#but constantly having to weigh that……..

[xurory]

₊ ⊹ MY ONE AND ONLY

cc — blade, dr ratio, xiao x gn!reader (sp). dr ratio addressed as veritas. prolly ooc xiao I LIKE HIM LIKE THAT OK . . :3

knowing BLADE, he struggled to find the desire to carry on living. he never wanted to live so long. death constantly haunted his mind, and he longed for the day when he could finally find solace and peace as he took his last breath. well, that was until he met you. from the moment he saw you, he found a profound purpose in his existence. every day afterward, he lived for the simple contentedness of seeing your face and hearing the sound of your sweet voice. you illuminated his life, introducing him to an unparalleled experience of affection and care. you became the vivid hues in his grey world, and from that moment, he never wished to look back on his previous gray reality. the most important aspect lies in the choice you made to stay with him. you could have left for many reasons, but you decided to be there for him in all the tough times.

after tending to his recent battle scars, you looked at him with a sense of sorrow before turning away to clean the remnants of blood from your hands.

"you should really be more careful next time." softly, you spoke, while setting aside the bloodied cloth. he instantly picked up on the worry in your words. "it's hard to avoid injuries."

athough he brushed off the concern, his awareness grew—he made a mental note to be more attentive in the future. he swore to enhance his vigilance, ensuring he would return untouched, sparing you the distress of patched-up wounds.

the sight of his bloodied form always stirred a pang in your heart. you knew the realities of his missions, where danger and combat awaited him.

he rose from the bed's edge, striding towards you as you tucked away the tools in the cabinet. Stealthily, he silently positioned himself behind you, startling you as you turned around. "i'm sorry, i just can't handle seeing you hurt." with sincerity, you said.

gently, you reached up, cupping his cheek as you pulled him into a heartfelt embrace. his arms snaked around your waist, the warmth of your touch emitting comfort. a silent understanding passing between the two of you. "ill... try." for you.

a gentle smile graced your lips as you pressed your hand to his cheek, leaving a tender kiss on the opposite side. Nestling the side of your head against his chest, you listened closely to the steady rhythm of his heartbeat. a sound that constantly reassured you that your lover was there—with you.

—

for so long, VERITAS believed that no other individual would ever get past his standards for a lover. though he flaunted his intellect, his ego often overshadowed his better judgement. he carried a sense of superiority, dismissing others as unworthy of his time and effort, as if he were above the need for human connection. the irony unfolded—the same man who prided himself on independence found himself smitten by someone who embodied the opposite. a cheerful, effervescent presence. he would never acknowledge the fact that he treasured your company far more than he ought to. despite your differences, you effortlessly eased his worries with comforting words, showcasing a talent he never expected. in times of exhaustion, when his work weighed heavily on him, you stood by his side, silently and unknowingly being the cure for the undying stress.

a series of gentle knocks echoed through the room, followed by the creaking of his door as it inched open, unveiling your presence. "veritas, why are you still up? it's getting really late, you should be in bed with me right now.."

closing the door with a soft click, you made your way towards him at his desk, your words breaking the silence. the piles of work-related documents that littered his desk stood as a testament to his hectic schedule.

"i should be the one asking you that. why aren't you asleep?" intrigue danced in his gaze as he spun the chair to face you, grasping your hand securely in his. he drew you down, closing the gap between you. the moment was laced with a sweet intimacy as his lips met yours. "what made you think i'll sleep without you?" you giggled, rubbing circles on the back of his palm with your thumb.

from time to time, you found him drowning in his work, dedicating countless hours to his tasks. you were proud, of course. but you couldn't help but wonder if he was overburdening himself.

gazing down at the worksheet before you, you couldn't help but notice the same title that caught your eye the week before. "still working on that?"

he scoffed. "had no choice but to continue, since apparently—this is too much for them to comprehend." he pulled you onto his lap, his face finding comfort in the curve of your neck while your fingers gently threaded through his hair.

your soft laugh filled the room as you surrendered to the sweet gesture. "stay." he demanded, breathing against your skin.

and you were more than willing to keep him company while he finished what needed to be done.

—

XIAO's life revolved around shielding his nation, a sacred duty bestowed upon him after their revered archon's 'passing'. while he once embraced the solitude his role brought, something unexpected happened—he found comfort in having someone awaiting his return. at the end of each day, he looked forward to coming home to a familiar face he oh so loved. xiao had never thought that love could coexist alongside his duties. yet, there you were, shattering his preconceived notions, proving to him that nothing was impossible. with your patience and understanding, you showed him that your needs were simple. as long as he returned home, safe and sound, you were contented. you didn't demand his constant attention or expect him to fulfill every single one of your desires. instead, your love was a quiet, undying support that he never knew he needed.

the night hours slipped deeper into the darkness, and you found yourself comfortably resting in bed with a book in hand. leaning against the headboard, you immersed yourself between the pages, enjoying the silence.

a faint knock echoed through the room, swiftly followed by the creaking of the door as it swung open to reveal xiao standing in the doorway. the sight of him instantly brought a warm smile to your face, for deep down, you had been secretly hoping for his return tonight.

you immediately closed your book, sitting up by the edge of the bed. "welcome back. come." with a satisfied exhale, he collapsed onto the bed beside you, his arms enveloping your waist in a tight hug. he pulled you closer, finding comfort in your presence and the warmth of your body.

he allowed himself to be selfish—just this once, all he wanted was to rest in your arms. the people of liyue could look after themselves for one night, right?

