#Idk if I'll be happy w this later but I'm living in the now

[theamazingdigitalraceway]

RACEWAY AU INCORRECT QUOTES

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Kinger: "Do you think God stays in heaven because he too fears what he has created?"

Abel: "What the [%$!#] are you on?"

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Gangle: "This is so sad...Bubble, play Despacito."

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Caine: "I don't know if I give the air of knowing things, but I really don't."

Seth: "Your secret is safe with my indifference.

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Loo: "Why are you smiling?"

Gummigoo: "Can't I just be happy?"

Pomni: "Jax crashed on the final lap."

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Pomni: "Caine and I don’t use pet names."

Ragatha: "I see. Hey, what do bees make?"

Pomni: "Honey?"

Caine: "Yes, dear?"

Pomni: *sweats*

Ragatha: "Don't ever lie to my face again."

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Pomni: "MY LIFE IS IN THE HANDS OF AN IDIOT!!"

Caine: *gesturing to himself and Seth* "No, no, TWO idiots."

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Gangle: "I actually have a black belt."

Ragatha: "In karate?"

Gangle: "No, from Gucci."

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Jax: "Look. I may not be a saint, but it's not like I’ve killed anybody. I’m not an arsonist (mostly). I’ve never found a wallet outside of an IHOP and thought about returning it but saw the owner lived out of state so just took the cash and dropped the wallet back on the ground."

Zooble: "Okay, that's really specific, and that makes me think that you definitely did do that."

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Kinger: "A theif."

Zooble: "Thief?"

Kinger: "Theif."

Zooble: "I before E, except after C."

Kinger: "...Thceif."

Zooble: "No."

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Caine: "Bad things keep happening to me, like I have bad luck or something."

Seth: "You don't have bad luck. The reason bad things happen to you is because you're a dumbass."

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Ragatha: "If you had to choose between Jax and all the money I have in my wallet, which would you choose?"

Gummigoo: "That depends, how much money are we taking about?"

Jax: "Hey!"

Ragatha: "63 cents."

Gummigoo: "I'll take the money."

Jax: "HEY!!"

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Loo: "WHY. why did you give Gangle a KNIFE?!"

Ragatha: "She said she felt unsafe."

Loo: "Now I feel unsafe!"

Ragatha: "I’m sorry... would you like a knife?"

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Caine: "How's the most beautiful person here~?"

Pomni: "I don't know, how are they~?"

Caine: *flustered* "I-"

Seth: *from across the room* "I'm doing great, thanks!"

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Jax: "We need to get through this locked door. Kinger, give me your credit card."

Kinger: Here.

Jax: "Thanks." *Pockets the card* "Zooble, kick down the door."

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Pomni: "Seth, can I talk to you for a second?"

Seth: "Yeah, what’s up? Lemme guess. You and Caine are having problems and you want me to teach you how to kiss?"

Pomni: *blushing furiously* "What? No, stop that. I know how to kiss. I’ve read books."

Seth: *snorts*

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Gangle: "Come on, I wasn’t that drunk last night."

Ragatha: "You were flirting with Zooble."

Gangle: "So what? They're my partner."

Ragatha: "You asked them if they were single."

Gangle:

Ragatha: "And then you cried when they said they weren't."

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Caine: "Pomni, what do IDK, LY, and TTYL mean?"

Pomni: "I don’t know, love you, talk to you later."

Caine: "Ok, I love you too, I’ll just ask Kinger."

Pomni: *realizing* "WAIT-"

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Pomni: "You have to apologize to Caine."

Seth: "Fine....Unfuck you or whatever."

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Jax: "Sometimes I drink milk straight out of the container."

Kinger: "The cow???"

Jax: "What?"

Ragatha: "Kinger, W H Y?"

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Pomni: "Do you have any skeletons in your closet?"

Abel: "You mean literally or figuratively?"

Pomni: "Honestly, the fact that I have to specify..."

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A/N: Heh, these where fun. I might need to do more

[hajihiko]

Bodyguard and Bossman

[duckiemimi]

i love what u had to say about second chances as a theme in jjk, and I don’t remember if u said anything in relation to megumi. sorry if this is incoherent or nonsensical, I binged the manga so I could be missing things!

I’m trying to think about what megumi is facing right now & how it’ll effect the plot later? I don’t think he’s as good as dead, but i also don’t think we’re getting that ultimate power re-up or whatever once he “deals with his soul” Or something 😭…

idk what I’m trying to get @ here bc i def lost my train of thought but in no way am i trying to center megumi when yuji is the mc!!!! but in a way, I think megumi was a marker of the new gen for gojo, a second chance? i think saving megumi once more could also reflect the passing of the baton. if this makes any sense? beyond my frustration with the unnecessary megumi hate, i think gege’s emphasis on megumi’s lack of will makes a lot of sense & is deliberate. i would’ve loved to see the survival of megumi, esp w the help of gojo, it would reinforce those themes of hope & community & Allie’s we saw from jjk 0!

i just really hope megumi isn’t killed off, especially in this way. i would love to hear ur honest thoughts about what u think megumi’s role in this arc is!! if u also don’t have thoughts regarding this maybe something related? thank u for always engaging

i hope ur doing well, we rlly miss u! 🩷🩷

i'm sorry for taking so long to answer! but given the recent leaks (which i hope you're caught up with before reading this), i thought it'd be nice to look back on how we thought before knowing what happens! and i'm really really happy you took the time to read the posts i've written to discuss them with me :)

268 leaks ahead, i hope you've caught up before reading!

have you caught up yet?

yes?

well! megumi is alive and in one piece! 268 felt like whiplash at breakneck speed, but you're on the nose here. saving megumi (it's fitting that his name means "blessing") is everything the last generation couldn't achieve, from camaraderie and finding meaning to life other than a cog-like role. i think both megumi and yuuji serve as a marker for the story's second chance at ending generational cycles. after chapter 265 and 266, i can now confidently say that megumi's lack of will was exactly what gege was going for. that was why he needed "saving," just like geto once did more than a decade ago. saving megumi would be saving jujutsu at this point, rectifying the "sins" of the past and moving forward with new hope. (i wrote something about geto and fatalism here! click!) after rereading some chapters, aside from geto and gojo parallels, i could even pull some parallels with kenjaku and tengen, but i'll write that piece sometime later.

yea! megumi is quite literally the blessing the ending needed! he needed to live and be saved to finish the overarching thesis of love and ending cycles!

(also, thank you for checking up on me there! well-appreciated, this made my day <3)

[wooahaes]

skz versions PLEASE

while im waiting for pasta sauce to thicken up a lil...

my immediate thought for 'older brothers best friend' is aussie bros being actual (adopted) aussie bros. reader is chris's best friend and felix is in love with them but has 0 idea how to talk abt it. where like... the seokmin-chan dynamic was "i'm worried abt how seokmin will respond :(", the chris-felix dynamic is "chris can never find out because he has so much dirt on me and i'll never live"

i like the idea that reader n chris meet in high school and just click together rly well lol and felix starts crushing on them after reader shows up to a swim meet a few years later while felix is a freshman. reader's cheering on chris and felix because they wanna be supportive and reader hugs felix afterward and he's like omg (flustered). he doesn't act on it for a while because he thinks the crush will go away, esp after reader goes abroad for school, and then they come back and felix's crush comes back in full force. all of his friends (the rest of the 00z + jeongin) know the lore by now and have been sworn to silence. there's just some sort of rekindling of things, both have matured a bit, and its kind of a "im getting to know you again and oops we're falling in love" while reader and felix scramble to keep their relationship hidden from chris (bc reader, like felix, also knows how much dirt chris has on them. neither part of this relationship will get to live with chris around)

i like to imagine that eventually it leads to a big fight because i live for the drama in fiction lol where chris finds out and he's hurt because two of the people he loves most have been hiding this from him and he feels horrible because why wouldnt they trust him??? reader calls things off with felix because they feel guilty for hurting him, felix is upset and feels guilty for hurting chris as well, and the three start to avoid one another fully after the fallout. it 100% takes the rest of their friends to trick them all into the same room and being like 'ok work this shit out because ur depressing us.' they work things out, probs w chris admitting he never wanted them to hide their relationship and he def didn't want them to break up as a result, he just wishes they had talked to him, etc. and they work things out and happy ever after :)

sorry u can tell i was thinking abt this while i was cooking sdkfhdsf

fake dating but the guy needs it instead of the reader... hmm..... god, who is the funniest option for fake dating.... my heart says seungmin if im honest because like. he feels like the type who's like "i would never get myself into that situation"

and then he turns around to reader and hes like "i need you to pretend to date me. don't ask questions." and reader (his friend and coworker) is like. uh. my guy, i kind of have to ask questions rn. and seungmin starts telling this long story about how he saw his ex out in public and they're dating someone new and they were kind of a shitty person when they dated and turns out they're still shitty bc they saw the chance to put seungmin down because ohh ur not dating anyone? of course ur not :) and hes like ACTUALLY I AM (pulls up picture of him and reader when they were hanging out) they're hotter than you :) and now he's invited to some party that he knows his ex will be at and he needs reader to go with him. readers like whats in it for me tho other than showing up ur bitchy ex. and seungmins like idk ill cover one of ur shifts.

