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[chronicillnesscaneffoffplease]

Peak hEDS with comorbid POTS moment: clenching your butt as a counter-manoeuvre to help your pre-syncope, and clenching so hard you crack something back into place in your back with a loud pop. This condition truely is the gift that keeps on giving 🙃

[vicholas]

Odd Taxi speculation, heavy spoilers. I’m just brainstorming a little here.

WHODUNNIT.

Possibilities:

1. Sakura AKA Mitsuya 2:

Arguments in favor:

Was the fourth girl chosen for the group and the immediate choice for replacement if a member went missing and she knew it

Said she kept contact with Yamamoto during the time after she was rejected

Didn’t seem faced with Mitsuya’s disappearance (to be fair she barely knew her, but she’s super calm about it)

Had no problem with taking Mitsuya’s identity, in fact she seems kinda enthusiastic to take her identity (this reminds me of Perfect Blue lmao more on that later)

Didn’t seem faced with the fact that Mitsuya was found dead

Has some mysterious connection with Tanaka that hasn’t been explained and while that’s not really related it certainly makes me think there’s more to her than it seems

Seems pretty slick

Arguments against:

None I can think of...?

Actually yeah, one, idk how she’d knew where Mitsuya would be and how she’d enter the building

2. Yamamoto:

Arguments in favor:

Seemed to want Nikaido to be the center of the group as well

Was there around the scene of the crime

Quickly believed Nikaido’s innocence

Mitsuya might have called him to tell him that Nikaido asked her to reunite with her, where and when it was going to happen, probably because Mitsuya was scared or something

Had the yakuza on his phone and calling them was his first thought

Someone else pointed it out but Yano’s guess of how Mitsuya was murdered was by choking and so far the only physical ability Yamamoto has shown and his immediate method of trying to kill someone was trying to choke Odokawa with his belt

Arguments against:

He really doesn’t have a strong reason to do it, I can’t think of anything.

He pretty much gains nothing from the whole thing, actually it’s mostly negative consequences, and he should have known it would have been that way if he was going to have to make a deal with the Yakuza.

The deal is that Yano takes half of the earnings of Mystery Kiss and gets to use the girls in whatever way he wants, I really don’t know what Yamamoto gains from this.

I feel the reason both he and Nikaido didn’t want to report the crime was because they wanted to continue the group no matter what. Yamamoto seems genuinely passionate about making the group work. So doing all this, knowing it could end badly and that it’d have such big costs with no rewards doesn’t really make sense to me...? 

3. Imai:

Arguments in favor :

Would have wanted Nikaido to be the center of the group and I feel he’d be willing to kill for her lmao

This would link the plot of the bank robbery and the murder wooow it’s all connected

OK I’m gonna get meta here and in fact most of my arguments for Imai are meta, but I’m a bit intrigued by how he doesn’t have much going for him. He’s a nice guy and he’s involved in the lottery thing, that’s it. There ARE unambiguously nice characters in the show like Baba or Taeko, but Imai intrigues me since he’s gonna be a main player in the climax of the show yet he hasn’t shown any depth, and for the next reason:

Characters with obsessions in the show have been depicted with how those obsessions have consumed them in one way or another and made them either self-destructive or just destructive. Kabasawa’s social media obsession was self-destructive. Tanaka’s gacha obsession was self-destructive and destructive. Kakihana’s obsession with getting laid was self-destructive and predatory. Nikaido and Yamamoto’s obsession with trying to make Mystery Kiss keep going no matter had big consequences against them. Then there’s Imai, whose main, biggest defining trait is that he’s a big idol fanboy, and he’s obsessed to the point of spending all his money on trying to win the lottery just so he can keep buying idol stuff. It’s a bit weird how this has been portrayed so far very neutrally. The show pulled no punches on the realities of many things, many characters are hiding something, I feel Imai might be more than meets the eye.

Arguments against:

I have no idea if he knew that Nikaido wouldn’t be the center or how he’d get to the building or know where Mitsuya would be

He seems kinda dumb to commit a crime, but it might an act?

My personal guess it was both Sakura AND Imai. I really don’t think Yamamoto did it.

I mentioned that Sakura wanting to take over Mitsuya’s identity reminds me of Perfect Blue, Imai’s idol obsession also kinda reminds of it. I feel they’re going that route. I can imagine them working together.

Or maybe not and he’s just a normal fanboy lmao who knows I’m just brainstorming here

[fairycosmos]

I don’t really like solar power based on it just not being my personal taste but I agree with the previous anon. To me it is almost like… people are aloud to be happy? We are living in hard times but the simple pleasures of life still exist and solar power shows that. I almost find it strange that people want an artist to forever remain in such hard feelings and not just at times simply enjoy living. Also, this might be controversial as again we are living in hard times but what I’ve noticed is that it has become a norm to view everything negatively and it’s almost like if you are content and happy then you are suddenly boring. It may come from people (often including myself) not being able to relate to more positive content but I also think it’s because we now see healthy and happy people as boring because social media is fixated on mental illness and trauma as quirky personality traits and basically lorde being like I’m enjoying chilling with my friends is seen as boring which is weird

yeahhhh i totally know what you mean! exactly! and it's weird because i am literally a negative person. not trying to sound like an edgelord and i have tried not to be and it is actually the bane of my existence LMFAO but at the end of the day i always hyper focus on how much i'm hurting, and i see the bad in everything. BUT i hate the way people think good art/music/work can only be produced from a place of pain or suffering like it's bullshit! van gogh painted starry night when he was getting help for his mental illness, you know what i mean? i do completely understand that ppl are going through the most unimaginable shit possible and it’s exactly as you said - it's not easy to consume positive media when you are dealing with the worst that life has to offer. i think that does play a big part in it tbh. i think audiences are just tired to their absolute bones and their reactions are generally understandable, you know. especially when it comes to some celebrity being like well idk abt u guys but im happy! but i do agree with the latter part of this too. i guess it's two truths existing at once? like at least as an art form, music does not have to be heartwrenching in order to be deep or well executed or interesting or cool. so true about the social media trend of fixating on mental illness as a personality quirk as well. feel like it's linked to our obessesion with identity and wanting to appear a certain way so when our interests don't align with the serious tortured persona we're executing we're like boooo this is objectively bad lmfao. it's a shame to discard a body of work on that basis, i get u!

[dayseternal-blog]

If you ever finish answering all of yours awaiting asks...

45 questions for you 👀

https://myaekingheart.tumblr.com/post/650107314353897472/fic-writer-ask-game

Lolllll BADLUCKBREBIS, you are so funny.

Inspiration and Reading Asks:

1. How long ago did you start reading fanfiction? Writing fanfiction?

It looks like I started writing in 2017. I've been reflecting recently on how there are so many regularly active writers now compared to in 2017-2018. It was the tail-end of some of my fave writer's activity within fandom. Utsus was posting less and less. The Tumblr NaruHina fandom seemed to disappear, a whole community of writers left for other things (matchaball, nekomamoru, magmawrites, cherryjutsu, spyder-m, tenney-shoes, eliphya, among others). 2018 was a very quiet year, but! I avidly read katarinahime and bunnyhoodlum's works! In 2019, quirrrky restarted things with NaruHina Week!

2. How do you spend your time when it comes to fanfiction? Are you primarily a fic reader, writer, or a perfect 50/50 split of both?

Recently I’m primarily a reader!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Because there's so many writers now!!!!!!!!

3. Are there any fics that inspired you to write what you do?

Yeah, let’s list them.  “A Special Friend” by agitosgirl inspired “Nightdreams.  “Medicine” by @grimmjowkurosakidrake​ inspired “White Lilies.  “Torch Song” by @mmmbuttery inspired “About You.”  The language in “Unless the World Were to End” by @bunny-hoodlum​ inspired the language in “That was the plan.”  “In Between Drinks” by @peppercornpress inspired “In Between Drinks NH.”

