#WE R IN THE SAME BOAT COME RANT TO ME

[catfish-and-the]

VA N MCCANN

[mysicklove]

Can I rant to you please 🥺

If yes

All the time at school ( I'm a junior) I always see everyone and their s/o and I've never been in a relationship before and I really want to be but can't seem to find the right one. Can you give me advice?

Only if you want this is your choice completely 🧍

get your money up and the bitches come flocking 💪💪💪💪

but fr lovely, if i was getting dick rn do u think i would be lusting over 2-D men for hours upon hours? me have no advice. we r in the same boat icon 🤝. use this time to get them grades up, purrrrr

ur welcome to always rant about it tho, i just have no advice

[matan4il]

Hi, love your blog, this became kinda long sorry 😅

I just wanted to say that maybe it’s just me but I’ve never really had hope for buddie to be confirmed in the first place. Like I do ship them and if they did become canon I would be very happily surprised but really it’s just never something I’ve entertained as a possibility because we just don’t get ships like this imo. There’s a few exceptions even if I can’t think about this right now but when a character’s introduced as straight or nothing has been said so usually assumed straight and then fandom ships them with an equally assumed straight person the show and networks and all that don’t want them together because they’re ‘normal straight people’.

Like in LS from the beginning TK’s introduced with a bf he wants to propose to, they don’t lose their ‘normal’ character (obvs it is normal to be whatever flavour of queer you are but idk how to word it better) since that was him from the start.

Also if it’s acknowledged that all the buddie moments were building up to a romantic relationship then it sheds light on other similar relationships in other shows or films that we were ridiculed for shipping when really it’s not so different. I really don’t know if I got my point across here and I’m sorry this got so long winded, maybe I’m just a cynic but I think my buddie dreams will have to be contented with fanfiction.

Btw I don’t mean this to be mean to you or anyone who does believe buddie will go canon in the show I just accidentally typed out this rant that was meant to be a short ask.

Hi Nonnie, thank you so much for the kind words! Kindness always mean so much to me, there is nothing I appreciate as much... Sending you tons of love!

So, I fully agree with everything you said. I've mentioned before that there are almost no slow burns for mlm couples on TV. A part of that is that shows need to show they meet the diversity quota from the start. So we tend to get either pre-established same sex couples (like Henren), or quick burns, where we know from the start where this is going (like Mavid and Tarlos). Even if we have a character assumed straight that's gonna be discovered to be something else (gay or, more rarely, bi), that will be something we the audience will discover pretty early on. Shows don't like rocking the boat, they don't like threatening audiences' sense of security when it comes to sexual orientation. But there are exceptions! BIG round of applause to Black Sails for being the most brilliant about it with men, if we expand to women, I can also point to Callie Torres and Erica Hahn on Grey's Anatomy, who were both introduced as straight, became best friends and then slowly, realized they were into each other. Callie figured out she was bi, while Erica was hit by a realization she was always gay, she just didn't know she was because until she was with a woman, she couldn't tell something was missing in her r/s with men.

My point isn't to convince you, BTW! I think it is SUPER legit if you don't think Buddie is going canon. It is SUPER legit to think they are. It is SUPER legit to be confused, unsure, go back and forth or not give a damn. Wherever you're at, I support you, and I think your enjoyment in fandom is what matters! I also think you specifically have a slight advantage: if you don't need Buddie going canon and they do, then yay, right? But if they don't, you won't be disappointed. You'll be able to continue to enjoy the show and Buddie, same as before. It's a part of why I try not to get my expectations up, even though I do hope for canon!Buddie. 'Coz I wanna be able to enjoy their love story no matter what. Whatever Tim and Kristen do, Buddie is canon to me. And I don't want anyone taking that away from me. So while I tend to think 911 may have the balls to be one of the few exceptions, I'll be here even if it doesn't.

Basically, your POV is welcome here, as is that of others. I hope ranting helped and you feel good! ^u^ Have a great day!

You might notice, I'm scheduling a lot of replies to post on the same day, I am trying to catch up with my asks. If you're worried you might have missed one, as always, here's my ask tag. xoxox

[lazyrabbit755]

Ok so I finished Wednesday...

So first of all I wanna start by saying I really liked the series. I'm gonna go into detail about what I liked and didn't like and what I want to see improved in later seasons (assuming there are any). But overall no matter my criticisms overall I really liked the show as a whole! You might be asking yourself why I'm not just writing a review on IMDB or something? To which my reasoning is that this is my little blog and I am going to exercise my right to rant about my stupid little obsessions on the internet as much as I want!

Just a heads up I am going to go into spoilers so I would highly encourage you to watch the show first and come to your own decisions before reading what some rando on the internet has to say about it. Now with that out of the way, let's get into it...

The Good:

Obviously the art direction is great, I mean it's Tim Burton directing an Addams Family reboot, that's a match made in heaven! The characters were wonderful, I honestly think they carried the show imo. Eugene and Thing were some standouts to me although of course Bianca, Enid and Wednesday were my favorites. I just really feel like Eugene was like the MVP and like was consistently one of the nicest characters both to Wednesday and the other characters (although the scene where he barfs all over the pilgrim bullies was kinda dated, really felt like I was watching an early 2000s movie making fat jokes in poor taste) The music score was lovely it really sold the whole "Goth Girl Hogwarts" vibe which I don't mean as a jab towards Goths cause I'm obviously here for that or I wouldn't be writing about this show.

The not so good:

Tbh the whole teen romance subplot wasn't doing it for me. I mean I get why they wrote it in but it felt kinda forced at times ngl. Like having Wednesday go back and forth between Tyler and Xavier, (the two most boring "straight guy" names of all time btw) after a while it felt like writers ran out of excuses on why Wednesday would be leaving one of the boys hanging while pursuing the other. Yes a lot of people have complained about how boring in general Xavier and Tyler were as characters and I agree! You had on one had an artsy loner boyfriend who has psychic abilities and the power to LITERALLY MAKE HIS DRAWINGS COME TO LIFE and they managed to make him uninteresting and kinda unlikable (that last one being more subjective to myself but you get the point). And on the other hand a literal serial killer boyfriend who turns into a 10ft tall monster with a mommy kink. And like just saying the whole idea that Laurel controls Tyler because she told him the truth about his mother also being a Hyde was kinda weak. Like just say the kid has mommy issues!

In all honesty the main gripe that I have with the show is actually about Wednesday herself. She didn't really get that much character development throughout the season. YES her relationship with Enid was very cute and I love Enid...BUT...the show even acknowledges that Wednesday is kinda a jerk to her friends. Enid straight up tells her to her face that she doesn't like the way she treats her, bringing her along to dangerous investigations and tricking her with the promise of a girls night out. And before we knew that Tyler was the real killer he was in the same boat. I mean she leads him on prioritizing herself first and her investigation and uses him to get what she wants. Same with Xavier who REALLY got the short end of the stick getting PUT IN FUCKING JAIL (even if it was only for a night or so). It felt like towards the second half of the season that Wednesday was going through a series of selfish decisions and having characters highlight them to her face so that she could reflect on her bad actions and grow as a character. But instead of giving us that payoff she literally doesn't grow OR APOLOGIZE to basically anyone! And when she does apologize it's weak as hell! Instead most of the characters she treats like crap come to her and apologize or attempt to rekindle their relationship. I MEAN FOR GOD'S SAKE Enid literally tells Wednesday TO HER FACE, that she is the one making most of the effort in their friendship and instead of apologizing, Wednesday just tells her she doesn't need friends and that she's a gigachad alpha. And Enid just comes back like an episode later and has a change of heart. And her "apology" to Xavier was just pathetic. He just sorta forgave her for everything after being justifiably pissed the fuck off at her for ruining his life and then suddenly forgives her for everything because she took an arrow to the shoulder for him.

Like it feels like the writers ran out of time or something, like they wanted her relationship with Enid and the other characters to have more depth. Like most of the other side characters have at least decent character development arcs, like Enid and Bianca standing up to their Mothers. The thing is I like Wednesday as a character, contrary to what you might have just read I want to root for her! But the writers made it a bit hard towards the end. I know they wanted to sell the whole Goth girl, raven from teen titans, attitude but it's ok guys you can make her a little more likable.

Conclusions:

You may think that I have been a bit harsh or nitpicky about the show. Or perhaps you're thinking "Why the hell did this loser nobody write several paragraphs about some dumb teen drama Netflix show" to which my response is why are you still reading? YES I'm probably a bit harsh on this series or nitpicky but that's because I like it so much! When something that you enjoy is so close to being "perfect" (or at least really well done) it's all the more disappointing when it just barely falls short. If your favorite sports team loses by one point right before the final whistle you're even more crushed that you would've been if they had lost by 8 points.

To conclude despite the cheesy teen romance plot lines and boring ass love interests, I enjoyed my time with this show and if there are more seasons to come (which it's looking like there will be considering the success of the show) I want to see the show do better and improve upon it's previous seasons.