thats not enough and he ends up promising to take u out for whatever food afterward and covering one of ur shifts as soon as u need it (barring him having any personal emergencies/being physically unable to cover it). reader is 100% the one who kisses seungmin's cheek while at the party...

and probably also the one who yanks seungmin in to make out with him in a bedroom when they hear seungmin's ex wandering around for him. they absolutely pull away and are fine right after its all over. the two probs keep up the fake dating for a while w the PDA becoming more and more common until seungmin just looks up one day and hes like

holy fuck. we're just like... actually dating now arent we.

they r idiots together <3 mwah mwah

[ricksanchezsimpaccount]

ok thoughts on the new episode,

SPOILER WARNING obviously

although honestly I don't think I'll be saying anything that others haven't already said haaaaa

anyway finally, a chance for morty's new VA to shine, and GOD does he. I love the way Evil Morty talks, idk why but that bored "uh huh" when Rick tries shooting him several times is soooo funny to me. he killed it and so did ian cardoni (the way he screams "I'LL KILL YOU" after slow mobius' death OOOOOUUUU CHILLS)

i honestly did not expect to see Evil Morty again, and even though I'm kinda sad he didn't get the lasting peace away from Rick that he wanted, he is a DELIGHT to see in action!! i love his interactions w Rick, it's so interesting having a Morty that's on par/better than Rick. although I'll be honest....he kinda feels like a Rick himself, especially w the cybernetic augmentations he also has--at least to me. Wonder if that's going to be brought up again later down the line, something about becoming the monster you fight against i LOVE how we got to see his backstory finally, like others have said I'm really happy that he was just a "normal" Morty. his Rick wasn't anything special. he literally was just a Morty who finally got sick of Rick's shit. i loved the reveal too, bc they DID have me going for a sec there, I thought who we were seeing was OUR morty Indiana Jones Rick 💘💘💘😳😳😳😳😳💦 that's all I'm saying on that And ok, DO I think Rick Prime is dead? like ACTUALLY dead? Honestly...yes. At least I hope so. I think it'd be FAR more compelling for Rick to be like "...now what?" and for the show to actually explore and unpack that, over it being like HAHA SURPRISE RICK PRIME'S NOT ~REALLY~ DEAD you know?

Because yeah. He got his revenge, the revenge he's literally been chasing...basically his entire life, like...since his, what, 30s? And it didn't feel good. It didn't fix things, it didn't make him feel better. He feels as empty as he did before and NOW he doesn't even have a goal to strive towards anymore. There's nothing. And I feel like the ending of the episode did a REALLY good job of portraying that just numbness. He probably fantasized about this moment the WHOLE time and it absolutely didn't live up to it. It wasn't glorious or feel liberating, he just ends up covered in blood and feeling more hollow and broken than before. That's just...kinda how trauma is Morty at first hesitating to touch Rick but eventually hugging him anyway was so sweet ;_; Anyway as for the cinematography of the episode itself...absolutely stellar. Great fights, the SCOPE of everything, the backgrounds and settings, it's wild how much this show has popped off with its animation (it's honestly so funny seeing them stitch in clips from Season 1 in there bc the CONTRAST in animation quality is astounding. its like when artists on twitter do the "my art from 10 years ago vs now" comparisons LOL. LITERALLY, SEASON 1 WAS 10 YEARS AGO). The just dead silence as Rick punches Rick Prime to death (only sounds of course being rick talking and punching), the whole exchange that happened during it, how just downright BRUTAL it was, that entire scene was crafted so well, and others have pointed out the significance of Rick literally beating Prime to death with his bare fists instead of using his tech or weapons or anything, which i feel like was definitely on purpose, and i love man this post ended up longer than i anticipated I'M SORRY. THIS EPISODE DESTROYED ME EMOTIONALLY AND I LOVE WHEN THIS SHOW DOES THAT ✌✨ MY BRAIN'S BEEN BUZZING. IF YOU READ ALL THIS RAMBLING THANKS I GUESS HLFDKSJFH

[yinyuedijun]

Hello mao! Just read your new fic (translation). Firstly, i think you write in a rather intelligent way, which is rare on this app, and i really like it. It adds depth and makes me feel more invested in the story.

Secondly, talking about native languages; in my case, despite growing up here my whole life, i still can't speak my native language (konkani) out of fear I'll get the grammar wrong. The same goes for the other language i grew up learning (hindi). I can only understand both the languages for most part, after learning it in school and listening to other people speak, and some basic communication. My parents, although being natives from here, grew up in different parts of the country and later settled here. Hence i ended up learning English as a default. When I went to live in a different state for college, my friends there would ask me to speak a few words to them in konkani but i was too embarrassed to say anything, in a way that I'd find it strange hearing those sounds from my mouth (and pronouncing something wrong).

Idk if this is similar to experiencing cultural loss. I feel stupid that i grew up here and yet feel rather detached to my culture for most part. Even more so after being more exposed to online fandoms, because whenever my country comes up, my culture is something many would've not even heard of. It's kind of like a minority of sorts.

Okay sorry this is such a rant i hope this isn't a problem (just felt i could share this here)😭

Thanks for reading all this if you did.

hi nash!!! thank you so much for reading translation, I'm glad you found it well-written and engaging 🫶 I actually feel there's a ton of skilled writers with intelligent writing styles on this app actually 😅 but it's an honour that you feel I am among them!

I do totally feel that what you are describing is for sure a kind of language loss! I had a couple of other people share similar anecdotes; they didn't leave their country per se but they moved within the country or they were educated in english and now they have a very hard time with their mother tongue. the dialect that I speak is actually in decline in its literal originating city due to government policy. language loss can in happen so many different types of contexts but I think so many people who have experienced it can relate to, like, the anxiety over getting it wrong, or the embarrassment of not being at the level of a native speaker level even though you are technically native speaker. and I feel one's relationship w language can get so strange if no one else has heard of your language in these online spaces, because then it's almost like a part of you isn't seen!!

anyhow what I'm trying to get at is, I'm very grateful that you read my fic and I'm so happy that you felt it resonated ! thank you so much for sharing your experiences w me 💞💞

[besidesitstoowarm]

"The Eleventh Hour" thoughts

this is such a fun, explosive opening to the season and the new era as a whole. moffat episodes always leave me w so many notes so i'll try to get through this normally

so we see amy's beautiful dilapidated garden, the broken bench and overgrown ivy, while mournful singing plays overtop. fairy tale imagery that will carry us through to eleven's very last episode (and even into twelve, altho twelve has a more straightforward aesop fable thing going on). baby amy is praying to santa about the crack in her wall and i think this is a good intro for the kind of kid she is, the one who asks a larger-than-life half-fantasy man for help. she doesn't ask god, she asks santa, so of course she imprints on the doctor, who at this point is far more like the latter than the former

"are you a policeman?" "did you call a policeman?" eleven is very good w baby amy! he doesn't brush her off, he wants to comfort her in a language she understands, so if she mentions the police, he'll meet her there. she feeds him, montage of him thinking it's all ickyucky. fish fingers and custard you nasty ass. "amelia pond, like a name in a fairy tale" there we go. she gives him an apple w a face carved in and he keeps it even tho he already said he hates apples now

"prisoner zero has escaped" this would have scared the fuck outta me at age 7 so she's honestly being really brave to me. he promises to be back in 5 minutes. she packs up a suitcase, puts on her coat, sits outside waiting. and waiting, and waiting. a door at the end of her hall opens wider and wider

we skip forward! coma patients all saying "doctor" on repeat. hi rory. adult amy! she doesn't say who she is and says amelia hasn't lived there in 6 months and eleven keeps insisting it couldn't have been 6 months. there's a room she can only see in the corner of her eye and she goes inside and there's a fucked up evil eel in it. it's fine. he realizes she was lying about the 6 months thing and says "why did you say 6 months?" and she snaps back "why did you say 5 minutes?"