4. Link your three favorite fics right now.

“Operation: Bring Home Naruto” by Dragonwannabe - Rated T, Canon-Divergent, Multi-chapter, Complete. Hinata's been assigned the mission of getting Naruto back home safely after his last dangerous assignment. But can she handle the undercover identity as his girlfriend that she’d been given without revealing her true feelings for him?

“The Mission” by Lunawraythe - Rated M, Canon-Divergent, Multi-chapter, Ongoing. It wasn't that Hinata never expected to work with Naruto, just never on a mission quite like this.

“The Loving Type” by @peppercornpresses - Rated M, Canon-Divergent, Multi-chapter, Ongoing. A few years have passed since the Fourth Shinobi War, in which...Rookie Nine steadily advances in rank. Naruto gets engaged. Hinata leaves Konoha. And Kakashi schemes for days.

5. What are your fanfic pet peeves? Do they have a huge effect on whether or not you decide to read something?

ahhh.  I do have quite a few pet peeves.  If the fic is Canon-Compliant or Canon-Divergent, I expect Naruto and Hinata to behave like Japanese people.  Say what you want, but the Naruto Universe is definitely Japanese in my book.  So that means no shoes in the house.  Nothing rattles me more than reading Hinata taking her sandals off before climbing into bed.  Like, what?  she was wearing her outdoor shoes indoors this whole time??

mmm... another pet peeve is when the writer describes Hinata in a kimono, but it sounds like an American Halloween costume, like the slutty version, instead of an actual kimono.

mmm... and the other big pet peeve I have is when it’s Hinata’s first time eating ramen because Naruto is showing her the wonders of ramen.  lol.  why.  how.  in what world would a Japanese person make it to their teenage years without ever eating ramen.

I have a bunch of other little pet peeves regarding Japanese culture in fanfics.  But in general, it doesn’t stop me from reading the fic if I'm already in the middle of it.  I’ll continue reading it and will probably recommend it to other people anyway. If I can tell based on the summary, then it's not for me, and I don't read it. If this makes anyone feel nervous about writing fanfiction, that's not my intention! I would also be happy to be a sensitivity reader if necessary.

6. How do you find new fic to read? Where do you primarily read fanfiction?

I primarily read fanfics on AO3 and ffnet.  I find new ones by constantly checking the Hyuuga Hinata/Uzumaki Naruto tag on AO3 or looking into a writer’s favorites list on ffnet.

7. Do you prefer to read short fics or long fics?

Short fics.

8. How often do you reblog/comment on fics that you like?

I reblog pretty often. I don't comment as often as I used to😕 I used to comment on every fic I liked.

9. Tag 3 fic writers you think are underrated/unknown in the fandom/fanfiction community.

Uhh?? Idk. I think recently the writing group here is pretty tight, everyone seems to know everyone.

10. What’s your favorite fandom, pairing, or character to read fic for?

Naruto fandom and NaruHina.

Fanfiction Writing Asks:

11. How do you come up with your fic titles?

I usually take it from words used in the story or from the prompt.

12. Tell the author your favorite fic title of theirs (not the fic, strictly title). Author: what’s your favorite title you’ve come up with and why?

I think...maybe "Tell Me of Forevers" or "Nightdreams." I like those because they aren't taken word-for-word directly from the story, but touch on a theme in the story.

13. Do you outline your fics? How much of a headache would someone get if they just looked at an outline of yours without reading the fic?

Yes, I outline. They wouldn't get a headache, I think. It's usually just a summary.

14. Do you have a personal word minimum that you hold yourself too? Why or why not?

Nope. I didn't know people do that.

15. Tell the author your favorite fic of theirs. What’s your (the author’s) favorite fic you’ve written?

My favorite fic continues to be "It's No Secret."

16. Do you research for your fics? If so, how deep of a rabbit hole have you gone down by accident when researching?

Yes, I do. I've done historical and folktale research for "Little Samurai." I did area/location research for "Last Chance." I did historical research for "About You." I did fairy tale research for "Catskin." I did a ton of astronomy research for "The Cowherd and the Weaver Girl." And I did lighting research for "Inspo." I go pretty deep.

17. How obsessively do you sit and stare at your fic after you’ve just posted and wait for feedback?

I don't. I usually have something else I need to do or I go to bed.

18. Do you have a WIP that you keep telling yourself you’ll eventually get back to, but deep down you know that’s probably a lie?

I actually think I can finish all of mine if I just try.

19. Do you edit your fics after you write them, or do you prefer to just hit post and run (because it’s someone else’s problem now)?

I always edit before posting to AO3. Anything I post directly on Tumblr might not be edited.

20. What’s your favorite part about the fanfiction writing process?

Posting!

21. What’s your least favorite part about the fanfiction writing process?

Starting a new chapter.

22. Do you take fic requests? If so, for what characters and why?

On occasion. If someone sends me a request, I'll think about writing it. Sometimes I do write and post it, sometimes I leave them in my drafts for a better day.

23. What’s your absolute favorite trope to write?

From what I already have posted, probably friends-to-lovers, secret relationship/forbidden love, or high school au. I don't think I have an intentional favorite.

24. What’s a trope that you’d like to never hear about as long as you live, let alone write?

Public humiliation / public degradation.

25. Do you listen to music as you write? If possible, link your writing playlist.

No, not usually.

26. What’s your biggest distraction when writing?

Tumblr feed, all the pictures to scroll through mindlessly.

27. Do you like to give your readers some warning of what might be coming or just slap them in the face with content at random?

lol, whatever is fine.

28. How do you deal with writing pressure (ie: pressure to update, negative comments, deadlines, etc)?

Well, pressure to update is not a big deal to me. I do this for fun, so I don't think I unnecessarily pressure myself too much. With negative comments, I don't get too many of those, and I think I do my best to avoid situations where I might get negative feedback.

29. Have you ever written for an exchange or event of some kind? Which one(s)? Did you enjoy it?

Yeah, I like the events. My favorite was NH2020, the year-long one last year. I also enjoyed the Secret Santa last year since @badluckbrebis was my giftee.

30. Post a snippet from your current WIP without context - no more than 300 words.

haha😈

Ecstasy slides through his veins, blooming over his mind, cocooning him in pleasant sensations, cum shooting out in eager twitches against hot, milking flesh.

31. Of the characters you write for, which is your favorite? Has that choice been swayed at all by your followers/readers’ reactions to certain ones?

Naruto Uzumaki, always.

32. Copy and paste your top three favorite lines/jokes/sentences you’ve ever written. What fics do they come from?

Top 3 faves in order:

That was the plan: "She shifts in his arms, and cloth and cleavage come pillowing up to his face, and he’s certain that she’s scooped from the same puffy stuff his adolescent daydreams were made of."

Tell Me of Forevers: "What he wouldn’t do to inspire every blush, every smile of hers for an eternity when such moments already only speak “forever” to him."

White Lilies: "Whether at his feet, in his eyes, ears, mind, if not reaching his heart, she never landed anywhere. (It’s okay.)"

I consider "White Lilies" to have my technically best writing, so it was kind of hard to choose just one line from that fic! But I decided that one's my favorite line from the whole story.

33. What do you like writing better: one shots or multi-chapter stuff?

One-shots.

34. How much of yourself and your life experiences do you put into your writing? What do you think your readers’ image of you is?

A lot of my life experiences are in my writing. Hmm, I think readers probably think I'm...hmm...either empathetic or really perverted?

