#I don’t need more stress in my life

[luckytidbit]

Food for thought.

Ok so I've seen an anonymous ask on someone’s blog recently about people being rude in the unwind community, (which first of all, if you’re being rude, shame on you.) I've seen mention of, actually no I’ll take it verbatim. “I like scrolled by multiple of peoples posts and fics about like theories and stuff, and most of them have people getting mad over them or feeling the need to prove it wrong? Like I get it, but it's just an idea 😭”  This community is pretty small and I haven’t seen any other unwind theory posts lately (Unless this person is talking about ao3, I’m not on there.), so I’m left to assume this ask is about the “Connor’s brain coping after his unwinding theory.” And the reblog I left on it, so let’s break that down shall we?

Personally, I grew up on Film and Game Theory so I’ve never seen debunking a theory as something that’s rude, just a part of a community helping another have the correct facts. Which by the way, @korokeea, if I’ve upset you, I am deeply sorry, it was never my intention to do so. My reblog was supposed to be seen as playful banter. (Side note, dream endings are very amateur, don’t do them unless you know what you’re doing. Even I wouldn’t do them, (I think I’m amateur anyway <:D.))

Also wanted to add that I should be using tone indicators, and that also I’ve seen examples of people whose first language isn’t English not understanding Western satire, so my apologies if I’ve confused you.

Now that I’ve addressed the main point, there was also something else I wanted to bring up.

This is obviously a parody of LIVE SLUG REACTION I used to add to my reblogs of Conland content (Connor x Roland), I also might have confused people doing this. I don’t think Conland is anyone’s cup of tea, personally, I see it as a crack ship that lives rent-free in my head, but I can understand how I could’ve confused someone. I honestly do like A Dog With A Bird At Your Door A Lot, even if the notes say “I hate gay people.” (Like, C’mon now Kuromi.)

Honestly, I came here to create art and not be judged for it, I have one to two irl friends that I see almost daily. The rest of it are just classmates that will turn on me the moment I say something that doesn’t fit their dialogue. (If you get what I’m saying, I have to say the right thing or they’ll look at me funny.) I’m honestly super stressed and pretty prone to anxiety right now, graduation, prom, removal of wisdom teeth via going under (anaesthesia), you name it! So you can see why I find a great sense of escapism in Tumblr.

Lastly, I wanted to say that in this community it is almost impossible to create micro-communities because of our small size. You CANNOT be vague or make inside jokes because almost everyone follows each other. On the original ask post that I first talked about, the responder mentioned a “that one guy” and my poor mutual @bopeisdope thought they could be that one guy. (Which is completely wrong, she and @lazysailor are the sweetest people I have ever met here. Oof sorry side tangent.)

Anyway If you made it through this thing, thanks for letting me get this off my chest.

[itspileofgoodthings]

If Jane Austen could write about my family from the outside and I could read it then maybe I would be healed.

[dipyronegirl]

thinking (and rewatching..) inside job again and i dont think rand is that bad of a father? i mean, he made a lot of mistakes and he doesn’t even feel bad ab it, even tho he traumatized reagan and a lot, but he was never absent. he acts like he cared ab reagan’s career just bc it could help his career, but that’s not true. he pushes her to be the best all the time and it’s bad, but he genuinely cares ab her so much. and the whole ‘creating crises to force her to hang out w him’ thing is fucked up, but it’s cute that he just wants to hang out w her that bad. most fathers literally don’t care enough ab their kids to do any of that. most fathers don’t even know their kids as much as he knows her. maybe my standards are just insanely low, probably, but he’s a better parent than 90% of the parents i know

[calamitydaze]

long tag ramble below u have been warned

[milimeters-morales]

sorry i haven’t been very active like i usually am, the words for my thoughts just don’t come as easily as they used to and require way more effort to make them make sense in a post that i just don’t really have energy for ^.^ (miles voice) buuuuut. i stay sillay

ALSO HELL YES GWEN STACY HANDWRITING EXAMPLE ALL I DO IS WIN WIN WIN NO MATTER WHAT. but seriously no shame to people who write like this irl but the random uppercase letters? i’ve never understood why people do that personally bc uppercase and lowercase are two whole different brain systems and hand-position styles for me, just mix-matching the two sounds like the most annoying punishment in hell allxwoxmksdk now all i need is Pavitr’s and i got the main 4’s handwriting styles and i will gain another power! ^_^

[binders-and-beanies]

Doin bad again folx

[twistedappletree]

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[formerly-evil]

i an just. so full of anxiety and i need to quickly ramble somewhere so it makes me feel a tiny bit better

i failed my driving tests a few weeks ago and i haven’t driven a car since and i have a driving lesson tomorrow and I’m soooo worried it’s awful aaaaa 😭😭😭

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

I finished Songs for the Missing today. It’s really fucking bleak. I can’t quite call it cathartic; just dull and empty in a very, painfully Midwestern kind of way.

[transthatfag]

hey! you’ve got a neutral body there! yup! it’s definitely doing a thing! good job! trying it’s best today! and tmr! who knows! lets find out!

