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yourheartinyourmouth · 3 months

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being the only person you know who is struggling is so fucking humiliating.

we’re talking about getting me a job at a gas station. my friends all make $60K plus.

i have to work in a gas station.

#man so glad i almost died to finish my fucking degree #so glad i worked my ass off for five fucking years so i can watch everyone else succeed and i can be a 36 year old gas station employee #again #when all my friends were going off to college #i was working in a fucking gas station #my friends got to be people and i got to be a fucking gas station employee #my friends all get to be treated with respect at work #i get to work in retail #yep going into debt so deeply i’ll probably never be able to pay it off was worth it #all so i can do fucking minimum wage menial labor.#great.#fantastic.#love that for me.#didn’t make me radically suicidal the first time around nah #everyone else gets to succeed #while i only ever get to fail in the shittiest and most humiliating way possible #cool cool cool #i’m going to bite my fucking wrists open all over the first customer who talks to me #i would legitimately rather be dead than have to work in customer service #it’s so fucking degrading. no one thinks you’re a person. no one cares.#minimum wage 36 year old fuck up loser #that’s me #awesome great cool awesome #everyone else gets a normal happy life & i get nothing #because i don’t know #something is missing in me #i am woefully inadequate to the task #hey what’s a good job for stupid idiot fuck up morons who can’t do anything & wasted 5 years & 70 thousand fucking dollars #on a fucking sheet of paper #that doesn’t even list my fucking degree

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notbrucewayne48 · 6 months

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"aphobia doesn't exist"

bitch literally not that long ago an aroace youtuber animator was insulted by almost half of its community for being it

#i did some research about it and found out that the problem was principally that she had previous experience in the romantic area #so people just didn't take her seriously and said she was lying #even though she stated multiple times that she wasn't comfortable in those situations #now things are more calmed but damn #mind your own bussiness #i believe she knows more about herself than you #sorry if i offended you with this comment but i hate how aro/ace/aroace people are always left behind #insulted and rejected because they “dont know what they are talking about”#or because they “just have to wait for the right person”#or because they are “psychopaths and they are missing something”#i love that animator and she helped me realise a lot about myself #and now that i know the context i think i will start making a list and killing aphobes one by one #aromantic #arospec #asexual #aroace #acespec

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sillyfairygarden · 6 days

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made a companion to my hades!pearl design... i think bigb would give the best boons ^_^

#bigbst4tz2 #bigb fanart #bigbst4tz2 fanart #limited life fanart #hades game #hades fanart #mcyt fanart #mcyt #lifesmp #thellos art corner #I THINK HE WOULD BE THE WEIRDEST GUY IN HADES. every now and then his boons would just kill your run. amazing #i know bigb's motif is technically frogs but butterflies ^_^ i love butterflies ^_^ i spent 3.5 hours on the lineart i get to be indulgent #drawing this made me realize i miss my bigb design so much. hes the best. i hope the colours still feel like Bigb while trying something ne

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ba1laur · 1 year

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thank you for teaching me how to kill (id in alt)

#found some old sketches ive made durng my nth rewatch of chirins bell and went ahead with it and finally did something with them #this movie is beloved by me i recently made my project 4 my english class about it. i recommend seeing it but its quite dark #despite its whimsical appearances #back to the red white black combo wombo we all deeply missed #chirins bell #ringing bell #チリンの鈴 #blood #animal violence #fanart tag #art tag

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gammija · 3 months

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the real reason tmagp is on break 'til april 11th is so sam can observe ramadan without being chased by a murderous clown blob

#tmagp #tmagp s1 #tmagp spoilers #the Magnus protocol #if for some islam-related reason this joke doesn't work plz tell me - i was thinking. i would like to see some content #exploring/including sam possibly being muslim considering his name and VAs ethnicity #and what better way to support that than make it myself?#joos yaps #samama #samama khalid #tmagp sam #but i am v much an outsider so lmk if i missed something #tbf. i cannot think of any way this could be somehow misconstrued. but you dont know what you dont know!

