#I just wanna see them hapoy

[beeholyshit]

I'M GONNA START CRYING I'M SO ILL RN

[jjwho]

What You Should Work on Right Now?

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Pile1. Pile2.

Pile3. Pile4.

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Pile 1

Cards pulled out: Five of cups, ace of swords reversed, eight of cups reversed, the magician reversed, four of pentacles

Okay I'm getting two scenarios from these cards so read both and apply whichever one resonates

Scenario 1: Something happened that left you in despair, heartbroken and just left your broken broken. Like some glass being broken but it's something inside you that died yk yk. This situation caused you to have fights with people cause they couldn't see why you're in such despair or anything like that and this situation caused you to not be able to focus on anything that you are working on rn, it caused like a huge block inside your head. Now you're still slow and scared to move forward, like you don't wanna move on. Might be you loved someone they left or abandoned you and now you don't wanna leave their greedy manipulative ass. Which you need to work on. Or they have completely been removed from your life and now whenever you meet someone who you ket in or sparks something eith you your abandonment issues peek up and you cling onto them which you need to work on. Let go.. stop focusing on the negative

Scenario 2: Something also left you in despair and heartbroken and you're still hurt from it and this thing caused you to have a fault in your head where you can't be yourself anymore. Think like how you use to think. You can't stay as possible or focused as you use to be because of whatever the situation before happened. This all together slowed you down and you don't wanna move on because you're not ready yet or you're not ready to get Hury again so you pull om your torn shoes and never let anyone close enough to steal your heart again or your stuff or friend yk yk? You've just become more greedy with everything and that's something you need to work on.

Advice from the wheel of JJs: "One life, one chance, a world that does care"

Stop holding yourself back. You have one chance don't move it with your slow ass. No ones gonna do anything anymore just do it bro. Live life. Speak your thoughts. Let yourself be free and express yourself bro.

That's all I gotta say. Work on your negative thoughts and abandonment issues and attachment issues.

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Pile 2

Cards pulled out:four of swords, the sun reversed, the world, two of swords eight of wands

So pike two you may be or still often struggle alot with your anxiety, your fears, feeling overwhelmed all of the time and feeling hella tired. Even with your happiness you don't truly feel happy, not having enough freedom as you'd want too, might be with your success or feeling fulfilled with yourself or eith your sense of belonging and you might struggling a lot picking between two of these things maybe you're not hapoy eith where you are or maybe you travel too often it's overwhelming but you just can't pick between what you should do because you see yourself losing one thing if you pick the ither option and same with the other. I see that you need to work on pulling yourself back into your body and Slowing the fuck down and grounding yourself back and finally seeing what's actually calling you and what gives you freedom, fulfillment and happiness.

Advice: ""No" is key for respect"

Ah I see I see now, so what could also be what's not giving you freedom is you not saying no to what's you're not okay eith. You need to say no if you want people and things to respect you cause they won't ever know when to stop once you say no. You can have so much freedom and less fear and anxiety once you take back your space and energy after saying a simple no. Yes people might be upset but who cares its your life. They might be upset but its better to day no now before they chop ur head off for saying no after saying yes to them for everything.so stand up for yourself and get your freedom back okay hoe.

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Pile 3

Cards pulled out: Strength, ace of pentacles, ten of cups, six of pentacles, ten of swords

Pile 3 I see that you need courage rn and you need to be brave and be strong. I see you've are now getting many new financial opportunities and many long term stable money ways coming in. A lot of happy times with your family and just a lot of abundance coning in for you and fun and your creativity coning out again. Your luck just being really good now and you being really fulfilled, but because of all of this you don't know when too stop. You've been too generous and sharing all of your things. Yes that's sweet of you and helps some people, but beware full this causes a gap where people can come in cause you're not self aware enough so see these hoes are gonna backstab you and just take ur shit and go. Like you gave them too much and treated them like a friend now they saw their opportunity and are taking it. Have courage to say no okay. Like damn. They're gonna take away all ur Ling term stability and shit.

Advice: "Time never stops a d change never stops" stop Slowing down you have all these opportunies, they ain't gonna wait for you bro. Things change so don't feel pulled down even more when you see so much change and you're not use to it. Yes shit happened but ja you gotta suck it up and pull up your bug boy pants and take it as a lesson that makes you even more stronger. More successful and abundant you are the more jealous and thirsty and greedy eyes on you. Just take last time as a thank you lesson and that didn't hurt you too hard that you're completely lost all your luck.

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Pile 4

Cards pulled out: Death, three of swords, three of wands, two of swords and five of wands back of the deck

So you mightve had an ending to a connection or with something and that really left your heartbroken, sad, depressed and all those shit things, because this hoe mightve been king to you the whole time being a tricky ass bitch and getting their way with things. Now you might be struggling with seeing the truth and you're just fighting with yourself. Really struggling with your self confidence and everything after the whole situation left you torn. Provably having problems moving forward, you might want to get back eith this person or avoiding seeing or acknowledging the whole thing happened.