"i'm the doctor, i'm worse than everybody's aunt" that tracks. he uses rory's phone to track prisoner zero and wants to meet up w amy's handsome friend jeff to steal his laptop. rory is not happy about this assessment. eleven busts into jeff's room and snags the computer and says "get a girlfriend, jeff" in response to whatever he was looking at. he joins a worldwide genius zoom call or something idk

they go to the hospital and olivia colman is there! she's credited as "mother" and she is in fact mothering. "the pandorica will open," she says, "silence will fall" i am so excited. eleven tricks her into revealing herself and she gets arrested and then he demands the atraxi come back bc how DARE they threaten earth. he steals doctors' clothes and we get the iconic bow tie and tweed coat. this entire end monologue fucks so severely, it's the kind of thing moffat is so good at it and matt smith excels at performing, this fast-talking quick-witted sharp-spined arrogance. lil montage of all the previous doctors. "basically, run" that's my baby right there!!

he comes back two years later to pick up amy and she deliberately does not mention it's the night before her damn wedding. he says he's been alone too long and wants company, very hard left turn from the time lord victorious but it makes sense. she agrees to come and i like the new tardis interior :) eleven's later classic-style interior is my fave but this one is nice too. eccentric ass. next ep is one of my faves!

[djservo]

but I 🙋‍♀️ know what YOU did LAST SUMMER... and you weren't painting your nails bright orange to match the golden hour!!!!! yes, it's me (!!!) your frivolous nail anon coming back (it wasn't me b4 so don't worry 💁‍♀️) to wish you HAPPY NEW YEAR DEEJAY!!! 🥳 was going to send you merry christmas cause I wanted to chit chat 🥺 but gave up cause 1) didn't want to bother you again this year, and 2) I BAKED A CAKE!!!! kinda of... 🥴 are u going to cook/bake something today? I wanted to make a dessert with some leftovers but... things are a bit weird?? idk 🤸‍♀️ what you've been reading?? I wanted a kindle so bad but it's SO EXPENSIVE but so practical 🧘‍♀️ I'm not that much of a reader so that's why I never mentioned anything🧍‍♀️but I wanted to have something else to say, hope it doesn't bother 🤠 also to honour the nickname I just gave myself I'm planning on repainting some nails that I bite off but now I want to use silver glitter instead of my current mint-pastel-green, BUT also want to go back to orange even tho it WILL stain my nails 🤔 what do you think? are you going to get something shiny ✨ to celebrate? So sorry for the size of this 🫣

Omg HIIIII CUTIE 💗 you must realize that I Live for chit chat - frivolous or not - and you're Never a bother so get that thru ur pretty lil head right now 🤬❤️‍🔥 AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! 🪩🎊‼️ (rest of my long-winded response below 😘)

what kind of cake did you make!!! I didn't make a single cake in 2022 but I've been missing the drama of it all so maybe this is the year! My sister's boyfriend loves cake and chocolate and ultimately seems to have the palate of a child so maybe if our schedules and paths collide during his birthday (they live in a different state), I'll bake him a rich chocolate cake like the one bruce is made to eat as punishment in matilda (it's also just always been a dream of mine to try something like it — two birds, one delicious stone 🎂) I'm all cookied-out from christmas so I didn't bake anything for NYE, just went with a classic charcuterie moment, popcorn made with ghee, & ofc grapes at midnight 🧀 🍇

I just did my lil december recap w imo so those are all my most recently finished reads, but currently I'm maybe a third of the way through The Dylan Dog Case Files 🧟‍♂️ I'll probably read another issue today and then later start Nobody Knows My Name by James Baldwin — I have his collected essays and the papers are so paper-thin like a bible (probably to save money/density since it's 800+ pages) so I'm pretty cautious when I read from it bc I worry about tearing a page simply by turning it too fast😟📖 although I'd love to see bezos burned at stake I do unfortunately adore my kindle & would totally recommend u ask for one next birthday/holiday 🎁 I actually asked for a refurbished one specifically, partially bc it's cheaper but also bc I've become more conscious about e-waste throughout my adult years of consumerism 🚮 I think it was $70-$80 and it works perfectly - I already have like 15 books (and I'm talkin thick ass books) downloaded so far and I haven't even made a dent in my storage — the possibilities are endless ‼️

ANYWHO Im obvi late on weighing in, but all those options sound so pretty so I'm sure whatever u chose turned out beautiful 💅 I was thinking about doing little metallic stars but I didn't find a pocket of extended patience throughout the day to execute it so I ended up not painting my nails at all 😴 I've been in this Almodóvar state of mind lately so I've kind of been craving a classic sultry red, but then I think about the inevitable horrors that come with removing red nail polish (isn't it supposed to be the hardest to remove? Or is it blue? I happen to love both 🥀)

[goldammerchen]

Any Feliks or Tolys ideas? Idk if you need something more maybe postwar

Anything psychological headcanons

I'm afraid I can't think of anything that isn't related to my pony [Gil] <-one trick pony, tunnel vision.

Tolys isn't happy to be stuck with one of his biggest historic enemies to at least 1953--I pull satellite countries out of Moscow, I need them living the cold war in the own houses with their own people. Soviet countries can at least visit a bit of course, for the same reason. I know that in heta logic it makes sense that occupied/absorbed/dominated/under influence liVe with the countries in power, I still like nation-people and their own people more. P.s.1.; P.s.2.; P.s.3. What I was saying. Right. I'm not sure about my hcs about what Tolys did during W/W2 to be honest, I'll leave it at that, bc I don't think I'll ever be sure / have a solid hc. But back to the point, Gil isn't mfing Prussia anymore, doesn't have that power, so this is back to something more akin to the time where he was the duchy, but not really--the point is that calmed down a bit finally, had to be dissolved into acid first tho :P*. Tolys reluctantly will care and tolerate Gil more .

*not really obviously, I love that joke. I don't think he was even executed, just had a stroke while being a prisoner and was like WTF happened, only learning later about the dissolution (reaction after).

Feliks, I am semi more sure about what happened to him during WW/2, and he is obviously fucking mad with Gil, whose "help" as I have mentioned in fics sucked: beating the living daylights out of him and then letting him go, or even fake (or real!) executions. As time passes, his disposition(?) about Gil is similar to Tolys; this is akin to the Commonwealth but not really. Through clenched teeth will hang around more Gil again, at first bc Ivan forced them (same with Gil and Tolys, not editing that), but later is like. "Wanna see what I am doing with MY place"? (Parallel to Gil saying humiliating shit about the partitions before). Or Gil hiding from his govt in Feliks' place. Or Feliks hiding from his govt in Gil's place. Or Feliks going to one of his beaches only to find East German tourists naked, including Gilbert ("not you too!!!") (I read about that somewhere lol). Or something about East Germans + Gilbert buying too much shit in Poland, but I don't remember that well.

Couple previous posts (tagged as poipru to find easier between the fanart lol)

[bbael]

hiii 🖤 i missed u,,, I’ve wanted pop by and say hello for so long now and always think of you <3 but i have been generally dead to the world for a little while now sdjsdjsdj im fine tho !! but life has just been beating my ass fr these last couple months 💀

anywho !! here i am using my last ounce of energy to lovingly scribe you a message, written in my own fair blood of course, on an ancient parchment,,, but the little bat i paid (in beetles) to deliver you my letter got lost; so im forced to type my message to u here instead, which will have to do 🙄 (sillyness)

but how have u been dearie!! i myself have not been up to much during my expiring, but the sun has started to come out again, and the bluebells where i live have started to bloom, and my pet doggy is loving to sunbathe, so those things are good. i saw a concert too the other month and have another booked for next year ! and am contemplating booking einstürzende neubaten for later this year, but i genuinely have nobody to go with that could stand it 😭

as always and forever, love u lots, and hope you have been well,, i feel so bad for not messaging for so long now, but please know i have thought of you every day 🖤 sending many of hugs, & till later my dear !! 🖤

Hiii oh my god, getting this ask a couple weeks(?) ago was such a relief hon because I was starting to think you were actually dead, like not even kidding I was concerned 😭 so good to hear that at the very least u lived and are well enough to make it to here my humble ask box.....

Literally praying for the bat bc girl is he okay :((

But I'm glad over your side of the world things are getting warmer, I yearn for the sun as much as your doggy might tbh :(. (Puppy sunbathing is such a wonderful visual too omg...)

Hope you're spending lots of time outside and making the most of it! Here's cooling down pretty fast and I'm shivering 24/7, I hate it and hate being bundled up in 500 layers >_<.

I can't believe you have the chance to see EN this year omg... I would so go with you 🥹🖤 ur hanging out with the wrong ppl hon..... I hope u can still go though, live my dream please~

& how are you now?? You still half-dead and busy or already doing better? 🥺 I need more updates, felt like forever truly..

My life has not been super exciting either....

Idk if i got to tell you about my latest development which was that a while ago I started working as a prof, finally. Had it coming for years but felt so damn unprepared.... it's been embarrassingly easy though, I'm very happy with how things turned out and just getting 2 hours here, 1 hour there at different schools for very short term periods while I keep my half-time on the place I was already working at 🥹 sounds busy as hell but it might be the most free time I've had in years lol.