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ribbittrobbit · 1 month

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#d20 spoilers #fantasy high #ribbittrobbit #dimension 20 #d20 fantasy high #d20 fanart #spoilers #figueroth faeth #fig faeth #ankarna #fantasy high junior year #fhjy spoilers #not to be utterly insane but i feel like the original drawing was missing something and now i fucking get it #and i feel like these are oracular visions and im insane now #brb gonna 3d model a temple and then paint both layers of frescos #jfc im unwell about these fictional teens #also yeah i draw pretty fast bec i can't sit still and watch actual play i usually work on animation shit #but man oh man has this one got me in a fucking chokehold #its literally 4:19 am guys

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grimfantas · 3 months

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10 years in the future for Nanako-chan

#nanako dojima #persona 4 #yu narukami #ryotaro dojima #tohru adachi #a little sister... a LITTLw sister. you expect me to not fawn...? to not crumble? ok....#go on. look....... go on. GO ON!!!!! (crazed) (eye twitching) (i like these 4 and nana-chan especially)#hope you like my older design for her...#funfacts i said on twitter so i'll put on tags here:#adachi did his time in jail quick. yu's 27 and still looks the same. pretty bancho #i think nanakos signature color would change from pink to yellow. yu doesn't actually wear any yellow at all in p4g IIRC #but it is a color you associate him with the most. i want nanako to adopt that color. BUUUTTT #for self indulgent's sake she does wear pink to get yu to dote on her more. (reminds him fondly of baby nana-chan)#(AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!)#oh yeah and adachi's a hag. i think his fashion is handpicked by yu probaably.#(thinking if i missed anything else) ahhhh........... nanako-chan... return for p6 or something. ok byeee!

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sidras-tak · 1 year

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#sparklepants #for me it’s the memory loss #never seen that trope done well. ever. and I’m actively mad about it every time it happens #tv tropes #narrative tropes #there’s like no good way to tag this huh #but I do want to know everyone’s thoughts #also hoping I didn’t miss something obvious as a choice

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pasharuu · 1 year

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both of us already know who it is

fish stealing incident

#honkai star rail #honkai star rail fanart #hsr #hsr fanart #hsr stelle #stelle #hsr march 7th #march 7th #hsr dan heng #dan heng #this one appeared before i opened the commissions and i couldnt just miss the opportunity-#but actually its not like your not allowed to request me to draw something #the thing is just i may not do your request lol #but a tiny mini reminder yuh anyway #its 7 am btw i literally spent whole night on this so dont be fooled by how simple it looks >:(

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tapakah0 · 10 months

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#Still not in a resource and place but missed to draw something silly #animation tag #cass fanart tag #Don't mind me I'm still dead

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chiptrillino · 1 year

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ID: three drawings showing a sequence of sokka and zuko from avatar the last air bender. Aged up rather soon after war. sokka is leaning over zuko, you see them mainly on the left side waist up. The background is kept plain withe. On the left side the artist signature "chiptrillino . 2023" on the right side isthe request to "please don't repost"

The first drawing shows sokka looking down with slightly zoned out expression. zukos hands are reaching up.

The second image shows sokkas surprised face held between zukos hands, who raised up his face inches away from sokkas.

The third images shows sokka leaning into zuko. Both of them kissing. zuko holds on to sokkas shoulder and neck. Both look happy. End ID

Small shoutout to that person that tagged, once upon a time (last year), the sketch with "mermaid zukka". And would you look at that! Its meremay! And this is not really mermaid themed, but... it remained me to finish it! -sweats-

oh shoot! also happy zukka week! i guess whops...

---- if you want to deal with all my reblogs may I direct your attention to my side only my artworks blog?

@chiptrillino-art

#chip!art #atla #zukka #sokka #zuko #before anyone says something... they always had pants on!#also fuck shading... like proper shading #i kdin of needed this...#like... yeha...#can you belive it that this is sort of my first drawing officially posted here this year that is not an ask or anything else?#me neither #gosh how the time flies #also the finger was always there and never missing!!!#oh yeha it was always. ment to be a sequence

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nonasbirthday · 3 months

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i still can't believe there are folks who say "well GTN is annoying but you just have to get through it and then the other books aren't like that so you'll be fine."

personally i have been chasing the high of GTN ever since i first closed the book

#yes i love HTN but to me it was a slog! honestly pacing is not strong in any of these books #they're chock-full of reread value but unless you are looking deeper like that tbh not much happens plot-wise in each book #and HTN is the worst culprit because you get basically harrow just being miserable on the mithraeum for four acts #interspersed with chapters that are a different version of something you already read #the way i love each book is very different but GTN was FUN #you know??#i miss it #(i miss her. gideon my dumb baby come back to me)#the locked tomb #gideon the ninth #nonasbirthday

