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[stayandot8]

Thaw

Genre: comfort-fluff? Was angsty then...not?

Relationship type: exes

Important Contents: Soooo Defrost Part 2. Enjoy.

WC: 2.3k

Part 1 l masterlist

“Hi, Chris.” 

I didn’t fight my smile this time. Hearing his voice was the oxygen I needed to continue breathing. Like resurfacing when you’ve been underwater for too long. 

There was a pause on the other end. I brought my phone back to make sure the line hadn’t been disconnected, but it wasn’t. His contact name was still there, the little timer counting up. I brought the phone back to my ear. “Chris?”

“I’m sorry.” His voice was quiet, almost whispering. “I’ve never been so relieved to hear my own name.” I closed my eyes, letting his voice wash over me. I was rejoicing in hearing no anger in his tone, wave after wave of relief crashing over me. Shaky breaths were all I had left in me.

“Honestly, I’ve never been so happy to say it. Even when we first started dating, I took for granted how much I loved saying it. I guess you never realize how much you love something until it’s…”

“Gone.” He finished for me. “I’ve thought about this moment a lot, you know. I’ve thought of everything I would want to say to you, all the emotions I want to express, the feelings I need you to hear. But now that you’re… talking to me, saying my name… I can’t think of any of them.”

“I know. It’s been a while. I can’t even bring myself to ask how you are because I’m scared.”

“A mess. I’ve been a mess. But I really don’t want to do this over the phone. Can we please talk? In person? I have so much to say and I want to make sure I write it all down now that I actually have a chance to say them.”

“Then why don’t we do that? We write everything down and trade. That way we don’t have to embarrass ourselves by saying them out loud.”

I knew I’d never be able to say everything I needed to face to face. My best bet was to write, knowing the time would let me think of everything I could possibly think of. The thought constricted my chest, but brought peace at the same time. Knowing that at the end of it we would have the chance of coming back together, of being better than we were, would make it all worth it. Knowing we could get through this patch and come out the other side, that he was not only willing to hear me out but wanted this as much as I did… 

“Okay. Let's do that then.”

“Okay.”

Just one word. One word was all it took to get me smiling again. To make me feel weightless and buoyant. If I listened closely enough, the wind outside was singing to me. Like even it was rejoicing in this. Even though these past few months felt like hell coursing through my veins, this part of the journey felt necessary. To come back stronger, hell must be journeyed through. Like Orpheus and Eurydice, hell had been ventured through but unlike those two fated lovers, we would see the sun of dawn. 

“When can I see you?” His anticipation was killing my resolve to take our reconciliation slowly, to make sure all the knots got untangled. The tingle in my toes was causing my legs to shake from restlessness. 

“I don’t know. I have to go to my parent's house for their-”

“Spring cleaning thing, right. That’s okay. I’ll wait.” His downtrodden voice had switched to a hopeful and I could see his face in my mind’s eye, eyes twinkling when he became optimistic. “As long as it takes.” He whispered. 

“I’ll call you when I land?”

“Or before? If you want…”

That hope again…

“I’ll call you when I pack later tonight.” A content hum from the other side of the line.. 

This is going to work this time.

*

“Oh come on, it can’t be that bad. Your sister is older now! She can’t still be teasing you like that.” I was curled up in my childhood home, on the living room on the couch I would sleep on when I was sick so my mom could take care of me. It held so many memories, so much time was spent on the fibers of thread that had started to fringe. These threads I was picking at were the only thing I had the mental capability to do while on the phone, trying my best to keep as quiet as possible while the rest of the house slept. 

“It’s true! You should’ve seen her at Christmas, she was on a roll.” There it was again. That familiar pang of guilt at any mention of the time spent apart. Felt deep in my gut, a horrible, tangible reminder that it was never supposed to be. 

“I wish I could’ve been there.” I let my voice trail off, hoping my thoughts were readable to him. To anyone else, they wouldn’t be but I was forgetting how well the boy on the other side knew me. 

“Hey. Don’t do that. We both know how it would’ve been. And maybe if we hadn’t spent that time apart, we never would’ve come back like this. Ready to hear each other out and not jump to any conclusions. Right?” I let his words marinate, my own thoughts earlier that day exactly matching what he’d said aloud. “Right?” He said a little softer, as if questioning himself now. I realized I hadn’t said anything yet. 

“One more week, right? I can do that. We can do that.” It was his turn to laugh.

“We can do this. Enjoy the time with your family while you still can. Because when I see you again, I’m never letting you leave ever again.”

*

“You’re coming home today, right?”

“Yep. My flight lands at seven tonight.”

“Is… anyone… picking you… up?” Gentle, trying his best to sound nonchalant. It wasn’t working, but I wasn’t going to fight it. Two weeks of phone calls every night and texting all day only made me miss him more than I would ever admit out loud. 

“Not yet, I was thinking about texting Felix or-”

“That’s not funny.” He couldn’t see it, but my mischievous smile was back as I snickered. I hadn’t felt this giddy about seeing a boy since we first got together. The funny thing was it was the same boy. Absence really did make the heart grow fonder. 

“It’s kinda funny. Why, do you have a better idea?” 

“Please let me pick you up.” He didn’t know, or at least I hope he didn’t know, how fast my legs were going, kicking my feet in the air from excitement. I was beaming before I had to remember that he could hear everything. I drew a sarcastic sigh. 

  “Fine.” I knew he was smiling. I knew him better than I knew myself. 

*

One three-hour delay I had withstanded but the baggage claim was going to be the death of me. 

I didn’t let him come inside the airport so I could freshen up from the hours of plane ick on me before seeing him for the first time in forever. Okay, not forever, but it sure felt like it.

I tapped my foot and folded my arms, waiting so impatiently. Until I spotted it. My red suitcase came down on the belt and I ran for it. 

Chan: Outside :) 

I drew a breath and walked as quickly as my sneaker-clad feet would carry me to those sliding glass doors. They slid open and the cool air from outside contrasted to the heat radiating from the airport, but I barely noticed. There were cars lined up along the curb, each with different headlights casting shadows around them, blinding anyone who would look directly at them. I blinked a couple times, adjusting to the new darkness. And that’s when I saw him. 

He was in blue, forgoing his usual black t-shirt and athletic shorts. No, he traded them in for some longer jeans and a button up shirt. His hair was styled, like he had just come from a shoot of some sort and his makeup was still intact. He was leaning on the side of the car, staring at his black boots. It was like no time had passed. The butterflies came roaring in, not just in my stomach but everywhere. My brain had no thoughts, just the image of him, waiting for me. I was trying to burn it into my eyelids. I was afraid that if I blinked, he would be gone. 

He spotted me and his nervous shuffling stopped and a wide closed-lipped grin spread. We just stood there, looking at each other, taking each other in. My feet were cemented to the ground. He took a step near me and then another. Closer and closer until he was close enough to touch, to feel, to breathe in. I looked him from boot to eye and I had about .2 seconds before my emotions took over my body and I fell into him. 

He was warm and comforting and smelled divine. I was in his arms again and all was right with the world. It wasn’t perfect, but it was mine. I could breathe again, oxygen returning to my lungs and turning into shaky breaths. I was home. He just let me cry into his shoulder and tucked his head against mine. He rubbed my back as he held me, light touches but comforting. 

When the tears subsided into even breaths, I pulled back only slightly, not wanting to break free of him quite yet. 

“Did you grow?” He asked as he laughed as he wiped my face, healing the broken pieces I had created and held onto for months. I shook my head and gave him the best chuckle I could muster. Two dark spots were left behind from the places I had cried. 

“I’m so sorry, Chris.” 

“It’s okay, it’ll dry. Or if it doesn’t, that’s okay too. I’ll have you on my shoulder all night long.” His smile could cure anything, I was sure of it. It dropped from his face for a second. “Unless you want to go home? I can drop you off too-” I shook my head before he could finish the sentence and dove back into his shoulder, just wanting to be near him. I felt his chest rumbling as he chuckled again. “Have you eaten?” It was difficult, but I shook my head without leaving his shoulder. His grip on me tightened. “Let’s fix that, shall we?”

*

“I can’t believe you remember this place. You took me here when you won your first award, didn’t you? You said-”

“Right! That’s right, I did bring you here. I wanted to get away from the kids after they got drunk for our first win.”

“And you didn’t want to drink so you called me instead. And we came here.” 

“Yes we did.” He sat back in his chair, his half-empty water glass the only thing in front of him as we waited for our food. 

“Didn’t you choke on your kimchi?” A slow grin grew on my face as I relived the memory.

“Because you made me laugh! I could’ve died. Stop laughing, it’s not funny!”

“Contradictory for you to say because you’re laughing too! Must have been so traumatic for you if you’re laughing about it now.” His expression matched mine, like the twins we were. Meant to be. 

“Laughing through the pain.” I ‘hmm’d at that and our server rolled her cart over with our food, setting it down in front of each of us before I could say what I was thinking. The small bowl of kimchi stew boiled in front of me, the perfect thing on a cool spring night like this one. Chris had gotten a boiling bowl of ramyeon with all his toppings. Soup was definitely the way to go.

I arranged my bowls of sides and rice the way I wanted and picked up my spoon to dip in when out of the corner of my eye, I spotted a couple sitting across from each other, one slouching into the corner facing away from me and the other peering over his sunglasses at me. When I caught his eye, he quickly pushed them back up and sipped from his cup and looked around him. I thought nothing of it until I realized the glasses he was wearing looked too familiar, and at second glance, the one facing away from me was wearing his Versace hat backwards. They were trying a little too hard to look casual, purposefully not glancing my way again. I had to chuckle.

“Chris, why are Hyunjin and Han sitting at a table directly in my eyesight?” His shocked expression and sudden turn relayed that he truly had no idea they were there. My mouth was starting to hurt from holding back laughter. Chris faced me again and buried his face in his hands. A small groan slipped past his lips. He moved his hands so he could speak clearly.