I'm sorry if I already told you that btw, can't remember at all and I must sound like a broken record if I did ahhh

I'll also be moving couple provinces away soon which is,,, amazing...unbelievable even! But I'll update on that as it happens bc I really am too anxious to even think bout it atm lmao

Anyhow,, I really really I'm so unbelievable glad to read from you my dear 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤 you have no idea,, I was sending my little moths to find you 😔💔🥀 holding u in my arms tightly so I don't lose sight of u as easily omg.

Really hoping things are well over there and that you are having a much easier time now ;w; sending literally all my love like leaving none for nobody else, mwah 🫀

[fagbearentertainment]

i forgot to do this earlier uh. Michael :]

It's a little difficult choosing what exactly to say bcs like. in my ideal world, William would've been a good father to his kids. so Michael finding out that he's a murderer would feel. So out of left field. Like what? how the Fuck is she supposed to cope w this info. Does she tell her sibling(s)? Does she deal with it on her own? What the fuck does she Do

Then a meeting w Springtrap ...... She's there to ask about the murders and he's just happy to see his child's okay w/o him. Asking her if she went to college, any crushes? how are the others doing? idk. i think this would fuck w her pretty bad

But we dont live in the ideal world so uh. fuckin whatever i guess lmfao

In canon. Im a huuuuuge Michael found Charlie's body believer. idk if anyone else is but I am. She was at Freddy's to celebrate her bestie's birthday, said friend disappears and when she goes looking for them, she finds their corpse.

I also think this affected her later? Like after the MCI and when the fnaf 2 location opens up. She went to work there under an alias? I think that decision was at least partially affected by Charlie's death. like. ykno. the inital spark to an interest in Freddy's's child death problem

One last bit abt Charlie, I like to think that they and Mike grew closer after CC's death bcs. They know she didnt mean to kill him. So they promised to be there for her when it's hard :)

Anyway I'm convinced that Michael was already suspecting William of murder in fnaf 1. And that she first got the idea in fnaf 2. She kept talking about the bizarre stuff happening until William told her abt the SL bunker.

Speaking of the SL bunker, I know Mike already has a lot of trauma but I feel like for her to deliberately stand in front of the scooper when she can just. Move a little to the left. means she must have a Fuck ton of it. Basically Im saying that I find it possible that she was there (and possibly had to babysit) when Lizzie got killed.

So now she has undeniable proof that her father is a murderer and she's at least partially at fault (in her eyes) so she decides to do whatever she can to stop him before he hurts anyone else. to atone for her sins.

..erm.

On a sillier note, Michael totally became a tumblrina after she became a recluse

For everything else I've talked about, I'd taken the time in the past to like. organize my thoughts? But I've never gotten around to it w Michael so this ask is a loot messier lol oops sorry abt that

I feel like there was more i wanted to talk about but I legit dont remember right now. I'll send another ask if I remember

~Charlie anon

You 🤝 me <- same headcanon

I legit thought I was the only Michael found Charlie’s body believer, Charlie anon you have the best headcanons ever /serious

[mortallynervousgardener]

Monday

QOTD: What's your moment embarrassing moment during a time of intimacy?

Mine was today and I've never just wanted to throw myself from a building so bad in my entire life. It was just that bad, we're about to get down to business and we're just chatting because I talk to ease my mind about things, you know? I'm a little new to the sex scene after all... (definitely some details I'll be dishing out later on) and of all things to say, I make a comment about roast beef.

Yall?

WHY DID I NOT KNOW ROAST BEEF WAS AN INSULT?!?!

and now I feel terrible because I've accidentally called someone vag!n@ roast beef when I didn't even mean it like that, I just thought that's what you say when it's brown???? I have some regrets about my life, but what more can I do?!?!? I apologized and they went home, it's out of my hands now. But, on the other hand. Let's talk about men (a small disclaimer, I am a nonbinary pansexual who has never had sex with a guy, my first was literally the person I accidentally called roast beef and I can't stop thinking about it... I really want to crawl into a hole and try to will myself outta existence... Like Plankton when he was trying to think too hard)

Anyway, men. One of my best friends on campus (more info: I am a college student, and the actual drama that goes on is ridiculous. sometimes you can absolutely tell that everyone here just got out of high school because the way that they act is just WILD, but I digress) one of my best friends' boyfriend is being really shitty. I'll never understand why guys act like it's so hard to break up with a girl when they feel they need to instead of stringing her along and making her feel like there's hope for something when he's seemingly already made up his mind! Like come on, so for the past few months now my friend, we'll call her Serena (named after serena from gossip girl because I've been binging it lately teehee), her boyfriend has just been acting really off. I really wish i could go into detail about all of these things (how they met, what's going on, etc etc., it's important lore but all in good time I guess?) because, sometimes it baffles me how much my college life is actually like the movies???? Like I kid you not guys, it's wild. Ever been to a college Halloween house party? Ever seen one in the movies?

My first one was the previous Halloween and in true cliche freshman college student classic, I was a sexy angel and I got absolutely hammered. The person I was talking to at the time (same person, we're not dating and I'm fine with that. I can't handle the heat so I'll stay outta that kitchen), had to be called because there was some guy that kept following me around the party while I was literally on the brink of passing out, that's how drunk I kinda was. But, that's only one of the best things, shortly after I'd had to leave (my friends decided it was time to go because the party was dead and we were all drunk and bored, not me tho I was enamored by my "friend(we'll call them Pepe from now on, like the meme)" like I was happy to have them around. I'd invited my friends from another college to meet up with me at that party, but they didn't get there until I had to go. So, I'm on my way back to campus and a good 15 minutes into the ride, I go on snapchat just to see that the girl who shares the boarding house (idk what it's called, it belongs to the college I think and they live there) with the host of the Halloween party, her boyfriend is posted up trying to fight someone for flirting with his girlfriend!

There's always so much drama and so much shit going on, so I decided to maybe start blogging as an outlet? Does anyone still read those? Like honestly, I'd like to know. I've been binging gossip girl lately and that's something that made me want to get into it again. My other blog is a book review blog, but no one cares for that one right now.

I am however going to steal gossip girls' thing soooo

After all this you're probably wondering who i am and what in gods name im even talking about, but that's a topic for next time.

Until then, xoxo Myth <3

Alright, future Myth here and i just want to say, I'm literally in the middle of setting up my blog right? and i go to make food and I come back and check my phone to see a missed call from pepe so I call back and it goes to VM >:( I can't be mad because I get it, they're probably not going to come over for another month again but hot damn.

[justfor2am]

2-8, 16, 17, 23, 26, 29, 37, 47, 49, + 50 for the ask game 4 writers or whatever the name is? u rbed it like .5 hours ago i think n i was gna send questions when u originally did but ive had a shit day so i didn't get to until now 😓 don't feel pressured to do them all btw since theres a lot of them!! n also for any of them w specific fics feel free to do whatever fic u want :3

HELLO you are my favorite ever. actually. omg. i hope you feel better soon, i answered all of them btw so i hope this helps

2 not rpf, not beta read, angst, hurt/comfort, yeah that all tracks 100%

3 touching…. big on non-verbal communication acting as whole conversations, big on flowery language (i'm trying to cut back so as to not seem pretentious lol) also scarian. i just wanna write about scarian. they are my everything i must put them into every scenario ever.

4 in 7th Sense how i named all the andriods. scar is GT-2319, numerical code for GTWS. doc, pearl and ren all have similar naming themes lol

5 i'll befriend you in reverse, why the hell is scar stuck in the woods? despite being a powerful fae, he can't leave the enchanted woods, they're like a physical part of himself that has its own sentience and desires. essentially, a deal he made when he was young turned sour, and now the forest follows him everywhere. the woods want scar to live as long as possible, because he's what keeps the woods alive.

6 so soon enough, you'll find you never knew me at all this fic could be seen as a companion to another i wrote, where grian's the second ever Watcher to be "born" and not "chosen". the "void" scar sees in grian? it's a Watcher-side effect.

7 a million dreams for the world we're gonna make, again lmao. this was my first ever HC fic, and i sometimes find myself thinking about that lonely citadel grian's floating on in the middle of the void, akin to a giant bird cage for him to grow up in, alone.

8 It's Never Enough by we are the dirt, i'm really tired rn but i'd be happy to go into why this BANGS if you'd like tmmr

16 idk if you can tell, but i am in fact an enjoyer of actor au!s. give me more, actually.