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nevvn · 3 months

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no thoughts, only hampter beel

#obey me #obey me fanart #art tag #fanart #obey me beelzebub #the event was really... something #please ignore the fact that hammy beel's missing a finger i was not paying close attention to the reference photo 😭😭

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counting-stars-gayly · 4 months

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This might be a hot take, but I actually like that Percy figured out Luke was the traitor at the last minute. There were A LOT of clues that would’ve been hard to ignore, and he ignored them for as long as he could. And it’s clear that even after accusing Luke, he’s still surprised and heartbroken at Luke’s confirmation of his suspicions. He was holding out hope, guys!!

Also, the Betrayal Scene flows better as an exchange of dialogue and a swordfight than it did, in the books, as a monologue and a scorpion sting. This also leaves a bigger impact on the viewers and characters because it’s more emotional.

#I disagree with some of the other examples of the kids immediately knowing something is a trap but THIS ISNT ONE OF THEM.#like I knew they were going to change that scene a lot because it just wouldn’t have translated well to screen.#plus Annabeth not being there in the book was a total missed opportunity.#I’m curious if anyone else has recently reread tlt and agrees with me about this #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo #percy jackson #luke castellan #pjo tv show #pjo spoilers #pjo tv series #pjo tv adaptation #pjo season 1 #pjo disney+#Pjo ep 8 #Pjo 1x08 #the prophecy comes true

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elijah-loyal · 5 months

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im gon keep yapping about the sound design for the magnus protocol because its driving me insane

the difference between the two podcasts is so drastic its FRIGHTENING

The Magnus Archives intro/outro: high-pitched, screeching, eerie, dies off with what sounds like a stone tumbling into the depths and lights turning on/off, water, sounds like the darkness of a cave that you must descend into even though you're terrified, but you do it anyway

The Magnus Protocol intro/outro: LOUD, deep, bone-chilling/shaking, foreboding, it sounds like darkness in a different way, like the great throat of some unknown beast that is hundreds of times larger and older than us and will swallow us whole; it's fear that hunts us, instead of us hunting it

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also, side note/addition because i realized i forgot to add WHY it freaked me out

long story short, i was around 50% deaf in my right ear until I was 12 years old (reconstructive surgery truly is something I am so grateful for) and now I'm back to a fairly normal hearing range.

The problem?

I can't hear low tones as easily.

the magnus protocol is heavily reliant on lower tones, so what I hear is likely not how most people hear it, but for me it sputters, almost, parts of it are kind of missing, and I know I'm not hearing it right, which freaks me the fuck out.

#god the sound design for tmagp is actually so amazing and astounding to me #the sound alone actually freaks me out #which is something that the magnus archives DIDNT do #im already on edge when the episode begins for protocol #tma #tmagp #the magnus archives #the magnus protocol #tma podcast #tmagp podcast #jarchivist #magnus archives #magnus protocol #the difference is that in tma theyre actively seeking the fears #but in tmagp i think the fears are hunting THEM #also the fear in the audio for me is knowing im missing parts of it #not hearing it as its supposed to be heard

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 1 month

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I want it back / I drag its dead weight forward.

#Better drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #digital art #This was a style experimentation doodle that took on a life of its own.#In a way it is a great example of 'beautiful failure'. The original goal was to try a pure black and white contrast piece.#Which I very much failed at doing. Not quite ready for that! However what this turned into is something I like a lot!#Different but in a way that really pushed me as an artist. A little less simple; a little more proportional.#I was also recently thinking about LWJ's grieving that we only catch glimpses of.#LWJ grieved his first love for 13 years. His love that was never reciprocated.#He chose to dedicate his heart to that mourning and most painfully of all - he did so knowing there was no end to that grief.#Wei Wuxian comes back to life in MDZS but that is an exception. Not the expectation.#He was dead. Not missing. Not 'maybe in hiding'. He was dead and his spirit unreachable.#Jiang Cheng went forwards with denial but LWJ takes that grief on. He copes by continuing to carry the weight with him.#Let me be clear. Neither are healthy approaches. It is a way to cope but it does not mean that is healing or healthy.#Grief is loved transformed but it is also about endurance and letting go. Grief can change you. You can also change your grief.#It isn't a good or evil thing to experience. It is just an experience.

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