#I will burst into tears 😂😂💀

[heartsoftruth]

LEWIS x GAYLE

“Did you ever take winning for granted?”

[base0h]

HOW HAIKYUU CHARACTERS WOULD REACT TO YOU COMPLIMENTING ANOTHER PLAYER

a/n - I’m alive I swear 💀 I just rewatched some of haikyuu so I’m more familiar with that rn 😂😂

warnings ⚠️ - g/n reader, fluff/crack, pre-timeskip characters btw, I don’t feel like making picture banners for all of them like I do with one piece forgive me for just putting text 🥲

HINATA

- yeah you just broke your bro’s heart into a billion pieces

- remember that time when he got nailed in the crotch by a ball in S4? Yeah that’s what it felt like

- “Isn’t he so cool Shoyo?!” -you

- but he’s also torn because he also thinks they’re awesome af 😭 so he can’t decide if he’s more saddened by the fact that you’re not saying that about him or if he’s excited that you also like one of his idols

- “…Yes he’s— very cool.” -him

- “…You do know my fav player’s always gonna be you though right?”

- oh you don’t even KNOW. How happy you just made him. You just turned his life around with just a single sentence

- bro could burst through the ceiling now

- he basically smothered you with a hug after that and did one of those koala hugs where he was basically just clinging onto you with pure adoration and affection

- it’s one thing if some random other student or little kid came up to him saying he was cool— like don’t get me wrong he’d probably freak out in a good way about that too

- but when it comes from you? He could have all haters but if he still had you? He’s totally fine. All bro needs is your support

- but do be careful because he might actually suffocate you one day if you compliment him too much

- each time you say something good about him his hugs get stronger?? If that’s even possible idk 😭

- you’ll have a great free chiropractor tho so woo hoo😁👍

GOSHIKI

- bro has a thing for getting compliments or getting praise. I saw it VERY clearly when Hinata gave him that compliment about his spikes during the shiratorizawa training camp

- and then when Tendo said his bangs were cool bro was so happy 😭 (he’s so sweet oml)

- but of course when you watch his matches— I mean— you’re gonna be impressed by ushijima

- who wouldn’t be? Bros a literal nuclear bomb ahh spiker 💀

- after one of his matches you went up to him and started talking about ushijima and how cool his spikes and serves were

- “I feel like he’s gonna literally pop the ball everytime he hits it! It’s awesome!” -you

- he agrees wholeheartedly with you! But— man. He wanted you to say that about him 😭

- “Yeah— he’s amazing right..?” -him

- “He’s a third year right?”

- Goshiki nodded and scratched the back of his head sheepishly, looking a bit down

- “Oh so he’s just clearing the way for you then! There can only be one ace so he’s gotta move out of the way for you.”

(I couldn’t find the proper meme to put here so here’s the actual screenshot of him)

- bro could ascend

- he could die right then and there

- but then he remembered he has to show off for you still so he stayed on earth

- ushijima heard you say that btw

- it looked like he wanted to murder you but in reality he thought it was very nice of you to say that to lift goshiki’s spirits

- he just— looks like he wants to crush you and send you to mars 💀

- also Tendo makes fun of him for being so happy about being praised

- “HAHAHAHAH— you LOVE it when y/n ever tells you something positive about you huh~??” -tendo

- yeah no he’s not gonna leave your poor bowl cut boy alone about it now

BOKUTO

- like the other two, he’s big on praise

- I mean before every match the manager tells him someone in the audience said he looks cool so he plays better 😭😭

- having you supporting him at his matches is like having an entire stadium full of people cheering his name

- you make Akaashi’s life less stressful. Good job y/n, Akaashi loves you for that and will legit pay you money to keep coming even though he knows he doesn’t have to. He’s that grateful for you

- I ain’t kidding one time Akaashi just started tearing up thanking you for being his fail safe plan if his 2000000 other plans to get Bokuto out of his emo mode don’t work

- he knows just like one compliment from you will cure Bokuto

- yeah so guess what you had to go and say right before a match started?

- “I just saw itachiyama play and wow that Sakusa guy who’s one of the top 3 spikers was just as good as they said he was!” -you

- akaashi might just do a backflip off of the stadium roof at this point 🙂 hardcore parkour

- the way you could literally see Bokuto’s hair droop down is insane

- konoha and sarukui were like: holy shit we’re absolutely cooked 😀

- this wasn’t an emo mode this was an avant garde mode

- but right as Akaashi was about to seriously jump off the roof, you saved everyone from the disaster you created

- “I don’t know why you’re not in the top three though, imo you’re a lot better than that guy, and a lot cooler looking too.” -you

- Akaashi looked like he was gonna live again

- Bokuto’s hair flipped back upwards and he excitedly smiled at you, giving you a big hug before going onto the court with an ecstatic air about him

- Akaashi is genuinely terrified of how you can simultaneously destroy their team and bring it back together with singular sentences

- you’re Bokuto’s weakness number 38 which akaashi does not have a solution for 💀

AKAASHI

- Akaashi is honestly happy you’re just with him

- he doesn’t really mind it if you can’t come to see him play, of course he’d love for you to be there but he totally understands if you can’t, and won’t be destroyed about it

- he loves your support and will always appreciate you for cheering him on (and being his mental support because taking care of Bokuto is life draining and he probably gets about a month taken off of his life everytime Bokuto goes into his emo mode)

- during the match with nekoma, you noticed how the setter on their team was also quite an intelligent and skilled player despite seeming so bored and uninterested in the sport entirely

- he had a hold on Bokuto for a good while and it was impressive how he managed to put Bokuto in a slump so smoothly and discreetly

- after the match, you congratulated fukurodani on their victory, and akaashi thanked you for coming like the gentleman bro is

- “That setter on nekoma was really good— he was so calculating and calm about his strategy to make Bokuto go into a slump!” -you

- Akaashi was still a bit traumatized by Bokuto literally forgetting how to do cross shots entirely so uh— 😀

- yeah it didn’t really sound great to him

- bro had to pull out a whole ass speech plus hinata to get Bokuto back on his feet and then you say that 🥲

- he isn’t mad or anything but he isn’t very overjoyed either

- “Yes, he was a really tough opponent. Kuroo-san was too.” -him

- Akaashi was good at hiding his displeasure, so it just sounded like he was saying something normal like he usually would, in a straight steady tone

- “No match for you and the team though, you guys definitely deserved the win. And you actually look interested and not like you want to die on the court unlike that setter on nekoma— he looked like he wanted to collapse and sleep forever after the first set.”

