#It’s sort of cyclical

[voxiiferous]

Prime Time Reruns

Anyone who’s known Vox for a very long time know there was a change in him, though there’s no clear ability to pinpoint when exactly it changed, though everyone agrees it started sometime in the early 90s. Valentino‘s seen it, Hellaina, even Alastor has seen it in its purest flashes. Velvette never knew him before the boredom set in— the closest she ever saw were its earliest phases.

People who meet him assume he’s going to be the feared and all powerful TV Overlord, like he was in the 60s, 70s, even the 80s. They expect cruelty and a joy in the suffering of Hell— and what they actually get is someone so very tired. Even his periods of self-destructive tendencies have tapered off— the USBs of Exe.stasy have gathered dust, he doesn’t seek Alastor out for a fight in the same way, his relationship with Valentino rings increasingly hollow: empty apologies, empty promises.

And he pretends that it’s all fine— he grins and he shows up on cameras, endorses the new Vogitek product. He’s the media Overlord! He’s got so much money, and everything he could ever want— don’t you? Just pay a small fee and you can have everything. Lean into the brand loyalty and you’ll be rewarded. But the performance has been getting more transparent as he hurtles towards pure and abject burnout. His own smiling face on the billboards stares down at him and he wants to tear it all down some days.

He never stops. He builds and he makes and he broadcasts everything from his spot high in his tower looking down on everything he’s made. But he doesn’t really see it either. He sees the flaws— every artist is their own greatest critic— the breakups that are becoming more frequent, sex has become a routine pastime, every time the ratings drop. And part of the problem is that there’s been nothing new in a large way. The internet was but that was the last big thing that really booked in and about the mid 90s.

It’s a prison of his own making, but he doesn’t know how to fix it either. Part of the problem is his lack of hobbies. He used to like reading, but he hasn’t picked up an actual book in decades. He loved dancing in a way he’s never really loved anything else, and he can count on less than two hands how many times he’s done it since he died. He hasn’t built something like the little trinket she made as a child since he was one.

Those are just things he has control over, not considering the fact he can’t eat or drink, and the inhumanity in that bothers him more than he lets on a lot of the time. He can smell, sort of, and it taunts him. He brings people out to eat because it makes them more easily charmed and pliable when they get free food, and yes, he’ll laugh and he makes jokes about it, but it serves as a reminder to him that he isn’t really alive.

He feels trapped— he’s retreading the same old talking points he’s said a thousand times over. The smile is forced, and nothing is a threat so he can’t focus his attention on keeping everything he’s made. It’s fine, it’s stable, he’s made it so it’ll outlive him if something were to happen.

He’s been waiting for the boredom to pass, boredom does eventually… and it hasn’t, it’s just gotten worse.

[finelythreadedsky]

this is what kills me about black orpheus (1959, dir. camus) actually. because orfeu is familiar with the story of orpheus and eurydice. early on someone even makes a joke like "your name's orpheus? where's your eurydice?" he knows the story and he knows what it means to be orpheus. and then at the pivotal moment he looks anyway because after all he's orpheus and he can't not.

[kraniumet]

noooo greg don’t make the doumeki finding out about watanuki’s staying in the shop face

[anotherpapercut]

how and when do you successfully convince yourself that the reason your friends choose to be around you is not out of a sense of obligation or even ambivalence towards you but because they see something in you that's worth spending their time and energy on

[transgirltrish]

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[starflungwaddledee]

i have a few song recommendations for your character and i don't know if you'll like them but here we go I guess

Equinoxe by C418

Meteor Shower by Cavetown

Sea of Voices by Porter Robinson

you're not alone by METAHESH

Hello My Old Heart by The Oh Hellos

*slides back into my corner of the internet*

w.. wow? WOW??

you are actually totally on the money with these vibes!! the METAHESH one in particular... holy cow, i am going nuts about that one. i personally actually adore this sort of sound, so thank you for directly me to them!

thank you SO SO MUCH for sending me in some songs... i love!!! sharing music!!! and hearing new things!!! or old things i already like!!! and knowing you thought about my oc when hearing these tracks... this made my evening!! wayayayay!

and as for some of these lyrics as well... like damn;; i might really have to draw some things for some of these if i ever get the time! the tone of them is so lovely, and some of them even make some (startling) allusions to some of her backstory that i haven't even released yet. so that's fun! here's some i really liked!

Meteor shower, quick take cover // But the hues in our hair Compliment one another I'd sell my own bones for sapphire stones, 'Cause blue's your favorite colour - meteor shower (cavetown)

Hello, my old heart // How have you been? How is it being locked away? Don't you worry, in there you're safe // And it's true, You'll never beat // But you'll never break - hello my old heart (the oh hellos)

[caedogeist-rights]

the important thing to know about genesis in crisis core is that he literally did nothing wrong. not only justified but with a valid way of doing things. he had a point.

[eugeniedanglars]

local woman makes headway on cleaning her apartment, states "everyone clap and cheer or i'll blow this whole building up"

[gojobait]

the uchiha and the senju are both cursed houses by the way. one cursed with never forgetting, and the other cursed with being forgotten. one cursed with a love so intense yet private that doesn't let anyone from the outside in, the other cursed with a selflessness so great that it lets everyone in and the clan dies out immediately after founding the village. both of them cursed with grief and both of them cursed with constant desecration from those who would seek to steal their powers, which are a curse in and of themselves.

[cashewally-sarcastic]

Do you ever think about that one sunchild who was skillful with a lyre. Do you think when the shade of time checked in on their creation, seeing them stand beside a similar musician, her heart sank deeper than her forgotten city's roots. History always repeats itself, she knew this. She was the embodiment of this. She knew this could only end in tragedy.

That hollow feeling only amplified itself once her wings' eyes spotted her child playing that bard's song

The fact that the sunchild's name was Orpheus 😔

I do wonder if there's some sort of connection w/ the Sunchildren and the archons, and if Isaroth is just watching from the sidelines. Can she do anything? Does she have to rely on humans? On outlanders? Does she still care, after all this time with all these cycles?

[agentsnickers]

my most kudosed work ever just crossed TWO THOUSAND kudos!! holy shit?!

[tillman]

I cant sleep … I wanna keep reading asanos works but honestly nothing ive picked up has gripped me like punpun and dead dead.. perhaps I should try solanin…. Or girl on the shore……………. Rolling around

[thetruekyle]

Sometimes you just gotta unwind after hitting the gym by driving out to the lake at midnight, noshin' on yer' jujyfruits and vibing to a private concert of 'Evermore' & 'Midnights' on LOUD.....

(& Love, can you count the stars all the way out here? Bet you can't, so we'll count the shooting stars instead, since there are still so many to see, just don't blink or you'll miss 'em. [<3])

[trevlad-sounds]

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Trevlad Sounds-Welcome in you wonderful listener 00:00

M3NASH-Drowned 00:31

The Metamorph-Exhibit 8 04:37

American Astro Monkey Project-Tears of Tier 5 13:03

Will Gardner-Incoherent Light 23:46

Klaus Schulze-Some Velvet Phasing 30:48

Sebby Kowal-Red Sky 38:16

Autumn of Communion-Animated Religions 43:49

Orfeón Gagarin-Salmos Funiculares Part 7 52:15

Den Sorte Død-Syndernas Förfall 55:49

[tekras-iszovh]

"= back to unreality -> 🏃‍♂️ ="

[talkingattumble]

I had a shitpost planned but it turned into bad and cringe poetry so unfortunately it can not be posted as it may risk interfering with my somewhat silly demeanor