“I’m going to kill them. I’m actually going to kill them.” He made no move to get up though. I tilted my head so I was staring at them until they noticed, which didn’t take long. Han slowly took his sunglasses off and grimaced. I raised my eyebrow until Hyunjin turned to face me too, taking off his hat and glasses as well, wearing a similar expression to his accomplice. I pushed my hand in a ‘shoo’-ing motion and Han rolled his eyes. He mumbled something to Hyunjin and they both rose and left without another look back. 

I watched them clear the road and turn the corner, safely out of sight. Chris was boring holes into his cup, like it would start levitating through his sheer power of will. He huffed.

“Seems like they might have missed me more than you did.” My brow still raised, I smirked at him. He scoffed. 

“Not a chance.” That twinkle was back. And I had just then made it my life’s mission to make sure it never left again.

[hushroomloser]

Chris Evans Short Story Part 8

Part 8 

Pairing: ReaderxChrisEvans 

Request: Meeeee 

Prompt: “I’m sorry I thought you were somebody else”

Warning(s): I’m a first-time writer

Word count: 586

A/N: Hey online strangers, I wrote the first part a while back and have the rest of the story in my drive but have never posted it. This story I wrote way back in 2019 :'(. I will be posting at random times if you stay and read it thank you so much. Enjoy xoxox - I have no idea how many parts this story and technically I haven’t an ending yet. 

The dreaded block has come and taken me. That and university seems to enjoy giving me some solid sucker-punches every few days. Alas like life I might have given up on this story and writing it altogether. I do not know who’s enjoying this mess of a story. Lol, anywho I will update once again in a blue moon and edit all of the parts to make them more coherent. Especially now that AI can write cry ... my unattainable dreams

Xoxo 

From a tired girly 

White, red and purple consumed the cafeteria, filled with residents, doctors and other health professionals. Rush hour had yet to peak, and yet it was slowly starting to fill up. 

Maybe we shouldn’t have coffee here, he thought. 

Chris roamed around the hospital to find the best spot to grab a quick drink. Unfamiliar with the place he had gotten lost a few times, asking strangers to the nearest exit every time. 

“Hey, you’re that guy right.” 

Dreading it, he hadn’t been recognized yet, mostly because everyone seemed busy. He did not mind taking a picture and talking with a fan but he did not want to be late for his date, especially since he hadn’t found a place to take her yet. He turned around, looking at the person who had called him. 

“Hi, I think so.” 

In his shyness, he managed to smile at the tall stranger wearing a lab coat. He took a quick glance at the name embroidered on his coat, the name was Doctor Gagnon. 

“Are you looking for Lizzy, uhm Dr. Kelley by any chance?” Frowning his brows, he wondered how he knew this specific doctor. A little sad that maybe hospital gossip had been playing a major role in his interaction. 

His anxiety had been slowly elevated when the stranger seemed to recognize the emotion on his face, feeling his uneasiness towards him he quickly said “I am her finance, if that helps, do not worry she hasn’t told anyone. I just know because she texted me about the girl that hit you at the coffee shop.” he giggled thinking about her hitting the Captain. 

Chris did not know why he would giggle or if it was an inside joke or anything he was just surprised at how this stranger, this doctor had been so nonchalant about who he was. He had been used to people being starstruck, especially after playing Captain America. 

He paused and looked at him, he was beautiful even for a straight man the guy he was staring at was a very beautiful man, the movies did not do him justice he thought. 

“Do not worry”, he laughed 

“I won’t tell anyone that I saw the Chris Evans''

“What are you looking for?” the gentle giant asked. He wondered if people got scared of him because of his demeanour and his height. He was a very imposing and confident man compared to him, 

Chris did not know what to think, the giant seemed so nice. “Uhmm thank you, I was just looking for a private coffee shop in this honestly big hospital. “ he started to ramble, ·” How is this soooo big but looks soo small I feel like I am in a maze”, he told the stranger, he felt at ease for some reason telling him of his struggles. The strangers giggled and said, “Yeah I am still confused about it and I have been here for like 5 years it is a very strange place.” 

“The coffee shop next to the parking lot at the end of the hallway should be private enough if you are bringing her there.” he smiled. 

Chris wondered how he knew but he guessed that they were all friends. Chris smiled back, shyly not knowing what to say. 

‘Thank you”, he said shyly, he was truly embarrassed that someone had figured out what he wanted to do. He did not know what to say or add he just stared at the stranger, a very handsome stranger to boot.

….. 

[cable-knit-sweater]

evanstan and 22? <3

Hi Luisa, thank you soooo much 💕💕

#22 is Anti-Hero by Taylor Swift, and let’s just say I let myself be inspired by this lyric: One day, I’ll watch as you’re leaving // And life will lose all its meaning // For the last time

And this moment:

And I 100% didn’t mean for it to get this long or this angsty 😂 Hope you enjoy!! 💕💕

The red carpet is the same as it always is for Marvel movies. Chaotic, loud, interview questions that he can’t answer. But it doesn’t feel the same. He’s very aware of what this moment means, has been aware of it for months, dreading it. It’s the end of an era, sure. He has such mixed feelings about the movie itself, but those feelings are not what’s causing a pit in his stomach right now. His cheeks hurt from trying to smile in a way that doesn’t seem too fake.

He feels like he should’ve made more out of the last couple of years. Wishes he’d said something, because this moment was always unavoidable. After tonight, it’s all over. Sure, he’ll be doing some more press for the movie, but he’ll probably be paired with Mackie, or, if he’s unlucky, a co-star he doesn’t know as well and doesn’t feel as comfortable with.

Because thing that’s making him panic and feel a little (a lot) sad - enough that Mackie commented on it - is the fact that he’s sure that he won’t see Chris after all of this. Why would he? He’d like to consider them friends, after everything they’ve been through together and all the moments they shared, but he knows how it goes. They’ll get busier and busier and at some point, their close friendship will just be a thing of the past, reduced to a handful of texts a year.

He’s happy for Chris, of course. He’s so happy that Chris will finally get the chance to do some of the things he’s always talked about doing, that being such an essential part of the MCU made practically impossible. He just wishes…he wishes he’d been less of a coward, wishes he didn’t feel so strongly about his costar who probably doesn’t even feel the same way, wishes he’d been more obvious, wishes he knew how fix it, wishes he could rewind the clock and they’d be back in London, young and scared but always around each other. But thinking those thoughts, that way madness lies.

So he tries to push them away, focus on the interviews, focus on getting through the night. He manages, mostly. It helps that he doesn’t get more than a quick glimpse of Chris, who’s surrounded by family - and kept away by handlers. Before he knows it, they’re seated in the theater to watch the movie. He sneaks out before the ending, even as he sees the worried looks his friends and family give him.

If Sebastian could go home right now, or go to a bar and get drunk, he’d do it. But he knows he’s supposed to be on stage in a bit, post screening, and he can’t afford to piss Marvel off. Even if he could, he wouldn’t. He’ll do what’s asked of him, even if it’s hard. He just takes a breather in the bathroom before returning to the screening room, right on time to line up with the rest of the cast to take the stage.

He catches only part of the speeches his costars give, but what he does hear makes him emotional. Still, it all feels like a little bit of a blur, and suddenly people are clapping, people are hugging. Sebastian gets pulled in for a hug by some of his co-stars, and he manages to give them a few words of thanks and appreciation.

He can see Chris, out of the corner of his eye. Obviously he’s surrounded by people. After all, he’s the big star of this to so many. Everyone loves him. Sebastian gets it, oh how he does get it. He goes back and forth on it, but eventually he decides that’s it’s probably better to get it over with. Say goodbye to Chris, pretend to have fun at the party, and then go home to lick his wounds.

When he gets to the middle of the stage, softly tapping Chris on his shoulder, his heart sinks through his stomach when Chris barely gives him a glance before going back to his conversation. He can feel his eyes start to burn. But then, a split second later, Chris throws his arms around Sebastian, so quickly he feels like he has whiplash.

Chris’s hand on his side is so warm, and he’s holding Sebastian so tight, his nose pressed to Sebastian’s neck. He almost doesn’t catch what Chris says, muffled against the collar of his shirt. But he does. “Please don’t let this be goodbye?” is what Chris is saying, voice wrecked with emotion. Sebastian holds Chris even tighter. “Of course not, you’ll always have me,” is what he croaks out himself, taking in the distinct smell of Chris’s cologne, trying to focus on that and Chris’s hold on him instead of losing it completely.

Chris pulls back. “After. I need to talk to you, after the party, I just- please?” he asks.

Sebastian nods. He’ll always say yes, if Chris asks him for something. When he finally steps off stage, he feels a different kind of anxiety than earlier that night. But this time, the feeling of hope, is so much stronger. Maybe, there’s still a chance. He won’t waste it this time.

[kitkatwinchester]

OH THANK GOD BUT ALSO OH FUCK!!

WELL!!

IT'S OFFICIAL!!

I DID WHAT I SAID I WAS GONNA DO!!!

I FINISHED SEASON 3!!!

And what a WHIRLWIND it was!!

I got so caught up in watching that I didn't really stop to do a reaction post, so I have soooo much to talk about now, but oh well, we are just gonna dive right in.

In order of events, because that seems easiest.

YES STILES!!!

THAT'S MY BABY!!!

I'M SO PROUD OF YOU!!!

THAT'S THE STILES WE KNOW AND LOVE AND HAVE BEEN MISSING THIS WHOLE TIME!!!

YOU FIGURED IT OUT!!!

YOU FIGURED OUT THE ILLUSION!!!

AND YOU FIGURED OUT THE DIVINE MOVE!!!