35. How much has writing fic changed your life?

I spend a lot less time on real-life social media than before.

36. Are there any fics or fandoms you’re embarrassed to have written or been part of?

I'm kind of embarrassed of "Honeymoon at the Hot Springs" lol. It's fine.

37. Give an update on your current WIP - if you don’t have one, give a sneak peek to a title or idea that you have and would like to write.

My current WIP is that A/B/O fic I started for February Smut Month Prompts: Sweet as Candy or Love Bites. I'm going to title it "Sweet As," and it'll be about how Naruto and Hinata become Alpha/Omega mates. It's really kinky, really smutty, and totally what I would want to read.

38. What does your writing process look like? How chaotic is it on a scale of 1 (very tame) to 10 (you can’t handle this kind of chaos)?

uhh???? a 1?? I've never once thought of my writing process as chaotic. Ahh, then I think of bunnyhoodlum's multiple drafts for the same chapter, and I realize that there exist types of writing processes that I would not be able to handle...

39. What’s something about your writing that you pride yourself on?

My smut.

40. How did you come up with the idea for [x fic]?

41. What’s your most popular fic (with the most notes on tumblr, most hits/kudos on ao3)?

Idk about Tumblr,,, maybe White Lilies got the most attention here. My most popular fic is Nightdreams on AO3.

42. Asker: pick three of the author’s works. Author: rank them 1 (the best) - 3 (the worst) based on whatever criteria you want - this could be something totally random that isn’t quality related (like simply ranking fics based on how many trains appear in them) - have fun!

43. Talk about a positive experience with fanfiction or the fanfiction community that you will always remember.

I will always remember how people congratulated me for finishing White Lilies😭 Also, when peppercornpresses made that FIRST art of my story, I just, I just stared at it all day.

44. Rant about something writing related.

hmmm, I don't feel like ranting about anything. I just recently ranted about my pet peeves above.

45. Fic specific questions - if you have any weird questions about specific works, here’s your shot to ask them!

I did them all! Nice questions.

[doodleswithangie]

NETFLIX PRESENTS: TRASHMOUTH Comedian Richie Tozier gives a crude and brutally honest take on growing up in a small town, retrograde amnesia, and facing your childhood fears in his new stand-up special. Starring: Richie Tozier Genres: Irreverent Stand-Up Comedy, Stand-Up Comedy, Comedies This movie is: Cynical, Witty, Irreverent

Part 4 of my unofficial Social Media AU, in which Richie’s Netflix Special makes waves, and he potentially breaks contract to share the last two minutes of his show.

[image description: a tweet from richie tozier with a video link to a clip of his stand-up special, captioned “idk if i’m allowed to do this but neflix can dm me later / this one’s for you trashmouth”. richie stands on a theater stage dressed in a red blazer set and black turtleneck. he tells the audience about a childhood run-in with a bully in which he was publicly humiliated in front of and ostracized from the rest of his grade after trying to befriend the bully’s male cousin. instead of keeping quiet, richie carves his and his best friend’s/crush’s initials into the town bridge, symbolically and literally making his mark on a town that left a mark on him. richie is grateful for the risk his younger self took in owning his identity despite the fear and ends the show by flipping off derry to the applause and laughter of his audience.]

full transcript under the cut:

1. People seem to think I grew up to be cynical when I was just as misanthropic as a kid. I mean, can you blame me? I was exposed to the worst of humanity from the get-go: middle school bullies. We all have our stories, right? 2. My bully carried around his police chief dad’s pocket knife and then committed patricide with said knife. I see the looks on all your faces but this is my show, and we do not have the time to get into that. Google it. 3. When I was like 13, that mullet-wearing prick saw me playing Street Fighter with his cousin in the arcade. Absolutely nothing was going on - I just wanted to hang out with this cool guy that I met, but I got thrown under the bus and he flipped his shit. 4. They both just flung slurs at me in front of half our grade. I just remember running out of there and collapsing on a park bench and thinking, “Fuck.” 5. Because it finally sunk in that this part of myself was not only very much not a phase, but also not as stealthily hidden as I’d thought. 6. It was, in fact, a glaring red flag to the rest of my small-brained peers that this kid was “different” - and we didn’t have Glee in the 80s, so “different” equaled “social pariah” and “victim of targeted bullying”. 7. This asshole probably thought he finally silenced the Trashmouth, that I’d double down on my dirty little secret and square it away under layers of repression. But joke’s on him. 8. Because the next day, I biked down to the local makeout spot. Every small town has one of those, right? The place that contributes more to a teen’s sex ed than actual sex ed? Derry’s was called “The Kissing Bridge”, and all up and down the path carved into the rotting wood were cutsey names in hearts - and just initials for secretly pining. 7. Well, I stole my dad’s pocket knife (sorry Wentworth) and scratched out an R for Richie and an E for Eddie - my best friend and the love of my 13 year old life. Hidden in plain sight, indistinguishable from those of the heterosexual lovers. 8. And the entire time, I kept looking over my shoulder, scared out of my mind someone would drive along and beat the shit out of me, but I didn’t stop until there were two letters and a crooked plus in between them. 9. And yeah, years later, fear took a hold of me again and threw me back in the closet for a few decades, but I’m still so proud of that kid. Because even though he was terrified, for the first time in his life, he owned who he was and the love that he had and I am so fucking grateful. 10. That permanent fuck you is still carved on that stupid bridge to this day. Derry may have left its mark on me, but I’d be damned if I didn’t leave one back. 11-12. (Richie flips off the camera to audience applause and laughter.) Thank you, New York! You’ve been a great audience! Good night!

[whentherewerebicycles]

i am doing SO much interesting reading this morning and it’s making me feel so invigorated and alive!! one hazy thing i am thinking about today is how much of social media culture (but maybe especially twitter) encourages people (maybe esp young people) to focus on & amplify the negative aspects of their lives, characters, relationships, personal experiences, etc., while sort of tacitly discouraging (by not rewarding as strongly) the sharing of strengths, talents, dreams, aspirations, or the fulfilling aspects of our lives/relationships/work.

these hazy thoughts are attached to some even hazier thoughts i’ve been working through over the past year or so, about how social media rhetoric around “destigmatizing mental illness” may help to reduce shame around depression, anxiety, etc. (i’m not entirely convinced on that point), but in many ways seems to more deeply entrench people in a depressive mindset. the way social media encourages people to talk about & share experiences of mental illness tends to strongly reward divulging painful or negative aspects of our lived experience, while dismissing or not directly rewarding (with attention, engagement, etc.) efforts to share practical tools for refiguring the habits of mind and features of one’s environment that can entrench depressive symptoms. social media culture elicits and strongly rewards expressions of suffering, and it also seems to encourage people (especially young people) to see mental illness (or the distress that mental illnesses cause) as a core aspect of their identity, ie, an essential and immutable part of who they are. it’s almost like, under the guise of “accepting ourselves as we are,” we are encouraged to see our depression, anxiety, bipolar symptoms, etc as part of our “authentic selves,” which i think can subconsciously dissuade us from pursuing treatment or lifestyle changes that could significantly alleviate the suffering those conditions cause us.

i also feel very strongly (and this is anecdotal experience drawn from almost 10 years of working closely with college students) that over the past decade social media culture has normalized depression and anxiety in ways that i find extremely disturbing. many of my students now act as if it is completely normal and unremarkable for a person to live with (and to regularly express) lowgrade feelings of “i hate myself,” or “i’m trash,” or “i want to die / it would be better if i were dead.” it also seems to be much less common for students to talk openly about pursuing happiness, well-being, a sense of personal fulfillment in one’s work and relationships, etc. of course, there are absolutely students who still prioritize those things (i see it in their work & in the way they pursue and talk about that work). but they seem to do so in increasingly quiet, inwardly-directed ways, as if there is something slightly taboo about openly expressing a desire to be fulfilled by one’s work, or about openly prioritizing emotional well-being.

i am getting way too far into the territory of drawing Big Conclusions from anecdotal observations so i will back off for now!! BUT I do want to note that i tend to work with students who self-identify as very leftist (somewhere on the progressive to radical spectrum) and who have an avowed concern with a wide range of social and environmental justice issues. now THIS is the haziest thought of all, but i feel like there is a link between what i am describing in social media culture & the extremely-online left’s obsessive focus on what indigenous scholar & researcher Eve Tuck calls “damage-centered narratives.” Tuck defines damage-centered narratives as accounts of the world, or of one’s self and community, that center experiences of exploitation, trauma, damage, pain, loss, and oppression.

