#PS: thank you for reading my fic I'm sorry its long and it means a lot

[gemstone-roses]

Hi!!! How you doing?

It's me again. Ik it's been like years.

Thank you so much for the last fic it really brightened my month tbh. I saw someone mentioned taking legal action but sadly in the country where I live mental illness isn't taken seriously. So yeah but I got a new job so it's cool.

Anyway lol.

Could I get Hannibal/Will x gn/male fic?

Reader has an expensive car that they always brag about(not in a mean way) and say they love the car more than the world. Then Will/Hannibal borrowed the car and got into an accident nothing too major. So they call reader expecting them to freak out but the reader shows up and hugs them. Reader tells them that they don't give a fuck about the car they're just glad their darling is safe. Maybe the first-time reader admits they love them? Or some mutual tears?

I suspect Will would freak out because he couldn't pay for the car and Hannibal would just be chill lol.

Love ya and hope you have an amazing week!

Ps. Sorry for the long message I've overthought this into oblivion.

~🦊

Hi! Glad to hear you got a new job! Sorry that happened to you. Also sorry it took me so long I kinda lost my muse a bit and yeah.... anyway, here you go, and thankyou for requesting, it keeps me going! I know very little about cars and driving so keep that in mind🥺

warnings: minor car accident, swearing, 18+ thanku!

Hannibal wasn't one to be jealous, not at all, but he did pause every morning and admire your car in the parking area. A small smile dancing across his face. He'd heard you talking about your car, your pride and joy, you said, not showing off, just genuinely happy and well, proud of the brilliant car you owned.

You and hannibal were close, you harbored feelings for the man. So when he asked if he could borrow your car for an afternoon of course you said yes.

What you weren't expecting was a phone call a few hours later from hannibal, slightly out of breath but still his calm self.

"Y/N, don't worry I'm fine but I'm afraid there's been a slight accident, and your car its-

You hang up the phone before he can finish, hannibal frowns on the other end.

Will gives you a ride, getting out the car you run straight to hannibal.

Wrapping your arms around him he's taken aback slightly, but he returns your hug.

"Oh thank god your okay!" You breathe.

"But, your car?" Hannibal questions lightly. He knew you loved that car more than anything... or so he thought..

"I don't care about the car! Fuck, the thought of you being hurt and-

"Y/N, I'm fine it's just a scratch honestly!" Hanbibal soothes, his hands on your shoulders.

"I, I couldn't bare the thought of something happening to you I-

You look at him hoping he's somehow developed mind reading capabilities and you don't have to say it.

"I loveyou" you say fast, hannibal pulls you back into his arms.

"I am so glad to hear you say that y/n because I've been wanting to say this for a while... I love you"

And despite your car being a total write off, and hannibal mildly injured, you were the happiest you've ever been.

[lesmismignon]

Hi

I just reread Satis (again), and I wanted to tell you how amazing it is, and by amazing I mean I have no way of describing this beautiful piece of writing and no way of conveying my gratitude to you for writing it so I'll awkwardly say its 'amazing'.

You see, I was kind of lost for a while, trying to be a grown-up, doing grown-uppy things, not engaging with the thing I really like, I thought that's what I am supposed to do. When I found you fics a few months ago, I felt like myself for the first time in a long while, obsessing over this stupid amazing manga, and I realised what a silly sausage I was for trying to be someone else and pushing away the things I like, Hellsing included.

I want to thank you for writing and sharing your work, and I hope your days are filled with love

Please accept these virtual hearts 💕 💞 ♥️ ❤️ 💖 💜 💕 💞 ♥️ ❤️ 💜❤️‍🔥

ps sorry for my english, not my first language

ps I am awkward in my first language too lol

Silly sausage anon

Dear Silly sausage anon,

First of all, thank you so much. I am so happy you are reading and enjoying Satis.

I know what you mean. There is definitely that feeling that as an adult, you have "better" things to occupy your time than the things you like. And really, the way things are now we simply don't have enough time and energy to engage in the things we love! But I think it's important to remind ourselves that they -- the things we love -- are still there, and there is a reason we love them. Because that's how we end up reuniting with who we are, you know?

Like, I often compare fandom to a comet. There is a period in the comet's orbit where it shines so brilliantly in your sky. But then it drifts away, and dims, and something comes up in your life that you can't be bothered to dwell on it -- and that's ok! Because the comet's orbit means it will return. And you are its center of gravity.

I think what I'm trying to say is, it's ok and even natural if something in life makes us stray from a thing we enjoyed and loved, but we should remind ourselves that we did love it, and that love means it is a part of us, and that should give us strength to go on in our everyday lives even without being actively engaged in it. Even if that thing is a campy manga about vampires! xD

So I'm glad that you feel like yourself again, and I'm honored that Satis made you feel like that.

Thank you again and many virtual hearts to you as well! Ah, this reply has gotten too long and weird but I hope you understand :3 And never apologize! English isn't my first language either and I am extremely awkward in my mother language haha

Love, Eiserne

[therhythmafterthesummer]

hi bestie :) its my bday today and i just wanted to thank you for making my last year happier and better with your fics and works and interactions on this platform :)) also as an ace neurodivergent, i really do resonate with your works and feel happy and represented and hopeful that one day i’ll find myself a boyfie that can accept me for who i am lol

ANYWAYS thank you so much for giving so much joy in my last year and im sure you will continue to bring me joy this year too lol

IF i may indulge in with a request, can we get a tmi or a spoiler for wereroomies!jisung or seungmin? they are both my ult biases and babies and you’ve mentioned your working on their fics so…. i beg for a crumb lmao OMG WAIT THEORY TIME (you can tell there is adhd) so i rmb you said that jisung is a nurse and seungmin is a med student? imagine they go to work tgt (seungmin is there for placements) and then han wingmans him to seungmin’s yn lol

ANYWAYS TYSM AND ILY BESTIE HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY TODAY TOO

(ps you are the sole reason i got into werewolf fics bc of wereroomies)

omg happy birthday !!!

the fact that what i, an ace neurodivergent, write resonates with you, who's also an ace neurodivergent, warms my heart. i genuinely don't think i ever experienced as much acceptance around those two things as i did when i joined this community a year ago. the fact that you feel like my works represent you makes me all fuzzy and and and 🥺 idk, it's cute. thank you for telling me this. you've got no idea how much it means to me.

i'll give you a few little spoilers for wereroomies!seungmin. be aware these might change as i start working fully on him, so these aren't set in stone, but hope you (and anyone else that reads these) enjoy them anyway:

my idea for seungmin is to also code him as autistic and ace (sorry, i can't help it).

he and jeongin have been together since they were kids (maybe they come from the same pack? i haven't decided yet), so i hope to have more of jeongin in his instalment, too.

i also hope to highlight his relationship with the pretty mum... since they're really close.

i want to craft his story around self-descovery. it might be a bit sad at parts--especially when it comes to his relationship with the reader... but hopefully our puppy min will overcome any challenge he might have to deal with.

i'm still fine-tuning some things about him and his background, but i started writing something already, so we'll see how long it takes me to work on that fully (: it's now a race to see who i finish first, seungmin or jisung hahah

oh, and, as a bonus, i'll tell you that he'll probably share hobbies with pretty mum~

[effervescentdragon]

Hi! I just wanted to say that this week I chose to read some of the fics you have up in AO3 ( and by some of them I mean a lot) and I'm obsessed with your Sebchal Old Guard AU.

