#I'm thinking of starting a YT channel with a friend lol

[infinititia]

So.. Minecraft poll?

Throwing this into the abyss

[almondmilk72]

Today I just created my 2024 vision board, I feel pretty exited about this new year that's coming!

Btw, I have been thinking about doing something creative with my time, right now I'm officially on vacation mode, which is kind of waking up sooooo late and binging True Beauty on repeat. It kinda brings me the cool memories of the 2020 lockdown, when my friends and I stay up till 2am just charting and playing on Discord.

So I was thinking that I might start a yt channel i guess... I need to practice on my language skills, so I might narrate my day in a different language each day. Thoughts on this??

Also, do u have any recommendations on some yt channels that I can get inspire by? That would motivate me a lot.

That’s it for the day, currently in floor time lol watching Heartstopper for like the 5th time and sipping on my coffee.

XO<3

almondmilk

[dnpbeats]

Re the ask about how Phil loves Dan. I think you missed the biggest one. He waited to come out to everyone until Dan had come out.

I don't think there is a bigger sign of his love than that <3

Okay I actually didn't say that specifically bc I don't personally think it's necessarily the case that Phil waited to come out because dan was in the closet. based on what Phil has said I think it might actually be that Phil was inspired to come out by dan

in phil's coming out video he says, "This channel for me over the last 10 years has been about being creative, or entertaining people rather than sharing my personal life. [...] But now I do feel like it's important to share that I'm gay, because hopefully my story will help some of you, and representation is important." and then in his one year later video he says:

"I mean, I had already told some friends and family and stuff like that, but it's such a big difference to telling the entire world on YouTube. I was sat there, having a battle between my finger and my brain. I was like, press upload, no, press upload, I can't do it. Anyway, my finger eventually won (gave the finger to my brain), and I pressed go. And I did not realize at the time just how much of a weight on my shoulders I had."

"And I don't know if you even noticed in my YouTube content, but I just feel like I can be more myself now 'cause I'm not holding a part of me back. So that's another thing, I didn't realize until I started making videos post coming out and I was like, oh, I feel more free now. I didn't even know that was a thing."

basically, imo phil is implying that he didn't want to come out. not for the same reasons as dan, but because for him his sexuality was part of his private life and he didn't want that out on the internet. and the fact that he's talked about how he was nervous to come out on YT and then also that he didn't realize how much of a weight off of his shoulders it would be until he did it implies that it's not something he was gunning to do. I think he came out soon after dan did because he saw what an impact dan's coming out made both on dan's personal life but also to the ppl who viewed it (and also just on a practical level, anyone who saw dan's video would know Phil was queer, so phil's vid was rly just him explicitly stating it himself)

I said this before a few weeks ago to another anon but I think d&p made the decision to be closeted together. I think some of their reasons were the same and some were different but they both still wanted the same outcome which was people not digging into their personal lives. I don't think it was a situation where one was holding the other back (which is not necessarily what you're implying but idk how else to put it lol, but do u get what I mean?)

[kylelover]

headcanons on the joint YouTube channel of the Reader and Eric, Wendy and Kyle? (for each separately please)

Thanks in advance!!<3

hi anon! i love this omfg you guys are gonna make me wanna do that streamer au even faster... heh anyways thanks to u for requesting! I also made it so it was for Kenny and Stan as well, hope you don't mind.

Sharing a YT channel with Team Stan + Wendy

Stan

you and stans youtube channel would be of gameplays that you play together!

its kind of funny because sometimes both of you post videos playing alone, so its just half animal crossing, half cs:go lol

it would definitely have a pfp of a selfie you took together

sometimes stan posts guitar covers of his favourite songs and small clips of his life he finds cool, just like kyle!

somehow the channel got over 200k+ subscribers and you dont even know how

so... yeah.

lorde attacks once again - 80k views.

"3... 2... 1... ok, go."

stan started touching a similar tune on his guitar, as you focused the camera on the instrument.

"how are you so good at this?" you smiled

suddenly you could hear someone walking near the entrance of stans bedroom.

"oh shit, i think its my dad."

you immediately covered the camera with your hand.

blackness could only be seen from the videos perspective.

a door creak could be heard from the distance.

"stan, check this new song im writing!" his voice sounded raspy, he was intoxicated, one bottle on his left hand and a microphone on the other.

randy took a sip of his beer quickly.

"god damn it dad! when are you gonna stop that whole lorde thing!"

you moved your hand from the camera and focused it on randy.

he was wearing a red gala dress and a brown-ish wig.

"makes me feel so good~ i could dance forever! because i am lord-" randy's sentence got cut off by stan grabbing his shoulders and moving him off his room.

"ok dad, stop, youre embarrasing me." could be lowly heard as he shut the door off and the video finished.

