#I guess I'll make a writing tag uwu

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

Six Sentences Game Wip pic/edit

@atuats-sidechick tagged me about drawing so uuhhhh here's a messy edit I did for a post I'm doing 8U

[wonryllis]

、ㅤ🪷 ⋆ ࣪ 午 MY LOVES (MOOTiEs) ᵎᵎ ✶ 𝐒𝐅𝐖 so srry for the tag.

THERE'S NO SPECIFIC ORDER,, IF I MISSED SOMEONE IM SO SORRY IT WASN'T INTENTIONAL JUST PLS LMK ASAP ILL ADD YOU!!

@jaesvelvet ( cha ) my soft corner, love her so much and miss her so damn much all the time talking to her is healing

@seungstarss ( sei ) my first ever fan turned bestie :( miss you babes,, i literally survived half my time of tumblr becuz of her

@maiverie ( mai ) the humour goddess, fics are top tier plots filled with crack you never gonna find another like her, my second bestie <3

@luvhyun3 ( kana ) my love who is almost never on here anymore but i still love her, we're in long distance atm pls understand.

@hoes4hoseok ( piper ) her brain, brains so hard, the creativity is off the charts and so underrated like people are blind if you don't know her.

@ctrlemis ( art ) bestie who's perhaps as crazy as me if not more, we had a super talking stage but our situationship is kinda off rn :( miss you

@jangwonie ( fae ) she's my baby don't touch her. a pretty little sweetie angel, so caring, mwah :3

@nyukyujs ( kya ) the sweetest purest person ever like the most beautiful angel inside out! taught me so much about spreading love and positivity

@heecyon ( bee ) she's my wife, i love her a lot but we haven't been talking for a long while now, if you see this beebee i miss you a lot let's catch up wyf.

@koishua ( vienna ) didn't talk a lot but i love loved her works, it was everything, sad she left but it's a part of life.

@boyfhee ( caelin ) the reincarnate of shakespeare? hello? and so sweet and humble too a literal babe. period.

@www-jungwon ( elena ) another one i haven't gotten dirt on yet,, soon though. she's my high achiever mate who writes cute masterpieces

@okwonyo ( jiah/bambi ) always sending suspicious anon asks +_+ and making it so obvious omg she's an amateur baby

@eeunoia ( psyche ) the prettiest sunghoon girlie of all time, the most talented, and lastly my idol that's i'll never roast or dig up dirt on ☆‿⁠☆

@leaderwon ( luna ) another baby of mine that i absolutely need to protect. she be so me can't let her end up like me damn.

@tyunni ( may ) we not that close but i love her account and i love her works and i love her vibes so bingo! riki to my won.

@jjunae ( kae ) hold on for a little im busy finding pick up lines for this gorgeous right here,, let my rizz not fail

@stariekis ( uri ) an angel who showed up one day and took me to her hometown where i found out i was the lost angel from their village. oh.

@lheebra ( dani ) my dear little love who will always have VIP passes to my blog. a sweetpie with limitless talents!

@isoobie ( ri ) she's a student of how to do it like yeonie school and lemme tell you, she's an ace already aimming for the top spot, beware.

@fakeuwus ( nic ) uwu uwu uwuuuu uwuu uwu uwuwu uwu uwu uwuwuu (she's my uwu who understands my uwu language, my uwu soulmate)

@lilyuwon ( yev ) one of the first persons i talked to on this blog, and im so glad we still do, love interacting with her and absolute lovely being!

@ms-no1kpopstan ( mickie ) cutiepie who's such a sweetpea, haven't been talking for long but she's really nice and supportive, adore her :3

@theyluvvaubery ( ? ) haven't been able to interact or talk much but she's a sweetie!!

@sainns ( anna ) my fellow sunghoon hoe keeper, we are protecting him from the locals who always ask for him. we gatekeep and share!

@stwrjvke ( ash ) she boops as much as she loves and guess what she booped me infinite so.. i bewitched her at my annual royal ball.

hmu if you wanna be mutuals/frnds im always up for it!

MUTUALS I HAVEN'T TALKED TO BUT WOULD LOVE TO!

@sjyuns

@kareyuns

୨ৎ . . 𝓂o𝐨𝐭 𝓰a𝗺𝗲s ᵎᵎ

moots in prompt generator with bias and i rate them.

moots as tropes assigned with any idol.

moots as kpop idols they'd be.

moots as songs, webtoons and who'd be travel buddy + sibling vibes

moots as favorite drinks.

moots as kpop songs.

moots on the level of delulu-ness.

moots in winx club.

moots as tropes they suit. (2)

moots as kpop idols i see them as. (2)

[astarionancuntnin]

✨Writing Interview Tag Game✨

Thank you for the tag @nyx-knox!! <33

When did you start writing?

Like wayyyyyyyyy back, I technically wrote my first story when i was 11. I didn't write again until i was 15 (original pieces + fanfics), then i stopped and Im back at it again at 26 ayoooo

Are there different themes or genres you enjoy reading than what you write?

if i really need to search further into my favorite books, i would definitely say psychological horror and dramas

Is there a writer you want to emulate or get compared to often?

I don't know writers enough to really get an idea of how to compare myself to any of them, but I do know that i tend to emulate what i'm exposed to, so if I read an entire series from an author, and they used a certain syntax, i'll tend to also do it by force of habit. (i also consider it a flaw cause i see it as hindering my writing creativity ;-;)

Can you tell me a bit about your writing space?

its my personal pc that doubles as my work space, so its a bit all over the place ngl haha, theres a lot of astarion stickers and posters, all the furniture (keyboard, mouse, desk, etc) is pastel purple (my favorite colour), i have three screens (mostly for work but its also useful in day to day life) and my three wallpapers are astarion, of course. sometimes when i feel a writers block, i found out that writing on my laptop does unblock me! in that case, youll find me typing away on my couch in my living room uwu

What's your most effective way to muster up a muse?

MUSIC. What I write will be highly dependent on what I listen at the moment, like I was really into boywithuke when i wrote my angsty fics, and then i moved to a dark romance playlist and that got me going for die for you but then i was unable to continue my other fic cause i wasnt in an angsty mood anymore ._. (i swear i didnt abandon it, it just isnt the playlists turn to play on repeat) and rn im a lot into sleep token and ari abdul

Are there any recurring themes in your writing? Do they surprise you?

So. Much. Smut. And angst. not surprising! my writing will also often depict my current state of mind. dw im in therapy, im working on it

What is your reason for writing?

It's my favorite creative output/the one im most experienced in! i wanna start drawing but i never find the time to really get into it and also terrified of failure which brings me to my second reason, its all i think i can do and i get dopanine reading nice comments teehee

Is there any specific comment or type of comment you find particularly motivating?

when people tell me about a favourite part, when they liked the tension i managed to create, how i convey some characters, and most of all when i get told they loved a character i created!! this is so encouraging and pushes me to continue <3

How do you want to be thought about by your readers?

i dont know how to answer to that .-. uh, i guess i want to be liked? seen as a good writer if anything? idk man ;-;

What do you feel is your greatest strength as a writer?

Definitely descriptions, and creating a build up in a scene. I feel like it comes naturally to me and people have often told me that they are never lost when reading my scenes which reassures me so much LMAO I feel validated I also think I make really fun dialogue, especially banter with my ocs/tavs

How do you feel about your own writing?

i often self criticise my own work a lot, and i get that imposter syndrome where ill reread my work before posting and go "what the hell" in those moments, im grateful im not writing on paper cause that sheet would find its way to the trash real quick ^^ ' im sincerely truly blessed that my partner offers himself to read my pieces and beta read them, and tell me his honest opinion (there are things i wrote i wish i could forget and yall better be thankful he was there to stop me from posting first versions)

When you write, are you influenced by what others might enjoy reading, or do you write purely for yourself, or a mix of both?

mix of both definitely. initially i wrote my own ideas and if people do end up liking them hell yeah!!! glad im able to find people that vibe the same way i do! then again, when i write for people, even if most of it comes from my silly little imagination, it was initially influenced by the request itself and is going to guide the writing specific to this piece, which honestly makes sense imo

Tagging 🏷️: @marlowethebard @roguishcat @anacdoce @charmandabear @marimosalad

[kananjarus]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

tagged by @bvckandeddie thank you so much!!! 💕

How many works do you have on ao3?

only 18 hehe

What's your total ao3 word count?

