#OUGH SORRY THIS GOT LONG

[catilinas]

Hi! I haven't been following you for long and I'm just starting to get into The Aeneid. Could you explain what you and the other anon meant when you said everyone in The Aeneid is a double of Aeneas? Like who and how? If you decide to answer could you link articles about it too if it's possible (because I'm kinda confused lol)?

the aeneid is (clearly. from its name) a poem about aeneas, so it would be surprising to me if there was any character who didn’t reflect some aspect of aeneas at least a little bit. it is hyperbolic though to say Every Character Is A Double Of Aeneas etc. or is it. eye emoji. there are definitely some characters who are More Blatantly doing doubling things like this Has Been Observed.

most noticeable is (as the other anon was talking about!) turnus. plotwise aeneas and turnus are doubles in that they are both rivals for lavinia. imo the aeneas-turnus doubling starts as soon as the sibyl’s prophecy in book 6 that in italy aeneas will ‘find a simois, a xanthus, and greek camps. in latium you’ll find a new achilles, he too a goddess’ son’ (aeneid 6.88-90 trans. bartsch) LIKE this is saying turnus will be achilles 2.0 But Also aeneas is invading italy! where the sybil says this new trojan landscape is! by taking the role of invader of a trojan landscape aeneas is also framed as a new achilles, and turnus takes the role of trojan defender i.e. what aeneas once Was! and the idea that turnus embodies an earlier (and trojan = not roman yet = defeatable) aeneas is then like. really obvious. e.g. juno tricking turnus into fleeing the battlefield to safety in book 10 as aphrodite saving aeneas from battle in the iliad. there is also the Very Famous parallel in the moment of turnus’ death where ‘ast illi solvuntur frigore membra’ ‘turnus’ knees buckled with chill’ (aeneid 12.951 trans. bartsch) repeats the line that introduced aeneas in book 1 ‘aeneae solvuntur frigore membra’ ‘aeneas’ knees buckled with chill’ (aeneid 1.92 trans. bartsch). what the fuck is going on there. like yes turnus is a weaker (and doomed) aeneas as he dies but also aeneas kills him while succumbing to furor i.e. the force/emotion consistently associated with turnus… like ok you could read it as aeneas overcoming the role of conquered trojan and becoming a hashtag victorious proto-roman via getting someone else to fill his previous role (ritual substitution on main) BUT aeneas killing turnus still ends up looking weirdly like self-sacrifice. and then the academics scream about The Ending Of The Aeneid for One Million Years.

also cool and sexy is that dido is doubled w aeneas!!! this one is kinda an obvious parallel like they are both rulers in exile. they both have dead spouses. they both want to found cities. and alas those cities are destined to be Sworn Foes :( my favourite detail of the aeneas-dido doubling though is vergil being cool and sexy w the verb ‘errare’ (to wander / to Err). the chapter on dido in j.d. reed’s virgil’s gaze (which btw i extremely recommend) says many very cool things about vergil’s Constant use of this verb for dido, including:

‘Dido’s welcoming speech ends with an even subtler and more emotional identification. Her last word—errat, “wanders”—naturally adheres to Aeneas; in his own words, for example, at 1.333. But erro is also her word, connected to her by an etymological pun: the third-century Sicilian historian Timaeus had said that the name Dido was applied to her by Libyans because of her wanderings in exile. [...] The last line of her first speech, in view of this wordplay, makes Aeneas a kind of Dido: perhaps, she fears, he wanders a castaway in some wood or city. Her sympathy with the plight of the Trojans can go no further than to cast their leader as an alter ego’. they are doubles to dido at least. 

