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online friends... and a tutor // kaedehara kazuha x reader (highschool au)

-`♡´- pairing : kaedehara kazuha x reader

-`♡´- summary : when reader gets assigned a tutor to help her with math, some secret identities get revealed

-`♡´- warnings : math | idk nothing

-`♡´- notes : this was written when i was crushing on my now ex ;-; but this was also something people loved on my old blog so repost! i hate math, scored 2.7/10 on my recent exam

dont translate, modify or repost my work. you do not have permission

Ping!

Your face brightened up as you heard your phone go off, you were glad the classroom was already full of noise so the teacher hopefully didn’t notice.

Hey what you up to?

Hiii!! Nothing much, just waitig for class to end tbh, wby?

waiting**

In class AND on your phone? Are you trying to get into detention, my dear?

Not that I should be talking, I’m doing the same.

Yk I can’t just ignore you, that’d be mean

I’d be worse if you got detention again, dummy.

You bit your lip to stop yourself from smiling. It had been what? Six months since you met this stranger online? It didn’t take more than two weeks before you became inseparable. Socials were shared soon enough, though neither of yours showed anything but pretty pictures or fit-checks. You knew he was in the same school year as you, though he was a year older because of an early birthday. But you had no idea where in the world he lived, he was more secretive about that but you did figure out that you were in the same time zone. You didn’t really mind, you liked figuring him out on your own and he didn’t mind that either.

Would be worth it tbh.

Read 14:38 PM

Kadeh? You alright? Don’t tell me they took your phone LMAO

Delivered.

“[Name], busted.” your english teacher stood in front of you, and as he said, you got busted. “I know you’d much rather be texting your boyfriend but c'mon.” he held his hand up, signaling for you to hand your phone to him.

“He’s not my boyfriend.”

“Sure, sweetheart.” he rolled his eyes at you before standing straight again. “This is three times, that means detention. Go to classroom sixteen at four o’clock, I’ll be there.”

You let out a deep breath, of course you got busted, you jinxed it, and now you both lost your phone for the day and got detention.

“Girl, sooner or later he will get bored of you and drop contact.” your friend said, “You know that’s what happens with all online friends.” you looked at her and tried your best not to slap her.

She’s right, you know. One part of you thought, while the other protested. No, she isn’t. Kadeh wouldn’t do that!

You turned your head around and ignored her for the rest of the day.

“Hey teach,” you entered classroom sixteen a bit before four o’clock, walking up to your English teachers’ desk to sign off your name on the detention list. Your eyes scanned the paper for other names.

Childe. Reason: disrespectful behavior. Of course he’d say something stupid.

Itto. Reason: disturbing class even after two warnings. Nothing new

Chongyun. Reason: talking through my lesson with Xingqiu. Of course, the cute freshmen couple.

Xingqiu. Reason: talking through my lesson with Chongyun.

[Name]. Reason: texting during class. Sigh.

Yoimiya. Reason: disturbing class even after two warnings. That rarely happened, she must’ve been excited over something.

Kazuha. Reason: texting during class. Seemed like she wasn't the only one today.

Cyno. Reason: playing cards with Kaveh during class. Tcg obsessed assholes.

Kaveh. Reason: playing cards with Cyno during class.

“Sir, could I have some blank papers? I filled up my notebook during my last class.'' He handed you some and you turned around to find a seat where you’d be sitting for the next hour. You found a spot next to the window behind Yoimiya, who smiled at you. You watched the others come in, Cyno and Kaveh going straight to the back of the room, Childe sat in the row next to Yoimiya and the two started chatting away, Itto moved to the spot right besides the door, Xingqiu and Chongyun were in the front, and finally the last student entered the room. Kazuha, you didn’t share any classes with him, you were in classes one, and he was in two. Meaning you’d never gotten the chance to properly meet over the last few years.

You knew him from walking around in the hallways, standing in line behind him in the cafeteria, small shared smiles and awkward nods as you locked eyes with him during lunch. After he signed off his name he walked to take the seat beside you.

“So I wasn’t the only one caught texting today.” he joked as he sat down, holding out his hand, “Kaedehara Kazuha,”

Seemed like today was the day you finally got introduced to him.

You fell down on your bed with your phone in hand.

Kadeh? You alright? Don’t tell me they took your phone LMAO

Guess what? They did, and detention.

MINE TOO BYE AND THEN TEACH PUT ME IN DETENTION AS WELL

So you WERE trying to get into detention, huh? Pfft I didn’t realize I had made friends with a bad girl.

You just told me you got into detention as well and you’re calling me bad? Your teachers are just as bad as mine, or you’re just as bad as covering your schemes as me.

I promise you, my dear, I am not bad at covering up my secrets.

You must have a lot of them then.

How ‘bout you come find out?

You giggled at his texts, he never failed to make you do so. As you rolled off your bed to grab your homework and laptop you heard your phone buzz a couple of times, and coming back to your bed you checked your messages.

No worries tho, I’m not THAT bad.

I don’t sell drugs or guns or stuff like that

I just get into detention for giving my sweet girl the attention she deserves.

Which is totally worth it except when they take my phone and I CAN'T text you.

Whoops sorry was gettrng my books and laptop

You not respondfing within a minure basically menas your phone got taken, and possibly got detention too. Or you’re passed out on your couch

But I gotta go, well not that i wnat ot but i have math homework that i have to make otheriwse theyll assign me a tuotr and i dont want htha

Fuck ym grammar oml

No need to apologize dummy

But go make your homework, I won’t disappear

“[Name] your test results weren’t great. I see no other choice but to assign you a tutor to help you out ‘till the end of term.” you stared at your math teacher in defeat. You knew you weren’t great at math, but Kadeh had explained the difficult things to you since the guy was amazing at basically everything.

“Is there really no other thing? Something that doesn’t include a tutor.”

“Yes. You paying attention.” he looked back at you before grabbing another paper from his desk. “Let’s see, it says here that Kaedehara Kazuha is available, you good with that?”

That wasn’t the worst person, he was pretty chill to you ever since you met in detention. The awkward nods and smiles now turned into small conversations and hello’s, with still the smiles. “Yeah sure, fine by me.” “Great, just go to the library after your last class and you’ll probably find him there.”

They gave me a fucking tutor.

Turns out my test didn’t go as well as i thought it went.

Ughughughughguhgughugh

Why me.

Read 11:32 PM

As you were about to type your next message your head and later body hit something–someone.

“Ouch!” your hand flew up to your head and the books in your hand fell to the floor, where your phone already was.

“I’m so sorry, please. Are you okay?” you knew that voice and you looked up to meet Kazuha’s eyes. You nodded in return, crouching to gather your books and phone.

“Though my screen protector is less fine,” you laughed as you saw it shattered, your messages with Kadeh gone blurry due to the cracks. “Are you alright?” looking at him he sat down beside you to help you with your books. “I am, no worries. I was just texting my f–someone. Where’d your bag go?” he said, standing up with some of your books in his hands and offering you the other; which you gladly took. “My friend's bag broke, and I just had these few books so I gave her mine. Besides, I got a spare tote in my locker.” you reached out to take the books from him, but he turned around and started walking.

“I’ll walk with you, can’t let a pretty girl carry these heavy books alone now can I?”

You laughed at him while shaking your head, a slight blush coming to your cheeks.

“Did you hear the news already? My math teacher assigned you as my tutor.” quickly changing the subject you walked to your locker as he followed behind like a lost puppy.

“Yes, I saw the email come in. Wanna meet in the library after class?”

You agreed as you opened your locker and placed your books inside. You grabbed the spare tote bag and threw in your economy books and art supplies for your next few classes. “Sounds good, and thank you and sorry.”

He winked and turned around to his next class.

Okayhe isn’t hat bad

Excudr my grammsr my screen protecotr broke cuase i bumpedi nto him and ym stuff fell

No worries, dear.

See, I told you it’d be fine. Now you have someone that can explain it to you one on one, instead of over dms.

Kazuha looked back over his shoulder to see [name] typing away on her phone, and at the same time his phone was exploding.

Yes but youre jsut better yoou know.

I meani dk him yet idk how he ‘teahces’.

What if i dontunderstandh im?

Yk i odnt like telling people i odnt understand.

It’ll be fine, dear. You just go to his lessons, pretend to understand, then afterwards you talk to me about it and I’ll explain some more if needed. Sound good?

Thnak you kadeh ilysm

I love you too, my dear.

A small smile danced over her features and she scrunched up her nose in adoration. No way that his best friend and lowkey crush, which was strange since he’d never seen her face, was this cute girl from school who he was now going to tutor.

Gotta go to my nect class, i htae economy ugh.

Goodluck sweetheart, you can do it!

Oh fuck.

“So mister Kaedeh–” you cut yourself off and giving the blonde before you a suspicious look before continueing, “Kaedehara Kazuha, how you think you’ll be able to make the math math for me?”

“By showing you how to think logically.”

You rolled your eyes and smiled before throwing your bag on the floor. As you sat down you checked your phone to check if you got a message from Kadeh or not, and when you saw none you shut your phone down.

“Let’s get started then.”

Twenty minutes later you were solving equations that gave you headaches before. Now it all seemed to make a lot of sense and with Kazuha’s help you were on a streak. He looked proudly as you moved on to the fifth one with no trouble, you raised your writing arm to your face to inspect the equation on the paper, and before Kazuha could ask if you were alright you were already writing again. Every now and then you’d furrow your brows, pout a little, or bite on your lip as you studied the paper. When you were finished you gave Kazuha the sheet of paper with a smile and he started to correct it, explaining how to do certain things faster for example. Sometimes you’d nod, other times you’d give him a strange look to which he just laughed before explaining.

Safe to say that you walked away from the extra math lesson with a lot more knowledge and confidence, and a new friend.

Okay okay he isnt that bad at explaining. I actually understand it now and i was on a roll, or well he said that.

After he explained soem thigns eh had me make about fifteen questions, after he corrected them and explainedw what i did wrong and how ic an do other thigns differently so itll be faster.

I actually understnasd

I told you it wouldn’t be that bad, dear. I’m proud of you, I know you did great.

Next time im meetng him is enxt week thursday, same time.

We agreed to meet every week same time until end semester cuase thats what teach said.

Yeah, not that bad right? Just once a week cannot hurt. And he doesn’t seem like the worst type of guy.

He isn’t no, he has a calming aura, its nice to be arounf him. Hes prety too ngl

Thugh some people at school spread some odd rumors aboit him

Liek that he sells weed and sht.

Oh well even if eh does idc he expains math like a pro.

Anyways imma head home, no driving and texting. Talk soon!! Loveyou

Drive safe, sweetheart. I love you too.