I haven't watched the movie yet, but I've been tempted in the past and your writing was the last reason I needed to do it.

That scene when Sebastian has apparently died and Charles holds him while praying in Latin, and he is so devastated about losing Sebastian because immortality is only a gift if Charles gets to share it with him.

That was..WOW..Yeah. No words. Tens across the board.

Those dreams of Lewis and Nico. The ending in Suzuka when Charles is wearing red again. People choosing to spend immortality together just really gets to me, I guess.

That fic really did something for me, and I have to thank you for it.

PS: your Nico/Jenson Soulmate fic made me see why people ship those two.

PS 2:"Red Gods of Old" is so phenomenal. I had to keep pausing to look at the wall and think about every paragraph.

PS 3: I was blown away when I saw you posted again, and blown away again because I had already read the Piarles piece, but didn't realize it was part of a series. I loved your first chapter. So angsty, and I hated the fact that you made me relate to Lando, but also thank for that.

Thank your for sharing your writing, and I know sending this right now seems so convenient because of your post earlier, but I really enjoyed the reading sprint I had on your stuff and I wanted to say so. Sorry for writing so much this got a little bit longer than the single paragraph I had intended it to be. :)

anon this made me so happy. like so so so happy, insanely happy. the answer is gonna get long because i cant not ramble about all this, so, cut.

my sebchal old guard au is my favourite thing ive ever written and i love it so much and people dont often go for it, though i do have some wonderful asks in my inbox that im saving for a rainy day and i just. thank you for coming here to tell me this and i hope you watched the movie because its MASTERFUL. i put so much into that fic, for example i tried to figure out how to make two white boys be joe and nicky without being insensitive or appropriative about race, and how not to apply the fundamentality of joe's loveliness of being an arab man (gentle and kind and a poet in his soul) to this german dude. that one kept me up for a while, so i decided not to mirror it perfectly but to apply seb and charles' personalities into the context, except adapting the other way around. it was a challenge to write, because i wove so much little ideas and nods to other people in there, not the least lewis and nico as andy and quynh, and then in the end i just really wanted them to come a full circle and somehow tie it in with f1. i always do this in my au's, give a little nod to f1 somehow, just to show my love for it. anyways, thank you so much for reading it and just. i love that you liked it.

oh god the princess cake soulmate fic - i saw the prompt and i couldnt resist! it turned out to be a prompt by a tumblr friend so that worked out even better. i love nico and i love him with jenson and i need to get back to writing him some more soon tbh. he is such a complicated and interesting character and he has twists and turns and i just love him insanely much. (if you liked the soulmate fic, i refer to this fic as my princess cake master thesis, so you may like that one too, maybe.)

oh my fucking god. this part. this part had me stopping in the middle of my corridor when i saw it because like. nobody reads that fic? nobody knows it and its my first proper rpf that i wrote and i love it so much and i just. im just heart-eyeing you now, because that was me trying to figure out some things about seb and about ferrari and to make it work in my head so i know how to proceed, so, thank you for reading it, and especially mentioning it!

thank you also so much for reading my carlando, im very excited about it because i never wrote them and im a bit nervous about the characterisation but so far it seems like it has a positive reception. i made it angsty on purpose because lando is just a ball of anxiety and i rly tried to show it. im super hyped about the next chapter two, but please keep all your limbs crossed for my uni work, which i have to do tomrrow on penalty of death.

please, never think its inconvenient to read something as lovely as this ask, no matter if its because of a post i made or just because, it literally doesnt matter, because you took the time to come and tell me these lovely things anyway. it made me happy and it made me hyped up and thank you. and there's never ever too much rambling, i dont see this as rambling i see this as something lovely. thank you <333

[ginnsbaker]

hi there! can i just say i’m a big fan of your “if i bleed (you’ll be the last to know)” work!! i just want to take a long minute to gush about all the little details i hyperfixated on.

okok first i have!!! to talk about this title… my god… it.. hurts so good??? (assuming it was from cruel summer by taylor) i love this song so much and have read countless of fics with this same title but none hit the nail on the head quite like yours.. and now i’m listening to the song all over again and my thoughts are filled with how perfect this song and this fic fit together. before i realized you were quoting this song i had just imagined sometime late into spring but now i’m imagining summer and it somehow makes all the smaller moments more intimate to me…

second, i haven’t watched sorry for your loss yet… i’ve been meaning to!! …but i just really don’t do well with grief related shows even though i know it might help me to grow and move past it to learn and see how others cope… but anyway! i’ve gone into this blind pretty much, only knowing that yeah, leigh’s husband passes and there’s something she didn’t know… and i’m not a fan of cheaters and such but something about reading how… selfish.. these characters can be… flawed characters. it just makes it sweeter to read somehow. — especially that little part in part 6(?) where jules mentions how… difficult leigh can be at times since the whole thing.. like gahhhh my brain is like… gnawing and chewing on how… just real you make these characters!!! the emotions you portray through leigh as well!!! like…ahhh!!! i really don’t know what to say it just makes me tug on my hair in a good way… speechless is what you’ve made me! or! or!! oh my god!!! when the reader doesn’t want leigh to hurt any more than she already is and leigh just.. takes the pain and walks with it??? because she’s… stronger than this? because she’s bitter? feels like she has to get back at matt?? and ugh… idkidk really! (i got all that from the anger and the line “i can handle pain just fine.”) like… i’m just. i’m chewing on this like a piece of gum that i don’t wanna spit out. oh!!! and… when she’s mad at… the things that matter… the little things like. how intimate it is for matt to just be there… after that first date… also! i’m a hater!! i’m a lover of the haters (jules!!!) and a hater of the lovers!! meaning, danny!!! i love that you’ve made me hate his character. after seeing how selfish he really is with leigh and.. how much of a tough spot the reader is in…

ok this is getting too long, i apologize. i jus really loved the pacing of the story, the characterizations and everything else… i just love it a lot and i can’t stop thinking about it after every update… because of all the cliffhangers!! anyway. i hope you know your words are loved, author. thank you!!