AND YOUR PACK BACKED YOU UP!!

AND WE WON!!!

I'M SO F*CKING PROUD OF YOU!!!

And the way EVERYONE was just in sync and backing each other up, and the way they all TRUSTED each other.

Stiles asked Scott to trust him and he did, because they're the best, and then they made it out of the illusion, and they were okay, but then Void Stiles attacked again, but Lydia kept holding Stiles up, and then the "But we can change you" "You forgot about the scroll", and the sudden fear that made its way onto Void Stiles's face, and then when Stiles said "You can't be a wolf and a fox" and Scott was RIGHT F*CKING THERE, and he BIT HIM, and Kira stabbed him, and then Isaac was RIGHT F*CKING THERE (which honestly surprised everyone in the best way and I loved it lol), and he captured him, and Void Stiles collapsed, and we WON!!

And then I was momentarily really scared when Stiles fell, but then he wound up getting up (Scott's smile (and Lydia dropping her head in relief) filled with so much f*cking glee and relief that his best friend was okay I CANNOT), and it was okay.

But then we lost Aiden, and that...that's definitely part of the "oh f*ck", because that f*cking sucks. Because that HURTS (though, as an aside, the way Lydia just turns into Stiles and he just embraces her…Stydia is still my OTP all the way <3 <3 <3). Because as many qualms as I had with Aiden, he was trying, and he and Ethan were so close, and he was always so sweet to Lydia, and he did not deserve to die.

But he killed the last Oni, and he fought until the end, and he really did become one of the good guys, and as heartbreaking as it is, it also honestly felt so justified, and it was a very sad, but very fitting way for him to go.

Like, Allison's death was heartbreaking, but also, it honestly felt kind of unnecessary and forced when I really think about it (I looked it up, and yeah, it really was, because I guess Crystal Reed wanted to leave the show, which is...kind of weird, since she's in the movie, but whatever I guess). That said, if they had to write her out of the show, I think they did it well, because the scene was still super heart-wrenching, and it's 100% going to leave a stain on the pack, and it brought a lot of really great emotion out of our other actors and characters, so I'll allow it, ultimately.

That said...

Poor Scott, man. He had been going and going and pushing and pushing and trying not to let himself dwell on any of the stuff going on because it wasn't over, but to see him finally just break down in his dining room in Melissa's arms...poor baby. I'm so sorry. :(

But then he gets that beautiful scene with Deaton, where he lifts him up just slightly by telling him that everything comes back to the middle eventually, which of course gives us that beautiful little banter, and wraps up Scott's Season 3 arc really nicely.

And then Isaac and Chris have that little moment, where you can see that shared grief and remembrance, but also the shared ideal that they'll both find a way to move on, and that, despite everything, they still won, and they can get past this, and their little Season 3 arcs end nicely.

And then there's Stiles and his dad, and Stiles just taking down everything with his unsolved cases and "clearing his head", and doing his best to move on from all of that trauma and hurt, in any little way he can.

And then there's Scott, Stiles, and Malia, with Scott teaching Malia how to control her abilities and more or less officially welcoming her to the pack (that was seriously so cute, though!). Add to that the fact that she's now gonna be going to school with them, and I think I figured out who they're replacing Allison with in the pack numbers.

And then there's Kira and Lydia, talking about what happened and how hard it will be for everyone to move on, but knowing that they'll still be there for their boys no matter what.

And then there's Danny and Ethan. Danny, who apparently knew THIS WHOLE FREAKING TIME that Ethan was a werewolf (does that mean he knows about Scott, too?? Or about Isaac?? Is any of this even a secret at this point? XD) and loved him anyways. Like, I understand why they're breaking up, and I understand why Ethan is leaving, but d*mn if that wasn't the sweetest, cutest, most wholesome little break-up and goodbye ever. I love them. I will miss that relationship.

But then, of course, to continue to add to the "oh fuck" of this title, while we got allll of these nice little wrap-ups, and nice little ways to end the trauma that was Season 3, and all these little moments where we see everyone working through their emotions and doing their best to move on and do what comes next, we also have to set up Season 4, which apparently means...

F*CKING KATE ARGENT??!! Is a WEREWOLF?!

Are you KIDDING ME?!

Yeah I can guarantee you that was not on my Teen Wolf bingo card.

I've predicted a lot in this show, but that one? Yeah I definitely didn't see that one coming.

But wait...that also explains Chris's confusion over the bullet casing from the person that shot at the twins, because he must have recognized it as Kate's, which would explain the "that's not possible".

Oh goddddd, Season 4 is gonna be a RIDE, isn't it??

Oh boy.

I don't know if I'm ready for that.

It'll probably be a few days before I can really watch again, anyways, so that gives me time to cope and process and prepare. XD

All of that said...

That was a f*cking AMAZING season. I can 100% see why everyone says it's the best season--ESPECIALLY 3b--and I honestly am already inclined to agree. I'm sure 4-6 will also be wonderful, but right now, Season 3 is definitely at the top of my list, and I wouldn't be surprised if it stayed there.

Between ALL of the INCREDIBLE Sciles moments, the amazing cinematography, the storyline, the acting (HAVE I MENTIONED HOW F*CKING AWESOME DYLAN O'BRIEN IS?! Just wanna make sure I say it one more time.), the emotions, the Stiles-centricity, the ships, the one-liners, and, just for the record, one more time, ALL of the Sciles moments, because they were AMAZING, this season was seriously such a rollercoaster and I loved it so freaking much. I'm so glad I finally finished it, but I can already tell this is one I'm gonna keep coming back to, long after I've finished the show, and maybe even before I actually finish it. It wouldn't surprise me in the slightest.

It'll probably be a few days (and honestly, my heart and brain might need that XD), but Season 4 is definitely next on the docket. I honestly don't know how it could get any better than this (and maybe it doesn't and that's also okay, because I'm fine with this being it's peak, because it was BEAUTIFUL), but I know it'll at the very least stay just as good, and I'm so excited for what comes next.

What a season.

What a show.

I f*cking love this show so much.

See you next time. ;) <3

(I couldn't find any of the gifs I wanted of the little ending scenes and character wrap-ups so here's a gif of Void!Stiles dying because WE WON GOSH DARNAT! And it cost us a lot, and it's gonna hurt, and it's gonna leave a mark, but we WON, and Stiles is ALIVE, and Sciles is BACK, and we DID IT, and that's what matters, because it means those sacrifices weren't in vain.)

[cowgurrrl]

also! same anon from earlier (the one who talked about loving the rockstar/actress series <33), i just remembered two things, one: a clip of evan peters, he was trying to find the camera during an interview (after winning an award) and it's so funny because i feel like that's something actress!reader would do lmaooo, maybe joel being the great husband he is, points out the camera to her and reader's like "ahh, there it is! thanks babe" 😂

secondly, another clip that's so actress!reader coded is when house of the dragon had one an award and both emma d'arcy and milly allock had to go up with the creator or director (whoever it was). milly was full on drunk while emma was trying to compose themselves and it's SOOOO reader and ryan coded to me, ryan would be the drunk one on stage while reader is just trying to calm down from one of her movies or tv shows winning an award lol

here are the clips for context:

evan peters: https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZT8QBaWfV/

hotd: https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZT8QBFGhH/

OH 100%

I think reader always has like five million cameras on her at things like that so sometimes she gets lost and Joel will whistle in the crowd and point at the camera she’s supposed to be looking and she winks and shoots him a thumbs up

AND I totally agree that Ryan and reader would be a MESS while accepting an award for a project they were both in like Ryan would be all giggly and grabbing her arm like OMG!! and she’s like omg…. (emotional) either way, viewers can’t get enough of it and they all laugh at it but when the kids are with a babysitter or another caregiver for the night, they have lots of (safe) fun and have many drunk stories of each other (Joel got a hold of the karaoke mic at a bar and gave a free concert, Ryan called Chris Evans and invited him out to the bar and he showed up, Carolina found a private rooftop pool and you guys skinny dipped, and reader once got into an arm wrestling contest with a group of bikers)

[lovecolibri]

"It's like eating rice cakes" that description is soooo accurate and has me on the floor lmao 6A IS indeed dry af I can literally visualize the styrofoam taste lmaoooo

🤣🤣🤣

It's just sooooo lacking in substance. And it's really extra frustrating because the set up for some delicious and deep moments were like, RIGHT there! Even in s5 we had things like the perfect set up for Eddie having to listen to his firefam be in danger and unable to help, and Buck having some deep conversations with Bobby about Eddie and reinforcing their father/son bond. So then, when Bobby was in danger, the emotional beat with someone like Chim or Eddie telling Buck to relax because Bobby was going to be okay would actually land and would have given Bobby something to do as well. But s6 had SUCH potential with the blimp crash, with Buck being allowed to make a choice for himself instead of just having to react after someone else makes the choices, with Bobby having things about Wendall all season leading up to 6x09, with Madney's love story coming back together and healing ON SCREEN, with Buck/Bobby having that father/son dynamic back, with Buck's storyline being intertwined and influenced by Chris and Eddie's/Henren and Denny's/Madney and Jee's (for serious SO many opportunities), with the Eddie and Chim dynamic, with the Chim getting abducted while Maddie listened to that and then Buck putting himself in danger to save him, just....it's all RIGHT THERE. The emotional beats are so big it takes WORK for the show to completely miss them so hard.

This is why I'm always tagging things asking Tim to come back. Completely outside of the Buddie of it all, he was SO good at telling stories, bringing multiple plotlines together and having multiple plots for different characters running at once, not dragging things out more than needed, and just a general cohesiveness to everything, especially in regards to the emergencies helping push existing arcs along instead of just feeling like filler to take up time. He was also REALLY good at pacing and emotional balance between dramatics and fun as well as making sure that the characters, storylines, and emergencies/victimes were treated with respect and with heart.

