#Sorry for long post but my brain go brr

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If Val still abuses Vox like stated in the old lore, would he and Angel be able to relate? 

Tw: discussions of abuse

If you weren’t back in the early days of the fandom, back then we barely knew anything about Vox. All we knew was a few limited and obvious things like he was an entertainment overlord and one of the three Vees. 

However, one of the things we later learned about him in a livestream is that him and Val are in some sort of relationship and that Val is obviously abusive towards him. 

This was a part of the old lore and while I’m sure Val can get violent from time to time, it seems from episode two that this new idea of Vox has a lot of control over Val’s anger and wouldn’t really allow him to crack or break his screen.

But back then we didn’t know this. Remember when we thought Val would be the leader of the Vees? 

Considering that we also still thought the Voxtagram stories a were canon and Val is shown to break Vox’s screen often, we had a very different interpretation of him.

And with the popularity of amazing fan song ‘eyes on me’ from paranoid dj that also shows their relationship as abusive at the end of the video, this was all we thought their relationship would be like. (Ok but honestly eyes on me is amazing I listen to it like every week) 

Now, how did this relate to angeldust? 

We knew a lot more about Angeldust because he is part of the main cast, and when addict released the show was making it very obvious that Val was his boss, abuser, and that hurts and affects him daily.

When the show released we get a sneak peak of how manipulative Val is in episode 2 when he convinces Angel to come to the studio, but it is the worst in the infamous episode.

This episode’s entire theme is about Val and just how horrible he treats Angel and has no regards for his feelings, body, or well being.

I could go into more detail on just how bad Val is to Angel, but that’s a sensitive topic that’s been discussed to death already.

But as we see at the end of ‘poison,’ Vox gives Angel a look that I can only describe as smug jealousy. 

Which Vox, I love you, but that is disgusting.

In this frame it’s shown to us that Vox is jealous of Angel because Val focuses a lot of his time on Angel and not him, but… Angel is literally getting raped without his consent? 

Vox may be Val’s on and off boyfriend, but he’s very aware of what Val does to his employees, especially Angel. It’s part of why he works with him.

But comparing someone who youre partly letting get abused in your workplace by you’re friend and work partner to jealously because they are getting abused and beat by that person daily to be jealous of because Angel spends more time with Val than he gets to? 

I’m sorry Vox, but that sickens me to an extreme level.

Of course I could just be reading to far into that one frame, but in the context of the show Vox is an egotistical overlord who is already shown to not care for his own employees. So why would he care about what Val does to his?… except when they are the source of his anger and time.

Now, theoretically, let’s say that in the new lore Val is still abusive to Vox at times. Ignoring how close they were in the finale song in episode 8. 

Val is poison to everyone around him, even the people he’s the closest to.

Would Vox and Angel be able to bond over this? I say no.

Angel is a sinner, which is on the lower part of the class system in hell. It’s normalized that someone like him can be treated however it applies to a contract they signed.

There’s no sympathy for him by others except when they care for him and what it makes Angel do to himself (Husk) or when they know just what goes down in that studio (Charlie) 

But I highly doubt Angel and Vox are any sense of close.

Vox mainly works on his floor, and Angel works in the studio. They obviously have met and vox still has that.. *ew* resentment to Angel, but that’s really it.

Now, vox on the other hand, is a powerful level who is on the same level, if not more powerful that Valentino because he’s the leader of the Vees. 

Even if Val abuses him sometimes, he’s probably… into that. 

Look at that waist and tell me that man isn’t a bottom, you get the point.

Val and Vox’s story hasn’t been told to us yet, but by using background information like a old picture of them from presumably the 70’s and how close they seem, I theorize they met a little after Val died and teamed up to become more powerful. They were a little attracted to one another, but it never did and still isn’t official, even if they look and act gay as hell. (Heh) 

So Vox is on the same level as Val and has been close to him for 50+ years. They’ve had plenty of good moments, even if they are both awful people.

Oh yeah, let’s talk about that.

Since Vox is also on the same level as Val, he still is a awful person as well see in episode 2,4, and 8. (His appearances) 

Even if he Dosent sexually assault his employees, he still treats them horribly, as does Velvette. I assume this is common practice for overlords to treat their souls poorly, but it’s still not a good practice. I feel bad for the fish guy who had to make angelic security on the spot, he looks as stressed as me.

He hypnotizes people into trusting him and buying his technology, which is just evil businessman behavior. Someone said he reminds them of lord business from the LEGO movie, and I see it.

He is also very petty towards Alastor in almost every way, immediately trying to brainwash his audience to not listen to him.

I’m not saying being petty is a sign of being a awful person, but for Vox it contributes.

There’s the… look in episode 4, which I’ve already discussed, but it’s important to note that Vox is in Val’s studio DURING Val shooting and mistreating his stars.

If he regularly does this is then he is more than aware of what Val does to his employees and only gives them disgusted stares back. Like all he sees in them is what Val sees, useless whores for content.

Which is obviously not good lmao

And then in episode 8 (and partly episode 6 if you look into it) 

Vox is shown to have spying technology all over the city which is how he regulates his users behavior. He uses this tech to spy on alastor and the others and make fun of them like he’s watching football. 

At the end of the episode, we see him happily dancing with Valentino and Tounge kissing him, showing us even more that they’re in love in their own sick twisted evil way.

Angel on the other hand, is shown to be better. 

He’s in a hotel for redemption and throughout the season we see him slowly kicking his old habits like self destruction, drug abuse, alcohol abuse, distancing himself, etc. 

(With the help of Husky ofc huskerdust for life) 

And by the end of the season we see Angel being a lot more genuine to the others in the hotel and I only imagine he gets better once they find out it’s possible to be redeemed.

Vox is not shown to want to be morally better in the slightest, if not worse. 

He wants to one up Alastor, he wants to take over hell with the other Vees, and he will do it however he wants because he’s a cartoon supervillain. 

I’m not going to touch on what I Think of Val and Vox as a ship in this but what I will say is that Vox is a cartoon supervillain, doing things that even though horrible in the universe are just seen as goofy to us viewers.

Val on the other hand is scarily realistic, a abuser who manipulates his victims and forces them to have sex for his own benefits. I think that’s the main thing that sets me off for them, even if they are evilly perfect for each other. (So I’m gonna steal vox from Val) 

Vox is in a much different position with Val than Angel is, equal to if not above him while Angel is very below him. We see Angel stand up to him in episode 6, but I just know he was beaten the hell out of the next day and broken even further.

Vox would belittle him, so the only way I see the two even talking genuinely is if Angel starts it.

This isn’t like Angel and Husk, where they’re both washed up losers who are going through situations similar enough to bond, there’s an extreme power imbalance that wouldn’t make it as meaningful as Angel and husk’s talk.

There’s an amazing comic, I’ll add it below, but it’s actually what got me thinking about this topic.

If Vox comes out with his screen cracked after Angel was also hurt just to yell at the other becuase he’s ruining their image, then I see this potentially working.

They could share a sweet line like Angel showing concern for Vox’s cracked screen considering that’s his face and it must feel like having you’re skull cracked open. Angel has probably been driven to that level before.

However I have this one image in my head.

If Vox and Angel are both slightly talking and then they both say, “Val can be… rough.” 

I think that perfectly shows how different the two’s situations are with him.

Vox would say it all horny with a tint of love to his voice, while Angel would say it actually despaired and quiet. They see Val’s actions differently because they are affected differently by it.

Vox isn’t scared of Val because he is on the same level as him, and I think that’s the main reason to why they wouldn’t kconnect.

Besides, both Vox and Angel are either too egotistical or have too many walls up to have a legit conversation about Val without knowing each other at all.

If anything Vox is only a contribute to why Val focuses on Angel so much, their relationship is toxic af and we see in ep 2 that Val likes to get a reaction out of Vox. It’s sick and twisted but I wouldn’t put it against him to do something like that.

So, in conclusion I don’t think Angel and Vox would be able to relate to each other because their situations and relationships with Val are so different, even if Val lets it out on Vox time to time his main target is Angel. Angel gets hurt almost every day and I’d say Vox only gets hurt every couple months on a really bad day.

We know a lot of the lore has changed since the pilot and the Voxtahram stories most of these claims come from arent even canon, so I probably just ranted about nothing.

Regardless Thank you for reading, and goodnight. If you have any genuine thoughts about this feel free to share in the comments and reblogs, I’m curious.