17 this is a fic i've been TRYING to write but chapter 2 eludes me still: grian's an avian in a world that fears and despises hybrids, he grew up raised by vexes because the rest of his nestmates and mother were slaughtered before he was born, he grows up causing minor problems for human villages to pass the time until he's eventually caught by a trapper, scar. here's chapter one

scar's a vex hybrid himself, but hides it in order to scam his way through life. grian, trapped, is now at the mercy of a mad scientist who, in his desire to quell society's fear of hybrids, wants to dissect him. grian blackmails scar into helping him stay alive and tries to escape, eventually the two finding common ground.

oh, also mumbo's the mad scientist. he makes dioramas of mobs and decorates his lab with them for fun.

23 honestly, a proper superhero au. at least a one shot, but specifically for the romantic tension.

26 no dialogue, easy. honestly i kinda wanna write one with no dialogue just as a challenge.

29 i made a couple of playlists for my actor au, here's some notable songs from grian's and scars':

grian: Don't Assume What You Don't Know by Grace VanderWaal jealousy, jealousy by Olivia Rodrigo You Stupid Bitch by girl in red

scar: SCOOP by Lil Nas X feat. Doja Cat Why'd You Only Call Me When You're High by Arctic Monkeys Boyfriend by Dove Cameron

(again, very sleep, happy to go into more detail later)

37 skeleton is the best fucking fic i've ever written and i will forever stand by that. yes it's short. yes it's a one-shot. please don't let that deter you, it's the best scar characterization i've ever done in my life. read it. please.

47 though i've closed my eyes, i know who you pretend i am is a pair of steel-toed boots. once perfectly shined and polished, a seemingly important royal crest stamped on the outer skin of the tongue, but the silver has seen better days, worn down from exposure to the elements. still, they are well loved, the original, now somewhat ratty laces tied in double knots, a bow on each shoe still low enough to threaten tripping. these shoes are still in continual use, despite being told a fancier pair would be a smarter choice. no, he quite liked these ones, thank you very much.

49 i'm meant to be working on chapter 19 of my actor au, butttt i've not started so have some bullshit i just came up with instead:

The pair had set up rules for a good reason.

"You're staring again."

One of them had a inclination towards a poor memory.

"Is that a crime?"

Grian could only hope Scar would try and remember.

"It's about to be."

50, answering 25 as a cheeky bonus: https://www.onelook.com/ is a GODSEND. the thesaurus page? heavenly.

[got a question?]

[noxtivagus]

i love my ocs so much 🥺

[shiftingparadise]

hi!! i rly love ur writing style & was wondering (idk if this has been done before) if i could request a canon world levi x reader where they both have an established relationship but never put a label as to what they are, but one day they spent a ~night together~ & later on reader finds out shes pregnant & there was only one idea of who the father could be. so being scared of the reaction she'd get from levi, she starts distancing herself then eventually deciding to keep the baby she leaves the scouts all in all. fast forward a year or so, hange, erwin, levi & some other scouts visit around the place u now lived in & bumped into u & ur child. the trio happy for ur new life, ur left alone w levi to catch up with & he silently wonders who the father of ur child is & looks closer that the child notably resembles some of his features. later that day, levi finally pops the question of who the potential father was & if it was his in any way his kid & u finally confess that u wanted to keep the child safe & that u were scared he'd get angry & such, although levi gets upset u kept the secret from him hes not entirely mad at u, but continues to help/support ur new family. angst + happy ending pls😪sry if that was a bit long but i rly liked to see how u would adapt this😭❤️‍🔥 i hope u have an amazing day!!

Hi! Thank you for the compliment 🥺 it really means a lot to me when you guys enjoy my stories. I hope you like this one!❤️

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'No, stop', you giggled, 'I really have to join the others'. Levi pushed you further on his desk, 'I'm your Captain, and I'm ordering you to stay here', he smirked while placing a sweet kiss on your temple, 'Besides, you don't need to hear all of Hange's crap'. 'But I like to hear her stories about Titans', you protested, 'More than you like spending time with me?', Levi tilted his head, his disinterested gaze caught you by surprise. 'N-no, of course not', you quickly replied, 'You're more important to me, you know that'. Levi chuckled, 'Relax, I was just playing with you', his hands were now holding your waist, 'Wish I didn't need to go to that meeting'. You looked at him, cheeks red from his touch, 'Why?'. 'Oi brat, I know you're not that dumb. You know damn well I'd rather spend some more time with you', Levi let go of your waist, crossing his arms. 'Sorry', you rolled your eyes, 'Wouldn't kill you to say something nice once in a while'. You jumped off his desk, picking up your coat from the chair in front of the desk, 'See you later'. 'I'm sorry', Levi's voice sounded sweeter, more caring. You could feel his hand resting on your wrist. 'Huh? For what?', you turned back around to look at him. 'You're right. I suppose I could be a bit nicer to you', he sighed while rolling his eyes. 'You can't be serious?', you smirked, 'You? Saying I'm right? That's a first', you giggled while throwing your arms around his neck. 'Tch, don't make me regret it brat', Levi quickly placed a kiss on your nose, 'Now leave, you're distracting me'. It sounded harsh, but the way Levi was caressing your cheek while saying it made you realize he cared more about you than he showed. You nodded before turning around. 'I'll see you around', you waved goodbye while walking towards the door. 'Ai, see you later kid', Levi's voice echoed through the air before you closed the door, causing you to smile. You loved it when he called you 'kid', it was something he didn't call anyone else, it made you feel special.

You headed over to the cafeteria, where you joined your friends at the table.

'Hi guys', you waived happily at everyone before sitting down. 'Were you with the Captain again?', Ymir asked coldly. 'Always so straightforward Ymir', you said agitated, 'Were you or were you not?'. 'I was', you rolled your eyes, annoyed with her nosey behavior. 'Are you two together?', Connie quickly followed. You hesitated before answering.

You didn't have a clue of what you two were. You hadn't slept together (yet), but the Captain called you into his office more than necessary, he kissed you, made it obvious he cared about you, ... He even put you in his squad just so he could protect you (or just to keep an eye on you).

'Yoohoo? Y/N?', you could see Ymir waiving her hand in front of you, 'Stupid over here asked you a question', she pointed at Connie with her thumb. 'Hey!', Connie bent over the table to look at Ymir, 'Watch it!'. 'Yeah, yeah, whatever', Ymir rolled her eyes, 'So? Are you together or not?', Ymir took a bite out of her bread. 'Are you together with Krista?', you coldly replied before taking a sip from your tea. Ymir was gritting her teeth, looking at you as if she was going to kill you. 'Yoohoo', you waived in front of her face, 'I asked you something'. You could hear everyone laughing when you did that, causing Ymir to stand up from the table. She grabbed Krista's arm, pulling her behind her while walking outside the cafeteria.

---

It was 3 AM in the morning when you could hear someone knocking at your door. You slowly got out of bed, still yawning and rubbing your eyes when you opened the door.

'What?', you grunted, before even looking who was at the door. 'Tch', you could hear his familiar disapproving sound. 'Huh?', you quickly looked up to see Levi leaning against your door frame with both of his arms crossed. 'W-what's wrong?', you were worried that something had happened, why would he otherwise be here this late at night? Levi sighed while looking at the ceiling, 'I know it's late kid but...', 'But what?', 'I can't sleep, and you know...'. 'No I don't know', you said angrily, 'What's wrong Levi? Did something happen or not?', 'Calm down', he softly pushed you aside, walking into your room. 'I just, I can't stop thinking about you kid', he sat down on your bed, arms leaning on his legs. You smiled at the sight of him. He looked nervous, even restless, just because he said he thought about you. 'I think a lot about you too', you said softly while walking towards him, 'But that doesn't mean I wake you up in the middle of the night to tell you', you giggled while standing before him. Without saying anything, Levi wrapped his arms around your waist, pulling you closer to him. He let his head rest on your abdomen, letting out a deep sigh. You softly put your hands in his hair, gently stroking through it, 'Want to cuddle?'. 'Cuddle?', he looked up at you. 'Ai, cuddle,', you gestured him to move while you laid down, pulling your sheets over your body. 'Tch', Levi sighed before taking off his shirt and trousers, 'What?', he smirked at you, 'You're looking at me like I'm a piece of meat'. You blushed, quickly looking away from him. You'd never seen him without a shirt and to be honest, you didn't expect him to look this good. You could feel him laying down next to you, 'What are you waiting for brat?'. 'O-oh yes, sorry', you crawled in the open spot of his arm, letting your arm rest on his chest while your leg was wrapped around his body. 'This does feel nice', Levi whispered, 'But you're wearing too many clothes'. 'W-what?', you looked up at him, you could see he was smirking, 'Would be more enjoyable if I could feel your skin against mine kid'. 'B-but I'm not wearing anything underneath this', you replied. 'Makes it even better', he said softly, before tilting your chin towards him. His lips met yours, causing the room to fill up with sounds of you softly moaning under his touch. 'You know', Levi whispered in-between kisses, 'You make me crazy. You're so beautiful. I can't stop myself from thinking about you in inappropriate ways'. You pulled away from him, looking into his crescent-shaped eyes, 'Then what are you waiting for?'.