341,541 😳 I would've guessed way less than that lmao

What fandoms do you write for?

mostly 911 but I've written for star wars, spn, and marvel (mcu)

Top five fics by kudos:

end of the affair

fill me in (don't sink me)

this must be the place

13 days to say I love you

feeling small

Do you respond to comments?

yes...I don't know how to handle compliments so it takes me a while but I do my best

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I don't think I have one?

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

they all have happy endings knskdfn but I guess 13 days is the least angsty fic I've written

Do you get hate on fics?

not that I've heard? I got an meh comment for a 911 fic once because the reader was upset I wrote Eddie having a Real Adult Reaction to something instead of some uwu shit. that's the closest thing to negativity I've seen

Do you write smut?

I have before but it's been a while

Craziest crossover:

ehhh I'm not one for crossovers but I guess the 911 / station eleven au counts?

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that I'm aware of

Have you ever had a fic translated?

no but that would be so cool!

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

no :(

All time favourite ship?

that is so hard. I'm in my silverflint renaissance era currently so I'll pick them. the way their story ends will haunt me forever, and every time I rewatch the show it as painful as the first time all over again. it's a prequel to treasure island so even from their first meeting you might not know how their relationship plays out but you know it's going to end tragically. they are quite literally doomed by fate no matter what choices they make *screams into a pillow* that's my SHIT

What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

other than my long star wars fic, my answer will always be the captain america/stevebucky house of leaves au. I was not a committed writer at all when I thought of it and the idea is still so cool to me but it would be such a huge project if I sat down and actually tried to flesh it out

What are your writing strengths?

writing suspense (I just wish I had the kind of big brain ideas for horror stories. I want to be a horror writer so bad)

What are your writing weaknesses?

lately I feel like it's been dialogue. I don't know if I'm just going thru a phase but every piece of dialogue I've written recently feels incredibly forced and I hate it

Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

I know limited spanish. that's the only foreign language I've written dialogue in but I'm always afraid of getting a translation wrong so I really try to avoid it if I can sdfjnkkgn

First fandom you wrote in?

h*rry p*tter

Favourite fic you've written?

it changes all the time lmao. dead reckoning is the current favorite because it was so fun to write, but I'm also really proud of my self for the station eleven au. when I first came up with the idea I was 'get real you'll never be able to pull this off' but I'm actually doing it! take that self-doubt 😊💪

Idk who has already done one of these but I'll tag: @rogerzsteven @shortsighted-owl @mellaithwen @asharadaine @markofalover

[missallanea-a]

GETTING TO KNOW YOU.

respond to the following prompts out of character. then, tag others that you'd like to get to know a little bit better!

ROLEPLAYER NAME: Missa

ROLEPLAYER PRONOUNS: She / Her

MUSE NAME: Multimuse ( too many to list here )

PREFERRED COMMUNICATION: IMs. I'm getting back into adding people to Discord as well, but that's a bit slow going.

EXPERIENCE: 12 years on Tumblr ( hhhh ) and 18-ish years spent writing on various forums and instant messengers.

PREFERRED ROLEPLAY TYPE: I mostly write slice of life type stuff these days, although leaning toward fluff or angst is always fine. I can't say I necessarily have a preference : the only thing I don't necessarily prefer to write is fighting ( as in writing physical fights, not arguments ) or smut.

PET PEEVES & DEALBREAKERS:

"WANNA RP" ASKS : These drive me absolutely up a wall. I'm not talking about people reaching out in IMs or asks with "hey I have an idea I want to play out," or sending me plot ideas. No, I mean asks that straight up, just say "wanna rp?" or some variation therein. First off : I'm a roleplay blog. So I feel like the question is irrelevant. But second off, these asks always, always come from non-mutuals who clearly have disregarded my rules to send the ask. I delete them on sight. Petty? Probably. But I cannot stand them.

PUTTING MORE THAN ONE-TO-THREE SPACES BETWEEN YOUR WORDS : So, I can't really see the difference when people put two or three spaces between their words versus one. What I'm talking about here is when people put like... five-to-ten. It makes your posts impossible to read, and if there's some aesthetic to it, I just... don't see it. It just hurts my head and makes me mad.

REPETITIVELY STATING NO ONE WANTS TO WRITE WITH YOU : Yes, this is petty of me, but dear lord. Nothing is more annoying to me than looking at someone's blog and seeing endless pages of them whining or passive-aggresively saying things like "WELL since NO ONE wants to write with me I guess I'll log off" or something like that. It just... drives me up a wall. I get it, it feels like crap when you feel like no one wants to write with you. But this is a hobby, and if it is effecting your mood that deeply that often then you may need to disconnect to prevent the social bleed. Once in a while is one thing, everyone has a down day. I'm talking about blogs where every other post is some variation on this theme.

PLOTS OR MEMES: Memes, honestly. I'm not against plotting, but I am so horrifically bad at it. If you come to me with a plot you wanna play out, I'll probably be game! But I'm... not likely... to come up with anything.

LONG REPLIES OR SHORT REPLIES: Yes. There is no or, the answer is yes. My one exception is one-liners : I don't mind short posts when you give me somewhere to go / something to go off of. But a single line of dialogue is probably not gonna do the trick, unless it's just a silly crack thread.

BEST TIME TO WRITE: Late evening into middle of the night. Sometimes I can also get writing done in the middle of the day, but not often.

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSES: Yes and no. On a multimuse like this, the answer is definitely : some of them, absolutely yes. I see a lot of myself in Amity, Eda, Kagami, and Maxi. But others, not in the least.

tagged by: @serabellyms thank you ♡

tagging: whoever wants to steal it uwu

[ahaura]

7?? 💓

7. Any media/fandom you will avoid at all costs?

personally speaking i make a point of avoiding n.eil g.aiman and anything related to him. i know there are legitimate criticisms against him which i cant remember atm (bad memory day </3) but my dislike for him goes back longer than people have made posts about it. it all started when i was reading this anthology of short horror fiction and i understand that the thing about anthologies is that due to the variety there are bound to be some authors and/or selections i won't like for whatever reason and that's just part of the process. HOWEVER. at that point i had never read one of his works before but i'd heard a lot about him. so i read the selection and it sucked. i don't remember what it was about but i do remember it was a challenge to slog through and i was grateful for when it was over. i was disappointed because even then he'd been hyped up and maybe this was just a bad selection of his work but in any case it did not make a good impression on me and i moved on. flash forward to at least a few years later and i'm reading a different anthology. "horror of the decade" ed. by ellen datlow, something i never finished which requires its own post but to sum up some of her selections DEFINITELY should not have been hailed "best of the decade." they shouldn't have been selected as good horror at all if in my opinion. but anyway g.aiman was on the bookjacket and i was like *sigh* okay well im not really looking forward to it but i guess i'll give it a shot especially since it was one of the shorter entries. and then i read it and it fucking sucked. it was ass. it was some stupid story about sailors lost at sea who resorted to cannibalism or something and i wanted to like it but i just couldn't get behind his writing. at that point, to me, it felt like he'd just been included so that his name could be slapped on the cover and they selected one of his works at random. it felt a lot like quality didn't matter for some of the selections as much as the name or maybe filling up space. or perhaps it's the editor's personal choice which is why i dislike datlow as an editor. and dont get me wrong there was a few REALLY, REALLY good selections in that volume but g.aiman's was NOT one of them. and it just felt like an utter waste of time and a joke because there was nothing impressive or noteworthy about his writing or storytelling ability and what always makes my dislike worse is when people's fanbases have to hype them up as a god-send or revolutionary. now i am aware that maybe these were just. bad selections and not representative of his full body of work and to that i say too bad i dont care. and i am also aware that there are probably fans of his i am mutuals with who love his work which is fine great good for them this is not directed @ them but it's irrelevant. because i think he sucks and he's overrated and exacerbates it all is that he's on tumblr as like the resident uwu celebrity author or whatever and it's like. you come onto the silly little blogging site where i reblog silly images with my friends and mutuals and make me not only hear about him but make me see his TAKES? his posts? JAIL! JAIL FOR 1000 YEARS! and in any case it doesn't really matter the block button is free and filtering tags exist but also if ONE more person recs his books to me i will explode. i dont want to read him i do not care i dont think he's more noteworthy or talented than anyone else on the scene (not that i am aware of the scene) i just do not care and do not want to hear about him. yeehaw <3

[spynorth]

🔥🔥🔥 ( about the rpc, about the treatment of morally ambiguous characters, your topic of choice )

unpopular opinion time.

