#That is to say- feel free to unfollow me if the posting becomes annoying. I really don't mind.

[kyouka-supremacy]

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[lillefromsiberia]

Leaving The Gaylor Community

When I started to listen to Taylor Swift, I was so excited. Her voice and her lyrics were a comfort to me. I would fall asleep to her music, I would do my chores to it, it was my obsession and for a person who usually just simply enjoys things it was new and exciting to be so bewitched by something.

I soon realised that some of her songs didn't make sense to me, and while I was researching on what could she mean by some of her lyrics I stumbled upon gaylor theory, and everything made sense. So much sense that I was speechless. All I could do was read countless posts and watch presentations over and over again, because the analysis of her lyrics was SO GOOD and it made SO MUCH SENSE.

I began to feel this spiritual bond with Taylor, as a closeted queer person. I felt like I knew her, and she knew me, even though we have never met and will never meet, but we understood each other. I didn't feel alone.

And, honestly, I also was invested in the drama and the secrets of it all. We all love to gossip, very human (and sometimes very useful) thing to do, so I wanted to talk about it with someone, I wanted to be up to date with gaylor lore, I wanted to read what people think, so I joined Tumblr. And I was not dissapointed.

The humor, the analysis, the theories - all of it was amazing.

And then the drama with the NYT article happened.

At first I was FUMING. I was so annoyed that I even deleted some of what I wrote because I posted some not so chill takes. It was intense. I was intense.

I calmed down in a day, of course, but the conversation was still going, and going... and I started to become curious about what people were saying. I mean, I knew what I agreed with, but what kind of points are they making against that article? Are they all slightly to moderate homophobic, or are there actual valid takes that I haven't seen yet? I wanted to know.

So, yesterday I watched a video by a queer person who was angry about the article. I've read some comments under that video.

I don't remember any arguments/points, but I saw how triggered people were, it stuck with me and I honestly felt bad. They were hurt, scared, angry, frustrated, they lashed out - I mean, everything I did. I know how that feels.

I fell asleep thinking about it all. Their perspective, my perspective, and the questionable importance of me holding on to something that at the end of the day doesn't change anything in my life.

And the truth is that I don't feel okay being a part of this community anymore when I saw how much pain it was causing to queer people. I can't ignore the truth of their emotional experience. Maybe it causes the same pain to Taylor. I don't know and will never know, but the thought of it haunts me and I feel bad.

Also, I realised that I lost control a little bit and started to become delusional at some point. I actually forgot that I don't know her. I grew too confident about my opinions and I began to view them as facts.

So, I choose to leave. This was a wonderful experience that I'll never forget, I've never been a part of a fandom like that. It was awesome.

I feel awkward right now. A lot of you followed me because I was active in the gaylor community. I don't know what I am going to do with this account.

But I know that I will not be a part of the swiftie fandom at all, starting now. If there's a chance that she's straight (and there is, because at the end of the day we don't know for sure) her behaviour during Lover era was not okay and I don't feel comfortable supporting her in this way.

Anyway, feel free to unfollow me, and I am sorry. I know that this post will upset some people who I like on here, and I hope they'll understand that it's just a decision that makes me feel comfortable and at peace. I don't want you to think that I am trying to make a point, I am just updating and explaining my decision because it felt weird and rude to just disappear.

I strongly believe that we all should always decide for ourselves and do what feels right. Keep doing what you think is right for you, babes, I fully support you.

Thank you for being so amazing, kind and smart. I wish you all the best, my darlings.

I loved being a part of this little world with you.

[stormoflina]

You’re getting a little annoying thinking you’re an update account

What? I mean if I annoy you, feel free to unfollow me. I'm not planning to become an update account, but I will share things I want share. If it's translating an interview, than so be it.

This is actually one of the best, if not the best he gave, he says a lot of interesting stuff about football, his way of thinking. I want to share it with those who are passionate about LFC and football in general, because he is imo going to be a crucial part of LFC in the next few years. And I know that there are people on this app, who will be interested in what he says, they just don't speak hungarian. I really don't get what is so annoying about me trying to share some information about the player we all seem to be obsessed with at the moment.

I don't know what you want me to post about it. I got some messages about how weird it was when I was posting about the DomiTrent bromance, now this. I just want to say, I don't care. I don't mean to be rude, but this is my Tumblr, something that I do for fun. You don't have to like it, you don't have agree with it, but unless I cross certain serious boundaries, I really don't understand why do you feel the need to send me something like this. Especially when it's about translating an interview.

My 'content' is going to change all the time, if you prefer something else, I'm sure there are other blogs for you to follow. If not, then feel free to make your own and just post about whatever you feel about posting.

I hope I didn't offend you, it wasn't my intention, but honestly, this message did hurt a bit, because I was legit so excited and passionate about the things I was posting recently.

[someoneelsesboo]

Hello everyone! I am a fanfic reader and I have been seeing content creators receiving and responding (and still being polite, kudos to y'all) to these rude asks.

And also, sending an ask anonymously doesnt make whatever impolite shit you just sent any less impactful or hurtful or annoying.

Attention to all fanfiction readers to think before you even submit that ask to a writer. I know some of y'all don't have bad intentions but it doesn't erase that effect on the person you sent it to, you know? It really doesn't hurt to consider people's feelings. Just ask yourself "Does this sound rude? Would this make them uncomfy?" and etc. Don't be insensitive. If they mention already that a certain topic makes them uncomfortable, then don't bring it up. Respect personal preference. AND DON'T invade their privacy and personal life. No seriously don't do that.

Don't like their content? Simply unfollow them. No need to be a bitch about it really, just by unfollowing their blog to stop seeing their content is harmless.

Loving one of their stories but not getting any update? Be patient and if you're gonna message them about it, BE POLITE dont throw any swear words like seriously. Just like I said, THINK BEFORE YOU SEND.

If you're one of the people Im targetting this post to, it's not too late to apologize and/or make up for what you did. Im not saying you have to expose your account, just apologize anonymously if you want and go like "Hey! I was the one who sent that rude message and you're right there was no reason for me to be mean about it. I sincerely apologize and I won't do it again and I hope you have a good day!"

Own up to your mistakes.

Remember that being a writer isn't easy. And reminder that they post awesome content here in Tumblr FOR FREE. So don't be an ass that spreads negativity.

Support content creators by REBLOGGING. Simply liking won't do anything. A reblog however is like a way of saying "Hey! I love this! A lot of people have to see how amazing this is. Keep up the good work! ❤️"

And don't forget the comments! Anonymous or not, writers love it when people comment on their works. Any form of awesome message is what writers feed on, it's their dose of motivation!

Anyways the message Im supposed to base this post on is:

"Simply shut up if you have nothing good to say. Even if you become anonymous and send some annoying ask, it doesn't make me want to slap you less"

And avoid using "I was having a bad day" as an excuse, come on man that's getting old.

The alternative message of this post could also be:

"Be a decent person / fanfic consumer and support content creators. Don't hesitate on leaving a cute and nice message or comment, you're not being annoying don't worry. Also stop lashing out on people, that's not nice. And if you're a writer, you don't owe ANYTHING to ANYONE. So don't ever feel sorry for something you shouldn't even feel sorry for. And if you're a reader who just becomes unreasonable and mean, stop causing a headache to anyone anymore. Have some respect, will ya? Start having some character development because this doesn't apply in only fiction."

I realized this was long but anyway I hope this was helpful! Have a good day everyone!