If you read all that borderline incomprehensible word vomit here's a gold star 🌟 you deserve it. 👍 And hey, Thanks for stopping by! I hope you have a great rest of your day/night and if you watched the show lemme know if you agreed with some stuff I said or you think I'm fucking insane for caring so much and writing all this. Either way it's just a show at the end of the day. :)

[tendous-socks]

TOKYO REVENGERS HEADCANONS OF ME BEING NON BINARY / REACTING TO SOMEONE BEING NON BINARY

tw: ⚠️⚠️kisaki⚠️⚠️ and manga spoilers, mentions of death, transphobia,

would misgender and dead-name me

1.kisaki.

must i need an explanation?😐

2. shion

“ what’re you gonna do about it?? HUH?? WHAT’RE YOU GONNA DO ABOUT IT ???”

actively looks for a fight

… if y’all are in a relationship he’d still call you his “girl” but beats people up for doing so….

3. mucho

i get the vibes that he’s traditional

would silently stare in judgment

4. mochi

he just doesn’t care clslfkxkslk

thinks it’s weird

“ nor/mal”

7. rindou..

“you either have a pen or a vag. “

8.ran

“interesting”

*continues dead naming me*

9. KOKO

he would be nicer about it when he’s in toman due to inui… but once they’re separated- an ABSOLUTE MEANCE

… reluctantly apart of the protection squad with inui ( enjoys beating people up tho)

10. bontent mikey

… he’s just so tired and doesn’t really care ) that is if you’re not close with him… but then again how close can you really get?)

11. ) PAH CHIN

AND ONLY BECAUSE HE WAS IGNORANT AND HIS FATHER DIDN BELIEVE IN THAT STUFF AND HE DIDNT KNOW BUT THEN ( if y’all are close ) HE’D FEEL BAD AND AFTER YOU EXPLAINED IT TO HIM HE TOLD PEH CHIN TOO AND WERE SURPRISINGLY SUPPORTIVE

but if y’all ain’t close he would slowly get the hint… this is canon.

because i said so-

11. sanzu…

he’s quietly judging you

EDIT

SOMEONE SAID SANZU WOULD USE ANY PRONOUNS AND I REALLY LIKE THAT HC-

SO SANZU WOULD PROBABLY JUST ‘ SILENTLY JUDGE YOU’ SO OTHERS DONT CATCH ON MHMHM

12. akashi

traditional- plus it was a different era for him growing up so…

(would glare at someone if he really did see you getting emotionally distressed)

13. smiley

“ that’s one of the most stupidest shit ive ever fucking heard 😁”

.🙁

“ you either have tits or a dick “

.☹️

but would beat people up if you get SUPER upset ( call it his protect instincts with angry, but would send people to the hospital)

14. taiju

“ i wanna church girl who goes to church and reads her bible “

would spit at me

- WHO WOULD BEAT SOMEONE UP FOR DEAD-NAMING / MISGENDERING

1. PAH CHIN AND PEH YAN

THEYRE ABSOLUTE MENACES TO SOCIETY IF SOMEONE CALLS YOU A GIRL / BOY

head canon : during tenjiku you were there and had to adjust your transtape cause it was coming lose 🙄

which is literally the most annoying thing in the world-

and shion saw you.

he came up and was like “ HUH WHAT’VE WE GOT HERE?? A GIRL PRETENDING TO BE A G-“

couldn’t even finish his sentence with how fast peh chin clocked his ass 🤭

( peh yan supremacy)

2. my main man takemichy

no explanation needed ( maybe deadnamed you only once cause he didn’t know)

3. inui cause i said so

5. BAJI BAJI

BAJI WOULD ALMOST KILL A DUDE FOR CALLING YOU YOUR DEAD NAME

i KNOW mama baji raised him right ✋🙄

almost clocked chifuyu when you told him about your first encounter kcksldofospdoco

almost clocked your mom when she said “you got it girlfriend”

she was confused when she saw you desperately trying to prevent the next criminal minds episode

best listener for body dystrophia fight me 🙉❤️

6. senju

*comes out*

“..oh okay! anyways as i was saying [preferred name] “

would need some gentle reminders only once or twice cause i will say it does take a bit of time for people to get used to it and there are always a few slip ups

tells akashi about your pronouns ( ONLY WITH YOUR CONSENT OFC)

( promises to try and be more girly if he calls you by them and your preferred name)

she wants you to go into more details about what you’re feeling cause she’s genuinely very interested about everything and she wants to know more about you.

7. emma 😻 vv supportive 🙌🙌

*sicks mikey and draken out on anyone who hurts your feelings

“you know [blah blah blah] from history?”

“of course yeah “

“yeah he ended up calling me slur during class- what’re you doing?”

*emma pulling out her phone

“hm? oh nothing don’t worry about it”

gave more insight about it to draken and mikey

8. HINA

YALL SAW HOW SHE SLAPPED MIKEY-

THIS GIRL WOULD D R A G A BITCH BY THEIR HAIR IF SHE SAW THEM BULLYING YOU

the one of correct takemichy

9. yuzuha

hina but 10x worse

trips transphobes for shit and giggles 🤪🤞

i like to think that the girls (all 4) would just all stare down a girl who was shit talking you and just pick her apart mercilessly ( a little ooc but this is my head canons so they can be whatever i say they are)

ones idk about

1. mikey

he knows that you can handle yourself so he lets you correct people.

or

sometimes he’ll jump in and correct them instead for one of two reasons.

1. he felt like it

2. they kept calling you your dead name and misgendering you EVEN THOUGH you already corrected them

but if the person ACTIVELY does that and says some… not so fruity things. he’ll send em to the hospital and end up on life support 😌☝️

like dom tertto, he cares about his family. and toman is his family, and you’re in toman ( not THAT kind of y/n way 🙄 )

“ BE WHO YOU AREE🌈🌈🌈🌈🤪🤞🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈”

1. draken

… listen… idk why, but i just don’t SEE him beating people up for misgendering me… well okay i kinda see it,

but he’d be like, “ i don’t understand what you’re going through, but i support you and if you want to talk about it i’m here”

wants to try and understand so like i said before, he lets you rant about what you’re feeling

would let you handle your own battles cause your strong enough to

a true king 😎🙌

does in fact throw punches when it gets REALLY BAD

2. angry

… idk h o w empathic he is and how mad he’d have to be on your behalf when people actively kept misgendering you to become the blue ogre.

but he’d just start crying at the confrontation.. 😐

my hero ig 🤥

3. izana

“ that’s fucking stupid”

*beats up middle aged woman who said for you to “ have a good day ma’am”

but if y’all close he’ll only say it’s stupid once when he sees you genuinely upset and ignoring him

“ be who you are.. 🌈”

4. kaku

same boat as izana, A LOT less judgmental

5. mitsuya

won’t hesitate to send a bitch flying

actively corrects people

( teaches luna and mana about your pronouns for the next time you come over 🕺🏻)

TAKES YOU SHOPPING FOR CLOTHES

6. haitani brothers

*actively bullies you

*bullies kid into the grave for looking at your chest area

7. …hakkai

he accidentally slipped up once🤒

WHEN I SAY THIS MANS FACE WENT PALE- HE DIDNT TALK TO YOU FOR A W E E K MINIUM CAUSE HE FELT SO BAD

YOU KEPT TELLING HIM THAT ITS FINE-

BUT HE FELT AWFUL

( has nightmares about it)

8. chifuyu would only do it in his mohawk era cause he wanted to seem metal and impress da boys 🥶🥶☝️☝️

pulled you aside at the end of the day to apologize

( like i said before, baji almost clocked him when you told him about your first encounter )

who am i kidding they’re all in gangs, they’d probably kill someone if they hurt you cospwpfoslief

——————

IF YALL GOT ANYMORE IDEAS LMK CAUSE IM INVESTED IN YHIS AND WANNA HEAR WHAT YALL THINK

[shadyteacup]

you by no mean have to respond to this, just wanna get it off my chest. my whole life i’ve been a straight a student, but now it’s my first semester in college and geez, i’m struggling. 3/4 of classes have b’s right now and one of them is teetering super close to a c. i get that b’s are still good grades and all, but i’m so worried that my parents are going to think that now that i’m on my own i’m just not trying, even though i am, really hard. i just don’t want to let anyone down or make them think less of me and i’m so so stressed and i just don’t know what to do

Believe me when I say that I understand you. I am in the same boat. We have 3 sems n my first semester is going to end on December 10. And honestly, idek how I'm gonna do.

College is difficult, and as u said, a b is still a good grade. But parents tend to overlook that, maybe because they want u to get the best of your curriculum, or maybe it's as simple as the fact that it's been too long since they have been our age, and don't know how it works nowadays.

