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kairithemang0 · 2 months

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My love hate relationship with curtwen gets worse every day. Maybe love hate isn’t a good term for it. I always love them and I sometimes hate how much I actually love them. Dang spies… stupid freaking spies

#spies are forever #i love them so much #but I also hate them #Because they hurt me #tin can bros #tin can brothers #agent curt mega #owen carvour #curtwen #this is such a nothing post but like GAH I need to NOT think about them #I swear I’m gonna be doing finals for this year and just have the staircase scene playing in my head #I’ll probably fail because of that #Someone tell me how to find a life I lost mine on *checks when I watched spies are forever* October 23rd 2023 #It was only 5 months ago????#It feels longer

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girl-please-study · 7 months

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Day 1/11 days of productivity

Desi culture is using Diya instead of candles.

Today has been tiring : cleaned garage, fans. Helped with putting up Deepawali lights. Made mattar paneer for dinner and yes studying

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thebluestbluewords · 4 months

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re-reading Mal’s Spellbook

Evie should be meaner, actually??? But also, a) Jay has totally fine handwriting in the spellbook, the font they chose for his writing is way more legible than the one they chose for Mal, and b) is this what the kids are mean about these days???

#me writing a silly little fic where Jay has genuinely awful handwriting due to like. undiagnosed dyslexia.#which is important for his school character arc because he genuinely believes that he’s bad at school #and also relies almost completely on his verbal memory of whatever they went over in class #he can debate just fine!! His logic is sound #he’s just #really slow at reading and his handwriting is genuinely atrocious #he dictates essays to the school laptop they ‘stole’ from the library #the others read assignments out loud for their shared classes #and like. He’s not stupid. He can cover for it. But the thing about being in school full time and covering for a learning disability #is that it’s exhausting and unsustainable #and going to lead to a breakdown eventually #even if that’s just failing a test #and being found out #anyway if anybody is still reading my older fic this is why Jay’s in the offset testing blocks in my ongoing cinderellaverse #he gets extra time on tests because of the dyslexia #he probably also uses a red filter over the page when he reads because that’s the breakthrough that helped my irl dyslexic sister #anyway someday I’ll actually write all of my school thoughts into a real fic

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mcybree · 5 months

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Watching scott cobblemon stream is making me once again consider setting up and running a randomizer nuzlocke where every time a new pokemon is caught a big wheel of names of all the life series characters is spun and like idk the soul of whoever it lands on is isekaid into pokemon bloodsports instead of minecraft this time. could you imagine.

#they wouldnt get three lives obv but the series gimmicks could be adapted into it in very interesting ways for further runs #we could also get some wild combinations like. idk. etho pachirisu #itd probably have to be BW because I have the lowest chance of failing that one. but Idk I’d have to think on it #thinking of streaming it on a discord server or something… Making an event out of my neurodivergence #Maybe birdcraft. maybe I’ll make a temporary muts discord for it at some point. Who knows but this has been haunting me for weeks #bree barks so fucking loud #i’d probably have infinite rare candies on + gym level caps so its not ten million years of grinding and more of a boss rush. yknow

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sableeira · 1 month

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just found out that I forgot to rename a variable in my submission for an application test and now there is a variable called “idk” floating around

#the variable is a float hahah floating around! get it? okay I’m silent now #I have this bad bad habit of naming all my variables idk… like idk/idk2/idk3/idkkkk #I didn’t fail the test tho so it’s fine. but I have another interview with them next week and I’ll probably have to reflect and explain to #them that sometimes I name variable idk and forget to properly name them once it’s not a test but a variable I’ll definitely use #another bad habit: naming stuff _Test because I will never make another clean/not test script. it’ll forever stay test and refactoring #all scripts to accommodate for a class rename is not fun at all

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dreamthinkr · 2 years

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hi

#i love it so much when he does this. when he gives us a random hi. hello. it never fails to make me smile #i added in some other random screenshots i had. there are probably a lot i missed. like from dreamhangout. i lost all my screenshots from #dreamhangout :( well i guess i didn’t loose them i deleted them because i was low on storage and i thought ‘do i really need to keep these #if i want to look at old tweets i’ll just go look at his account’ then he deleted it lol. i’m still sad i deleted them #i’ve learned my lesson tho i’m not deleting shit anymore. i guess i could just search for ss of dreamhangout if i wanted #dwt #dreamwastaken #dreamblr #queued nov. 5th 2022

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thebeautifulfantastic · 10 months