- he wasn’t expecting you to say that, and he looked pleasantly surprised

- Bokuto grinned and put his arm around the setter

- “Y/n’s right as always, Kenma’s no match for akaashi!” -Bokuto

- the rest of the team wholeheartedly agreed, and akaashi felt glad, happy to know that his team, and especially you thought so highly of him

- no one else could handle Bokuto like he could, and no one could be as cool in your eyes as he was

- you could probably tell him his glasses looked nice and he would never take them off again—

- he’s the type of guy to listen to whatever you say a bit too much sometimes 😭

- he legit remembers the outfit you wore the day he first met you

- kinda creepy but sweet ig? 🤷

OIKAWA

- bro has a billion fans and only really cares abt you cheering him on

- like ofc he needs other people to be cheering him on too because he’s extra like that but it’s 80% you

- don’t ask abt the 20%

- yk how all those girls were asking for his picture and stuff? Ever since he got together with you, he’s been avoiding them a lot more

- he knows it’s probably especially annoying for you to see a bunch of random people asking your boyfriend for pictures and giving him handmade things

- just know that he thinks you’re better than any girl combined and if you ever like start walking away before he’s finished trying to get the girls away form him he will legit sprint after you while screaming

- “Y/N-CHAN WAAAAAAAAAIT!!!”

- my dude is running, and I mean running like a mf track star. You piss off his fangirls so much bro it’s so funny how they look at you like they want to poison you in your sleep💀💀💀

- he reassures you on the daily that you’re beautiful and amazing, but still it’s annoying to see all the girls fawn over him

- so you decided to give him a similar taste of his own medicine

- at the next matches, you were watching with him a match with karasuno and shiratorizawa. You know VERY well that he does not like karasuno or shiratorizawa

- ushijima is probably the one who’s the worst…

- perfect.

- “Whoa Ushijima’s serves are so cool!! And he uses his left hand too damn that’s unique! I’ve never seen a left handed player like him before, and those spikes look like they’re about to tear karasuno’s blocker’s arms off!” -you

- I don’t think he’s ever been more simultaneously heart broken, and pissed at ushijima at the same time before

- he’s such a baby about it too

- he’ll cross his arms and act like he doesn’t care when obviously he does, and with the way he’s pouting about it like a little kid was proof that your little plan worked very well

- “Hmph, I guess so.” -him

- “What, you salty since you lost?” -you

- “Would you mind not rubbing salt in it? It’s only been like two days!”

- you couldn’t help but burst out into laughing because of how upset he was by this— it was ridiculous

- if you had your phone out you would’ve taken a picture of his face and sent it to iwaizumi for shits and giggles

- “I’m joking Oikawa, I think you’re much cooler than ushijima. You have a lot more personality than him.” -you

- “That’s damn right I do!” -him

- “…I didn’t say a good personality or anything.”

- “Pardon me?! I’m very demure and cute thank you very much.”

- “You saying that just proves you’re anything but that.”

- “Y/N BE NICE TO ME :(“

- “No. :)”

- “I knew I shouldn’t have let you hang out with Iwa-chan, he’s turned you against me!”

KUROO

- you’re the carbon to his dioxide

- the hydrogen to his peroxide

- the deoxyribose to his phosphate group (I paid attention in science kuroo, yw)

- even if he doesn’t get to be interviewed by some reporter, and even if he doesn’t get to go to nationals

- if you’re there and supporting him he feels better

- talking to you and hearing you say how cool he plays is more than an interview could ever mean to him

- seriously you make him chemically insane

- like he does not understand how just being around you releases endorphins somehow (you’re magical)

- you had heard of their opponents nohebi from eavesdropping on a couple of random people’s conversations in the lobby

- they were a strong team, and you were intrigued by how a lot of people seemed to dislike them a lot for the way they played.. which was very underhanded

- but even with their underhanded tactics, they were a solid team with good technique and teamwork

- “Whoa the captain of nohebi is actually pretty good!” -you

- “Ugh I know right? Come on nekoma!” -Akans

- I feel like kuroo has horrible eyesight but then absolutely amazing hearing? Idk 💀 but whatever the case was, he heard that

- loud and clear

- mhm he’s ready to kill nohebi now

- bro is legit a one man Great Wall of china now

- he’s “powered up” as Kenma would say

- Kenma took note that you were kuroo’s power up skill, and would remember to use you in the future as well

- I’m serious bro is flexing so hard on you rn 😭

- yaku hasn’t needed to save the ball because kuroo’s trying so hard to impress you 💀

- honestly it’s kind of amazing— seeing him sprinting left and right and slamming balls down like it was no one’s business but his

- he checks like every five seconds to see if you’re watching his amazing skills

- and after the match— Kenma went up to you first and thanked you bc Kuroo did like 70% of the work for him 😭

- Kenma legit gave you a Nintendo gift card he’s had in his back pocket since 2019 as a thank you gift and as a “please continue making kuroo do all the work” gift

- god knows how it’s stayed in his pants that have probably been through countless wash cycles 💀

- “Oh kuroo! Fukunaga’s last spike was so cool! He totally hit that line shot perfectly!”

- way to stab kuroo in the back 🥲 he’s legit about to collapse from emotionally throwing out his back

- old man down over here

- he was so destroyed— you left no piece of him intact he’s in literal shambles

- “But kuroo you were so cool! You kept blocking and repelling the balls like you were oppositely charged from the ball!”

- and he’s alive again, you’re a magician

- complimenting him using a science reference?

- oh just marry him already 😭

- he knew you must just be dopamine bc he smiles like an idiot whenever you’re around

- somehow his smile gets even dorkier when you compliment him

- if it’s a science compliment he could quite literally ascend to the moon

- “Hehe thanks y/n.” -him

- “Were you tryna show off in the last set?” -you

- “…Why? Did it work?”

- “…Hm. Perhaps hypothetically, yes.”

- “How does one go about making that hypothesis a true statement? 😏”

- kuroo is so smooth but he’s so nerdy and his pickup lines are so bad that it just takes his smooth factor away 😭😭😭

- like pls when he first met you when yall were paired up to do a science project about magnetism— bro said

- “Even Neodymium would lose if it were to compete against your magnetic personality 😏🌹” -him

- “…What? 💀” -you

- you weren’t really sure if you should love bro for his effort or be scared of how bad his pickup lines were

- the answer is both

- it all ended up ok anyways— you’re bonded to him together since yall are oppositely charged ✌️

a/n - no I don’t know how to make pickup lines 💀

[thelov3lybookworm]

I have a request!