Advice: ""No" is the key to respect" bro don't let people esoically lying cheating bitches push you over you're stuck between the two and choose yourself hoe. No ones gonna resocet you more than you can yourself espicalky you ain't gonna get respect from a cheating hoe. You need to work on your self esteem and freedom. And you need to stop advising issues and stop blinding yourself because you don't want to see the truth or because you're scared to see the truth. Stop it and accept and move on.

Okay that's all I have for you pile 4

Anyways I hope yall enjoyed the readings

[6yuns]

Hi can I req a knights x reader who is very cold and mean to males but very sweet and nice to females(this includes arashi). Lol idk it's just funny to see reader change attitude so fast. Anyways thank you ♪⁠～⁠(⁠´⁠ε⁠｀⁠ ⁠)

IM SCRWAMING MY HEAD PFF THOEMTAOG YAYAYAYETE6A

pairings ; knights ( Leo, ritsu, tsukasa, arashi) x gn!reader

umm idk if u wanted seperate s il do sebpreatryasuy ayayay IM SO HAPOY

warnings ; idk , homosexuality ( sarcasm pls please )

extra notes : okay wait what if knights was full of homosexual people!?!??! transfem tsukasa? or nah.. maybe? I'm so tired I just wanna eat☹️I love SEVENTEEN , I love you anon thank you ( thus is chaod ) why is this not making sense help me how do I write☹️ saving best for last! I'm removing Izumi idk how to write for him [cry]

TSUKASA SUOU + being hit on ( reader receiving :3 )

you two were walking to a store, just a normal day with no idol work. tsukasa moved his hand closer to yours and held it softly. Very very cute moment till... A group of boys ( 16-18 yrs ) walked up to both of you and tsukasa and started to basically.. hit on you, Of course. You ignored their antics and gave them the cold shoulder. And glared at them. tsukasa chuckled at your reaction to them hitting on you, the group of boys laughed it off and left you alone. tsukasa and you continued your date

LEO TSUKINAGA :33 + autographs

sitting at the park with Leo, Having fun till a stranger (danger) comes up to both of you and asks for your autographs, Of course he got Leo's. but not yours, He realized he wouldn't get it. so, he mentioned his daughter and called her over, and you agreed immediately, but still giving him your autograph reluctantly. Leo giggled at your change of attitude. and you laughed it off, The two left and you and Leo continued on with your picnic date

RITSU SAKUMA + interview

ritsu sat down while you stood next to him. two interviewers came up to where you were and began to ask questions like ' how is it in The idol group Knights? ' or 'what's it like being in knights?'. There was this question asked by the male interviewer, 'are you knights producer? if so, Could you Share your experiences with the group?' let's just say.. he got brushed off by you, that kinda hurt. Ritsu whispered to you about how funny you were acting towards him. Then the female interviewer asked you the question and you immediately answered, leaving both males shocked. the lady laughed and thanked you for your answer and you shook her hand, Literally blushing.

ARASHI NARUKAMI + photoshoot

in a photoshoot with arashi, Another model came and asked you if you wanted to model with him on his next shoot, completely ignoring arashi. And he got ignored himself, He got the hint and left you alone. arashi and you continued your shoot til a really cute girl asked if she could model with you two because she was nervous, And you agreed faster than you could ignore the guy, Speaking of him. he watched with a shocked and confused expression, arashi laugrd at your quickness to say yes to her question and changeof attitude. Arashi nodded her head to the girl as an agreement to help her with her shoot.

I have a feeling ill hate this later on.

[sucrows]

knock knock o/ 👉👈 i have... many madara mikejima thoughts. and im still thinking abt mutual obsession with him so uhhhhhh cw unhealthy relationship? we know why we're here... excuse me being annoyingly longwinded orz this is barely sexy. this is just me thinking abt mama im so sorry crow aaaaa

madara mikejima is the guy who would be at your service at all times— no questions just pure devotion. for as long as he is around you, you might as well say you have your own personal assistant. theres so many examples of him doing stuff for others and i will never shut up abt his fs1 where anzu was like hey what if your exclusive outfit was just a loincloth and he was on board purely bc she likes it. HE HAS 0 SHAME IN DOING EVERYTHING YOU SAY. NONE. YOU COULD ASK HIM TO BARK AND HE WILL. when that guy loves someone, he craves them with his entire being and desires nothing more than to be in their life.

he's also not above just. asking for a fwb situation. he wouldn't be so blunt about it, but it'd be a slow coercing. mama isn't above lying about his motives either. maybe he sees you're stressed and hey. let him massage your shoulders. lay down. oh your back is just tense huh? and it escalates until he's just fucking you with reckless abandon. well your stress is gone now so he offers to make this a regular thing. no strings attached and no worries. he just wants to make you relaxed.