(ps. my friend saw me typing these paragraphs out and called it a love letter… and this is exactly what it is. a love letter to you, dear author and to your lovely fic. thank you again for writing such a piece and i am absolutely sat waiting for the next part!!!)

Oh my gosh, reading your feedback got me all:

first of all, i want to thank you for this long and adorable message. it's always such an overwhelming and it reminds me one of the reasons why i love writing so much. thank you thank you!

re:title- yes it's from Cruel Summer :)

re: watching Sorry for your loss - honestly, it's not required for you to have seen the show, just that you know the gist of it (Leigh being a young widow). Nothing really goes on--it just paints the process of grief in ordinary life. So you really don't have to see it. Besides, I don't even follow its timeline and relationships to a T.

re: your thoughts on the story- i find myself nodding along the stuff you picked out from the last 6 chapters. Also, I am a hater too (lol), I'm just not very vocal about the things I hate because one of lizzie's character once said: "You think it's cool to hate things. And it's not. It's boring. Talk about what you love and keep quiet about what you don't." But I'm a huge hater. I think we all secretly are. I think hating Danny is easy in this fic, but I keep trying to find something in him that's relatable, something that just doesn't make him an antagonist. I think it's fair to think that he's also being used by Leigh, being treated unfairly by Leigh. I don't think I really hate Danny here as much as you guys do. I have done awful things when I was younger out of the selfishness of satisfying my own desires. But I'll talk about that some other time and if anyone will ask :P

thank you for your love letter, it means so much and I'm going to keep this in my blog and tag it for what it is. I hope you'll enjoy the rest of the series :)

[leejihoonownsmyheart]

I MISSED YOU TOO HELLO HOW HAVE YOU BEEN

okay first of all..i would LOVE to see cnc or like gun insertion or whatever wtf i feel like if you wrote it i'd read it.

also the jun fic?? i didn't read the username but while i was reading it i was like....why is this so familar.. BUT ITS REALLY GOOD I LOVE IT IM FROTHING AT THE MOUTH

also i'm not sure if my other ask went through but i'm assuming it didn't because you didn't answer it (no hate im just a dummy and probably forgot to send it) but just. like extremely mean josh/wonwoo/minghao. that's it!! that's the ask. them just being MEAN mean.

ps. sorry for the long essay style asks 😭😭 if you don't like it then pls tell me because then i'll break it up into different asks <3

-with kisses from 🫨 anon

I AM GOOD HAHA I HOPE YOU ARE GOOD TOO!!

I wouldn’t write it on this account omg not my family friendly leejihoonownsmyheart no she has not seen a cnc day, but her secret Joshua stan alter ego HINTHINT might have touched on it NOT G** THOUGH CAUSE WOAH THAT WOULD BE A DOOZY TO RIGHT I THINK @/toruro WROTE A HOSHI FIC WITH GUNPLAY IN IT….

YOU RECOGNIZED MY WRITING 🥹 IVE ALWAYS WONDERED HOW RECOGNIZABLE MY WRITING STYLE IS…. I think it’s really distinct (NOT BRAGGING I WRITE WEIRD SOMETIMES) but like if you were reading on a different account i don’t think i’d be like wow this author writes just like @shuashuagirl 👀👀👀👀👀 you know what i mean

I DID NOT SEE THAT ASK OMG 🫨 ANON YOU KNOW WHERE MY HEART IS. MEAN MEAN SEVENTEEN. I JUST LOVE IT. THATS WHERE MY HEART BELONGS THATS WHERE MY LOYALTY LIES

For you. I will write MUCH MEAN SEVENTEEN IN THE FUTURE.

I ACTUALLY LOVE THE LONG ESSAY ASKS THEY ARE FUN TO READ AND RESPOND TO SO I LOVE IT MWAH MWAH THANK YOU I LOVE YOU

[jwirecs]

Hi hi 🤗🤗🤗

Someone sent me yjh anon's recent ask from your blog regarding finding the Jeonghan long distance relationship, bad classmates/friends, and something about prom!

It was actually a law school!au and it was a winter gala where Jeonghan arrives in flesh and all his glory :)

The fic was called 'the (real) ldr boyfriend' by yours truly, jihoonsrubylips.

. . . Hi! Yes, it's me, jihoonsrubylips 😂😉

I'm frankly shocked (but grateful!) to see so many people were anticipating it after this much time has passed 😳 Though I had a lot of time writing the chunk that I did, I unfortunately couldn't complete it, let alone keep up with the rest of the blog since priorities in my real life changed :)

I am sorry for not fulfilling my promise and released it to the few who seemed to really want to read it . . . Your excitement for it means a lot to me, yjh anon! 🥺 The fact that ppl still remember the teaser alone is insane in the best way possible to me! Perhaps when things die down, 'the (real) ldr boyfriend' will see light of day 🥹

Again, so terribly sorry and thank you for helping them try to find it 🥰 I'm really grateful that you tried and the ask/post found its way to me. Truly serendipity!!

Also! A big round of applause to you OP for helping ppl find stories! I'm sure it's not an easy job, but I hope you find joy in doing it 💙

yours,

jihoonsrubylips💋

helloo!!

afj;sldfjsd;lfj i just got home and i was about to eat chipotle but then saw this notification and i just have to say that you do not need to be sorry at all!

peoples priorities change as life goes on and you cant control it which is completely understandable. im sure your readers understand how you had to switch priorities. but if they dont then, they can choke.

and i know for a fact that people will always be waiting and anticipating your stories. they will forever remember it because of how good it was written (teaser or not).

take your time and do not rush! im sure the kpop writing/reading community on here will always welcome you back with big open arms!

ps. i have a great time trying to find fics cause they are literally fic recs and 'wheres waldo' all wrapped up in one

[ssuperficialspacecadett]

Really, really lovely story

I really appreciate the way they got together. It wasn’t a slow burn but wasn’t immidietly sex, just a nice pace

But what truly got me was how they hooked up

So like I’ve done it in fics where the character is a victim of SA they are hesitant to have sex and that’s fine and good but it’s not always true for everyone

Without getting too much into it, it happened to me and then I hooked up with another guy a few times

It happened again and I still hooked up with a few more guys. It wasn’t a huge deal, I didn’t cry after, it didn’t trigger me and these weren’t guys I necessarily would say made me feel “safe” but decent guys

I appreciate how you made it that it wasn’t this big deal that they hooked up bc it’s not always

Of course it’s lovely that she trusted him with that part of her, but it wasn’t this gasp moment

And the way she deals with Brunson is great bc just bc she’s traumatized doesn’t mean she can’t stand her own you know?

