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anonymouseal · 6 months

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Made a few xenomorph OCs a while back, those are Venus (the queen) and Stella (the deacon), they're dating :)

Also that's the only fandom i'll probably never get out of lol

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mamawasatesttube · 17 days

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yknow how sometimes dogs will hunt things and be like look i did so good!!! yayyy i got you this!!! bc theres a comedy story in my mind in which krypto decides he likes kon's friends and wants to give them presents too! and. well.

krypto leaves a dead bird on tim's pillow and tim goes oh shit fuck is this an oblique threat that someone's discovered my identity as one of the bird-themed heroes in gotham? but then why's it a fucked-up looking pigeon and not a robin or a rook (if youre like me and like tim taking on the name rook later)??????? and why is it so mangled and burned what does it mean is this a threat of a specific way someone wants to kill me?!?! who could it have been from?! when did someone even break in and why didn't they trip any of my alarms?!?! fuck i have to cancel my plans with kon and bart later shit i don't even know how i got compromised so i don't dare see either of them in public i don't want to risk them--fuck fuck fuck how did this happen i don't understand and why is it a pigeon and

meanwhile krypto is just like. :3c i did so good i am SUCH a good dog i leave him presents :) yayyy!!! i even cooked it for him. with heat vision! yaaayyy!!

so tim phones up kon like "listen we can't meet up this weekend i'm so sorry i think i've been compromised--" and goes on about how he needs to go on lockdown alert mode until he figures out what happened and who found him out and meanwhile kon's just. go back. the pigeon. describe that again.

tim describes the fucked up mangled burnt pigeon. and kon, who has dealt with his fair share of Superdog Presents and thought they'd come to an understanding about "krypto you can't do that you'll DECIMATE local wildlife" and such, just narrows his eyes. turns to the dog bed next to him. goes ……………………….. krypto.

and krypto's like :) wag wag wag :) yes thats me :) wag wag :) im good dog :) he is SO pleased with himself. thats one mystery solved!

this ends in tim, haunted, sitting at the farmhouse kitchen table while ma frets over him and makes him hot chocolate, kon wraps him in a blanket, krypto licks his feet, and lois is just like. yeah. been there. just be glad it wasn't sea monsters.

#rimi talks #timkon #krypto #animal death mention cw #krypto has definitely brought lois a dead sea monster while she was at work before. it was a whole thing #kon and clark have had talks with him like. krypto you Can't do that. normal earth squirrels have no chance. you can't do that okay #and overall krypto understands. he is a good boy. however sometimes he just wants to do something nice for someone :)#this brought to you by: sometimes i think abt the things my dogs have done...#my current dog has only actually managed to catch something once #but my childhood dog was a significantly better hunter than him. and we lived in the woods.#that girl committed atrocities against squirrels............#anyways. i think its funny if krypto accidentally gives tim a HORRIBLE weekend. love and light #tim #kon

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nguyenfinity · 1 year

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[slams this on the table] HAPPY MOTHERS’ DAY

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#when i said i'm taking y'all down with me. i goddamn meant it.#enstars #mamagi #niki shiina #hi if you're new around here yes i am aware mother amagi has passed in canon this is just my fun little delusion #y'know if the amagis actually had something nice in their lives #the file for this was created april 28th so you can imagine how long this has been on the backburner #i don't think she's. completely innocent in rinne's childhood trauma (if that's the right term for it)#but she definitely regrets not doing more for him #she loves her boys #and her boys' boys #if rinne has a habit of adopting little brothers she has one of adopting sons sorry #i would've liked to make this nicer but working on things a little too long makes my skin crawl sorry #i love her tho #also read bean's fic. 'safe and warm a loving embrace' on ao3 you know you wanna #also is this the mamagi and niki hug you wanted mutsu. remember when you asked for that. i had this whole thing cooking before you did.#heheheheheheh #MY BAD IT WAS COOKIE WHO ASKED FOR THE HUG #I'M SORRY COOKIE #HOPE YOU LIKE IT THO

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schemelin · 25 days

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every now and then i experience brief moments of self-awareness telling me to make major changes to the fusionsprunt story