and then aeneas seems to see them as interchangeable Enough with one another that him helping to build carthage counts as the city he is destined to found! it takes the literal divine intervention of mercury telling aeneas off for placing the High Foundations Of Carthage (which a Reader knows need to instead by the High Walls Of Rome!!! but aeneas doesn’t!!!) to get him to abandon dido/carthage. fun fact until the end of mercury’s speech where he tells aeneas ‘cui regnum Italiae Romanaque tellus / debetur’ ‘[iulus is] owed the rule of italy, and the soil of rome’ (aeneid 4.275-6 trans. bartsch) aeneas has literally never heard of rome.  and it’s mercury’s promise of italy that makes aeneas claim that ‘haec patria est’ (This Is My Land™!!!!!!) (aeneid 4.347) i.e. the verb ‘errare’ / Wandering does Not define aeneas the way it does dido and they have different fates, actually, and maybe even Wandering for Aeneas Who Must Settle In Italy IS To Err and the doubling starts to fall apart! and you’re like. but what exactly Does make aeneas and dido different. is it just fate??? bcs that fate was/is contingent on a historical Future Enmity between their cities (the punic wars) and vergil is using the future that has already occurred to say this imaginary past was inevitable, and then using the assumed inevitability of the past to say that specific historical outcome Was Inevitable Also. and that is a circle :/ and history Could have gone differently. hashtag here’s how hannibal barca can still win. like to me this is vergil implying that ‘fate’ (the fated foundation and Imperium Sine Fine™ of rome) only goes as far as the contingent historical events that you can retroactively use to justify it. and eventually you will run out of that and end up at the end of the parade of heroes in the present. and what do you (augustus) do then. (but maybe i have been reading too much lucan like the pharsalia brainrot is Real)

BUT ALSO that is kind of the point of (my beloved) virgil’s gaze by thee j.d. reed…… like that every Doomed Youth in the aeneid Could Have Been aeneas and every nation/people each doomed youth stands for Could Have Become Rome or an equivalent. do the doubles everywhere suggest that the rise of Rome Specifically is not as Fixed In Fate as it could be. maybe yeah. or that the Fated Rise Of Rome doomed every other almost-aeneas. pessimistic readings of the aeneid i love YOU <3

anyway yeah. every character in the aeneid kind of Is aeneas. if they have a dad they are Pius Aeneas (e.g. lausus and pallas. esp. pallas who aeneas even claims to be embodying when he kills turnus!). if venus is there. that’s aeneas (helen). if their humanity is sacrificed to the future augustan golden age that’s Also aeneas (turnus and also. marcellus in the underworld). if they Do Some Conquering In An Inset Narrative that is also also aeneas (hercules vs cacus, augustus on the shield of aeneas). if they found a city (or try to. or their city is the ghost of troy. but then aren’t all cities that.) then that’s also aeneas. honestly the aeneas-andromache parallels at buthrotum in book 3 make me go nuts because helenus is Right There! but vergil is like no. aeneas WILL be doubled with a doomed trojan princess who hashtag Lived Past The End Of Her Myth. wild. you can probably find aeneas anywhere if you look close enough! also wait i forgot about his GHOST. the imago of aeneas in book 10. aeneas is literally doubled in a ghostly image of himSElf while he is Still Alive. i get that this is a thing which is allowed to happen in epic poetry but also aeneas IS really extremely undead, especially after book 6, so. yeah. you see evert character being Also Aeneas and you’re like well if everyone is aeneas what is aeneas like. where’s that one article by adam parry. ‘Aeneas from the start is absorbed in his own destiny, a destiny which does not ultimately relate to him, but to something later, larger, and less personal: the high walls of Rome, stony and grand, the Augustan Empire.’ ‘Aeneas' failure as a hero goes deeper than the formality of his speech. As he makes his way through the first six books, we see him successively divested of every personal quality which makes a man into a hero.’ ough. at this point what is the difference between aeneas and his ghost!!!!!!

[casdeans-pie]

So I have this fic idea of Cas being magically kicked from his vessel somehow and desperately seeking Dean's help, even though he's weak and tired and stuck in his true form and its not like Dean can see or hear him anyway, but he needs him. so he tries to talk.

While Dean's driving.

Of course Dean nearly crashes the car because the windows explode and Sam is clutching at his ears, but Dean can hear something....

He pulls over and Sam's still in pain but Dean can hear....

-ean......... Dea- ....... Dean......... he...lp.....

"Cas?..... Cas, that you?"

And it's weird because the 'voice' sounds nothing like Cas - it's musical and tinkling, like a wind chime in his head - but Dean just knows.

He shouldn't be able to understand. but he can.

"Cas?" He says more desperately.

Dean?......... you........ hear.... me?......

