#I feel so gross now

[dervampireprince]

to the anon who just sent me two asks. i am not publishing them so i am addressing you here. stop. yes you are crossing a line. yes you are making me uncomfortable. i didn't ask for help or advise. i am very uncomfortable with being given unsolicited advise. you do not know me. you do not know my situation. doesn't matter what i've shared about myself online, you don't know me. do not come into my ask box to offer me serious life advise. if this happens again i'll just not share anything anymore. do not assume things about my life, or assume worse things about my life than what i've shared. i'm not a fictional character, nor your friend. you do not know me. no matter what i share about me or my personal life, you do not know me nor do you know the details or everything that's going on in my personal life. i do not share most of my personal life because it's personal and private.

i'm sure in your mind you had good intentions, but that was so incredibly inappropriate.

[emmyrosee]

Please don’t feel obligated to read, this is just a vent post (just getting things out into the air) so you can skip, or you can read, whatever you desire 🧡

But today I ran into a really bad demon from my past. It’s so crazy how I changed everything about me- my work field, my job, my self confidence to try and shake him away, and yet when I saw him, it was like I was taken right back to the same kid I was when I met him.

He was so cruel, and he was so mean, and it really just hurts how much I actually *havent* come when it comes to healing myself. I’m still the same dumbass back in high school who thought I could be something big. I can’t.

He didn’t say much, he’ll he didn’t initiate the conversation. But he smiled, nodded his head, and I just blurted out “we went to school together, didn’t we?” And he’s like, “yeah, I knew you looked mad familiar. Good to see you.”

Wish I could say the same. I wish I could just negate the torment and hatred and anxiety and disorders he put me through, along with his gaggle of friends who made it their mission to make me hate myself.

I thought I was doing so good. I thought I was moving on, I thought rebuilding myself was finally starting to take form, and here I was, at work, with my stupid fucking eyes filled with tears and my nails digging into my cuticles, bile rising up my throat, knees going weak and just frozen.

I hate him. I hate what him and his friends have done to me. I hate that I let him affect me like this, I hate that I had to change everything, every little damn thing about me to start to heal.

None of it matters. I’m back at the bottom. I feel like I didn’t heal at all, and it was a waste of my time.

[sunfoxfic]

We were so close to smoking not being cool anymore. We were so close. Then they flavored it mango and now it's taboo to criticize it anymore. People don't ask if they're allowed to vape indoors, they aren't considerate of people who may have health problems that are triggered by the chemicals or if it just bothers them, people don't care that they're supporting an industry built on corruption and greed, they can't see it draining their pockets and much less their health. We were so close to smoking not being cool anymore.

[mikoriin]

not me sleeping until 3 pm...

[aeide-thea]

on principle opposed to describing art i dislike as 'masturbatory' because even though it's an alluringly contemptuous word to sneer it's impossible to reconcile with my pro-masturbation stance

[prettycoolducks]

Fav father daughter duo ✨️❄️

[mommyhorror]

I saw Barbie and didn’t hate it, enjoyed some parts immensely, but

THE KENS HAD ARMPIT HAIR. Why Greta ??? . Literally give me 1(one) reason why the male actors weren’t required to shave their armpits. They are playing plastic DOLLS. AND they wear little shorty shorts and do humiliating things because it’s supposed to kind of reflect how men treat women . At the very very very very very least they all should have been hairless aside from their heads. And honestly I would have glued down their head hair a bit more if I were in charge of HMU but anyways

of course the Barbies didn’t have armpit hair ! but of course not - Barbies don’t have armpit hair and neither do we expect to see adult women in film with armpit hair. BUT WHY NOT TAKE IT OFF THE KEN DOLLS?????

[lilaccatholic]

Complex feelings about copyright and Disney's appalling ethics aside, it does unsettle me how quickly people jump to make and monetize the most unnerving, depraved content imaginable about characters created for children the second it hits the public domain

[shrimpchipsss]

cumplane complain cumplane

[hooffuloftootsierolls]

How it started: Haha funny duck-loving twink goes 3 for 3 on the first humans

How it's going: -AND THEY'VE BOTH BEEN HURT BY EACH OTHER, LUCIFER WAS HURT BY THE EXTERMINATIONS AND ADAM WAS HURT BY GETTING HIS WIVES TAKEN, THEY'VE ALSO BOTH BEEN HURT BY HEAVEN AND THEY BOTH NEED TO GROW AND HEAL AND- AND-

[alluralater]

reminder that people who enable/do nothing when it comes to acts of sexual harassment are basically just as awful as the aggressors. they normalize, justify, and regularly excuse those behaviors and sweep it under the rug. who you decide to call a friend does in fact reflect on you. if you're happy to be around people that engage in predatory behavior and you perceive a clear pattern of it yet do nothing about it, then i'm literally never talking to you again. that goes double for people on here where there's this strange idea that there are no consequences in an online space. there are. damaging other people by staying silent or sitting on the fence when you have the power to do something is a consequence and that shit comes back around ten fold to you. you'd deserve every bit of it. dangerous by association is a thing, and you are.

