#also the way i’m watching both season 1 and 8 rn

[bloodfreakcastiel]

why does jensen have a weird east-coast accent in the first season? it keeps throwing me for a loop

[the-chickenshit-oddity]

B99 Obsessive Rewatch Season Two

rewatching B99 and taking notes. also, sometimes i get ideas of stuff i wanna see played out more, so i post them as prompts and link them here. spoilers for all of season two.

2:1

Jake as an italian mobster kinda

Is this the first holt&jake hug we’ve seen?? Rayray doesnt even flinch so cute

Jake’s rapidfire recap : fixed a boxing match / smoked a whole cigar w/o vomitting / was in a room w/ 10 Sals

Jake lies to amy about liking her

Jake has “lady hands”

Holt says he’s seen MOVIES PLURAL

Awesome begins with an O, JP 2013 probably

“i am feeling trepidation at the prospect of a parentless existence” = baby holt’s parents had a thing when he was 7

Weirdest thing in the whole episode is mobster jake being beaten by a cop on mob turf and none of his mobster buddies helping out

Baby holt snuck into daddy holt’s office to check out his collection of antique globes = daddy holt issues ref above

Proud daddy holt. Forgot to note if it happened in s1 so we’ll consider this the beginning

Jake unlies to amy about liking her

Gina and boyle shag again

2:2

Terry’s getting snipped and gina is way creepy

Boyle has a sister (probs castle girl) that we never mention again?

Wunch appearance and holt is a dramatic shit i love him

Wunch&holt : wunch shot holt, holt tried to get her fired, wunch destroyed holts file while UC, holt embarrassed wunch in front of derrick jeater who??

Amy’s fierce when someone’s fucking with her career we stan

Charles has seen the little mermaid

Holt’s a great amy dad cause both of them are ambitious nerds

2:3

Jimmy jabs est.2008

Jake knows rosa’s friend katie (and s1 amy’s friend kylie – how the fuck)

Lots of parallels to FRIENDS. Accidental sex tape, two guys accidentally nap together, probs other stuff, where’s the downstairs officers brooming the ceiling?

Squad screams like maniacs in the bullpen and random background people literally dont even care – ie this is such a habit people are over it

Bomb suits kinda look like minions or is it just me

Hitchcock is evil – do we think he’s related to gina or what?

Amy wins

2:4

Halloween heist

Holt is a master jake player, all rejoice

Holt says watch from kevdad & kevdad dead

I want ginas jacket

Jake has cousins ie jake has aunties??

2:5

Trust levels off the charts. Leaping at terry, telling holt the truth and asking amy for help. Okay so that’s only jake but still

Wunch is evil

My man holt is sooo tense, how long do we bet till he blows up?

Amy is giving toddler mom vibes rn somebody give her a margarita

>> amy has to babysit some random kid and realises he’s identical to jake in behaviour

Im gonna need baby terry being a disco champion thing

>>Omg!! Holt caught the disco killer, maybe disco killer killed disco nerds, ie holt saved terry’s life!

Lmao kev passive agressive is my life

Holt is a regular holmes wtf

How did jake get guest pjs, im sensing a food/drink related accident which makes twice this episode with amy’s car

Holt&jake teaming up is my fave thing ever

Terry at a soccer game for his kids would be terrifying

2:6

I’m in love with jake’s “why am i an idiot” face

Amy goes to holt screeching “captain” like he’s her dad, i need an amy prequel series, i love her

Rosa’s really backhanded at compliments it’s awesome

So cops hate lawyers and firepeople?? Who are they buddies with? (except for the criminals eh)

Whats a pow wow?

Is this a “season’s main human-mess that needs holt guidance” thing? First was jake, this feels like amy’s

2:7

When did holt get stabbed IN THE NECK??

gina get off on chaos like a demon she’s evil

precinct lockdown ep – all of those people are terrible and i hate them

why does terry’s wife not care about her brother being a dick?

2:8

Terry and amy waterboard themselves for some reason

So cops hate mailpeople too

Forgot holt had a gambling addiction

Coping stuff : holt workouts / terry self torture wtf? / gina meditation

Jake&rosa friendship is great

2:9

Holt wants bland ugly food, like how picky can you get

How is jake inviting teddy to come a proof of teddy being romantic?

Note to self : never go to a themed hotel they’re haunted

“pb&js are so simple a child could make them” makes me see neglected baby holt making himself food as best he could >> tie in with no dad baby holt thingy

Rosa got possessed by the devil

Lessons : CB > RH cooking stuff (epic fail)

Wheres the award for the most awkward double date ever?

2:10

Doug judy’s back

Jake has no ability to hold grudges?

Doug judy’s got real nice teeth

Amy stand up to holt, holt likes

I’m not interested in the whole boyle/linetti storylines :/

2:11

Holt took all night to think of an insult for wunch but burns people left and right no problem >> my boy doesn’t actually hate her?? Omg is this some weird non-sexual game they play? Gross

Amy&rosa in a car for four hours? I need to see it

“uncle ray” talks about work so much even his NEPHEW knows who’s who. 1) was kev not there, because no cop talk policy 2) was he EFFUSIVE??

Most of what i’ve learnt from this watching session today is that i’m real hungry why do they keep eating

You know what’s inconspicuous? Two guys sitting in front of windows with massive cameras. Totes invisible

Jake&charles have a roomie breakdown, gina&amy have an existential crisis, terry is a mom and rosa&holt are ...there

Man i do NOT want to shag in my boss’ house, i mean rosa’s got her own flat, cmon

Kev making bacon smiles on his pancakes totes goes into my kev&holt get baby martin for holidays headcanon (see season one obsessive rewatch)

“this isn’t my first rodeo” jake abt dealing w/ scully >> fits into baby jake shadowing scully for junior cops thingy (also in s1 obsessive rewatch)

“brothers fight but they’re always there for each other” says the only child (fun fact, only jake and gina are only kids (except for maybe terry cause i can’t remember))

2:12

I love the amy drunkenness scale

A fondue stick in a fanny pack sounds like a disaster waiting to happen

Beachhouse w/ the boss episode

Amy&gina&terry get paired up lots

Why didn’t they turn the holt party into a movie night??

Au where boyle is a seduction coach

Gina turned not-evil for a second

2:13

Amy’s def of partner : bounce ideas, eat street meat & stake out, burnt coffee

Jake hasnt been to the dentist in seven years (at this point i’m thinking he was kidnapped and doesnt remember his season one dentist trip)

“it’s payback time” to the drug dealer who killed all of jake’s family

Gina’s got two grandmas

Charles want to have a bowling business

How do terry’s biceps have their own biceps???

Holt likes the name todd, didnt he have an ex called todd?

Isn’t yahooanswers dead? How does jake know stuff now?

2:14

If s1 is parenting Jake and teaching Amy independence, is s2 about parenting Amy and bonding with Rosa through evil humour?

Jake tells terry he loves sofia??

Rosa’s enemy marker-hoarder carla biancci in 2nd grade turned bully till grad

Jake tells sofia he loves her

Gina being a dick after saying something true – a trend?

Charles’ dad was a florist and now i want a classic flower shop romance

Sofia breaks up ouchhh

Eww gross wunch kissed holt i need brainbleach

Charles doesnt think his dad loves him?

2:15

Rosa’s parents are “smiley morons & hug freaks”. Did not seem like it in the coming out episode?

Second massive cop lasertag game thingy

Holt confused face implies he never saw titanic

Note to self try to make a blondie sometime

Holt apologises the next day for trying to disqualify gina from pers.test >> did kevin tell him his type didn’t fit him?

Gina thinks holt flirts with her so she’s a wunch but on their side?

2:16

“if u love s/o u’ll remember what they look like” but KEVIN HAS A PORTRAIT MATE

Oh this is the “i’m sorry you weRE STABBED” episode

I want marvin the geriatric bank robber to be buddies with gina??

Im lowkey upset that kevs buddies with gina tho, he’s not evil enough

Ray talks about jake to random waitresses and his painting teacher

Okay i get it, amy and charles are too simpy, rosa’s too unhinged, we don’t talk about hitchcock and scully, terry’s got his own shit, so that only leaves gina and jake and it cannot be jake, so. Yeah okay gina and kev are buddies

Ray called jake a genius just cause he heard him practice his holt impression, how cute

2:17

Jake’s a creepy girl stalker?? Poor jenny gildenhorn

Rosa has a grandad

Amy plays french horn

Jake answers amy’s proposal with “yes a thousands times yes”

MARCUS DVRs BONES THE HOLTCOZNER BEDROOM WEIRD DVR QUEUE SOLVED EXCEPT WHYS HE IN THEIR ROOM??

2:18

Dickhead peralta shows up, i hate him :(

Holt’s “unsolvable” riddle “There are 12 men on an island. 11 weigh exactly the same amount, but one of them is slightly lighter or heavier. You must figure out which. The island has no escapes, but there is a seesaw. The exciting catch? You can only use it three times.”

Jakes allergic to bees and dickhead knows about it

I’d go on a sudoku cruise too amy

Honestly this riddles fucking easy im so angry

Amy’s right tho, you do 6v6, one side’s heavier, then you divide that one 3v3, one side’s heavier, you do 1v1 and either they’re equal and the last one’s the heaviest or one of them’s already the heaviest

I cannot tell you how infuriated i get everytime im reminded of dickhead peralta’s later character arc.

2:19

s/o framing jake as druggie

spoiler its sofias druggie bossman

holt : “sarcasm the cowards lie” ouch

oh yeah also terry and holt missed ginas dance thing and shes upset

and also charles gotta work with the two giant babies

2:20

Jakes unhealthy obsession with his job episode 40 of 40

Rosa&holt scheming to avoid personal chats, relatable

Rosas dads a teacher, two sisters

2:21

Jake and amy have a crush on the same guy till the guy likes amy and jake likes amy more

Terrys looking into a new job and boyle gina holt get weird about it

2:22

Jakes on a treasure hunt, terry’s looking into a school for his kids again?

Holt v wunch 1946th time

Bingpot

The velvet thunder is probs thor’s more dramatic second cousin

2:23

Wunch got holt transfered sad face

Rosa’s bday

Wunch being incredibly sexual-harrassy again

Rosa likes gilmore girls

Weird sex thing from wunch again geez

Rayray does the robot yay. Dude was there a cancel-scare?

[alollinglaughingcat]

Digimon Questionare

normally I don’t do these kinds of things but im just so... DIGIMON rn i cant NOT. Warrior Cats and Digimon are my Main Obsessions Always and like i can draw warrior cats but i cant draw Digimon cause Humans and Outlandish Monsters lol

anyway i made these all up

Favorite Over-all Character? Koichi Kimura!

Favorite Googlehead? Tagiru! I just like his spirit. I also really like Mikey, and how well they play his flaws, because Mikey’s a really genuinely good guy and great leader in ways that Tai and others aren’t, but it’s also Mikey’s flaw because he tries so hard to be good and to give to others that it’s shown to physically and mentally hurt himself, which is a really interesting route to go! ...I love how I talked more about Mikey than my actual favorite Tagiru lol. Idk, I just think Tagiru is Davis but better, and I like how fiery Tagiru is, plus his partner Gumdramon is awesome

Favorite Blue Bestie? ...Ken? He’s literally the only one that’s NOT blue lol. So if I had to pick an actually blue boy I’d say... Koji? Kiyoshiro is also a strong contender

Favorite Redeemed Evil? KOICHI! KIMURA! Can I just say HIS plot twist was the only one i NEVER EXPECTED??? And I can answer you why: I was so young watching the other Digimon seasons that I couldn’t remember my reaction to the plot twists and just knew them as facts, OR I was too old watching the other seasons that I predicted or just accepted the plot twists easily. BUT KOICHI’S???? I was just the perfect age of “can remember my reaction to this, but not old enough to theorize properly.” I remember when we first say Koichi on the train flashback, I thought it was Koji! I thought Koji got sent back too. So when I learned Duskmon (Koichi) was KOJI’S TWIN, I flipped my shit y’all! ALSO! Koichi is a dark lion how could I not love him lol.

Favorite Digimon? If I had to pick a ‘mon to be my partner: Gatomon, duh. But favorite digimon character? Probably Gumdramon for his backstory (wild child!) and personality, but Gammamon might potentially usurp him. Renamon and Impmon are some of my favs for their friendship though!

Favorite Partnership? Hm, Hiro and Gammamon for the big brother-little brother relationship? Or, Kiyoshiro and Jellymon just because they’re like the only male human-female Digimon pair and I like their dynamic. Really, I like any partnerships from Tamers or Ghost Game best; they feel the most natural, realistic and flesh-out in those seasons. Meiko and Meicoomon are an honorable mention

Favorite Series? GHOST GAME! It used to be Frontier, and Frontier will always have a special place in my heart, but Ghost Game is so freakin’ good. So, Ghost Game, then Frontier, then Hunters. I like the ones that are least liked lol. I like GG just cause of how polished and cool it is, but I love Frontier for nostalgic reasons plus the kids turning into Digimon was so unique and I loved its movie. Hunter just because I like the concept of ‘hunting’ the Digimon like theyre Pokemon lmao :)

Ranking the Series:

1. Ghost Game (will rewatch)

2. Frontier (won’t rewatch)

3. Hunters (rewatch some episodes)

4. Tamers (will rewatch)

5. Tri (will rewatch)

6. Adventure 02 (will rewatch)

7. Adventure (may rewatch)

8. Data Squad (won’t rewatch)

9. Fusion (rewatch some episodes)

10. X-Evolution (won’t rewatch)

11. Universe (no. just. no. never watched past 2 eps)

Subs or Dubs? Both. Both are good. I prefer watching dubs, though, and tend to stick to English names and such, but I’ve read enough Japanese names fics and obviously Hunter and Ghost Game only have subs, so I’m more than used to Japanese names and versions, and prefer it in some ways (Yuu > Ewan supremacy).

Favorite Ship? Oh, Daiken (Ken and Davis/Daisuke) hands down. You can’t even convince me they’re not gay with the “I can feel your beating heart” bullshit. Is this even a question? Other than them, I also really like “Ken crushing on TK bcus of when TK hit the Digimon Emperor” and also Tagiru X Yuu/Ewan! But also I’m very flexible in my ships lol. cause I also like Yuu x Airu. ALSO Tai x Sora x Matt supremacy! Digimon Tri really solidified and made me love the hell outta that polyam ship.

Favorite Headcanon? That Kari is asexual aromantic! She has no interest in guys (or gals) but feels pressured to. She really feared that her best friend TK would want to get with her and it would all be ruined, but unknown to her, TK was in a similar situation! He was aspec but thought he was pure straight, and was thus a serial dater and a bit of a “player” cause he couldn’t really keep a girlfriend due to having no real emotional attachment to them/fading interest and him always wanting to hang w/ Kari instead. He’s likely demi and only has feelings of attachment/romance for Kari, but he’s also possibly asexual, just uncertain. He and Kari end up as queerplatonic bf/gf! Kari gets the relief of always having her bestie with her without any pressure to be “romantic” or, to her absolute horror, sexual, and TK can feel secure and loved without worry <3

Favorite Digimon Fan-media? Obviously The Ultimate Gathering of the Digidestined is awesome, but its literally a crime if you’ve never read the comic Digimon Frontier Re-Birth. Literally @digimon-fr is the fucking best. as far as im concerned its canon and I love Geopardmon and Nachtmon, darkness babies

also just for fun I organized the groups some time ago:

Grouped by Series Adventure: Tai, Matt, Sora, Mimi, Joe, Izzy, TK, Kari, Davis, Yolei, Cody, Ken, Wallace, Meiko, Micheal Tamers: Takato, Rika, Henry, Jeri, Kazu, Kenta, Ryo, Ai, Mako, Suzie, Alice, Minami, Calumon Frontier: Takuya, Koji, Koichi, Zoe, JP, Tommy, Bokomon, Neemon, Teppei, Katsuharu, Chiaki, Terue, Angemon Data Squad: Marcus, Thomas, Yoshi, Kristy, Keenan, Relena, Sampson, Homer, Miki, Megumi Hunters: Mikey, Angie, Jeremy, Christopher, Nene, Ewan, Tagiru, Ryouma, Ren, Airu, Kiichi, Hideaki, Mizuki, Noboru, Haruki, Ken II Ghost Game: Hiro, Ruli, Kiyoshiro, BlackGatomon Uver, Tapirmon, Clockmon

Grouped by Ages (generalized) Old men: Sampson, Homer The gals (real adults): Yoshi, Megumi, Miki Baby adults: Joe, Marcus, Thomas Basically adults: Tai, Matt, Sora, Meiko Almost there: Mimi, Izzy, Micheal Stuck in the middle: Yolei, Ryo, JP, Kristy, Keenan, Relena, Mikey, Jeremy, Christopher, Nene Solid teens: TK, Kari, Davis, Ken, Wallace, Takato, Rika, Henry, Jeri, Kazu, Kenta, Alice, Takuya, Koji, Koichi, Zoe, Angie, Hideaki, Mizuki, Kiyoshiro Awkwardly teens: Minami, Ewan, Tagiru, Ryouma, Ren, Airu, Kiichi, Hiro, Ruli Pre-tweens: Cody, Tommy Literal babies: Ai, Mako, Suzie

Grouped by Animals Dinosaur/dragons: Tai, Davis, Takato, Ryo, Takuya, Marcus, Mikey, Christopher, Tagiru, Hiro Canines: Matt, Rika, Alice, Minami, Koji, Thomas, Angie, Ryouma, Hideaki Rabbits: Wallace, Henry, Suzie, Ruli Felines: Kari, Meiko, Jeri, Koichi Birds/plane: Sora, Yolei, Zoe, Kristy, Keenan, Nene Water creatures: Joe, Micheal, Kenta, Homer, Mizuki, Kiyoshiro Insects: Izzy, Ken, JP, Jeremy Plants: Mimi, Yoshi Miscellaneous animal: TK, Cody, Tommy, Sampson, Airu Miscellaneous other: Kazu, Ai, Mako, Miki, Megumi, Ewan, Ren, Kiichi

Grouped by Element Fire: Tai, Takato, Takuya, Marcus, Mikey, Tagiru Thunder: Izzy, Davis, JP, Kazu, Jeremy, Christopher Wind: Sora, Yolei, Zoe, Kristy, Keenan, Nene, Kiichi Water/Ice: Joe, Michael, Kenta, Tommy, Homer, Mizuki, Kiyoshiro Nature/Earth: Mimi, Cody, Yoshi Light: Matt, TK, Kari, Henry, Rika, Jeri, Minami, Koji, Thomas, Megumi, Sampson, Angie, Ewan, Ruli Darkness: Ken, Wallace, Meiko, Ryo, Suzie, Ai, Mako, Alice, Koichi, Miki, Ryouma, Ren, Airu, Hideaki All (eevee mode): Hiro

Grouped by Traits Goggle-head leaders: Tai, Davis, Takato, Takuya, Marcus, Mikey, Tagiru, Hiro Blue besties: Matt, Henry, Koji, Thomas, Christopher, Kiyoshiro Token girls: Sora, Mimi, Yolei, Rika, Zoe, Yoshi, Angie, Airu, Ruli Baby of the group: TK, Cody, Suzie, Ai, Mako, Tommy, Kristy OP self-inserts: Kari, Ryo, Alice, Meiko Evil turned good: Ken, Koichi, Keenan, Nene, Ewan, Ryouma The extras: Joe, Izzy, Jeri, Kazu, Kenta, Sampson, Megumi, Miki, Jeremy, Ren Background characters: Wallace, Michael, Minami, Homer, Relena, Kiichi, Hideaki, Mizuki

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recs on recs on recs

Yaoi/Manga I’m reading/have read. Please support the artists on official websites. If you have recs or want to chat about any of these get in my messages right the fuck now my dudes. Also spoilers, also this probably doesn’t make sense to anyone but me, also I think I’m funny sorry in advance.

Dangerous Convenience Store

Tags: Ongoing, self aware lead for the most part, gangs, smut, love triangle, possessive, not rapey, seme is like the fucking hulk compared to uke, college, age gap, good art, muscular bodies, seme is adorable/romantic in sp chapters, sexual awakening, meeting the gang (in two ways!), FAINTS OF CUTENESS/HOTNESS, the memes after every chapter got me gagged, HAHE hahahahahahahahahaha, OMG DO I GET SOME CNC?! (update: short lived), we stan a vocal man (Ahjussi), thigh fucking, my mans be like my thighs hurt fuck my ass instead DECEASED, ass smacking, these memes are so good god damnit, rimming

8/10, I live for Ahjussi (Am I spelling this wrong..)

The New Employee 

-love love love

Tags: ongoing, we stan supportive boyfriends, healthy relationship, boss/employee, smut, office setting, good art, 10/10 will re-read, muscular bodies

Love Shuttle

Tags: completed, ABO, enemies to lovers, possessive, coworkers, fake relationship, strong omega, the art sucks but I like the story, art gets better after the 1st season, alphas eyes change colors when happy/anxious, muscular bodies, 7/10, update 10/10 art is meh but fml this storyline is basic af in the best way and it’s the fluff/smut I need, when you’re caught by the folks *cringe*

Hold Me Tight

Tags: ongoing, boss/employee, bodyguard, gio can’t feel heat until felix comes along, uke is strong af, horny bastards, smut, possessive, tragic childhood, moving in together right away, rich seme, felix in a bunny costume though *heart eyes*, dialogue is great, rape in a technical sense but the vibe is written like both characters are all good after? Ex. hospital scene…dub con, ART IS GREAT, hand holding during sex, 10/10 will re-read, muscular bodies

Yours to Claim 

Tags: ongoing, love triangle, Dom/sub dynamics, smut, main is big switch energy, reincarnation, jealousy, manipulative, possessive, self aware lead for the most part, toxic af, GREAT ART, college, rich semes, 10/10 will re-read and not even finished, SONOFABITCH that cliff hanger!! Season 3 come thruuuu (I have to wait until November? *cries* BUT MAH LOVE TRIANGLE!!, I want a THROUPLE GOD DAMN IT

The Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation

Tags: obsessed with this story, will the incense burner scenes make it?? No tags because I'll never forget this one haha wangxian 5ever, send me all fanfics/fan art you have about this story, love Dark Wangji, Jadecest, ABO/omegaverse, Bottom Wangji/Top Wei Ying, and honestly anything regarding this fandom

Bj Alex

Tags: completed, great art, 11/10 will re-read, cam boy, fanboy, seme is an asshole, uke is so sexy, jealously, rich seme, enemies to lovers kind of?, CHANWOO IS MY BOY FOR LIFE, Chanwoo MD supremacy, BDSM (like really really), fuck I love Chanwoo, college students, rich seme, emotional rollercoaster, uke soft body, mean seme, college life, that one nosy bitch ass guy trying to expose my boys needs to fuck right off, seme split/fake personality, dub con 

Anti PT

Tags: ongoing, 11/10 re-readable, porn with feelings, love triangle, jealousy, attempted non-con, personal training wink wink, main love interest is actually the best, second male lead is a god damn creep, first time, smut, great art, sex addict/constantly horny uke, I WANT A HWI, 

Related: https://www.anime-planet.com/manga/anti-pt/recommendations 

Payback

Tags: ongoing, both are psychopaths tbh, revenge, gangs, uke sells himself to seme, violent seme, entertainment industry, brunette supremacy, what this motherfucker gonna do? hehe , great art, muscular bodies, dead dove do not eat, my mans must be GOOD looking/animal magnetism cause everyone losing their fucking minds, okay this is a comedy I’m dying, he tried to scare him with wanting to be a top but my psycho said REVERSEUNO BITCH I’M A VERSE (wait jk apparently *sigh*), anonymous masked sex (sad n’ kinky)

My Suha

Tags: ongoing, wow this gets dark, possessive af like holy shit, terrible people all around uke, rape, boss/employee, office politics/family politics, smut, characters that are punchable, dead dove do not eat, *velociraptor noises*, avoided this for a while but I’m back because nothing can be more emotionally devastating than Banana Fish, TIE HIM UP, FUCK HIS FACE ALKSJD:ASKD, FUCK SUHA UR SO HOT that dirty talk though YAS, glad I picked this back up lmao, GOD DAMN IT just when the package arrived then this red head fucker *screams*

Shame Application aka Dirty Vibration

Tags: completed, friends to lovers, model seme, cute af uke, love triangle, entertainment industry, smut, kink, all kinds of sex everywhere, realized feelings, mutual pining, jealousy, rich seme, blonde seme, big brother 1984 always watching, 10/10 would re-read, porn with plot, they were roommates!, ~straight~ seme, first times, great art, remembering some cringe but considering the story it’s par for the course

