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sleepyjim · 1 year

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#teehee #poll #polls #tumblr polls #hyperspecific poll #text #josh (he/xe/v/x/they)#all of these r applicable to me

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weaselmcdiesel · 2 months

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Hiking with the matesprit

(this was hugely inspired by @/erysium and their gorgeous natural scenes! particularly, this post)

#my art #art #homestuck #fan art #karkat #karkat vantas #nepeta #nepeta leijon #wow. ive. never done a piece like this. at all. wow.#also i feel like it's incredibly easier to color alternia since all the colors are nonsense #i imagine if i had to paint a real life place itd be harder and also wouldnt look as good #this is once again in an au where alternia is cool n fashionable and karkat goes outside #this is my application to work for the hiveswap team <im lying #also i wish there were more resources on the flora of alteria. like serious id love to know what their nature looks like #ofc it's not explicitly katnep but 2 me it is. they r dating always #fun fact if you invert the colors on this the forest turns lovely and green #also karkats about to totally skewer his hand on that tree yeah

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celestial-toys · 2 months

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been laying here listening to Lucky by Dermot Kennedy on loop for half an hour while thinking about Everything Stays and crying

#it’s good crying dw i am just. i have so many feelings about this story #Seven’s Celestial Commentary #Everything Stays #writing stuff #i may be stuck in bed struggling to type due to personal reasons but that will Not stop me from cooking up ideas for this fic #there is gonna be so much fucking angst and it’s gonna hurt soooooo good #the more i listen to it the more the possibilities expand #i can easily see Moon and Reader going back and forth between verses vulnerably arguing over Sun #but i can also see it being Sun and Moon getting real and discussingcougharguingover Reader #can’t decide which i like more #god i wish y’all could see this story the way it plays out in my head #next best thing would be to keep writing and sharing the story instead of vagueposting abt future plot points tho wouldn’t it lmao #and GOD don’t even get me fucking STARTED on Two Hearts…#Dermot Kennedy’s music is responsible for yet Another plot point for this story and i can’t even be mad about it. his fucking lyricsss dude #‘and so we jump to the THEATER??? in that SAME OLD TOWN???’ DO WE? FUCK I GUESS WE DO NOW!!!#picture me listening to that song and inspiration hitting me like a truck. diligently taking notes like the lyrics r instructions from God #‘she sees his face?? and HE sees HER as the LIGHTS GO DOWN???’ write that down write that down #‘the life that they should’ve had sat between them that night??’ FUCK Man yeah it sure did!!!#anyways it’s chill i’m chill. i’m very normal about my little stories and their musical inspirations!#and i’ve listened to these songs a very normal amount (translation: they will likely be in my top ten for the 2024 wrapped)#(cut to the scenes playing vividly in my head) ‘Well‚ at least I can always say that I /told/ her!’#‘I can’t relate to having a heart like that‚ Sun! With all of your wonder and your trust intact…’#like no i wouldn’t lift the lyrics directly for the song to use as dialogue but FUCk does it work well.. Lucky is such a good script for-#like- a heated conversation between my Relentlessly Positive Sun and my Apathetic Jaded Moon #‘How could our farewell mean as much as our time? Honey‚ I’ll be gone. It’s better if I’m something that you leave behind.’#‘I used to paint these trees‚ now I just scream at the sky. Honey I was wrong. Guess there’s certain things you never leave behind.’#*sobbing shaking throwing up clawing at the walls* I Am Normal About These Characters #anyways uh. on an unrelated note how many song lyrics do ya think i can cram into ES before it’s Too Many #gonna have to start getting creative with how i can incorporate more songs in a way that feels natural and not forced #even tho i am forcing it. i am forcing it very much bc i have songs with applicable lyrics and y’all Will read them one way or another

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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 years

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Why is it that not a single god damn university can create an intuitive application format. Tell me what the fuck you want from me. I need a statement that clarifies what the fuck you're asking for. Why is it on me to fucking hunt down what you want from as supplemental material? Why is that not in the application? Why don't you let me fill out different sections out of order? Why do you not list the requirements for a personal statement (length, format, info) in the fucking form? And for the love of all that is holy, why do I have to go through at least 3 fucking links to find a way to access the online application? Why are you trying to hide information from me?