Kyle

i always felt like kyle would have a youtube channel where he posts skits and short videos of his life!

which means together you would post vlogs and short clips you guys recorded with your friends.

apart from those, since kyle is very interested on guitar hero i feel like he would also post his best scores on the game and little game plays of his.

mainly the channel is filled with small moments from both of your lifes, since you and kyle only wanted to keep your memories on a small archive channel:)

vid for mom lols - 5 views, private.

as you started recording the screen turned from a black screen to suddenly seeing kyle's own face.

"wait, are you recording?" kyle questioned.

you nodded in agreement.

both of you had gone to a nearby cafe area to have some lunch together to study for some really hard math exams.

"kyle, I'm gonna send this to my mom. act like you weren't smoking a fat joint earlier," you joked as you zoomed the camera closer to his face

kyle's expressions went from an ear to ear smile to a poker face.

"WHAT? I WOULD NEVER DO THAT!" kyle spoke loudly as he put his hand in front of the camera so his face couldn't be seen.

"dont send that to your mom, y/n! I'm gonna have a bad impression on her!"

you turned the camera to focus your face. "don't worry mom, he is a very studious gentleman," you said whilst moving once again the camera and recording kyle's long study-notes.

you laughed softly while turning off the camera. you'll save that video for later...

Cartman

cartman obviously would have a reacting channel.

however since he shares it with you he decided to also make challenge content.

such as the ice bucket challenge, eating the most spicy pepper, etc.

together you would record videos of pranks and some youtube shorts.

cartman would definitely make one of those videos where he eats the most nasty spicy mix ever, cry, and then say "no reaction."

WE DID THE ICE BUCKET CHALLENGE ⛸️🧊 (end is incredibly funny) - 3892 views.

"h-hey guys hows it going, this is cartmanbrah on another challenge!"

you moved the camera to butters standing on the freezing snow as cartman appeared slowly on frame pointing at him.

"today we are doing the ice-bucket challenge! so dont forget to like and su-su-subscribe!"

the camera got closer to cartmans face as he said the last line.

suddenly the video was cut and only butters could be seen.

he was only wearing boxers...

"come on butters just say it!" cartman shouted.

"i'm butters a-and i got dared by scott67 to do the ice bucket challenge" his voice and body shaked, he was clearly cold.

you grabbed the bucket filled with cold water and poured it on him.

the video was slow motion as the water hit butters head slowly.

"WO-AH DUDE! that was awesome!" cartman laughed.

"Ok guys! smash the like button, by-bye!"

Kenny

kenny didnt have a phone so of course he also didn't own a camera.

so when you bought a new camera you had such a great idea.

make a youtube channel with kenny!

your channel mainly consisted on dumb videos of you two.

maybe it was kenny climbing a tree, or crossing the river jumping on rocks.

sometimes it was you guys just running away from 5 mad dogs following you.

random videos in general.

everytime you watched them together you always smiled.

big man ken - 2 views, private.

the camera moved closer to kenny, showing his side profile where only his bright orange parka and dirty blonde hair could be seen.

his face turned to the direction of the camera.

he laughed softly, his crooked smile and small teeth gap could be seen.

"guys check this out, its the immortal snail." kenny grabbed the camera gently and focused it on a random slug.

"thats not even a snail, kenny!" your laugh could be heard off-camera.

"its the same thing."

he changed the camera to selfie mode and made an exagerated shocked face while he looked at the small animal.

"alright kenny, stop acting like a reac-"

suddenly, a tree fell on top of him, killing him instantly.

"WHAT THE FUCK?"

Wendy

wendy and you would have a story-time vlog channel.

you would basically do pijama parties, yoga, etc together and record

it was fun since you added some effects while recording story-times which made them more engaging to the public

sometimes bebe joined and you three made outfit videos!

your channel was pretty popular among south park.

having over 12k subscribers!

pillow fight! - 50 views, private.

"alright guys! heres a tutorial on how to see if your boyfriends cheating on you!" bebes face could be seen on the camera.

"lord, bebe! I thought we would record our hairstyles!" wendy snatched the camera away from her.

"bebe, don't worry I got your back" you whispered to her whilst grabbing a pillow slowly.

BAM.

you had hit wendy on the head with a pillow.

"i can't believe it!"

"pillow fight!" heidi's voice could be heard behind the camera.

the camera was moved by bebe to a corner in the room and you all started hitting each other.

[iknowshocker]

you’re querying a bonkai inspired book? AHHH i hope it finds an agent and gets published because ive been looking for their dynamic in trad pubbed work + other media. hmm basic question but what was it about the ship that made you want to write original work inspired by it?

hii!! yes, it's called The Forgotten Legacy (or maybe The Unwanted Heir, that's TBD lol). I'm pitching it as a Witch-coded Bridgerton inspired 8 book series (Witcherton, if you will), and I'm so unbelievably obsessed. I've had such a fun time injecting it with true to life witch lore and specifics on covens/pantheons/and practices across the globe.

Each book will focus on one of the Attwood siblings - starting with a childhood friends to rivals to lovers new adult story.