I absolutely HATE when people post constant guilt tripping/negativity on the dash. Like, shut the fuck uppppppp !!! You're ostracizing anyone and everyone who has reached out to you/who writes with you/who is trying to interact with you. Do you want pitty follows? Do you want pity interactions? Are you hoping that people will abandon writing with others to just spend every moment of their fucking day telling you how great you are? GO TOUCH GRASS. GET OUT OF YOUR PAJAMAS. GET THE CRUMBS OUT OF YOUR HAIR. SEE THE SUNSHINE. it is not tumblr's responsibility to brighten your day. In fact, tumblr is the worst place to expect something like that. It's a blackhole. and spouting negativity on the dash constantly is just going to chase people away so you're getting the opposite result of whatever it is you think you're after.

tumblr acts like morally ambiguous characters don't exist. The amount of times you go to a blog and it's 100% black or 100% white is fucking astounding to me. It's like people forget you're writing a human being (fantasy characters aside, excuse the description) who has complexities. they have layers. they are an onion !! Even when they claim to 'respect that [character] is not a great person', how many times is the blog full of nothing but excuses and uwu my baby is just so misunderstood someone please cuddle them posts?? there's a lot of that rampant in the tag for lucas but i think my biggest issue in the rpc itself was always with jaime and hook. literally had someone try to plot with me on killian once where they were like "she can sneak aboard his ship and he can show her how to stargaze. she can change him." and i was sitting there like "mate, this is a captain hook blog." so my overall unpopular opinion i guess, is that people on tumblr take morally ambiguous characters and either label them as 100% problematic or they focus on these little pieces of the characterization to make sure they have reasons/excuses for said character's actions. I don't get it. So the person sucks sometimes...who cares?? I suck sometimes. We all suck sometimes. That's what makes us interesting.

i believe that people who post constant hate anons, especially if said ask is a vague reference to a duplicate, are sending them to themselves. replies like "i know." and "yeah..." and "guess i'll delete..." - I don't have people like that on my dash anymore (i refuse. I'm not in charge of bolstering feelings) but it used to make me want to throw my laptop/pull my hair out. And I don't think people expect me to know when I'm like passive aggressively mentioned on any of my blogs (hook used to be especially bad but i think killian jones as captain hook is just universally accepted as my oc at this point), but I have a lot of friends and know a lot of people and I always know. And the same goes for when people do it about friends. We all know. We're not stupid. I shitpost on the dash like an idiot, but I swear my IQ is higher than that makes it seem. but yeah, when people constantly post hate anons and they aren't using them to educate said anon on a valid point .. I immediately am just like "yeah, that's you." please be smarter about it. make it believable. i beg of you. and if it's not you ... turn off anon, wtf.

[hijirikaww]

I posted 20,688 times in 2022

That's 1,324 more posts than 2021!

123 posts created (1%)

20,565 posts reblogged (99%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@everythingfox

@atzupdates

@weenie-kun

@abiaswreck

I tagged 782 of my posts in 2022

#yayy - 112 posts

#happy emmy times - 98 posts

#ask! - 87 posts

#happy inbox noises - 86 posts

#:) - 78 posts

#uwu - 73 posts

#legendary - 70 posts

#bookmark - 32 posts

#liza-empress-of-emojis - 28 posts

#tag! - 27 posts

Longest Tag: 132 characters

#sometimes i hear myself say them in dutch and i go "huh what is that number? where did this come from? oh different language got it.

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

I realize after re-reading my response about the whole Andy Biersack/Palate Royale thing that it might have come off as aggressive so I apologize. I guess I just get defensive about them because a lot of people like to talk sh*t about anything involving them without knowing any of the background info 😆

Ah no worries I didn't interpret it like that whatsoever and I actually really appreciated the sharing of knowledge ahaha. I knew Andy and Remi were both very happy to do the project so I just shrugged the choice off, any content of Andy is a bonus, and boy do I love Remis covers of all those songs so 👍🏻👍🏻 zero complaints from me hehe

But I'm glad now I can finally place why they had made that choice! 🐛

3 notes - Posted May 25, 2022

#4

9 and 22 for the wip asks.

Oooo thank you for the ask!!!

9. what are you struggling with the most in finishing your current wip(s)? 

I have the most troubles with filling in the gaps. I love adding more and more plot, but taking the time to write everything out can be a struggle. When I'm not into that particular vibe at that moment is is almost impossible, so I really need to follow my heart and work on what it desires hehe~

22. when do you know you’re really in a writing frenzy?

For me, that is usually when my ideas come faster than my fingers can type (which is mega fast) and I love it!! I love surprising myself with all the new plot and dialog etc. It is really exciting and I often find myself exclaiming out loud from happiness or astonishment. I really start gushing. These are the moments of writing I cherish the most, and what brings me the most happiness and fulfilment ♡♡♡

I hope you are doing well!~☆

4 notes - Posted June 7, 2022

#3

I'm moving to England today 😳

My bags are stuffed to the max, 99% practical minimalist stuff but I'm convinced I'll manage with this. Or else I'll have to get it there because nobody is coming my way for several months hahaha.

I'm ready for this adventure, woo!~☆

First real time of living by myself, but I got my dream job in the dream place so I'm positive about it ;)

Fingers crossed everything will go well!!

5 notes - Posted January 7, 2022

#2

Just a silly little update on what I'm up to atm! (literally up lol)

Happy life 🥰

6 notes - Posted July 6, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

I just finished knitting my first ever full size sock!!! It is super soft and comfy I love it 😍💫

Now to make its buddy!!

The colours don't come out in the pic that well, but they fit pride month perfectly hehe~☆

11 notes - Posted June 5, 2022

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

[strawberryinserts]

Ok!! This is my first time posting a fic on tumblr I hope it works gdhdnsk I also hope y'all like it 💙💙💙

It's billy lenz/reader, the reader is neutral and its just a lotta fluff

This is also cross posted (I think thats the term) from my ao3 since I'm too shy to just link it hdhsns

"Warm..."

That's what you could (barely) hear from your boyfriend, as he basically buried his face into the back of your neck, squeezing you almost too tight as he sniffed your hair, you guess he likes your new shampoo.

You felt a shiver run down when he started kissing your neck softly, God he was so cold, you have to start getting him to come down more often it's probably not good for him being up in the attic so much, especially when it's so cold...

"Yo-you're so soft...love how you fe-feel.." You were about to respond when he rubbed against you, he got excited a little too easily...

"S-so soft and warm...I wanna- I wanna fu-" you held his hand that was rubbing circles on your stomach and shushed him

"Not right now babe, just wanna cuddle, we can later" you felt him grumble against your neck as he went back to burying himself into it, you let out a small giggle, his hair touching your neck was a bit ticklish, you could feel him grin,

"Hey...the moon is really pretty tonight..can you see it?" You asked softly, you were looking out the window at the night sky, the moon was big, bright, and beautiful...it reminded you of Billy's smile.

"Mm.." You could feel him move a little, glancing at the window, you felt a little brave tonight so..

"It's really beautiful..like y-you.." damn it, you couldn't help the small stutter at the end

You felt him squeeze your hand a little tight, and heard him let out a small gasp, you could feel his face get warm against your neck, you guess he was starting to blush..usually he's the one making you blush, it feels...nice making him all embarrassed..it's cute, he's cute.

"..you're pretty cute y'know.." He squeezed your hand again, and you heard him let out a small whine.