#it cannot be that fucking difficult to make an application. and yet they all fucking suck #i assume its a product of trying to weed ppl out so they don't have to read so many applications and also institutional incompetence #r u applying to be paid thru X system? well idk tell me wtf that system is bc i cant even find it on ur fucking website so how tf should i #kno??? its stupid #and im tired. and one form had a link to supplement materials that was fucking broken. so fucking thanks a lot #any professor: me me kno if u have questions abt the application #see thry fucking kno the school application system blow #unrelated

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jackdawsfavorite · 23 days

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Trying to listen to something about that small college in Florida Desantis took over for politics but hearing it described as it was before reminded me of college-hunting with my mom and triggered the shit out of me.

#School was just.#Around 9-11 school stopped being something I could manage and transitioned more to like #‘’Welcome to the world! This is hell and it lasts forever. At the bottom of our pit here you can see the churning toothsome maw which it #is your sisyphean task to crawl away from even as the loose dirt of the sloping pitsides crumbles beneath your hands and feet carrying you #ver closer. If you fail to escape the maw something that brings you pleasure in life will be taken from you and you will be reconstructed #and returned to the pit to fail again.’’#Looking at residential colleges makes me so sad to look back on because of how low my standards for my life were.#My mom was carting me around California and filling in a major for me on tour paperwork and I was trying to be as small and socially gracef #l as possible and that was it. No thought of what I wanted. No thought of my own future at all aside from a vague sense that #given how all my efforts towards anything collapsed in their infancy #I would not be the type of person who Gets Into Colleges.#And I was right! I don’t remember if I couldn’t handle the application process or if I just never got accepted to any residential colleges #r if it was a decision my mother made for me after I dropped out of high school and got a GED instead of graduating properly but I just wen #to community college for a semester. And then I convinced my parents to let me take a year off from struggling in the hell pit and they jus #let me walk out! And I never went back! And it’s only by luck of circumstance I’ve been able to get away with that!#Christ it’s 11 am and I haven’t had my breakfast smoothie. Calm down bitch.

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fingertipsmp3 · 5 months

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I’m not sure if the seasonal depression is hitting especially hard this year or if I’m just grieving for Mabel or if I’m finally going irreparably insane or if life/people is being unfair towards me or all of the above

#i cry super hard every day now. sometimes multiple times a day #sometimes something sets it off specifically (like arguing with my mom earlier)#but sometimes i just think about mabel too much and start sobbing #i thought i was okay. i mean i knew i wasn’t okay but i knew time would do its thing #the first few weeks were the worst but earlier this month i felt like i’d kind of plateau’d #like i was still sad but i could look at photos and videos and talk about her without crying. i was even laughing #now… now i can’t even think of her. again #it just feels so fucking unfair that i’ll NEVER see her again. like what the fuck do you mean. what do you MEAN #what do you mean i have to live out my whole life… god knows how fucking long i’ll live; and N E V E R see her again. shut the fuck up.#that’s so fucking unfair. and everyone else is okay. i’m like how can you POSSIBLY just go about your life #the best dog in the world is dead and she’s going to stay dead and i won’t see her again for however many fucking stupid cursed decades #i live and i might not even see her when i die. how the HELL am i supposed to be okay with that. is that a joke #and there’s a part of me that’s like ‘maybe i could adopt another dog’ but i don’t know #i think i’d feel better and worse at the same time. i wouldn’t feel so alone but they wouldn’t be mabel #i put in an application for a terrier that’s at a local rescue but if i don’t get him i’m not trying again. i’ll take it as a hint #cats aren’t an option btw i found out i’m allergic. which was brand new information.. i’ve been around cats that didn’t set my allergies #off at all. but i guess there’s a difference between spending an hour at your friend’s house who has one cat #and living 24/7 with a cat that gets fur and dander and saliva everywhere #and i don’t think other pets would suit me. i just don’t feel comfortable caring for any animal i haven’t done research on #i had hamsters when i was a teenager but… tbh never again. they are so much fun but i have anxiety dreams about them now #so it’s dogs (well.. one dog) or nothing #i do have plans to speak to my doctor about my depression btw because i genuinely find this unsustainable #like i do think it’s situational (seasonal/grief/everyone around me seeming to want to argue with me lately) but i still need #mood stabilisers while i’m in this situation lol #personal

