#actively losing my mind 😩😩😩

[archiveofyearning]

unreal unearth really said that love is both the darkness and the salvation from it and love can both make you feel weightless and like it’s worth the falling and love is both inevitable and choosing to stay in the storm and love is both temporary and everlasting and love is both feeling unknown and knowing someone in the dark and love is both a name and a dream and love is both unholy and like finding god

[livelaughlovesubs]

I need to vent amongus Boothill hngg 😩 I've been down bad since the leaks like seven plus months ago hnggg please plEASe 😩

I'm a slut for cowboy characters hnggg I love his drawl literally told my partner before his voice was released if he didn't have an accent then what was the point

Please he's so pretty and shdbdhdh he makes me giggle and kick my feet I know he'd be the Roger Rabbit to his lover (or like Hosier when he tweeted "my girlfriend is made at me I want to die") he's such a devoted hunk of man 😤 listen he's the lock in kinda hoe ya know when he's in a fully committed relationship he's the biggest sluttiest sub, he doesn't half ass his relationships ok

I know a lot of people debate on if he can feel or not with his body but I raise: we literally have VR sensors to detect touch IRL rn so I'd say with some effort absolutely but typically if he's working it's probably best they're not as active

Country boy, I love youuuuuu 😘😘😘😘

I don't care what biology or society says I'm gonna make him my bride and impregnate him even if I have to get Ruan Mei's help (she'd absolutely do it out of curiosity fr fr).

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Pls, when I first saw leaks of him I thought he was very ugly 💀 I DONT KNOW WHY, I LOOKED AT THOSE LEASK AND WAS LIKE: WTF IS THIS MAN? And all the comments were simping over him, while I sat there thinking, ‘damn, ya’ll simping over such a random ass cowboy? Why.’

Now I’m such a whore for him on god, I came back to the game just for him and have 200 tickets prepared for him 😭😭 mind you before I came back I had zero (cuz I took a break after losing on balde’s banner again) prefarmed all his shit and got artefacts ready for him too. Also build my other characters, grinded till I got to 300 tickets to get an exclusive bronya for him etc etc. How twisted fate is uff.

Anyway, boothill as a slut/ whore is such a hot thought. Him being a teasing bottom, who almost seems like a power bottom would be so sexy. But after I saw his ‘shy’ expression I must say, an inexperienced, all talk no bite and shy boothill is >>>>

HIS BLUSHING FACE IS SOOO CUTE I ALMOST DIED ON THE SPOT, I ALMOST CRIED.

Just imagine him being cheeky, until you touch him, praise him and stroke his hair. How his eyes widen and his lips tremble due to the embarrassment. His body must be overheating again, otherwise he doesn’t have a plausible explanation as to why he feels so hot. Avoiding your gaze at all cost as he put on big airs again, only to squeak and whine when you kiss him so tenderly <33

[bunny-extract]

opinions on radiator könig? lmaooo

always warm and willing to share his body heat😩

my boy omg i feel like he'd pretend to be inconvenienced by it for the sake of hiding how much he enjoys it. The reality of that is he's usually the one initiating it. he's like wow shouldn't you consider warmer clothes, here's my jacket. I can't have you shivering, it's unhealthy.

when you are clinging to him, drawn to the warmth seeping through his clothes he's cocky about it. Of course, use me however you'd like. (atrocious. so full of himself.)

With being so active he stays warm, but being so damn tall i imagine he loses it easily. it's his fingers that bleed the heat, and he uses it against you often.

“You don't mind, do you? Since you're so warm now?” all while he's got his hand up your shirt, provoking your skin to tighten under his freezing fingertips. (fiend, fiend, fiend)

[drabbles-mc]

Okay....Another one for the dirty headcanon game

K - Kissing (what parts of their body do they like having kissed? what parts of their partner do they enjoy kissing? do they like leaving marks / having marks left on them?)

Parental, I'm gonna need the skinny on Manny, Angel, Gilly, Coco & RIZ!!!! 😩

🌺🌺🌺🌺<- Your flowers in advance😘

the way i have been marinating on this for all of these boys. have i delved into yet another mayans rewatch????? PERHAPS!!! no one can prove anything 😂

thoughts below the cut! 👀

manny???? manny with no damn surname??? i know deep down in the corners of my soul that this man is fully aware that he was put here on this earth with a neck like that because it was made to be kissed and bit on. he is too smart to not know that. i know he knows it and i know he enjoys it. he can ink that shit up all he wants but it's not gonna stop me!!! that's for damn sure! 😈

and i also think that he is the type to reciprocate in kind, too. he knows better than anyone that kissing on his girl's neck is gonna turn her into a puddle 'cause it does the same damn thing to him. and i know he's the type to hold your jaw while he does it too to give himself better access. he's not a man that's gonna be stopped once he's set his mind to it. i also think he's the type to kiss your hands and knuckles too. just so he can look at you while he does it. as far as marking goes, i think he'll do it if he knows that his girl is into it but i feel like he doesn't do it in the possessive way that other guys do sometimes. he knows he's got you he doesn't have to worry about things like that. and he's right! 😌

you and i both know that Angel is gonna kiss you wherever he can reach at any given moment. he doesn't care. he will find a way he will make it work. any exposed skin is fair game. lounging on the couch in shorts? congratulations: thighs and calves covered in kisses. cooking in the kitchen wearing a tank top? winner winner- you are no longer cooking because he is kissing all over your shoulders and arms and you're not about to burn yourself trying to stop him. thought you had about five seconds of privacy going from towel to pajamas after your shower?? sike!!! you already know what happens next 😈

i also think that Angel, with a leg/torso ratio like that, is definitely the type of guy to go weak in the knees when his girl does that thing where she starts off kissing him on the lips but then kisses down his whole chest and stomach when she's dropping to her knees to go down on him. like he's already stoked because he know what's about to happen, but then she does that???? he's done. game over. everybody wins. he's also got an unspoken but perfectly well-known rule that for every mark he gets he gives one in return. it's only fair that way, after all. and he's not wrong! he's gonna pretend to pitch a fit about it though.

