sex: ahaha the funny bizkit band!!!!! except this song speaks deeply to some Themes 😐<-the seriouser. pretty sure i've talked about this one in past WILTs but it just continues to strike me as unusual to hear fred like this on significant other. it's such a shameful song, definitely with some large doses of deflection and passing the blame to the woman he's addressing in the lyrics, but it connects on a base emotional level that fred rarely operated on at this point in bizkit hiztory, and an emotional level which i operate on every day of my life. this is in my top 3 lb songs

Jerk - I Hate People Like That: whenever i'm listening to this song, it's the best song in the world. i discovered this through the "crazy-ass moments in nu metal history" instagram page and loved the live video (the singer looks so cool!!) but hearing the studio version for the first time was the real jaw-dropper. recommend the whole album, some of the crunchiest, tastiest, most australian industrial i've ever heard

Deftones - Lotion: FINALLY entering my deftones era with lots of around the fur. lotion came on shuffle whilst i was mightily zooted one day and i decided that this was, in fact, the best song ever. the little vocal riff in the chorus? wild. plus ngl i do feel sickened

Fabricoh - Arm the Left: what a cool hardcore band :)

Coal Chamber - Fiend: idrc about coal chamber that much but this shit bumps

Klokwise - Bounce With This: as i believe i mentioned, this is one of my current favorite tracks from a newer nu metal band. hype as fuck, good riff, lots of bouncing. one thing i like best about klokwise is that they have a catchphrase. fucking brilliant way to build a community around your band. people can just say WISE UP and if you're with it then you immediately know what's up

Faith No More - Jizzlobber: speaking of themes and topics. i have been getting more into fnm due to reasons beyond my control and well frankly they are so bangers. "banger" doesn't really cover this one though this is straight up freak shit those vocals are crazyyyy

Cradle Of Thorns - Flesh: before videodrone was videodrone they were a strange little diy industrial outfit that made some independently-released records throughout the 90s. i've much yet to explore from the back catalog but this is a jam that's a combination of sexy and nasty and funny. included in the youtube playlist is footage of ty what's-his-name flailing and screeching like a wet little loser faggot boy

Kendrick Lamar - Not Like Us: i followed the beef from about the midpoint to the conclusion and i'm still marveling at how thoroughly kendrick lamar put that man in the dirt. and made some bangers along the way, this shit is in my head everyday

Faith No More - Digging the Grave: the singing so good. that's all i really have for this one rn, this is the newest addition to the rotation

Boskat - Boiler: honestly rudeboy really deserves most of the credit for this, like yeah boskat came up with a catchy riff but otherwise it's like barely their song. plus i checked out some of their other shit and it's mid as hell. really good nu revival track but seems like a total fluke unforch. plus idk why they shied away from just saying "dick" like grow up

Joey Valence & Brae - Packapunch: been bumping some jvb recently, which is where some of the beastie posting has been coming from. i'm a little cynical about some of their new stuff like ohhhh yeah i bet you want to add nu jazz and breakcore and w/e to your sound yeah i bet your online-as-fuck audience eats that shit up. but then also i'm part of that audience and i kind of do. so i guess they've got me there. plus danny brown! i'm serious about the beastie girls thing btw

Blondie - Rapture: another legitimate claim for the title of first-ever rap rock song! which is crazy bc it comes out of nowhere. like wow this blondie song is good in the way that most blondie songs are g- hey wait what. i love new wave and art punk and other stuff too. plus debbie harry's voice sounds realllll sexy when she sings the song title

P. O. D. - School of Hard Knocks: from little nicky. it's nu memtal

Insane Clown Posse - Hum Drum Boogie: oh goody! anyway me + the crew have been jamming this album recently and this song is so funny. MY BALLS

Charli XCX - Guess featuring Billie Eilish: i like girls :) this track strikes me as like a modern take on the paradigm of older club hits where there's like a male rapper who's the main artist and a female singer who's featured and does the hook and through the lyrics the narrative of performance is that they're gonna fuck down on each other. this is that but instead of pitbull or whoever it's billie eilish. and well that's kind of awesome. becuase of lesbian sex

Natalie Portman - Natalie's Rap: i don't give a fuckkkk about snl but i love when women rap and i love when it's violent on purpose

Chris Korda - Save the Planet, Kill Yourself: i got obsessed with the church of euthanasia recently after reading a bunch about the unabomber and that led me to chris korda's music which admittedly is not something i would give a fuck about if not for everything else going on with her. i would have added "i like to watch" instead of this but for some strange reason that i just can't fathom it doesn't seem to be widely available anywhere. weird!