[chaninfused]

guys, i hate to be doing this but it’s either i do, or i deactivate out of misery.

i’m done.

i’m done and tired, alright. i don’t know who do you think i am. maybe you think i’m some kind of machine, but i would really appreciate it if you interacted with my writing. and not just a tad bit more because i’m already only getting crumbs. i’m disappointed, okay, and i will hate myself for writing this but i have to. for those of you who comment on my work, inbox or in the tags or replies, or just reblog, thank you, i see you, and i love you. for the rest of you, who only come here to like and reblog my reblogs of gifs, why are you following me? i appreciate your follows, i really do, and they make me happy. i don’t want to sound like i’m pressuring everyone to do something they’re uncomfortable with, but it’s becoming unbearable. the more followers that arrive here, the less and less you guys interact. are you, by any chance, intimidated by me? because i honestly can’t find any other reason you would personally follow me then ignore me when i post. 

look, i don’t want this to sound like some selfish attention seeker crying out for attention. i never speak about this. i don’t reblog posts about how people should interact more because i don’t want to appear annoying. but waking up today, i realized that if i don’t let my thoughts out there, they will ruin me. ever since danse macabre, and the major disappointment from tumblr, i’ve been finding no will in me to write. i want to write. there’s so much i want to share with you guys. but i can’t do it when it feels like i’m talking to a wall.

and no. don’t tell me i shouldn’t mind the numbers and should write for myself. that’s bullshit, okay. not when i’ve been around for this long and have accumulated a decent audience. i’ve seen it with my own eyes. that dumb felix blurb hit 200 in 24 hours. it took me 30 minutes to write. it is now at 600 notes. the minho fic that required hours of worldbuilding and research then two months and 20 days of writing? it has been up since october and it’s at 177. you tell me. is this fair for me? i know people have a preference, but you chose to follow me, knowing that this is the kind of content i mainly write. make it make sense.

we don’t write for free. we write at the cost of our time and energy. those things aren’t free. i could be doing so many other things instead of writing, but i do it because i love it. when i see that people are following me for it, showing interest in it, i expect something in return.

if you’re a reader, then please, hear us out. stop trying to shut us down and call us dramatic. stop saying we’re assholes or attention seekers for talking about this. if you aren’t a content creator, you have no say in this. if you consume, then you must give back in the form of feedback. or at least a reblog. i appreciate your likes but frankly, they do me no good. 

i apologize for my outburst but if you don’t want to read my things nor even interact with me then be my guest and unfollow me. i was happy to hit 1k but i don’t see the charm in it anymore.

if you want to reblog this and aren’t a writer i want your complete silence in the tags. you either show support or you stay silent.

[haleigh-sloth]

you were talking about something a bit similar yesterday so I'm sorry for being late to the conversation, but I just do not understand people who are fans of the LOV and yet are so vehemently hateful towards Midoriya, and in turn most of the other kids. I understand the criticism that sometimes the kids get things handed to them by the story, but tbh that is just to be expected of the protagonist characters in a shonen manga like this one. even so however, it's not like Midoriya gets off free of everything that he does? his actions and his sacrifices and very actually very rarely ever truly appreciated within the story, just because he is successful in most of his feats doesn't mean that the people around him necessarily Notice (him only getting one internship request after the sports festival despite displaying amazing power and critical thinking skills, the Stain Hosu incident, even in the VERY BEGINNING of the series when he runs forward to save Bakugou he says himself that he was only reprimanded for being so careless in his actions).

I see so many people who are (so ironically) only seeing the story in black and white, when in reality these kids, and Midoriya especially, are being negatively impacted by hero society just as much as the villains are, they're just experiencing it from a different angle. (Which adds a whole other layer to the Midoriya becoming the greatest hero plotline, because the society that he is also fighting against is the one that was shaped that way by his predecessor- albeit unintentionally.) Midoriya is going to be the one to try to save Shigaraki, Midoriya has already become the greatest hero by actively looking past the actions of Shig and the League and wanting to help them.

- I didn't get to finish my thought from the FULL ESSAY I sent earlier (my bad about how long that ended up being lmao) but...yeah I was saying about how Midoriya is already a better hero at 16 than most other pros because he actively wants to help the League. Midoriya is exactly the kind of hero that the villains, and Shigaraki in particular, needs in order to have the happy ending that so many want for him. I agree that the manga has been a bit of a drag-along for the past few...months tbh, and I am absolutely Livid at the way that Bones has structured the story, and it's causing a lot of boredom and Tons of tension with people, but I feel like a lot of villain fans are taking that out on the integrity of the characters themselves, which is causing a lot of the mischaracterizaton of Midoriya in particular. n idk, I just find it sort of ironic, DEFINITELY annoying, and in general just.... :/ yknow. just :/

I think it's completely valid for people to just simply not like certain characters for whatever reason they might have, im not here to police people's opinions, but when people's opinions come at the expense of misunderstanding pretty key elements of the characters / story they're talking about, that's when I have a problem. FINAL MESSAGE I promise lmao sorry again for the 600 page essay

You're good lol. In fact, I've discussed some of this in-depth in private with a tumblr friend. Again, I feel like my DMs are being read 👀 anyway lol

So obviously this is going to be a long ass post so I'll add a cut toward the top. But I wanna start off with: there's a lot to unpack here and I'm going to preface with, I agree with you. But I also have to say that I see both sides, but when it comes to vehemently hating a character and letting that hate for that character lead to bad takes (which I see for Deku and another character that I'll get to under the cut) I feel like the overall point people are trying to make loses its grip because it starts to just turn into bashing, and doesn't actually hold water with what's actually in the story.

"I just do not understand people who are fans of the LOV and yet are so vehemently hateful towards Midoriya, and in turn most of the other kids. I understand the criticism that sometimes the kids get things handed to them by the story, but tbh that is just to be expected of the protagonist characters in a shonen manga like this one."

I'll be honest, I see a lot of people love on the UA kids. Especially ones like Kirishima, Kaminari, Mina, Tsuyu, basically any of the ones with personalities that are beyond "I have to get stronger! I have to catch up with my classmates and live up to everyone's expectations!" Which I personally feel like pretty much all of the UA kids have as personalities, save for the main five, and the few above that I listed. But for the hatred toward Midoriya....oy. Where do I begin.

Well, I actually don't see a lot of Deku hate on my dash. I follow a very small number of blogs, most of which are pretty in line with my POV of the story and therefore, I don't see a lot of bad takes.

A little baby rant inside of this monster post:

Yes, I have come across extremist villain-stan blogs that, while I agree with some of their opinions on the villains, I don't agree with their opinions on the hero characters. I've unfollowed blogs like that, because they started exhausting me and making me upset, tbqh. Like yes, the villains are the best characters in the story. But guess what? They aren't the only ones in the story. We have other characters that are important to the overall themes and messages. I, personally, really like the hero kid:villain set up. Others I've seen want the heroes and villains completely separated in the story and for the villains to save themselves without any help from the heroes?? Makes zero sense because the story is about these becoming true heroes, and in order to do that they need to challenge themselves by saving a villain. So...blogs that were spouting that nonsense, I've unfollowed and stopped engaging with.

But back to Midoriya. Okay, I genuinely, genuinely like Midoriya! I've liked him from the beginning. He's not favorite, he's not even my second favorite. He's in my top 5 though. But the only dislike I personally see toward Midoriya on my blog is for these problematic things that have occurred:

Telling Shouto he thinks he's going to forgive his father because he's kind, making Natsuo feel bad for not forgiving his abusive POS father.