Gilly "i'll kiss you wherever i can reach while i'm holding you someway somehow" Lopez. cupping your face with both hands while he kisses you on the lips. hands on your chest while he's kissing your neck. slipping them into your back pockets or in the waistband of your jeans while pulling you closer and kissing your jaw and shoulders. hands on your thighs and ass when he's got you on your back kissing down your stomach and between your lips. Gilly said kissing is a full-body activity and he ain't ever been wrong!

all things being equal i think that Gilly is the type to lose it just a little bit when he's got someone who is just very gentle and soft with him when they kiss him. there is a time for being rough of course of course but Gilly who has seen and done and been through so much definitely still double-takes when his girl just peppers soft little kisses in passing. a peck on the cheek or the shoulder when she walks by or doesn't want to distract him from whatever he's doing but still wants to give some affection. i dooooo think that this man will get weak if you kiss his hands. pressing a kiss to his palm when he's holding your face, kissing his knuckles when you're holding hands. he's all about it. new level also instantly gets unlocked the second you suck on his fingers i don't make the rules but i do know that that's one of them 😏

I think that Coco is another one who is very touchy when he's kissing but it's 110% about making sure that you are just as in the moment of it as he is. if he's kissing you AND you can feel his hands and body against you everywhere there is no way you're thinking about anything else besides him and that is exactly what he's looking for. he doesn't really care about PDA all that much, not when he knows that behind closed doors he can have you pinned back against the wall with your hands gripping onto his shirt or running through his hair. there's no contest there for him. he knows what he's about.

Coco's also the type to try and roll his eyes and call you childish when you leave hickeys on his neck where the guys will be able to see them and give him shit about them. but you also can't help but to notice that he never actually tries to stop you. you also notice that you'll catch him looking at them in the mirror in the bedroom or the bathroom and smiling after the fact when he thinks you aren't paying attention. he's not one who is much for thinking about the past unless it's something like that. how could he not?

Michael Ariza, mi amor. the man who deserved to be showered in 1000 kisses on that show and got none 😭 whenever I think about him I always think about that scene where he's playing guitar and sprawled in the girl's lap at the clubhouse. I just. i KNOW my man wants to be laid up like that with his girl all the time. got easy access to kiss her legs and grab her hand to kiss that too. gets to pull her down and have her kiss him on the lips. all that soft mushy stuff?? sign that man the fuck up he's all but begging for it. he just wants someone to hold his face while they kiss him and I personally don't think that's too much to ask for 🥹

I doooo however think that he is not the type to really be into being marked up or do a whole lot of marking. I've got no evidence to back that claim except a feeling in my gut. he's not gonna pitch a whole fit if it happens (or maybe he will 😂) but if he sees it's gonna he is gonna distract and divert somehow.

godddd these boys. they'll be the end of me. 🥵

Dirty Headcanon Game

[federthenotsogreat]

I love how just because I'm now more active in another community, my brain seems to think that I'm losing interesting in M&L?? 😭😭😭

Cackletta and Fawful are still on my mind constantly, I still manage to make every conversation about them on accident, I get protective when someone says something bad about them, almost every song reminds me of them in some way, etc etc

But NooOoOOO I'm not constantly thinking about drawing fanart for my five followers or something (lh) I must be losing interest!!!!! 🥺😩

[fruitybashir]

Omg omg Oh MY FUCKING GODD this fic is giving me the zoomies it’s midnight here and im jumping about and my face is hurting from all the goddamn smiling WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO ME

Kris joining the band finally made me scream in joy!! The dopamin lyrics?? Are you trying to kill me? (they’re some of the lyrics which actively make me lose my mind so congrats ig)

“His chest is rising and falling with short breaths, mouth parted slightly and there is something wild in his eyes, something possessive that makes Kris shiver.” YOU KNOW WHAT, JUST SHOOT ME IN THE HEAD that would be much kinder than this torture 😭😭😭

And noooo why did he leave??? (hitting holidate™️ bojan with a broom rn) did you have to end it like that?? I think I’m going to have a mental breakdown over this 😩 I’m charging you with attempted murder btw (lol anyways thank you once again for such an amazing chapter!)

hehehehehehe im glad you had uhm .... fun? with the chapter? dont know if id call that last part having fun lmao

[kendsleyauthor]

oki doki, after a bunch of breaks but still an obsessed spree, I'm done binging the Shot in the Dark Masterpost!!!!

Ofc I have a million things to say but let me just tell you I was so hooked and mad abt the fact that there were so many prompts and stories that I never stumbled upon cos they were buried under all your other posts, and MAN, I am severely addicted. To Cliff especially he's the loml I would literally die for him.

Crazy in Love had a GRIP on me. The romance was amazing, the angst, AND UGH JON LOSING HIMSELF MADE ME LOSE MYSELF LIKE UGH READING THAT CAUSED ME SO MUCH PAIN AND TENSION AND I WAS LIKE YES SYLVIA YOU GOTTA TELL CLIFF and I was genuinely so scared for her at the same time, like once again, y'all do emotion, so, damn, well.

Lost and Found was also really really good and it gave me much better context about the world and backstory considering I haven't read the books yet, but if I had to introduce a friend to the universe it would probably be through this. It really highlighted the platonic relationship with Cliff and Sylv and the angst at the end is still fresh in my mind even though I read it like two weeks ago and a million other stuff?? And duh, Jon and Sylv being literally the most delicious romance I've ever read. MAN. THEY CARE ABOUT EACH OTHER SO MUCH THAT IT HURTTTTSSSS WHYYYY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME AJHBSJHBJVBHDV

Out of the prompts I think the ones that really stuck with me are probably any of the ones that had to do with the siren fairy- like man. Any time Sylv has to against one or BOTH of her boys just kills me. I cannot. I am addicted LOL

also Cliff constantly rejecting Sylvia when she wants to heal him is so like. I love how it's clearly something that happens a LOT and it just connects them better. Like. Cmon buddy. Ik. But let her heal you like come onnnnnn. but then at the same time im like SYLV IT'S FINE JUST LEAVE HIM BE. BUt no. SHe can't. and i'm so happy that she doesn't.

