#I'm just gonna leave this as it is bc I could probably vent about this in circles for a long ass time

[commander-damneron]

I get that it's just kinda how life goes, but I'm honestly kinda mad that I've been relegated to being the 5th wheel of my d&d group. Like, it's not their fault, they obviously don't have to consider me in their relationship stuff, but when the table consists of two people who are somewhere between exes and qpps, and two people who aren't technically dating yet because they've not actually gone on a date together but are functionally sort of already a couple, it's just... it's kind of a bummer. And it's totally irrational because it genuinely hasn't affected anything gamewise, but I keep worrying it will, and beyond that I know I have baggage about being considered the "extra" friend, the one that people let hang around them because otherwise they'd be sad and pathetic and alone but no one really likes them or likes having them around, and I know this group get that because we've spoken before about how a lot of us have issues around that, but I'm just really scared that they'll be too wrapped up in couple stuff to notice or care and just. On top of all of it I'm terrified that it's going to lead to me being kind of off, either in person or in game, and then I'm the one dragging everyone down and I'm just kind of dumping all of this on tumblr because the people I usually complain to about this stuff and are cool about it because they're also mostly some flavour of ace and/or aro are the people I'm talking about and I don't want to be the guy who's like "how dare you be in a happy relationship when I am not", but just. It is just kind of a bummer

[mahitomylove]

i am so glad you take requests 💕💕 i always get nervous when writing them, but i don’t know why. could you write mahito x reader and mahito comes home after a really bad fight and he’s so scared bc he thought he was gonna die, and he’s just clinging to reader because he’s scared 💕 and the reader has to comfort him? thank you 💕 (also can i be 🌪️ anon pls)

Thanks for the request! Oh my god I love this idea so much 💜💜

Mahito x Reader, Fluff, you comfort Mahito after he has a deadly fight

It was midnight, and you couldn't bring yourself to sleep. Perhaps, it was the absence of Mahito that made you feel uneasy, your house was so lonely without him. You grabbed your phone, mindlessly scrolling when you heard your window open. The sound would've freaked you out had you not been used to Mahito randomly breaking in your house to say hi.

You turned your phone off, putting it to the side. It was completely dark, making it hard for you to see his expression. You had a glimpse of his face for an instant, his face showing absolute horror. He softly said your name, his voice trembling a bit.

You immediately stood up, "Mahito? Is everything alright?"

"Why are you awake right now?" he said, gently dropping to the floor without making a single sound, as if he was floating.

"T-That doesn't matter, are you okay?"

He took few steps towards you, pushing you and forcing you to sit on on the ground. His arms enveloped your waist. He buried his face in your chest, his grip on you tightening. You patted his back and returned the hug. What was he doing?

"Mahito? What happened?"

He remained silent. You could feel the warmth of his body, which was odd, since he was a cursed spirit. . He was shivering in your arms. You've never seen him like this before. Concern engulfed you, unable to find the right thing to do. What made it even worse was that he wouldn't respond.

"Mahito... I'm worried."

"I had a pretty... intense fight."

"And?"

"Almost died. I'm scared Y/N... I'm so scared. I don't know what to do."

"Aww. Dear... But you're okay, right?"

"I couldn't even move properly. My legs wouldn't move. If the enemy didn't hesitate, I would've died..." He pulled away, clinging on your neck this time. You felt his breath right on your cheek. "I don't want to die... Please." You knew he wasn't talking to you at this point. He was, perhaps, talking to himself. But you remained still, silently listening to his venting.

"Just when I thought I've mastered my technique... Fuck. What do I do?"

"It's okay, Mahito, it's okay. Everything is fine."

"And..." he was on the verge of tears, "I thought I'd never see you again."

"But you're alright now. Look at me, dear. I'm here." You gently caressed his hair. "Baby, everything is alright. Don't be afraid. Next time, I'll come with you, okay?"

He nodded in response.

"If you feel like crying, that's okay, I won't judge."

"It's not that... I just..." he sighed, closing his eyes as you were caressing his hair. "The only thing at my mind when I thought I was dying... was you. If there is an afterlife, I know we'd probably never meet there. I don't know what I'd do without you..."

"Mahito, don't you know I'd always choose hell if it meant I'd be with you?"

This was the first time you saw this side of his. He was beyond horrified, trembling. His voice was shaky. Normally, it would've been the other way around, not like this. Was the fight really that bad?

"Let's look at the bright side, you're alive, and in my arms right now!"

"Promise me."

"Huh?"

"That you'll never leave my side again."

You chuckled, "I promise, Mahito! Next time, take me with you and I'll beat the shit outta these."

"Mahito, if it will make you feel better, how about we cuddle?"

"Y-yes please. And thank you."

[bandzboy]

I've been a stay for 6 years, I've seen all the bad and the good things, and skz have been a really important part of my life. With everything that was going on, I decided to take a break from skz until this whole lose my breath era was over. Now I wanted to come back for their new album, but it just doesn't feel the same anymore. It's been months yet nothing has changed, they haven't apologized or addressed any of the concerns, they are still working with zionists. Their lyrics seems so meaningless now, this is from their new song "Head above the clouds, stand tall for the hell of it. Tower over crowds, don't pause 'cause I'm lovin' it. Heavy and I'm proud, backbone never suffering". In the past I would loved this song, but now them saying this while being silent about a genocide and happily working with zionists, just feels wrong. I know that one person leaving won't change anything, but I don't think I can support them anymore. As much as it hurts, it's time to admit that they really don't stand for what they used to.

anon i'm honestly on the same boat as you and tbh your feelings are valid if you decide to unstan it's truly okay bc i get you! truly i've been following everything going on and it's insanely sad that so many stays have been trying their hardest to make them know but all we get is silence. it doesn't help that jype is also trying to silence people too but you know it just sucks because there's no way they haven't seen it at this point there's no way they don't know their fandom is so divided over this ever since the lmb release. i wanna believe they are good people but it just so crazy they keep being tied to zionists or hanging out with them and it feels like a slap in the face every time i am not gonna lie and unfortunately, they aren't the only group that is silent rn and it truly makes me question all the people i stan at the moment and what their intentions are... like i truly sit here and think to myself what the really reality is! i can't be excited about things anymore because of how everything is looking rn. i knew i wasn't gonna tune in for this next skz comeback when the lmb fiasco happened because unfortunately it tainted everything for me and it's sad! i don't know what i'll exactly do either but since i'm so dead set on making things right and to keep pushing it i am sticking around for that because my interest in kpop is kinda slowly going away and it's sad. even tho i want idols to have better working rights and it's something that i will always bring up and, i'm very passionate about you could say, it's hard for me to stay knowing that these people are so comfortable being silent and it hurts to know this was probably the plan all along. the way when people started to bring up celebrities speaking up, people were already not including kpop idols with everyone else like... the group of people that should speak up and i think that was the moment that i realized how wrong everything is like how we expect them to essentially do nothing and not gaf about anything and that's messed up ESPECIALLY coming from groups like skz that have lyrics that are very much about rebellion and fighting back oppressive things and so on and it makes you really think that yeah maybe this whole shit was just a concept to them and they don't bring that into their real life. it just sucks atp i'm just venting i could go on because i have SO MUCH TO SAY i'm just now realizing i've been bottling this all up almost but yeah all of this to say that i truly truly get it and just know you aren't alone when it comes to feeling like this towards groups you stan because it's happening to a lot of people atm

[asstrolo]

“𝑐𝑎𝑛'𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑖𝑡 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑠𝑝𝑒𝑎𝑘 𝑛𝑜𝑤 (𝑇𝑎𝑦𝑙𝑜𝑟'𝑠 𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑖𝑜𝑛)” 𝑎𝑠𝑡𝑟𝑜𝑙𝑜𝑔𝑦 𝑜𝑏𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠

Hi, John Mayer 😁🔪

listen to this bop while we're at it

— I'm going to start this post by venting so sorry in advance, but if i see another "aquarius moon people are cold and detached" or "i wouldn't date them because they have no emotions" i will flip this table I'm at my limit ಠ_ʖಠ

just become they don't give out their emotions to the first person they meet does not mean they are cold, same with capricorn moons, they are super sweet and loyal people, if they aren't like that with you is just because they don't like you 🤧, I'm DONE seeing how we lack emotional intelligence because we don't trust people easily, leave us alone! my heart is fragile!

