#RSD? more like SUCK MY D

[gongedtornado]

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[theoculus124]

Okay since you offered here are some questions I have...

1. What specific challenges do you face and how do you change things about your day to day life to deal with them?

2. How many times have you heard the 'its not that bad' or 'everyones a little ADHD' cause I wanna know how uneducated people are?

3. What help did you get/are you getting in a school/work environment?

I'm wanting to go into...like brain stuff, psychology, mental health and neuro divergency, so your offer of answering questions is really appreciated....

If answer to no. 3 is an unsatisfactory amount, then that will become something I will try my hardest to one day change, so people like yourself can have equal opportunities and a little limitations as possible. x

I struggle with ADHD paralysis, in short form it's when you get so overwhelmed you can't do anything so like for example I feel so overwhelmed in the morning by what I need to do throughout the day I stay in bed for a long period of time. Some people may think that's me being "lazy" or me just wanting to stay in bed like anyone else but the truth is is that I feel like I'm stuck to the bed because of how debilitating and stressful the rest of the day might be for me so I stay stuck. For now normally I don't really have alot of ways for dealing with it, so it just sort of happens and I get perceived as lazy and people will get upset with me and I just sort of take it? There's also RSD (rejection sensitivity dysphoria) which I also struggle with alot, it can be simple things like maybe my friend hasn't texted me for a while or maybe I'm trying to give someone a hug and they push me away cause they're busy or when I was younger I typically only had 1 friend that I would cling to and so when they got other friends I felt like they would hate me and want to cut me off. That manifested in A) alot of self hated B) toxic behaviours like cutting people off randomly because in my head if I do it first they won't be able to do it to me C) crying for hours on end D) avoidance tendencies especially if there's conflict. Again, it's a difficult one to deal with, I've learnt now that cutting people off is obviously a very hurtful thing to do and it can cause alot of pain unnecessarily and the best thing is to communicate to the other people. However I can't say that I still don't struggle with the fact that the little things/body language gets to me and I think really therapy will be my best bet (if I get one) -- that's a long para so I'll stop it there but I hope that helps x

ALL THE DAMN TIME! Even with autism (I have ASD and ADHD) and people will tell me "everyone's on the spectrum" and I think especially cause ADHD traits do overlap with anxiety and depression whenever I'd complain they would be like "it's just anxiety/depression" (obviously that's also downplaying the effects anxiety/depression has on people which is also a huge problem) so yh it's very annoying and such a prevalent message and I hate it so much because it downplays issues ND people face daily and almost seems like an excuse not to give someone help -- Also I can rant about the whole "high functioning" labels but that would take 3 blog posts those labels suck so much

currently for exams I get extra time, rest breaks, and I do my exams in a separate environment so I don't get stressed out by the huge crowd. However, for my day to day help isn't really prevalent and I think that's mainly cause of the fact that despite there being a department at my schl for people with disabilities the staff there aren't trained (not saying they're bad/not nice) so it's a bit extra awkward to try open up about ND struggles and there's limited help they can give us

There's obviously more and my experience is probably alot different to others but I'm so happy that you want to make a change in this field and I really appreciate you asking questions and being interested you're going to be awesome in your career <3

[tinyorangepotato]

I should really get professional help. Fucking I am pretty sure I have ADHD and autism and maybe even BPD but idk about that because it could just be rsd. Went into work after switching my hours today from 3 to 11 to 6 to 11 since I have 3 jobs technically to juggle and I've been so annoyed and pissed off and upset just in general whenever I would go into my gas station job even though it's the one I like the best. And so I'll only be working there 21 hours instead of my 24 and give me a little more down time. But I went in all happy and ready to have a good time and I was barely greeted when I got there and I tried to start a Convo. Very simple so not actually gonna go anywhere since I fucking sucks as socializing even though I'm a cashier. And got pretty much ignore so boom. Instant mood killer. Which it really shouldn't have been and no one else was feeling chatty expecially at that time so I legit almost had a breakdown so music time :) and putting away cigarette sand restocking them.

But like I don't have any friends. I got my boyfriend which is the only person I regularly talk to In person and online. We have 3 "new" (within like maybe 2 or 3 months working there only) cashiers and a maintenance and they're all buddy buddy and I was even asked once by the gm if I hung out after my shift one night because apparently they did and shit and like. I fucking wish. I wish had people to talk to and make plans outside of work with a d fuck I'm ending it here. Good enoguh

[destroy-the-4th-wall]

Gonna go ahead and put all of these on the same post so that I don't have to go digging every time I want to remember anything on my Addisons I should've written elsewhere as well- And I'll include new info because why not. :D I'll link more posts here in the future as well. Basically, it's gonna be a masterpost.