I wrote and scratched my answer many times, and this ask has been in my drafts ever since I first read it. But I'm confident with what I wanna say to u, now.

In my previous scraps, I poured my heart out and ranted about how depressing this year has been for me, but nobody wants to hear abt that, because we all have our painful episodes. We're new adults, life's both amazing and shitty, and studying is hard... but yk what? The fact that ur trying is enough. Yes, maybe it's not fetching u a sparkly 'A' , but atleast ur trying and haven't given up. Ur tenacity and determination are ur biggest strengths, don't ever lose them. Hard work and genius comes later.

Mostly, parents aren't able to comprehend low grades because they don't see u try. What I do is simple: I study when they're around, so that they can see for themselves that I'm trying and giving it my best. Most of the times we end up hiding away in our rooms and studying away from sight. That leads to ppl thinking that u don't study at all! Whereas you know how many hours u have been sacrificing from ur sleep.

If u show them, they will believe u!

If u don't live with them, then maybe send them snaps(?) (Idk, every family has a unique way of communicating) or maybe whatsapp msgs that subtly let them know that ur studying.

Maybe don't go online for a while, let them ask u where u have been, n then reply with, "oh, no I was just busy studying"

Uk?

And don't stress urself. Believe me, I have cried so much and stressed so so so much this year because of clg n admissions etc, and it has never done me any good. It always leads to rash decisions, red eyes and a messed up sleep schedule.

Take deep breaths, take breaks. Yes, watch a slice of life show/anime/movie, unwind and do sm u really enjoy. Give urself a break from the stressful deadlines and submissions and just take a day or two off, and pamper urself. It'll reduce the stress, and help u score better too!

Not being good in clg doesn't make them love u any less. They love u for you, not ur scores. Always remember that. Don't make ur confidence depend on ur academic prowess. I do that too, and it's a really bad attribute. Because one day ur feeling on top of the world, and the minute u start doing bad in class, ur confidence dips rlly low. Don't do that.

Know ur worth. U r an amazing human being, and ur scores aren't the ones making you so awesome. It's your qualities, personality, strengths and weaknesses that make u who u are, and u are beautiful and freaking awesome n ily very much♡

Also, if ur close with them, try telling them about ur insecurities. Try explaining to them that u r trying hard, nd that u fear them thinking less of u. You'd be surprised by how quick they will be to dismiss that. Because they love u, n they love u unconditionally.

[jjmaebank]

Wildflower 🌼 - JJ Maybank

a/n: yes it’s me, Nikki, back with another 5sos song fic and I'm not mad about it. @aron-pipers-whore​ inspired me to write this so this one’s for u !! (also ik the flowers r rlly big idk why Tumblr has done this)

I loved this because the whole basis behind the lyrics of this song are parts in the chorus are left out so the listener can actually fill them in with whatever they feel fits best. so here I've filled in the missing lyrics with my interpretation !!

Words: 1.5k

[GIF NOT MINE]

❀

I hear you callin’ out my name I love the sound, I love the taste

❀

You were at a typical beach party with the pogues, the beach was littered with tourons and even some kooks that dared to mingle on the other side of the island. The music was loud, deafening even, but the mood was perfect. You were pretty drunk, but just the right amount thanks to JJ’s mixing skills. You were convinced he’d been a bartender in his previous life; he knew how to concoct the perfect drink that tasted like pure ecstasy but that would have you wishing you’d never taken a sip the next morning. But that was what you were feeling right now, pure ecstasy, and you certainly were not complaining about it.

JJ admired you dancing as he sat in the sand, sipping his beer. He swore his heart would stop every time he saw your hair flip from side to side as you moved your head to the music. He felt butterflies erupt throughout his whole body as he watched you sway your hips, your bare skin glistening in the moonlight. But hearing you call his name? There was only one word to describe it, euphoric.

“JJ! Come dance!” You yelled over the music, sticking your index finger out and motioning for him to come to you.

That was all you had to say, his name, and he would obey. You owned him, and you had no idea. The way his name rolled off your tongue made him swear that if the letters ‘J’ weren't coming from your lips, he didn’t want to hear it. JJ was absolutely mesmerised by you. 

You’d hooked up a few times over the summer, every time being after another one of these wild parties, the both of you drunk out of your minds. But you would never mention it afterwards, you'd simply go back to being your normal selves, acting as if it had never even happened.

But after every drunk hook up you had, JJ would long for you more. At first, he thought it was simply a sexual attraction he couldn’t control, but soon enough it became so much more than that. His lust for you was insatiable. You were constantly on his mind, from the moment you left his bed to the moment you fell back in drunkenly. Pretty soon JJ realised what he had for you wasn’t just lust, it was love. He was in love with you.

❀

And I can see it in your face You’ve got a side you can’t explain

❀

You were an enigma. JJ couldn’t figure you out no matter how long he spent trying to decipher your body language, your words, your facial expressions. He was completely in the dark as to whether you reciprocated any sort of feelings towards him. But that was part of what excited him so much about you. You were unreachable, despite the countless times he’d had you.

You had this wild side to you that made you completely unpredictable and he loved it. He’d never had to experience chasing after a girl as they’d usually chase after him, he’d never had to work for it. But with you? It was like a game he had no idea if you were even participating in, and it drove him crazy.

He could see you wanted him from the look in your eyes as you called him over. He knew you were trying to entice him by wearing those low rise shorts and by moving your hips like that. But did you want him the same way he wanted you?

❀

You’re tellin’ me, tellin’ me, tellin’ me you wanna come over You wanna be, wanna be, wanna be, wanna be closer I love it when you wear your hair down over your shoulder ‘Cause I wanna hold ya ‘Cause I know where tonight is going

❀

“So, yours or mine tonight?” You asked, slurring your words, continuing to move in unison with the music.

“It’s gonna have to be yours tonight,” JJ smirked, wrapping his arms around your waist.

You slapped his hands away jokingly, “not quite yet you don’t”

The things you did to this boy. All night he’d been gawking over you, longing to touch you, but you were having your fun teasing him. JJ would even go as far to say tormenting, that’s how bad he wanted you.

You started dancing closer to him, close enough so that your skin was almost touching his. JJ bit his lip as he looked you up and down, exhaling shakily as he tried his hardest not to throw you over his shoulder and carry you to his car just to do it in the backseat. You began to trace your fingers over his biceps causing the hairs on his arms to stick up...but they weren't all that were planning on sticking up that night.

You moved your shoulders side to side as you lowered your body closer to the floor, never breaking eye contact with him. You knew exactly what you were doing. JJ looked down at you, trying so hard not to imagine what else he wished you were doing or else he’d have to cross his legs for the remainder of the night.

“Fuck, (Y/N),” he gasped. You had barely touched him and he was out of breath.

You ran your fingers up your body as you rose up to eye level with him and you saw his eyes widen as you played with the strap of your top. But before he could say anything, you flashed a quick grin before turning around and flipping your hair over your shoulder. You walked away, giving him one quick look over the shoulder before going to sit with Kie who seemed to be lecturing some poor touron on leaving beer cans on the beach.

❀

You’re the only one who makes me feel alive Every time we touch I’ll tell you what I like My wildflower

❀

Later that night, you ended up in bed with JJ as expected. JJ laid there speechless and out of breath, his skin on fire from every where you’d touched him. You seemed so innocent but every time you got intimate with one another you exposed more and more of your wild side. You had made JJ, JJ the notorious player and ladies man, feel things he’d never felt before. You had made him feel more alive than he’d ever felt before.

You had fallen asleep next to him for the first time ever. Usually you or him would leave almost immediately after finishing, despite the countless times JJ had wanted to stay and hold you.

JJ admired your beautiful features as you slept. Your previous erratic self was now at peace, and he revelled in the fact you were lying next to him. He hesitated at first, but he began to trace his fingers across your jawline, moving his finger tips gently up the side of your face and then back down the bridge of your nose, the sound of your exhales putting him in a trance.

JJ leant over your body carefully, making sure not to wake you, and placed a kiss on your lips. It was a long, sensual kiss and much calmer than any the two of you had shared before. JJ almost laughed at the fact that you were asleep and wouldn’t ever know about it; but he wanted you to.

He wanted the two of you to be closer, he wanted to tell you how he felt, but his fear of rejection was too powerful for him to ever reveal it. Having whatever it was you had now was better than not having you at all.

❀

You know you are my favourite fantasy A fatal love song Waterfall is overflowin’

❀

The next day you were all hanging out at the Chateau, telling funny stories about the night before.

“And he just threw his beer can on the sand! I had to tell him off, it’s like...it’s not that hard to care about the environment,” Kie ranted, making you all chuckle a bit.

JJ had hardly been paying attention, he’d been staring at you the whole time, not being able to stop thinking about you. He’d told himself last night that he could never tell you how he felt, how he wanted you to be more than a fantasy. He was scared that confessing his love for you might end in disaster, but seeing you again in a sober state just made his longing for you grow more intense.