You were nervous, to say the least, but you still wanted to challenge him, just like you always did.

Levi pulled you on top of him, hands holding your waist, 'I'm waiting for you to tell me you want this too'. He looked serious, you could see he was not joking around. 'I want this', you whispered, 'Are you sure?', one of his hands placed a strand of hair behind your ear, 'I really don't want to force myself onto you, but you have no idea how long I've wanted this'. You let your hands rest on his chest, slowly leaning in for a kiss, 'I'm sure Captain, I'm ready to be a good, obedient cadet for you', you smiled. 'Start with taking off your stupid shirt', Levi smiled at you, 'I want to see all of you'.

You slowly took off your shirt, causing Levi to gasp.

'I-is something wrong?', you felt insecure with how Levi was staring at you. 'Are you kidding me?', Levi turned you around, crawling on top of you, 'You're a fucking piece of art', his fingertips were softly tracing across your body, giving you goosebumps. He started kissing you, 'I'll never get enough of you Y/N. I've never seen someone as perfect as you', his voice sounded rough, causing butterflies in your stomach. 'I-I think you're perfect too', you whispered while melting under his touch.

---

'Shit, I'm sorry', Levi grunted while laying next to you, 'I couldn't stop myself from coming inside you, you just felt so good'. 'Don't worry', your breathing was still heavy, 'It doesn't matter'. Levi slowly turned on his side, so he could look at you. A smile appeared on his face when he noticed you were still shaking, 'Come here kid', Levi pulled you towards him, holding you more tightly than ever before, 'Let's get some sleep'.

---

Some time passed, and you spent more than with the Captain. He often asked you to sleep with him because he felt calmer with you next to him. While the other cadets started asking more questions about the two of you, you and Levi never made it 'official'.

'Shit', you sighed, hands shaking, 'A-are you sure?', you felt nauseous. 'Positive', the doctor replied, 'Look, there are certain ways to-', 'No', you quickly replied to him, 'I'm keeping it, no matter what'. The doctor smiled in response, 'Well, congratulations then'.

You didn't know what to do. You knew it was Levi's, you hadn't slept with someone else ever since you met him. Fear crawled in your mind, like a poison, it crippled you. You could only think about how mad Levi would be when he found out, how much he would despise you. How he would order you to 'get rid of it'. Not one positive thought slipped through the cloud of negativity, not even once did it come to mind that Levi would be happy.

'Kid?', you could hear Levi's voice from behind the door, 'Haven't seen you all day, are you alright?', 'I'm fine', you answered without opening the door. 'Good, but do you mind opening the door when you're talking to your Captain?'. You opened your door, 'What's wrong?', you sighed. 'Huh?', Levi tilted his head, surprised by your attitude, 'I just wanted to ask if you would like to sleep in my bed tonight'. 'No', you replied coldly, even though you wanted nothing more. 'Tch, fine', Levi sighed, expecting you to say you're sorry. 'Is that all?', you replied, 'That's all', Levi lowered his eyes. He was hurt by the way you acted towards him. After all, Levi let his guard completely down with you, telling you everything about his life, what he'd been through. He'd never done something like that, he never allowed himself to care about someone like he cared about you...

You acted more distant every day. When you noticed how hard it became to hide your bump, you decided it was time to leave the Corps.

'You're leaving?', Erwin tilted his head. 'Ai, I'm leaving', you looked at the ground. You didn't want to leave, but you didn't have a choice. You couldn't fight anymore, you had to think about the safety of your child, that's all that mattered anyway. 'What?', you could hear Levi's voice from behind you, 'You're leaving?'. 'Levi, I told you this was a private meeting', Erwin looked at his friend. You didn't dare to look at him, instead, you kept your eyes focused on the ground. 'Tch', Levi sighed, 'Fine, leave'. You could hear the disappointment in his voice, the sadness, the hurt. You knew he felt betrayed. You promised him you would be there for him, always.

You said your goodbyes to your friends. Promising they could visit whenever they wished. When you saw Levi standing against the wall when you were done talking to Hange, you walked up to him. 'L-levi I..', 'Don't', his cold gaze met yours, 'You've made it clear over the past few weeks how you've felt. I hope whoever you're with makes you happy'. Before you could tell him that it wasn't anything like that, Levi already walked away.

---

'I would like some of those apples and..hm', you looked at all the fresh fruits that were displayed in front of you, 'I would also like some of those grapes', you smiled at the man. 'Would you like something else Fynn?', you looked at your son who was sitting in his stroller. It had been a little over a year since he was born, but you couldn't believe how much he had grown already. 'Y/N?', you could hear a familiar voice calling out your name. You quickly turned around, 'Erwin?'.

You could see the Commander, Hange and Levi standing behind you. All of them dressed in their regular clothes, meaning they must have had a meeting in the city with the government.

'Oooo Y/N!', Hange ran towards you quickly throwing her arms around you, 'I've missed you'. You quickly hugged her back, telling her you've missed her too. 'Who is that?', Erwin smiled at Fynn. 'Oh', you quickly grabbed your stroller, 'This is Fynn'. You avoided Levi's gaze at all costs.

You still hadn't told him that he was the father. You figured you would never see him anymore, but now that Levi was looking at you and Fynn... You could feel yourself drowning in guilt. You knew you had no right to keep something like this from him, even if he got mad...

'Oh, he's so cute', Hange placed herself in front of the stroller, looking at him in awe. 'Oi Levi', Hange looked up at the Captain who was standing behind Erwin with his arms crossed, looking at the sky, 'He has the same eyes as you'. 'O-oh, no, Fynn just has blue eyes as well, no similarities here', you nervously chuckled. 'Come, let's head over to my place. I'll make you some tea, we need to catch up', you desperately tried to change the subject. 'Ai!', Hange quickly agreed. 'You're right, it's been too long', Erwin smiled at the sight of you holding onto the stroller. 'Levi?', you softly asked. It felt strange to say his name out loud after so long. 'Whatever', Levi shrugged his shoulders.

Levi noticed the resemblances. He noticed how pitch black Fynn's hair was, how he had the same nose as him, how he had the same eyes. Levi could swear he was looking at the younger version of him. But he decided he only saw what he wanted to see, there was no way you would keep something like this from him.

----

'I'm so happy for you', Hange took a sip from her tea, 'You have a wonderful home, a cute little baby boy, and you look great'. Hange was holding Fynn on her lap, 'From now on, Aunt Hange will visit more often'. Erwin never stopped smiling. Even though he decided he would lead a different life, Erwin's mind often wandered to Rosemarie, what would've happened if he decided to stay, to choose for a more stable life. You looked at Levi, he didn't say anything, but he was looking at Fynn from across the table while sipping from his tea. 'Oi Erwin, let's get some cake or something', Hange stood up from the table, 'I also want to get Fynn something'. 'Sounds good', Erwin stood up from the table. 'What about me?', Levi looked coldly at the two of them. 'Since you haven't said much, you can stay here, catch up with Y/N. Oh, I better leave Fynn here', Hange smiled excitedly while handing Fynn over to you before walking out of the door with Erwin.

The room filled up with a tense feeling. All that there was left now was an awkward silence between the two of you.

'Well, I better put Fynn to bed. It's time for his nap', you quickly got up while heading upstairs. 'Here honey', you tucked Fynn in, giving him a kiss on his forehead, 'Sleep tight'. 'Tch', you could hear the familiar sound coming from the door. 'Levi, you startled me', you whispered. You quickly closed the door behind you, 'Come on, let's head back to the kitchen. I don't want to wake him up'. Levi didn't respond, instead, he followed you.

'Didn't expect you to live this life', he was standing against the kitchen counter, arms crossed, 'You said you didn't want any of this'. 'I didn't but...', 'But you fell in love, right? That's why you left the Corps', Levi was looking at the cup of tea that was standing on the table. You sighed, 'You're right, I fell in love', you whispered. 'Who? Who's the father?', you could feel Levi's cold gaze on your skin, 'D-did you met him when we were...'.

Your mind started to race, palms felt sweaty. You knew you had to tell him, you just couldn't keep it from him anymore. You could feel your mouth getting dry, your heart was racing, and the air felt dense...