You brought his hand up to your face, and placed a small kiss on it, you heard another whine, and you swore he almost bucked his hips but stopped himself,

"Hey," you turned around, facing him, you could see his red face thanks to the moonlight pouring in from the window, his adorable, blushing face, you cupped his face as he looked at you, a little wide eyed

"I love you" you closed your eyes and leaned in, kissing him softly, he hesitated for a second before wrapping his arms around you, bringing you in closer, as he kissed back, you stopped the kiss before it could get a little too steamy, you stared up at him, smiling, you loved these soft moments with him, they could be rare with how..he usually is, but these moments, you wish they could last forever.

"Love you t-too.." He said softly, you knew he wasn't used to being soft, to being complimented, you just wanted to shower him with love and affection,

"Y'know..with the moonlight and everything..god you're really handsome" he quickly hid his face into your neck again, still embarrassed by your words, you let out a small giggle, god he was fucking adorable.

"Y-you're- you're cute too-" you heard him say against your neck, you were about to reply when you felt him kiss your neck, and you let out a small noise,

"A-ah- hey no fa-fair, Billy.." You felt him grin against your neck

"You said we could later, and it's later now, b-billy wants you...y-you're so ki-kind and soft, and w-warm and-"

Well...maybe he'll be soft during this too?

[showrunnerihardlyknowher]

can I ask what you miss about 2019? i didn't join until last year...what was it like?

Long rant beneath

The community was just so much bigger than what it was now. There were so many creators pumping out stories and artwork left and right, everything was fresh and original, hell even with Sanders Sides running amok everything was a new concept because you could mix and matched like 8 personalities in any setting you wanted. Fearplay was a lot more popular, too. Everyone made something and everyone reblogged something

But now it's just...stale. It's the same five creators over and over again because everyone else either left on their own or were squeezed out of the community. Everything needed to be fluffy and wholesome, only soft hearted male giants or epic, badass giantesses. Fics can only be 1% angst and 99% comfort, and all of those things are just not my style.

"Well if you don't like it, create your own work" I did and I love Star Wars rip off so much, but pretty quickly once everyone else started leaving I was bled dry because I was one of the few fearplay authors left. If you want constant engagement, you have to post damn near daily, which I normally don't have the luxury of doing seeing as I work full time and write at least 10K

Not to mention the community itself is so clique-y, which I've said before. It's not those same 5 creators fault that they got so popular and everyone only flocks to them, they're just trying to make something that brings them and their friends joy, but I'm so tired of seeing the same fic/art 8 times a day on my dash. Especially when they're character types I already don't care for. And if you're not friends with those creators? Forget having your work seen outside of your mutuals, it's almost like you need those creator's stamp of approval saying "Yep, this is a good post because I like it!"

And I'll be honest, I used g/t as a way to cope with my sexual assaults and baby loss. I liked being able to create dark fics with big, oppressive forces and tiny, helpless victims as a way to vent through both POVs. I liked being in control of the concept of overpowering. And now it's like...that's not allowed. You get messages or comments telling you certain tropes are fucked, or gosh these characters are swell but this would be 10000% better if it was uwu pure sugar fluff. No, I want it to be fucked up, I want to explore darker themes. "But g/t needs to be sfw because it's a comfort!!" Yes. It's my comfort as well, you don't get to gatekeep how I make my OCs act.

Also, being an author in the fandom these days is just harder than it used to be. No one wants to sit down and read a fic, they just want to see the pretty visualizes your or someone else made instead. Before, fics FLOODED the g/t tag and it was as magically as Matilda going to the library for the first time. So many stories at your fingertips! Now it's 90% art, which is fine! Art is beautiful! I've made art myself and I've had lovely followers make art for me which I am incredibly thankful for. But it's like that shortened attention span, you know? Why sit down a read a 20K fic when I can just look at art of the crux scene in 10 seconds and get the whole vibe? You're shit out of luck if you're not a popular artist to begin with.

I could really go on and list specific blogs and the shit they've done, but that's not fair of me to do. It's not intentionally their fault. That's just how the pieces happened to fall I guess. And really right now, I'm eight times more emotional than normal because my hormones are rampaging and slagging me with baby blues. Like I said, g/t used to be my coping mech for this type of thing, but with how the fandom is now, it's just not working like it used to and is making my mood feel even worse because of it.

I may end up taking a hiatus in the very near future, I may even end up retiring this blog altogether because I don't see the point in keeping up with a fandom that doesn't make me happy anymore. I'll sleep on it of course before I make any hasty decisions, I might bounce back in a couple days once my uterus stops making me depressed, but we'll have to see.

Hey, if you made it this far into my rant, please remember to reblog stories from small creators that you like. Please remember to give newbies in the g/t tag a chance instead of waiting for your fav content creator to give the all clear and declare the new work a hit, especially since they're all their own clique and hardly seem to reblog outside of each other anyways (like a little popular club whirlwind). If you want new and fresh content, then you gotta help expand the new and fresh content, otherwise authors aren't going to be as inclined to continue to develop it.

It's been a trip, y'all. Have fun out there

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【30 Questions of CP, OC & Fandom★】  

| Credits to @mukami-kuron-mrsadisticcat !! Hopping in to be cool as everyone else- |

1. How long have you been in this fandom?

Around three years I guess? Taking in mind that I abandoned this blog for like two years- HAHA

2. Who's your fictional boyfriend/husband?

Sanji Vinsmoke-- AHEM, if we're talking about DL then it's Kanato xD

3. Why do you like them?

I liked him because he's cute and I believe he's one of the brothers that gets the more tender when he loves his S/O but there are other brothers who also do that so...

I think I never really liked Kanato, I remember that I focused on him because he was assigned to me on a roleplay group around 7 or 8 years ago xd

4. Have you make acquaintance with anyone that ships themselves with the same character?

Nah.

5. How do you feel about it?

No comments jdbskfbs

6. Do you feel any negativity towards them?

Uh

7. Do you like seeing their oc(s) interact with your man/woman?

uH

8. Do you feel competitive against them?

Uh

9. Confident, or pessimistic?

I'm confident all the time but as everyone it varies ksksksk

10. Would you like more to get to know about your ship, or would you rather it being lowkey?

I honestly don't care anymore for the ship, I just wanna roleplay with people because it's fun 🤸

11. Do you follow any of those people (them whom ship themselves with your fictional lover)

Yes! I used to follow @barashikki-dialoversoc when they posted more often, but it's not as active than before. Even though I always liked Bara and her headcanons and writings ksjsjs

12. Are you friends with them?

I think so 👉👈

13. What do you think about the 'stans' ?

It's alright ig, I don't care djsbdksb

14. Are you worried about plagiarism or copying of your oc(s) by others?

Nah, there's always bad people around but I'm not worried about it xd

15. How do you handle such a situation if it happens?

I would try to talk it and if that doesn't work or they block me I'll try more drastic ways (?

16. Is your cp public or only between a particular circle of friends?

It's public but ppl may not notice it at first becoz I don't talk about Tomoky x Kanato as often xd

17. Do you lock a specific cp ship, whats the reason? (I dare you to tag them~!)

Oh fuck yeah

I REALLY love TomokyxShoma (@komori--shoma ), it wasn't planned at first but it was like they had a click- HAHA, they're just so cute together and they're like one for each other KSBSKDJS 💕

I would like to mention that I highly like Mystic x Tommy too (@mino-diabolik ) but we're working on a it uwu however they will always be best friends jdjsdj 💖

18. What kind of behaviors do you suppose is pretentious to you?

Mmmmm anything unpleasant, hateful or possesive maybe, be nice.

19. What kind of comments do you dislike the most when it comes cp feedbacks of your oc(s)?

Ummm I donno! I've never gotten any but I would be very sad if someone said that their story is bad or boring when I've been doing my best to bring an interesting lore.