Will You Subscribe

Tags: ongoing, season 1 completed, enemies to lovers, cam boy, office politics, boss/employee, hiding a secret, public sex, stalkers/creepy men, emotionally stunted characters, mutual pining, idiots in lust, lingerie company, slut shaming, jealousy/possessiveness, season 2 bebeh, HOLDING HANDS *velociraptor noises*, LMAO okay my mans is not THAT old how tf does he not know netflix and chill, BUNNY COSTUME (quickly becoming my new fav trope in manga, A+ gang), oh we stan a good boy, wtf is wrong with wanting to do cam work, ‘I wish my marks could become permanent’ *omegaverse wink*, *works for lingerie company* *doesn’t understand where bf gets sexy costumes* like wut kind of fuckery…, cross dressing ftw, roleplay, classic BL miscommunication trope

Hyperventilation

Tags: completed, high school crush, unrequited love, mutual pining, smut, quickie (short story), class reunion, apparently furry with the extra chapter turning my man into a bunny but c'est la vie! https://myreadingmanga.info/korean-bl-animation-hyperventilation-engsub/ this is the animation of the same story, different endings but same in tone (this site is spammy AF but the English subs are so hard to find for this) 8/10 

Unmei no tsugai ga omae da nante

Tags: only one bed, ABO, office setting. Coworkers, enemies to lovers, competitive, equality in the omegaverse, dubcon, real dicks and not lightsabers, fated pair, art is cute af 8/10

K’s Secret

Tags: buckle up buttercup, dead dove do not eat, angst, pining, somnophilia, dub con, non con, boss/employee, manipulative, stalking, forced relationship, tragic childhood background, weird art but gets better,  uke: don’t threaten me with a good time but seriously stop threatening me, possessive & obsessive, seme is like the fucking hulk compared to uke, wow were going full psycho stalker hm?, dating a narcissist is all fun and (mind)games, con non con… ? honestly who tf knows, domestic!, OW MY HEART, the t/n WAP note sent me, ch 51 translated by gen z, do special ep= furry? Wait there’s a maid costume, bunny costume, directors friends keeping it real, rough translations 8/10

Enthusiasm

Tags: ongoing, dead dove do not eat, uke buys seme, masc boys, muscular bodies, fight club, master/slave, rich uke, revenge, real dicks not lightsabers, rough sex, cuckholding, daddy issues, suicide, wow the end of ch 5 punched a hole in my heart, penile implant life,  rough translations makes the storyline wonky, nvm back to lightsabers *star wars noises*, HAD ME FEELING SOME TYPE OF WAY I CAN NOT, shibari, possessive, wait this is cute *velociraptor noises*, angst, no kithes for you “bestie”, OBSESSED, honestly choke him pupper, STAY THE NIGHT ALKSDJA:SLDKJAS:LKDJA:SLDKj, problematic but I’m riding for these two, 

Ichimai Goshi Fetish

Tags: completed, short, fetishes DO start in childhood don’t they *ruminates*, author: describes ML as a beautiful 2D character meanwhile: ML IS 2D character, fellas is it gay to kiss the homies?, “real dudes don’t interest me” is a MOOD, comedy, jealousy, college setting, dialogue is A+, not lightsabers but not dicks either, first time, when you’re fucked so good you think you’ve died, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R4uEq5Nx6ko, hero/villain roleplay. Fluff n smut 10/10

My Purrfect Boss

Tags: completed, tooth rotting fluff because blondie is so FUCKING cute little sensitive soul, golden retriever boyfriend, pure comedy, DECEASED, MY MAN JUST DID THE SLOW BLINK, office setting, boss/employee, ~wasted~ (red dead redemption meme),  FFS SO CUTE, he put a ring on it right away beyonce would be proud af, he protecc he attack but most importantly he hit it from the back, jealousy, honeymoon phase of dating, the ex is a snake (update: oh wow literally), I’m picking up abuse/PTSD vibes based on how Kang reacts to his ex :(, classic BL miscommunication plot, immediately no meme audio (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o6XWSGfYnps) ,  I WILL STRAIGHT UP MURDER CHA WTF!!!!!!, gang rape, spiked with drugs that force heat, me rn:*screaming/rage*, psychotic ex/abuser, HE PROTECCC, actual relief after that scene jesus fuck, okay YES kings I see you, okay this is giving me cuteness aggression, hi yes I’d like to adopt a cat and a dog please 9/10

Following Namsoo to the Bathhouse

Tags: completed, same author as, “My Purrfect Boss”, A+ comedy once again, JUNIOR, gay awakening, “fap myself to death” DEAD, facial expressions are ridic, my minds telling me no but my body, my bodyyyy’s telling me yaaaaa, ya boy is literally losing his mind over this, actual lightsabers lmao, FLUFF, permasmile, 6969, THINKS THEY’RE GOING TO EAT RAMEN, dense gay, own your skin wtf okay hannibal calm down, everyone is officially cray,  ah I also am barfy when drunk, denial really is something hm, classic BL miscommunication plot, when people pleasing too far, happy ending 🥺🥰, side story: our crazy gets his very own crazy (ashton Kutcher from spread vibes), public sex, sex sparkle 9/10

Alien in my Closet

Tags: ongoing (maybe completed but def ongoing on the site I use), not rapey at all?? You’d think it’s impossible in this medium ffs, anti pt vibes, cute art, fluff ‘n smut, red head!!, they were roomates!, sex toys, bsdm, D/s (brat)dynamic or maybe owner/pet, bondage, *tiffany hadish voice* this is noiceeee, con humiliation/degradtion, SANTA CLAUS, edging, marking, one lotus please (he’s clearly read the 4 agreements and karma sutra), con non con, exhibitionism, the wrist thing stays on people, Katoptronophilia,  roleplay, is it stalking when you bring your friends?, lotus: welcome home cheater, the chin on the head thing gives me cuteness aggression, the twins are my favs, when ur crush vanilla af 😭, haesung: experiment on me daddy, no dick until halfway through/fingering supremacy, bedroom sessions has me gagged, voyeurism, wait they haven’t kissed this whole time I forgot (audio: https://www.tiktok.com/@ryley/video/6976701880277748997?lang=en), sunbae is sus, YES FINALLY A FUCKING SWITCH COUPLE AKJSDHALKSJDHASKLJDHALS KJDALKSJD (update: sort of), there’s a missed opportunity for an anal probe joke, damn it okay maybe sunbae is chill, 3 musketeers, my heart*implodes*, *velociraptor noises*, 12/10 would re-read such fluff my heart 

On Doorstep

Tags: completed, age gap, reese has ptsd, jimmy going from 0 to 100, jimmy really got down on his knees at work, ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) deepest part you say, real dicks, ride him like a rodeo, quickie/short story, porn with plot

Gorani Jeon

Tags: ongoing, omegaverse, no alpha though, animal hybrid, art is beautiful like it's drawn on paper not a screen, 40 inch weave yours came in a pack, historical (non-modern), lord send me a sexy man pls, the memes after each chapter are golden, taking the phrase licking wounds literally, is that an eggplant or are you just happy to see me hehe, ahhh so inhibitors do exist here, vertical 69, here lays Bau fucked to death by Ran, WHY HE TOUCHING MY MAN, these chickens are dope, stomp on his dick, that’s what I call a happy meal, fucked right out the front door I’M DEAD, mpreg, i need a tiger+mountain god spin off (whoops dad/son my bad), slice of life, cute fluff 8/10

Room to room

Tags: completed, college setting, A+ dialogue, absurd size difference, unrequited love,  sexsomina, dubcon, angst, death by a thousand cuts emotionally, insecurity, body envy, pining, friends to lovers, they were roommates!, homophobia, sexual assault, PTSD, gays in denial, the tattoo 🥺 ow my heart, truly this is 90% smut, “going from unrequited love to fwbs is shittier than I expected”, dowan *bad blood by t swift* when he sees garam, ch 22garam reminds me of my ex and that’s not a compliment, I’m not gay but my boyfriend is vibes, triflers need not apply, spanking, 😭😭😭😭😭 my heart hurts, is anyone getting a bit of a puppy play vibe? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vni9ZWmDXis, handcuffs, lots of head we stan, dowan’s gotta a touch of a foot thing or maybe body worship thing, asdlfgkjs ;dlkfgjsd;flkgj;sdflkgj;sdlfgjs;d/gkdf SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEE, roleplay. They broke the bed no use of crying over spilled milk ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°), side stories delivering man in uniform and sex toys AND puppy, asdlkjaslfkasdjfl;askdfjasdf the shirt thing is so hot, watersports, I take it back this is 98% smut 9/10

Mistake Lover

Tags: completed, when ur bff is back on their BS, love triangle, coworkers, i swear all these ukes look the same to me at this point (which is very cute), GE!!!! (wangxian flashbacks), wait no smut?.... Paused

Yagi to ookami no hatsujou jijou

Tags: completed, quickie/short story, literally on my reading list because a comment said “nice cock 10/10”hahahaha, animal hybrids, scifi/aliens, me during chapter one: am I a furry? No. Am I? Relevant audio https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=noJNIqvDfoo, hotties when human GOD DAMN, bi king, okay I stan this girl changing gears take your opportunities honey!, does blondie have a tinder or how is this happening? (update: called it), feminization, dubcon/noncon, marking, heats, idk about 10/10 cock but not lightsabers, translation is ruff (get it?), a yankee hahaha, literal wound licking, googles chimera, *claps* yes king selfish call his ass out, tail holding caaaayoooot, not that isn’t usually copious amounts of cum but really this is a lot 8/10

Make Me Bark

Tags: completed, $250 a month rent?? *cries in Californian*, god damn it these grey haired 2D men are really hot fml, “next months rent is a looming concern but I hope it’ll get better” followed by apartment on fire is how I feel about reality, rare characters that smile way more than they frown, sex toys, kink, puppy play, owner/pet dynamic, sugar daddy/baby, college setting, harness, muzzle, leash, tail plug, shirt thing!!, soaked briefs, playing barbie IRL, omg meet cute at the adult store, intercrural sex, possessive/jealousy, ah fuck yes I saw this panel on IG but it didn’t have the source but now hehe, whipping, choking, spanking, *bookmarks*, simp city, childhood friends, side couple cute af, yeonsoo: sorry I’m an anti romantic, size queen, mens lingerie, domestic, mutual pining,  these bestie pairings are *chefs kiss*, skinny but muscular bodies/no ridiculous size differences, “does he have a big dick?” “probably” “well tell him to come” GAGGED AJKSDHALSKDJHA this dialogue pure comedy, exhibitionism, human auction, maid costume, men in heels, topping in a dress, girl at the bus stop HAHAHA, ffs this is so cute, side stories: it’s a small world afterall, dynamic role reversal, pink haired boy is guru, SCREAMING AKDJA:SLDKJA:LKDJA:LSDKJLAKDJA:LDJAL:SKDJASLKDJA:SLKDJLAKSDJLASDJ:LASJD:ALSKDJASL:DJ:ASLJDPUTARINGONIT!!!! 11/10 

Gurume no fukurami

Tags: completed, quickie/short story, food fetish, feeding fetish, age gap, throuple-eqsue? There’s 3 people involved, paused ch 1 pg 30

Under the Green Light

Tags: ongoing, thank you IG for rec’ing this, brunette supremacy, neurodivergent?, lmao @hag, this statue is everything I wonder if it’s based on a real piece?, we went from talking art to being pinned to the ground REAL quick, translations rough but not as rough as my mans here, draw me like one of your french girls vibe, sass master, these dicks are ridiculously huge which is saying something for this genre, i love a verse/switch, “first time he’s asked someone to stop so his self-esteem is hurt” HAHAHAHA, stealing bae’s shirt, facials galore, car sex/public sex, jin not into praise kink clearly, sort of slut shaming jealousy, marking

Walk on Water

Tags: completed, for being about porn it’s not that smutty (i take it back), “don’t even think about running away” got me like https://giphy.com/gifs/VABbCpX94WCfS, actual dicks (lightsabers later must be the cleaners not the OG), muscular bodies, blonde seme, brunette uke, k mcqueen is everything, honestly haven’t loved a couple this much since chanwoo x MD and I LOVE THEM, jealousy, orgasm denial, the angles/frames of the art in this are insane (11/10), emotional intimacy CUTENESS HASIHDLASKDHJLAKSJDH, i wanna lick lick lick you from your head to your toes, dirty talk A+, bestie you turned out to be Judas you judgy fuck how dare you touch my man, Ryan is 50 shades of fucked up bb needs therapy, Chang and yeowoons sexual tension is *chefs kiss*, I ship it/all my ships sailing, woof non con but expected tbh, YEAH BABY YEAH *Austin powers voice*, fml I don’t want this story to end, meeting the Hets ™ would make me nervous too, spiderman kith, mirror sex sjkadfhasldjkfh, 34+35, JOI but with a partner? Not D/s, promises are made to broken hehe, that feeling when you understand the title, omg the fan art is so cool!! 15/10 would re-read seriously I can’t explain how well the artist used angles/how she portrayed the scenes was fucking MASTERFUL

Woof Wolf

Tags: that's my best friend (saweetie), red heads, werewolf au, college setting, students, shoot a shot in your mouth while I'm riding, facials, marking

Sexual Awakening of an Ex Delinquent 

Tags: completed, quickie/short story, sexual coercion/non con/dub con, tiddies, bondage, nipple play, edging/orgasm denial, candy in ass wow, food kink, kink in general, rich seme working class uke, lightsabers,  big dick Jesus fuck, exhibitionism, public sex, men's lingerie, Blondie is a sweet baby angel, self hatred/homophobia, sexual narrating that has me like oof 😣 that's not how this works but okay, the sweet spots thing is a great line, man is a slave to the sweets, lmao at the meme at the end of ch 9 fucking facts, kidnapping plot, rapey guys all around this story, tattoo/back story reveal has me like *nods head yes*, my throats broken has me gagged, crazy amount of sfx noises that distract from the art (I really appreciate cleaners I realize), first times, rushed ending feels,  would rate 6/10 not terrible but probably won't read again.  

With Your Tail Yes

Tags: ongoing, IG rec, quickie/short story, on man brunette looks EXACTLY like a different character by another artist like for real duplicate, home boy pulled Elle Wood’s Bend n Snap and we are HERE FOR IT, lingerie/cross dressing, okay compilation of short stories, great artwork but wtf these are far too short (maybe uploaded wrong..?), *immediately makes deal with the devil because yum*, ah okay previews THEN stories, human animal hybrid situation, lightsabers, fucking imagine your crush delivery the sex toy you ordered online HAHA *dies*, buys toys because men ain’t shit is a VIBE, you know he’s always wearing matching sets because he’s 100% that bitch, dub con/non con, knotting (unexpected), exhibitionism, public sex, good ol’ fashion blackmail to get your lover to stay with you trope, sexual assault/attempted rape, victim blaming, shibari, leashes, D/brat dynamic sort of, copious amounts of cum, lube? What lube?, marathon sex, first time, 75 hours?? Immediately no meme, 7/10 mostly for art/concepts but not execution

Heat and Run

Tags: ongoing, IG rec, omegaverse, friends to enemies to lovers, multiple couples as main to sides then sides to mains, my heart dropped because I thought the first sex scene was incest but then realized I’m mixing up all the characters derp, dense gays, this is america (the shooting comment WOOF reality feels bad man), blondes have more fun, real dicks, dubcon/CNC dealers choice, mutual pining, idiots in love, big alpha energy BDE, there are moments I feel Hayoung on a spiritual level and not sure that’s a compliment hahaha, orgasm denial/edging, istg if he bonded without Hayoung permission *jenna marbles BOIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII YOU BETTAH NOT*, also I was hoping the idol was him but realizing it’s probs his sis, *deep sigh*, BDIRL, wow racism, oh no oh no no no no no meme audio, listen everyone needs to get into therapy to break that generational trauma is all I’m saying (not excusing abuse at all, trauma isn’t a free pass), NO ONE WANTS TO PLAY A GAME WITHOUT KNOWING THE RULES :ALKSDHJALKSDJA:SLKDJTRUE, matthew singing bo burnham: I’m problematic *background singers ‘he’s a problem!’*, i ship it yolo, JAEHO STAN (no means no!), mpreg, god damn it I am so worried about him getting roofie and the party scene hasn’t even started ABO WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TOO ME, OH THANK JAEHO, dayummmm that clapback was real fuck him UP, me clapping: MARK HIM MARK HIM, GOD DAMN IT WITH THESE ONGOING FUCKING CLIFF HANGERS FML, marked via knotting? Okay that’s new, but also like normal marking I think, fucking til bottom pees trope

Heaven Officials Blessing

Animated series season 1 complete. Live action currently filming (same director as Untamed too UGH SO HAPPY)

Tags: ongoing, same author as my fav ever MDZS, just finished season 1 animated on netflix and can no longer avoid this because I LOVE THEM, all the memes on IG make sense now, Prince voice: Dearly Beloved (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aXJhDltzYVQ) we are gathered here today to dive deeper into a fandom I will never escape, ART IS AMAZING (https://tenor.com/view/incredible-talented-lady-brilliant-gaga-gif-14857187), group chats are always chaotic tbh, wait a minute meme audio: bride = bottom? How tf did I not get that the first time round *sigh* always hoping for a verse couple, the asst. Boys I ship hard, the sass, fuck this is going to just be pure angst isn’t it *straps in, has fluffy manga queued*, even if no smut 11/10 gege porn, not subtle, god FUCK this ART IS SO FUCKING GOOD THE TALENT skjas;ldkfja;, 🥺, traumatic cliff moment *mdzs flashbacks*, HC smirk is my new favorite thing, no fucking but lots of touching, size difference, horror, gore, wuxia, great side characters, my ear feels tingly too lmao, SOMEONE BETTER GET THESE MF SNAKES ON THIS MF PLANE (cliff), umbrella moments got me uwu, gimme at least didi pleaseandthankyou, FUCK I LOVE THIS ARTIST she keeping us WELL fed with these extras DAYUM, wind/earth master ship please sail, CALL ME DADDY IM DEAD, HC has LWJ energy like you are not qualified to talk to me LOL, WAIT this totally counts as there was only one bed trope, also I’m already excited about omegaverse ff (send me recs please please please)

4 week lovers

Tags: ongoing because apparently I want to torture myself, mutual pining/”unrequited love”, college life, friends to lovers, blackmail ur crush into sex trope, public sex, I was going to tag possessive body language but possessive in a general sense apparently (starting strong yessss), sure jan @unrequited love dialogue, THEY WERE ROOMMATES *cackles*, sus haha, rough translation, pure comedy, shirt thing!, casual abuse :( (back story, traumatic childhood), I’m getting TharnType vibes (but not quite…), that note is precious, cry during/after sex, great angles, dialogue A+ 

Burlesque Night

Tags: completed, quickie/short story, stripper/body guard, coworkers, lust at first sight, magic mike vibes, fridays = getting fucked on stage O-O, well that was traumatizing af, took a bullet, real dicks, LDR, CUTE, I’m not in love with you… sure jan, OH WOW MASTER dlksaj;alsdkja;lsdkja;sld, gay awakening/first time, the art detail is *chefs kiss*, disappointed but not surprised :( :( :(, we stan a yes and lover, shirt thing, still not sure wtf the vertical anus thing is but full circle moment haha, you know what fuck it I’d re-read this 9/10

My one and only cat

Tags: ongoing, cat hybrids, god damn it I’m totally in furrydom ffs, ah well here we go, idol hot = loneliness wahhh /s, so hot he literally transforms other beings, omg a cat cafe CUTE, fuck that cat is cute *so fluffy*, stalker status, comedy, real dicks, I think the uncle would be supportive/jealous even I hope they talk about it I’m dying to know his thoughts, big tiddies, if this ain’t the cutest shit FLUFF/SMUT, copious amounts of cum, ate it with the panties on, CAKE, xmas, his milkshakes bring all the boy(cats) to the yard, trifling bitch

Imitation Mate

Tags: completed, omegaverse, alpha x alpha. Class rivals YAS, childhood frans, enemies to lovers omg this is all the shit I want, manipulation 1000 but yolo I ship it

Mr. 100% Perfect

Tags: ongoing, so relatable, OCD?, hoarder, when I read the title I thought mental illness and I was right, masks ugh RELATABLE, getting back together w ex, woof sibling drama/manipulation, suicide attempt, omg their communication regarding the psycho is REFRESHING, OMG JEJU ISLAND I see it in every fucking kdrama ever but this is the first time I’ve seen it mentioned in a manga *hm* interesting, furry furry everywhere, eye contact, finished reading season 1 pause for an omergaverse cause, okay I’m back and season 2 starting STRONG #1 men are gross #2 mans just went right to a blowie while mf was trying to pee lmao i can NOT the germs barf, fuckboi extraordinaire stressing over a textback is *great*, that istg face is perfect, HYUNGGGG, hand on his heart OW MY HEART, vibe check LOL, here for this plot dev, END OF SEASON2 NOOOOOOOimnotready. Head bonks CUTE

The origin of species

Tags: ongoing, omegaverse, sex tape, blackmail, i already don’t like this teacher, size difference, ‘JUST DIE’ hahahahahaha, I’m in love with noona, wait Ahjussi means uncle/mister? Dangerous convenience store has a new meaning to me now, DECEASED @they won’t, copious amounts of cum, alcohol to have intimacy *sighs in early 20s*, also WTF THEY ARE FUCKING AND THERE’S NO PHERMONE STUFF! What’s the point of being ABO without smell *swaggy p meme???*, wait okay ch 11 it begins, stockholm syndrome but since childhood I’m fairly certain *looking at you teacher I don’t trust these mfs*, dubcon obviously, also the can’t be knotted thing has me *cardi b meme that’s weird that’s sus* obvs poor bb about to get preg af, five word horror story: I won’t hurt you again *why tf you lyinggggg why u always lyinggg meme*, white collar crime, what’s the point of a contract when there’s no actual choice

How to Chase an Alpha

Tags: ongoing, lowkey been avoiding this one not because I think it’ll be bad I just..idk the brain is a weird thing, page 2 and I love mains attitude fucking gagged sass me bb, starting with rough translation but it be that way sometimes, GROUNDS HIMSELF BY TOUCHING HIS BLACK CARD I CANTTT, pheromone city fuck it UP, MC is a MOOD, mutual pining, when u and bae both hire PI’s to get info on each other, R-E-S-P-E-C-T, shirt thing, fucking chuffed about the rival fucking bring it, funny art, cheated on ugh mah heart I saw it coming and it still hurt, pure comedy this airport scene is so funny to me wtf, LDR, good ol murica fuckboi, LOVE HIM RIDE FOR UR MAN/MORALS, liams a little rapey rapist hm? No one’s ever said no… well being flooded with pheromones isn’t consent my dude, istg liam = I love it when they struggle, obvs jealousy/possessive tag but such is ABO, cat suit, BUNNY suit, sexy costumes, god damn it I love them that proposal/mpreg so cute, imprinting AW, ugh baes fam is so cute I needed that bc I wanna strangle wooyoungs dad, THE SECETARY is my fucking fav never stops being A+, SEC+LIAM?? Here for it *i ship it*, FUCK SO CUTE 12/10 re-read, fluff n smut, excited for how to chase an omegaside story hyung needs love!, JINI is mood, sales king I’m dying, that collar is ~hot~ btw

Egoism

Tags: completed (because jesus I can’t with ongoing, theheartbreakTM), UPDATE FML THE HEART BREAK IS REAL also no smut, omegaverse, hey stepbro, starts with rape, possessive/jealousy (isn’t all ABO?), age difference (6years, alpha is younger *can I get hyung plz lord*), HYUNG, woof this dad SUCKS, child abuse, rape culture *sigh*, I wanna get jacked like rick and summer and beat tf out of the dad, me n my cat, TELL EM HONEY I love this MC, traitor indeed, beta x omega btw, fated pair, coercive sex, didi going to be his own demise, BREAKUP/TIME SKIP NO this is BL hell, the rona is mentioned in this, ALL I WANT IS TO HEAR YOUR STORY WAHHHHHHHHHH also YES MY SHIP IS GOING TO SAIL I CAN FEEL IT, okay honestly frustrating a bit but also liked it yah 7-8/10, won’t re-read unless I’m looking for hurt though cause the comfort is BRIEF