Okay now we can continue lol

🤍 Venus in 1st people like GIFTS, not because they're materialistic, but they like jewelry or clothes or flowers type of things, something they can wear around, like show off their partner when they aren't there "this? oh yes my partner gave me this lolz" and they probably give their loved ones a lot of gifts, it's just their love language

💜 also Taurus Venus or 2H in Venus, personally I understand why they'd do it, it's like carrying a little piece of somebody else when they're not with them, but i do prefer self-made gifts

🤍 Saturn in 6H and perpetually being exploited by other people, especially at work. If you have this placement you should check the aspects, and your own 6H, it'll give you an inside to how people use you, because they so smh :/

💜 you are like a super competent person, and you like (or feel obligated) to help others, it's kinda like, you'd feel bad if you don't do it? Just know, you can help people, but they should never take advantage of that, you're not a machine

🤍 I've noticed Aries placements (sun most likely) if they have serious disabilities or illness that could take a tool on them physically, or even mentality, it's very probable they grow up and it won't affect them at all as they get older, I don't know why.

💜 They have the capacity to just, like, get better? Maybe they are very resilient, this is a very personal opinion, because i was born with a very serious physical illness and it created a lot of other physical issues, nowadays i am a lot healthier and it doesn't affect me at all, i think it's very girlboss of me idk

🤍 You should always check where Chiron is (sign, house and aspects) when you do your Solar Return chart, it's really important since it will tell you what will be a constant theme throughout the year that'll being you "pain" or a lot of transformation

💜 I'll give you an example; i have Chiron in the 11H in my solar return chart, and I spent the year reevaluating my friendships and social circles in general (bc something fucked up happened but we're not gonna talk about that 😌) at the same time rethinking what is it that I wanted to do in terms of career and money, in my Natal Chart i have Taurus in the 11H so I guess it all comes back to how to make an income even though I failed at most jobs I wanted to try on 2021 so there you have it :')

🤍 do you guys know the "i was the problem all along"? that's what it is like to have the sign you have in your 8H in one of your big three lol

💜 most people that are attracted to the villain/bad guy in any story have Aquarius or Scorpio placements, even Gemini lol

🤍 Cancer placements can have a hard time with their family, their family rely too much on them and, depending on the aspects and rest of the chart, they can be more than willing to accept that responsibility, but sometimes they feel super suffocated by them, it's not uncommon for someone with Cancer in their big three to want to get away from their home because they don't have enough freedom

💜 I am a firm believer cats and Leos and Scorpios are meant to be, if you have Leo and/or Scorpio in your chart you should definitely get a cat since they can help a lot when you are feeling very intense emotions, a cat can calm you down, it's been said cats take out negative emotions from their owners just by being pet, and are good to relieve stress. Leos and Scorpios have a lot of very intense emotions all the time, so it's good for you guys to rely on them

🤍 Capricorn moons are very sensitive, they have emotional intelligence and were probably the kid who always cried when they were little, it's a misconception that Capricorn moons are unemotional or cold, they aren't, they just don't trust people easily and they act more serious with people they don't know or not trust, but yeah, they're super emotional and it takes time to get into that side of them

💜 2H synastry between two people, specially if it's a stellium, can attract a lot of money from this relationship, but also a lot of possessiveness, a lot of jealousy.

🤍 Let me tell you why, the 2H is what we're comfortable with and what we are used to, what we see as our home, with this, a couple that has this synastry is very used to and comfortable to each other's presence and it comforts them, it can become very toxic when they don't want to lose the other person or them seeing other people. They see them as their home

💜 people with Chiron in 7H/Libra and their exes finding the love of their lives after breaking up with them, i swear.... They endure so much pain from romantic relationships all the time, Taylor Swift herself has a Chiron in 7H and that girl has been trough hell and back, honestly

🤍 lastly, Geminis, specially Gemini women, are one of the most giving and less judgmental partners ever, they are so supportive of their partner's decisions and they expect the same in return, it's true that they want freedom and be able to do whatever they want in a relationship, and they give back the same energy, they're the chill girlfriend, the one that won't judge you for anything you want to do and they also have a need to take care of their partner? It's probably the cancer placements, they like taking care of them lol

✧✧✧✧✧✧✧✧✧

[genderkoolaid]

experiences w transandrophobia, cw for rape, abuse (mental & physical), also brief touches on me being suicidal and being anorexic & just general horrible fuckery:

i feel like some of these are also just transphobia but reading the other submissions made me think about them. so i thought maybe i'd share. you can just delete this though if it doesn't fit w the theme, dw <3 anyways, when i was younger, i was subjected to csa, from about 4-8 years old. which isn't that bad but years later i learnt it was because i was presenting as very masc from about two years old and he felt he could get away with it because my mother thought i was tainted and horrible and demonic for presenting masculinely. and he was right, he got away with it without my mother intervening until he died. thanks to him i have DID. in my first relationship, i dated a cis man where he abused me for 3 years, treating me as a woman, and misgendering me unless we were with people and if we were he would show me off like some kind of sex object to people. i never said anything because i loved him and he technically never deadnamed me (used a demeaning nickname) and i hated making him mad (bc he beat the shit out of me, i am so stupid /lh). he subjected me to corrective rape time after time after time. when he left me, he outed me to my mother. she tried to kill me with a knife. the police didn't come when i called them (fuck the pigs, all cops are bastards). now my mother shows me off like my ex used to. it triggers me so bad. she tells people how proud she is of her son and how she's always supported my masculinity, and how good of a mother she is. i only very recently learned i am intersex, through old medical documents, and i highly suspect this is why she hated me as a child and told me i was a demon so often. but i can't mention it because shes probably gonna stab me if i do. and i keep trying to kill myself, but she wont take me to hospital because i do it to myself and she's trying "to put me off" doing it. she uses my DID and bipolar to discourage me from transitioning, to the point if i thought of transitioning i had panic attacks. i have to hide my binders in case she steals them, she often has volatile breakdowns where she uses my dysphoria and anorexia to try and suicide bait me. she withholds food from the whole family (including 3 under-teens kids) if she looks through my food and weight records and sees anything has gone up. i genuinely think one day i will die in this house, alone, and that terrifies me. but there's nothing i can do. i'm slowly dying and i will die here and nobody will care.

anyways i had about 47 panic attacks typing this up, so i hope you have a wonderful day, take care, i love your blog i hope you're healthy and well <333

Thank you for sharing your experiences.

And if you ever need a donations/mutual aid post shared, or if you need to vent or anything, please do not be afraid to reach out. I hope for the best for you and your siblings, and I hope you will be able to leave and have the life you deserve.

[hella1975]

I'm writing this ask as I read the new update so here, we go.

Initial reaction to the first two paragraphs: Absolutely immaculate. Perfection. Incredible. All the praise. I read the first paragraph and immediately had to take a moment to fully process what it was I'm about to read because I forgot how YOU write. Like 'Oh yeah this is HELLA.' (I've probably read hundreds of books in my life and you're the best author I've ever read). It's like I've been fueling my hunger with the fanfiction equivalent of empty calories since your last update, and I feel like a starved child sitting down at a feast and immediately I had to take a moment to take it all in.

I'm where Bato is in the tent with the book and Hella, let me tell you. I've already been struggling with my sexuality recently and if this makes me even more confused, I swear I'm gonna-

"He could point to these sentences and say look, here, that's where I fit." - That's going to be the part I maim you over. I'm barely into this update and already you're doing this crap. Mind you I'm ace, so I decided I'm projecting onto Kanut.

"Maybe there are types of love you can't access." AAAHH. The way you talked about this is so perfect, I can't with you.

I love Sokka and Zuko and the way you write them. It's so incredible.

Bato you menace

It's good to know that Bato ships Tomnook.

I don't usually like Bato. Not in the show, not in the other fics, but I absolutely love him in taob.

Tomnook you menaces

"If a flower was enough to rob a man of his strength, then perhaps he wasn't so strong to begin with." Love that, 10/10, using that on my sexist relatives one day.

WERE GETTING SOME KANUT AND ZUKO SCENES THIS IS NOT A DRILL- I REPEAT THIS IS NOT A DRILL (I love those two so much)

It was shortlived, nvm

ITS HAPPENING AGAIN AND APPAS THERE TOO

AAHAHAHAHH THATS TOO PERFECT HELLLA I HATE YOU SM WHY DO YOU DO THIS WHAT THE FFFFFF

"Needed to vent, you're a fantastic listener." Kanut you king

Hella that was absolutely beautiful. You deserve all the kudos all the fame jk rowlings career all of it. Sexuality is such a touchy subject and you handled it completely perfectly. I can't put into words how perfect that last scene was, I love that old healer.

You are genuinely the best writer I have ever seen and you are incredible at writing everything everyone else does a crap job at and I admire you so much and I aspire to write something this incredible.