20. Have you receive hates about your oc(s) before?

Thankfully no uwu

21. Do you have a complete love story of your cp?

For Kanato x Tomoky: Hmmmmmmmmm not really and I'm not planning on doing one either ksbdksbf

For Shoma x Tomoky: Nothing's set yet haha, I guess that at the moment they used to be good friends and caught feelings, but I'm willing to doing or planning their whole story 💖

22.  Do you allow joint of alternate universe with the canon version of your cp story?

Yeah! Actually Mystic (@mino-diabolik ) is Tomoky's best friend and I was planning to make it part of the 'canon' version of her story dkbsdksj

23. Are you okay with people shipping their oc(s) with yours?

Yeah! As long as we build the relationship with love and smoochies then it's fine kdbskdbs

24. Ever gone through a bad experience in the fandom?

Thankfully no.

25. The ocs that you admire in this fandom are? (Tag them~)

Are you challenging me-

*Deep inhale*

@lured-into-wonderland @mino-diabolik @daughter-of-royalty @komori--shoma @strawberry--bride @bluebird-dolly-bride @smonie @sunny-flower-spot @kurosawa-family @fruit-of-infidelity

Even if we haven't talked or so I admire each of you 🤲💖

and if you're not here it's because there are lots of OCs, but i love everyone!! And i'll support everyone as long as I can, kisses ❤️

26. What is the moment that caused you to feel most disappointed or excited?

Dissapointed: Coming back to Tumblr and realizing I abandoned and missed my friends and their content for almost 2 years 💀

Excited: Bro I get excited every time I get a response to roleplay or so ksbsidjs so many things make me excited

27. The scariest era that you have come across in the fandom?

This one- Right now- I'm trying my best to deliver quality content to the people that follow me and look after me so I always check my writings and posts more than twice

28. The most wonderful thing you have come across in this fandom?

OTHER OC'S-- AND NEW FRIENDS-- AND WONDERFUL PEOPLE-- AND AAAAAAAA

29. Say something towards those that sup port and admire your cp~

I love you all so much and I appreciate you and ya'll can count on me on everything and I'm really thankful ❤️❤️❤️

30. You've worked hard, keep up the goid work! ★★★

Yay! Thank you!

[southsidestory]

If you are queer af (as you say), why the only thing I see on your blog are f/m ships?

you don't like ship f/f-wlw?

This is a shitty ask. Like a *really* really shitty ask. Just gonna make that clear right off the bat.

Yes, I am as queer af as I say! Questioning that because of what I ship is absurd.

You wanna see the queer content on my blog? Then check my #stucky and #utena and #korrasami tags. There's a little Mor x Emerie and Kelly x Yorkie (from the "San Junipero" episode of Black Mirror, which I highly recommend, my fave queer rep ever) and Stormpilot and Finnreylo and Gallavich and Sambucky and InoSaku and a number of other queer ships scattered throughout my blog as well! But I guess you didn't search too thoroughly before you sent this. 🥰

Most of the fanfic I write is f/m, yes, but not all of it, and even in those stories I often feature queer secondary ships. Some of my best fics are my Stucky works (m/m), I've ventured into Stormpilot (m/m) and Finnreylo (f/m/m), and I'm very proud of my Utena/Anthy story (f/f).

The latter of which, by the way, is one of my less popular fics. Because fandom largely does not give a flying fuck about f/f couples, especially when you want to write them as anything besides fluffy uwu girlfriends!!! Which is not my jam. I like dark angsty romance, and that is very much against what fandom expects from f/f ships. I don't write based on fandom expectations, but I will admit that this obsession with making all wlw content soft and sweet has soured my interest in writing f/f fic. I find it annoying, and annoyance is not conducive to creativity.

I also write a lot of original stories, and guess what, many of them feature queer characters! The first novel I wrote with @reylotrashcompactor is a f/m romance with two bisexual leads. We have a college series planned that has wlw couples, mlm couples, f/m couples, enby romance, and some poly rep too.

But more importantly, it's incredibly rude and queerphobic to suggest that I have to prove my queerness with what I ship. Shockingly, I can write, read, watch, and reblog things that don't always reflect my life and identity! I do not need to perform my queerness via goddamn fandom for my identity to be real.

For the record, I am not a lesbian, and your ask implies that my fictional interests have to be f/f in order to reflect my queer experience. Apart from how problematic that is in and of itself, you're basing it off wrong assumptions about my identity. I'm biromantic and greyace. I've written a number of fics in which characters in f/m relationships are bi and one in which Sakura is on the ace spectrum (see: To Leave Your Love Behind).

If you wanted me to pRoVe my sexuality via my fanfiction to your tastes, your complaint should be that I'm not writing enough ace characters! Which is highly unlikely to happen more, because I really enjoy writing smut, and that is much harder for me to do when I'm portraying a character whose sexuality is closer to my own. If you expect me to apologize for that, you will be deeply disappointed.

And on top of all of that, I WAS MARRIED TO A WOMAN FOR SIX YEARS AND IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH HER FOR OVER A DECADE!!! Please explain to me how my shipping preferences trump my fucking marriage. I'll wait.

tl;dr I don't owe you anything, my queerness isn't contingent upon my shipping, and expecting me to perform my identity to your satisfaction is gross and prejudiced as hell 🙃

P.S. to my followers: I almost deleted this ask but we need to talk about this issue more. I keep seeing the idea that the fiction people create and consume has to reflect their identities. But only if they're marginalized, of course!! It's bullshit. It's dangerous. It's unfair. And it needs to die with fire.

[wasflypaw]

I feel like I need to make a post like this so people dont keep Assuming what I think so have my detailed opinions on the characters. I'll be main tagging this bc I havent main tagged anything in SO long and I wanna find more people who share the same character opinions as me.

My opinions on characters have heavily grown and changed in the last few months so I thought I'd write this so people are aware my current thoughts and dont take my old biased posts from January or February as how I feel now

This is c!Dream critical (I guess? I mean he's a villain) but that's about it. I talk about character flaws and bad things characters do but not in a critical way? Bc I say these things about some of my fav characters. If you think something is too critical tell me and I'll tag it

What I Do think about c!Tommy: He is a kid who has been wrongfully accused of "causing all the wars on the server" and "ruining the peaceful server" when none of this is true. Him being a kid doesnt excuse when he does wrongdoings but he Does grow and learn from them and you can See him trying to become a better person. He lashes out due to trauma responses and has been through a lot. He's very misunderstood by a lot of the fandom and blamed for a Lot of stuff he didnt do. Characters are usually given a free pass by the fandom to hurt him. I dont think it's a coincidence that "dont judge characters by how nice they are to c!Tommy" is posted literally only by fans of the characters who hurt c!Tommy and nobody else. Everything he does is framed in a more malicious light than it was by the fandom and he's treated as more of a Problem or a Burden than an actual human being. He makes me sad. As someone who's watched him from the very beginning of the server (found him nearly a year ago :] ) you can tell how much he's changed and grown as a person, people wrongfully accuse his character of "he doesnt get character development he just gets trauma" when that's not true and you can tell this by what he's been saying and doing in the last few lore streams. He's still traumatized and easily manipulated yes, that's not gonna go away, but he still has moments where he stands up for himself and just,, the way he talks about c!Wilbur man,,

What I Dont think about c!Tommy: He's never done anything wrong! He's just a kid so all his actions are excused uwu! Poor baby traumatized boy!! X Character hurt my Fav Boy so they're automatically a Villain! Never done anything wrong in his life every other character is bad. Him killing c!Jack was the most fucked up thing he's done despite him not knowing it was a canon death and he Has hurt other people either unintentionally or when he's at his lowest moments and lashing out

What I Do think about c!Wilbur: He has been wrongfully accused of and butchered to hell and back by the fandom for "villainising c!Dream" when there's next to no evidence that this is true, people base all their opinions of him from... c!Dream's actions as if he's the reason for them, when he isnt. He's accused of being "bad from the start", or a "dictator" or "coloniser" when you can go back and SEE he wasnt. I find it kinda odd that he's blamed for villainising the guy who slaughtered him and the rest of his group when he barely even fought back. You can see his spiralling and paranoia started After the L'Manberg war. I barely even talk about Pogtopia era or Current era c!Wilbur. He hurt a lot of people which I think is important to be acknowledged and I dislike that there's more criticism towards him for something he Didnt do rather than the bad things he Did do. He's a very redeemable and sympathetic villain though very destructive and the cause of a lot of trauma. it's kinda weird to refer to his death as "abandoning people" too. He is not healthy for c!Tommy to be around. You shouldn't take everything Current c!Wilbur says at face value (glances at the "I dont care about L'Manberg" thing. I promise you as someone who was there for the entirety of OG L'Manberg that he cared a lot, didnt create L'Manberg for a malicious reason, didnt control his citizens, etc) L'Manberg wasnt the drug van btw

c!Wilbur 🤝 c!Tommy: Wrongful scapegoats for the servers issues

What I Dont think about c!Wilbur: He's mentally ill so that excuses everything and its ableist to get mad at him!! He was a morally good paragon of light during the L'Manberg era! L'Manberg was a pure utopia uwu! c!Wilbur didnt hurt people on purpose so therefore they cant be mad at him..