Yarichin bitch bu

Tags: ongoing, reading because I watched this anime after seeing it mentioned in the comment section of -im-being-harassed-by-the-sexiest-man-of-the-year, anime was 2 eps a fucking wild the way this is uploaded SUCKS, no reality porn what plot rape-y ridiculous and now I need to read the source apparently haha, I need to know much more about yuri and blue hair guy ASAP (they have the spin off*adds to list*), high school setting, smut, studentsxstudents/teachers, photography club my ass, sex toys, kinky, crossdressing, gay awakening, unrequited love, jealousy, fake relationship, two faced people, OCD, COMEDY, rich people problems, hoarder, inferiority complex, one bed, toono is a dumbass in this love triangle or denial might be a better word, they are cousins my dude stop shipping it (I say to both toono and myself LOL), I wanna see Yuri’s face laksdjf;aldskf, vibrator #18 line is fucking iconic, yaguchi is about to get real interesting (BPD?), lies/manipulation, oh toono you sweet summer child, YURI i can’t wit chu, wait did he just punch the student because he won’t kiss him or???, dubcon/noncon obvs, finally my verse couple but they’re not a couple (yuri/tamu), they all care about each other is a weird way awwww, love confessions to pet vibrator scene are ICONIC MY DUDES I CAN NOTTT, lowkey living for Yuri’s drooling at this point, Jimi gives me such bad second hand embarrassment, Yuri the switch verse bb I’ve been looking for need more!, internalized homophobia, blackmail, MIDDLE FINGER IN THE AIR YAS KING, the heartbreak of ongoing/hasn’t been updated in years

Yarichin bitch bu dj wa

Tags: not completed I think, years old though, see above you know what it is, so cute omg, FIRST KISS AW, degradation kink?, MY VERSE COUPLE I’ve finally found you, biting, choking, rough sex, sex toys, they had fun together for another two hours DECEASED

Fucked by my Best Friend

Tags: ongoing, friends to lovers, body swap, Porn what plot, cannon threesomes in past maybe??(MFF for sure but MMF??), beach life, revenge, he became a HOT woman so honestly get over it, sloppy seconds, first off you’re both sluts second lmao this is going to be wild hm?, fellas is it gay if you kiss the homies, classic did you cum guy jfc, that’s how you get preg dumbass, ah the joys of being a woman /s assault in der clrub, *DEEP SIGH* @ you almost being raped turns me on, YES TURNING BACK DYING, gender has nothing to do with this LOL but true. Also yes cannon threesomes/orgies, googles frotting, mans like narrating playtime, intecurial sex public sex, lingerie, this is the closest thing to straight manga I’ve read hahaha, THE SCIENCE OMG FUCKING RIDIC :you need a mass amount of semen within you SURE JAN, possessive. Objectification, she trying to fuck without Shion LMAO, 34+35, do you think he’s on r/nofap, dry orgasm honestly impressed with mans rn ngl, spit as lube, anal fingering, just helping the homies find their prostate, bottom shaming (disappointed but not surprised), bis/gays in denial smh, question if he has a wet dream will he turn into a woman?, shirt thing, lol at female orgasm =anal in switcharoos mind, paging doc perv, shion is enjoying dressing up hm? Same dude, biggest reality gap is believing shion got admitted to a college HAHA, bad anatomy all over the place dude, rui is a dedicated exhibitionist, HE SO TIGHT BECAUSE THERES NO LUBE team no lube over here apparently not even a courtesy spit, yandere territory sort of?, Mayu with the dick wet comment is *chefs kiss*, THE HEARTBREAK OF ONGOING WAHHH I can’t believe I read all this but I can? 8/10 problematic possessive porn

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The Princess and The Pogue (Pt. 8)

Pairing: JJ x Female!Reader / Topper x Female!Reader 

Word Count: 4.1k

Warnings: smut, swearing, underage drinking, drugs 

Part Summary: Y/N must attend the dinner her parents planned. After, she and Topper attend Kelce’s party. 

A/N: not proof read bc school is life rn but I wanna keep updating. ALSO DANG TOPPER IS SPICY IN THIS!!!!

Masterlist

Your dad hands the keys over to the valet as the other Club worker opens your car door and offers you his hand. You accept, slipping out of the SUV gracefully. Rhett meets you, offering you his arm for which you take and follow him inside. 

"I can't breathe," you inhale shapely. 

"Hot?" Your brother guesses as he buttons up his blazer. 

"No, this satin dress doesn't give at all and Mom made me get a size smaller because she thought it made me look thinner," you grumble, tugging at the unforgiving fabric. 

"She's probably just trying to punish you because of the whole diabolical with Crystal," he points out. 

"Oh, I know she is, she hates that some of her and Dad's friends saw it. They wouldn't shut up about it when I got home," you whisper between the two of you as you cross the threshold into the Club. 

You stop in the lobby with your parents a few feet ahead at the hostess podium with Sarah's parents and Topper's mom. You spot Rafe at the bar with a scotch in hand, Sarah nowhere to be seen. If she managed to get out of this dinner you'll be royally pissed, mainly jealous. 

"Where were you last night anyway?" Rhett’s brows scrunch together. 

"After Topper dropped me off I went over to Sarah's," you lie without a hint of hesitation. 

"What?" He frowns in confusion. "But after lunch Rafe, Kelce, and I went back to his house? Rafe said Sarah was with that John B kid.” 

"Yeah, I picked Sarah up before you guys got there and we hung out for a little bit. After, I dropped her off at John B's," you conjure up as you go. 

"So then where did you sleep?" Rhett inquires, pressing further. 

"On Mars, Rhett!” You snap, much to your brother’s surprise. “Jesus, Mary, and the damn camel," you curse under your breath. 

"Why do you swear all of a sudden? It's not polite, especially in this setting," he hisses between his teeth, checking around for any prying eyes. 

"Because maybe I've lost my marbles or PMSing, you pick," you bite back quietly. 

"Whatever, I'm going to go grab a drink," he huffs, holding his hands up in surrender. "You should do the same," he suggests before disappearing toward the bar and lounge. 

You linger in your spot, observing your fellow Kooks go about their business in their fancy dinner attire. You honestly wonder if some of them ever leave the Club or if they keep closets in the locker rooms. 

“One gin and tonic,” Topper announces as he appears beside you with two glasses. 

“God, I love you," you mumble, taking the drink from him and immediately taking a sip. 

He rubs his hand up and down your bare arm. “You seem tense." 

“I’m practically in a corset!" You roll your eyes. 

“You look amazing,” he compliments with a charming smile. 

“Thanks...” You sigh, unsure of where you two stand. 

After this afternoon, after... well... everything said, you don't know the dynamic between you and Topper. Despite the uncertainty, you still depend on him to get you through this dinner. You feel as though your only friends at the table are Topper and Sarah, and even those two don't like each other. 

“Geez Topper...” You huff in disapproval. 

“Sorry! But you gotta admit it’s not exactly the Four Seasons...” He chuckles. 

“Hey Y/N!” Sarah greets, appearing from the bathroom. “Where did you get here?”

“Minutes ago and I’m already over it,” you grumble.

“If you need a ride to John B’s, he’s picking me up after,” she offers.

You exhale deeply, glancing between her and Topper, unsure of what to say. Yes, you have plans with JJ, but you also aren’t confident in speaking about it in front of Topper.

“Yeah, I’ll think about it. I might want to run home first or something,” you satisfy her and remain vague.

“Topper! Y/N! Sarah!” Your dad waves you guys over as the hostess prepares to seat you all. 

“I’ll see you guys out there, I’m going to grab a drink!” Sarah announces before dismissing herself. 

You and Topper begin toward the doors leading out to the patio, a few yards behind your families. 

“Kelce is after a party later, would you maybe wanna come with me?” Topper offers with a smirk.

“I’m supposed to..." You catch yourself before you mention JJ. "Maybe for a little bit.”

“You’re supposed to meet him?” Topper predicts correctly, making you awkwardly take a sip of your drink and avoid his gaze. “Maybe if you drink enough you’ll start seeing two and The Cut wouldn’t look like utter shit," Topper insults passive-aggressively.  

“I’ll come and have a drink, but that’s all!" You agree to go with Topper to the Kelce's reluctantly. "I don’t want anything that Rafe has up his sleeve.” 

“Noted," Topper gives you a reassuring smile.

"Wait," you halt, giving Topper's arm a slight squeeze. You feel the overwhelming need to speak with Topper for a second before you all gather around a table like one big interconnected family. "Do you know?”

“About what?” The boy frowns in confusion. You glance over at your family anxiously, watching everyone disappear onto the patio outside. Topper takes your hand in his and turns to you. “Y/N, what is it?” 

“That our parents practically have the wedding favors picked out," you rush out nervously, unable to fully believe that this is your reality. 

Topper exhales deeply, his eyes falling to the floor. He does know. “My mom has made some interesting passive comments lately," he nods. "I suspected but I wasn’t positive.” 

“My mom spoke to me before we got here," you describe, checking around the room for any eavesdroppers. "She wanted me to gloat, hang on you, and basically show the Camerons that we’re... I don’t even know...” You shake your head frantically. 

“Together,” Topper finishes your sentence. 

“It sounds so ancient but ‘promised to each other,’" you explain in greater detail. "It’s insane! I mean, we’re only in high school!” 

"You don’t have to do anything!” He comes up with a game plan to get you both through the evening. “Let’s just continue as we have been. They’ll be satisfied and we won’t be losing our willpower.” 

“Okay,” you swallow hard with a faint nod. 

“It’ll be okay," Topper reaches up and cups your cheek comfortingly, peering into your eyes. He leans forward, planting a gentle kiss on your forehead. 

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Well into the evening, Kelce's house is packed to the brim with teenage Kooks and some tourons that snuck their way in. Music blasts from the speakers in the ceiling and water from the pool are scattered across the tile living room. Everyone's in their bathing suits, traveling in and out of the water. Cups litter the floor and various conversations overwhelm the ears. On the balcony, you find yourself leaning against the railing watching people jump off the roof into the pool below as Topper does lines with Rafe on the coffee table just a few feet away. Your bare stomach exposed by your bikini presses against the cool glass railing, keeping you awake. 

"Come on, Princess!" Rafe waves you over, overtly intoxicated. "Got enough for you!" 

“I don’t want anything Rafe!” You remind him. 

“You will," he chuckles, not believing you for a second. "Once you start drinking you always do. You could just skip the innocent act and let yourself go.” 

Topper rises from his seated position and walks over to join you. He wraps his arm around your waist, pulling you into his side as he leans against the rail. He sniffs a few times, making sure all of the coke remains inside. 

“One more drink and we’re leaving,” you tell Topper quietly between the two of you. 

"I know," he nods, planting a kiss on your temple. “We’ll go.” 

You turn toward, peering down at the people as they mess around in the pool. Topper stands behind you, his arms gripping the railing on either side of you. His chest presses to your back as he leans down and plants a kiss to your neck. You tilt your head to the side, granting him better access, causing him to smile against your skin. You’re not sure why you get this way with him when you drink. You’ve thought it over a million times over the years. Is it because it’s what you soberly want but are too afraid to admit? Or, is it because it’s a way to let go? Either way, you and Topper become insufferable whenever you two get too deep, which why you refuse to do anything. If you get any deeper... well... Bermuda is a prime example. 

1 hour later.... 

The drinks slip by you and you quickly lose track of the number. Tequila shots, margarita mix, gin, and coke, everything's mixed. The music has become louder, the colored lights have become brighter, your senses are doing their best to remain active, but your mind is fading. You love this feeling, not having a care in the world. The weight that your parents have placed on your shoulders has long disappeared. Half an hour ago, you and Topper were sharing a joint with Kelce on the roof and now you two are caught in a beer pong tournament.You're slowly starting to lose interest in the game, eager to jump off the roof into the pool as you've seen daredevils do all night. 

"Come on, Top! Please!" You tug on the boy's arm, pleading with him again to jump off the roof with you. 

He does his best to focus on the game at hand, the ball in his hand to take a shot. He squeezes your hand and brings it to his lips for a quick peck. "One second, Baby." 

Drunkenly, you rest your forehead against his bicep, waiting for him to take his shot. Topper tosses the ball, making it into the final cup and the rules call for no redemption. 

“We win!” Topper cheers, causing you to lift your head. Again! The champions!” 

“Woohoo!” You giggle, raising your cup in the air.

Topper wraps his arms around your waist and picking you up. You wrap your legs around his waist as he spins you. He tilts his head back, exposing his sharp jawline as he peers up at you. Staring into his eyes, you two are so immersed in each other that you get carried away and your lips meet. Neither of you is in the right mind to comprehend it, but this is a pattern. You two get intoxicated on a mixture of alcohol and drugs and your natural touchy friendship gets an intensity boost. 

Kelce whistles at the sight of you, urging you guys on. “They act like they’re not together, then they do that!” He not so well whispers to Rafe. 

"Same shit, different night," Rafe grumbles, clearly jealous. He silently wishes he was Topper. He would give anything to have a chance with you. “I wonder how Rhett would feel learning his sister is a slut for his best friend.” 

Kelce shoves him on the shoulder. “Don’t be an ass. Besides, Rhett knows Topper has a thing for her.” 

“But does Y/N have a thing for him or is it just sex?” Rhett challenges, watching you two and hating it. 

Topper lets you down as your lips part. His hands slip down your waist to rest on your ass, giving it a slight squeeze. You bite down on your lower lip, your attention on Topper's smirk.  

“Hey Top!" Rafe pulls Topper's attention and tosses him a metal canister. "For you my friend!" 

Topper pops open the old Altoids container to reveal a pile of color tabs. "Aw no," Topper laughs, tossing his head back. 

“Woah woah woah!" You place your hand over Topper's before has the chance to even think about taking anything. You glare at Rafe, "what is that?” 

“Candy,” Rafe snickers sarcastically. He rises from his seat position and stands before you, taking the tin from Topper. “Here take one," the boy offers with raised brows.  

You push the container back to Rafe. “No, I said I didn’t want to do anything tonight!” 

Beside you, Topper reaches into the container, selects a square piece carefully with the provided tweezers, and places the rainbow paper on his tongue. 

“Try it, Princess,” Rafe pressures with a smirk. 

You glance between Rafe and Topper. The blonde gives you a wink. "You'll feel good," he assures you, rubbing his hand up and down your spine slowly. 

You think it over for a second to the best of your ability. You said you wouldn't do anything hard tonight, but you also don't want to sober up anytime soon. You feel too good. You wish you felt this way all the time. You love yourself when you're carefree. On a whim, you give in and pick up the tweezers to select a piece. You place the bit on your tongue, earning a mischievous smirk from Rafe and words from approval from Topper. You don't know much about what Rafe does, but you know from watching that it takes a while for stuff like this to kick in, so you wait. 

Thirty minutes later... 

After taking swim minutes ago, you and Topper seek some privacy away from the party antics to dry off. You two travel up to the third floor of the house in the dark, this part of the house practically untouched by the people below. You shuffle along the floor in the hall in search of the balcony. You nearly trip of the runner, but Topper catches you by the waist. 

“Oh shit!” You gasp. Abruptly, Topper squats down and tucks his arm under your legs. You fly up and he begins to carry you bridal style. “Topper!” You giggle. 

“Like a proper princess, let me carry you up the tower!” He jokes. 

“You’re ridiculous!” You laugh as Topper navigates his way through Kelce's room toward the screen door leading outside. 

You tilt your head back, letting your hair flow as Topper carries you out onto the balcony. The night breeze and salty scent of the ocean fill your senses. Whatever Rafe gave you is immaculate. You've never felt so connected to the world before. Suddenly, Topper releases you, letting you fall onto one of those massive round loungers with a squeal. You lay back onto the lounger, pondering the sensation of the soft fabric beneath you. 

“You’re exquisite,” Topper admires, towering over you with a gawking look on his face. 

You prop yourself up on your elbows with a smirk. "You too." 

Topper plops down beside you, sliding to be close to your side. His fingertips glide up and down your arm. “How are you feeling?” 

Your eyes fall shut with a grin. “Like I’m on a cloud," you describe in a whisper as you ponder the sensation of his warm fingers on your cool skin. “You feel on fire. So warm...” 

“Do you like it?” He asks in a whisper and you can feel the warm breath wave over your cheek. 

You hum, focusing on every detail of his touch. You exhale deeply as Topper brushes his lips across your collar bone and planting a kiss on your skin. 

“Do you regret us?” He whispers. You don't see it, but Topper watches you intently with a softly broken expression. He hopes you don't. God, does he want to beg you to be his, only his. 

You shake your head, breathless. "No." 

Glad to say the least, Topper moves his attention to your neck, kissing and sucking hard on the sensitive skin. His hand roams your waist down to your inner thigh, making you inhale sharply. Your back arches off the lounger and toward his hand between your legs. You crave to feel more of him. 

“Are you sure?” He checks quietly in your ear. 

“Yes,” you exhale, too overwhelmed by the pleasure growing inside you to focus on his questions. 

As you kisses Topper, you chase the sensation he’s giving you. You're addicted to the way he makes you feel. Topper's lips travel down from your jawline to your chest. The memories of winter break, Bermuda, every intense moment you and Topper have ever shared are your driving force right now. As Topper leaves a trail of affection down your collarbone to your chest, he begins to untie your bikini. Then, your thoughts fixate on JJ. His face flickers across your mind. Physically, you want Topper, but all you can think about is JJ. You wonder where he is, what he's doing, if he's thinking about you. 

You're so far into your own thoughts that your body goes through the motions subconsciously. You're partially distracted by your thoughts of JJ, but the drugs and alcohol also cloud your mind. You're not entirely sure how things escalated, but deep down you're not shocked. It's you and Topper, you've never been fully satisfied when it comes to one another. You can't help but to feel everything, pondering the glorious and overwhelming pleasure as Topper thrusts into you. 

You bite down on her lip, restricting yourself from accidentally whispering JJ’s name. “Topper,” you pant, focusing. 

“Say it again, Beautiful,” Topper pants, planting a kiss to your chest as he picks up his pace. 

“Please Topper,” you whisper breathlessly. 

“God, you’re so perfect,” he grunts, finding himself getting closer with each syllable leaving your lips. 

Topper is your greatest addiction. He’s everything you're supposed to want. He’s utterly devoted to you and secretly you crave his attention. You roll your hips, making him go deeper inside of you, much to his surprise. 

“Fuck Y/N,” he moans in your ear. 

“Holy shit,” you mutter uncontrollably. 

“You always feel so good," Topper swallows hard. "I’ve missed this. I’ve missed you.” 

Your nails graze down his back, knowing how much he loves that. “Keep going, I’m so close,” you plead, needing him closer though you know that's impossible. 

“That’s it, Beautiful," Topper guides. "Cum for me,” he demands more than requests. 

“Yes, Topper!" You moan, chasing the high. "Yes!” 

“You’re gonna make me cum,” Topper whispers against the skin of your neck and planting a kiss on your jawline. 

He lifts his head, meeting your gaze. The moment is intimate and draws you two together. You nod, staring into his eyes. “Cum for me." 

You feel Topper finish inside you, a sensation you've experienced almost a dozen times, but it's never enough. Knowing that you can make Topper feel so free and satisfied sometimes keeps you awake at night. Topper  settles down on the lounger next to you, panting. 

You glance at one another, meeting each other's gaze as you catch your breath. You two laugh, in disbelief of what just occurred. 

“Wow!” Topper chuckles. 

You raise your brows, in awe. “I know." 

“And I thought we wouldn’t outdo Bermuda,” he recalls. 

“I swear Bermuda was the Twilight Zone or something," you giggle. "I only remember flashes of it.”

Topper's eyes grow wide and he places his hand over yours. “Do you remember when we found Rafe with that Brazilian chick!” 

“Oh my God!" You gasp, turning onto your side to face him. "They were on that nasty leather couch that Kelce spilled the grenadine all over!” 

“We were off our asses most of the time,” Topper remembers, pulling you into his side. His arm wraps around you like a protective blanket. 

“Facts, we didn’t see Rafe or Kelce for most of it," you add with a snicker. "I think my brother slept out by the pool every night." 

“I honestly don’t even remember Rhett after the plane landing," Topper confesses, his eyes flicker up to the stary sky. "Plane lands, a week goes by no recollection of Rhett, see Rhett on the plane.” 

“You’re kidding!” You gasp. 

“Dead serious! I swear we left him at the airport,” Topper elaborates with a wide grin. 

“He carried you home from the bar that third night!” You remind him. 

His eyes grow wide, utterly surprised. “I thought that was you!” 

“How could it have been me?!” You swiftly counter, laughing harder than you have in a while. 

“That’s why I was so confused!” He reasons. 

“You’re insane!” You struggle to say between fits of laughter. 

You two share in your laughter, not having had a moment like this in a while. You guys have had so much going on that the last time you truly felt at peace together and free to let go was Bermuda. Had you known that coming home would've meant the end of your two's peace of mind, you're not sure if you would've left. You rest your cheek against his chest, settling in comfortably. 

“I’ve missed this. I’ve missed us this way,” he confesses softly. 

“I forgot how good it could be,” you admit with a content smile. 

 Topper glides his fingertips up and down your spine. “Well, I guess that proves it then.” 

You lift your head, resting your chin on his chest to meet his gaze. “Proves what?” 

“It’s JJ,” Topper sighs, giving you a knowing look. 

Your brows scrunch together in confusion. Swiftly, you shuffle through your memories of minutes before, did you say JJ's name? You're almost certain you didn't. You did everything in your power not to. “What do you mean?” 

“I can tell," he shrugs, bringing a hand up to brush your hair away from your face. "It felt great but also different than before. I knew when I had you. I don’t anymore.” 

Your eyes fall to your hand resting on his chest, avoiding his gaze. He caresses your cheek lovingly, despite knowing the truth. “I’m sorry, Topper...” you mumble, full of guilt. 

“It’s okay," he tries to reassure you. "You can love two people at the same time, just in their own way.” 

"I just..." you sit up, frustrated and unable to fully put into words what you're struggling with. Topper sits up beside you, rubbing your back. "When I'm with JJ I'm this one person and when I'm with you I'm completely different! I'm not sure which one is the real me." 

"You don't have to have all answers, just take it day by day," he advises reasonably. "Right now, let's just forget everything else and be here. Nothing can bother us here." 

You exhale deeply and Topper guides you to lay back down. You two stare up at the sky in each other's arms, the faint sounds of the party below not invading either of your minds. The warm night's air breezes by, coating you in a shield of peace. 

“Do you think ten years from now we’ll still be doing this?” Topper wonders. 

“Kinda wanna be married by then,” you giggle. 

“I know, I’d be your side hoe,” he clarifies. 

You swat him on the arm. “Topper!” 

“What!” He laughs. 

“You can’t plan on cheating on your future wife!” You argue playfully. 

“But it’s you, you don’t count!" He reasons. "It’s the Y/N Hall Pass. My wife is wife, obviously my life partner, but you’re... well you’re you," he adds gently, unsure how to describe it. 

“Wow, that’s real flattering,” you joke. 

“You know what I mean!" He rolls his eyes but struggles to hide his amusement. "You know that movie you made me watch last month uh... My Best Friend’s Wedding!” He remembers. You hum, of course, you do, you love that movie. Topper continues, “well, you’re my Julia Roberts.” 

“You want me to try to break up your wedding?” You question, wondering where he's going with this. 

“No, no! Well... if you really think she’s not the one but that’s beside the point," he shakes his head. "I’m talking about what Cameron Diaz said in that elevator scene.” 

“He’s got you on a pedestal and me in his arms,” you quote, predicting his intention. 

Topper tucks his finger under your chin, making you lift your head to meet his gaze. His eyes pour into yours with such intensity, you know he means whatever he's going to say with the utmost certainty. “No one can compete with you, Y/N. Whoever I end up marrying, if I end marrying anyone, they’ll have to be okay that.” 

You lean forward, gently pressing a kiss to Topper's lips. You're not sure if it'll be your last one, but either way, it reminds you of a farewell or closing note. Topper deepens the kiss, bringing his hand to the back of your head, pulling you in. It carries more passion and longing than any other kiss you two have shared, and you've kissed a lot over the years. 

After a couple of minutes under the stars, you and Topper agree that it's time to return to the party before anyone comes searching for you. 

"Wasn't a bad last hoorah if you ask me," Topper concludes as he helps you tie up your top. 