I dont like commenting on ao3 so I just decided to leave this in your ask box thing :)

❤❤❤

Also, this is the same anon who has a list of their favorite things about you (lists are kind of my thing) and I have something I would like to add onto the list. I'm just going to tag this onto this specific ask because why not. It's also completely unrelated to the rest of this ask.

That is the way you tag things. You're the funniest person I follow and you show that in the way you tag things on here. I think I mentioned you're general chaoticness before, but thats unrelated to how hilarious you are. I can't even put it into words, like why the things you say in tags always make me laugh but they do and yeah.

list anon im literally slow dancing with u we're two slow dancers last ones out im twirling u in my arms i cant do this rn. parts of this ask that knocked me out:

'I've probably read hundreds of books in my life and you're the best author I've ever read' YOU CANNOT JUST SAY THIS TO ME AND EXPECT ME TO BE NORMAL ABOUT IT

'I love Sokka and Zuko and the way you write them. It's so incredible' okay ive said briefly in the past that im SUPER anxious about every aspect of taob zukka like im hyperaware of it every scene i write of them just bc i feel people have waited so long for it that it's now my job to execute it Perfectly or people will be let down, so every time i get even the smallest compliment about taob zukka i get soooo giddy

'Sexuality is such a touchy subject and you handled it completely perfectly' i cannot stress enough how nervous i was for this chapter like i wanted to do it justice so fucking badly so this is just very <333 yeah

'You are genuinely the best writer I have ever seen and you are incredible at writing everything everyone else does a crap job at and I admire you so much and I aspire to write something this incredible' BARK BARK GROWL HISS BARK GRRRRRRRR

'You're the funniest person I follow' TO THINK THAT WE COULD STAY THE SAME BUT WE'RE TWO SLOW DANCERS LAST ONES OUT-

[autistic-ace-bee]

sorry i hope ranting really is okay, brain's telling me it's not but i will prevail

i just mentioned it to mum, the situation and she was starting to give her opinion when i tried to get to the tap to fill my cup up (she was doing dishes) and then she seemed annoyed so i went and got water from the fridge and she stopped speaking and basically said that i'd annoyed her and that i was making it all about me. idk if it was how i spoke to her or if she was having a bad day but when i said i was annoyed and i was gonna leave she was like "all about you...." like my brain already tells me off for venting sometimes bc "all about you all about you" so its. rwjfjfs.

im sorry that happened love

it is ALWAYS okay to rant at me, okay? and if it isn't, then I'll let you know. I won't get mad, I'll probably just say something like "I'm sorry but I don't have the capacity to listen to you rant right now," so unless I say that, it's perfectly okay, you hear?

love its perfectly okay to make things about you if its something that directly affects you or relates to you.

try not to take what your mum says to heart. It's unfortunate but parents... they really just be like that. I hope she apologises, but chances are she won't, so I'm going to tell her for you instead. You weren't making it all about you. It's perfectly fine to complain about things that stress you out.

Possibly it was in part how you spoke to her, but I wouldn't blame you for that. Apparently people on the spectrum don't intonate properly? like my mum always says to me "why are you getting angry?" when I have to repeat something, because when sometimes asks me "what did you say?" I pretty much just shout what I just said. I'm not angry, just trying to make it easier to understand. Maybe it's possible something similar happened here? Even if you were mad or yelling though I don't really see the problem, since it's a rant. Maybe she didn't have the capacity to listen to you rant, and that's perfectly okay, but she shouldn't have told you off for it. Frankly... it's a little hypocritical (not to say incorrect) for her to say you're making it all about you and it's annoying her, since in doing so she just made it about her. But! It's perfectly fine to make things about yourself sometimes. Maybe before ranting to your mother in the future, you could try asking "can I rant to you about something?" That way, you'll be respecting her boundaries, and hopefully reducing the chance that she'll get annoyed.

That said, feel free to rant to me too! Also, possibly specify whether you want me to just listen or offer solutions bc I am inclined to problem solve but if you'd rather I just lend a sympathetic ear and validate your feelings, I'm more than happy to do just that =^-^=

[xnchxntmxnt]

OMG HAPPY 2OO LUV!! ILYSM, AND YOU DEFINITELY DESERVE MORE!! AS EXPECTED I'M HERE FOR THE MATCHUP EVENT AND I'M SO SORRY FOR BEING LATE KSDJFHSDF

1 | name : amie 2 | pronouns : s/her 3 | preferred gender : doesn't really matter 4 | self-description :

— it's ya clown sho <3 anyway, i'm an ambivert but more inclined towards the introvert side. my MBTI is INFJ and i'm a Gemini. i'd describe myself as someone who's very observant? yea, i guess. i'm awkward and you know it. My favorite color is blue, specifically sapphire, but i love all pastel colors. My fav show is Chicago Medical and all the psychological and crime thrillers out there are my favorite ( silent patient is my #1 though ) I love painting, playing piano and basketball!

— what i look in a partner you ask, uh, someone who can tolerate my silence. there are times when i go quiet for a whole day, i'll barely speak, no interaction nothing. i want someone who'd not exactly 'deal with it' but 'understand it.' also, i want someone who i can talk to without any hesitation. i have a hard time opening up so i don't do it but when i do, i spill almost everything. i might cry, might have anxiety attack, i might even shout. i know it's not very healthy but i want someone who can help me with those. plus someone who i can read with please <3 cheating and not having any respect for personal space would be the major deal breaker for me

5 | gen. aesthetic : my fashion sense starts from sweats and ends in sweats. i'm a big fan of those oversized hoodies and shirts, like something really comfy. however, i do have a collection of formal wears like blazers and dress.

6 | color/s to describe myself : red, actually. if not read then blue. it switchers but red 90% of the times.

7 | fav song/s : literally everything by Chase Atlantic and The Neighborhood. However, my absolute favorites are some of the famous classical pieces like Experience by Ludovico Einaudi and Chopin's Ballade No. 1 Op 23.

8 | fav genre of music : classical music ( Beethoven, Einaudi and Chopin own my heart )

Lol this is very lengthy I'm sorry, btw congrats again!

I looked into MBTI, I looked into zodiacs, I went off of what you said

Here he is, the man, Seijoh’s do-it-all guy

HANAMAKI TAKAHIRO ur new boyfriend

There is not enough content for him, anyway

How You Met

Bear with me here

Think about this

Artist!hanamaki

You love painting? Art club.

Idk if youre actually in any art club but shhh

Anyway, it was probably some sort of community thing full of tons of different age artists (bc you’d have basketball or something after school and he had volleyball)

So like once a week on thursday afternoons everyone gets together and does all sorts of artsy stuff

Everyone listens to lo fi music (or you can bring headphones) and chit chat and just paint for a couple hours

Its in the back section of a library (bc the library near me does stuff like this its awesome) so if you want you can go read a book while you wait for things to dry

One day the person that ran it suggested you talked to the new guy

He was about your age, it was his first day, they didn't know what all he was good at, and tbh they thought you two would look cute together

Just the vibes yk

So you set up your canvas and stuff next to him and introduced yourself

And you guys just vibe to the playlist

He’s REALLY good

Compliments you a lot too

Which is fun because he’s cute so it makes you a little flustered

You find out you guys go to the same school and he’s on the VB team

And says he has a (practice) game that weekend and asks you to come if you can

Which you do

And they win! So its fun!

Matsukawa basically asks you out for him though

He’s heard all about you already

“You don't get it issei! She’s so pretty!! God, she touched my hand and I thought I was gonna die!!!!!” “the enthusiasm is new for you” “shut up asshole” (conversation from the night before)

So he walks up to you after the game and is like “Hey so,,, we’re going out to get some lunch, you wanna come?”

Makki thinks HES flirting with you and is pissed off about it

Until you all sit down for lunch and oh, the only open spot for him is next to you (since when is matsukawa willing to sit between iwaizumi and oikawa??)

He asked you out after art club that week (Mattsun threatened not to give him any more monster for the rest of the month if he didn't get the guts to do it)

General Headcanons

You date hanamaki, you're also dating matsukawa

There’s no separating them (good thing ur MBTIs work together too, especially for strong friendships)

This was literally my first thought

So

Good luck with both these trolls

More on that later

Of course he’s going to be worried if you go radio silent for a while, but he'll understand

There are some days he’s not gonna wanna talk either

He’s really supportive on your bad days of course

Expect a random text in the middle of the evening from him

“Hiya sweetheart, just wanted to remind you that you’re beautiful, I love you, and I hope your day is going well.”

