Tumgik
#agony of acceptance
satansleftnutcheek · 1 month
Text
Thinkin bout how when the 98 anime was made Trigun maximum didn’t exist and Wolfwood still dies anyway. Like damn, he’s really doomed in every universe huh
49 notes · View notes
nazbruhh · 5 days
Text
"Two birds on a wire"
Tumblr media
"One tries to fly away and the other.."
Tumblr media
"Watches her close from that wire... "
"He says he wants to as well , but.."
Tumblr media
" He is a liar....."
22 notes · View notes
ghostlycollectorchaos · 11 months
Text
Just out there doing god's work okay
116 notes · View notes
clownery-and-fuckery · 4 months
Text
The lyrics "You have so much to do" "And I have nothing ahead of me" are so Tech and Crosshair respectively.
28 notes · View notes
itspileofgoodthings · 6 months
Text
my life is a very slow process of everyone around me telling me not to be anxious and me fighting them all tooth and nail while inching towards more stable mental health.
#I know it’s not true but sometimes I feel like if I didn’t have anxiety I would not suffer at all#which. again. is false#but there’s a lot of things I don’t want in this life and a lot of things I am not scared of and a lot of things I just accept#and like. It’s FINE#but all my suffering from anxiety stays in one fixed flame of sheer agony#and it’s hard because I don’t shake like a chihuahua in the corner of my bedroom#unable to move or function#I’m always doing things and functioning and joking at parties and (generally) saying the right thing#but it’s all located in one corner in the middle of my mind attacking my ability to make judgments and live with my decisions peacefully#like an unseen wound#and the distance i feel it puts between me and other people#is one of the most painful things#just several sheets of frosted glass between me and them#and sometimes the worst it gets is when I can bear it without breaking down and so I just do and I just keep functioning#and the cold just creeps in and everything goes kind of numb!#tbh now that I think about it this might be why I often think of myself as a person with no desires or ambitions or dreams#or impetus or forward motion or anything#because I DO want things and have opinions and the exist in flashes. But also they’re buried deep under several layers of protective apathy#so they’re not stable. I drop them many times. forget them ignore them imagine that they aren’t there. I’m sorry I’m rambling I’m FINE#actually when I talk about it that’s how you know I’m doing okay with it#when I can’t talk about it and am half-heartedly going through the motions#that’s the problem#anyway whew. thanks for listening sorry for all the self-reflection etc. etc. etc.
33 notes · View notes
rinaforreal · 7 months
Text
Um wait ok so thanksgiving Gina makes Ricky the hat, she tells him to do what makes him happy he says give me that hat, and he’ll grow into it. S2 he’s now on the path to change the path to wanting a second chance to begin again says he’s happy or getting there, then he falls hard for Gina the person who makes him happy doing what makes him happy, to then saying I love you to the person who makes him the happiest and inside that very same hat, his favorite hat it says I love you too Ricky. That hat was the road to his happiness all along that’s CRAZY.
47 notes · View notes
crimeronan · 5 months
Text
i keep being like "i bet hunter's nervous system is Fucked after the possession, he's almost definitely feeling phantom pain in his scars because of the damaged nerves underneath & he 100% thinks it's psychosomatic. this kid is gonna go years without getting his underlying shit sorted because of his complete inability to tell when pain is 'a problem'" & then i google neuropathic pain so i can indulge these thoughts accurately & google is like "heyyy girl. how's it going haha. so, like. have you scheduled an appointment for your bum leg yet,"
21 notes · View notes
mzminola · 1 year
Text
Thanks to the animated adaptations of Under the Red Hood using the greenless Robin uniform that Tim wears in the animated series and post-Kon’s-death in the Preboot era comics, my brain parsed the first image in this set not as Bruce and Jason, but as Dick and Tim.
Which is. Very ouch.
118 notes · View notes
dreamlogic · 14 days
Text
musing in the tags about the view two years out from my hysterectomy and the shifting nature of neuropathy. i asked my PT for recommendations/resources pertaining to pain science and that's been a very helpful lenses to have. i'm still not back to normal, will never be unmarked by this experience or return to my pre-op self, but my baseline has been gradually increasing over the last few months, and it feels good to look back on the last two years and say "i have no idea how i managed to function while living with that, but i did!"