He wanted to be able to hold you and kiss you in front of his friends, in front of the world. He wanted to be able to call you his. His love for you had reached breaking point; his fear had acted like a dam, stopping the water from overflowing, and he couldn’t contain it anymore.

The lot of you had decided to go for a boat trip and John B, Kie and Pope were packing up the van, leaving you and JJ in John B’s kitchen, alone. 

“I’m gonna go help them load the van,” you smiled at JJ before getting up from your chair.

“Wait...” JJ responded immediately, his heart rate going through the roof.

You stood still and looked down at the blonde haired boy who had grabbed your arm instinctively to stop you from leaving.

“What’s up?” You frowned, you could feel the clamminess of his hands on your arm. He was nervous.

“I have to tell you something...” JJ said, looking up at you.

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a/n: tagging some lovely people as I haven’t come up w a full taglist yet : @maybe-maybanks​ , @baby-bearie​ , @obx-sos​ , @drewtruly​ , @spilledtee​ , @outerpogues​ , @languorlust​ , @thebutterflyonhischest​ , @poguemacking​ , @drewstarkey​ , @outrbank​ , @drew-starkey​ , @jjtheangel​

[flyingpurplepeopleeater42]

I realised I haven't ranted about any movie for a long while so please have a childhood fave. 'Taare Zameen Par'- It's about a kid who loves to draw but performs poorly at academics. He is sent off to a boarding school as punishment (is this punishment just Indian or happens elsewhere too?) where his new art teacher figures out he is dyslexic and helps him. This movie has a lot of emotional moments and made me misty-eyed as a kid and still has the same effect. (Don't worry I am an over emotional kid.)

YES ANOTHER MOVIE REC💙💙💙💙

Hehe this is gonna be a long post so

*in Scar's voice* 🎶BE PREPAAAARED🎶

First some incoherent thoughts I had while watching the movie. (I did it with the Merlin episode yesterday an I liked it so I am gonna do it again today)

Nice title sequence. I dig it. It's not boring as the 99.9% of title sequences so cheers to that.

Why is that kid messing with dirty water ?!?!

Okay the scene with the fish was cute.

Those children are awful. Just go and collect the damn ball by yourselves it's not that difficult

Wow that main kid is a really good actor.

WHAT THE FUCK ?!?!??! HE HIT HIM?!??!?!?! WHAT IS IT WITH INDIAN(AND GREEK I ASSURE YOU) PARENTS AND BEATING ?!?!?! DO YOU THINK BEATING YOUR CHILD WILL HELP THEM?!?!?!?!?MAKE THEM A BETTER PERSON OR SOMETHING?!?!??!?!DO I EVEN NEED TO EXPLAIN WHY FEAR AND PHYSICAL ABUSE ARE NEVER HELPFUL?!?!

FUCK THIS FATHER

wtf there's a song now ?!?Okay I like the song! Oh this song rocks. THIS IS A BOP. Yup the song was a brilliant way to introduce all the characters.

OH MY GOD!!! Are Ishaan's teacher completely dumb ?? I dont know shit about psychology AND EVEN I KNOW what "The letters are dancing " probably means.

Ishaan wtf are you licking the painting ?

Oh another song. Nice song.

Okay the-maths-who-turned-into-solar-system animation scene was brilliant.

Oh no! No! No no no! They found the absent note. FUCK.

Oh my God STOP FUCKING BEATING THE KID.

Oh yes. Love the parents' reactions to Ishaan's grades. The father is afraid that his son is the r-word and the mother gives the "what have I done wrong" talk. Good job guys.👏 Totally never heard those before🤦🏻‍♀️🙄

Yes ofc the kid is having nightmares. YOU'RE ABANDONING HIM!!!!!!

Off to the boarding school I guess.

Oh they value discipline🤢 there. Great 😢🙃

Why the fuck we ,as a society , leave children to be looked after by people who clearly hate them ?!?!

Also why is that boy such a good actor.

Jajankahwkwhejueiehwjehehhdhgs the flip book hajjajwhwjhwjwuwkwhjejeueueuehje NO I AM NOT CRYING JSJWJWJWJ😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Is that man supposed to be a teacher ?!?

WDYM "WHAT'S THE MEANING OF THIS POEM"?!?!??! THESE ARE 3RD GRADERS?!?!??!

Wait. He actually gave a pretty good interpretation of the poem. Good job Ishaan.

OFC THE DAMN TEACHER DIDN'T EVEN UNDERSTAND WHAT ISHAAN SAID. I mean you need a brain to understand such things and he clearly lacks that part of human anatomy.

The top student boy is really nice. I like him.

Wtf?!?!?! Is that an art teacher?!?!?! What a disgrace to the art teacher profession in general. Who's gonna tell him that beating children is ABUSE.

Why do all the teachers look like they're the same person but with a slightly different wig and accent?!

YES!!FUCKING YES!!🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳THAT IS AN ART TEACHER. OH MY GOD HE'S GONNA SING NOW ?!?! JJAHWJHWJWH MY FACE HURTS FROM ALL THAT SMILING.

Awwwwwwww🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 He said " there's no hurry" to Ishaan. Awwwwwwww🥰🥰

F U C K T H E O T H E R T E A C H E R S. Nice motto guys. Order🤢Discipline🤢Labour🤢. That def doesn't sound like it's about the fuckin military.

That "h*il h*tler" was a pretty good point.

THANK GOD SOMEONE NOTICED THAT ISHAAN WAS NOT OKAY.

Omg the Tulip school theatre performance. GUESS WHO'S CRYING AGAIN?!

Wait- Did the older son just apologised TO HIS FATHER for losing a stupid tennis match ?!?!?!

Ishaan's paintings>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

NOT THE FLIP BOOK AGAIN😭😭😭😭😭😭

Oh the father again. SIR WITH ALL DUE RESPECT (which is none. No respect is due there) FUCK YOU. GO JOIN EWTHER'S CLUB FOR INCOMPETENT AND EMOTIONALLY ABUSIVE FATHERS AND LEAVE YOUR SON ALONE.

Oh the awesome teacher is gonna tell a story. Jsjahshjshsh HE MENTIONED EINSTEIN AND DA VINCI. WAIT EDISON WAS DYSLEXIC TOO?!? AND AGATHA CHRISTIE?!?! AND PICASSO?!?!?I DIDN'T KNOW THIS.HSHSJSH

Wait- ISHAAN BUILT THAT BOAT ?!!?

Oh and when I thought I couldn't love the art teacher more he started quoting Oscar Wilde🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

"So you dont take us for the kind of parents who do not care" UUUUUUGHHHH

OH MY FUCKING GOD ISHAAN'S PAINTING NSJSJJWJWKWJWHKWJWKWJSJKSJEJEJENKEKENEJDJHDJDJEHEJEJDUEJWHIENKLJ

He WON 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳

The last shot of Ishaan rising to the sky with the help of his teacher= poetic cinema.

Okay and after that incoherent mess I have to say. Amazing film. I was hooked form start to finish (and it was a 2h42min film) . Loved the subject matter. The boy was an amazing actor. And Aamir Khan was great as always.

Bottom line is your movie recs are 👌🏼👌🏼👌🏼👌🏼👌🏼

Fun fact : The word "dyslexia" basically comes form dys / δυσ (which means bad) and lexis / λέξη (which means word ) so it can basically be translated as "bad with words"

(this come from my pretty basic knowledge of ancient greek so it might not be 10000% accurate)

Finally to answer you question. Idk about elsewhere but I haven't heard of greek boarding schools. I dont think we have that here. And def not as a punishment.