We need more victims who are still strong and keep moving and it doesn’t mean what happened was any less horrible or traumatizing but people deal in different ways

I love this series, thank you so much 🥰

P.s. WILL AND ROBIN will miller my beloved

I feel like will needs a girl who can hold her own bc Will takes care of everyone and could stand to get taken care of once in a while

TW: sexual assault ,, please read at your own discretion & if you want to completely skip this that's okay as well ! have a good day/night !

as much as i wanted to write a slow burn that was so agonizing and gut wrenching,, i kinda fucked myself with the six month time limit LMAO but I'm glad that you liked the pace ! i thought it was sweet and realistic for these two characters

since you were kind enough to share, i will as well ,, i was a victim of sexual assault back in 2020 and i really didn't know how to cope with it/ how to talk about it for a long time so writing became a major outlet ,, i know that including it in my stories my be triggering or hard to read for some people and i completely understand if they chose not to read it because its a theme ,, and I do want to say that I am so sorry that you had to experience something like this

i wanted to make sure that i put that first explicit consent in the clementine kisses chapter because that's something thats important to me specifically,, that tiny check in to make sure all parties are having fun with what is going on/ what will happen

yes (: just because she had a terrible experience I wanted to make sure that she is still a strong individual and that strength (in real like unfortunately) may come into play in situations that involve men like Brunson

I truly believe that we deal with our trauma in our own time,, i won't claim that you are completely healed from yours as I know I am definitely not healed from mine,, but I hope that this story (i know its just a silly fic but never the less) can help people who have dealt with SA be reminded that they are still just as powerful as before it happened,, it might feel like something was taken from you and I never want to invalidate someones feelings, but just making sure that i told myself that my abuser didn't take anything from me was healing,, im still me

i'm so beyond happy to receive a lengthy ask like this and that you love this series enough to talk to me about it <3

PS: i have some cute things cooking for our sweet sweet willy boy and our lovely robbie hehe

[simmonsized]

just finished my rng reread and i noticed you didn't give dirk his Nasty Death Scar like we see in so much fanart. so i gotta ask. what would dave (any/all of them) do if he DID have it

LOL love that we are calling it "Nasty Death Scar" because that's so on brand for me wow

Well you did not ask but the reason for his lack of scar in RNG (sorry fun fanartists) is mostly because he does not have it, in canon, and you know, godtier and ressurection and all that blah blah game mechanics, lots of questions I have about whether scars on the "earth" body transfer over to the dream body because if that were the case then neither Dirk nor Dave would have scars from before the game but that doesn't matter and not what we're talking about it's just been on my mind since yesterday

Once again not raining on anyone's parade I think the nasty death scars are Good and I really like that people interpret and have fun with it because that is the most important part of making a fan work.

ANYWAY

If Dirk did in fact have a nasty decappuccino scar, I imagine chapter 6 (and the other chapters where we cover this lmao) with Dirk and Dave would have gone very differently :) Dave would probably have had a more difficult time overcoming the concept of Right vs Wrong and if he really did the right thing then why did Dirk have the scar in the first place. and I guess I'd probably have had (well who knows given that I wasn't sure of the trajectory at the time but let's pretend) to dig into Dirk's feelings about it and his identity surrounding Heroism and the potential for questioning if his death was actually Just at Dave's hands, though y'know Dave did ask him and he didn't answer huh. Well anyway no comment there lol BUT it's a bit harder to ignore these kinds of things with a physical reminder.

I'm not sure Bro would have cared tbh, though Dave(DS) would have, and then he'd have found out sooner also. But for Bro hmm it's hard because he does find out pretty early and a lot of that became "Dave is capable of trusting a version of me who lived a different life and now I am questioning aspects of my own life" but you didn't hear that from me.

A!Dave probably would have been the most upset lol. Lots of trauma associated with the concept of failure and a physical reminder that even though he couldn't have been there to protect him anyway that all the preparing in the world wasn't enough for what the Game threw at the kids. Dave's guilt reflected into someone much older who understands the concept of sacrificing for the greater good but who is so selfish when it comes to those he loves that he would struggle, I think, with whether or not he played a part in Dirk's sacrifice this way. Maybe he still does idk but. Sometimes physical, constant reminders change how we feel about stuff!

Hope that answers your question in a satisfying way lol! It would have been fun and I debated it but decided ultimately it would be more beneficial if he did not c:

[sanzu-sanzu-sanzu]

Hiiiii.🙈

Just came here to say that I love your Songs About Toxic People so much.❤️ I've been obsessed about the Bonten Executives ever since I caught up with the manga and it's just so sad how we don't have enough content about them yet.🤧

I love all the Bonten Executives and my favorites are Sanzu and the Haitanis.🥺🤧💕

It's funny because I don't even know how that happened and I didn't notice it right away but the next thing I know I'm simping after the three of them so hard and for days my mind has been filled with nothing but thoughts of them ever since. Oh, the struggle. (😂)

The lack of content about them almost turned me into a fanfic writer right then and there (🤣) because I seriously wanted to read something about an OC who's also the only female executive in Bonten and I almost wrote it down myself, I swear.😆 I have never written something before in my life. Never. That's why I am soooo glad to find Songs About Toxic People. You have no idea how you saved me from the thirst I've been having ever since I got introduced to Bonten!Sanzu and Bonten!Haitanis and how you silenced the raging thoughts in my head about them if only for a little while, may God help me.