[spacedlexi]

maybe if i just put these screenshots together youll understand why i think their relationship just Works so well as it pertains to the characters and themes of S4 in general

neither of them know what theyre doing, but theyre figuring it out Together. the old ways are dead. and together theyll build a new future thats worth fighting for

[starry-bi-sky]

Names, Marbles, and Fae-vors - More Lore on my Changeling Danny Au

In my last post I talked about the Infinite Realms and the three different planes existing inside it - the Long Far, Home to the Ancients and Celestial Beings. The Fey Wilds, Home of the Fey and other such Mythological Constructs. And the Ghost Zone, Home to the Mortal Spirits. - as well as three of the different ways beings inside the Infinite Realms can travel between planes; the Lake Portals, the Cave Tunnels, and the Starflare Currents. The Lake Portals and the Cave Tunnels don't have an official term for them yet, but I'll come up with something :).

In this post we'll be talking about some of the abilities of the fey! Specifically the things they're most popularly known for: their name stealing and etiquette thing.

For those who are not as well-versed in Fey Lore, or need a refresher, (and because I just want to yap infodump), one of the first rules you learn when interacting with the Fey is that you never, ever, say "thank you" or "I'm sorry" to them! Which is crazy, because they're really big on etiquette and being polite to each other, which is why one of their epithets is "the Good Neighbor/s". So why should you not say two phrases most commonly used when being polite to someone?

There are two big reasons for this, and the reason I'll be focusing on for this au is because, to the Fey, saying "Thank You" is acknowledgement of a debt that's owed to them. It turns the action or gift into something transactional, and results in a verbal contract that the receiver must then repay later down the line -- and whatever point in time, and with whatever the Fey they are indebted to sees fit. Whether that be food, valuables, or your firstborn child.

The other big reason is because some Fey just think it's rude, and view "thank you" as something that dilutes their act of kindness, and/or implies that they are there to serve you. One of the best summarizations I've seen for fey is that they're bros; they're doing this because they think you're friends -- or something similar to the sort. It's deeply insulting to do all these nice things for a friend, only for that friend to reveal that they don't view you the same way at all.

It's for similar reasons that you also shouldn't say, "I'm sorry" either, except instead of repaying a gift, you are now making reparations for a wrong you have done. A misdeed must be repaid in full, now how are you going to make it up to them? And also because well, I imagine that if saying "thank you" is seen as rude, "I'm sorry" is the exact same way because it dilutes the act.

If you're in a situation where you must say "thank you" or "i'm sorry" there are ways to get around it. "I'm grateful", "you're too kind", "I apologize", or "I feel regret" are just some examples I saw used.

NOW! How is this used in my Changeling AU? The Fey work by these same rules, the only difference is that I've added a physical aspect to it! If Fey are capable of stealing the abstract and turning the incorporeal corporeal, then lets run with it!

"Thank Yous" and "I'm Sorrys" are debts, and Fey can magically bound you into a verbal contract with that alone. However, it's not uncommon -- and actually pretty standard -- for Fey to weave the excess magic of that debt into something physical. They create these delicate-looking, iridescent threads that they then weave into their hair for decoration. And in some areas of the Fey Wilds, use it as a way to show off wealth and/or their own wit.

Ever heard of Fairy Hair? Yeah, same concept.

Debt Threads, as I am temporarily calling them, are thin and airy, and not that much thicker than gossamer. Since it's a debt that is intended to eventually be paid back, it's not practical -- nor is it seen as such -- to use the threads for anything more than temporary cosmetics. As a result, they're usually used for decorating the hair, but some crafty fey use their threads to decorate other appendages, or as form of makeup. Despite their dainty appearance, the threads are actually very sturdy and can only be unweaved by the Fey that created it.

You can, technically, take back your debt thread. However, the threads are made using excess magic of the debt, and not made of the magic of the debt itself, which is why it's so thin and airy. So if you do manage to get it, congrats! All you've got is some pretty string and a pissed off feyrie whose hair you probably just yanked out.