#queue #maybe it has to do with this need of visualizing it as an actual tv show. it's not necessarily a bad thing #it's so much fun to question what would happen if a specific part was rewritten or twisted into smth else. how would it work and all #for example. i've been thinking. what if Hunter was an actual robot? how does his interaction with Exocannis and B2 change bcs of it? :0 #i dont think that part will be rewritten but it's an interesting possibility #one thing i wanted to change is Gideon's lore though!#the way he disregards B2 doesn't sit right w me (and ig it didn't with everyone else who read the lore)#also! there's not much info about his childhood. it was nice until BOO TRAUMAAA.#overall i wanted to introduce him some other way. the way Gideon Rigell would do!#perhaps with a little comic? a loose dialogue in an artwork of sorts #comparing him to who he is currently is like going. wow! good job buddy ur getting better! but also you should probably seek therapy...#as for B2. i have some ideas.#some times i enjoy exploring new designs in which she looks VERY non-human or has some sort of non-human mentality #a true alien!#i wanna redesign her siblings and make all of them have an 'x' somewhere in their names #what if Beatrix had 4 siblings? what if she was the 'youngest'? what if they were all created by the same person #a person who was responsible for their creation but who also treated them like their own children #some kind of enthusiastic visionary with a passion for robotics who genuinely cared for machines. even 'mindless' ones #Also B2's relation to the Holloway Comet #like no. that's the. that's The Mother. that's the mother guys that's UNQUESTIONABLE #im talking about Monument Mythos vibes yknow. about giant n terrifying monuments/objects #i'm also cooking up ideas for comics focused solely on Bee #oneshots of sorts.... i should probably start sketching......#why am i having good ideas when i barely slept last night HSBWYSBWHDBHQHASSHHA #starbstalks

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steelthroat · 8 months

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I was thinking about the fact that it's very funny that my parents had more problems with me being atheist than with me being queer.

Like:

"Sure hon, you have a weird perception of your gender and you could possibly bring home women, men or everything in-between... fine, love is love we will take you to the pride and stuff ^w^. BUT WHAT ABOUT JESUS CHRIST HUH?????"

And when I say they had 'more problems' I mean they were like "ow... so you won't come to church on Sundays with us anymore? At least the holidays?🥺"

like idk it's so funny to me

#sometimes I gotta acknowledge the fact that I'm lucky #if my catholic parents were bigoted I would have had such a shitty childhood and adolescence #I mean adolescence sucked anyway #but it could have been so much worse with shitty parents #steel rambles #also lol I forget how much having been a religious person influenced me?#like lmao “local tumblr user discovers that going to church for 15 years every sunday influenced them in some way”#but like not in a negative way #just in weird ways #funny ways?#like I read the bible thrice in my life #once because I wanted to know the story in general and the book I had was full of pretty pictures so nice #I've always been curious about religions an myths anyway #the second I was 13 and I was proving a point #yes I read the bible to win an argument #one about lesbians never being demonized or even cited in the bible #the third time I read just the apocalypse because it was cool and I wanted to impress a girl with cool references...#“local tumblr user tried to impress a girl with cool quotes from the apocalypse” you can laugh but I have no regrets #I also “complained” to God a lot lool #like dude if you actually exist I'm so sorry for the 15 years of gossips and complaining you had to endure #like idk for example my teacher was being unfair?#me mentally: “see God? see what I have to put up with??? like I can't belive she said that!!!!”#I treated God like an imaginary friend or something I think? am I being blasphemus??#ahahshjshdhfhg

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widevibratobitch · 5 months

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omw to play emotional support for my mom disguised as ✨fun family bonding time✨ for the rest of the week <3333 there's something so deeply wrong with me uwu teehee