"rough day?" you ask as your hand gently rubbed his back, he let out a soft exhale that echoed against your skin. in reply, he merely hummed, his response being just that—a sound of contentment that expressed everything he felt and needed in that moment. he cherished the tender touch of your hands, the warmth of your words, and the way your voice washed over him like a soothing balm.

snuggling closer, he buried his face deeper into your neck, holding you as if fearing you'd disappear. he murmured a quiet, 'i missed you,' his voice muffled against your skin as blood rushed up to your cheeks for he rarely ever uttered out such sweet words to you.

tonight, he wished to cast aside all titles and duties, if only for a brief moment. he craved the respite that came with shedding his role as the guardian; he allowed himself to be vulnerable, to seek comfort and assurance that he could only find in your arms.

from xumi : was supposed to include kazuha but im lazy ok D:

[klmp11s]

Heyyyyy, could I request Malleus, Jack, Idia, and Floyd with a reader who can and will pick them up? (I tried to pick some of the tallest characters)

(English is not my first language, sorry for any mistakes)

Summary: twst boys with reader who can and will pick them up Characters: Jack Howl, Floyd Leech, Idia Shroud, Malleus Draconia Warning: Strong male!reader, Established relationships, ooc(?), hcs

Jack Howl

Okay, he's shocked Like you just.. picked HIM up like he weighed nothing?? What?? Okay, it doesn’t matter at all how tall you are, he will feel his face burning in any case. I think he could feign displeasure and ask you to put him down, but he definitely won't say anything against it if you don't. PLEASE don't pick him up in front of other freshmen or people from his dorm. He will be ready to burn with embarrassment I'm not 110% sure that his tail will literally become a propeller lol AND HE WILL NOT LIKE IT He might even get used to this “habit” of yours over time. He will definitely stop paying much attention to your actions, like, yes, you do this literally every chance you get, he knows Having gone through literally all stages of acceptance, he definitely realizes that he likes it. Like, his loved one is next to him and maintains physical contact in a way that is comfortable for him, isn’t that good? He wouldn't directly ask you to pick him up. Nope, but he could definitely give long glances at your hands, be closer than usual, etc. Like, yes, he loves you, but you have to understand for yourself what he needs, it’s too embarrassing for him to say directly, you know?

Floyd Leech

LMAO YOUR MISTAKE, CONGRATULATIONS, NOW YOU CAN'T GET AWAY FROM HIM 🤗 Like, you've already walked on thin ice with your ways of showing affection, but take him in your arms - he's ready to get down on one knee with a ring in his hand (I'm pretty sure there's a cartoon eel on the ring lol) Now you MUST carry him everywhere, you must pick him up and carry him wherever HE wants, no matter the time or place. He is literally ready to jump into your arms both in the middle of a crowded corridor and at some “important” event Is he in a bad mood? You have to take him where he wants to go. Is he in a good mood? You take him wherever he wants and he arranges a casual date for you. He also doesn't care at all who sees the two of you. Azul and Jade? They see this picture every day. One of the teachers? And what can they do to him? Just some random student? He didn't even notice him. If you pick him up from some boring class, he literally won't shut up for the rest of your "trip" I hope you're glad you have hand day every day now, because Floyd isn't going to give you a break after you've demonstrated what you can do.

Idia Shroud

LMAO WHERE ARE YOU GOING TO PICK HIM UP? FROM COMPUTER DESK TO BED? You're right, now he's completely confused, confused and doesn't know what to do in this situation. Okay, maybe he's dreaming? As you continue to tell him about your day, still holding him in your arms, it dawns on him that this doesn't feel like a dream at all. Oh. OH WAIT WHAT- Now for a week he definitely avoids coming close to you. He loves you, but please give him a few working days to come to his senses after this. Okay, now you use it against him. Has it already passed midnight? Take him in your arms and carry him to bed. What can he do to you? At first, he definitely showed his dissatisfaction, but soon he already accepted his fate and even waited for the time when you would come to him. He would definitely fall asleep in your arms a couple of times. You know, the state when you are so tired that all you want is, no matter where, to sleep for several hours in a row I dare say that his sleep pattern is literally based on your habit. By the way you come to his room, he can tell that in half an hour he will already be lying in bed with you in your arms.

