#I should probably stop procrastinating...

[calebslittlecrow]

Stop Waiting, Seriously

The classic waiting state. This weird little limbo where you tell yourself you are just being patient, when in reality, you’re just sitting there, doing jack shit, hoping the universe will eventually send you a sign wrapped in flashing lights, so you can’t miss it. Hate to say it, but that sign is probably not coming. I’m trying not to be a dick, but if you peel back some glittery affirmations and glance underneath, a lot of people aren’t trying to align their energies or are trusting in divine timing. They are just… stuck. Procrastinating in a fancier outfit, being stuck in mental quicksand but calling it spiritual growth because it sounds nicer. Look, you’re not waiting for divine timing. You’re just waiting for something, anything really, to push you forward so you don’t have to do it yourself. A motivational quote, a dream, a gut feeling, a shift in the wind, whatever sounds better than standing up and making a move. Before you come at me, I know shifting can happen without “doing” anything in the usual sense. But if you’ve been stuck in the same place for months (shit, years in some cases) and nothing's changed, maybe, just maybe, it’s time for a different approach. You’re not stalling because it’s some wise decision, you’re stalling because taking action can be terrifying. Doing something means you can be wrong, and that will be on you alone. Saying “maybe later” feels safer than saying “fuck it, let’s go”, doesn’t it? You’re not lazy, you’re just scared, that’s okay. But don’t sit there calling your inaction some sacred rite. It’s fear, insecurity, call it what it is. No one is gonna come rescue you. There won’t be a glowing sign, cosmic cheerleaders and a fairy godmother with a timeline ready. The “perfect moment” is bullshit and doesn’t exist. There is only now, and people act like that moment personally offended them. Waiting feels comfortable, familiar, safe. Like you’re doing something by actually not doing anything. Most of the time it’s just avoidance dressed in a fancy hat, fear cosplaying as intuition. You don’t need another sign, you don’t need to be perfectly aligned, and you don’t need to be 100% sure about everything. But you should be doing something, you should move. Start something, screw it up, adjust, rinse and repeat. Clarity doesn’t come from waiting, it comes from trying, from failing, from doing. Making decisions can be scary, yes, you probably will waste some time and you will probably realize you were wrong once or twice. Welcome to being alive I guess. But sitting in fear like it’s your safe little bubble? That’s where your dreams will probably die a little. The same place where the version of you that could have been shrivels up because you couldn’t get up and try to open the door. Just get up, pick a path and walk it, even if you fall flat on your face every ten steps. Nothing will change while idling in a waiting room you don’t even like, you’ll just forget why you started to show up in the first place.

[invisiblerhythmcat]

Hi! You were unfortunately found by the overexcited dance teacher (also autistic). Yay dancing! Here are some things worth thinking about. 1. Yes, dance helps with proprioception. That said, I am a Professional Dancer and still have…questionable proprioception (I've been dancing my entire life, so who knows how bad it would be without dance, I don't really want to know). So, I will say, if proprioception is being a problem, it is also possible to learn how to cheat and do movement without functional proprioception. In Irish dance, I get a lot of feedback from how my feet touch the floor. There's also a lot of visual feedback and a lot of trial and error (for example, from my own experience, if I do a move and hit a fellow dancer, I will not do that again). And cheating is definitely a skill that contributes to how graceful I appear in the rest of my life.

2. Whether or not it is hell will depend a lot on the environment, people you're dancing with, and the teacher. Some green flags include being able to ask questions, teachers focusing on positive improvement, being able to get water without asking, and breaks in class. Some red flags include not being able to leave or sit out without teacher approval, expectations that everyone does something the same way, and teachers mostly giving negative or critical feedback. (Someday I may write an actual list of these)

Personally, I just walk out of class if I'm not enjoying myself these days (I've taken with too many bad teachers to do it again), but it sounds like that might be an option for you. In that case, if it is hell, I'd encourage you to find time to practice with yourself or others in a way that you do enjoy. And take the time to really have fun with it (it might take some experimentation). That way, you can have some positive experience to get you through the horrible hell class.