Pocket Nap! IS ALSO AN ADDICTION, I AM ADDICTED TO IT THE WAY I'M ADDICTED TO TEDDY BEAR WITH XANDER AND GRAYSON. Something about sleepy prompts just gets me, you know?

overall that was amazing and I love them more then I ever have before and yeah!! Ik i haven't rlly been active but TRUST me I still come to you and Mary's pages almost every single day and yes!!!!!! so so sorry this ask got way longer then I thought it would !!! love ya!!!

AWWWW omg this made me night!! I am so happy I put together that masterlist of Shot stories, since it made it easier for you to look through them all!

Sylv's relationship with the boys fuels my happiness so much! Jon and Sylv are SUCH a comfort couple, and the sibling vibes between Cliff and Sylv make my heart GLOW ✨ Her demand for pocket naps is so valid. And the healing argument literally kicks off in the rewrite of the first book--just finished editing a bit of that 😭

Gosh I would love to revisit the siren fairy idea at some point. I'm a sucker for making tinies terrified of giants they trust wholeheartedly LOL. Sylv having to use magic against Jon and Cliff is so heart-wrenching and I need moreee 😩

Thank you so much for this sweet feedback!!

@marydublinauthor 🌸

[candiliam328]

✨ Bean's Top Five Song Discoveries of 2023 ✨

yes i realize it is already well into january 2024 but here, enjoy the songs i found this year that define my 2023. if you're new here, hi i used to make obsessive music posts but now dont have time to make full ones so take this instead: your very own unique insight to my 2023!

this post is dedicated to @disco-tea for somehow being invested in all my music adventures and obsessions, bestie ily 🥺💕

STOP (Lollapalooza Version) by j-hope (Eng. translation // Performance w/ Eng. sub)

im totally cheating already by choosing this when i first listened to jitb in 2022. but honestly? i dont care. i saw hobipalooza for the first time in 2023 and this version was only officially released then so here it is now!

to be frank, watching the performance was a completely different experience to me compared to listening to the studio release. while the original recording sounded conversational, it felt like something was exploding out of him during this performance. he needed to get things off his chest and yet still barely stops himself in his tracks from spiralling. and the juxtaposition !! placing it right after Equal Sign, where he is preaching kindness and understanding and unity and even goes so far to say "it costs you nothing to be kind" ?? and then the sudden immediate whiplash into STOP where he is actively holding himself back because its not true! being kind is hard!!! but he wants to be understanding and practice what he preaches but even he fails and gets "contaminated by the viruses" sometimes. its hard, its real, its raw. and ugh !! this song !!!

Bonus: the moment I always start to lose my mind

its the way the alternate title to this song is "there are no bad people in the world," a belief he holds deep to his core. and yet only a few breaths later, he confesses that the reality of the world makes him question if people are even human anymore. 😩 like wtf-

but also. its so true. and relatable. sometimes i cant even look at the news anymore bc its so hard to be a hopeful and positive and good person when you are bombarded with only hate and tragedy. i have never seen that feeling captured so perfectly in a song. jung hoseok you king.

tldr i think about this song, its performance juxtaposition, and what it means way too often. eternally sad that the youtube video with eng subs playing those songs back to back got taken down, i rewatched it so much it haunts me. may we never ever forget hobipalooza bc jung hoseok made Choices !!

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Don't Wanna Cry by Seventeen (Eng. translation // Performance w/ Eng. sub in captions)

the real ones remember how j-hope took over my life that second half of 2022 and how much i fought tooth and nail the entire way... so yeah lol seventeen took over the second half of 2023 and this is the song that got me out of that denial.

the thing is. i had kept hearing about this song and this choreography and how iconic it was, which is why i avoided it for so long. but as we all know, no matter how much i joke, i am and always will be a dancer. dancing will always be in my blood. so it is very on brand that a good dancer has been what gets me into kpop groups 100% of the time (2 out of 2 groups stanned bc i fell for the main dancer 🫣). and as a choreographer, good choreo will always have an unreasonable chokehold on me. and yet, Don't Wanna Cry has the audacity to exist ?? featuring performance unit leader hoshi with his most masterful choreography for this heartbreaking song ?? come onnn, i had no chance.

i cant say anything about this choreo that hasnt been said before but like seriously, watch this practice video and tell me this choreo isnt one of the most in-sync yet emotionally effective pieces of art you've ever seen. You don't even need the translations to understand the emotions behind it. But when I first saw the lyrics with the choreography, I swear I got chills. Ironically, once DK sang out this line:

my eyes got blurry. because thats the whole point of the song isn't it? thats the whole reason why they dont want to cry. because they realize their time together is limited, their heart is breaking but each second in their presence is so beautiful and precious, how dare tears get in the way of fully appreciating this time together. its beautiful and heartbreaking and then the timing of falling to their knees right after for a chorus just adds into the hopelessness.

And I know everyone talks about the bridge but like- the bridge.

Lying to yourself that everything is OK only to fall on your knees again begging "come back, come back, come back". The rawness in this choreo. The almost uncontrollable chest pops in this vulnerable, open position because these words are coming from their heart.

Also Hoshi still to this day calls this one of his favorite svt choreos. He doesn't brag much about his choreo nowadays but the interviews I could find of him proudly relaying the story behind the iconic "streetlight" choreo just 🥺🥺 me too buddy. choreo can be beautiful sometimes and he did so good with this one. 🥺🥺🥺 choreographer hoshi, king of my heart, thank you for making me fall in love with this song 🥺🙌

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I'm Just Another Person Oh God by Daisy the Great (lyrics)

Ah, yes. the Daisy the Great phase. I could have picked the whole All You Need is Time album honestly bc the storyline it has in my head is so fucked up I can't handle it. But in the end, it was a toss up between including this one or Aluminum in this list bc those were the ones I had on loop. for. reasons. 🫣

Gosh, what to say about this song. other than admitting, wow was I going through something for this one. Haven't we all felt this way sometimes though? Wanting something so bad and it not working out and then stepping back like. "wait am i being greedy and selfish with this?" and the answer is no! like actually im just being entirely super normal with this. just like everyone else! only i am also filled with some bonus woe! like ?!??!?! wasnt that the biggest 2023 mood? idk it was for me lmao.