Kazuha stayed in the library for a while longer. When [name] was leaving she was already typing away on her phone, and mere seconds later his phone started exploding. Reading her texts made him sit in silence for a bit before responding. He was now certain that she was his online best friend. She told him the things he told her and it all just added up. He threw his head back as he looked at the ceiling that was painted to resemble the night sky.

Not before long he saw Heizou and his mob of dark red hair above him.

“What happened? Why are you slouching?”

Kazuha sighed as he sat up.

“I think my best friend may be in this school.”

“Uh yeah, hello, here I am right in front of ya, buddy.”

Kazuha looked at Heizou desperately.

“Oh shit, you mean [online name]? What? How? Why? What?!”

“I tutor this girl, [name]. This morning I bumped into her while I was texting [online name], she was busy on her phone too. I didn’t receive any messages from her when [name] and i bumped into each other, but she was typing. Then I offered to walk her to her locker and carry her books because she lent her own to her friend. She dropped her economy books into her new bag. Later [online name] texted me she had economy class, and that she hated it.” Kazuha started at the wall as he spoke mindlessly.

“Yeah okay… But those can all just be coincidences, you know.”

“Then just now when she was leaving she was typing away on her phone, and seconds later [online name] started messaging me. Then she told me how her tutor told her she was on a roll, I told [name] that! Then she said that there were some rumors about her tutor, that he sells weed. People say I sell weed! I don’t but they say it!”

Heizou just stared at him for ten seconds before his mind came up with a master plan that goes as follows.

The next time [online name] is texting him Heizou will sneak up on [name] and look on her phone, if it’s who she thinks is Kadeh then the mission is a success, and if not then Kazuha’s heart will calm down.

And so the following day Heizou stood behind [name] with another friend of his, just ‘talking’. As Kazuha gave the sign she was typing, Heizou looked over her shoulder to see what she was writing.

Yeah! I genuenly cannot wait for summer either ughhh

Heizou and his friend bolted back to Kazuha when she sent it and he snatched the phone from his hands.

Yeah! I genuenly cannot wait for summer either ughhh

He looked Kazuha dead in the eye before giving him his phone back.

“Go get your girl, loverboy.”

Four weeks had passed since that day. Four weeks, four Thursdays, four tutor lessons. [Name] realized that Kazuha was acting differently lately. She would catch him staring at her during those lessons, or even more often during lunch break. She would always give him her sweetest smile, and he’d return it before breaking eye contact with a small chuckle. Their friends started noticing too, there was some sort of tension with someone in the cafeteria but they couldn’t place who.

It took another week before Kazuha decided to just go for it. He knew [name] was already in the library because her last class had been dismissed early. So when he saw her curled up on one of the couches, his heart melted. His phone vibrating in his pocket let him know she was texting him, some personalized do not disturb setting that let only her messages through.

He grabbed his phone and sent her a quick text, ignoring the things she had said before.

I cant reply rn, I have to tutor someone.

You tutor???@?@!! You never told me

There’s more I haven’t told you.

Like what?

Look up, sweet girl

You looked up in confusion and locked eyes with Kazuha. Your eyes widened and your mouth fell open. Looking back at your phone, then back at Kazuha tears came to your eyes.

“Hello, my dear” he softly smiled as he took a slow step towards you, cupping your cheeks as tears were seconds away from falling. “You’re–” your bottom lip started trembling as you buried your face into his chest, one of his hands coming to hold your head as the other held your back, slowly brushing up and down. “I hate you–but I don’t. You–”

You felt his chest vibrate, letting you know he was laughing. You gripped at his shirt–which you now realized was the shirt you’d seen a thousand times before on his instagram.

“Who knew the sweetest girl in town,” he dropped his head to talk right next to your ear, “was actually my sweet girl?” He felt you trying to bury yourself even deeper into his chest. “No no, sweetheart, you need oxygen.” With that you pulled back, your big eyes staring back at him, a little bloodshot and your cheeks all red. “Not funny,” you whispered, “You don’t wanna know how much I was hoping you were actually living in my town, went to school here and I don’t know. I’d be happy if that were the case unless you were Childe.” tears came back to your eyes. “And what if it was me?” he rested his forehead against yours, looking you directly into your eyes. Blood rushed to your cheeks as you replied.

“Then I’m afraid that I won’t be able to stop myself from falling for you–Kadeh–even harder.”

One moment you were talking and smiling, looking directly into the male's eyes. The next you were processing what was happening as his lips collided with yours.

“Even in real life you seem to have a processing time to what I say or do.” he said when he pulled back.

“Can you blame me? Look at yourself.” Kazuha swore he saw hearts in your eyes before you closed them again and pulled him back to you, lips once again meeting each other.

“No, I can’t. But you, my dear sweet girl, are even more breathtaking than I imagined you’d be.”

“Mister Kaedehara and Miss [name]! Detention!”

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contrautism · 5 days ago

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(this is long and not super structured but i need to out this into the air for when i actually write a proper essay or sumn lmao.)

i feel like a big reason why a lot of people fail to properly digest the plot and themes of whc1/2 is that they can’t turn off ship brain. and no i’m not one of those “it’s a bromanceee😩” people because a. it’s not and b. they don’t understand the show either.

weak hero is a show that requires you to examine every single dynamic with an equally watchful eye. what is sieun to suho? suho to beomseok? beomseok to youngyi? you even need to dive into all their different dynamics with the bullies (ex. what is it that makes sieun a target vs. beomseok, and how does that translate to the differences in how they’re harassed?) you have to understand how every single character and their actions impacts everyone else. if you watch weak hero as the sieun x suho show (which is your prerogative i promise you i’m not going to war over it) and not a show that highlights destructive cycles of violence, the way that ideals of “masculinity” reward and encourage violence, the ways in which children are used, abused, and discarded within society, and so on and so on and so on, then you miss out on a lot of what truly builds weak hero into what it is.

and like? idk walk w me for a second.

suho was sieun’s first friend, the first person that has his back, the first person who actually cared about him. he loves that boy in a way that he doesn’t properly understand because he has never needed to process emotions in such a way.

suho and sieun were the same for beomseok, but he didn’t have the same ability to accept that he possibly had something good. they were beomseok’s first friends, first people that gave a fuck about him, the first people in his life that didn’t beat his ass every day and night and make him feel unworthy of breathing. and he zeroed in on suho as suho was who he wanted/wanted to like him/wanted to be (complex ass set of feelings, right).

i’d honestly argue that everything sieun felt for/about suho, beomseok felt just as (if not more) intensely and was even more lost when it came to navigating that. which is a fucking nightmare when you remember the communication skills he never got to develop, as that doesn’t just mess up how he interacts with others but also how he interprets other people’s words and actions. and we see how that plays out.

you can’t just water down beomseok’s character to him being jealous and “sociopathic” (also please stop throwing that word around? lmao) and the one that broke apart #real lovers, because it shows that you refuse to engage with who his character actually is and what he represents in regards to the show’s themes and messages.

well actually i mean you can but that don’t make it right. i don’t have it in me at the moment to break down all the ways in which being a victim of horrific abuse for years can break down a child’s psyche in ways that will take twice as long to repair, the inner workings of a 16 year old boy’s mind, the fact that it wasn’t just about an instagram follow, yadda yadda, so to wrap this up:

1. shipping is fun i love it woo but i feel that a lot of the show that deserves to be dug into more just… isn’t? at least not by certain areas of the fandom and that’s not the end of the world but it does just upset me (seeing as how in those same circles i often see very odd discussion of beomseok as an abuse victim).

2. i yearn for more detailed analyses of sieun & suho vs suho & beomseok vs beomseok & sieun’s relationships with each other in ways that truly respect all of their characters and the deep emotions they feel for each other (platonic, romantic, resentment, jealousy, allat). GO DEEPER WITH THE “FIRST LOVE” COMMENT FROM THE DIRECTOR! REACH THE CENTER OF THE EARTH!

alright that’s all i got i hope you can see where my head is at😭

#emjeirambles #whc1 #whc2 #weak hero class 1 #weak hero class two #yeon sieun #oh beomseok #ahn suho #i’m not considering the webtoon rn btw #only the show #and i fw suhoxsieun i been gang for years #but everything is that deep to me sorry #beomseok to me is like that one post #drawn towards haterism but forced to see where you comin from #because if nobody else get him EYE DO!

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hey-i-am-trying · 1 year ago

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hi, tripoier here! Long text incoming alert and a detailed explanation of the situation for qsmpblr (also sorry if I make some typos I'm writing without translator)

Yeah I also saw what happened today with the og admin of Pepito and I have a lot to say about it. First of all I'm not speaking in behalf of the community but I'm my own experience of the situation. I watched the development of Pepito's story since day one and fell in love with that little guy (and his laggy PC). Then second day arrived and I noticed the admin change bc he was less laggy and I've learned enough Portuguese and 07's (Richas admin) mannerisms to recognize when he's playing a character, even Roier noticed but didn't say anything until the screencap incident lol

Few day passed and 07 created such a cute and wholesome personality for Pepito, that contrasted very well with the role that roier was having at the moment— that it's understandable that it may not be too comfortable for some people but for the ones that had been watching Roier's story in the server + his relationship with Bobby, we take it with humor/hope for him to heal slowly after what happened in Purgatory and with Bobby (and believe me, Bobby had a HUGE impact on how Roier behaved with the rest of he eggs after his death)

So during the days 07 played as Pepito all the tripoiers were in this state of hope because we knew how much q!Roier was trying hard to not to get attached to Pepito, he knew the moment something happens to him he was gonna suffer A LOT, and Pepito was this pure, innocent ray of sunshine that it was imposible for us not to love immediately (Roier also did from day one but he loved to play with us + his lore at the moment was being in depression for the lost of his husband and having Richas and Leo in their comatose state). Also, is worth to mention that after he discovered it was 07 the one playing as Pepito he became more playful and started to tease him just to make him go out of role (and succeeded one time). Which is why he used the chancla a lot with him, as a shield for the feelings that were starting to grow on him again.

Then, Otipep happened.

This is the part I'm gonna be more careful to explain bc there is a language barrier that for the people who don't have Spanish as their first language they cannot understand or got confused

When Otipep appeared Roier noticed that it was another admin playing as Pepito because 07 was busy helping with Q's lore, we don't know if he recognized immediately that it was the original one or just a random temporary admin, but he noticed that this Pepito appeared where the fist one disconnected (in the garden outside of his house). Some people noticed that it was the original one and got happy bc it meaned that finally Pepito had his permanently admin back and bc Richas and the others eggs were also back from the coma we could see them both at the same time (roier used to joke about it every time 07 was around)

We also thought that the og admin had been catching up with the role that 07 has built so far with Pepito (which was not, and we would never know if it was either miscommunication between the admins or the og admin just decided to ignore the actual role to keep their 'idea' for the role), so at first we were a little bit shocked when this Pepito started acting so "dry" (idk if this is the correct word) with Roier, bc we had already gotten used to Pepito's tender way of speaking, but we just let that pass for a bit.