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seventh-district · 9 months

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in other news i cannot stop fucking listening to Brokenheartsville by Joe Nichols and i’m starting to annoy myself with it but. i cannot stop. it’s too good

#Seven.txt #music stuff #it’s this perfect mix of being applicable to my current taste while also being a very nostalgic song for me #‘cause i liked it when i was a kid. and i recently heard it on my father’s radio outside. and man it’s been y e a r s since i’ve heard it #why is it so addictive to me #like. you cannot make a song that opens with the lyrics-#‘He wore that cowboy hat to cover up his horns. *insert seductive guitar sounds here* Sweet-talkin’ forked tongue had a temptin’ charm.’#and expect my southern and devil-loving ass to not go fucking feral over it #even when i’m not listening to it it’s playing in my head. was analyzing the lyrics the whole time i was in the shower earlier #but what’s funny is i think i’ve listened to it so many times that i’ve developed a whole new story than the one actually being told #but like. with how much he’s supposedly upset that this guy stole his girl or whatever #which i know he’s probably just comparing some dude to the devil and not actually saying that it was the Devil Himself #but it’s so much better if u picture it as actually being the devil that’s picking up this dude’s girlfriend in a bar #but anyways given how that’s supposed to be the point. he spends so much time describing the devil and ain’t got shit to say abt his girl #like okay buddy. we know you liked his cowboy hat. we know you liked his sweet-talkin’ tongue.#we’ve heard all about the make and model of his Long and Chrome Very Red Hot Sexy Devil Car #do u not have anything to say abt ur girlfriend. are u not gonna wax poetic abt her? no? too busy admiring the Devil and his Hot Car?? yeah #we’re gathering that #like.. brother… i dunno how to tell u this but i think u might wanna fuck him a lil bit #‘Love’s gone to hell and so have I.’ yeah!! i’m gathering that!! good for u dude!! get it!!#so now the whole time i’m listening to it i’m just like. this is a love song abt the devil!#which it isn’t. but it could be!! and so that’s what i’m choosing to see it as. bc i’d feel the same way tbh #i much prefer the idea of him being pissed that he missed his chance to run away w/ the devil than being pissy over his girlfriend leaving #it’s just so much more appealing to me im sorry #also. side note. when i was a kid i thought the line was ‘that angel up in the air’ and not ‘that angel who did me in’#and i don’t know how i misheard it so badly but now i sing it wrong every fuckign time cause it’s still cemented in my head from childhood #how young was i. hold on.#oh yeah it came out in 2002. so yeah i was quite young when i heard it a lot so i think im forgiven for mishearing it so badly lmao

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derelicthorror · 2 years

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Ayyy it's always great to see you post, you're really awesome and sweet and i hope you remember that!

no YOU

every last flower and heart in my arsenal upon ye

#hmmm this dry ink brush is a mystery to me in both origin and application... waffling between clean lines and sketchiness... hmmm #no matter though! ty keye u are a joy and a delight yourself!#i have no business not knowing how to draw your main frame smH my head - things to rectify asap!!#may u be hydrated and also in possession of a good snack at all times!#ty for the ask!#and with this i close up shop 4 the night bc its real late n my wrists r hurtin lol. back in the morning mwah besos cuidense @ everyone

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boygirlctommy · 1 year

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barely caught the last few minutes of tommys stream, but it doesnt matter bcus i still cried my eyes out :,) i love you dsmp and most of all i love you dsmp fandom <3