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how unfortunate that i have two hyperfixations, several side interests, and a load of homework all clamoring at the same time for priority in my brain

#it’s so frustrating rn because yeah i do have to get some online coursework done so I don’t fail this class #but i ALSO want to relax before to go to bed #so what do i do?#(after i finish another module)#i could start heartstopper season 2 or i could make progress on the book i started today or i could watch a mission impossible movie #or i could watch a greta gerwig movie or i could start that tv show starring rebecca ferguson #there’s no WRONG choice but i want to do it all #& at the same time therefore this feeling that i have to watch things at the ‘right’ time in order to achieve maximum enjoyment #so like. that’s setting me back too because i want to reach maximum enjoyment for all these things #my gut feeling is to just start watching silo since i’m already obsessed with rebecca anyway #and if i watch mission i’d have to start from the first movie which she’s not in (until the fifth movie)#and i’ve been consuming so much alice oseman content lately i feel like i need to take a small break before i watch heartstopper s2 #and my book… well i am in a rush to finish it because i have to get through all my library books before i move #but it could probably wait until tomorrow #idk maybe i’ll watch an episode of silo and then read a few chapters if i’m still awake enough #wow this is such a rambly post i’m so sorry #belle speaks

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trashbaget · 3 months

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tell me your failed/embarrassing flirting stories to make me feel better, i’ll go first: today i said “get out of my way” forgot to say “i’m kidding” then immediately said “bye”

#it is awful having feelings for someone you know and have an established friendship with #but crushing on someone i barely know is knew to me and i legit feel like an idiot every time i do something stupid like this #i can’t just. talk to the guy #if i say hey and he says sup i say ‘sup indeed’ like what the fuck is that #i can barely even say hello to him #don’t get me wrong i’ve DONE it but most days i’m like #ah fuck there he is #okay you can do it just say hi #just say what’s up #and then he’s already gone #also. like. the setting we’re in is soooo not good for talking or flirting realt because um. it’s work he’s my coworker.. so um. do i fuckin #ask him for his number?? or to hang out??? but like. he’s kind of a stranger to me what do i want to hang out for 🧍#but like. i dont want to do that until i have at least one successful interaction #or like. an actual conversation.#which is gonna be really hard to manage because he doesn’t talk much at all to anyone and i really only talk if someone talks to me first or #i’ll say something absolutely idiotic and ridiculous (and honestly i do that no matter what)#anyway so um. i guess i’m just gonna keep making a fool of myself until i get it right and hopefully i don’t screw it up 🥴#i lost all my confidence in the last year and i cant do anything chill or smooth anymore (i was never that good in the first place but at #least i could PRETEND i knew what i was doing. like i could sell it. the whole weird and lost bit.)#anyway. i felt better for like 5 minutes when some guy at the gas station flirt failed with me on the way home. but that’s partly my fault #too oops. in his defense he probably could not see that i had headphones on bc upon mirror inspection they were well blended with my hair #but i was waiting to cross the street and this guy tried to like nod and smile and i did not know it was to me until i got to the other side #where the gas station was and and like. tried again and i awkward half smiled and saw his face get all mushy and confused like mine FELT 20 #mins before when i’d flopped so hard trying to flirt and by the time i’d processed WAIT i think he was FLIRTING WITH ME i was already gone 🤡#but at least it ended better than the poor 14yo who very confidently asked for my number #who. i shit you not. SCREECHED for a solid 44.5 seconds and bolted the other direction when i said sorry im 21 #his friends were standing there like wtf too and one was like i am so sorry about him 🤦#cheers to being fools universe

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xinanigans · 22 days

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“WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU GOT ON THE AP LANG EXAM”

“A FIVE-“

#ifykyk #womp womp to me 😔#I actually got a 1 on this no way bro #my argument essay was embarrassing like I can argue but I just argued for the wrong thing..#probably retake the exam next year because how the hell am I gonna fail and reading comprehension exam when my major is ENGLISH ORIENTED BYE #I’ve sealed my fate.. I’ll retake the ap lang exam next year mark my words #I know it’s another 100 dollar to cough up but I’m salty okay #WE GETTING A 5 NEXT YEAR TRUST 💯#ap lang #ap tests

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yourheartinyourmouth · 3 months

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being the only person you know who is struggling is so fucking humiliating.

we’re talking about getting me a job at a gas station. my friends all make $60K plus.

i have to work in a gas station.