Tuck argues that progressive and radical movements tend to rely on a flawed “theory of change,” namely that obsessively and endlessly documenting the damage caused by oppression will somehow move the dominant group to redress historical & ongoing injustices—when actually, historically, the dominant or oppressive group is almost never moved or shamed into changing course. damage-centered narratives not only fail to produce the desired change, but also tend to leave people with a distorted understanding of themselves and their communities as fundamentally damaged, flawed, incomplete, too traumatized or oppressed to heal, etc. in essence, damage-centered rhetoric teaches both marginalized people and members of the dominant group to see damage as both a normal and essential part of the marginalized group’s identity. Tuck’s argument is not that we should pretend like the damage doesn’t exist, or stop documenting the suffering it causes. but she does argue that we need to think about what we center in the stories we tell about ourselves and our communities, and about what happens to our sense of agency and wholeness when we repeatedly choose to center trauma and suffering in ways that crowd out stories of individual & community power, resilience, agency, and healing.

i feel like there’s some link here—like, some way in which social media culture’s rhetoric around “destigmatizing mental illness” has gotten entangled in these leftist damage-centered theories of change. or maybe it’s less of a direct connection and more like, Tuck’s analysis offers a useful framework for describing what i observe in these social media cultures. idk! still working through the tangled threads of this thought (and it’s possible that the connection to political views isn’t the most compelling part of this observation, just a personal pet idea of mine that i am always trying to fit into this narrative).

anyway i think i just want to end by saying that it is in fact NOT normal for lots of young people (or older people!) to be living everyday with a lowgrade feeling of wanting to die, and that we should be really concerned first and foremost with the political and economic conditions that are producing those feelings, but also with a social media culture that presents those feelings as “normal” and tacitly rewards them. but even that articulation does not feel very precise! because i am not saying at ALL that the solution is to stop talking about the lived conditions of our lives, or the fact that many of us DO live in a state of distress. it’s not the sharing of feelings that concerns me at all (all i do all day is share my feelings on the internet!!! sharing and reflecting on feelings is Good, actually!!). rather, it’s the way in which the sharing itself (of feelings of despair, depression, worry, social isolation, hopelessness, suicidal ideation, etc.) becomes an end point & a “good” in and of itself. the sharing becomes disconnected from, idk, a deep culture-wide examination of the conditions that produce those feelings, or from a culture-wide mobilization to materially address those conditions.

AND ALSO, to circle back to my very first point: when the sharing of negative emotions & experiences is rewarded and treated as an end in and of itself (ie it does not spark further individual or collective action/response), it tends to crowd out (and perhaps even render taboo) the sharing of strengths, hopes, dreams and aspirations, our efforts to build more fulfilling lives and relationships, and so on. sharing and focusing on the positive aspects of our lives does not automatically solve the negative stuff, and obviously we are often going to find ourselves in situations where we don’t have a lot of agency or the power to change our material circumstances. the negative stuff is real, and the way it makes us feel deserves to be closely and compassionately attended to. but i just worry about a particular kind of dysfunctional coping mechanism that encourages us to treat the shittiest, most distressing aspects of our lived experience as somehow central or essential to our identities, while persistently downplaying or discouraging us from cultivating the traits and habits of mind that make life worth living & our personal and collective well-being worth striving for. 

[godshideouscreation]

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This may not be allowed to ask but how did you get your OF going? I want to make an OF but I don’t know how to start, where to begin, etc. I’m also a chubby girl so idk if it’s worth it to even try.. but if you have any advice Or tips on starting out, it would be awesome to know them.. thanks ❤️

Thanks so much. I haven't always been. It's definitely been a journey for me. I used to suffer with an eating disorder for a long time too tbh. Sex work started for me before Onlyfans though. I've been doing sex work online for 8 years now! I started selling a "private blog" on here when I was 19. Then I got started on Manyvids. And about 2 years ago I started my Onlyfans.

I would really love to help you out honestly if you want to come off anonymous I will give you lots of tips and tricks as I continue to learn new things. This is definitely a job in an industry that's always changing. One of the things I love most about being able to work online is being from home since I'm chronically ill but also that I can put my own hours in so maybe I'll put in 2 hours if I'm really not feeling good or maybe I'll put in 10 hours if I have the energy to. There's a group that my friend made for adult workers from Tumblr (@kittenbre is a babe pls go follow her) it's on telegram!

Here's my referral link for Onlyfans and Manyvids. If you sign up for either with my link please let me know!

Also, it's a total myth that you can't be an adult content creator and be chubby. There is literally an audience for all types of bodies! I used to view porn in a specific way when I first started creating because I was used to the stuff that I've seen on pornhub. But honestly I love seeing all the independent content creators who are all shapes and sizes. Everybody has a different body type and there's nothing wrong with wanting to display yours. I bet you are beautiful.

Potential worries /safety tips for beginners

- fake name / hiding your face , neither are required obviously but it depends on the level of security you want. If you don't want people to know your real name, make a separate profile! There's no shame in wanting to protect your identity.

- do not send porn out in item trades until the item is in your hand. They can cancel it even if Amazon has already started shipping it out. 🙄

- do not use PayPal for any reason. They'll lock your account. If you must, use gift rocket, cash app, and do not let the senders say for porn or use suggestive emojis. instead try to convince people to say it's for art, stickers or something bc those cash sending apps do not allow you to use them for porn!! Be discreet if you are using them.

- getting verified on a site like many vids or only fans will help prove to others that you are real and a legitimate seller. You can also set up previews so that people will know what they're going to be buying and you can make it really streamlined so you really don't have to talk to anybody. 👌👌

- branching out on several social media sites until you find one that's right for you! Don't put all your eggs in one basket.

- Reddit, Tumblr, Instagram, Twitter, and dating apps can all be lucrative but on some you need to be more discreet than others. For example, on Instagram you cannot put your actual porn links you have to set up and all my links so people can click on your link to then click on your other links. I know it sounds tedious but if you put your link on there straight up they'll get your account deleted over and over again. whereas Tumblr banned porn completely but you can tag safe for work images with whatever website it doesn't even matter to them. 😂

- Twitter allows explicit media as long as there is none in your icon or header and your profile is marked as adult content. reddit allows porn in the 18 plus threads but your account has to be a certain amount of days old and has a certain amount of karma. most dating apps aren't a fan of you advertising but if you keep it pretty low-key and don't come off as super pushy about it you can definitely make it work.

- If you haven't signed up to any sites yet the first thing I would suggest is to make as much content as possible until you're ready to sign up with your government ID. The more content you have the more people can buy from you and the more money you will make. I always tell everyone to make something that they would enjoy watching so that they genuinely have fun and look sexy doing it.