I run a yt channel where I recap fantasy media and the stars aligned for me creatively this time when I reached tvd s6. I had just finished a project and was ready for something new, and Kai is like the closest thing I have to a muse. He sneaks his way into all the MMC's I write, but this time I just went all in.

I've always been drawn to the secrets of the gemini coven/the flashbacks from their childhood we don't get to see. So I decided to build my own magical family/world where I could figure all of those things out, add to them, and do what I wanted with the all the intersecting arcs.

The biggest thing I changed is that only the dad is cruel, so my MMC grows up with a mom/siblings/and specifically a twin that truly love him. The family is still majorly screwed up, don't get me wrong, but they have this drive to take care of each other that makes my heart ache. I liiiiive for sibling angst, so figuring out the individual dynamics between the siblings has been ridiculously fun. Close sibling friendships might be my true weakness ?? so it was really important to me to develop that relationship between my MMC/his twin sister and explore what it looks like for them to go into my version of the merge loving each other the entire time.

imo if you boil Kai down to one core emotion its Desperate with an underscore of Rage, and my MMC is Desperate with an underscore of Sorrow. He's living with the knowledge that he could single handedly destroy his entire family, or save everyone with his death at his sister's hands. He gives up basically everything to be a good big brother and protect them, sacrificing his own happiness in the process. (don't worry tho he still has the inherent darkness, sarcasm/the wit we all know and love - he's an emotional mess and i adore him!!)

As for why I find Bonkai inspiring, again I think it's all the possibilities of the ship itself. I was so excited for Bonnie to have someone who was 100% obsessed with her, and I think if given the chance she would have been that person for Kai, too. He's never had someone love him/protect him, and if they'd been a couple I think Bonnie 100% would have stood between him and the rest of the geminis.

I wanted to finally see a badass (mostly healthy) witch couple, and bonkai would have just ?? decimated everyone else on the board. So with my writing I explored the dynamics of them being willing to do anything to keep each other safe/plus the complexities of their individual power/what it would be like if they could work together.

I focused a lot on the opposing personalities/undeniable understanding that bonkai has. So they still fight but there's that element of ...uh, do you guys need a room or ?? They remind me of magnets - you can never tell if they're going to make out or try to kill each other or both. I added the elements of a childhood friendship between my FMC and the twins, so there's some fun friendship dynamics there, too.

thank you so much for asking, anon! I hope I answered this okay, lol. I have so many thoughts bouncing around about the series as a whole it's hard to condense them.

xx

[em-harlsnow]

Wednesday tag game (definitely still Wednesday)

Thank you so much @spookygingerr @sgtmickeyslaughter @blue-disco-lights for tagging me!!

how did you get into the fandom?

I had a friend tell me to watch the show and I got a little obsessed (which isn't unusual for me)

how long have you been here?

I've been on Tumblr since February? I think?

what’s the first fandom channel you found? (Youtube, Reddit, Tumblr, Insta, Twitter, FB, other?)

Tumblr

what’s your favourite now?

Definitely still Tumblr

which mutual have you known the longest in the fandom?

I think it's @spookygingerr , so lovely and welcoming!

which tumblerino’s did you have your first fandom crush(es) on?

most of mine were AO3 writers, and I'm not sure if that counts. probably @sam-loves-seb , I love all her fics! Highly recommend.

first Gallavich fan fic you read (or that blew you away that you remember)

I never used to read multi-chaps, but what got me into them initially was The Increasingly Poor Decisions of Ian Gallagher. I can't remember the first one I read - it was probably on Wattpad because it took me a while to figure out the archive

fan art that blew your mind?

all of it. the stuff you all come up with is amazing, honestly. I can't choose one.

fanfic trope that you were sure wasn’t for you but now you low key (or high key) love?

I'm not sure if it's considered a trope, but Alternate Universes. I never thought I'd like things that aren't cannon, but I definitely do!

what surprised you most about the fandom?

everyone's so sweet and nice, I really didn't expect that coming into this.

moment in the show (or YT vids if you’re one of those) that you fell in love with Gallavich?

honestly, the first scene where they get together. I think it was because of how surprised I was (I knew nothing about it when I started watching) and how much I ended up liking Mickey because of his humour.

Ian or Mickey?

Mickey easily

which Gallagher or Milkovich are you?

I'd say Lip, and I don't say that in a positive way lol.

I'm a bit late, and I'm pretty sure everyone has been tagged by now. If I missed you, I'm sorry!!

I love these games <3

[smoshsfavoritepizzaplace]

From anon with the long shipping answer (with another long text):

You talked about how special the 2022-2023 videos were in Shourtney context. The crazy thing (for me) is that one of the first - if not the first - Smosh videos I ever watched was the "double date" video, i.e., Guess Who? with Courtney, Shayne, Damien, and Saige. I didn't realize that it had two couples in it but I remember thinking that they seemed relaxed around each other and didn't aim for the typical "look at us, we're so hyped" energy that YT co-workers tend to have. Well, now I know why.