Insane Clown Posse - I'm Ugly: actually awful song but soooo fucking funny. and then it gets kind of hard at the end and i stand by that

BONUS TRACK!

Trapt - These Walls: fuck these guys and their shitty band but also this song is kind of real as fuck....... like yeah man i would trade everything for this. however this was almost certainly purely incidental as all their songs sound like they were made in a lab

[gemini-elf-girl]

I KISSED SHARA WHEELER:

moments from the summer that are canon cuz i say so :P

1. whenever rory and chloe hang out, she sits passenger and they jam out to my chemical romance and old panic! at the disco. even when they pick up smith and shara, chloe does not give up shotgun and they continue to scream welcome to the black parade. smith and shara sit in the back seat and look at their ~alt~ significant others with huge heart eyes.

2. chloe and shara have picnic reading dates! they especially love to read sapphic books and they always swap after they are done so that they can read each others and talk about them.

3. they have group sleepovers at chloe’s house, because her parents are cool about those kind of things. smith tries to subtly ask ash, shara, chloe, or summer to do his makeup, trying to not let on how giddy and excited it makes him. they notice, quietly. rory strums his guitar in the corner and watches with soft eyes. they watch all sorts of movies from ghibli films (georgia and ash’s fave) to marvel (much to ace’s joy and benjy’s anger), various animes (due to smith and rory staging a coup on movie night) and they frequently rewatch but i’m a cheerleader (shara’s fave).

4. smith enjoys picking rory up and throwing him in the pool. rory pretends to hate it. one time he does it to chloe. she actually hates it.

5. (tw underage substance use) occasionally they drink, but more often they smoke thanks to rory and his friends (why was i that person in high school lol). chloe and summer decide not to and smith can’t because of football drug testing, but rory smokes out shara, ash, benji, and georgia for the first time. they watch barbie movies and shara laughs so hard at benjis’s impromptu improv performance she cries. rory lays his head in smith’s lap in front of everybody. smith blushes. summer is dying at how cute high georgia is and chloe just braids sharas hair over and over again while she sits on the couch and shara sits between her legs on the floor.

6. rory plays at a few open mics and the entire squad always goes to support him. smith gets incredibly flushed and embarrassed when they know the songs he is singing are about them. sometimes they give him new stickers for his guitar or bouquets of wildflowers they picked as gifts after.

7. BENJY AND ACE BECOME BEST FRIENDS SORRY I DON’T MAKE THE RULES. They have sung Santa Fe in the car together more than once. benjy shows ace starkid musicals and dr. horrible’s sing-a-long blog for the first time and an alliance is formed. maybe they even smooch who knows.

8. ash starts slowly gifting smith some things to quietly affirm their gender, like a glittery gold eyeshadow, a a bottle of lavender nail polish, and some butterfly hair clips.

9. so many gay people are making each other playlists. so many. here is shara’s playlist for chloe: https://music.apple.com/us/playlist/to-chloe-from-shara/pl.u-AkAmYKeIjl466g if i make more i will add them (:

10. chloe and shara get matching necklaces before chloe leaves for school and they wear them every day.

[kloofspeaks]

5 Songs I Actually Listen To

🎶✨when you get this you have to put 5 songs you actually listen to, publish. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool) 🎶✨

Thank you to @amelia-mariee for tagging me! (I know this is late, Tumblr is against me constantly and never shows me tags <3) I actually got excited seeing this because I’ve never really shared my music taste on here.

5.

I love Vacations as a whole, I literally love this song and it’s even a song I have in a headcanon with Starmora for some reason. I happen to listen to this when I’m driving or traveling somewhere. It’s always a song that either puts me in a mellowed out mood or a sad one, which I’m fine with either. It’s been a favorite of mine for awhile.