'You are', your voice was shaking. A lump had formed in your throat while you tried your hardest not to cry. Levi widened his eyes, 'What?'. His hands were grabbing the edge of the kitchen counter. You never heard so much emotion in his voice. He sounded angry, hurt, even betrayed. 'I-I'm so-', 'No', Levi gritted his teeth, 'You're telling me.. I have a fucking kid, and you didn't tell me?', he walked over to you, grabbing your shoulders. 'Tell me this is some sick joke', but when he saw the tears in your eyes, he knew that it wasn't. 'How could you', his voice started to shake as well, 'How could you keep this from me?'. 'I-I thought you would get mad, and I just wanted to keep him safe', 'You thought I would get mad?', Levi chuckled in anger. 'So because of a damn thought, you decided you would let that kid grow up without me? Without a father?', you could feel his grip tightening around your arms. 'I'm sorry', you cried out. 'You're sorry?', he tilted his head, 'Did it ever cross your mind that I maybe wanted to be there for the two of you? That I wanted this?'. You shook your head, you couldn't speak anymore. 'If you would've told me, I would've quit with you. We would've found a nice home, together. I would've helped you with this, we would've been a team. He would have called me Papa by now... but instead, he thinks I'm a fucking stranger', Levi yelled at you. 'P-please Levi', you whispered, 'I'm sorry'.

Levi looked at you, he could see how much of a mess you were. He softly let go of you before sitting down at the table. Hands placed in his dark hair, letting out a deep sigh. For a couple of minutes, Levi just let it all sink in. Thinking about how there was nothing he could do. He couldn't turn back time, but he could be there for the two of you from now on. He could still be a father, he could still be there for the two of you.

'I'll visit every week from now on', Levi looked at you, 'I'll make sure the two of you have everything you need and more'. 'W-what?', you said softly. 'I'm mad at you, don't get me wrong... But when you left the Corps, my heart broke', you could see in his eyes how hurt he was. 'I opened up to you, let my walls down... Just to see you leave, thinking you were happy with someone else', Levi looked at the cup in front of him, 'I loved you Y/N, I still do... If you let me, I'll be everything you need and more'. You couldn't hold back your tears anymore. You placed both of your hands in front of your face, trying to get a grip on yourself. Suddenly, you felt two arms pulling you closer, 'I'm sorry I yelled at you kid. I'm sorry I made you feel like you couldn't tell me you were pregnant, that you had to go through this alone. I know it must've been hard... I just wished you would've let me help you'. 'I'm so sorry', you sobbed into his shoulder, 'You know I love you too. Not a day went by that I didn't think of you. Fynn... He reminds me so much of you. I wanted to tell you, I really did but-', 'It's fine', Levi pulled away, softly wiping the tears from your face, 'If you want I'll even quit the Corps'.

'Oi Y/N!', you could hear Hange's voice from the door, 'We've got some cake!', she smiled while heading towards the kitchen. 'Oi, what's happening? Why are you crying?', she scratched the back of her head, placing the bags on the table. Erwin stood behind her, looking with his stern gaze at the two of you, 'Levi's the father of her child', he said softly, placing a hand on Hange's shoulder. 'Oi Erwin', Hange laughed, 'Don't be so ridiculous. Y/N would've told hi-', 'He's right' you softly replied, 'Levi's the father'. You looked at Erwin, wondering how long he'd known. You knew him, Erwin always could see things others couldn't, he'd probably known ever since you decided to quit the Corps. 'Oooooo, this is just perfect', Hange ran towards the two of you, quickly putting her arms around both of you, hugging you tightly,'You and Levi, having a child together, my best friends... I'll be the coolest Aunt ever!'.

[jeyramarie]

Mr. & Mrs. Holland- (Mob! Tom Holland x Mob! Reader) part 1

summary: most powerful couple in the country but it’s not Tom you should be fearing.

w/c: 3,033

warning: fluff, kissing, angst? idk, y/n being a badass (yes... that should be a warning)

a/n: the prologue got the greatest feedback, thank you to everyone who read it. i’m so so thankful. since it did so good, here’s part 1!! happy reading everyone 🦋

The sun shined through the curtains, warming up the naked bodies that were tangled in the satin sheets. Tom’s eyes fluttered open, immediately turning his bed to see his wife laying on his chest. He smiled and pushed back a piece of hair that was hanging in front of her face. Waking up next to Y/n was his favorite feeling because to him, she was the most beautiful person he had ever seen in his life. He moved a bit to get out of bed making her stir. Her eyes opened softly to look at him and smile. 

“Morning, love.” he said softly leaning in and giving her a peck. 

“Good morning, honey.” she chuckled and bit her lip while smiling widely. Tom stood up from the bed, his butt bare making Y/n giggle. He turned around with a questionable look while she layed back down on her pillow. 

“You have a nice butt.” she giggled making him roll his eyes and make his way towards their walk in closet. 

“Where are you going?” she groaned, sitting up in bed with her back against the headboard. 

“I have a meeting with the boys. Haz told me some things have been going missing on the ports.” 

“What things?” she asked with furrowed eyebrows. 

“That supply we were gonna send to Columbia last week.” He walked out butting up his shirt, then moving to his sleeves rolling them up. 

“But… Tom, that was the biggest supply this month.. we were gonna get a fortune.” Y/n said sitting up straighter. 

“Love, I know that. That’s why I need to find out what’s going on and who did this. I’m gonna be with the boys most of the day. I’ll see later.” Tom leaned down, gave his wife a long kiss and stepped out of the bedroom without uttering another word. Y/n started thinking about a possible plan that would help her husband and the whole company. She quickly got out of bed and went into the shower where her thoughts sort of became clearer. With a towel wrapped around her body she walked into her side of the closet. 

“What the hell am i gonna wear?” she asked herself with her arms crossed over her chest. She scanned her color coded closet and finally chose a short black Prada dress. It was tight around her curves and it had a small slight on the side to show part of her thigh. Y/n put her hair up to show off her collarbone and the diamond earrings Tom had just bought her. She put on her favorite pair of heels and made her way towards the meeting room. Her heels clacked on the marble floors as she strutted to the testosterone filled room. 

She pulled open the dark brown doors making every pair of eyes land on her. Of course, Y/n smirked and began to make her way to her husband, who was sitting at the end of the table with a whiskey in hand and his fingers rubbing his chin deep in thought. When she was half way there, she turned to the bartender. 

“Martin? I'll have my usual.” 

“Dry martini with two olives. Got it, boss.” he nodded and turned to start off her drink while she smiled, turning back to look at Tom. Finally, she stood next to him, making him look up at her. Tom looked back down and stared slowly at her thighs, her hips, the day the dress got extra tight at her waist, her breast that were shaped perfectly to him, her collarbone that he desired to kiss and bite at that very moment and last, but certainly not the least, her beautiful face that made him melt every single time he looked at it. 

“Darling, what are you doing here?” He asked, smirking at his wife who was smiling widely. 

“I thought I could give you some ideas, help you out a bit. What do you guys have so far? That’s if you do want my help, of course.” she said as she crossed her arms quickly looking to her right to see Martin with her drink in hand. 

“Thanks, Martin.” she muttered and took a sip while looking back at Tom. 

“I would love to hear what you have in mind. You know I always need your help, darling.” he smiled putting his hand on her thigh and moving it up and down making Y/n get goose bumps all over her body. 

“I need to know what you guys have first.” she smirked and drank another sip from her strong beverage. Tom looked at her and chuckled, sitting straight. 

“Okay, boys… let’s tell Mrs. Holland what we have, now.” he said, strongly making Y/n feel an undeniable tingly feeling on her covered core. The next 30 minutes were spent discussing the problems and the suspects. Of course, Harrison believed it was someone from the inside spilling out details on the supply’s destination. The only thing they seem to have left is a good hideout place to keep look out. Harrison brought over some files of properties close by to Y/n. She put her glass down and sat on the armrest of Tom’s chair making him put his hand on her hip. 

“You’re planning on buying this?” she asked with a questionable look with her head turned to her husband. 

“Yes, why? Do you not like it?” 

“Is not that i don’t like it.. is that…. they’ll find you before you move in. You have to be somewhere that no one's gonna expect you to be in.” Y/n said while looking at the different properties in front of her. She took the last sip from her martini and stood up, still looking at the papers. She walked around the table in silence, every single man following her with their eyes. 

“I hate this. This… this is… what the fuck are you thinking?” she exclaimed turning around to look at Tom who was looking at her with a straight face, waiting for her to explain herself. 

“You wanna spy on someone who’s probably stealing your shit and you wanna buy a 3 million dollar mansion to do it?” she scoffed and shook her head in disbelief as her husband stood up from his chair and slowly started walking towards Y/n. 

“You have to get a place that no one’s gonna expect. Get an abandoned apartment or something. Somewhere dirty and ugly.” Tom finally stood in front of her and grabbed her waist, pulling her towards him. 

“I love the way you think, darling. I like your idea.” he whispered and leaned in to give her a peck. 

“Of course you do, it’s the right one.” she said smiling which caused him to chuckle. 

“We’ll go with that. Harrison, get everything ready.” 

“If you want something done right, let a woman do it.” she said and grabbed his face to give him a quick kiss. She pulled away and started walking towards the door. 