What I Do think about c!Dream: He's not as sympathetic as he's portrayed to be by the fandom, and a lot of characters are very incredibly wrongfully blamed for his actions/causing his downfall? When it's not true. L'Manberg turned nobody against him that didnt already have bad feelings towards him (...so basically just c!Wilbur and c!Tommy) and he remained a respected leader of the SMP after L'Manberg's creation. He still had friends, only one person questioned him (Skeppy) based on his own word but then sided with him anyway. He never spoke about c!Wilbur like, ever, and repeatedly only focused on c!Tommy, even during the L'Manberg war. The fandom assigns motives for him that just dont match up - for example his reasoning for declaring war being "sometimes you just gotta kill some people" but the fandom saying "he was doing what he had to / he just wanted to restore peace!" Which just,, doesnt paint him in a good light anyway? Ive been watching since Last July and it's weird to see him painted as some peaceful mediator when he has always been involved in chaos. His reasoning for a lot of things is "I enjoy destruction" or "you're too fun" with no evidence to prove otherwise as you can hear him cheering, laughing or having fun during conflicts, even after he beats down and slaughters the L'Manbergians unnecessarily. That doesnt match up with the fandom's "he just wanted peace back" motive at all... Here's some essays I've made about his character that touch on how I feel about him: [Essay 1] (please read this one I'm so proud of it it shows how I feel the most and it's my least critical one) [Essay 2] [Essay 3] [Essay 4]

What I dont think about c!Dream: I dont think he deserves torture. He deserves what's happening in prison. In fact, I very rarely talk about the prison arc because it makes me uncomfortable. I've been an advocate of "punishment does nothing but make things worse" in regards to c!Tommy and people have taken that to mean I think punishment is making c!Dream better? He confuses me - I dont think he's being manipulative in prison when he shows his feelings and I've never said as such. I don't feel sympathy towards the guy at all and I mainly talk about season 1-season 2 c!Dream.

What I Do think about c!Techno: I disagree with his actions and feel he went to extremes that he shouldn't have, and hurt innocent people (glances at Ghostbur on Doomsday) that didnt need to be dragged into it and weren't part of the Butcher Army. He's not very considerate of other people's feelings. This is more of a character flaw and not a reason to think he's badly written or dislikable in my opinion. He has some of my favourite moments (the entirety of November 16th, I enjoyed The Butcher Army stuff and the Bedrock Bros arc) I tend to relate to him a lot I'm gonna be honest? I find it hard to criticize him for The Festival despite disagreeing with what he did because I Always put myself in his shoes as someone with severe social anxiety. I just cant help it man. I struggle to differentiate Fanon c!Techno and Canon c!Techno because regardless of what he does he radiates vibes of "man I feel bad for this dude". I look at him and I feel sympathy and I can never pinpoint Why. I used to be very c!Techno critical but that was back when I was admittedly very biased and felt too salty at his fans shitting on c!Tommy everywhere I looked to bother looking into his character properly

What I Dont think about c!Techno: He's emotionless, monotone, unable to care for people, any other borderline ableist stereotype similar to this. I dont think he's evil or The Worst or irredeemable I literally just dislike Doomsday and that's it at this point jdkfkf I also dont think "victim complex" is the right word to use, i used to say that about him and yeah i disagree now

What I Do think about c!Philza: My feelings on him are still very mixed as I've read a lot of conflicting opinions on him from both sides and I havent came out with a conclusion yet? I dont think he can be considered a villain despite Doomsday and I think he Genuinely thought he was doing what was right and was still hurting from c!Wilbur's death. It's been a WHILE since Doomsday so I feel bad holding that against him when he hasnt done anything like that since,, I think he cares about his son a lot and there's no evidence to say he was a neglectful father to him, however I disagree with how he treated Ghostbur. Whether he saw him as a son or not, Ghostbur saw him and had memories of him as a dad :( I think it's understandable why he'd feel uncomfortable around Ghostbur but man. Again he's another character I struggle to differentiate Fanon and Canon with but he has some of the prettiest fanart so I dont mind. When thinking about c!Philza my brain is stuck in the Season 2 era I'll be honest

What I Dont think about c!Philza: He's c!Tommy's dad and a shit father. He was neglectful and uncaring to c!Wilbur. He has no right to be mad at New L'Manberg/c!Tubbo/c!Fundy. Again its understandable if you see his POV on things Why he felt the way he did

What I Do think about c!Fundy: Underrated boy has one of the best character arcs and was one of my fav characters back during September-November 2020. I really really enjoyed all his moments in season 1 (sorry if I dont ever talk much about season 3 my hyperfixation was at its strongest during season 1) and his entire POV is just so underrated?? People say Coconut2020 came out of nowhere or dont take him seriously but I have an entire essay on his POV during the Manberg vs Pogtopia arc, why he ran for president, etc etc. His relationships with c!Niki, c!Eret and c!Schlatt are so very underrated. I'll let the essay I linked say the rest

What I Dont think about c!Fundy: While I enjoy him a lot I dont think he's without flaws and he Has Genuinely Hurt people in the past without really meaning to / thinking of the consequences (not telling c!Niki he was a spy before burning her flag, disowning c!Wilbur, etc) again this is a Character Flaw not a reason to dislike him. Character Flaws Good

What I Do think about c!Tubbo: He's a very very smart character, smarter than a lot of people let on. He's usually treated as an extension of other characters (people complain about him being an extension of c!Tommy but in an attempt to get away from that they instead treat him like an extension of c!Ranboo... especially with the fights over who's "better" for him). I dont think him bottling up and repressing his trauma is healthy and he needs to talk about it man he was done so dirty. I think about c!Tubbo being a victim of the Final Control Room, being made into Schlatt's right hand man, being shot with a firework, being thrown into presidency, being forced to exile his best friend, trusting c!Dream who manipulated him and then berated him in front of a crowd, having his entire nation being blown up to bedrock and then compared to Schlatt, nearly being murdered, etc etc like. Jesus Christ! Its uncomfortable how his execution is treated so trivially because "he forgave c!Techno" and people get annoyed when its brought up like ,,,

What I Dont think about c!Tubbo: I don't agree with The Butcher Army situation. I dont think it was justified bc again the whole "punishment doesnt work" thing but I feel it was incredibly understandable why c!Tubbo would wanna do that. I think he had a lot more say in the situation than people let on, but yeah c!Quackity was the main instigator

What I do think about c!Quackity: His season 1 lore is so underrated please watch it from his POV!! He's treated similarly to c!Wilbur, "bad from the start". If you dont watch his POV you miss so many pivotal moments like him talking with c!Niki about possibly overthrowing Schlatt, him secretly freeing c!Niki when Schlatt imprisoned her, him feeling incredibly uncomfortable with Schlatt's actions, his attachment to the White House he built and his devastation when Schlatt tore it down in front of him while mocking him. He's a victim of c!Schlatt, people seem to paint him and c!Schlatt as a villain duo sometimes? You can tell Quackity wanted to please Schlatt but was uncomfortable at how he was hurting people, and his decision to leave Schlatt was so good!!! Him wanting power and forming The Butcher Army, the Mexican L'Manberg conflict, c!Karlnapity, his descent into who he is now, bro he's so well written and good. You can tell he's not entirely evil and you can see his "old self" coming out at times. I think about his first friends on the server being c!Tommy c!Tubbo and c!Jack a lot. Come back

What I Dont think about c!Quackity: I dont think his torture of c!Dream is deserved or justified or a "girlboss" moment it just makes me sad at what he's become :( the depiction of Las Nevadas as "found family" is uncomfortable to me also

What I Do think about c!Niki: Please please please please go watch her POV of Season 1 Please I made an essay and a list she's one of my faves. I dont talk about her as often bc we just dont have much c!Niki lore anymore but her season 1 lore was up there as some of my favourites. Genuinely The Pet War with her, Fundy and Sapnap is one of my favourite things I think about it SO often. Her relationship with the rest of the L'Manbergians is so underrated, she was friends with c!Fundy, she was friends with c!Tubbo (they hung out before the festival too :[ ) she was friends with c!Tommy,, in fact the two would constantly help eachother especially if a pet was killed. We all know Rocket Duo, and of course her relationship with c!Wilbur. She's the one who built the L'Manberg flag!! The one who stood up to c!Schlatt! The one who wanted to form a rebellion and blow up the White House!! Those are all girlboss moments!!