Now. About your absolutely beautiful and wonderfully written fic. Let me just say that I love everything about it.✨ The characterization, the little details about OC, their interactions, the dialogue, everything, is chef's kiss in my opinion. English is not my first language and (I'm guessing your's isn't as well? If I'm wrong, please ignore this but if I'm right then) I admire how beautiful your narration is. The words you use and the way you can create an image in your readers' minds using your descriptions is amazing.❤️

Your "show, don't tell" skills in writing is very beautiful, very admirable, and it's also my most favorite part of your story. I love it very much, seriously. That skill is the one thing I lack that made me give up in being able to write something of my own.😌 I realized that when it comes to writing, there are so many factors to remember and consider in order to make it interesting and engaging for your readers. Worldbuilding, character development, pacing, to name a few. But the hardest for me to master is the one thing you're so amazingly good at. And I admire you for that. That's why whenever I come across a writer like you with such excellent "show, don't tell" skills, I always make sure to make my appreciation shown. ❤️

Another thing I love about your story is the OC.😭 God, I love her so much. She is everything I've wanted to see in a fic that involves the Bonten Executives. She's a badass, she's feisty, and she perfectly fits right in with the other characters. I could just cry with how perfect she is in my opinion and you made that happen.😭❤️ I'm very satisfied with her character and I want to thank you again because I just know that if I did followed up on my need to write my own fic despite my inexperience, I just know that I'll end up disappointing myself and possibly even hate the plot idea because I was not able to meet my own expectations so thank you, thank you, thank you.❤️

She is amazing. You are amazing. Your whole fic is super amazing. I am glad and relieved that I don't have to write my own because yours already exists and it's so perfect.🤧

A female Bonten Executive, and the only female one at that.🥺🤧😭 I am so incredibly happy that the idea is finally out there and someone finally wrote it and that someone is also such a good writer. 🙌🏼

Kudos to you and I hope I can do more than just read and then say thanks. I believe you deserve more than that because I've been looking for this exact content you made and I've been looking for days. And now that I found one, even just the one, I'm relieved because it's already perfect on its own.😌

It's possible that it would take a long time for other writers to write something like this: a female OC that involves the Bonten Executives, my favorite flavor.🤧 It makes me sad, but no matter. I don't mind if I have to reread Songs About Toxic People again and again and again like how Sanzu takes drugs I'M SORRY for a long while because it's enough to satisfy my hunger and my thirst for the time being.❤️

Wow. This got super long. My bad. 😅 I did not mean for this to happen. I hope you don't mind this long ass appreciation message. I love leaving this kind of messages to writers like you.😊

Anyways, yeah. I just came here to tell you that. I hope you're having an amazing day and that you're safe wherever you are. Please take care of yourself. I'm looking forward to more of your works and what you can come up with. I am super excited! 😁

Best of luck and God bless.

- ✨

helloooo :”( this one took me a quite a while to answer because i just couldn’t stop gushing whenever i’d open my inbox huhuhu but you have no idea how much this truly means to me and i wish i can write better words at explaining how this made me feel. <3

first of all, your obsession with the bonten executives is COMPLETELY understandable i’m literally on the same boat as you my friend hahaha with sanzu being my main guy <3 they’re just so hot and dangerous but i also think there’s something kinda funny with all those guys being together LMAO (especially sanzu and the haitanis…add in a dead-eyed manjiro omg..)

just like you i am quite sad about the lack of content on them hahahaha it’s the main reason why i started writing about them in the first place, actually! (also because i'm just obsessed with sanzu) but that was more at the beginning when i still mostly relied on ao3, and then i got more active on tumblr and now literally everyday there’s new fics about them and that makes me extremely happy 🥺 i always did think that the bonten executive OC would make for such a nice flavor so i just latched on to the idea, and i also wanted to keep it a little more casual because i’m not the best with dark themes hahaha but it also helps me imagine the bonten execs in friendlier, more human, more everyday settings—a very fun exercise when you can’t stop thinking about them!

i am beyond happy knowing that you’re enjoying my fic to the point of sending me this lengthy message (whose length i don’t mind at all!!!) 😭 painting a picture with words is one of my favorite things ever when it comes to writing and i just…tear up when people enjoy my descriptions and the interactions and the little details huhuhuhu you have no idea. i didn’t even know i was doing a ‘show, don’t tell’ manner of writing until you pointed it out, so i gotta thank you for this cause it made me think more about how i write (in a good way!), so thank you, i super appreciate it.

i also hope you do get to write if ever you wanna! manifest the things you’d like to see in the world—something like that! hahahaha but also yeah, it can be fun and the possibilities are endless and it’s fanfiction so you can always do you <3

again, this really just made my day and i’ve saved it to my notes to read for when i’m feeling meh hahaha. i gotta say in advance tho that my updates might not come as regularly as before cus (1) life and also (2) need ken wakui to reveal more about my favorite bad boy sanzu LOL so we get to know him better.

and here’s to hoping more people write about oc’s that are bonten execs! so you’d get to have your share of this genre of bonten fic! hehehe you deserve it <3

THANK YOU SO MUCH, i hope you’ll have a nice day too 🥺 and take caaaaare. MWAH.

ps. oh yes, you’re right! english is not my first language hahaha.

[gukieater]

Check-In Tag

I was tagged by @candlewaxandp0lar0ids

Sorry, it's late, I had a murderous week (not really but it felt like it because now the week is over, I'm bedridden, sick with 104°F fever)

Thank you for tagging me though love 💓

1. why did you choose your url?

It was nothing well-thought rather random. I was basically devouring Jungkook fanfics ( it seemed more popular on Tumblr, I was newly admitted in this fanfic kingdom) so that kinda inspired the url I guess?

2. any sideblogs? if you have them name them and why you have them

Umm, I'm not a fanfic writer. I do sometimes try to write plots for fanfic though (try!?). And no, don't have any sidebloggs. I'm trying to put together some fic recs based on category though.

3. how long have you’ve been on tumblr?

If I correctly remember it was around March, April this year? I don't exactly remember because I've been using it without an account since December, 2020 I guess. So the lines are kinda blurred.

4. do you have a queue tag?

Nopppeeee. I'm still figuring out Tumblr. (sometimes I feel dumb using it)

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

To read, share & cheer on the fanfiction I was reading on Tumblr. I mean come-on they share gold stuff that's worth publishing for free! The least they deserve is all the love and appreciation the readers can give them. Huge shout-out to the big hearted writers there ❤️

6. why did you choose your icon?

I have this thing for Namjoon, I don't know how to explain it- Its like sometimes I find him so adorable that makes me weak on my knees also intimidates the hell out of me. Okay put short, because it's Namjoon- the one and only!

7. why did you choose your header?

I was having a Muster Jeon Flush 😅 (Will probably change it soon)

8. what’s your post with the most notes?

It's not exactly a fic ( cause I don't write them) but a fic idea. That would be Apocalyptic Heart.

9. how many mutuals do you have?

I don't know, I've never checked it

PS: I literally googled what's Mutual in Tumblr to ans it. Dumb, told yàa.

10. how many followers do you have?

15

Again I had to check my Tumblr to answer that question.

