#Pure Blind

[tagnoob]

Getting Home From the North

The map in the north is settling down since the announcement that B2 Coalition was done fighting up there. Those groups formerly in the B2 Coalition have mostly moved south or made their peace with the new overlord in the north.  The new Phoenix Coalition, made up of Synergy of Steel, Banderlogs Alliance, Razor Alliance, and Game Theory, will remain in the northeast, having signed an agreement…

[bamsara]

being an adult means we can buy or make as much self-indulgent shit (as we can afford) and unironically have trinkets of our fave things cause our teen years was bullied for liking things and hiding/denying we were ever neurodivergent to the point of suicide. sucks for anyone that thinks its weird cringe but I'm going to try and allow myself to love myself in little ways now

[rdr2gifs]

''the morning light, when it comes to me, it was there but I could not see''

Arthur’s life was profoundly shaped by his self-hatred, lack of self-worth and disbelief in the existence of kindness in a seemingly dark and cruel world.

I strongly disagree with the statement that Arthur only became a ‘’better’’ man after being diagnosed with tb. His struggle with his true/inner self is apparent as early as chapter one. ‘’You are not who you think you are, sir… which is lucky’’

He has lived a rough life, raised by criminals and surrounded by violence ever since he was born. It was installed in him early that his value lied within being a violent enforcer and he has lived this life since, knowing nothing else. As a highly aware person, Arthur's actions weight heavy on his soul. He accepts that his actions have consequences. He knows that a person who has caused so much suffering is not meant to have happiness in life. His way of life has caused him to believe that he is not worthy of love or redemption. He doesn’t want to believe that a person like him could be capable of any good. (a thing to note here is that imo, Arthur’s actions near his death weren’t attempts at redemption but rather a strong desire to do right and possibly be his true self.) This is why he keeps living as he does as it’s the only thing he’s ever known, it’s the thing that brings him profit, praise from the person he looks up to and he is already damned so he might as well continue living this life anyway.

The internal problem Arthur faces is that this violent, cruel way of life doesn’t align with what I’d call his true self/ideals. He is torn between the harsh reality he has known and an unconscious yearning for righteousness/love. To be able to carry on with his actions he must enforce certain ideals within himself, such as: I am bad, ugly, nasty, ignorant, mean etc. He also decides to see the dark side of reality, telling himself that the world is a grim dark place and this is just as things were meant to be. This is why he feels so uncomfortable being complimented for his good deeds, because a bad rotten person like him should not be able to do good. It breaks the image he has built for himself and he doesn’t want that happening. This can be seen a lot during the ‘’Money Lending and Other Sins’’ missions where he is unusually mean (even for his standards) to each of the debtors. Imo, he acts this way because he must truly convince himself of being a terrible man to be able to carry out a job which revolts him so badly. In the last debt collecting mission with J. John Weathers, it can be seen in his face/expressions how much he is struggling to put on a tough, uncaring, heartless act. He needs to maintain a ruthless persona to survive in the world he knows. He must convince himself of his own cruelty.

''Forgive me, but that's the problem. You don't know you.''

Contrary to Arthur’s beliefs, he is a naturally kind-hearted person who is unconsciously drawn towards kindness. And yes, even before he was diagnosed with tb. This can be seen in the people he respects the most and, in his willingness to help strangers (notice how he often does unnecessary acts of service for total strangers such as: carrying their things, holding out hands etc. even though they had already troubled him). Despite the life he has lived, Arthur does not enjoy violence, he does not enjoy hurting people. He doesn’t want to dominate over others. He thinks mostly about others and not about himself. This fact alone is very telling of his character.

He writes about Charles, a man who he truly respects: ‘’He’s a better man than me. He does not need to think to be good. It comes naturally to him, like right is deep within as opposed to this conflict between GOOD↔EVIL that rages within me.’’ A man who is not struggling with his inner self would not have written this. To me this clearly implies an inner desire to be a better man. He writes about his mentors: ‘’I love Dutch like a father, but in many ways, I love Hosea even more. He’s kind and fair and like a human being. Dutch is something else.’’ Clearly showing a preference for Hosea who is of a more gentle nature and shows genuine kindness. Unsurprisingly, these are the people who see through his dumb/though act and encourage him to drop it.

When he comes across Brother Dorkins for the first time, he writes: ‘’(he)was one of those innocent people who make you feel better about human beings and about yourself a little. Must be odd to see all that goodness in the world. Place always seemed dark and brutal to me.’’ Expressing how he does not see goodness in the world, implying lack of good examples/kindness/good experiences in his life. Yet, the monk leaves an impression and imo, this encounter (seeing genuine goodness) disrupts Arthur’s perception of what the world truly is. ‘’Just as evil begat evil your whole life long, so good may begat good’’ (what strengthens my belief in this, is the following, symbolic scene of Arthur realising the consequences of his actions right after picking up a crucifix. He was aware of them before sure, but is unable to truly ignore them now having seen it right in front of his eyes). If only Arthur was presented with more examples of goodness in his life.