But then that "dry" behavior started going to go down a path were even we as an audience started getting uncomfortable, because roier was trying to socialize with the admin but they clearly didn't knew what's has been going on these past days, so Roier take the time to make a summary of the last days with his typical chill humor, and while he was doing that everything reached its final point with the sign "hueles a culo también hijo de puta" = you also smell like ass son of a bitch.

now This. THIS right here is what destroyed everything. Because you would say "oh, it's just Pepito following Roier's game, it's was in a playful way".

No.

It. was. not.

When Roier starts calling someone with some swears or related words is always in a playful way, and there is context and trust behind. When Otipep put that sign Roier was making a summary of the role that 07 has been doing with Pepito, bc he didn't wanted to let them behind, and while doing that he always explain with his usual humor to make it less unconformable for the admin/ entertained for his audience.

So when he placed that sign we all get out of the loop because it came from nowhere, even Roier kept silence of a few second because 1). it sounded rude, that sign was so out of place 2). Roier was explaining the last few days to the admin so he can keep up with the role, he was not "joking" with the admin, or moving on to another topic, he was helping the admin. 3). We, as an audience, felt so shocked because they weren't saying that to Roier in a playful way, they were giving weight to those words. And this is the part that people that do not have Spanish as their first language doesn't understand. They gave weight to the insult. They didn't wrote that as a joke, they directly INSULTED the streamer.

Then roier proceeded to hit him with the chancla bc he wanted to take the control back of the situation in a humorous way, a damage control in other words, because the chat was filling with "??????" And people getting offended and angry (justified, even I felt offended) with the admin, but Roier is not of those type of persons and he always try to make his streams a safe place for his community, so if you ask me he did a really well job handling the situation even tho he felt offended and his audience noticed that for the rest of the stream (hell, even days later)

And if that was not enough, Roier kept trying to save the situation but the admin was not cooperating, with the "no he preguntado"= I've not asked you and other sign that I just don't remember and is not really worth it (and bc Otipep literally left Roier speaking alone with the "I'm going to look for better parents" and went to spawn zone), he just gave up trying and waited for Richas to come back (which was also chocked w the situation)

And this is me speaking from a non-neutral tone, but I think we could've had a Roier being super loving and caring with Pepito if this situation didn't happen in the first place, bc after this I noticed that Roier stopped tried to get close to Pepito, the situation really affected him so whatever role he was building with the character he just simply stopped and changed the dynamic with another one more limited and less parental, but keeping his usual humor bc it was not the fault of the actual admin or 07, it is what it is unfortunately.

That's why I'm so glad that the actual admin and Ricardão did such a good job saving Pepito because the Spanish speaking community was about to drop him, even streamers friends of Roier that are not part of the qsmp acknowledge the behavior of Otipep with Roier (if that doesn't say a lot about how complicated it was on this side of the road)

And even after all these things there was people out there calling the Spanish speaking community as dramatic or harassing Roier when the situation happened (and it seems they still do it :/ ), but most of us kept quiet because we respect Roier and as he says, mejor pasamos de movidas.

and well, this is it, I know I'm missing some points in the story but honestly getting into fights or hate in general is not my thing, I wanted to give some context for the people of Tumblr because I know, at least here people take the time to read and are more chill unlike twt, and I hope I gave some clarification for the rest of the communities that are not native in Spanish, I really really love Pepito and I'm so glad we had 07 and the actual admin there to play this character, I still can't believe that person had the audacity to come out proudly as Pepito's 1st admin when literally no one from the Spanish community considers his 2 appereances as canon after their blunder xd

Thank you for sharing!

I understand that some stuff are hard to translate, thank you for taking the time. I didn't know that your community was being called dramatic because of that! That is dumb as hell and I am sorry it happend in the first place.

Of course we are no in business of spreading hate. I have always tried to see the other side of situations, I think from what I read in the admin's doc they had some kinda of vision for the character, but I guess they didn't realized that well, they were not going to become automaticly friends with Roier and have room to "joke" like that just because they have become an egg admin. Probably my best guest of what it happend.

It is really weird, maybe they were banking on the support that the other admins have gotten? Or they actually never realized how insulting they have come out as.

Well, I don't have much to say, except I am sorry it happend at all with Roier and the hispanic community.

#qsmp #qsmp discourse #otipep #pepitoadmin

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xx-j4nu5-c4t5-xx · 11 months ago

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I've been thinking about PT9 and how he'd acclimate to Sim society, and what struggles everyone would face trying to incorporate him into everything, and I think the hardest thing would be communication. Sure, teaching terrestrial language to an alien species would be hard, but you're sure to find some kind of common ground somewhere in a verbal language. Eventually, using some sort of concept or comparison as a sort of key, you'd be able to start translating things.

But what if you didn't have a verbal language to work with?

Back on Sixam, everyone had antennae, and everyone was always sort of tuned into a huge cloud of thoughts and emotions, like a hivemind. There was this constant buzz of feeling, at all times of the day, ever present in everyone's lives. You could feel the boredom of the students in class a few buildings away, you could feel the grogginess of the morning as neighbors woke up and started to get on with their days, you could feel everything. The aliens had written language, for documentation and stuff, but it didn't have a verbal equivalent. It didn't need one. You could have someone read the words, and the concepts could be shared immediately to everyone else in the room, no need to even open your mouth.

PT#9, having heard of the diversity and beauty of Earth (or wherever the hell Sims live idk), decides to leave everything he knows behind and settle down there. His travel through space isn't quiet, either, as he's got communication devices and a whole host of things on the ship that keep him tied to the network even when he's out in space.

And then he gets shot out of the sky by a fucking missile or something and when he wakes up in the crater, it's silent. Deafeningly, crushingly, overwhelmingly so. He can hear the remains of the ship smoldering and sparking, and the garbled noises of radio transmissions from the huge metal towers, but nothing holds any meaning. He can't feel anyone near him; at first, he's worried that he's crashed in a completely deserted part of the globe.

It only gets worse after he meets Jenny. He's trying to communicate with her, trying to understand what she's feeling and what she wants, but there's nothing. He can't tune into her wavelength, and it seems as though she can't tune into his. Nobody can. They just keep ignoring him, whether they mean to or not, and instead they just keep chattering on in that strange melody that pours out of their mouths without end. He's blasting signals out into the world around him, trying to explain that he's lost and confused and injured and scared, and nothing is listening. Nobody's there to even hear it.

Eventually, he starts picking up on things. The noises are usually consistent; these creatures make the same noises to refer to the same objects. The "egg" noise always refers to the white oval things in the little carton in the fridge. But sometimes the noises are wildly unpredictable, used for things they shouldn't apply to or trying to mean something entirely different with the same sounds. It's mind-boggling to him, and progress is slow, but the two of them make progress together. His field was always biology, anatomy, studies of the body and how it works and forms. He has an easier time understanding the diagrams in Jenny's textbooks than he does Jenny herself. He's definitely no linguist, but he tries his hardest to bridge the gap, for both their sakes.

He gets the hang of it after a few years, enough to get by, and sometimes to even hold a decent conversation, but it's always slow and never instinctual. The concept of trying to crush so many ideas and feelings into such odd and unnatural vocalizations feels pointless. Exasperating. Why can't they just listen to him directly and cut out the middle man?

Improvement gets exponentially faster after Johnny is born, though. Having everything laid out simply, and seeing how people start to understand these things from the ground up, helps immensely. Pol and Johnny sort of learn to be normal Sims together, or at least as close as they can get.

Finding out that are other aliens and half-aliens with antennae gave him a little bit of hope, but he quickly found that none of them really used them. Most of them had been born into all of this "talking" stuff, and the ones that hadn't had already become fluent in it beforehand, leaving no use for the direct communication. Strangetown was still quiet, filled with chatter that only had meaning if you focused as hard as you could on the sounds. Pol was always in the dark, no matter what he did.

He left Sixam to be free of the noise and rigidness of it all, and boy, did he get it. Nothing made sense to him anymore. Nobody was guiding him or telling him what to do or updating him on the news or simply spilling out all their frustrations into the network. It was just silence, for as far as the antennae could feel.

An extra tidbit that occured to me: Pol would know exactly what happened the night Pascal got abducted; for the first time in two decades, someone got close enough that he could eavesdrop on an intelligible message.

#sims 2 #sims 2 premades #pt9 smith #i'm RAMBLING this is so long #I just wanted to get my word salad out into the world before I forgot it #am I onto something with this #or do I need to go to bed

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melonteee · 1 year ago

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hi. i just understood something about recent op chapter and came straight to you because youre an avid fan and you are surely the one that can rant about it and either . confirm or deny it

anyway 1110 chapter spoilers ahead tab out if you had yet to read

so. i got pointed out that sanjis behaviour in the chapter is strangely out of character . i hadnt caught it on my first read but going back to the manga i have to actually agree with that observation bcz of his choice of words and face

i also noticed that the panel ?? is??? weirdly focused on sanjis expression like REALLY focused (subtle action lines and all) and that the expression in question is genuine anger. like full stop annoyance. like maybe stress is getting to him or something but its not a funny angry face but instead full seriousness and full offense and full 'i mean my every word' way. it just feels . not like sanji all of the sudden

its also feels strange that zoro hadnt reacted to that remark. he kinda just.... notes it down (he twitches which clues us that he heard that) but says nothing further. which is Weird because thats an Insult and from sanji no less so absolute zero on it ???? not right

idk maybe me and my dash is being delusional. i hope its some sort of false alarm but everyone keeps pointing out that sanji feels more like he tries to cosplay himself instead of Being himself and im getting kinda worried ngl,,,,

Interesting you say this because, fun fact! Japanese fans have noticed Sanji's speech has indeed changed lately, and it's a bit lost in translation since it's kind of hard to copy speech patterns from an original language over into English. Either way, Japanese fans have noticed Sanji is starting to speak like...Boa?!

Ie, Sanji is speaking more royally, more obnoxiously, and more arrogantly. Now, Sanji's always been a firecracker with a sharp tongue, but not in the way that he looks down on and demands things from people? During Egghead, he told Shaka to release them from their shoe locks - but a Japanese fan said a better translation of that would probably have been Sanji calling Shaka an 'insolent man', or a 'foolish man', in the same way Boa speaks to people.

There's clearly something going on here, and I thought the same thing! But...people kept saying I was looking too much into it, so I stopped saying anything HAHA! Either way, the second I talked to my Japanese friends and saw tweets from the Japanese side of twitter discussing Sanji's change in speech, I thought...I knew it! There's definitely a difference here! I have no idea what's going to happen, but I cannot wait to see it!