- Don't tell people that you're new to sex work because customers will try to take advantage of you and control you and fight you for your prices. when you set your prices it's good to look at the market and see what other people are selling their content for that is similar. For example don't put a 10-minute anal video as $1. You deserve way more money for your hard work. You want to set your price for what you feel your content is worth. And then if you're not making enough sales in the time frame you want, you can adjust your prices. Don't let people walk all over you when you're doing a sale, then you control when you want to give the discounts.

Anyway that is just some basic stuff If you have any questions just let me know and I will do my best to help you out.

Follow my new blog that is not marked NSFW, @thegodshideouscreation

[misszura]

Where, besides Tumblr, can people find you doing fannish things? (Obviously only mention sites and usernames you actually want to be found at. Don’t expose your secret identities on my account.)

What other names have you gone by on these platforms, including Tumblr, if any?

When did you join the IT fandom? And what got you into fandom, to begin with?

What are your favorite ships, or characters, if any, and why? What do they mean to you?

In what ways do you participate in fandom? (ex. Posting memes, reblogging/commenting on content, writing fanfic, making fanart, creating fanmixes, etc.)

Do you have any in-fandom inspirations? Other members of the community that drive you? (And if you have the time/energy, in what ways do they inspire you?)

Name and link some of your favorite works, please!

Do you have any works of your own that you feel particularly proud of, or wish more people would’ve consumed? Please provide links if possible.

Have you ever participated in a fannish event (ie. IT Week, a fic Big Bang) or applied to be a part of a fanzine? If so, which ones, and can you please link them?

Without any form of bashing or lashing out, what is something you feel this fandom is missing?

(lmao sorry I accidentally unfollowed trying to get to the ask button)

OMG, it's 2am here, and I just received this notification, so instead of watching the celling, trying to find sleep, I'll answer your questions !

(I love asking ! Thank you so much ! )

Others social medias that's it ? I have plenty of them. You can find me on twitter (@ CrazyZura) but it's mostly in french (speaking English in front of a buch of french people is hard y'know ?) I have Instagram, but it's not really interesting (except if watching me make paper boats and leave them at my university is interesting) I think it's resophinement (I'll check before posting) I also have wattpad, but as before it's in french (feel free to have a look on my unfinished works (no It there)) still CrazyZura, but I have a second account where I project to post the fanfiction I'm currently writing ! (I'm almost done ! ) Oh and I have a tik tok account ! I draw a lot, and there is some IT content there certainly CrazyZura (as @ but I think my username us wawawa, because I used to cosplay a gebderbend Wario) (don't ask he is underrated XD)

I never changed my username on those platforms, because I'm kinda a newbe on Internet, i mean, I'm here from 2015 for most of them, before I was on... YouTube i think, and Facebook. I used to have a blog, and my username was something like sosodu44 (my name + from my department) (and I'm on Tumblr for 2/3 months, I still don't know how it works)

(please tell me i understood well the question, sorry if not, I still learning foreign languages)

I'm also a newbe on the IT fandom since I watched them (2017 and 2019 version) during the lockdown, and the 1990 miniseries not long after. I'm still looking for the book, but I can't find any book shop open (and I won't buy it with Amazon.) You laugh at me if I say that I saw those movies while watching the whole Finn Wolfhard filmography ? Because it's thanks to that I'm in the fandom

My favourite characters are Stan, Richie and Patrick, and my favourite ships are probably Stozier (don't hit me please) patrick X Richie, henpat and obviously Reddie (I mean, I think everyone in the fandom like Reddie, right ?) Why ? I kin (it's the term ? Let's say it's the term) Richie and Stan (more Richie, he is my Confort character ) and Patrick, because I have a thing with unsaine bad Guys, my family always make jokes about it. (I can't help, plus the fact that he is pictured by Owen teague improve my love for him) (funfact : patrick is my Confort drawing, when I don't know what draw, it end up by Patrick) (sometimes Vic comes, because i like his character a lot too)

I love this question, because it makes me feel like I'm really a part of something even if I don't do a lot. As said before I draw Patrick a lot, not only, I draw it characters a lot (I need to find where I put my last Bill drawing ) I also have a fanfiction, but I won't post it until it's finished, because I fear to not end it, and I don't want the pressure of people asking "when is the next chapter" (if people ask that) and I'm kinda anxious that if I start post it before I finish it, I'll never finish it... (But soon ! Like before July if I work hard !). And obviously I reblog memes, I share fanarts, cosplays, tik tok, videos, and fanfiction.

Ok so this is the "sophie is going to simp over everyone" time ! Fanfictions writers who inspires me are @ fuji09 (I didn't notify them on purpose, I have to stop bothering them) they're fanfictions are really cool, and there for every tastes, I wish I could have a writing skill as good as them. There is also my friend shayla_mitchel (on Wattpad) she writes a lot about Patrick and she Helps me a lot with my work (plus she is the one who correct the English version, since my translations aren't always the best) (by that I mean : it's sometimes, when the moon is in good therms with Neptune, good enough) (in my language it's fun. I swear) there are those Cosplayers on tik tok, mostly fezilius and Synthestron, moonshine4snails, tarondactyl and aphelion (they're cosplaying with their friends, if you have time watch they're works, even if they don't do only It contents, they're really good Cosplayers that I love) (i just noticed I've mentioned only male/nb Cosplayers, so I add cospla.natro (on Instagram and tik tok) and Ligeia.cosplay (on Instagram and tik tok too) and there is also the reddie videos of kmcarras (on Instagram)

I still don't know how to put links in her (I'll try to figure out while answering) the leach series of Fuji09 (mentioned above) on AO3. A fic called When you say my name by YoungDumbandFullofHeadcanons on AO3 (really a jewelry, but a lot of tw, mostly of transphobia, be careful and take care) and a hard one called "a lot of marshmallow" by MeganRosenberg on AO3 (apparently) kinda hard because it's a violent one. There was others like Above and bellows (I think) i can't find it back to mention, I think the author deleted it.

I'm really proud of the fonction I'm currently writing, even if it's a fiction with an OC and I'm a little ashamed of that(because people judge that a lot). (As said before not posted yet) and my tik toks about Richie and patrick (the two last I've posted.

It's now 3am, and I haven't finished, my phone Will probably get out of power before the end XD (like this I'll see if Tumblr have some automatics saves)

I wish I would, but no... One day, may be if the occasion comes to me :)

I don't really know, I wish we had more content (in french for exemple ! ) But I think the fandom is kinda cool (when we forget all the ship wars and all dramas like this)

I hope I've answered well enough, I'll probably regret doing this that late tomorrow, because I probably forget a lot of things (did i mentioned that i made some It incorrects ? I don't think so) keep asking me things I'm totally open for this (idk if annon are on)

On this, I wish you a good night, or day, or whenever you are and I'm going to keep watching my celling !

