#also MERRY CHRISTMAS

[asuuree]

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[franklespine]

The scene at the start of All Hell Breaks Loose where Dean talks to Sam's corpse in that shack in the middle of nowhere is soul crushing to an incomprehensible level that the show hardly ever manages to reach again.

Firstly, what is revealed about Dean as he spills his heart open is devastating on a whole other level. Like there's grief and then there's this - it's like a piece of him has been torn out and he's left unable to literally function. It's not really a new idea in the series up to this point that Dean has centered his life around his family, in particular protecting Sam. As he starts off, he wishes so desperately that Sam didn't start asking questions about their family so Dean could preserve his innocence just a little bit longer. No doubt John put a lot of pressure on Dean to protect and look after Sam, but taking on this role was something that was all but written inside him, as he says, John didn't even have to tell him to do it, Sam was his responsibility. The tipping point in this scene is when Dean finally asks "what am I supposed to do" - how can he even begin to move beyond this? He doesn't care if the world ends anymore, doesn't care if Azazel wins and he never gets revenge. In asking this question Dean realises that he is incapable of letting go of Sam, of the responsibilities to his family he has built his life around like the grain of sand at the centre of the pearl, and of the crushing guilt that comes with 'failing' these responsibilities. The only way forwards is to force the laws of nature to bend for him and bring Sam back from the dead, no matter the cost.

Secondly, this is heart wrenching to me for Sam too. Here he is, 23 years old and lying dead on a dingy mattress in a shack in the middle of nowhere - the only escape from his dark destiny found in death. But the primary reason it seems that Dean makes this massive sacrifice to bring him back isn't because he's 23 and has so much of life he deserves to live, but because he is incapable of living under the weight of his guilt in failing him - that he is Dean's responsibility that he can't live with letting down. And this is not to say that Dean doesn't also bring him back because he loves and care for him as a person, but it's not like Dean was sitting there talking to Sam saying you didn't deserve this, we were so close to ending this, you deserved to go on to have a life that hasn't been built around and in grief and revenge, hell, you could've even gone back to university and had your happy ending. You know? It's like selling your soul for someone is a crazy batshit insane thing to do - the ultimate sacrifice. But same as with John, it seems that the reason behind it wasn't just pure love and desire for that person to live just because they didn't deserve to die. John needed Dean to be there to ensure Sam didn't go darkside - to kill him if he can't save him. In both cases it was out of love, but in this weird objectified way.

It's just so fascinating how this dynamic between the three Winchesters, love and sacrifice plays out in the early seasons. How supernatural finds selfishness at the centre of this seemingly sacrificial selfless act. The selfishness in martyrdom.

That's why this scene is just heart wrenching in my sad insane little head. Sam and Dean were crazy codependants before this but this scene marks a turn for the worst (in codependence) for them. This scene is like the solidification of Dean's belief that he is worthless and incapable of functioning without the responsibilities he holds to his family and solidifies that Sam is the little brother possession for Dean to protect and regulate until his time runs out and he's shipped off to hell - leaving him at the centre of his massacred family with all the fingers pointing in his direction. His mum was collateral damage to his anti-baptism by a demon, his Dad sold his soul for his brother's life to be the final yes or no in the decision of whether Sam deserves to live or not, and now his brother's gone and done the same for him. But hey, at least when Dean gets dragged down to hell it isn't with the weight of guilt that he failed his responsibilities.

(spoiler alert: he feels guilty for leaving Sam anyway and Sam spirals anyway).

[mikufanclub]

youmu to go with yuyu (light mode users click it)

[dodgerdawkins]

hello to the three people who will see this sorry I haven’t posted in a while

Have this thing I made

[fossilizedhysterics]

am i too late to this trend

[craftnkittn]

OK WTF

Okay so I was watching Dead Plate videos on YouTube like a completely sane person would BUT then I FOUND THIS….

And like WTF????

[girlfoxcock]

I don’t know who needs to hear this but don’t jack off early in the day unless you want to ruin it

[twstbud]

TWISTED HAPPENINGS #01: "That's the Rules of Uno!"

*Inside a large room where festivities were happening; there's music playing through the speakers. Many tables & food stalls strewn about the room, with many people eating, laughing, chatting, or playing various card/board games. Idia, Floyd, Malleus, Sebek, and Leona are all playing a chaotic game of Uno at one of the tables*

Floyd: You're mighty quiet over there, Sea Sluuug

Malleus: ........