What I Dont think about c!Niki: I dont think her burning the L'Mantree, trying to kill c!Tommy or being upset with c!Wilbur are "girl power" or "go queen go!" moments. She was so clearly in pain and spiralling and it's weird to celebrate that imo? I also find it kinda weird that she used and nearly framed c!Tubbo for the death of his best friend and it was never mentioned again but oh well. After all he's just c!Tubbo :')

What I Do think about c!Jack: Spare closure?? His arc has been going on for like 6 or 7 months now man can he please get closure or therapy?? Anyway his moments during season 1 were also very underrated! Him joining the server and immediately being bribed into destroying his best friends items and having to make a choice between the Dream SMP and L'Manberg, his chat with c!Eret about what to do, this was my First impression of him and it was a good one!!! Its nearly been a year :,] The moments I think fit his character best pre-spiral are lost to time, he had a speech before officially joining L'Manberg about how much c!Tommy trusting him meant, he had a speech at one point about how important the discs were because they were important to c!Tommy and as a member of L'Manberg he feels he Has to fight for them. I made an essay on his and c!Tommy's relationship. Reminder he was 17 when he joined the server and L'Manberg

What I Dont think about c!Jack: I dont think he's justified in killing c!Tommy, because I just dont think murder can be "justified", similar to the Butcher Army conflict. He's in pain and lashing out and I'd find it hard cheering him on in doing something I know will cause him a lot of pain if he goes through with it. I think He has an understandable reason, possibly THE most understandable reason for wanting to murder a guy but it's just kinda sad to watch as it can Only end badly for both him and c!Tommy. We've seen how he reacted to his death already and we know at this point he just wants his friend back and not actually dead :( dude needs help and closure man please

What I Do think about c!Sapnap: That's my boy!! My underrated boy!! He's so heavily slandered on the c!Dream enthusiast side of Twitter n Tumblr and it's sad bc he quite literally did Nothing to deserve it. Out of all the things to criticise him for - kickstarting like 6 wars, murdering people's pets, etc people choose to shit on him for turning away from his toxic friend who had repeatedly been hurting him and the people he cared about? He never "abandoned a spiralling friend" he cut off (And still cares about!!! He still cares about and misses him!!!) someone who was beyond helping, it was Never his responsibility or obligation to stick by c!Dream's side if it hurt him to do so. c!Dream betrayed his trust so many times and he was Still willing to fight beside him man. He was unsure about whether to go against him on Doomsday. He cares so much he makes me so sad. :( Not to mention c!Dream blowing up the Community House, a place he cared about? How many times does c!Dream get to hurt him before its valid for him to turn away from him? Get behind me

What I Dont think about c!Sapnap: I have nothing to put here. Leave him alone

What I Do think about c!Eret: They were my second fav character during OG L'Manberg. :] I watched all their streams every day and their antics with the L'Manbergians were SO fun along with them eventually regretting what they did. So many of their old moments are lost to time now and it sucks. I really enjoyed early c!Eret, before the Redemption Arc and the Pogtopia they were a bastard and unapologetic about it and it was SO fun. Constantly bragging about winning the war and betraying them. Again, here is a link to the same essay I have posted Twice now just in case you forgot I wrote it

What I Dont think about c!Eret: I dont think the Final Control Room was justified. Their motives for doing it were understandable and I dont think they knew what a canon death was but like,, 4 people died man. This isnt saying they're a horrible person, they havent made up for it or they're the main person at fault for it but imagine the sheer amount of regret they feel after learning what a canon death was, the realization of what Actually happened in that room.... (sorry for the angst)

What I Do think about c!Sam: BRO he's so depressing. As someone who watched him from season 1, watching him spiral into what he is now is one of The most saddest things to come out of the SMP. Bro he was so,,, his pumpkin pies,,, he nearly cried when c!Tommy got exiled,,, he,,,,,, :( if you want an example of "good guy turned corrupt and bad" you got your answer right here!! He really was just a guy. He thought he could take the job of Warden and he thought he could protect c!Tommy and he failed man he failed and it fucked him up. So very well written and sympathetic and sad

What I Dont think about c!Sam: again I dont think the prison treatment is justified or deserved. Him murdering, torturing and cutting off c!Ponk's arm is unforgivable imo I'm still not over that

Other characters:

c!George, c!Ponk, c!Bad, c!Ant, c!Punz, c!Purpled, c!Hannah, c!Puffy, c!Skeppy, c!Schlatt, c!Karl, c!Slime, c!Foolish, c!Ranboo - these are characters I just watch for fun rather than to analyse, I dont have a solid grasp on their character and I dont usually see discourse or analysis posts on them that sway my opinions. Enjoy their lore no clue where to start analysing it (influence my opinion maybe? 👀)

[hanawrites404]

2021 Review 2021 Review!!

Gosh I'm ashamed of myself XD

Hopefully next year I will have more motivation to fucking write lmao.

WOOOOHOOOO GO WYNNE TOPRAK, MY BEAUTIFUL BABY 😂🖤🖤🖤🖤💜💜💜💜

Also, the hearts being my longest tag is very understandable uwu✨✨

I can't believe so many people liked this one because I really wrote this while I was flying miles above the ground LOL. I'm very happy though. I'll make more for sure uwu

Ohhhhhhh yes the challenge I never finished due to depression. Though it was fun! Basically this post was to rant about my favourite companion in Doctor Who series. And by how you can see in the picture, I'm sure you will be able to guess uwu

Ah yes this is just a shitpost because the post about the Devil hit 666 notes which is......sus.

GDHSGDGSGSG I'm embarrassed about this one. Basically a template so that anyone could ship themselves with my girl uwu

THIS ONE!! I DIDN'T EXPECT THIS ONE TO BLOW UP BUT GOD I'M SO GLAD IT DID. This is again a rant about one of my celebrity crush because I had a very funny profile picture of him back in June XD

Annnnnnd that's it! 2021 was fun. Hopefully 2022 will be better with new fandoms, friends and stories✨✨✨

[mysticalwaterdroplet]