It was also an interesting introduction to Shourtney because in that video, they acted almost the opposite they act now (Courtney made edgy questions and didn't second-guess herself at all whereas Shayne had a more docile "just happy to be here" energy). It took me long time to realize that this video was more of an exception than a rule in the channel and general Smosh audience has a very different view of Shayne and Courtney. Admittedly, I sometimes miss this dynamic but having uncrazy Shayne and unsilly Courtney is probably not the best way to get views.

I feel that if I had started Smosh with videos from another year, my initial impression of Shourtney would be very different. For example, in Reacting to Courtney's Old Videos, they legitimately have more sibling energy than anything else. So in this sense, I'm not surprised that people used to have differing views of them. Their dynamic has def not stayed the same throughout the years, and once you make your first impression of someone, it's hard to shake it off.

PS. Talking about sibling energy: In general, I do agree that labelling close friends as siblings is equally bad - and sometimes worse - than shipping comments. I think in some specific cases it's ok (e.g., "Shayne messing up Courtney's answers was such an older brother move") but making comments like "they're literal siblings!" is a risky thing imo and not necessarily something cast members want to hear.

The twitch streams/videos was also kind of a weird era as well. I’ve seen SO many people say they hate those vids and didn’t like Saige. But from a Shourtney lover (me) those streams had so many incredible moments, especially the double dates between Shourtney and samien/daige(?) Idk their ship name lol. And it’s funny you say this bc I had a somewhat similar experience. I’ve been watching smosh since 2014/15 and I took a break sometime in 2021. When I came back in 2022, the twitch videos were I think one of the first content I watched as well. Watching it, I of course acknowledged the Shourtney moments but I took a bit of an interested to Damien and Saige. In my head I was like, “they would make a cute couple” and when I looked it the comments, people were confirming that they were indeed a couple. I also just enjoyed the dynamic between the 4 so I went on a binge of every vid with them in it lol.

And since I’ve been watching since around the time shourtney joined, I never realized that if you started with different eras, you’re view of them would be completely different. Each year I’d say their dynamic changed so much.

Now that you’ve explained the sibling energy thing, I guess it isn’t as bad as I thought. I think I just mainly found it weird since I would see on comments of videos where shourtney was actually dating and it weirded me out.

[bisonaari]

This is an invitation for you to tell more about your finnish music obsession

I want to hear what artists you're enjoying and what you think about finnish music in general!

I LOVE YOU THANK YOU FOR THIS

Ok so I've mainly listened to UMK artists so far lol so bear with me

First of all, first introduction with finnish music in my life: when I was a teen, In the shadows by The Rasmus was my entire personnality. I've listened to that single so fucking much you have NO IDEA. My parents hate rock and metal, and they were my first introduction ever to music that was heavier than pop 💚 I'll forever be thankful for that

A few years ago my friends sent me some Beast in Black and I stopped counting how many times I've listened to Sweet True Lies and Blind and Frozen, those are just so good. I love the 80's inspiration in them and the singer's voice is absolutely incredible HE HAS THE RANGE. As I said in a previous post, gonna go see them live with my boss and her gf next saturday, they were coming to my city and we couldn't miss that 🤟

Notable mention to Lordi, Hard Rock Hallelujah will always slap

Then Käärijä arrived and I haven't been the same since lol. He made me want to listen to more music in finnish, because finnish has a rythm and melody that I hadn't heard before, and it adds something really unique to music that I really like, scratches my brain in the best way possible

First I found Jukka yt channel and he covered some Turmion Kätilöt and I swear that this band altered my brain chemistry they're just SO GOOD. They're a lot heavier that what I usually listen to but I truly don't mind because the mix of synths and heavy music and scream is just the right balance I absolutely adore what they do, and I think I'm gonna follow them for a long time

Then I started to listen to UMK music, first being Benjamin. Man, that guy's voice is so fucking angelic excuse me?? Illegal. I've listened to GAY about 200 hundred times in a row woops

Started to listen to Portion Boys as well right about the same time, and I have to say that I like most of their songs. Everytime I was pressing next on spotify I was like but that one is good as well? And so is that one?? And that one too??? Like I don't think that I've found a Portion Boys song that I truly dislike. The 80's vibes just stole my heart. Elämän ABC my beloved

Been listening to a bit of Kuumaa lately, and by that I mean that Tulipalo is my entire personnality woops I haven't listened to any other song in days

Sometime the past month I've been made aware of Seppo on bi and it's been plaguing my mind I hate it I love it

Got also some Antti Tuisku in there! Grindr Mayhem of course, but also En kommentoi. Some BESS with Ram Pam Pam because it SLAPS

I've also listened to @king-krisu 's finnish music essentials playlist, and I like most of the stuff on it? I need to pay better attention to exactly what songs I prefered but I really enjoyed most of the stuff in it

[thequeenofsastiel]

Leofiat in TharnType Season 2

Writing this for @virtueofthemind but making it its own post for anyone who's a fan of leofiat but doesn't want to have to watch season two of TharnType.