[tabithahallows]

I'm bored so imma rant about my hp o.c and no one can stop me :)

Meet my salty snake child Val (aka, Valentine Lestrange) (aka Valentine Elladora Druella Lestrange) (aka that %100 that bitch) She is the star of an ongoing fic of mine beware of spoilers (TRIGGER WARNING: mentions of abuse and violence)

If the name didn't give it away, she's only child of them crazy mofos Bellatrix and Rodolphus

Yes I am aware that it's kind of an overdone trope but it's overdone cause it's awesome (also I made her when I was like 13 so shut up)

Lives with the Malfoy's cause her rents are rotting in a cell duh

When she was 8 Dumbledore randomly appeared in her garden and was like to wanna buy some drugs join my evil snake man killing and Chosen One protection team cause you're such a badass and she was like lol ye okay and it shapes the entire plot

It's a secret so Val has to act like a crazy sadistic blood purist but sike it's all an act. She just keeps up the appearance so one can guess she's actually just tryna protect Harry all the time cause plot and she's actually rlly good at it btw (all the fun of a villain while still being a good person)

Her besties are her shitty cus Draco, life long irritation Leah Lovat (o.c), sweetie angel child whom they all love and protect Olivia Benson (o.c), basic but charming ass kid Liam Highcourt (o.c) and Blaze Zambini yea you read that right I don't spell his name correctly it's a long story (cannon honestly written so ooc that it doesn't matter at this point)

They are all basically nuts. Just overdramatic twats with questionable upbringing's. They are all trash but you will love them. You have no choice

Val is a genius, like a for real prodigy type deal in both academics, magically ability and wit. Legit %89 percent of the stuff that comes out of her mouth is just sarcasm

She only wears black cause she's a melodramatic dumbass but would never admit it

She's also scary af. Has half the school traumatized within a week

Sinnamon roll™

What's shorter? Her or her patience? We will never know

Actually has morals and doesn't agree with her fams purist views

Has the best dynamic with Snapey Kins from a writers point of view. He knows that she's involved with Dumbledores Plan™ and before you freak there is NO romantic/sexual relationship between Val and Snape (it's legit just a slow burn friendship that neither of them wants to admit to)

Val and Snape openly hate each other's guts and can't be in the same immediate area without screaming at each other. He's petty and she's vindictive so shit hits the fan often and quickly. They're basically just as bad as each other when you really get down to it. Val pretty much tells Snape that he's a useless bitch (paraphrasing) on the first day of class and the rest is history

Everyone gets used to it super quick and just lets them go for it because it's not worth getting caught in the crossfire. Dumbledore finds it amusing but only for the first couple of years cause come one guys can you stop screaming we got shit to do

It's her job to protect Harry so can you imagine can you fucking fathom how stressful that shit is? cause the boy is always in trouble or some kind of danger and Val is just like BOI STAPH standing in the Quidditch stands hoping he don't die

Val and Snape slowly very slowly develop into having a seriously convoluted and overprotective friendship while still managing to hate each other so they would kill for one another but would also still kill each other. They do end up genuinely caring about one another an it's h e a r t b r e a k i n g

Yo I never said it was a healthy friendship we are dealing with two very fucked up individuals here in a high stress high stakes situation, my lads. I'm not trying to write the kind of friendship ppl should actually have (Val and Snape need so much therapy tbh)

Val's a badass that can handle anything and more but like she's also human so after while things get a lil you know

t r a m a t i c

She didn't have a fantastic childhood btw cause Lucius Malfoy is an abusive prick and Narcissa means well but needs to do so much better.

She will fight you anywhere anytime and she will win because she's kinda overpowered for a literal child but it fits my aesthetic so whatever

She's aroace (so no romantic plot involving her in sight) she just doesn't know for a while cause her life is a constant shit show

Has a proper upper-class aristocratic lady upbringing but still turned out to be a feral child

She is super short by the way literally doesn't hit 5'0 until she's like 14 (Blaze is in the same boat). Cause Snape is like 6'0 or something he can just pick her up and throw her if he wants but she starts fighting like a feral cat the second he touches her

She's really protective of her friends and her cousin and will kill you if you so much as look at them wrong. She knows they are trash but they are Her Trash™

She's actually a super lovable character and you will want to adopt her because she's amazing and no I will not accept hate because she is MY CHILD OKAY

There is so much angst going on oh my god Val never gets a fucking break cause life be like that sometimes

Okay that's it folks I swear it's so much better than it actually sounds or maybe it's not meh

@fandomssaremysoul @incorrect-pretending-to-hate

[steve0discusses]

Yugioh S4 Ep1 Part 1: Yugi Ditches Algebra, Cards Become Real

Ah, a new season a new day. It’s Season 4. And we’re going to start of with:

A deep sea sub. Sure, why not?

So Yugi’s unofficial other grandpa, Arthur Hawkins, AKA one of the member’s of this show’s only really happening OTP has decided to kinda ditch his Granddaughter Rebecca and go to the bottom of the ocean. Don’t blame him. Down here is where, I guess, he will come across this very Grecian looking structure.

Like Yugioh nonchalantly passes a lot of bad history at me but like...he’s in the Atlantic Ocean and there’s Grecian style stuff everywhere?

Why? I mean at least he’s not in the Pacific but like...Yugioh. Anyways, we’re not in Greece but the show had very little time to invent a brand new ancient architecture style although I would be super down for that.

But like...here’s the thing about columns--you can go really deep into column lore and people are really freakin picky about columns and what they mean, and this could have been a low key hilarious place to make an entirely new column order just for Yugioh. They could’ve done it and they decided not to. It’s OK, I’ll save it for the Marik’s Boat Time spinoff they’ll never ever make.

But I just want to bring up just real super fast that Noah and Gozaburo must’ve known about this place for years right? Like they super lived underwater and had robots poised to attack mankind stationed all over the sea floor so...we can pretty much guarantee they already knew about this place?

Just gonna bring up what a shame it is Noah freakin died.

Also want to bring up what a shame it was that Arthur didn’t show up at the beginning of S3 and be like “hey Yugi, I was just in the neighborhood, noticed you got picked up by an undersea gang, what’s up?”

(read more under the cut)

Anyway, there he is, our 70 yo adventurer, who has more energy than I have at under half his age. Arthur Hawkins needs to take it down a few pegs.

Or is it Hawkings?

Wtv.

Anyways, I gave Hawkins this tweed colored font that I just realized is nearly the same as Joey’s so it’ll change if he ever comes back.

Thanks for that prologue, Yugioh. Anyway, apparently no one on this side of Japan freakin cares, because despite finding what looks exactly like Godzilla’s lair on the bottom of the sea, we’re gonna instead fixate on Rex and Weevil.

Y’all I was going to make a joke about “why does this show fixate so much on Rex and Weevil at the beginning of so many arcs?” when I remembered that Bakura basically murdered all the other mean mini bosses from S1 except for Bandit Keith, who probably got deported by now.

I had to think long and hard just now about whether or not I’ve used that joke before because it is S4 and y’all I just don’t even remember.

(I have a very long story about Warby Parker that I just deleted fyi)

Rex is a Christmas plaid now because there are too many characters in this show.

Now that Rex and Weevil have been reunited, which is surprising because I just assumed these two have been Bert and Ernie-ing it up in some condo in the NYC, They say:

I almost forgot about the secret side-plot of Yugioh, that everyone is a cheese monger and very open about it.

So anyway, they’re off to have a very simple storyline of “I will try and Challenge Yugi Muto for God Cards” which...good luck with that, it only took 2 seasons for Yugi to finally accept his challenge from Seto Kaiba. Have fun following around Yugi Muto for 2 seasons.

When there’s a...really bizarre twist that happens. Just a very weird turn of events. Like recall that it’s the middle of the day, and the sun is shining, and there’s people and cars everywhere, and it’s a good neighborhood, and then, like playing Pokemon in tall grass, this guy just appears in front of them.

And guys, I’m from the Bay Area and I have slipped and fallen right on top of my phone on Fillmore which was DEVASTATING so like...their unstoppable speed walk down this 12 degree slope is...

I think they wanted to run into them, I really think they did. I think people in this town are so desperate for any excuse to fall into a horrifying disaster that they are just magnetically attracted to anyone wearing an oversized blanket.

Also this guy’s look is...kind of forgettable. It’s somehow weird and also forgettable at the same time. Hit that sweet spot for me. I don’t even remember this guy’s name, it was so forgettable. I’ll look it up later. Maybe bro will do it. I dunno. He wears a Monocle so like...that’s all I can say about this guy.

OK so I just checked in with Bro and then Bro made a weird rant about this guy being called Gurimo and how bro had some strong opinions about Season 4. Then Bro said a statement that really stuck with me, although I only remember part of the statement which was: “...this guy can just go get more monocles from Forever 21 and Hot Topic...” which made me very quickly realize my adult brother has never entered either a Forever 21 or a Hot Topic if he thinks a cultist in a monocle would purchase monocles from there.

I learned a lot and now you have to know this too.

And in case you’re wondering “did Rex and Weevil deserve this?” No. He just immediately decided to steal their soul on the sidewalk in front of Women’s Foot Locker from what I assume is just down the street from Yugi Muto’s house/game shop.

(how did this storyboarder nail the 3/4 degree angle on Weevil here? Do you know how hard that is to do with not just glasses but weird ass chunky glasses?)

Ah, a duel disk that can stab yourself in the stomach with two very poorly laid out barbs.

Very nice rival to Kaiba’s duel disk that will behead you if you don’t fling your arm out just right.

So like...did he steal a duel disk from Kaiba and then mod it? Is that what they did? The whole point of duel disks is that you’re linked up to the Dueling Facebook or whatever...so did this Cultist buy a normal duel disk from Toy’s R Us and then say “ahahah I’m going to do so much card crime!” and then start modding it with help of a cosplay forum? Like what’s the story here of how this guy spent all of last year (and definitely all of last season) modding this duel disk over a computer desk, some metallic acrylic paint, and a sauntering iron, feverishly asking his forum if anyone can 3d print some sick ass runes for his soul-sucking duel disk?