#man so glad i almost died to finish my fucking degree #so glad i worked my ass off for five fucking years so i can watch everyone else succeed and i can be a 36 year old gas station employee #again #when all my friends were going off to college #i was working in a fucking gas station #my friends got to be people and i got to be a fucking gas station employee #my friends all get to be treated with respect at work #i get to work in retail #yep going into debt so deeply i’ll probably never be able to pay it off was worth it #all so i can do fucking minimum wage menial labor.#great.#fantastic.#love that for me.#didn’t make me radically suicidal the first time around nah #everyone else gets to succeed #while i only ever get to fail in the shittiest and most humiliating way possible #cool cool cool #i’m going to bite my fucking wrists open all over the first customer who talks to me #i would legitimately rather be dead than have to work in customer service #it’s so fucking degrading. no one thinks you’re a person. no one cares.#minimum wage 36 year old fuck up loser #that’s me #awesome great cool awesome #everyone else gets a normal happy life & i get nothing #because i don’t know #something is missing in me #i am woefully inadequate to the task #hey what’s a good job for stupid idiot fuck up morons who can’t do anything & wasted 5 years & 70 thousand fucking dollars #on a fucking sheet of paper #that doesn’t even list my fucking degree

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designernishiki · 11 months

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im at the haruka + akiyama duo section of 5 now and i love it <3 both for the uncle/niece sort of dynamic they have and because i fucking love me a murder mystery baby

#weirdly very good choice of character to help haruka solve the crime and all that considering he #went to fucking law school amazingly enough #like. he’d actually know what the fuck he’s talking about despite how incompetent he seems on the surface fjddcjendgj #he’s actually got CREDENTIALS #anyway yeah also their dynamic is just very sweet and I’m so fucking glad two major characters finally got to meet like god I’ve been #WAITING #rambling #y5 #im reserving my thoughts about mirei and that whole… situation…….until I have all the context possible at this point #cause imma be real I didn’t see what happened to her comin #so. god knows what else I haven’t seen yet that I’ll need to consider #so far though. as much as they’re emphasizing a lot right now her work ethic and dedication and etc for haruka to elevate her career and #etc etc etc and that being a very sentimental and kindhearted thing and whatnot. imma be real I still find it mostly bullshit #I mean. even mirei herself could’ve maybe believed she was doing all that for haruka’s sake alone but that doesn’t erase the fact that mirei #had a plan for haruka since day fuckin one (before that probably) and it had nothing to do with caring for her and her personal freedoms or #enjoyment in life or anything- she elevated haruka because she projected onto her BIG TIME and needed to redeem herself after failing #in the industry by living vicariously though a mini-mirei conditioned to think she wants all the things mirei wants #and so on and so on. like #it seems really sweet and giving of her that she’d do so much to take out that loan and what have you. but once you step back for a moment #and go wait a second. this isn’t what haruka even wanted in the first place. she hasn’t had personal freedom at all the past six months and #mirei taking her shopping and letting her choose between some clothes on her own (ONLY allowing designer brand though. obviously)#is an effective way of making haruka believe she has free will and is doing what she honestly wants to do #because god forbid she realizes that- yeah mirei has sacrificed a lot for me- but I never asked her to and becuase of it now I have massive #responsibilities and expectations to uphold. after all- how could she live with herself if she rejected what mirei worked so hard for #especially after mirei. you know. suddenly dies. (not saying that was part of her manipulation or something just saying that it plays into #it conveniently well- haruka REALLY couldn’t live with herself now if she didn’t win this contest and debut)#annnnyway. it’s very interesting. mirei is… very interesting #I said I wasn’t gonna comment on her yet but. oops

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fingertipsmp3 · 6 months

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Why did I get paranoid about how no one has checked the work I submitted yet. It’s literally Sunday

#i mean i signed up for this last night in like the middle of the night #but i guess they either automate the sign up procedure or they have saturday office hours #it is based in the usa so if they work saturday afternoons they will have gotten my stupid application at a regular time #oh it’s freelance work. it’s basically just writing and proofreading #i just want to get approved so i can actually do the thing and then i can make at least a little money and not completely lose my mind #as i continue searching for a job. and also! when i get asked about the gap in my resume i can be like ‘yeah so i was actually freelancing’#it will also make the job search a bit less urgent and calm me down a bit if i have an income stream in the meantime. i think #like i won’t have to apply to stuff i genuinely can’t do just because i need a job (like factories or care work. neither of which i should #probably really be doing on account of the dodgy knee)#but yeah. i was sooooo paranoid but literally… i did like 16 different example tasks for them. it took me well over an hour so it’ll #probably take a lot of time for them to mark it #i just hope they don’t reject it. that would be embarrassing as fuck. ma in english; i’m qualified to teach esl AND high school english…….#if i fail at proofreading i will simply just cry #the thing i feel like could screw me is i didn’t really understand the guidelines on maybe the first task or two because i can’t read #apparently. also i use british spellings and it’s an american company. i also didn’t realise grammarly was there and ‘helping’ me for a hot #minute. i was like ‘what are those squiggly lines for’#look if they don’t want to keep me i’ll just keep scouring the subreddits and find something similar. it’s fine. it’s all good #this would just be perfect for me because i love writing and i love correcting other people’s mistakes lol #personal