All:

- They/them pronouns, but Spamton favors he/him pronouns. He's still okay with they/them.

- They're all 5' 9", except Spamton after the acid incident. He's 3'.

- They're all good at preventing Illy's meltdowns/shutdowns. They don't happen much, but they know what to do just in case. A few are decent at comforting Illy and Spark with their RSD, too.

- They're very protective of each other.

- Most of them make bets with each other. Spark often suggests the bets and conditions. The loser usually has to buy food for the winner or for everyone.

- They're all unbothered by pen clicking noises.

Blip Addison:

- Their birthday is December 21st.

- They're the oldest, and older than Gimmick by a couple months.

- They somehow have worse anger issues than Spamton?

- They play a harp, and their healing magic uses one! But they can't play real music with the latter. It just makes different water-related sound effects.

- They're not the best healer, but they know how to physically care for injuries until healing magic can be used... There's no reason for this. Nope. Most certainly not the third point.

- When they're in a good mood, they're the best to go to for emotional comfort, however it's needed. Advice? A hug? Just listening? You name it.

- They use ominous positivity in regards to self-care, such as setting their status online to, "Drink water or I'm coming for your kneecaps. :)"

- Because they can read people really well, their siblings often act based on their judgement of others (but not always). Regardless, if you're on Blip's good side, you'll be on good terms with most of the siblings.

- They're forbidden from cooking while unsupervised because they suck so much at it.

- They're pan, so they make a number of jokes about the previous point. But they don't like those jokes from people who aren't pan or one of their siblings (it gets annoying when those are the only jokes you hear about being pan...).

Gimmick Addison:

- Their birthday is February 3rd.

- They're the second oldest, and older than Illy by a little over a year.

- They know they're not straight, but that's about it. However, they don't seem interested in finding a specific label, either.

- They play the drums, and on top of that, they can also sing!

- They have NO CLUE how they managed to be popular in school, even though the reasons are painfully obvious to everyone else.

- They make a lot of dad jokes and puns.

- They usually don't swear. May if they're surprised, angry, or in pain.

- They don't appear chaotic. Then you leave them and Spamton unattended, and suddenly Blip has to bail them out of jail for getting caught in a pickpocketing scheme.

- Jk on the last point! They've only been caught a couple of times and put in jail for it once. Blip never lets either of them live it down, especially since the others had to work quickly for money to bail Gimmick out.

- They like cooking, and they're great at it!

- They have a flat/blunted affect. You may have heard this called a "resting bitchface" before.

- They have a tendency to ruin (improve?) Spamton's arson jokes whenever he's talking to someone he barely knows and they're within earshot.

Illusion Addison:

- Their birthday is March 18th.

- They're the middle child, a little over 2 years older than Spamton.

- They strictly go by Illy. They hate their birth name, but haven't taken the time to legally change it yet.

- They're demiromantic and sapphic!

- They're autistic and have ADHD! Their most common stims are making soft popping/clicking noises with their mouth, flipping/rolling a coin back and forth, rubbing the bottom hem of their shirt/suit, and... one more I forgot and need to add again-

- They play the violin. Yes, learning to play was absolute hell for them. They're not the best, but they're pretty good at it now!

- They'll point out flaws they find in their siblings' insults. This isn't to feel "intellectually superior" (which is a bad autism stereotype). No, they're just being a smartass. They don't do this often, either.

- They'll always go out of their way to annoy someone who annoyed them or their siblings. They'll eat a candy bar in front of them that's meant to be broken without breaking it, for example. There's more, but I can't think of anything at the moment.

- They're the best healer in the family, in terms of magic. And they have a lot of practice from healing Blip. However, they're a little tired of it.

- Insomniac number one! They find it easy to get to sleep, but staying asleep is quite the challenge.

- They're the best at malicious compliance.

- They're the biggest gamer of the family. They specifically love survival games, but they're better at puzzle games.

Spamton Addison:

- His birthday is April 1st. Yes, he was bullied in school for it.

- He's the second youngest, and close to 6 months older than Spark.

- Bi!