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Overly Analyzing Fortune Street character dialogue (Mario and Luigi)

So I've spent a lot of time browsing Mario wiki pages (organized easy to read information about a current hyperfixation makes for great destressing material) and one of the pages I've been really into is the quotes from Fortune Street (2011)! I've been thinking about talking about and discussing some of the character dialogue from it, since some of them actually have some fun character tidbits, and after seeing this post from pianokantzart (please go check out their stuff!) I decided to go ahead and do so!

Today we'll be focusing on Mario and Luigi's dialogue, and dialogue that involves them! If you would like to view these quotes for yourself, you can do so here and on the character's quote pages. I'll mainly just be highlighting some of the fun ones under the cut!

Mario

"Brr! This ship gives me the creeps! Best to win fast so I don't have to hang out here too long!" (The Ghost Ship)

This is an area-specific dialogue line for the Ghost Ship, and I find the implication that Mario is a bit creeped out by ghosts/haunted places, seeing as Boos/ghosts are an enemy that have notably defeated him numerous times via the Luigi's Mansion series.

"Wow! What a fancy palace! But I still think Peach's Castle is the best…" (Castle Trodain) "Ha ha! I'm gonna do well here. Peach's Castle is like a second home to me!" (Peach's Castle)

Simple but cute!! He thinks of Peach's Castle as a second home and feels safe there!! This is extremely important to me

"Dooo-doo-doo-doo-doo-dooooo! Hey, I love this tune!" (Super Mario Bros.) "Doooo--doo-doo doo-doo-doo! That sure is a catchy tune I've got stuck in my head! Oh, sorry, is it my turn already?"

He also really loves the Super Mario Bros. theme! The theme that is associated most with him and Luigi ;w; I like to imagine he hums its to himself whenever he's working

To Yoshi: "I'll help you find your cookies, Yoshi - just give me a second to brush these cookie crumbs out of my mustache!" Yoshi to player: "Yoshi! Yoshi! (Nice job on that promotion, (player's name)! Here, have some cookies to celebrate!)" Mario's response: "Why no cookies for Mario? Can't I have just one?"

There's also a running theme of him wanting Yoshi's cookies which I think is so funny. The Legendary Hero of the Mushroom Kingdom cannot turn up a tasty snack. Some people seem to push back against the idea that Mario enjoys eating?? But I think it's such a cute characteristic of his (and the fact that he basically admits to Yoshi's face that he swiped his cookies jsadjkkdlsa)

"Not to look a gift Yoshi in the mouth, but I was hoping for more coins..."

Mostly highlighting this one for the substation of "horse" with "Yoshi" in this quote. Fun little world building tidbit of Yoshi's being the Mushroom Kingdom's horses.

After player warps: "Ever get a stomachache when you warp, (player's name)? That happens to me sometimes!"

Even though he presumably uses the warp pipes all the time? Interesting... (side note but because I'm movie brain pilled, you could potentially read into it more here for that verse 👀)

After landing on a Take-a-break square: "Heroes never take the day off! What am I supposed to do with myself - go to the beach?"

Bro that is not a good mindset let yourself take vacations!

"Thank you for your patronage! You're very generous, (player's name)... Just like me!"

There's a lot of playful lines like this from Mario, I like when we get to see his competitive side and how he has a teeny bit of an ego (he's still overall humble and kind, but he knows he's the hero of the Mushroom Kingdom)

After player buying his circus tent: "I can't believe you took over my circus, (player's name)! Didn't you like my fireball show?"

FIREBALL SHOW???? HE PUTS ON A FIREBALL SHOW????? I am desperate for any crumbs of reference to Firebrand (even though he likely used a Fire Flower for this but still)

To Luigi: "Hey Luigi! Stick with me, Bro, and we'll win this one together!" Luigi's response: "You got it, Mario! We'll show (player's name) some real Mario Bros. teamwork!"

To player: "Nice work, (player's name)! But Luigi and I aren't going to give up quite yet!" Luigi's response: "Right you are! The Mario Bros. are just getting warmed up!"

THEM........ 🥺💖 WE LOVE TO SEE THEM WORKING TOGETHER

To player: "Psst! Hey, (player's name)! Princess Peach is watching, so I'm afraid I just can't lose to you today!" Peach's response: "Mario, I heard that! But don't you worry - I'm the one who's going to win!"

Dude is SMITTEN for Peach and it shows. He wants to impress her! I do like that we get to see that Peach is also competitive and playfully rolls with it

To player: "Keep going, (player's name)! It's way too early to give up!" Peach's response: "Hey, Mario-what gives? You seem like you're more concerned about (player's name) than you are about me!"

That said, Peach clearly likes having his attention on her LMAO it reminds me of the scene in Paper Jam where M&L Peach visibly got a bit jealous of Mario getting blushy and flustered over Paper Peach

Bowser to player: "You're in luck! If you beat me, you automatically get to become one of my minions! That's the law around here!" Mario's response: "Don't listen to him, (player's name)! I've beaten him a million times, and I'm no minion!"

Almost all of Bowser's quotes that invoke a response from Mario play out like this; Bowser provokes or taunts the player and Mario immediately snaps back or defends the player. It's fun to see a version of their rivalry here, albeit one in a much more relaxed and lower stakes setting. They will get extremely competitive even when it's just a game for fun

Bowser Jr. to player: "You're just being a big show-off, (player's name)! I'm NOT impressed!" Mario's response: "Don't be jealous, Bowser Jr.! Sure, (player's name) is doing great - but you're not doing bad yourself! Try to stay focused!"

While Mario will do the same if Junior taunts the player, here we can see him being encouraging towards him. It's a cute little moment! I feel like Bowser's Fury enjoyers will like this quote lol

Peach to Mario: "Hmph! Why does (player's name) have all the luck? Mario! I order you to go out and gather me some gold coins!" Mario's response: "Sure thing, Princess Peach! But, umm..how?"

I mean it when I say dude is smitten. One order from the princess and he's ready to drop his competitive streak to go fetch some coins for her LMAO

Toad to player: "I'm impressed with your business acumen, (player's name)! I wish I was more like you… Mario's response: "You can be, Toad! Just keep up the hard work!"

Friendship between Mario and Toad can be so personal, actually... and more encouraging and sweet Mario! Never forget that this man is kind and caring before anything else

To Birdo: "Ouch! Birdo, you're charging me an arm and a mustache! That's precious gold I'm never going to see again!"

AN ARM AND A MUSTACHE HE SAYS............ this man is a DORK

To Bowser Jr.: "I'm surprised you're charging folks so much to shop here, Bowser Jr. ! Just like your daddy, you are!" To Bowser Jr.: "Bowser Jr.! You're just like your daddy. Always getting in my way!"

He'll be encouraging and overall gentler with Junior, but it doesn't change that fact that Junior still gets in his way a lot JADSKK

To Donkey Kong: "Hey, Donkey Kong! Would you mind if I paid you in bananas? Ha ha ha! Oh, I bet you get that joke all the time!" To Donkey Kong: "You sure know how to roll that die, Donkey Kong! Almost as well as you roll a barrel!"

oh my god he's so obnoxious sometimes you KNOW this man is telling dad jokes even if he's not a father. And it's a small hint towards the DK and Mario rivalry that started in the old games!

To Luigi: "Oh, Luigi! Can't you give me a special discount or something? I thought we were the bestest of buddies!"

the bestest of buddies I could cry.... it's a very sweet sentiment, even though clearly it's said in a bit of teasing tone here. I now HC that Mario calls Luigi his bestest buddy whenever he wants something from him

To Peach: "Looks like I need to start picking some flowers for your victory bouquet, Princess Peach!"

THIS. MAN. IS. SMITTEN.

To Waluigi: "I hate to fraternize with my brother's nemesis, but it looks like we're going to have to work together! Let's swap shops, Waluigi!" To Waluigi: "What!? Waluigi's about to win!? I don't think Luigi is going to be too happy about that…"

Interestingly, we get to see the Waluigi / Luigi rivalry acknowledged by someone outside of them. I do like the implication that out of principal, Mario avoids anyone who has beef with Luigi.