"Yeah buddy, I can hear you. Whats going on? Whats happening?"

Sam, still wincing, says "That's Cas?!"

So Dean eventually leaves Sam with Baby and walks away from the road to get him away from anything breakable.

-orry... Dean..... no choice...... locked..... out....... vessel...... talk..... to........... you....... -eed........ help....

And Dean is absolutely on board to help Cas however he can.

He asks how he can hear Cas' true voice and Cas doesn't know. He asks if he can see him, and Cas says no, because he can't risk his eyes, and Dean points out that if he can understand what he's saying he can probably take a peak without the whole eyes burning up in his head thing.

But the wind chime tinkling can somehow sound exactly like Cas without sounding nothing like Cas when it says. No.

Dean has mixed feelings on how the familiar and unfamiliar overlap. He feels fond. "This is what you really sound like? Like a friggin' music box? That's what blew out all the windows and nearly exploded Sam's ears?"

The following silence shouldn't remind Dean of the squinty eyed stare he knows well, but it does.

So Dean is now the only one who can understand Cas, who is hovering nearby, invisible. he learns how to speak to just Dean so that he stops exploding all the glass around him. and the race is on to find his body and get him back inside before it's too late.

Why can Dean understand him now?? Interesting question.

(He secretly wonders if this is what his prayers to Cas feel like to him.)

He does in fact convince Cas to reveal his true form and of course he can see it just fine. It's a fun moment of really seeing the person you've become so familiar with in a new light. (You know the drill.)

(Also Cas' line about how big his true form is was hugely exaggerating for Samuel's benefit. Angels are big glowing multi-winged bird-like creatures with a halo on fire above their heads.)

Cas has to communicate with Sam via Dean and they have conversations that sound bizarre to Sam because he can only hear Dean's side of it. but it's also kind of normal and on brand for the two of them really.

It'd be a fun time.

When Cas does eventually get his body back Dean gets a little sad about the loss of the voice in his head and the cool bird creature, but he's happy to see his friend is okay. and that he's in a form he can hug with relief now.

then when he goes to sleep that night he has a dream. that Cas walks into. He hints at the reason Dean could understand him (their bond) and thanks him again. Finally they sit together on a sunny grassy hill in Dean's dream - Cas in his true form and Dean petting his feathers gently.

[slimslamflimflam]

hi gamers i really like peppinoise and by extension pizzanelle (?) so i made a thing!!!!!!!!

also sugary spire trio all being in love is real in my heart,,,, they are sillies and deserve happiness :]

[wholesome-gf-appreciation-blog]

Haven't posted in who KNOWS how long, but its the twins birthday again so I doodled smthn for em!

[skeletalheartattack]

just give him some time to come to terms with it. he'll be alright.

[Referencing this post]

[moliathh]

Idk if you’ve thought this much about it but I keep thinking about your reverse au,,,,, how did the groups come together in this universe? Were the members of Iscariot still raised together, or are they more of a hodgepodge of mercenaries who met through work? Has Hellsing taken on that roll of a ‘family’ in the church?

Yes I mostly want to know how Yumikel met MEUXBEKZHEBE

Thank you so much for your interest i am still working on the AU but here are some basic information i kind of sketched out about the Iscariot (i also love yumikel yess i am working on how they meet),

The initial idea (might change) i had for the Iscariot is that Yumiko, Heinkel and Enrico are all from the same orphanage and they sticked together, because Iscariot in this is neutral alignment, and i intended to fix Enrico. He's still hungry for power and control, like in canon, but more grounded because his relationship with Yumiko and Heinkel is closer and they're his found family that keep him from straying too deep into madness (btw spoiler that Millenium is good aligned and Hellsing is bad aligned, it is "reversed" from the og hellsing anyway). In this, Enrico is an occultist, and Anderson is a demon he conjured (to contrast Anderson in canon that served his Christian religion).

Yes and back to the trio, they were seperated and taken in by different organisations and got turned. I am still working on this btw, so the reasons are still unclear whether they were used as bloodbag (yumi) or maybe military purposes idk i need to think harder on it, but one thing is definite is that in this au there are more monsters, real one not artificial, than in og Hellsing, so each group have their own autonomy. Yumie and Heinkel are both true vampire and werewolf btw, not artificial. Anyway, Enrico made a pact with Anderson for power to find Yumie and Heinkel. And they started growing up together, making money by working as hired mercenaries. That's why their alignment is neutral, because they work for the organisation that pays them.