We know for a fact that Tim was the one making Kristen include those intimate conversations so they happened on screen and those moments really held a lot of the heart and depth of the show. It's become really clear with 6a how badly those are missing now that there isn't the excuse of main characters being missing.

Take out the depth and heart of the show, and it looses what made it special, what made it stand out from other shows, and what made it resonate with such a wide audience. The fact that every social media has seen people mentioning the show feeling off/boring/filler/not the same really says that it's not just a handful of Buddie fans being needlessly picky. I know casual viewers and evey they are telling me they're bored and miss how the show used to be. And it's pretty clear where the issue is coming from because WHEN the cast gets their moments to shine they are still knocking those moments out of the park.

[sooosketchy]

”Miku hidden dormant inside a clock and key” are the words I searched in hopes of finding the name of this forgotten Miku song I wanted to revisit again. 

It’s been years since I last listened to this song and it took me WAY too long to find it again. Soooo I was on Youtube listening to my personal Vocaloid playlist and saw that a lot of the videos I had saved have been either removed or put on private. This makes it so hard to go back and look for the song elsewhere since youtube no longer keeps the title of the video at least. After listening to Melody by Miku it hit me! “What was that song where Miku was hidden in a grand clock and had a keyhole on her back?” I searched EVERYWHERE and nothing, clockwork clown kept coming up instead but then I entered a combination of Clock Girl Miku and there it was. Just by looking at the thumbnail I knew this was the video I had watched years ago and loved everything about it. The lyrics, story, illustration, and sounds made it such a great Miku song. Definitely up there as one of my top Vocaloid songs. 

The story is so captivating that I’m surprised no one has made a fan-made comic inspired by this sad story which we only get a watered down version thru the MV. Reading some of the comments makes me even more eager to learn about this world and its characters. Commentors speculate that the clock maker had been hired to create a massive clock and some other secret technology. This project was only known by a select few and once he was done with the job he was no longer needed and ordered to be killed. Miku is a doll like companion who does not age and has been there for the clock maker since he was a young boy, and it looks like they both have a thing going on. Another theory is that it seems like he was ill and weak when he was young and with the help of Miku he was able to regain his health back and became quite the talented engineer. Because of this talent he was hired to build a time machine. This brought the attention of the cloaked figures which some speculate to represent death. He was almost killed during the first encounter with the cloaked figures but was blinded until the next encounter left him helpless to defend himself. Miku sings how cruel time is (get it, Cruel Clock) and no matter how much she wishes for time to stop it only keeps going. In her last desperate attempt she runs to destroy the clock he had been working on hoping time will stop and give her a chance to enjoy the company of her friend again. This is where she also feels emotions for the first time and starts to cry, questioning if “these drops are what they call tears”. 

There is a ton of opportunity to dive into this world and explore Miku, the clock maker and the cloaked gang some more. Who created the Miku doll? How is she able to not age? Who locked her in the clock and where did the key come from? Did the clock maker inherit the key? Where is his family now? Did he propose to Miku and give her the ring she was holding? Whats up with the ending, did they survive and meet up or is this some sort of afterlife meeting? So many questions that I would love to see answered in a comic.

Chris the illustrator is on pivix and twitter but has not expanded on the story yet. And the producer Kounan-P  has since passed away, not sure if this is true or not but RIP legend. Your music lives on and continues to inspire people like me.

[alaezasmystery235]

18+ Sexual Messages from your person / FS

Pile 1 -> 2

Welcome to a very first 18+PAC of mine . As the tittle suggest it's gonna contain some explicit content so read at your own risk . And teenagers pls you're very clever to know that this is not for you .

Take a deep breath and choose one pile for you ♥️ ✨️.

Pictures are from Pinterest and credits to the owner of theme dividers .

Pile 1

Instantly I saw a lingam in my vision which is pretty good in size ( 6-7 inches ) and it's not that thick but its pretty good looking ngl. Your person's gonna like spreading your legs for sure . They are not holding back , they really wanna see that pretty pink lips down there. They are very much excited to have a look at your p ****y . They really wants to part your lips and look inside the dark void . You might really be insecure about it or are anxious how it looks like but they are assuring you nothing to be ashamed of it. They are saying your your lips are just like flower petals , So Smooth and pinkish tone . They are saying your lips looks so moistured and don't want your yoni's light to fade away . They wanna taste you.They want to give you a oral . They wanna come face to face with your p****y . They are saying Saying you are not comfortable in showing your yoni to anyone or your past partners didn't made you comfortable in expressing your sensual side. They wanna change that . They will pleasure you , ravage you , will take you to your extreme point and then leave your mouth hanging open . They are saying your yoni is inexperienced but don't worry they are gonna take care of your sweet lips . They are playful and cant wait to show that side of of them to you . Here's an excitement to your person but at the same time they feel so honored and really taken aback by your inner beauty , innocence and delicateness . your person had been felt like an outcast . They have been betrayed by opposite genders in the past which had made them cold from outside. But something in you had melted that ice . They wanna kneel in front of you . They want to surrender to their divine femine. Your person wants you to touch their abs / roam your hands on their overall body but stopping your hands just over their pubic hair then all of a sudden on their member and taking that sharp breath . Feel it and let that sensual sensation inside your body . They are saying " I've waited way too long but i'll wait more if you're not into it " [ soooo sweet plessssss]. your person is fucking wild and loud. They are expressive and will let you know with their moan [ I literally heard a growl ] . Their presence is strong , I can feel it all over my body , I just want you all to feel it too .

Pile 2

I just heard Sugar sweet. They are or gonna heavily attracted towards your lips . It doesn't matter what size they are or how they look . They wants to bite it , suck it , maybe would love to kinda draw a little bit of blood ??? They are a hickey person . I'm hearing they are gonna mark you up pretty good so that you know who owns you in the bedroom . Specially on your butt cheeks . Your person will take you at your Peak over and over again and will try to test your limit . Maybe you are someone who doesn't a lot of emotions so they are taking the matter in the hands . your person wants you to throw away the wall you put into the world of being an innocent being. Oh baby !!!! Your person gonna see you through your facade . This person is really confident , ambitious and competitive both inside and outside the bedroom . They will make themselves test on how many orgasms they are able to pull out of you . so if on 1st day let's say , they give you 3 orgasm the next day they will give more than for 3 for sure . So be ready to be on this wild journey !!!! They are saying enjoy the rides this Sensual ride of ecstasy. They are into public sex for sure . Making you suck them down there while in the parking areas or a dark street . The thrill of being getting caught or seen by others . Dw if you're feeling quite extra horny when outside just tell them they are very happy to help . They are showing me throat , they want to see how much you can fit them in your mouth , only if you're comfortable. But let me say they are down for everything and quite open minded . They are saying " Baby this is our playground , don't get afraid of the play . Be dirty as much as you want . " They are gonna use some toys on you, specially vibrators on your sweet little gspot . Over and over again stimulating every inch of your body. Okay let me say they are quit thick with a little bended , yk kinda J-shaped . They surely smell good . When I say good I mean it because suddenly I'm getting this beautiful musky and expensive cologne around me . They feel like a roller coaster type of energy .

Alaeza 🌸 2022 @alaezasmystery

Is this okay 👀 ???

Am I able to explain it properly 👄😵‍💫???

Sorry if I steeped any boundaries 🤌🫂 !!!!

[mangora]

Hi I’m frothing at the mouth rn but I’m thinking about how Dakota taking over as the host for Treasure Island of Dr. McLean instead of mutating would actually improve the season on so many levels so here’s my concept for the episode long post not proofread:

•First of all I’m keeping Anne Maria in the running because her elimination was BS and this is gonna make more sense just wait. She is on Jo’s team now though

•Everyone wakes up and is like “wtf. Why isn’t Chris waking us up. Where’s the food.” Also they’re all recovering from the mine incident still and worried there’s going to be a repeat. Jo especially feels bad about voting off Brick for saving everyone, and Anne Maria is upset at Jo and Lightning for voting off Brick for saving her friends (specifically Cameron who she sees as a younger brother and Mike who she still thinks is Vito). Also theres soooo much tension between Mike and Scott it’s unreal they are both ready to kill.

•Dakota emerges and is like surprise fuck Chris I’m host now it’s what I deserve after the intern work. And she makes them do like menial labor to create her brand like idk building her studio and having them make her a pina colada. Everyone is annoyed. Zoey is this close to snapping but still wants to be nice and w start getting like allusion to commando zoey.

•So Anne Maria, Jo, and Zoey team up to sabotage Dakota to get her to leave, meanwhile Mike and Scott reluctantly agree to work together to get Sam from the Playa Des Losers across the lake and use him as a bargaining chip. I also think it would be cool if we got some foreshadowing to Mike’s juvie skills he learned from Mal here and Scott was really impressed by them.

•Anne Maria and Jo teach Zoey how to toughen up, and Zoey makes them realize they don’t have to fight all the time, and they all become good friends.

•Cameron and Lightning are the only ones left and Cameron suggests they put their power together to stand up to her. Lightning takes pity on him and they do, I think this will make Cameron’s “betrayal” later sting more and make the finale more meaningful because now theyll have a past.

•Dakota finds out no one is doing their work and goes fucking bonkers and decides to sic all the mutant beasts on them.

•Jo makes it up to Anne Maria and everyone who Brick saved and also kind of Brick by following his advice of not leaving anyone behind and getting everyone into a safe spot and leading them to fuck up the mutants. I just think these kids deserve to beat up some weird monsters they’ve had a rough time

•Meanwhile in the closet Chef and Chris have a heart to heart and Chris realizes he’s been too harsh this season and they escape and try to save the kids

•The kids saved themselves though and Dakota is even more bad and she’s having her little power struggle childhood trauma moment, and Sam to the rescue, he convinces her she’s enough even if she isn’t famous and she feels empathetic and surrenders. They’re both taken to the Playa Des Losers together.