here's where it gets messy. mama is also out of town a lot for work. he goes overseas, just touring around. but bc he spends every waking moment he is in town attached to your hip, his absence is so. prominent. and god it feels so awful not seeing him. phone calls arent enough. good morning and goodnight texts are sporadic because he's so busy. you miss having mama around to hold you while you do work.

and it's not great for him either. he's constantly worried about you. he can't get you out of his head. when he finally gets back it's like he's moved heaven and earth buying you various trinkets that reminded him of you (some even extremely rare and valuable since... he just collects those things anyway)

just. intense back and forth of hapoiness being with him every single day to devastating loneliness whenever he leaves. each time he comes back, ofc intense welcome home sex ensues. but it never goes past the fwb stage. any deeper feelings he's harboured are shoved aside and he grows distant when he feels like you want to get even closer. he always wants what he can't have. and he'd rather you not be caught up in whatever bullshit he goes through so he lies to himself saying he's content with meaningless sex and just doing things for you. even when you have consumed his entire thoughts. yet he's unaware that you are much the same. craving him more and more that you wanna get through to him. but HIS FUCKASS LONESOME WAYS MAKES YOU HESITATE. SO YALL JUST GO NOWHERE. AND ITS JUST A "what are we?" LOOP

mf.... madara just will not communicate. he can't go beyond superficial desires and acts of service because it scares him to face the fact these feelings have grown wildly out of control. it scares him because the moment he does, he fears his own self destructive tendencies will take over and he'll just ruin everything. whats more is that imo i think he would still unconsciously do things like distance himself, not speak to you for days even after coming back as like a way for you to grow to resent him. that way if things crumble he can just say oh the signs were there as if he didn't put those flags up himself.

uh yea 💚 thats all. uhm. unrelated i think youre super cool and i hope ya have/had a good day dependin on when you get to this 💚

minty i am going to become the JOKER if you do not stop apologizing for things i actively invited you to do and that is a THREAT /lh

anyways, this is soooo tasty idgaf if it's more angsty than horny i'm eating this up anyways, thank you for the meal 🙏

Madara Mikejima, King of Miscommunication. He adores you and puts you on such a high pedestal that it becomes nearly impossible to convince him to stand by your side as your equal. He believes that you deserve better so much but he's also too selfish to give you up. He's not worthy of you, but neither is anyone else.

He wants the emotional intimacy. He wants the domesticity. He wants everything. Hell, he probably indulges in these things pretty often in a FWB relationship, but he can't ever tie you down. The moment he gets the inclination that you're getting too attached, he runs. When you're truly in a time of need he will always be there for you but otherwise he's as fickle as the wind.

It's a horrendously painful but addicting relationship that neither of you can truly break off

[andvys]

Then, he didn’t understand it but looking back, he now knows that he had always loved you. It wasn’t a love that needed to be built up, it was one that was just there naturally and it got stronger and stronger over time. You had his heart from the very beginning, he was yours, wholeheartedly yours. 

wait that's such a beautiful description of love 🥹

He was content with waiting, even if that meant waiting forever. He would because there is no one else that he wants, no one but you. 

HES A CUTIE PATOOTIE

“I got you, pretty girl,” he murmurs against your skin as he buries his face in your neck after taking your shirt off, he sucks on your skin, marking you up. He pushes you down on the bed, you put your hands on his waist and pull him down with you, catching him off guard a little. His nose bumps against yours, making you both groan. 

wish that were me rn

His eyes light up and he smiles, “I’m your girl?” He jokes, wiggling his brows. 

HES MY BABYGIRL!!!

You touch his chest, tracing his tattoos and leaning in to kiss them, “I always loved these so much,” you whisper. 

tattoos or boobs? 🤨

“You’re so beautiful, fuck,” he mumbles as he continues to suck on your nipple while his other hand grabs at your other boob, “my sexy little rockstar.” 

I WANNA BE A ROCKSTAR

He grabs your ass, lifting you up a little as he buries his face further into your pussy, moaning and whimpering against you. He loves it, he loves you. 

oh no that's hot 🥲🦋

He slips his fingers into you, stretching you open for his cock. His tongue finds your clit as his eyes lock with yours yet again, “keep your eyes open, look at me, baby,” he whispers when he sees your eyes fluttering. 

WHATEVER YOU SAY BABY 👁🫦👁

Eddie feels you in his heart, he feels you in his soul. God, he loves you. 

THATS BEAUTIFUL 🥹🥹

All the torture, all the pain is finally over. He has you and you have him and now you can finally let the light in, build your life together and live the way you always wanted to; together. 

i love them so so much

“Me too, darling,” he whimpers against your lips, “you’re my forever.” 