Good night 🍈🍈🍈

[tibby]

Is it valid to have questioned your sexuality in the past but eventually came to the conclusion that you’re straight? When I was 11-13 and got my first social media accounts and was first getting into feminism and coming to terms with the idea that straight and cis didn’t have to be the default I was very confused about my sexuality for several reasons. First of all, I find that for me the lines between aesthetic and romantic/sexual attraction can get blurred at times because there always has been and probably always will be women who I just.... genuinely really love looking at? And not in a “ugh I wish I looked like her” way just like a.... “damn she’s really nice to look at” way where it’s kind of like I want to look at this person like I may look at a painting or a sculpture (aesthetic attraction?) but it can be very hard to tell whether it’s in that way or in a “that person is attractive and I want to date them way” and also there are absolutely other women that I find hot which still confuses me to this day because I find them hot in a similar way as I find men hot but I don’t know what that means?? I’ve heard people say that it’s normal to be sexually attracted to people of the same gender sometimes which is why people experiment and that that doesn’t necessarily mean that you’re bi/gay but idk if that’s true or not?? Another reason was that I tend to get strong platonic crushes and when I want to be friends with somebody I REALLY wanna be friends with them so for a while I wasn’t sure if those were actual CRUSHES or just platonic attraction (turns out it’s just strong platonic attraction). I also just really love the idea of having a close, intimate friendship with another girl that’s a little beyond normal friendship but definitely isn’t romantic or sexual (queerplatonic??) like I just really like the idea of having a best friend that’s like “my person” in a way that’s beyond normal friendship but not really in a romantic/sapphic way if that makes sense? But for a long time I couldn’t tell if that desire was just a desire for intimate friendship or a desire for a girlfriend?? Like I know now it’s just a very strong desire for a soulmate-type friendship but you can probably see how I would be confused. I was also just finding out about feminism for the first time and a lot of people online were kind of like “REAL feminists date other women, men are horrible and will abuse you, woman/woman relationships are MUCH healthier because women can never be toxic or abusive ever apparently” and I was also just kind of down about the idea that as a woman I was inherently a man’s property and that by dating a man I was conforming to the patriarchy and letting misogynistic men win or whatever. I overall just really admired lesbian women (and still do honestly) for kind of showing people that love and sex and marriage didn’t have to have anything to do with men and that womanhood and female sexuality didn’t have to be inherently linked to men and I guess little 12/13 year old me who was coming to terms with how much misogyny sucked just really looked up to lesbian woman for that if that makes sense (even though obviously it’s not a choice to be gay and gay people are just people and being gay isn’t a political statement). Even though I know now that I could only ever be truly happy in a relationship with a man I still think that sapphic love is a really cool and beautiful thing. I never told anyone about this because I was almost kind of ashamed of it, like it was a shameful thing to question your sexuality and not always know exactly who you are. Recently I’ve been seeing a lot of people on here be like “ugh I hate it sooo much when straight people are like ‘i think I might be bisexual’ when they’re literally just straight like you’re making it harder for us because now people think it’s a trend and don’t believe us when we come out” and even through I literally never told anybody about me having questioned my sexuality in the past and kept it completely to myself, hearing that made me feel even more ashamed of it.

honestly no there’s nothing wrong with any of this, and unless you’ve inserted yourself into lgbt spaces after you came to the conclusion you were cishet, i don’t see why this would be a problem. like you’re absolutely allowed to question and explore your gender/sexuality as much as you want, especially when you’re young and just figuring out all this stuff, and it makes sense that your mind would go there if you were growing up in those kind of internet subcultures. because i did too and even though i realised i was a genderweird lesbian, i still probably would have questioned things regardless of my identity. just...as long as you know your place and don’t try to force yourself into places where you don’t belong, anyone who doesn’t have severe internet brain rot wouldn’t be upset with you. and it’s not worth listening to those who are.

[filthybonnet]

What’s going on with that one account is getting severely out of hand and they’re exaggerating claims and making threats and it’s honestly disgusting. Trans rights are important but they’re ruining an event with this and even the person running it had to ask that callout posts not be made linked to their events. Your post was really nice and I hope it helps calm things down

Thank you for your kind words about my post. I’m just really tired of seeing the Phandom fracture over this. Like I understand why certain people don’t like me and why I don’t like certain people. And why I became a target over this IDK? Like yes I reblog Gender Critical things and sometimes some of those blogs may be considered “terf” but I’m not out there actually protesting against transpeople or advocating violence against them. I recently got into a discussion in a facebook post where I was called a terf for wanting dismantle social gender performance because doing so hurts transpeople. I was like really? Because then people couldn’t build their whole identity on gender stereotypes? Like how is getting rid of stereotypes bad? Especially when we’re working hard to get rid of them for race?

Queer Theory and Feminist Theory are legit ways to look at “Phantom of the Opera” however you have to the evidence to support your thesis. You can’t just say Erik is trans because I want him to be. Besides trans as we see it today didn’t exist when the book was published. Neither did our concept of feminism. You can’t put current morale onto past art or historical figures and judge them that way.

And I think woke social media has gone too far. It’s all performative. It’s easy to say “Black Lives Matter” or “Trans Rights” online. It’s easy to make yourself look woke for attacking someone who speaks up about saying cis women should have their own shelters. I’ve seen plenty of my Facebook friends do it yet when I actually attended protests to remove Confederate Monuments or standing up against the treatment of immigrants in ICE centers, I never saw a single one of them there. When I show them the data of the number of women raped by transwomen in shelters all they can say is “Not all transwomen.” You know that sounds exactly like “Not all cops” to the women who were trying to get away from abusers only to get revictimized in a supposed safe space. Yes I realize Transwomen are also vulnerable but they aren’t being hurt and killed by cis women in shelters.

And in the long run do we really need to bring this into a fandom space? Like I can reblog my Phandom stuff and my Gender Critical stuff. No need to go on and be like “I saw Goody Filthybonnet with the Devil!” If you have time to go into fandom space and start “outing” everyone who doesn’t agree 100% with your social politics you have a very privilege life and maybe you’re not the oppressed trans person you think you are.

[genderhawk]

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[mattsyrmiller]

( ✩ - ARON PIPER, MALE, TWENTY-ONE, HE/HIM ) have you seen MATÍAS MILLER around campus lately? HE is a SENIOR studying as a BUSINESS MAJOR. they remind me a lot of covered-up tattoos, cigarettes, endless streams of coffee and business agendas, probably because they are LOYAL & TACTICAL. HE is living OFF CAMPUS at the moment! ✩ beti, 21, CET, she/her. – )

hello hello! i’m beti and this is my fav child Matt!! i tried do a summary of his bio but it ended up so long i added a summary to the summary lol,, scroll to the bottom for that. also hmu for plots and connections, either here or on discord!

matt was the result of an unplanned teen pregnancy

his dad’s parents disowned their son upon learning he fathered a child at seventeen and denied him any and all financial support, which among other things meant he would no longer be able to attend an ivy league business school he’d already been accepted into

his mom’s parents helped with the bare essentials for raising a child, but never gave more than absolutely necessary, oftentimes leaving the young family struggling to pay their bills

his parents started having a lot of relationship problems but stayed together for the sake of their child, as soon as his mom realized matt was the only thing keeping the family together, she “accidentally” forgot to take her birth control and gave birth to twin boys and later a little girl

when matt was 8 his parents had a nasty split, dad moved to new york and completely cut ties with his family, matt was the only one to keep in contact with him

the reason his dad moved to NY was because of a once-in-a-lifetime business opportunity that skyrocketed his venture capital firm and made him a prominent name in the world of venture capital