You spin on your heels to face him, bringing your arms to rest on his shoulders. "We really went out with a bang, pun intended." 

"If he ever breaks your heart, I'm first in line," he winks, bringing his hands to your waist. 

You lift your hand to his cheek, caressing his cheekbone with your thumb. "I want you to be happy, even if that's not with me." 

He scoffs, holding back his emotions. "Why does it feel like we're breaking up?" He tries to laugh it off. 

"In a way, we are..." You admit, causing Topper to look at you with surprise. He hadn't expected you to agree, though deep down, he hoped you would. 

He slips his head to the side and presses a kiss to your palm before lowering your hand to rest within his. "I'm slowly coming to terms that it may not be you, though I always imagined it was. I sorta feel like I'm starting from scratch. Whenever I envisioned my future, it was with you. Now, the face is blank. I have no idea what's going to happen," he confesses with a breathless laugh, a hint of worry behind the sound. 

"How exciting!" You encourage. 

"Always the optimist," Topper chuckles, before draping an arm across your shoulders and guiding you toward the doors. "Us ending up together would've been too easy anyway. I hate being predictable," he frowns in disgust. 

"Agreed, far too simple," you nod. 

Topper pauses before the door leading out to the hallway. Once you two leave the safety of the third floor, this time you've had alone will be over. Things will never be the same once you close this chapter. Topper peers down at you, longing to tell you. “You know I’ll always be there for you, right?” 

You nod slowly, certain of his words. “Me too, Topper.” 

He leans down, planting a long kiss on your forehead and you can feel the struggle behind the action. Everything about this is bittersweet. “I love you." 

“I love you too," you whisper. 

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Origin Story - Part 3

ER Nurse Rafe x ER Nurse Reader

Part 1 Part 2 

Warnings: Unprofessional work environment stuff. Alcohol consumption. Cursing. Unedited, will go through and edit later.

Not my photo. All credit to owner/creator. <3

The next couple weeks you focused on being a new nurse in the Emergency Department. Your life was filled with shifts with a preceptor and tons of classes and trainings. 

You were thankful for being so busy because otherwise you would be constantly ruminating on the night at Crazy 8′s and what you said to Rafe. You can’t believe how drunk you got in front of your brand new coworkers and how shamelessly you flirted with Rafe. And the worst part was: you didn’t know how he took it. Really the last time you said more than a couple words to each other was when he started your IV that next morning. It seemed like everything was okay, but you flushed every time you saw him on the floor. And then you’d curse at yourself for having such a crush on a guy. 

-

You were by yourself in the med room, finishing up at the Pyxis, pulling meds for your patient when Rafe walked in. 

“Hey Y/L/N, I feel like every time I see you, you’re running around. How’re you doing?” Rafe asked, taking your spot at the Pyxis. 

“Doing good!” You told him, almost too enthusiastically. “How are you?” 

Rafe let out a little chuckle at your new formality with him. “I’m good.” 

You hesitated for a second looking at Rafe’s back while he faced the Pyxis, wondering if you should bring up what you were thinking. 

“Listen, Rafe.” He turned around once he heard the serious tone in your voice, causing you to look down for a second before meeting his gaze again. “I want everyone here to see me as competent and I want to maintain everyone’s respect, including your’s. ...so that night at the bar, when you took me home I don’t remember exactly what I said, but I’m just really embarrassed that I-” 

“Y/N, you don’t have to say anything. Everyone here has had a night at Crazy 8′s and you didn’t say anything that night that you should worry about, okay? I already know you’re a badass nurse who’s more competent then some of our seasoned RNs. You have all of our respect, including mine.” 

You smiled at him and nodded. 

You started to turn away, but then stopped yourself, “But didn’t I kinda throw myself at you when you brought me to my apartment?” You asked, putting your hand to your forehead and scrunching your eyes shut, only peeking at him when you heard him chuckle breathlessly. 

“Uhh, yeah, you might have tried to flirt a little. But like I said, you didn’t say anything I didn’t want to hear.” He looked you in the eyes, trying to gauge your reaction.

Your lips parted and you opened your mouth to speak, when your preceptor for the day popped her head in. “Y/N, come on, bed 12 is going for CT.” 

-

The following weekend was Edgar’s birthday which brought everyone back to Crazy 8′s that Friday night. You were determined to go and only maintain a slight buzz and classy behavior the entire night to make up for the last time you were at the ED crew’s favorite bar. 

The night started out with everyone buying Edgar shots and of course, Edgar dancing the night away. At one point, Edgar and you were out on the dance floor with everyone else. The birthday boy had a cocktail in hand he was sipping from. You didn’t notice, but as the two of you danced, Edgar saw his best friend behind you. Edgar mischievous grin grew on his face before forcefully twirled you away from him and into Rafe’s chest. 

“Woah, watch where you’re twirling Rookie. If you wanted to dance, you could have just asked, you didn’t have to tackle me.” He teased.

You rolled your eyes, “You flatter yourself too much Cameron. You can thank your bestie over there for launching me into you.” As you let Rafe grab your hand and twirl you around. 

“Oh, don’t worry I will.” He smirked, and nodded at Edgar who made an obscene gesture that the 2 of you just laughed at. 

The two of you continued to dance for a few songs and it was innocent enough, until a sensual song came on. Your hands had a mind of their own as they moved to rest on Rafe’s shoulders and his settled on your waist. 

As the song continued and the alcohol coursed through your veins, you felt your inhibitions fading as your fingers laced together behind his neck and he pulled you closer as his hands gripped lower on your waist and the small of your back, dangerously close to your ass. Your smiles both faded as you looked into his eyes and your lips parted. 

The song was coming to an end. “I think I need some air” You whispered, still looking in Rafe’s eyes. He looked toward the balcony patio and turned, firmly holding your hand, pulling you behind him and maneuvering his way through the crowd for you. 

The cold air hit you and instantly sobered you a little, which honestly, only made you more sure of your attraction to your new coworker. It also didn’t help that outside was completely empty. It was just the 2 of you. 

Rafe pulled you close to the railing where there was a beautiful view of the city lights. “Better?” He asked as he leaned on the railing. 

You followed suit but shivered at the cold metal hitting your skin coupled with the chill of the outside air. “Yeah. Just a little cold. But good.”

“Here” Rafe said, as he slipped his flannel off. 

“Oh no. It’s okay, I’m fine-” 

“Just put it on Y/N.” Rafe smirked at you. You smiled and slipped it on, not missing the sweet smell of his cologne wrapped around you.

You both leaned on your elbows against the railing and looked out at the view in a moment of silence. 

“So beautiful” you muttered in a blissful tone. 

“Yeah” Rafe agreed quietly, but you turned to see he was looking at you and not the view. Your eyes widened ever so slightly and your mouth dropped open a little. Before you could stop yourself your lips were on his. 

You felt like you had been struck by lightning and you couldn’t stop from moaning softly against Rafe causing him to let out a gentle grunt before you both opened your mouths and deepend the kiss.

The kiss was only getting more passionate when you had a moment of clarity. You pushed at Rafe’s chest and pulled away. “Shit!” You cursed closing your eyes, hitting your palm to your forehead and turning away from Rafe.

“Y/N-“ Rafe tried to stop your impending freak out he already knew was coming.

“I’m such an idiot!” You exclaimed. “I can’t believe I’m making out with my coworker I’ve known for what? Like 3 weeks?!”

“Hey! Relax. It’s fine.” Rafe tried again.

“Of course you think it’s fine! Every girl at work probably throws themselves at you! And now you think I’m just another-“

“Y/N!” Rafe grabbed your shoulders, “Chill! I’ve never made a move on a coworker before, so don’t worry about that. And I don’t see you like that. You’re not just some girl.”

“Rafe we barely know each other!” You reminded him,  “Can we just forget this happened please?!” You asked exasperated and still freaking out. You didn’t miss the disappointment flood Rafe’s face, but you were too freaked out and buzzed to do anything about it.

“Yeah, of course.” he agreed easily. 

You shuffled your feet back and forth and took a deep breath.

“Are we good? Is it gonna be all awkward now?” You asked, still stressing.

Rafe laughed, “Why ‘cause you’re a bad kisser?” He teased and answered your question for you.

Your mouth dropped open in offense, “Shut up! Take it back!”

“Make me!” Rafe furrowed his brow at you. And you punched him in the shoulder.

“Ow! I’m just kidding. Lighten up, Rookie. Yeah, we’re fine. ...Are you good?” He asked, giving your hand a squeeze.

“Good.” You smiled, squeezing back. “Kay, I’m gonna go back in first, okay?” 

And you started to turn, “Wait, Y/N.”

You groaned, “Cameron! Don’t make this harder! We can’t-” 

“I was just gonna say, I kinda need my shirt back, if we’re gonna play this off.” He said. 

You almost died from embarrassment. “Oh yeah! Right, right right! I’m so dumb. I’m sorry- I “ 

“Y/N!” Rafe stopped you from going off on a tangent while laughing at your ability to easily fall back into a freak out. 

“Yeah” You agreed and shrugged off his flannel, handing it back to him.

Of course, you panicked when you got home and tossed and turned worrying about what happened between you and Rafe.

Then, you got a text message from an unknown number

Unknown #: Stop worrying about it.

You knew it was Rafe, but you didn’t have his number saved. 

You: How do you have my phone number, stalker?

Rafe: We have unit directory, Rookie.

You: Likely story. How’d you know I was worrying?

Rafe: Lucky guess ;) We can forget it happened 

Rafe: ...if you want to.

You stomach dropped and you took a second before you dialed Rafe’s number. 

“Hey” He greeted. 

“What if I don’t want to forget it happened?” You asked. 

[hardestgrove]

What if Goth Girl has been into occult stuff for a while but after the gate opens in season 1 it sort of. Starts working for her?? Either bc the upside down influenced the town/her for being so near and unlocked that OR bc the component she was missing was like, really believing magic is for real? That way she both knows more about the theory/good practices to experiment with than El but can benefit from El being better at the practical/more raw power stuff. God I love OCs and stranger things has so much room for them

Mine usually have older family members that are also magic/superpowered somehow bc I like mentor characters and it's relatively easy to get them away from their kids when things get dangerous in the 80's. And I want Joyce to have at least One Adult that doesnt dismiss her worries.

Last time I got into stranger things around season 3 (have yet to watch season 4 bc it'll plunge me right back into it and im busy having ofmd brainrot rn) I THINK the general vibe was giving Dustin an older sister that was into the occult/developed weak powers before s1, and then have her befriend a family that was made up of adopted werewolf son (bc. I had also had a teen wolf resurgence around then) and witch mother mentor figure. I dont remember if I had settled on anyone else on the household lol I wanted Werewolf and OC Henderson to be in a bi+ace relationship and then both of them to befriend billy (bc. Im demi and bi and so every character I like is at least one of these. Also he looks vastly less like an unnecesary threat to be friends with when both of them are the same age and can scruff him like a kitten) + maybe some poly later with him once he was in a better place mentally. I also could not decide if they were separate characters or one character that had parts of both, it seemed like too much to introduce multiple ocs but also too many narrative purposes and power to fit in one 16 year old kid so 🤷‍♂️

The mind flayer I think of as like... part of the organism that makes up this fungus. So are the other monsters, and while they've got the whole hivemind thing going even the demodogs can develop personal thoughts (Dustin's demodog did learn it liked snacks and hesitated to kill him without the other demodogs learning this too right??). The mf just has more self awareness than the rest and can command the others, probably it could be that the upside down needs to infect beings from the target world to open tears until "the barrier" between planes is weakened enough to consume it? So the mf's job is to learn how to do that possession effectively and gets more brainpower to do it? Ive forgotten so much i dont know how much sense this makes with canon lmao

OH MY GOOOOD ONCE AGAIN I AM REDUCED TO--

Geniunely starting to think our minds are connected i just took a shower and had ideas about goth girl that line up TERRORIFINGLY WELL WITH THIS SHIT.

Also goth girl now has a name!!! I misheard the lyrics to Emma by Sisters of Mercy earlier today as “Emily” and not “Emmaline”, I’d already settled on a last name for the family and the name “Emily King” has been in my head for HOURS now and it’s just like. Yes. Good. This. so that’s her name now fdgfgds

What if Goth Girl has been into occult stuff for a while but after the gate opens in season 1 it sort of. Starts working for her?? Either bc the upside down influenced the town/her for being so near and unlocked that OR bc the component she was missing was like, really believing magic is for real? That way she both knows more about the theory/good practices to experiment with than El but can benefit from El being better at the practical/more raw power stuff. God I love OCs and stranger things has so much room for them

I’m GENUINELY UNHINGED ABOUT THIS bc while in the shower i decided to move back when she and her family move to Hawkins to when she’s 12 instead of 8. I did the math upon reading this ask-- she’s born the same year as Billy (1967) and in 1979 when the Hawkins Lab massacre goes down she’d be 12. So it works stupidly well. She’s always been interested in spooky stuff but gets more into it as she gets older and she also starts try practicing magic (still can’t decide how magicy the magic should be rip. doing full blown fantasy in st feels weird to me but i’m also planning to add in lovecraft and that feels right and isn’t that just fantasy?? 💀) and she starts to think she’s maybe sensitive.

I was genuinely thinking of a scene just now of her in the byers house in s1 before Joyce goes full on christmas lights and she’s getting Vibes and Feelings and she’s basically the first person to believe Joyce because her skin is literally crawling.

I love this idea that she has ALWAYS been psychic/had the capacity for powers but it took the Weird Vibes of Hawkins and some more active consideration than just researching for fun for her to realize she can do shit. Like it was just an interesting idea until she met Eleven and then suddenly it was real and now she’s much more serious about learning about this shit and experimenting herself which leads to her learning to do a range of things and working with El on her powers in a infinitely less traumatizing way lol.

stranger things really DOES have so much room for ocs i love it alot. i also love how i feel like i don’t have to make people superpowered if i don’t want to just so they’ll like fit in/be relevant. like it’s nice to have 1 person who is so we’re not relying on the 12yo constantly but even the normies have valid roles to play in the plot which isn’t always the case lol.

Mine usually have older family members that are also magic/superpowered somehow bc I like mentor characters and it's relatively easy to get them away from their kids when things get dangerous in the 80's. And I want Joyce to have at least One Adult that doesnt dismiss her worries. 

this is SUCH a good point. Joyce really does need another adult around who believe her and isn’t a mess writing wise like hopper can be (s3 hopper my beloathed). i’m gonna have to think about this bc it’s 100% not the king parents hmmmmmmmm

Last time I got into stranger things around season 3 (have yet to watch season 4 bc it'll plunge me right back into it and im busy having ofmd brainrot rn) I THINK the general vibe was giving Dustin an older sister that was into the occult/developed weak powers before s1, and then have her befriend a family that was made up of adopted werewolf son (bc. I had also had a teen wolf resurgence around then) and witch mother mentor figure. I dont remember if I had settled on anyone else on the household lol I wanted Werewolf and OC Henderson to be in a bi+ace relationship and then both of them to befriend billy (bc. Im demi and bi and so every character I like is at least one of these. Also he looks vastly less like an unnecesary threat to be friends with when both of them are the same age and can scruff him like a kitten) + maybe some poly later with him once he was in a better place mentally. I also could not decide if they were separate characters or one character that had parts of both, it seemed like too much to introduce multiple ocs but also too many narrative purposes and power to fit in one 16 year old kid so 🤷‍♂️

nooooo the teen wolf resurgence 🤣 i know that feeling very well i fell out in s3 but if i’m currently in the mode of fandoms adjacent to it i’m like hmmm what if... we love a Henderson oc in this house. A CLASSIC. i also feel about the bi+ace thing, it’s how Emily ended up with such big nb vibes bc it seems i cannot stop myself, also she’s likely bi. and poly. like I’m just attacking myself at this point fdgsfgsd I’ve been keeping the shipping fairly loose in my head while i work on this just so i don’t lock myself into something mentally that later doesn’t work but I’ve been putting Emily with Billy. partially because despite how much they both Suck they’re weirdly positive influences on each other and partially because Emily has a big “I don’t think I can fix him. I think I can take him in a fight.” energy about Billy sdklfgjhsfdkls

I feel you about not being able to decide between one or multiple ocs. one is easier to wrangle when you’re plotting things but multiple feels more realistic and like this singular oc isn’t over powered and over important. so far I’m happy with the king kids because they’re all different and defined and can do different things for the narrative but are also all in the same group so it’s easy to consolidate them down to 1 unit when moving them around the plot.

The mind flayer I think of as like... part of the organism that makes up this fungus. So are the other monsters, and while they've got the whole hivemind thing going even the demodogs can develop personal thoughts (Dustin's demodog did learn it liked snacks and hesitated to kill him without the other demodogs learning this too right??). The mf just has more self awareness than the rest and can command the others, probably it could be that the upside down needs to infect beings from the target world to open tears until "the barrier" between planes is weakened enough to consume it? So the mf's job is to learn how to do that possession effectively and gets more brainpower to do it? Ive forgotten so much i dont know how much sense this makes with canon lmao

the Mind Flayer is certainly connected into the hivemind somehow and is pretty clearly at the top of the foodchain. It’s just hard to say exactly what it is currently since for one thing we’ve yet to really see if it has a physical form. even the wiki is saying this bitch is just an evil sentient tornado. which would make being a literal part of the fungus system difficult but i also hold to the Mind Flayer being something like what you’d see out of a lovecraft story. like Yog Sothoth and Cthulhu both have tangible form and do not, they are here and they are not etc etc. so it also COULD be physically linked in. there’s also space alien fungi in lovecraft dsfgdfs

I think there is a certain level of individuality in the hivemind bc I think you’re right about dart???? but i can’t remember completely lol I’m in the middle of a rewatch so we’ll find out!!!

I think requiring some kind of original breach makes sense given what we’ve seen. at least when wondering why it hadn’t tried this shit earlier (tho maybe it has! and other people elsewhere at another time were doing this shit too!)

I’m slowly forming some thoughts about the Upside Down, Mind Flayer and Vecna as I’m rewatching the past seasons. when vecna gets yeeted into the Negative Zone it well... looks like the Negative Zone. not Hawkins. now this could be because in that scene Vecna is in the metaphorical tunnel between worlds or it could be that it was a more primordial space. in Moorcock’s Elric of Melniboné series (one of the HUGE influences to D&D and where the alignment chart comes from) there’s the lords of chaos and order who use mortals as proxies and in one story I remember there’s an old knight who does a Quest and learns somethings and walks into the primordial chaos to make it ordered and structured like the rest of reality as we know it.

I personally don’t think Vecna is the big bad of st. I do think that’s the Mind Flayer. I think Dustin is right about Vecna being the Mind Flayer’s 5star General. I think the Mind Flayer fits perfectly into Vecna’s idea of a apex predator and he would help him. I would not be surprised if Vecna’s power and human mind helped to add form and order to the primordial chaos the Upside Down seems to be when he enters it. it also wouldn’t surprise me if this 1 for 1 mapping of Hawkins is to facilitate the conquest of this world because of blah blah war maps blah blah mirror images in narrative it’s is own post honestly

[evakuality]

Hanna, episode six

1.  This ramp thing.  It’s the MVP of this whole entire school/setting.  I mean I can see why they use it - it allows for some really cool shots and set ups and it genuinely works in so many ways to show so many nuances of the situations it’s in.  But basically I just love the continuity.  There’s something so comforting about this returning over and over and over again.  The sheer joy of ‘the ramp! It’s here again!’ 

2.  Matteo’s little ‘why are you dating Jonas?’ is so interesting too.  This speech carries a different tone, and I can’t tell if that’s because of the way it’s said.  He genuinely seems to be like ‘Hanna, think this through - do you really want this?’ and the answer should actually be ‘no I don’t’ even if his motives aren’t great, and maybe it’s because she’s different to Eva.  Or maybe this is because as always while it leans heavily on the original, the lines aren’t exactly the same and that lends some differences to it.  I don’t know.  Plus her question ‘there’s only 2 options: trust or break up?’ and his reaction ‘or maybe talk to Leonie’ - like yes.  Please.  Do that.  Communicate with people.  But I guess he knows it won’t go well because he likely knows exactly what Jonas is doing, and so he has very little to lose.  He’s not overtly being a dick here, and he looks supportive.  So if it goes well for her, hey he looks like the supportive good friend and if it doesn’t.  Well... that’s not his fault.  He was just trying to help.  At this point, from his PoV, not much can go wrong.

3.  The little scene at school with Jonas telling Hanna she’s annoying (by text! so distant and cold. Ugh, talk to each other properly please), and then Sam making her feel good and sexy and wanted.  You can see why she’d be taken by him.  We can see he’s a bit of a player, far too smooth and good at this, but of course she can’t.  With Matteo’s ‘break up with Jonas if you don’t trust him’ ringing in her ears, you can see why she feels the way she does.  Again, so much of this is modeled on the original, but the way it’s shot works so well here in terms of specifically showing us Hanna’s state of mind.  With Hanna literally feeling like she’s got this barrier between her and Jonas after he sends his last text, shown literally in the way the moment is shot.  Plus, Kiki’s little thing with Alex as a mirror/reflection of what’s happening with Hanna (they literally fistbump over it - Alex over having got his conquest and Sam over pursuing his).  She has all the warning she needs and yet she falls into it anyway.  This whole part of this season is so heartbreaking, and knowing where it’s leading is tough.  This week is a hard one for our little bean.

4.  I know everyone and their dog has talked about this cold war scene but that’s because it’s so damn good.  The imagery and the whole way this scene works is so powerful.  Plus, we’re veering even more into the darker shades for Hanna.  This thing with Jonas is weighing on her and literally sucking out her brightness.  She’d been so washed out at the start, and when she’s with her girls it’s all still brightness etc, but with Jonas this darkness is seeping in more and more and more.  I mean he is lying to her and that’s where almost all of this ‘cold war’ conflict is coming from, but her relentless pushing of the topic is a lot.  AND she never does it when they’re in a place where they can just talk about it, the two of them.  They’re around the boys or in class and by text.  She’s scared of knowing for sure and so she puts these barriers up to avoid having to do it properly.  But this is the entire problem.  I know we say communication is an issue across the board with these couples, but I’d argue (and have at length) that it’s not always true.  For some it’s different.  But here.  Here, this avoiding of doing it properly is the biggest issue.

5.  Okay, so Amira suddenly reappears here.  But???? Where has she been???? I missed her so much!!!  I love Sana, I really really do.  She’s a fabulous character and I adore the way she operates in Skam.  But I do love that Amira is her own character and so, while delivering a very similar message, is much warmer about it.  She tells Kiki she’s stupid for sending nudes, and that Alex really isn’t into her, but her tone isn’t as harsh or ‘straight to the point’ somehow.  But of course Amira is still tone policed by her friends, and told to say things more carefully.  And then she leaves, delivering another blow to Hanna’s confidence in Jonas.  ‘Boys lie’ - thus confirming everything she already thinks.

6.  I’ll hand it to Druck - I always love their party scenes; they feel real, like people genuinely having fun dancing and stuff (though in the most recent seasons that seems to have dropped off, probably because of restrictions having an effect on how they can film).  Leonie looks damn good in a suit too; this is a great look on her.  But wow her attitude to Hanna is so nasty.  It’s fascinating to me to see that Sara acts just as jealous and can’t let it go after Matteo breaks up with her.  They clearly have a model for how they deal with break ups and it’s not a good one.  Obviously Leonie is hurt, obviously it super sucks that it’s her best friend.  But this whole bit is so unnecessarily mean.  She wants Hanna to be hurt the way she was and she’s taking such a vicious pleasure in the way that it works.  Like, yes Hanna is to blame, but man some of this ire should be directed at the Jonas in the situation.

7.  I can see why she falls for Sam’s wiles here, and there’s been so much stuff in the last few episodes leading up to it but gosh it sucks that she falls for it.  He knows she has a boyfriend, he can clearly see she’s vulnerable and he takes advantage of that.  He is very cute, I can see why she likes him, but I don’t like this type of guy and he and Alex really annoy me (though somehow Alex doesn’t feel as slimy with it as William - at least so far).  And then Hanna watching as the scene of another cheating episode plays out in front of her.  No wonder she thinks the way she does: all she has are examples of guys being assholes.  But it does need to be mentioned that she stops this kiss almost as soon as it started.  I’m not sure this exactly counts as cheating.  But I guess what’s important is that Hanna feels like she’s in the same place she already was.  Plus now she knows how it feels from the other side.  This evening is such a stress for her.  The little story that Jule tells her about how Sam ‘would never do that’ is just the icing on the cake.  This is a moment where I always feel so awful for Eva/Hanna/all of them.  