YOURE MY FOREV- ARE YOU KIDDING ME 😭💓

“The thought of being your boyfriend makes me hard again.”

wish someone felt like that about me fr

Blood rushes to his cock when you get closer to his dick, you lick his happy trail, smirking at the gasp that fell from his lips.

HAPOY TRAILS SIABSISBS you do not understand how much i love them

“Can I eat you out in the shower?” 

what beautiful words to be told

“In the sheets?” Gareth wiggles his brows at Johnny, causing him to laugh. 

BAHAHA I LOVE HIM

Eddie’s eyes soften, he looks at the tiny little human in your arms and he can’t help but imagine one of your own– he wonders what they would look like, would they have your eyes or his? He hopes they will get your pretty eyes. “Hmm, he looks like a little Jeff with the big head.” 

SOUNDS LIKE SOMETHING I WOULD ACCIDENTALLY SAY 😭

The little boy scrunches his face up, making a funny nose. You frown, taking his tiny hands, “shh, you don’t have a big head, little one.”

HAHAHA PLEASE

“I can’t wait to have one of our own,” he whispers, squeezing your arm. 

oh?

He nods, “yeah, I’d have one with you right away,” Eddie says with a blush on his face. 

OH?? 🤨

You snort at his words, “I’m not gonna be a stay at home mom while you tour the world and get to be around all these pretty groupies while I–” He cuts you off with another kiss, “I don’t care about them, you know that,” he mumbles, frowning at you, “and I’d be willing to be a stay at home dad if you wanted to continue touring.”

EDDIE THE STAY AT HOME DAD

“Oh fuck,” he groans as his eyes widen, “you make me wanna bend you–

NOT IN FRONT OF THE CHILDREN !!

He tilts his head, glaring at her, “I’m talking about little Olaf.” 

I LOVE LUCAS SO FUCKING MUCH 😭😭

To my little girl,

OH NO THATS GONNA BE SAD

“Goodbye dad,” you whisper for the first time. A fallen star appears in the sky and a gentle breeze touches your cheek. A sad smile appears on your face. For a moment, you just stand there and look up into the sky. 

AWWWW GOODBYE :(((

He can’t help but kiss you again before he whispers, “we’ll burn the sky.” 

OOOHHHHH

ANDYYY THAT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL!! I LOVED EVERY PART OF IT, IT WAS EQUALLY SO SOFT AND LOVING AS WELL AS HOT AND AAAAA IM WAITING FOR THE EPILOGUE 🥹🥹🫶

I’m so happy you liked the final chapter! 🥹 The epilogue is gonna be even softer!

Eddie truly is a babygirl isn’t he 😩 The happy trails are hot, especially Eddie’s and steve’s 🥰

Eddie insulting Jeff’s baby was fun to write 😭 and he would totally be a stay at home dad which would confuse steve so much (he’d also be jealous 😂) You’re gonna get a glimpse of their future in the epilogue 🤭

[aquietsystem]

Well this is a few days late (i forgot i had the account lmao) but i finally blocked my extended family. I blocked 5 relatives and it was incredibly difficult.

Idk if this is too personal, i dont think it is, but i may delete it later

I have my therapist and my family to thank for helping me to see that im allowed. My family is so supportive. I cried to ma aboht how i was feeling and she just held me and told me its ok, to block them. She asked if i need her to talk to my aunt for me, and usually i try to be the one to do that when needed but i had to say yes. I knew i couldnt, that if it were up to me to send the final message, id chicken out. Once it was sent i blocked them. Mom talked to dad, since its dads family not hers, not for permission or anything, but to let him know incase they say anything about it.

During my initial talk with ma, id mentioned a possible new split my therapist and i had discussed. I explained that it feels like i lost all sense of joy and happiness (info: im a very bubbly, hapoy, smiley person usually. I/we as a whole have a mindset of put more kindness into the world than we recieved), but the possible new alter (i say possible but shes literally left a video afmiting to being the one to cut our bangs) is exactly that. Shes bubbly, happy, giggly and smiley. And i told mom about her. Apparently she cried when talking to my dad and telling him that, she cried because ive been holding that in so long (specifically the fact that i couldnt be happy/giggly anymore (there was a gap when she was splitting between when i lost my ability to be as happy as i was and when she first fronted i think?) but was trying to pretend i was fine.

My dad came to my smokehole after and gave me a big speech about how even if nobody agreed with my decision to block them (they all do) my feelings would still be valid and id still be allowed to do it. About 5 mins later my youngest brother comes oht and tells me he loves me and that if i ever wanna talk hes there.