Trying to "reach" Dabi the same way he reached Shouto, only to just cause more harm.

Saying Endeavor is a mentor who made him stronger??? TO Dabi??

Teaming up with the fucking top 3

So....basically...any time Midoriya has been interjected into the Todoroki plot line, he's been less than likable--AFTER what he did for Shouto during the sports festival. That was a positive thing, and it actually kicked off the Todoroki plot line really really well. It got us into Shouto's inner world and started his story off nicely I think.

And you can argue that Midoriya's flaw is being blinded by hero society and seeing the good in everybody, BUT--

This was LITERALLY THE FIRST INTERACTION between Midoriya and Endeavor. THIS set the tone for the Todoroki plot. So....all that stuff up there that people hate about Midoriya, is definitely valid. I mean...I don't think it's worth hating him for but people can like and dislike who they want. But this just reiterates my belief that so many things in BNHA come to a fucking halt for Endeavor's bitch ass. The main character included.

"it's not like Midoriya gets off free of everything that he does? his actions and his sacrifices and very actually very rarely ever truly appreciated within the story, just because he is successful in most of his feats doesn't mean that the people around him necessarily Notice (him only getting one internship request after the sports festival despite displaying amazing power and critical thinking skills, the Stain Hosu incident, even in the VERY BEGINNING of the series when he runs forward to save Bakugou he says himself that he was only reprimanded for being so careless in his actions)"

So, I don't entirely disagree but I do have to disagree to an extent. Midoriya's consequences have been a topic for a while now and everyone says the same thing. Nothing ever comes back to him, he doesn't ever actually fail at anything. His failures don't actually hold him back or push him to challenge his beliefs. Like...narrative consequences here is what I'm talking about. Midoriya only got one offer after the sports festival, yes that's a consequence of putting your body through ridiculous strain and self-destructing in front of everyone like that. But it ended up working in his favor because he went with Gran Torino who taught him his next big move, full cowling, which I think we can all agree was a major power-up for him. So...it wasn't much of a consequence in the long run. It wasn't a set back. And you're right, he was reprimanded for rushing in to save Bakugo in the beginning, which is coming into play now when we see that it's actually hard for people to step in and save others because everyone is so trained by society to just let heroes handle everything. Even though Bakugo would have died if not for Midoriya. BUT--what happened next? All Might gave him his power. That was a reward by the narrative. Granted that HAD to happen for our story to kick off, but I'm just trying to show how Midoriya doesn't ever actually have any set-backs.

"Midoriya is going to be the one to try to save Shigaraki, Midoriya has already become the greatest hero by actively looking past the actions of Shig and the League and wanting to help them."

"but...yeah I was saying about how Midoriya is already a better hero at 16 than most other pros because he actively wants to help the League. Midoriya is exactly the kind of hero that the villains, and Shigaraki in particular, needs in order to have the happy ending that so many want for him"

Fully agree here. I'll say that recently I've seen a lot of people making posts about how they don't think it'll be Midoriya doing the reaching and saving. How they think it'll be the LOV saving each other without the help of the heroes, how they'll reach each other's hearts?? Which...I don't even know what to say besides ask people who think that what they think the purpose of all these parallels and similarities drawn between him and Shigaraki are for, if not to bring them together in the end (and stay connected too--not just be yeeted from each other's lives), the two brothers who were separated from each other, and a teenage girl who was never accepted by her peers and basically forced to find family in a group of adult men lol. I'm not sure if you were responding to my rant yesterday with this ask lol, but if you are, I mean yeah I'm on board here. Midoriya is supposed to be that "true hero" that breaks through even the toughest, strongest walls, who in HIS case is Shigaraki. But not just him, Shouto, Ochacko, and Bakugo too. There's a kid:villain set up for a reason, so people who don't want that set up are either just....super super one-sided in how they're reading it, or it's just their preference and they're not actually caring about what the story itself is going to do. (Bakugo is kind of a seventh wheel....lol)

Again, I can't say I've seen too much irrational Deku hate on my dash. I avoid stupid shit for the most part. Most of the blogs I follow, while they may not like Midoriya, they still see the redeeming characteristics in him and still make valid takes on the story and take his actual character into account. But I have seen the irrational hate you're talking about, I've just successfully yeeted it from my dash.

Another character, and I know you didn't bring this character up but I feel this issue applies to them as well--is Hawks. Now...I do not like Hawks. I don't hate him, but I seriously just cannot bring myself to like him. I can't tell if it's his fans that have just ruined him for me, or just his overall vibe in the story. I don't even know at this point I've spent so long avoiding getting to know his character. But--I've seen villain-stan blogs hate him so much to a point where they completely forget that he is also a victim of society and has his own issues. And their takes on him come at the expense of....well, a clear understanding of the story. Now right now Hawks is being handled not-so-great, but even before this. Of course nobody has to like him, I mean I just said that I don't, but this irrational hate that comes at the expense of his actual character is annoying to me.

"I think it's completely valid for people to just simply not like certain characters for whatever reason they might have, im not here to police people's opinions, but when people's opinions come at the expense of misunderstanding pretty key elements of the characters / story they're talking about, that's when I have a problem"

Yep yep yep. I agree here too. So in a nutshell, no matter what character it is, if people irrationally hate them to a point where their takes on the story just stop making sense, yes I agree that it starts to wear away at the integrity of the character, and it also annoys me and I end up just unfollowing and I no longer take anything they say seriously. And there are a couple of blogs I follow that really don't like Midoriya at all, but they don't waste their time talking about how much they don't like him. They simply just...don't talk about him. That's what people should do because otherwise it fills EVERYONE'S dash with negativity that we didn't ask for. That's why I'm glad I've stopped getting so many asks about Hawks because I have never really had anything nice to say about him and after so many people sending me stuff asking to talk about him I started to feel like a shitty person for filling peoples' dashes up with that. I mean...I'm seriously mean to Hawks lol. I am. So yeah.

I don't particularly understand the extreme hatred either. I totally get not liking a character but that extreme hatred you're talking about I've made a successful effort to distance myself from. Thankfully.

[fallout-lou-begas]

A lot of people have accused yjj of being racist, particarily in regards to one of their comics involving Joshua graham, and in general saying that they glorify colonization. I mainly understand the other things they’ve done, but the racism seems inexusable. A lot of people have also been saying that yjj and their followers have harassed people. I want to get both sides of the story on this, so basically I’m asking what the deal with all this is?

Hi, anon. I'll provide my thoughts since you asked politely.

This post is quite long and can be considered an extension of my previous post on the matter.