Luigi

”Eek! No one told me there would be gh-gh-ghosts here! I wish I'd brought my Poltergust 3000 with me.” (The Ghost Ship)

LUIGI'S MANSION REFERENCE!! An obvious one, but it makes me happy whenever it's referenced regardless

"Leaping lasagna! This place is even bigger than Peach's Castle!" (Castle Trodain) "This place is wackadoodle! It's turning my brain into spaghetti!" (Good Egg Galaxy)

HE DID IT HE SAID THE FOOD JOKE THINGS!!!!

"Looks like my bro really cleaned this place up! I hope they gave him the key to the city!" (Delfino Plaza)

this one is just, so pure and cute???? supportive Luigi confirmed??

To player: "Hey, (player's name)! I'm Luigi! Oh, you've heard of me? I'm so flattered I think I'm blushing!"

This is also so cute and a bit sad - he thinks it's amazing that someone has heard of him enough to know his name outside of just "Mario's little brother"

"This game has got my mustache all mussed up! Where's my little comb?"

Implying he carries a comb with him specifically for brushing and cleaning up his mustache! Which makes total sense, considering these other lines of dialogue from him;

"I take a quick time-out to trim my mustache, and someone buys up almost all the shops! What gives?" "Ack! One shop left? All I did was take a minute to trim my sideburns… I need to stop doing that!" "Who bought up all the shops? Guess I was too busy grooming the 'stache to pay attention to the game…"

A lot of people interpret Luigi as very neat and tidy and almost obsessively keeps himself cleaned, and this dialogue most certainly solidifies that! People pointed out in the recent film that Luigi's hair is also a lot neater than Mario's, which lends to this idea. Apparently more than once he's been so focused on grooming his mustache and hair that he's missed something important lol

"It's not so bad being in second place. As a matter of fact, it feels just right! I wonder why that is…"

Ohhhh buddy,,,,,, the eternal player 2 mood LOL

"One day I'm gonna dominate this district. Then everyone will see who's the real brains behind The Mario Bros.!"

JDSJKASDLDASKLA this is such a sibling quote. Though it is interesting considering many people consider Luigi the more strategic of the two

After player lands on a Take-a-break square: "You've been working so hard lately, (player's name). Promise me you'll take it easy on your day off!"

A lot of characters will gleefully remark that they can advance while you're on a day off when you land on a Take-a-break square, but Luigi seems to genuinely want you to take it easy and I think that's neat

To player: "Did Mario teach you to play this game, (player's name)? 'Cause you've definitely got some sweet moves, just like him!"

CUUUUUUUUUUTE Luigi thinks the world of his brother, so of course if you impress him, he will compare you to him!

After player builds a tax office: "Built yourself a tax office, (player's name)? That was a calculated move! Ha ha ha ha!"

"You got any hobbies, (player's name)? I'm into lots of things: golf, tennis, basketball, beating you at this game…"

DORK I am going to lovingly push him into a locker. This was the blueprint for "You just got a-Luigi'd!"

After building an estate agency: "I bet Princess Daisy'd be really impressed if I owned a few more shops! Help me out, estate agency!"

One of the most favourite moments for Luigi/Daisy enjoyers. Because it really is cute! He just wants to impress her!

Going bankrupt: "Bankrupt!? I'm gonna get laughed right out of the Mushroom Kingdom!"

highlighting this one just because every time I read it all I can think of is "they're beating my ass in the QRTs"

Daisy to player: "If you win, (player's name), maybe I'll invite you on an all-expenses-paid vacation to Sarasaland!" Luigi's response: "Wow, what a prize, (player's name)! I wish I was in your shoes!" Daisy to player: "Yay! You got your salary, (player's name)! I guess that means you'll drop by my shop soon, right?" Luigi's response: "Wow, Princess Daisy! You're good…"

THIS. MAN. IS. ALSO. SMITTEN. I find it so funny that both Mario and Luigi are so head over heels for their respective princess GFs.

Waluigi to player: "Hope you're comfortable in last place, (player's name), 'cause that's where you belong!" Luigi's response: "Knock it off, Waluigi! I'm pretty sure you're the one who belongs in last place!" Waluigi: "Luigi, (player's name)… Is there anyone they DON'T let into this thing?" Luigi's response: "Ha ha! You're one to talk, Waluigi! How did YOU get on the guest list?"

LUIGI, KILL!!!!

More of the Waluigi / Luigi rivalry, and it's interesting to see someone who is usually more timid and soft spoken like Luigi be so confrontational and angry addressing someone who is clearly getting on his nerves. Waluigi seems to be one of the few people who can really push his buttons like that.

Mario to player: "Nice job, (player's name)! You're a real hero - just like Mario!" Luigi's response: "I wish Mario would call me a hero sometime…"

The post I linked before delves a bit more into this, but Luigi has a couple of dialogue lines about wishing Mario would think more highly of him. It doesn't come across as out of spite or disdain; it just reads as a younger sibling wishing he could impress his big brother who he looks up to. But as we all know, Mario clearly thinks the world of Luigi and he even shows it in this game;

Mario to Luigi: "Great job, Bro! Ha ha! You're my hero!"

They care about each other and I will hear NO arguments.

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I was honestly surprised that you are a big fan of Taeyeon and Irene. I think you've always been interested in them since they have been on your 'idols that you write' list for a long time. Though you never mentioned them on your blog until recently.

From my perspective, it's like seeing you flipping a switch. I saw your posts which made me realize, "Oh IZ is DOWN BAD for both of them".

When did you start following/stanning Taeyeon and Irene?

What was the breaking point that pushed you to write Taeyeon and subsequently Irene? (Photos, performances, songs, fancams, etc.)

Yes, I'm a super big fan of them, I'm a bigger fan of them than using "XD" (rooted from my cringe Facebook days back in 2011), which says a lot.

You're right about me being at least interested in them back them. They're both insanely pretty and so happen to be mommy bunny leaders, too, which is probably what drew me to them. And look at them being my top two and three now! (Gaeul, I'm sorry please dont be bad to me tonight)

Taeyeon

I heard her song "Fine" and adored how pretty her voice and face are. She's one of the best vocalists in the industry and no, i won't fight you about it we all know it's true

I watched a few of her videos and she's so blunt and straight to the point that it made me have fantasies of her being a dom.

(So basically my whole writer deal ahhaha)

She's a switch for sure but she's on the dommy side and could be a little harsh, which is why I wrote Feels Like Heaven, Feels Like Hell. It didn't get as many notes than I expected but I loved writing it, so it doesn't sting much.

As for her character in the Dulce Periculum universe, I wrote it after seeing her in *those* glasses and seeing a random video on my timeline of a compilation of Eunbi saying "mom" and her talking about being shy to talk to Taeyeon at the salon. My thoughts ran wild and there it is lol.

Irene

I found out about Irene after that iconic video of her having a sixth sense and saving a picture frame for dropping. I thought that was really cool.

I fell in love took a liking to Irene after watching this video:

https://youtu.be/vP2JRvncjfY

At one point she was the prettiest woman in the world to me. Still is. I love how she's quiet but really funny if she chooses to be, and has a caring soul.

Also, she doesn't take anybody's shit and I aspire to be like that.

I wrote her because mommy makes my brain go brr. That's it. I love Bae Joohyun, so that means everyone should love her, too.

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It was me yes! I love BlitzFizz so much, I really think that Viv dropped the ball on them, but I also kinda think that they originally were going to be a doomed ship only for the Stolitz and Fizzmodeus fans on twitter to lose their minds because their OTPs were threatened by the obviously superior ship and so she just gave them 15 years of no contact and just an unspoken possibly mutual crush. Even Alex in his Livestream seemed to be really fond of BlitzFizz and it makes my brain go brr lol.

The part of the song that I really feel is directed at Blitzo comes from the second verse:

Aware, aware, you stalk your prey

With criminal mentality

You sink your teeth into the people you depend on

Infecting everyone, you're quite the problem

Blitzo attaches to vulnerable people and like most narcissists and abusers, actively seeks out those he can take advantage of. Loona, Moxxie and Stolas are all shown to be in extremely vulnerable positions when he meets them and he takes advantage of that [IGNORE THE CIRCUS!!! I just pretend that episode doesn't exist. I know everyone seems to agree Seeing Stars was the worst episode but it really is The Circus for me. Ruined Blitzo and Stolas all at once.]

Add to Verosika's amber alert joke, you can even reasonably headcanon that she was much younger than Blitzo when they were together, also making her vulnerable. And it also shows Blitzo's codependency on his relationships but also how he ruins them through his shitty behavior.