8.  Jonas’s sad little confession comes just that little bit too late, and you can see the regret hanging over Hanna.  Like, she already felt it and now she can see through everything and it all sucks.  And of course the darkness has totally closed in rn.  But I do have to say I love Jonas’s ‘not that I know anyway’ about whether he’s gay.  The characters in this show are far less worried about sexuality and ‘being straight’ and it’s a nice thing.  Matteo was all ‘yeah I like gay songs, so what?’ and Jonas here.  I like it.  But ouch, how ‘you can trust me’ must hurt when they haven’t been trusting each other and it’s become so fraught.  Notice also that they don’t fall back on their kissing this time.  The one thing that’s been going well for them isn’t working anymore either.  At the point where things are ‘darkest’ for them in the cinematography etc, we also get the moment when they can’t connect in any of the ways they used to.  Jonas is talking and being open finally, but Hanna is now hiding things and nothing here is going well for her.

Anyway, this is a really difficult episode and yet it’s one of my favourites.  Like episode 2 I’m just a real sucker for the way it’s filmed.  Again, everything is lifted almost entirely from the original and yet again Druck puts its own little spin on it.  There’s a reason why the original and this one are the ones I like.  Both take a lot of care with how colour and symbols etc work and play out and while this is a straight copy in so many ways, I still love how they chose to interpret it.  Their characters are subtly their own, the filming has its own life and that makes it work for me.

[deantransgressions2]

13x02 the rising son

21 transgressions. enjoy.

#1: dean criticized sam for wanting to protect jack, and then devalued jack’s entire existence to an “it”.

sam: “look… losing mom and cas, that’s a lot to process, dean, especially on no sleep. and the kid...”

dean: “the “kid”? come on, man, you know how this plays out. kook, when we try to bend the rules, pretend that the bad guys aren’t so bad or that things will get fixed, that’s when people that we care about get hurt. and then we end up doing what we should’ve done in the first place, which is end the problem. so this time, let’s start with the obvious. soon as i find a way to take care of… it.”

time tag: 3:17

#2: after sam failed again to make dean see jack as a child, he tried to make dean see jack as an asset. dean refused to listen or consider any of sam’s insights, and admitted that he is giving up on family, which is something he claims he would never ever ever ever ever do. 

sam: “dean, “the problem” might be our only shot at saving mom.”

dean: “mom’s gone. there’s no fixing that.”

time tag: 3:44

#3: jack was happily watching scooby doo and bothering nobody, so of course dean walked over and scolded him, then turned the tv off. apparently watching tv is illegal now yall!! 

time tag: 9:03

#4: told jack to take the couch and threw a bible at him. luckily, sam isn’t a child murderer and made sure jack felt welcome. sam = good dad. but, dean winchester is already worse of a father than john was. you hate to see it. 

time tag: 9:11

#5: dean criticized jack for eating the exact same way he does. mocking a 3 day old child just for the sake of it, just to make himself feel better. he is pathetic. idk why jack and sam put up with him these next 3 seasons. 

dean: “you can slow down, you know. that’s stuff’s not gonna disappear.”

sam: “ever seen you eat, dean?”

time tag: 10:02

#6: yells at jack for copying his movements. he’s 3 days old...3 days old. 3. 

time tag: 11:35

#7: sam has been rooting for jack to not be evil. he is focusing on WHO jack is not what he is. dean, however, is counting on jack being evil so he can murder him. the confirmation bias is real here. any instance of jack showing humanity dean just tunes it out. this conversation should remind you of dean’s view of sam in s4/5

donatello: “yes, well, not so much anymore. but, uh…look at you. the waves of power… so intense.”

dean: “maybe less human than we thought.”

donatello: “fascinating. you know, i’ve met your father. your power’s nothing like his. not dark, not toxic.”

sam: “that so?”

dean: “not yet.”

time tag: whole time but 15:58

#8: he was a dick to the tattoo artist for no reason expect that he loves to take his anger out on others. 

time tag: 16:44

#9: when in doubt blame sam! when in doubt accuse sam! when in doubt manipulate sam! wooohooo!!!

sam: “so you heard donatello. no evil vibes from jack.”

dean: “proves nothing, except that you’re way too attached to this kid. you need to see this for what it is, okay?”

time tag: 16:54

#10: lessons from our sexist macho man icon:

jack: “it hurt.”

dean: “okay, see, sometimes, things hurt, so you just man up and deal with it.”

time tag: 17:21

#11: some more of dean refusing to listen to other’s correct observations of jack, because there is no changing his mind that jack is evil. he doesn’t need proof that jack is evil, because he doesn’t want it. he wants to murder jack regardless of who he is. dean only cares about WHAT jack is. sigh. 2x03 i miss you. 

time tag: 18:43

#12: dean claimed that since cas loved jack, jack is therefore responsible for his murder. even though it was literally lucifer that murdered cas, not jack. so, using dean’s logic: sam and john killed mary, sam killed jess, dean killed john, sam killed dean, sam and dean and bobby killed jo and ellen, dean killed sam, dean and sam killed cas multiple times, sam and dean killed kevin....etc etc. do you see how fucking stupid dean is being rn?

sam: “okay, look, yeah, jack is on lucifer’s family tree. but we don’t know if that dna is stronger than Kelly’s, or his connection with cas.”

dean: “oh, you mean the connection that got cas killed?”

sam: “i’m just saying, jack doesn’t have to be evil. we can teach him not to be.”

time tag: 18:53

#13: dean called jack ‘the devil’ which made jack so upset he ran away. this is a transgression obviously towards jack, but also towards sam. dean said that a 3 day old child (who literally hasn’t done anything wrong) is the devil. he said it in front of his brother who was tortured by the ACTUAL devil (and michael) for centuries. it’s insensitive and fucked up beyond belief for dean to use his brother’s abuser to try and manipulate him to conform to his beliefs on jack.

NOT TO MENTION that dean is the only member of team free will with absolutely no supernatural abilities at all. he does not understand jack. he does not understand lucifer. dean is the LAST person who should have a say in if jack is good or evil. 

time tag: 19:25

#14: this is a abuse apology. many victims of abuse are manipulated to apologize for them and sympathize with them. this is a prime example of that:

sam: “dean doesn’t hate you. it… look, sometimes the wires in dan’s head get crossed and...and he gets frustrated, and then he mixes frustration with anger, and...and fear.”

jack: “why would he be afraid?”

sam: “because dean feels like it’s his job to protect everyone.”

time tag: 20:45

#15: did the writers include this scene to emphasize that dean is john (but worse)....because that’s exactly what it did. 

bartender: “i hated my old man. I ran away myself. see, my mom would never stick up for me. but…you know kids. no matter what, they still want the old man’s approval. well, that’s how it was with me, just…”

dean: “you know, that’s, uh, that’s how it was with me, too.” 

i’m not sure what dean is referring to here because based on what the bartender is saying, sam would relate more to her story than dean but ok! sure! pity party time needs no logic

time tag: 22:17

#16: sam had to seperate jack and dean in order to protect jack. sam felt that jack was safer with a man that had no soul (donatello), over his own brother. and he was right!

time tag: 23:11

#17: dean made fun of sam and jack by calling jack sam’s “new pal” as a way to not only degrade jack, but also ridicule sam. 

time tag: 27:08

#18: dean is angry that sam isn’t blindly following along with his plans for jack’s death. and everything sam tried to say to get dean out of his child murdering mindset goes in one ear and out the other. 

sam: “point is…if you and i are gonna do this, keep jack on the right side of things, then...then we have to be on the same page.”

dean: “okay. well, that’s the problem, though, sam, ‘cause we’re not on the same page. like, at all.”

sam: “all right. you know what? i know what’s going on here.”

dean: “oh. okay. well, please, tell me, what’s going on here?”

sam: “you thinking mom is gone and cas is gone, and that jack can’t be saved. dean, after everything we’ve gone through… we just lost people we love, people who have been in our lives for a long time. everything’s upside-down. i get it. but we’ve been down before. i mean, rock bottom. and we find a way. We fix it because that’s what we do. and jack w-wants to do the right thing. jack’s scared to death of who he is, and he’s scared of you.” 

you know who else was scared of their father figure? dean. and sam. and now jack. dean stans can hate john all they want but the truth is dean is far worse. they both deserve a special place in hell together

time tag: 27:19

#19: the mental gymnastics it takes to come to this conclusion about jack. to ignore any and all proof that jack isn’t evil. it’s shocking how strongly dean holds onto hate and his need to kill. 

sam: “dean, wait a second. the kid came through for us today. jack saved us.” dean: “no. no, whatever that was, that was a reflex. it was a sneeze. maybe next time he sneezes, he kills us. goodnight.”

time tag: 39:32

#20: dean drove jack to self harm. dean then proceeded to angrily tell him off and call him names for doing so. 

dean: “okay. what the hell? give me that. you...don’t be an idiot. look, a, this is not gonna do anything to you, okay? and b, you… what the hell?”

time tag: 40:35

#21: this is psychological abuse. this is child abuse. this scene is as bad as the panic room of s4. disgusting. and some people actually ship this man with this child’s father (castiel). get help. 

dean: “you know, my brother thinks you can be saved.” jack: “you don’t believe that.” dean: “no, i don’t.”

jack: “so… if you’re right?”

dean: “if i’m right… and it comes to killing you… i’ll be the one to do it.”

time tag: 41:07

[justlightlysedated]

20 Questions

20 questions, writer's edition, I was tagged by @lambourngb 😊❤❤

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

71! 70 for roswell and one for vagrant queen

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

468, 583!!

3. How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

not entirely sure tbh, but let's count now:

timkon, bandom, glee, specifically pukurt, but some other ships too, merlin, doctor who, torchwood, teen wolf, agents of shield, runaways, the old guard, vagrant queen, and obviously, roswell new mexico

i think there might be more, but i don’t remember rn

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

the cost of greatness, which i cowrote with marlo

a cure i know that soothes the soul (does so impossibly), the first pwp i wrote for this fandom lol

the person that you’d take a bullet for is behind the trigger, which i wrote for marlo

for better or for worse (til death do us part), which i also cowrote with marlo lol

it might be your wound but they’re my sutures, which i also wrote for marlo

so the pattern im sensing here is that my most popular fics were written with/for marlo which sounds about right lol

5. What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

i am not sure tbh, i write some pretty angsty one shots and longer fics, but i TRY to at least give a slightly hopeful ending, tho now that i’m thinking about it, i think the angstiest thing i’ve written was that prompt fill based on the song, for island fires and family, i remember SOBBING the entire time that i wrote it (there is miluca in that one), but ALSO there is the fic i wrote in reaction to the season one finale, which also made me cry, which was called, we both know how this story ends

6. What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?

once again i’m not sure, like i said before, i try to give my fics hopeful endings if they’re really angsty, and i love me some hurt/comfort, but i’m not entirely known for writing happy, fluffy fics, tho i do TRY sometimes for certain people

7. Do you write crossovers? If so, what is the craziest one you've written?

yes!! i do love me some crossovers, and i guess i would have to say the malex, sort of doctor who au, i’m technically still writing for tove

8. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

yes??? but i’m not sure if i could classify it, like i’ll write pretty much anything within reason and if it doesn’t squick me out

9. Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

okay, so like don’t hate me, but no, i rarely, if ever respond to comments, i just don’t know what to say at all, like i’m the type of person that really wants every single message to be unique and special, but there are only so many ways to thank someone for reading your fic, so i just tend to post things and then thank everyone for reading afterwards, if there is someone that shows up often on my notifications, or if someone asks me a specific question pertaining to the story, then i will answer, i also answer back if i wrote the fic for someone and they left a comment, and if i’m sent an ask on here about something that i wrote, but i am simultaneously the world's most shy and confident person ever, when it comes to my writing, so i’m so sorry

this doesnt mean that i dont appreciate every comment that i get because i really do, im just super shy and awkward and i may write good-ish, but i do NOT have the same way with words in person

10. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

not really?? if i have i don’t remember it, usually i’m the one who talks the worse about my own writing

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i know of

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

yes, the only kurtbastian fic i’ve ever written was translated into russian

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

yep!! as y’all probably saw from my top five fics up there somewhere, marlo @bestillmyslashyheart is basically my fic writing soulmate, we just really click when it comes to writing

14. What's your all time favourite ship? to write for?

atm it’s malex, which is more than obvious, BUT before they hijacked my brain and made their home within my neurons, it was skimmons!!! i wrote fic for them for YEARS, even after i stopped watching aos

15. What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?

uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, i’m just gonna talk about fics that i’ve posted and haven’t updated and not any of the hundreds of wips that have never seen the light of day, my original witch au tbh, i just, roswell made maria and isobel somehow related, and just made me really uncomfortable with the ship, which is the main reason that i’m not gonna finish the fic if i’m being perfectly honest, there is ALSO that au i had where michael’s daughter from the future comes back to the past and she had been raised by alex, because of reasons that are petty, probably my space opera au as well, and only because i just want to write other things MORE

16. What are your writing strengths?

i think i’m good at describing things, especially kisses, i LOVE writing kisses, it’s one of my favorite things, that and my fight scenes are two of the things i pride myself the most on

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

dialogue, sometimes i feel the characters are ridiculously out of character, but then i don’t care because sometimes in canon characters are also ridiculously out of characters, also describing things, because sometimes i just feel like scenes don’t flow right, i am definitely a comma whore, and use dashes and hyphens in places they definitely shouldn’t be used, run-on sentences are my best friends, also english isn't my first language, so, sometimes the way i phrase things just come out wrong

18. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

tbh completely honest, i follow the nora sakavic method where you just write the dialogue in english like, “hey there love,” they said in perfect french, and i only break this rule if i actually know the language because just translating straight from english always makes things sound stilted and weird

19. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

dc comics, i wrote several timkon fics which i posted on livejournal

20. What's your favourite fic you've written?

oh, i know that love is all about the wind, how it can hold me up and kill me in the end (still i loved it), no specific reason why, i just love it with my entire heart!!

and that's it!! im not gonna tag anyone cause I saw that most ppl were already tagged, but if you want to do this just say that I tagged you!!

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Winx Timeline/Show Changes Masterpost

PRE-HISTORY

Great Dragon and Shadow Pheonix create the universe

Great Dragon and Shadow Pheonix create life on planets.

Great Dragon and Shadow Pheonix burn themselves out, leave remaining power on Domino. 

STONE/METAL AGE

People develop stone weaponry and are hunter/gatherers. Magic is not used or understood. 

People use small amounts of magic move into metal manipulation and farming societies

NEOMAGIC ERA

People develop magic techniques, cultures with sustained peace have more technology than warring planets.

Magic splits into categories.

Obsidian formed from massive dark spell. Realix also formed as a result of cast of power.

Ancestral witches born. 

Lord Darkar kills to possess the Shadow Flame, is thrown into Obsidian.

Omega Planet becomes deserted due to Obsidian radiation.

First Fairy transformation(Arcadia Clariel of Magix)

MID MAGIC ERA

Lord Darkar Emerges mutated, is defeated and retreats to Obsidian again.

Ancestral Witches begin search for Dragon Flame.

Most planets have a united monarchy now. 

Danix transformation created and Earth unified under Dana. 

LATE MAGIC ERA

Lord Darkar emerges again.

The Wizards of the Black Circle start to gain power. 

Morgana Takes the throne of Tir Nan Og

The Wizards of the Black Circle “vanish” Neverland, including inhabitants.

Ancestral Witches begin to work with Lord Darkar

Acheron begins collecting things into his book.

The Wizards of the Black Circle imprison Tir Nan Og.  

7 Ancestral Fairies create the Mythix Wands and defeat Acheron.

Ancestral Witches create Valtor and begin conquering planets. 

Ancestral Witches put a cruel fairy on the throne of Eraklyon.

Ancestral Witches turn on Lord Darkar, sending him back to Obsidian.

Morgana escapes the imprisonment and searches for other fairies, slowly losing her memories.

MODERN ERA

Erendor Becomes king of Erakylon.

Bloom(+winx+boys+other characters about the same age) is born. 

Seige of Domino: Politea betrays Daphne, Ancestral witches attack Domino. Ancestral Witches defeated by Oritel and Marion and all pulled into Obsidian. Valtor defeated by the company of light. Domino cursed, Oritel and Marion captured, Daphne killed and spirit is tied to Sirenix. Bloom receives Dragon Flame and is sent to Earth.  

PRE SEASON 1 EVENTS

Faragonda becomes headmistress. 

Roxy is born. 

Morgana returns to Tir Nan Og. 

Sky and Diaspro are arranged to be married. 

Flora meets Helia. 

Sky and Thoren are attacked. 

Flora’s mom gets remarried. 

Aisha finds dancing. 

Musa’s mother dies. 

The Trix start their search for the Dragon Flame. 

Stella starts dating Brandon and is expelled from Alfea for reckless endangerment. 

SEASON 1

Stella’s spacecraft gets attacked and crashes on earth. 

Bloom starts to attend Alfea and gains magic winx. 

The Winx club is formed. 

The Trix identify and steal the Dragon Flame from an emotionally vulnerable Bloom. 

Bloom follows Daphne’s spirit to Domino, discovers her past.

 The trix launch an attack on Magix. Bloom and the winx(+red fountain and alfea and cloud tower students) defeat them. 

Trix imprisoned in the Ohm correctional facility for magic users.

NOTE: only Stella and Brandon are dating as of this season. 

BETWEEN SEASON 1 AND 2

Lord Darkar emerges from Obsidian in the chaos of the Trix, sets up underground. 

Begins searching for the codex pieces. 

Lord Darkar kidnaps the pixies. Aisha tracks them down.

Professor Avalon is hired by Alfea for the coming semester.

SEASON 2

Aisha rescues Piff. 

Lord Darkar imprisons the real Professor Avalon. 

Lord Darkar breaks the Trix out of prison. 

That mess in Downland happens. 

Bloom and Sky officially start dating.

Lord Darkar recognizes Bloom’s Dragon Flame. 

The winx escape with the pixies and rescue Brandon from Downland. 

Flora meets Helia again but doesn’t remember him right away. 

Lord Darkar gets the red fountain codex piece, the cloud tower piece, the alfea codex piece and then the Pixie Village Codex piece.

Charmix is earned in the wildlands of Magix. 

Timmy and Tecna start dating.

Flora and Helia are skirting the edge of dating.

Bloom is kidnapped and turned to Dark Bloom. 

Darkar, Dark Bloom, and the Trix enter the Realix, the winx follow. 

Bloom is turned back to herself BY ALL HER FRIENDS NOT JUST A FLIPPIN BOYFRIEND. 

Defeat Darkar with Charmix convergence and he returns to Obsidian.

BETWEEN SEASON 2 AND 3

The trix escape from the realix through soul convergence(witch thing) and are sentenced to Omega.

Radius and Casandra start dating and become engaged. 

SEASON 3

Valtor is released and attacks Andros, Aisha returns to deal with it. 

Valtor manipulates Casandra and Chimera, leeches off of Radius’s core/connection to the second sun. 

Bloom and Valtor’s dragon fires resonate. 

Aisha and the girls go to Andros 

Aisha loses her sight, but regains it through Enchantix. 

Valtor manipulates Diaspro, now specifically targeting Bloom. 

Stella earns Enchantix by saving her father. 

Valtor takes Cloud tower and attacks Alfea. 

Musa earns Enchantix by saving Galatea. 

Faragonda is turned into a tree.

Winx go to Lynphea and Flora earns her Enchantix.

Flora and Helia start dating.

Fargonda is healed. 

Omega portal on Andros unstable, Tecna closes it and earns Enchantix. 

Bloom goes to Pyros and forces Enchantix, she cannot miniaturize or use fairy dust. 

Nabu shows up. 

Winx minus Bloom get the water stars. 

Valtor gives the Trix Disenchantix. 

Valtor is defeated by Bloom punching through the ancestral’s magic and taking back the dragon flame spark in him. He is re-imprisoned on Omega.

Nabu and Aisha start not-not dating(aka they go out and spend a lot of time one-on-one but aren’t calling it dating).

BETWEEN SEASON 3 AND SOTLK

Bloom begins her search for her parents.

Locates Hagan.

SECRET OF THE LOST KINGDOM

Girls find Hagan, who made the sword Oritel wields(it’s also connected directly to Marion’s core magic which is how she like, “possess” it). 

Winx minus Bloom graduate from Alfea. 

Bloom is sad on earth but less time is spent on that than in the movie lol. 

Bloom talks with Daphne in her dreams again 

Daphne has spent the last two seasons searching for the lingering connection to their parents and has managed to re-ignite it. 

This triggers the witchs’ spirits in Obsidian and they pull Mandragora out of stasis and send her out to find the source. 

Bloom turns 21, party, group leaves for Domino. 

The whole Roc thing is unnecessary but Musa is my fave so it stays. 

Library 

Book of Fate is a book of collected Prophecies from Magic users of Domino. 

Riven is stung by Mandragora’s insect and a sleeper spell is placed on him(can’t be detected unless active). 

They don’t go to pixie village as they can literally just go to Obsidian without a random key. 

The sleeper spell in Riven is activated, trying to keep everybody out of Obsidian but being familiar with mind control he manages to resist it enough to send the girls through to obsidian before he loses control. 

Musa stays behind, protecting the boys from Mandragora while they talk Riven back to himself. 

Musa is still injured but by Mandragora, Riven latches on to this long enough to deck Mandragora and remove her hold on him. 

The rest of the Winx push through the horrors of Obsidian and find their way to a small patch of stability where the ancestrals have tied their spirits. 

The girls are drained, and eventually only Bloom is left standing because of the dragon flame. 

Daphne manages to conjure her own spirit and “possesses” Bloom’s body, they take the sword and are able to stab the objects the ancestral witches’ spirits are tied to, defeating them for the time being(they’ve been in Obsidian long enough to have mutated into something more than spirits tho). 

Look I’m sorry I love Sky but he doesn’t save the day, the prophecy about the king with out a crown was translated from ancient Dominian and “king” was a gender neutral term and actually refers to DAPHNE. WHO IS THE RIGHTFUL RULER OF DOMINO WITH HER PARENTS OUT OF THE PICTURE. 

Together Bloom and Daphne pull their people back onto the planet and heal a small portion of it(the planet continues to recover as people populate the areas again) 

Bloom’s enchantix is complete now. 

The ancestral witches’ leave obsidian as part of the pull, and are drawn to the trix because of their blood connection

MAGICAL ADVENTURE 

 yes it takes place before season 4. 

Bloom and her parents re-establish Domino and begin to rebuild. 

Sky goes to help, and asks to begin courting Bloom, who misinterprets this as a marriage proposal and she’s not happy about it like in the film, ok like she is happy but is also like “UMMM. I HAVE A LOT GOING ON RN IDK ABOUT THIS SKY” but she accepts and the media run with the story. 

Bloom and the Winx return to Alfea as esteemed alumni to welcome the new freshmen. 

Trix attack, and steal the magic compass from the Alfea Vaults.

They find the Tree of Magic in Pixie Village and begin setting up for their spell. 

Sky tells his father about his Courtship with Bloom, who expresses his guilt over Domino(he doesn’t forbid Sky from marrying Bloom because Erendor isn’t an asshole he’s just traumatised lmao). 

Sky and Erendor plan to tell the Domino Royal Family about what happened. 

Oritel is, understandably upset by his friend breaking a promise, and when Sky tries to explain Eraklyan Courtship customs to Bloom, Oritel lashes out and overreacts, banishing both Erendor and Sky from Domino.

Bloom thinks Sky broke up with her, and in classic Bloom fashion runs back to Earth 

She’s joined by the rest of the Winx shortly. 

The Winx go to Eraklyon to figure out whats happening and Erendor tells them about Havram 

the Winx + the boys want to fix the city and figure that would at least help Eraklyon even if Oritel is still upset. 

The trix finally have their spell ready and bind the tree of magic before destroying it 

Binding the greater population’s magic usage through the tree’s connection to them(they leave their own magic intact somehow). 

However, the ancestrals warn them that there’s a secondary source for the tree of life. 

The ancestrals harnessed the Tree of Life’s power originally to threaten Erendor, wrecking the old capital city of Havram with a blast of magic. 

The blast took root in the city and is still there.

The Winx lose their magic on the way to Havram, and start freaking out(Nabu is also freaking out but the rest of the boys are p chill with it since they don’t use magic anyways). 