•Meanwhile, Anne Maria is facing elimination because Lightning found the immunity idol instead of Scott, he thinks Jo is his friend right now, and Jo isn’t voting for herself obviously. Mike wants to tell Anne Maria that he’s not Vito before she leaves, and he tells her about his DID, and she feels lied to and kind of cries about it. Scott is feeling conflicted because he’s never wanted friends before but he thinks Mike is cool now, and he finds out about Mike’s DID because he overhears Anne Maria crying, and he decides he’s gotta get rid of Mike like right now because he can’t deal with emotions rn.

•Jo and Anne Maria have a heart to heart that is subtly gay but still 2010 children’s TV, and Jo says she’s going to miss her and Anne Maria decides she doesn’t need Vito in order to feel loved and not lonely. Cameron and Zoey also see her off and Zoey apologizes for being so jealous, Mike can’t face her but she like pats him on the back, Scott gives her some like ominous warning about Mike. Lightning is in a similar situation to Scott with Cameron and this is where the misunderstood villain arc begins.

•Also, I’ve decided: Jo is going to be still Jo but like more empathetic, so Up Up and Away is a little better and she and Cameron are gonna be genuinely friends but she gets voted out by Lightning and Scott while the other votes are split. She’s gonna give Cameron a morale boost when she leaves because he’s going to try and vote for himself in this one since everything is too much for him rn

•Also Lightning is still Lightning he just seems more sad earlier and we get more hints of his father earlier like the reason he’s so aggressive now is because being with Cameron reminds him of friends his father made him drop as a kid, it’s like amity blight-esque

•Also Scott still sucks but he has a reason now mainly so All Stars Scott makes more sense

•Also Scott’s gonna get fucked up by Fang still but like, it’s not gonna be trauma chair bad and no one is gonna laugh at him, it’s just gonna be like the extreme karma that fully makes him change. It’s less mean spirited

•Overall I’m just giving the show the Steven Universe treatment sorry lmao

[jannykrice]

I think what bugs me about the prom movie is that it has so many missed opportunities. For example:

Like there were some perfect scenes where they could’ve had cameos from original broadway cast. In “it’s not about me” dee dee first approaches random girl not knowing what Emma looks like. Why not Caitlin? Fans would’ve be delighted.

Same goes for any original cast cameos. Why not have Caitlin and Izzy in the inclusive prom scene? Or maybe Brooks or Chris as Dee Dee’s ex husband?

And then I have a huge problem with cuts to the songs. The acceptance song not so much but You happened? Really? Was it that necessary? Like that verse showcases Emma and Alyssa’s dynamic so perfectly. Dance with you was sweet I’ll give it that, but it lacks the emotion. Alyssa was so scared in that original scene and here it’s more like a romantic cute pop duet.

When it comes to added scenes and dialogue my opinion is split. I loved Emma’s grandma. And Emma’s character arc in general is really good. It’s different. But kind of different. She’s a lot more happy and playful kid, she’s constantly smiling, and I’m in love with just breath sequence.

But then we have Barry. One thing about musical was how it didn’t need much explaining. We understood how tough childhood was for him with just few lines here and there. I don’t think we needed all of this backstory. Also I miss the line he has towards Mrs. Greene about losing a child and not accepting the kid for who she (he) is.

On the bright side, I loved the performances. Jo Ellen is so cute and soooo good. Someone pointed out that she sounds like a younger more teen Caitlin. And I LOVE THAT! Ariana was amazing as well, but there is something about Izzy McCalla, she just owns my entire heart. I didn’t expect to love Nicole Kidman’s Angie as much as I did. She was a walking meme the whole time. Meryl was Meryl, she can’t be bad in anything, but she lacks the strength Beth’s Dee Dee had. This felt like a completely different character.

All things concerned it’s not bad by any means. It’s amazing! It mainstreams Broadway community and shows like Prom, but knowing Ryan Murphy, he could’ve done more. It felt like he was playing it safe.

GO STREAM THE PROM ON NETLIX NOW!

Also I love TRENT (protect him at all costs) and I miss Sheldon, I wish we saw more of him!!!

[grayintogreen]

How do you think Lucien's upbringing was for him to give that evil monologue? I'm specially curious about the "Someone needed to be the parent. When children have been acting out, well, making a mess of their potential, for this long even, a responsible caretaker must show discipline, enact punishment, and take the reins with force". Do you think Lucien was a gifted child who grew up to be the average adult or something like that?

This is actually funny, because Lucien gives that huge ass speech after he EXPLICITLY TOLD THE M9 HE DIDN'T HAVE FAMILY, so like LUCIEN. YOU FUCKING ORPHAN. WHAT DO YOU KNOW.

But I'm going to tell you!

Here's the thing- Lucien gives off two very strong vibes to me, and these two things make up the entire crux of his personality as I, personally see it.

1. Massively self-sufficient.

2. Gifted child who was never challenged properly.

Lucien very much gives off the Dad Friend Vibe of the Tombtakers in like the worst possible way. Like not the NICE Dad Friend. The Dad Friend who has a belt and will use it on you. You know... The, uh... Cult Leader Vibe. What is a cult leader but the worst kind of dad friend. Yikes. Anyway.

So I think most of his speech about caretakers are specific to how HE has viewed wrangling the Tombtakers for however many years he's been doing it, because as someone who has been massively self-sufficient he has had to be his own parent and thus feels he is qualified to be the parent to others, even if he's being a parent to other children. I don't think that came from a place of experience, because I feel like if an adult beat that into him, he would have marginally different issues. Like that whole spiel doesn't sound like it comes from a place of emotional pain, so much as it's just him listing facts about what he thinks parents are supposed to do. It's a very by the book, intellectual response, like someone who has taught himself how to behave like that because It Is Logical And Right. Like in comparison, Lucien, in that same speech, reacts deeply emotionally to one single thing- the way he says "and they chose ME to be their herald" is one of the single most choked up line deliveries he ever gives. THAT is where his emotional pain comes from. He didn't feel special and the Somnovem made him feel special, but WE WILL GET TO THAT. Stick a pin in that.

Honestly, it sounds like Lucien seems to consider ANYONE who isn't him a child, despite the fact that he is CANONLY IN HIS MID-TWENTIES. He talks down to literally every single person he meets. He acts like he walks into rooms, looks at everyone assembled, and immediately is like "wow which of you fucks are wasting your potential in here, have you tried not doing that." I think some of this is just that he has gone so far beyond "enlightenment" that everyone is Lesser than he is, but I also firmly believe he was just Like That. If he sees people who are useful to him, then of course his "parental" nature (re: his manipulative streak) is going to want to try and nurture that potential. I don't even think he actively considers it being manipulative. He thinks he's doing people a favor.

The way he talks about the Somnovem to Cree about how he wanted to save them as they saved him ultimately boils down to this: he believed the Somnovem couldn't function without his intervention and he was the only person who had the skill and imagination to direct them the way they needed to go. And I think he's thought that about A LOT of people over the years. It's not malicious to him. It's not cruel- even if what he does to get obedience probably is. It's for their own good. Again- yikes. He's a fucked up person, y'all.

Now the gifted kid thing gets into some "oh god are you projecting on this villain chris" shit, because I am a former, massively understimulated gifted kid who burned out in high school because I was bored too often and spent more time daydreaming than I did paying attention.

Guess what Lucien's calling card is? Oh right. He's a dreamer.

That's Lucien. Lucien is a gifted kid who had NOWHERE to put his gifts. He's gifted in a town where half the population can't even read, so of course he developed a massive complex about being the smartest in the room, the only TRUE adult, even when he was, yanno a KID.

See when I was in elementary school, I was just soooo smart. I was reading HIGH SCHOOL level books for FUN and ooooooh so cool. Yeah, I'm not even bragging about it. Every gifted kid I have ever met has this same story, and I can be flippant about it because I know where it goes. You get into high school and your brain hits a goddamn brick wall and you get anxiety because you're not the most special anymore. Oh look! There's that pin I put there. I told you we'd circle back to that.

For Lucien, high school was probably the Orders. The Orders are an INTELLIGENCE-BASED organization, meaning for the first time in his life, Lucien isn't the smartest person in the room, because everyone is smart, so he no longer has that advantage he once had and he's no longer special. That is DEVASTATING to deal with, and because Lucien already had a massive superiority complex, instead of burning out and getting passing grades and ultimately resigning himself to a mediocre life of Blood Huntering, he went "no it is the ORDERS who are wrong" and fucked off with his posse.

Which meant that the FIRST THING that made him feel special and validated his existence, he went whole ham on, and then the minute it wasn't what he thought it was, he switched gears and decided "no, I AM special. You just need a little but of parental guidance, and we'll do this properly."

tl;dr: Lucien is 100% what you get when a gifted kid goes absolutely balls to the wall insane. As a former gifted kid, can confirm that I might have sold my soul to a bunch of eldritch sugar daddies if they validated me enough too. I won't lie.

[anika-ann]

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My Top Posts in 2021

#5

Walk Me Home Tonight (S.R.)

Type: one-shot, songfic

Pairing: Steve Rogers x reader     Word count: 4700

Summary: Sometimes it’s hard to be in a celebratory mood when all you can think of is that life sucks and that being left on your own to drown your sorrows is for the best.

Sometimes people who care about you know better than yourself and come crashing your party of one.

Sometimes, despite the popular belief, you do realize how lucky you are having been introduced to Steve Rogers.

Warnings: mention of blood and violence and death, mention of alcohol, angst, fluff and language

A/N: P!nk’s Walk Me Home just does something to me, alright? Music video included - it’s soooo beautiful.