4.

I actually have this on vinyl, I’m a vinyl collector and couldn’t pass Tame Impala’s music down as it allows me to like different styles of music that I can’t seem to find anywhere else. It makes my brain work sometimes in ways I can’t understand. (Also this song just hits home for me sometimes)

3.

I always find myself going back to this song, why? Because it’s a summer vibe for me. I’ve never liked anyone in my whole life, so I find it charming that I like music that talks about liking someone or just romance in general. I hope one day I can actually enjoy my music taste with a significant other but we’re not going to talk about it LOL.

2.

Alfie templeman. He’s one of the few artist I listen to that I can listen to every single playlist without having to skip a song (I also snagged this one and a couple others from my Starmora playlist) he’s so pleasing to the ears. It’s amazing how well his music sounds to me.

1.

Finally, Fleetwood Mac. I actually have the vinyl of this album on my list of records I need to get, but the main reason I love this song so much is because of GOTG v2. I feel like every time I watch that movie there’s a reason why they chose to play that song when Quill decides to fight his dad, I mean, James always has a reason for picking these songs and I always believe it’s because of family bondage, abandonment. It’s about overcoming what family trauma has chained up and I love it for that. Everytime this song comes on and I have my Guardians playlist on shuffle, I’m singing along. It’s my all time favorite Fleetwood Mac song (besides Everywhere, of course)

Honorable mentions:

I have a couple of songs that go together, they’re not going to have a reason but I would like to list them and go off script a bit.

- What once was by Hers

- Stargazing by The Neighborhood

- Blue Monday by The Order

- And Eyes Without A Face by Billy Idol

No pressure tags!

@strawhbrrries

@callmemana

@viothewolx

@bayisdying

@burgundymeadows

[booksandpaperss]

With all the playlistgate stuff going on, I decided to do a re-listen to Mike’s basement beats and BRO

WE DO NOT TALK ENOUGH ABOUT HOW THIS SONG IS ON MIKE’S PLAYLIST.

I know there are sooo many posts about songs that are byler or Mike or Will coded, but I implore you to stay with me on this one, it’s worth it—

For reference, here are the very starting lyrics:

My love and I, we work well together

But we’re often apart

Absence makes the heart lose wager

Til love breaks down, love breaks down

Now what couple in the show does that sound like? Hmmmm hint it’s mileven

And then right after that set of lyrics we have:

Oh my, oh my, have you seen the weather?

The sweet September rain

Rain on me like no other

Until I drown, Until I drown

Rain? RAIN??? Man, I *wonder* what moment this could be referencing…

Oh but the chorus is *by far* the best part:

When love breaks down

The things you do

To stop the truth from hurting you

When love breaks down

The lies we tell,

They only serve to fool ourselves

Every single analysis on s3 and 4 Mike summarized in only 6 lines of song lyrics.

And for me, a very specific s4 scene comes to mind:

Like were these lyrics not near exactly what this conversation was about??

“Sometimes.. it’s hard to open up like that. To say how you really feel. Because… what if they don’t like the truth?”

“When love breaks down, the things you do, to stop the truth from hurting you”

Same line, different words. Which, if we’re really analyzing these song lyrics here, would lead me to believe that the junkyard scene was about more than just one or even two secrets. This song lyric doubles as being about lying to someone you care about to stop the truth from hurting them, AND being about lying to yourself to avoid the truth that is already hurting you.

Ergo, it’s safe to assume that the same goes for the byler conversation in the junkyard. There’s already visual cinimatic proof that we’re meant to understand that conversation was about more than one thing: it’s clearly Will talking about his feelings for Mike, but Mike nods, he agrees with Will’s sentiment. The scene is already meant to be more than what we see at face value, I see no reason it cannot be even more multi-faceted. It is;

1). About Will hiding his feelings for Mike,

2). About Mike hiding his truth from El, and

3). About Mike finally *concluding* his denial arc of his own feelings for Will (per the song).