During that time, they helped each other work on the newfound power. Heinkel can't control the wolf shapeshift yet she is working on it and she still wolf out when she's excited. While Yumiko sometimes go bloodlust and delirious, after she drank a lot of people that she assassinated, and her alter ego is Yumie (almost similar mechanism like Alucard's variations in the og hellsing). Enrico binded her with black magic demon power something something idk, almost similar to the Hellsing binding in og Hellsing, but not to bound her to him but to restrict her powers so Yumiko don't just comes out randomly. (I will work on creating a mechanism on her restraint that makes sense, this is still missing a lot of informations).

And to Hellsing, well Hellsing doesn't exactly act like a family, well they almost, kind of, but not exactly. In this, Integra is probably the closest to "family" to Seras while Alucard acted more like a teacher than a family member to Seras. And to recap, Integra is supposed to be Seras' guardian angel (long story btw), but she failed to save Seras in time so she gave Seras' angel blood so Seras became a nephilim, half human half angel.

Okay, let me start from the beginning, everything process like in og Hellsing, Vlad got dragged to public execution and prayed to heaven but G didnt ascend on him. So in this au, i made Integra an archangel who pitied Alucard so she think a little bit of divine revelation to a dead man is probably not too much of a transgression, but when she appeared before him (only he can see and no one else can so they thought he was tripping when he started talking to himself), he assumed that G sent her as a prize for his sacrifice so he just assumed that he rightfully owned her (inspirations from stories of selkies or mermaids that were caught by men because those fishermen just ASSUMED he owned her what a crazy man, but that is what Vlad would do i think) so he cursed her to be bound to him and every of his reincarnations (it's a blood curse, and if you want to know how he did it, he kissed her with his own blood and blood he licked off the stage, and she became an outcast angel like Eve because she ate food from humans, and that was blood too so it was extremely sacrilegious, im drawing inspiration from Eve AND Persephone). Yeah well anyway, Integra still had some celestial power left like understanding Angel's languages and shapeshifting, immortality, demon repelling, exorcism etc etc yeah all the classic one and she can return to her angel form but only PARTLY, not entirely and also she is not allowed back to heaven (she can fly tho but she have her limits when it comes to flying). And then, Vlad reincarnate and everytime he did, he started wrecking havoc, each reincarnations of him doesnt exactly remembered his past lives but he is always born into someone with Dracula blood, descendants of the family. And because Vlad left records, other reincarnation of him also contribute their own record of encounters with Integra. Integra on another hand was stuck with humans, she have her limits and no longer as omnipresence as she was. And each angel in this au is asigned a list of humans to guard over, and Integra failed her task because she no longer capable to guard all over them, however she did have the list and she tried to find her human to protect but most of the time they're already dead by the time she arrived. And she tried to do good things to ammend her sins, but Vlad everytime he was reborn will start conflicts and war to draw Integra out because she is a repenting angel she is very drawn towards places of great suffering, and she tried to hide from Vlad's reincarnations because he have authority over her and she can't kill him, both not capable and not allowed to (as a repenting angel, remember? not allowed to harm anyone). Okay okay fast forward, in the au i am working on, this time the reincarnation of Vlad is called Alucard, and spoiler alert, this time, hes a human but with celestial powers, almost like Integra. Because the soul of Vlad made a deal with Lucifer so when he reincarnated as Alucard, he maintain all of his memories and Integra in this au agreed to side with Alucard because she sensed celestial energy from him so she thought he was blessed or chosen to become an exorcist. And as to why he became an exorcist, he doesn't really care about exorcising, he was just messing around with Integra. In some cases, he himself was the one that conjure demons up (Hellsing is bad aligned in this but Integra and Seras didn't know it yet). And as an exorcist he is invited to crime scenes of demon activities to clean up. One of the crime scenes was Seras's family and Integra finally came across someone on her list that is still at least breathing so she tried ressurecting Seras with her blood. Yeah that's how we got Seras Victoria an orphan that was adopted by the church. Integra cared a lot about Seras, while Alucard intended to use Seras to use Integra. Oh and, Alucard in this au is still obsessive as ever to Integra, he's very close to losing his shits. Alucard and Integra acted like an exorcist duo, with Seras as their protege exorcist.