*✧･*✧･*✧･*✧･*✧･*✧･*✧･

You stared at the amber liquid, lazily making it roll in the glass with idle motions of your wrist. It reflected the rather soft lights of the bar, an exquisite game of colour you found fascinating enough to dull your mind and muffle the noise of the party.

It wasn’t that you were a party pooper, not usually anyway; just… the timing wasn’t ideal.

Of course, Sharon could hardly move her birthday to make it more convenient for you, less so a party her colleagues had decided to throw for her. You knew Agent Carter for quite some time now; she had joined SHIELD about the same time as you, going through the same tough training. Except unlike you – and initially without your knowledge – she had an image to live up to.

You might even call her a friend, your chest bursting in pride for her when her hard work had finally borne some fruit and she had been promoted to an assistant director of the intelligence agency. Among other things, it earned her a lot of new potential friends.

You were hardly acting like one tonight, much to your own annoyance. But for some reason, you found it difficult to leave your momentary emotional baggage at the doorstep, slipping it off as easily as your coat. You had wished her all the best, conversed for a tiny bit and then happily made space for others, for the forming line of guests waiting to celebrate with her as well.

Then you retreated to your spot at the bar, possibly annoying the bartender, who would have been more delighted seeing some heavier drinker occupying your seat, tipping generously, instead of having you nursing each glass of alcohol for about two hours.

You weren’t even sure why you were still here; you had given up on the attempt on small talk with anyone, apparently unwittingly chasing away any potential company. And here you thought misery did love company – perhaps you were wrong, at least when it came to birthday parties of gorgeous women loved by everyone. You might as well pack up your bottom and sulk at home.

You were stubbornly shushing the voice in the back of your skull, whispering about knowing precisely why you remained in your seat; about feeling less alone here, despite being a literal loner in a crowd.

You downed the rest of the bitter scotch, basking in the burn which it left on its way down your throat, your eyelids slipping shut in content, the noise in your brain falling silent completely for few blissful moments.

“Party of one?” a male voice gently asked, the tinniest note of teasing in it and while your heart skipped a startled beat at being addressed, you felt the burn in your throat slip lower, warming your chest and causing the corners of your mouth turn up just a fraction.

 There's something in the way you roll your eyes Takes me back to a better time When I saw everything is good But now you're the only thing that's good

 “Felt like crashing it?” you hummed in response, side-eyeing the intruder and found a pair of cerulean eyes staring back. He blindly waved off the eager bartender who was about to offer him a drink.

Ah, poor guy. No tips for him tonight.

“Well, I didn’t get an invitation. Looks like crashing was my only option.”

You sighed tiredly despite Steve’s kind teasing. Tonight was just… so exhausting. Tonight. Today. This week. Gah, this whole month. This fucking year--- okay, maybe you were exaggerating, because you were simply crossing the line, moving from relaxed buzzed drunk to a miserable one.

Battling with yourself, arguing whether you should send him to hell – nicely, because Steve was nothing but kind, he was always so kind, goddammit, gentle humour spiced with the ability to become an utter troll, still benign though, that was why you usually enjoyed his company so much after all-… – or call it a night.

Or should you order another drink? Was there a point? You might cross the line to a clingy drunk eventually and you weren’t certain that was a good idea.

It was probably about as good of an idea as coming to a party despite feeling like shit on an emotional roller-coaster, dangerously inclining towards a very bad mood to put it mildly.

You tilted your head to side as you looked at Steve properly, tight blue shirt flattering his supersoldier frame, black pants with desperately needed leather belt considering his thin waist, his blonde hair a mess, gaze fixed on you, observing. Always observing to read people, to anticipate behaviour, evaluate the threat; sometimes simply to be considerate, to… to be compassionate.

Dammit, Steve.

“Must have got lost in the mail then,” you said eventually, offering a weak smile. “Sorry.”

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#4

Words Whispered in the Dark

Type: Modern-college-professor AU - part of Attached series or a standalone

Pairing: professor!Steve Rogers x reader   Word count: 6250🙈

Summary: There are things, intimate desires, which people simply don’t want to talk about out loud. Since you prefer writing those down, it applies twice as much. 

Steve supports your writing – but what he’d think about your newest story… well, you’re not sure you wanted to know.

Warnings: 18+, nsfw, smut, bondage, oral (M rec), consensual sensory deprivation, praise kink & body worship, ‘babygirl’, fingering, dom/sub undertones & implied age gap & professor-student dynamic & cumplay if you squint, language ---- (let me know if I missed any…why is the list so long wtf)

A/N: Can be read as a standalone. Part of the Attached ‘verse with professor!Steve.

A/N: For Siri’s 5K Soft Dark Challenge. Congratulations to the rightfully earned milestone ❤️ Thank you for hosting the challenge and kindly including even soft fics (even though I feel like my soft got lost in translation a bit).

Prompt: “Oh, honey, you weren’t supposed to see that.” - bold in the text, pls don’t @ me for the way I used it.

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325 notes • Posted 2021-04-11 10:26:16 GMT

#3

Bad News, Good Ideas (A.L.)

Type: oneshort, holiday fic

Pairing: Ari Levinson x reader    Word count: 7950 (I can explain-)

Summary:  Ari Levinson was bad news. He was lethal to your sanity, your brain knew that very well. But you weren’t sure how long you would be able to resist when he was not only teasing you for his amusement, but seemed to be genuinely interested.

And then the company’s Secret Santa happened.

Warnings: NSFW, 18+ only, smut (M-mast, F-thigh riding), Ari’s thighs (it’s a warning), mention of sexual harassment, language, ‘angel’ + ‘sweetheart’ 

A/N: For Happy Hoelidays challenge. Many thanks to the hosts for organising it and giving so much thought and work into it💕 Prompts: Ari Levinson + secret gifting + inconvenient attraction + “You don’t have anyone else to blame but yourself, sweetheart.” (complete list of my options at the end)

Divider by @rainbowkisses31

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330 notes • Posted 2021-11-30 21:52:43 GMT

#2

In the Strangest Place (We Just Might Find Love) - Pt.1

Type: two-shot, pretty much canon

Pairing: Steve Rogers x reader     Word count: 3700

Summary: You’re hiding from your boss in a supply closet, minding your own business, when a stranger joins you unexpectedly. 

This is not a beginning of a steamy story; given the reason you’re hanging out in the dark, even a make-out session is honestly the last thing you want to fantasize about right now.

But that doesn’t mean that the nice stranger cannot make your day much better. 

Warnings: mention of sexual harassment, a bit of angst, attempt at humour, language

You were on the verge of screaming – or crying, you honestly weren't sure anymore. But you knew you were done. You had worked your fingers to a bone just to get here; to become a little bee in the most famous hive in Manhattan. Stark Industries. The Stark/Avengers Tower. The beacon of the New York skyline. The dream coming true.

Yeah, not so much.

You hadn't expected super-important assignments – after all, you were just an assistant to the head of one of too many departments – but God, you had not expected to be handling coffee so often. To be running ridiculous errands. Your degree from MIT should actually mean something here! If nothing else than that you were not just some pretty face and that you fucking didn’t deserve the treatment you were receiving.

And that was the root of trouble, really. You could handle making your way up, it would be tiring but not surprising, it was pretty much what you had assigned for.

But you had not assigned for the sexist comments, disgusting innuendo and for the grabby hands of your sleazy boss. Thomas Gregory was a fucking nightmare of a man and you swore that you were quitting if he called you a ‘Dollface’ or slapped your ass one more time.

And that was how you had got here, into this very moment; hiding in a dark supply closet like a creep with two cups of overpriced coffee in a cup holder and a piece of organic carob-nut muffin.

You weren't about to come out any time soon, because you simply knew your boss still would be a pig and give you yet another reason to hand in your notice and you had fucking wanted this job for so long, worked for it so hard and sacrificed too much that you just couldn't make yourself to quit no matter how much your skin cringed and your stomach rolled over every time Thomas Gregory touched you. It was so frustrating you wanted to scream.

Or cry, you still couldn't solve the dilemma. Maybe both.

You barely registered the hurried footsteps – and then the door was yanked open, you glimpsed a tall blond male figure and suddenly there was dark again. Except there was one more body in the very limited room of the closet, making you press your back onto the shelf.

Something rattled with your movement and the newcomer hissed a barely audible ‘Be quiet’ as two columns of muscles that were probably his arms framed your head leaning onto the very same shelf, so you could both fit in here.

The little order leaving his lips broke the last seal inside you. You were tired, frustrated and were receiving enough humiliation as it was, you did not need some random guy invading your hideout, barking orders.

“Look, mister, if you have any problem with me trying to make a little space for you in this tiny-ass closet, I recommend you to-”  

“Shh!” he hushed you and you thought you had never heard someone whisper so urgently; at least it sounded less bossy than before. It did not mollify you though, because this guy actually had enough impudence to-

“Don't you dare to shush me-!”

A hand went to cover your mouth and you let out an exasperated mumble of curses, while his voice continued.

“Please, just— I'm sorry, please, don't make a sound, my friend is trying to set me up and-”

Your eyes went wide and he suddenly fell silent. Before you could question his methods of shutting you up, his exclaim or the pause, and ask him to be so kind to find another closet, another male voice sounded somewhere behind the door.

“Come on, Steeeve. Man, don't be such a prude. Lillian is a great chic, okay?”

The man – the friend, you assumed – seemed annoyed and you couldn't believe that Steve had not been kidding you. He was actually hiding for the very reason he had offered you. You nodded as you heard the stranger behind the door move and the hand covering your mouth hesitantly disappeared.

“It's just a lip piercing, don't be such a tight-ass. It can actually be quite fun, you wouldn't believe what a girl can do with such thing…”

“Gross,” you commented soundlessly and you could feel your companion’s eyes burning a hole into your head in silent agreement.