- Also, demiflux!

- When he's with Gimmick, he's the idea guy. Particularly when it comes to committing crime and avoiding getting caught or put in jail. So far, he's got a good track record! They've only ever been arrested once!

- The only person allowed to call him Spammy (outside of his family) is Swatch. If anyone else calls him that, he'll probably start a fight.

- He's too smart for their own good at times. Like their other siblings, he chooses not to use his intelligence and does stupid shit, even though they know better. Or he uses it for stupid shit.

- He's learned to control his anger just long enough to get somewhere else where he can either safely take his anger out, or do something else to calm down.

- While working for Mike, he was damn near CONSTANTLY pissed off. Before working for Mike, he looked up to him. But then he laid eyes on him in person for the first time, and he just knew Mike was an asshole. His wariness around Mike then developed into intense anger the more he saw how he treated employees -- namely the way he talked behind their backs.

- He has a multitude of trust issues. This is especially true in the Failed Salt Route timeline after he turns on Kris, gets Blip to safety, and ends up reunited with his family shortly afterwards.

- He may antagonize someone if they try to start a fight, but he usually won't attack first. No, he'll attack in "self-defense."

- However, if you intentionally misgender his siblings, he can and will give Blip a run for their money in the Getting Into Fights department.

- He learned to play piano while working for Mike as a way to manage his anger. He didn't learn drums like Gimmick did because he got more worked up when he played them.

- Spark no longer makes bets with them because he kept finding loopholes to exploit. Yet, they may still take bets from him. Which are often one-sided. These are the bets they choose not to take.

- When someone insults his height, he rates and criticizes the insult. This is partly because he's accepted that people are going to insult his height now.

- He's an insomniac. And he has the worst of both worlds, finding it difficult to both get to and stay asleep.

- He almost killed someone when he was 15.

Spark Addison:

- Unfortunately, their birthday is October 30th. But they celebrate it on Halloween!

- They're the youngest.

- They're easily flustered, particularly if they find someone attractive.

- Did I mention they're bi?

- They have ADHD. Most common stims are tapping their foot, clicking pens, snapping their fingers, and swinging their arms back and forth. They try not to do the very last unless they have a lot of space.

- Just like Illy, they also play the violin! It was hell for them to learn, as well. However, on top of the encouragement from their other siblings, Illy and Spark encouraged each other a lot to continue learning.

- They're extroverted! They're who you go to for ideas for things to do, places to go, etc.. However, due to bullying and masking their ADHD, socializing still drains them.

- They're witty and quick on their feet with insults. This also applies when flipping Gimmick's dad jokes so they get the punchline.

- They sell and repairs electronics!

- They're highly prone to dissociation. Depersonalization, specifically.

- They often use finger guns.

- One of their hyperfixations is marine biology! And Spamton occasionally sends Spark texts with blatantly incorrect statements about it (such as saying dolphins are fish and not mammals). They don't take it personally, however, they'll send him a(n empty) threat in response.

- They're the third insomniac in the family. It's hard for them to get to sleep, but they're out like a light once they manage it.

[you-deserve-to-love-yourself]

Hello, I hope you're doing well!

I just came from reading your answer to an anon asking how to make friends (which I found extremely helpful :D) and I was wondering if you had any advice/a blog on good boundaries? I've never been good with them, and quite honestly whenever someone said or did something that hurt, I thought I was just being sensitive. I'm unsure of where to draw the line, what I shouldn't budge on, and how to determine whether or not I'm just being sensitive :/

As always only answer if you wish, and thank you for your time! :>

Hi!!

To be honest I’m still trying to figure that out myself! 

In the past it’s taken me a long time to realize that no, I’m not being sensitive, I should speak up, and oftentimes once I reach that point I have so much bottled up emotions that it gets too late.

Personally, what’s helped me determine whether my reaction was due to rejection sensitive dysphoria, anxiety, etc (aka being “just sensitive”) or whether the other person had indeed done something harmful that I needed to talk to them about: talk about it with a friend whose judgement I trust or with my therapist. If my friend’s reaction is “oh I’m sorry you’re reacting that way, here’s a hug” that’s different than “I can’t believe they said that to you, that’s so mean.” Of course, don’t mention names.

Another strategy that’s worked for me is to pretend that it happened to a friend and that I’m talking to them. 

For example, if a friend told me, “I’m feeling like crap. X person was acting cold to me - not wanting to talk to me, correcting a mistake I made.