Can you write something where Cassian is tasked with “babysitting” Azriel’s very pregnant mate? Like she can’t be alone for medical reasons and Rhys really needs Azriel for something and Cass is the only one not busy? I just think it would be hilarious. 😂

Babysitting

Summary: Cassian's day doesn't go as planned.

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A/n: this was so funny my baby anon 😭💀i love it so much❣️

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Rhys's pov.

"I can't leave her here alone Rhys! You know how moody and clingy she's become these past few weeks. She has also become extremely excited. She can't sit still for more than an hour or so. She can't stay alone." Azriel ran a hand through his hair, tugging slightly as his anxiety built. "Hell, can you believe I found her trying to climb into our closet because she wanted to clean it the other day?"

"I know brother, and I wouldn't have asked you to come unless it was absolutely necessary. Keir is once again planning something, you know it. Your presence is needed."

Azriel sighed heavily, settling into one of the chairs in his brother's office. "Tell me again why I'm needed?"

"I want you to snoop around hewn city while I distract the court."

Azriel cursed. "And no one can stay with her? Because she will not be going to hewn city, no matter what."

Rhys contemplated for some time. He wished he didn't have to do this. He didn't want his brother to worry too much about his mate. But this trip to the hewn city was also important.

Mor was visiting Miryam and Drakon. She was not in Velaris. She was out of the question for taking care of Y/n.

Feyre and Amren would be coming along to hewn city. They couldn't help either.

Nesta had training with the Valkyries.

Rhys sighed. Nuala and Cerridwen would be spying g along with Azriel. Elain was on her trip across Prythian.

Just when Rhys was about to give up, the door to his office burst open and in stumbled Cassian. He grinned when he found both his brothers staring at him as he tried to regain some semblance of balance.

Rhys glanced at Azriel, a smile crawling onto his face.

Azriel's brows furrowed, and then his eyes widened with understanding. "No. No. Absolutely not."

Rhys's grin turned feline. "Come on brother, there's no other option."

"What are we talking about?" Cassian questioned as he dropped into the chair next to Azriel, the chair wobbling for a moment.

"Nothing much brother. Just discussing the oncoming trip to hewn city."

"Oh?"

The next few moments went with Rhys explaining why they were going and who all were coming along.

Cassian heaved a relieved sigh when he realised that he was not accompanying them.

"Don't get too happy brother. Because you are free on that day, we were hoping you could stay with Y/n. Look after her.take care of her. She is nearing her delivery date and Az here is a little concerned."

"You want me to babysit her? That's alright! She is after all like my little sister. I can take care of her."

Azriel looked skeptical, but a little more persuasion was all that was needed for him to agree.

Now all they had to do was wait for the day.

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Cassian's pov.

Y/n's lip quivered as she watched her mate get ready for his trip to hewn city. Cassian felt bad as he watched her. He wished he could comfort her, but didn't know how.

Azriel stood from where he was tying his boots while sitting on the couch, giving Y/n a soft smile. He walked up to her, cupping her face in both hands. "I'll be back soon, hmm?"

Y/n nodded, tears forming in her eyes. Azriel pulled her in for a hug, rubbing her back. Azriel glanced at Cassian, who simply stood there awkwardly, trying not to intrude. He grinned before pulling away from Y/n.

After Azriel was gone, Y/n turned to Cassian. He smiled at her.

"What do you want to do today sister?"

"I was hoping you'd bake with me."

Cassian blinked at her. "What?"

"You always say you have good skills in the kitchen. Bake with me."

Cassian, dumbfounded, simply nodded. He followed her into the kitchen, staring as she pulled out whatever was needed. "I'm thinking we can make cookies. What do you say?"

"Alright."

Y/n was quiet for a moment, then she pulled out a small stool from nearby and began climbing onto it. A panic gripped Cassian as he jolted into action. "What are you doing?! Get down!"

Y/n glanced at Cassian, confused. "I need to get the flour. It's up there."

"I'll get it for you." He gently tugged her down, his heart beating in his throat. "Cauldron, you scared me."

He reached up for the container, but he didn't realise how light it would be. He pulled it out, thinking it would be heavy, but it was lighter than expected. The container jerked in his hands, and then the lid flipped open.

Before he knew what happened, Cassian was covered in flour. He turned to a laughing Y/n, clutching at her swollen stomach and leaning against the counter nearby.

A Shadow floated next to her head, and she grinned at it. That was what made Cassian suspicious.

"Why was the lid open? Was it even open?" He questioned, shaking his head to try and get rid of the flour.

Y/n grinned. "Come on Cass. Can a female not have some fun with her brother?" She again glanced at the shadow. Cassian sighed.

"Is there anything else needed?"

"Eggs."

"Where is it?"

She grinned, a twinkle in her eyes. "Above you."

Cassian was a second too late as he tried to step away. The egg cracked over his head, running down his face.

Cassian groaned. "Y/n. Please stop. This is not funny."

"It's funny to me." She laughed.

"Get out. I'll make the cookies. Go sit on the couch over there."

Y/n pouted, but at Cassian's glare, she sulked away.

Cassian sighed and set to cleaning.

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When he walked out of the kitchen, he nearly dropped dead because of the fright he recieved.

There, near the fireplace, standing on a chair, was Y/n, dusting a shelf.

"Y/n. Can you please get down." He mumbled softly, trying not to scream in case he frightened her and she lost her balance.

She turned to him, a pleasant smile on her face. That smile faltered when she saw the expression on his face. "What is it?"

"Get down Y/n."

She grumbled but climbed down slowly.

"What is wrong with you?!" He burst out the moment she was on the ground.

Her lower lip wobbled, and Cassian immediately felt guilty. "What is wrong with you?"

Cassian dragged a hand down his face. "I'm sorry. You just scared me. You know it's not safe for you to be climbing on things around the house, right?"

"The chair isn't that high. And the house needs cleaning. Azzie hasn't been letting me do anything since I got pregnant. It's been irritating me."

Cassian pulled her in for a hug, cradling her head gently. "I know sister. But let's wait until after the babe's here to clean the house, yeah?"

She nodded, sniffing.

"I'm bored." She suddenly murmured, looking at him.

Cassian blinked. "Um... is there nothing you can do? We can play something. While sitting." He gave her a look, and she nodded innocently.

"We can play cards."

"Fine."

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Cassian was on the verge of tears.