Later, my aunt had responded to my mom. She was defending uncle entirely, and it honestly seemed like to her the worst part of the situation was his agreeing to cheat. Which like yes, thats a problem, but respectfully theres a much larger problem with what he did. Anyways at that point, after reading her message, i decided i would send her one final message so hopefully she understanding the real meaning of his actions and the reall effect they had. It hurt, but was necessary. My other younger brother told her to "wake the fuck up or shes gonna lose her neices and nephews" i was proud

[rafyki]

god I nEED TO GO TO A CONCERT

[catboy07-moved]

congrats on your gay ghost partner you're living the dream

bro what if the scary ghost in my room doesnt wanna kill me but actually,,, kiss me?😂😂😳😳 enemies to friends to lovers 60k angst with a happy ending.

[tumblunni]

Design brainstorming for uncertainly named protagonist grumpman + miscellaneous other

Not sure about this design, probably gonna keep doodling a bunch more ideas for both of em. I feel like i at least have a hold on their personalities tho?

Also i'd appreciate feedback on the names! I like Silas and Sylvester cos they both mean "beast" to Beau's beauness. But then i had a sudden idea for OTHER PUN so what if Beau and Errol???

[beeindaclouds]

DSMP comforting you pt. 2 ◛⑅·˚ ༘ ♡

Pairings: Quackity, Karl Jacobs, Nihachu, P!Clingy Duo, P!Skeppy, P!C!Philza × Reader

A. N: I am changing Philza to C!Philza because I feel more comfortable writing about the character rather then the content creator

Part One

❝ Quackity ❞

He'll bombard you with questions

"Baby, are you alright? You look upset. Why are you upset? Do you need anything? Wanna talk about it? I'm always here you know. I'll even delay the stream a bit if you want"

It's a bit overwhelming at first but he's only doing it because he loves you

He'll sit down and talk, he'll let you join stream to distract you or, if you don't want to be seen, he'll hold your hand while you sit by him off camera

If you are on stream with him off camera he'll sometimes turn the cam and mike off to check up on you, give you a kiss or two

He'll sometimes steal glances at you to see if you're ok and if you're enjoying the stream

Chat will notice and wil start asking questions but he'll ignore them to not put the attention on you

❝ Karl Jacobs ❞

He realizes very quickly that you are not okay

You both are togheter almost 24/7, except when he has to stream, so he knows you like the back of his hand

He'll try to make you smile while waddling to you, slowly holding your face and giving it light kisses like you were made out of glass and would break at any moment

He won't ask what's wrong, he'll first let you calm down, make you feel comfortable enough to talk

When you are ready to talk he'll hold your hands

You have a habit to play with his hands, no matter the circumstances. He knows you love to do that, especially when he's wearing his rings

Sometimes he'll tease you for it

"Are my hands really that interesting?"

"I mean, yeah- why do you always ask that? It's embarrassing"

"You just look so hapoy when you play with them hehe"

❝ Nihachu ❞

I can't explain it but Niki has that like "mother" kind of feel

She just seems like a safe place

My english sucks omg

So, just like her, whenever you have a problem you'll quickly run to her

She's always there to listen, give some advice, give you hugs if you are very upset

She'll dry your tears for you as she looks you deep into your eyes and tell you that everything is going to be ok

And then you'll stay all cuddled up while drinking something warm

But you're not moving, she'll trap you into a blanket burrito and go make the drinks herself

"Niki, I'm fine, please free me"

"Burritos don't talk"

❝ Clingy Duo ❞ [Platonic]

Bold of you to assume that you can actually be upset near them

Not even 5 minutes into hanging out with them and you're already laughing your asses off over something one of you said

If we have to talk individually:

Tommy is the first to notice. At first he's a bit awkward when comforting, but he's actually good at it. He'll give you a side hug and rub your shoulder as you explain what's wrong

Tubbo's will later notice that you were upset. He'll profusely apologize for not noticing and let you talk out your problems to him too. Tries to give you advice and a small head pat

Everything will then go back to normal

"Since Ranboo stole Tubbo, I'm stealing Y/N! They're mine now"

"It doesn't work that way, boss man-"

"YES IT DOES"

"Do I get a say in this?"

❝ Skeppy ❞ [Platonic]

He's very awkward when comforting anybody

He never knows what to do and is scared to do the wrong thing

Probably ends up staring at you for too long as he thinks of what to do

"Take a picture Skep, it'll last longer"

"Oh no, I did it again, sorry-"

Makes you laugh as he tries to create excuses on why he was staring

You end up telling him everything and he just sits and listens

❝ C!Philza ❞ [Platonic]

You have been, non canonically, adopted by Phil

You hung around with Ranboo a lot, so he took you under his wing too

He got worried when he saw you sitting on his porch, in the cold, waiting for him to come back form one of his adventures

He quickly took you in and sat you in front of the fire with one of Techno's capes

After making you something warm to drink, and assuring that you are good and warm, he'll ask what's wrong

I have no dialogue for him, I'm so sorry ;-;

[malaks-perch]

okay okay so mermaid type deal bc i definitely wanna see one of our beloved with a tail glaring at our mc bc wtf are those paddles they're walking on?? and just maybe throw some monsterfucking on it bc why tf not

orrr

are we thinking about this... idk?? royal au where reader needs to get married but this strange peasant keeps coming to their window, telling them stories about the world beyond all while delivering fruits and gifts to court them bc they don't look hapoy but maybe if you gave me a chance, i could be your happy?