When he’s having a bad day, the same thing is all he needs from you to keep moving

He’s a really honest person. If you want to talk to him, be prepared not to get any sugar coating. If you tell him to shut up because you don’t want advice, he will. But if you expect advice from him, expect brutally honest advice. Subtlety is not his strong suit, so when it comes to advice, he’s going to tell it like it is. He's just trying to help, yknow?

However, he’s pretty good with people, so will know how to comfort you when something is bothering you. Tea and cuddles? Gotcha. Dancing at 11pm because neither of you want to sleep yet? On it. You want him to hold you? Perfect.

He’s not like...the most touchy person? There are some things he’s really indifferent on, and other things he’s stubborn as hell with. Whatever you wanna do, though

His weakness though

⚠️this part is slightly little bit suggestive⚠️

He will randomly walk up to you and pull you against him, give you a really deep kiss, smirk and walk away like nothing happened

Like hands in hair probably almost making out and then just

Walk away

Because that’s how he kisses and it’s breathtaking every time

It’s either little temple kisses or forehead or cheek pecks or something

Or that

And probably leaves you flustered and it’s funny (to him) (and to me if I was there with you) (bc that would be funny)

Hmm I’m thinking

I’m thinking hair dye dates

He needs help doing his hair from time to time Y’know (he doesn’t he just likes spending time with you) and he wants to make it pink again

So he teaches you how to do his hair and even offers to dye yours one day

Either just a strand or the ends or everything, up to you

Imagine having twinning hair dye with makki isn’t that cute

I think it’s cute

I said ur platonically dating mattsun right

Yes you are now

He absolutely adores you and loves how much makki loves you

Probably would have asked you out if makki didn’t but he was really pushing for makki to because he was just all over you in the beginning

He wasn’t overly attached to you romantically so being friends? Perfect. Sounds great

You two get along wonderfully though like you act like siblings once you warm up to each other

Again, very brutally honest person, but a little more awkward so doesn’t know what he’s saying might come off as he’s acting like a dick

He doesn’t try to though and he does really care about you

Flat out told makki if he breaks up with you and breaks your heart he’s gonna kick his ass (makki doesn’t know he had the same (less aggressive) conversation with you)

Tbh all of the VBC at seijoh loves you

Oikawa loves talking to you he thinks you’re great for makki

Gets you in on he and makki and mattsun’s antics

Iwa thinks you’re good too he just doesn’t know you as well

I think that kunimi would like you (he was almost a runner up--)

Kindaichi too

The first years just think you’re cool even if they won’t say it out loud

Seijoh VBC loves you

You got mattsun’s approval

And hanamaki loves you with literally everything in his life

So

You’re pretty set with your strawberry baby huh

Date Night!

SLEEPOVERS

I was waiting for some matchup to come along that gave me sleepover vibes

In a perfect world where you could do sleepovers with your bf because most parents would,,,not let that happen

Imagine…

He shows up at like 7:00 after practice, pizza in hand because he picked up dinner

You two eat, chat about your day, he probably scarfs down half the pie bc it’s after practice ofc he’s hungry

So when you guys are done eating you head up to your room

And make pillow fort

It’s mandatory

Different design every time, but there’s a pillow fort nonetheless

And then when there’s just enough room for the both of you to climb in

You get a blanket and a couple pillows and one of your phones or laptops or whatever and watch a movie and cuddle

When the movie is over you guys break out the face masks

You ever wonder why he has such great skin? It’s thanks to you (or if you don’t have masks, he picks them up on the way home from practice)

But anyway you guys talk shit about people for a while and sit with the masks on (it’s usually him talking about how Oikawa is a bitch as much as he loves him) (or about whatever he and Mattsun were talking about lately)

You both get chances to vent while the masks sit on your face and you just vibe with music (usually that you pick) (he listens to like,,,meme songs and like CORPSE yk)

After masks you guys make/get some snacks and munch on those during another movie but this time you’re in comfy jammies and more relaxed Y’know

Less paying attention to the movie you’ve seen a million times and just vibing in each other’s presence and it’s just really sweet

Fall asleep on his chest

Let him fall asleep on yours

Either way, you’ve got him whipped for you he loves you

Not that he doesn’t already but that’s his favorite thing ever so please just let him do that

Always makes sure to tell you he loves you before you sleep too

If you fall asleep first he takes embarrassing pictures of you with your hair being a mess & you best bet he sends them to mattsun because “she’s so cute omfg” “dude” “dude what” “you’re so fuckin stupid” “?” “Whatever—good luck being whipped just tell me when you need to get a ring, k” “you’re such a jackass” “yeah yeah Gnight”

Zodiac/MBTI

Okay so I’m not doing a big long paragraph for all this BUT from what I understand, Gemini/Aquarius are really compatible, and ENTP and INFJ are known as “perfect matches” sO (I had a really hard time deciding between Atsumu and Makki because they're both ENTP)

Psst Gemini + Leo is compatible and so is INTP + INFJ,,,, so, again, asking you to marry me sho 💍💍

Aesthetic/Vibes

Playlist

Prelude and Fugue No. 1 in C major, BWV 846

Linus and Lucy by Vince Guaraldi Trio (meme song)

Sky Full Of Stars by The Piano Guys

Someone To You by The Piano Guys

Shut Up And Dance - Simply Three

Runners Up

Miya Atsumu, Tsukishima Kei

[just-llawer-responses]

Infodump about space? I would like to hear?

-The Hatmaker

i did mean the other way around, i.e. you infodump to me but i can infodump too! :D Thanks for the ask! sO SPACE I'm gonna keep it short for now, under the break bc it's not that short

So you know about black holes which are cool as shit because of the wacky time stuff in and around it but that's a whole different story but do you know about quasars? They're pretty much black holes which shoot matter in beams away from the center which?? Whereas a black hole is, well, black, a quasar is super bright. Here is an actual x-ray image from an actual quasar. (PKS 1127-145 for who's asking)

This baby is 10 billion light years away from earth and the beam is like a million light years long. This thing is 10 billion years old!! Who knows if it even exists anymore! Gah, space!

And do you know about white holes??? Afaik these are purely hypothetical but it's literally the opposite of a black hole. Where nothing can escape a black hole, nothing can enter a white hole. Some people argue that white holes and black holes are connected, so everything that enters a black hole comes out somewhere else in a white hole (possibly through a wormhole, also possibly from a different universe), but I'm not sure whose theory that was so idk if it's based on aything or just someone's idea. Some people also say that white holes and big bangs are linked. I just checked and this theory is on wikipedia so if you want to know more there's a start.

Speaking of wacky time stuff, did you know that while theoretically we're not able to move faster than light, it should be possible to distort space time faster than the speed of light? Meaning that by warping space time around us we could literally have FTL travel? Anyway they're currently running research on a proof of concept of this. While FTL travel wouldn't actually allow us to travel to the past, it would vastly influence our perception of "the present". Looking out into the stars would be like waiting for a carrier pigeon to arrive with a letter from the other side of the world.

ok this part is technically not about space nor an infodump it's just a big vent about planets BUT I sometimes think about what it would be like to just be transported into the distant scifi future and arrive on like the moon or mars and everyone around you is just casually living their lives and all i'd be able to do is fucking look at the earth, then look at the dirt, then look at the stars and :'OOO they're the same stars but not really fjdkhgdkjs and break down in tears of joy and run my hands through the dirt and everyone would think im some weirdo bc this is just a normal place for them but like?? it was just a speck in the sky for all of humanity's history and now you're there???

I mean damn do you know there's been 12 people on the moon so far??? 12!!! That's so many people!! Up there where everyone can see!! Fuck I still can't believe there were PEOPLE ON THE MOON

And goddamn, all those rovers on mars?? Remember when we thought there was no water on mars? Remember when we thought the surface of Venus was pure lava because it had to be since it's so close to the sun? And instead of accepting those things as fact we just went there and found out for ourselves how cool is that?? Listen we have actual pictures taken from the surface of other planets!!!

You've probably seen these images but I'll just plop it here anyway

Humanity just can't be stopped huh? We've discovered so many exoplanets and we did it all from the comfort of our own tiny blue speck, imagine what we could do once we could actually properly leave! (Want an intro to exoplanetology? Here's a song for ya to start with https://youtu.be/gai8dMA19Sw)

Anyway my dream job is at ESA if you hadn't noticed by now :D (preferably as astronaut but you know what're you gonna do)

[softoreos]

I'm going to vent out and talk FACTS about Zalex in Season 4 because I'm mad about what they did to them and I don't want to spoil my bff or she's gonna block me LOL.