#meatsuit renno#chronic blogging#ctxt#at first post-hysto pain was a deep burning ache#and eventually that lessened on my left side and settled in for the long haul on the right#after a couple weeks it had started to feel like a small carnivorous creature scrabbling and gnawing at the inside of my abdomen#nestled into the hollow of my pelvis and reaching up with its raking claws#about 6 months in and the creature still chewed occasionally but had shrunk to the size of a tennis ball under my right incision site#it clamped its jaws down and went to sleep and i perpetually felt like someone had pinched a fold of my insides with a large binder clip#this constant awful twisting tug every time i moved that kept me from straightening up or breathing fully#this is about a year into recovery and my original surgeon has blown off my requests for follow-up treatment three times now#i carried on as best i could. fatigue and brainfog getting worse & worse as the pain wore on unrelentingly#about a year and a half into recovery it worsened again. searing lancing pain like i'd been impaled on a piece of white hot rebar#couldn't hardly move. couldn't think straight. couldn't sleep#finally checked myself into urgent care & then the ER just to try to get someone anyone to take me seriously and help me#finally got a referral to a new surgeon who immediately pinned it as extreme neuropathy#started gabapentin end of december last year and the relief was immediately#i never thought i would welcome the gritted teeth vice grip of my little feral pain creature#but when i felt the molten spike slide out to be replaced once more by its worrying jaws#the intermittent spark and fizzle of that pinching squirming pain was a dramatic improvement#then i started PT in march and slowly so slowly the creature's hungry grip is loosening#it still clamps down occasionally. maybe once every week or two i'll have a day when i just accept#that there will be a horrible little creature chewing on my right side from the inside#but nowadays with the gabapentin doing as much as it can and an exercise routine i must stick to religiously to supplement PT#the pain is more of a little pearl of dark matter shifting around under my skin#it's incredibly dense. the heart of a black hole of disabling agony. all that white hot fury condensed into a slick heavy marble#as i recover some of my strength and energy i can feel my body coating it in nacreous layers to minimize its influence#my hysterectomy was 2 years and 4 days ago today and i feel like i can finally finally say i'm beginning to truly heal#i suspect i'll always carry this pearl in my side like shrapnel. product of damaged nerve tissue that went untreated for far too long#i wish my original surgeon had been more competent more attentive less lazy & indifferent to my pain. but i still don't have any regrets.
14 notes · View notes
bleachersgirl · 1 month
Text
she wrote this about the couple of months that she was single like taylor you absolutely cannot imagine the agony of being twenty five years old with zero romantic experience and zero prospects you would literally not last a day in my life babe
8 notes · View notes
mauxanhduong · 7 months
Text
Y’ALL I’M GOING TO COLLEGE ‼️‼️
17 notes · View notes
fyodorkitkat · 8 months
Text
After years of joking around about how I don't understand how or why bsd took ahold of me like it did and has yet to let go while I am more casual about basically every other series I enjoy I finally figured it out.
It is literally "Guys in Distress" the series
20 notes · View notes
merakiui · 1 year
Note
you dreamt scara kissed you 😳😳😳 uuuu that's so sweet...
once I had a dream that azul gave me his credit card to use for some reason and I bought something really small (like worth 8 bucks or so) and ended up calling him on my phone and being super adamant that I would pay him back and how I really didn't want to spend anything in the first place. I remember he sounded really distracted and kind of hushed, so I asked if I called at a bad time or if he was busy to which he replied "....no, of course not. I'm completely free" turns out he was most definitely not free, and I called him while he was in a business meeting. and being the simp he is, he picked it up right away in front of everyone before leaving the room lmao
I wish I had more blorbo dreams esp romantic ones like you had with scara but my brain would rather it show me getting chased endlessly instead 👉👈
Holding that dream close to my heart!! <3 it was so sweet, too. We were holding eye contact for the longest time and he whispered, "Can I kiss you?" with the most sincere, softest expression ever and omg!!! It was a romantic film moment! >0<
Aaaa that's so cute!!!! Azul will always be a simp no matter where he is. (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ) How generous of him to lend his credit card!!!! He is a sweetheart when he truly cares hehe!! I like that he will always choose you even when he's in a business meeting. Business is not nearly as important as answering a phone call from his crush. >:D
I wish I could have more romantic dreams as well! Although speaking of being chased, I do remember I had a dream where Floyd kept chasing me down and confessing over and over. I'm pretty sure that dream ended with lots of kisses lol. I am not immune to the love language of eels. There was also a vivid dream I had in which I pulled Halloween Jade back when I was fighting for my life trying to summon him, and when I logged into twst that morning (fully expecting to see Halloween Jade) I was disheartened to realize it had only happened in the dream. T_T
55 notes · View notes
onewomancitadel · 3 months
Text
I often take for granted what Jaune/Cinder is in tone because I'm focussed on the redemptive fairytale element, but fundamentally it is dark at heart. Lost maidens and old sad knights and a cursed dragon. It's too late, past millennia when this problem might have been fixed, already well past moral transgression, and pain, and suffering, and death. I mean, Cinder marks the death of innocence in the story. The Fall Maiden got her name through hunting and killing and the Rusted Knight through living out the worst fairytale possible, condemned and alone, and the two of them are the dark side of the Ozlem cycle. They're enemies. And it's so sad. And where were you twenty years ago? Ten years ago? Where were you when I was new? When I was one of those innocent young maidens you always come to? But like. That's the point. If the story can be recontextualised (if he can see that she's a maiden he can help and he's a Huntsman who won't fail her), if they can save each other, then what else is possible? If in every single way, whatever Ozma has tried to do to stop Salem has failed, what is left? And I like to believe that really, after all, it's a love story. (:
6 notes · View notes
byanyan · 9 months
Text
if byan has your phone number, you will find yourself receiving way more selfies than you want
9 notes · View notes
teenjiism · 2 years
Text
thinking about vegas offering his heart up to pete, naked, bared, bleeding.
when he asks pete to be the one to kill him if it comes to it and confesses his love, he’s saying “here’s my heart, it’s yours for the taking. it’s your choice what you do with it. if it’s not you, nobody will want it, not even me. it only beats for you. if it’s not for you, i have no need for it.”
133 notes · View notes