#and i still havent texted my friend back even tho she texted me a week ago and i told her ill text her back this week when i have the time #and i DO have the time. im just fucked in the head and the prospect of having a conversation with another person where i again #have to pretend im not at the very brink of a serious mental and emotional breakdown. is making me lose my fucking mind #ik she's having a bad time rn and she needs the reassurance and jesus fucking christ i tried i had two long conversations with her #that were allllll about her. only her. not a single word about me. that's fine. this is what people need in such moments right #to just get patted on the head and hugged and told their suffering is real and what happened to them is unfair and just made to feel #that for a moment they're the centre of attention and it is all about them. this is normal. this is why therapy exists.#so i try to give this to her but it is fucking draining. and i NEVER get the same treatment back. like she caught me crying at uni last week #and like yes she'll say some nice things but she'll always find a way to turn the conversation back on the topic of ✨her✨#like we started talking about my therapy and i finally got to actually say a word or two about what im dealing with. but then she goes #'yeah im just trying to figure out what's wrong with me when i listen to you haha like i could never cut myself cause it looks ugly.#ofc it doesnt look ugly on you haha but i could never lol'#like thanks haha good to know ill just shut up then and steer the conversation back onto you why dont i. i mean its not like #i spent over an hour a few days back sitting with you and listening to your talk about your childhood and validating you and not saying #a word a single fucking word about myself even tho i was also going through it myself but who cares right. and now im the bad guy again #because im not texting back.#i feel like im finally fucking snapping cause at this point im properly fucking angry. IM having a bad time too. IM going through it too.#I have bad coping skills and had a fucked up childhood and traumas in my life TOO and im allowed to just not be able to handle it #i really wanna break something lol maybe therapy's working after all lmao #oh also this is why i dont eat breakfast. i do it once and then feel guilty and suicidal lol normal behaviour #pojebie mnie zaraz przysięgam na boga mam dość kurwa BASTA

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shrineofprophecy · 6 months

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What do you feel nostalgic for?

a person you used to be close to

you long for this person more than anything, but you know there's nothing you can do. what do you miss about them? their voice? their smile? the way they comforted you when it felt like your world was crashing down around you? whether you lost them for reasons under your control or not, it still hurts all the same. the last time you saw them, did you know it would be the last?

your youth

life used to be so simple, right? there's something so wonderful about being naïve to the world's problems. growing up is terrifying. what would be just one more day of not having to worry about it?

tagged by: @miraiq thank you <3 tagging: steal it from me

#ღ — dash memes #⤜ character【 sparkle 】#⤜ character【 ningguang 】#( these are actually interesting because they might not be what you expect from them )#( sparkle always seems to me like a lonely person )#( people with the brightest smiles are usually the saddest no? )#( she's good at seeking fun and knows how to entertain herself )#( but most of the time it involves other people )#( she wouldn't do nearly 90% of what she does if there was no one watching )#( and ningguang has so many tasks and everyone's eyes on her )#( while her childhood was by no means easy )#( sometimes it's nice to have with no responsibilities )#( no worries )#( she had to grow up too fast to make ends meet )#( but her youth isn't something she can get back )

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nicistrying · 7 months

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I had a pleasant, dare I say almost fun time seeing my dad today and suddenly feel like I was just making up all the shit he's done lol

#childhood trauma is a real bitch #like yes im super super grateful we had a nice little chat and he actually took some interest in my life and the wedding #but also that doesnt undo the way he's treated me in the past #but also i don't hold it against him if he can make that tiny effort to speak to me when I go to see him #obvs I have to then do my part and go to see him more #but idk maybe possibly baby steps to having some sort of relationship with him #all the near death anaphalactic shocks making him want to have Feelings??#OR had he just had enough to drink that he was sociable and I happened to be there and there wasn't anyone better to talk to #who knows i guess #daddy issues

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vsk40k · 1 month

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Grew up with a dad who screamed and tore up the house to get his point across,

and a mom who would disappear and ignore everyone when she's mad.

Of course I don't know how to communicate without crying or shutting down.

#maybe thats why im this messed up with so many fucking issues #i cry and cry everyday thinking how wouldve my life been if i had a good childhood #would i know what actual love feels like and not let a man disrecpect me and hit me whenever he felt like it?#or would i had choose a healthy man who treats me nicely and gives me princess treatment?#i am afraid to tell my boyfriend what i dont like and what im uncomfortable with because i think he'll just leave me #and instead of moving on and just walking away #he could treat me like fucking garbage and id still come back crawling to him like a stupid bitch #family issues #daddy issues #mommy issues #domestic violent relationships #violent love #abusive boyfriend #abusive parents #bad childhood

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uygfiug · 1 month

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back to thinking i should never speak to another human being again