Besides the infamous and self-admittedly ill-informed chancla comic, for which they've apologized, essentially all of the claims that Yesjejunus is racist stem from their depiction of the Dead Horses and Sorrows relative to their depiction of Joshua Graham and their original character Joan in their fanfic No Light (and to a lesser extent Learnin’ the Blues), which is heavily grounded in the setting of Honest Hearts. I think it's unambiguous that the depiction of vaguely defined "tribals" in Honest Hearts, assembled through a mishmash of disparate signifiers and recycled stereotypes and named like Warrior Cats and completely helpless without Joshua Graham's guidance, is indeed thoroughly racist, even if it was intended to be more nuanced and came from a place of self-admitted ignorance on the part of the developers. What I struggle to understand is that the developers and writers of Honest Hearts—and of Fallout: New Vegas as a whole since the entire game is rife with such mishandled, insufficient depictions of "tribals" with no explicit inclusion at all of any specific Indigenous people or presence—are given miles and miles more sympathy and leeway for their poor handling of these characters in the source material than a fanfic writer is for using the tools and setting that they were given by that source material, including the "lore" and naming conventions of the Dead Horses and Sorrows, to tell a story that means a lot to them personally, inspired by their own deepest fears and experiences with abuse, and ignited by their charismatic yet deeply and blatantly monstrous interpretation of Joshua Graham. Given that it uses the setting of Honest Hearts as a backdrop, there aren't any living characters in Honest Hearts who aren't "tribals" besides Joshua Graham and Daniel, and post-canon, Daniel wouldn’t be there. When Yesjejunus is accused of sidelining the Native characters or relegating them to the background, it's because they're just not writing a fanfic about Follows-Chalk or Waking Cloud as main characters: they're writing a specifically intentioned story about the Courier and Joshua Graham, a story that for better or worse remains faithful to the source material’s depiction of Joshua Graham’s unilateral authority over the tribes in Zion, a baked-in element of Honest Hearts and a critical narrative component of No Light. To accuse Yesjejunus of being racist on this principle in and of itself would be like accusing me of being lesbophobic if I wrote a Dead Money-set fanfic with Father Elijah as the main character instead of Christine. If you want something that centers these other characters then you'd just have to read a different story, or write it yourself.

As a final note, I do think that Yesjejunus is a skilled writer. This thought exists simultaneously with the acknowledgement that like everyone else in fandom, they're writing as a hobby and do not have the oversight of an editor on the work that they produce personally and for free. It's not lost on them that there's things about their story that they could have handled differently or more sensitively, such as the oft-cited example of the death of the pregnant Dead Horse character in No Light, with more forethought or planning at the time—even if they were bound by the constraints of Honest Heart's own setting (such as the dearth of non-tribal characters who could have possibly been in the scene instead) while writing the story. Everyone is free to critique this aspect of the story as much as they are to critique any other aspect, or to be discomforted by the whole thing (given it's a very intentionally uncomfortable story throughout), but the suggestion of so many of these "callouts" that Yesjejunus must have been cackling maniacally about the plight of poor access to medical care among real Indigenous people is a suggestion made entirely in bad faith, and one that I simply don't care to entertain.

As for the point about harassing people: if anyone's only evidence of being "harassed" by a single, specific person is anonymous messages on tumblr dot com, then I don't believe the evidence. If people are accusing Yesjejunus' "supporters" or "associates" of harassing people, then if the accusation is that this harassment is occurring either on Yesjejunus’ behalf or otherwise with their approval, then it is also going to require more evidence than the mere existence of the mean anonymous messages themselves. This goes for the rumor that they have "spies" in fandom Discord servers or whatever, too, which is a rumor that I think has only manifested among its spreaders by either self-appointed individuals speaking on no one's behalf but their own, and by the metaphorical snake eating its own tail in paranoia. Yesjejunus, and I, and all of our mutual friends have been nothing but annoyed at best and horrified at worst by the efforts of some self-appointed individuals to "defend" them with such excess vitriol. Speaking plainly, we generally avoid literally any kind of anonymous or public interaction with anyone who's vocally opposed to us as a rule, specifically to avoid this kind of debacle, and when I say "we" and "us" I'm not referring to some sort of shadowy cabal of conspirators scheming to advance the nefarious YJJ agenda, but to a group of friends. I don't know how to explain to some people who question why we praise their work or share their art sometimes how normal friendships work online.

I also take severe umbrage with the validity of the breadth of these anonymous harassment accusations because of how patently fraudulent several other claims are. Yesjejunus has recently been accused of "grooming,” for example, an accusation only even worth considering if one temporarily forgets what grooming actually is and pretends that grooming is when someone older interacts in literally any capacity with someone younger. Some will say that they’re not accusing them of grooming per se, or not of grooming by that name, but in any case, the meaning is that Yesjejunus has interacted with minors and this on its own is intended to scare and upset you. I have seen only two users actually named as "victims" of these “interactions,’ however, sas-afras and comrade-shrimp, but both users have publicly refuted this accusation because neither of them were minors when they first interacted with Yesjejunus. Frustratingly, though, these literal refutations from the literal so-called "victims" are either dismissed out of hand or muddied by hand-wringing mutterings of "well, I could have sworn they were actually minors, though" and "well they claim that they weren't actually groomed, but who really knows." The spreading and trust in completely anonymous accusations, combined with the total rejection of statements from the only people named in these accusations when their statements contradict the accusations, suggests to me that the existence of these actual interactions (and assuming these interactions occurred both intentionally and with Yesjejunus’ being fully aware of the other person being a minor) is not nearly as important as pushing the narrative that "Yesjejunus is a groomer" or “preying on minors” onto the fandom, and ensuring that anyone who doesn't take this claim completely at face value appears complicit in something horrible. As for anyone who still feels "uncomfortable" at how sas-afras or comrade-shrimp or me or anyone who is very much an adult but just so happens to be younger than Yesjejunus could ever become endeared to them, I reiterate that sometimes I don't know how to explain to people how normal friendships work online.

I want to conclude by saying something that I've said many times before: you don't have to like Yesjejunus (or me, or everybody, or literally anyone else) and no one is holding a gun to your head to befriend them or read their work or look at their art. The block and filter and unfollow buttons are very conveniently located on your dashboard and are totally free to use. Everything I've written here is not intended as some argument as to why everyone on the planet needs to be following their blog and leaving kudos on Learnin' the Blues. Still, while I think everybody has the right to curate their own dashboard and remove the content that they don't want to see, I also think it's reasonable for me to not want my friend to get their name dragged through the mud by the exaggerated and misinformed claims of petty, grudge-bearing brigadiers and self-aggrandizing fandom security guards when they'd like to just dump funny shitposts about the Burned Man's chode in peace.

[placebogirl7]

Why Jodie is so hated in DC fandom? - Analysis of an underestimated character and clarification about wrong assumptions

Preliminary remark: this post is just a personal opinion. No intention to start wars of any kind, I respect everyone’s opionion so I want my opinion to be respected too. If you don’t share it, it’s totally ok as it’s totally ok if I don’t share yours.

During these last 5 years I’ve been back into DC fandom, I notice all around the web many people spreading hate towards Jodie (not only here on Tumblr but everywhere, especially in forums and social media pages). It’s ok to not like a character, but you need valid reasons to hate it. If you hate it for bullshit, then it’s only hate based on nothing. And this is what I see everytime I read a bad comment about Jodie’s character. This is really annoying for a fan, to be honest. Now I want to point out some of the most popular reason why Jodie is hated and analyze them (maybe I have already explained my point of view about them in some other posts in the last years, but I will clarify them again).