“Goddammit, Steve!”

The voice and the footsteps slowly disappeared in the distance and you… you were face to face with a stranger named Steve in a limited space of a dark supply closet, his breath tickling your scalp, his cologne very much assaulting your nose; at least it was a pleasant assault.

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330 notes • Posted 2021-02-28 12:46:45 GMT

#1

Bullies, Bullied

Type: Headcanon-ish one-shot

Pairing: Steve Rogers x reader  Word Count: 3400

Headcanon: Steve doing little acts of service… meaning he’d give people working at the Avengers Tower who are jerks a taste of their own medicine in almost innocent ways. And maybe entertaining you, the girl he had an eye on for a while, in the process. 

When you’re the one bullied though… there’s no innocent way. That man is going to pay.

Warnings: brief violence and death threat, language, men being lying idiots (no offense), Steve being the biggest sweetheart and little shit you don’t wanna mess with

A/N: There’s one gif from Arrow, not Steve, but exactly what I have in mind 🤭

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Once slightly adjusted to the current times after having helped save New York City and the world by extension, Steve soon found an apartment, not all keen on living in the ultramodern building Tony Stark graciously called a beacon of NYC

Steve preferred his own space, even if not necessarily spacious, but one in a nice brown-stone building that wasn’t a glass and steel muster like the recently rebuilt and re-named Avengers Tower was

He however happily accepted Stark’s advice of purchasing a bike rather than a car, because the New York traffic had gotten and his Harley was a perfect means of transport for his daily commute

The fact he then had to go through the reception every day as well did not bother him at all – if he was being completely honest, he adored it… at least most days

Because most days, passing the reception desk meant seeing you, your smile that got much more radiant whenever you saw someone you clearly liked and whom you weren’t simply trying to maintain a professional image with, so charmingly polite

It appealed to Steve that you were so brilliantly sweet, but you also had a smidge of a teasing side and when you flashed him that smile, he was entirely enamoured, as pathetically as it sounded

They say that you can take the man out of the forties, but you can’t take the forties out of a man and for Steve Rogers, that was certainly true

However, Steve’s actions, as he got the chance to observe the lobby and various floors of the Avengers Tower beside taking generous amount of time to observe you, had nothing to him being some kind of an old-timer as Tony would elaborately put it

It had everything to do with him hating bullies with every fibre of his being

And boy, did he see a lot more than he could ever image – the world, even if it shrug to the size of the Avengers Tower, was full of assholes… there was no less vulgar way to put it

Steve frankly wanted to punch them all, or at least give them some very well-meant and stern advice, but he had to maintain certain image, just as you did

In fact, the first time Steve tried to set a man straight, it was your remark that led him to it

The thing was, not only you couldn’t quite take the forties out of a man – but you certainly couldn’t erase his looking-for-trouble-when-being-righteous nature either

When you both once again witnessed Alvez from accounting provocatively tossing his not entirely empty to-go coffee cup literally next to the garbage bin meant for it, because the cleaning lady was around and you joked about what that man would deserve… well. Steve latched onto it.

“God, Alvez is such a jerk. I swear if that man had to put on a cleaning uniform for one hour, he’d be a lot more appreciative of workers who get their hands dirty so he could live his best life…” you whisper -elled, your usual bright and inviting expression twisting in a scowl

And Steve Rogers had a revelation – he’d make Alvez do exactly that

Fifteen minutes later saw Steve Rogers knocking on the door of Pepper Potts’ office after having been assured by her secretary that she could squeeze Steve into her tight schedule

Needless to say, Pepper Potts, who ran the Stark part of the Avengers Tower, was not only intrigued but downright fascinated by the idea of employees switching places for a day, exploring the wonders of their colleagues’ work and giving up that day’s wages in the Stark Foundation’s favour, should they consent to it – however, the switch would be mandatory

Steve Rogers, having seen to get Alvez just the spot he deserved, had the time of his life… mostly because he made sure to be on duty behind the reception desk. He insisted that if other employees were switching places, so would he

He got the front seats to the show, making sure to ask Tony for the recording later to show you; but he also renewed his mad respect for you remaining polite and collected when dealing with annoying phone calls and insistent jerks in person alike

It continued like that, Steve finding ways to subtly show people who were disrespectful or downright bullied others that this was no way to treat them

That guy who would never hold the elevator door, smashing the other button on purpose? He’d find a fake out-of-service sign and end up walking twenty-five storeys, only for the sign disappearing right after he did

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[catdadeddie]

God, that conversation between Eddie and Chris is soooo long overdue at this point. Like, i was begging for it when Chris ran to Buck in 4x08. There should have been one after he broke up with Ana. There should have been one about the shooting (and the will???) And now again.

Like, it would solve so many problems?? Or at least would allow more effective solutions. Eddie only ever gets to see Chris‘ immediate and emotional reactions, which causes him to overreact and overcorrect.

And that’s not me saying that i don’t like what the show’s doing, i actually feel confident in saying that this is all leading up to something great, but it’s soo unnerving

Yep!! Like he just needs to talk to Chris and actually figure out what he wants and needs. They start the conversation but never finish it.

[d0llhousess]

i hope sending this in is okay since i don't think it's a request (?) :') who out of the diamond no ace boys do you think have the highest IQ and EQ?

character asks are always welcome, Anon!! but this really was a thinker since the cast of daiya is so large, haha! uhh i kinda stuck with the ones i’m familiar with atm so like if they haven’t shown up mid season 2 then they’re not included.

Highest IQ:

Miyuki: he’s shown to be very analytical, can asset situations quickly, very good at processing data (dude keeps up with so many damn stats), and he just screams high IQ

Ryou: listen...i normally have exact situations to point to but for him i don’t, he just has the vibes ok.

Yuuki: my defense is that he’s shown to actually do well at school, and managed to get into a university that’s extremely selective soooo

Chris: same reasons as Miyuki, tbh i think most of the catchers have a high IQ, it’s a very analytical position, also Chris is good at just...developing plans and solutions on the spot so yeah.

honorable mentions i have 0 reason for: Tadano, Shirakawa, Shirasu, Tojo

Highest EQ:

Haruichi: he understands Eijun’s many whims, his brothers antics, and Furuya’s blank stares...need I say more.

Kuramochi: anyone who can understand the arrange of emotions that Miyuki goes through and conceals deserve to be high on the EQ list. Also he’s shown to be observant and able to process and properly express his emotions as well.

Mei: tbh, he acts like he doesn’t understand others, but he does. he’s very keen on other’s reactions/emotions. plus he has a very deep understanding of himself? mei is never shown being puzzled about his emotions. he knows exactly why he feels them, and exactly how to release them.

Isashiki: even though emotional talk makes him feel icky, he does have a deep understanding of them. was always shown to be very in tune with everyone’s emotions on the team. knows exactly why people feel a certain way, also knows the meaning of his own emotions.

Honorable mentions: Kawakami, Chris, Sanada

[lovecolibri]

SaL anon here friend and I finished S2 and just started S3 (tsunami plot here I come!!). I was going to give you my S2 thoughts but I was pretty sick all weekend, I'll get them out later but to help you through this 911less Monday I figured a song was in order, so let's revisit Hourglass. I figured something about falling apart, regret, wanting to go back to the way things were and the things we'd change but ending with "the heart keeps widening for change" is appropriate for these boys now.

Oh bestie, I wanted to get to this so many times this week! But my niece came to visit and she was in rare form this week and I wanted to be able to take my time with this soooo, here we are ages later and I’m just getting around to this. Please come yell at me about the tsunami arc (my beloved) and your thoughts on season 3  so far which might be my favorite season, and all your thoughts about season 2!!

Okay, so in the notes for this song, Ryan mentions that they are about grief, the moments after the loss but before the funeral and I am just....deep in my Evan Buckely feelings right now and the shooting arc and the days between Eddie being shot and him waking up and I am all too unwell about it. But I’m also thinking about Eddie and Shannon’s death and how you can love what someone meant to you before and still be angry at them and then what do you do with all that anger when the person is gone before you have the chance to work through it all? How do you deal with your anger when everyone in your family is letting their vitriol out and you feel like someone should stand up for the mother of your child, because underneath it all there is understanding that the constant undermining from the parents can be too much, and everything can be too much, but you’re still angry and can’t let it out lest everyone else feel justified in theirs when they are part of the reason she didn’t feel she could stay. Uuuuugh, I just have a lot of feelings about how Eddie wasn’t ever really allowed to process his combined anger/love/grief about Shannon. I need that man to finally be allowed to have a full breakdown so he can start to heal from all of this.

Anyway this song is short and probably best read all at once so I’m going to leave the lyrics whole, but I do have a couple thoughts I’ll put below. 

we’re taking turns at shattering apart. at least we’re taking turns.

how did we get so good at dismantling these hearts? how did we ever get so good?

we dress our best to receive their sympathy. at our worst, we dress our best?

“time heals all” according to these greeting cards. oh how we’d rather time resets.

if we could turn the hourglass, we would. if we could move a grain of sand, we would. if we could find our way back, we would.

our minds keep spinning webs of question marks and of regrets. will our minds keep spinning webs?

i once heard honest words: “though nothing may ever be the same, the heart keeps widening for change.”

One, the “taking turns at shattering apart” got me thinking about how aside from about 30 seconds when Buck told Eddie about Christopher before Eddie sees that he’s okay, it’s always been one of them worried about the other (taking turns), but if something happens with Chris (not anything major!! just thinky thoughts about the 5x10 synopsis and Chris being “emotional”) how would they deal when they can’t take turns on this one, but are both shattering apart at the same time and both keeping it together for Chris until they both can take a moment once he’s okay to break? What then, hmmm? What then?