#probably just bc of the weather #see i got really overstimulated from the heat a bit ago #& now im just exhausted #will be going to sleep soon #i dont think i can be fully calm until i sleep for a bit anyway #but :( i dont want to have to stop listening to music :(#:( im also sad that my father fucked me up so bad about music that i had a hard time really enjoying it even just a few months ago #bc <3 music <3 #im just sad in general #kinda want to look at old childhood pictures #or those books we wrote together #:( but unfortunately i ripped those up & threw them away years ago #bc i was so angry at her #& i didnt want anything of hers in my room #but those were also a really big part of my childhood #& thats just gone #yknow someone from my old school got married recently #at 18 #which sounds quite worrying #she was lovely :) her whole family was really nice #but they all married early (generally not to the greatest people)#i think i actually might throw up #??? ive never felt this sick just from some memories before ????#mine

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slettlune · 3 months

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i just started reading the three musketeers. how have i never heard about monsieur de treville, captain of the musketeers, before?? best character so far, BY far. he's like if vetinari had vimes' job

#^ when i compare something to discworld characterizations you know it's good #oh the polite hanger-on bestie with the king who's actually SO SO clever and manipulative but nice. banger character archetype #my dad LOVES the three musketeers so i've been well acquainted with the main guys since childhood #i had no idea treville even existed #literary slett

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twilightarcade · 3 months

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Talked to my cousin who I haven't seen in years

#wordstag #holy fuck........ she's like #If my sister lived across the country. I actually don't know where I would be without her.#gave me a bunch of life advice and such.. was really nice to hear her voice again. I cried.#I kind of miss my cousins I should talk to them more. Especially the ones around my age #This cousin in particular though she's in biology! Medical biology specifically. That's like mecore if I wasn't a coward #I honest to god wish her the best. From the bottom of my heart. I should've gotten her phone number...#she said she would have to take a trip up here to say hi to me.. what I wouldn't give to drop everything and go down there right now #lowkey was struggling today but like. Crops watered sheets changed water drunk. So on and so forth.#I'm gonna Do It. For her in particular.#you've gotta collect people who genuinely wish you the best then Do It For Them; yknow?#would be rude to not... many such cases. I ♡ my friends and relatives and acquaintances and colleagues and everyone #Honest to god though I miss them . Like everyone down there. Never really knew a lot of them personally #but it always felt like home yknow? It's nice to feel at home. I Do wonder how her mom is doing..? I forget if it was her mom or #just her grandma. Regardless I hope she's doing well.#Man. What If The Course Of My Life Was Drastically Altered And I Spent My Childhood Years There Instead?#often a question I ask myself. Don't think we're ever gonna get an answer. Can only imagine...#can't help but feel a distance from any one culture yknow? But that's a whole different post topic we don't have time for that right now #anyways. Talk 2 yr friends and family. Literally life saving at times. Sometimes they're genuinely excited to talk to you? Like on god?#People spectacularly don't immediately forget you and what sort of impact you've had on them... wild stuff.

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machidielontheway · 3 months

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Eating cherries and feeling like summer

#3615 my life #although yesterday i had a tshirt #a thin long sleeved shirt above #and a fleeced sweatshirt above.#it's the middle of june and it's so fucking cold !!#i have a very fond memory about cherries #when i was around 12 i think ? something like that #biking in the village street and there was this cherry tree whose branchs were going a bit over the wall onto the street #and so i had stopped and was eating the cherries i plucked from it #like sitted on my standing bike right under the cherry tree branchs #and this old lady living in the house of the tree saw me and i thought she was going to tell me off #but actually she went like 'help me get all those cherries from the tree and i'll give you some !'#it's been very very long ago #but i think i went up into the tree to get the cherries down to her #(the dip of the Y shape of the tree wasn't very high #so as a teen i could mostly easily do it)#and then i biked home with a plastic bag full of cherries #it feels a bit dreamy so i don't know if all part are true or if i changed things to it each time i remember it #but this is really such a nice memory. childhood adventure with a kind stranger given treasure to go home #thank you old lady from a long time ago this makes me happy still decades past.#yeah yeah insert 'are you crying' meme here.#also i used the 'vinegar to keep fruits fresh longer in your fridge' post !#they're done drying now so the ones i don't gobble up in the next few minutes will go into the jar(s)#a spoiled cherry i left out yesterday was all moldy this morning*#(morning : 4pm)#it's incredible how fast it goes #which made me actually sort the cherries i had just left in the brown bag and put into the fridge #quite a few were already spoiled alas #but now i know how to do it and to do it quick and it's really super easy #we'll see how they fare in the next few days