#my post #i have so many great memories thanks to this server andve made so many friends #fr though from when mello gave me their lore playlist and i swore to be a ctubbo apologist right off the bat #to losing it over exile #discovering sad-ist and realizing that i want to work in animation #binge-reading passerine in one go hours before my senior prom and laying on the floor trying to process it all #making batshit theories about cranboo #being certain i was gonna miss tftsmp every single time but every time they were late #cosplaying cwilbur at a con and meeting so many other dsmp enjoyers :D #reading mangoball as it was still being updated #r/place (o7 placebur i sacrificed my sanity for the left eye)#torturing my siblings by giving EXTREMELY detailed lore explanations while we were driving and they couldnt escape <3 #reading no cause for concern!! finding artists that i adore and friends that i love!!! ./hug and HOLD HANDS CHAT!!!!#building the camarvan in my irls mc realm and placing lmanberg flags everywhere!!#ive drawn ctommy so much he made up half of my portfolio for college applications!#i love these characters i love this story i love this fandom i could go on for hours an dhours picking out little things i love and #favorite moments and memories!!#im not going anywhere- gonna be here drawing and crying about ctommy for the rest of my days probably #i just needed to lovepost about this weird and finally dead server <3

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myownprivatcidaho · 2 years

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me when my bullshitting abilities work with me FANTASTICALLY during interviews

#sjdjd jk i didnt even have to bullshit much #it well r well!#both ppl seemed to really like me and it all went super smoothly #its not exactly the best paying job tho. its like $10/hr max 20 hrs a week so.#like. GENERALLY id like something that pays more than that #i have another interview tomorrow (most likely?) for an internship but im waiting to hear back from them.#theres another that pays FUCKING $15/hr but it required a cover letter so i was looking for feedback from a couple ppl for that #sending in that application today 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼

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girlwithfish · 1 year

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i feel so sadd time to listen to music in bed.. favorite activity

#this job txted me first of all the name of tne company didnt match the name on the indeed application which confused me #but it was the same position etc and #i researchd the company and reviews r like yeah its like being a sleazy salesmen ok.. i dont want to do that 👍 so im not even gonna #nd this other job i couldnt set up an onterview bc they dont do remote interviews and have to decide for the full time position by like tmrw #so that doesnt work for me lol #😒#but she wasnt being flexible at all nd the job was also kind of suspicious bc i got a response immediately afrer i applied like an hr later #hmm

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oatbugs · 2 years

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a triangle and other things id like on my body

#bc alt j but also like . cool shape mathematically + delta as in everything delta represents including a change / transformation #still need ideas for a tattoo that goes along my entire spine though #ill defintely get the phi symbol tattooed at some point and probably psi as well #tifold knots mean a lot but also i feel the triangle covers it . same w R^3 spaces ..#and also like . 2n-3k-3>0 maybe somewhere bc in knot theory any smooth k sphere to which that applies is unknotted . and it represents sm #bc it has so many applications to like . diff areas of maths and bio and genetics and physics and everything everything ever .#some of my favourite axioms . including axiom of infinity + also a { } for obvious reasons (existence of an empty set is still an existence #but also like . idk theres more 2 it im sure you get it maybe)#something to do w angels more to do w manifolds #the letter v (a valley like the one i died and loved in + the longitudinal fissure + vogt dig for kloppervok + lots of other stuff)#an octagon formation that reminds me of breathing #(alders breathing keeping weeping leaves all sinking fever dreaming brothers sleeping wolves all creeping weavers weaving - wickerbird)#some forms of liquid swirls in red (red for wine or love or blood but mostly wine) particularly around the angels bc its a persian poem #and its where my name is from and it means a lot . a straight line with regular gaps inbetween it like the windows of a train #(particularly around or inside or a part of the angels maybe for many reasons . incomplete line / train imagery paired w holiness . hmm)#something to do w an opened up pomegranate (preferably close to the red lines)#a part of the night sky superimposed over itself (twice as many stars as usual) . in the dark times will there be singing ? there will be #singing of the dark times .#rippling effects somewhere around the wine swirls (diving into your grief and raising your head instead of drowning + the universe #isnt mine its me + to care is to accept that you may drown for it + my memories w vodka + a lot more)#dots going down veritcally (water falling off trees and the pipe of the building as the snow melted in the mountains)#the audio waveform of the repeating tune in the song dissolve me #maybe around where the wine lines ripple out a bit #archives #quartz clock