I’d respond something like, “I’m sorry you’re feeling that way :/ It’s possible they were just busy or stressed about something. Feeling ignored sucks and RSD is super annoying.”

And if a friend told me, “I’m feeling like crap. X person is going through a rough time and they took it out on my by yelling at me and making me take on some of their work.”

I’d tell them, “Even if they’re going through a rough time, it wasn’t right of them to yell at you. And even if they have a lot to do right now, they should’ve asked you first if you had the capacity to take on more work. I’m sorry they’re going through a bad time but they shouldn’t treat you like that.”

(pretend this conversation is happening much more casually. lol)

I hope this helps a little! Have a great day 💚

[omegawolverine]

This is prolly gonna be long(sorry)

1,4,5,13(when I first knew what pog meant I couldn't stop using it ;-;),18,20,21,24, aaaannd, 30! :D (you don't have to answer all of them)

!! dont be sorry :]

what was/is one of your most obscure hyperfixations?

uhhh deadman wonderland, beyblade metal saga, there's been smaller ones but they were definetly when i was younger so i dont really remember them? i know i had a shark boy and lava girl one, i hyperfixated on a tourettes youtuber growing up specifically bc i had a tourettes hyperfixation before that but idk if any of these are obscure or just kinda uncommon?

what’s your favorite stim?

uhhh any clickies r good, but those involve Other Things so like. favorite stim i can do without an item is probably hitting the balls (?) of my palms together, bouncing on my toes, doin a lil dancey dancey or just saying cunt bc i love how it feels and sounds

pog is such a stimmy word. have you ever been addicted to saying pog. you cant stop saying pog. and hey theres no shame or judgement here ok, now tell me: have you ever been addicted to Pog, son?

kinda? ig. not really addicted but i definetly did (and still do) say it a lot out of reflex or to stim

do you like background music or does it distract you?

i like it but sometimes it's still distracting so 🤷‍♀️

what’s your favorite < 30 second youtube video that gives you a whole truckload of happy chemicals?

any TRO video but especially the failures of 13 reasons why, this tommy vod and night mind's dhmis video :]

do you actually have a constant special interest that you never get tired of?!1!?1?1!

probably obvious by now but death note, south park and IT

how do you feel about reading? is it really difficult for you, or maybe it’s one of your favorite pastimes? do you like it but it’s just hard and you cant get into it? share le thoughts :)

i like reading but it can be difficult, def. i have a really hard time comprehending what i read which sucks, but i still read pretty regularly, specifically like. one shots or shorter fics bc they're short enough that i dont get confused/spacey but they're still fun and whatnot, if that makes sense. that being said, ive definetly hyperfixated on long fics to the point where i might as well have just read an Actual Book lol

as a child, was it difficult for you to make friends? is it still difficult?

yes and yes, every friendship i have was initiated by the other person, i have had very few lasting friendships bc i have poor communication and conflict resolution skills, also terrible rsd that fucks with my relationships more than id like to admit and i am just, in general, really fucking annoying (shout out NTs for making me painfully aware of how easily i ramble, overshare and that fact that i have bad volume control)

on a scale of abhor to adore, how much do you hate school?

mm its definetly closer to abhor bc school is just like. inherently ableist and it has never felt like i received proper help from anyone with the exception of one teacher at my current school (who, surprise surprise, is my adhder sped teacher) but it's also like. i enjoy learning when it's something i can get into and/or i get the help that i need. i also quite literally need the social interaction. all in all, not the worst thing ive ever done and id rather continue doing school than be An Adult

[jakotsu-stan-blog]

Also I am definitely not projecting here I swear but like ADHD band of seven

Jakotsu has stereotypical ADHD™️ and is incredibly hyperactive and has no attention span. However he ALSO has horrific RSD n just pretends nothing is wrong ever. He can never identity social cues and this leads to some friction with other ppl which leads to him feeling stupid. He also hyperfixates super easily like oh my god he can talk for hours

Renkotsu is also super hyperactive but not in a super visible way? But he always has smthn in his hands n is always messing with smthn n he cannot fucking pay attention if he is not simultaneously playing with smthn. He actually helps Jakotsu with his hair n stuff a lot bc it’s fun to play with and he has none of his own. It’s the only time he can stand Jakotsu. He also has b a d alexitymia (can’t understand/name/etc his emotions)

Suikotsu has managed to pass himself as a fully functioning human being by forcing good habits and compartmentalizing and structuring EVERYTHING he does. However if he gets thrown off of this everything devolves and it’s like watching a train crash. He also talks a mile a minute and his mind will jump from one thing to another and then another through the weirdest associations and if your not ADHD his thought process never makes any sense. His conversations with Renkotsu are wild bc both of them r obviously so seriously talking but both are constantly going off on tangents n then getting back to the point but then it’s a different point and yet they completely understand each other.