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dirt-str1der · 1 year

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just wanna say im obsessed with your mind and i read your posts about kiryu like the morning paper. thank you for your service

(Sweats) e-even the ones about him laying eggs ?

#Thanks for the ask !#HIIIIII thank you for reading my posts im really a serial rambler so that is no easy feat. i just had a lowkey nightmare that was insect #based so its nice to think about different kinds of eggs once in a while. sorry for the eggs i just learned the word gravid and i cant stop #saying it !!! i literally opened tumblr to make another post about kiryu i was gonna say he was probably antisocial in his childhood which #is really a miracle any girls managed to notice him at all. and i believe that he was very dismissive of his clothing and appearance because #you know when youre young and trans and havent realised it but you just randomly hate everything about your appearance and dont even knowwhy #i think his hair was always too long and too shaggy and he would let nishiki comb it sometimes because he really could not stand his mane #and sometimes when it gets wayy too long and shitty the sunflower caretaker would drag him outside and just cut a chunk of it off with a #knife and kiryu would have shoulder length hair for a little while... anyway i need to give him a little girlfriend like how rikiya had one #when he was in school because all trans guys need a little girlfriend or an all girl group of friends to be his girlfriends when hes a kid #so he can carry their shopping bags and wait for them outside the changing room etc and kiryu cant resist a girl so he gets a letter from #nishiki and he tells him yeah this is probably a prank to have you wait there for hours or there might be guys waiting to ambush you and #beat the crap out of you. and kiryus like Nobody beats the crap out of me except our dad. and goes to meet this girl and he actually agrees #to go out with her and this is the thing that keeps him in school because otherwise he would literally not go. like hed walk with yumi and #nishiki and the rest of the kids at sunflower that he doesnt care about to remember the names of. and he would just wave them off at the #gate and wander the town in his school uniform and then after school he’ll meet nishiki and possibly yumi at the gate (yumi probably makes #other friends but its a Must to walk nishiki home because he’ll get lonely) and when kiryu starts going out with this girl hes obligated to #walk her home so he already broke rule one but nishikis like happy for him But he has to walk home with some other random guys now and #eventually theyll broach the topic of ‘his psycho sister’ and nishiki literally has to beat a few guys up to defend kiryus honour and when #he comes back with news of how unpopular kiryu is with the rest of the guys because he looks better with short hair than they do and has a #girlfriend whos super cute. kiryu is just like damn did you commit social suicide to protect my honour? youre my best friend. but whatever #kids get over it fast. but parents dont!! and kiryu walks his girlfriend right to her front door and soon enough her parents are going to #find out that the boyfriend she keeps gushing about is a girl and straight up take her out of school to make her stop being gay and kiryus #like but ... im a boy ... punches the ground and screams to the sky. anyway enough about dysphoria simulator im here to talk about this guy #when hes a bit older because im salivating and shaking over the thought of his bootyass rip kiryu you woulda loved thongs. i think hed hate #ripped jeans but only because he thinks theyre a waste of manufacturing. its literally better for the world that kiryu decided 2 transition #because can you imagine if she was a girl and needed to wear a bra? like she would literally have an itchy back all the time which would #give her a hair trigger temper which means kamurocho a&e room will be very healthily plush indeed. god my battery is dying i need to take a #shower noww anyway really thank you for the nice message you are so sweet ... hi ...