And then I guess this guy dueled both Rex and Weevil at the same time? Like this was all off screen...but why didn’t Rex and Weevil just leave? Just don’t pull out your duel disk and you’re probably good?

Just so many ways to have avoided losing your soul in the first ten minutes of Yugioh.

Anyway, on the other side of town, Tea is worrying about Yugi which is basically her normal.

Joey and Tristan decided to meet up with her, not because she was clearly in distress, but because Yugi isn’t around, and why worry about Tea when instead your friend Yugi is probably going to destroy the world the moment you turn around (and he did. Yugi absolutely effed everything up the very moment these three took their eyes off of him)

And what was weird is that it took Yugi until, I dunno...several streets over to kind of come out of the ether and be like “heeey Pharaoh...um...what’s up?” Like it took him this long to say something. Probably so that by the time they would have walked back to school math would have been over.

So...did Yugi just not notice at first? Like it’s sort of amazing what these two don’t know what the other one is up to. Including this situation that little Yugi absolutely should have picked up on.

As it turns out, the cards are speaking very audibly to Pharaoh. This should have been somewhat of a...youknow...red flag...since Yugi can’t hear them but Pharaoh can. But, Yugi’s like “well...we’re so used to everyone just giving us the answer and that being the right call, I guess this must also be the right call.”

And...although he had quite the head start, These three are more than willing to drop the hell out of class and rack up those absences. I’m gonna assume they had to make up another wild excuse about Tea’s cat to that one teacher to get out of school just like last time, but they did all that offscreen.

And then Tea just kind of snapped, and she did so with a smile the entire time.

Her wording was somewhat different, but she did basically say something along the lines of “if you don’t remember me telling you this a million times, you are an idiot” and Pharaoh didn’t have an answer and so it was like he said without saying anything “yes, I am.”

Which he will further prove like five minutes from now.

Like Y’all, bless his cursed perfect ass, but Pharaoh is the biggest idiot in this show. Sometimes he’s brilliant, but if he’s ever left to his own devices, just the biggest idiot. He got duped by some guy pretending to throw his voice so that his cards looked like they were talking to him. Pharaoh thought cards can talk.

And so that’s how Pharaoh freakin caused the Apocalypse. The first of many.

He did so just so very easily.

His cards started wigging out, the tablet started icing over--it was like “hey remember what took 2 seasons to build up to? Well screw it.”

Also this happened, apropos of absolutely nothing.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand cards are real.

I mean they’ve been real for a few seasons but now the cards are officially real and they’re not cute like Pokemon. They’re all really gross and roided out and they probably have a funky smell. All of them.

I knew we’d get here eventually I just didn’t know it would be SO fast.

When no one was paying absolutely any attention--when my entire focus was inside of this museum, that was when cards became real.

Well...

...time to shove em into little balls I guess. Anyways, that’s it for this update because this episode was a lot of stuff so I’m gonna split it so y’all have it easier and so I have it easier too.

And if you just got there this is S4, if you want to start reading these from S1, here’s a link to the collection in chrono order, it’s basically like reading a Victor Hugo length of book except its just me ranting about WTF is going on in OG Yugioh for 100+ episodes, knock yourself out.

[laracastrowrites]

What problems did you have with the darklings arc in siege and storm?

Basically LB relying on the cheapest and laziest (and maybe the grossest too) tool in order to make him completely irredeemable, that is, relying on none other than violence against women to show how BadTM he is. Which doesnt put her too far apart from writers that uses female character’s suffering to further a male character’s arc (I’m just not that infuriating cause usually these male writers tend to use women’s suffering to further a redemption for the male counterpart, ignoring the victims, which I consider worse than what we got in here, that is, what I call, a downfall arc in which at least the victims are put in the main perspective, but I still consider she ultimately did the same with all the Genya’s torture case, using her suffering to push the Darkling far from redemption, so… I’m still pissed. And I wont ramble nor rant about Genya’s case yet, cause I’ll get there).

Look, at first, I hadnt seen the pattern and I came to realize that there was one just long after I finished reading all the grishaverse books (i mean, the trilogy and the duology), and sometimes I get angry at myself for not getting it fast enough and sometimes I get angry for finally get it, cause I was way happier (or less pissed, depending on the angle you look at) when I hadnt had this one more thing to be pissed about with this trilogy.

And I think ultimately, I (plus lots of people) haven’t seen any fault (and some still dont) in Genya’s torture at first because of the pattern the book followed for his character, cause once you see him attacking Alina with his nichevoya, threatening to torture her, and seeing that he blinded his own mother, it isnt like you doubt he was capable of torturing Genya like that; but the problem with Genya’s case doesnt rely on his capability of doing such a thing, the holes in that plot point relies on his (lack of) reasons for doing so (which I’ll get there in a minute), so we let it pass because of the shock and the sadness (all of us feeling sad for Genya, and other lot feeling sad for Genya and the Darkling simultaneously, cause that was the moment we knew there was no turning back for him) without realizing how problematic all of that was.

So, analyzing objectively his arc in s&s where his bad deeds are concerned, you will see that it was basically focused on torture; but not torture towards any elements we dont care about, it was torture against female characters we care about. Like I pinpointed in the last paragraph already: the nichevoya attack towards Alina, the threat to torture her in order to press Mal to find the amplifier; blinding his own mother as a punishment for betraying him; and last but not least (and the most problematic one), he disfigured Genya because………… because. Or should I say: because ?????

In Alina and Baghra’s case I can get behind cause the reasons were clear, and if we learned something about the Darkling in s&b is that he doesnt do bad shit because; because he felt like it or whatever; I’m not saying what he does/did is justifiable, I’m just saying that he always has his reasons, he always do bad things to gain something, in order to pursue a goal, to punish someone that wronged him etc., this is one of his established character’s traits; so he’s bad, we all know that, but sadism was never one of his character’s traits, and if what he did to Genya wasnt sadism, what was it then? A coercive tactic to win Alina over? But he had tortured Genya long before he knew he was going to meet her, Genya’s scars were already there for a time, so it doesnt add up, and besides, if it was a tactic to coerce her, wouldnt it be much more efficient if he had waited to meet Alina and threat to torture Genya right in front of her so she would join him, like he did to Alina herself in the boat to coerce Mal? Like, it doesnt make any sense, especially considering that Genya was a grisha, and a grisha loyal to him! He wouldnt simply do such a horrendous thing to a loyal grisha just to try to get Alina, he would know it was kind of sloppy and risky and he had already presented other tactics much more efficient; he would know that the threat to torture Genya or whomever in front of her would’ve been much more practical and efficient, he did that before and got positive results, so ??!?!?!?!? And the reason being just coercion wouldnt really explain him dispatching Genya, either.

So ok, if it wasnt coersion, it was a punishment then, right? A punishment would explain him doing this a while ago, it could explain him dismissing her too, cause whatever she did that “deserved” such a punishment meant that he wouldnt want a grisha like her beside him, correct? Which lead us to the question: a punishment for what? What could she possibly had done to wrong him so bad that made him take such an extreme action? Had he thought Genya had betrayed him? Cause that would explain, he wouldnt want a disloyal grisha beside him and certainly wouldnt let a betrayal pass unpunished, I mean, he didnt forgave even his mother, so… But the thing is: in any moment, the text back this theory up, the only passage we got that tries to explain the cause of such a violent act is Alina’s nonsensical thought that “Genya had dared to be her friend, to show her mercy” like, what does that even mean???? Like, she backtracks to the boat scene to explain, so what she’s saying is that the Darkling would have punished Genya for not shooting Alina or something??? Didnt she know that he needed her ALIVE and the situation in the boat could’ve gone wrong in many ways if Genya’d had try something crazy? And Genya “having mercy” on Alina and being her friend would never be reason enough to create such an outrage feeling in the Darkling so he’d find himself in a situation of having to punish a grisha that is on his side. Actually, I think he probably would’ve found a way to use Genya’s fondness of Alina in a much smarter way. So back to the boat scene, unless he thought Genya letting Alina go had been a betrayal (but like I said, it isnt like she had too many options there, and besides, what exactly the Darkling had seen and heard (IF he’d heard anything in that chaos, which I doubt he had) of that scene that played out between Alina, Genya and Tolya? DID he see something? Cause he had been shot in that moment, so I think even if he had seen something (which probably would’ve been just glimpses of it), he probably would’ve liked to know more about the situation, he probably would’ve liked to sit with Genya and interrogate her or something, he wouldnt have done anything rushed, neither punished a grisha that is on his side without the certainty that they “deserved” it), there’s still no plausible explanation for that torture. 