#ask #melonask #op spoilers #egghead spoilers

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clefrot · 14 days ago

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re shard's handler

i dont actually know if there's a proper definition of handler, or where i even got the term from, but agent shard definitely had someone who managed his missions and was essentially "the voice" in his ear telling him what to do or what he should know during missions. in short, they were the bridge between the site itself and shard. we've only ever just called them handler . so heres info about them

agent athena beetle, she/they, probably a lesbian because she's married to one (a medic named eglantine)

formerly an mtf, then lost both her legs and an arm during a breach, and decided to not continue her job there, but was still offered the role of handler (yes, inspired by cynte from endoparasitic)

was actually a very talented mtf, one whose skill could challenge shard's, and one of the few who could impress even clef (though he'd never say it)

tends to move around by either a wheelchair (sometimes pushed by her wife/girlfriend, depending on the point in time), or on her front with a skateboard, or straight up just on the floor and dragging herself by with her one hand

they're still a Very capable agent, but obviously it's a lot harder to do much of anything from here. can and will shoot you if they have to (this includes a lever action shotgun and a revolver. ily endoparasitic)

still surprisingly fast on the ground, and can compete with a normal researcher running if they have to

as expected, a bit of a cynic, and a little bit bitter after everything's that happened, and is one of the few people who are Sick of shard. no amount of flirting from shard will change that.

often watches over shard via cctv in the area, or straight up from whatever cameras are on him, and if not that either, then just audio from comms

doesn't often like to appear in public, but tends to care little for people's opinions when they are. the goc has assumed they're retired and left them alone out of respect

very much in love with their girlfriend/wife/something, even if she's probably the foundation's most violent medic. lovingly calls her eggs or eggie anyway.

idk man ask questions i havent actually developed them much, it took us months to even get her a name and thats just because ooooo epic the musical and ooo did u know i have a classmate in zoology whose surname translates to beetle and i think thats cool ooooo

#scp foundation #agent shard #for clout #dr glass #dr simon glass #okay clout tags over #agent beetle #yessss read my block of text #you know you want to

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smooth-perceval · 2 years ago

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“Merde, I love her.”

Charles Leclerc x Fem!Reader.

Summary: Charles and reader are best of friends, always flirting and joking but always swore never to date. Charles then realises he loves her and doesn’t know how to act around her.

Warnings: Swearing, friends to lovers, pure fluff, Google translate, no proof read.

Key: Y/N (Your name), Charles and reader have been friends for about 6 years.

Word count: 4,068.

A/N: I got a bit lost half way through this- idk some parts seemed rushed but we are just rolling with it, hope you enjoy! 🖤

Y/N P.O.V:

Me and Charles was like two peas in a pod, when together we was in our own world. If one of us was somewhere the other never too far. We’ve been like this for the most of our 6 year friendship, the only thing to ever get between me and Charles was ‘Girlfriends’ and ‘Boyfriends’.

That being said truthfully I would say that was jealousy on both parts, we both had the same mentality Charles was my only closest friend, he was mine first before any other girl, and prioritised before any of the boyfriends I had- you could blame that on the reason they never lasted more than a few months.

Each boyfriend had their own way of blaming my Charles, but it wasn’t his fault that I chased him around like a love sick puppy. Charles wasn’t to blame that I had this burning crush on him since 6 years ago. That’s my own doing, but I also squashed them feelings when I learned that we can be friends and nothing more- because I couldn’t risk losing someone like him, I always say, having someone like Charles in your life is better than no Charlie at all.

“Y/N?” Snapping my head up from the floor in front of me, stood there was a very concerned Charles. Face still red from free practice, hair damp and pointing in every direction, his overalls opened but not off his shoulders and yet he still looked good.

“Yeah? Sorry- did you say something? How was the car?” I took my purse off my lap standing up and placing it back on the chair behind me.

“It was okay- are you okay?” Tilting his head slightly, he let his hands rest on either shoulder, eyes laser focused on my face like he was trying to read whatever I was thinking about.

“Oh I’m fine- I just zoned out that’s all.” Waving him off with a smile, my hand then come up to pat his chest before moving away. One thing I have noticed about that little “crush” I had months ago- I cannot be in close proximity with Charles otherwise the need for him only grows. So I made a rule, keep Charlie at a arms distance, that way I can’t notice the little details in his skin, or the way his cologne smells stronger when I’m on his right side compared to his left you know the little things you tend to notice when your whole world revolves around one person…

“Okay-” Charles was right behind me as I walked towards the car examining it myself. Like I had any idea what I was looking at or saying, it really only was for a distraction. Cause I will think about him constantly and them white fireproofs his got on, then it’ll wander to what’s underneath...

Eye rolling to myself I leaned to look inside the car. “So how was the car?”

“I said- it was good chérie, we’ve got good pace so… hopefully a good weekend” (Darling) Smiling he stood next to me also looking in the car.

“What you looking for?”

“Charles… I have no idea.” Laughing we both moved away as I went to grab my belongings. “I’m gonna go change and stuff then we can go out?”

I nodded pulling the bag strap onto my shoulder “d'accord, I’ll be around” (okay) gesturing around me we both exchange a smile before Charles ran off.

Humming to myself I take a slow walk down pit lane, some drivers doing exactly what Charles is, some speaking to their team and some having a wander also. And to my luck, I bumped into lovely Lando.

“Hi Landiniho” he spun around his smile then disappeared into a scowl. “Oh it’s you.” I shook my head laughing a little as he then pulled me into a tight hug. “Has Charles kept you hidden all day or what?” Shaking my head again I pulled back from the hug. “I’ve been in my own world all day truthfully… I didn’t even realise practice had finished until Charles came back-” Lando let out an exaggerated gasp with his hand on his chest. “Oh no- the worlds going to end.” I rolled my eyes at him smiling a little, always the dramatic one.

“Come I’ll walk with you for a bit, then back to the garage.” Lando held his arm out like the little gentleman he is and I looped my arm through giggling. “Your a strange guy Lando.”

“I’ll take that as a compliment.”

Charles P.O.V:

When I got back from showering and getting changed, I headed back over to the garage to speak with the team. Truthfully, I was eager to be back around Y/N, she is like a breath of fresh air, a sunflower amongst roses. During practice I just thought about her being in the garage waiting for me, and that alone would cause any man to put his foot down, pedal to metal.

Sliding back through the door I bumped into Carlos who gave me a smile and a pat on the back, we exchanged little conversations about the car before both sitting down with the team. And I couldn’t help but seek her out, is it strange to say I knew she wasn’t here, the room felt dull, it felt stuffy. Where did she disappear to?

Sending her a quick discreet message I put down my phone and begun listening in and giving my input. I didn’t really want to be here now, I wanted to be wherever she is. I know that wherever she is, the world feels even better. Even sitting here I felt off, like I was going to be sick, she was my antidote always… Has been since 2017,

I always told myself it’s a small crush that I’ll get over- but to hell I’m 25 and this crush isn’t going away anytime sooner.

Pierre is always saying I’m whipped by her, that I chase her around like a lost dog. If Y/N leaves, I leave, Y/N doesn’t like it, I don’t like it. Y/N loves it? I love it and try and repeat whatever it is 100 times after. I was infatuated with her smile, her laugh, she is my comfort person whenever it’s a bad weekend, she is the first one to text on race week when she cannot attend, I love how she calls me Charlie when she’s in her teasing ways, or the firm Charles when she knows I’m being stupid. How when I’m driving sometimes she would come on the microphone and tell me how proud she is, I felt like everything I done and do is for her. I just want her always around.

It’s such a stupid little crush…

“Well Charles?” Snapping my head up I looked around at everyone staring at me.

“Huh?”

“We just went over some strategies for tomorrow- wasn’t you listening?”

I opened my mouth to speak, looking over at Carlos who was only laughing behind his hand at me. “Sorry…” mumbling I straightened myself up in the chair trying to focus as they all tutted and groaned.

The sound of a door opening behind caught everyone’s attention, we all watched as she slide back in trying to be as quiet as possible. Someone else also trying to squeeze in next to her-

“Lando?” Now all eyes back onto me- I didn’t mean to call his name out loud it was a shock reaction- why was Y/N with Lando? And why are their arms linked and they’re all giggly and smiley? What the? A thousand thoughts went through my head at once? Was they together and she didn’t tell me? She would’ve told me-

“Hi everyone!” Lando smiled pulling Y/N into the circle with everyone.

“Lando- they’re busy let’s wait outside…” watching Y/N get so close as she whispered away in his ear, it infuriated me. She keeps me at like a 2foot distance- but Lando? She is all over him, like a heat rash on a hot summers day.

I couldn’t stand it- was anyone else thinking the same thing. Turning my head away from them I looked straight to Carlos, who was already looking at me with a small smirk playing on his stupid face.

I shook my head glaring at him, before quietly gagging. The sound of Carlos laughter broke the silence everyone now snapping their heads to him. I took this as an opportunity for an escape, standing abruptly I stormed for the door.

“Charles- where you going?” The way she says my name, it’s like honey dripping off her tongue- so angelic, it made me want to fall to my knees and beg her to repeatedly say it, beg her to just choose me.

“I need five minutes-” mumbling quietly I pushed open the door they entered in.

I cannot believe it- I genuinely felt sick- even with Y/N in the room, it’s the worst sickness I’ve ever felt maybe because she is the one causing it- tugging at my hair I started pacing up and down outside the garage-

Maybe I’m over thinking it- maybe I’m being dramatic. The door opened again, and I turned to see who, praying she had chased after me, but it wasn’t her… Carlos stood there smiling happily at me.

“Well you composed yourself.” Shaking his head he walked over clasping my shoulder.

“I feel sick, why didn’t she tell me Carlos?”

“Tell you what? She went for a walk?” I don’t know-” he turned to look at the garage confused and around at the pit lane.

“No toi idiot! Elle et Lando?” (No you idiot, her and Lando?”

“I don’t understand- something Lando” shaking his head again looking, if possible, more confused.

“Her and Lando!” I threw my hands in the air like I had made it the most obvious situation in the world.

“Ohhh- your jealous.”

“Yes- wait no! No.” Copying his movements I shook my head violently.

“I am not jealous.”

“You are, because Lando has got her and you haven’t”

“They might not be together so, and that wouldn’t make me jealous.”

“Then why have you stormed off as soon as they walked in.”

“Because”

“Because?”

“Because I did”

“Because why though?”

“Because!”

“Becauseeee?”

“Because I love her!”

We both pointed at each other, trying to shift blame onto each other for my sudden outburst and declaration of love.