Look I mean, I didn't care if Alex was gay or bi or straight, his character would've been the same to me. I think it wasn't us wanting a character to be "x sexuality", that's fucked up, they are who they are. I'm happy he discovered his bisexuality, but it doesn't solve it just putting a kiss and giving him a boyfriend out of literally nowhere.

We wanting Zalex as a relationship is because the chemistry between them was HUGE, because their relationship was very bulit up through these past seasons and not just because we wanted Alex to be gay?? Or am i wrong?

His first attraction to boys was with Zach and they didn't even talked about it, it was just a "stupid kiss" that casually both enjoyed it.

Charlie felt exactly as I felt Chloe with Zach. Putting a romantic interest out of nowhere.

WITH THAT SAID LET'S START.

First, they kissed and was Alex who started it when with Winston and Charlie he correspond them but he hadn't that first impulse as he had with Zach AND THAT'S SOMETHING. And Zach said he liked it goddamn.

Alex should've been the one helping Zach going through his problems along the season as Zach did with him in the last seasons. But all we had from Alex was "why are you acting like an asshole?" all the time while in season 2 Zach almost break Alex's bedroom door to see if he was ok ... I mean, Zach put his shit together once Alex told him to do it (saying him that he loved him and he feels safe in his arms ...) IMAGINE if Alex told him that and helped him before and not when everything was falling apart?

I repeat, Alex said he feel safe when he is in Zach arms, in front of Charlie (I can't say boyfriend sorry)

Zach should've been the one dancing with Alex in the prom dance instead of Charlie! They deserved that fu**king dance in a party after the slow dance scene we had in season 2. PERIODT.

Zach was ALL SOFT taking about Alex in that scene with Winston. And the doubt in Zach's face when Winston was like hey you're in love with him too don't you? was PRETTY OBVIOUS and none of you is going to change my mind.

They rescued each other so many times and in the end they are not even together and at this point I didn't even mean them as a relationship but as a friendship. Zach was all alone the day they were at hospital waiting for Justin (another topic I would like to vent about bc im so sad) and the day they graduated. They separated Zach from the group and put Charlie instead and yes, I tried to like him because he is a sweetheart (kinda annoying tho sorry not sorry) but wtf his character was SO unnecessary. I didn't like Charlie because of that, it was like a replacement of Zach, it was that caring big football guy that could break your arm (because of his physical structure not because he has anger inside like Zach) but it was all sweet when it comes to friendship or loving.

The scene after where they were like be gays make crimes together we saw how Alex was literally looking after Zach to go out of there and then, Zach told Alex to go because he didn't want Alex to be blamed for what they were doing + he ask him why Alex was there instead of with Charlie AND BOY ISN'T THAT OBVIOUS? and he fu**king left. I can't believe they made him just leave.

When Chloe rejected Zach I was like YES and I really thought that damn parallel with Zalex at the balcony was going to mean something like idk, Zach realising his feelings about Alex(?? but it was nothing. It was just Zach being rejected.

Alex deserved to be happy and loved but so did Zach!!. They messed up his character TOO MUCH. He was so OOC, I understand that alcoholism problems can lead you to that but the resolution of his character development was so meh, I was expecting so much more.

Zach should've been that football player Alex introduced to his family as his boyfriend.

And don't come for me but the chemistry Alex had with Charlie was the same chemistry Zach had with Chloe = 0. He even had more chemistry with Winston than with Charlie, and I don't have anything against Winston bc their small relationship made sense in the storyline.

And well not to mention nor just the queerbait but the clickbait they made with Zalex. Because they didn't gave us Zalex as endgame but either Zalex as the friendship we saw the last 3 seasons and I'm fucking mad about that.

I don't see the series just because of them obviously, but I admit that after the first episode I expected them to be something until the last episode, what doesn't happened and that pissed me off.

And yeah. I'll probably make some video edits of how was supposed to be because I can't accept these ending to my Zalex and I'm going to just loop this scene in the balcony in my head because it was the only thing it made sense about Zalex this season, and not just some stupid kiss they wanted us to think.

[prinzessinpluto]

Can i just.. vent for a hot second?

So my dad just told me he wont be giving me allowance anymore bc i'm "too old" for that and i "get to live with them for free". But because he's so fucking nice he will pay us (my older brother and me) a couple bucks for every hour we help my mom clean out the basement. (For the record, theyve been working at this for DECADES and us kids have always been a huge part of the process)

And maybe i am just being a spoiled little bitch but i honestly cant stop crying.

I dropped out of uni last year because of my mental health and moved back in with my parents because i couldnt leave my bed for weeks and would break down crying every time i had to leave my apartment. Me moving back in with my parents was literally my only option besides getting admitted to a mental hospital.

I am in no shape to try and get a job, let alone actually do said job. I cant even brush my teeth more than once a week so working a 9-5? Not gonna happen. Not to mention the fucking pandemic thats going on right now. Oh, and even if by some miracle i did find a way to earn money, he'd make me pay rent for living with them.

So yeah there's not really a point for this i'm just having a bit of a crisis bc i'm 19 and probably about to be in a lot of debt OR very miserable (because while i may not be paying for this house or my own food, i am still paying for my phone bill, most of my clothes, my bus/train tickets (back when i was still allowed to go outside) and literally everything else that has ever brought me joy or comfort.) and i think i could really use some sympathetic words right now bc i'm not mentally stable enough to deal with this.

[potpiehead]

Some vents but also positive/rambling post

I'm not gonna lie I'm extremely depressed to the point that it's debilitating and life changing and have been for my entire so There's not really anything that makes me actually genuinely happy. But one thing that i like is that i like all parts of the day. I like being awake in the early morning and going for a walk and then going outside again in the middle of the day when it's hot and then again in the evening when it's cooler again. It looks and feels different every time. I don't like dark environments (maybe bc of eye strain but idk) so i don't like the evening as much but it's nice if i catch it at the right time. The only timethat i don't really like is nighttime because then the day is over, and im kind of scared of the dark lmao

I really want to stay in *******, ** again when it's raining and go out for walks a lot. I have so many memories there and it's so fun when it rains. But i also like rain in general. Even an night it's fun there lol

Some part of me wants to move to ******* but it's so far away. There is available apartments in a nice area for 1k a month which is doable

I could take a cheap bus trip there and plan it around the weather, that would be nice. I think i want to do it by myself because my feelings about that place are honestly really personal and having someone else there would just be weird. Unless it was like my mom. that would be ok but i want to try traveling alone

I have family in that area that i miss but for that it'd be better to bring my car

Unrelated vent: the worst thing is when you are in public and theres a really distressing thing going on around you that specifically only bothers you but you're there with someone/are there for a reason and can't just leave so you just have to deal with it. It happens a lot to me and like. I have to stay bc I'm there for a reason and it would be difficult to explain

Also unrelated: Everything happens so much i always have some random stressful thing going on and it's not helping anything by being stressed all the time. It does make me feel better to fix it and get it off my plate but i also could probably try to not stress out about those things so much in the first place. I. Hate talking about them because i already think about it enough so I dont want to be specific

Sometimes i feel like there is legit no one else like me. Not that I'm looking for someone that's identical in every way i mostly mean value/belief wise. I can guarantee that nobody in my life actually believes the same stuff as me which sucks because it's important to me. Sometimes i feel stupid for it and i wonder what is it about me that's different or what am I missing that makes me like this. I'm probably wrong on some of it but i honestly don't really care lmao. It's not necessarily political, there are a lot of people that have probably identical political beliefs to me and they wouldn't be that hard to find. It's personal values and stuff but i take it really seriously

I hate that i have a complicated relationship with everything and everyone like i wish i could just be like "yeah this is how I feel' there's always 9 layers to it

I sometimes wonder if there's something seriously wrong with me in general like a bad neurological issue or physical problem and then i remember that i literally don't take care of myself so nothing actually works in my body like it's supposed to

[billy-batson]

"Here's a hint: I'm not telling you" or "Alright im gonna go cry" (or combined bc that has comedic potential) with Steve-O ❤❤❤

 prompt: also asked by anon: “Alright, I’m gonna go cry” w/ Steve

pairing: steve harrington x reader

rated: t for teen

warnings: cursing here and there

word count: 2647

read it on ao3

Winter time. Winter brought three–no, four good things: holiday season, new years celebration, cold weather, and, of course, your and Steve’s anniversary.

It had only been a year (god, it felt so much longer), since the two of you had begun as an actual thing; since you had become a real couple. The start had been…confusing at first, but after the first date, things had gone smoothly for you both.