11. how many people do you follow?

73

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

Nah. Rant-post maybe.

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

However my schedule allows me. I may as well spend the entire day or even go days without using it.

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

I don't think so, I spend most of the time reading fics on Tumblr.

15. how do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

Umm, debatable. And I don't think I've come across such post yet?

16. do you like tag games?

Yeah! When I have the time to do them!

17. do you like ask games?

I love sending authors ask!

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

@sunshyngal -she's a sweetheart and I love- the sister I never had

I have so many other name but in case I miss out someone, it would be unfair. I'm kinda biased towards this woman(I feel no shame admitting and I shall not!) so I'm specifically mentioning her.

19. do i have a crush on a mutual?

Naah I don't think so.

So I'll tag - @sunshyngal @babeejk @craztextae @bibbykins @chinkbihh

Well you guys can try it if you find it interesting and willing to do it or have the time!!

[normal-thoughts-official]

Also I just want to say thanks for existing ❤️❤️ I love ur blogs and ur takes theyre amazing, I never was properly involved with 5he shadowhunters fandom when it was running bc A. I saw a clalec shipper and ran for the hills(What was that horrific thing) and B. The show is objectively terrible, I really love the fact that you say everything you want to say taking no prisoners!!! Sparing no fragile feelings!!! And I wanna say that I'm so sorry that you have to deal with so many insensitive asshole anons giving you shit

I'm gonna be honest that while I love them both equally, alec was the one I resonated with the most as a lesbian (magnus was the one I fancied ahahah) but I hadn't realised properly how centred Alec was in fandom spaces. Its almost like the ranking of favourite characters goes 1. Alec 2.malec and 3. Magnus, in how Magnus' emotions and boundaries are secondary to the maintaining of alecs relationship with him

I'd seen wisps of something similar in the marvel fandom but hadn't carried over how fans can ununtentially use characters of colour as mere rungs on the ladder to their success, even and especially within the relationship. I don't see this much with sambucky but back when SamSteve was popular Sam was often reduced to Steve's pet therapist who has no aspirations in life other than being Steve's boyfriend.

This is fan behaviour but just wanna say don't let the bastards get u down honey!! ❤️❤️❤️

P. S do clalec shippers still exist??? Please say no

dauihdsiauhd thank u, ur sweet

ur totally right about magnus being below malec on the favorite characters scale, wow. like it's obvious that he doesn't exist outside of malec for these people and so malec becomes this sort of third character and magnus as a person is way wayy down below

but also since u mentioned that u like how i speak my mind xD ur comment about how u relate more to alec because he's gay bothers me a little bit cuz i feel like it implies that being bi is somehow less queer or less relatable and that's... biphobic rethoric djahisudhah like idk maybe u mean that u relate more to his story or whatever but i kind of read it like "i have more solidarity with gay men than bi ppl" and as a bi person that doesn't sit well with me so yeah i'd maybe think about why that might be if that's how u genuinely feel

(PS: if you - and by you i don't mean you, residenthottiesamwilson, just anyone reading this - think that biphobia isn't real just go ahead and unfollow me, cuz if u try to come to my inbox and start shit over it i will block u so just save us both the trouble tbh. we live in a world where every single study around the whole wide world consistently shows that bi ppl face enough discrimination to lower their life expectancy, rise their likelihood to be sexually assaulted, be poorer, and just generally have a way worse quality of life than both straight and gay ppl, so arguing that biphobia doesn't exist is just trying to make ur wishes come true at this point. and i'm seriously not in the mood today or ever to try to prove that 2+2=4)

anyway... to be clear i'm not mad at you and/or calling u a monster, just pointing that out cuz it would bother me if i didn't, and trying to avoid turning this into a biphobia fest in my inbox

moving on! doaijdsoiaj

i can't talk about sambucky and samsteve cuz i haven't actually been involved with the marvel fandom for years now, so i haven't read a lot of fic, and even now the very few tfatws blogs that i follow are all sam-centric cuz im trying to avoid stressing myself with Even More Fandom Buffonery lol, but my educated guess would be that every fandom with an interracial ship is going to have racist tropes, especially because Bucky Stans™ as a group are some of the most racist fandoms ive ever seen. it's actually one of the things that turned me off the MCU fandom, because bucky actually was and is one of my faves, but boiiiiiiiiii

i think most clalec shippers left the fandom long ago (they were never a big group anyway, but you know, at this point they haven't had reason to be active anymore, since most of their thing was to harrass malec shippers and yell about how clalec would prevail, and that fight is already over and done with lol)

[moonraccoon-exe]

Oh no don't worry I wasn't upset. Well, not at you. I'm sending a separate ask to keep private but other than THAT, things are good. Foot is all better, Coctura is happy and healthy, I'm still with Coach, whose team just got silver in a competition btw. I think I just needed a break from social media in general, which is fine bc it gave me time to play LOTS of Red Dead Redemption 2. -Breakfast Girl

*HYSTERICAL INHALE*

BREAKFAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAST GUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUURL BUDDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY SHRIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

*eXPLODES*

*HYSTERICALLY SHORT CIRCUITING AND EXPLODING OVER AND OVER AND OVER*

Lemme add a very  nice keep reading right here :3

BG BUDDY MY SWEETEST MUFFIN CUTIE PIE YOU WONDERFUL SUPERB CREATURE MADE OF AMAZINGNESS, OMG IT U!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

*EXPLODES*

ASKLDJFDALKGJASDKLAJDG KLAJFAKLFGJDAKLGJAFKLAGJ DAKLGJADKLF AKGDLJ GKLSJF

*UNCONTROLLABLY FLAILING AND SPASMING AND SHORT CIRCUITING LIKE A DESPERATE TURTLE ON ITS BACK AT ROCKET SPEED*

*SHRIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK*

BUDDY BG, ASKLDJADKLGJADLKGJDA, OMG OMG OMG

IT U

BG BUDDY

IT U

FLIPS EVERY FLIPPABLE OBJECT IN THE HOUSE*

*GLOMPS AND STAYS TIGHTLY HUGGED TO YOUR HEAD AND DOESN’T LET GO EVER AGAIN*

YOU SUPERB CREATURE YOU WONDERFUL CUPCAKE OMG HOW I’VE MISSED YOU FUCK OH MY GAWD HOW I’VE MISSED YOU, I MISSED YOU SO SO SO SO MUCH BG BUDDY AND II’VE HAD THIS HERE FOR SO LONG AND HAVEN’T ANSWERED AND I FEEL SO GUILTY BUT I WANTED TO GIVE YOU A PROPER ANSWER AND OMG BG BUDDY IT U I MISSED YOU SO MUCH KALSJDKLGJ AKLDJD