Again, this set of lyrics can honestly apply to the whole of Mike’s s4 arc and even parts of his s3 arc, it’s just that the junkyard scene in particular really feels like a direct reference to the chorus.

And deep dive analysis of lyrics aside, it is undeniable that this song is meant to be about lying to yourself, in whatever capacity you decide to take it. Just even more confirmation of how absolutely right we are that Mike has been lying to himself, otherwise why would this even be on his playlist??

Anyways stream Mike’s Basement Beats bc there is so much good stuff on there and I will forever stan it 😎😌

Tagging my fellow Mike’s Basement Beats Stan @yuriberryva and my #1 bestie @significant-ace-nnoyance bc Ik u guys will probably wanna see this 👀

[synobun]

Please tell me about the music event you manage!

ok here I go I'm gonna force myself to reply to this at 3 AM

SO!

I play an online game called mafia. It can be played IRL but I do not. The communities I'm a part of have a side game/activity called walruses.

Walruses are a music event where a host/judge sets a series of category prompts, and then people send a song they feel represents that prompt. Usually the expectation is that the person submits music they like themselves, but it's not mandatory. The host listens to every song, scores every single one, and then also tacks on a little write-up about their thoughts for every song. Then, everyone gets together in a Discord voice chat where a bot plays the music from worst to best (usually) and we all have a big laugh about the host's opinions, the submitter's choice, etc. Typically it's one category per reveal, because they can take a long time to get through.

I run one every year and they've grown to be a big event! My first was in 2021 and had maybe a dozen people. This year it had 44! Which means, since it was a walrus of 8 categories, I listened to 352 songs. x) Most multiple times. It was a lot of work.

But yeah! It's a lot of fun. Usually other people's walruses are more technically minded, where they spend quite some time on history, trivia, music theory, etc. I do not do that. Both because I don't know anything about it and I don't really find it fun. I just go by vibes, make jokes, and try to make sure everyone is in on the joke so we all have a good time every week for 2-3 hours just bantering and getting to know new artists.

It's become a big part of my social life and it's revolutionized how I listen to music. It's also really broadened my horizons. I'm a little sad because the community I'm part of has been dead for a while and convincing others to host their own event has thus far failed. This year I almost considered canceling, as a week before the deadline I only had 7 entrants. I got a humongous push at the very last second. It was close, though. I'm not sure how it'll go next year, if there's a next year. (For reasons. One of which being my ex. But that's unrelated to the question. >_>)

So the two playlists I sent you a while ago are a new thing I'm doing, because people always ask me what my music tastes are whenever I run these. I figure it's easier to just put together all the songs that either (a) won a category, or (b) ended up on my auditions list for a while.

(My "auditions list" is my playlist where any song that seems potentially interesting goes. I listen to my auditions list primarily, and eventually every song on it goes to a failed playlist or onto my daily playlist.)

With how receptive you were to all the new music, I admit I was tempted to invite you the next time one is being run, if you're still on Tumblr/still talking to me then. But I have no idea if you'd be interested in that sort of thing! It can be a pretty significant social commitment. And it'd be a lot of strangers and inside jokes that can be tough to insert yourself into (though I encourage it).

Anyway! Now you know. Maybe.

[tuiyla]

Singing statistics: Quinn Fabray

Once upon a time I decided to embark on a journey that involved creating a massive database with Glee songs and giving characters points based on how many covers they had and how much they sang in those songs. At some point I’m going to migrate all I’ve done so far over to tumblr but until then, please see this reddit post for the basics of the database and this masterpost for other character statistics and otherwise. If you have questions about the mechanics and are confused about what points refer to here, please consult with those posts or reach out. Otherwise, let’s talk Queen Bee Quinn. I have lots of visuals for you and some updates to the previously used template, and lots of words to explain what the images mean.

First things first and some basics, Quinn was in 73 Glee episodes overall and during her time on the show, she sang in 42 songs total. Thanks to the point system and solos, duets, and lead roles in group numbers being worth more than 1 point, these 42 songs mean 66 points for her. With this, she’s the 13th most featured voice of the series, behind most of the original New Directions and just ahead of the season 4 newbies. With 42 performances, her voice is feature in just over 6% of all Glee songs so those are your chances of hearing Dianna when putting an all-songs Glee playlist on shuffle.