[hgduo]

I wish I had more time to properly catch up on qsmp, I just feel so impossibly behind

[chryzuree]

OH OH OH, I FORGOT TO MENTION. DEVELOPMENTS FOR THE CHILDHOOD FATES AU !!!! AFTER JACKS AND SCARLETT FIND CHRYSI!!!!!! literally, like—OKAY so chrysi had secretly met with scarlett and julian, before they figured out that she was exactly who they were looking for (due to jacks not telling them her full name…. she was going by di. they WOULDVE connected the dots if SOMEONE had told them her full name was chryseis diana. julian nearly throttles jacks when they all figure out that chrysi’s been sending them in circles while she figured out her own plans). jacks has no clue what chrysi looks like currently. they only rlly know that azure is her right-hand man (& they suspect he’s more, but jacks refuses to believe that. even tho he knows dark-haired men are chrysi’s type. ummmm.)

but then they go to a fancy party/gala/smth?????? because scarlett/julian/jacks figured out chrysi was going to be there!! finally, they’ve tracked her down!! they’re going to surprise her and make her come back to lead the fates!! everything’s all coming together :3

well, jokes on them. chrysi knew they’d be coming + they’re all part of the bait for her trap for eris. thank you all for coming. you’re so easy to manipulate. also, thanks azure for being pretty (azure’s like yayyy i contributed <- is actively helping chrysi with this & has a large hand in its success 💀)

it, like, semi-works. eris is temporarily caught by azure (and she is VERY shocked he’s still alive. she put an end to this timeline—she was waiting for chrysi to die so she could put an end to it. you’re telling me she was promoted after killing azure and he’s NOT PERMANENTLY DEAD IN THIS TIMELINE??????? she’s going to get soooo demoted for this…….), but then 1) she escapes (azure’s magic isn’t quite the same, after chrysi brought him back from the dead…) and 2) chrysi starts vomiting blood. turns out keeping azure alive is taking a toll on her + every time he uses magic, he’s actively hurting her.

romantic reunion for chrysijacks!!! she threw up blood all over HIM, and he’s like ohhhhh. ewwwwwwww. okay, let’s clean ourselves up before i drag you back to valenda……

[dancing-with-stars]

my mom is literally yelling at me bc i “study too much” and she says that’s selfish and i shud be doing other things and spending time w my family. like. as if everytime i spend time w my family i don’t just end up hating myself more.

[morelikedoccock]

Alright I’m finally gonna address this because it frustrated me enough that it’s been sitting in my drafts for weeks (cw another long and angry ramble about respect and boundaries) ⬇️

This is just… very frustrating. I am an outspoken advocate for curating your internet experience, which means blocking people for any reason (from genuine irritation to just off vibes) if you feel the need to do so. I block empty blogs most of the time cause they annoy me. I’ve blocked people because I disagree with the things they post, or just because the way that they interact with me doesn’t feel great.

Not to sound like a real dick or anything, but I don’t owe any stranger on here anything. If we’ve been friends for a while, I might feel obligated to explain a hard block via DMs (which I have done before and will do again if the situation arises), but other than that, we’re all just strangers on here. If I have blocked you, it’s because I don’t want you to be interacting with my stuff anymore, that’s it.

The fact that this person felt the need to send this to me probably from an entirely separate tumblr, (despite us never having had even a whole conversation), just immediately tells me that they don’t respect my boundaries as a blog or a as person. Long answer short: no, I’m not going to explain specifically why, and I don’t think I need to.

If you’re decent and respectful, I promise I will have absolutely no problem with you. I appreciate y’all who follow me a fucking lot. Y’all have been lovely and kind and sweet to me, and I very much enjoy interacting with y’all.

If you and I don’t know each other at all and you do find yourself blocked here, though, I would prefer if you simply respect that boundary I’ve established and move on.

I’ve worked hard as fuck to try to have a good time on here, including being respectful and decent to others as best I can, but doing that work involves setting and respecting boundaries. I’m just an anxious human person existing in this wild hellscape, and I’m more than happy to do the complicated work of communicating with friends about conflict if need be, but I’ve also learned to be pretty hard and fast about those boundaries, and it’s helped me a lot.

Once again, to all y’all who follow me, appreciate what I do, and respect me (and also have gotten through all of this rambling):

I appreciate y’all endlessly. Please know that you boost my artistic self esteem and brighten my days routinely, and that means a heck of a lot to me❤️

[bereft-of-frogs]

ahhh welcome back ‘I should be monetizing every second of the day and it’s a bad thing that my primary hobbies cannot be monetized and I should be ashamed’ feelings

🙃 this is because of student loans 🙃

[veone]

daily reminder that at the end of the day people make mistakes and should acknowledge that and grow from it. if people have an issue with that mistake they have that right and that’s fine. Not everyone’s gonna like you and no one’s just out here perfect. everyone’s got flaws and shit they need to address and work on. some of its not that deep but some of it is.