Malleus Draconia

He's in love I'm not kidding, you constantly surprise him, don't you? He's never been treated like this, and now you, the man he's head over heels in love with, just pick him up and pick him up? He doesn't even know what to do in such situations. He could definitely ask you to pick him up next time. I don't think he would ASK you to pick him up, but it's not like he's against the idea, you know? This is unusual and however he does not feel uncomfortable, so if you want this, he is always for it. He doesn't care if other students see you. But believe me, if Sebek sees you two, you will HEAR HIM first and only then will he appear in your field of vision lol He is definitely the only one of this group who will take your actions completely calmly. Like, yes, this is unusual, but also nothing completely “out of the ordinary” happened, right? If you carry him in your arms during your nightly dates, he will be on the verge 🤏 to resist the desire to propose to you. I mean: you, your beautiful face in the moonlight, the silence of the night, your calm voice and loving gaze that is directed only at him? Darling, he falls in love with you even more

The characters do not belong to me, they belong to their rightful owners, please do not edit, translate, repost my works on other platforms, also without my permission and @

[meeenx]

i can’t believe i worked out, eat under 1300 and did not lose any weight from yesterday. maintained at 114lbs. i feel like crying. i feel so disappointed in myself and fat and i have zero clue how or what i did wrong. i did go to the bathroom and weighed in right after, had a lot of water which i peed out constantly, i slept pretty good like ???? why am i still big? why is my body so big and refuses to lose weight now??? explain?? i’m so upset…i wanted to make progress wtf

[genderqueerdykes]

i feel like a lesbian, i feel like a man, i feel asexual and i feel like a gay man at the same time. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. i feel like it would be easier if gender was just a formality assinged to us at the hospital and didnt mean anything besides just being there on the paperwork. because its so fucking confusing i feel like ive been going in circles with this stuff for years now and i cant find a label that suits me.

hey, i get that. having a gender forced on us from birth is awful, it weighs on your mind even when you know that's not who you are. you're expected to conform to a norm that just doesn't suit you. people will constantly make assumptions about you no matter what once they find out what your agab is, so i get the struggle

i just wanted to say that you an be all of those things at one time! you can be a lesbian and a gay man at the same time, you can be a man and be a lesbian, and you can be asexual as well as all of those things. i am all of those things at once, too. you can have complicated, complex identities that have many facets. but i do understand feeling ran around and unsure of what you are or who you can be. i just wanted to say there's no rules or cosmic force that will stop you from being all those things. it's alright

maybe your identity changes with time, maybe it's complicated, maybe it's something else. that's okay. you're allowed to take time to figure it out. good luck, i wish you the best with figuring things out. your agab doesn't say anything about you even though people think it does. you're allowed to be yourself and decide who that is and what that means. take care. stay safe

[tubbytarchia]

Been thinking about the Jimmy dating sim all day and night.

Possible in game things I thought of briefly in my deluded half awake two in the morning craziness:

-You spend all of your money you've built up in game on a gift to make Jimmy like you more. He ends up breaking it very soon after in an incident that wasn't his fault. He thinks you'll hate him for breaking it and you have to convince him it wasn't his fault while he tries to convince you it is his fault and he's an idiot.

-Jimmy ends up hurt at one point, and refuses explanation nor help the first time you ask. You can either ask him again if he's sure he's okay or leave him be because he's been through enough. If you ask him the second time he seems more hesitant to say he's sure he's alright. The third time, he starts explaining what happened. He says you ought to be leaving as you have other things to do but you insist it's alright and help him. You're able to help him fix himself up. If you don't ask again,

-Jimmy will constantly make dismissive comments about how certain people in his life do things to him that aren't okay. You do not get a choice on whether you can comment on these things, they just come and go.

-You have the choice to check in on how he's doing or talk to him about the day ahead of you every morning. If you check in on how he's doing he builds trust faster. If you talk about the day ahead of you, he's more likely to become distant towards you.

(Based on observations of Jimmy's character throughout the life series. Especially his tendency to say strange things to get people's attention, because otherwise people won't pay attention to him)

Yes these are all very fitting. This is exactly what a Jimmy dating sim looks like in my head. I love the incorporation of lack of player action with the "he will say these things and you get no choice on whether or not to comment on them". The psychological horror of it... The desire to be able to say something when the game won't let you, the desire to have input, like you're supposed to, but you can't... But maybe later in the game, it might, if you've been building trust...?