As you baked his favorite type of cake from scratch, stirring the mix together as you dropped blue  and red food coloring into the bowl, you reminisced on how you’d both gotten to the point that you were at, now–with him driving down from his university an hour away to visit you.

You had met in science class, grouped together in a lab assignment with two other people: a stoner who clearly wasn’t interested in doing anything, and a quiet, shy girl who wasn’t going to do anything. He had been working on his personal essay for university all throughout class, leaving you to be the leader of the group. 

“Okay, then,” you said aloud after five minutes of silence, the stoner staring out into space, the quiet girl looking down at the table, and Steve, who everyone and their mother knew, nearly banging his head against the table in frustration as he tried to string sentences together to make them somewhat coherent. “I’m Y/N,” you offered, attempting to start conversation among them. The silence stretched on as no one else said anything. “Alright.”

“What’s another word for ‘being a winner’?” Steve had interjected, not looking up from his paper.

“Uh…successful?” you offered, and he mumbled out a quick thanks before returning to his writing. “No problem,” you sighed, knowing that this class would undoubtedly be total and utter crap because of the group you were now forced to work with every time there’s a lab. Dandy.

“We’re uh, introducing each other, right?” Steve said, glancing up from his writing quickly, “I’m Steve.”

That’s practically a given, you thought to yourself silently, but noticed as the quiet girl began to speak. “I’m Amy,” she said softly, her voice sounding unsteady, as though she were underwater.

“Todd,” the stoner said, waving a hand, as though they all couldn’t quite see him. “Fair warning, but lunch is right before this class and lunch time is break time, so I’ll probably be a crap partner anyway–”

“Well, we’re stuck together,” Steve had huffed, “So try to…skip a day or two when we have labs, okay? Don’t think it’d be smart to lose a limb over getting high.”

Todd’s eyes widened, “We can lose a limb in here?!”

Steve gave him a shrug, “I mean, anything can happen when you’re high and working with chemicals. Could even go blind.”

“Oh maaan, really?” Todd asked, collapsing in his seat. 

Steve nodded as though this was a one hundred percent proven fact, “Absolutely,” he said, looking to you and winking. 

Winking?

You couldn’t have been sure that it had even happened until it had, but you decided not to question it. Either way, he had helped you. Even though it was in a small way, it had worked.

You’d interacted throughout the month of September and October every so often that senior year in class and during labs, but you didn’t really know him, know him. You did know that he was better at science than he was at writing, and he was actually really nice, something that you hadn’t been expecting. You didn’t really believe the rumors that the popular jock Steve Harrington had changed from how he was before, but it seemed like they were true. He had changed, and you supposed that there was Nancy to thank for that.

Nancy Wheeler was a good girl. Nice, sweet–didn’t really talk to people outside of her social circle except for Jonathan Byers who, you supposed, she got along well with because her brother was best friends with his brother. He was the only exception.

You’d had a chance to really talk to Steve alone, though, for the first time, at the halloween party. The night had still been going strong, but it had been winding down for you. You’d gone out to the backyard to get a breath of fresh air, away from the smell of sweat and teenage boys and the faint smell of vomit, and were quickly met by noneother than–

“Steve,” you’d said softly, noticing that he was seated against the side of the house, his gaze watching the blue of the pool behind the fence. “What are you doing out here?” you asked curiously.

“Oh,” he said, “Y/N. Didn’t think a party like this was your kind of scene.”

“Yeah, well…” you sighed, sitting down next to him, crossing your legs. “It’s not. But I figured hey, it’s senior year. Might as well do one of the stereotypical teenage crap adults always say we do.”

“Yeah? Like what?” he asked curiously, to which you chuckled and shrugged.

“Like…uh. Get drunk, go to some…party thrown by some rich girl who’s parents are away for the weekend. Dance with some boys. That kinda stuff, I guess,” you said, tucking your hair behind your ear.

“Huh,” he mused quietly before turning to look at you. “And have you done it?”

You raised an eyebrow, “Wait, what?”

“The list,” he said, “The ‘stereotypical things’.”

“Oh,” you said, feeling slightly embarrassed that your mind immediately went to another matter. “uh, can’t say that I’m drunk. Buzzed maybe. The drinks here aren’t that good anyway.”

“Yup,” Steve agreed, and you glanced back at him.

“And what about you? Have you done any stereotypical teenage things at this party?” you asked curiously.

“Well, I, uh–” he laughed, the sound coming out loud and harsh, “Can’t say it’s stereotypical, but I got in a fight with my girlfriend and I’m pretty sure she wants us to break up.” He’s quiet for a moment as he realized that the words were out in the air now, and he couldn’t call them back. “So there’s that.”

“Shit,” you huffed, shifting in your seated spot. “Sorry, Steve.”

“Nah,” he waved it off. “Nothing anyone can do ‘bout it. Been a long time coming, I think.” 

You didn’t say anything, feeling as though it wasn’t your place to speak. He seemed to want to vent, in any case.

“She said she didn’t love me,” he continued, “That whatever we have–had?–is bullshit.”

Yikes.

“Jesus,” you sighed. “That sucks.”

“Yeah,” he stated, “Yeah. It sucks.” He went silent for a moment and said in a deadpan tone, “I think I’m drunk.”

You laughed at that, “Yeah, I think so, too.”

He laughed along with you, almost self deprecatingly, you think, and he says, “My girlfriend probably wants to break up and here I am, drunk and laughing about it. That seems fucked up to me, is it fucked up to you?”

“Just a bit,” you tell him, a wide smile on your face. “Just a lil.”

“Christ, what happened to your face?” you questioned a few days later when you had a lab together. He had bruises just about everywhere, and you’re pretty sure that he has two black eyes.

“An asshole happened,” he huffed, almost collapsing into his chair across from you as the other students came into class. 

“Yeah, well,” you said, your tone deadpan, “You look like shit.”

“Oh, well thanks,” Steve said sarcastically. 

“Hair’s still good, though,” you say to him, slightly perplexed, “Oddly enough.”

“My hair is always good,” he told you, clearly flaunting it as he ran a hand through it, causing for you to laugh ever so slightly, shaking your head with incredulity.

“You’re an idiot, Steve.”

He had asked you out on a not-date during the thanksgiving break, inviting you out to an ice skating rink. 

“Is this supposed to be a date?” you teased him, knowing that the moment you got him to think that this was explicitly not a date would mean that you’d be able to keep your feelings for him under wraps. If he didn’t think this was a date, then you could think it wasn’t a date. Dating was complicated, and you didn’t want to make things complicated. You wanted to keep things simple, especially since he and Nancy had just broken up after nearly a year together. It’d only been a few weeks since then, and you figured that he needed longer in order to not make you seem as though you were “the rebound”.

If he was even interested in you in that way, that is.

“Pfft, no,” Steve replied, shaking his head and rolling his eyes. He deadpanned, asking quickly, “Why? Do you want it to be? Is that what you want–”

“I’ll go to the rink with you,” you tell him before he can finish his questions, not wanting to complicate things. “You’re paying, right?”

“Yeah,” he answered, and you nodded. 

“Cool!” you said, “So it’s a not-date.”

“It’s a not-date.”

Later, it turned out, that the “not-date” quickly turned into just a regular date – although neither of you had noticed it. You had had to hold his hand (clinging onto him totally in the beginning, but moving down to just his hand) in order to keep yourself from falling onto the cold ice (which you had already managed to do before an abundance of times; dragging him down with you every time). At some point, the songs that they were playing became more calm, more soothing, and before you knew it, they were playing specifically songs for couples.

Neither of you had noticed that everyone around you was a couple until you’d pointed it out, finding it odd that everyone had seemed to be in pairs–

And just like that, you fell yet again, this time with Steve landing on the ice before you, and you going down right after him. He attempted to reach out to catch you, which resulted in you collapsing onto his chest, the wind knocked out of both of your bodies as he winced.

“I am so sorry!” you said flusteredly, attempting to get up and off of him.

“It’s fine, I’m fine,” Steve said as you sat back on your knees, the skate only slightly digging into your back legs.

“Crap, I feel so bad,” you said, trying not to blame yourself but seriously failing. 

“Seriously, Y/N,” he said, chuckling as he stood up onto his feet, skates touching the ice once again. “I’m fine.”

You paused, chewing on your lip slightly. “Thank you,” you said in recognition of his efforts to catch you, which was at an expense to him.

“No problem,” he said.

December rolled around before you knew it, and Steve was up to something.

“Alright, what are you planning?” you questioned, narrowing your eyes as you sat with him during lunch at the local fast food restaurant.

“You’ll see,” he said, not giving away anything as he continued to write in his notebook.