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#theres a special kind of agony in tryinf to find an apartment in an college town with a housing shortage #everythings expensive as fuck and im sure its frustrating for everyone but i feel like its especially frustrating for me #bc it takes me so much fucking time to understand the information right in front of me and then i doubt myself so i have to check and check #and double check and triple check that im on the right website. that im inputting the right info #and its like. what if theres a better place i could b looking? like i found a management place to apply to thats expensive but less #expensive than another place but the building looks like its kinda on the edge of town like 15min drive from school #which i hate bc im an anxious freak and its gonna b worse than driving here bc itll get icey as fuck there #like proper inches of snow all winter. negative negative cold. so its like. do i take a nice apartment thats kinda far away #or a slightly more expensive apartment thats like 10min from school and more in town #and then theres the application stuff. and i cant fill anything out without having a full on like sobbing breakdown #but im that way abt everything. i do that all the time when i have to buy plane tickets #its exhausting. and i cant plan my exit until i know when i can move into a place. whatever. it doesnt help that my hormones r fucked rn #or i hope its the hormones. ive been so tired. so so tired. like sleeping 9hrs and still tired when usually im wired after only 7hrs sleep #i hate it. and super brain foggy. and this week i have to finish taking measurements for the last time #so i gotta decide if im gonna go in tomorrow or Monday to start it. its gonna suck so bad bc im gonna try to do it in 6 days. which will b #agony. but after that ill never have to do it ever again. ugh. im just so tired and i dont wanna limp my way into a new project feeling #like damaged goods. which is exactly what it feels like now. ive just done a very good job of making my job difficult #cant go into the lab without feeling physically ill. drained away all my joy. now theres only a sad distant recognition of how far ive #allowed myself to fall. i kno ill feel better once i have a place to stay and i can quit my job just getting there is taking an eternity #unrelated

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shimp-heaven · 5 months

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#want him. badly. miyoni akita my beloved #hes $15 and $15 too expensive for us rn lol but hopefully ill be able to get him soon!!!#i have a snaps application so maybe thatll help ease the financial burden a little bit #im home from the hospital btw. worst 28 hours of my life #there was a guy screaming at the nurses and calling them the n word and the t slur and threatening to attack ppl #i wasnt allowed to close my door and this happened in the room next to mine #they eventually had to sedate him #but it was bad even leaving that part out #they said they gave me a medication they never did #they never called my mental health team like at all. libby had to tell my therapist i was in the hospital #theyre supposed to keep you a minimum of 72 hours but let me go next day #the only book that wasnt like the last book in a series that i havent read was fucking nuts #had two graphic suicides in the first chapter then had child r*pe in it like graphically #i didnt really go watch the tv in the lobby cause of that guy #so i sat in a tiny room with no windows and just laid there #the first psychiatrist i saw was evil like questioned all my diagnosis and told me i shouldnt have ptsd from chikdhood issues #like it shouldnt still be effecting me #she also tried to take away my plushie but the nice nurses stood up for me so i got to keep moonmoon with me #ive been really not myself since i got out #ive been really angry and short tempered #i have nightmares about being in a cage #if im being completely honest i almost think i feel worse now then i did before #but im just going to keep it all to myself cause i never ever want to go back #so if anyone asks im feeling much better and im perfectly fine :) lol

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droolypupboy · 3 months

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tips for solo puppy play!!

pup play doesn’t have to be a partnered activity and solo play can be EXTREMELY fulfilling. you deserve to explore your headspace 🫶🫶 i have another post for more general tips for feeling more puppy, you can check that out here, a lot of things on there are ALSO applicable for solo pups.

warning, this is not for puppy regressors!! this is an nsfw post and probably not safe for u if you regress while online. stay safe, sfw puppies.

i would recommend checking out the above post if you want more details on the following: playing fetch alone, puppy snacks, & oral fixation!! all those things can help a LOT for solo pups but since i already went into so much detail previously, this post will have its own unique set of tips. i’m a puppy & i own a puppy sub so im super smart and you should listen 2 me!!!!