I really would love for it to be full of really intricate choices where the right answers get terribly muddied and aren't at all obvious. Like when he gets hurt, you have to decide whether to keep asking him if he's okay and weigh if you're better off leaving him alone and if asking him a second or third time will just make him feel worse. Where sometimes the better looking options will lead to a less desired result instead because Jimmy's not consistent in the ways he reacts, but that's reasonable and you can still continue progressing towards the desired result even with a few hiccups. I'd imagine there aren't even "right" options a lot of the time and there's nothing you can do to help it. That sometimes Jimmy will react badly or dismissively regardless, essentially proving his self deprecating points, but you still stick around and keep talking to him, and that keeps the game progressing towards the goal of helping Jimmy feel content in itself

Also that last comment about Jimmy's tendency to say strange things to get people's attention is a really interesting thought, I've never heard of anyone express this or considered this before. I need to chew on that for awhile... thank you for the suggestions. I wish I was an actual dev to any degree lol

[hobisexually]

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[doodledrawsthings]

I'm sorry if this is of any inconvenience but I was wondering how do you have the courage to post your art online cause iwant to do it to someday but I just can't find the right drawing though I've tried I can't figure it out like how do you do this wonderful stuff without worrying about hate or anything?

The main advice I can really give you is just. Don’t. worry about that.

People online will be mean, sometimes. Sometimes accidentally, sometimes with an understandable criticism, sometimes just for the sake of getting a response. Take it all with a grain of salt and curate who you follow and who you see on your dash and in tags if you’re that worried about it. I think when you post your art or anything you do online, that’s just something that has a possibility of happening no matter what you do.

Also I just really think it’s unlikely that anyone’s gonna just send you anon hate because you posted some drawings, unless they’re, like, objectively offensive for the sake of being offensive, or something.

Just try not to take social media too seriously, IMO. When I started posting here I posted grainy iPhone camera doodles of Transistor fan art from my school notebook cuz I liked the game and wanted to see if other people liked it, too. I wanted a place to put the things I drew and a place where I could track my progress as I posted my art over the years, and maybe even meet people. If that’s what you want your eventual art blog to be, then that’s all it really needs to be.

If it’s something more practical you’re looking for: when I was starting out, I would load up the post I wanted to make, hover over the post button, and count down from ten. When I hit one, I just post it, no matter what. If I really didn’t like the post, I could just delete it.

[joyflameball]

Happy disability pride month to anyone with depression. You have a disability too- the constant fatigue, exhaustion, not being able to get out of bed, emptiness, all of that, it's all part of this disability. Just because it's not a physical disability doesn't mean it's not a disability. I know it's easy to feel like it's not, but it is, and you aren't stealing valor by saying that. People don't normally feel exhausted all the time. People don't normally feel unable to get out of bed, or do stuff they love doing.

You're disabled too, you deserve a seat at the table.

[hxhhasmysoul]

wouldn't it be nice if the author of the fics finished them. the author is me.

[torchickentacos]

HEARTBREAKING: Person within your oppressed group acts as if they speak for every single other person in the group

[rosekasa]

I really needed to hear that abt the social media thingy. I've spent quite literally years trying to be popular and be like every other famous artist I see and it has never helped, only I started hating my art more.

big hugs anon. i was talking about this to my best friend last night because i think believing the grass is greener on the other side is such a deceptively destructive thing. the desire to have popularity is something i really struggled to fully shake off before i realised that even when i achieved 'popularity' (i.e., when i reached the numbers i thought would give me satisfaction) i didnt feel any better. i didnt feel like i accomplished anything. in fact i usually just felt Worse, because i was like, wow, for years ive dreamed about breaking 1k on a text post and now that i have i dont feel any better. what's the point?

it made me realise that, without fail, anytime we crave something, it's because we crave whatever feeling we think it'll give us. to me, popularity meant allowing myself to feel loveable and valuable and like i could enjoy posting with the confidence that my thoughts matter. it meant feeling good about myself and my creations and like im always so excited to create, rather than feeling obligated. it meant feeling free and loved!! and as i embodied that more it was so funny how the physical manifestations of those things started showing themselves. and it didnt even feel like a big deal because i already had the feelings i wanted

sorry for such a long response zhdkska i just have. so many feelings about this. being trapped in the thought process that getting a specific thing will make me happy has caused me so much pain in my life, always after the thing actually happens.

[minglana]

girl help my mother has achieved what she couldnt achieve in 23 yrs (give me an ED)

[puzzlekinq]

cant sleep because im seething with anger

[milo-is-rambling]

I wish I had friends near meeeeeee to distract me from my brainnnnnnnnnn

[jellogram]

Do you actually think geese are evil or are you just neglecting to give a wild animal proper space and respect because based on its appearance you decided it should be harmless and because you were wrong you decided it's the goose's fault

[everysongineverykey]

shoutout to brian may for constantly coming through with all the Inexpressibly Fucking Melancholy songs we could ever need. long away '39 all dead all dead some day one day leaving home ain't easy... hell even his demos. listen to you know you belong to me and water and tell me you don't feel like ben affleck on bench with cigarette dot png. every band needs one member who is just so sad All the time and Will make it the entire discography's problem and i am so serious