Now to get into the different types of songs Quinn has had. Solos are worth 3 points in this system and of those Quinn had 6 in total. This makes her the 16th character with the most solos, ranking her lower than her overall singing place. Four out of 6 solos were in season 1, making it by far her best in that respect. Two of them were Unholy Trinity songs with Brittana on backup, once for real with Naya and Hemo in Come See About Me. Curiously, two solos were Supremes songs and a third, Never Can Say Goodbye, originally intended for The Supremes before landing with The Jackson 5. More on artists most often covered in a later section.

Duets are worth 2 points and of those Quinn had 10, ranking her 10th among the cast. Her singing partners were a diverse bunch and there were only two characters she sang with twice, Sam in season 2 and Artie in season 3 episode 15 - both songs in the same episode. That’s Artie’s pattern, by the way. We have a pie chart here for the first actual chart graphics but more interesting than Quinn’s list of duet partners is the next slide.

This way of visualizing the “sings with” category is new for Quinn’s character post. Previously this was just a column chart but the good old bubbles helps us actually see the differences more. The numbers are all in the table on the left but the chart tells that Quinn’s most significant singing partner overall was Santana. Now, this isn’t only duets, it’s every time Quinn is featured in a song with someone else. For example, out of Quinn’s 42 songs Santana was also in 16 of them. Fun fact, Santana is featured in every single one of Quinn’s season 4 songs, and very nearly in all season 6 ones. On the other end of the spectrum are Blaine and Mike; Mike isn’t a surprise as the OG who sang the least. He ranks lowest for practically every ND member. But Blaine is curious since there are only two group numbers Quinn and him are ever featured in together (Control and We’ve Got Tonite).

 And then we have something a little different, the distribution of points between Quinn and another character in their shared songs. For example, because Brittany often provides backup or has smaller parts when Quinn sings, their balance is way off from the 50% mark and Quinn tends to have larger parts in those shared songs. The opposite is true for Rachel, who often leads group numbers whereas Quinn tends to have small parts. Same goes for Finn, and then the rest is more or less near that 50% line.

Speaking of and moving onto group numbers, as you might have guessed based on the stats so far Quinn didn’t exactly have the most throughout her run. She was featured in 18 New Directions performances overall, meaning she was in just under 9.5% of all ND songs. Out of these, one was her Sectionals duet with Sam and she took the lead or otherwise had a major solo in just five songs. The rest, 12 performances were a verse or two here and there, but mostly a line or two. She did also feature on Edge of Glory by The Troubletones but that doesn’t count towards her setlists statistics so she’s still only the 11th most featured there. Her duet goes a long way to not making that an even lower number. Quinn was present and a member of the New Directions for 22 competition performances overall and sang in 4 of those, her 4.5 points landing her the 11th most-featured spot.

Performances that don’t include the whole group or even a subset like the Glee Girls get counted as ensembles instead. Quinn had two songs that qualify as trios, a Fapezberry and an Unholy Trinity feature - Problem counts as a quartet thanks to Artie, as well as two other songs. Her one quintet is the Celibacy Club’s banger Afternoon Delight and Homeward Bound/Home is her one sextet.

Backups are a tricky business and there are many variations. Basically, both backing vocals in the traditional sense and just one lines in a song are worth 0.5 points and are counted for this category. The distribution with Quinn’s 8 half-pointers is three instances of what can be considered backing vocals and five times having very very small parts in songs, such as We’ve Got Tonite. Another curious category is what I mark with zeros, aka either “Quinn” providing vocals but Dianna not, e.g. I Look To You, or Dianna being said to provide them but that not necessarily being the case diegetically. These cases were decided based on Glee Wiki but they don’t count in the statistics anyway. Examples include Jump and Dog Days Are Over.