1) “Jodie has become useless, she’s no more interesting and mysterious as she was at the beginning” You (Jodie haters) really notice this change only in Jodie’s character? Because I can mention at least other 10 characters who, at their first appearance, were described as mysterious and cool and whatever else, but now are “lying on the shelf” for Gosho’s choise. Jodie has been introduced in a mysterious way becase she was suspected to be Vermouth, so Gosho created the suspance around her character and made her act in a shifty way to make the readers believe that she could be one of the BO members. Once it has been revealed that she wasn’t bad, there were no more need to make her act in a shifty way. Many other character who were suspected to be Bo members but in the end were not have shared the same fate. But it’s Gosho’s decision, not Jodie’s fault. It’s not something related to her way of being, it’s a choise of the author.  She has become usless? Ok, let’s face the reality: who is useful among the characters? A very few. Let’s take all the FBI Team: Gosho has painted them as a bunch of idiots that without Akai can’t do nothing. To make Akai “shine” he has denigrated Jodie, James and Camel. Camel doesn’t do nothing of his own, he always wait for Akai’s orders; James is supposed to be the chief but actually he does what Akai says; Jodie seems to make mistakes everytime she did something, even if she’s doing it in the right way. But again, it’s not their fault because we have seen them doing even very good things and being brilliant, so they have potential: it’s Gosho who decided to treat them like dumbs so Akai can be like a God who will save all of us. Don’t get me wrong, I love Akai, but I hate what Gosho is doing to put him in the spotligh. Again, it’s Gosho’s fault, not the characters who suddenly became usless and not interesting. The hate should be towards Gosho, not Jodie.

2) “After Akai’s death Jodie has become so annoying, she’s weak and she’s always crying” Ok...question for you Jodie haters: if you suddenly lose someone you love, what will be your reaction? Will you laugh as you were watching a sitcom, will you organize a big party with your friends or will you start throwing confetti in the air? Because if you do one if these 3 things, then...congratulations, you have won the highest award for the most cool /stone-harted/ heartless person in this world! You have no rivals, not even Shuichi Akai who is now jealous of you!  Seriously...if the man you love so much dies suddenly, it’s LEGITIMATE to cry, to be desperate, to lose yourself. It’s like losing a part of you. But despite feeling lost, Jodie has been the only one among the FBI who never believed to Akai’s death since the beginning and she fought long and hard to find out the truth behind his death. Since when on the TV they show the incident at Rahia Pass and they say a man was dead burned in his car, she immediately thought that it wasn’t Shuichi and that he had surely used a trick to escape. Guess what? She was right! Do you still think she’s stupid?  Jodie isn’t weak, she just faced an emotional breakdown due to the loss of a person she loved. This is being human, not being weak. Jodie isn’t always crying, she cried when everything and everyone around her was making her believe that Shuichi was really dead. At a certain point she stopped crying, when she saw hope, a hint that Shu was still alive. She isn’t a crybaby, she just needed hope. 

3) “Since Akai’s death, Jodie hasn’t done anything interesting or exciting, she has become boring” If you didn’t notice by yourself, then I will reveal you the biggest secret of all: after Akai’s death, or better to say after the end of Scarlet Arc when Jodie and Camel discovered about Shuichi being alive and hiding behind Subaru’s identity...FBI hasn’t appeared anymore in the manga for ages, since the last files which came our recently! How are they (included Jodie) supposed to do something exciting or interesting if they don’t even appear? Gosho put them in the closet with the naphthalene and he concentrated his attention on other characters (first of all Amuro, which in my opinion deserves more hate than Jodie because of his behaviour but somehow is adored as a God in the fandom).Then one day he get up and he had the big flash of genius: “FBI still exist in my story, so better take them out of the closet and make them do something”. But in the end, as always, only Akai did something relevant. Camel has been a puppet in the hand of Akai and Jodie made a mistake. So, again, it’s not Jodie who have changed and become a worst character, it’s how Gosho is painting her and the other FBI agents which makes them appear less interesting or capable at the eyes of the readers.

4) “Jodie has become stupid” About this I made a “funny” post long time ago, so I will put the link below. I think it’s enough to explain all:

https://placebogirl7.tumblr.com/post/156414088650/jodie-has-become-more-and-more-stupid  

I will also add something that surely will unleash the wrath of somebody and maybe they will start complain, but I honestly don’t care because it’s nothing against someone in particular but just something I noticed. This is absolutely not an attempt to start a ship war nor a free criticism end in itself, because I reaspect everyone ship and opinion even if I don’t agree with that. The fact is that I noticed that often (not always of course, but often) these criticism about Jodie are moved by ShuKemi fans, and considering what I said above it seems that their hate for Jodie is just because Jodie was Akai’s girlfriend before Akemi and she has the possibility (if Gosho wants) to be his girlfriend again the future, not really because they analyzed Jodie’s character before spreading shit about it.  So I would like to point out to these ShuKemi fans who idolize Akemi’s character so much and tell shits about Jodie that Akemi sentenced herself to death with her own hands after making the worst and wrong choise she could have ever done in her life. I’ve seen many times Akemi being called “a hero” but chosing to death without obtaining nothing in return isn’t being a hero, it’s just being stupid in my opinion. Being a hero is another thing. You’re an hero if you sacrifice yourself with the goal to obtain something that worth your sacrifice, but if you sacrifice yourself knowing that you won’t obtain nothing apart from your death...well, that’s not being a hero at all. And before someone will say “You talk like this because you’re a ShuJodie fan”, please be aware that Akemi’s death has been shown before Jodie appearance and before knowing that Jodie had a relationship with Shu before he started dating Akemi, so I would have no reason to say these things just because of such trivial matters. The reason why I’ve never been touched by Akemi’s death since the beginning is because I think she has consciously chosen to die since the beginning of her “masterplan”. C’mon, how can you really think to make a deal with criminals? There’s a reason if they are criminals... She really thought that Gin would have kept his promise? If the answer is yes, then I’m sorry to say that but she’s stupid twice. So before saying that Jodie is the stupid one, at least analyze the things deeply and objectively. 

Now I know that this will make someone mad but I’m sorry, it’s what I think. And not because I see Akemi as a “threat” for Jodie’s relationship with Shuichi, as I always said I don’t need to spread shit on some character to covince myself and the other that my couple is better, I really don’t need this. I love my couple and stop, the rest doesn’t matter. If I don’t like a character, there’s always a deeper motivation behind, which has nothing to do with OTPs and trivial matters like that. But before saying I don’t like a character and draw up charges on it, I always analyze the character. I’m sorry that nobody do it with Jodie. 

Please also note that I used Akemi as example of character being idolized for no real reason because, as I said, I noticed that who talk shits about Jodie are often ShuKemi fans, but there are also other characters of course who are idolized when they actually have nothing to be idolized for. Another example is Amuro, I recently made a post about what I think of him.  Now if you don’t like what I think and what I said you are free to unfollow me, I’m sorry but I really needed to make this post because it has become more and more annoying to see nonsense unkindness things about Jodie.

Peace, love and Jodie Starling ♥

[shmaptainwrites]

a little psa

alright so i bet you guys are probably gonna scroll past this but i’m gonna say it because it’s important and people need to see it.

look although notes on my fics aren’t doing too bad, actually they’re way better than they used to be (i think i was being tag blocked), i still barely get any feedback and interaction from my readers. and i know this isn’t just a problem for me, a lot of writers out there are scared to post for certain characters just because all the effort they put into it amounts to nothing.

and not to mention half the time we feel obligated to post so often even if we don’t have time to do that because we also have other responsibilities. i’m a senior in high school i have so much work to do and on top of that writing should NOT become a stressful thing for me or anyone.

fanfiction is free and the only one small thing we ask if you is maybe a reblog or a comment, even if it’s just a key smash, a gif, or an i loved this! it’s all special to us no matter what.

i have a taglist but half the people on it don’t interact with my work so what the point in tagging them?

i love writing you guys and i love sharing my writing but things aren’t gonna get anywhere if i’m not motivated and you guys play a big role in that. and if you want help motivating me? reblog my posts! make sure other people can see them, put them in the tags and get it out there because i can only reblog my own post so many times and i only have so many followers. (this goes for any writer you may follow i bet you they want to say the same thing)

if you guys get annoyed by seeing stuff like this or by me even beginning to maybe ask for something than i’ll invite you to hit the unfollow button cause i don’t need that kind of negativity here.

i seriously love you guys loads i’m not joking about that i just needed to get this off my chest.

thank for listening,

-mimi

tagging some moots cause i love them

@poppin-peters @mystic-writings @katrina765

[purrincess-chat]

The more madness I hear about from the outskirts of the fandom, the more I feel so grateful I took a break. I was planning on taking a break when s4 started just cause I know the fandom is gonna be a bloodbath of ship wars and salt given the direction the show is going, but I'm thinking more and more of just continuing this break that I'm on and starting that now.