WARNING! Looooooooooooong venting ahead about why d/h sucks. So if you ship it and have somehow Goren lost in this tag, turn around, cuz if you continue you might get hurt. You have been warned. Also I guess language warning and mature themes...? Just to be safe. I'd also like to give y'all a little side note: I guess I am what people would call a Hawks stan. I personally really like his character and find him intriguing, however I am completely capable of admitting that Hawks has done sum fucked up shit. I still however "stan" Hawks, so I'm going to show why d/h is shit from a logical Hawks stans point of view. Anyways, without delving too deep into the whole Dabi vs Hawks stuff, since I'm not here for it, I'm here to talk about the shitshow that's dabihawks. So, first of all I'll give y'all a lil back story as to why I'm here. Long story short: I accidentally stumbled upon some d/h art and people who still defend the ship (with already debunked theories mind you), I felt kinda sick to my stomach, so I need to vent. Like they were referring to the fight where Hawks killed Twice and basically said: "DiD yOu SeE hOw HaWkS wAs OnLy LoOkInG dAbI iN tHe EyEs ThE wHoLe TiMe. 🤪 ThAt'S sO gAy!?!?!??!??" Bish, where was Hawks and Dabi supposed to look at? THE WALL??? They were fighting! Of course they have to keep an eye on each other. They were also talking about how "DaBi JuSt GoT jElLy CaUsE HaWkS wAs HaNgInG oUt WiTh TwIcE, aNd Is JuSt ClAiMiNg HaWkS!" And they were saying so much more nasty shit that I'd like to write here, but I don't think I physically can, and I also want to spare everyones brains, cuz I already took the L, like if any of y'all know how to get back my brain cells hit me up. I also noticed a common theme of people making Hawks the bottom to like a point where they thirsted over the idea of Dabi "destroying" Hawks' insides, if you know what I mean. Which seems to be the opposite for many of you guys here with finding stuff where Dabi is the bottom? I mean I know many of you guys probably don't like Hawks, but you gotta admit that it's fucked up to think that these shippers think it's hot that one of the people in their makeshift relationship gets seriously hurt in the act without consent. Whether it is Dabi or Hawks they put in that position is irrelevant, they literally like the ship because it's toxic and someone gets hurt. Like in what world would Hawks let Dabi willingly even get close to him or vice versa. We all know damn well that they despise each other. Horikoshi has literally shown that these two never trusted each other, never even tolerated each others shit, so why oh why did this become a thing?! Also, and I know that this can sound annoying to some people... But as a Hawks stan, I don't understand how people can say: "YeAh, I sTaN HaWkS UwU 👉👈, hIm AnD dAbI dEsErVe eAcH oThEr AnD aRe So GoOd ToGeThEr." "ThEy DeFo FuKiN'! Is CaNoN! 🤪" Like:

So... Are we just gonna forget that Dabi literally burnt Hawks' wings off? (Which was understandable looking at the context.) Or how Dabi sent some goons after his mother? Or the fact that Hawks literally idolised the very man that Dabi hates with a burning passion? The shippers: "Oh, BuT hIs WiNgS wIlL gRoW bA-" Bish! The fact that Hawks didn't die or that his wings are allegedly growing back doesn't mean the ship is relevant again. Hoooooo... it's like I can't catch a breather once in a while. How are people trynna stan someone and then say: "Yeah, let's pair our favourite person with the person that is trying to hurt them." HOW!? My initial reaction when Hawks and Dabi interact is: "Fuck. Someone's gonna get hurt." Like if I could have it my way Dabi wouldn't be anywhere near Hawks, they are a danger to eachother. There is no damn way I'd want to see the character I stan for hurt, so why do so many damn stans ship it! I just can't wrap my mind around the "appeal". I just don't see the sexual tension that these people talk about. Anyway I could probably write a whole ass book as to why I personally don't like this ship

but frankly I don't wanna waste your time since it's toxic.

I would like to however debunk a couple of already debunked theories that people use justify the relevance of d/h.

The "childhood friends" theory: Yup. People still cling to it. However Horikoshi literally trashed, stomped on and lit the theory on fire. We saw that Touya went to a regular school and was trained personally by Endeavor. While Hawks was in the commission. There is no way that they knew each other. The way Dabi got Hawks' real name was through his mother. Dabi ain't dumb, he's actually smart and calculating to a point it's almost a little scary.

The "Dabi freed Hawks and Hawks will turn into a villain": Boi.... Dabi didn't free Hawks off anything. Dabi tried to kill him and exposed Hawks and his wrongdoings to the world. That ain't love. Hawks isn't even Dabi's main focus, Hawks is literally just one insignificant part of Dabi's plan. Also, like Horikoshi has wonderfully brought into light, Hawks would never turn to villainy. He didn't even kill Best Jeanist. And he's still, after everything, saying "Endeavor is in trouble." Clearly insinuating that he's going to still help Endeavor. This man is the last person to just become a villain. And people have the audacity to say he'd become a villain because of Dabi. I have no words.

Besides even if for example the childhood friends theory was true (which it isn't, but let's humour the thought) or even IF they were foils, it wouldn't change shit. We'd still be in this situation where they despise each other. Childhood friends wouldn't automatically mean that they'd get along as adults.

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Anyways, if you made it this far, you're a damn trooper. Thanks for letting me vent.

And as a short note to end on: I hope I didn't come off as too aggressive. That's not my intention here. Also the text is way less polished and thought out than I'd like it to be, but I honestly don't have the time or energy to give y'all a publishable version of "Why d/h sucks": the Book. So instead you get this. A hastily put together vent cuz I saw sum shit alright.

TLDR: People with a brain can see that these two aren't in love. There has to be some major mental gymnastics in play to get any whiff of chemistry from these two.

[arcanaheadcanons]

Hi there! I hope I am not disturbing you! I was looking for some good arcana fics and found yours and loved it uwu! Do you take requests? Do you have some rules? Since I am in angsty mood I don't want to ask something that would make you uncomfortable! I'll send in my request and you can answer it of you can and want to. How would the main 6 react to an MC struggling to stop digging their nails/hurting themselves. If it's too triggering I will understand if you don't answer. Thank you :3

hello! this is a lengthy ask so i’m gonna break down my answers to your questions:

-you are not disturbing me! the only reason i haven’t posted lately is because i just got a new job and i’m still figuring out how to balance work and life. i welcome all forms of talk

-i have not posted any actual fanfics! so your statement on that confuses me a little. i’m guessing you’re either referring to my really long idea posts, or you have possibly found a fic based on one of my posts, in which case please send that my way because i would love to read

-i can certainly take requests! no one’s done it yet but i’m cool with it. rule-wise i probably won’t take very graphic or nsfw prompts because i want this blog to be something that everyone can enjoy (but all of you are free to dm me that stuff)

-thank you for the polite and considerate ask! self-harm such as scratches etc is not triggering to me personally, but i will tag this with a trigger warning in case it makes anyone else uncomfortable

HOW THE MAIN 6 REACT TO SELF-HARM

the first thing asra does – after healing any open wounds, of course – is blame himself. he is distraught that it could have come to this and that he didn’t notice sooner. what did he do wrong? why didn’t he bring you on any of his journeys? why did he never tell you he loved you until it was too late? it wasn’t supposed to be like this. he brought you back for a second chance. all he ever wanted was your happiness.

nadia is completely at a loss. she has never encountered this sort of problem before, and she doesn’t know how to help you. she brings you tea and gives you some time alone. late at night you find her in the library, surrounded by every psychology book the shelves had to offer. she assures you that she is fine and that she’ll do her best to understand your pain. though she appears calm, her act is betrayed when her voice cracks from the tears she has refused to let out.

julian finds out when he tends to your injuries and realizes they weren’t accidental. he’s seen this sort of thing before, but he didn’t think it would happen to someone so close to him. and, as is usual for him in dire situations, he panics. he begs you not to do it again. he writes you letters (because he sometimes gets too emotional to get the words out) detailing how much you mean to him. you get the impression that he’s trying his best to help, but he doesn’t know where to start.

muriel doesn’t bring it up, but he’s 1000% more worried around you than he’s ever been. he stays close to you, never touching but just… hovering. he somehow gets even more distant in conversation, like he’s too busy imagining worst-case scenarios. if he can’t be around for whatever reason, you spot inanna following you at a distance, watching. even though muriel enjoys being alone, he knows the dangers that come with loneliness.

you didn’t even know that portia figured it out, but one day she drags you away from investigative work to build a pillow fort. as you sit in the new fort, talking about life, she pulls a heavy blanket around your shoulders and says that the two of you need to talk about your problem. she says that she isn’t here to judge you, and that she loves you, and if you ever need someone to lean on, she’s here for you. she also offers to inform the others and form a support network for you. when the talk is over, she grabs more blankets, tucks you into the fort, and makes dinner.

after lucio asks “why do you do that?” and you give him a number of explanations, it eventually becomes clear that there’s no way you can get him to understand. but he doesn’t treat you any differently for it. instead, he offers a plethora of activities to take your mind off of things. gondola rides. shopping excursions. back-alley knife fights. lucio has always been in a constant state of activity, but he becomes determined to drag you into it. he argues that you can’t hurt yourself if you’re too busy having fun, and he swore to protect you, even from yourself.