#im angry at myself

[ronkeyroo]

I’ve been really struggling with not hating my art lately, no matter what I do to try and improve it, i feel…Like a mediocre nobody, as though i lost my entire essence …it sets such a painful rift between everything i try to do with myself , with everything

[numberonepartyboy]

i hateeee that i just realised that usopps name is literally lie (uso = lie)

[bsxcrxts]

I'm really sick of not being able to find a job

[mayhem-moth]

I made.... a very impulsive descision.....

Of deleting the post i made.....

And realizing....

That i actually wanted to keep it and can never get it back.

Sometimes.... i am 1 step away from destruction.

[bred-is-a-dumb-name]

Anyone remember that drawing challenge from a while ago where you would draw your otp or OCs as the go for it nakamura cover??? Yea well I like the second Manga covers pose a lot more so I did that...also it's klapollo <3

[inkskinned]

he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

[insignificantfailure]

Why the fuck am I the way I am

[fairycosmos]

hate the passive language people use to describe inflation and the cost of living crisis as if it's some natural phenomenon akin to an earthquake and not the result of a system that was designed specifically to make the rich richer at the cost of everyone else

[noosesurroundsme]

I really hate myself

*I started writing this post a few weeks ago and stopped before I finished it. I have been trying to avoid the subject entirely, I haven’t talked about it with anyone and I just wanted to move on. I can’t. The wound continues to be reopened every day.

I’m so sick of this cycle of AN. I’m sick of the cycle of being hurt. I was distracted from my ed, for once, by my hobbies that I felt like maybe one day I would feel okay and not have these thoughts anymore. I haven’t weighed myself in a while and I know I put on some weight but my head was clearer.

These last few weeks have started creep back to feeling like everything is too much. Food has been giving me so much anxiety again. I guess I got what I wanted, I miss being small. I hate my body, even more so now.

These last few weeks were supposed to be the start of better things at work, and for a couple days they were. A really toxic person was moved to another location and I thought I might be able to breathe. It didn’t last for very long.

One Sunday at work I had a lot of eye pain and a headache from getting debris in my eye while working on the Camaro the night before, I was mostly by myself working on planograms that day, but when I took a break from it to sit at the counter, the coworker I’ve never had issues with before started rubbing my back out of nowhere. I made the mistake of saying that it felt good (it did), I think it made him feel invited to do it again the next week, and the week after that. 

The second time kept going further than a back rub. He went up into my shirt and around my ribs, he went down my lower back into my pants. Every time a customer came in he would stop to help them and resume when they left. He didn’t seem to care that there are video cameras above the check out area. I couldn’t tell him to stop.

The third time he started where he left off and I tried so hard to be quiet but I just said, “Don’t.”

I wanted a fresh start when the toxic Assistant Manager was moved. I feel disgusting. No matter what I do, I am just a magnet to shit people. It’s been really hard to coexist at work with him. I try to not say anything or give him an information. I don’t know where things changed. The reason for finishing this tonight, probably a month after starting to write it, is him texting me after work saying he felt uncomfortable and confused. I haven’t read the rest of it and I really don’t want to.

I tried so hard to bury my feelings, but just when I think it’s not on my mind as much something brings it all back. It’s all my fault. I shouldn’t have said anything, going all the way back to just mentioning that my back was bothering me from being hunched over working on my car.

[pcktknife]

I still can't believe they gave itto a rock and roll event without xinyan

[graveyard-society]

tell me what possessed me into making this

[sugashook]

reposting ANGRILY.

[ardentpoop]

sam winchester gentlest character i've ever loved trapped in a story that exploits that quality at every opportunity to hurt him, and when he's too bruised to be gentle he's punished anyway for daring to test the boundaries of his role

he buries himself deeper and deeper in the role until he can't remember why he ever used to fight it. good girl!

[ganondoodle]

i will never forgive totk for giving us 5 minutes of zelda being excited and confident about her actual interests right at the start only to yank her away for the rest of the game and into the scared puppy eyed little maiden role standing uncomfortably besides the cool new guy™️

like is it actually a genuis tragic move of the writers to let her yet again not be allowed to be anything but a puppy eyed sacrificial maiden or is it just … bad writing how do i explain that i care so much about zelda that totk made me care not even a little bit about anyone but master koga bc of how it was written

i was more emotionally invested trying to get a chicken out of a well than i was with totks story or new characters (if you take the yiga out of the equation)

(and no, finding a few scraps of text, you have to grind to find, telling me that actualyl she had so much fun there and did like .. one thing with an some sort of never seen or otherwise hinted at construct and omg she totally was integrated like famillyy and found friends we never see isnt remedying anything imo)

[linipik]

Eden

[uncleshrimp]

As always I'm late to everything when it comes to online stuff, ehhh...

Been late for 4 years

But

I really got inspired by your giant moongene au!! @bonkalore

Ur art is awesome :Ddd