My arms slouched and hung down next to me like I have waved a little white flag in defeat, maybe it wasn’t a crush after all…

Stepping away from Carlos I rubbed my hands over my face, trying to scrub of any evidence that I had just screamed about my love for a girl I can’t be with. All because I’m scared to ruin a friendship I so need. Because having someone like Y/N in your life, is a happy life, to me.

Sighing out, hands still covering my face I couched down to the floor, trying to ground myself somehow. Carlos crouched down with me rubbing my back.

“Merde, I love her.” (Shit) I shook my head in utter shock looking up at Carlos. “And I can’t tell her.”

“Why not? Would be fun, no?”

“No, it’ll ruin everything, I need her in my life wether she is with someone or not-”

“Even Lando?”

“Did she say she is with Lando?”

“No.”

“Then why say that?”

Carlos shrugged smiling “funny”

Tutting Charles shook his head letting out another loud sigh, “come, let’s go listening about this strategy.”

“I’ve already listened once.”

“Well listen again.” Charles held the door as Carlos walked in mumbling swear words in Spanish.

Y/N P.O.V:

As Charles stormed off outside, my heart only ached, my eyes followed him all until the door shut.

“Two minutes-”

Just as I went to chase him, Carlos stood in front holding his hand out. “I got this-”

“Are you sure?” Nodding his head he opened the door sliding himself out.

I don’t know what happened- maybe they had a tense conversation in here or something I don’t know-

“Lando I think you need to go anyways, they’re discussing team stuff.” I turned back around and smiled apologetically at him and he hummed waving me off. “Yeah my lot are going to be wondering where I am.”

Leaning in I gave him a hug with a little squeeze. “And back to earliers conversation just, talk to the girl. She maybe feeling the same way…” I leaned back wiggling my eyebrows at him and then leaning in nudging his shoulder.

“Y/N you look like my mum right now.” He raised his hand in my face and wandered towards another door. “Bye Ferrari friends.” He shouted over his shoulder slamming the door. Such an annoying dweeb. Smile I apologised to the team for interrupting. And for Lando…

“Y/N you can sit if you want to-”

Shaking my head quickly I smiled slightly. “It’s fine, tell Charles I’ve headed out and will be waiting in the car.” Some nodded in response and I said my goodbyes running out to Charles car and waiting. Charles always left it unlocked in the car park for tines when I needed 5 minutes. It was like my very own escape room.

Maybe Charles was annoyed that we disrupted the team talk? I didn’t even think about that- stupid stupid girl.

I sunk down into the chairs pulling my phone out my purse realising I had a message from Charles,

Charlie🏎️

Hey, where you gone? Need you here.

Smiling down at my phone, like a giddy school girl I just stared at the message. If only he knew the things he said have such an effect. My poor little heart.

I texted him back just to reassure him, and kind of because sitting here with no Charles is boring.

•sent

Charlie, I’m in the car,

Sorry for interrupting ❤️

•Read 6:27pm

Sighing, I started looking through photos of today putting a few on social media, messaging people back and typing out some emails as I waited. About 45 minutes later the drivers side door opened and Charles slipped in.

“Sorry, we had to go over a few things-”

“Sorry I interrupted the meeting- I didn’t know they was going to be one on at that time-”

Both looking at each other, a small smile crept onto both our faces and we broke into laughter, we both spoke at the exact same time, both apologising for no reason whatsoever, both being stupid.

“Truce?” I held my hand out to Charles and he glanced down at my hand and then nodded his head, shaking my hand ever so gently, like he was scared to touch me. Like I was going to burn him.

“Are we still on for dinner tonight with the others?”

“I was just going to say, did you want me to drop you home or?” Charles now stared at his steering wheel fiddling with his keys.

“Oh has everyone cancelled?” I pulled my seatbelt over myself turning back to look at Charles.

“Well no…”

“Oh?…”

I paused for a second confused, before it clicked, maybe he just wants five minutes without me? I mean I walked into the garage he walked out- now he doesn’t want me at the dinner maybe I’m around him to much which is understandable. The guy needs to breathe-

“Okay, homes fine.” Smiling slightly at him, it wasn’t the best smile, I couldn’t hide that I was a little offended but that’s just cause of this weird attraction thing to Charles. It stings when someone that you like doesn’t want you around sure.

“Y/N I didn’t mean- you can come it just. I just wasn’t thinking right I’m sorry.”

“Charlie it’s okay, I don’t mind going home” smiling a bit more genuine, I leaned over patting his forearm. Which only caused him to freeze. The jingle of his keys stopped and he just stared at my hand.

“Charles?”

Clearing his throat he started the car heading for my house.

“You can come if you don’t take agesss to get ready.” A little smile was on his face

Tutting and shaking my head with a smile.

“Charlie if you so desperately want me there- you just have to say” teasing back, a small laugh came from Charles as he turned his head slightly before back at the road.

“I always want you around-”

Smiling to myself I looked out the window, trying to hide the blush on my face. What a stupid crush.

We finally got back to my home, and Charles followed me in going straight to the kitchen and rummaging through my fridge for food. “I’m timing you!” Challenge accepted.

Scoffing at him, I ran for the stairs kicking my shoes off and running up to change.

I quickly went through my wardrobe picking out a simple black dress and some heels, my makeup still looked okay from earlier and so did my hair, which I had just pinned back.

If there was a pit stop trophy on how quick my changing skills were, I definitely would’ve took home that trophy. Breathing out heavily I quickly grabbed a purse and chucked my perfume inside it just in case and a few items of makeup.

I leaned down grabbing my heels and ran back down the stairs, “how quick was I?” Heavily panting and probably bright red I stood in front of a frozen Charles.

He stood there with a bowl of pasta and a fork in his hand just staring at me.

“Well?” Sitting down on the stairs I start pulling my heels on and tying the string round, every so often glancing up at Charles who hasn’t moved one bit.

“I don’t think you can come-”

“Oh shh Charles. You said be quick so you get what your given.” Laughing a little I held my hands out to Charles to help me back up.

Putting down his food and wiping his hands he pulled me up, now chest nearly touching, I could feel his body heat, our chest only touched when we both took a breath. The closeness of us both was like an unbearable magnet, neither of us pulling away.

“vous êtes belle.” (You look beautiful.) It was like a whisper of secrecy between us both. My heart rate quickened as I watched over his face, waiting for him to laugh and nudge me, but nothing, his face was stone cold serious, his eyes telling a thousand things.

“toi aussi.” (So do you.)

It felt like hours we was both standing there, hands holding each others tight and close to our chest.

Then realisation kicked in on Charles- he quickly stepped away shaking his hands and looking around for the bowl and fork before rushing back to the kitchen.

Me? I was still stood the reeling in what the hell just happened, Charles is playing hot and cold with me- one minute we’re absolutely fine, next we’re the most awkward people to be around. I was getting whiplash from the sudden changes. It didn’t feel great at all…

The awkward tension continued in the car all the way to the restaurant, only little to none conversation. As soon as we got out the car, Charles was right next to me like something had switched in him again. Rolling my eyes to myself I adjusted my dress and purse before trailing into the restraint, a smile soon plastered on my face.

“Bonjour” smiling at everyone I looked around the table for somewhere to sit, Lando being my go to option out of the empty seats. With a teasing smile I crept round the table sliding into the seat next to him.

“Not you again-” rolling his eyes at me, the smile of his face giving away his joking manner. “You can never get to far from me Landiniho.” Nudging him I turned to the rest of the table, Charles had forced Pierre and Kika down a seat and is now sitting next to me, I leaned slightly in front giving kika a small wave and asking how she is and we got into small conversation.

The night was quite enjoyable, every now and then I would feel Charles leg against mine, or his hand would brush mine on the table, the burning on my face evidently gave away at my true feelings.

“Did you get told off when you went back?” I turned my body slightly to Lando, when doing so I felt a hand on my knee, my leg felt like it was going to fall off- why is he doing this to me? Lando shook his head quickly taking a sip of his drink.

“Of course not, I am their driver!” Rolling his eyes like it’s the most obvious thing.

“Your so annoying I’m just making conversation.” He then smiled “you just easy to annoy.” Shaking my head at him with a smile I turned back, Charles hand still firmly on me, now resting on my thigh, at the movement Charles turned also now facing me, once again both very close, even worse this time when he has his hand so securely on my thigh.

“Are you okay?” I raised my eyes brows at him chin resting on my hand. In response Charles just shook his head.

“What’s wrong?”

“I can’t talk about it right here-” he quickly removed his hand, and turned away.

Turning my head away from him in annoyance I looked around the table, eyes catching onto Carlos who was potentially trying to kill Charles with a stare. His eyes shifted and he looked at me smiling a little, like his own vote of support from his end of the table.

“Your are stupid.” All this shuffling around was giving me aches and pains everywhere, I shuffled back around to where the voice come from.

“I am not stupid.”

“You are.”

Charles and Pierre are both leant into one another in a heated discussion, their voices growing louder each minute, both going between English and French as they insult one another. This only caught other drivers attention and all conversations went quiet everyone watching this all unfold right in front of them.

“elle connaît l'idiot français.” (She knows French idiot.)

“You know french?” Pierre stuck his head around Charles tilting his head slightly as I nodded, more confused than ever.

“I never realised-” he turned back to Charles now continuing their conversation in Italian.

“se non le dici che la ami allora lo farò io.” (If you don’t tell her you love her then I will.)

“tu mi ami?” (You love me?) my heart felt like it was going to burst through my chest. My eyes were bulging as I stared at Charles. If I wasn’t so caught in the moment I probably would’ve been crying with laughter how quickly both their heads snapped to face me. Charles colour all drained from his face. Pierre red with embarrassment.

“Merde-" (fuck-) they both gasped in unison.

“Fai?” (Do you?) my hand was now resting on Charles arm holding onto him tightly like he was going to slip through my fingers.

“SÌ…” (yes…) he whispered so quietly like he was ashamed to admit it- my eyes softened, tilting my head with a smile. “tu mi ami” (you love me.)

“What are they saying?” Everyone looked at Lando who was looking around the table for answers. Me and Charles? We was the only ones in the room as far as I knew.

“Je t'aime depuis que j'ai 19 ans.” (I’ve love you since I was 19.) the smile only grew on my face, all this time I’ve loved him his loved me. Reaching my hands up cupping his face, scared I might scare him off I pulled him closer.

“Je t'aime Charles Leclerc. Toujours avoir.” (I love you Charles Leclerc. Always have.)

He let out a puff of air he must’ve been holding, before leaning in both capturing each other in a kiss-

That type of kiss that tells every feeling you’ve wanted to say but wouldn’t dare let slip past your lips, the same lips that are now telling every secret you ever kept from one another.

The type of kiss that seals every “I love you” you had wished you said all them years ago.