The two of them had played cards until the cookies were ready to eat, and after that Y/n had insisted he read to her. Apparently, Azriel always read to her when she was bored.

And Cassian, being the arrogant little prick he was, had wondered how hard it could be. Surely, a warrior who had conquered battlegrounds and men far stronger, one who was one of the best warrior prythian had seen in centuries, could read a book to his brothers wife?

Wrong. He could not read the book without wanting to crawl into a hole and never show his face again.

Y/n had insisted that he read the book she picked.

She sat munching and nibbling on the cookies he made as he struggled to get even one of the filthy words out of his mouth. Sure, he had done these things with Nesta, but reading of them in front of his someone... it felt like his soul was leaving his body.

All the while she remained oblivious to his plight.

Finally, when she took pity on him and told him to stop reading.

"I want to take a nap. Then we can cook dinner."

Cassian had never gotten rid of something in his hands faster.

She settled down on the couch, her head in his lap. He smiled softly when a sigh left her.

Then he asked her the question buzzing in his head. "Where did you get the book from?"

He phrased it casually, and thank the cauldron, she answered him without even a hint of suspicion.

"Oh, Nesta lent it to me."

Cassian's eyes practically bulged out of his head. "That's great."

Y/n hummed, already drifting off.

Cassian shook his head, smiling.

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Azriel's pov.

He opened the door carefully, trying not to make any noise.

As he stepped in through the threshold, he found the home to be pitch black. His brows furrowed in confusion. Had Y/n not lit the faelights?

As he turned them on, his heart melted.

There on the couch, his brother and wife slept.

She was stretched out on the couch, her face relaxed. Her mouth was sightly parted.

Cassian was sprawled out on the armchair near the fireplace, his arms wrapped across his chest. His legs were stretched out, and he looked like he would slip off the couch any moment now.

Azriel slightly shook Cassian's shoulder, causing him to jerk awake.

He blearily blinked at Azriel, a crease between his brows. Then his eyes widened in relief, and he scrambled to stand.

"Thank the mother you are back." Cassian whispered, finally stable on his feet.

"Why?"

"Oh my. This female made me wonder if i needed more training. I'm so fucking tired." Cassian suddenly clutched at his back, groaning.

"What happened?" Azriel questioned, concerned.

"Don't ask, brother. Don't ask."

"Okay." Azriel made to turn away, and Cassian gaped ay him. With a small smile, Azriel turned back toward him.

"She took a nap in the afternoon. And then she was unstoppable. Creating trouble left and right. More so than Nyx."

Azriel chuckled. He glanced at his wife and mate. She looked so peaceful. Like she was the calmest person in prythian.

"I'll take my leave now." Cassian mumbled, stretching.

Azriel nodded. "I owe you one."

"Don't worry about it."

Cassian walked to Y/n, bending to press a kiss to her forehead before he left.

Azriel smiled. As much as Cassian complained, everyone knew he would do anything to make his family happy.

He was nice like that.

Y/n blinked her pretty eyes open, looking up at him through her lashes. "Hello Azzie."

"Hello my love. Let's get you to bed."

Y/n nodded, holding her arms out to him. "I think we should make a cake or something to thank Cassian for keeping me company today."

"That's a great idea." He spoke as he helped her stand.

"Tomorrow then?"

Azriel smiled at his mate. "Tomorrow."

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General Taglist: @bubybubsters @eos-princess @nightless @lizziesfirstwife

Azriel taglist: @darthdumbasss @foreverrandomwritings

[houserautha]

Feyd is the type to go on and on about getting his wife/partner pregnant but when it comes to actually raising a child? The dramaaaaaa(and unhealed trauma) Ideally Feyd wants to raise a strong and ruthless warrior worthy of succeeding him when the time comes but like what if the little guy(probably a boy bc the prophecy and all that)just got real unlucky in the genetics lottery all the crazy and bloodthirsty-ness his parents have just skips a generation and he's the most sensitive and shy creature to ever be born on geidi prime the most un-harkonen harkonen Feyd getting frustrated his child doesn't have the strength to pick up a sword without trembling,to shed blood without wincing,to take a life without crying canonically I think he'd just throw the kid in the woods to fend for himself Sparta style and hope they die or return and be "normal" thinks he's been coddled for far too long because he just can't accept his son is so different from him sorry to dump all this on you dude I just had to talk to this to somebody!😭💀

Wait don’t apologize I actually really love this

Feyd would be incredibly insecure about fatherhood. He would struggle to connect with a newborn and swear that his son hates him because he always bursts into tears whenever Feyd picks him up. And as a toddler?? Feyd is already as volatile as a toddler so his son would infuriate him😂 I feel like he would snap and be impatient and frustrated. And maybe because he feels so insecure about his parenting/relationship with his son, he throws himself into work so that he doesn’t have to interact with his son as much

So his son grows up with a pretty explosive, absent father. Now he’s a child, and Feyd shows an interest in him again — it’s time to learn how to fight. Feyd spars with his son until his body is mottled with bruises and snot dries on his upper lip; Feyd is appalled by his son’s “weakness” and so shocked that he lashes out at him. Feyd definitely does not understand how to regulate his emotions or disguise his thoughts.

(Now, feel free to disregard this part because it’s related to TDE) Reader knows what it’s like to have your parents disappointed in you and your capabilities, so she nurtures her son and encourages him to do what he likes. I think it would be especially funny if their son is like naturally very tall and strong but is like Ferdinand and just wants to sit in the sun and read all day😂

So reader allows their son to pursue his interests — reading and politics and academics, which he excels in. He grows into a teenager. Other children his age mock him because he is so unlike any other Harkonnen, tease him that his mother must’ve been unfaithful. Their son, in turn, keeps to himself and doesn’t have any friends.

At this point I think Feyd (sadly) would’ve given up on his son. He would occasionally force him to take up a dagger or throw a punch, claiming that no son of his would be so weak. Now, as much as the son loathes these training sessions and his father’s cruelty, he desperately wants his approval. Which is the only reason he continues to agree to let Feyd push him to the dirt over and over again, to draw blood; to belittle him.

And this would drive a wedge in between Feyd and reader’s relationship. She understands Feyd’s own unresolved trauma and the Harkonnen battle culture, but she doesn’t understand how her husband could be so unkind to their son — who looks like a combination of them both, with Feyd’s plush lips but your distinct Atreides nose, brows always pulled down in concentration over his dark eyes.