Fee-fi-fo-fum, you better run and hide

I smell the blood of a petty little coward

Jack be lethal, Jack be slick

Jill will leave you lonely, dying in a filthy ditch

And basically calling Blitzo out for being a coward. Too afraid of loss to commit to anyone in any way. He treats moxxie like crap, is defensive and avoidant of Stolas, dotes on Loona who constantly abused him because he knows she'll never really love him [in his pov] and shows how he abandoned both Verosika and Fizz in the past.

Basically Fizz and Verosika warning everyone around him to be on alert because given the chance Blitzo will leave them with nothing.

AAAAGH sorry for the long post I just love the potential BlitzFizz had!

Woah this is like..the harshest reading of Blitzø I’ve ever seen. And knowing that a lot of Fizz’s resentment is based on a narrative he was fed about Blitzø being jealous and malicious, when in reality he loves him but never felt good enough, and actually always puts Fizz’s happiness first, But was probably told he wasn’t good enough, is pretty heartbreaking.

Verosika is probably completely right though, Blitz became what he was told he was, a worthless deadbeat. He was her bodyguard who clearly drank on the job and partied too hard, failing to actually keep her safe. I shudder to think what he allowed to happen.

Viv has barely even told their story, in past or in present, so it’s just too soon to say that yet. The 15 years thing is a tragic element to their story, it allowed them to also develop into their own identities and careers.

That’s…one way of reading it? Uhh? I guess the non-narcissistic non-abuser thing to do would have been to leave moxxie behind in prison and break out alone, the non-abuser thing would have been to not adopt Loona and give her a home and job? Right?

No I’m not ignoring the circus lol. I’m only sad Blitzø stole from the owl pervert because after doing this the owl pervert, the actual narcissistic abuser who exploits smaller people in vulnerable positions, forces him into an abusive exploitative sex and body guarding contract against his will and tries to manipulate him and take his heart next. Hell, The Full Moon deal and crystal is just a ‘test of love’ abuser tactic. Sorry but I think “The Circus” was a bit of reality check everyone needed to have. Even though in my opinion too much completely undeserved sympathy was on stolas.

Blitzø is scared of loss after I suppose, hurting and losing his entire family. Wow what an asshole(?) huh(?) like fear of commitment is bad and hurtful but it’s not built on malice dude?

He does treat moxxie like crap

He should get a restraining order against stolas and continue to defend himself from this toxic abusive man as hard as he can. Hopefully his friends and family eventually will defend him and tell him he deserves better than to be some fragile perverts comfort animal and “hero” archetype out of fear, coercion, and guilt-ridden obligation, too.

Are you trying to say that doting on Loona is an abusive thing now? If anything he spoils her. That’s hilarious…and she does love him actually. She’s struggling to adapt to the new life she has now, and doesn’t want to see him as some kind of saviour or hero, just a father. He’s slowly learning that too. It’s only in seeing stars, the episode where everyone broke character, that Loona is really violent to him. In other ones she’s not. It’s a shove at best. And that s2e2 ep was just plain sloppy shit.

The verosika age headcanon is based on, nothing? At all? We can agree he abandoned her, took advantage, was awful and yeah, still is. But are you trying to say he groomed her as well? Dude no.

[bassguitarinablackt-shirt]

Truth be told I don't think I've read anything from your writing, but based on the intro post, your wips sound super interesting and varied! I know it might be an odd way of saying it, but my least favorite is the Power Doesn't Guarantee Glory one, just not my vibe right now, but searching the meaning of what is to be human? Small town? Group of criminals going brr? Damn they sound cool! I'm not really someone who gets super invested in characters, I usually care about the motifs more, and damn do you have those down!

One random unsolicited advice? If you don't know what to do right now, just write a short story and relax, take a break from grandiose projects? Idk just random though

Take care, with tea,

-s

okay maybe i shouldn't have waited until after i took a break from my WIPs to answer this but uhhhh im a procrastinator i am truly so sorry it took me so long to answer this 😭

I dont usually share writing snippets on here mainly because i dont write much but uh yeah i should probably share more of my writing on here

pdgg is actually my oldest wip haha, had it in my brain for over a year but im a mess so its a mess and i understand how it really wouldn't be your vibe, honestly im still not used to people actually having opinions on my writing, it's hard to imagine people percieving me or anything i put out into the world. Im actually someone who gets really invested in characters, i pretty much view the plot of the fandoms im in and even my own writing from the lens of how it effects the characters, so motifs aren't actively on my mind alot of the time, also thanks!

again, took a while to answer this ask and i did actually decide to take that advice, will get back to you on whether it was a good idea or not!

[potionio]

📩 Simblr question of the day: Do you have any blogs that make your day when they post? Mention them! Tell us why you like them!

Oh Lordt, lets go. might be a wee bit long, and i'm getting over my mad embarrassment about being openly affectionate lets go.

@druidberries - literally an absolute fucking delight to talk to, and her posts are just so good. I know exactly how much work Alexis puts into her posts, and literally, I adore Elowen SO much.

@birdietrait - CHEF KISS content, literally so sweet and an absolute delight as well. just knows how to capture so many different faces in the sims and im in complete awe constantly, and just.. their aesthetic is SO on point with their stuff?

@bobnewbie - no listen, i love the mousa legacy. will not even lie i sat through that chrono tag with so much GLEE the other night when i was feel a bit bummed out and needed to just stare at WONDERFUl screenshots and amazing characters. also their cc is like- a must-have, literally.

@cowplant-pizza - if i could marry a screenshot, it'd be one of theirs. amazing eye for details and makes some absolutely gorgeous sims, also just has such a good eye for everything.

@softerhaze - once again, will MARRY THEIR SCREENSHOTS. there is such a feeling of warmth and nostalgia and every time they show up on my feed i have to just stare for a bit.

@citrlet - literally the sweetest person ?? ?ever?? like oh my god so helpful and wonderful? also i LOVE their screenie style so much, will literally die for milo.

@simarcana - again, marvelous sims and AMAZING screenies. also just so sweet, also uh- literally would ?? fight god for alika?? im sorry but like i will throw hands and not regret a thing thx.

@farfallasims - really inspired me to step out of my usual aesthetics w how my sims dress tbh! has led me to find SO many wonderful cc creators w lookbooks! also made me really appreciate feminity in my sims more honestly? just generally really nice to look at and my brain goes brr.

also like- so many. literally so many more. i am eternally inspired by the people on this side of the internet and blown away by how lovely everyone has been.

[smolstarthief]

A New Pair of Shoes...

Just a small ficlet I put together to get back into the swing of writing after being away from it from so long due to holiday rushes killing my motivation. After that back to me and CreepyMarsh's "Prison of Grief" fic! This is based on a handful of posts on here discussing Sumire getting Odile/The Black Swan from Swan Lake instead of Cendrillon. Namely in her true awakening and I loved the story of Swan Lake so I felt like it would fit her well (as much as I like Cendrillon in general)! So, this is my own take on the scenario and seeing if I fully like the idea! Verdict? Yes, yes I do (Sorry Cendrillon...)! But here it is under the cut! Also Sumire cutting her hair Mulan style makes my brain go brr!

Warning: Major P5R spoilers and a tw for blood!

“That’s strange… I don’t sense any Shadows.”

“Yeah, I don’t know why but… There aren’t any Shadows in the area.”

What? That is strange… Maybe Dr. Maruki didn’t sense us? No… That can’t be it… Why do I still feel strange though? I’m free right? I’m not Kasumi… Not…

“Aight, just a little more to go.”

Sumire looks up at Ryuji as they stop for a moment. Haru gives her a look of concern.

“Violet, are you holding up okay?”

She perks up and gives a confident look, “Yes!”

Am I…? Urgh, stop it Sumire!

That strange feeling she had been getting comes back again which immediately causes her expression to fall, catching everyone’s attention now, “Sorry, it’s just… I feel just a little off…”

All of a sudden, her outfit flickers back to her winter uniform, causing her to flinch in surprise, “My outfit!”

What?! No…

It’s Ren’s turn to feel concerned now, “You sure you’re okay?”

As if on cue, she’s back in her outfit again. She tries to go back to her confident demeanor, but it falters, “I let my guard down for a second, but I swear I’m fine!”

“Lies…”

What?!