There is something to be said with this album though, that is particularly apparent in this song. It's that kind of cynical wistfulness of wanting something you had in the past. Passion? Naivete? Whatever it is. It's gone now bc of life, the passage of time, and you're being like so super brave and normal about it (clenched fist, arthur meme style). Everything is painted with a bit of regret and "why am i always like this", all wrapped up in a funky floaty song that is almost uncomfortably easy to listen and vibe to bc of how concerning those lyrics can be when you really listen. but hey ✌️ it really do be like that sometimes i guess. shoutout to them for the insane 20yearold something vibes bc daisy the great? they get it ahaha.

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Snow on Tha Bluff by J. Cole (lyrics)

Lol surprise.

if you ever want to know how i find music, a lot of my favorite songs are usually found by chance. a random deep dive fueled by curiosity or hyperfixation and every so often, my spotify will give me a gem. this particular discovery was bc for a variety of reasons, i decided to listen to a playlist of j.cole's music and was bopping along appropriately until this one came up and. i had to replay it multiple times.

its very understated. and raw. stream-of-consciousness.

i dont even know but i listened to this one a lot. even as i write this now, its been months since i listened to it but when i was making this list, i knew i had to include this one bc of how much ive thought about it.

there's something about understated vulnerability that always gets me in. nothing about this is showy nor does it really seem to have a point other than him needing to get this off his chest. yet there's such a poignant art to it. the instance he speaks about is v specific but the sentiment is still relatable and somehow resonated with me a lot.

idk i just think this song is so beautiful in its simplicity, which is something i think i should try to emulate more considering i said a whole lot of nothing in this section so i think ill stop this one here.

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I Don't Understand But I Luv U by Seventeen (Eng. Lyrics)

if i had to pick a song that defined my december, it would be this one. hands down, no contest. i think i listened to this nonstop the last two weeks of the year. and:

... yeah.

im realizing as i write this post that i spent a lot of this past year just thinking about music and life. seventeen's songs actually tend to be a bit of a slow burn on me so i had known and even heard this song a few times earlier this year but really it only hit me last month. yet despite listening to it nonstop, i cannot recite to you the actual english translation of the song. bc ultimately the translation doesnt matter. what i love about this song is already there in the title.

"I don't understand but I love you"

after all, isnt that love in its truest essense? love is accepting you may never truly understand everything about a person but choosing to love them anyway. love transcends all language and all understanding. its a choice and an action and this is the song that always reminds me of that when love gets hard.

idk what this all says about my 2023 but love is hard. family is hard. but in a way, i think that's what makes it all so beautiful. just as beautiful as this song. i can and will (and have!) listened to this song on repeat bc the ✨vibes✨ i think it might even have been the first song i listened to in 2024. that guitar riff is so sick and sensual. the ad libs are so cute - the little zoom! at 0:46 and smoke smoke! at 2:02, i sing along to it every time 🫣.

also hearing the girlies lose their minds when watching this performance on the big screen during their simulcast concert was so funny but endearing. i'd never but those girls sure love thirst traps skakakka

the story behind this song too just 🥺 hoshi getting absolutely blown by a fan's comment "i dont understand but i love you," repeating it, saying they could use it as part of their lyrics and then a few months later, this song comes out. you can literally see his eyes light up im just 🥺 so endeared. and the way its a Performance Unit song, a unit that is made of 50% foreign members, and that several pre-debut clips show members struggling with language barriers. idk this song is all so soft, it means so much to me and clearly means so much to them. and there we go, its all in the title for me ✨

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✨ if you made it all the way here, wow and thanks! here's to even more good music in 2024 ✨

[greg-montgomery]

all the overprotective hotch ideas are driving me crazy😩🤤😍

you'll have to forgive my mexican ass for this but i can't help thinking about reader having to talk in spanish to interview the family of a victim or something and the LEO's listening and sexualizing her 'cause "she's latina🤪" (tons of stereotypes in their words ofc) and Hotch going like "you better give some respect to my agent"

reader later whispering in his ear teasingly "talking about respect now but your actions were quite disrespectful last night, sir" and he has to use all his will power to keep a straight face because now his mind is flooded with memories of how hard he fucked you the night before🥵

also i pictured one officer trying to flirt with reader going like "hey, mami" and she goes like "i'm sorry but i'm pretty sure i'm too young to be your mother, son" while keeping a straight face not even bothering to look at the guy and the whole precinct makes fun of him, even hotch has to do his best no to laugh but you can bet he's thinking of an excuse to get that officer out of the job for good

someone help me because now overprotective hotch is all i can think about😩💖

aaron would not let them get away with it in any way!!!

it’s probably not the first time that these jerks sexualise you when they hear you speak spanish. you always try to ignore them but this time you feel like it’s the last straw. you make a mental note to deal with them after you finish talking with the family of the victims but lucky for you, you won’t need to 😌 bc aaron is already standing in front of those guys, completely towering over them. he of course looks at them with his hotch™️ stare and doesn’t have to say anything for them to get scared lmfao but he does anyway!! he’s like “what was that?” and they look at him like lost puppies trying to defend themselves, mumbling “nothing, sir.” 🤭 and aaron is like “oh. because i thought i heard you talking about my agent - and not in respectful way. and if that was true…today would be your last day here.”

and of course you overhear their little chat and you’re like 🦋🦋🦋🦋 bc you love when your boyfriend defends you like that!! and later you definitely tease him about respect since he was calling you the most disrespectful names the night before 🫣🫣 aaron is unable to focus on anything else for the rest of the day 😭 he can’t wait for the day to be over so you can continue your last night activities 🥰🥰

and LMFAO as much as aaron is there to have your back, you’re always more than capable to defend yourself! when you put people in their place he enjoys it waaaaay too much!! so after your comeback to this guy calling you mami aaron loses it 😭 he bites the inside of his cheek to hide his laugh but it’s obvious he’s ready to break lmfao

[quillkiller]

supporting your lilyrosekiller brainrot with 6 and 8

THANK YOU i need it 😩😩

(this ask game!!)