[ultimatetornshipper]

Ok but I can't stop thinking about Karlnapity

Like where Quackity just shows up at their door heavily injured one night and Sapnap opens and he just softly murmurs, "I didn't know where else to go," before fainting

And obviously Sapnap and Karl are both freaking out and helping in and Sapnap is ranting if like why is he here he didn't want us he didn't wanna come

And Karl keeps feeling like he's forgetting something and they work to help Quackity get better and they angst and realize he's still wearing his rings and Sapnap is all puzzled and Karl feels like this memory is on the tip of his tougue and later as Karl is carrying some plates to them Quackity is like awake and he's like why would u help me? U left me,

And suddenly everything hits Karl and he drops his plates and he's staring at the men he loves and he kinda zones out like they can both tell he is not there and he just falls on his knees onto the broken glass sobbing and apologising not even noticing tht he's bleeding and these two are like freaking the fuck out and Sapnap like picks him up but he still doesn't zone in and he keeps sobbing uncontrollably forming half sentences consistently of the words, my fault, forgot, stupid, quackit, sapnap, I'm so sorry please don't hate me I didn't mean to, i can't help- Quackity. And he keeps just saying this some words not even fully finishing and he's sobbing uncontrollably and he is so clearly not present and having a panic attack

And Sapnap is like taking out the glass and cleaning the wound and Quackity is trying to get him to breathe again

And Quackity stabilizes his breathing and zones him back in and he sees Quackity's face and he just has the most releived look on my face and the brightest smile and he envelopes him in a hug and is like

Quackity! Oh Quackity Ibjust had the mist terrible stupid dream, thank goodness ur here i didn't know what we'd do without you. I was so scared, I was so so scared. Because I didn't mean to I swear I didn't mean to. I forgot. I didn't mean to. It was all just a dream!

And he clings to him and both Sapnap and Quackity are incredibly confused

And Sapnap puts his hand on Karl's back and Karl looks at him and smiles and pulls him in and whispers I love yous to the two of them and sobs such tears of relief and these two have no idea what to do and eventually Sapnap pulls away and in the softest voice he goes

"Karl, can you tell us about ur dream?"

And Karl just looks up at him and takes his hand and is still under Q's arm and he like looks into the distance like at a wall and he's like

"I was so scared. I- I was so stupid. It was terrible. I was forgetting. I kept forgetting. I didn't want to but it was like I had no idea what was happening. I'd wake up in the middle of conversations and have no idea what they were about. The memories came back eventually. Some of them did at least and I could mostly remember the basics. But one day I forgot everyone in the smp and i wandered around for two weeks in the wilderness. I was stuck in the mines for a full 5 days with no sleep and I was so scared,"

Suddenly Sapnap remembered the time when Karl disappeared and took two weeks to come back and he never explained it because all the drama with Q happened right after

"And then I remember being back here again suddenly and it was seemingly another week since I'd gotten back and I was so confused. Because we were somewhere completely different and I was sso lost. Sapnap was cooking in the kichen of our new place and I asked him where you were Quackity and he said you left us! I couldn't believe it! How could i? You would never-,"

"Karl-," Sapnap interrupt, tense, eyes shifting between the two of them.

"Yeah I wouldn't-," Quackity started growing stiff but before he could keep going Karl nodded furiously.

"Exactly, so I knew it had to be some kind of mistake, some sort of misunderstanding. But I couldn't remember! It was so scary. And then u showed up Quackity and U was so hapoy to see u because maybe now i could find out what went wrong. But then-," Karl choked on a sob and tightened his hands around both if them, curling in on himself, "then I remembered! And it got even worse. Because in those two weeks that I disappeared I was supposed to go to u to tell u we were moving but I got lost and forget everything! And I didn't even know my own name those two weeks I didn't know what to do it was so scary! But it was even scarier than that because I hurt you guys, and it was all because I was too stupid to not tell u guys about the time travelling and the-,"

"Karl," Sapnap said, covering his hand with the other, "you never told us about your memory problems or the time travelling,"

Karl looked stricken, "I didn't?" He whispered, looking between the two for conformation.

They both shook their heads and tears were spilling over Quackity's cheeks, a dawning realization came across Karl's face and he harshly pulled away from them.

