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#I do feel bad for my boyfriend sometimes
camgoloud · 3 months
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look it’s not really that i wish i was in a relationship because the last couple of years which i have spent firmly and resolutely single after finally getting over the All That which went down between me and the last person i had any serious romantic interest in have been without question the happiest years of my life. and it’s also not really that i wish all of my friends WEREN’T in relationships because i want them to be happy et cetera et cetera. but this whole thing where both situations are happening at the same time (i.e. me: single; literally every one of them: not) does have me feeling a little. weird i guess.
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ssoupcup · 3 months
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I've been cooking recently. Literally.
(I know 90% of these meals look the same I PROMISE they're different it's just me using the same ingredients bc that's what my parents buy)
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Years of reading and writing disapproving parent fic have come back to haunt me, as I'M now the one committing faux pas in front of my partner's uptight parents 🫠✌️
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anarcho-masochist · 1 year
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Okay, I thought this was universal but maybe my last three therapists were right that it is not:
Is it normal for boredom to be truly unbearable?
As in, worse than anything else, would rather get eviscerated while fully conscious, will do anything to escape it which might actually include suicide if no satisfactory options are available?
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ccuriousmischieff · 1 year
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ectoplasmer · 9 months
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world decided to be nice to me and let me dream of bakura and let me interact with him but now i’m yearning So Bad
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andichoseyou · 2 years
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quick question. so my friend group has been having some "drama" these last few weeks and i need an outside view. one of our friends, lets call him Fred has started dating a guy, lets call him Rusty. fred and rusty have been together a while but the rest of the group doesn't really know anything about rusty. one night, we end up at fred's house and rusty is there. that night, rusty says some really nasty and antisemitic things while we're watching a movie, none of us know what to say and we're all hoping that fred will call him out and tell him to stop. rusty continues and says things like "this is making me hate jewish people even more" and called a jewish female character a "dirty jew bitch." that night we also learned from one of our friends in the group that rusty has said "yellow people" when referring to asian people. he has also said the G slur when referring to asian people. we sat down and talked to fred a couple days later to tell him how uncomfortable and disappointed we were. its been almost a month later and fred is still with rusty and keeps deflecting when we ask him about it. saying things like "he says racist things but i dont believe he is racist" and "i am trying to challenge him." i don't think he understands how hurt we all are that he continues to stay with this guy who has said some really fucked up shit. it has gotten to the point where none of us even want to be around fred. i wanna know if anyone thinks we're overreacting or handling this wrong... we have poc in our friend group, and fred is a white/non-jewish man who has never experienced racism and never will. it feels really strange to me that he would bring rusty around knowing he says those fucked up things. we literally have an asian friend in our group who has expressed they cannot be friends with someone who has a boyfriend who is xenophobic. like DUH???? from an outside view, knowing only these details, do you think we should try to continue being friends with someone who is not willing to break up with their racist/antisemitic boyfriend? or is it valid that we're still hung up on the fact that he would even want to be around that guy?
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beholdthemem · 2 years
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I think I'm gonna look into whether or not rage rooms are still a thing and if so whether or not any near me have survived the pandemic because I need to schedule a breakdown sometime in the near future and it CANNOT be where anyone I love is going to see me doing it
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jvzebel-x · 11 months
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#when i was growing up my mom Only gave me incredibly inappropriate advice lmao.#i was raised by my toxic high school best friend-- except she was like that my whole life lmao.#she told me once to corner this girl i had problems w in the bathroom during class one day&beat the fuck out of her#&if i did to call my mom before i did it so she could call school&tell them she was taking me the period before so i had an alibi lmao.#she gossiped about me to my friends when she was angry w me-- something that actually ruined my life in a real way#when she was angry at me so she told a friend of mine i was cheating on my boyfriend at the time so that 'friend' told him#(she just wanted him to know he deserved better&she was there for him if he needed someone to talk to :))#&he beat me almost to death+threw me off the back of his motorcycle lmao.#when i mentioned that he thought i was cheating on him to my mom bc of a friend telling him i was my moms immediate response was to#deny vehemently that she has anything at all to do w it-- something i had not thought of until right then&realized the time my then bf#thought i cheated on him my mom was the only person who knew i had gone out. shed actually threatened to tell him herself#bc i was out bc i was arguing w her at the time lmao.#every memory i have of that woman makes me feel queasy lmao.#every time she yelled at me&told me i was depressing&i ruined everything w my horrible attitude.#the time she told me she didnt want to wait for me while i was limping up stairs bc she was in a bad mood&we were late for a movie#she wanted to see so she literally stomped her foot before yelling at me to hurry up lmao.#every time she called me selfish&cruel&insisted that the problem in every relationship i had was me#ESP the relationship i had w her.#i miss my mom sometimes. i hate my mom a lot of the time.#but more than anything i am just so fucking grateful she's out of my life.#i dont think ive changed a whole lot at my core throughout my life but im absolutely positive cutting her out of my life made it possible#for me to be a better person just in general.