''You have it in you... I can tell!''

His desire to do as much good as possible after realising he won’t live long is instant. This would not be the mindset of someone who did not already possess kindness in his heart. ‘’Know glory and forget about shame.’’ Arthur’s shame and self-loathing caused by his previous actions were what was holding him back from allowing kindness into his life. Knowing that he has limited time left has not made him into someone he wasn’t before. The diagnosis was a catalyst, allowing him to embrace that love/goodness truly does exist and accelerate the process of chipping away from the persona he has made for himself. This was a newfound understanding for him as in the past he was rejecting any notion of kindess. In himself and perhaps the whole existence of it. ‘’You keep hidden all that matters, even from yourself.’’

After being diagnosed, he writes: ‘’What kind of a man have I been? What kind of a man am I? What world is this we live in? A land of fury or a place of love? Am I being prepared for eternal damnation? Am I past any kind of saving? Is that all fairytales? Man ain’t got much good in him. I ain’t got no good in me… I don’t think and yet I see goodness. I see it. If not in me, in good folk. In Abigail and her love for Jack. In that silly monk. In Downes, I guess. Begging not for himself but for the poor, even though he was near starving himself. Maybe I don’t want salvation. Part of me has always longed for death.’’ This entry perfectly shows how deep Arthur’s self-loathing goes and just how much it has damaged him. As his journal allows a look into his true feelings, he truly does not see a single good thing about himself. He knew for a long time that the way he lives is detestable but he could not let go of it. Not because he didn’t want to, but because it’s all that he has ever known. He didn’t believe in anything else. This sudden acceptance of goodness has allowed him to see clearly, which was obscured from him before, and for the first time, enabled him to act free of past regrets for what is right.

⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪

Arthur’s redemption is not about becoming a good man. It is about finding the strength to change and recognise your true self despite a lifetime of self-loathing and breaking free from destructive beliefs of the past.

In Arthurian legends a stag is a symbol of the unending quest of spiritual knowledge/enligtenment

[arson-09]

Rhysand really thinks his trauma trumps everyone elses trauma

Ofc i feel bad cause rhysand was obviously abused UtM but that doesn’t excuse the fact he 1- does shit things to other people 2- can act like since he was traumatized he is morally superior.

and i know the rhysand-ites will yap about how “he knows hes not good” or “he doesnt think that at all!” but the narrative certainly thinks so. sjm jumps through HOOPS to convince you rhysand is a great and amazing person no matter what and good god it’s annoying

[lolo3h]

Shadow Milk watching Pure Vanilla lie by omission must have made him ecstatic

[genericpuff]

what people assume i'm thinking while i'm working on rekindled: "GRRR I HATE LO AND RACHEL!!! I HATE HER SO MUCH!!! THIS WILL SHOW HER AND HER FANS! THIS WILL SHOW ALL OF THEM! I HOPE RACHEL SEES THIS AND CRIES!!!"

what i'm actually thinking while i work on rekindled: "man i'm having a great time working on this but i can't wait to be done with this panel that's driving me nuts. i wonder how i can get that cool splatter effect rachel did in S1. bright colors make brain go brrrr. i can't wait to get to the part where hades clowns on himself. oof i'm hungry, i need to figure out what to have for dinner tonight. oh look, an 11 hour retrospective on the simpsons-"

[vsnapdragon]

i love my dumb hc that lily gave pv a shittily done diy top surgery spell and here’s the other ancients /his partners during his recovery

[cbsxreader]

Soooo I spent way too much time on this than I should have

Cw: swearing, a bit of blood

I saw this with good omens and decided to do it with freak fortress

[magpiesbones]

Hey you know what’s actually just like. SO fucked up?

BECAUSE ALL PUBLIC MAGIC IS DONE DISCREETLY— AND THAT IT IS CANON THAT WITCHES ARE TRAINED TO DRAW WITHOUT LOOKING AT THEIR HANDS— GOING BLIND WOULD NOT MAKE SOMEONE UNABLE TO CAST.

All it would do is make you unable to cast unfamiliar spells or analyze spells you didn’t draw, which while Pretty Big still:

if qifrey got a white cane he would be able to essentially continue functioning like a sighted witch but witch society is SO goddamn ableist not only would this Never occur to him but he would get Judged about it.