He moved to the other side of the couch muttering the word no under his breath over and over.

"I'm so sorry, you must hate me, you should hate me. I didn't mean to! I wanted to tell u but I didn't want to bother u or hurt u. I'm so sorry. I can't believe i just did that, i can't believe i just forgot again. I'm so stupid. I'm sorry. I hurt u so much I'm so sorry. It's all my fault," he looked up at them, eyes distant and full of raw grief and tears and hurt and he suddenly stood up, "I should leave,"

Sapnap grabbed him before he could walk away, "Karl, wait, just hold on a minute, we-," his eyes shot ti Quackity who was daziky staring at his lap, before darting back to Karl, "I don't hat u can u please just sit down that we can talk about this?"

Karl sat down and Sapnap stared at the two of them. Nevet in his life had he thought he would be the most emotionally stable in anay of his relationships and yet somehow here he was.

"You guys don't hate me?" Quackity whispered in a cracked voice, a small laugh escaped, you guys don't hate me it was just a-" he started sobbing before jumping forward and grabbing them both in a hug.

"Quackity-" Karl started, his own tears also shedding into the man's hair.

"Shut up," Quackity said quickly, he shook his head, "We can talk about all this stuff tomorrow just, I'm so happy, i thought u didn't want me anymore, i thought i lost u just-," he tightened his grip on Sapnap's arm and buried his head in Karl's chest, "Please just shut up,"

Karl looked at Sapnap and he gave him a small smile and a nod, pulling both of them in close and holding Karl's hand.

He rested buried his face in Karl's hair and tightened his grip on Quackity.

"It's okay, we can talk about ut tomorrow. I'm just- fuck I'm hapoy to have you two back."

And so the three of them cuddle on the couch with tear stained eyes and yeah things aren't perfect and a lot of things are actually messed up but they know as long as they have eachother they'll be just fine

[dreamyeyes26]

Tumblr hates the leads in nevertheless so there are few to none posts about how nabi said she doesnt deserve dohyeok, I wanna talk about how this is the main point of all the show. How it is about nabis journey of finding herself worthy for love in general not just romantic.. She thinks she is broken and she is insecure that she only deserves to be treated badly, that is why she only gets that, it is what toxic relationships of any kind makes you feel. It is very realistic. Also I hated the preview for ep nine and how jaeon tried to make nabi jealous, that was low and toxic. Yes maybe jaeon is broken too but he is being selfish and disrespectful and he pushes boundaries all the time and being broken and confused about your feelings does not give you an excuse to be disrespectful, maybe we will see him cahnge and regret these things, and people make mistakes, but right now he is very manipulative. i dont think nabi tried to use dohyeok to make him jealous in return bc that would be the end of their relationship, but the looks she gave to jaeon during that jealousy match made dohyeok hurt for sure, ughhhh, how will their relationship evolve from that, if i were dohyeok i would see it as a red flag, feel unwanted and just leave, if he doesnt leave isnt that the same toxic relationship between jaeon and nabi, isnt nabi toxic for him, will she keep her promise of not disappointing dohyeok and trust her worth and come out of it happier and with self love, or will it be disappointing to watch and half assed for me,, i really want her to do justice to dohyeok or else i dont want them together if she doesnt come to her senses and doesnt deserve him for real, and i dont want dohyeok to accept her without her realising the faults she might do to him... Also she could be single in the end and i would be hapoy because the girl needs to be alone and date herself and love herself.

[ray-jaykub]

Donnie realtionship headcannons

I like bayverse donatello, there i said it. Why don't people like them? Idk Anyway guys send asks

•A fucking nerd/geek/dork rolled into one and wrapped up in pretty comic strip paper.

•Donnie wants someone to Freak out with and he never thought he'd see you fit into it.

•He loves sharing interest and talking with someone easily. Most of the time it's strained conversation outside his family members unless he's spitting facts.

•Can't talk to vern at all, he tried but vern is too akward so it never worked out.

•He gets into fights with Casey too much about stupid shit.

•but then you stroll into his life!

• You looked intimidating but as soon as you opened your mouth it was nonstop nerd.

•you guys had an instant connection and everybody sees why.

•back too now and here he is, happy and not single.

•Donatello watched alot of those highschool movies, how the smart one was bullied or nobody could stand them.

•He grew up thinking if anybody got a girlfriend it'd be all his brothers except him so he needs alot of reassurance.

•Donatello hates the word stupid, nobodies stupid. Not you, not his brothers, his dad or anybody. Things can be stupid but people can't, not even animals

• "Stop calling your dog stupid Karen, at least it has manners."

•getting off topic

•Donatello loves you, adores you! It's hard to keep up with him.

•People say he's a gift giver but honestly i see him being an actions kinda guy.