“I have to go, check on my employees. I’ll call you later, honey.” and with that she left the room leaving every man speechless. Y/n walked to the living room where her driver was playing cards with the maids of the house. 

“Dylan, bring the car around.” 

“Yes, ma’am.” she quickly turned around and walked back to her room to get her purse and of course, her small golden gun. She walked outside towards the car where Dylan was holding the door open. 

“Where to, ma’am?” he asked before Y/n got into the car.

“You know that apartment building close to Le Royal?” 

“Yes.” 

“I need to go there, William is waiting for me.” the man nodded and she got into the car. The ride was silent but she was mostly talking to herself in her head. Thinking of what to say and what to do when she got there. The car came to a stop making her jolt out of her trance. The door opened showing Dylan with a small smile. 

“We’re here, ma’am.” he extended his hand to help Y/n out of the car. 

“Thanks, Dylan. Stay close, please.” 

“Sure thing, ma’am. Good luck in there.” he said, closing the car door. 

“Thank you.” she smiled putting on her Dior sunglasses and walking towards the door.  Y/n walked inside and got to the elevator, going to the last floor. When the doors opened her right hand man, William was waiting for her with a bloody fist. 

“Thanks for the help, William.” 

“Anytime, ma’am.” he nodded and she made her way to the long hallway that led to a wooden door. She opened the door and was met with a man tied to a chair and another chair in front of him. 

“I’m so sorry for the delay but i’m sure my right hand man kept you company. He’s a great conversation starter. I'm sure you guys had fun.” Y/n smiled sitting down on the chair and crossing her legs. The man lifted his head with his sweaty hair falling on his face and the blood coming from his lip, dripping down his chin. 

“Yeah, fun.” 

“Do you know who i am, John?” 

“Yeah.” he scoffed. 

“Okay, do you know what i’m gonna do to you?” the room filled with silence and Y/n chuckled at his nervousness. 

“Of course you don’t. I’ll tell you anyway though.” she said, uncrossing her legs and standing up. Finally in front of the man, she placed her hands on the armrest of the chair leaning in front of him. 

“You mess with my husband, you mess with me and our company. You're not gonna get out of this so easily.” she whispered in a low serious voice making the man’s breath shaky. 

“I’m gonna bash your skull with a metal bat until it has a hole in it. You got that?” the man stayed quiet, scared for his life. Y/n stood back up and smiled. 

“I’ll see you later, Johnny.” she said as she walked out of the room leaving the man screaming out her name over and over again. She walked down the familiar hallway again, getting into the elevator with William. 

“Let’s go, Will.” the elevator door closed, it started moving and then it opened at the 1st floor. Y/n walked out first and then William behind, Dylan was already holding the door open which caused her to smile. 

“Thank you, boys.” she said as she climbed into the back seat. When the door closed her phone ran, it was Tom. 

“Hey, baby.” 

“Hello, love. How’s everything going?” 

“Everything went smoothly. How bout you? Is the plan in motion?” 

“It is. Everything is being handled as we speak.” 

“Great! I have to meet up with some business partners I wanna negotiate with so i’ll get you when i get out okay?” 

“Alright, love. We’ll talk later. I love you.” 

“I love you too, honey.” she smiled and then hung up as the car came to a stop in front of Le Royal. It was a very famous hotel that had it’s very own casino with the same name. Dylan helped her out of the car and she made her way to the entrance with William right behind her. Her heels clacked on the marble floors of the hotel lobby. Everyone stared at her in awe, only people in the business knew who she really was and what she did. They walked to the casino side of the lobby and went up a long glass staircase. It led them to big white doors that led to a small waiting room with the secretary typing quickly on her computer. Y/n walked towards her and stood in front of the counter, making the woman look up from her device. 

“May i help you?” she asked in a bitchy tone which made Y/n go serious and angry. 

“Yes, I have a meeting with Mr. Matthews.” she said coldly, giving the woman a killing look. 

“Go ahead.” 

“Thanks.” she spit out, turning and walking towards the office. Once at the door, she knocked and waited for the man to give her mention to enter. 

“Come in!” screamed the man from inside alerting William to open to the door and letting Y/N walk in first. 

“Y/n Holland, welcome! It’s a pleasure to finally meet you.” the man smiled as he shook her hand and introduced himself to William after. 

“It’s nice to meet you, Adam. Thank you so much for agreeing to speak with me. I’ve heard nothing but good things about your business.” she said as she sat down in front of his desk and crossed her legs. 

“Same goes to you. You and your husband have left a really big impression on all of us.” 

“Oh, well thank you.” she chuckled as he leaned on his elbows on his desk. 

“So, what kind of business are we talking about?” 

“Oh well. I came here to offer you a deal.” 

“What kind of deal exactly?” he asked leaning back on his chair and crossing his legs. 

“I wanna buy the hotel.” she said seriously, making him laugh dryly and shake his head. 

“I’m not selling, Y/n.” 

“You didn’t let me finish.” he stopped laughing and moved his hand signaling her to continue. 

“I wanna buy so you can be in charge of everything while I'm gone. You’d report back to me or Tom. You’d get 25% of all income.” the room fell silent, Adam kept thinking about every single scenario of what would happen if he accepted. 

“What would I be doing, Y/n?” 

“We wanna use the casino for every exchange and to sell our little things that everyone seems to love. I assure you, Adam, you’re gonna get triple the clientele if they know what you’re gonna have.” he looked at her and scratched his eyebrow, standing up without another word. He made his way towards the glass windows, looking at the city below. Y/n played with her fingers, feeling nervous that maybe he didn’t want to go through with the deal. Even William knew she was nervous. After a few seconds, Adam turned around with his hands in his pockets, looked up and smiled. 

“You have yourself a deal Mrs. Holland.” he said, extending his hand for her to shake. She stood up quickly and grabbed it, shaking it. 

“Thank you so much, Adam. You won’t regret this.” 

“It was a pleasure doing business with you, Y/n. Call me anytime to schedule the first special casino night.” he said putting his other hand over hers. 

“Of course. I’ll call you tonight with my husband to schedule everything. Have a nice day, Mr. Matthews.” she smiled taking her hands out of his grasp and walking towards the door that William opened for her to walk out. They made their way downstairs to the lobby when Y/n came to an immediate stop. 

“Is everything alright, ma’am?” William asked, standing in front of her. 

“I don’t know if you know but I kind of have a sixth sense, Will. I don’t trust that man.” she said rummaging through her purse. 

“What are you gonna do?” 

“I need you to go to the main office of this building and plug this in into one of the computers.” Y/n whispered holding up a small pendrive. 

“While you’re doing that i’ll be having a couple drinks at the bar, just looking around. Checking what I have to work with.” she said looking around. 

“I can’t do that, ma’am. Mr. Holland gave me direct orders to not leave your side.” 

“Well he’s not here right now, William. I won’t rat you out okay? But please, get me that information.” she said turning to him while taking off her glasses and giving him pleading eyes. He sighed and nodded making Y/n squeal. 

“Thank you, thank you. I’ll be in the bar, find me when you’re done okay?” 

“Alright.” he said and turned walking towards the back doors of the lobby. 

30 minutes went by when William finally walked out. He turned the corner and saw his boss drinking her martini while looking at the ceiling, the walls, the employees, the bar countertop and the alcohol bottle in front of her. Every detail was important for her, to think of different ways to work with that place. 

“Mrs. Holland.” William said breaking Y/n’s trance. She looked at him and smiled as he held up the pendrive she had given him.

“Is it there?” she asked, getting down from the bar stool. 

“Every last bit, ma’am.” he said, giving it to her. She chuckled and patted him on the chest. 

“Good job, Will. Let’s go home.” Y/n said and walked towards the exit of the hotel where Dylan was already waiting in the car. 

When they arrived at the mansion, Y/n walked straight to her bedroom where Tom was taking a shower. She took off her heels so he wouldn’t hear her walk in, unzipped her dress and tied her hair up, slowly making her way to the bathroom. The shower door was foggy but she could still see her husband’s silhouette. Y/n pushed it open and stepped in quickly. She placed her hand on his back making him jump and quickly turn around. 

“Sorry to scare you.” she whispered, making him sigh in relief. 

“It’s alright, darling.” he said as he grabbed her waist and pulled her towards him. They looked at each other’s eyes for a while until he leaned in and kissed her passionately. She pulled away and leaned her forehead against his. 

“Did you get it?” he whispered, making her smile.

“Yeah, all of it.” she whispered back knowing exactly what he was talking about. Tom chuckled and grabbed her face, pulling her into a long kiss. She wrapped her arms around her neck while he moved his to her waist. Suddenly, he grabbed her ass cheek, moving her against the wall. Both of them feeling content about they’re new multi million dollar deal.

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