“Ugh, can I at least have a hint? Something?” you asked curiously, hating not knowing about something.

“Okay, okay, here’s a hint,” he said, looking up from his paper to look at you. “I’m not telling you.”

“Steve!” you said in a clipped tone, smacking him on the shoulder gently. “You’re being dumb again.”

“Y/N, you’ll see, okay?” he said, “But I guess I can give you a little hint. I guess.”

“Okay, okay, what is it?” you asked curiously, raising an eyebrow.

“I’m gonna take my girlfriend out somewhere she’ll like,” Steve said coyly, and you felt your heart drop for some weird reason.

“Your girlfriend?” you asked, wondering when he and Nancy had gotten back together, and feeling slightly dumb that you hadn’t realized that he was dating someone before. It was dumb, but you had thought that you guys were–

“Oh, shit,” he muttered, bringing his palm to his forehead. “Crap. Forgot to ask.”

“Ask what?” you questioned.

“Y/N, will you be my girlfriend?”

“Okay, okay, wait, wait –” Steve said as he handed the envelope to you as you sat across from one another on his bed. “You read it.”

“Steve, you’re being a baby,” you teased him, taking the envelope from his hands anyway. “It’ll be fine, alright?”

“Yeah, but–” his face darkened with worry for a moment, and he forced a nervous laugh out. “Alright, I’m gonna go cry.”

“Alright, alright, don’t be a baby,” you said, practically tearing the envelope open. You pulled out the letter from inside, skimming past the Dear Steve Harrington at the top and searching for the magic words. As you expected, they were there. Just to mess with him, though, you looked back at him, your face falling ever so slightly. “Oh, Steve,” you said softly. 

“What?” he asked nervously. “What’s it say?” He grabbed for the letter, his eyes scanning the paper quickly.

“I’m sorry,” you said slowly, building his anticipation, “That you’ve been accepted to a nerd school!”

He looked back up at you, his eyes lighting up with happiness. “Holy fuck, Y/N! Don’t scare me like that!”

You laughed, “What? I told you, didn’t I? I knew you would get in!”

“Shit,” he muttered, a breathless laugh passing from his lips. He smiled at you, now, wrapping you in a bear hug. 

“You did it!” you say, rubbing his back reassuringly. “I told you so.”

He sat back away from you for a moment before pressing his lips to yours, his warm, soft lips coming into contact with yours. Still, just like the first time, you get goosebumps as you feel that electric feeling run through your veins yet again.

“I love you,” he laughed in between kisses, “So fucking much.”

“Yeah, yeah, yeah,” you laughed with him, smiling as you wrapped your arms around the back of his neck, pulling him in closer. “I love you, too.”

You were pulled out of your thoughts when you heard a door close shut behind you just as you pulled the cake out of the oven, your eyes lighting up as you saw who was there.

“Steve!”

He had rushed to you and you had practically jumped into his widespread arms, him spinning you around as you pressed kisses all across his cheeks.

“Ooh, I missed you so much,” you said, still holding onto him tightly as he dropped you back down to the floor.

“I missed you, too,” he said, pulling the two of you apart for a moment so that he can look at you. “I still got the most gorgeous girlfriend in the world. Everyone else is dying of envy.”

“Shut up,” you laughed, pulling him down by the lapels of his shirt so that you can kiss him, re-familiarizing yourself with the softness of his lips. You missed this. You missed kissing him, hugging him, having him close by. “I love you,” you said softly, looking up into his eyes as you pulled away slightly, for nothing if not to stare at him. It had been so long since you’d seen him – since late September, maybe? At the start of the college semester? But now, now he was here, and you were together again, just like before. Just like always.

“I love you, too,” he said, cupping your face in his hands before pressing another kiss to your lips. He broke away from you for a moment to sniff the air, saying, “You baking?”

“Uh,” you glanced back to the purple colored cake which sat on the stove, cooling from having just been taken out of the oven, and you said, “Yeah. Didn’t get the chance to frost it, though–”

“No, no, we can do it together,” he said, narrowing his eyebrows as though it was ludicrous that you would do it alone.

“Yeah?” you asked, surprised at the offer. “Didn’t know that you liked to help in the kitchen.”

He shook his head, “Nah. With you, though?” He smiled, pressing a kiss to your forehead. “I’d do anything.”

a/n: thanks for reading! i love him and ended up making this longer than i thought, lmao. (and i made the gif but i digress,) if you enjoyed, please leave a comment / reblog!

tagging: @donnaatroy @keithstellations @dana-in-wonderland

[ijungkooki]

Hi!! Can I request the RFA crew and none of them have released their identities to mc. Mc then goes on about being in love with them not realizing they are in the chat (ex: mc sees zen in a magazine and comments in the group of how much she likes him but the group doesn't tell her zen is the chat) if that makes sense. I'm sorry if it's confusing 😓

 aaaahhhhhhhh sorry this is so late! i’ve been so busy with ap tests :( but this was so much fun to write!!!

Not Recognizing the RFA

Yoosung:

You told the RFA how there was this really cute boy in your biology class

He was kinda adorkable and overall really sweet and you really like that about him

When someone asked what school you went to you told them SKY University

Seven immediately asks what your crush’s name was and you told them it was Yoosung

CUE INTENSE BLUSHING FROM YOOSUNG

Zen and Seven thought it would be funny to keep it a secret that the Yoosung you liked was also reading this entire conversation

After that chat, Yoosung gained a little more confidence in talking to you in person

He ended up being a little flirty with you omg this lil bean

Every time you spoke to each other, you gushed to everyone in the messenger about him

You go on a really cute study/coffee date!!!!!!!

zen and seven congratulate yoosung on becoming a man lol

When the day of the party arrives, Yoosung is super nervous but also really excited to see the look on your face

You get to the party and meet everyone but you notice they all have that mischievous smile

You realize there’s a member missing

*a wild Yoosung appears!* lol wHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE

“Surprise! I’ve been an RFA member all along and I’ve been reading everything you ever said about me hahahaha……………”

He’s red in the face and you’re red in the face and the members are placing bets on who’s gonna make the first move lol

After the initial shock, you both start laughing and you end up staying by each other’s side the whole time

The party ends and he gives you a goodbye kiss jasfhsjaikd

Zen and Jaehee just won 50 bucks lol

Zen:

Your friend introduced you to some musical that starred Zen in it and you were immediately head over heels for him

When you told the RFA about this new up and coming actor, Jaehee started fangirling

She starts going on about Zen and recommends some of his musicals and sends photos of him to you

Meanwhile, Zen is watching this convo unfold all while smiling really smug to himself

He decides to have a little fun by pretending to not be the actor you currently have a gigantic crush on and may or may not actually be falling in love with

Also he can’t pass up an opportunity to talk about himself amirite

at this point, everyone but jaehee and zen have left the chat

He’ll send selfies of you claiming they’re secret photos he got off the internet and your heART GOES HAYWIRE

Zen is having fun with this

He ends up surprising you by telling you he scored front row tickets to his new show

You. Are. Dead.

You ask him how on earth he got tickets but he just says he has connections somehow or somethin idk

He thinks it’s really cute that you’re such a big fan of him

But he especially loves how it’s not just for his looks! You also admire his talent and how kind and devoted he is to his fans!

That’s how he falls for you but he doesn’t know if you’ll love him back or just remain a fan

Come the party day and he’s a little nervous to meet you

When you see him, you start freaking out because how did Zen end up at this party?!!?!?!!?1?1

He starts laughing as he explains that he was a member of the RFA

you nearly faint bc omg the amount of embarrassing things that you said

After letting the news sink in, he proclaims his love for you

You’re super happy because of course you love him too because you were able to get to know the real Zen in the chat and not just the actor

When you tell him that, he is sososososo happy!!!!

Jaehee:

You met this really cute girl at a coffee shop one day 

She was in a rush but she made quick small talk with you but you never got her name

When you told the RFA about her, you were super blushy and everything awww

But Jaehee is a super smart girl so she was able to kinda put two and two together and figure out that she was the one you met

Now she’s getting all blushy bc “wat MC likes me??? she thinks i’m cute?!!?!?”