I'm just...tired. Of fighting, drama, stupidity. I just want to write fics and see two kids kiss each other on the face, so I think moving forward at least until the end of s4 I'm just gonna keep to myself and my like 4 fandom friends.

I have gone through my list of wips and decided on the ones I want to finish either for their relevancy or popularity with readers, but I will only be updating those when I feel like writing them. Some are close to being finished anyway, and if I do update them, I will share it on this blog. If I get in the mood for a gifset, I'll share those here as well, or if I have a silly concept I wanna share. Just gonna make this a lighthearted space to share my thoughts and creations. Too much shit going on in my life and in the world for me to care about much else. Taking this break has given me a lot of time to think and reflect, and I just don't prioritize fandom especially when it's stopped being fun.

I appreciate those of you who follow me and enjoy my content, and I hope you all will continue to enjoy what I put out when I put it out. I've just reached a breaking point, and I've honestly started delving more into original fiction and other hobbies as of late since I took this break. This fandom just doesn't spark the same joy it used to for me. Too much drama. Too many people making things more serious than they need to be. Too many people who think they're hot shit but aren't. Just too much. Idk I'm just rambling now.

I still plan to host my three events. I still plan to finish some of my more known and current wips (most of the ones I cut are years old). I just don't want to interact with much of the general fandom anymore. At least for right now. It's become a toxic space on all sides whether it's salt, drama, people being on their high horse and thinking they're above salt (yeah yall are just as annoying), or just general stupidity (looking at yall ladrien haters don't think I forgot about yall).

If any of you need me or just wanna say hi feel free to drop me an ask or a message. I mass unfollowed a huge chunk of the ML blogs I was following minus a few mutual friends and some artists who literally just post their art, so if I unfollowed you, it's not personal. Just taking a huge step back and downsizing my circle. Hope you all understand. Anyway. Peace. -Cat

[todomitoukei]

Sorry but in all honesty your answer really makes me feel angered. Cause not only you belittled me , when I was pointing out how Deku’s wishful thinking is ridiculous and that by teen I meant that he has room to grow up and being better and finally open his eyes instead of being bubbled in his dichotomic thinking.

No, you were just assuming I was accusing you, instead of reading that I was saying how childish the whole situation was. You think a teenager can handle a person who underwent abuses for years and most likely has a complex ptsd ? Good luck, even a pro in the field would have issues in picking the right word. Because they would know people like Dabi are so hurt that they could easily flip the table in full anger.

Deku is a teen, he’s scared and he go back in what he knows best. Am i saying Deku is right ? No. I started off with “I didn’t like what Deku said...” meaning I don’t stan for his behaviour.

Heroes vs villains is an ingroup vs outgroup battle pushed to total polaritation because heroes need this to keep on being heroes. And to never think “oh what that people endured, am I doing the right thing?” Constantly. Is this right ? No. It happens? Yes. Otherwise people would go insane. When Ingroup and outgroup happens people will always care more about their own ingroup. This is science. And it happens in everyday life. And it happens with you right here right now: you assumed I held a different position and just blindly attacked me when instead I share the same view on Dabi as yours (that’s why I started to follow you and reading your posts) but I was just providing another perspective on Deku. And about Dabi is right in his statement.

Because in real life many people doesn’t care if one was abused when they were young. People doesn’t care if they grew up in poor neighbourhood with 0 possibilities. Or if they had a severe mental illness never cured and resort to drugs to keep on living. Even with all of this, if said X person kills innocent (much like Dabi said he has done) is life long prison sentence or capital sentence. That’s how our world works, so why should Bnha’s work differently ? Deku is the product of society. He can gain critical thinking. But it’s not taken for granted that he has it. Because after all this is the society they were born into. Cool quirk= hero. No quirk / bad quirk = villain.

Deku just thought until now that encouraging and words could heal. They worked with Shinsou. They worked with Shoto. Why should he think he would fail? This is the reality he lived until now. And now FINALLY someone kicked him back into his place. But no. “Think-like” people ? Really? How dumb. How shortsighted. Basically you are answering like Deku did : protecting your ingroup without accepting or confronting with others perspective. It’s such a shame. I loved your post. Didn’t see that coming.

And about victims... if think you much like anyone else miss a point. Victim NEEDS validation. They are allowed to show their emotion. They are allowed to hold grudge. It they shouldn’t. And not because we are all saints. But because this hurts the victim. Forgiveness is correlated to wellbeing. When we forgive someone it’s us who benefits. That’s why many incredibly forgive even brutal murders of their beloved. What Dabi’s is doing it’s not right morally but more importantly isn’t good for his health. Saying “Dabi is right” implies that his behaviour is valid. It’s not . His pain is but in the end what did it cost to him ? He’s consumed by hate. He killed many people he considered innocents (aka he knows he did wrong and this is guilt).

His mental health is basically not there. He’s not happy at all. Yes he was abused, but neither the society and neither himself has done nothing to heal. To recover. Once dead he could have just put anything behind. Or just show up to his siblings. Leaving all of his hate behind because it’s toxic to him. He just go f you to his father and make his own life. But he can’t. He’s consumed by hate. And despite its not his fault, the fault he has it to never have tried to feel better , relying on someone (even inside the league why not) or just let all of it go. He could have just wait and totally ruin his father’s fame instead of all of this. But he just can’t. You think it’s good for a victim? Always living in the negative emotional state of their abusive even if they made it away?That’s not a good message at all. And no, in real life most likely abused victims are pushed to love on while recovering. Because all of this will make them suffer. Not their abusers. Imagine going on 10 years like this and now again say Dabi is a good example of victim validation. Or rather , say this to a pedo who was abused several times. Say this to a rapist who saw his mother raped day by day and interiorised this as a valid sexual approach. Tell this to the bully who grew up seeing a violent parent and gained that beating is a much more efficient way to make his voice to be heard.

Grow up in an household in which being an hero and make your father proud is everything and suddenly this is stripped away. A father who taught you must be great and always be on the top to even exists. A father who has incredibly high standard level i everything. And thus you translated to “well if I’m about to make him pay I’ll destroy the whole world who considered me dead. I’ll kill innocent, I’ll burn them alive, and lastly I’ll kill my family too”. And now tell me if you were to face this person who has no intention to stop and you’d say “yes, your pain is valid. You’re reasonable”. Would you see the person? Of the monster he became? Would you forgive him ? Or would you say what Deku said ? That Dabi is basically a villain? That’s he’s spitting on a man who’s trying to redeem ? Would you try to redeem Dabi and save him from his pain? Because no one did. And Deku is no different. No different by the people in his society. And no different by the people of OUR society.

If you’re are the person who could see the human beyond the action in the fore mentioned examples , hats of for you. But realistically what I said will happen. We are all Deku, who are willing to ignore others drama and to label villains as monsters to have no guilty at night. Because otherwise we would be the monsters.