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popcorn-plots · 4 months

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just some. personal rants i've been thinking about

little bit deep, but my parents don't know i'm trans/enby so I can't really share it with them, but I just had a realization about being trans/enby and how I've struggled a lot with the fact that I don't experience as much dysphoria as someone else. When I was just starting out, I thought I was faking it or somehow doing it wrong because I didn't feel the dysphoria I've heard so much about. Like, I don't feel like I was born in the wrong body, I just don't like certain aspects of it, and I've never felt comfortable being referred to with feminime terms, and a 'girl' is not who I am. But then I kept thinking about the euphoria part, of someone using the correct pronouns, referring to me as a person or a human being, and using the right name and how it's this overwhelming feeling of joy, but I don't feel that. Sure, I'll smile. It feels good to be seen, but I don't feel that overpowering joy. For a while, I had that thought that maybe I'm not trans, because I don't feel the dysphoria or the euphoria. I just exist. I know there's more than one way to be trans, but it never felt like I fit.

Then, I started thinking about it and I wonder if part of it is because of the way I was raised. Not by societal expectations, but by an emotionally immature parent. Being raised without any validation and rarely any praise. Where I had to walk on eggshells around my mom. I wonder if it got to the point where I don't know what pride feels like. I don't know what it feels like to be proud of myself, because why would I? I did a task. Congratulations, move on, there are other things to do. I have no idea how to be happy about something I did. I wonder if because I was never validated as a child, I struggle to validate myself. I have a really hard time even appreciating myself because I spent so much time appreciating others.

I wonder if that's translated into me being trans and not just my everyday life. Where I find it so incredibly hard to feel any kind of pride or joy or happiness from something I did, because I was never appreciated as a kid.

#so anyways #i'm not in therapy for the summer #but also i need to tell my therapist this #or at least someone #i want to tell my mom but that's scary #she's getting better with emotional maturity and i'm getting better at other stuff #i can actually voice my wants and needs now! only took 17 years--#trans #enby #non binary #vent #kind of #personal post #really personal post #i literally can't validate myself #it's almost impossible #say 1 nice thing about myself? i physically gag #however that part is not my mom's fault. i just have absolutely atrocious self-worth issues #my mom is amazing #i just have to point that out #there's a lot of other things going on outside of this post that we've been working through #i'm in therapy #she's in therapy #we're working things out #and i don't blame her for the generational trauma #or anything else really #(partly because i was always told to go to my room whenever i had a strong emotion so they just kind of. disappeared #)#trauma #childhood trauma

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sonicenvy · 4 months

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worst thing about legal weed in my state is that it smells like weed every-fucking-where here now. Like, tbh I don't really care what other people do, and if weed is your thing, go you! Have fun, get high! I just would rather not have to smell super skunky-ass fucking smelling weed when I'm on the train, at the park, or on the bus. Presumably there is somewhere the fuck else that you can go to smoke that is not on public transportation or in parks where there are CHILDREN, why do you not do that instead?????

Cigarette smokers have also similarly lost their damn minds since 2020. The cigs actually make me angrier bcs second hand cig smoke is practically as bad as smoking yourself when you're breathing in that shit. have these fools no consideration for:

literal fucking children who should not be exposed to that shit

everyone who is trying to quit that might be triggered by it

everyone who doesn't want to breath in smoke

literally anyone who isn't themselves

?????

god forbid y'all have to wait an extra twenty fucking minutes to light up somewhere else.

ok. rant over.

#margaret babbles #don't get me wrong i think legal weed is good and they should do that #but jesus christ did everyone here decide to lose all sense of fucking consideration of others vis a vie their smoking after legalization #some of us actually don't like the smell of weed and don't want to have to dry clean our coats to get that rank ass smell off #also sure would be nice to be able to go to a single fucking park without being assaulted by the the smell of weed or cigarette smoke #this post sponsored by those annoying teenagers who were smoking a nastyass smelling joint outside the front door of my library #which they made worse by fucking blowing smoke at everyone leaving the library doors. not be an adult on main but fuck those kids #also sponsored by that guy who was smoking cigarettes all the way into downtown on the train the last time I took the green line #fuck that guy actually he sucks #still thinking about how one of my best friends from college is asthmatic #becuase she spent half her childhood living with her chainsmoking grandma #and how another friend I know is straight up allergic to tobacco smoke #or that conversation I had with my mom's friend who used to be a pack a day smoker #until she quit like 10 years ago #wherein she was all like yeah i know myself enough to know that I cannot even smoke ONE cig or be around cig smoking for too long #without risking relapse

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