Since that day, she makes an effort to go to the same cafe at the same time in hopes of meeting you again

And you’re doing the same thing so you end up meeting each other every day

You two claim it’s just a “coincidence”

calling u on ur bullshit

The both of you end up developing HUGE crushes on each other it’s adorable

Everyone in the RFA is rooting for you two lol

Especially Zen and he’s also trying to be that lowkey wingman for baehee in the chat without revealing who she really is

You thought it would be a good idea to invite Jaehee to the party

She accepts while trying to hide her laugh bc little did you know

The day arrives and you’re nervous to finally meet the RFA but even more nervous bc oh god Jaehee is gonna be there too you gotta look nice

You spot Jaehee right away and you give her a big hug before leading her around and trying to find the RFA

You see a group of men walk up to you and they introduce themselves as the RFA

You introduce Jaehee as the girl you’ve been talking about

“MC, there’s no need to introduce me. I already know them.”

lol wut

She giggles and explains that she is the other member and you nearly faint you’re so embarrassed

She takes your hand in hers and says, “Don’t worry, MC. I happen to like you a lot too.”

Jumin:

You had recently gotten a job at the C&R Company and had coincidentally been placed to work in the same department as Jumin’s

Despite the rumors and the crazy amount of workload, you had slowly started to develop some feelings for him

You never really saw him that much since he was so busy

But when you did, your heart would beat like crazy even though you knew that being with him would probably never happen in a billion years

So you vented to the chatroom one day after having a run-in with Jumin

You told them how you had started to fall for him even though you knew her could never have feelings for you

Jaehee was stunned

Yoosung and Seven fucking lost it

Zen nearly s c r e a m e d

When Jumin read your messages, he was shocked to say the least

How funny that the MC he’s falling for is also in love with him without realizing it

He immediately looked up your employee info so he could have a little fun with this 

The next day at work, you were surprised to run into Jumin but even more so that he decided to actually have a conversation with you that didn’t involve work

He was a lot nicer and relaxed and smiled more than before

You told the members about the interaction while Jumin fucking smirked the entire time

This continued for a while, him randomly running into you at work and chatting while you silently died inside

same mc same

Party day arrives and you’re looking around for the members when BAM

juMiN iS HeRE?!?!1/!?!!?

You slowly make your way towards him and the small group he was talking to

He sees you and smiles

“Ah MC, it’s so good to see you again. Let me introduce you to the other RFA members.”

“O-Other members?”

The gears start working in your head before you realize that Jumin was a member

Which meant he read all your messages

Which also meant that today was your death day

He laughs at your expression when you figure it out but reassures you that the feelings are mutual

You both smile at each other as he kisses you on the cheek

meanwhile zen is now officially screaming

Seven:

The agency you worked for partnered you up with Seven for a mission

Agents 606 and 707: The best hacker and best field operative the agency has

also fucking badass holy shit i might write a fic

Ever since your successful mission, you two have been partners on every single one following that

While kicking ass, you had slowly started to develop feelings for him

When you joined the RFA, everyone introduced themselves except for one who was a hacker

To you, it made sense that he had to hide his identity

Also for some strange reason, this hacker reminded you of Seven hmmmmmmmmmmm i wonder why

You introduced yourself to the group, though, and Seven nearly choked on the chips he was eating

As the days passed by, you grew more comfortable with the group and eventually told them about the troubles in your love life

You told them how you had fallen for your partner but you didn’t think he loved you back because he tends to push you away sometimes

Seven: Dead.

Little did you know that he was in love with you too

The reason why he pushes you away was because he didn’t think that you loved him

Since then, Seven has started to open up a bit more around you and you were really happy with that

In classic Seven-fashion, he thinks it would be hilarious if he kept it a secret that he was an RFA member

The day of the party arrives and you’re about to leave when you run into Seven

“Where you going?” He asks you

“Heading off to the party with the RFA. I told you about them, remember? See you later!”

yes you will lololol

When you meet everyone at the party, you’re all happy to finally meet each other 

But you notice that your new hacker friend was missing

In the corner of your eye, you see a flash of red and immediately recognize it as Seven

You confront him and ask him how and why he’s at the party

“For the agency’s best spy, you’re really bad at recognizing people.”

Putting two and two together, you realize that he was the last member of the RFA

*cue you slapping him repeatedly on the shoulder as he laughs his fucking ass off*

[physiiological]

hii! have you got any advice for myself? I'm a year 12 student here in nz and it seems like such a big jump from last year, I'm worried I'm gunna flake and it's all going to go to crap haha. Thankyou !

hi lovely!!! thanks for sending me this message :-) (and yay for us kiwis!) 

agh, i remember being in your exact same position last year! however, I did not reach out and I coped with it all on my own, which is definitely something you should not do at all :/. I’m gonna be writing a lot just bc year 12 can be a shitty year but it doesn’t have to be!!!  so click below to see what I’ve said, because just like year 12, this is gonna be one hell of a ride. 

Realistically speaking, year 12 is going to be the hardest year in your academic life. It’s the year to do well so you can have stellar records for scholarship applications, it’s the year they look at if you don’t continue through to year 13, it’s the year, and it can get extremely overwhelming. I remember that I stressed myself out to the max.. I wasn’t sleeping well, I was constantly breaking down, and in the end I only just met the criteria for an endorsement. Although I still have my endorsement, there are many things that I would’ve liked to change if I had the chance to repeat year 12 again. 

one of my most important tips is to don’t try to conquer this alone. NCEA Level 2/IB/Cambridge can be a daunting experience, especially if year 11 was a big walk in the park. The minute you need help, don’t wait around to see if everything works out... reach out to your friends, if not, your teachers. these are your resources and they are at your disposal, use them (not in that sense). If you are feeling extremely unhappy about all of this, talk to someone you trust (eg. a tutor, a parent, your dean, a counsellor) and believe me, not only will you feel a lot better after doing so, but you will also have a much more clearer state of mind and a clear mind = better perspective of everything. Having your friends and a great support network makes all that difference. 

my next tip is to definitely stay organised. Depending on how your school works, there will be instances where internals will hit you all at once. You’ll feel overwhelmed, and when things aren’t going the way it should be we tend to feel lost and breakdown. To prevent this, I suggest using a planner/journal/a notebook to just write down things you need to do for the day and try to make them small tasks. eat the elephant one bite at a time! try and deconstruct your huuuuge task on writing an english essay, and refine it down to just writing one paragraph for the day. even the smallest victory is still a victory, and victory deserves applause, regardless of how big or small. In addition to that, getting sorted now will set you up soooo much for year 13, and also uni as well. so, find what works for you and get into the habits of setting goals! it won’t seem like much when you tick off small tasks, but hey, every victory is a victory!! celebrate :DD It’s okay to not be ahead, staying on top of things at this point is more than enough, and you should be super proud of that. 

third and most important tip; do no harm, take no shit. You’re going to have those odd couple of people who will academically compete with you to the death for a better mark, a better grade, a better anything, and these people are unavoidable, sadly. But you can control it by not taking any of their crap. You do you, and I think that is a lesson that I learnt too late. Don’t worry about that person who just completed that practice report in a day, or about that person who ‘stayed up till 3am’ doing work because chances are; they’re not doing very much to keep themselves alive at this rate and you are soooooooo......... winning!!! (oops) 

I could write a novel and go on forever about my top tips for year 12 but one of my last tips that I leave with you today (and probably pretty important to all of these) is to take care of yourself. this includes your physical, mental, and emotional wellbeing. I can not stress enough how bad my breakdowns got last year because I never allowed myself to take a break, I kept going and going and going and that entire year was just a lesson to me that I am not a robot, that I am only human. Getting Excellence , A’s ,stellar records for scholarships are important but who’s going to receive them if you’re gonna exhaust yourself out like that? Not you... and we don’t want that, do we? As repeated in the first tip, having a great support network and some friends you can lean on can significantly change this!! vent if you need to, rest if you need to, and be what you need to. This is so so so important, and I personally believe that this trumps everything. Take a walk, have a breather, get some sleep! Take care of yourself, because your grades certainly won’t be doing that for you. 

It is undeniable that year 12 will be one of the most daunting years of your life and it’s not going to be pretty. There will be tears, there will be breakdowns but if you’re not anything like me then you will cope. It’s ok to feel scared, and that is completely understandable. But above all of this, don’t forget to have fun!! Celebrate the fact that you’ve come so far already. Celebrate that you’ve survived so much, celebrate the fact that you’re an absolute champion and celebrate the fact that you’re about to kick NCEA/IB/Cambridge’s ass. I have faith in you, and you should have faith in yourself, you’re going to own this year! :D 

Of course these tips are coming from someone who has had different experiences to other year 13′s but I hope you found that helpful! Please do not hesitate to message me if you have anymore questions or want anymore tips lovely! All the best for year 12, you’re gonna kick ass! Have a lovely evening xx 

[bemeow]

you know you’re a sad person when the only time you ever talk to anyone is when you’re either complaining about how youre literally dying from lack of human interaction or you’re ruining your relationship with them by bitching at them