I’m so disappointed. I really thought highly reading your posts and translations. I believed you could do better instead of rumbling and being annoyed.

I’m sorry you felt like I was belittling or attacking you - that wasn’t my intention.

You send me an ask with points that I disagree with, points that I’ve seen so much by now. You are allowed to have your opinions, but I am also allowed to voice mine and I simply am not interested in reading the same arguments used to justify D*ku’s behavior anymore. 

Yes, I understand that he would side with Shouto - that that is the natural thing for people to do - but that doesn’t mean that we are not allowed to judge the way he handles things after so much time has passed and after he has been given so many opportunities to start thinking critically.

Please understand that my blog mainly focuses on the Todoroki family and the League. I’m not a fan of D*ku and with that, avoid talking about his character where possible because I don’t see a point in spreading negativity for no reason. On the rare occasion that I do, my notifications get filled with people trying to change my mind, which can get pretty tiring because people are allowed to have their opinions and we don’t always have to discuss and argue about every single opinion.

I agree that it’s not healthy for Dabi - or any victim - to stay in a negative mind space. It’s important to get help and learn to move on from the past; but that doesn’t mean that victims like Dabi don’t exist and that we shouldn’t talk about them. I know it’s a lot more difficult to have compassion for people like that - especially in real life - but I think fictional stories are partially there to challenge our views. I’m not saying Dabi is right in hurting people, but I can also recognize the mental downfall that it took for him to arrive at a point where he thinks this is justifiable. I disagree that we are all like D*ku in this and there are, in fact, real-life situations where someone commits crimes and people have compassion because they are given the backstory that explains how the person in question ended up doing what they did.

It’s great that you have a different opinion about this and I encourage you to continue having your views, but if you take issue with me disagreeing with the points you sent my way, then feel free to unfollow. I want this blog to remain as positive as possible instead of becoming a place where I argue with people over my opinions. So please don’t feel like you need to continue to follow me if this blog doesn’t provide that positivity for you.

Again, I’m sorry if any of my replies came off as condescending to you - that was definitely not my intention. Your opinions are valid. But please also understand that when someone interacts with my posts or sends me an ask that I am entitled to disagree and give my viewpoint.

That being said, thank you for reading and enjoying my posts thus far.

[wingsofkpop]

Important Blog Update: MAJOR Changes Coming — Please Read

I’ve honestly been holding off on making this post for the last few months for various reasons; one, being the fear of changing the dynamic this blog has grown accustomed for the past year, and two, the backlash I may receive because of said changes. After deep consideration, however, I think it would be best to go through with this. 

This year has brought so much to this blog, and I will forever be grateful for all the support I have received, but my writing style has evolved, and so has my interests and wants. Please keep in mind that you don’t have to agree with these changes, nor do you have to stay here if it upsets you that greatly. You are free to unfollow anytime, but you do not have the right to send hateful comments or insults. This is my blog, and I will continue to create what I want and what I enjoy. As I always say, please be kind to those around you. 

Below you will find a number of changes that will occur over the next few weeks or so. Once I have updated my rules and guidelines, hopefully by next week, I will open my requests again. Feel free to send me a respectful message if you have any questions or concerns: 

The only groups I will write for from now on are Got7 and Stray Kids — This is the main reason why I held off on making this post. I know I’ve said in the past that I wanted to add more groups, and at one point I did with Monsta X, Astro, and maybe Twice, but I eventually decided against it. It’s already hard enough to write for three groups as it is and figure out a way to dish out content in a way that one group is not getting more than another. Remember when I said that my interests have changed since I started this blog?... That’s why I won’t write for Day6 anymore. I don’t know what else to say except that I find more enjoyment in writing for Got7 and Stray Kids. I still love the boys of Day6 very much, nor do I hold any ill will toward them--it’s just how things changed, and I apologize to anyone who is disappointed by this, but I stand by my opinions and my decisions. 

I will no longer be writing reactions — To be completely honest, I don’t know why I ever began writing reactions in the first place. I’ve never really liked to write them, especially since they can become very repetitive after awhile (literally every NSFW Got7 reaction I’ve written). I’ve always preferred to write actual storylines that come with drabbles and one-shots. And though it’s not a necessary reason, finding gifs to go with each of the members reaction is just so fucking annoying cause sometimes Tumblr screws with the tags and visibility of the post and it just proves to be more hassle than worth.

In regards to Timestamp Sunday, I will only post FIVE stamps per Sunday from now on — Listen y’all, writing 6+ stamps per day is just pure chaos. I know they’re short, but they still require a lot of work and effort. Plus, it probably annoys some of you when I’m spamming new posts left and right. So from now on, when I ask for timestamp requests, there will be a first come, first serve, wait list type of system kind of similar to Timestamp Weekend. More info on this will be provided at a later date. 

New addition of Got7/Stray Kids specific member as... bulleted lists (no clue what to call them yet) — These will be kind of similar to reactions, but much easier, more fun, and less time-consuming to write. I could spit out a couple of these all in the span of a week, plus the idea itself just sounds appealing. Again, more info will be provided at a later time. 

New theme, schedule, masterlists and other links (again) — This shouldn’t surprise anyone to be honest lol. My masterlists will be out of commission when I eventually update them, but I’ll let you guys know when that time comes. In the mean time, I’ll also have to decide whether I want Jaebeom or Chris as my profile pic :( 

Group chat for other writing blogs/writers to find tips, ideas and whatever else you need! — I honestly just want a reason to test out Tumblr’s group chat thing, but if you ever need any help with fics, essays or just writing in general, feel free to join the group chat and connect with other writers! If anyone is interested and wants to get into/improve in writing, I can figure out a way to host some small lessons or something? I am certainly not a professional, but I’m always down to help! 

There’s a couple other little things, but I believe I hit the brunt of everything. As I said before, you have every right to dislike or be upset by these changes, but please, please, please do not act out in a hateful or resentful manner. This blog acts as a safe, positive place for everyone and I will not tolerate those who seek to take that away. 

Thank you for understanding, 

-Kitty💕

[lesbiangracehanson]

for 'lets get personal': 1, 2, 4, 7, 14, 19, 24, 26?

27, 38, 39, 40, 41, 43, 44, 45, 47, 52, 54, 62?

63, 65, 66, 74, 76, 79, 82, 84, 95?

hope you have fun with all those!

i’ve just added all ur messages together hahaha + also gonna put this under a keep reading thing loool

1: 6 of the songs you listen to most? did this one! 

2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? currently...... either victoria pedretti or amelia eve, i’ve been watching maybe too many interviews of them + i just think they both have such lovely energy + would just be nice to b around :(

4: What do you think about most? currently.......... the haunting of bly manor, generally.... whether or not i’m a bad person/if i’m doing enough with my life

7: What’s your strangest talent? being able to identify what s1-4 doctor who episode a particular murray gold piece of music is in, within about 10 seconds of it starting...... niche ? perhaps, but me + my sister tested this theory on a long boring lockdown day + it’s legit i’m afraid :///

14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing? walking my dog 

19: What does your URL mean? grace hanson is a LESBIAN >:-) 

24: Do you have a collection of anything? postcards + badges! i like either keeping them for myself or sometimes passing them onto others as like a nice, surprise little gift - especially in lockdown i feel like i’ve started posting friends random things just for fun

26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become? not yet, but compared to me over a year ago..... i do feel happier with where i currently am

27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love? sound i hate is nails on a blackboard lol, sound i love ..... i guess any music i like! or the sound of the sea

38: What’s the weather like right now? rainy + v windy :( 

39: What time is it? nearly 2am

40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed? i’m currently learning to drive + am pleased to say i have Not crashed (yet)

41: What was the last book you read? severance by ling ma!! 