🐾 eating from a dog bowl can help a lot!! but even if that is inaccessible or not to your taste, you can just sit/lay on your tummy on the ground and eat small snacks from a plate. be careful of choking if you choose to lay!!

🐾 make little pup noises!! if you feel yourself going nonverbal and you’re in a place where you’re safe and comfy and have the time, lean into it. make little “hmph” noises when you’re confused, little squeaks when you’re excited, whine and pant, do all the things!! these can be used both sexually and nonsexually. it should come naturally if it’s gonna happen but there’s nothing wrong with doing it on purpose to get the ball rolling.

🐾 you can either invest in a large dog bed OR you can make a little nest of pillows and blankets.

🐾 being on all fours, sitting on the floor, & laying on your tummy are wonderful. inaccessible?? that’s okay!! these are enhancers, not necessities.

🐾 ALL you need for this is a bedroom and some random items. find some things (bad options are things like keys, lighters, phones, anything you use super frequently) to hide and go find again. the more space you have the better but even in smaller spaces, it can be VERY fun to lean into.

🐾 tilt your head in confusion, nudge and “paw” at things, nip and bite at things (safely, clean things, nothing that could hurt you or that you could choke on).

🐾 if you can afford it, invest in a knot style toy. it can help a lot in feeling like you’re small getting used by a bigger dog if that’s your thing. toys with suction cups are amazing too, the less you have to work, the better!!

🐾 do NOT be afraid to use pup centered asmr. it’s available on many many places but most accessibly, youtube & soundgasm through the site flaru. its not cringe, its not silly, it can be rlly good for the headspace. if you’re not sure if you’ll like it, give it a go!! why not??

🐾 invest in dog toys if you can!! make sure to clean them thoroughly before putting them in your mouth, stored r nasty, don’t use any that an actual dog has used only use fresh ones. if you can’t do that, chewelry, largely available on etsy and marketed for sensory issues (which yes, it does work for as well) is a really nice & discreet option.

🐾 go to town if you have a PRIVATE back yard!! run around!! have the zoomies!! chase toys (do not put them in your mouth if you’re playing outside)!! just have a good time.

🐾 press your nose against the window and watch the birds & squirrels & any other animals outside!!

🐾 overstimulation!! it’s rlly good, lose yourself, don’t stop until you can’t take it anymore. silly pups need to get fucked stupid.

🐾 slobber on toys (of the sfw AND nsfw variety), suck your fingers, get messy eating a popsicle or something similar. spit can be VERY puppy if you can handle the mess

that’s all for now, silly pups!! have fun, play safe, be kind to yourself, and remember that all of us puppies are different and unique. what makes one person feel puppy might not make the next person feel puppy. figure out what works for YOU. being puppy is an independent journey 🐕🦴🐾🎾

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hey-scully-itsme · 1 year

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god help me i'm considering applying for masters programs

#i really wanna do it. i wanna do it so bad #there are two programs im looking at rn. i could just apply for both and see what happens #i just missed this years applications too #i would have a whole year to work on my applications #and im certain i could get some banger letters of rec from people who were in the field #my only major concern is that returning to academia rather than trying to move on professionally is a cop-out #where id just be avoiding the issues that r making me feel stuck where i am #putting them off #BUT at the same time i dont think thats an accurate assessment #bc some of the things keeping me stuck are things these masters programs would give me great opportunities to fix #not all of them but it would give me a MUCH clearer path forward #ughhhhhhhh im gonna have to do so much research. talk to so many people.#the only major personal concern i have is that it would (for complicated personal reasons) require me to put off my transition #for several more years #which would be really hard #but ive already made my pros-cons list #and a tentative to-do list of things i would have to do to seriously make this work

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