#I’m choosing to see it this way

[the-darkestminds]

Elain and Lucien aren’t ready yet but they will be soon ☝️

[sapphicstacks]

I think there is a lot to be said about Imogen trying so hard to meet Laudna where she is at emotionally post-resurrection.

It’s first obvious in the moment Pike doesn’t find Delilah’s spirit. Imogen is taken, for the briefest of moments, by joy because this is what the two of them have been working on for years together. From the very beginning, Imogen was in the conservatory looking up how to separate Laudna and Delilah. “We’re going to get her out of your head,” was Imogen’s reassuring promise to Laudna after the FCG fight. So, Imogen shows unabashed excitement for a split second.

However, Imogen also just made a new promise to Laudna. A promise that she will meet Laudna wherever she is and be there for her. So, Imogen uses her hands to cover her smile, steels herself, and matches Laudna. And we watch her do this over and over again that day in Whitestone. She takes every single cue from Laudna.

Laudna needs a hand to hold on to? Of course.

Laudna needs a promise that Whitestone is real? Imogen crosses her heart.

Laudna wants to touch the Sun Tree? Well, get up here.

Laudna is excited about a newly alive Pâté? Imogen has never giggled so openly.

Laudna can’t eat lobster? Luckily, potatoes are Imogen’s favorite food!

I can’t help but be impressed with Imogen in those moments. Imogen hasn’t had as many chances as Laudna to be the caretaker in their relationship but she will be damned before she neglects that duty now. She recognizes that Laudna will be in the place that Imogen was when they first met, and there is not a moment where Imogen doubts her ability to step up and be there for her. Imogen, in all of her self-doubt and anxiety, knows for a fact that she can keep that promise to Laudna. There is a confidence in Imogen’s love for Laudna that has never been more obvious.

[daylighteclipsed]

Y’all ever think about if Sora falls to darkness that inside his heart will look like the Destiny Islands falling again

[sinnbaddie]

Naruto has a multitude of characters where their writing is heavily based in queerness and queer experiences. From the devotion two characters have for one another to a point where they would trust each other with their lives, to feeling like the other one is the only person who truly to their core understands them and accepts them for who they are despite their flaws and issues they’ve done in the past.

Naruto as a series is so queer in its writing that the writer - whether intentional or not - made the main two characters always run after each other even if one of them fell into darkness, saying he’d shoulder the pain he’s holding just so he can be near him and you’re saying you think… Obito is gay?? The guy who literally lost his mind over a girl??

Edit: I’m talking about canon btw. Hc if you’d like I’ll always support that, but he’s not canonically gay or bi. His character is rooted in his love for a girl and the only reason he saved kk was to have time alone w Rin because he didn’t want him interfering. He’s in love w Rin and only Rin in canon🙇‍♂️

[hinalatte]

David Chiem and Colors (and Xander)

So, the Chapter 2 Q&A dropped (semi) recently. There’s a ton of fun information in there, but I’m particularly focused on the reveal of David’s favorite and least favorite colors. Yellow (reason: inspiring), and gray (reason: depressing).

These are clearly in reference to his main color associations. His fake inspirational speaker persona is associated with yellow and his current “guilty as charged” persona is associated with gray. David’s opinions on these colors are likely stand-ins for his opinions on his personas.

So now, an important question: Why does he still like yellow?

It’s a commonly agreed upon analysis that David doesn’t like the performance he has to put on in order to be an inspirational speaker. It’s a role he’s forced to play, not one that he believes in personally. In the Chapter 2 trial he ditches that persona (and the yellow in his design) to act in a way that seems more liberating. It’s like his “true self”, or at least a bit truer of a self. But that’s gray David, and David doesn’t like gray. It’s “depressing”.

I think the colors represent how David feels about his own personality. I think that he wishes he could genuinely be like his inspirational speaker persona. If he was, he’d probably be happier. He secretly wishes he could believe in the things he says to inspire people.

But David doesn’t believe in personal growth. He thinks if someone can become better, they were already good. He probably sees himself as a lost cause under this philosophy. There’s no hope for him to be kind, genuine, or happy.

…And that’s where Xander comes in. Xander, in Chapter 1, is a person who is kind, genuine, and happy. He fights for what’s right. And he looks up to David as someone who inspired him to be who he is today. David sees him use that inspiration for good when he stands up for Nico. When Xander tells David he inspires him, David responds by saying Xander is inspiring as well. They’re each other’s role model.