*THROWS EVERYTHING OUT THE WINDOW*

*TRASHES THE ROOM*

*tRASHES THE WHOLE NEIGHBORDHOOD WHILE SCREECHING*

AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH AKLSJFDKLAGJ AKLFJDAKLGJDA DLJA

*HYPERVENTILATES*

RIGHT OKAY YES HELLO IT ME I’M GONNA FORCE MYSELF TO CALM DOWN BECAUSE *HYPERVENTILATES LOUDER AND FASTER* OMG IT U AND I WANT TO GO ON FOR PAGES AND PAGES SCREAMING EXCITEDLY AT YOU BECAUSE OMG BG BUDDY IT U AKLSJDKALG JAKLDGJ A*DROWNS* I’M SO HYPED SO EXCITED TO BE TALKING WITH YOU AGAIN BUT JUST LIKE LTAST TIME IF I KEEP GOING AND GOOING ABOUT IT I’M NEVER GONNA ANSWER TO YOU AND IT’S BEEN LONG ENOUGH ALREADY I NEED TO C A L M D O WN AKLSJDFKDLG JAKLDGJ LAKJSGD

*GOES AWAY FOR A MINUTE*

Ah. Ah. okAY I Got iT AKLDSJGKLFAJGLADKGJSFKLJGFSG

OKAY I GOT IT I BE CALM HNGFNHFGNHFG

SCREAAAAAAAAAAAAAM

BG BUDDY IT YOU!!!!!!! ( ´ ▽ ` ).｡ｏ♡

*snuggles*

Omg BG buddy, thank you SO much for dropping another ask!! PHEW, I?m so sorry it’s taken me this awfully terribly long to say something. Holiday season has been sorta busy for me this year, which has been both pleasant and time consuming. Definitely enjoyable, though! It’s the first year my family decides to take the week, so I’ve been busy with that!! Sorry, but thank you for understandin and waiting :3

I’m glad to know that you weren’t upset at me! But also very sad to know that other thing you sent in the private ask. I did worry a lot reading it, but at the end you reassured me it was fine and it’s all back to normal and that’s such a giant, immense relief, you have no idea. I’m happy it didn’t get any worse and that things turned out alright!! Aahhh, makes me wanna hug you both ( ´ ▽ ` )

Your foot is all better now!!! HOOOOOOOOOORAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY AYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! (ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ BG Buddy I’m SO happy for you omg, in the meanwhile you were quiet, I was wondering about your foot a lot. It also happened that in a fic I’m currently writing someone is dealing with a broken leg, so I inevitably thought about you even more, ahaha. Aaah, I’m so happy and relieved to know it’s all okay now!! o(>ω

*SQUEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAK* DEAR COCTURA SWEETIE CUTIEPIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO hapy and blessed and lkasjdkladfja that you let me know about precious smol Coctura!!! *SQUEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAK* THAT PRECIOUS ANGEL THAT DESERVES THE WORLD OMG I’M SO HAPPY FOR THE PRECIOUS FLUFF ;A; Happy and healthy..I mean, it’s you looking after her, so it really doesn’t surprise me. You’re a kind and good person so of course lil Coctura would be in such a wonderful state

YOU STILL WITH COACH, AAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!! THAT’S SOOOOOOOO BEAUTIFUL!!! :’’3 Hgfhfghklnfghklfnh, I’m so happy that things are apparently working out between you two. It’s WONDERFUL! Means it’s been okay and that is a delight to hear. I’m so happy you both are alright, as in, both as a couple/friends and individually

GASPS Her team got silver recently!?!?!?! OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH DUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUDE THAT IS SOOOOOOOOOO BADASS AND EPIC AND SO COOOOOOOOOL, AAAAAHH!!!! o(≧▽≦)o

TELL HER- TELL HER THAT YOU HAE A RACCOON FRIEND AND- AND AND ANDANDNDANAD AND THAT IT SAYS ZOMG CONGRATZ ON SILVER!!!! :D

ASKLDJLKAJFAKLDJFADLKGADJG SO COOL!!!

Ooooh, yesyes, I understand the whole thing about needing a break from social media. Looking after yourself is important, and it doesn’t always  mean to do something, sometimes it means to leave something, even if just momentarily. And somehow, for some reason, social medias have this…energy? Or this thing that consumes your energy, it’s sorta…draining. I don’t know why,, it looks like a simple task, but yes, internet-ing can be exhausting…

I’m very, very happy and glad that you decided to take a break, buddy. It means you were aware you needed it, and it takes something to acknowledge it, even more to actually do it. Social medias can be so…addictive, even when you know you n eed a time away.

So congrats, BG buddy. Once more, you prove to be a strong and mature homan being who knows you need of  You, and you need to look after yourself. And you handled it nicely. Like always, I’m not just happy for you, BG buddy, I’m so proud.

You truly are one brave person, I hope you’re aware.

BUT YEAH

I’m happy to know that you did what you had to. I missed you terribly, but so long you were away to do best to yourself, then I can wait for years, still gonna be here when you’re back, and I’ll definitely be cheering you on. You is important, and I’m glad that you know that, and that you’ve worked so hard on taking care of You. So proud you’re so strong, so happy you’re better now. That’s my BG buddy. ٩(◕‿◕｡)۶

OOOOOHHHHH!!!! Red Dead Redemption 2!!! I’ve heard FANTASTIC things about that!! (*°▽°*)  To be honest I missed a lot of the game world (never had any of the PS, and latest thing I had was a Wii), so I don’t think I ever heard about Red Dead Redemption 1? And if I did it didn’t seem important at the time. But now with the release of RDR2 I’ve heard WONDERS about it, everyone going nuts about its release, and it being a fantastic game!!!

I can’t say I know how much you’re enjoying it because I’m clueless on the game, but if you’ve been playing it lots, it means it must be lots and lots of fun to you!! And so epic and entertaining and aksjdakldgjadg omg BG buddy, that’s PHENOMENAAAAAAL!!!!! Games are always a fantastic experience, and one that seems to be so particularly epic? Gawd, I’m so happy you get to play lately, BG buddy!!! :3

Bg buddy, there’s not much more to say. I’m so, so, so happy to see you around again, and so happy to know things are going good. I’m happy that you did what was best to you, and I?m happy to see you wandering around again, and it’s, like always, my delight and honor to see you drop by my inbox. I missed you terribly, buddy, and it makes me happy like you have no idea to see you around again

I hope to hear from you again soon!! How are things going? I haven’t checked Endings in Reverse in a while.Gotta check it later! 