3) Balance and coordination is a learned skill! Even for the people who seem to have a lot of it. And, like proprioception, it's cheatable (I mostly just rely on muscle strength and repetition these days).

I recommend thinking about where you're looking. If you're looking at yourself in a mirror, try to lift your eyes so they're looking just above your reflection's head. This helps with posture and alignment, which leads to steadier balance. If you're trying to balance on one leg, look at one thing and nothing else. Personally, mirrors are weird so I need to look at something not in the mirror for that, but I know other people who can use mirrors, so who knows?

When doing a new movement, it might feel be super awkward and uncoordinated. My rule of thumb is to do it until I'm bored. Just repeat, repeat, repeat. You can also do it super small with your hands/fingers while waiting for a bus or attach words to the movements and repeat those over and over in your head. All of that helps build the messaging systems between the brain and other parts of your body, which is what is needed for coordination. (it's all very stimmy as well)

FINALLY, if you want to be an overachiever and prepare ahead of time, the main answer to anything around balance and coordination is core strength.

Bartenieff Fundamentals are loosely based on developmental patterns, so they help bring the body into how it organically wants to move: https://youtu.be/HeQgq7L9yOo?si=SSqJbCTsFeErUdOQ

You can also look up some gentle pilates exercises (not the silly "weight loss" bullshit, the stuff that's more lying on the floor and moving your limbs about).

Sit-ups are great, but they tend to use your surface core muscles, what you want for coordinated movement is the more inner core muscles.

For all of this, even though it usually feels scary, I recommend trying to throw yourself into doing the movement "full out" as soon as possible. This helps trigger your body and physical knowledge, so that less has to go through the brain. The more information bypasses the brain, the more it can build up your body's knowledge, proprioception, and movement capacity.

I am going to be very suddenly taking up dancing (<- will be in very Dancy musical). I have a few questions for autistic dancers specifically (tho anyone else who struggles with proprioception, e.g. dyspraxics, is welcome to answer)

did dance help your overall proprioception at all? balance coordination etc. this is a question for PEOPLE WHOS PROPRIOCEPTION NATURALLY SUCKS I know if ur like Normal ur stuff will get better but I wanna know how it is with natural deficit as someone who has a chance of falling down every time i stand up

was learning to dance. hell. am i about to just put myself through hell with little benefit or improvement.

do yall have any like..... basic balance/coordinaiton tips or knowledge so I can maybe not look Incredibly stupid

[doctorsiren]

Doodle while on the bus today

[itslilacmoon]

some more Luz and hunter shitpost doodles done during class <3 i am so behind on my assignments pray 4 me

[ayesleigh]

Did BioWare lose their lore bible for Dragon Age or... ?

I didn't even get around to replaying the series before Veilguard and I'm still clocking little weird things. Bull's romance card says that he was pleased the Inquisitor returned his overtures. What overtures? The Inquisitor was the one who made overtures and Bull pretty consistently passed over them until after his personal quest (probably because he thought they needed trust before they could enter into a BDSM dynamic and I think his superiors wanted him to foster that kind of relationship if he could, but Bull was edging away from that because he thought the Inquisitor was doing good work and didn't want to use them that way; once his personal quest is done he can finally enter into a relationship with them without feeling conflicted but anyway --)

And the bit where Solas says that he abhors the use of blood magic when in Inquisition he said that it can be a useful tool in the hands of those who don't want to abuse it and use it for harm.

They're not huge details so it's not game breaking, but the current lead writer wrote Bull and Solas, so it's kinda strange...

[lenievi]

gonna try my luck

can anyone rec me Valjean-centric valvert fics, especially those set post-Seine? Fics that explore Valjean's inner feelings and emotions and show how he goes through a change and slowly accepts Javert into his life?

The fics don't have to be written in Valjean's POV. They can be from Javert's POV, but the focus should be on Valjean and Valjean's development and change.

all ratings are fine.