Danny's managed to accrue a few "debts" before he realizes he's a fey, mostly from his friends and sister -- although there are a few from his parents, and some from the other student body from when he was unknowingly and instinctually doing Fey Bullshit. As a result, he starts forcing Sam and Tucker and Jazz to stop thanking him for things, and typically makes them repay him through petty, menial stuff. Like getting him food, or buying him a small but relatively inexpensive trinket he's been eyeing for a while. Never usually anything super important - it's his own way of apologizing for indebting them to him in the first place.

As for his parents... well, he'll hold onto those debts for now. Having a way to magically get them off his back with no questions asked is a boon he's pretty willing to keep close to his chest, and no amount of persuasion will convince him otherwise. Sorry Jazz, Fey side wins out on this one. As for some of the students he's got, Danny manages to psych himself up and release some of them from their contracts without repayment -- even if it makes his bones itch.

AND NOW THE NAMES! You never give a Fey your name because they say everything literally. "Can I have your name?" is a literal question -- they are asking for your name, and thus ownership over you. The other thing is that Names have power, if a fey knows your Full Name they can make you do things for them -- however it goes both ways so you could do the same thing if you learn a Fey's name.

Knowing a Name and owning a Name are two different things, with owning a Name being, naturally, more dangerous as you are basically submitting yourself to permanent indentured servitude, among other things. Knowing a Name can be risky because it results in being more susceptible to fey charms, enchantments, and requests.

But! I digress! Just like how Thank Yous and I'm Sorrys can be turned into a physical object, so can Names! This is not obligatory, nor is it recommended to do often because unlike debt threads, these can be taken back, but it happens!

Names can be trapped in these little, colorful glass-like orbs -- marbles, they're marbles/pearls. They can be trapped in what are basically magic marbles, and just like debt threads, be used for decoration. They're more versatile though, and are used for different things since unlike debt threads, the pearls are meant to be permanent! They make beautiful jewelry, since the pearls come in various different colors depending on the person it once belonged to, and the intent behind its creation.

The marbles have a hard outer shell, with the cores having a fluid, shimmery appearance. Look up liquid core dice, and Name Marbles have a similar appearance, just more... ethereal, with different shades of the same color swirling inside. Not two pearls look the same, and even ones that have similar colors or appearances have subtle differences in them that are imperceptible to the mortal eye. Some pearls look like the deepest trenches of the ocean, blacks and dark blues swirling around each other as flecks of bioluminescence float inside. While others look like a lilac winter sunset, with hand-held purples bleeding into pink and gold.

Convincing Danny to return the Names he's gotten is harder than convincing him to absolve the debts. It takes a lot more psyching up on his part to actually do it, and more verbal coaxing and negotiating on his friends' part. Because on an instinctual fey level, those names are rightfully his. For all intents and purposes, he was given those names freely and without reservation, and so to be told that he has to return what were essentially gifts to him is... deeply distressing.

Lots of cognitive dissonance there. His human-raised brain and morals know why he needs to give them back, and he feels bad for owning them. But his new changeling-baby fey-brain is deeply upset at the prospect, and is a liittle bit stronger than the once-human part of him. He rapidly becomes overwhelmed when trying to convince himself to return the Names. He does, eventually, end up doing it, but he's unwillingly upset the whole time.

[b1mbodoll]

stepbro jake save me stepbro jake stepbro jake stepbro jake stepbro jake stwpbro jake stppbro jake step bro jake stepbro jake

[lazzarella]

I love that from the moment Tan kissed Fang on the cheek and Fang looks surprised and then has that super cute nose scrunch smile that he obviously likes him and that Tan brings out something in him no one else does (that we see)

But it’s also like… it’s always there, but it’s also a really lovely slow reveal of the full extent of his feelings? Until there’s no denying that oh, yeah, he’s just as gone as Tan is and just as adorably in love and that they’re perfectly matched

[oceanwithouthermoon]

i posted abt this on my tiktok story but i need to rant more so im putting it here 😭😭 the way a lot of mikosai shippers (on tiktok, pinterest, reddit, etc) are is such a big reminder to me of why i hate the strictly romantic soulmates trope with every fiber of my being 😭😭😭 people who interpret soulmates as "that means theyre canonically together" regardless of how the characters actually feel about each other and if they ACTUALLY get together is so fucking gross to me oh my god its so fucking gross i hate forced romance so bad 😭😭 someone cant just say "hey, we're soulmates so you HAVE to date me and its literally weird and impossible for you to like anyone else because i said so!!" and also aiura WOULDNT do that anyway ???? HELLOOO???

you have no idea how many people ive seen call all saiki ships with anyone other than aiura "problematic ships" just because "theyre soulmates"