They first interact in ep 3. The context is that Fiat injured his knee and has been a total brat about it, taking out his temper on everyone around him. Type is his doctor, and gives off Dom energy, so Fiat starts to have a crush. Everyone in Fiat's life mentions Leo with hushed tones, saying that he's the only one who can control Fiat. The timestamps for their interactions in ep 3, from the version on Viki, are:

40:31-43:17

46:07-49:54<<<One of the most important and my favorite scene between them. Establishes their D/s dynamic

Episode 4

4:26-8:55

16:18-18:45 This one includes Type, it's worth watching to see how jealous Leo gets when meeting him

19:35-21:52

44:34-46:10

Episode 5

17:03-21:28

Episode 6

33:47-43:04

46:53-50:10

Episode 7

5:50-6:57

Episode 8

26:22-32:54

Episode 9-Context, Tharn and Type are fighting, Fiat and Type go to a bar to get a drink, Fiat starts to try sexually assaulting Type

3:45-7:42

11:22-16:12

44:25-45:26

Episode 10-Context, Fiat kisses Type without asking, Tharn sees and throws a huge fit, then afterwards while they're taking time apart, one of Type's friends tells him about Leo and how they're clearly more than friends even if they don't realize it.

19:04-20:50

Okay, so, after this is when the bullshit starts. Spoilers below

The scene is 20:56-23:15. This is how the bullshit starts. Type confronts Leo, says he knows how Leo feels, and that they should join forces to get Fiat to leave Type alone. What they do is very, very stupid.

Starting at 35:20, they have one of the friends, a Daddy Dom, start to emotionally seduce Fiat while Fiat is crying in a bar about Leo and Type. Then they kidnap Fiat, take him to Leo's home and tie him up, and Type terrorizes Fiat and threatens to break his knee if Fiat won't leave him alone while Leo watches. It lasts until 44:08. It's not fun to watch.

Then, at 46:30, Leo comes into the room and says it never would have happened if Fiat realized that Leo loved him. It's very stupid. There's a love confession, and apparently I'm still salty about this. It's not really necessary to watch it, I've given you what matters. It lasts until 51:33.

Now, here's the thing. There's an Episode 0 on the MeMindY Official YT channel that includes some, but not all of the scenes up until now. I don't recommend watching instead of watching their Tharntype scenes because they don't include important scenes and change the music in a way I think doesn't work as well. But in Episode 0 there's a part that doesn't happen in TTS2. It starts at 44:00 and goes to 46:42. Then they make out and it's censored which is hella frustrating. I'm having a hard time finding the uncensored version on a legal site, so I'm afraid you'll have to look for it yourself. Still, here's the yt version:

There's also a part from 48:28-53:40 that you can watch. The rest of it happens in DSN.

Now, back to TTS2

Episode 11

17:36-19:44

20:53-27:25 This part is Fiat apologizing to Tharn for what he did. It's a moving scene, but it does involve Tharn, if that bothers anyone

Episode 12

7:53-11:11

And that's their last scene together in TTS2! They have a tiny scene in the special episode that's just a commercial lol, so it's probably not worth finding.

Hope this helped!

[bloomingkyras]

Sims Tag <3

tagged by:@citruswhim & @aurorangen tq tagging me :)

1. What’s your favourite sims death? - fire , death by eating pufferfish 2.Alpha CC or Maxis Match? - maxis match 3. Do you cheat when your sims gain weight? - no. i just make them doing yoga or jogging 4. Do you use move objects?

-who doesn't need move object, right?

5. Favorite mod? - current favorite mod was from Ebonix  PC game override and Whicked Whim (i use it for pose enable position) 6.First expansion/game/stuff pack you got? - season and get to work 7.Do you pronounce “live mode” like aLIVE or LIVing?

-live mode

8. Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made? - hmm....please don't ask me this question cause every sims of mine are my favorite ( it not fair for them if i choose 1 of them lol )

9. Have you made a simself? - yes i do here 10. What sim traits do you give yourself? - cat lover,maker,clumsy 11. Which is your favorite EA hair color? - i always use Dark brown 12. Favorite EA hair? - in game? female hair that came from base game and incheon arrivals kits ( i don't no what its name) for cc, i have a lot but my favorite Simstrouble ( female hair) & Johnnysimmers (male hair)

13. Favorite life stage?  - infant and toddler ( i really love chaotic gameplay with them)

14. Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay? - i do sometime when i'm free i will build my sims house but i'm more on game play. 15. Are you a CC creator? - no i don't have that talented

16. Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad? -all of my follower are my simblr friends 

17. What’s your favorite game? - other then the sims? ACHN,Disney dream lightvalley and Genshi impact 18. Do you have any sims merch?  - no but i love to have atleast 1 19. Do you have a YouTube for sims? - no but i' ve my own YT channel 20. How has your “sim style” changed throughout your years of playing?  -i don't think it change.. 21. What’s your Origin ID?  - i do have but i'm not sharing it online 22. Who’s your favorite CC creator? - a lot and i already mention same on no (12) 23. How long have you had a simblr? - already 7 month starting from late 2022 november 24. How do you edit your picture?'