The Trix and the Winx+ find the sprout at the same time and in the process of defending/evading the trix’s magic, Icy hits the sprout and sends a shockwave through to the original tree, rejuvenating it and releasing the binding spell. 

Oritel shows up after processing his emotions and saves Erendor. 

The Ancestral’s are enraged, and forcibly possess the Trix. 

The winx transform and fight, eventually using a combo of Dragon Flame, Oritel’s sword, and convergence to push the ancestrals out of the trix and finally destroy their spirits for good. 

The trix are sent to prison again. 

Oritel and Erendor apologize to each other and become friends again(brotp 4lyfe yo). 

Sky explains everything to Bloom who fully understands Ereklyan courtship/marriage now and is MUCH more comfortable with the situation. 

Havram is still kind weird and won’t be Eraklyon’s capital, but with the sprout/ancestral magic gone there’s less unstable magic and people can move back or restart their lives there. 

SEASON 4 BEGINNING

Musa and Riven have started dating.

Aisha and Nabu are official.

The winx are invited back to Alfea to speak at a special seminar(they’re not full time teachers but Faragonda proposes the idea to them for the future).  

Wizards of the Black circle finally rejoin Earth after taking a break and detect fairy magic lingering in Gardenia.

Wizards of the Black attack Bloom at Alfea. 

Her dragon flame prevents her magic from being absorbed into the circle. 

Faragonda tells the Winx about Earth’s true history(Bloom didn’t know, but the rest of the winx kinda knew a little)

Bloom insists they go after them to stop them from harming Earth anymore. 

Faragond suggests they go to the Tree of magic to see if there are any allies they could find already on Earth. 

The tree has faded flowers (The imprisoned Earth fairies and Eldora who has hidden herself from magic detection), and a new bud (Roxy). 

The winx aren’t able to find the current location of the magic users so they set up in Gardenia and find jobs through Bloom’s family connections, 

Flora and Stella start making magic trinkets and such on the side to sell online.

WORLD OF WINX SEASON 1

Neverland had been pushed into a warped pocket dimension by the Wizards of the Black Circle when they launched their first attack, and has begun to fall apart and mutate.

 Bella Tinker, the Major Fairy of Dreams, connected to the source of dreams, subconscious mind, and night, on Neverland(sister source to Tir Nan Og’s), is desperate and operating in a complete mental break. 

She begins using her dream abilities to seek out people with weird “talents”(remnants of magic) and pull them into Neverland so they can maybe help her. 

She can’t transfer them through to Neverland physically, but she steals their consciousness, this process turns the person’s magical potential into “dream dust”. 

She eventually leeches enough dream dust from her victims to create a few hourglasses that can allow a Neverlander to manifest in the real dimension for a limited amount of time. 

This makes gathering more dream dust easier as when the person’s consciousness is pulled through to Neverland some of it gets left behind irl. 

The Winx get internships for a talent/human interest show that and they begin searching earth for people that stand out in the hopes it will lead them to the last magic user.

Tecna(in HR and tech) notices that a few of the applicants to the show start to drop off the radar, she does some digging and finds out that all of them have gone into mysterious comas. 

The Winx begin to suspect a magic source of these issues. 

They get Tecna to select Anabelle partially as a ruse because they can actually monitor her in Gardenia. 

Unfortunately Anabelle goes into a coma, the winx are the first to find her, and she is surrounded by a fine golden dust, a figure is collecting the dust before running off. 

The Winx follow, and are very unstable in the pocket dimension. 

They are unable to rescue Anabelle’s consciousness, and when the hourglass runs out of time, they are forced back into the normal dimension. 

This happens a few times. 

Each Winx earns Dreamix by forging a true connection with someone’s “dreams”(Bloom with Annabelle, Tecna with Naoki, Stella with Sophie, Flora with Vincenzo, Musa with Madelyne, Aisha with Silke) 

most of the other events with Bloom and Jim happen same as in canon except Jim is way more sketchy. 

Silke fixes their hourglass and the winx are able to enter Neverland without being unstable. 

They defeat Bella, who retreats to her magical source. 

Jim stays behind to gain power and his crew, and the Earthians are returned to earth with only minor mutations. 

The release of so much potential magical power makes the walls between Neverland and the Magix Dimension much thinner, allowing some of the Neverland inhabitants easier passage to Earth. 

Outsiders however still cannot enter Neverland without suffering mutations and deteriorations(unless they have dreamix or unconscious magic skills). 

SEASON 4: THE REST OF IT

After the WOW show ended the girls need new jobs to pay rent and shit(Stella is on a firm allowance, Bloom’s kingdom is still super broke, and Aisha’s assets are mostly in jewels that don’t translate to earth lmao) 

They’re still hiding their fairy identities. 

Flora uses her nature magic with stuffed animals to create small “living” fairy pets(they’re just plushies being moved around by plant bones and stuff) and the girls start selling them online(like etsy) along with other magic trinkets. 

The other girls also get jobs and they eventually have enough to pay rent on a small shop with a few rooms above it. 

They start a magic shop full time and are selling the plant-plushes full time, offering other services as well. 

Carmen (background character in the show more important in the comics) approaches them at this time to help Tecna manage the website part.

Bloom and Andy reunite and are invited to the Frutti Music Bar. 

Bloom and Roxy start talking and become friends. 

The specialists arrive and find the winx. 

Andy (who is hella gay) and Bloom are fairly affectionate and Sky gets real jealous. 

Musa is talking music with Marc and Rio but Riven is hella insecure and gets irritated as well. 

The wizards show up and they fight over the wrong girl. 

Riven gets a job at the mechanic 

Timmy gets his IT support job 

Helia gets a HORRIBLE haircut and regrets everything. 

The thing with Mitzi happens, Brandon and Stella fight briefly but make up. 

Tecna reports someone downloading a ton of the plant-plushes. 

The girls paint their apartment with Roxy, Andy, Marc, and Rio. 

Sky and Riven become upset again because fragile masculinity.  

The girls finally realize Roxy is the fairy they’re looking for and try to convince her to believe in magic and all. 

Roxy is like “the fuck are yall ON im noping outta here so fast” but also weird shit is happening to her so she’s like “what if?????”. 

The wizards find her and try to force her into the black circle. 

Roxy, scared out of her mind is knocked out of the circle by Bloom, who knows her Dragon flame protects her. 

Roxy runs, Artu leads her to safety and she adopts a cat, she also has a vision of Morgana urging her to trust herself and the fairy girls.

Roxy emerges from hiding and tries to go home, but Artu is replaced by Duman who alerts his fellow wizards. 

The winx, severely beaten, send an emergency call out to the specialists, who show up and manage to keep the wizards away from Roxy for a little while. 

Roxy, cornered and scared, sees what she thought was her dog turn into Duman who grabs her, the real Artu attacks Duman but is knocked to the side. 

Roxy releases Panic Magic forcing Duman back and Bloom rushes in forcing him further away from Roxy. 

Roxy puts her absolute trust into Bloom at that moment and Bloom gains Believix. 

Bloom is able to really deal damage, the winx are refusing to give up, and the specialists are ready to rip them to shreds so the wizards mount a tactical retreat. 

Roxy accepts her heritage. 

Roxy investigates her photo’s looking for clues, finds the farm. 

Winx go to farm followed by wizards. 

Batson is trying to restore the farm to a working level after it had been left abandoned for several years. 

He doesn’t want the winx there, but Flora forms a tentative friendship with him through plant talk. 

The Wizards attack, Batson is protected by Flora. 

The winx send Roxy into the barn to hide, the horses inside are unsettled and she unconsciously uses some of her magic to calm them, alerting the wizards who set fire to the barn and orchard to trap her. 

Batson freaks, and runs into the barn to let the horses out. 

Roxy finds a small trap door in the floor of the barn and opens it, her touch sparks off the white circle which begins glowing and she runs outside, summons birds and insects to attack the wizards who can’t penetrate the shield the white circle is creating and they retreat. 

Batson is about to pass out but Flora comes in and shields him from the flames. 

Batson is in tears, all of his hard work has gone up in flames. 

Flora sits down and talks with him, reminding him that nature is enduring, and seeds that are cared for will always grow. 

Flora can’t do anything about the barn but she does restore Batson’s Orchard, Batson is hopeful and puts his faith in her magic and Flora gains Believix. 

Musa sings with Andy and his band and they all receive a card from Jason Queen. 

Musa starts to spend a lot of time with the band practicing for their auditions. 

Nabu and Helia try to help Riven work through his feelings. 

Sky and Bloom talk and make up. 

Roxy is possessed by Nebula through the white circle and tries to go after the wizards. 

The winx end up fighting Roxy and the girls who are using Enchantix use the fairy dust to remove the effects of the white circle from her. 

The winx start to be local heros in Gardenia. 

Mitzi Sally and Darma are recruited by the wizards early and are used as spies. 

Riven can’t move past his insecurity and lashes out at Musa after her audition. 

Musa decides to break up with him. 

Musa and the band start training with Jason’s company, and the friendships Musa forms with the band only makes the situation with Riven worse. 

The wizards try to capitalize on this by setting a fire in Gardenia while the band is hard core practicing because they’re concerned Jason will drop them. 

Musa uses her singing spells to reach and protect the band who place their faith in her and she’s able to earn believix. 

Aisha is concerned Nabu is withdrawing from her. 

She meets with Cindy(minor character in the show bigger in the comics) who is interested in working at the shop. 

The girls hire her but Cindy’s (abusive) boyfriend Gregory is hanging around the store causing issues. 

Aisha tells him to leave but he gets angry and pulls Cindy out with him, Aisha chases after them. 

She interferes before Gregory can hurt Cindy and just fucking decks him(because Aisha). 

Cindy breaks up with Gregory and spends the night with the winx. 

Aisha confides in Cindy about her worries about Nabu, but Cindy assures her Nabu sounds wonderful.

 Aisha encourages Cindy and tells her she deserves someone better than Gregory. 

The wizards of the black circle try to capitalize on the situation again and they grant Gregory power. 

The shop is attacked and Aisha protects Cindy. 

When Gregory corners them, Aisha tells Cindy to run, but Cindy has had a little boost in her self esteem and wants to protect her new friend. 

She displays a small burst of magic, which distracts Gregory.

 Cindy puts her faith in Aisha and she earns Believix. 

Nabu proposes and all is well. 

Roxy is kidnapped and transforms for the first time in front of her dad(he remains aware of their fairy activity the whole time). 

That weird fight at the train station happens. 

Weird thing with the tiger cub doesn’t happen. 

Mitzi Sally and Darma are tired of being minions and try to leave the wizards, who don’t take that kindly and force them to start attacking people(Mitzi might be a bitch but she’s not evil). 

The other girls take on Sally and Darma, who don’t have a lot of animosity towards them anyways.  

But Mitzi, in her controlled state, is just projecting all her rage and jealousy onto Stella. 

Stella manages to relate and empathize with Mitzi’s need to be liked and removes the Wizard’s spell with her enchantix dust. 

Mitzi trusts Stella to catch her as she falls and Stella earns Believix. 

Tecna hides the white circle in the shop’s computer. 

Carmen accidentally activates the same program and is transported to the virtual world. 

The wizards transport themselves in as well, and go after Carmen assuming she knows something. 

Tecna receives an alert from an alarm in the shop that the magic signatures of the wizards were registered. 

They rush back and are planning to pull the white circle then lock the virtual world to trap the wizards but Tecna realizes Carmen is inside too. 

Tecna volunteers to go get her and the white circle while the rest of the group delay the wizards. 

Tecna grabs the circle and finds Carmen and explains vaguely what’s going on. 

Carmen, who is not stupid and has realized the programs and technology that Tecna uses could not possibly be from earth, demands the truth. 

Tecna is about to comply when Ogron shows up. 

Tecna says she can’t explain now but she will later, and hands Carmen the white circle and tells her to run. 

Carmen doesn’t completely know what's going on but despite this she puts her entire faith in Tecna, believing she has complete control over the virtual world and will fix everything. 

Tecna gains Believix and subdues Ogron. She goes after Carmen and the wizards and the rest of the winx show up at the same time. 

The coding Tecna used can’t handle the volatile magical energy in one space and begins to corrupt, Tecna realizes they’re out of time and just transports them all out before the file becomes irreparable. 

In the shop with the specialists and Roxy potentially using the white circle the Wizards flee. 

Riven makes some steps towards being a better person. 

The girls form a band(Musa lead vocals+guitar, Aisha drums, Tecna on Synth, Flora on keys, Stella on a weird harp thing occasionally but mostly stage outfits and contacts, Bloom manages the schedule and does all the graphic design). 

The girls go to Tir Nan Og, unlock the Earth fairies. 

Morgana wants Roxy to join them and continually pesters her telepathically.

The winx’s believix aren’t able to match the Earth Fairies using Danix. 

Faragonda contacts the Ethereal Fairies and they deign to intercede. 

The earth fairies begin to systematically remove all of the binds the wizards placed on the natural sources of Earth, releasing ambient magic back into earth and greatly diminishing the wizard’s magical reserves.

Diana also attacks major cities, turning them into urban jungles, this is the most present threat to humanity so the winx tackle her first. 

Bloom and Tecna use Sophix to defeat Diana and rejuvenate her source, Diana joins them. 

The wizards approach the winx in surrender and are taken to Sybilla. 

Aurora begins to slowly freeze the Earth over, demanding the Wizards be given to them. 

Stella and Musa use Amorix to function in the cold. 

Bloom fights Nebula. 

They return to Sybilla. 

Morgana, convinced by Roxy, accepts the Wizard’s surrender and promises a fair trial and sentencing. 

The Winx minus Flora and the Wizards minus Duman travel to Tir Nan Og. 

Flora returns with the Specialists and Duman to Gardenia, she tries to heal him, but his magic is too unstable and the whole fight thing happens 

Duman is killed, but he mentioned something about the wizards’ schemes before he died, leading Flora to accept Aterix, and pull him back to life. 

She compels him to to tell them all what the plan is and then they all rush off to Tir Nan Og. 

Morgana has put on the black circle ring, it self destructs and turns into a magical black hole(like a tiny obsidian). 

Nabu, as the only practiced male magic user, absorbs all the magic in the vortex, he is unfortunately unable to expel the magic fast enough causing his core to break and Nabu dies. 

Aisha is understandably distraught, and uses Aterix, trying to get him back. 

In the commotion the Wizards manage to grab Duman, and Flora after they realize they’re connected and escape to Omega. 

As things die down Nebula holds her whole rebellion and traps Morgana in the Mirror, and the Winx realize Flora is missing. 

Aisha is trying to interact with Nabu, and is in denial about his state of suffering so she defaults to anger and joins Nebula in hunting the Wizards down. 

Meanwhile, the wizards have managed to force Flora to de-transform, leaving Duman in his resurrected state. 

Roxy is able to sense Morgana through their telepathic(and familial) connection and frees Morgana finally being revealed as her daughter.

Morgana is weakened and promises to care for Nabu, and they pursue the fairies and the Wizards to Omega to rescue Flora and talk Aisha down from murder. 

Flora(mistakenly) isn’t considered a threat by the wizards so they just kind of leave her to freeze, not realizing she has put a special pollen on them that acts as a slow poison. 

Flora is found by the winx and they manage to talk Nebula and Aisha down. 

The wizards attempt to run again but Flora’s poison has left them dissorinted, powerless, and unable to escape being frozen for eternity(including Duman) by the ice snake thing. 

Roxy pulls Nebula with them, being able to connect with her after feeling her rage and pain during the brief possession. 

Aisha, still in Aterix, returns with a clearer head, and recognizes she can’t leave him Nabu in a constant state of suffering, so she removes the Aterix spell from Nabu and returns him to his natural state. 

Aisha takes Nabu’s body back to Andros. 

Morgana appoints Nebula, Diana, Aurora, and Sybilla as joint regents and tutors until Roxy has been sufficiently trained to take the throne(Roxy privately thinks this is a big yikes). 

The winx decide to stay and help Earth adjust to magic and continue their band, but leave the Love and Magic store to Carmen and Cindy.  

WORLD OF WINX SEASON 2

The whole thing with Venomya is about the same except for the fairy reveal so I’m not gonna mention it. 

Wendy Darling was Bella Tinker’s wife, their son was Peter Pan(and the rest of the Lost Boys). 

Wendy was a non-magic user outside of Neverland when it vanished, and in trying to rescue Bella and the boys, Wendy pushed her untrained magic too far and the blow back caused her to short circuit and slowly lose her memories and distort what was left of her magic(similar to Morgana). 

She did manage to somehow pull Peter out, with serious memory loss and he was in a coma for decades. 

Wendy looked after him the whole time, moving them around to avoid suspicion. 

When Peter woke up he and Wendy created lives for themselves but are haunted by the feeling that something is WRONG. 

Wendy is currently using the alias Matilda or “mattie” and has disappeared, Peter has no memory of Neverland or magic but keeps his name and is studying art at the school in Paris. 

Jim likes the power he has on the Isolated Neverland, and wants to permanently get rid of Bella so he can have the place to himself but knows he’s not powerful enough. 

He starts attacking natives of the island, and blaming Bella (who is technically still in power but has retreated to her source). 

The inhabitants of Neverland begin to reach out to the winx, who are starting to gather some fame world wide as fairies and a band. 

The winx enter Neverland, and Jim tells them his version of what’s happening, then tells them about Bella’s past and that maybe her family could be hostages could talk some sense into her. 

The winx agree, and leave to visit Morgana to see if she knows anything about Wendy.  

Morgana tells them she found Wendy immediately after she managed to pull Peter out but none of her other family members. 

Morgana offered to take Wendy and Peter to Tir Nan Og, but Wendy rejects her offer and leaves, saying she’s going to protect her son on her own. 

Morgana doesn’t know what happened to them after that as she set Tir Nan Og up as a sanctuary and was then imprisoned. 

Bella forms Vertigo. 

The Winx try to search for Peter, using variations of Peter Tinker and Peter Darling. 

Tecna gets a hit on a Peter Darling but the information is in a census from the 1600’s in London so the girls head out there to get a look at the actual paper to see if there is any more information. 

They find a short message written by a suspicious authority figure next to the name noting that Peter Darling moved to Paris to live with his “Aunt” shortly after the census despite not registering any family members. 

Vertigo has been wearing Bloom down the whole trip and attacks/is defeated. 

Bloom’s Dreamix seems to start evolving/mutating after this. 

The girls move on to France, to find the aunt. 

Banshee begins to layer whispers into Musa’s music, leading her to become jumpy and irritable. 

Jim gets a message out to the girls that he and his crew are being attacked(in reality Jim has trapped the alligator man and provoked the Crocodile man and is getting the Winx to take care of his own mess).  

In France Musa breaks off from the group trying to get some alone time to cure her bad mood. 

Musa ends up in Notre Dame drawn to a choir practice, she starts talking with a stranger there who is sketching the architecture and people, she compliments his work and they begin a light conversation before he stands and says he has to go as he’s late for a night class. 

Musa sees that his notebook has Peter Darling and a school name written on the corner but the choir becomes sharply off key and distorted, Musa grimaces in pain and he leaves before she can say anything. 

Musa tries to go after him but every sound she hears is distorted and painful, she tries to call the other girls but only leaves a short message before Banshee launches one of her screams at her. 

After the girls take care of the alligator and crocodile man Aisha hears from Tressa about some weird readings concerning the ocean gate. 

Aisha says it's possible the gate had been used but the guardian would know, Tressa says the guardian hasn’t reported anything. 

Aisha asks Jim if Neverland has any merfolk trapped on the island. 

He says they did, but they disappeared recently. 

Musa defeats Banshee, Her Dreamix also starts to change. 

Bloom and Stella welcome the others back and hear about the mermaids disappearing and Peter being in Paris at some school. 

Aisha is concerned about the mermaids as Neverland could have mutated them badly, so they prioritize that, following the trail of magic the merms have left behind.

 Fountain thing, then to pool party. 

Stella confronts them but is triggered and has a panic attack as the merms manipulate the crowd into laughing at her. 

Aisha quickly gets a message to Alligator and Crocodile to scare the crowd off, leaving the merms to flee, eventually they are caught/saved and believe the winx are trying to help them, Aisha sends them to Andros to get them physical help and merfolk community. 

The winx focus on finding Matt and Stella suggests they start with the Fashion school where they already have contacts. 

Some of the winx go to Neverland to help the pirates. 

Stella is still fragile and helps people around the school trying to get her confidence back but she and Aisha get into a fight which just makes Stella feel worse. 

Stella visits Nadine and Sophie and hears about Matt, but the lights in the room go out and Nadine and Sophie suddenly start to ridicule Stella and then ignore her, like she’s invisible. 

Stella rushes out to try to find Aisha and Tecna but it seems like no one can even see her. 

Aisha and Tecna find Stella crying in an empty class room and try to get her to calm down when Obscura attacks. 

Stella defeats Obscura, and her Dreamix starts to change. 

Peter is kidnapped.

Flora rescues the Pirates with the help of the nature on the island and they all return to help track down Peter and his kidnapper. 

Peter is rescued and tells them he has no idea where his mother(wendy) is, as she disappeared almost 30 years ago, only leaving him a small wooden puzzle. 

Peter takes them to his apartment to let Tecna analyze the puzzle, where the winx see that he has been painting the same woman over and over again. 

Stella asks if he’s in love with her. 

Peter laughs and says no, explaining he doesn’t know why he keeps painting her but feels like she’s important. 

The winx explain everything about Neverland and his mother and try to use magic to help him memory return, Peter quickly becomes distraught and confused, his memory and the truth are fighting in his brain. 

Peter lashes out with a small wave of magic. 

It hits the puzzle Tecna is messing with and unlocks it. 

Peter quiets and picks up the piece of paper from inside the puzzle. 

Peter reads the paper aloud and is pulled through a portal. 

Peter flashes to several locations, the spell fizzles and he’s in Neverland. 

Bella sees him and almost recognizes him, Peter sees her and tries to call out before being pulled back into the portal. 

He’s finally dropped into a ravine with a small shack a few yards away.  

Bella is confused, angry, and terribly sad, but can’t remember why. 

She redirects her emotions into creating another Nemesis and names it Petra. 

Peter approaches the shack as he’s surprised by his kidnapper, the kidnapper triggers some kind of trap, creating a rock/tree monster and he flees with Peter. 

The winx try using their spells to find him individually but the trail of magic left by the spell is all over the place.

Flora decides to focus on the wooden puzzle, tracing its origin and how it was formed. 

Her spell finds that the magic that created the puzzle is currently active, and it reacts with her spell, pulling her through the same portal until she materializes next to the rock/tree monster chasing Peter and the kidnapper. 

Flora disassembles the rock/tree monster, and trips the kidnapper as he tries to flee breaking his amulet. 

Peter tells Flora about the shack, but before they can investigate Petra attacks. 

Flora defeats Petra and Stella appears having used the ring of solaria to teleport her to Flora, they return to Paris before anything else can attack them. 

Flora’s Dreamix begins to change. 

Aisha is suspicious of Peter, claiming he knew about the puzzle and was trying to run away from them. 

Peter says it was an accident and he knows nothing about magic. 

Aisha decides to train him magically so he isn’t a danger to the rest of the group. 

She has zero mercy on him during their first training, and Peter calls her an Iron Maiden. 

Bella takes this and creates Metalica, based on every harsh, impatient part of Aisha. 

The girls think maybe Jim should train Peter, and see if they can get him an audience with the queen to explain everything. 

In Neverland, Jim reminds the girls he doesn’t use magic, only magic items (a lie) and suggests they try to find the witch, Tiger Lily. 

Tiger Lily says Peter will never have proper control of his magic unless he finds his memories, which were absorbed into his Compass when he was pulled out of Neverland. 

Peter claims he lost that compass when he was pulled out but Tiger Lily gives them an image of it she found through scrying. 

After the group returns to Earth, Aisha demands they all go to towns closest to where Neverland used to be to look in antique shops for the compass even though everyone is tired and Tecna is trying to find the thing online. 

They try most of the day but are exhausted and Aisha claims she’ll look on her own. 

Metallica shows up, and Aisha attacks her. Metallica seems to be destroyed and Aisha reports her success to the rest of the winx. 

Metallica shows up again but is defeated this time and Aisha’s Dreamix begins to change. 

Flora reminds the Winx about the Shack in the ravine, and they go there, 

Tecna doesn’t let anyone go past the boundary line until her spell detection has finished, and places green footprints on the ground, instructing the winx not to step outside of them. 