Meanwhile, I hope that you’re doing FANTASTIC, buddy! I’m sorry again for the awfully late response. I’ve been feeling very drained from asks, lately. Maybe it’s because of the two on going fics I’m writing, giganormous...so it really is only my fault, haha!!! But I’ll try to answer when I can, even if it’s by bits. And even when I don’t reply, I read all asks straight away as they arrive, so do feel free to message me if you ever feel like it, even if it takes me a while to reply

Buddy, I don’t know if you celebrate anything in these dates? But happy holidays. Merry Christmas, if that’s as you celebrate!! I wanted to reply to this before the 25th, but I failed ;w;Still, know that I’m sending you lots and lots of my warmest, luckiest, happiest, and most loving raccoonie hugs and vibes. Wishing you a very good rest of the year and a fantastically beautiful start of a new one, regardless of what you may or may not celebrate :3

Dear BG buddy, it’s a delight to be talking with you again!!!!

I hope you’re having a MOST FANTASTIC day or night, buddy!!! (ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ

[emmerrr]

EM IM CRYING IN MY BED AT *checks watch* 2.12AM AND ITS ALL YOUR FAULT BUT I AM SO VERY THANKFUL FOR IT OMFG. So I found your fics from a fic rec page on tumblr and I literally binge read the 'to live would be an awfully big adventure' series in a couple of days (I spammed your notifications with kudos too probably, I'm sorry) BUT YOU'VE MADE ME FEEL SO MANY THINGS AND LAUGH SO HARD AND CRY SO LONG AND GENERALLY MADE ME TURN INTO A BALL OF EMOTION BECAUSE HOLY FREAKING HELL YOUR WRITING IS POETRY AND I AM SO VERY IN LOVE WITH IT. I just wanna say thank you. thank you for writing wonderful things and giving us the honour of being able to read them. thank you so very very much for being so kind as to share these incredible little fics with us, they're absolutely magnificent. I can't properly express to you how sad I am that I've finished reading this series already, but also I'm probably going to binge read your masterlist after this so there's that. Just...THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOUR WORK

Ps: sorry if this is a little all over the place, I'm a tad sleep deprived and I can barely see the screen through all the tears and I am big emotional rn lol this series was gorgeous

this is so insanely sweet, thank you so much??? i keep meaning to add more to that series but haven’t felt particularly inspired, but this lovely message made me want to try a little harder, so thank you, i’m so glad you liked that series, and you made my day <333

[lubdubsworld]

“You told me it felt good, saying it out loud. So maybe the next time, you feel angry… you can say that out loud. I’m feeling angry. Try saying it. Sometime just that can help dissipate the intensity of it. And the same goes for your attraction to her as well.”

This is similar to what I do when any of my emotions get too overwhelming for me (saying it out loud) and yes, it helps so much. So happy to see you mention it here 🥺

“you don’t have to get over it. Just as Jungkook is allowed to feel angry…you are too.”

I'm really glad that Heejin is getting to rearrange her thoughts and perspectives here too, as in, to take care of herself and heal herself. Can't wait to see how she develops 💖

“Yes. Pain from loss can be that way. I like to think of it as a window in your bedroom. You never know where it is. It keeps popping up and opening at random times. Fills you with cold and dread and a lot of pain. It stays open as long as it wants and closes on its own. But as time passes, it gets smaller…the cold is less severe ….the door stays open for shorter duration until one day it isn’t really there anymore.”

I'm 🥺🥺 Taehyung is being such a good friend too. I mean, yes he is Jungkook's therapist but I love how he's helping Heejin navigate her emotions. Love this.

“Jungkook’s learning to cope with his grief, Heejin. He is a good guy. Very unlike the alphas I meet. Incredibly compassionate and full of love…. That’s why his grief is so strong…. He has so much love to give and it has nowhere to go, and he feels helpless …Grief is just love with nowhere to go… .  it spills over as anger and tears and bitterness….. It’s not my place to say this and I would probably hate myself for saying this but I hope…you won’t shut yourself off to the possibility of a future with him. Beyond this contract that is.”

Taehyung caring for Jungkook, not just as a patient but as a friend shows so clearly here. Also, the part about Jungkook being full of love is so wholesome 😔🥰 "Grief is just love with nowhere to go" I think I died here a little. You are such an amazing writer, it makes me wanna scream and send you that very message every. single. day. 💕

It wasn’t I’m hurt or I’m sad or I’m upset…

It was I’m hurt now…but I won’t be , someday.

I’m sad now but I’m going to find joy someday…

I’m upset now but someday, I won’t be….

Jungkook needs me now, but someday… he won’t.

I may or may not have cried here. Please, this is breaking my heart but I am loving it. I'm officially declaring a screaming session for how amazing the main characters in this series are 📢

No, but seriously. Ma'am, let me send you all the hugs and kisses pls 🤧 This chapter was so good, it was a small therapy session almost.

Jungkook's development is making me dizzy with happiness. So happy he's trying to make his own decisions consciously without letting his emotions overpower him into anything forcefully. He's taking charge and I'm here for it.

My heart is breaking for Heejin. She seems torn between choosing Jungkook who makes her feel so much and Yoongi who let's her be herself and relax.

I love Yoongi. He's being one of her support pillars through the difficult times and not to mention, him crushing on her for years 🤧 I feel bad for him because I'm rooting for Jungkook too 😭

Yugyeom getting his ass handed by none other than Kook- we love to see it.

Taehyung being the therapist and friend we all need. What a character. Loved his conversations with them both.

In other news, the smut at the end *wiggles eyebrows* I just-

The point is- I LOVED THIS CHAPTER AND IM SO THANKFUL TO YOU BCS YOU'RE TOO GOOD 🥺💖

PS- I'm extremely sorry for this adrenaline and dopamine induced word vomit :(

This chapter was a joy to write....

Therapy can be such a terrifying thing but with the right therapist it can do wonder 🥺🥺🥺👉👈

I'm really hoping that anyone in pain who reads this fic will consider reaching out to someone for help because there is really no shame or weakness in doing that.....

The reason I picked Jungkook himself was because he's often seen as this incredibly put together, super talented guy with a great support system and you see even in the fic he's like that...he has money , he has a fulfilling career and he has a great support system....

But he still needed the therapy.... It was definitely cathartic watching him get the help he needed...the characters in this fic haave become so real to me...😭😭😭😭😭😭😭