“He will never survive here,” Feyd snarls at you one evening, when the conversation naturally drifts to your son as it always does. Feyd is shaking with his heightened emotions. “I just want him to be successful.”

And you push back, “He is successful.“

“His achievements mean nothing to the other Harkonnens. They demand brutality and blood, not his…weakness.”

And maybe as their son turns eighteen (or whatever age Harkonnens are deemed an adult, maybe younger because they don’t live very long lives) Feyd sends their son on the ceremonial journey into the Giedi Prime wilderness. Reader is unable to prevent this. Their son is expected to forge his own way home or perish. Now, their son takes an abnormally long time to return but he does — half dead because he refused to kill any wildlife or steal from others, surviving only on his wit and his knowledge of survival.

Feyd is not impressed.

And maybe this strenuous relationship continues well their son’s adulthood. It’s not until a political rival challenges Feyd that he discovers just how strong his son is. The rival is peaceful and refuses to fight or draw a weapon, and Feyd knows he can’t initiate an attack without suffering the consequences. He entirely has no idea how to handle this. But his son does.

His son knows all about this rival’s culture and history, how to appeal to them, how to navigate their political court and ultimately subdue the threat that they pose. For the first time, Feyd is proud of his son.

And thus begins the turn around of their relationship and Feyd realizing that strength does not always have to be physical. His son is probably in his late twenties/early thirties by now and Feyd takes to teaching his son less aggressive ways to fight — poison and pressure points and defensive measure — and allows his son to teach him about what he knows.

It certainly doesn’t blossom and thrive overnight. They are staunchly opposed to each other’s beliefs but somewhat begrudgingly begin to trust one another and build respect and admiration.

Feyd doesn’t know how to apologize or how to express his guilt over his son’s wasted childhood, but you bet your ass he leaps to his son’s defense whenever he gets the chance and defends him relentlessly.

And, oh, just wait until he becomes a grandfather.

Finally he feels he can rectify his wrongs.

[lemotmo]

Well despite as much as we all might have secretly wished, looks like no off screen break up 😂

But I do have to chuckle at Tim saying they are still getting to know each other ( which to me shows there has been no real progress in their relationship at this point)

And while the “they are still going strong” is from whoever wrote the article rather then anyone from the show, I have to again chuckle because you know who else was “are still going strong”

https://x.com/diazdulac/status/1833159774529028223

And we all saw how that turned out 💀🤭🤭

This is only a fraction of the similar asks I've received about this article. So I'm going to answer all of these in one post. 😄

All of the following are opinions, but I did discuss all of this with Ali and we definitely see this in the same light and we agree on these points:

First, it doesn't sound very promising for BT at this point. The words and phrases used in this article are the exact same as the ones used in the season 7 blurb, only replace Marisol with Tommy and Eddie with Buck. That's it. There's not a lot to it. We all know how Eddie and Marisol ended up.

The article basically says that they are still in that stage of 'getting to know each other a little bit better' just like Tommy said in that deleted scene. He said something about 'taking things slow'. I have a feeling this is exactly why that deleted scene was released in the first place. To show us that things aren't going all that well.

The words 'They are going strong' are the journalist's words. They are still getting to know each other a little bit better' are Tim's words. That's a big difference.

They might just be stuck in that phase of figuring things out and the more they learn from each other, the more they realise they aren't right for each other. Or maybe some of the other theories about Gerrard bringing a conflict between BT are right. Buck is mad with Gerrard and maybe Tommy will just tell him to go along with it? We really don't know. It'll be interesting to see how all of this plays out on our screen. I'm sat.

All I can say is that I'm not at all worried about BT at this point. The way they talk about him in this article? He is still that plot device to further Buck's story. Just like Marisol was a plot device to further Eddie's story. It's just rinse and repeat at this point.

The far more interesting part for me right now is the part about Eddie. Ali and I have been breaking our brains about what else all of this could be about, outside of queer Eddie? We didn't come up with anything valid. We both feel very strongly that queer Eddie could be happening. Whether or not we're right remains to be seen. Let's hope we are. 🤞🤞🤞 Because as soon as queer Eddie happens? Buddie is 100% happening.

We both think that episode 4 will be an important one for Eddie. The first three are about the bee-nado and we'll see moustached Eddie in action. That short trailer has certainly given us a close-up of Eddie as he tries to flee the bees. I wonder what he'll go through to bring him some extra insight into his life?

In the 4th episode (Ryan's one hundredth episode) we both expect something more Eddie centric. That might just be the moment when he'll shave the moustache... at which point I will personally burst out into tears because I have gotten insanely attached to that little patch of hair. 😭

Anyway, that's about it. I'm also highly interested in the Madney and Henren storyline and I wonder who is coming back into Athena's life. 👀

Questions questions questions... and no answers.

Every season we find ourselves in the same place.

What else is new? 😂😂😂

[snowandwolves]

yooyoyo it's the lengthy ask anon (i nearly typed "ass anon" and that should give you a clue as to how crazy this week has been jfc) back again with some qs because the lighthouse au will forever be in my heart 💕

is there anything you learned about Ava through writing this fic, particularly being in her pov?

uh do you think they ever revisited that conversation about public acts?

is there any particular places you see them visiting together? places Ava visits by herself?

what made you pick "Somebody to Love" as the heartbreak of the century?

did they ever play with the ouija board or the um other things they found in the everything shed?

how did you come up with the idea of Suzanne restoring the truck?

do you think Bea ever gets good enough at cooking that she has dishes she confidently makes for Ava?

which martial arts does Bea have proficiency in?

do you have an idea as to what distracted Bea to leave the rations storage door open?

also after that, when Ava went into town and showed Mary, Cam, and Lilith that "proof of life" pic, just how much shit did they give Bea?

as always, pick and choose or ignore, i totally don't mind - i hope your week has been good and if not, that the weekend gives you some respite! (or at the minimum some yummy veggies? lol'd hard at your tags about broccoli bc i couldn't help but think about Ava making that comment about her asshole in chapter two lololol)

hard relate on the crazy week because that has been me this past week and this is genuinely the first day i feel like i have room to breathe lmao i hope you’ve been having a gentler, slower time this week though! 🥺 right, ok, on to the questions 😂

1. just like,,, how complex of a character she is. in the show, you know she loves life, you know that she’s a glutton for experiences, you know that she wants to live more than anyone else. but when you really get down to how much she’s had to survive to get to that point—all the pain and suffering and grief—you can’t help but love her more. especially, when i had to ask myself how she must’ve felt. that… was an experience lmao

2. yes. ava had to shop for underwear at some point…?

