[Context: While talking about how he lost his leg, Pac accidentally says "Felps" instead of "Cell"]
Pac: Felps— no, it was Cellbit. Guys, I got confused, it was a lot of trauma in my life, they bit my leg while I was awake and conscious. At that moment, I passed out, I don't remember if it was Cellbit or Felps, both of them were there.
"I relate to Bess a lot. I think that she is someone who is super quirky, I'm a very quirky person! Artist really struggles with feeling validationwith her art and they can be incredibly critical of themselves. And I think that Bess is someone that really cares about other people and I think I care a lot about people, too. Her temper is a little quick, for sure. And that was something that was exciting to play because normally, I try not to make anybody uncomfortable. So I think that was fun, to be a little more sharp and and to find that!" - Brittany on Bess(x)
One thing I noticed that I’ve not seen anyone else mention is Laudna’s moment of paralysed silence when she first wakes up. This moment:
Or more to the point, the voice that she uses when she first speaks.
Two lines: “I... I don’t...”, and “Have you found anything else out about your Mum?”
And both of them are delivered in a different accent than her usual voice as Laudna - in a much flatter English accent. We noticed during the previous episode that Laudna’s voice was a little more cockney and less Mid-Atlantic when her younger versions were interacting with Imogen, and that seems to have continued here.
Two takeaways.
Firstly, in this moment of awakening, Laudna is having trouble nailing down which version of herself she is. When FCG looks at her surface thoughts he sees a flip book of the memories she has been reliving in Delilah’s hellscape. She seems to be embodying a version of them in her first stuttering words to her friends.
Secondly, I can’t be the only one who’s noticed how similar Delilah’s and Laudna’s patterns of talking are. They share inflections, choices of where to draw out syllables and put emphasis. The accent is almost identical. My thesis: Laudna’s very way of speaking has been shaped by Delilah’s presence in her head for the past 30 years, until she speaks more like her than her younger self.
Oh, and one final takeaway: how freaking brilliant is Marisha Ray to have thought about this characterisation and put it into practice in this moment in an almost throwaway manner. Nobody’s noticed it, or at least nobody’s commented on it. But it says so much about both the moment and about her sense of self - now, but also when she’s stabilised. A woman transformed and shaped by Delilah in all the ways.
Finished watching the episode! I'll have more to say tomorrow (which is already written but it needs to cool down in my drafts b4 posting) but I guess it confirmed that I still love the Crown Keepers very much and I love Aabria DMing and I've been asking for a comeback for SO LONG it still feels unreal to have them back for however long they stay 💕
so im playing wayfarer and im not flirting with anyone but aeran and aurora (my PC) have been getting along and they have been taking care of him and making sure he’s ok and shit so their bond has been increasing and then i reach this threshold
and
idk yall
there was something so powerful to me about the bond being described as *loving*
like.... idk.... that really struck a chord with me and had a Huge emotional impact. and yes i know it’s just one silly little word, but ... there is something so powerful in building a loving bond with someone that really resonates with me
yes. yes please. let characters be caring and supportive and invested and found family for each other and *allow that to be called love* without there being the necessity of romance or sexual attraction.
Finally got around to buying the Nikke profile stickers I want since I keep drawing dupes! Bought all the Bow Wow Paradise ones!! It was one of my fave events bc I love dogs and dog girls and Happy Zoo and ESPECIALLY Biscuit so much. As you can see, I got all the 'dog' girls as my showcase team, too, lol:
Also, as an aside, I just got a new personal record in Overclock at level 16!! Which is why I remembered I needed to edit my profile when I went to check if it changed to 16 (I think I was at 12 maybe last time they ran Overclock in the Simulation Room).
its so funny though that whenever i tell people about my dreams theyre like wtf are you okay? and only then i realize it is not a normal experience that almost every dream you have is essentially nightmare fuel