It was a kiss that said,

My Charlie always had my love.

And always will.

A/N: okay I kinda rushed it cause I just wanted to get to the confessions 🥲 I’m sorry <3 hope you enjoyed though. 👀

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#charles leclerc imagine #f1 imagine #imagine #formula one imagine

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rae-lune · 4 months ago

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fanfic author interview game!

thank u for the tag, my tumblr tag game queen @pretentiouswreckingball loved reading urs, am obsessed with u <3

How many works do you have on AO3?

five! perfect time to get tagged in this lol

What's your total AO3 word count?

111,731 :-) (only since june! can u tell i was unemployed this summer lol)

Your top 5 stories by kudos/likes:

In silence, wide-eyed

the magic fabric of our dreaming

Time Was Runnin' Wild (Still Don't Know What I Was Waitin' For)

Scatter My Atoms

The Sound of the Unlocking (she's brand spankin' new!)

Do you respond to comments?

yes!! i love to get comments and always respond like, straight away lol. i have no chill

What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

hmm, probably In silence, wide-eyed. that one has a hopeful ending and i wouldn't say it's particularly angsty, but the other completed fics all (to me) have definite happy endings, so!

What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?

magic fabric of our dreaming, 100%. that one is just wolfstar like, disgustingly in love the entire time and i love it.

Do you write crossovers?

no! don't know that i ever would either

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

no! but i am a baby author, so. maybe my day is yet to come

Do you write smut?

yes, i have! most of my fics are rated mature and i wouldn't really call that smut, but Scatter My Atoms is explicit. and i plan to write more explicit stuff in the future ;)

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i am aware of :-)

Have you ever had a fic translated?

no but that would be so cool!

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

no but i am very much not opposed to the idea.......

What's your all-time favorite ship?

wolfstar!!! i love and read other ships but i am a wolfstar slut thru and thru.

What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?

Scatter My Atoms. i will finish it, but that date is soooo TBD. it was the first idea i ever had for a fic and it's my baby, but i started publishing it right before i started a new job and got married and life just lifed. i also do not think i had enough experience with writing again after so many years to do the story justice when i first started posting it. i ALSO don't love that i started posting it as soon as i finished chapters instead of writing ahead-- i got heinously stuck and now it's been so long that even though i've sorted through the issue in my head, the thought of opening it back up makes me unbearably nervous lol. but i do still love the story and it will be finished, just probably after i reach a few other goals i have for myself this year!!!

What are your writing strengths?

oh man, idk. i've been told by lovely commenters that i describe emotions really well!!

What are your writing weaknesses?

definitely the planning/organization of a story. i think it's something that's becoming easier as i write more and more, but 95% of the time i think of an idea for a fic i have such a clear understanding/vision of the beginning that either the middle or the end (or both!) get lost. (see above about Scatter My Atoms, lol-- this def happened there.) (woman is faced with consequences of her own impatience! shocking!!) (i am an aries, ok??) i'm working on taking my time to think things all the way through and have already noticed a difference in ease of writing and how happy i am with the end product!

also, i ramble!!!!!!

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

huge fan, language is so sexyyyy and i love when characters are multilingual and have little words or phrases or just start goinggggg in a different language. i mostly read fics on my kindle, so it's really easy to translate as i read. i also have written and will continue to write french into mine!

What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to?

i am currently percolating on an idea for a drarry fic that i'm very excited about! though i'm not sure when i will get around to writing it. idk if i'd ever write another fandom, but if i did it would almost certainly be arcane (jayvik, my messy divorced beloveds).

What's your favorite fic you've written?

i love all my children, but i am especially proud of The Sound of the Unlocking!

no pressure tags: @static-radio-ao3 @veganbutterchicken @itsjaywalkers @severedreamerfox @languagelessonswolfstar + open tag :-)

#this was such a treat!!! i love to ramble. thank u loops #tag game #my fics

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kepnerandavery · 1 year ago

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Bridgerton season 3 (part 1) review

Thoughts on polin this season:

I stand corrected, people. I loved Penelope and Colin this season. I found the writing of those two as individual characters and a couple (on the show) to be mediocre before, but my god, it's like they jumped straight out of the fourth book this season. It's like I finally got to meet book Penelope and Colin (especially Colin). And the chemistry of the leads really surprised me too. I don't know what was going on before this season, but they are great together now. The writing/portrayal of the personalities of the two characters and their connection was spot on, and I honestly have no notes. I wish they had kept this same essence since the beginning, but I get why they were saving this until their season. As I expected, the execution of the translation of this season and couple from the book to screen was the best out of all three seasons. I wish the past two couples got the same attention and treatment (specially kanthony), but alas, there's nothing to be done about that. RMB is my fourth favourite book in the series, but this season is honestly my favourite. The dialogue, costumes, locations, aesthetic of the sets, and even the silent moments between the leads were so poignant. And this season made it clear how a show having a female show-runner can impact it so positively.

Now, on to the other things:

I really liked how they handled Penelope and Eloise's friendship and its fallout this season. Their friendship was written more subtly and with care this season and resembled the one in the books for the first time ever for me. And how they both changed as individuals by the absence of the solace the two of them found in each other in the past as they stood against the confoundedness and cruelty of society was written so well.

Kanthony were adorable and really cute and it's such a shame that we got so few scenes of them. At least they are together and happy.

I hate how they keep making a mockery of Benedict's character. It's clear that he should have already met Sophie and gotten his story cause his character feels lost among everyone else, but the poor boy is still smiling, so that's something I guess. I just wish they would for once properly focus on his love for art and improvement of his talent instead of his little dalliances. It's almost like the writers think that he has no other values/interests beyond that. I feel like the writers are so much better at handling Eloise's character and preparing her for her season than they are at writing Ben's. For god's sake, they should at least give him a best friend, or further build his relationship with one of his siblings or Violet to give his character some substantiality.

Eloise was really great this season and seemed so much more mature and grounded. Her costumes were immaculate too. I just wish we had seen her bond with Francesca more cause they're really close in the books.

As for Francesca, I'm sorry, I didn't like how her character or story was written this season. She was never meant to be this.. idk... plain and quirky? (no one come at me cause I'm a book Fran apologist). After watching these four episodes I feel like Ruby had a better grasp on Francesca's character than Hannah does but it could also have something to do with the very bland writing. But then again, most of what we know of Fran is from WHWW and she is more mature in it, so like polin, her character could also get major development later on as she gets older. But I don't have high hopes for that. And dare I say, I also didn't like how John was written either. He was always way more confident and outgoing in my mind (I also expected them to cast an actor of a larger build and screen presence to play him). But I do see how this version of him suits the new version of Fran. But all in all, neither of them were this particular in my imagination. I hadn't had any hopes for the adaptation of Michael's character since last season came out, so this is literally the nail on that coffin for me. At this point, I'm very desensitised to being let down by this show and prefer to be pleasantly surprised, so who cares.

The soundtrack was great (though nothing can beat season one's in my opinion). But Snow On The Beach playing in episode four at the exact moment it did was really poignant and sweet so it's my favourite song they used this season (so far).

Favorite quote:

"Eros and Psyche battling it out." "What you are trying to say, Miss Cowper? Are they not old friends?" "The oldest of friends, really. Ever since the Featheringtons moved in across the street." "Across the street from the Bridgerton house?" 😭 (argghhh! why is that the cutest thing? whoever wrote that deserves a raise!!!)

Suffice to say, I'm very excited to see how the rest of the season is written. I hope they handle the whole LWD thing with care too.

#bridgerton #penelope featherington #colin bridgerton #polin #romancing mister bridgerton #francesca bridgerton #benedict bridgerton #eloise bridgerton #bridgerton spoilers

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cauldron-of-oddities · 1 year ago

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Idk if this is useful to you yet, but I think it's funny so I'm gonna tell you what I found about bird courtship. It's not relevant for Powder since she's female (on the other hand, she could be a progressive bird?) but crows court by doing dramatic aerial maneuvers and dancing with a puffed up feather coat. And owls? Hoot. They hoot "vigorously", in the hopes it'll attract a female.

Ok, so I, too, had a giggle at this while I tried to figure out how this would work. Time to think on all things affection/courtship to seduction.

Bit more headcanon for now. May well play a role in the future.

They're human, so how would it translate? Human affection and bird impulse? It actually works quite nicely with the love languages/acts of affection they already do in this world.

affection/'courtship'

Powder/Jinx is in bird terms definitely progressive. The girl is practically addicted to the acrobatics of flying, little adrenaline junkie that she is.

It took her a moment to get there, deep seated insecurities held her back, but after that first dive, she never looked back.

She loves games, and they spent much of their childhood playing and still do. This is an extension. She likes to have fun, play together, and indulge in a bit of a rush. She likes to dazzle Ekko, and she knows she does, as he admitted as much just after their first kiss. And then, having him play and fly right along is something she loves. Owls apparently, too, have special courtship flights, so it doesn't take much to convince him.

The puffing up of her coat, oh yes. I mean, she has to show off all that wonderful blue to him, right? It works very well. He always has a compliment ready. Sometimes, it's in irritation that she puffs up. That works, too, though, as Ekko will usually stop what he's doing to smooth out her feathers. Either hands or beak are good in her book.

The hooting, how would that be shaped? Words, Ekko is good with words. He knows just how to turn up the charm, how to talk her down when she gets stuck, or panicked. Yes, he got trapped by his own thoughts when he wanted to confess, but everyones premitted their hiccups.

Powder had to learn to articulate better what she wanted at that time. Luckily, she had a good example. As for the actual hooting, she thinks the sound is lovely, something spooky and cute matches well with her vibe. If Powder is too preoccupied or occupied by other people, a hoot is all it will take to get her attention and get him a scratch.

As he gets older, as a human, songs will make their way into the vocabulary. As an owl, entire sets of hoots will join up. It's not quite a song, but it's beautiful non the less. Powder's at first is a little embarrassed but absolutely loves it and quickly starts humming along or as a crow her own gentle rattlling song.

Ekko also likes giving things, owls also give food, it doesn't take much to realise that Powder is easily distracted by her favourite snacks along with trinkets. He will on his way from Benzo's to the Last Drop pick up different or new snacks which she will quickly devourer (probably a good thing he thinks it's cute.) It has caused mild jealousy but these are exclusively for her.

For seduction:

The flying acrobatics is a rush and will often end with them tumbling together, beak jousting and tickle or play fights and kissing, and then tumbling into more. It's all laughter and urgent.

The words and songs or variations of hoots and her humming/rattling, and dancing along are slower, gentler. It's a game of sounds and touches. Accumulating in an embrace that leave them lost in the other and gasping.