Two, “at our worst, we dress our best” just has me thinking about the lawsuit and Buck being in a suit for the hearings, and Eddie being dressed in a suit when he has his first panic attack, and how good Eddie looked when he went home and did the (to his mind) selfish thing and broke up with his girlfriend, and Buck almost always always being in buttoned up clothes around his girlfriend and never looking quite as comfortable as we usually see him and dressing up on the outside to hide the pain and mess on the inside. I’m absolutely normal about all of this. 🙃

Three, “if we could turn the hourglass, we would/if we could move a grain of sand, we would” is just smacking me in the face with Buck saying it would have been better if he was the one who was shot and how if he had been in uniform he likely would have been but he wasn’t and so Eddie took the shot instead and how if Buck could go back and do things differently he would take that bullet in a heartbeat to keep Eddie safe. 

Four, Ryan knows how to punch you in the gut with grief, and then sooth the ache with a final dash of hope, and “the heart keeps widening for change” is exactly what is going on with Buck and Eddie. They are dealing with the closed, locked, bolted, and boarded over doors to the softest parts of their hearts and it feels like every time they crack that door open an arrow makes it in and they slam it shut again. But for each other? They are working on opening the doors again, wider and wider each time. And I’m so excited to see them finally realize that those softest parts are safe in each other’s hands.

[servinglemonade]

HAMILTON ON DISNEY+

BEWARE: SPOILERS AHEAD FOR HAMILTON ON DISNEY+

Hi everyone! I’m back with a very exciting post that I thought I would not be writing for a very long time. My review of the filmed Hamilton Production on Broadway with the OBC!! After the unexpected announcement that the Hamilton film would find it’s home on Disney+ instead of being released in theaters in 2021, I was ecstatic. I could not believe it! I have been listening to the album with the OBC for years now. I never get tired of it, it always puts a smile on my face and the occasional comfort whenever I need it. I have watched Hamilton four times now and I just love it so much. So let’s go...

Overall reaction

Even after watching four times now, my reaction is still the same. I truly believe that it is a brilliant masterpiece. That is high praise for sure, but Hamilton deserves it. I will never forget experiencing it for the first time on July 3rd. I was blown away and could not take my eyes off the screen. It was exhilarating to finally see this, after listening to it for years. It is the little details that you do not get to experience when listening to the album that I loved the most. So overall, I was blown away by it and exceeded all of my expectations.

Film 

I have never seen a filmed stage musical, so I do not have a reference. However, I thought this was beautifully filmed. It showed the whole stage when it was needed and zoomed in on the actors when necessary. It was an intimate experience. You get the best seat in the house, so to speak.

Cast

I already knew the cast was phenomenal due to listening to the cast album. Seeing them perform all the songs was even better than I expected! Here is an itemized list (hehe) of all the cast members, because they all deserve a chance to shine! Special shout-out to all the ensemble members, without them the show would just not be complete!

Lin-Manuel Miranda as Alexander Hamilton Favorite performance: Hurricane (so beautifully staged!!)

The man, the myth, the legend! I am a huge fan of Lin and his work (even beyond Hamilton)! I thought his Hamilton was great and very funny at times. The emotion in his performance was really good! Lin wrote this whole thing!! It all came from his mind, which is incredible in and of itself. 

Phillipa Soo as Eliza Hamilton Favorite performance: Burn (iconic)

Phillipa is so talented. She has an amazing voice and pair that with her amazing performance and it is practically perfect. Her acting and singing during the final song, Who Lives, Who Dies, Who Tells Your Story, was so emotional. It had me crying all the three times I have seen it. 

Leslie Odom Jr. as Aaron Burr Favorite performance: Wait For It (this is one of the songs that made me a Hamilton fan)

Leslie Odom Jr. is one of the most talented people ever. He is so amazing on that stage. Everybody always said that The Room Where It Happens is a true masterpiece and I always liked the song, but it was not my favorite. Seeing Leslie and the Ensemble cast perform it, WOW! Incredible. Leslie is the perfect Burr and had me crying and laughing many times.

Renée Elise Goldsberry as Angelica Schuyler Favorite performance: Satisfied (what else?!)

I always found Renée’s voice so damn powerful in Satisfied, which made me love the song more. Seeing Satisfied performed was magical and I will never get over how amazing that song is and how perfect Renée performs it. She is a true powerhouse whenever she shows up and confirmed that Angelica is one of my favorites in the show.

Daveed Diggs as Marquis de Lafayette/Thomas Jefferson Favorite performance: What’d I Miss (this was hard)

Daveed Diggs. Daveed Diggs. Daveed Diggs. Oh my gosh, he was even more perfect than I thought. Daveed is one of the cast members everyone always raved about and now I know why! If I had to describe his performance, I would say it is electric. He just immediately captures your attention. For both Lafayette and Jefferson!  

Christopher Jackson as George Washington Favorite performance: One Last Time (this was so powerful)

The first time Chris emerges on the stage as Washington, you are just immediately drawn to him (at least I was haha). He just has a very powerful presence. Especially in Right Hand Man, his entrance is EVERYTHING! History Has Its Eyes On You has always been one of my favorites on the soundtrack and it was even better seeing it. However, his moment is One Last Time. It is truly a defining moment of the entire show.

Okieriete “Oak” Onaodowan as Hercules Mulligan/James Madison Favorite performance: Yorktown (his part is so good)

Oak has some fantastic moments in the show! His Hercules Mulligan is so great and full of energy. As I said, his part in Yorktown gets me so hyped! I loved James Madison’s parts with Jefferson, they had awesome energy together. Another fave Madison line is in The Election of 1800. The first line is Jefferson saying if they can get back to Politics since a lot of drama and sad stuff happened in the past few songs and Madison is like uhh, please with a soft voice because he has been crying. So funny and relatable!

Anthony Ramos as John Laurens/Philip Hamilton Favorite Performance: Blow Us All Away (funny in the beginning and ends so sadly)

I enjoyed Anthony Ramos’ performance quite a bit! He was great in conveying emotions as both Laurens and Phillip, with both roles having quite emotional endings. I was shocked to find out there was a part just before Non-Stop that showed Hamilton learning about Laurens’ death, that was so sad and Anthony Ramos did it so beautifully. I was very impressed by him and I cannot wait to see him in In The Heights!

Jasmine Cephas Jones as Peggy Schuyler/Maria Reynolds Favorite performance: Say No To This (her vocals are so great here)

Peggy and Maria might not be the biggest roles in the show but Jasmine slays in both of them! Especially as Maria, her vocals in Say No To This are even better than on the cast album. She was amazing!

Jonathan Groff as King George III Favorite performance: I Know Him (Jonathan’s performance makes this song work so well)

Jonathan was funny on the album but when you see the performance with it, it just completes it! He was phenomenal, and I loved that he showed up during some other songs as well, for example in The Reynolds Pamphlet, absolutely hilarious! I also enjoyed his little announcement at the beginning, where he said Enjoy MY show, that was a neat thing to include here!

Favorite Musical Numbers

Okay, so these are all my favorite performance, taking into consideration the song itself, staging, choreography, and production. I love how seeing the show made me love songs that were not my favorites before! So here they are in a non-particular order:

My Shot 

So powerful, I think I almost jumped off the couch at the end because I was so hyped!

The Schuyler Sister

Even better than I thought it would be! From the use of the rotating stage, the performances, and choreography.

Farmer Refuted

This was the one song I always skipped on the album, however, seeing it here makes me lol every time! It’s great.

You’ll Be Back, What Comes Next?, and I Know Him

Give me all the King George content, soooo funny, I just love these moments in the show!

Helpless and Satisfied

Satisfied is still my favorite of the two, however it was breathtaking seeing how well the two are connected. Especially Satisfied, first the toast, then rewinding to see Helpless from Angelica’s perspective, and lastly coming back to the toast. I just thought it was stunning to see! The staging here is phenomenal.

Wait For It

The song that made me love Hamilton. Seeing Leslie performing it, made me love it, even more. He is so talented and amazing here. I had goosebumps. Even though the staging and production for this number are simple, it just makes it even better because you can just focus on Burr!

Yorktown (The World Turned Upside Down)

Every time I watch it and Yorktown ends, I always shake my head in awe. It such a powerful moment in the show and it just makes me very hyped (especially Mulligan’s part). SO good.

Non-Stop

I know I keep talking about how great the staging is, but I feel like the staging from Satisfied, Non-Stop, and another one is the best ones in the show. The ending of Non-Stop on the stage with all the characters standing above Hamilton, stairs being moved from one side to the other all so seamlessly... *chef’s kiss*

Cabinet Battle #1 and #2

The energy between Hamilton and Jefferson here is so good, and I love they look into the audience and make them a part of it. Lin and Daveed just nail these songs!

The Room Where It Happens

Two things: LESLIE and THE CHOREOGRAPHY. That is all.

Washington On Your Side

I just really started loving this song after seeing the show. I also loved the beginning of the song where Burr joins Jefferson on stage, starts singing and Jefferson is just standing there confused thinking: “Where did you come from all of a sudden?” This is Chris’ moment in the show, he just conveys so much emotion in every line. 

One Last Time

This is Chris’ moment in the show, he just conveys so much emotion in every line. 

Hurricane

I just love this song and the use of the rotating stage here is excellent, same goes for the lighting.

The World Was Wide Enough

Seeing this for the first time was so emotional, the part where only Lin is singing and you onlyhear his voice... Pfff, amazing! Also how Leslie ends the song, WOW! 

Who Lives, Who Dies, Who Tells Your Story

The way I sobbed during this... I just thought it was a beautiful ending for the show itself.

Okay, that was a long one! But I love talking about Hamilton and if you read the whole post, I guess you like reading about it! Thank you so much for reading and I hope you enjoyed it! What were your favorite moments from the show?

Have a festive day and stay safe! 

XO 

Yenai