6. Do they go out often or prefer to stay indoors?

i think??? both???

ok so listen i have their whole relationship dynamic in my head. in my head rosekiller are so monogomous and jealous with each other its almost disgusting . like they hate when other people look at their bf and are so clingy and possessive .

however ! in my head.. they fucking love lily just letting loose and being free to do whatever she feels like doing ? their kink is literally lily letting go and not worrying and just taking what she wants . i literally see them loving watching her on the dance floor ? i imagine they love watching her make out with other people of all genders . they just love watching her. like, they’re a closed throuple in my mind but their dynamics within the relationship are different .

so i feel like pre lilyrosekiller barty and evan preferred to stay home and being clingy and gross . but established lilyrosekiller….. i see them loving taking lily out and lily loves it too. she loves being watched by them, loves watching them, loves being under their wing, loves going home with them, loves the freedom they’ve given her to do literally whatever she wants while still being committed to them. I COULD GO ON AND ON .

8. Do they have any favorite activities to do together?

YES. they love doing tattoos for each other. mostly evan does them but sometimes evan lets lily and evan do the ugliest tattoos in the world on him. they love getting high or drunk and just losing their minds. lily and evan read together sometimes. barty will sometimes lie in their lap and listen to them read. i definitely see them traveling a lot and breaking as many rules that the country has as they can. i also see them doing karaoke together and they’re just awful . skinny dipping, going to theme parks, just doing whatever they can do together that allows them to be menaces

[mediocredoots]

Kaijou, unsurprisingly 🤭

I'm always happy to answer kaijou stuff though!

001 | send me a ship and I will tell you:

when I started shipping it if I did: I don't know the exact fic or doujin that opened my eyes completely to the two but after discovering slash for the 1st time on quizilla from a weird oc trying to get kaiba and joey to kiss fic to being directed to FF.N was a wild ride fhksdjf. Somewhere along the lines of browsing all the fanfics lemon and all, then rewatching ygo in the og dub changed my mind about them and from then on I was on board.

my thoughts: I love them 🥲 sometimes the content around them leaves a bad taste in my mouth esp from the times of yore fhdskjf but the way I personally see them and frame the way I want them to interact is what I like. sometimes I like them just getting on each other's nerves and despising one another, other times I like the idea of them being domestic in their own little way but it's the build up of trust/understanding and maybe a little fucked up abnormal situationship that brings them together?

What makes me happy about them: The thought of them coming to the conclusion that although they're different the things they lack in themselves might actually be the other person's strength. ie kaiba seeing losing as the end of the line yet jounouchi seeing it as another chance to keep going & improving—the tenacity. on the other end jounouchi has some insecurities that peek through when he's cornered or unsure of himself but kaiba's confidence in himself is overwhelmingly high. annoying at times perhaps but still an admirable trait I'd believe jou would be slightly envious of.

What makes me sad about them: That they didn't duel nearly as much as I'd wanted them to only 2x, 3 if you count the 4way battle. I swear I watch that one duel from BC at least 3x a month i'm not joking. I would just loved to see jou have kaiba on the ropes for once.

things done in fanfic that annoys me: oh man there were so many things. not so much annoying but gives me the ick fhksdjf. Kaiba being overly lovey dovey like baby talk and always hugging and kissing? I just can't see it. I think he'd have his own type of love language for sure but just not that. this is more so what older kaijou fics were like but the uwu uke jounou who cannot defend himself from big baddie seto. like c'mon let jou deck him in the face or knee him in the stomach pls.

things I look for in fanfic: How kaiba is written & if I can tolerate it. That's the biggest thing tbh 😂

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: the only other person I'd set kaiba up with is no one at all lmao or ishizu only because she wouldn't put up with his bs lol but also other reasons. jounou ofc otogi or anyone he is my shipping bicycle lol 

My happily ever after for them: Realistically is them being on decent terms with one another that they can stand to be in the same room together hfkjsdf. But otherwise at a point where they can both say "I love you" ( even if it may not be exactly those words ) without getting flustered over it 😩💕

who is the big spoon/little spoon: I feel jounou would've tried to fight to be big spoon & kaiba wouldn't even let him get the chance lol. I think the only time jou can manage to be big spoon is if kaiba is so delirious with sleep that he simply allows it and jounouchi is very happy those times. he doesn't mind being little spoon but he is very much a giver and wants to give that experience to kaiba too!

what is their favorite non-sexual activity: Dueling haha. other than that I think it'd be pretty adorable that they took frequent trips to Kaibaland when they're both free. Jou with a BEWD hat like the mickey ears 😂

[lothedon]

Hiatus Thoughts Part 1

1. Go see a doctor. Preferably a black female doctor but go see a doctor. I recommend Dr. Sabrina Williams.

2. I’m finally getting help with my ADD. 🥂 Here’s to better focus.

3. “Anniversary Reaction” is a real thing. Mentally you may think you’re past it but your body has its own memory.

4. At this big old age, I still hate needles. POKE-ahontas got my blood work done as SOON as I sat down. Barely a connection or nothing, Jeezus. She was smooth with it too. Quick & no pain. Great work POKE-ianna. Just sweet talk me a little before you put it in, aight!? 🤝

5. Ear worm: Thotianna Cardi B & YG remix

6. I LOVE BEING AN AUNTIE!!!!!

7. I want Indy to stop going viral for the WRONG reasons. WE make the wrong shit go viral.

8. The Last of Us is FINALLY a movie! 🙌🏽

9. I want to lose 14 pounds before Pardi Gras Ball.

10. My favorites songs from Drake’s “Honestly Never mind” are ‘Jimmy Crooks’ & ‘Calling My Name’. There were other good ones but those are my “go-tos”.

11. Sweet Nothing - Calvin Harris (Diplo + Grand Theft Auto Remix)

12. I need workout gloves.

13. Back work outs are my favorite! I want a sexy back 😜

14. Making sure my nieces & great nieces hear Destiny’s Child’s “Writing On The Wall” is imperative. My nephew needs to hear it cause he’s a natural musician.

15. I need to attend some theater plays.

16. Venus in Pisces requires us to spend more time recognizing our emotions, enforcing boundaries, & receiving love. 🥰

17. One thing I loved about myself in my early 20’s is that I marched to the beat of my own drum music wise. On a regular, I didn’t listen to what’s popular with those around me. You’re guaranteed to hear something new.