Depends on the mood or who's taking charge

An extra

Mutual preening is something for both of them. As a human, they both have hair that needs care, and it very much becomes bonding moments for them. As bird, it becomes the default greeting action. Also, just touch in general, plenty of hugs, sitting on her lap as an owl, or she as a crow on either on his lap or on his shoulder (Powder has stolen his cuff multiple times from here.) And getting all the pets and scratches.

Powder also thinks Ekko's fingers are magic. She will only admit this much later, half dazed in sensation. He will never let her forget it or the ego boost that it was.

#timebomb #ekko x jinx #ekkojinx #the owl and the crow #affection and seduction tactics #how to say I love you #how to charm your lovebird

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yourlocalpolishguy · 2 months ago

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I also self ship with Rex so i feel your pain </3

Tell me your ship name and some fluff-

Ohhh hi, I’m sorry I didn’t saw this message!

Nice to meet you fellow Rex selfshipper :3c imma ramble a bit, English isn’t my first language so sorry for any mistakes

So let’s start with the basics, my self insert is either called Wincent or Wiktor (Wiktor is just my name really). He was originally a X-men self insert I made to selfship with Nightcrawler (who I still love and adore). Most of his backstory from the X-men universe is similar to the one in invincible. Basic dramatic back story, his father was a vet who got bit by one of the sick animals, changing the dna so his first borns (the self insert) DNA was also changed. When he hit puberty he started to change, growing his tail and his hands and legs changing. His parents were religious and they saw him as an abomination so they kicked him out. He’s from Poland and there’s a lot of forests here so he just started to live next to the village, where he grew up in.

The news of some monster living nearby went to the news, people trying to hunt him down or something like that. In general, he was caught and American government got interest in him. He was really a pacifist, too scared to really hurt anyone or one of his animals. Cecil kinda took him in when he realized he might be a good spy, sending mice’s or other small animals into buildings, or controlling something bigger. He was still a teen when he joined the teen team, since Cecil wanted him to have some sort of practice and “friends”. He didn’t really knew the language well, using his rat to translate stuff for him

Rex wasn’t really fond of him. Let’s be honest, Rex at the begging of the series wasn’t fond of anyone who wouldn’t he fuck or got other sort of entertainment. So they started to fight, even if Wincent wasn’t really fond of any sort of fights, he hated Rex guts. Two of them always got on each others nerves, Rex doing stupid comments or pranks related to Wincents looks (which he was very insecure about) and Wincent payed him back with letting his rats rip Rex pillow in half or something like that

They had few moments where they didn’t fight, Wincent basically lived with him and Kate but Kate wasn’t really interested in talking to Wincent either. So he usually spend time in his room talking to his pets (idk if I mentioned his ability is talking to animals sorry I’m getting lost in the sauce). I also headcanon that Rex hates pets or animals, before he met Wincent and even more after due to his pets biting Rex all the time. But they spend Christmas together. No one wants to be alone on Christmas lol. They usually bought pizza, maybe got some gifts for each others if they felt generous. Put some plants from the base in the kitchen as the “Christmas tree”. Their relationship back there was platonic at best. Wincent never really forget Rex for treating Eve very poorly back then. When he learned about it, he let his cat to shit in Rex bed for a week

Later, when they joined the guardians, he wasn’t technically the parts of the guardians, let’s be honest, his powers are too weak so he was more of an informator who was like on the side lines. But since teen team wasn’t a thing anymore he just kinda stayed there. Helping out how he can. He didn’t even liked being a hero that much, he’s an antisocial guy with anger issues, of course he would prefer to say alone unbothered. But he was also lonely, without family or many friends. He had teammates, yeah but they weren’t really his friends. At least that’s how he thought about it. He didn’t even feel confident enough in his own body both due to dysmorphia (he’s transgender, AFAB) and animalistic looks.

Their relationship only started to develop after Rex accident, seeing new side of Rex was something weird but nice. It made Wincent stop the teasing or fighting with him. Sure there were stuff they needed to talk through but he felt glad the comments on his looks were stopped.

Also, my selfship is actually a polyselfship. Originally it was just selfship with Rex but I love his relationship with Rae. I mean, she’s very pretty herself… (also I headcanon her as transgender female since she’s a guy in the comic) and I just wanted three of them to have something nice

Neither Rex or Wincent went to high school, so they are kinda dumb :p but at hospital where Wincent started to meet him up, he admitted he wanted to go to a prom date. Since he saw how cool it looked on tv. And that he kinda just wished to feel normal for once, to look pretty in a dress or a suit. I thought it would be sweet if Rex tried to make for both of them a “prom” at his room. Renting some clothes that were too small or too big but he tried so what the hell sure. It’s kinda like what he did for Rae, with the cooking. His relationship with Rae is less about fighting, more about discussing their needs, feelings, what they even want from life. As much as Wincent would like to leave the “hero stuff” behind, he doesn’t even have any education in the different country, and his looks aren’t helping. There’s also stuff I come up with related to Rex death etc but that’s depressing and it would add another paragraph of text :p

Anyway if you read it all I’m thankful for reading all this crazy ramblings ✌️

Have a nice day 💜

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crazykuroneko · 1 year ago

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IWTV S2E01 First Watch Note

The notes I took while watching in case anyone is interested. Under the cut.

Anyway, I'm grateful they have improved the Episode Insider and now it's really something worth watching

• It's still a recap but the score slays already. Omg Daniel Hart you deserve all the awards

• I love how it says episode 8 and the silhouette of war torn Europe.

• On Claudia dreaming: Present Louis holding onto Claudia's diaries to provide a fact in the past

• Delainey is insane. Just from being silent, we could feel how torn Claudia is

• Interesting they gave ep 1 to a new director to set the tone

• So before this interview happened, when Louis still believed he killed Lestat in NOLA, he got to read this edited diaries and didn't understand what Claudia wrote? I mean, imagine reading the bitterness in her words yet you didn't know where they came from. The break down in Ep 7 triggers more memories for him to remember

• I think Daniel is similar to Lestat in a way. The more he's afraid of Armand the more crass he is. That Shah Rukh Khan comment, boy stfu

• It's insane how Louis posed dead Lestat like Jesus.

• Okay, I'm gonna "translating" DreamStat lines like I did with dead Abigail Hobbs

• The way Dreamstat shows Louis still misses Lestat and starts to ponder if Claudia worth it. The resentment building.

• OH THE LOUSTAT LEITMOTIF AFTER LOUIS SAID SORRY TO DREAMSTAT. slower version of In Throes in Increasing Wonder

• The lines Dreamstat did are so loaded with meanings. Louis' guilt for killing Lestat; his fear that he will come for revenge; his fear that once he's finally in better place, everything will crumble again; and his longing for him just from how intimately they're talking

• Oh, Louis is obsessed to get everything right. That will gradually eat his mental stability

• Photo of Grace as his wife. Louis you're so funny

• Real Rashid deserves a hell of bonus and a promotion istg

• I don't understand Russian etc, but the use of foreign language and accented English has been smooth so far. A world better than whatever the fuck Mayfair Witches did. And they only had to cover one language.

• "In a landfill and five years of garbage on top." Louis, garbage wouldn't stop him 😭. I wonder where Lestat has been for 5 years tho. Recovering with that many rats are easy. Okay, let's say 3/6 months on rats. Once he gets up, he could kill the first person coming to a landfill. Then it will be smooth sailing. One year tops to recover. Two years, if you'd think he's depressed over Louis killing him idk.

• The emotion in Claudia's eyes 😭

• "Change the subject when the truth blinds you" Oh, she got him.

• That insane monologue Jacob does. Louis starting to remember which is true which is not (he re-remembers the fall, mind you).

• So because the blood is bad, vampires there can't get warmer and feel their sadness and sickness as well. And when they want to turn someone, it's either fail or they turn into a revenant. At least according to Louis.

• Oh, Daciana can taste how strong their blood is. How long they can live.

• I wonder what went through Claudia's head, seeing Daciana emulated herself. She (deservedly, after all his lies) didn't believe Lestat when he said his maker burnt himself. Ofc it didn't make any sense to her ears at that time, burning yourself after you turned someone. But now she witnessed it herself. Someone who could have told her everything, killing themselves after feeling lost and untethered (Daciana lost all of her fledlings)

• "My name is in some of those pages" Louis isn't even listening to his fear. He's deadset on this. And Armand is anxious.

• The face Armand made. Does Louis know he has men around his pinky just for a drop of his affection?

• Louis agreed with Armand to basically shut Daniel up and turn him into a fumble journalist again when he still wants the truth is interesting

• Is that the groan? It's louder now.

• Daniel's reaction when seeing Loumand walking in together is so funny 🤣

• Wait, Session 7 is Ep 7. There are two sessions in this episode and it's Season 10 now. so, what happened in Season 8?

• The way Lestat is there during the You and Me lines, but it's not really Lestat. It's the embodiment of Louis' doubt on this new life he chose together. The way Claudia sitting there so small; Lestat lovingly softly gazing at her. Oh, Louis so wants to believe his words himself.

• Louis arrives in Paris with desperation to prove that this life is worth it; that killing Lestat was worth it; that he'll get that happiness. Even though he's afraid Lestat will come or it will crumble the moment he reaches it. Oh, Louis.

#iwtv #iwtv spoilers #iwtv first watch #moi.txt

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chaehwa-archives · 4 days ago

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friendly rivalry deep dive part 1

**Reblogging to let folks know that if you are interested in reading these deep dives, you should follow this new blog, as I won’t be updating the old one. You can find links to all my deep dive posts here.**

Korean GL Friendly Rivalry is my latest hyperfixation, if you can’t tell. It’s my favorite kind of love story—a little bit twisted, but sweet and sincere deep down—and it’s a treasure trove of tropes that scratch a primordial itch in my brain. It’s also ~*dense*~ for a GL series, and practically begging for deeper analysis. There is so much going on plot-wise, character-wise, and otherwise that it’s almost impossible to catch everything the first time you watch it. Probably a little too much going on tbh but I’m not complaining! GL fans don’t often get media this juicy to sink our teeth into. So instead of feeding my obsession by watching every FMV I can find on Youtube (been there done that), I’ve decided to rewatch the series at a slower pace, picking it apart piece by piece.

Some criticism might sneak into these deep dive posts, but my goal isn’t just to write a longer more in-depth review. I already know that I love this show, and I already know it’s got problems. Instead this will be a space for thinking out loud as I try to understand the story and characters on a deeper level, because I Have Thoughts and I Must Scream. Idk how many installments there will end up being, or how much content I’ll cover per post, but I think, for simplicity’s sake, I’ll try to proceed in episode order without jumping around too much. Oh but do watch out for spoilers—I’m writing for others like me who have watched the whole series at least once.

So...where better to begin than with the first scene of Episode 1? This opening scene is doing a lot. On the surface, it’s establishing Seul-gi as our narrator. This is her story, in her own words. We aren’t getting an “objective” account.