Bankotsu is like... the worst attention-wise. He can’t pay attention for more than five minutes to anything if it doesn’t interest him. If it DOES he will hyper fixate so much he forgets to eat or sleep. Ppl think he’s just an asshole but he can’t help it he tries he rlly does. And he sounds so chill but his brain is moving a mile a minute n he only says like a quarter of the things he thinks. He and Jakotsu will hang out n take turns infodumping to each other bc Bankotsu is one of the only ppl ever who have never triggered Jakotsu’s RSD. He also sucks at social cues but like he lucked out n doesn’t rlly have RSD and he doesn’t care what he says. However he does have executive dysfunction and boy howdy does that suck!!

[sallyface-incorrect]

The Struggles of Having ADHD

- Only Being able to sleep either 2 hours or 16, there’s no in between. I am legit typing this at 3:02 am because I can’t sleep and I haven’t slept that much and it sucks. Summer is for sleeping, not for stress.

- Not being able to remember basic information about someone like their name, but being able to remember that they once told you that their great great aunt had a mole on her foot the shape of Texas. True story btw, sorry Amber.

- Feeling like your being rejected if your friend can’t make it to hang out with you because of family reasons. RSD is a bitch. Like the tiniest thing can make you feel rejected. Ie, your mom telling you not to be so loud, someone asking why your sneezes are so loud, someone asking you to return their pen, etc.

- Having your medication ware off/forgetting to take it and being the most annoying bitch in the galaxy. I once went on a school trip and my meds wore off and I ended up spending the 2 hour bus ride back annoying the guy who was trying to sleep in front of me, again, I am so sorry Max.

- IDK if it’s just me but, chewing on literally everything. Bottle caps, paper, fabric, rubber (my favorite), and much more. I used to get punished all the time for chewing on things I wasn’t supposed to. Nail biting is also a big thing. And so is hair chewing.

- Being told “You’re too smart to have ADHD”. Well Susan, I have a neurological devolpmental disorder, I’m not retarded.

- Either giving too much information or not enough when in conversation, and also bringing up really irrelevant things in the conversation like, I know we’re talking about the Louisiana Perchance but can I tell you about this one time it rained and I saw a snail?

- Being botherd by loud and/or repetitive noises. Pen clicking and high pitched sirens make me want to scream. They suckkk harder then Travis wants to suck Sal’s dick. And the worse is when people think you’re weird or that you have a problem with them for asking. I understand you like to click your pen and I’m so sorry it’s just so loud...

- Being afraid of your friends rejecting you. Again, RSD is a bitch. Like you’re afraid that one day your bestie will get up and leave and never come back and it’s all your fault and you suck and ughhhhhh. You’re also afraid their s/o / parents hate you and one day they’ll convince them to just leave you.

- Medication is a godsend but it’s also problematic. The stuff that I take fucks up my sleep schedule, my appetite, and make me tired and nauseous. It also gives me headaches and belly aches :(

- Either being so hungry that you also eat everything in your fridge or being so not hungry that even the concept of food disgust you. And sometimes, you even throw up because food is so gross and you’re gross and all that gross is inside you and eww.

- Intense, powerful migraines. They get worse in the winter months. Last year I took almost a week off of school because my migraines got worse and worse and worse and I couldn’t do it.

- Having no measurement of personal space or how to physically interact with someone. I just said hi, do I hug you, do I high five you, idk? Like idk how many potential friendships I’ve fucked up because I was too handsey.

- Being really particular about the type of clothing I wear. I love LOVE long sleeve shirts/ sweatshirts/ sweaters/ hoodies and shorts. I also love to wear socks around the house. I hate HATE wearing socks with shoes though, it makes me anxious. I also hate wearing certain types of pants. I literally only have 2 - 3 pairs of pants I’ll wear because pants sometimes feel like a tent and I hate that.