18. My goal is decorate my room & bathroom to be like an expensive hotel & spa.

19. I need a full time job that I love.

20. This book about boundaries is bomb. The beginning of chapter 5 lets me know a conservative white man is writing it though 😒.

21. Focalin got my hunger suppressed like a mug! No more random snacking.

22. 👉🏽Results are always in the work we avoid.

23. Twerking over Squats. I’m working these thighs at all the parties/events I attend. I need to be twerking for at least a good HOUR!

24. 👉🏽Success is going from failure to failure without losing enthusiasm.

25. IM SO HAPPY TO BE BACK ON MY THYROID MEDS!!!

26. This tetanus shot is IRRITATING! 😣

27. I’m contemplating going back short & blonde 😩

28. Ain’t nobody engaged with me or reach out since I deleted the app. Ain’t no point in me having the app anymore. I put too much effort into engaging with folks for them to not want to engage with me. Time to become more exclusive.

29. Eargasm: Broken Clocks - Sza

30. Marc Jacobs need to come out with mini backpacks 😒

31. Progress. My legs are not shaking while skating.

32. Adding skating to my workout regime.

33. Feminine & Flirty.

34. Playing video games until 3am is a lot 😫

35. WHY IS MINECRAFT SO BORING???

36. Everybody needs to get back on Tumblr

37. Hopped on FB for a zip, did a quick scroll, & remembered why I need to keep the app deleted. Smh Too Much.

38. I’m about to just get a regular degular job somewhere. I’m tired of the emotional roller coaster with these jobs.

39. Sit ups/Crunches in variations REALLY makes a difference in one week with your normal work out. 🤯

40. I’m not even vegan but Tabitha is about to get all my coins.

41. I really miss the EDM & Hip Hop days.

42. I can’t date a man that doesn’t prioritize his sleep. You don’t care about your health at all.

43. Before I get back active on FB I need to unfollow a BUNCH of folks for various reason. The only way I’ll be happy online is if I see stuff that makes me happy.

44. 👉🏽Anger lets us know our boundaries have been violated.

45. The Lat Pulldowns gonna slim this waist. 😜

46. I want y’all to stop walking up on peoples cars unless you asking for help because it’s an emergency.

47. Stop paying non-existent debts with folks & do what’s best for you!

48. So y’all going to Target in robes and house shoes????

49. 👉🏽 Sometimes the answer is in the process. - Megan Brooks

50. 👉🏽 Proof of desire is in the pursuit. - Megan Brooks

51. I know Vasa is all the rave but what I do love about Planet fitness is that when I go, it ain’t packed.

52. NOT EMILY IN PARIS CALLED INDIANAPOLIS BORING????😫😂

53. Emily In Paris makes me want to move to another city SO BAD! Or at least travel & stay for a week 😭

54. Got my STD/STI/HIV test results back & they were all negative/non-reactive. 🎉🙌🏽🤩

55. Emily in Paris IS the “Sex In The City” -ish show I needed.

56. If I can get my vitamin D levels elevated in normal range I can lose weight, get rid of my asthma, calm my allergies, & have better focus. 🙌🏽🤩

57. I’m really gonna lose this weight & get the breast reduction. I want to go down to a C cup.

58. Before I die, I have to see Paris, France.

59. Who is this fine caramel man in Emily In Paris???😍

60. 2023 = Overdressed, Mix Match Print, Polished, Out The Box, Head Turning, Main Character, Neutrals & Pop Of Color/Colorful

61. For every sandal/heel purchase I must buy a tennis shoe. Build your sneaker collection.

62. Black, Brown, Purple, Cobalt Blue, Green, Orange, Dusty Pink, White, Navy, Yellow, Red (order in that order). For every black version order the color version. For every color version order black.

63. The Husband & Wife of Mielle Organics are still the CEO & COO of the company. They have NOT stepped away from the brand.

64. Can someone bring Fabulous back to Indy? He’s my favorite toxic.

65. This year I’m twerking to Back That Thang Up Juve every time I hear it.

66. Emily In Paris gives me “Sex In The City” + “Devil Wears Prada”.

67. I’ll never forget how “Go DJ” by Cash Money Records had y’all in a chokehold in middle school.

68. If Erykah Badu had “punk” or “goth” baby it would be Rico Nasty.

69. I wonder if the offspring of Vietnam veterans that were effect by Agent Orange are the ones who also have ADHD & Autism as well. (Of course not all people with ADHD & Autism)

70. Done is good. Good is extra. Completion over Perfection! For people with ADHD it’s better to half ass it & get it done versus never starting due to procrastination/fear of not doing it perfect!

71. If you want to see some black father & son content, watch 2Chainz & his some on YouTube as well as another black father & son duo called Daddy Seed. I’m here for the black father & son content.

72. I also love the black man luxury self care content too.

73. I’m learning to not be afraid to ask the “stupid” questions. And to ask people to be patient with me.

74. Yagi World is giving me Baby Phat track suit popularity trend in the early 2000s.

75. Not being apart of anything going on with the NBA ALL STAR 2024 makes me feel like I’m not enough or haven’t done enough. Personally, I’ve been feeling both simultaneously for years & I think I’ve had enough. Im ready to let it all go & pivot to the nothing related to marketing, PR, communications, ……nothing. Im 31 going on 32. I’ve been working in this since I was in college around the age of 21. Altogether 10 years. I have nothing to show for & no more doors are opening. It’s just not in me or for me anymore. I quit.

76. I hope to be out of town All Star Weekend. I don’t even want to be in the city. Hell I hope to have moved out the city.

77. I think I’ve been fighting depression and it’s caught me.

78. Mental Healness on Tik Tok is a great guy. It’s refreshing to see a black male open up about his mental illness to help others. He is a diagnosed narcissist & has so many men & women in his comments who has narcissism that are getting help because of him.

79. Values over goals. Ex:. Instead of “I will work out 3-5x a week.” You will say “I value movement. I value being pain free in basic tasks such as walking. I value energy. I value an able body.”