(The background of Integra and Alucard is lowkey inspired from buddhism's concept of reincarnation and fate and karma something something btw)

If you have any suggestion please do inform me I would love to hear it and thank you for listening to my yappings.

[lucalicatteart]

Poll adventure (paventure? lol) Day 16: read the small story tidbit below the poll for more details, OR just vote based on initial impression

(✦ see past poll results + further information HERE (link) ✦)

Yesterday's poll decided that The Adventurer should offer to help the travelers with their broken wagon.....

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After much internal deliberation (and some zoning out staring at butterflies), The Adventurer decides it would be best to offer his assistance. Technically, he IS still following his goal of not getting distracted, because theoretically it would make his journey much faster if he were able to catch a ride on a carriage. So really, this is all an ultimate big brain genius strategy for maximizing efficient travel.. Or, at least that sounds like a good enough justification to him.

Gathering up all of his social courage, he approaches one of the travelers fiddling with a broken wheel near the far end of the carriage and meekly asks if there's anything he could do to help.

The man was so focused on his task, he seems initially startled to look up and find someone near him. "OH..! Oh, uhh.. help? With the wagon?", he smiles pleasantly, gesturing towards a few wooden boards that are just out of his reach, "Sure, kid. If you could just hand me th-"

"Apologies, but we actually won't be needing your assistance, stranger." A taller man, surprisingly almost matching the stature of the Adventurer, suddenly slinks out from somewhere behind the carriage, sternly placing himself like a barrier in front of the man working on the wheel. Wheel Guy nervously averts his eyes, making himself smaller, silently resuming his work.

The Adventurer tries his best to maintain composure against the weight of the tall man's bitter gaze, but can't seem to muster much of a response "Aeughh,,, uh… b-but, h- Bu--HHHh,,?.."

"Look, disregard whatever my father told you, he's old, never has any clue what he's talking about. It'd be best for you to simply move along." ('Father'? They don't look alike at all, and seem to be nearly the same age..)

"W-well.. he.. he didn't really tell me anything, I me-hhH,,.. I mean, I literally just got here, s-so...."

"Good. Even more reason to be on your way."

Placing a gloved hand firmly on his shoulder, the tall man begins to motion the Adventurer away from the wagon, but a strange noise interrupts, echoing from inside. Perhaps some sort of animal sound? Or a person faintly yelling about something? Or… both?

"WH-wHggg… whAT was t-that???!!" The Adventurer immediately stops in place, pausing to listen as the tall man keeps trying to push him ahead.

"I didn't hear anything, stranger."

"No, t-there.. was dEFinitely, UHH, a-"

"Likely something in the forest."

"Wh--aah... d.. do you think it was an animal?"

The tall man continues a dramatic struggle to 'subtly' drag him further down the road, whilst the Adventurer mindlessly digs in his heels, too distracted to even notice he's being so strongly prompted to leave.

"Many animals do, indeed, exist within forests. This should not be suprising."

"...It's just.. ..eughh… s… so weird…"

"I assure you, it is not."

"I-it really sounded like.. like it came f-from insid-"

"Yes, from inside the forest. Now, please, if you would.."

The noise interrupts again. It's definitely someone, or something, in some sort of distress.. And definitely from inside of the cart.

"wHoAAGH, aa!!! T-tHat's NOT from the f-forest, that-"

The tall man fully just shoves him now, sending the Adventurer toppling across the dirt, clumsily rolling and landing just past the other side of the carriage. A mother and young child who seem to be part of the traveling group simply stare down at him with empty blank gazes, wholly unconcerned about helping him up.

As the Adventurer fumbles back to his feet (still confused as to why he was even pushed in the first place), the tall man looms by the carriage, diligently watching to ensure that he leaves.

"Travel safe, stranger."