Going back into chart territory now that we’ve had our look at song categories, first up the seasons by numbers. These columns refer to the number of songs Quinn had in seasons and the different shades denote song types. Even though season 1 is looking real dark with its four solos, it’s still a weak season vocally. We also see that, despite only singing in six songs, Quinn was the 7th most featured character in season 1. Things get significantly better, number of songs wise in seasons 2 and 3 - or do they? Technically yes, Quinn sings in more songs, but there’s a lack of solos and because of the ever-expanding cast she’s only 14th and 11th in seasons 2 and 3 respectively. While yes, season 3 is her most featured season, it is for a lot of others too, hence 11th place. And then as Quinn graduates and becomes a guest star these numbers understandably get much lower. But that isn’t the whole story.

We’re back to bubble charts to get to the bottom of how well-featured Quinn was, exactly, in every season. You see, these numbers are adjusted for the number of episodes she was in and then we get the X axis of points and Y axis of songs. And it paints a different picture, does it not? Season 1 s her least featured when considering that she was in all episodes, not just in terms of songs but adjusted with points, too, so her solos didn’t count for much. And then there’s season 2, where there was a stretch of episodes without Quinn singing but it still fares better. Season 3 is an improvement yet again, but her guest star seasons are another beast entirely. Now, this makes sense. When Dianna Agron returns as a guest star it only feels right to feature her more than they did when she was a main character, admittedly an underutilized one. And so season 4 and 6 in particular stand out, even though she sang in both her season 5 episodes. Season 4 is ahead in terms of points, what with that one last solo, but season 6 packed five songs into what is basically just two episodes. Remember, season 1 had six songs overall in twenty-two episodes.

To drive the point of Quinn’s underutilization home, here’s a side tour of Marley’s stats. At least that’s what I think the purpose of this left chart was when I made it well over a year ago. You see, our chart on the left tracks the cumilation of points as the episodes go on, for both Quinn and Marley. Quinn’s begins stagnating at around the point Marley appears, naturally as season 4 saw the exit of one and intro of the other. And see how Marley almost ended up with more overall points than Quinn? Because in just a season and a half she got 65 points, one short of Quinn’s grand total. In fact, for basically all of season 5 Marley was ahead, meaning she sang as much in season 4 as Quinn did in three seasons.The only thing that makes Quinn the 13th and Marley the 14th most featured voice is season 6.

To further illustrate the stark difference between how their voices were utilized in the time they had, on the right you can see a bubble chart similar to the previous slide’s. I know, it’s squished, but you can still see Marley blowing Quinn out of the water in terms of both average number of songs and point per episode. Twice as much, essentially. And to be clear none of this is against Marley, it’s just pointing out how relatively little Quinn got during her time, particularly as a regular.

Now onto the genres and artists category. Above is the distribution of genres in Quinn songs, most notable is how few showtunes she did and the relatively big representation of soul. In fact, a whopping 4 out 6 six solos can classify as soul, a genre Glee didn’t feature a ton of. Pop and rock being the top two is no surprise given the overall ratios of the show but R&B/soul is well-represented with Quinn.

No surprise, then, that the signature artists I was able to narrow down based on the numbers are The Supremes and The Jackson 5. Glee covered six Supremes songs and two of those were Quinn solos. As previously mentioned, a third solo was at one point meant to be a Supremes song but the switch just resulted in The Jackson 5 also being a signature artist for Quinn. Among the many Jackson songs covered, Glee did two Jackson 5 performances and both featured Quinn: the aforementioned Never Can Say Goodbye and ABC. Motown queen indeed.

Coming towards the end, I wanted to make note of “extra” songs - covers not counted for the stats above, either because they weren’t actually featured in the show or because studio versions were never released. The former category includes the Christmas banger God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen and the never-aired s3 version of Seasons of Love. The latter category has Ride Wit Me and the sadly never completed due to first trimester issues Fuinn version of DSB.

Finally, this last image is just the table summary of the seasons column chart. It’s something I always included with old stats so I kept it in here, too, in case it helps anyone to see it laid out like this. I’m a believer in a good chart helping to make sense of numbers but sometimes seeing it presented like this also helps.

So. Yeah! That was Quinn’s Glee run in numbers. Please reach out with any and all questions, and if I see that people are actually curious about this stuff I’ll get on that tumblr migration and making new posts using the database. There’s a lot more to cover with the data that’s in there.