#I don't know what to fucking do

[is-not-a-unicorn]

I'm stressed & trying not to lash out on my roommates so I'm posting here

Okay so I came home from work to my partner being upset about my roommates leaving trash all over the kitchen so he asked me to text them. Which I did and this is what I got back:

Why would that be the assumption? Last week they just left a bag of trash on the the kitchen floor, even though the bins were already in the garage.

Oh. And when I wasn't here to clean up after them it looked like this:

The assumption is that they WON'T pick up their trash if I don't say anything about it but go off I guess.

ETA: literally NOTHING was stopping either of them from putting the bins in the garage. I even already pulled them off the street and they were right next to the garage door. I fixed the garage door like 6 years ago so if you push the button the garage door just opens. Like magic.

I feel like he was blaming the trash on me because I didn't put the bins in the garage but he could have. I'm the only one who takes the bins out on trash day. They could help out a little bit and bring them in. But Noooo.

[squitsquid]

Had to text my therapist 🥰

[hissterical-nyaan]

Everytime I try to move on and try to be that daughter who shares everything with her mom, we end up fighting cause she's fucking never satisfied with my decisions

Everytime this happens I tell myself to stop sharing so much about my life and everytime I fail

I really wanted to be a good daughter but she refuses to ever listen to me

[kindacreepy-kindaugly]

For the rare coherent, rational thought: it's pretty unlikely this is actually about him or even me. He's sure as fuck not helpin but it's just a smokescreen.

[artkaninchenbau]

A h-heartfelt reunion..?

Bonus

[seven-oh-four]

I'm still pretty new to chess, can anyone tell me what I'm supposed to do if my opponent plays the Eight Fucking Bears opening? I'm really having trouble.

[your-dads-filing-cabinet]

Head in fuckin hands how am I supposed to research the history of Korea Japan or China when American/English sources are convinced we're engaged in some cold war: part 2 bullshit or that Asia is the Realm of Brutal Anti-Christ Commies™ because they have their own economy and u.s. politicians scare like a cat facing a cucumber at the thought of a country not completely reliant on American indistry

[clown-owo]

been replaying the Portal series I think this is where its heading

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

[lifesfeelings]

Down Bad...

Ya'll... I'm in a tough situation, and I have no idea how to even like process this 😅 So, I left on a trip yesterday to tour my new city and see the city. But with that, I also had two days of plans with that guy Sebastian that I have been talking to out here for the last two months. He drove an hour to meet me at the hotel. He spent the last two days with me and he just left. And, for the last two months I've been so on the fence. I genuinely think it's just that I have really bad commitment issues for some reason and part of me also thinks that I might be into polyamory just because the thought of being capable of exclusively talking to and having fun with one guy seems just like impossible to me? But this was also the first time that I had real like intimate time with a guy before. And I'm all sorts of fucked up... We went to restaurants and walked around downtown shopping. We spent last night watching movies and drinking and messing around a little. And like? Some parts I kinda of felt off or just that maybe I wasn't into it or idk... but we've just been cuddling and talking about the things we're gonna do this fall together and now he left. I walked him down to the parking lot and like when he went to get into the car, he looked at me for a second and then just kissed me like crazy out in the parking lot and we hugged for a minute and something just feels like it clicked. I don't know. I came back upstairs and started crying (which like, fucking WHAT!?), and was just like so torn the fuck up that I wouldn't be seeing him again for like three weeks. He bought me a bunch of stickers I liked downtown and I put them all on my laptop crying... I told him that forget-me-nots were my favorite flower and he fucking planted me seeds two months ago and gifted me the little sprout and like? I'm so fucked up ya'll... I just feel like I actually like him sooo badly, but also so many parts of me are terrified that I can't do monogamy or that I just won't be able to actually commit.... I just don't feel like a relationship actually every makes sense to me, but now part of me just desperately wants this guy in a more intimate way like that... help? lol

07.04.2023

[liauditore]

do you guys ever think about that time she said her backstory was that she was only partially zombiefied and was fully conscious mentally while she ate and killed her family. and that she was a princess. i do alot.

[nickkcha]

I hate when a Leosagi fanart looks like this:

LET THEM BOTH BE THE BIG ASS HAND AND MUSCULAR MEN🫵🫵

[bakedbeanchan]

Love advice so garbage he doesn't even follow it himself

[nientedal]

What progress at home has biden enacted? What policies of his show that he is making progress that prove he is actually different than trump?

I like to pretend I have faith in humanity, so I'll answer as if you're asking this in good faith.

Biden's DEA has lifted restrictions on telehealth prescriptions to make appointments and assistance more accessible.

He put a funding package into place to help unhoused people get access to mental and physical healthcare, as well as short-term and long-term housing.

He has attempted and is still attempting to get student debt relief through - this was blocked by Republican judges appointed by Trump, but he's still working on it.

Infrastructure repair - his administration has budgeted funds to actually fix some severely-damaged and frequently-traveled bridges.

Trying to expand access to healthcare to include undocumented immigrants who came to the USA as children (Dreamers) under the Affordable Care Act. Support for Navigator programs and outreach has also been increased.

He has vetoed Republican-led bills that were attempting to overturn environmental protections - one that would have forbidden investment fund managers to consider climate change in their portfolios (I have two degrees in accounting and this is actually huge), and another that would have overturned restrictions on agricultural runoff into our waterways.

He and his administration worked for ages to get rail workers paid sick days.

This is just some of what he's been doing. Meanwhile, Trump and other Republicans want to criminalize the lives of LGBT people like you and me. They want to eliminate no-fault divorce and force births that will kill parents or devastate them financially. They have stated flat out that they want to install a military dictatorship in the USA. They attempted to put that in motion on January 6th, 2021. They failed once. They will do better next time.

One party wants to house the homeless and expand social safety nets, while the other one wants to criminalize homelessness. One of them wants a future in which I might be able to vote to change how much of a war machine my country is, while the other one wants to eliminate my ability to vote entirely. Those are not the same. Those literally are opposites.

At the end of the day, all you and I can do is choose to do the least amount of harm possible. You and I cannot choose to do no harm. This is the USA, we sell war, you and I cannot choose to do no harm. I wish we could, my god do I wish we could, but that is not an option. So we grieve for the harm we couldn't eliminate and work to minimize the harm that is done. Despite all the crap they support, Democrats are the minimum amount of harm right now. Acting like they aren't is exactly what brought us to an election where our options are a future where we are either wading in blood or drowning in it.

Not voting for Biden will not help Palestine. Not voting for Biden will guarantee a Republican president who will make the situation in Palestine WORSE. AND it'll hurt a lot of other places as well, both at home and abroad, because Republicans are about business and the USA is in the business of war! And I would very much like that to change someday! I would very much like to someday be able to choose to do no harm! And I know what I have to do to try for that future, so what are YOU going to do? There is no standing off to the side in this. If you aren't helping pull, you're the dead weight we're pulling. Are you going to dig your feet into the mud and blood and drown us there? Or are you going to get the fuck off your ass, grit your teeth, and help us pull free?

[lazylittledragon]

hey idk which anxious pre-t babe needs to hear this but i didn't get to when i was younger so. testosterone will not make you ugly. it won't make you a horrible person. it won't 'mutilate' or ruin your body. if you want to go on testosterone then literally all that happens is it makes you really fucking hot and REALLY fucking happy.

[bacchuschucklefuck]

while teen while goblin while aroace while injured while doing your best