But even if he’d thought Genya had betrayed him in any shape or form, he would’ve said it! I mean, yeah, he isnt like those that try to justify himself much (which I personally love it lmao), but I think he would’ve said it in that dismissive way of his, cause he makes sure to point out betrayal, like, always! Or if not through his words, at least LB’s text would’ve made sure to make this clear, or at least it SHOULD HAVE made sure to make this clear, but it havent! There is NOTHING that back this theory up, not in that final scene in s&s, not even in r&r (and at the time I started to analyze all of this more deeply, I read the boat scene and the final scene again just to make sure I wasnt missing anything). At first, despite the shock and heartbreaking, I felt that something wasnt adding up, but at the time, I let it pass cause I thought the full explanation would eventually come in r&r, but well, it never did. And the problem of not having a decent explanation for such an atrocious act is that it feels gratuitous, something that was put there just for shock value and to further the Darkling’s downfall, so ultimately, it feels completely unnecessary (and I dont think I need to explain how ProblematicTM it is to portray violence against women as shock value and gratuitous, right?) and on top of it, it plays as an inconsistency for the Darkling’s character so, in conclusion, gross. A Total Mess.

And to further the explanation on why his arc in s&s rotating in victimizing only women is bad, let me add that I know that the Darkling’s motivation in victimizing characters that happens to be women doesnt come from misogyny on his part or anything like that. We know that in that world, women and men fight side by side in wars, that women can make great warriors just like men, that women can have the same or even more power than men in the military and stuff, and in the Darkling’s mind, people are more separated between grishas x otkazatsya, and him victimizing a person that happens to be a woman isnt a gender based motive, but the thing is: art doesnt happen in a vacuum. His cruelty being directed towards female characters might not be a gender problem in that world, but in our world, it is. His arc in s&s is a little ProblematicTM not because of an “in narrative” problem (maybe just in Genya’s case, which I’ve just covered up), but more of an “outside narrative” problem; it’s problematic considering the damage that poor portrayal makes in our world, especially in Genya’s case, where we can consider something even ooc for him to had done, leading to the conclusion that that was completely unnecessary. And I dont blame the character for any of this, I dont think his arc in that book is as problematic as Mal’s, for instance, he was still the villain, so I dont get frustrated and angry with the character himself, exactly because I know all that was the author’s decision, that the responsibility was entirely hers; cause if your villain isnt a misogynistic peace of crap, why pick just female characters to be deeply victimized by him to further his monstrosity in a whole book, then? Was that necessary? Why not pick male characters, then? WHY NOT KILL MAL FFS? Wasnt there any other ways to do that? I say, of course there was, but considering our world morality and ethics standards, make him victimize women was just the easiest way out, and that’s why I say: lazy. Lazy writing at its finest. And I think I dont need to say how disrespectful to the Darkling and, especially, to Genya’s character that was, right? So well, that. All that. I hope I made myself clear, and that I havent forgotten anything.

Anyways, sorry not sorry for the huge text, I hope you read it till the end. Thanks for the ask anon, now bye cause I’ve already spoken too much!               

[harryisntstraight]

bethan i’m feeling v confused :( i know i like girls and have identified as a lesbian but the more i think abt it the more i réalisé i am attracted to certain kinds of guys & have just had v bad experiences with them (also i dnt have a big sex drive nor do i feel like i need a partner to “complete” me but with that comes feeling v invalidated about my sexuality if that makes sense?) sorry to rant at you lmao but could you just be my mom for a sec and tell me it’s okay b/c i can’t talk to mine :(

ohh wowwww i relate to this almost entirely Too Much but hey dont apologise for ranting its all good its healthy 2 let things out and talk to someone about how ur feeling even just typing it out to a stranger on the interwebs (hi!) is genuinely a good place to start. i’m not really sure i can offer you anything much in terms of advice because like i said i truly relate(tm) to a great deal of what youre saying here, i’m in the same boat where i know i like girls but i have such a complicated relationship with attraction when it comes to men its like i just wanna scream bc i dont know if i’m just refusing to be open to liking men bc of past traumas or just the general attitude of ‘men arent shit’ or just.....being Picky and only being attracted to certain kind of guys like you said. and on top of all that i also feel like i dont even know what attraction is anyways and its like i dont even know if i’m experiencing it in the right way or the way that everyone else does. ANYWAYS enough about me LMAO i just hope me ranting about myself helps u feel a little like u arent the only confused one and that we r all truly going through something so you dont have to feel like youre invalidating yourself by struggling or being confused bc i genuinely feel like 99% of us feel the same way at least some of the time. all i can really to you is that there’s no right way to be who you are. i think its really easy to get caught up in defining yourself and fitting yourself into some specific box when in reality there’s always going to be bits of you that dont quite fit. i think its important to remember that labels r designed to help you understand yourself and others like you and if trying to put yourself in one just leaves you feeling even more confused and isolated than you did before then you dont necessarily have to have one at all. and that doesnt mean you never have to have one. if you just want to float around like a little shapeless blob for a while whilst you figure things out and then maybe decide on one when (or if) you feel like having one is something you’d benefit from. it is all gonna be okay, i promise u. love u & we got this 💖

[dramaticsizzle]

"I dreamed about you last night. You'll never know because of what happened the last time I told you I dreamed about you. We were happy. God, we were happy. We just wanted to spend time together. We just wanted to be right next to each other. We weren't afraid to yell at each other from the other side of the room just to say hi. We were back in October, stuck there but we were okay with it. We were simply happy like we were six months ago. Now we have happy moments, and, don't get me wrong, each of them is a dream come true, but they're not the same and they'll never be the same because there's always that tension. The little tug of words left unsaid. The small voice that whispers in our ears, 'remember October 22nd? Remember the rain? Remember the dancing? Remember the parking lot? Remember that?' That night changed everything. The words had to be said, though. We were both about to be ripped to shreds by the tension of THOSE words left unsaid, and now we're in the same boat we were in again. I wanted to tell you, you know. I planned to tell you this past weekend when we spent time together and soaked up that happiness. I planned to tell you how much I would miss you next year when I went off to college. I planned to get to know you better, to ask you random questions and personal questions and answer them for you to know about me, too. You forgot about me though. You said we could do something and you forgot and you already had plans anyways but still. You forgot about me. You know, I think that hurt the most. I would've been perfectly fine if you would've told me when I asked you if we could do something if you would've told me about your plans, but no. You said you could do something. You said we could spend time together and then when I asked you about it a couple days later, what did you say? You said you f o r g o t about me and that you had prior plans. Really? You said you didn't want to lead me on in any way since we couldn't be together, but that? What do you even call that? You know how excited I get when we can FINALLY hang out and spend time together. You, of all people, know. And then you tell me you forgot about me? Of all the people I've loved, you've probably caused me the most pain yet the most happiness at the same time. I'm trying. You said you wanted to be friends. You said we had too much in common to just stop hanging out. It's been almost 6 months since that day and I can count on one hand the amount of times we've spent time alone together since then. That's sad. And I consider you one of my best friends. Do you know how many moments I've spent alone with my other best friends over these past 6 months? I couldn't count them if I tried. Why are you any different? You don't get it. I just want to see you. I want to spend just a little bit of time together by ourselves. I don't care if we date or not. I don't care. I just want you to be the friend to me that you promised you would be six months ago. I want us, both of us, to be the way we were in my dream: happy and together.

so sorry for the long post, I just needed to rant and typing is quicker than writing

[yeehawdyke]

33, 48, 43, 56, 57, 20, 21, 9, 32 sory theyre not in order

33. Favourite thing about myselfmy humor and ability to emotionally detach myself from nearly everything

48. Something I should’ve said a long time agonothing comes to mind

43. What can I hear right now?https://open.spotify.com/track/32v94GlhSOgcJQl9tf5aKp?si=FbQGt25STJOU6cmXaPgTgg

56. Last thing I atecheezits and possibly vaseline by accident


57. Last thing I drankwater

20. Favourite ice cream flavourim more of a popsicle person as in i like to eat about 20 popsicles at once my favorites r grape and the firecracker ones but if it has to be icecream then lime sherbert


21. Where I want to be right nowmina, a boat harbor in jbeil that is absolutely amazing. being there at night was one of the best experiences of my life, i remember sitting on a wall overlooking the boats and the small restaurants and the colored lake and the ocean ,,, you could even see beirut in the distance it was really nice

9. Description of my best friendthere’s four people i think of as my closest friends so ill just describe all of them. ty is someone who sticks with u through thick and thin. she’s always willing to help others out, even tho she puts her own needs aside for it. she hates a lot of people and things and gets real passionate about it which is ultra fun to listen to her rants. she definitely cares about her friends and always talks highly of them to others (aka shes sent me rants at 1am about how much she loves her friends it’s fun to wake up do)asher is someone id fight the entire universe for. his poetry is out of this world and he has so many incredible ocs whomst are super developed and he has incredible stories for them !! (blu and aster r super great i am the self declared president of their fan club). even tho he’s been going through some tough times he still checks in to make sure im alright,, which alone shows how amazing he is. alex is ,,,,,,,,, incredible. god i love her. we both share the same surreal sense of humor and she’s one of the very few people , if only , person i feel comfortable being my true self around. she’s really into video games like danganronpa and our friend genevieve has a list of alex quotes in her notes that i need to remind myself to access soon. last but not least ,,, joy. me and joy met over kenhina, which is ironic because joy really reminds me of hinata shoyo. hinata is often compared to the sun because of how bright he is and how he just lights up the room when he speaks. joy is like that too. she’s one of the most pure people ive ever met. she’s so kind and sweet and she goes out of her way to be nice to others in ways that most people don’t do and it’s really amazing. i should create a joy protection squad.