Despite his initial obliviousness, the Adventurer begins to piece the situation together as he stares back at the man, now fully convinced something suspicious might be going on...

…What should he do next??

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Additional Information

the adventurer's current main quest: follow his map to reach the abandoned castle ruins and see the rare animal specialist about the mysterious egg he has

[lanaevyssmoved]

Aww, I wanna know about the afhiri/gale things! You humor me with my emperor stuff 🥺💖

OKAY OKAY...........

i've been writing afhiri x gale for a couple days now without any real breaks. nothing that i can share mostly writing alternative ways to handle storybeats i know i want. and i just came to the conclusion that i keep making afhiri more childish and more feral. i'm adding to her impulsiveness and unpredictability and giving them more energy. and i realised something about that!

afhiri was forced to grow up when she was very young, she was a child caring for other children like a parent. they had to repress herself to be what they had to be for her siblings, so when she moves out she quickly starts regressing to the child self they never got to be. so the afhiri that everyone knows throughout the game is a young adult acting much like a child would, rejecting responsibility, not caring about the severity of things, to the point she just doesn't understand what's going on, acting foolishly and recklessly, endangering themselves at every turn. the "afhiri toddler harness" joke is painfully not a joke because leaving them to their own devices is dangerous. i literally created an oc (candor uwu) to go with afhiri in order to make some realistic way for her to survive the year between leaving her home and adventuring to the events of the game because i just sat there like. huh. afhiri would fucking die if they didn't have someone to keep them alive.

lets look at afhiri's primary traits for a sec ignoring how gendered some of these are

the fool

genki girl

plucky girl

cuckoosnarker

magical clown

plucky comic relief

let's also think about the fact afhiri is a manic pixie dream girl for a second

and at the character inspiration sheet i made for them!

this isn't an emotionally mature character who can look after themselves - with intent by afhiri themselves. afhiri doesn't want to look after people anymore, they don't want to be relied on, they don't want responsibility. afhiri is rejecting everything they were forced to be. afhiri wants to have fun, kill rich people and be free to do whatever the hell they want. afhiri only wants independence and the ability to choose who they are.

now think about this type of character in a romantic relationship. this can only really go a few ways.

it's completely lighthearted and fun and it survives on the fact that nothing is asked of afhiri beyond having a good time. this is the basis of many afhiri relationships! its all good fun

it crashes and burns because the other party asks afhiri to grow up - to emotionally mature - to be responsible - to be an adult - to act her age. this isn't going to work, afhiri will feel threatened by this, reject it and reject them. not because afhiri will never do that again, but because it feels like an attack on their freedom, their independence, their ability to choose for themselves. it feels forced on them - so they run

lastly - it's being with someone who will take all the adult responsibly requires of them both on their own. someone who enjoys afhiri being how she is and doesn't want that to change, and is fully willing to look after her in the way she requires in order to stay as she is. inherently this will have a power imbalance, and afhiri will have complete dependency on them whether they realise it or not.

you can totally theorise where afhiri's various partners fit on this, most of them are in the first bullet point because afhiri doesn't exactly invite getting into a serious relationship with them. it has to be the other party who seeks that and makes it happen - and does it all in a way that afhiri doesn't feel threatened - avoiding the second bulletpoint.

gale is the final bulletpoint for afhiri. their entire relationship is built on the basis that he looks after her. he likes how feral she is, how reckless she can be, how fun and full of life she is, the never ending energy and the childlike innocence she displays. he likes how blunt they are and how they do whatever they want without thinking for even a second on if it's a good idea. it keeps him young and fit, he finds it amusing and charming. and he's perfectly happy to take care of them, cook for them, clean up after them, wash their clothes, stop them from attacking that guard in the middle of the street because he exists and afhiri hates that (acab afhiri real). and it also requires gale to let her go when she needs it. it takes afhiri years to move in with him and years to marry him, afhiri spends several months a year not in contact with him because she goes off adventuring all on her own, sometimes she even forgets to say something. being with afhiri isn't exactly easy, but they make it work... because gale is willing to make it work. afhiri is just vibing man.

[cheemken]

It’s quite annoying to me how they treated Wallace in the Master’s Eight too. He is a champion, or at least champion level and is literally only used to flaunt how strong Ash is now. Most of the battle happens off screen!