80. I want to go on a cruise for NYE 2024.

81. Prostate cancer is on the rise due to low testing. Fellas start getting tested as early as 40.

82. Beyoncé - “Church Girl” should be played more often.

83. It takes one day to get married but a lifetime to stay married.

84. I got all y’all looking at my story to see this light chick with the big butt. With the amount of attention y’all ran to my story with, I don’t want to hear y’all say anything about chicks who get BBLS, wear make up, &/or brighten their skin. YALL LIKE THAT VISUAL! 🤷🏽‍♀️

85. I’m unfriending a lot of men when I get back on Facebook. If we not family, genuine friends, you’re not inspiring me, we not hunching, or making money together….then I don’t see the point of remaining Facebook friends.

86. I may be single but I ain’t out here physically fighting a significant other. 🙌🏽

87. Everyone should watch “Bao” & “Red panda” 🥹

88. I LOVE BEING AN AUNTIE!🥰

89. Stop having relationship conversations with people you’d never consider dating or that are not on the same wave length as you. You’re wasting your energy.

90. I feel some type of way about the “hot Cheetos girl” trend in Tik Tok.

91. RIP Grandma Holla 🙏🏾

92. Teaching kids to set boundaries, how to respect other people’s boundaries, & supporting them while they are practicing is important. It is also important for them to watch YOU set boundaries, respect other people’s boundaries, & see you receive support from your tribe.

93. “It’s clear that I’m not feeling you & you not feeling me. On the G, what comes after A? Just let that let that Nigga B.” - Freaky T

94. Sunday is not a rest day from the gym or from moving the body.

95. Go watch “Shadow In The Cloud” on Hulu.

96. I got new bras! 🎉

97. If they make you anxious when they’re around then they don’t need to be around. Id have to say that is one time I realize my anxiety was actually the way my body is telling me something is wrong.

98. 🔑 “Sometimes your point is in your silence.” - Megan Brooks

99. “High value but no core values.” 🚫👎🏽

100. “Drake wants a Ayesha Curry but is Drake a Steph Curry!?” - KnoForSure Podcasts

[freedomfireflies]

this was such a good final chapter!!

and such a tease - but I love you for it 😩😂

all kidding aside tho, I’ve had a wonderful time with you during the last few weeks and I’m so very glad we bonded over this story! Thank you so so much for writing this and thank you for encouraging me!! I can’t wait until my current project is over and I’ll have more time to be active on here!! 💗

my life is better with you in it :)

- Katie

KATIE OH MY GOSH I WILL LOSE MY MIND!!!

This is seriously one of the sweetest messages I've ever gotten, thank you so much for reading and taking the time to hype me up and support me, I cannot tell you how much it means to me!!! I'M SO PROUD OF YOU, AND CANNOT WAIT TO SEE WHAT YOU DO GOING FORWARD!!!! 😭💞💞💞

[hyeahgaku]

Suzuki is so evil 😭😭 He brought in Kaji after so long and nerf him again in the same chapter!? Now the dude probably can't even speak 😩 That was a real good hit from Mafuyu I'd give him that but he forgot we have Shin 🤗 He can still mind-read Kaji~~

I saw your reply in another ask & I must say I didn't think of it that way but now I do! If Slur couldn't care less about Kashima being captured by Sakamoto (he didn't even make any effort to save Kashima ngaww poor mr reindeer) then I agree Mafuyu and Tora are just another expendables in the group 😭 Although it looks like Kumanomi and Haruma has grown fond of the two... Could Slur really be tryna sacrifice them!? PLEASE, I hope Saka-san & company help save Mafuyu and Tora.

Suzuki-sensei, indeed, is evil :( And ok why didn't I thought of that?! You right, Kaji might temporarily lose his voice now since Mafuyu attacked his throat DAMN!. And that's the perks of having Shin 😤

Yea my point exactly. Kashima-san came after the Al-Kamar fam but before Mafuyu & Nao, so if Slur is not "affected" by his absence then isn't it right to assume that he wouldn't have any qualms as to sending the two to their deaths? For all we know he's rly sacrificing them "for the sake of divine justice" 🥲 whelp i been trying to reassure myself abt the bombs inside Mafuyu & Nao can only be activated by Kashima-san and there's a new bomb that Mafuyu & Nao are carrying around but reality check: Who knows maybe Slur possesses the switch to set them off? Need Kashima-san to recall about those bombs man. Yep, trust in Shin we all shall!!

[the-doomed-witch]

7h30?? I sent this.. like.. 01h30 for you or something :o. I think. I don't know. Hahaha

So, maybe I was a little grogue from my migraine pill when I wrote 🐰🐈, it was definitely between allucination and just a random pair. 😬

I think normal people write like you do 😅. I write stories that I have been daydreaming for a few days and need to take it out of my brain before I lose my mind due to overfixation - therapist's suggestion. I don't write just because is a good plot.

When I have this good ideas, I usually sent a anon ask for some real writer I like :x. Like I did you 🤭.

Yeah! I am just waiting for some opportunities at work. I think next year I am gonna be able to do it: a teacher is moving out of the city, so there is a spot left and I am the first one in the line up.. (I might have a few witchcraft candles light for it)🤭

Butterflies kisses are like... the epitome of Fluff. I am very much a sucker for it and actively ask my special someone for it without shame 😌

Let's get a smutty anatomical prompt this time, tho.... uhmm 🤔 *pretends to be thinking*

This one is a little bigger. Please Google " anterior superior iliac spine surface anatomy" and now let's place a hickey 1 cm inwards ***teaser heaven***

. . 🪶 (Fanning herself two dots)

(This one I sent 7h51 pm for you)

all i know is india is 8.5 hours ahead of brazil😭

PLEASE I’M STILL WHEEZING 😭😭 bunny and french cat sounds legit cute tho

that’s very interesting. i daydream a lot but it’s too crazy and unhinged and dirty to be written and read by lots of people on a platform lmao 😭🫣 well honestly speaking your ideas are really good, plus there’s the anatomical knowledge as an advantage for you 😙

GOOD LUCK ON GETTING THE JOB! i hope you get it *lights up a few more witchcraft candles* 🖤🖤

oooooo that’s so cute 🥺😩 for me the most extreme fluffy thing someone could do for me would be hands on my cheeks or cheek kisses. i love giving them too! 🥺🥺🥺 cries in touch starved and awfully single

okay i just googled that and ohmygosh anon don’t do this to me rn. screaming crying punching the walls laying down on the floor pulling my hair etc 😭😭 i’m a little insecure when it comes to my thighs but to have someone who makes me feel comfortable about them and- i need to stop hdjgshgsj

that’s very close !!!! it was sent at about 7:21PM (and i KNOW i’m answering 24h later but i’ll elaborate in a minute)

so this is what happens :

i see your ask early in the morning (no matter when somebody sends it, i usually see my inbox like a newsletter😭) by early morning i mean as early as 6:30AM.

i sit down to answer it at about 10:30AM (because i’m busy till like 10:00AM) and as soon as i do so, somehow my parents manage to call me for some work.

i keep the half answered ask as a draft and it never crosses my mind till the evening or the next morning (because ✨ADHD✨)

so that’s that. *in tony stark’s voice* it’s the goddamn mental illness again!