-its secret he..kidding guys.. i use PSD only when using pose mod and the rest of it i use Pixlr x and CANVA (easy to use for a simmers on the go like me)

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next? - i really want a car and medival core EP 26.What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far?

Cottage living and Get to work.

tagging everyone who see this post :)

[tiernomuffin]

could I ask how you got into nilfruits? I have NO IDEA where everyone found out all the character's names, and i'd love to know because i have a friend that's really into the mvs asdlkfnalsdfaf (thank you in advance if you do answer)

Thank you for the question! Short answer: I loved music videos and naturally started loving it after stumbling upon it on youtube! (I think it was also my sister's fault, who became obsessed some hours after I showed her some videos and told her about Flurry and Welter). As far as I know, most of the character's names come from Mr Nilfruits' twitter! A few of them I learned them from my sister reading his old tweets, then after I started making friends with other fans they taught me the ones I didn't know :)

Looong and not so helpful answer, just because I love talking about stuff like this:

I had recently started to actually get into vocaloid and want to find new songs (in september 2021! I'm a super recent fan :) ) and I specially loved fun and cool music videos (Zanelli, PARILA and Egorock were the ones I would watch the most, several times a day), but after like a month I started feeling Desperate for new stuff to watch (pictured below: a helpless vocaloid fan, completely unaware of the kind of world she just got herself into)

(the playlist has 206 songs right now but I keep forgetting to add new ones I find)

^ pathetic

I actually knew Traffic Jam since like the start of 2021 I think! I remember when the proseka cover came out people were so excited so I decided to hear it and thought "wait omg this is that song that's so good" :) I listened to it often and I had also seen fanart of Flurry and Welter but I was never interested enough to look it up. I also happened to watch a bit of the video while listening to music on YT Music but even then I didn't care enough to actually watch it... I also watched a bit of Ironina before that! :) I remember thinking "oh this looks like the Traffic Jam artstyle" (I hadn't watched it but I often got it recommended on youtube so I had seen the thumbnail several times). I immediately fell in love with Ironina and watched that little bit several times because the characters' personalities were sooo good... Then I never thought about it again

UNTIL one day I was scrolling youtube, absolutely desperate for new cool flower songs as you saw in those screenshots... And Traffic Jam showed up. I remember thinking, "...well. I watched a bit of it and it was nice. And I know this one has lots of fans. Surely this one will do it..... This will fill the hole in my heart......."

It did :)

I watched Traffic Jam, then went into mr fruits' channel and watched Haine & Kleine, found out from the comments that both were from a series, tweeted "that's scary why is there a whole lore", later found Ironina as I was scrolling, thought "ohh my god it's That video"...

Some days after I was talking about vocaloid with a friend and she brought up Nilfruits and Ironina! I think a big part of why I became a fan from the start was because I talked about it with him and saw that others enjoyed the videos as well :)

Then the full proseka Traffic Jam cover came out and I watched it with my sister, I talked to her about the videos and characters, showed her some videos, she got even deeper into it than I was, my friends got into it as well... then some months after I saw that the fans on twitter were super nice and friendly and started talking with them :) (back then I didn't know more than 5 people LOL right now there's so many fans over there, it's great)

...that's it I think! Sorry about writing a whole autobiography LOL I just like sharing this kind of stories so I took the opportunity. Thank you again for the question!

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary40

10/17-18/2023

tuesday - wednesday

long day cuz i went out, unexpectedly.

but going out ended up nice, i got free pizza from a nice british tourist woman, her family/group had one piece left and no one was hungry enough for it, and i was staring, and some other guy was looking to get it, and she saw me, and she gave it to me, so thank you woman, very much, for feeding me. otherwise, all i had eaten earlier in the day prior to that was french toast. a little later, just before the pizza, i had two fairly skinny chicken tenders. and to end the night i ate another sort of toast, honey toast, it was really insanely good. not to mention the hanging out was with people i really like being around, so that was nice, my gf, two of her colleagues, and strangely enough a friend i know all the way from highschool who has become involved with one of the colleagues, they're very cute as friends, a casual thing they want to keep, i really like them near eachother, though, i kind of want them to be best friends forever.

the start of the night where we hung out kind of was rough for me though because i was so tired + hungry, it was a rough time sort of, but worth it.

otherwise what did i do today, someone new messaged me on rym and i added them on discord. they seem nice, and like, not immediately combative and weird (one guy added me off rym and i told him i really like powerviolence like charles bronson and stuff, idk, guyana punchline, whatever, i talked about usurp synapse for like 3 blogposts str8 i think you know what i'm into (i say, to myself)) and he was like, saying that was so lame or whatever, and i was like, whatever, and then i said that the blood brothers have a lot to do with 70s punk imo and he started hating even more, it was so ridiculous and pointless.