Right??? Like I know a lot of peeps in this fandom just forgets that Wallace was ever a Champion and Steven will always be the default Hoenn Champion but like💀 it's stated again and again Wallace is a Champion, he's a strong trainer, even Steven in the manga thinks he couldn't live up to Wallace's legacy as Hoenn's Champion, if anything he's more deserving to be in the M8 than Alain

And god the fucking off screen battles I fucking hated how they handled Diantha's battle with Leon like the episode was just abt a kid who lost her pkmn and when Cyn and Ash got back Dia's on her last Mon like that's so shit man if they wanna make Leon strong let people see why he's strong, let people see him strategize too, let people see him struggle against another fucking Champion that got to the semi finals against him, cause honest to god the way they handled that fight looks like they gave Leon gameshark cheats💀

[camellcat]

alright. god. I finally got to The Angels Take Manhattan.

okay, here's the thing: I was going in expecting to cry, right? but not really, cause not once in this entire show have I cried outside of something being related to rose tyler. but also, extremely attached to amy. I mean, seriously. she's my second favorite companion by a landslide.

so when I barely even teared up at rory and amy bloody falling together I didn't think it was gonna happen! I thought, oh, y'know, if this doesn't get me surely nothin' will. well. WELL.

suddenly rory is taken and amy is ready to go after him because it's amy and rory together as it should be and eleven is begging for her not to and then he says my favorite catchphrase of "come along, pond" but then he adds in that "please!" which utterly fucking ruins me (I mean, I'm already crying, yeah? this had me... oh man. sobbing might not even cut it. that shit fucked. me. up!) and then she says "raggedy man, goodbye!" and I've been got. I mean, I'm crying so hard I'm lightheaded. my sheets are soaked, my face is disgusting, my glasses need to be cleaned. I'm a right fucking mess.

this doesn't have a point I'm just so distraught right now. like. I just. I didn't. ohhh. I didn't really think I had it in me to care that much anymore! not about this! it's Doomsday all over again! GOD. I think I'll be a bit sad but ultimately fine and then I'm NOT. fuck! fuck me, man. amelia pond. I love you

[tribunale]

@numerosi

ah, it's only the boss. what a relief; there are times when doppio feels on edge when others are present, and the same can be said for how he feels about the outside world as well. when he gets these rare opportunities to be alone with the boss, however, doppio feels completely at ease. he knows that the boss is safe, comfortable, and always worth the time. within the confines of this room, seeing the shadowy visage of his boss alone feels like the utmost privilege. "hello, boss! it's great to see you. i've been looking forward to this, too -- a whole lot." a smile shows on his face as he regards his boss, the wonderful ruler of passione that doppio is unflinchingly loyal to. doppio's hands clasp together, bouncing back and forth on his feet. "i'm doing good, thank you! i ran some errands recently, carried out some important passione duty and all that." the boss' calm voice soothes doppio in a way words cannot; he steps around through the room, admiring the brilliant emerald-colored walls and finding a place to sit in one of the chairs imagined within the world. "if there's anything else you need me to do, don't be afraid to say the word." doppio lives to serve, after all. even though there have been times where he could be a little hotheaded or difficult, the eager loyalty has always remained. "--and, if i can ask... just let me know if this is is going too far, but how are you doing, sir? i hope you're having a nice, successful, powerful day." maybe that's a funny way to word it, but he hopes the point is carried across, all the same.

Diavolo cannot hide a slight smile back as Doppio joins him, even if it is under shadow. It was funny to him, the power that Doppio managed to have. No one else could possibly manage such a feat within seconds. If it were anyone else, Diavolo would worry about the vulnerability brought out by such a small expression, yet he knew he could trust Doppio. Who could he trust to be close to him, apart from the one he’d cherished for many years.

He is taken back sometimes perhaps by the innocence within that smile of Doppio’s. Innocence was a strange word for it as Doppio was underboss - definitely not innocent of the majority of crime that Passione had undertaken - but there was a.. Poetry in it nonetheless. 

