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yoihino · 5 months

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I've finally put all my suscribed works into bookmarks and I got so sad,, because there were so many that had been orphaned or abandoned. And I am not blaming the authors, it is their story and they can do whatever they want, but a part of me mourns these stories that will never have and end. Some of those were favorites too, which will make it all the more bittersweet whenever I reread them. And all of this to find a fic that wasn't even there /=_=\

#The search continues I guess #At least I now know what I'm suscribed to and have a few fics to reread #Also the amounts of fics that I'm susrcibed to that haven't updated in 3+ years is 💀#I won't lose hope because I've seen more desperate revivals #But man #I need to look into the recently updated tabs more #(Says the one that knows most of those unupdated fics came from when I searched the recently updated)

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deus-ex-mona · 2 months

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my five surviving braincells when something remotely good happens:

#in other news… wORK IS OVER PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#man. i’m s o tired. i can’t believe i survived almost 2 whole years at this job…#huh. come to think of it… i started tling idol sengen before i even got this job lol. and i’m only 3/5 of the way through it…#can’t believe the idol sengen grind->hiatus->grind(?) outlives my time at [withheld] company…#i did end up spending a cool 20 mins cleaning out my work locker though. i found so many treasures i didn’t even know i had in there #like. there was an unopened 3-pack of wet tissues a n d an unopened box of pens that i don’t recall buying #and ofc the 3 random sponges i ‘liberated’ from the lab. don’t tell my boss lmao #w a i t now that i think about it i should’ve taken at least 1 vial of (allegedly) carcinogenic sand for the memories. dammit.#oh well. what’s done is done i suppose. i did receive way more chocolate than i could ever eat though…#y. yeah. i guess i’ll miss my coworkers (a little). they were fun to annoy every day. except for the new guy bc i don’t like him at all lol #i have never met someone who lacked as much common sense as he. i think he’s gonna get canned before he’s able to resign on his own terms #dude could be spoonfed through every single step of the testing process and *still* mess up somewhere smh #but no. this isn’t about him. even though he is the final straw that led to my decision to resign #hm. looking back on it now. i think i was pretty good at my job for the most part when it came to the things i could do #or maybe i was too good at it. like. to the point where even more experienced analysts were coming to me in search of help #prolly gonna miss being one of the very best (out of like a grand total of 10 people at the lab) at doing ftir-related tests #ehehehehehehe i wonder if that workstation will continue to stay as organised as it is now that i’m gone #a n d i wonder what my coworkers will do now that they can’t ask me for ms excel help for the smallest of things lol #sometimes i just wanna tell them to g o g o o g l e i t ! ! ! when they call me over for it. but alas.#can’t believe these guys know how to use c h a t g p t and not ms excel (despite having it on their resume) smh #omg wow this got long and incoherent sorry guys i think i need some sleep lol. idol sengen next week..#…maybe…? no promises though!!!!!

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deathlygristly · 22 days

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How do you know if you're a bad person or not? I'm pretty sure I'm a bad person but the spousal person says I'm not.

Context: Someone got mad at me for saying Love Next Door was for neurotypical people, so saying and thinking that was wrong and bad.

#maybe I just think I'm mostly healed from the trauma because I stopped being active in spaces where strangers could get mad at me #but I am exhausted and I was searching for symptoms of autistic burnout earlier this week #so I don't know #anyway I should stop trying to interact with anyone I don't already know #I just make them mad and then it triggers me and it's just all bad #but these same people will constantly talk about how the shows we like a lot are too silly and weird and over the top #and no one gets mad at them for that #and we're not even dropping it and we're continuing to watch it #I wasn't saying it was a bad show at all #I guess good people constantly hate on shows that aren’t normal enough #and bad people say a show is a bit too normal once in four years

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opens-up-4-nobody · 4 months

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#hm. im in limbo. but at least i can draw again at last. ive never spent so long not wanting to draw. it was terrible #my job search lasted 4 days before i secured a position at target but i dont start until the 26th so im drifting until then #it feels so weird. like i dunno. i keep thinking abt jobs in a weird way now bc i just sorta drifted into what i do #weird academic stuff but i think most jobs arent like being a grad student and that never really occured to me #i dunno why. i could have done so many things but here i am. an ecologist mostly. i dunno. well see what the summer brings #maybe ill grow some social skills. its sorta weird but like the medication has made my head less terrible with intrusive thoughts. like i #can actually drive my car without hyperventilating which is fucking wild. so Maybe ill grow some confidence abt interacting with the world #going back in the fall still seems impossible rn but so does starting a job somewhere else. but i dunno #not where i expected to be in my life. im just lucky i dont have to worry much abt money #especially bc i got an ultrasound done so they cold make sure something wasnt wrong with my uterus #and its fine. guess it just hates me but that means i spent like 350 dollars for a 10min scan that showed nothing #ay. the us medical system #anyway. i guess ill continue drifting until the 26th #probably i should find something to do. or work on my old unpublished data #unrelated

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goldensunset · 7 months

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‘my lord n is a kind and excellent person who understands the hearts of pokémon. but conversely, perhaps his ability to understand the hearts and feelings of people is not developed enough. but… even that was part of the perfection of ghetsis’ plan.’ SHUT UUUUP I SWEAR!!!!