She shakes her head, now looking guilty, “So sorry for making you all worry.”

“Are you?” Stop it!

“Looks like it’s not stable yet…”

She sees Ren looking to be in thought.

“Huh? N-No! I’m stable! I’m fine!”

“More deception? So much for learning dear…”

She winces at the harsh words as Akechi sighs, That’s fine and all, but don’t hold us back, either.”

She looks downward.

Hold back…

His stern tone becomes somewhat less harsh, “If you push yourself harder than you’re capable of handling, you’ll endanger everyone on your side, too.”

She gives a sad sigh.

He’s right… Why do I keep doing this to myself?

“Why indeed…”

Who are you? You sound like Cendrillon but–

“Enemies approaching!”

They all go on alert as Futaba continues, “They’re fast… I dunno what the heck they are, but we’d better move it.”

Sumire grits her teeth, a strange new feeling slowly coming to the surface as Morgana speaks, “Should we get back to it? If things start looking bad, we’ll retreat right away. Until then, we’ll back you up with everything we’ve got!”

They all nodded as they continued onward.

What is all this? My outfit… This voice that sounds familiar but also doesn’t… What’s wrong with me? What are all these feelings?

“What do you think? Do you hate him for casting that spell?”

No! He’s done bad things but… I don’t hate him.

“Then who do you really hate? Who are you afraid of? Who are you running from still?”

Running… Hate… Fear… Truth.

“You’re getting close little duck…”

Duck? What are you–

They ascend a flight of stairs when Futaba shouts, “Above us!”

They all dodge and scatter as Shadows fall from above before surrounding Sumire after she gets separated from them.

Oh no… Nononono!

She wildly looks around in fear as they close in on her with everyone looking on with panic in their expressions as Yusuke shouts, “Violet!”

No… Wait! I can do this! I can–

She dramatically pulls off her mask, “Cendrillon!”

Nothing happens, increasing her confusion and panic, “What?!”

What’s happening to me?! Where is she?! Someone… Please…

“You know why… She’s gone. Destroyed along with your illusion, it’s only me now…”

But… She was…

They start to get even closer as Makoto notices the issue, “Her Persona’s…”

“You were a sham… A fake… You weren’t being honest…”

A fake… Deception… One I made for myself… Lying to myself…

“Not on my watch!”

Ryuji and Makoto were about to run in to help her when she stops them, her voice sounding different, calm, “Please, stay back!”

Her stance shows the same emotion, “I appreciate it…”

She unsheathes her rapier, “...But allow me.”

They were all silent, stunned, and even Akechi is taken aback.

“There you are… Keep going little duck. How do you really feel? Are you done running?”

“...Yes.”

She remains unflinching as the Shadows continue to hone in, “I chose to stand on my own and fight.”

Weak…

“It’s time I stop being helpless!”

Lies… Coward… No more!

She grips the hilt tightly before raising her blade, “I hung my head low…”

No more living a fantasy!

“...And took your hand…”

Kasumi… I’m so sorry! I promise… For your dream…

“But I knew all along deep down…”

No…

“Yes?”

OUR dream!!

The blade hovers over her ponytail, “Pretending to be Kasumi was not the right way…”

“And who are you? Who shall you be? A shallow imitation of someone you cherished… Or who you really are?”

“The weak, insecure Sumire…”

As if everything is moving in slow motion, she slices her ponytail off. The ribbon unravels as her hair is now short and choppy, going down to at least the tip of her chin.

“...Dies today!!!”

Everyone looks on in awe with Haru giving a quiet, “Violet…”

Sumire pants until a pain suddenly surges through her head and her eyes turn yellow as she screams.

“At long last… You have finally understood yourself… My dear little duck…”

She powers through it to the best of her ability as she reaches for her mask, “You… You all were the only ones who stayed true to yourselves… Including you Kasumi…”

She grabs it with both hands as her screams increase in volume and starts to bleed.

“Now… Now it’s my turn… No more lies and illusions, no more running, I’m done with all of this…”

“Yes! Unleash your fury!”

It comes off, her skin feeling like it’s being torn off as she screams but then her expression turns into a fierce glare as she looks up with an outstretched hand while still bleeding.

“Come… My true self… ODILE!! If you don’t answer my call now… Then how else can I make our dream come true… How else will I be better without your aid? Answer me!”

She finds herself in a white void, the voice now much calmer and kinder.

“My, my… Such tenacity… Such passion… So you have finally decided to stop living an illusion... No longer a mere duckling but a strong, graceful swan…”

Sumire could have sworn she saw Cendrillon but then she dissolves into black feathers into a ballerina with black wings, pale white skin, and a feathery black tutu with a red ribbon tied around her waist. The Persona outstretches her hand.

“In that case, I shall gladly lend you my strength... I am thou, thou art I... “

Sumire’s eyes widen as she sees Kasumi in the Shujin uniform, smiling as she whispers, “Sumire…”

“A new pair of shoes in order, now step forward and be reborn!”

She takes her hand and gasps, blue flames surrounding her, which makes the others gasp as well as Ryuji tries to run in again, “Violet!”

Akechi stops him, “Don’t, look…”

Odile’s wings wrap around her until unfurling, revealing Sumire in a new outfit and her hair styled differently. She calmly does a fouetté before facing her new Persona. Her true Persona.

“Shall we dance now… My dear swan?"

Sumire faces the Shadows with a determined look, “Certainly!”

The others finally join her as they Shadows fully unmask and reveal themselves to be Loas. Sumire maintains her composure, eyes now filled with determined fury.

“That’s it… I’m done running from myself! From everything! I’ve been selfish… But that ends here! I’m Sumire Yoshizawa! I am me! No one else!”

Ryuji grins, “Yeah, you tell ‘em!”

Futaba joins in, “Go, Violet! Give ‘em hell!”

Sumire smirks, “Yes! I thank you Dr. Maruki… But I don’t need this illusion anymore!”

She gets into a fighting stance:

“Let us finally dance, Odile!!"

Trivia/facts:

Sumire doing a fouetté during this awakening is intended to be a reference to Odile's dance in the ballet having the ballerina playing her perform 32 fouettés in a row which is apparently considered to be one of the most difficult to perform in ballet.

I have debated between Odile or Odette but then I read a synopsis on the movie, "Black Swan" and it became a contributing factor in choosing Odile:

I can't help but feel like Sumi during that point wouldn't be the common definitions of innocent or fragile. Her innocence is long gone, what's next is her picking up the pieces. So, I guess that's why Odile vibed more (kinda helped by the fact that Odile's character is open to a lot of interpretation in the ballet since it's so vague so she could either be a full-on villain or even a victim being used by her father depending on who you ask).

Third tier would maybe be name after the ballerina mentioned in the first image (Pierina Legnani) if anything. Especially since Legnani apparently previously performed in Cinderella so it's a nice bit of irony.

Odile's Compendium Entry: "The daughter of the sorcerer Rothbart, she was transformed into a dark doppelganger of the Swan Princess Odette in order to trick Prince Siegfried into proclaiming his love for her instead so that the spell will never be broken."

Odile Sumire design edit is coming soon! Or at some point. It's a W.I.P.

I hope you guys enjoyed this!!

[saturneves]

Feel free not to post this ask. Just wanted to update you on myself. Idk maybe you actually care about me, and I don’t want to give you unnecessary anxiety.

I have just been very anxious (always am tbh but whatever). Having a hard writing an ask to you because my brain thinks I am sharing too much. And also because I haven’t talked to anyone for almost a year now (other than for school shit and excluding maybe 2 people that chat with me on and off, and of course my family) so you talking to me and saying compliments my brain go brr for that. So anxiety. I still see your art. It is still so gorgeous and I still love it. I will never stop thanking you about it. Sorry for over sharing.

Uhh just wanted to share this link with you, so that you can have something to do (been reading on here that you need distractions and stuff, and I had this saved for a week now but anxiety again). So I hope it helps https://takewhatyouneed.carrd.co/#distraction . But I can suggest you to do some jigsaw puzzles (if you have them, but I'm pretty sure you can print some and then just cut it out. I haven’t tried doing it this way yet but it probably works, I really like puzzles lol), you can sew to make stuffed toys out of old fabric (don’t know if you have stuffing but if you have an old pillow, that would work), you can try needle felting (again need to buy materials for that, be careful to not stab your fingers while doing it. I have done so countless of times lol. Would recommend you try out a kit first, like the one that tells you what to do and has set materials. Or you can do whatever you want), you can do diamond painting (buying materials again, I like doing small things. Don’t know if you'd like it though), and you can try 3D miniature house kit (again again, need to buy shit with this one. Little things again).