Idia: LOL his cards are STACKED

Leona: Who's turn is it?

Floyd: Mine! *smug ass grin, holding 3 cards and slamming one down on the table* DRAW 4, FIREFLY SQUID! HAHAHA

Idia: ARE YOU SERIOUS?! *reaches over to pull 4 cards*

Sebek: Ha! As they say, the more the merrier!

Malleus: So does that mean I have an advantage? *shows his hand of 24 cards*

Sebek:

Floyd: Who's gonna tell him?

Leona: I'll let him have this... *smirk*

Sebek: All those cards... I-I mean...! I'M SO SORRY FOR RIDICULING YOU LIKE THAT, MY LIEGE!!

Malleus: ...So I'm losing?

Idia: I mean, it is his first Uno card game. Guhuhu!

Sebek: Never fear! It is my turn now -- *clutching 7 cards, eyes burning at one* -- AND I, SEBEK, SHALL SAVE YOU!!! *SLAMS CARD DOWN*

Floyd: No way, a blank wild card? Croc might be cooking something...

Sebek: *looks at Idia* If I remember correctly, during our practice round, you've emphasized this card is of immaculate importance. Remind me of what it means again?

Idia: Uh... you can pretty much call the shots and come up with your own rules with that card.

Leona: Oh, I see where this is going.

Sebek: OUTSTANDING! Malleus! The weight of those cards must be a burden. These utter fools shall feel ashamed for putting you at a disadvantage. But fear not, for I shall come up with the most brilliant rule known to all living beings! I will not let you lose at a mere, foolish human card game... So therefore, my rule is simple: THE GREAT MALLEUS DRACONIA WINS THE GAME!!!

Leona: ...Aaand there it is. *pushes his chair back and gets up, leaving with a groan* Which food table has the meat? I'm starving.

Idia: WUT?! YOU CAN'T JUST DO THAT BRO WTF

Sebek: But I am confused. You told me I could make up my own conditions with this card, did you not?

IdIa: Uh, yeah, you can make up a rule... technically... but just going super saiyan and giving someone the easy W is a totally rigged move LOL

Malleus: ...!

Sebek: Ah, seeing Malleus overcome with joy...! *sniffle* CONGRATULATIONS, MY LIEGE!

Floyd: *face growing dark, holding up 2 of his own cards between his fingers* I'm not vibing with your rules, Croc...

Sebek: Those are the rules. You must abide to them!

Floyd: *threatening look* Funny... I never said I'd abide to your stupid rules.

Sebek: Fiend! Are you threatening me?

Floyd: Sure am. You're just asking to get squeezed, Croc...

*Sebek & Floyd argue before Floyd's mood drops and he slinks away, bored out of his mind*

Sebek: Hah! Utter fool!

Malleus: .......*holding onto his 24 cards in one hand for dear life*

Idia: Uh... Malleus? I guess you won the game in a totally fair way. GG

Malleus: ...I won, but the cards are still in my hands. Is that a good thing?

[dot-tsu]

A look of hatred

So, everyone, how is it going? Dropping this art that I made like a week ago

I- don't know anything about Kieran, but haha edgy onion boy haha boom

Ngl, I realized days later that he had a ponytail (? and a beauty mark on the neck, and I was wondering HOW THE HELL I DIDN'T SEE THESE THINGS IN THE REFERENCES

[kiwisandpearls]

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

I ACTUALLY BEAT A LEGIT TOUHOU GAME YAAAAAAAAAAAA

[tharkenta]

Galina, my branch NPC on Lioden, has gotten an update!

[william-snekspeare]

I post more ferret content on my Instagram than I do here if you want to give that a peep. I’m @ william_snekspeare on there

[2ndalt]

Happy New Year, Ya Filthy Animals

[khainovo]

miwa taishi my beloved

[s1lly-gh02tz]

by the way IF Y0UR3 G0NNA TYP3 LIKE TH1Z make sure to add a translation, just like in parentheses or whatever for example just put (if you’re gonna type like this) translations are helpful to people who struggle with reading and are just helpful in general ^_^

OKAY YEAH GOOD IDEA

(Btw I’m not gonna type like that for everything just like titles maybe lol)

[56-degrees-fahrenheit]

kung fu jose