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[denkryn]

SILO S1E03 - MACHINES

[rainsongdean]

is that an angel? no, it's your ex // blonde girlies of spn x blonde by maisie peters

for @mrcowboydeanwinchester 1k celebration

[73647e]

you’re telling me no one has sat down and actually thought about this??

[randommoviess]

[after-witch]

Theoooo how would you react if you were in place of reader and got into that situation because of Marie? I'm curious.

Listen, non, nonners.. You need to know something about me. I am not like that reader. At all. I am a crybaby. I am weak. I cannot handle even the slightest bit of pressure.

I would be a wreck in reader's situation. A mess. Feitan would look at me and I'd burst into tears. Any barbs he throws my way? Humiliating things he makes me do? Just constantly feeling hurt and stung, and crying. Ugly thick snotty tears, too. Nothing pretty about them. And if he hurts me?? I have a pain tolerance for pain related to my disability, but anything else has me whining and stressed. I'd do my best to comply to avoid pissing him off, but since I think Feitan is one of the most confusing yanderes, it wouldn't always work very well. I think I'd have what he wants figured out, do that, and then get smacked for my troubles.

It would suck.

[chitsangenthusiast]

we hooking ourselves up to this bad boy <3

(re modular synthesiser)

oh HELL yeah this thing looks in fact like it makes the same sound as electrical mushrooms i am so in

[hansoeii]

crowley

[emberglowfox]

birds of a feather

[secondbeatsongs]

for anyone too young to know this: watching The Truman Show is a vastly different experience now, compared to how it was before youtube and social media influencers became normal

before it was like, "what a horrifying thing to do to a human being! to take away their autonomy and privacy, all for the sake of profits! to create fake scenarios for them to react to, just to retain viewership! to ruin their happiness just so some corporate entity could harvest money from their very humanity! how could anyone do something so evil?"

and now it's like, "ah, yeah. this is still deeply fucked up, but it's pretty much what every influencer has been doing to their kids for a decade now. probably bad that we've normalized this experience"

[lavendervirgos]

On a scale of cuddles to rough sex, I need everything on the fucking scale please and thank you 🥺

[reineydraws]

i dont have a caption for you lol i'll let shanks's heart eyes speak for themselves 🫶

(source)

[bixels]

Posting a sneak-peak of this now because I'm about to be In The Shit school workload-wise, so this'll take me a while to finish.

Doing some character design exploration/expression sheets for Celestia and Luna. Figuring out Celestia's weird ass anatomy while I'm at it.

[jibberjibbsart]

Taking a break from the angst for some more wingman Yona

[bertiblogxiv]

'Refusal of the Call' is a narrative trope where-

[cardi-c]

Rite Here Rite Now

[inkskinned]

they want to talk about mental illness and acceptance and how everyone is a little ocd it's cute and quirky and their "intrusive thoughts" are about cutting their hair off and you say yours are about taking a razorblade to your eye and they say ew can you not and everyone is a little adhd sometimes! except if you're late it's a personality flaw and it's because you are careless and cruel (and someone else with adhd mentions they can be on time, so why can't you?) and it's not an eating disorder if it's girl dinner! it's not mania if it's girl math! what do you mean you blew all of your savings on nonrefundable plane tickets for a plane you didn't even end up taking. what do you mean that you are afraid of eating. get over it. they roll their little lips up into a sneer. can you not, like, trauma dump?

they love it on them they like to wear pieces of your suffering like jewels so that it hangs off their tongue in rapiers. they are allowed to arm-chair diagnose and cherrypick their poisons but you can't ever miss too many showers because that's, like, "fuckken gross?" so anyone mean is a narcissist. so anyone with visual tics is clearly faking it and is so cringe. but they get to scream and hit customer service employees because well, i got overwhelmed.

you keep seeing these posts about how people pleasers are "inherently manipulative" and how it's totally unfair behavior. but you are a people pleaser, you have an ingrained fawn response. in the comments, you have typed and deleted the words just because it is technically true does not make it an empathetic or kind reading of the reaction about one million times. it is technically accurate, after all. you think of catholic guilt, how sometimes you feel bad when doing a good deed because the sense of pride you get from acting kind - that pride is a sin. the word "manipulation" is not without bias or stigma attached to it. many people with the fawn response are direct victims of someone who was malignantly manipulative. calling the victims manipulative too is an unfair and unkind reading of the situation. it would be better and more empathetic to say it is safety-seeking or connection-seeking behavior. yes, it can be toxic. no, in general it is not intended to be toxic. there is no reason to make mentally ill people feel worse for what we undergo.

you type why is everyone so quick to turn on someone showing clear signs of trauma but you already know the fucking answer, so what's the point of bothering. you kind of hate those this is what anxiety looks like! infographics because at this point you're so good at white-knuckling through a severe panic attack that people just think you're stoic. even people who know the situation sometimes comment you just don't seem depressed. and you're not a 9 year old white kid so there's no way you're on the spectrum, you're not obsessed with trains and you were never a good mathematician. okay then.

mental illness is trending. in 2012 tumblr said don't romanticize our symptoms but to be fair tiktok didn't exist yet. there's these series of videos where someone pretends to be "the most boring person on earth" and is just being a normal fucking person, which makes your skin crawl, because that probably means you are boring. your friend reads aloud a profile from tinder - no depressed bitches i fucking hate that mental illness crap. your father says that medication never actually works.

you still haven't told your grandmother that you're in therapy. despite everything (and the fact it's helping): you just don't want her to see you differently.