Ok sorry for the long message again. Other that my anxiety I am also having my finals next week. So I probably will be back after that. Let's see if my anxiety won’t be a bitch and let me talk to people. Ok I hope that shit I sent helps. Thank you so much, ok byee

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this ask truly warmed my heart❤ you never have to worry about oversharing, i love seeing you in my inbox! i'm not big on chatting so asks are perfect for me, as i can take all the time i need to work out what i'm going to say and stuff. you don't ever have to hesitate to send me an ask whenever you've got something on your mind, i love hearing your thoughts about my art and anything else :)

i get the whole not talking to people thing, i got very sick 2-3 years ago and basically had to shut down my entire life, i stayed home with my mom for nearly 2 years and lost all my friends. i missed 2 whole years of school. it really fucked up my ability to make friends/form connections and when i had to go back to school my anxiety was through the roof, and it hasn't fully eased up. it's not until last year i worked up the courage to actually talk to somebody at the new school i had to go to (well she approached me first but hey, i felt brave enough to keep talking to her), and now i think i have a best friend. i sincerely hope you can find some sort of calm, that you can make a connection too. i'm bad with encouragement, but i do try my best, so trust me when i say you've got this!

and woah that link!! i tried a few of them out, i loved the 'watch the stars' one, i like space. i'm gonna check the rest of them out throughout the day, thank you so much! i'm not good with sewing or needle felting (tried both as a kid) but honestly i would like to try it again.. i have a bit of stuffing over from my killing eve bear so i could make the tiniest stuffed animal in the world i guess lol. as for needle felting, i might have to try again someday!! i also poked my fingers all the time when i tried it as a kid, ouch. and i've never actually tried diamond painting!

well this is turning into a long reply. i hope you're comfortable with me publishing this ask, if not just let me know! i wish you all the luck in the world with your finals!! <3

[tamabbyboi]

All is Fair in Love and War

Chapter 5- He's like a giant angry puppy

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A/N: I like this chapter a lot solely because of the conversation between y/n and Bakugou I have been waiting to write that this whole time lmao it was one of the first ideas for this smau that I had. Also sorry that this took a little longer than usual, ADHD brain go brr. Also I made a lot of edits to the masterlist post cause I kinda hated the banner for it before and now it's colorful! N e wayz as always I really hope that you enjoy this chapter!

Series Summary: l/n y/n is a variety youtuber and streamer who makes all kinds of content ranging from makeup tutorials to baking videos to commentary. They are a part of the wildly popular streamer house/squad UA. What happens when UA merges with their long-time friends the Bakusquad and gains 6 new members? What happens when a certain angry pomeranian is roomed next to someone with no concept of self preservation who finds joy in provoking said angry pomeranian? Love, probably.

Warnings: cursing

Fun Facts:

The memes used in the conversation between y/n and Bakugou are recycled from when I made them to annoy my friends and actually spoke to them only using those memes for a full 24 hours, if you ever wonder where I get the ideas for this shit it's from me being just as annoying in real life

When Bakugou read the texts saying to ask out and kiss y/n he was blushing like a mad man

Bakugou secretly likes being annoyed by y/n, he secretly likes the attention

Most people in the house are trying to avoid this situation as much as possible, not wanting to be involved with anything that could set off Bakugou

I am about to make a few posts with all the reaction memes I've used so far so that y'all can download them. I've only seen a few people do this with their smau's and as a reaction meme collector I wish more did. They'll be linked in the masterlist

Also please ignore the like, retweet, and comment counts they aren't important I kinda just keyboard smashed to get them, dates aren't important either

Download reaction memes used in this chapter here and the 80s memes here

Taglist: @random-ass-shit-reblogged @fucktheworlddude @zyxys1 @tati-the-fangirl @insomniacwreck @sorrowfulfragmentation @the-fandoms-georgie @daydaydayz @lunamoonbby @captaincyberqueen @tanakasprayer

[alleycat-arcade]

I think you took the order idea for obey me from another page lol- yours started not long after hers- 😅

Funny coincidence……?

(Aaaa I'm sorry! I didn't know that there was any sort of other cafe themed blogs in this fandom. The original concept for this blog was because I cook and bake a lot in my free time, and pretty much act like a butler at my normal job. I also had not intended to get into Obey Me as much as I did, originally I was going to write solely for Genshin and Tears, but my little hyperfocus brain went brr. If I wasn't so deep into this blog and everything I would take it down and start over. I didn't mean to steal any ideas or anything like that. If you can send me their blog I can apologize in their dm's if they'd like, and I'll make sure to post it here as well. I still probably can take everything down and restart the blog anyway, but I tend to get worked up easy and make rash decisions so I don't wanna jump the gun and do something drastic. I can go ahead and start looking for rebranding ideas now.)

[anflan]

FFC1

FMA Xover! (I love Final Fantasy so seeing a crossover is 👀)

YES HELLO ok the way im gonna organize this is that Im going to put backstory stuff here and then snippets under the cut so the post isn't a mile long. Also this will 100% be me just rambling </3

FFC1: this was like I said before, for a contest, where I was exploring the POV of a very minor character. I was also using this fic as a way to practice my more flowery writing and go full effort with it, basically, and also to make it an extended metaphor. kinda. I was also trying to portray Bertholds hyperfocus + grief making his mental health plummet and it is VERY DIFFICULT because writing from the POV of someone with poor mental health when they don't actually realize their mental health is bad is. very hard to do subtly. n e way.

FMA Xover: OK SO FUNNY STORY. my twitter friend got me into ff7 bc of the remake so I started watching a playthru of it and ended up hyperfixating on it bc adhd brain go brr. however ! I lost the hyperfixation about a quarter of the way through because I started watching fmab and went absolutely bonkers over that! but I got this idea after the fact and despite knowing the absolute bare minimum about ff7 and only gaining knowledge through fandom osmosis I hyperfocused on this fic at about 3 am and word vomited it onto a google doc on a school night. Ended up manifesting every ounce of sarcasm into Roy Mustang and basically its just How Much Can I Bully Mustang: the fic. Also wanted to absolutely CRANK this mans cunning bastard ways and was just gonna make him a sly mf the entire story. In the snippet I'm posting here, the feeling Roy gets when he uses his alchemy is him sensing chi, which I’ve decided is going to be connected to the Lifestream and mako, and he can sense faintly despite not being trained in alkahestry because of the copious amounts of mako from Midgar’s reactors. It isn't very fleshed out bc it only has like,,,, 1500 words methinks. but. sorry this is such a long ass ramble HAH. 

Also bonus fun fact: I worked on both of these at the same exact time and they are both entirely different tones and tenses. ones present tense and one is past so I got myself Very Confused while writing at 3 am

Snippets under the cut :)

FFC1:

“Yes, Father?”

Riza stands in the doorway, her hand flexes against the handle, once, twice, before securing its hold. Her knuckles are white, her face ghast, dark bags pull below immutable eyes. Her back is ramrod straight— every part of her stands at attention— betrayed only by the restless movement of her fingers. She looks at once both weathered and guileless. It is the first time he has looked at her in days. The first time he has studied her in years.

If he were a better man, he would notice her hollowed cheeks and the gaunt set of her knees. If he were a better father, he would care.

I have so much work to do.

I cannot let the dogs in.

The wooden handle is light in his hands. The silver needle burns in the candlelight. Ink the color of blood poised at its end.

The salamander on her flesh.

She looks just like her mother.

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FMA Xover:

He froze, however, at the feeling of something squirming in his gut. The feeling was too needled to be the rolling pain of nausea, and it spread from his abdomen and straight up his spine before it released him in a full-body shiver. 

Well, that wasn’t normal. But he was an alchemist, and thus a scientist, so the concept of multiple trials was ingrained in his very being.