Peter does but nothing happens. 

They get into the shack and find Wendy. 

Wendy is not in a good place mentally or physically because of her magic blow back, but the winx are able to heal some of it and greatly ease her suffering. 

Peter asks Wendy about his compass, Wendy isn’t super coherent but she sold it to someone after “the horrible thing” happened and it was while Peter was still “sleeping”. 

Tecna decides to narrow her search to auction houses, but her tech is glitching out, she blames it on the location and says she’ll try again later. 

They eventually find a record of a compass being sold to a Sebastian Park in London just a few years ago. 

Tecna has been having sparks, overloads, and error messages galore and is starting to lose it a little as they make their way to Sebastian's Estate. 

Sebastian isn’t taking any offers on his pieces right now but is happy to show admirers his collection. 

The winx get trapped inside due to electrical malfunction, and Virus finally reveals herself, infecting the rest of the winx, and attacks Tecna. 

Tecna defeats her and her dreamix begins to change. 

Sebastian is a good dude and gives the Compass to Peter and the girls as an apology. 

Peter regains his memories and his magic is immediately less troubled. 

They return to Neverland, with Wendy who stays with Tiger Lily, and join forces to beat Bella’s Nightmare back. 

Peter and Bella meet again, and Peter finally recognizes his mom. 

Bella breaks down, her memories and magic still all jumbled, but she stops fighting, the winx explain that with Bella’s help they can probably restore Neverland to Earth. 

Jim, seizing his opportunity, takes Wendy captive, proclaims himself king, and demands the winx leave Neverland as it is. 

The other inhabitants side with Jim, rejecting Bella’s truce and not knowing he caused most of their problems. 

Bella doesn’t remember her but knows Wendy is important and surrenders, she’s caged in the lagoon. 

Peter wants to fight Jim and get his moms back. 

He has to flee into the forest as the winx are forced out of Neverland. 

Peter rescues Bella, but faces off with Jim. 

The winx convince the pirates, alligator, crocodile, and tiger lily that Jim is the traitor. 

Peter, aided by Bella, rescues Wendy. 

Jim flees and corrupts the source of Neverland, trying to hurt Bella. 

Smee finally stands up and pushes Jim into the corrupted source, killing him and removing his magic from Neverland.

Neverland is restored, along with Wendy and Bella’s memories.   

BETWEEN SEASON 4 AND 5

Roxy applies to Alfea. 

Sky gets the Heart of Eraklyon. 

The trix are Imprisoned for underwater crimes of an unknown nature(???).

SEASON 5

the wishes basically don’t exist. 

Tritannus attacks at the coronation, gets thrown in prison. 

Oil leak. 

Sky loses the pendant. 

Winx can’t stay underwater long enough to get all the oil. 

Oil mixes with a wild magic source flowing up from the ocean floor, gains semi-consciousness(plant or algae like) and begins pursuing a stronger magical signature; the ocean gate. 

Phylla tries to stop it but the viscous nature of oil and the magical properties it gained make it very resistant. 

Flows through, Tritannus absorbs it, and the tangential wild magic from earth mutate him into Monster!Tritannus. 

Sky is being distant and superstitious about the pendant. 

Tritannus removes the binds on the Trix’s magic, steals Phylla and Lemmy’s magic, and heads to earth with trix + mutants. 

Winx fight them but are having trouble underwater, Aisha recognizes her cousin. 

Winx go to Alfea with Roxy, Krystal is introduced, the Winx ask Faragonda about water powers. 

Faragonda tells Bloom about Sirenix, but advises she talk to Daphne first. 

Daphne is hesitant but tells Bloom about the Elementix Compendium, a book she hid in the Alfea archives, but she refuses to help them find it.

Winx start to look for it, Trix attack, Sky gets amnesia. Krystal tries to heal him, can’t. 

Timmy and Tecna are trying to organize the archives to find the Elementix Compendium, Trix curse Tecna’s phone and she turns into a robot. 

Tecna is un-cursed and finds the Elementix Compendium. 

Tritannus begins to hunt for Daphne. 

The Trix head to earth to grab more power, the winx follow to protect Gardenia and Diana(major fairy of nature) warns them a special flower is about to bloom there. 

Trix and Winx chase the lilo/Macy over gardenia, Flora saves Macy and regains confidence, Trix get powered up. 

Winx can’t open the Elementix Compendium, Faragonda explains Harmonix=befriend one each of the elemental companions and tells them to go to Graynor(on planet Magix) to speak with an Ethereal who might be able to help them earn Harmonix quickly. 

Find creature of the rainbow mantle=cheat code to Harmonix. 

The winx earn Harmonix, open the Elementix Compendium, where they can kick start each of the quests(usually the quests are started by the elemental companions). 

They start the sirenix quest= get a pearl(each girl needs a pearl this is not a group project). 

There’s a pearl on almost every planet with a riddle for finding each, the girls decide to go for the ones on their home planets, the Elementix Compendium has the riddles for some but not all. 

Search for shimmering shells, Aisha bonds with Lemmy. 

Aisha gets Pearl of Self Confidence. 

Head to Royal depths, Stella bonds with Illirus. 

Fight at toxic waste dump Sky gains a little memory back. 

Stella gets Pearl of Chance. 

Riddle for Melody’s pearl, go to melody, Musa gets turned into mutant seal, bonds with Sonna and reverts. 

Musa gets Pearl of Ingenuity. 

Tritannus captures Daphne. 

Tecna solves Zenith riddle, data bridge castle, bond with Lithia, get Pearl of Empathy.  

The Christmas episode doesn’t happen its dumb. 

Tritannus is torturing Daphne and send the trix to threaten Bloom.

Riddle for Lynphea, Flora bonds with Desiryee, gets Pearl of Compassion. 

They head to Domino, Bloom bonds with Serena, gets Pearl of Courage. 

Phylla found the heart of eraklyon a while back and has been passing it around the selkies, Desiryee has it and shows it to Flora.

Tritannus sends the Trix to attack Domino, Icy freezes Marion and Oritel, Daphne breaks and promises to tell them everything in exchange for her parent’s lives. 

Bloom and Co. return and send the Trix packing before they can shatter Marion. 

Sky regains his memory and proposes to Bloom with the Heart of Eraklyon. 

Sky warns Bloom about Daphne.

Faragonda tells the Winx where the Source of Sirenix is(because she already KNOWS why wouldn’t she just tell them). 

So they head there as Tritannus + Trix are doing the same thing. 

Tritannus “steals” the Source, fights with the selkies and Bloom but escapes. 

Winx heal the source of Sirenix, pearls are accepted and the girls get Sirenix. 

Tritannus, with the stolen selkie powers, rips Daphne’s Sirenix from her, splitting it between the Trix. 

Tritannus and Co. enter the Infinite Ocean. 

The Ocean’s Center(emperor's throne) needs three crests from the Pillars to be activated. 

Tritannus steals the Pillar of Light’s crest, winx come to fight him, icy takes a hit for Tritannus. 

Aisha has King Neptune’s Sword. 

Pillar of light is fixed by Stella’s sirenix Spell and a group convergence. 

Nereus and Tressa are rescued from the mutation spell. 

Diaspro is appointed prince regent liaison, she is still bitter towards Bloom, but takes her job seriously only acting on Erendor’s orders. 

Daphne warns Stormy and Darcy abt activating the Ocean’s Center. 

Daphne contacts Bloom via dream abt the Alfea Wellscape, get “map” of infinite ocean. 

Garbage island on Earth is cleaned up. 

Tritannus sets the Devourer on the selkies, winx beat it. 

Royal assembly happens but the alliance ultimately fails. 

Musa suspects Riven is cheating on her. 

Tritannus takes the Crest of Balance 

Stormy and Darcy control the Singing Whales. 

Musa frees them with her Sirenix Spell. 

Tritannus activates the Crest and needs to refuel, Stormy and Darcy plan to double cross him. 

The Pillar of Balance is fixed. 

Daphne tells Bloom to destroy the Crest of Control before Tritannus can get it. 

Winx destroy it and stabilize the Pillar, Tecna uses her Sirenix Spell.

 Timmy and Tecna go on a date. 

Flora feels insecure about Helia and Krystal.

Tecna + winx go to Zenith to talk to King Cryos. 

Tritannus is enraged without the crest and begins to attack and pollute the Pillar of Control. 

Technology on Zenith goes haywire, Tecna rescues King Cryos and convinces him to join the alliance. 

The selkies restore the damage to the Pillar and Tritannus leaves. 

Stormy and Darcy leave Icy and Tritannus. 

Daphne tells Bloom what’s going on. 

Riven surprises Musa with a song. 

Stella talks to her parents about how their fighting is affecting her. 

The magix dimension alliance is finally agreed to. 

Diaspro asks to be removed from Prince Regent Liaison as its negatively affecting her. 

Flora finds and uses the Breath of the Ocean and her sirenix spell. 

Roy and Aisha bond. 

Krystal apologizes to Flora and Helia reassures her of his love. 

Tritannus attacks Politea’s cave, the winx show up with Nereus, Tressa, and selkies to fight. 

Nereus is hurt but healed by Aisha’s sirenix spell. 

Tritannus steals Politea’s sirenix and the ancestral witches’ magic that was in her and escapes to activate the Ocean’s Center. 

Tritannus uses his trident to channel the power of the Ocean’s Center and goes magic mad.

 Icy is rescued by Stormy and Darcy. 

Bloom destroys Tritannus’ trident with her sirenix spell. 

Daphne’s physical body is restored by a winx sirenix convergence and Sirenix is returned to normal. 

BETWEEN SEASON 5 AND 6

Mystery of the abyss happens just before the finale of season 5 but I honestly don’t care enough about this movie to detail it.

SEASON 6

Daphne is having issues with being physical again, Faragonda suggests to have her join Alfea Staff as a way to help her gain confidence and purpose again. 

Selina passes the cloud town entrance exam. 

Trix return and are powerful enough to be categorized as enchantresses, use soul convergence to over power Griffin and turn her into a crow. 

Selina joins them somewhat reluctantly and uses a story from the legendarium to make the school fly. 

Winx visit Lynphea with the specialists, meet Nex and Thoren. 

Cloud Tower is attacking Lynphea college, Winx find the source of the flying spell, try to attack, but the legendarium just absorbs their magic and binds their cores and they’re knocked back. 

Bloom has to hastily spread her power to her friends or else they’ll die without their core magic. 

Her dragon fire re-ignites the other girls’ cores and they continue to try to rescue the students at Lynphea College but are forced to retreat to Alfea. 

Cloud tower stays over Lynphea college. 

Flora sets out on her own to save Miele, and her core metabolizes the dragon flame as she pushes to help her younger sister, spontaneously transforming into Bloomix. 

Bloom goes to Domino to help with the coronation and recoup.  

Selina sends a swarm of basilisks after the Winx at Alfea 

Stella and Aisha use water and light to reflect all the Basilisk's stone gazes, effectively saving all of Alfea (roxy manages to find a rooster because roxy and keeps herself and her dorm-mates safe individually), pushing their cores far enough to metabolize the dragon flame and earning Bloomix. 

Faragonda, Daphne, Stella, Aisha, and Flora stay to defend Alfea, but Musa gets an emergency message from Galatea at the Royal Auditorium and convinces Tecna to come with her to help. 

The pandemonium sprites are wreaking havoc on the entire school, and Musa starts to loose it after a while because of her sensitive hearing. 

Tecna quickly analyses the school and finds the primo spot for sound to carry and calms Musa down long enough for her to start singing. 

Tecna pushes the pandemonium sprites back to let musa sing as much as she can, Musa pushes through her panic and the chaotic noise to send and layer her own song into a harmony that destroys the sprites. 

their cores metabolizes the dragon flame and they achieve Bloomix.

Diaspro is attending Daphne’s coronation as part of the Eraklyon Royal Party. 

Thoren is friendly with Diaspro, which makes Sky a little suspicious of him. 

Bloom is a little delirious from magic fatigue and is starting to panic when the Trix attack. 

The winx+Daphne+boys are handling the trix and legendarium creatures. 

Diaspro tries to calm a panicking Bloom, but she doesn’t trust her and runs off deeper into the Domino Castle. 

Disapro grabs Thoren, the only person who hasn’t had a bad experience with her in the past few years, and convinces him to help her find Bloom and take her to the lowest level of the castle. 

Sky and Daphne see them with an unconscious Bloom and freak tf out. 

Thoren hesitates to throw Bloom into the vortex as Sky and Daphne are yelling at him, but Diaspro knocks Bloom out of his arms, falling into the flames herself as well. 

Bloom’s magic is regenerated by the flames and Diaspro evolves into Enchantix. 

They both fly out and Diaspro explains that she did her homework before attending the Coronation, and knew she had to get Bloom to the vortex after recognizing the advanced symptoms of magic fatigue in Bloom. 

Sky apologizes to Thoren and Diaspro and Daphne thanks them for helping Bloom. 

Bloom and Diaspro come to a mutual respect and try to be on better terms in the future. 

The Winx return to Alfea to ask Faragonda about the creatures and power of the Legendarium, but Faragonda only knows its a powerful book from Earth and suggests they look for the Lost Library of Alexandria. 

Daphne uses this as a teaching opportunity with some of her students and comes with the winx, not knowing three of them have been possessed by the Trix. 

The winx find the library, mummies attack, defeat the mummy, have to deal with the Sphinx, Selina is threatened by Acheron and she enters the crumbling library to steal the Diary. 

Bloom finds her and is really confused. 

Selina lashes out and they fight for a little before Selina drops the diary and Bloom grabs it before escaping the library.  

Diary leads them to China, meet Lu Wei who tells them a little about Faragonda’s favorite flower. 

The Trix possessed students cause problems back at Alfea, and Selina shows up, lying to Bloom that the Trix captured her and forced her to do things. 

Bloom shows Selina around, Flora is attacked in the greenhouse while Selina is distracting Bloom, almost poison her, but Roxy breaks the spell on Griffin who reveals Selina and the possessed students. 

Bloom feels guilty and betrayed and goes to rest on Earth, trying to figure out what happened with Selina. 

Is looking at childhood keepsakes and realizes the field they used to play in is full of the flower they’re looking for. 

Lockette followed Bloom to earth and Selina sends the vampires after the pixie and Bloom 

Bloom sends Lockette back to Alfea through one of her portals to get the Winx while she leads the vamps on a chase. 

The winx teleport to Earth using the Ring of Solaria, and help Bloom escape the vamps for a short while. 

Bloom tells them what she remembered, but they can’t lead the vamps to Eldora and sunrise is still long off. 

Stella gets distracted by the Fashion show while the rest of the group is figuring out what to do. 

Winx are captured. 

Stella dusts the vampires, rescues the girls, and shows in the fashion event. 

In the morning they go to Eldora’s cottage. 

The trix follow and attack, but Selina is hesitant to attack her mentor even with Acheron berating her. 

She summons the easiest to defeat ghosts in the book as a compromise. 

Eldora agrees to help with Selina and the legendarium, but says she can’t do much with out her Mythix wand which holds her Core Magic. 

The Winx go to Tir Nan Og to ask if Nebula knows anything about the wands. 

Since being freed the Major fairies sensed and found each of the wands trying to find their old friends, Eldora can immediately use hers. 

The trix use a soul convergence and an item from the Legendarium to attack the Winx, and Selina uses the cover to try and steal a spark of Bloom’s dragon fire. 

The winx defeat the Trix and the wands react to the  presence of the legendarium, each choosing one of the winx. 

Each time the Legendarium absorbs a magical presence it leaves an anchor in the location, so the Winx go to Calavera to enter the Legendarium World through the anchor point there looking for the Emerald Eyes which are an item instrumental in forming the Legendarium and should help seal it. 

Trix enter after them, Selina sets the Pirates on Calavera, Winx pull the eyes from the book and defeat the pirates irl. 

Next is the Silver Quill, Winx+boys+Eldora head up to Fearwood to enter the Legendarium from that anchor point. 

Selina applies the Snow Queen persona to Icy, and the werewolf curse to the people of Fearwood. 

Icy kidnaps Helia, Flora rescues him while the rest of the winx fight off the wolves. 

The winx remove the legendarium spell from the people and rest a little before trying to enter the Legendarium world again. 

Helia is harsh, cold and aggressive, and Daphne uncovers a frozen shard in his heart left there after Icy threw him into the legendarium world. 

Icy shows up to attack again, and freezes the townsfolk, the winx are trying to get everyone to safety but Flora goes right for Icy, she’s knocked down but uses her Bloomix to melt a portion of the forest and get it to fight with her, defeating Icy and all her active spells. 

The sliver of ice in Helia’s heart had the Silver Quill in it. 

They combine the eyes and the quill, and only need one more item for the legendarium key. 

The golden scroll was hidden in the story of the Labyrinith. 

Stella is called back to Solaria before they have a chance to get it, and Darcy curses Stella’s Crown and Mirror. 

Stella shakes off the mind control with the help of her friends, and goes after Darcy who has retreated to Earth, trying to prevent them from getting the scroll. 

Stella defeats Darcy and gets the scroll. 

Legendarium key is formed, Trix cloak the tower and Legendarium signature. 

Winx go to Zenith to get some tech. 

Selina summons frankenstein’s monster who kidnaps Tecna, Stormy attempts to block Tecna from leaving the legendarium. 

Musa and some students have been working on a musical protection spell and are almost ready to put it in place, when Selina sends the Sea Witch to steal Musa’s voice. 

Selina places the voice in Rumplestiltskin’s collection but the Winx track and find the anchor point, agreeing to trade the legendarium key for Musa’s voice for a short time.  

Musa and her students put the protection spell in place at Alfea. 

Not being able to do anything against the new protection spell, the existence of the legendarium key, and about to be discovered by tecna’s gizmo, Acheron pushes Selina to duel Bloom, in order to get the spark of dragon flame. 

Selina also releases three major fairies from earth as a distraction. 

Acheron is released, betrays Selina and the Trix. 

Eldora has found the infinity box, and traps Acheron in it. 

The winx deal with the fall out from Acheron, while Eldora trades Acheron for the Legendarium Key. 

Eldora gives a damaged Selina the key and forgives her for everything she did. 

Selina locks the Legendarium, makes up with Bloom, and returns to earth with Eldora. 

Thoren and Daphne don’t get married but come out as an official item.  

BETWEEN SEASON 6 AND 7

Faragonda asks Roxy to help form the educational side of the Alfea Natural Park. Alfea Natural Park prepares to open to the public.

SEASON 7

Winx are invited to visit the Park pre-opening, Kalshara in bird form comes and kidnaps the last digmole. 

Faragonda recognizes Kalshara and tells the winx+roxy how they were classmates in the past and that she had something to do with the digmole’s disappearances in the past. 

The winx earn Chronix, Roxy receives a Stone of Memories tied to Bloom, which allows her to follow the winx into the past with out earning Chronix herself. 

The winx go back in time and eventually resort to taking all the digmoles before Kalshara can get to them, bringing them to the present. 

They also discovered Kalshara’s goal is to control all wild magic and is trying to find the manifestation of the fairy animal’s source, said to be a fairy animal itself. 

The digmoles, through Roxy, are able to tell the girls about the source and that some fairy animal types are given a riddle when they’re formed, and pass the riddle of the creature with the first color of the universe on to them. 

The winx try to find it in the park, Brafilius steals Roxy’s stone of memories. 

The winx go to the past to find the cry cries, Brafilius follows them. 

Aisha bonds with Squonk and transforms into Faunix when the girls return to the present with Squonk who has revealed the cry cry is not the animal the girls are looking for. 

Roxy has been keeping an eye out for where Brafilius and Kalshara might target next. 

The girls go to Lynphea where Kalshara has manipulated a natural source into a wild one, the winx aren’t able to reverse it but they do get all the magiwolves out of the area, Flora bonds with Amarok and obtains Faunix. 

The winx go back in time again with Brafilius following them, to see if the Quillcat is the fairy animal’s manifested source. 

Musa bonds with Critty and obtains Faunix.

Brafilius fails to get to critty so Kalshara kidnaps the cat.

 The winx find Kalshara and Brafilius and free the rest of the fairy animals, 

Stella bonds with Shiny.

Roxy learns the sumatran tigers are in danger and defeats the poachers herself, starting a campaign against poaching on earth. 

Brafilius and Kalshara head to Zenith to capture a techuirrel, thinking they’ve been around long enough to be the animal the riddle was talking about. 

The winx follow, Tecna repairs Zenith’s core as much as she can and bonds with Flitter.

The girls are noticing that while Faunix gives them the ability to withstand wild magic and defend against it, they can’t fix much if the source is wild magic. 

Faragonda starts to prepare them all for earning Tynix. 

Roxy’s animal telegram system reports a threat to a panda sanctuary on Earth. 

Roxy heads to earth to deal with it and Bloom tags along in-case it’s Kalshara(and because she feels useless). 

Bloom bonds with Elas and in Faunix is able to defend against his over-done exposure to wild magic long enough for him to become stable again(fairy animals aren’t immune to wild magic and if exposed again after first forming can suffer consequences). 

The girls form their Fractix bracelets. 

Roxy gets animal messages about Kalshara and Brafilius threatening dragons on Pyros. 

Kalshara has damaged the source of natural magic on Pyros, turning it Wild, she demands to know the winx’s information or she’ll destroy the source completely. 

The winx can’t defeat her in Faunix but Kalshara leaves after wrecking the source. 

The winx then have to transform into Fractix for the first time to fix the source’s flow of wild/natural magic. 

Brafilius pulls the same stunt in Paradise Bay hoping to please his crazy sister.

Kalshara and Brafilius head to the Graynor ruins, figuring the creature of the Rainbow Mantle(from season 5) has every color on it, and its powerful enough to be the fairy animal source’s physical form. 

The winx follow, and use their Fractix powers in combination with the Creature of the Rainbow Mantle and are finally able to actually defeat Kalshara in a head-to-head battle. 

Kalshara wrecks a few sources on earth and send Brafilius to annoy them while she buys them more time to find the fairy animal source. 

Kalshara finally finds a connection to Wild Magic in the Ying Yang Diamond. 

In doing so, She accidentally frees the Trix from an eternal slumber spell placed on them by Acheron, Kalshara has enough fairy animals held captive again that the Trix each find one their core resonates with. 

The trix take advantage of this, transform into Faunix, and steal the diamond from Kalshara.  

The winx bring Faragonda her bonded Digmole back. 

The trix show up at Alfea to take revenge on the winx, using the diamond to corrupt the heart of Alfea. 

The Winx are able to fix it by going back in time with chronix for information and they defeat the Trix with Faunix. 

Kalshara shows up with Brafilius. 

Brafilius gets his hands on the diamond which reacts badly to the mismash of wild magic in his body and and it drags him to Swan Cave which is thought to just be a normal cave on Magix. 

The Winx and Kalshara follow him, and have a brief not-quite-alliance to get Brafilius out from under the diamond’s control. 

But Kalshara seizes it from him and uses it in combination with her wild magic, summoning the Fairy Animal Source to her.

All of the winx’s fairy animals (plus a couple other) appear in the cave and merge together, forming a monstrosity that looks something not NOT swan like. 

The Infinity Swan, as Bloom nicely dubs it(every one else calls it the infinity THING), smites Kalshara, informs the winx it should not be formed again, consumes the Ying Yang Diamond and bursts into its separate animal components. 

Later when discussing it, the winx discover each of them saw the infinity thing as a different color (and the riddle was functionally useless as color is all subjective tecna informs them) but agree the infinity thing was a being never intended to exist and that the ethereals probably separated it the first time it formed. 

Brafilius stays with the fairy animals in Swan Cave for a while, while Roxy and Flora work on finding a cure for him. 