We have no way of knowing right now how much of what David does in Chapter 1 is genuine, but the fixation on Xander in the Literature Girl Insane MV makes me think that David and Xander’s connection was genuine, at least a little bit. But I don’t think it’s just because Xander became his friend. I think it’s because Xander became his role model.

Xander, to David, represents who David wishes he could be. He was more than just a friend. He was David’s hope. A personification of the good David’s given the world, as well as the chance David has to change. If he becomes more like Xander, maybe he’ll live up to his inspirational speaker title. So they become friends and role models. It’s very sweet.

Then Xander tries to kill Teruko. And then he gets electrocuted and dies.

David vehemently defends Xander’s honor in the first trial. It’s not just because he liked Xander. If Xander was his role model of a good person, but he tried to kill someone, then there would be no hope left for David to be a good person either. David’s symbol of hope dies abruptly.

In Chapter 2, David says no one is truly capable of change. He (likely) lies about killing Arei to get himself and the entire case executed. He’s given up on improving or ever being happy. Because the person who gave him the hope that he could change is dead.

I know it’s a bit weird to go from David’s color preferences to “Xander is his hope”, but that’s what clicked into place for me when I read those fun facts. Xander’s eyes are also gray/yellow, like David’s, but unlike David they fluctuate with his emotions and not whatever persona he’s putting on.

Also, I’m obviously not an expert. I could be totally wrong. Either way, I’m excited to see what’s done with David’s character! Hello DRDT fandom.

[camgoloud]

one small detail that stood out to me about this latest episode that i haven’t seen anyone else talking about yet is that when the commentators are calling colin “inspiring” and the “man of the match,” they are celebrating him not for actually scoring the goals himself, but for providing the crucial assists to make both of them happen. and i really love that because for me it’s the absolute perfect wrap to his character arc across all three seasons!

like, we know that colin’s job on this team has never been to score goals. in fact i’m pretty sure we’ve never heard about a single goal that he has scored. colin is and always has been a team player, not a star—and we’ve seen that crop up over and over. notably, we’ve seen the fact that he’s not entirely at peace with that crop up over and over: see the way he was affected by nate’s entire holidy-inn-painting monologue, being benched to make room for zava, etc.—like, this is the thing he’s sensitive about! this is where all of his insecurities come from!

but at the SAME TIME it’s also tied very intimately with all his struggles re: hiding his sexuality— “colin’s a chameleon,” etc. it’s fascinating because there’s SO much tension there between colin 1. feeling bad about the fact that he never stands out on the pitch the way some of his teammates do, because of who he is on the team, and 2. feeling like he CAN’T stand out, ever, because of Who He Is As A Person. etc. it’s like. he’s filling this role in the background. he’s afraid he’s not doing it well enough. he’s afraid that what and who he is isn’t good enough and isn’t worthy of recognition. he wishes he were someone different. trying to be someone different in the locker room is clearly making him so unhappy and stressed out. it is All Connected and my thoughts have been doing laps around it at an ever-increasing rate since i watched episode 2.07 ‘headspace’ if not before!

and all of this is why it’s so incredible to me that in the end, colin’s big moment comes from making assists and not goals! because on the one hand i understand the fandom desire for the colin post-coming out glowup that we all knew was coming—to see him, like, ~prove everybody wrong about him~ and inspire people by suddenly becoming a standout player and scoring goals left and right, even though that never used to be his role on the team before. and don’t get me wrong, i was 100% on board that train, and would have loved it for him if that was how it went down in the end, also. i think he should get to score here and there! as a treat! especially now that richmond are playing total football and there’s been so much emphasis placed on how it’s not just jamie/dani/occasionally sam who are making all the goals anymore!

but i don’t know! especially after the events of the last few episodes, there’s something very special to me about getting to see a colin who, rather than becoming someone entirely new in the moments right after coming out, just feels free to become, and be at peace with, the best version of the same self he’s always been. he’s still a team player first and foremost, but now that he’s not as weighed down by the need to chameleon/hide/pretend to be someone he’s not, he’s so much better at it. and everyone sees this! he gets to be celebrated for his contributions within the role he’s always played! he (and everybody else!) finally recognizes the value that he adds to the team just by being himself—fully himself! it resolves all the tension and insecurity that we’ve seen him struggling with this whole time, on every level. and so this moment was genuinely the perfect ending for his journey in my opinion—i’m so so happy that we were tall enough to join him on the ride here, and so excited to see what he does going forward these last few episodes now that some of that pressure is off him <3