He poked his head out from behind the dumpster to make sure no passersby were paying him any mind. The loud bustle of city life wouldn’t have worried him if he knew where the hell he was, but if there was even the slightest chance he was in an enemy country, where alchemy was far less weaponized or even common, he couldn’t risk it. Being caught in Amestrian blues using alchemy behind a dumpster was already bad. But that didn’t even include the fact that he wasn’t just some nameless soldier, either. He’s the Flame Alchemist, Hero of Ishval, leader in the Coup d’état of 1915, and now, 5 years after The Promised Day, he was a major general and the most obvious choice for Führer Grumman’s successor. To be caught in an unknown country with his ignition gloves soaked through and subsequently—he sighed—useless was damning. 

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ok ty for letting me ramble i don't post my writing a lot bc it embarrasses me more than posting my art does but I hope u enjoyed 

[riskeith]

you just responded and i nyoomed to answer. yes my days consist of waiting for you. yes i’m not ashamed to admit it. <3

that makes so much sense actually? like A Lot of sense. i don’t think you should feel bad about that at all i mean if you are comfortable with how you perceive them then by all means! haha! what’s fun about fanfics is that people can take one character and shape them in so many different ways. canon doesn’t anyways give us depth to characters yet writers do which 🙏🏽 godsent. but then again, it can feel weird if someone makes them behave like ~someone~ else haha. i remember it used to be a hot topic in voltron actually, where people would portray lance as a weak and emotional guy only even if he’s arguably the bravest and most bamf... people didn’t like that very much. do you know what i’m talking about?

I’M SO EXCITED TO READ ALL OF THESE. thank you so much you just set my late night weekend plans 😏. and oh god esselle is the ao3 writer. i love their bnha fics so much. can’t wait to read their haikyuu stuff as well. kagehina too... 🥺 dude, i saw some oikage things last night and i have my eyes open.. 👁 i know you like them a lot so hm... i’ll definitely read that as well i love the summary already.

he’s puppy-like so would he like to play in the water? i want to say so, just bc i think it would be cute for him to splash around 🥺

just one?? wow now i get what you meant in your earlier messages, shskdhsk. all my current friends i’ve known since we were children, i don’t even know how to make new friends irl tbh.... AND SAME!!!! CHILDHOOD FRIENDS TO LOVERS GO BRR. and god the best thing is how things change but at the same time they don’t? like they start to notice little things and realize they’ve always liked them? or the ‘i thought best friends felt like this towards each other’.... aaaaaaaah. 🥺 but then again enemies to lovers.. the tension and the yearning? the moment everything just snaps? god i couldn’t pick my favorite i don’t think. i just love those two so much equally hahah.

if it’s cyberpunk vibes i will combust. i love those aesthetics so much.. (waiting for ps5 to restock so i can run around in night city in cyberpunk 2077 forever.) but yeah it makes sense for it to be themed like that but it’s so funny to think about transporting from the whispering woods to like... large billboards and grungy streets. AR 35?? oh that’s must earlier than i expected. so i take it the main story isn’t done yet?

how sexy, even though this blog is just our messenger app at this point snskdhkddhj.. once again, i’m sorry riskeith stans.. 🙏🏽

i wish i could get you all the cotton candy in the world. and wow kenma HAIR!! sounds so cute but wait oh my god,,, do you have short hair,....... 😳💗💓💕👁💘💝💓😭💗👀💖💓💘💝💞 do you? 😳💢 how was it shaving everything? must’ve been such a big decision!! 😳

ikr? like most of the fics i’ve read portrays them as a angst ship which i do love a lot but you’re right it’s funny bc in canon they’re just.. supportive idiots. i think it’s the oikawa fangirls thing and iwa being annoyed by it that people get hooked on. at least i think since it’s almost always there in the fics... :+ DO YOU LIKE IT? i’m so obsessed with it i saw a edit on ig with klance and that song earlier and it fits them so well too... 🥺 anyway back to iwaoi, i think i like writing from iwa’s pov actually? i haven’t tried writing much from oikawa’s yet but idk.,, iwa’s personality just speaks to me. also i like that oikawa’s personality is so complex to understand, it’s easier to spice up the angst that way. (I DON’T 🥺 it’s such a sad topic for me bc it’s my ultimate dream to drive but it costs soo much money to get it here and i’ve been too busy to invest... 😭 wbu?????) I KNOW MEMO AND OH MY GODNESS? i’m sure the fic is sooo good oh god.... the vibes. 😭 please tell me what it’s about. please. 🙇🏽‍♀️

OH it means that i’m just gonna reread your fics until you post something new... here i thought i was being clever and cute shshskdhdks

STOP YOU KEEP MAKING ME SO EXCITED aaaa ma’am please... think about my heart. 🥺

here’s a new topic to discuss; are you a coffee or tea person? (or neither.. please don’t say so)

kiss, m.a. 💘

i keep forgetting to check whether you’ve responded or not before shutting down my laptop and i’m left to answer on my phone 😭😭 and i too spend my days awaiting your responses <333 but i always forget to check after a period of time HFJSKFKSKCKNC i swear i’m checking like once every 5 min but the moment i forget you respond NCKSNDN

bro (do you mind being called stuff like that lol) writers give us everything canon is too cowardly to give.… truly blessed 🙏🙏 yeah i do!! there are a lot of complaints about mischaracterisation in hq fandom too actually… which i think is fair enough but at the end of the day just let these people have their fun you know.. it’s not harming anyone and if you don’t like it just don’t read! lol

i haven’t read much of esselle’s bnha actually (aside from tdbk) but i just know they’re absolutely amazing!!!!!! absolute legend i hope (i know you will tho hehe) you enjoy her kagehina toooo. and yes oikage!!!!!! omg pls 😭😭😭 i wish they were more popular aaaa

🥺🥺🥺 razor in one of those baby pools.. RAZOR WITH POOL FLOATIES!!! my goodness 😭😭😭😭

fjksnxksndm yeah but i think i might be an outlier in that… LOL oops. and you’re so right like they just grew up together and like grew in love it’s so natural and just comes to them like they were always supposed to be together and they are <333 bc soulmates <33333 BUT YEAHHH THE MOMENT EVERYTHING SNAPS YOU KNOW IT!!!!! god when person A SAVES person B even tho they’ve “hated” them the entire time...… but when they were faced with a tough circumstance they realised they couldn’t bear the thought of being without them 😩😩👌👌👌👌👌👌

omg ps5.… ngl i considered buying a ps console so i could play the last of us 2 chxjjskskxjxjs. have you seen all the cyberpunk memes tho? lolol. nah main story isn’t done!! i think the main story is supposed to develop all 7 worlds until we find our sibling so like.… it ain’t gonna be over for a LONGGGG time (lol omg could you imagine if mih*y* pulled a me and like 4 worlds in was just ‘ok soz i’m uninterested now you can imagine how the game would’ve gone’ HFJSJFKSKFKDJ)

HAHAHAHHA it legitimately is. riskeith who??? more like marriage anon stan account. fjdkfnnd anyways to my other followers hope y’all are enjoying the show 🤪

i do have short hair rn!!! lowkey a bowl cut but i’m also trynna grow out a mullet djksndksnd. and having a shaved head was so nice.. i literally just couldn’t stop touching it after cjskckksnfks. and it wasn’t that big of a decision to me tbh i’m not that fussed about my hair like i know some other people are djskkd the biggest obstacle was getting my parents to agree 💀💀💀 (much like i am trying now..…) i used to have my hair long for ballet, but once i quit i just kept getting it cut shorter and shorter and then voila! shave. GJDJKSKDND

true.. jealous iwa.. i have that in one of my wips i believe FJSJJCKSKDK (it might even be in the memo fic?) AND UHHHH i didn’t love the song ;–; it’s just… slow HFKALDLAKDK and not the mood i was in when i heard it cjdkslxllskcjskcnkscnkzmxmcm omg no not klance 😭😭 they have a lot of angst too.. (i say, as if there isn’t a single klance fic of mine that doesn’t have angst JFJDJSKDJ) OMG YOU LIKE WRITING IWA POV TOO???? you 🤝 me iwa kin. i joke that it’s because i, much like him, am very much in love with oikawa. (aw no i’m so sorry for bringing it up 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 but i’m on my learner’s rn!) IVE POSTED THE OUTLINE ONCE (not a good sign… LMAO) https://kaheyama.tumblr.com/post/190015338287/yall-want-some-iwaoi-angst THERE!! also wait i just realised it has manga spoilers.… maybe don’t look fjdknfjd (you could stop after “pining iwaizumi hajime” but i don’t want to accidentally spoil you 😭😭)

JFKSKSLAKFKSKCJLSKD IM so sorry it WAS clever and cute my brain was just not big enough at the moment to understand 😭😭😭😭😭 but thank u as always i appreciate 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗 so honoured you would even think about going back to them lord knows i don’t KFKSJSKA

HEHEHE NO MERCY!!! but ok ok i shall lay low until the day comes 😋😋😋

tea!! simply bc i can’t sleep if i drink coffee fjskfjsj. but that’s been happening with tea too so i haven’t even had tea recently 😭😭😭😭😭 flavour wise i think i like coffee more but also you get so much more variety with tea? hm. HAHA. hbu??

hugssss, c.r. 💝

[the-fitzherald]

Bay of Pride

                                                                                                                 12/13/17

WHAT IS THE COST OF INTEGRITY?