[apollodankaciyorum]

if its okay can i ask you a question about turkey/people from turkey, its the term 'racializated' used there? its something uhm that is taked into consideration there? let me explain you, im from argentina, my mom is a black brazilian women and my dad just like i dont know 70% of my class is what people from usa for example call 'brown' latinos, like dilan for example of skam es, i and many poc people call those people instead of 'brown', 'racializated' many of them feel and me included tbh+ 1/

+feel the term is not really correct or many friends feel uncomfortable with it so they rated 'racializated', im not sure if you speak spanish there is this person @/haluami they is a indigenous person who wrote very good texts about this topic there is one about racializated people, and basically society put you down because of your skin color, traits, and / or ethnicity, so i can't help but wonder if thats the case of yousef, but im not turkish so i understand concepts change+ 2/

+depends on the country, culture, etc i understand all of that, so i have a lot of doubts because i dont want to break the privacy of course of the actor of yousef but i wonder if the character 'take' stuff about him or if they are statments in the show itself, i dont know, the poc term itself have some stuff people agree or not, its all a very complicated situation i still believe the show treatment to non-white males is bad i dont know but i will hear and see others opinion the 'white washing'

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well first of all, I want to say that I’m not an expert on these issues, but I also think that I can answer your questions to some extent, at least I will try my best. and I hope I don’t offend anyone, please call me out if I do so (that’s for my fellow citizens of turkey) so here I go: (sorry it turned out to be so long)

1- I haven’t heard the term “racialization” before, so I looked it up and I realized that I know what that is, just I wasn't familiar with its name. From what I get, it means ascribing stereotypes on people about their races. So if that’s what you mean, then sure, we have this in turkey unfortunately. but i’m not an expert on sociology and other sciences regarding this topic, so any other Turkish person could heard this term, just not me.

2- Turkey is an ethnically rich country, I don't know if you know the historical developments but this is the shortest way to address this, we have a lot of different cultures here, but not as much as the times before the WW1. Nowadays, there are Turkish, Kurdish, Armenian, a small amount of Rum (orthodox christians whose descendants are from the Byzantine Empire), Laz (similarly their descendants are from the Pontus Rum Empire which was located in the northern region of Turkey, but they are mostly Turkish nationalist muslims rn) people and other small communities of different cultures. well I'm rambling lol :))))

3-well some of these people accept these “racialized” prejudices when they are not offensive (from what I get at least) for example some of Laz people accept that most of the Laz people have some familiar facial features or some Kurdish people joke about how their uncle/aunt is younger than them due to their family structure etc. but mostly this racialization occurs in an offensive way like calling Kurdish people terrorists (bc of PKK, a Kurdish (terrorist) military group -- this is a way too controversial topic, so I won’t be mentioning this again, I don’t want to talk about this, sorry) or denying Armenian Genocide (again, this is a controversial topic too and interestingly recent although this issue regards the events during and after WW1) so to answer your question, yes there is racialization in turkey.

4- about yousef: well I watched sana season on February 2019 so I can’t remember all the details about him being from Turkey. I just remember he went to Turkey at the end of the season and I kinda remember that he wasn’t a muslim although his family practiced Islam, but I’m not so sure so I’ll just assume I remember correctly. 

5- Yousef isn’t a man of color. there are darker skinned Turkish people for sure but having a lighter skinned Turkish actor to play a Turkish character is NOT white washing. because there are lighter skinned Turkish people too. I don’t really know what comes to mind when you (I mean non-Turkish people) think about a Turkish person, but from my perspective, I can’t really draw an average Turkish person for you. there are caucasian looking Turkish people, there are mongloid looking Turkish people, heck there are afro-Turkish people too. So, yep Yousef is not white-washed. He’s not even white. AND I certainly call that he’s too white to be considered as moc. but I’m not an expert, just an ordinary Turkish woman. 

6- Most recently, Turkish youth tend to leave practicing Islam and instead become atheist or deist or agnostic. I can guess why, though I’m not sure if I should say it but you can search it from google, pretty sure you can find the answer :) So, Yousef being an atheist/not Muslim is a really good rep for Turkish youth bc I’m sure that most people assume Turkish people are %99.9 faithful muslims.

7- However, I can assure you that Yousef does not reflect any racialization happening in Turkey. I wouldn’t want a Norwegian internet show talking about these issues too, but I would really like if Druck (German SKAM) dwelled upon these issues since there is a big Turkish community (I’m talking about a near million in number, maybe more) and there are huge issues of/regarding Turkish people that could be reflected in national tv, and I would like to see a more politically active/woke Turkish character (in a Jonas sense) in Druck (because since 2012-2013, the amounts of politically active youth is increasing more than ever, bc what’s happening rn in Turkey -again, you can just take a look in Turkish news- ) but assuming from the appearance of Ismail Inci (new gen Druck character) this is not the case, one can only hope for deeper (by deep, I mean not just this goofy guy who only talks about kebab or girls or Turkish/German rap) Turkish characters though :(

8- I don’t know much about the actor but he sounded fluent in Norwegian so I can assume that 1) he was born in Norway or 2) they moved to Norway when he was younger. and from that, I can guess that he’s not familiar to racialization as much as a Turkish person living in Turkey and that could be the huge reason why Julie and the crew didn’t give Yousef a chance to dwell upon these. 

9- and I know I told you this, but if someone else tries to read this whole thing, Yousef is not the Turkish version of the name, it’s Yusuf (both u’s are read staccato) and I don’t know why his name is Yousef instead of Yusuf.  

wow, I didn’t expect this to be a giant, but I hope I answered your questions. and I’m not a Spanish speaker (although I want to learn but my only source is Duolingo bc I'm broke) I won’t be able to follow your blog recommendation. I’m really sorry for taking this long and writing this long. Thanks for seeking knowledge about us though, it’s not something I usually encounter with and it felt validating and good. So thank you too! Have a nice day (or night? it’s nighttime here)

[ghost-of-box-five]

Thanks for the tag @1taliart-stargayce

1. What do you prefer to be called name-wise?

Ale, just what everyone calls me in real life tbh

2. When is your birthday?

November 22nd, so like last week...ish kind of?

3. Where do you live?

I happen to live in the land of ‘damn I wish my heater worked properly now that it’s getting cold’, also known as Spain

4. Three things you are doing right now?

So I’m preparing to go out and by a new sketchbook cause I’m running out of pages on my practice one, I’m also doing this and also thinking about the stickers I’ll print to add to the cover.

5. Four fandoms that you have piqued your interest?

This is gonna be fun cause they  have so little in common

-Transformers: From a young age I’ve loved them robots in disguise, I still love them but I’m not active in the fandom and it’s been a while since last time I drew my ocs or any fanart for that matter, but! I do read the comics and rewatch my fave shows from time to time.

-Wakfu: but in a very weird way as in I started playing the game after rewatching the show and then got too invested in the characters I created there and made a whole story on them, and like recently they’ve announced season four and suddenly I’m having the urge to draw my characters again.

-Phantom of the Opera: From a young age, just like Transformers, young me watched the 2004 film cried a lot and I’ve been a fan of PotO ever since, I was so excited when they streamed the 25th anniversary recording that I got really into it again...

-But then CATS happened! as in I liked Cats before but never got into the fandom or too into it, then the movie came, watched the 1998 version too and here we are now! 

6. How has the pandemic been treating you?

Thanfully not too badly!

7. A song you can’t stop listening to right now?

So, cannot name any specific song cause my brain does this thing where it will only allow me to listen to one soundtrack on loop over and over again rahter than one single song. so currently? Hairspray and Cats, the Japanese cast recording of it

8. Recommend a movie

Oh boy, I haven’t watched one in a while actually, so I don’t have any recommendations for you

9. How old are you?

Turned 21 last week...ish

10. School, university, occupation, other?

University, and it’s a ✨struggle✨

11. Do you prefer heat or cold?

Cold, I cannot deal with the heat at all. Cannot sleep at all during the summers, cannot go out without the sun burning me to a crisp, and always am stuck babysitting younger relatives at the pool so not that fun either.

12. Name one fact that others may not know about you?

So I’m extremely shy when meeting others and so appear to be very quiet, but I actually was born with very loud speakers attached to me, but they only work properly when I know you (@/my irl friends and probably online ones i send voice messages to too I’m so sorry about being so loud )

13. Are you shy?

Extremely so, it’s yet another struggle

14. Preferred pronouns?

I go by she/her 

15. Biggest pet peeves?

When people touch my things without permission, even more so when they’ve been explicitly told not to do so. It really does get on my nerves.

16. What’s your favourite “-dere” type?

I don’t have a favourite really. Or like I haven’t thought abour this question until this very moment so I don’t have an answer yet

17. Rate your life from 1 to 10?

A solid 6

18. What’s your main blog?

Had another one but rn would say this one!

19. List your side blogs and what they’re used for.

None! but I’m so tempted to do one for Cats either just to post my Cats stuff or maybe an rp blog for my ocs or maybe both? I’m not sure (but the Cats sideblog is a real possibility tbh)

20. Is there something people need to know about you before becoming friends?

I don’t think there is anything you’d need to know? other than maybe if you wanna chat or something just drop a message, I struggle with starting conversations cause I’m awkward as fuck a first, bu soon enough you’ll be having to deal with me sending you doodles at random moments of the day or showing you weird things I found while walking outside.

and Oh! If you message me and I don’t reply...message me again, chances are I was doing something or somehow I thought so hard about my own reply that I actually tricked myself into believing I’ve actually replied :’D

Now for the tags, not anyone in mind rn so if you see this and want to do it, here you go! I’m tagging you!

[maddiesup]

Tag game!

I was tagged by @ohbabycupcakes thank u💖

RULES: Name 10 favorite characters from 10 different things then tag 10 people + leave comments on all of them

This is gonna be hard, where do I even start?

1) Keith (Voltron: Legendary Defender)

Okay I'm- trying not to laugh too hard because oh boy, this show was a complete mess. BUT Keith still stays as one of my favorite characters ever just because no matter how badly I was hurt by vld he'll always be precious to me 💖 He's hotheaded, cool and a lone wolf, but needs affection more than anyone else on the team. He's easy for me to relate to as I am more likely to push someone away than to keep them close just to avoid being hurt as well. His development is amazing tho and I love love him so much 😭 also it might be just that I have a soft spot for emo characters lmao

2) Todoroki Shoto (Boku no Hero Academia)

This just reinforces my statement earlier since Todoroki is pretty emo too :') But in a different way than Keith. If you are a part of bnha fandom you know he's generally a little bit overrated, but I couldn't help falling in love with him at first sight anyway lol His backstory is tragic but he keeps pursuing his dream and damn is he good at it. Also the combo of fire and ice is aesthetic goals. However, what I admire the most about Shoto is probably his loyalty to his friends, his will to fight and sometimes his goofy attitude (even if he probably isn't aware that he's being goofy lol) In conclusion: I love him, let's move on.

3) Uenoyama Ritsuka (Given)

Can I just stop to say how much I love given for a moment? Like I've never seen a bl anime/manga that would portray gay characters so respectfully 😭❤️ Ue is basically me gay panicking, I feel the boy so much :') OH also what's up with gays & guitars bc first given, then why r u and now also 2gether :') (I might be falling in love with this trope help) okay so: Ue is panicking when he starts liking Mafuyu but he handles it so well in a way? He doesn't deny his crush even if he is slow to notice it lol He's straightforward and sometimes a little bit rough around the edges, but even if he's supposed to be "the cool guy" we see him in the most hilarious settings and that just makes me love him all the more 💖 he respects Mafuyu and his boundaries and I want more of that in bl anime please

4) Eiji & Ash (Banana Fish)

Uhhhh this anime,,, I CANNOT choose between Ash and Eiji, I'm gonna forever see them as a pair and that's simply it. Ash is another emo one I would like to say that but he's actually not. He's backstory is heartbreaking and the life he has to live is dangerous and scary. He gets used to this reality where he has no one to rely on and no one to trust but then Eiji appears tearing his walls down and making him finally be able to show his soft and sensitive side to someone. Eiji is like a salve for his wounds and yes, I'm still emotional about it bc their relationship is one of the best developped I've ever seen. Their bond is so strong it's beautiful, they would literally die for each other. It's so apparent that they love each other and care for each other so much (don't mind me crying in the corner)

5) Percy Jackson (Percy Jackson & the Olympians)

PJ technically got me into fantasy/sci-fi in elementary school and it stays at the top of my favorite book series list ever (big props to Uncle Rick 👏) The whole series is funny and I would say pretty light-hearted even tho you know,,, Percy saves the world several times, lol, usual demigod things™. He's lovable. Son of Poseidon so he has seaweeds instead of a brain (or so you thought, he is brilliant at strategic planning and has a charisma to be a great leader), has a very good sense of humor, is loyal and would risk everything for his friends. Also he loves his girlfriend very much and I was crying while reading the House of Hades but no one needed to know that oh well. I'm also gonna mention Nico de Angelo here, since he fell in love with Percy (didn't we all tho) and was the first gay character I saw portrayed in the book and oh do I love him 😭💖

6) 707 (Mystic Messenger)

Was I losing sleep over this game? I was. Do I regret anything? Absolutely not. I think my choices are pretty boring tho, since Seven is literally everyone's favorite but oh boy there's a reason for that. Apart from being a talented hacker who knows too much (and I think is cautious of us the most at the start) he has a lovely happy-go-lucky personality composed of all the lame jokes, questions "have you eaten already" and anxiety (another emo one). He's that type of a character who will always try to make you laugh but you never know what's going on inside his head. He's mysterious and we don't get to know him well till his route so pretty much till the end of the game lol. Also he loves his brother, phd pepper, honey buddha chips and Elizabeth 3rd the most in this entire world and I love him for that

7) Evan Hansen (Dear Evan Hansen)

ANOTHER EMO ONE okay but hear me out Evan has social anxiety and its portrayal is almost too real for me. He makes a big oopsie which at the start seems like a little innocent lie but then snowballs to enormous sizes. He gains everything in this bargain, a best (dead) friend, a caring mother, a father, a girlfriend even - and then everything falls apart since it all is built on one fat lie. He makes a lot of mistakes and then some more but you get it and you feel for him, and you cry with him and you're happy for him. And when all of this is over you're glad that he's still there trying his best, taking it one day at a time. And sidenote: Ben Platt's voice is angelic and I love him as Evan 💖💖💖

8) Isak (SKAM)

Another gay panicking one. I'm starting to realize there's a set of traits that I particularly like in fictional characters lol But ye, when I was watching skam ofc it was the third season which gripped me the most and kept me on the edge, bc yet again Isak taking an "are you gay" test was way too real for me. He makes a lot of mistakes along the way of figuring out his sexuality and sometimes stuff with Evan becomes really messy (for both of them) but he stays with him nevertheless ❤️ Skam is literally so good in its portrayal of the characters :') Anyways: alt er love 💖

9) Viktor & Yuuri (Yuri on Ice)

Em, another one that I absolutely can't break up to just one bc how could I? Yuri on ice got me into skating ❤️ I went to an ice rink for the first time bc of this anime and I almost died but now look at me actually finishing my first three months of ice skating training and watching real life figure skating competitions :') Little did I know then. But they're not only my favourites bc of that, I genuinely love the development of their relationship from fan - idol through skater - couch to lovers and history makers in the end. I love how Yuuri is a ball of insecurities and how Viktor manages to reassure him. I love how Viktor fell in love with drunk Yuuri clinging to him. I love how at first Yuuri wasn't able to get too close to Viktor without getting flustered and it changes so drastically to them basically always holding onto each other. I love how Viktor was stuck with no inspiration but then Yuuri came and turned his world upside down. I love how they support and respect each other. I could probably go on into eternity like that and Yuri on ice isn't even the best anime I've ever seen but it's certainly my favourite one ❤️

10) Tutor (WHY R U)

I can't believe I'm so obsessed with thai dramas rn and I'm only gonna include Tor on this list smh He's mental attitude inspires me. He's able to hold so much and appears totally unfazed even if he's barely holding on inside. He's hardworking and doesn't want others to pity him since he can manage it all just fine. He has a kind heart, he's a wonderful friend (especially to Hwa, he always listens to her, gives her pieces of advise, supports her and tries to cheer her up). He never forgets to say thank you when he genuinely feels grateful. But as we've seen he also is passionate and when he loves he LOVES. Also he's the biggest tease to Fighter and I love him for that :') I am so satisfied just by seeing him happy, please do not change that whyru gods 🙏

As it appears I'm done .-. I have no idea what have just happened and if my rambling even makes sense but not that I care at this point. If you read this far, please drink some water now, that was a lot of reading to go through ❤️

Tagging: @wir-ro, @saecookie and any other 8 people who might want to ksks (im too tired to tag lmao)

Don't be like me and go to bed at reasonable hours despite this whole quarantine thing .-. thank again Doreen for tagging since it was really fun 🥺❤️

[existentialvoidofexistence]

50 questions tag

Tagged by @inevitable-anna

1) what colour is your hairbrush? I have a black comb that i use sometimes, but I rarely brush my hair unless I’m washing it bc it goes frizzy and I’m very lucky to never get knots

2) name a food you never eat. Anything with soy sauce

3) are you usually too hot or too cold? Both, sometimes at the same time

4) what were you doing 45 minutes ago? Sleeping I think

5) what’s your favourite candy bar? Cadburies fruit & nut

6) have you ever been to a professional sports game? Yeah it sucked i hate football, but the local basketball team is pretty cool

7) what’s the last thing you said out loud? Yelling “love you too” down the stairs to my dad as I got ready for bed I think

8) what’s your favourite ice cream? Not a big fan of ice cream but either a 99 or ben & jerries phish food

9) what was the last thing you had to drink? Excluding water bc that’s boring it would have been slightly flat irn bru

10) do you like your wallet? Idk I don’t particularly have strong feelings about my wallet it’s okay I guess

11) what was the last thing you ate? Pizza I think

12) did you buy any new clothes this weekend? No but I bought this case.

13) what’s the last sporting event you watched? Bold of you to assume I would willingly watch sports

14) what’s your favourite flavour of popcorn? Salt is the only acceptable flavour

15) who was the last person you texted? I’m assuming sc messages count so the gc with my sister and my ex-gf-turned-best-friend

16) ever been camping? Many times I love it

17) do you take vitamins? Not particularly i do occasionally though

18) do you go to church every Sunday? Im not Christian so no

19) do you have a tan? Only on my arms

20) do you prefer chinese or pizza? Pizza, but like proper homemade/restaurant pizza not shitty takeaway pizza. If ur getting a takeaway get curry or fish and chips they’re the best.

21) do you drink pop with a straw? If they give me a straw yeah but i wont go out of my way to get one

22) what colour socks do you usually wear? i only replaced my school socks last week so probably still white

23) do you drive over the speed limit? I don’t have a full license yet so I don’t drive

24) what terrifies you? Dead bugs and also Adolphus Huxley’s A Brave New World. And lowkey moomins.

25) look to the left what do you see? Cheese

~~~ several weeks later ~~

26) what chore do you hate the most? So long as my brother also has to do chores I’m not fussed

27) what do you think when you hear an Australian accent? Ongoing genocide and systematic oppression of the indigenous peoples

28) what’s your favourite kind of pop? Irn bru

29) fast food or drive in? Neither i can make much better food myself thanks

30) what’s your favourite number? 11

31) who’s the last person you talked to? My mum

32) favourite cut of beef? Mince but u gotta season it with nutmeg and stock and either worcestershire sause or paprika and cumin and be at least 50% carrot or ur doing it wrong

33) last song you listened to? What If Tomorrow Comes (I finally watched Black Friday with my sister)

34) last book you read? The Wide Awake Princess by E.D. Baker (shhhh i loved it as a kid)

35) Can you say the alphabet backwards? lol nah

36) favourite day of the week? Thursday bc it’s D&D day

37) how do you like your coffee? In tiramisu

38) favourite pair of shoes? My comfy red boots, my black low-heeled combat boots, or my nice tan sandals, depending on my outfit and the occasion

39) what time do you usually wake up? 9:30-10:30

40) sunrise or sunset? Sunrise

41) how many blankets are on your bed? One and a duvet but its too hot for either rn

42) describe your kitchen plates. Old and white

43) describe your kitchen at the moment. Smells nice

44) do you have a favourite alcoholic drink? Probably some kind of cocktail but I haven’t been to a restaurant or pub since turning 18 bc lockdown so my opinions are currently limited to “beer and wine/champagne/prosecco suck” and “vodka and cider are ok I guess”

45) do you play cards? You’re not really on holiday unless you play cards at least every other day

46) what colour is your car? Don’t have one but the family one’s grey

47) can you change a tyre? I’ve never even seen anyone change a tyre

48) favourite state/country/provence? Almería! We used to go to a lil town called Huercál and it was great. Especially the restaurant/bar thing just out of town, it was run by a guy called Eneth and there was a big-ass open fire at the end of the room where he cooked everything, and also a bunch of dogs and birds - if ur in the area go see if it’s still there for me 💚

49) favourite job you’ve ever had? The week i spent working at the children’s trust charity in the accounting department (it was work experience dw im not useless enough to get fired after a week)

50) how did you get your biggest scar? idk which is biggest probably the one from where i whacked my head on the shutter of an ice cream stall and had to get it glued back together

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(Obviously theres no obligation to fo it its rlly long but like... I love y’all and im interested)

[dudeboyyyy]

1, 7, 8, 13, 15, 18, 23, 25, 30, 32, 37, 39, 40. Hope that isn't too much :D

1: what’s your favorite way to dress?

I absolutely LOVE button ups. Specifically wearing an open button up with a tank top underneath tucked into high waisted jeans or shorts. If I had like 10 different button ups I would just cycle through them and never wear anything else dksmkdks

7: what song is your aesthetic?

There’s a lot of songs that could fit this, but I really like Green by cavetown. It gives me soft love song vibes, and the song is about just wanting the best for the person you love; wanting them to be happy, even if it means they aren’t with you. I really like that message, and a big part of my personality is helping other people. Also I can play it on guitar and it’s rlly fun :)

8: what color do you think goes best with your personality?

Definitely lavender. It’s soft but bright, like me. In middle school everyone knew me for wearing lavender a lot and having a lavender backpack dksmslsl

13: talk about an au or a story you came up with

Okay, I have only written one fic, and I’m actually not great at coming up with aus/headcanons, so I only really have like two to talk about. I came up with a dancer!suki au, where the Kyoshi Warriors are a dance troupe. Aang and katara bring Sokka with them to go watch one of their recitals, and sokka gets all cocky like “I could do that that’s not that difficult” etc (keep in mind this is season one Sokka, it’s like a parallel to when he was being sexist in the first ep with Suki) and Suki hears him saying this so she’s like “lmao alright let’s see it then” and she forces him to go to the studio early the next morning. They have kind of a dance-off (oof cringey ik djdkkd sorry) and Suki absolutely destroys him. I think that’s as far as I got (I wrote it out, if you wanna see it tell me cuz I’ll post it if u want👀) but I also mentioned that Azula mai and ty lee are in a rival dance troupe and mai and ty lee eventually leave to join Suki’s. Anyway

15: do you prefer space or the ocean?

BFKDKDK THE OCEAN. ok this is also cringe but I have always loved and felt connected to the ocean. I THRIVE when I’m there, and when I’m there with friends? HOO boy. I am at my HAPPIEST. The ocean really is my happy place, when I go to college I’d love to go somewhere off the CA coast near San Francisco.

18: what animal would you keep as a pet, if you could?

I have one puppy rn, and I love her with all my heart, but I have always wanted a cat. I’d love to have a cat. Also a fire ferret like pabu would be fun hahafkdkxksljx

23: do you like soft, fluffy blankets or rough/smooth blankets?

Hmmmm ok depends

If I’m getting cuddly like on the couch or something, or just chilling, soft and fluffy and super heavy. But if I’m going to sleep, definitely smooth like my down comforter. Either way tho I LOVE heavy blankets. It’s because I’m touch starved

25:what country’s history do you find the most interesting?

Tbh I don’t really like history djnzksn sorry. I like Europe’s history tho, especially like historical clothing and art.

30: what instrument do you wish you could master?

PIANO. I so desperately wish I could just sit down and learn piano in one sitting. It’s SO helpful for vocals, too, because then I know how to read sheet music, and I can play vocal  warmups and find harmonies, it would be great.

32: do you have any strange interests?

Umm I don’t think so? I mean idrk what you would consider strange lmao. I’m a theatre kid? I guess that’s strange 😂 I also really like analyzing media and looking for symbolism etc, that’s why I can never shut up during a movie 😅

37: what do you listen to music on?

Idk if this is referring to the platform I listen on or the actual device so I’ll give both. I listen on Musicana (shh it’s a bootleg YouTube premium) and with my AirPods. (I’m rich I know djdkkd)

39: earbuds or headphones?

Earbuds :)

40: do you like light blankets or heavy blankets?

Haha I already answered this, but heavy blankets all the wayyyyy. It’s because I’m touch starved and lonely

Tysm for the ask! Sorry it took me a bit to get to, just been busy with school and all and that was a lot of questions 😅 it’s great tho I needed a distraction rn :) 💕