[lgbtiwtv]

one of my favorite hobbies is in fact making fun of lestat because let’s be honest he does deserve it 99% of the time but then i start rereading tvl and suddenly I’m like….man he really went through so much, huh? he was really traumatized and taken advantage of over and over by both strangers and people he loved….like man he really was stalked, kidnapped, and forcefully made into a vampire against his will….he faced years of abuse from his father and brothers…..he witnessed the death of his only lover and before that his resentment and eventual madness….he really cries every other page and has 10 existential crises before he even becomes a vampire but he wants to be good he wants to be happy he tried to run away to the church he tried to run away with the theatre troupe he just wanted to act and love and be loved and at every turn he was done wrong and hurt and abandoned and nobody ever really helped him and I—

[sunforgrace]

dean “reacts in new, interesting, fucked up ways to losing cas” winchester and they’re telling me that has nothing to do with nothing in the finale after cas literally confessed his romantic love the act of which was his moment of true happiness and subsequent sacrificial death. haha okay

[din-dadrin]

love is found in all the ways grogu’s ear flops and folds and presses up against din’s arm or shoulder or chest or any space they bend into to accommodate each other actually

[tricoufamily]

i just. don’t understand why people go nuts for paralives. that gameplay trailer looked just as empty and boring as ts4 (if not more?) and the feedback is so overwhelmingly positive i feel like i’m in the twilight zone

[stagefoureddiediaz]

Thankfully I’m only getting the after effects on my dash, but I’ve come on here this morning to see Shannon hate.

I am not a Shannon fan by any means - what she did was wrong on so so many levels, but if you cannot understand the nuance of circumstance playing into someone’s behaviours then I suggest you stop watching the show. 911 is really good at giving people fleshed out and flawed characters.

Shannon was young and put into an difficult situation with clearly very little support. Having a child young is never easy, but to do that when you’re alone, while your husband is overseas in the military, while his parents are over bearing and judgemental is even harder. Then throw into that a diagnosis of CP and your mother - in a different state, being diagnosed with cancer that turns out to be terminal.

That’s horrific.

My own mother was diagnosed with and died of cancer when I was 18/19 and I was living 300 miles away and alone with zero support. It broke me and lead to me attempting suicide 3 times. I can’t imagine adding a child into that mix. I also don’t think I’d have abandoned a helpless child who needed me, but I can imagine how utterly stressed, depressed and alone she felt so I can completely understand how she would’ve felt pushed into the decisions she made.

We will never know what relationship she would’ve had with Chris when she returned because she didn’t get any chance to show us. But we can give her some slack and the benifit of the doubt - that she had the intention of staying in his life - that her request for divorce was her wanting to stay and be there for Christopher - that it was her recognising that her and Eddie were to broken to make anything work but that she could rebuild some form of relationship with Chris.

[rotg-goc-headcanons]

Thinking about rotg being a world and time beyond goc, where the Guardians— perhaps individually, perhaps in pairs— have connected with Pitch in some manner. Made peace with him, in a way. A few of them have even discussed offering him Guardianship, despite the fact that they as a group were created to fight the fearlings he surrounds himself with. Children need some healthy fear to survive, after all. That may be something that needs to be guarded. Maybe one of them did talk about it with him- and he turned them down.

Thinking about Guardians who maybe didn’t try as hard as they could, but certainly tried more than nothing, to give a chance to Pitch. Guardians who, by the events of the movie, had accepted that it just wasn’t what Pitch wanted. Oh, he wanted to be believed in, but he wanted more than healthy fear, more than children. So the Guardians fight— but one not-Guardian doesn’t quite… get it. He thought they were similar, him and Pitch. He’s not bad, just extreme.

Thinking about having to explain that Pitch could certainly change, could certainly help people— but he didn’t want to.

[foreverppl]

Moodboard for my MC Evander for @uroboros-if

I so enjoyed playing this demo last night and have been having many Thoughts about it.

[sabellart]

i was out of my star wars delusions for like a month and out of pure spite from the ahsoka series i’m back full force

[angelnumber27]

I’ve been so much more just.. idk happy I guess in general lately and I am so beyond thankful