“I am glad to hear this.. Most glad, in fact.” Diavolo did this funny thing on occasion where he repeated himself when he was happy. It was his way of hammering in a point which he thought was subtle, but was not in fact so much so. In fact, this would probably really annoy some youngster with a dream one day, but this isn’t about him. Not yet, at least. 

He concentrates on Doppio, on his presence - he has no power over how much Doppio presents, how he presents or what he says, but he can at least try to cling onto the comfort he brings, and in such, everything else is an unnoticeable blur - in that moment, what mattered he would hold onto. 

“Of course - you are eager as always, something I most enjoy about you.” Indeed, their friendship flourished on Doppio’s willingness to always follow. Diavolo was rather admittedly co-dependent on it. As much as he could protect Doppio here, the physical world was more.. Difficult, and relied on instruction.

His protection, and their success. “Today, I was hoping to-” Diavolo continued for a second, as if not realizing the question for a moment, but then paused. “My apologies. I was getting ahead of myself, was I not?” 

He pondered on it for a moment, how much he should let loose without giving any need for question. “I am doing well, and my day has raised in expectations even more so now that I share your company. Your well-wishes are most appreciated.” 

They truly were. Each word Doppio spoke ignited a small fire within him - on days where he’d lost hope, he’d try not to let him know - on good days like this, he would be even better. It was funny how much comfort the words of Doppio brought him, but after all, they were best friends. Perhaps Doppio was his only friend.. That was a lonely thought. He chose not to linger on it.

[giddlygoat]

I need to hear about this oc story immediately. Robots?? Gay love?? Kramer??

okay first of all i am SO sorry this took six thousand years to reply to. but. i am very nervous bc this story has been my baby and a great comfort of mine for over 5 years so anyway. here we go

this is luis! he’s my funky robot oc. these drawings are all pretty old but they’re still pretty accurate. he was built to be a farmhand but found his passion in playing the piano, so traveled to the big city when his creator died to join a band.

and this is rubick! he’s basically for robots what doctors are for humans. he repairs robots and does checkups etc for a living. he’s a very sweet and funky guy.

now, these ocs have been in development for over 5 years, so they have changed a LOT from their original conception, and i’m afraid they are not nearly as comparable to the seinfeld / kramer dynamic these days as i lead you to believe. sorry for the false advertising. that used to be exactly who these ocs were created with in mind, so i still think of them that way sometimes, but tbh it’s not really a fair comparison these days. [for reference, luis used to be inspired by characters more like dale gribble, kramer and grunkle stan, but these days he’s a lot more mellow]

i am in the process of writing more of the actual lore and backstory behind these characters out, and i have a very vivid picture of the world and setting in my head [lots of 60s-90s tech aesthetics and elements from vintage eras while remaining futuristic] and there’s lots of other characters too! but it’s. A LOT and i don’t want to overwhelm you before i can even get all my ducks in a row LMAO

however i will say that rubick and luis are gay together hehe peace and love on planet earth <3 here’s some much more recent doodles of them!

[lynxalon]

ive set a monday alarm to go to the doctor because im so fucking depressed i cant imagine anything worthwhile about tomorrow so. wish me luck babes im gonna try really hard to go at all, for a referral to a new psyche+maybe therapist i desperately need meds

[iknaenmal]

WHY! IS! IRL FRIENDSHIP! SO HARD!!!!!

[ihaventsleptinweekz]

Sometimes I think I'm a normal person then the 11 pm thought kicks in and suddenly I'm insane

[wigglesforsquiggles]

Hi wiggles :D♡!!! How was your week?

rain my beloved !!! my week has been good :D

i haven't rly done anthring.... i'm trying to remember things that have happened. nothing is coming to mind. i'm living a blissfully peaceful existence atm

i met up w a friend yesterday and today and we played sims for like 4 hours (v fun, she plays sims a lot and i torture her through my insistence on too many windows and lights)

and we both made powerpoints on whos more of a geek vs nerd (hee for both but i successfully defended myself from being a geek)

and we got new sofas!! they have buttons that make them fully recline and they are V comfy (i am lying on one rn actually) - and we moved one of the old ones to a different room and somehow it's more comfy than before (science explain)

but yeah! nothing interesting rly happened this week, but it was nice nonetheless :D i hope u have a wonderful week !!