Matt has spent his whole life trying to be like his dad, he always pushed himself to be at the top of his class, had to be the president of every club he found himself in, attended all local business talks (first as a visitor, then as a speaker) and has been working on getting his name out there since he was basically a child

he ended up graduating high school a year early (partially cause he knew it would look good on his resume and partially because he really wanted to get out of his hometown,,,, his mom remarried soon after his dad left and yes, her new husband was actually a very cool guy, but the whole family tried to pretend like matt’s real dad didn’t even exist and the stepdad was the only guy in their life and that just,,, irked matt a lot and caused a lot of fights in the household)

he moved to California when he was 17 to major in international business at Columbia

his dad’s net worth had reached the millions by then, he didn’t really care to share the wealth with his ex-wife and kids, but he did start sending generous checks Matt’s way once he started uni

with no financial troubles to weigh him down, matt spent his undergrad years as a library dweller by day, party animal by night, his ability to balance a thriving social life and a successful academic career probably his biggest talent of all

at the beginning of his very last undergrad semester, his dad fatally injured himself while rock climbing, leaving all of his shares of Miller Ventures to Mat

matt became the majority owner of one of the biggest firms in the country basically overnight with his net worth now just shy of $700 mil

miller ventures came under fire when news broke on then 19-year-old matt being the new guy in charge, most people didn’t even know his dad had a child and so they weren’t too trusting of the decision to leave this huge company in the arms of some unknown kid

matt became terrified of ruining his dad’s legacy, he quickly appointed one of his dad’s business partners a CEO and told everyone he would remain a hands-off owner until he completed his degree and got some real-life business experience

hard work has always been his means of distraction and so he managed to graduate top of his class at Columbia and even get himself accepted into NYU’s business MA program that very same year

he lives off-campus, in a manhattan penthouse he inherited from his dad

at the moment, every decision he makes links back to the firm and his fear of doing something stupid that could ruin its reputation

if he’s not good friends with people and doesn’t feel 100% comfortable around them, there’s about a 99% chance he’ll be extra fake when interacting with them, mainly because he’s afraid of cancel culture and doesn’t want to do anything stupid that would reflect poorly on the value of his firm

for that same reason, he doesn’t have a real social media presence and is super cautious about how much he shares with strangers 

he used to be a huge party animal, but stopped going out as much after inheriting the firm (again, because he doesn’t want to be labeled as a reckless young drunk who’ll just run the firm into the ground). He’s still very social though and loves to host events, one of his favorite things is to just get together with friends and do game nights (he loves event hosting!)

In general, he’s just really hardworking, really cares about his image and will be super fake nice to everyone, though he’ll revert back to the outspoken, direct, flirty kid he’s always been with people he trusts

he’s pretty much just a walking identity crisis, split between being a serious businessman and a twenty-one-year-old carefree daredevil

Also! After his dad died, his mom refused to go to the funeral or even let her other kids attend it, she asked Matt to give up the firm and come home instead, they had a huge falling out over it and ended up cutting ties with each other

Even though they don’t speak anymore, Matt still loves his mom and is thankful for all the sacrifices she’s made, he misses her and his siblings very much, but is too stubborn and too proud to go home. If anyone asks, he’ll just say his family is happy back in Atlanta and won’t even hint at any family drama

His mom is Spanish and she made sure her kids grew up around Spanish media so Matt is bilingual, but I don’t really speak Spanish so please don’t test me on that………… he also speaks fluent german and is attempting to learn mandarin cause ykno its good for business

His full name is Matías Sawyer Muratalla Miller but he dropped his mother’s last name after the falling out so he goes by Matías Miller in public/business settings and by Matt Miller in private.

Idk that’s it I think? He’s a dog person, hasn’t seen most major blockbusters in the recent years, deleted Netflix cause he wants to be more productive but ironically still has cable, one of his goals is to open a board game cafe though it's more of a hobby for him than a main business type of a ting, he loves sports, huge soccer fan, loves to work out, loves being outdoors, prefers to be with people than alone, he’s definitely an extravert and a big social butterfly

that’s all i can think or right now but hmu and we can do plots and connections and i’ll let you know if i think of anything else!!

SUMMARY:

He’s a business boy who used to be a party boy until his dad (his #1 role model in life) passed away and left him with a huge venture capital firm, now he’s in a constant state of an identity crisis, split between not wanting to take life too seriously and always being afraid of doing something stupid that could ruin the reputation of his firm, he’s a lil paranoid about how people perceive him and what kind of an image he gives off to the world. He’s the biggest extravert you’ll ever met and n e e d s people around him at all times, needs at least like five friends to talk about life and feelings with (but is also a bit paranoid people only want to be friends with him for his money so that sucks) uhh yeah idk he’s doing his best i know he seems fake at first but idk give him a chance he’s a very loyal friend and fun to mess around with when he forgets to give a shit abt his reputation

[everybodyhatesrand]

Sorry to keep bothering you guys but I need your insight. So I’m on the WOT FB page that speculates about the upcoming TV show, and someone made a post about how they didn’t want “PC bullshit” injected into the show via “diversity casting”. Upon trying to explain to people that this was in fact racist, they kept coming back with “Well the characters are described a certain way and should be portrayed as such” and I’m unable to articulate a good response, when there is a good one.

HELLO - first of all you literally never bother us, so don’t apologize! Second, thank you for the great question!! 

I know I addressed this in a baby way on Twitter, but it is worth certainly a bit more discussion than that. 

Not that I have much more to say to people who say “PC bullshit” than shut the fuck up. That being said, my own internet predilection is to Not Engage with Fuckos, and while that’s a perfectly valid way to be on the internet, there are definitely pitfalls and problems with that approach. I think it’s pretty amazing of you to engage with those people AT ALL. I would have fled at the first sign of fire, so seriously you are the real MVP for doing this! Learning about identity politics (especially in an American context) is a challenging endeavor for people of privilege, as I imagine these folks are at least in some critical way. No one ever enters onto a path of Learning/Unlearning without being challenged. I know I certainly didn’t become invested in identity politics and activism until some crucial people in my life challenged my privileges and understanding of the world. So pat yourself on the back for being the challenger - it’s scary and hard and requires so much vulnerability. PROUD OF YOU. 

As for a good response, I’m not sure I have one. I really wish I did. I’ve been trying to find a way to help get people past their bigotry for YEARS and have yet to find anything that works - especially on the internet. I find that, for me, social media limits or makes impossible the parts of conversation that are actually valuable. Nuance is lost, vulnerability is lost, people (whether they admit it or not) are thinking about how their snippy response to you could go viral or get a lot of engagement, there’s too much focus on being right because the internet arguments play on people’s egos and we have this idea of the internet being set in stone, our words there for all time. I love and value the internet for SO MANY things, but not for its discourse. The internet has helped me learn so much, because my bad forays into internet arguments have taught me how to listen. I don’t know if that is the “PC Bullshit” crowd’s main concern, however. Or if they are self-aware enough to be embarrassed by saying something like “PC Bullshit” on the internet. 

Anyway, I’m being no help…You could always drop links to articles where people have written about these topics. You could find the descriptions in the book and write all the lines where it says that people are NOT WHITE. You could just keep asking them to explain what “PC Bullshit” means over and over again until they realize the phrase has no meaning? 

IDK mate. I know I am well and truly being no help, but from what I hear, this FB group sounds like an echo chamber of BAD, and not a safe place to be. It is not your responsibility to stress yourself out doing the emotional and intellectual labor that people should do for themselves. Again, proud of you for jumping into that, but also love you and want you to be healthy of mind and spirit!! 

Just keep flooding the world with your positive energy. Keep being loud and proud and queer af (and cute af, if you don’t mind me saying so), and at some point the “PC Bullshit” will be the norm, and no one will get DoucheCoins for saying that anymore!! At least, that’s what I hope and work for everyday. 

BUT ALSO FOR THE LOVE OF GOD: vote. 

-SG

[transqueerquestions]

My closest friend made a thread on twitter making light of trans womens identity and it made me uncomfortable as a trans person. One of her friends is a transmed (I'm under the nb umbrella, tho I'm not out to anyone but my twin yet) and I'm worried she shares the same views. I anonymously told her I might be trans and she said shed be supportive but idk if she'll actually do it if I'm not ftm. I'm not out to her and I dont even know my full identity yet, how can I tell her she made me upset?

Tobi: Hey nonnie, I’m sorry you’re stuck in this position. I’m hearing that you’re struggling with bringing up a sensitive topic with a friend that holds ideals that you’re not sure of and are worried to ask about them without outing yourself. 