           As I sit here, my post of the third seat from the left, I remember how much of high school has been the same. Going somewhere as small as St. Mary’s, I’ve never had to wrest myself from Ms. Klein’s impassioned history lectures or Madame Rousseau’s bird-song in the form of French. However, you, Mr. Martelli, are most important among my unvaried set of teachers. It was your class that provided me with the answer that your whiteboard implores of me to know. As surely as your angry capitalized print reads like a litigator in the courtroom of my head, I will tell you that your class has implanted in me the only change from the girl I was freshman year. Because of your class, I have learned the exorbitant cost of integrity.

           On a December day all too similar to this one, I sat in my aforementioned post, a stockinged foot rocking from heel to ball, just as it indubitably is now. Despite feeling reptilian glares boring into my neck and the side of my face, I continued filling the lines of my journal with thoughts on my favorite movies or other nonsense typical of the freshman journal prompts.

           This rhythm remained uninterrupted until your wall phone chimed with its tired brr-brr, a sound that had been exhausted at some point after its installation in 1987. Mr. Martelli, you graciously did not glance at me as you lumbered to the phone. After pleasantries were exchanged with the school secretary, you could no longer prevent yourself from indicating that I, Vera Lane, had been requested in Mrs. Lawrence’s office.

           Mr. Martelli, I wonder if you recall how I refused to glance back at those eyes that had stung holes along my skin. Instead, I embarked on my trek to Judgement Day— two, four, six, eight steps at a time.

           I reached Mrs. Lawrence’s office after I had counted to thirty-eight. When my breath caught at my trachea, stifled by the sight of certificates and portraits, I knew that for the sole purpose of delaying this meeting, a larger number would have been preferable. Aside from artifacts evidencing a living woman, the office looked like an estate sale. Its furniture was of a grandmother’s chintz that failed to enliven the bitter surfaces. It was a too neat room that felt like it had already been drenched in formaldehyde.

           Just as I felt deadly stiffness to be overtaking my limbs, in stepped Mrs. Lawrence. Her tweed pant suit complemented the office’s dreary atmosphere in its vibrant hue of beige. Her countenance was characterized by a lipstick smile that more closely resembled that of a character of Madame Tussaud’s than one belonging to a breathing being.

           Reality was not received by my senses until her chirping voice ruined the illusion of a statue. “Vera,” she greeted. “It is important that we discuss some things before you return to Mr. Martelli’s.”

           My outward reply was a nod. My inward one was a series of questions about how I was at all a guilty party, complicit in some nameless deed. I followed rules so ritualistically that I even flossed nightly. People who floss cannot be sent to the principal’s office.

           “I appreciate the fact that you stepped forth with this information on your classmates’ cheating. It is important that people uphold the standards of this school.”

           “But?” I challenged, impatience swelling with the beat of my heart.

           “But it appears that your classmates find themselves belittled as a result of your arrogance about your success in this subject.”

           “Maybe if they didn’t cheat, their abilities could at least parallel mine,” I retorted, attempting to tame the impudence in my voice.

           “Miss Lane, surely you know that attitude is precisely why you are not in your class right now.”

           Mrs. Lawrence was right. I, like everyone else in third period English, recognized that I had taken a nice morning stroll into the principal’s office so that my short remarks towards classmates may be discussed, as well as the allegations I had made against those very people about the dishonesty of their work.

Yet I still know, Mr. Martelli, that you of all people would understand that it felt incumbent upon me to defend both the esteem of all classrooms and the sense of my own actions. The pressure was such that I abandoned all semblances of politeness.

           “So, it is my own fault that students cannot use the six or seven brain cells that they have? Honestly, if I say anything to them in class, I do so in hopes of helping them.”

           Pushing her glasses farther up on her hooked nose, Mrs. Lawrence at least conducted a guise of pondering my words. “I believe that, Vera. However, it is critical that you maintain friendships with your classmates.”

       Mrs. Lawrence may not have been privy to this fact as she spent her days in this morgue rather than the classrooms, but everyone knows that my position on that day was rooted in the fact that I was the best of friends with Sadie and Luxe. You, Mr. Martelli, know that they essentially betrayed me by dissimulating their roles as dissolute cheaters.

     “In my own eyes, I was protecting my friends from becoming worse people. They were at the center of this nebula of cheating, and they weren’t just any friends. Sadie and Luxe were my very best friends.”

           “Miss Lane, I think the past tense of ‘were,’ might be the key to why you are here,” Mrs. Lawrence considered aloud.

           I studied the mauve shadow of lips on the principal’s white St. Mary’s coffee mug. The stirring of dread as a viscous goo seemed to cease.

           “Mrs. Lawrence, what exactly are you suggesting that I do?” My voice hardly constituted a breath when those words were said. They were said with a hope that was curiously found in something other than aspiring to chop length from this meeting.

           Mrs. Lawrence began by calling the classroom, a step that forced Mr. Martelli’s wall phone to steel itself for yet another sorry ring. In the interim between the implementation of this action and its consequence, she discussed her newly decided upon method.

           “Vera, because I do care for you and your wellbeing, I will not require you to apologize to your whole class. I feel that would be an embarrassment to you. Instead, I’d like to have you begin a more intimate process of penitence,” proposed Mrs. Lawrence with a flash of brilliance in her grey eyes.

           There soon was the clatter of a door opening. Two, four, six, eight— so sounded two sets of high heeled boots against linoleum floors. Luxe and Sadie then placed themselves in the low stools sandwiching my own, their long legs drawn nearly up to their chins. Though we often referred to ourselves as being sisters, there was only resentment in the glances we exchanged.

           The office that had engendered such thick, overwhelming sensations of demise then seemed elevated, no longer a place of death but a home where friends may be. I had somehow mistaken the distinct aromas of coffee and carefully selected lilies for that of formaldehyde. A forgiveness was born with a pink skin of revived friendship, and it would not exist without Mrs. Lawrence’s methods for exacting discipline.

Mr. Martelli, though this was a narrative that was inserted where a simple sentence might have sufficed, I want you to know that I do have an answer that may placate the imaginary litigator that is your handwriting. Prideful “integrity” is initially paid for by experiencing abandonment. I was cleaved from Sadie and Luxe; I was submerged in a Bay of Pride, face-down as a modern Ophelia. This initial cost was followed by a rather salubrious payment of my pride. I had essentially been dragged from your class, but in doing this, Mrs. Lawrence tossed a rope for me into that Bay. I therefore say that the cost of true, unadulterated integrity is pride.

In my noble pursuit of unblemished honesty, I resembled the proverbial men of whom Jesus was so fond as teaching devices. I had reached complacently for the speck in my classmates’ eyes while ignoring the plank in my own. True integrity was when I was honest enough to realize my error, just as Sadie and Luxe reciprocated with their own awareness.

Mr. Martelli, you may have even forgotten that brief rift in my sisterhood with the two girls who sit in the second and fourth seats from the left, but that is only because forgiveness is so readily born out of integrity. This December day, I sit in the same seat with knowledge that I can resolve whatever conflicts I face as long as I am no longer seeking to isolate others. I still have classmates who could never pretend to care as much as I do, but I subdue my contempt for their apathy. I react to others with a goal to serve and love, or at least I hope that I do. I found a Hall of Beginnings on an earlier December day, and I chose to accept the call it sang for me.

I, Vera Lane, revitalized love and diminished pride by paying for integrity. I thought I was getting into trouble when I was summoned away from class, but that only began my ascent into what I feel to be good. Forgiveness was born through this series of events. Its place of birth? Mr. Martelli, I told you already that it happened in a principal’s office I thought to be an estate sale.