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I think i ever processed anything that happened from 2021 to now like ever
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ikyw-t · 1 year
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I do relate to olivia rodrigo in some ways for example I did have nightmares each week (every day for months) after that phone call in may (march). I fantasize (once every other blue moon) about a time where you're a little fucking sorry. except I do not hold my undying love (there is not even an iota of love, if there ever was) like a grudge and also I will never ever forgive bc you were indeed filled with vitriol. and unfortunately I also cannot let it go. it was six months (three years) of torture. I did NOT love you truly and I cannot laugh at the stupidity. I may have made some real big mistakes but you do indeed make the worst one look fine. like..............
#sorry i know this is cringe and something i should just journal about#ive just had a very shitty day and also kinda week#ive just been tired and lethargic for no clear reason for the past five days and it's very frustrating#bc i have homework due tomorrow that ive barely made any progress on#and i kinda rly need an A in this class to maintain my gpa. so if one bad week means i tank this assignment and get a B in this class#oh dread. unspeakable unsurmountable dread#also i went on a walk in the park w my mom which i haven't done in a bit and i just was unable to stop thinking#about my high school demon of a boyfriend who lives nearby. altho he literally never goes outside i sometimes get rly freaked out#and panicky that i might see him and have to deal with him again. like he did call (AND TEXT?!?🤢) me last march#and i was having nightmares for months after and feeling so paranoid that he might randomly show up at my house one day#bc that's the kind of shit he used to do regularly when we were dating to keep me from breaking up w him#and like ughhhhhhhhhh it just makes me so upset bc he literally would have the audacity.#it's just upsetting. i am soooo nonviolent as a person but when i think of him i suddenly feel not very nonviolent#again my apologies i know this should be journaled about instead. sorry u had to see all this#feel free not to read these tags like this is just for me. apologies.#while im here some other songs that make me think of him include would've could've should've. atw10 but only the terrible parts#uhh better by myself by hey violet is incredibly on the nose#also it's actually just a rly great song. also get out of my life by little hurt. okay im done now.#gonna go find something funny and cute to watch. maybe little witch academia.#sorry if u read all this 😵‍💫
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buck-yyyy · 2 years
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repeat after me kids: just because they’re not talking to you doesn’t mean they hate you and are replacing you with their boyfriend!
#sigh#one of my friends hasn’t talked to me on the phone in like a week and a bit because she’s spending all of her time with her boyfriend#and like. i know that he’s a priority yk? they’re really happy together and i’m beyond happy for her#but like.#i’m getting left behind#we usually talk every night and now it’s rare i even get a text back in two hours when i ask if she’s free to facetime#i’ll text her at 6 and won’t get a response until 11:30 or later because she’s spent her whole night with him and hasn’t bothered to respond#and i know she’s on her phone at least part of the time because A. she’ll sometimes still snap me and B. she’s always on her phone#and i mean i get that a snap is way less energy than a text#but it’s not hard to just say ‘ah sorry i’m with [name] can i call you when he leaves?’#she never bothers to try and find a time to talk with me#and it’s making me want to isolate myself because it’s bringing in self deprecating thoughts#which is really really bad because that’s usually the start of a depressive episode for me- self isolation.#she’s making me feel shitty even though it’s not really her fault#i feel like s3 will right now#i hate that we all had to grow up#because everyone is doing stuff at the normal age while i’m getting left behind#one friend is in college having fun and meeting guys that she’s happy with#another is in love and is in the SWEETEST relationship and is incredible at her sport#another is also in love and is also doing incredible at her sport and spends nearly all her time with her boyfriend#meanwhile- me? sure i’ve been in love but i kept it to myself and repressed it for a year.#i don’t leave my house because i only have a couple friends and the ones i do are too busy with their other friends and boyfriends to#have any time left to hang out with me#and there’s nothing close to my house that i can go do by myself#i’m stuck on the same girl i’ve had feelings for for months#i just feel stuck and left behind#like all my friends have grown up and i’m just permanently a kid who doesn’t have anything going on in their life#i hate high school. and i hate myself.#fuck.#tw vent
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koisuni · 1 year
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Feeling worthless (vent art) Been dealing with medical issues and that shit makes me feel TIRED and YUCK!
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doggirl08-moved · 1 year
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I hope this doesn't sound weird or anything but if I ever get a boyfriend I would like if he was a nice helper sometimes more than a boyfriend. I feel like if I had a boyfriend I could finally unmask ( sorry for talking about my autism I don't like doing it but I need to start being more open about myself instead of pretending everything is normal and I'm normal. ) and that would mean I could possibly have more problems and be open about them more rather than just swallowing it and getting home and wanting to barf. But I don't know ...I am now having boyfriend thoughts since I am now realizing I am pretty enough for someone to love me but I don't know I guess I wouldn't need someone just to love and kiss me but to help me out and ground me a little? Does that make sense I'm sorry if this sounds dumb. I just wish I could be myself around someone and for them to also help me when things get to much but I have a feeling I won't meet anyone like that anytime soon. Sometimes I forget that I'm childish and I get worried that will attract creeps towards me :(. I have been seeing a lot of selfship things recently which is making me have boyfriend thoughts and I just wish to find someone one day who I like and is normal and helps me out ^_^.
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digifag · 1 year
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i feel like in all the critiques i've seen on the way chibnall's written dr who everyone always fails to look back on the episodes he's written before becoming the head showrunner
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godpact · 2 years
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heather dating quentin in her mainverse is so personal to me........
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