i do think, truly, and stand by, the thought that the blood brothers walk up to early american punk rock and use some of its ideas, dig up the bones for new bodies, fossils made wrong, excessive shambles, glittering in the night. i would like to be in that vein, playing in the much and making what i please.

i should pick up the gary indiana book, gone tomorrow, again, like tomorrow, that's good, actually, i'm going to the laundromat tomorrow, so that will be so fun!! (lol). hopefully it won't be bad.

thinking about starting a goodreads. but who cares how many books i read. only me. and that's the only opinion that counts, and i can feel it whenever i want.

the opinion is, and always will be: not enough.

listening to this record. quite good noise rock no wave stuff, can't believe i've not heard about this band sorta, there's another song of theirs i heard that i can't seem to find on bc/slsk/ but can on yt, but i'd like to dl it if possible, this song is kinda amazing:

really recalls fad gadget w/ that synth sound and the white belt stuff i like simultaneously, really cool.

i also worked more on the one song, that's been giving a lot of trouble, i'm looking forward to listening to that tomorrow, and hopefully not being fixated on it, and getting onto the other 2 i need to fix up more, and then maybe there's another 2 that i think might present less difficulty, i really think with one the big thing will just be turning the vol on the right channel guitars down, and then w/ the other it's a combination of that and some stuff with the vocals. i also did realized today that i should just turn dithering off on export and wow, my gosh, it does make things sound a touch better i think. very excited about that, all the music might just end up sounding better now, and if not, it'd be easy to just re-export some songs with the pow-r3 dithering back on again, but that should not be necessary.

god i am sooo tired, so

byebye!!!

[okenki]

💘May Newsletter💘

Hello friends!

Sorry I'm a little late with the update this month! I got pretty busy as usual aaaa but despite working a lot nothing comes out of it yet... Aaaaa it do be like that sometimes...

Goth Boyfriends will resume around the 15th on comicfury! I'm running a little late with all that I wanted to do before resuming, but I think it'll be ok. I just have to get over myself again haha aaaaaa

Secret sketchbook tour will be up around the 20th, as usual! With this one I'm a little late too (i barely started!!!) but I will deliver no problems!!!

Also I am still uploading every Sunday on my yt channel! I'm trying to (slowly) improve the quality of my vid, but it's all new to me so sometimes it drops instead lol...

Anyway!!! I hope you're all doing alright!

xoxo,

ken

[frostbite-the-bat]

Btw speaking of Shadow Filbo and Bugsnax - that one thing that got attention to my YT Channel -

I think I'll start like removing comments and like. Making videos so that you can't comment on them. At first when it was just my friends and just fellow fandom people typically my age and people I could recognize it was cool and fun to reply to everyone but now I have hundreds of little fucking iPad children commenting incomprehensible shit I couldn't care less about or attempts to be funny or make memes in the comments that add NOTHING to the video - that all annoys me to no end. No fuck off this isn't content for little kids. Come back when you're at least 13 please. I'm not here to fucking babysit you my god I hate that I forget that YouTube is the main ground for little kids in fandoms

Like yes they deserve their own spaces... The internet has been dwindling in safe spaces for kids... But BUDDY. My YT is NOT that I'm NOT a "content creator" I'm a fucking artist and some guy who just uploads random videos and memes they make there. I'm so annoyed by this shit I'm happy people notice my work but the slight popularity I got for a while is annoying and stressful and now that it's gone I can be at peace again but. It leaves my channel to be a fucking kindergarten like please the only good comments I get are from my good friends the rest is just kids saying "LOL I'M TRUCK FREAK" on that one meme I uploaded

Anyways don't do yt like me in the past actually tryna get out there it's a mistake I'm so glad I just randomly effortlessly slap my shit there like bruhvhvhgghggghh

[tianaluxtalks]

I told myself that I have to get back to journaling and didn't really know where to start...should I write physically with pen and paper or should I write in my Google docs like I used to in the past...but finally after a talk with God, here I am. On Tumblr. The OG journal pad I used to used back in the day. (LOL) Anyways, I told God that I wanted to be able to monetize the things I do using this new Mac that I bought so through sitting down and writing on this website, hopefully the thoughts will come and I will be able to build an online community that will appreciate the words I have to share. (Patreon maybe?) Who knows, but I'm just here getting it all out and seeing where it takes me. I hope to make this a daily, if not, an every other day habit so that I can form some sort of discipline in getting out whatever is on my mind. I used to be in therapy and no longer go, but I remember before them telling me the importance of writing and journaling so I'm do it....Here we go!

