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pettytiredandjewish · 7 months

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So uh this happened not that far from me…

Y’all really need to open your fucking eyes. I’m just so done. If you’re still blind about antisemitism or don’t think it’s a problem, then you are the fucking problem.

#jumblr #antisemitism #I’m so done with this shit #I’m so tired and a bit scared #y’all really need to wake up #fuck antisemitism

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saturnvs · 4 days

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found a (most likely) tumor on my cat’s chin :(

#she had surgery for a mast cell tumor seven years ago and i’m aware that they can come back #this one is big and feels a little different.. and it appeared kind of suddenly?#i don’t scratch her chin every day so i’m not sure how long it’s been there #she eats perfectly fine and drinks too #and she doesn’t mind me touching it (any more than she minds me poking around her little face usually)#but i’m worried that it’ll grow #she’s 12 years old and tired and a surgery around the mouth won’t be a good idea #let alone the financial aspect #i’m hoping it doesn’t grow but i’m a bit scared that it’ll bother her #the last tumor was very small and located on her back #but for the surgery they did take a big chunk out and the recovery was pretty taxing #dealing with that but around the mouth will be an impossible task especially at her age #sorry i hate to ramble but :(

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is-the-owl-video-cute · 1 year

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I’m going to choose violence against wasp haters at this point I don’t even care. Wasps aren’t malicious but I am. Watch closely as I memorize your face and hunt you down out of genuine spite. If you kill bugs just because you don’t like them and want to deny any ecological value they have, I’m going to harm you in some way. Treat wasps how you want to be treated because if I see you mistreat one I am going to do to you whatever you did to that animal.

#Going to start reacting to people intentionally harming invertebrates the same way I react to people intentionally harming dogs #or any conventionally cute animal #I’m tired of hearing ‘but a wasp stung me one time so I’m so scared :(‘ so what #if a dog bit me as a kid that doesn’t mean I go around killing every dog that crosses my line of sight #absolutely deranged behavior towards wildlife #and I’m done humoring it and coddling people for mass killing vital pollinators just because they’re ‘icky :/‘#maybe wasps sting you because you’re an asshole #ever consider that dirt for brains?

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morosexualhoratio · 1 month

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#i feel like i failed this summer #i didn’t do anything other than work and sleep and sit around for the past two months #there was a little bit in june where i really believed i could be like. a real productive person. but im just still a failure #i’m so tired of this. i can’t keep doing this #i just feel so awful about myself. i’m so scared to go back to school for so many reasons but #but #at least i know i wont be judged for how i look #im just. i think im further in with this than i normally am usually i have a little motivation to pull myself out of it #but i’ve just been wallowing all summer. i’ve lost a bunch of opportunities because of this honestly i really think i have

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innko · 2 months

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didn’t make it to church today, and don’t feel like i will for a while

#the hemiplegic migraine attack has wound down but now i’m insanely fatigued #so so so tired and a bit agoraphobic and anxious #not in the stressed way but in the my brain is fucking up way #and i don’t even feel up to eating in a restaurant let alone seeing and saying hi to a bunch of people i know but don’t know well #the leg perked up a little bit when the headache came on #but is still weak still has some foot drop #that’s gonna take a while i guess #in severe attacks the weakness can last for weeks #hand is mild compared to my leg but it’s a little weak too and tingles sometimes #i’ve never had this bad of lasting weakness before #back in 2020 i lost fine motors skills in my hand for a while #but it came back after a few months #permanent deficits are very rare #and you have about 2 years with nerve stuff before you can really call it permanent #so i’m scared but have hope of having a normally functioning leg by the end of the year #innko talks #chronic illness

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s-ccaam-era-crepe · 6 months

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I should probably go to bed huh

#camera talks #pretty sure I’m sickish bc i get delirious sometimes and it’s kinda happening now #last time it was really bad while I was sick it happened after I woke up so I think that’s why I’m scared to fall asleep #also my brain fog is so bad rn I can’t hold a thought for more than 10 secs. it’s not good.#I should go to bed I have work in the morning..#oh and I’m not checking for spelling or grammar errors it’s 11:40 pm and I’m a bit insane #speaking of that my #auditory hallucinations have gotten bad enough that idk what’s real when people talk around the house + other stuff #not fun coupled onto the plethora of other things my brain is dealing with tbh #okay #enough cam overshares bc he’s tired time. i need sleep I think