3. GRANDPOP OLIVER! i was genuinely so sad i couldn’t find a way to get him into the story, but in my head, he’s alive and kicking and prone to bursting into tears in the presence of his pseudo-granddaughter. ugh, i wanted to write that reunion 😭

4. this is gonna sound nerdy, but with ava’s age and her mom’s, i figured it was the song that would make the most sense considering what music was like at the time. I Will by The Beatles was also a contender though.

5. ouija board is a horrible idea in a huge ass compound where there’s no other person for miles and miles 😂 as for the uh other things, i’d say they’d have a conversation about it but bea would prolly be like “who knows whose bodily fluids that leather has soaked up”

6. genuinely have no idea 💀 i was like “oh they prolly need a car but also no one to do maintenance here so,,, maybe suzanne knows how” and just went with it 😂

7. yes!!! ava would teach her how and they have fun with it while they google recipes and the cultural background of each dish together. i’m thinking bea would make her waffles from scratch and ava cries into it because she used to have it with her mom 🥹

8. aikido is one. i remember doing research for that for sixth to the ninth hour lmao as for the others, imma say she’s prolly a jack of all trades type (though this is more because i don’t know which to pick. she seems like she could do it all)

9. actually i did think about this 😂 bea definitely didn’t mean to. it’s just the door gave up being a door and it didn’t close properly. she didn’t think to check because she didn’t expect the door to… not door 💀

10. a hell of a lot. so much so that bea put her phone on do not disturb as soon as ava got back with the groceries 😂

ok but what are your thoughts on celery 😭 jk, thank you again for this anon!!! 💙

[kithtaehyung]

Well Hi, hello!

Here’s the thing I’ve been reading 3tan since back then in the old days when there were only three chapters and I only commented twice (I know, I’m sorry) but here’s the thing and I think I told you the first time I commented: I’m in love with your writing. But like a whole fucking much, if that makes any sense.

You see, there hasn’t been a book/story that hasn’t got me as invested. To tell you that I was walking while reading (because I saw the update as I was walking home from work and I couldn’t wait) I felt like a teenager again, and believe me… it’s been a loooong loooong time since that 😂😂

Anyways this ask/comment it’s just my love and appreciation for an Author I truly admire and enjoy reading.

Ps. Say hi to Mr. Min who’s probably gonna read 3tan9 like the rest of us and probably post more thirst traps.

Love,

Ria

RIA??? Oh my god this made me smile so hard I wanna cry real tears😭 what a lovely surprise.. I don’t even know what to say *head in hands* I guess I will start with saying that it’s okay if you can’t comment on every single part or thing. I get it! We’re all busy and sometimes you just wanna read and not engage🥺 It’s honestly why I wanna take time to respond properly to the people that do, bc it takes a lot to send a review or ask.

But that feeling of being so giddy to read something new? Something that gets you a little burst of happiness? What a beautiful thing. I’m honored that this was able to invoke that in you and that it made your walk home fun🫂🍊

I am so happy you’re here and that you said these things. It can actually get hard sometimes, but stuff like this keeps me going. Fuel for real!!

LOLOL HOLD ON😂 Mr Min I don’t even know what tangerines are don’t perceive me!!💀 Don’t do it don’t do it!

[jokerownsmysoul]

re your most recent post's tags:

#I want him to share with me the things he loves and himself

arthur would just hand you a mirror and just stare at you til you understand and then he'd giggle and kiss your cheek and press his forehead against yours.😭😭😭😭

Omg girl 😭😭😭😭 legit I giggled when I read this and then burst into tears 😂😂💀💀 he would!! 😭😭😭 this image is so soft, I can't express what it did to my silly heart but for some reason it hit me hard idk 😭💙 he feels so affectionate I could hear him. 🥹💙 these puns are a weak spot and this was so comforting and tender to read but also so funny as well I'm 🥹🥹🥹💙💙💙 thank you for sending this, I'm aware I sound very silly right now but it really soothed me and made my day so much better I'll be cherish this forever istg 🥲🥹 I know that if roles were inverted he would do the same for you! 🥺💙

[hereforyourdispleasure]

👀Favorite thing about the muse’s appearance?

💔Least favorite ship for the muse?

💢Something about the muse that annoys you?

😂Funniest thing that’s ever happened to your muse? 

📑 Favorite part of your muse’s backstory? 

🔮 What do you see in your muse’s future? 

💭 Favorite memory of the muse? 

😩 Hardest thing about writing the muse? 

🎭 How similar are you and the muse? 

-for whomever you want

- guess

👀- Mark's resting bitch face. Very accurately represents his emotions

💔- Honestly Alir and Lydia. Since there wasn't enough build up. Plus don't really know if it's an actual relationship. Theo and Darian. I just don't do that level of one sided emotional codependency. Too close to home

💢- Darian's whole thing of not telling people essential information to try and keep them out as much as possible. It's understandable, all things considered career and past wise, but he still fucking does it because he doesn't want to bother people 💀 and then purposefully bothers them

😂- Probably when Mark first found out Darian uses annoying songs to torture people. During a faked hostage situation. 10 hours of the duck song. Every time his speaker got destroyed by the people holding them there, he somehow had another

📑- The mirroring between Adrian and Alir. Both being brought into Commish at 16, both being very violent (at the time), Alir being lined up to be a project guinea pig vs Adrian being lined up to be a lead researcher, and inevitably a guinea pig himself. And the mirroring of the unwilling caretaker between Dani and Adrian/Darian, and Darian's learning to be better from her mistakes

🔮- I'm not sure to be honest. Likely Darian getting even more uncomfortable with the lack of constant life threatening situations

💭- Darian taking care of people in person. Stitching up Five's head in the bunker, dealing with high on pain meds Five, literally every time Lils has said something concerning and he's gone over with complicated food he thinks they'll like, when he picked up on what foods and drinks people like, healing Oli as sneakily as possible

😩- Think I might've already answered this, but I'll do another. 7/10 times when I was writing interactions and stuff for the August arc I'd literally burst into tears, honestly rough time I didn't know why I was so emotional over it

🎭- Feel like it's slightly obvious, but the sense of humour. Also the tone/writing style. It was just a lot easier without having to worry about if what I just posted didn't sound Darian enough, because sounding Darian was essentially sounding me except less explosion threats. Maybe. Actually now I think about it. There's also certain aspects of his background that are loosely similar, unintentionally. Alir, I don't think I honestly have much in common with. Except the idea that I've made my sense of humour their like actual character. Mark, yes, a few smaller aspects. And also some parts of his background too

[ghosttownwherenoonegoes]

I went to an escape room today with my friend and we actually did it with a minute to spare! I also applied for the job!