[artfulbok]

Thank you for all the support on my fic idea. I just wrote 447 words and there's still more that I'm trying to get out. For now here's this.

[xanty8sau]

I just found an old story I was writing from when I was in intermediate. Guys I had a massive Wings Of Fire (WOF) phase back then 😭

I'm kinda compelled to rewrite that story but I don't know if I'll publish it. I got it from my old Wattpad account. So it's like got the edited ship drawing as the book cover. There's only one chapter but I must've deleted it because there's nothing on it.

preteen me thought this was an amazing cover. I means it's not overly horrible but damn I went hard on Ibis paint x.

[manuinout]

No thoughts, just trying to decide which of these outfits Empathy (my IO OC) would use in a party because I can

[lightbulb-warning]

you ever stare longingly at a dictionary and wonder how long it would realistically take to learn and memorize every single word in the english language

[shooks-stupid-stuff]

i really like deoxys

[autogeneity]

bleghhhhh

[which-hospital]

sure, I could write that essay about the growth of nationalism in the 19th century oooooor I could not write it, feel extremely anxious about the fact that I’m not writing, and lie here thinking about Teddy in between the anxiety

[howtobegirly]

I didn't initially mean it to be revenge. I started long before I even knew that I'd been cursed. I'd been tasked with killing the first few to buy my brother's freedom, though I didn't agree with the reasons they were wanted dead. I didn't have much choice, though, so I tried to give them a little peace, a little dignity in their deaths. I talked with them, listened to their stories, their dreams and regrets...and their guilt. So much guilt. They spoke of how they rose to power through mysterious means. The first had been twelfth in line for the throne less than two years before his coronation, but claimed he had no hand in the bloodbath in those intervening twenty-one months. The second had been sickly all his life before a sudden, miraculous healing. The fourth was born to be the heir, but nobody actually expected her to live to see that day because of her jealous younger brother's scheming--but then the younger brother was my third mark. So I listened to them all, and slowly, I began to see the signs, a common thread between them. And I began to believe. Believe again in the god I'd lost faith in as a child. The god who had rejected me...the one my mother claimed was my father. I saw the signs, like a divine fingerprint on the continent's political shifts. How could I not see it before now? The rise and fall of so many nations...it reeked of his influence. When mama had told me I was the daughter of a god, I didn't believe her. I heard all her stories about him, even met him once, and I just thought he was arrogant. Powerful, sure, but so was the emperor, and the lords and various advisors, even some of the merchants. I hadn't believed her, but after a few of these...encounters...I could no longer deny the extent of his power. But if he had so much power, if he could do all these things for these kings and rulers, why were we still so poor and powerless? Why had he let mama remain in poverty? Why had he allowed my brother to be enslaved by traffickers? Forced me into the position of having to win my brother's freedom? Why had he abandoned us--cursed us? If I faced the truth of my father's power, I had to face these questions. And then I was angry. That's when it became about revenge, but not for the reasons you might think. The revenge wasn't directed at the rulers out of jealousy. The revenge was on my father. See, I figured that if he'd gone to such lengths to bless these people, to put them in the positions of power that they held, he must've had a reason for it. He wasn't kind or generous by nature, and they weren't all deserving of the power they held. There must have been something in it for him, that none of us could see. I didn't need to. I didn't care why he was doing it, what he would gain from these maneuverings. It didn't matter, in the end, as long as I stopped it.

"A god wronged you so greatly that you began to target those he blessed in revenge. And strangely enough, all those he blessed happened to be kings. Years later, you became known as the 'Kingslayer'. Now, that god's blessing is no different from a curse."

[canvascreatesss]

Do you ever get so tired you have to distract yourself in order to get back to the task at hand

Or is this just 2 am brain

[spiderscribe]

on the bright side, I didn't burn the bottom of my mom's nice dutch oven while cooking today! on the not-so-bright side, I burned the fingers on my left hand instead 💀