32. Description of my crushgirls

[carryonmywaywardwriters]

u r ranting on a high level. it shows how privileged u are.

I am privileged. I could be worse off. I am absolutely aware of the fact I have first world problems. That other areas have it worse. But, I'm stressed out. If I lose my income, I'm FUCKED. And I'm not alone in it. At all. All of my coworkers are in the same boat. Hell, in actuality? The world as a whole is wild right now. We all knew it was kinda coming over here, but there's only so much you can do to prepare for it when the government is brushing it off. And this community wasn't prepared. At all. So, yeah. I ranted when even my story didn't post. It's been a very frustrating 48 hours, especially being in the service industry. I'm human. While I want people safe? I also want to be able to afford everything I NEED. Although, I'd love for the events I was looking towards to be a thing? I'm more concerned about losing my home and car. Because there's nothing protecting me, or the people around me, at the moment. It's very conflicting and we all lose no matter what happens. If they don't close down, people can get it and get sick. It's a shitty situation all ways around 🤷‍♀️

[catal-ys-t]

TO ALL THE BOYS I LOVED BEFORE

Since the famous Jenny Han’s book is now on its second sequel on Netflix, I have decided to have my own version of Lara Jean’s “unsent letter”. Who knows one of these guys might be my Peter Kavinsky, but oh, I highly doubt that. LOL

  To Mr. Know-It-All

Lots has changed since you left and being with you today seems new to me. The person in front of me right now and the person I cried about few months back is like a different person. Not that you change physically (actually you remain the same) but because I felt nothing. Feelings are just gone.

I can consider you one of the most mature "crush" I ever had. Because of you I learned that I am capable of liking someone so strong without really actually waiting something in return. Because of you, I came to know , discover and love myself even more. So Thank you.

Tho, I couldn't thank you enough for everything you did for me. You showed me how much you cared for our friendship, you saved me from my loneliness when I was starting this new life. You have given me great camaraderie that I could consider family. You taught me that life is not supposed to be always on my side, that I need to learn to let go and accept the idea that I can’t please everyone. You showed me the reality I needed to see.

I cried for you, not because you hurt me. I cried because I was foolish enough to believe in my fantasies that we could be together, that we could be more than what we are. You changed my outlook in love, life in general. You changed me. In a good way. Thank you for being who you are. Thank you for being a friend and a mentor. Your memories will always be cherished. 

To The “Fill-In” Boyfriend

I don’t know if you should be included here, I never liked you that way but sure, among all of them, you remain the consistent one. Consistent in a way that we are still the way we were since we’ve become friends. Maybe big factor of that is because we are not romantically involved. 

People keep shipping us together. They always quote, “sana kayo na lang” “bakit hindi nlang kayo” “bagay kayo” , sometimes I wonder if that’s true. I would be lying if I told you I did not consider you, because I did, not just once, but a couple of times. If maybe, just “maybe” we were on the same boat, I might give it a try, but we are not...and I am always reminded about our friendship. If I am not 100% sure about you, then why risk it? What we have is so special that I can’t afford to lose, especially you. 

You always supported me. Even in my craziest times, you never left my side. You know me well enough and that I could always run to you without worrying being judged. You know all my dramas and rants in life. You are definitely my ultimate human punching bag. 

You fill the role of being a “boyfriend”. : you took pictures of me in an IG worthy way, you surprises me with my favorites , you are accompanying me with my galas and whereabouts, you are always in game when I wanted to make fun and joke around. We simply get each other and these kind of things about us is worthy to be kept and I will do whatever it takes just to protect it. I hope you know how much you mean to me. 

  To Mr. Almost

I hate you for making me like you so much. We are the exact opposite when it comes to almost “everything” and yet you still manage to amaze me and flatter my heart in every single thing you do. 

We dated and hangout together, we texted and talked to each other until midnight, you waited for me after class; these are some efforts you did that I almost thought considering you. 

You were the first guy after J, I was willing to take chances with but at the end of the day, I still end up walking away. 

Life has given us so many chances to reconcile, too many times we lost touch and lost contact but keeps coming back. However, we both know that it ain’t gonna work. We were just too different. You said so yourself, it’s a good thing that we did not end up together because we will just hurt each other and ruin what we have. I couldn’t agree more. 

You made me happy. You made me angry. My friends don’t like you for me, but I ignored them because I was fixated on the idea of being with you. 

Until one day, I came to know that you were in a relationship with one of my friends back in high school few weeks after you flirted with me. W-H-A-T-A-J-E-R-K. *laughs*. But that’s okay, you see, I can’t stay mad at you knowing that we don’t really have the “label” to begin with. 

I was foolish to believe that you could change and be a better man for me, but maybe I am not the right person and reason for you to and you are not for me. But I was glad, that you’ve become honest with me and choose to be my friend rather than nothing at all. Thank you for saving us. 

  To My High School Sweetheart, 

Everyone has their “high school sweetheart”, someone they will never forget for the rest of their lives, and for me, that was you even we don’t get to go to the same high school.

Sooo Hi. This might be the nth letter I’m going to write for you. Actually, I already run out of words to say to you. I’ve been writing you a letter for ages but most of them was kept unread. I know you were too busy to care and none of those letters different with others; sorry’s and thank you’s  are probably the context. But do you know what is the difference this time? I am writing this together with the letters for the other guys I used to like and realizing how much you mean to me and how deep our bond was, than the rest of them. What I have with them  is nothing compared to what we had . It’s just magical that feels like it never happened. 

We were immaturely young. We don’t know what we are putting ourselves into. We barely understand what “love” really meant but one thing I am sure of,  you made me the happiest I could ever have been. It was like a dream. Your love was like a dream. I wish it never has to end. 

Half of me still regrets, half of me don’t. We hurt each other, caused each other’s pain, there are things that should not have been said and done. It ruined us and I know things between us may never be the same anymore, but what we had gave us the clarity and reality of what life has to offer. It was indeed a beautiful disaster.

I am who I am today because of that experience and I am so grateful to God that I came to experience such as this. I don’t know if it’s even close enough of what they called “love” but it  gives me opportunity to know myself more and realized what matters most in life.

I know God has His reason why it has to be with you. God gave me you, for a reason. We may not restore the friendship we had before, I know what we will have is better than that, besides, you are a family. 

J, Thank you for everything and I am genuinely sorry for all the trouble and dramas I’ve caused you. Immature e. hehe . 

You have a special place in my heart. Always have. Always will. 

I’ll see you soon. :) 

   To My Puppy Love,

It is funny how we never had the chance to become friends. You were friends with my friends, our families are friends, I am friends with your family but we are never friends. LOL. We were too young back then when I was infatuated with you, that I almost thought I was in love with you. I started dreaming about you and me; I even wrote my first poem for you, and oh, my first love letter is written for you too (which is read by your whole family *blush*).

I don't know what keeps me liking you for so long, maybe one factor is that we never been close, I really don’t know you and that the image of you I created inside my head is so perfect that no other guy could match it. In addition, the teased I am getting from our friends and family is endless.

I was crazy about you. You were the prince charming I’ve been dreaming since I was a kid. You were the boy in my fantasies, the love story I have written inside my head. But boy, I don’t live on fantasies anymore. I outgrow that fairy tale.

I remember that one summer when you console me because I was heartbroken. I don’t know how it started, I just woke up one morning and you were there joking around with me. And to be totally honest with you, I don’t know what to feel, I just ended up my relationship with someone and yet I was happy because you were there for me and it was so wrong to feel. That summer, I thought we could be friends…or maybe more. But no. You have a girlfriend, you told me how much you loved her and I am overwhelmed with your honesty. I liked you more for that, but not in a way that wanted you to be mine. I knew back then that I am still not over J and I am just trying to forget the pain. After that summer, we are back in our normal…we never talked again.

 For me, you will always be that person I never had the chance to be friends with, which is by the way for the best, because I want to keep your image pure and innocent. Lets keep it that way.  

Nevertheless, I have to tell you how much I owe my childhood years to you. You made it more colorful and exciting. You inspired me so much and you have been part of the person who am I today. Thank you.

All Love, 

Jes.