How are you doing? I hope things are going well on your end 💜

-🌺

Ooooh a minute to spare is really good timing!!!🥰🙏did you enjoy yourselves? AAAAA OMG YOU DID????? I'M SO PROUD OF YOUUU!!!! I wish you all the best!!! Let me know how it goes; the Munsons and I have our pompoms to cheer you on from the sidelines!!

I'm okay!!! Knee is healing well, my burn blister popped today so that's receiving some close attention to make sure it doesn't get infected, and I got a bunch of errands AND some writing done AND I watched some Munson scenes (D&D scene for Eddie and Uncle Wayne's chat with Nancy so of COURSE as soon as I saw that flannel, I burst into tears because apparently I can't ever see Uncle Wayne without crying 😂😂😂I'm sure he'd think me incapable of smiling 😂💀) so it's been a nice day off!!!

I hope all is well with you too🥺💖

[onlyswan]

i hope i’m not to late. so… here we go :)

“everything that i have ever let go of, has claw marks on it”

the moment i read that, i burst into tears because everything -that i had held on so tight but have to let go- came through my mind all at once. because i felt that.

and reading this drabble, oc really reminds me of that quote because :

and yet you cry, because if he loved you that much, how did breaking up became an option he was willing to choose?

of course that would be the only question that appears on the course of his decision of breaking up with oc. i know oc would not let go of him no matter what. they would hold on to him no matter what. so seeing him, tear stained, telling oc that they should end their relationship because “it is for the best” is sooo confusing and heartbreaking because why? why would you let me go so easily when i would do anything to make you stay? the contrast is so heart wrenching 😭

“we should end this… i think it’s for the best, before we get drained.”

“i think that i’m just wasting your time, that this isn’t- it’s not going anywhere.”

he’s wrong. you so strongly wish that he’s wrong.

again. denial, because they still holding on to him so tight. because despite all the things coming at their relationship, oc can still hold on to him and they will. in a heartbeat. so why would he made a reason for them to end because for oc, there were no reason at all </3

the last time you cried like this, you begged him to allow you to keep loving him.

istg i wanna hug them so bad and cry together on the bathroom floor 😭 but at the same time i want to go out of there and flick my finger on jungkook’s forehead, hard so there will be a red spot on his forehead (and no, not a lipstick stick stain this time) because look at them! look what you did to my lil bean! 🫵🏻😡

sometimes love is teeth. sometimes love is biting and perversely holding on. … - and you wonder if it’s alright for two people to be in a relationship despite having different ideas of what loving means.

THE CONTRAST 😭😭😭😭 okay artemis this is your time to scold jungkook because this time oc is not the only one crying. i’m reading this for the 3rd time and this is the 3rd time i cry 🥲

this is why his lover has been doubtful of his devotion?

💀😂😮‍💨 i’m sorry but have you heard that jungkook’s ai cover of hopelessly devoted to you~~~? that ai is soooooo goood. i was shooketh the first time i heard it 🙃

and i love loooove the ending and how he solve the problem 🥹 i really hope this is the last heartbreaking events and the biggest as it can get in their relationship. please don’t let this saga continue artemis i’m not your strongest soldier :’) (hshaha don’t take my word. write whatever you want. i love angst, i’m a masochist😀😌)

“but i love you, and i’m scared you’ll leave again and i won’t beg you anymore.” you ramble without thinking, brain on auto-pilot mode. “i’m not that kind of person, jungkook. that’s not me. i don’t have to prove it, do i?”

this is one of my favorite things that i love about oc. one of the best lines they have ever said and you have written. because it represents oc’s soft yet strong personality so much. and because not everyone deserves a second chance. but sometimes, a second chance is all they need, and all they got.

he makes a whispered promise carved into the walls of your apartment, sealed by his lips pressing to your knuckles, and you’re left to wonder forever if he kissed your left ring finger on purpose.

fr just get married already. you bought the ring, right jungkook? right?!?! you better. 🫵🏻🙂

i have a screenshot of that tumblr post that says :

“i want to be inconvenienced by you. i want to wait for you, i want to hold your things while you do something else, i want to make adjustments to my plans to make space for you. someone at your side who takes up no space and has no needs of their own is not a person, but a shadow. i don't want a shadow, i want you. i want my life to be altered by your presence in it. please, inconvenience me”.

i saved that on june 1st and thought “this is something artemis would write” (and have written let’s be real <3) and then boom :

he wants to be inconvenienced by you. he wants to make impulsively confrontational phone calls he will overthink before bed. he wants you to wake him up in the middle of the night clawing for snuggles. he wants you to jump on his back when you’re exhausted of walking. he wants to charm the owner of your favorite restaurant into cooking one more meal before closing because you always ask him to make a quick stop when he visits you. he wants his life to be influenced by yours in every possible way, two different colors mixed in a palette to create a new one that matches the sky.

how can i not be giddy and cry and in love with kookie even more 😭 i miss him already.

okay that’s it my heart is so full of emotions rn i need to stop. i hope i don’t bore you out. also, if i interpreted something about the oc wrong, let me know because i want to read and take in this story in the right way :’) aaand i hope you have a great and lovely weekend my love ♡

-🌷

oh tulip anonie you could never bore me out 🥹 reading your asks always make my day better! and seeing someone feel strongly about my works to take their time to write this down truly makes me so happy and grateful <3 i love you lots :"*

reading your thoughts about the breakup made me so sick to my stomach omg… and the quotes. i’m ruined 😭 thinking ab everything they had to go thru in life in general, i still feel so fucking heartbroken for oc. am i sadist for wanting u guys to feel the pain i feel LOL I CAN’T BE ALONE IN THIS!! and idk if anyone noticed this yet but i was foreshadowing in in which jk won’t tell u what’s wrong and u get emotional motion sickness 🫢 oc had the gut feeling y’all. 🥲

istg i wanna hug them so bad and cry together on the bathroom floor 😭 but at the same time i want to go out of there and flick my finger on jungkook’s forehead, hard so there will be a red spot on his forehead (and no, not a lipstick stick stain this time) because look at them! look what you did to my lil bean! 🫵🏻😡

tulip anonie as oc’s #1 protector 🫶🏼 same though i wanted to cry with them too </3

please don’t let this saga continue artemis i’m not your strongest soldier :’) (hshaha don’t take my word. write whatever you want. i love angst, i’m a masochist😀😌)

all u gotta know is i’m a masochist too :p

this is one of my favorite things that i love about oc. one of the best lines they have ever said and you have written. because it represents oc’s soft yet strong personality so much. and because not everyone deserves a second chance. but sometimes, a second chance is all they need, and all they got.