I watched this video of my younger self today taking about Eating Your Fruit on my YT Channel (TIANALUXTALKS) and it really just inspired me. It's like sometimes you just have to remind yourself who tf you are sometimes and it just made me think about the things I was really into. I used to be so health conscious and into my health (& mental) and I really wanna get back to that. I want to be able to be a reflection of the positive thoughts I have roaming in my head. And I also want to leave behind physical proof, evidence, and trails of the things I said I wanna do so I can go back and see how far I've come. Not only that, but today I had this talk with a friend about how I wanna start a vlog and she thought it was a really good idea but little do she know I already have one...My other friend also reminded me to go check it out because they said they checked my link tree. Mind you, I haven't been on my link tree in I don't know how long! LOL. So It's like wow, I have all these ingredients to make a cake, but I'm being so stubborn and acting lost as if I'm not a professional baker ...if that makes sense. lmao. But anyway, I want to use all these tools I have to manifest something new and creative in my life. I have many different influences and people I can emulate, but really I want whatever I have in my mind, thoughts, and soul to come out to be an original work of art.

I have so many different outlets I wanna do.

Firstly, I wanna go back to making videos on my Youtube. Once I decide my niche for what I'm going to talk about on my channel when I relaunch it, I want to eventually turn those post into a Patreon subscriptions for those who want to pay for deeper content. I already have my IG page set up for the inner BTS content I want to share that correlates with my YT channel. I have notes on my phone about how to market things, creating reels, shorts, going live, etc so once I come up with scripts and ideas of what I wanna talk about, it will all get posted. I'm gonna use Chat GPT and astrology to really figure out what's really going to get things going because I'm that type of girly so yeah.

I already have this brand that I'm sticking to which is TIANALUX, & then everything that comes after that will be the branches under that. So TIANALUXART is one, TIANALUXTALKS is another etc. I'm gonna change the picture of TIANALUXTALKS to that same picture I use on my main IG page. I'm going to create a new introduction with reggae/dancehall mashup song with my picture and my art to be my new intro video for Youtube. (I'll work on that tonight)

(SB: I think I'm gonna take a break from posting on @tianalux OR just post my travels and when it comes to marketing use that page to carry over interested people etc.)

I need to start promoting myself and getting into groups on FB as well to find likeminded individuals to support what I have going on.

What else, what else...

Hmmm, I'm stop here for now & come back!

[nightcall99]

Notes from 2.7.24

I parked right in front of the entrance to the primary school near my work. When I drove home at 5:30pm, it was dark out. I noticed the main office building was empty but the lights were still on.

I think the 2% I was running on just went down to 1%. Emotionally, I have nothing left. I don't have empathy for anything anymore. I fake it a bit, for that sense of normalcy but it reminds of when Clea was talking about how she saw a dead cat and felt nothing. AL's budgie isn't doing well, she had to take it to the hospital and it's probably dead today. I haven't checked in with her and I don't care. Another co-worker's friend passed away. My aunt got hospitalised for a stroke. My mum's started on BP med. None of it is real. No one is here.

Some people, maybe, are still here. I've been suspecting for awhile that Con the junkie might be. He was high on ice today and asked me for a glass of water. When I gave it to him I noticed he was carrying a book about dreams. He said he wanted to learn about how to control them/become lucid, how to manifest things etc. He offered to lend it to me but I declined, then he walked off singing '...Katherine, I see her on a boat, no, I see her on a plane...". He has this energy about him. A customer gave me a fake smile once and he called it out and started freaking out LOL. He was like "THAT'S A FAKE SMILE. THAT WAS FAKE" and got really angry on my behalf. Last month, he wrote a love letter to NM. On the second page, it got really real. He wrote "I love (proceeds to list a bunch of our names) with all my heart and I always will and when everyone dies that love each other they spend life together in eternal joy and happiness. That is the spiritual heaven. I'm going to be in heaven with _ and _ and _ too and the girls that work here and the pharmacists too, and I'm going to be with all the girls and men that work at IGA (a supermarket) next door and all my friends and Mum and Dad and Grandma and everyone in heaven where there is no matter, just spirit without a body, just a spirit of light. Who knows maybe in heaven you (NM) will have lunch with me there because maybe you eat spirit food. Anyway bye for now". I think everyone was laughing at it but I teared up while reading it at the time. His grandma passed away (she made it to 95 I think) not long after. She was so cute. On her profile someone wrote 'they see me rollin', they hatin', bc she used to walk really slow like a shuffle.

Anyway, the dude from the dreams is just whatever. I saw him today and it was just small talk all day. I didn't give a fuck about his trip but I asked all the necessary questions. He kept making comments of a certain energy that I realise as I write now was just like the dream, jabs to see if I'm still here. I know he's in there but it's impossible and I'm at peace with that. It's never not going to be low vibe and I think my HS has had enough so I don't think he is going to be appearing on our rosters anymore from what I can tell. So what was the point of that? Did I really wait '15 minutes' for that? I had no expectations, other than to get to the bottom of it. And well there it is, I have. I've let go of the 3D story. Can I go now?

Also today randomly I got recommended on YT, a community message from the channel from about a year ago where Clea had transcribed the final message for that session. It was about how some of us have soured to the idea of NE but it will be everything we could ever want, and more.