#STOP STOP i already feel awful about everything!! i’m already sad!!!#they went all out with the writing in this game they made sure to have like every character even in postgame remind you about n #instead of brushing aside his existence like all the other villains or blorbos who disappeared under tense conditions #like it’s not just a ‘we wash our hands of him’ or ‘aw he’s gone! so sad! anyway’ situation #it’s a ‘let’s make sure you keep feeling sad he’s gone forever’#man no wonder the protag canonly left home to go search for him #it’s canon that n and the protag actually started to really care about each other!!! please just kill me put me out of my misery #does this sage fellow even know what happened. does he know n left?#i guess he must be aware of the fact ghetsis was just using n like a prop #and yet still continues to speak of that prop as if he really is loyal to him like a subject and his king #man. all of team plasma was in on the shtick. it hurts #goldie plays pokémon black

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im-no-jedi · 7 months

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so based off Jen and the Kiner’s cryptic tweets today, I think we’re getting another episode with Crosshair and Omega, and it’s going to take place on a cold planet. it’s interesting cause we saw a cold planet in that recent trailer, and Hunter and Wrecker were also there… are we getting the reunion tomorrow????

#I didn’t think it would be this soon…#I expected another Hunter and Wrecker episode #of them continuing to search for Tantiss #but I guess not!!#we’ll find out soon enough…#star warz #tbb spoilers

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ragri5 · 11 months

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Watched Mission: Impossible - Dead Reckoning Part One for the sake of seeing some Simon Pegg acting cause I never been interested in those. Well obviously there's too little of him cause he's not the main character but, for the sake of the popularity of these films I stayed to see what's so cool about them. And all I saw was some AI/Entity nonsense plot. Compared to what I saw 12 years ago on Person of Interest, the plot was..obvious and..lazy? Just action packed and techno-talk bs Then again, it IS just for the entertainment as everything is? idk I don't even care for the Part 2 cause of how obvious and predictable everything was..

#nagging thoughts #Mission: Impossible spoilers I guess #Now I'm wondering if I should watch ANY mission impossible movies at all or the last ones are bad...just needed to get this out of my brain #Guess my search for other Simon Pegg related movies continues lol #P.S.S. Went back and rewatched an episode from POI and yeah #pretty darn good

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askathewierdo · 11 months

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Don't mind me I'm just following thoughts through about what would happen to Zuko if Aang never showed up and the Ozai conquered the world. If the whole world was considered the fire nation where does one who's banished from the fire nation go?

#for anyone else I'd say they'd give up and go into hiding #but this is Zuko we're talking about #so he would continue to search until Ozai's like #lol no #so then he'd search in secret i guess #he's be undercover #like #everywhere #he's finally get to show what he's a prodigy at #ninjaing #breaking and entering #horrible lies #anyway #atla #avatar the last airbender #Zuko thoughts #ninja!zuko #spy?Zuko

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mademoiselle-red · 1 year

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I watched Portrait of a Lady on Fire last night and tried to like it. But I couldn’t help but find the characters too bland for my taste. Their personalities were simply too subdued for me to like them and enjoy watching them as characters in their own right.

#portrait of a lady on Fire #my search for good f/f couples continues to frustrat #I guess I shall have to write my own

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ask-artsy-oncie · 2 years

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Please new people for the love of god decorate your blogs, reblog things, make posts, and appear human. I think I may have accidentally flagged two people as bots because they LOOKED like bots.