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hobisexually · 11 months

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#hm its time for a rant again <3 #but my roommate has a date again and that makes me feel…….. extra mentally ill snsnsnsn #I’m a little bit upset because I spent this entire year trying to rebuild right. rebuild my social life rebuild the me I used to be #and every time I think I’m almost there shit derails me?#like okay first my dad and I. collide in unprecedented ways #then my back problems got worse than ever before #then I try to recover from not speaking to said dad and work throws a blow in my face that I quite frankly still haven’t really gotten over #then new body problems arise!#then we find out I definitely have pcos and can’t ignore it any longer #then everyone in my life is. moving on to a life phase I can’t follow to #but I had it all under control I was taking it in stride I was Coping #and then ……… I catch covid again #and it really triggered 1) my anxiety again in ways that. Sigh #and 2) im still not okay? it’s been three weeks and I’m still dizzy every day I have a headache all the time I am So tired I can’t focus #and my eyes are being weird #and idk that happened in the last week and also my neck is FUCKED and my shoulders feel like concrete #and last time my eyes were weird and I couldn’t focus and had a headache all the time it was also my neck #but I just…….. am 1) terrified it’s long covid I am so so so scared #2) how can I live life normally if this. keeps happening.#but mostly 3) I am so tired of it being blow after blow after blow #I am too generally busy with work or therapy or physio therapy or FUCKING pelvic floor therapy #which is a whole different kind of hell I can’t even begin to discuss on this website it makes me so uncomfortable #that I. can’t even date.#like where do I have the energy to.#I am about to turn 32 and what the fuck do I have to show for it #and what if this is it #what if? this is it?????!!???!#I don’t know if I can live with that #ugh this doesn’t even touch the root of it but I am Deeply Upset and I don’t like complaining or acting like a victim (im not!) but Jesus #I for once would just like to. be carefree. instead of feeling like I need to fix 29292993 things about myself before I can Live. fuck.

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szczek · 7 months

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nothing good comes out of being obsessed with cars because why is my dad yelling at me because he just came back from cleaning my car and i thought he didn’t dry it properly and there’s splotches on the back and tried to dry it with the car towel but he jumps out at me like WHAT ARE YOU DOING YOURE GONNA SCRATCH THE CAR THERERE SURELY DUST AND SAND ALREADY ON IT WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU ITS NOT STAINS ITS THE OLD CAR PAINT GONE BAD ….. and like my only question is if the paint is bad already what should i care for a tiny scratch on it since i already should have the paint redone

#my dads obsession with having perfect looking car fried my brain already cause why am i scared of leaning over my car #yeah the car is gonna get scratched but THATS LIFE #jesus #like the other day he found a spot at the front of my car and comes to me like can i ask you a question :) and i’m like what #did you scratch your car :) an i’m where. on the front but tbh idk if it’s scratched or if the paint just chipped #well i don’t remember doing anything to my car… do you wanna look no i don’t wanna look #so we left it at that and the next day i curiously looked at it and it’s evidently just a chip that happens on its own like no scratch no #bump just a bit of paint missing #i am getting tired of this he’s always like oh i don’t care and don’t wanna nag but WHAT DID YOU DO every time he finds something #and hes at the tipping point of going around with a magnifying glass around the cars #he’s the magnifying glass

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inkysninky · 9 months

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vent post under the cut. i know i don’t really post these but i just need to get stuff off my chest. involves transphobia

positive thing from christmas: found out one of my future in laws is trans :)

negative: she’s not always the best person and some people in the family use that as an excuse to not fully respect her identity and judge her for not presenting feminine all the time

#ink’s notes #vent post #transphobia tw #it only solidified the fact that i’m likely not going to tell my family about my identity #the only person i’m ever considering telling is my older sister #i think she’d be pretty chill about it #she might be a bit confused but i think she’d listen #it hurts to know my mom likely won’t understand enough to be cool about it #that and she just talks a lot #and i’m scared she’d tell people without thinking about the hurt it could cause #i’m so frustrated and upset and hurt knowing i can’t be myself around so much of my immediate family #i’m tired #i’m so tired

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vampirebutterflies · 1 year

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brain is in The Pit tm have a snail

#everyone give me Dont Wake Up Unwell At Ass O’Clock vibes pretty pls #i also just discovered what’s probably a cavity which isn’t a major problem but its still a kick in the nuts when I’m already feelin #quite a bit shit yk? let’s hope I can get an appointment very soon cuz unaddressed dental things scare me a lil dkfbdk #I’m so tired and just. bweh. genuinely feel like crying but too tired to #can someone pass me my bf pls I need cuddles #to clarify. I’ll take cuddles from anyone willing. but bf cuddles in particular are wanted rn dmfnfn #sorry for the personal bullshitting recently #mercury.txt

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cashew-milkk · 8 months

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i didn’t want to buy anything during the strike but my cat got sick and i panicked and took her to the vet. i wish i had paid with money instead of my credit card though :/

#she’s doing a little better now but she’s still tired #i was so scared i would lose her like i lost my bird but the doctor told me that she’s healthy and has a long life ahead of her #i don’t know what she might have eaten to have upset her stomach like this but she ate a little bit of boiled chicken this morning #and i cried tears from happiness #i’m so so worried about her #she still has the energy to purr and groom herself though #so i think i’m being a little paranoid #i just hope she gets back to full health soon #anyway aside from that one credit card use i don’t want to spend anymore #may palestine be free and may israhell cease existing ameen ya rabb #personal #cashew talks

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fishyartist · 2 years

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