43: Do you have any nicknames? my sisters + some of my friends started calling me olive to annoy me + it remains a nickname looool

44: What was the last film you saw? suspiria (the 1977 one!) 

45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had? 2 summers ago i had a very bad ovarian cyst + apparently my pain threshold was too high for me to recognise that things were Not Good so it ended up damaging one of my ovaries beyond repair loooool + i had to have an emergency operation to have the cyst + the ovary removed rip, not to overshare on main but.... genuinely one of the worst experiences of my life lol would not recommend!!!!

47: Do you have any obsessions right now? not sure if it’s obvious :/// but ....the haunting of bly manor 

52: What is your astrological sign? gemini

54: What’s the last thing you purchased? mantel pieces by hilary mantel! 

62: What’s your favourite animal? Hmmmm dogs!!!

63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you? making them laugh imo!

65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr. - i’m simply Can’t do this!!!!! i feel like i have like.... a fair few mutuals who i will just love forever + never unfollow + then also just blogs that i enjoy + look through on a regular basis but i’m not mutuals w/ + there’s essentially too many to narrow it down to 5 (janelle u are one of those mutuals i will never unfollow at this point i think ahjsbfjsdf if that’s what u wanted to know!! hahaha) 

66: What is your heritage? white + british loooooool im sorry 

74: What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it? hmmm a few came to mind: burning down the house by talking heads, maria by blondie, honey hi by fleetwood mac

76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship? kindness, good communication + laughter 

79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far? LOOOOOOL have i ever made a good decision!!!!! impossible to tell, i think ... sorting myself out last autumn probably, i was really putting everything into doing my masters, i’d just started my bookclub, i was volunteering at a gay archive + working a bit too. i think deciding to do all those things to put myself in a better headspace + also putting myself out of my comfort zone was a good move for me + i’m proud of myself for doing it im ngl 

82: What is your favourite word? my mind is blanking on this, i’ve forgotten all words 

84: What is a saying you say a lot? ‘it is what it is’ asjdbsdjhf i say it TOO much, i think i started saying it ironically + it has become ... less ironic  

95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go? anywhere that would let a person from the stupid little island that is uk, into their country atm loooool

[kumkaniudaku]

hi, I remember you saying a while ago you were taking a step back from Chadwicks personal life and I was wondering how it was going. I have become invested in Michaels life and it is weird and I want out but i’m too deep ( I sound crazy 😂) any tips

Hey! It is actually going really well. It helps that he doesn’t post much across social media, but if we being real, that didn’t stop me in the past.

One of the first steps I took was divesting from fan accounts and internet gossip. So that mean no more LSA and telling my IG explore page that I didn’t wanna see content of him. I even unfollowed his tag on here because I’d visit it too much.

Then I had to humanize him. I just started to think about how, if I had to explain that I sit and think about his personal life in my free time, I’d sound like a loon. Like literally not well. It was important to remember that he is a person just like me with parts of his life that are his to have and not for my consumption. I mean, imagine if who you were in a relationship and your every move after that was public knowledge. That would feel icky right? And then having people have conversations about those personal moments are even worse.

So, I’d say take little steps. Skip a YouTube deep dive or a conversation about him. Then back away from additional media from mutuals and forums. Remember that, if he wasn’t famous, he’d just be an attractive guy you saw in Wal Mart once and never interacted with again.

You’re not crazy though. You just like a celeb. It’s normal. I still find myself slipping into fanaticism. Especially recently with Daveed Diggs. I had to tell myself he is a regular (and fine) nigga with a job that requires him to be seen. He can give me great art and still go and be a person with his loved ones like me and you. All these celebrities are regular as hell and probably annoying if you really got to know them.

I hope that helps!

[celestialprincesslulu]

{{ Sheez, where do I begin? I have a lot to say and I’ve noticed a few people have unfollowed, and possibly blocked, me... for good reason too... I’m going to put my excuses under read more and then I’ll respond to the dms.

Man, I had to look back through my last few posts to put the pieces together. 

I made a post a few days before I went inactive addressing someone that I can’t help but miss. It put me into a weird mental place and albeit not the best one. I struggle a lot with my emotions and not being sad.

Which is another thing.. my depression hit really hard as well as my anxiety. I felt uncomfortable and my brain started to pit me against people who had become really good friends of mine. It painted people who were my friends as people who only tolerated me. People who dealt with me out of obligation or being nice rather than actually wanting to. I didn’t know how to communicate this to them. I didn’t want to, too. I didn’t want to be annoying or shove my feelings onto them. They didn’t owe me anything let alone any reassurance. 

I felt my roleplay was shit and that it didn’t compare to my partners either. That affected me being on this account. I got a few cruel anons. My mood dropped to dangerous levels. I had been in a relationship that was far from good from me and ended it due to countless other friends unassociated with rp suggesting it, I don’t remember if I had mentioned that, and came back on to cope with that. When I was having a lot of fun, I felt guilty. I felt like I didn’t deserve that fun because I felt like a shitty girlfriend when I was with them and I had been so unhappy. 

School was kicking my ass, corona started up, life became.. literally draining. Summer came and went, I spent a lot of time trying to find a place where I felt like I belonged. Trying to find something to pass the time over enjoying something. 

What is my mental place now?

Quite honestly, still shitty. I feel bad for leaving people without any word. I feel bad for leaving this without any word. Especially Chris, who I know won’t see this.. and Ava and Akira. They became three good friends that I particularly didn’t let in or tell my feelings to of the above mentioned. I instead merely shut down. I’m an emotional mess, my depression is still pretty bad (probably the lowest it’s been in a bit), but I want to try...

I’ve realized though that I want to do what makes me happy for however long I’m around. I love this blog and rping a lot, even if I’m shitty at it.. so if the fandom will take me back then I’d greatly appreciate it...If any of the above mentioned people see this... I’m so sorry... I’m so, so sorry...

I made a promise to myself when I came back last time, I wouldn’t do this again. I wouldn’t disappear. I wouldn’t clam up. I wouldn’t let my mental illness get the best of me. I would stay.. and I didn’t stay. I’m so angry at myself. 

I hope to do better this time.. I hope if I’m accepted, that I can communicate properly ooc with people.. I can accept friendship as it comes to me without letting my brain get the best of me... I don’t know if I’ll do rping tonight, I see quite a few archived accounts.. so I guess I need to figure out first who accepts me and who doesn’t.

Thank you for reading this, so much.

EDIT: I forgot to mention that I also got involved in a community that I let kind of consume my life. I stopped talking to a lot of people and focused on it because it made me feel useful. It felt like I was doing something. I neglected all of my close friends and they snapped me out of it. Since they did back in the summer, I kind of realized that I abandoned people in here.. I missed it and wanted to get back... but I didn’t have the courage to. 

I do now. It might be too late but I do now.. I’ve gotten school stuff under handle to some degree. In two more semesters, I’ll be able to go for a substitute certificate. I’ve been working on that and working to some degree hard. I’ve been wrestling with money struggles (like usual). And yeah... If there’s any questions, please feel free to ask me.

I’m probably going to bed soon because I’m on a decent sleep schedule but I’ll respond in the morning.