It’s also establishing style. From the first few seconds we know not to expect straight realism. There is no logical reason a child on a school trip would happen to have dog treats in her, um, royal handbag. This is the heightened realm of dreams and memories. She has the dog treats to illustrate an emotional truth. This poor girl is so desperate to be noticed that her efforts to stand out only isolate her more from everyone. (The princess dress is such a believable detail, too—you either know a stubborn kid who insists on embarrassing themselves like this, or you were that weird kid.) I’m struggling to think of a more perfect way to express that overwhelming feeling of invisibility than a dog turning up its nose at the treats in your hand.

This scene introduces some symbols that will pop up throughout the series. There’s another important dog later, and lots of water, and the princess dress comes back. I’m not sure what any of these are doing yet, but they seem intentional, not random. There’s some fun with the visual language too. We’re shown a series of snapshots in which Baby Suel-gi is always in the background or a bit out of frame. But some mysterious hand has helpfully outlined her and drawn some cute little pictures on the photos. Is she not only narrating her story, but illustrating it for us?

The thing about this scene is, while I love it and think it’s brilliant, it also doesn’t really make any sense. How hard could it be to locate a lost child in a princess dress if the parents knew which beach the school was visiting? Couldn’t they contact the nearest police station, or whatever institution deals with such cases? Or just contact every orphanage in the area? Maybe something got lost in translation, or maybe it just needed a little extra lampshading. Either way, it’s a bold move to hang the whole plot on a moment of what feels like dream logic.

On a poetic level, though, it’s very satisfying. The cosmic irony of being separated from everyone you’ve ever known, just because you wanted a little attention, is so deliciously bleak—and on a character level, it tells us exactly what we need to know about Seul-gi. This is a girl who has been fucked up by The Gaze. (Not The Gays yet but we’re getting there.) She’s either been ignored and forgotten, or she’s stood out in ways that have sharpened her isolation. The only thing she hates more than being noticed is not being noticed at all.

This is literally just the first minute of the episode, but already this scene is gesturing at a larger character arc. How will Seul-gi react to attention from others from now on? Will she be able to overcome the trauma of abandonment? Will she ever find someone—say, a popular girl at school who skateboards, perhaps—who can see her for who she really is?

Oh no. I just wrote six paragraphs about the first minute of the first episode. I am so doomed.

#friendly rivalry #friendly rivalry meta #girls love #gl drama #gl series #korean gl #korean drama #kdrama #deep dive

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sealer-of-wenkamui · 2 months ago

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The final 3 episodes are all really good ones imo… today was 22, Bilbul (bind), which the Japanese part of the name is 桎梏 read “shikkoku” which interestingly enough, is also how 執国 is read (which they translated as Regent, looking around, it seems to be a title made up for ergo proxy) so that has to be intentional, with him having just been killed, and the relationship between him and Ergo/One finally coming to light.

One ripped off his own arm to prevent the FP rays from killing him, and the rest of Raul’s now panicked shots miss, and he runs off in fear (and they then show Pino’s crayon breaking at this moment…)

The two Reals meet… though Re-l says no that’s me, not you, likely further going against all she’s been raised to know. And this line here… it seems her encounter earlier has awakened her as “Monad”. (And by getting Vince to remember, does she mean because Re-l herself is an incomplete Monad clone..?) With how much control Daedalus seems to want over her, I wonder how she learned of Vincent, was it her own poking around, or even Proxy One’s manipulation? I could see him luring her to Monad’s room when Vince is there to push Daedalus into destroying Romdo. It is implied he had some hand in that… Or simply her being drawn to Monad’s room by who she is and knowing Ergo naturally came to her? She’s not carrying her thread in the scene with Monad and Ergo either so maybe that’s implying it’s out of Daedalus’ knowledge…?

And she knows he’s the creator and now shares the same goal the original Monad seemed to have, to save Vince by letting him forget his burdens. Daedalus seems happy she awakens as a full god in the final episode but I don’t think he wanted her to have Monad’s feelings because that would mean love for someone other than him. But it’s too late that meeting has changed her…

Idk why the subs used “Regent” here, Daedalus used the term 代表 (representative) like he usually does. They got that right in Cytotropism too so idk why not here??

He straight up ignores Re-l asking about Real, and simply talks to her instead… but now she wants to see Vince… the soft “eh?” When she first says it…. She’s the one thing he’s clinging to, to keep his raison d’être and now she’s starting to slip away too… (He’s figured out Ergo is the creator of Romdo, and I wonder how much he knows of the Ergo-Monad connection…? He has to suspect something with how he was in charge of the care of both Monad and Re-l, and thought to make a clone of Re-l from Monad..so I suspect he’d not be too eager to tell his Real about Vincent, but it’s too late, just from that one meeting she felt that connection)

And then Re-l starts going on about Vincent too and he looks so fed up with it, both of them lost to Vincent!

He’s always so calm, so it’s pretty shocking to see him snap like this and yell at her to kill Vincent then if he’s the one that killed the Regent! Before simply leaving calmly stating he has to find his Real… he can’t let her slip through his grasp….

He’s not hiding it anymore, he’s desperate to be loved by her, and has already gone to disturbing lengths for that.

As far as I gather it’s technically One that created Romdo, but here they say Ergo left Donov in charge.. but he may have split off by then since he’s One’s despair. The attack on Mosk is said to be of vengeance as well and the collective speaks of how she “stole their light”, now I think this refers to how Monad wanted to save Ergo but the way she wanted to do that was by having him forsake his role as creator. Well intentioned on her part but it screws over his creations… and the next scene is even Real(/monad) saying he doesn’t have to suffer anymore.

The final confrontation between Raul and Daedalus in the lab is one of my all time favorite scenes. I wonder if he suspected Real being a proxy once he recognized her as the girl he met earlier, is there any other being that could grow up that fast? And he personally gave Monad back to Daedalus too… and Real herself seems to be still trying to be good for Daedalus for now, cause she’s like hey I did what you asked. But she seems unsure about things in this scene.

Raul is positively desperate now, killing Vince is the only thing on his mind so he needs those FP shells now, but to Daedalus? He doesn’t matter anymore, hell he’s surprised he’s still alive and uses his desperation to openly mock him. Pretending he forgot where he put them then saying oh yeah I got rid of them and laughing at his shocked face. Raul must have gotten them from him since Daedalus was technically working under him, but Daedalus doesn’t need him anymore!

(I like how Raul knocks the thread out of her hand in anger)

Daedalus being so confident and openly stating he got what he wanted. (I love even the way he’s sitting on the couch, he’s in control here and looking down at Raul) He has Real so nothing else matters. Also I love how Real seems… rather unsure of things here, she looks away from Daedalus when he’s stroking her hair (once again, I cannot imagine him being this physically affectionate with Re-l, but this is HIS Real who he’s raised to love only him)

Raul isn’t exactly wrong in what he’s saying though, Daedalus IS in denial and essentially waiting for the end with a fake Re-l, he’s just good at convincing himself that she’s the real thing (and well. Desperate.)

Daedalus quoting the whole “fellow citizens, throw things away” message in reference to Raul is so damn good, also him mocking the way he always goes “beautiful” by saying hey this isn’t beautiful Chief Raul.

And Raul saying he won’t give into depravity (kinda insinuating Daedalus has) and will fight to the end… I do strongly believe the two of them were written to be foils to each other, and this scene exemplifies that difference between them. Daedalus, who recognizes they are failures and so simply waits for the end with his Real, and Raul, who knows they’re failures too, but refuses to give up. And also Raul’s flaring emotions vs Daedalus’ calmness. Clinging to a god (Real/Monad) vs remove the need for gods.

This is still one of my favorite shots and lines. Daedalus smug with a gun to his head, calmly stating 「お好きに。」　(Kobayashi nailing the delivery as always, idk why but this one line really stuck with me). He is awaiting death, sure, but I get the impression he was confident she would defend him. And maybe it was also to solidify that belief after she was starting to talk about Vince.

I love how they make you think Daedalus got shot here, they even have a scene later on that avoids showing Raul from below the chest. Looks like two bloodstains here the one on the right looks like it was splattered at high speeds so from the gunshot hitting Real? (But he was out of FP rounds so she would be fine I mean we saw One regenerate an entire arm) and the second pool from Raul being mortally wounded by her…? <-thinking too much on a minor point

Man, Re-l talking about how everyone who supported her leaving… yeah they sure are… she already lost Iggy, Daedalus has gone mad and rejects her, her grandfather has been killed, and now Vince may or may not be himself anymore…

Raul’s little smile when he sees Pino’s adorable drawing of the two of them kills me 😭 the way he’s been so set on killing Vince, but after being mortally wounded, his mind goes to what’s most important to him, Pino…. And wanting to see her once more… (and it’s not sometime out of nowhere, they keep emphasizing throughout the series how close the two of them were)

And they don’t even let you know he’s the one dying until Kristeva sees the blood on the floor of his house, and Real is shown with bloody hands

Daedalus is still so confident here, she protected him! Until she says it was because Raul threatened Vince, and his hands immediately freeze. Is this the last straw that pushed him towards the destruction of Romdo itself? (Though he keeps trying to call to her to the very end…)

Raul’s whole death scene remains the saddest part of the show to me, this is my third time through and it’s always the part I cry at… the way they have Pino talking to him (though she hasn’t been able to find him…) overlayed with him staggering around trying to find her… clinging to her drawing… only to be knocked onto a shard of glass and impaled…

It’s one of the scenes I remember most vividly even from 10 years back… (I’ll talk about it more when I get there but the added scene in the disc release makes Daedalus’ death parallel Raul’s- that moment of clarity in their dying moments where their obsessions cool and they realize what is most important)

And finally, Re-l realizes the existence of Proxy One, because she feels different with him than she does Vince, and the curtains are quite literally pulled back to reveal him… it’s very interesting how the show introduces him as a character you technically see a handful of times, and learn of in the game show, but he’s behind the scenes until the end. Also they translated 迷宮 as maze again here but I would have gone with labyrinth, I mean Romdo kinda seems to be compared to the labyrinth and when you have a character called Daedalus, the stricter definition feels more appropriate.

#Infel’s ep tag #I must have the most bizarre ep write ups cause I go whoa did you see that minute expression on Daedalus’ face? *whole paragraph about it*#and then oh right the main characters are also here lol #(I love them dearly too everyone is a great character I just operate on the power of BLATANT FAVORITISM)#ergo proxy spoilers #these really are more of me just scribbling down thoughts #I do want to write up a proper thing at some point (about Daedalus and a comparison of Daedalus and Raul)#Raul is my second fave so I have a lot of bias towards him too hahah

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