[smashboxgirl26]

Hello again 👋 congrats on the followers!! Can you please write a Drabble of Knight Bakugou x Female princess reader and he has to fight for her hand and blahwhwgwvw OR LIKE ROBIN HOOD OR SOMETHING. 😩💕

bakugou x fem! reader contains: pretty much all fluff (+ like a little violence but it's basically just the fight) a/n: LMAOOOO THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE WRITTEN LIKE LITERALLY MONTHS AGO WHOOPS THINGS GOT REALLY BUSY BUT AS U CAN ALL SEE IM BACK NOW WHOOOO ALSO I CANT WRITE SWORD FIGHTS SO LETS JUST DEAL WITH WHATEVER I DID masterlist

When Bakugou had first been assigned to watch over you, he’d never expected for the two of you to end up friends. He’d never expected for the daily peruses through the gardens to turn into something special. He’d never expected that night at the ball, where the two of you hanging out on the balcony to get away from the crowd had turned into a confession in front of the moon. He hadn’t expected you to accept it and return the feelings with ease - which then led to the both of you sneaking around the palace so no one found out.

But most of all, he hadn’t expected himself in the position he was in right now: kneeling in front of your father under the great chandelier of the throne room, telling him he wanted to marry his daughter.

“She’s engaged,” the king spoke in monotone. “The both of you knew of this news already - what did you think asking me about it would do? I’m not one to go back on the words of my treaties.”

“However, that’s the issue,” Bakugou interjected. “If you’d allow me to speak freely sir, you’re using your daughter as a bargaining chip, as an object for you to give away without any regard for her afterwards.” The king had opened his mouth in response to this claim, but Bakugou was even quicker: “What’s the guarantee that the prince she’s marrying would treat her correctly? To them, she could just be an outsider who is never accepted and forever outcasted. Sir, our education preaches for human equality yet you actively disregard the rights of your daughter. I know she’d told you numerous times she didn’t want-”

“There’s no use discussing politics Captain,” the king raised his hand. “You’ve told me what you wanted and I’ve already told you no. I’m not one to change my mind so easily. I’m sure you’re aware of this already. Even if she wasn’t engaged, though you are my best soldier I doubt I would’ve said yes. Your lineage isn’t high enough, and I don’t believe you have what it takes to take care of her.”

“Sir,” Bakugou pleaded. “All I’m asking for is a chance. I want to prove myself to you. Y/N already knows I’m capable of being there for her.” He paused, “Please.”

The king rose his brow at the ‘Please’, and the way Bakugou’s eyes went right through his very soul in desperation.

“A chance is all you want?”

“Just one,” Bakugou nodded.

“Very well then, I’ll give you one. If you fail - this will never be brought up again and Y/N will marry him as discussed. If I find out she’s in contact with you afterwards - you’ll be tried for treason, understood?”

“Yes sir.”

—

‘All I have to do is win a simple fight’ was the mantra Bakugou had chanted in his head over and over and over to ease the stress. He never showed his nerves to you, and he wasn’t about to start today when you were worried about the outcome of this fight. It all rested down to him at this point - and there was no fucking way he was about to lose to some stupid prince who’d never been in an actual fight a day in his life.

The courtyard had been prepped the day prior, since the fight was being advertised to the other nobles as entertainment - as they weren’t supposed to know the actual reasoning behind it. Bakugou had been made to use his more decorated sword, and his fingers had been rubbing against its handle and the designs engraved in anxiety since he’d reached the makeshift “arena”.

He knew it was supposedly a handicap to use this sword instead of the regular training one. It was heavier and blunter than the other - one reason being that he couldn’t exactly hurt the prince, and the other being that the king wasn’t rooting for him to win.

Bakugou stepped out into the area, shoulders squared - blurring the “audience” so he could focus. When another figure stepped out wearing a heavy smirk and a lifted eyebrow, Bakugou’s frown deepened.

He’d heard, from you of course, how cocky and rude the prince was. How he held almost little to no regard for your existence, only being concerned with the fact you were pretty and held, what he called, “good child bearing hips”. Bakugou wasn’t about to let a man who’d reduce you to something so low marry you and not give you the life you deserved.

“I see you’re the one who thinks you deserve her,” the prince pushed back his hair as he waved to the nobles. “Let’s see how you do against someone with actual influence.”

Bakugou didn’t even bother to respond, rolling his neck from side to side as he prepared himself.

But while the prince was busy trying to insult him, Bakugou was studying his mannerisms: the way he talked, walked, positioned his sword, held himself, moved into position staggeringly, etc. And he easily concluded that he wasn’t strong with little-to-no experience in sword fighting.

He’d supposedly heard that this was the prince who’d led an army into war and won. Didn’t look like it to him.

As soon as both were given the signal to go, Bakugou charged forward without hesitation - feeling the anxiety that you’d been radiating from the “audience” - jabbing his sword directly at the prince and expecting to win, only to be blocked by the prince with a smirk adorned at his face.

And so the real fight began.

Quickly, a flurry of scrapes and jabs were unleashed as both Bakugou and the prince continuously clashed and swung at each other. It was hard for most of the audience to keep up with what’d been happening since they were going at each other so fast.

But it ended as quickly as it started; Bakugou standing over the prince, sword pointed to his chest as he panted.

He won.