- Not being able to loose weight. I’m not fat, or chubby, I mean I have abs for God’s sake! It’s just that I have thick ass thigh I h a t e and I wish I could just get rid of them but my medication prevents me from loosing all that weight. On the bright side, I can eat a lot and not gain weight either.

- Having certain little routines you can’t skip. For example, every morning I must shave my legs and brush my hair or the world will end. I also must have all the doors and windows closed or else I’m gonna scream.

- Also idk if this is a problem for anyone else but doors and windows being open. I can’t stand it, I mean please, I don’t care that you’re just coming up for 1 thing but p l e a s e for the love of g o d, close the door that leads to upstairs. Having it open just isn’t right.

- Hyperfixiating on something for soo long that you forget to do basic hygiene like shower, use the bathroom, brush your hair, brush your teeth. It can get you in really big trouble but at least the job is done.

- Having a comfort item. Like I have this stuffed lamb whose name is “Lambchop” but I call “Lambie” and I sleep with them each and every night and carry them around the house with me when I’m home and if I’m upset I NEED to cuddle them bacuse it’s the only thing that will make the world go away.

- Being insanely good at certain academics and shitty at others. For example, when I was in 5th grade I was reading at an undergrad level and had the ability to understand science concepts a senior would be learning but my math was at the level of a second graders.

- Idk how to describe it but like, doing movements half way and the forgetting about them. Like this one time I was at a piano recital and I went to reach for something and forgot what I was reaching for so I just kinda held my hand up in a grabbing motion for half a song and then forgot about it until my mom reminded me to put it down.

- Not being able to understand that people don’t want to hear about your hyperfixiation. I’ve had 2 cases of this in my life, my “ghosts are definitely really and now this is my only personality triat” and my “I’m not a weeb but Tokyo Ghoul is so good now let me tell you all about the plot.” (Tokyo Ghoul gang REPRESENT)

- Having 3 different moods, hyperactive, normal, and cold. Like you’re normal most of the time but sometimes you’re sooo hyper that your an entirely different person, or sometimes you’re sooo distant you’re a different person too.

- Not being able to identify your emotions very well. Like, this guy just told me that my dad and my bestie are asshole who deserve to die in a fire, what am I feeling? Am I sad? Angry? Scared? Do I think this is funny? Am I gonna laugh? Cry? Idk, throw hands? Or the dreaded crush. Do I have feelings for this person or do I just want to be really good friends? Do I hate them? Love them? Am I gonna cry the next time I see them? Last time we hung out was fun but idk???

- Also like I mentioned, romance/sexuality is hard. Last time I dated I dated this guy I really liked, or at least I thought I did. We dated for three months before I blew it off because he asked to put his arm around me and it was weird when I said yes. Also sexuality. Idk if this is a problem for anyone else or just my bisexual ass. Like it’s so hard and I really like guys but hey, girls are hot. And like I like guys more than girls?? Sometime it makes me feel really fake.

- Really enhanced weird hearing. I know at least 80% of my classes drama because I have superhearing and I’m a literal hearing god bow down, bitch. I can hear the smallest of sounds and such, but for some goddamn reason I can’t understand how loud I’m being.

- Extestensial nihilism and just being cool about it. Like, dude, idk if there’s a god out there? I’d like to think there’s some sort of Devine power and we have a purpose but idk, we probably don’t have a purpose. I mean, we’ll be forgotten after we die anyway unless we’re Tom Holland. And love probably doesn’t exist either and it’s only stigmatized by movies and books and media and we’re all gonna get married and be miserable for ever and such. But like does it really even matter? In the end we’re all alone so go off I guess.

- Being really sensitive to smell. Certain smells drive me through the roof. For example, I have an extreme fish allergy and even smelling the slightest hint a salmon can give me a migraine so intense I think I’m dying. Or essential oils. Ughh I hate those. They send me through the roof.

- Being able to remember something you heard in a YouTube video you watched back when you were nine but not being able to remember when you birthday is some days because it really be like that.

- Being really good with little kids. Idk if everyone is like this but I am very childish myself and little kids love me. I have at least 3 little boys in 1st - 3rd grade who think I’m their girlfriend and 8 little girls in kindergarten - 5th grade who think I’m their big sister, it’s really sweet.

- Always apologizing is a big thing for me. When I was a child I used to get in trouble for saying sorry when I did anything and that carried to teen hood. Last year at my dance class my teacher noticed this and tried to help me break my habit god bless you Christine.

Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk bois. ADHD sucks but I know you can do it👌🏻

[asoulofstars]

Repost, don’t reblog. Like it or not ships happen. Fill out this form to lay out your character’s romantic potential.

Bold what applies – 

Romantically interested in: men / women / nonbinary / doesn’t matter / none 

Sexually interested in: men / women / nonbinary / doesn’t matter / none 

Looking for: marriage / a relationship / hookups / casual dating 

Open to: marriage / a relationship / hookups / casual dating 

 What hangups do they bring into a relationship (exes, repression, jealousy etc.)? Riona doesn’t really have any specific relationship hangups, but she does have PTSD, depression, anxiety, and probably ADHD, along with RSD. She has a hard time believing she deserves to be loved. Her own parents proved their love was conditional, how can anyone else be expected to love her. 

What hangups do they bring to sex? Riona doesn’t like being hit (spanked, mostly), having her hands tied, or anything that takes away her capability for control. She was physically abused, so she requires trust for sex, and even more trust for some of her kinkier fantasies.

What are they looking for in a partner? Loyal, passionate, compassionate, intelligent, affectionate.

Do they have a type? What is it? Listen. We all know what it is for men. I just don’t know if she has a specific type for...not men people.

How would a relationship fit in with where they are in their life right now? I generally play her as mid-late 20′s to 30′s, and she is definitely looking for relationships. She wants to find someone (or multiple someones) to be with. (Her modern faerie verses, she’s the equivalent to a much.......older human........so she’s definitely ready for a relationship.)

Describe their romantic history. As a human, she has her first girlfriend in college, dates her for two years, and has a nasty breakup. She has a one night stand as petty revenge, and then she doesn’t have a relationship until her last year. They had an amicable breakup. She then dates a fellow forensic specialist during Quantico training for the FBI, but they break up when assigned different field offices, knowing that they couldn’t do the long-distance. From there, it is verse dependent.

As a faerie, she has a girlfriend when younger and still living with her parents. This is part of what makes her faerie verses generally worse than her human verses, as she is young, traumatized, and continually being emotionally abused. Her girlfriend breaks up with her, and that becomes more ammunition for her parents. 

She then ends up in a very slow-burn relationship with Aidan, and the two are together for a very long time before the events of my novel begin.

Modern faerie verses are generally “Riona is single”, because I’m not entirely sure of what Aidan’s fate will be as I go through the trilogy.

Would they consider a polyamorous relationship? Under what circumstances? Yes, she would, in that they are a polycule (I believe this is the right terminology). Basically Person A, Person B, Person C, Person D (etc) are all in 1 relationship, and it’s not Person A is dating Person B who is dating Person C and D, etc, etc. 

Do they make a good partner? She and I both like to think so. She has her flaws, of course, but being a good partner is working on her own flaws and learning how to compromise their needs.

Do they seek out people who are good for them, or are they attracted to the wrong sort? .........Okay, we all know she has shit taste in men, but I feel like all the men she ends up in a relationship with, once they’re in the relationship, it’s actually a decent balance and not “the wrong sort”.

Finally, for the mun: Describe your stance on shipping, if you like to do it and how, and what you’re willing to consider in a ship.

I absolutely love shipping. Riona, I think, is easy to ship with. She falls in love so easily. 

I get squicked out doing dub-con/non-con plots (I’ve tried it; it was uncomfortable), so the only kinds of ships I’d want are consensual ones, but I’m willing to portray the more toxic or abusive nature of relationships. I think it would be fairly easy for Riona to get sucked into one of those. I fucking love angst. But I also love writing happy things.

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my rsd is kinda funky i think cos im seeing a lot more recognition for it lately and thats cool but i dont get mad i just shut down and im just like "k" for hours, days, sometimes even weeks. even once i yank out of it i still remember it like years later. which sucks ass bc i remember nothing, ever, but someone even slightly criticizes me in 2013?? that shit sticks like glue, still hung up about it.

biiiig mood! i don’t usually get the Angery either, kinda like you. i just get the Big Sad xD i can remember every insult, even the shit that probably wasn’t intended to be insulting at all ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ fuckin RSD, man.....but yknow what? we got this shit. in a bag. like sunshine. yknow what????? OUR FUTURE???? IS COMING ON ITS COMING ON ITS COMING ON!!! :D