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ronkeyroo · 2 years

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I’ve been really struggling with not hating my art lately, no matter what I do to try and improve it, i feel…Like a mediocre nobody, as though i lost my entire essence …it sets such a painful rift between everything i try to do with myself , with everything

#vent #art is the only thing I have that makes me feel…whole #like i exist #when i lose it — i lose myself #i feel so gross and bitter falling into envy as well #wishing i could feel myself a worthy and respected artist among my peers but i just #i feel really bad #this blockage renders me useless because my art is theonly way i can communicate myself when language fails and im still nothing but a #socially withdrawn and overwhelmed idiot who cant even speak without laboring for hours just to utter something coherent #im angry at myself #what do i do now? succumb to silence once more? i cant allow that #i wish it wasnt so important to me. i wish i could make that separation but im not there in my current state of being #i feel bad for venting too despite knowing many look up to me #im so sorry #im not as good as i wish I could be #i wish i was #I’ll probably delete this later…i cant let my self disdain sip out like that

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thompsborn · 8 months

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me, 30 minutes ago: its 1 am and i should sleep <3

me, immediately after: refreshes tumblr, decidedly does not go to sleep

#i say this like its funny haha #but tbh it is mostly because i am so fucking. Devastated about the horrible shit happening to palestinians #i saw so many videos and pictures today of such horrible things that they’re suffering through right now #and im seeing it through a screen from my safe little bubble in my house and its still destroying me emotionally and mentally #i cant imagine the fear and horror they must be feeling in gaza #and the fact that they have probably felt this fear and horror for a very long time because of israel’s ethnic cleansing of their people #im in such a privileged position and the least i can do is spread awareness and i donated what i could and i have plans to reach out to my l #local government and encourage them to speak up and condemn the genocide of palestine and im looking for local protests and shit like #im gonna do what i can but i know i cant do enough as just a singular individual with low social impact and not a lot of money #but i’ll still do what i can no matter what #i wouldnt be able to live with myself knowing i sat back and said nothing while the palestinians suffered so much #which honestly i already did because i wasn’t educated about it prior to this past week and thats entirely my fault #i mean partially i know its western civilization not showing the horrors that israel has committed but i try to stay in the loop on things #and try to be aware of things happening in the world and i failed to become aware of this before now #i could have been doing more for years to try and spread awareness for palestine and i never did and i wish i could go back and change that #but i cant #but what i CAN do is speak up now that i know and spread awareness and refuse to let palestine go down without a fight #sorry this is a fandom sideblog i know ive been posting a lot on my main blog and i do need to go to bed and whatever #its just hard to sleep knowing that as i sit here safe and comfortable in my bed there are children families innocent people dying in gaza #and the world is actively and successfully trying to paint palestine as the bad guys #its fucking awful and despicable

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asclepias0819 · 1 year

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suwa/closer p5x design kinda just feels like ann chie hybrid with the phantom thief outfit rly reminding me of shadow chie

#maru.txt #i’ll probably love her because of this #i’m NOT playing that tho #gacha is the devil and i’m not supporting this move into the mobile market #the aquarium velvet room tho cool as fuck i cannot lie #protag is very much a tatsujun kid #got no swag tho and i feel like they were trying to do a gender neutral design but #somehow failed

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song-for-the-seasons · 2 years

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CW: body modification/piercing

just realized my nipple piercing fell out sometime today and the hole closed so I took a sewing needle and repierced it myself. I feel so fucking strong right now. I’m a living god!!!!!!!

#no one touch me I’m so strong and cool.#maybe I’ll try repiercing my failed industrial next #I could probably do better than the piercing place did…#Oh obv that sewing needle is now thrown away and not being used on like my commission work anymore LOL I feel like I should confirm LMAO #I’m salty because that piercing had JUST finally healed completely and I was gonna swap it for a pretty one :( cest la vie etc etc

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