Personally, this is definitely a difficult bridge to walk and I feel for you. In our culture, specially social media culture, it’s difficult to stand up for something and be heard without outing yourself as a part of that something. I honestly believe this should be something to stray away from, however, the ideology is rooted in the concept that the people within the community being discriminated against know and understand why certain things are being pushed back against. It makes sense, but it makes it harder to have people outside of the community to push back against certain things. 

I have a couple suggestions that could be considered, but are by no means perfect. 

1) Try the anonymous way again? If you were able to anonymously come out to her, could you anonymously explain your discomfort with what she posted? That way you aren’t linked but your message still gets across.

2) If you’d rather your discomfort be known to come from you, something you could try is bringing it up in general. I don’t think it is necessary to come out to voice your discomfort about something she’s said. However, if she pushes back as to why you’re bringing it up, you can easily circumvent the coming out through basing it off hearing discomfort from others (I’m sure if it is a shared post, you’ll easily find discomfort in comments from the original), specifying that you don’t need to be part of a group to stand up for them, or simply the fact that it made you uncomfortable and you were hoping to discuss her reasoning behind posting it and leave it at that. 

I hope this helps! And if you want more in depth answers specific to this situation, it would be immensely helpful if I had an idea of what it is that she posted. I wish you luck in your journey in figuring out who you are, and with your discussions with your friend. 

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[icharchivist]

tbh when i first heard of the fire i was kinda thinking (and hoping) that it wouldn’t make Worldwide news because everytime it does happen well *waves hand* you know how things are. And if you don’t, boy you’re lucky.

As a Frenchie it was.. very shocking to hear at once. It’s part of our national identity and all. And we can say a lot of things, historically and pop-culture and religion stuff about it. 

But i didn’t expect it to have a worldwide appeal. It should have been expected since yeah i know popculture and people seem to like some stuff from France for... some reasons. (i mean i’m the first one to shittalk France. Esp since i’m a second generation from immigrants or oppressed minorities in France anyway. I don’t have any “French pride”.)

Honestly I was just expecting and hoping that this “little grief” would just be shared by a handful of Frenchies on social media and stuff. In a “wow i can’t believe one of the major monument of our country with a lot of dverse history basically collapsed and that makes me sad.” way. 

But it didn’t happen. People from all around the world started to react. And while it’s touching at first, there’s the underlining feeling of how a lot of people are going to be terrible about it, especially asking people why they even care (and i don’t think you realize how it feels when you’re reading those. You have no idea how those hottakes felt when the t/errorist attacks happened.)

and I guess i get frightened because, not the first time it happens as well, a similar tragedy always seem to happen elsewhere. Which France doesn’t hear about because we’re focused on our tragedy happening, but in the rest of the world well- I don’t know. People’s weird fascination with France I guess.

But then for a while there’s a lot of guilttrippy post about “how dare you care about the situation in France when this is happening elsewhere” (underlined with “well here’s all the reasons France is terrible so you shouldn’t care”) and everytime it sends me into lowkey panic. Because man, i didn’t follow that, and shit, i’m still emotionally stunned by what happened in my country i don’t know how to react to something else, and it makes me panic. 

Turns out something similar happened today. It happened during previous t/errorist attacks too. 

And I feel like those posts are mostly targetting at international people but this keeps getting me stunned and I probably have too much of a guilt complex of thinking i should be caring on every fronts that i get easily overwhelmed.

When people are getting negative about when those tragedies happen in France, it’s just rubbing salt in the wound for us. At least for me.

And idk i personally never, ever expected it would blow up worldwide. That’s even why i keep track of some of the tragedies on my blog because hey, don’t think you hear the proper details elsewhere. and I think it may just be a bubble. I started talking about the fire 30 mins after it started to give you insight. Most people hadn’t heard of it when I did. 

I know i should feel glad there’s compassion and such, but everytime it blow up worldwide, i’m just so unsettled. bc we don’t ask for it.

And especially since people have no sense of proper timing to know when to address issues linked to those. 

So i guess that’s why i’m in lowkey overwhelmed panic atm. Bc this happens again. It’s the 4th time since i’m on tumblr that i’m experiencing something similar. 

tbh I stopped blogging about most tragedies i heard from after the second t/errorist attack in france or so. Back then i desperately tried to keep track of every single stuff that was going on around the world, and when this attack happened i felt drained, and all i was seeing was post saying “but we don’t care about France, why don’t you care about that other thing” and i realized i just was.. unable to carry on on that rhythm.

I see it happen today. And it’s just another time. Where we can’t even just grief for a moment while the fire was still burning. Bc we had hundreds of takes all over social media about how to “quickly get over it”. like “oh but don’t panic they’ll rebuild it” one hour into a 6 hours long fire. Not the timing. And it just was very insensitive all the way around. 

So. Guess 4th time will be the charm and learn the lesson to just turn off social media when this sort of things happen.

But god. You can be sure that everytime a french things blow up worldwide i end up unsettled and want to scream. I was at least hoping that since this one had no victims, no one starting it, we would just at least accept our grieving and move on. I thought at least we were safe from p/olitical talks. We weren’t. 

(also how conveignant that the latest French crisis that had lasted 22 weeks so far had barely been mentioned except to make jokes about how we “got out guillotines” (we didn’t, and people were mad when we ruined their jokes telling them “huh no we have serious problems there”), something that shows shaky p/olitics, but as soon as there’s a “traumatic” event oh let’s talk for hours about why we should disrespect said trauma one way or another. I’m not asking anyone to follow French news. I don’t care. I don’t follow half of the news of others countries and try to not pay too much attention to American ones anymore bc i can’t do anything about it and it adds up a lot of things I should care for and panic about on a daily basis. But man you have the habits to take moments of us feeling kinda horrified by something that’s happening and immediatly coming with hundreds of thinkspieces about why caring about it is bad, actually.  As if there was no French people on this website to read you lol.)

idk i guess my point in this post is. I am uncomfortable everytime a French topic turn worldwide bc people has no tact. and it somewhat always happen with another tragedy elsewhere that others people ignore and as a frenchie suddenly i feel guilty for being hurt about something that happens in my country instead of what happens in another. Bc you keep wording your things Like That. And it’s so overwhelming man.)

Anyway I’ll return to my normal blogging tomorrow but that might explain why i’ve been shaking for a while. It’s not even the attacks themselves that i’m dreading about but those sort of reactions. And that’s honestly even sadder. 

So yea. Social Media sucks. Who knew.

[starsmuserainbow]

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Actually no, I don’t post selfies anywhere! I don’t even do selifes, to be honest - the only pictures that exist of me is when other people want to take some with me, or maybe when I ask someone to take a picture when I really like an outfit (or a cosplay I did, but I haven’t done that in a good while). The closest to a seflie that I once posted was a picture of my hair - which likely won’t be happening again though (I can try to search it out and link you to it if you want, it should still be somewhere on my blog) unless maybe if I actually ever do manage to get the wonderful awesome bright red that I’d love to have.

I wouldn’t say I’m too shy for it, I just don’t see the reason to share my face with the world. For one, I don’t consider myself ‘pretty’ enough (rather the opposite), and two, I’ve been raised with awareness of identity in the internet - which includes not sharing pictures.

Meeting my RP partners in RL, well... I don’t think I’d have any use of it, so I don’t think I want it. Like, to give a non-RP-partner example, I have one really really really good friend (I’d say they are my best friend, but I don’t think I’m their best friend in return - which is fine though, I just have next to no friends so my only friend is also my best friend xD) and soon we know each other - only online - for 10 years. I’m considering to finally meet them somehow by the time we reach 10 years, which I am excited for, but that’s my very best friend! I was never one to be good at talking much or the stale sitting somewhere to just... idk, exchange stories or whatever friends do when they meet; so I tend to assume that meeting someone would only make it worse than it was before. I’m better in the world of online, I think.