•He doesn't have time to do special things with you and tries to plan ahead when he does, but when you and him are together y'all are both comfortable.

•you both know what the other needs and wants.

•sees You need extra light, here let him turn on the lamp.

•you see he's rubbing his face and temples, here let's get Donnie medicine.

•You both just... work 🤷‍♀️

•Another headcannon is that he makes a bunch of cute tech stuff for you

•Nah

•He probably helps you fix things but i feel like he wouldn't have time to do those small things unless it's like your birthday or something.

•If you want something cute to just have, he'll do it. You want something you can use everyday? Perfect. Just don't expect him to make it his top top priority.

•No offense

•Donnie is bad at touching, cause he forgets people want it. He's too busy telling you about your eyes to realize you wanna hug.

•You... you can sit on his lap in his game chair...

•Just expect more than just sitting to happen.

•He can't help it, you feel nice. If you let him, he will.

•unlike Raphael, he will not share his drink. That's gross.

•Don't be mistaken! He'll shove his tounge down your throat, he just doesn't like sharing his drink.

•If you don't like coffee (like me) Don will be like personally offended for a second and then he's understanding.

•Overall he is really hapoy your here with him. Don knows he can't give you the world but he'll give you his heart.

[blndspotting]

baking and baking with tsukki 😼

↳ characters|| kei tsukishima

↳ category|| domestic fluff

↳ tws for|| drug use (mentions of use of marijuana)

↳ love letter 💌|| since y’all liked the last one i thought i’d do one with tsukki. also its my birthday woo!! lmao i wrote this at two am my brain is scattered but um yeah enjoy!!

- lmao okay

- tsukki would 100% be a different person when hes high like full 180°

- he would be wayyy more cuddly and definitely would be way less snarky

- like still tsukki but ✨toned down✨

- i see him having this demon-like hunger when he's baked

- so y'all would just be chillin on the couch and he'd be like 'food. now." and then you ask him what he wants to eat and you're just like "whatever you want is fine bub"

- bad choice

- he'd spend at least $100 dollars MINIMUM on food just for the both of you

- and you're just like 'we're not gonna finish all this dude' and hes like 'thats fine we'll have leftovers for dinner 😃'

- so y'all eat. and this is like one of the first few times you've gotten high with him and u haven't seen demon hunger tsukki yet.

- so when he's eating you realize he's eating more than you've ever seen him eat period. and like you're just there like 👁👄👁

- so after he's full y'all go and sit back down on the couch and after an hour hes like 'i want cookies' and you're like 'after everything you ate you want MORE' and he's like 'yes 😁'

- when you say no this mf puts on the guilt trip thicc and starts POUTING

- this man. in your time with him. has never even frowned or been sad let alone pouted

- so now you give in and hes like 'i love you 🥺👉👈' and you're just like 'ok 😐' cause you didn't wanna get up

- so he had premade cookie dough so you just cut them into slices and put them in the oven while he stands there staring at nothing like 🧍🏽

- so once the cookies are done you take them out and put them on a plate

- after he eats most of them you both end up falling alseep cause food coma 😌

an// this was wayyy longer than i was expecting it to be omg also i got lazy at the end so yeah bye goodnight hapoy birthday to me 😌

[thepurewillreign]

TW!

I'm so tired. I'm really really tired. I thought I'm okay. I really thought. I'm dead inside. I just wanna die rn. I have so many plans in life but it feels like... It feels like my life doesn't want the same for me.

This is all because of my parents. I blame them for all of this. Because of them I'm so broken. My whole life is broken.

I just wanna be genuinely hapoy in life. I wanna live my life. I don't deserve this kind of life, I deserve better than this. This is so unfair, they should be the one experiencing all this bullsht because they're the one that causes it.

If they did a family planning, I won't end up being like this. My life won't end up being like this.

It's been two decades and they're not doing anything to make our life better. They were so selfish.

This is the reason why I don't wanna have kids in the future. It's a responsibility and I don't wanna be like my parents. I can't even call them parents, it feels so weird because I never felt them being a parent for us.

I don't see the regret in them. They did it again and again. I don't see the realization in them. They're not doing anything that will help us.

I just wanna leave this house. I'd rather not see them in my whole life than seeing them living just the way they want not even thinking that we-their children doesn't have a good life.

I don't really wanna be like them. I swear to God I won't be like them. They made me and ruin me. If I continue my life, I know I will be successful and I won't give them any. I don't care what people say, I don't care if I'm selfish. They made me this. This is all their fault. And they're gonna receive nothing from me. I will never beg for their help.

I'm mad at them. Ever since I'm young, I always try to understand them. But now, I understand it all. They're not a responsible parent.

09-01-21

-it's sept. 11 and obviously I'm still alive, gotta keep goin maybe but still wanna post this so I can have something to look back someday. ok bye gn