eeekkk this made me so happy. definitely one of my favorite lines too!! soft yet strong describes oc so well 🥹🥹🥹 i love them sm

omg stop. makes me cry happy tears when u guys share stuff like this with me :( wdym u perceive me!! and u think of me fondly!! i love you so much!!

kookie the ever hopeless romantic 🥲🫶🏼

it’s actually fascinating to see different forms of art be interpreted in many ways by the perceivers and even more with my writing so i don’t mind that at all <3 although you already seem to empathize with oc so well and i appreciate that sm :( ily my tulip anonie and i hope the month of july treats you with kindness. thank you for being a light 🌷🌬️

[inmediasres-1]

you know, I always wanted one of those galaxy globe lights thing

and then That KuroKen Fic (you know, that one) ruined it for me and now I will never EVER be able to get one without bursting into tears as soon as I switch it on

so thanks

I can never get a galaxy globe light for my room without looking unhinged. 😭💀😂

[cutetinyartist]

When you get this, please reply five things that make you happy and send this to the last ten people in your notifications 💙 (you don't have to answer this if you don't want to)

This is such a cute ask! 🖤 Sorry it took me so long to answer but here's my five things:

1] G/T Fluff!

Of course this is my first choice! I always find it so comforting to read/draw/daydream about cute g/t scenarios. I have pretty bad anxiety, but imagining a giant holding me and helping me through it always makes me feel better 🥺💕

I still need to get better at writing and drawing it, but you guys are always really supportive when I do post and it makes me love this niche interest + community even more! 🖤

(Plus the Iron Giant is my favourite animated film of all time and I'm 80% sure it's the reason I love giants, robots and animation as much as I do-)

2] YUNGBLUD!

His music just means so much to me and I love everything that he stands for! I've been to four of his concerts so far and I swear he gets even more amazing every time 🥺🖤

When I saw him with my mom last week I completely burst into tears when he performed 'God Save Me (But Don't Drown Me Out)' cus I absolutely adore that song and being able to just shout along with the lyrics "I won't let my insecurities define who I am! Not gonna waste my life cus I've been fucked up!" Was something I really REALLY needed, he performed it at 3 of the shows I went to and every time it was perfect 😭🖤 Honestly a LOT of his lyrics resonate with me on a really personal level, but that one is definitely one of my all-time favourites 🖤🖤🖤

3] Collecting Things!

I have so many figurines, collectibles, plushies and things like that, I literally need new shelves to fit all my stuff on 😭😂 Plus my Ita Bag is stuffed full of pins and keyrings, I preordered the new NSP ALBUM which comes with a Pin and I'm gonna have to rearrange my whole bag to fit it in 😅

My parents are the same too, I blame them for making me such a nerdy hoarder 💀

I'm too lazy to find a pic of everything but here's my Funko Pop! Figures of Hologram Rick, Dom and the Iron Giant! 🥺🖤

4] Cartoons

I literally wouldn't be where I am today if I didn't watch cartoons, I literally want to make them for a living! 😂💕 I just adore animation so much, I won't list all of my favourites cus we'd be here for way too long but my Top Five are South Park, (Classic) Simpsons, Rick and Morty, Futurama and My Little Pony! 🖤 (And that's just the TV shows I like, if I listed films we'd definitely be here for too long)

Those shows have inspired me a lot over the years and I really hope I can make something as awesome as them one day 🥺💕🖤

Ooh and one other thing is Shoocharu's NSP Animations! Those seriously inspire me a LOT and I'm hoping to try animating a full music video soon too 🖤

(Also I'm just a massive simp for some cartoon characters okay-)

5] Taskmaster!

It's one of my favourite TV Shows of all time! I love how ridiculous it gets sometimes, if I'm feeling a bit down I'll just watch clips from it and it cheers me up a lot 😂🥺💕

Plus I usually end up simping for at LEAST one contestant per series (and Greg Davies ages like a fine wine so every new season I love him more 👀😂)

Thanks again for the ask! 🖤

[whentherewerebicycles]

About sleep apnea/disorders, my dentist told me that premenopausal cis women's bodies have intense protective survival mechanisms that make sleep issues like apnea and obstructions less obvious and harder to notice and identify, so that lots of women only get diagnosed and get care in their 50s/60s. She recommended a sleep study. Seems like something you might want to know? Especially if it runs in your family (and if you don't already know)?

kinda love the idea of that cis women’s bodies have super secret protective survival mechanisms for concealing our weaknesses 😂 although I also wonder if these things are “harder to notice” or if women are just 1) used to being tired and so don’t complain about it as much and 2) chronically underdiagnosed bc of *gestures vaguely* medicine. (I’ve spent seven years almost bursting into tears at every doctor’s appt about my terrible sleep issues and for seven years she’s been like “well some people are just bad at sleep” 💀💀💀 if I do have sleep apnea I’m going to SCREAM.)

[emo-vadapav]

merry christmas people!!!!!

i know I'm late, i was drunk af the whole day since breakfast 😂

and Guessss who has 2 thumbs, got wasted, and finally had the guts to ask for a hug from my bestfriend????

YEAH BITCH, THAT'S ME!!!💀

it happened when the day was about to end, we were almost done it was just the two of us, he's a christian boy, me not really. so i got drunk easily because i haven't had alcohol in ages and therefore lost my tolerence. he figured it out and thought of having fun while i was vulnerable. and he ended up getting a few compliments which he wanted to hear from me for years but i am a hard ass when sober😂

then we sat, talked, drank, ate chips and cake for a while, i burst out in tears later on, and then he started touching me, not the sexual kind😂 but like poking me, patting me etc, it was kind of nice and i cried more, and then i asked if it's okay for him to give me a hug, he laughed and said " buddy it's obviously okay, you asked have said it earlier I don't mind"

and that made me cry more for very obvious reasons, this went on for hours, and i asked him for a hug 4 times it was better than drugs!!!!!!

anywayssssss i finally have a friend who i will be able to hug without feeling rejected or guilty 😭❤️

bitch if you out there reading this, thank you so much for last night!!!! i don't deserve you😭

it means A LOT!