#I have a tutorial. Somewhere. I've reblogged it three times now though and I'm hesitant to continue to reblog it #Search “for everyone new to tumblr” on my blog I guess

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fingertipsmp3 · 10 months

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Why did I get paranoid about how no one has checked the work I submitted yet. It’s literally Sunday

#i mean i signed up for this last night in like the middle of the night #but i guess they either automate the sign up procedure or they have saturday office hours #it is based in the usa so if they work saturday afternoons they will have gotten my stupid application at a regular time #oh it’s freelance work. it’s basically just writing and proofreading #i just want to get approved so i can actually do the thing and then i can make at least a little money and not completely lose my mind #as i continue searching for a job. and also! when i get asked about the gap in my resume i can be like ‘yeah so i was actually freelancing’#it will also make the job search a bit less urgent and calm me down a bit if i have an income stream in the meantime. i think #like i won’t have to apply to stuff i genuinely can’t do just because i need a job (like factories or care work. neither of which i should #probably really be doing on account of the dodgy knee)#but yeah. i was sooooo paranoid but literally… i did like 16 different example tasks for them. it took me well over an hour so it’ll #probably take a lot of time for them to mark it #i just hope they don’t reject it. that would be embarrassing as fuck. ma in english; i’m qualified to teach esl AND high school english…….#if i fail at proofreading i will simply just cry #the thing i feel like could screw me is i didn’t really understand the guidelines on maybe the first task or two because i can’t read #apparently. also i use british spellings and it’s an american company. i also didn’t realise grammarly was there and ‘helping’ me for a hot #minute. i was like ‘what are those squiggly lines for’#look if they don’t want to keep me i’ll just keep scouring the subreddits and find something similar. it’s fine. it’s all good #this would just be perfect for me because i love writing and i love correcting other people’s mistakes lol #personal

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ferrum-logs · 1 year

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[ Insert picture of the Wurmple, wrapped around Lagos' neck. With Lagos looking a bit unamused but couldn't hide his smile, behind him was Riv by a table trying not to laugh, hand over their face. ]

So.. Little guy thought my neck was a good place to sleep on. I haven't moved them since and Ceru has started to grow a bit jealous of it.

#pokeblogging #pokeblog #pkmn irl #pkmn rp #I'm gonna continue searching for its parents #if I don't have any luck then.. either I keep them or take them to a shelter #i'll figure it out soon i guess

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fairybite · 1 year

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why does my brain love to suffer

#i just want to be happy and content without my brain searching for things to be sad about #self sabatoge #my brains fav hobby i guess #i’ll figure it out someday #and everything will be magical #but for now i continue to work my ass off at becoming who i need to be #t

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sugarcarnation · 1 year

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okay wait final update of my reading romance book saga. finished the last one and was left unimpressed. it’s a mystery how in theory i’m totally down for reading about people getting together in fun and wacky ways and yet barely any book i’ve read has ever succeeded in making me enjoy this genre

#idk the search continues i guess #but not right now i need to read something else again lmao

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mightybeaujester · 2 years

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About to watch laudna's resurrection and I feel genuinely sick

#Critical role #Cr spoilers #I've been contemplating just spoiling myself so I can be a bit more chill #But I genuinely worry that I'll stop watching if she doesn't make it #I love this campaign and on the one hand can't comprehend not continuing it but #Somehow im way more attached to laudne than I was aware I guess #Bc I was already aware I love her so so much #But I never felt like this for ANY resurrection #Not even in c2 #Even though I knew these characters much longer #I paused the video to make this post and am searching for more tags to write so I don't have to continue #But also I wanna get it over with #If you see this post in the next few min and she LIVED #Feel free to tell me #If she didn't survive just pretend you didn't see this post #I think I'm just gonna watch tiktok for 20 min or sth #I need to calm down

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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 2 years

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My mom texted, "How's it going?"

How do I tell her, "Mom, this is the worst I've ever been."

How do I say, "Mom, I can't leave the house. Mom, I don't trust anyone. Mom... I'm scared."

I can't say, "Mom, I can't trust my own thoughts," and I can't say, "Mom, I'm afraid all the time."

If I say, "Mom, I'm afraid someone is going to kill me," or "Mom, I searched my girlfriend's phone the other day," or "Mom, I'm out of control," she's going to have me committed.

So all I can say is, "Mom, I'm okay. I love you," and hope that she doesn't see through my lie.

#this post is sponsored by bipolar delusions #writing this kind of... laid out all of my fears and problems #and i processed just how bad it is #i feel the need to clarify that the part about searching mt gf's phone isnt because im toxic #its because i had a delusion that she was cheating on me. despite there being no evidence #because that's how my bad brain works #she knows. i told her. shes not mad. and i would never do it again #but thats where the 'im out of control' part comes in #i knew it was wrong but i couldnt stop myself. the thoughts were so persistent. and thats no excuse. just an explanation #im going to talk to my psychiatrist next week and hopefully thatll come to something. im also going to start therapy #so hopefully i wont have to continue dealing with this fear and shit #but until Thursday i guess ill just deal

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