[yukinabushido]

I'm making the sick jester an actual thing I swear. So, I just realized the sketches of Shadow Milk being sick in different ways is my most liked post for some reason, so I decided to give you guys a decent drawing of it, which is basically one of the sketches but with lineart and color:

No but srs thank you so much for the support??? Like, those were sketches I wasn't even proud of, I'm flattered! ‎‧₊˚✧ ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა ✧˚₊‧

[tagnoob]

Collapse in the North: B2 Joins the Imperium after 18 Months Under Attack

But once again, there were four major powers in the game.  We had PanFam. We had Winter Coalition, we had Imperium, and we had B2. After that, PanFam and Frat decided to try to force B2 to bend the knee to them, and then began what would be a year and a half long campaign against them. -Asher Elias, Imperium Fireside Nov. 4, 2023 Saturday saw announcements in multiple corp and alliance meetings…

[sadlynotthevoid]

I was reading 'One Bad End is Enough' by AsterEfflores (best art ever, btw. Completely astonishing) and, damn, Tristan is so rightfully salty.

I, too, want to scold at the canon when everyone and their mothers mention the past Cale (og!Cale, even if they don't know) as "the trash young master". Trash, trash, trash— SHUT UP. YOU'RE ALIVE BECAUSE HE WENT FOR DECADES OF WAR FIRST AND STILL ACCEPTED THAT DAMN DEAL.

Man is the only damn person who remembers the past timeline. He's the only one who knows exactly how much they lost last time. Only he knows how horrible it ended.

The family he wanted to be safe and happy so bad that he dedicated years to pretend he's a worthless heir, the worst option. All of them dead. And when he's about to die—

If I were him and had lost everyone I loved and saw the world be burned down by a maniac, I would be fucking relieved to finally see everyone again and rest.

But he wanted them to be happy and safe. He wanted to help his reincarnated mom. He wanted things to be different even if he couldn't see it.

AND NO ONE EVEN NOTICES THAT HE'S NOT THERE. NO ONE GIVES A SHIT ABOUT WHO HE WAS. NO ONE KNEW HIM ENOUGH TO REALIZE, OR CARED ENOUGH TO ASK.

It's fucking sad and it piss me off.

Even more because the person in question is an absolute cinnamon roll who says things like "I'll save this world because I want everyone to live peaceful lives" (i probably got the quote wrong, but that was the spirit of it) so casually and without a sign of shame. He lived a life for others and hets a new life and, what does he does? He uses it to make everyone safe and happy. He takes care of the team he barely knows, tries his best for a kid who was once his mom, and keeps working despite having the money to quit. He goes around smiling though he doesn't have to. He's genuinely happy and glad. I—

Man, Tristan is so right. He's my spirit animal.

[calamarispiderart]

i dont usually write out my personal story interpretations and headcanons of things (i like to draw out the concepts and hope it comes across--most of my words are kept to discord and such) but ive been thinking on my interpretation of hearts blindness and figured its worth sharing here! especially because, from what i understand my view on this is perhaps not in the majority.

ive done a comic relating to this (which ill reblog for further reference) but i personally see hearts blindness as something actively and willfully chosen and caused by heart himself--metaphorically, representing his own avoidance and distorted perception of the reality they live in. a mix of him not wanting to acknowledge it all (consigning himself to apathy) and something like rose tinted lenses... but the lenses are instead a fuzzy, tunneled and dim vision that doesnt provide him the full picture.

a key aspect of my interpretation is that heart actively chose to alter his vision (perception) in this way, AND that it is a permanent shift. its something he learns to work and function with. (this also represents how you cant undo change; you can only learn to live with the new shift in your being). i personally.... really dislike the idea of his blindness being a punishment, and thematically i find him choosing to blind himself far more in line with hearts motivations. hes the sort to do something like that without thinking through the consequences because it helps him cope in the moment.

when it comes to the way in which hearts blindness manifests, i personally hc him having a mix of tunnel vision, light sensitivity (exacerbated and aided by the blindfold), some blind spots (i cant remember the exact name but... spots of vision that are just gone) along with visual snow and floaters. the last two are mostly because i have those and i want to project B:•P

umm but yeah! those are my thoughts on the matter, feel free to add to thoughts if you guys have any!

[pharaohbean]

due to a. number of reasons (including but not limited to breakdowns on multiple bodily levels [emotionally i want to cry but mentally i cannot and therefore i only cry for about 5s physically which is Not Enough]) i am currently seeking fluff (sfw only!!) for my ships (tagged). can be on tumblr or ao3 or whatever- tumblr pls dont let me down /lh

comment or reblog with links or titles! im not afraid to go searching lol

[galaxiiaa]

AAA, pure vanilla angst goes brrrr

anyways, my take on how the dark flour war ended! Everyone lived except from pure vanilla and dark enchantress! Don't ask me how PV became healer cookie, I do not know XD

Still on stage 5 on the normal map, but I am HOOKED!